#did laura lee pray for it

[slightly-ethereal]

they made a grave for his leg thats so fucking funny

[rabesbabe]

Silver Soul

Jackie Taylor x Fem!Reader

part one part two ➴ part three

A/N: Hii thanks for the love on part one ! This is part two and i’ll probably make one more part after this <3

Summary: Jackie starts sending you mixed signals and you struggle to keep up with her. (shitty description ik shh)

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Students fill the classroom groggily walking over to their desks. You and Taissa always talk in homeroom and today you wanted to get her advice on Jackie.

“Do you even know if she’s gay?” Taissa asks.

You look down at your book bag. “Well no, I mean she didn’t even know I was.”

Taissa laughs. “Yeah she’s definitely straight. A blind person would know you were gay just based off your voice.” She says, poking fun at you.

“You’re the worst.” You joke back to Taissa.

“But seriously, the hardest part of it all is that before last week she barely crossed my mind and now, I can’t stop thinking about her.” You sigh.

Just as Taissa was about to add on to the conversation, you feel a weight on your desk in front of you.

At the front of your desk stood Jackie, flashing her gorgeous smile.

“Good morning!” She said in her normal chirpy voice. Taissa looks between you and her puzzled. “Who are you guys talking about?” Jackie asks, having overhead a little bit of you guys conversation.

You look at Taissa silently pleading for her to help you. You were the worst at lying and Taissa could win a medal in it if she wanted to.

“No one that interesting.” Taissa says, lying. “You’re so dressed up today Jackie.” She adds on, attempting to change the subject

Jackie was wearing a skirt with a plaid pattern on it. Her pink sweater was tucked into the skirt and Taissa was right she did seem to be more dressed up than usual.

“Yeah you are,” You add. “You look good though.” You say as you look Jackie up and down checking out her outfit.

She smiles at your words and a deep blush spreads across her face.

“Thank you, You look good too.” She reaches over to you and lightly runs her fingers through your hair for a second. Backing away she says, “You always look good though.” She moves off your desk and winks at you before walking away leaving you a flustered mess.

You turn your gaze to Taissa who’s just looking at you with a knowing eyebrow.

“I’m not crazy right?” You say. “She’s flirting with me?”

“No, definitely not crazy.” Taissa laughs out.

The rest of the day was a blur you tried to avoid Jackie knowing you’d just embarrass yourself if she spoke to you. It was easy to avoid her in the classes you shared and in the halls. But, at practice it would be more of a challenge.

-⚽️-

You were dreading practice all day today. Usually, it was a place for you to clear your mind. But the one reason your mind wasn’t clear just happened to be there.

Before practice, you were walking out of the locker room with Nat laughing at some dumb joke she made about Randy Walsh. She had started talking to him recently and couldn’t stop making jokes about how much of a weirdo he was. Which happens to be exactly her type.

Watching you laugh at Natalie’s jokes, Jackie glares at Nat from across the field. She couldn’t help but wonder if you and Nat were a thing. Ever since what you told her yesterday she was curious. You guys were always together and you seemed to think whatever she was saying was the funniest thing in the world. She didnt know why she cared so much but she did.

During practice the team had a scrimmage against each other. Jackie formed the teams and of course she put you on her team. You were already nervous about being next to her on the field after almost knocking her out about a week ago. All you could do was pray it would be fine.

-⚽️-

The end of the scrimmage was nearing. The teams were tied 2-2. Whoever scored next would win.

Van, who was on your team, stole the ball from Shauna and ran towards Lottie to pass the ball to her. Lottie missed the ball and at the last second you ran in-front of Laura lee who almost caught it. You maneuvered the ball away from her causing her to trip. You ran downfield towards the goal and took the shot. And shockingly enough, you made it.

When the ball went in Coach Ben blew his whistle and yelled, “Game! Jackie’s team: Wins.”

Jackie ran over to you and basically tackled you into a hug.

“Jesus Y/N! How the hell did you make that shot?” Still in her arms she looked at you smiling.

You smiled back at her, her hair was stuck to her face from sweat and she was slightly flushed from running. But, she still looked pretty as ever. It was almost annoying that she could still look so beautiful after a full practice.

“To be honest I didn’t think I would.” You say, laughing.

Jackie pulls away from you but leaves her arm around your shoulders. You both walk over to get water.

“I’m glad I put you on my team today.” She giggles out.

You nod, “Me too.”

-⚽️-

After practice, while changing in the locker room you were talking to Nat, as usual, about tonight. There was a Halloween party and you and Nat were trying to pick out your outfits.

“Maybe I could be like a pirate or something?” You say, lacing up your shoes.

“That’s pretty cute actually.” Nat agrees. “And on brand, you steal people’s shit in real life too.”

Rolling your eyes you interject, “That was one time, and I was twelve.”

“Are you guys going to the party together?” You hear a voice behind you say. Turning around you see Jackie’s hazel eyes looking between you and Nat questioningly.

“Uh yeah, I guess” Nat says nonchalantly. “I mean I’m driving her there. I always do though.” She explains.

“Oh, okay I’ll see you guys there then.” Jackie says, sounding a little bit disappointed.

As she walks away you notice her look back at you and she gives you a tiny smile before disappearing behind the wall to the way outside.

“Did she sound upset or was it just me?” You question turning to look at Nat.

Nat just shrugged. “Maybe she wanted to go with you. She has been oddly close to you recently. I mean the way she hugged you after you scored on a Scrimmage? C’mon man.” Nat explained, enunciating the word scrimmage.

Your face contorts with confusion at Nats words. Did Jackie really like you? She couldn’t right? I mean you guys had just started to become friends like a week ago after what happened at practice. Maybe you were just overthinking everything and Jackie was like this with everyone.

She was naturally charming and you were probably just reading over everything wrong.

You drove home from practice that day and didn’t stop for coffee. You just wanted to get home and take a nap before the party. Life was too confusing.

-⚽️-

You’d been at the party for about an hour now. You had been dancing, drinking and doing anything and everything to get Jackie off your mind. Everything was so loud. Halloween music was blasting and you could barely hear anything.

You were dressed in a pirate costume like you planned. It was a tight white dress with a black corset and long boots. The dress barely reached your knees and you wore a red bandana on your head with an eyepatch. You might’ve been dressed a little bit skimpy but it was Halloween, so was every other girl on the planet.

You look over to the couch with Natalie sitting on it talking to Randy.

“I’m gonna grab another drink!” You say practically, yelling over the music so Nat would understand what you meant. She didn’t react to anything you had said. Either the music was too loud or she was too focused on Randy.

You push through the crowds of people struggling to stay upright and finally find the kitchen.

You grab a cup and pour yourself a beer. You were honestly struggling to hold the cup right. To say you were tipsy might be a little bit of an understatement.

“Here to steal my gold?” You hear a familiar voice say. Jackie was standing next to you dressed as Tatum from Scream. You were shocked you weren’t drooling because of how hot she looked.

Your brain finally processes her joke and you laugh a little bit. “Nah, I like your costume though very hot!” You say, still yelling over the music.

Jackie was definitely just as drunk as you, if not more. It was pretty late into the night and she looked like she had been here for about 2 hours already.

Continuing to pour your drink you suddenly feel a wet splash across your chest. “Bitch!” You hear Jackie yell at a girl behind her. The girl shoved her into you causing her to spill her drink all over your costume. “I’m so sorry Y/N!” Jackie slurs out looking like she wanted the floor to swallow her whole.

“It’s okay!” You say, you were too drunk to really care. Jackie grabs your hand and drags you through the crowd. You absentmindedly followed her too distracted by her warm touch to think about where you were going.

You both walk into a bathroom with Jackie closing the door behind you. The bathroom wasn’t very big and your heart was beating out of your chest at the proximity to Jackie.

She wet a paper towel and started to wipe at your chest. Jackie was so focused on getting the stain she caused out, she didn’t realize how close she was to you. You guys were basically sharing breaths at this point.

“It’s almost out, I think?” Jackie says meeting your eyes. Hers go wide for a second as she realizes your distance. Your breathing was labored and your cheeks a deep shade of crimson. You both stood there for a moment. Both trying to understand what the other was thinking. Just before you were going to lean in, Jackie backed away plopping herself down on the bathroom floor.

Her eyes avoided yours as you sat down next to her.

You both just sat there for a minute until she blurted out, “So are you and Nat like, Y’know?”

You scrunched your eyes together hoping she wasn’t suggesting what you thought she was. “Actually no, I don’t know. Are we what?”

Almost mockingly she looks over at you as if what she was saying wasn’t obvious. “Like, dating…”

You widen your eyes at her and burst into a fit of giggles. “Hell no.” You laugh out.

Jackie just looks at you like you’re crazy.

“I wouldn’t date her if she offered me a million dollars. She’s just my best friend.” You say.

“Oh.” Jackie says, furrowing her eyebrows confused at the fact she read it all wrong.

Your drunken mind finally connects the dots. “Why do you care if we’re dating anyway?”

She rolled her eyes at your words and gave you an angry look as if you had just told her that her outfit was ugly or something.

“Really?” She asks you, disappointed by your question.

Quicker than you’d expected she got up and stormed out the bathroom. Leaving you dumbfounded and confused. What did you say that pissed her off so badly?

The party kind of sucked after that. You

just sat outside and smoked with Van and Taissa. Which was a bad idea as they were so obviously in love, and you, were so obviously confused with your love life.

The worst part of it all was Shauna had to drive you, Natalie and, Jackie home since Natalie ended up drinking when she was supposed to be designated driver. The tension in the car was unbearable and you were dying to get out.

Every few minutes Jackie would look into the rearview mirror just to shoot you a dirty look. Nat noticed too and tried to whisper to you. “What’d you do to piss the princess off?” She said very loudly, her drunk mind making her think she was whispering. Everyone in the car had have heard what she said and you just hid your face in your hands for the rest of the ride.

When you finally got dropped off you looked back into the car while walking up to your house. You and Jackie made eye contact and she looked like you had just kicked her puppy or something. You were so lost. What did you do?

[nataliesscatorccio]

Alright I've rotated it in my mind for long enough now. I don't think Laura Lee dived into the shallow end of the pool on accident. I think she was trying to kill herself. Consider. This is an intelligent and athletic girl who teaches herself to fly a plane and qualifies for Nationals, yet walks right up to the "SHALLOW END" lettering and head-first plummets.

Before this we see her sitting all alone at the pool. Detached, dreamy, expressionless. The camera pans across the other VBS kids laughing and playing together. "The devil's after me / he's always throwing bricks" they chant. She is excluded from this. Then she stands up, walks to the clearly marked edge, and hits the bottom hard. Like Lottie's baptism, Laura Lee floats motionless in the water until she is yanked out, reborn. Girls in crisis, medicated with delusions. "No, Laura Lee. I didn't save you. He did." / "That's the Holy Spirit, you've been touched."

I don't think it's difficult to infer what her home life was like before the crash. I don't think it's difficult to imagine someone wanting to escape that. Someone feeling they can't live up to the expectations of their family, the church. Shamed and neglected in the name of God. This is not a new story. Her thoughts are policed to such an extent she legitimately worries thinking the word "cunt" caused them all to crash. Her teenage bedroom is comparatively bare save for a picture she kneels to pray to on the wall above her bed and the raggedy Leonard bear she's had forever. Even her sheets are plain and white, even her clothes are just an extension of the wallpaper. Suffocating. But we know when Laura Lee is trapped, she flies her way out. Even if it's a suicide mission.

She tries to kill herself and they tell her God saved her. Now she has to believe. Now she has to trust he will protect her. Now she knows he is listening. Now he has given her a sign. Now she learns to fly a plane to save her friends because she has faith God is watching and loves her and forgave her for her sin. Now her God fails her. He wasn't saving her he was only saving her for later. Now she is punished. Now she is dead. This time, she drowns in fire.

[elizabeth-mitchells]

feeling bored so... what do you think an adult laura lee would be like? (and who would you cast to play her?)

OH I'M SO GLAD YOU ASKED

literally just the other day i was looking back on some of the answers people gave me when i asked who would they cast as adult laura lee. including: sarah michelle gellar, diane krueger, laura dern, kristen bell, kirsten dunst... BUT the absolute #1 winner in my heart is 100% Elizabeth Mitchell. i mean look at her. the laura lee's style dress and the lottie's cult's colors...

now what would adult laura lee be like...

well i'm happy to consider all the options! i've mentioned before that it could go in very different ways if she had survived. after the rescue she could've 1. entered extreme denial about all she did and turned more obsessively religious to make up for it 2. stayed obsessively religious but for the wilderness (and lottie) which she never let go of 3. ✨ a middle ground ✨ or more!

personally, realistically, i think the middle ground would be something like... she wouldn't completely let go of her faith (catholic, christian, whatever) because it was so important to her and key to her character, but it would definitely change. her god abandoned them in the wilderness and let them do all those unforgivable things... but i think her post-rescue healing process would center around making peace with that and finding her middle ground. i can picture her joining one of those churches that are like liberal and very pro-lgbt and stuff. BUT i'm so sure she would never completely let go of their weird wilderness religion and her belief that lottie was touched by the holy spirit, that she had gift, that she was something like a saint

a lot of people love to paint laura lee as a boring character, bible thumping, goody two shoes, innocent and pure, but that goes against so many things we see from her. standing up against figures of authority and even controlling the group (making them pray, standing up against coach, jackie, nat, coach again, making them pray again, making fun of nat and travis and travis again) she had the balls to try to exorcise lottie and to fly a plane. do you know what she would be like as an adult after she'd had to go through all the brutal things they did to survive in the wilderness??

i think she obviously wouldn't lose her best traits. i think she would stay sweet and she would be even kinder to people because she knows how difficult it is to survive and she would love to help others (and fight anyone that tried to make other people's lives more difficult than they need to be) but she's stay brave, stubborn, true to her values and beliefs, and very much learn to stand up for herself and never let anyone laugh at her expense again

also she would be a lesbian. she would 100% be a lesbian

(she's married to lottie)

(she's her right hand woman managing the not-a-cult and she's at once nicer and more approachable but also more strict than sexy prophet lottie)

[nestaenthusiast]

I’m gonna go on a tangent about Laura Lees wasted potential.

I relate so much to Laura Lees character. I used to be a very devout Christian and was very known throughout all of my secular school and friends as a Christian. Everything that Laura Lee did in the show like pray constantly and reading her Bible in public and saying “you are beautiful in the eyes of the world”— I did too. And like Laura Lee I was always very interested in the “spiritual” side of Christianity like prophecies or speaking in tongues.

So trust me when I say as a former Laura Lee… she would have gone crazy in the woods and it would have been an amazing character arc if they let it happen.

There’s a reason that Laura connected so much to Lottie. They both have this connection with the spiritual and it’s never clear if this connection is actual divinity (God/The Wilderness) or underlying mental health issues. A lot of people who get deep in the faith like Laura Lee and I did, end up getting diagnosed with OCD.

Once I left Christianity I deep dived into the occult. And I think that if they kept Laura Lees character for the whole show she would have left Christianity and deep dived into worshipping the Wilderness.

Not a lot of people leave a toxic religion like Christianity and the church and enter a healthy relationship with Atheism or spirituality. They just join another cult or struggle with depression and existentialism.

Seeing Laura Lee go through that transition to innocent church girl who loves everyone to crazy deer worshipping cult leader who eats her friends would have been AMAZING.

In every church girl there’s a deep well of darkness cause you know the wrath of God and of Hell. Seeing Laura Lee embrace that darkness with every ounce of her being and co-lead a cult with Lottie would bring a truly unique storyline to this show.

[devskindawritingblog]

Drunken Love

Drunk!Laura Lee x reader

AN: eeeeee! I love Laura Lee and this is her first fic so I’ll see how it goes. I got another request for her so I’m so excited to start that after my other requests. Thank you so much I had fun writing this one. She might be a little ooc but that’s kinda the point I guess you act different when you’re drunk. Laura lees text is in yellow, Lottie’s is in purple and vans is in orange. Also I didn’t grammar or spell check this because I was tired and it takes so long so if there is a mistake I’m sorry but don’t tell me ☹️.

word count rounded : 1.1k

Laura Lee has always been the literal definition of innocence. She would drag you to church with her to watch her sing. Everytime she slept over she would pray, kneeled next to your bed. You found it a little silly but if it makes her happy you don’t mind at all. 

She is so sweet. Always caring and being nice to others. You don’t even think you have seen her swear before. If you could get a dollar for everytime she said  “Oh my goodness” you would be rich. 

You both go to parties together all the time. Laura Lee, like the actual angel she is, never drinks or does drugs. Except for tonight that is.

You both showed up to Lottie’s house party. Laura Lee is dressed in a pretty floral patterned dress. One of many she owns. Lottie and Laura Lee are pretty close to being best friends. Lottie always invites her even if Laura Lee doesn’t like to drink.

You walk in and Lottie rushes over, happy to see you too.

“Hey. What’s up guys? Can I get you anything.” Lottie says hugging Laura Lee and then you. You get something simple not wanting to over do it tonight. Laura Lee is going to drive you home so you're all set. 

Lottie hands you your drink and you and Laura Lee make your way through the party settling down next to Van and Tai on the couch. 

“Hey guys!” You say sitting down next to them. The 3 of you engage in some small talk. Lottie walks back over and asks Laura Lee to be her beer pong partner but they will give her juice if they get it in her cup. 

She hesitates for a second but decides that she wants to have fun tonight so she agrees and Lottie drags her off. You continue joking around with Van and Tai for about an hour  and you're so caught up in the conversation you don’t even drink your drink. So it goes warm and you decide you don’t want to get drunk tonight, so you toss it.

“Hey is Laura Lee uh drunk?” Van says unsure as she looks over your shoulder. You furrow your brows in confusion. Drunk? That sounds nothing like your girlfriend. You turn to look where Van is pointing and spot your girlfriend giggling and hanging off a concerned but amused looking Lottie. Laura Lee notices you and her eyes light up. She smiles and walks over quicker plopping into your lap. You laugh a little very amused a lot confused on how she got so drunk.

“Hey baby I love you sooooooo much.” She slurs a bit her voice dragging out as she giggles. She leans down wrapping her arms around your neck and peppering a bunch of kisses on your face.

“I love you too baby. Lottie? What did you do to her.” You say looking up at her.

“Ok dont be mad but half way through beer pong we ran out of juice for Laura Lee and she accidently downed a full cup of beer but then didn't spit it out . I guess Laura Lee cant hold her alcohol.” She says shrugging clearly also very drunk as well.

Lottie walks away to go see Jackie and Shauna as you turn your attention back to your overly drunk girlfriend. “Babbyyyyyyyyyy Your face is so beautiful.” She says with such love in her eyes. Her pupils are dilated and shes so giggly.

“Thank you Lee, Your face is beautiful too cutie.” You say laughing at your girlfriends state. She finds that really amusing grabbing your cheeks and squeezing pressing kisses to your nose. Suddenly she narrows her eyes at you.

“I cant do this. Ok. I have a girlfriend and I love them a lot.” She says sounding dead serious . You burst into giggles. “Lee I am your girlfriend.” “Ohhhhhh right!” She smiles widely as she attacks you with kisses again. You laugh giving her a little kiss back.

As the night goes on she gets more and more sleepy. By the end of the party she is in your lap curled up with her face tucked into the crook of your neck. She is murmuring incoherent words to you as you nod along to her.

Its time to go home . You haven't thought about how you were going to get her home yet. You stand up also helping her with some support. She slings her arm over your shoulder abd leans into you. She is less talkative and more giggly. 

You walk her over to your car placing her in the passenger seat and getting in the drivers seat to bring her back to your own house. You help your girlfriend stumble over to your house giggling a bit as she struggles.

You finally get her into your room and sit her down on your bed. She is still very drunk and staring up at you with glazed over eyes. “Hiiiiiiii. Guess what?” She says as you roll your eyes playfully but your not annoyed with her

“What?” You say sitting next to her on your bed.

“I love you.” She says just as happy as the first time and the millionth time this night.

“I love you to Lee.” You say smiling sweetly as you give her a kiss on the nose. “Come on baby lets go to bed and ill take care of you in the morning.” You say cuddling next to her as you wrap both of you in your bed.

Laura Lee cuddles into your arms still mumbling on and on until she eventually falls asleep. You wake up in the morning the sunlight streaming through your blinds. You look down and Laura Lee is still sleeping on your chest. You smile stroking her hair and giving her a little kiss on her forehead.

She slowly wakes up blinking awake and instantly squeezing her eyes shut and groaning turning her face so its tucked away from the light.

“Owwww, why is it so bright.” She whines pulling the blanket over both of your heads as you giggle. “ Your hungover Lee.” You say pulling her close and giving her a little kiss.

“I feel so gross. Why do people even drink this stuff.” She says dramatically as you giggle a little. 

“Don’t worry I’ll take care of you my big baby.” You tease pulling her into another kiss. 

[its-mekjt]

Favourite parts of 3×98 (potential spoilers below the break)

woke up early by my sister. today is the day i try to get chappell roan tickets for me and my friends. pray for me. they come out at 10am. right now, it it is 8:37am. I'll be pausing the VOD halfway through to fight a war.

PART ONE

▪︎ BRENNAN LEE MULLIGAN WOO

▪︎ NOT THE CROWD CHANTING TPK.

▪︎ travis' costumes slays

▪︎ live nordverse show my god.

▪︎ HAPPY PRIDE

▪︎ dorian storm angst time besties

▪︎ first roll of the night (24)

▪︎ "mmm i'm gonna make a mistake."

▪︎ matt has broken

▪︎ imogen failed wisdom save

▪︎ "you hate me." // "bitch no i don't."

▪︎ the spectrum of what the demon shows you: your mom or dead kids

▪︎ "i'm going to hell." // "probably pretty soon."

▪︎ gambling with teven

▪︎ fearne does not know what the pact is

▪︎ OH SHIT ASMODEUS

▪︎ dorian's parent's have REALLY good lawyers

▪︎ quick break for me to get chappel roan tickets (i didn't get them)

▪︎ THAT'S WHAT THAT KNOCK IS CALLED?

▪︎ RIEGEL RETURNS. (hello dani carr)

▪︎ HOT MINOTOUR YESSSSSS

▪︎ bells hells follow the gods just because they're famous, confirmed

▪︎ happy pride.

▪︎ ashton wisdom saving throws. (14)

▪︎ HEY MATT. THIS IS EVIL.

▪︎ the [dismayed screaming].

▪︎ the cheering when braius' character sheet came up. (YEAH PALADIN/BARD BABY)

▪︎ the crowd going FERAL for teven

▪︎ fearne, teven and the many people they're bound to

▪︎ fuck off no. creepy child. bye bye travis.

▪︎ the person who went 'ow!' in the crowd, you are my spirit animal.

▪︎ "did someone say FLY?"

▪︎ DEVIL CHILD DEVIL CHILD DEVIL CHILD.

▪︎ 21 FAILS? MATT YOU DEMON.

▪︎ laura bailey. WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY "YOU'RE NOT SURE."

▪︎ ANIMATE OBJECT YESSSSSSS. best spell.

PART TWO

▪︎ YO THAT MINI

▪︎ drop that bitch on the crystal

▪︎ YEAH COUNTERSPELL. LOVE IT.

▪︎ HERALD OF ASMODEUS LETS GO.

▪︎ "i see a red door and i want to paint it black."

▪︎ dominox has girlboss energy

▪︎ what is dominox's unpopular opinion?

▪︎ chug, chug, chug

▪︎ fighters, man. love them.

▪︎ NOT 2 NATURAL 1S LIAM.

▪︎ orym the hummingbird.

▪︎ 46 on the FIRST hit? rip orym.

▪︎ dorian has a panic attack

▪︎ the planning happening behind robbie

▪︎ RIEGEL COMING IN CLUTCH

▪︎ sam stop breaking the set

▪︎ counterspell the counterspell

▪︎ right now, ludinus is like the coworker you really don't like but they're being helpful for once.

▪︎ I FORGOT ABOUT ESSEK AND LUDINUS

▪︎ essek is going to have to fill caleb in on so much stuff

▪︎ YEAH MATT GETS A HDYWTDT

▪︎ time to beat up ludinus now

▪︎ that'll go for 5000 gold in a few years

▪︎ braius is flirting with everyone with no regrets

▪︎ LORE LORE LORE

▪︎ DM SWAP. HELLO MULLIGAN. WHAT IS GOING ON.

▪︎ "LIGHT." YESSSS

▪︎ NO THAT CANNOT BE THE END. W H A T.

[domripley]

First Time

pairing: lottie matthews x laura lee

warnings: top lottie, bottom laura, characters are 18+, college au, fingering, oral sex, lube, shy laura, fluff, begging.

summary: laura confides in lottie.

kinktober 23/24’: first time

word count: 2.2k

part three of ?

edited by my lovely girlfriend @specialinterestshows 🥰

Laura took a deep breath, watching as Lottie focused on writing her paper. Normally when they would have study sessions with the group, Laura would be focused. But after overhearing her best friend talk about how Nat and her fucked (Your Name), that was all Laura could think about. She wasn’t jealous - far from it really - she was just curious. It was no secret in the friend group that she was a virgin and although they didn’t care, Laura wanted to at least do it once. She just wasn’t sure on how to go about asking, or even who she would pick.

There was Nat, but she had noticed how rough she was right off the bat. Taissa and Van were monogamous and although she could pick Jackie or Shauna, she was drawn to Lottie. Lottie was soft spoken and comforting, and Laura had always had a crush on her.

“Hey…” Laura took a deep breath, whispering to get Lottie’s attention.

“Hey yourself,” Lottie smiled, looking up from her laptop. “What’s up?”

Laura looked around, not wanting anyone to overhear what she was about to say. “I… I’ve been thinking…”

“About?” Lottie pushed.

Laura took a deep breath, there was no backing out now. “I want you to take my virginity.”

Laura could barely look at Lottie, but she needed to try and read her facial expression as she sat there in silence. She was panicking now - did she just fuck her friendship up, having thought it would be okay to ask? She prayed for Lottie to say something, anything, before she had a panic attack.

Finally, after a minute of silence, Lottie spoke up. “Are you sure?” she asked, licking her lips before looking back down at her laptop,

Laura nodded, “I’m sure.”

Lottie wiped the sweat from her forehead, “Okay.”

Laura furrowed her eyebrows, “Okay?”

“When are you free?” Lottie asked, taking a drink from her water bottle. “And are you sure you want to do this? It’s okay if you don’t want to.”

“Lottie,” Laura said, her face red with embarrassment. “I want to do this, especially with you.”

Lottie smirked, “So when are you free, Lau?”

“Tonight or- or tomorrow night. Whatever works best for you,” Laura said, refusing to look at Lottie any longer. She wasn’t sure why she was so shy, when she and Lottie had been friends for years.

“Tonight works, I just have to text Nat,” Lottie says, grabbing her phone out of her pocket.

“Wait,” Laura said.

Lottie paused mid-movement, waiting for Laura to continue.

“Don’t cancel your plans for me,” Laura said, shaking her head. “Tomorrow night can work just as much as tonight.”

“Oh,” Lottie laughed. “I’m not canceling plans; I’m just letting her know that I won’t be available for tonight in case she gets bored. That’s all, I promise. I wouldn’t cancel plans or anything, I would just make our plans for a different day!”

Laura nodded. “Okay.”

Lottie gathered all her stuff up, putting it all in her backpack before getting up. “I’m gonna head out, but I’ll be at yours around seven-thirty or eight.”

Laura watched Lottie walk away, her face still red. She took a deep breath, trying to figure out how she was able to ask that right then and there when she had been building the courage up for weeks.

Laura rushed back to her dorm room, taking two showers to make sure that she was completely clean. She cleaned some of her room, wanting to make sure that her best friend was comfortable while she was there. When it was seven-twenty-nine, she set out snacks that she knew Lottie would like. She was so busy with cleaning and making things perfect, she almost screamed when there was a knock on the door.

Laura rushed to the door, opening it with a smile when she saw Lottie standing there with a different backpack - one she had never seen before. She moved out of the way, allowing the brunette to step inside before she closed the door and locked it.

“Hey,” Laura said.

“Hey,” Lottie smiled, “How are you feeling?”

Laura thought about it for a few seconds, “A little nervous but other than that, good.”

Lottie smiled, “Thank you for being honest with me… I’m assuming you don’t want to do this out here. Show me your room?”

Laura nodded, leading Lottie to her bedroom and once they were both inside, she shut the door. “You… You can sit on the bed if you’d like,” Laura said. She sat down on it first and Lottie was quick to follow her.

“So,” Lottie spoke up, turning to look at Laura. “What are you not comfortable with?”

Laura jumped a little as Lottie placed her hand gently on her thigh as she waited for her to answer.

“Well… no anal or even touching there… um… nothing with knives or things that could hurt me?” Laura said.

Lottie smiled, “We aren’t doing anything that rough today. Don’t think about things like that.”

Laura nodded. “Okay. I’m not sure what I like or don’t like except for kissing. I’m a bit too shy to uh…”

“To make out? Cute,” Lottie said, licking her lips. “Don’t worry, if you don’t want to do that today, that’s completely okay with me.”

Laura nodded, “Thank you.”

“Of course,” Lottie leaned in, kissing Laura’s neck gently. “Is this okay?”

Laura moved so her neck was on display for Lottie, “Y- Yes, it’s more than okay, Lot.”

Lottie hummed, sucking on her neck - she wanted everyone to know that Laura was hers after this. “Oh-“ she gasped just as Lottie pulled away.

“Why don’t you take this pretty shirt off for me?” Lottie suggested, tugging at Laura’s shirt sleeve.

Laura stood up, keeping her eyes on Lottie’s thighs as she pulled her shirt off. Throwing it on the ground, she covered her chest in embarrassment.

“Don’t hide from me,” Lottie demanded, moving so she was sitting fully in the bed with her back to the headboard. “C’mere.”

Laura looked at Lottie’s lap as she was patting it - making her way onto the bed so she sat down down on her. Laura bit her lip as she saw the way Lottie was looking at her.

“You like when I mark you?” Lottie asked, bringing her hand up to Laura’s mouth. She tapped two of her fingers on the blonde’s lips and as soon as she opened her mouth, Lottie pushed them in. “I asked you a question, baby.”

Laura nodded, trying her best to suck on Lottie’s fingers. Lottie hummed, “Good girl.”

Laura let out a soft moan at Lottie’s praise as she took in her fingers further into her mouth. “You wanna try sucking on something else, baby?” she asked, pulling her fingers out of Laura’s mouth.

“Like… like what?” she asked.

Lottie gently moved her off her lap so she could get off the bed. Lottie pulled her own shirt off, followed by unbuckling her pants so she could pull them down and off. Without saying a word, Lottie grabbed her backpack and took out a strapon - the smallest one she owned. When Laura turned to look at what the brunette was doing, her eyes widened.

Lottie grabbed a bottle of lube out of her backpack as well, she turned to set the stuff on the bed. “Take your pants and underwear off. I want you to lay on the bed and wait for me,” Lottie instructed.

Laura did as she was told quickly, putting her clothes with her others before climbing onto the bed. She waited patiently, watching as Lottie put the toy on and climbed onto the bed to join her.

“Wait- Lot-“ Laura panicked, but Lottie shook her head.

“Oh you thought we were going straight for it?” Lottie asked, trying to contain her laughter. “No baby, I have to get this pretty pussy all nice and ready for my cock.”

Lottie laid down on her stomach so her face was level with Laura’s pussy. Turning her head so she could kiss the skin on her left thigh, before doing the same on her right thigh. When Lottie’s gaze went down to Laura’s pussy, she licked her lips at how wet she was already.

“You smell so good,” Lottie hummed, kissing Laura’s bush, causing the blonde to blush even harder.

“I- I’m sorry I didn’t shave…” Laura trailed off, closing her eyes as Lottie continued to kiss her everywhere she could reach.

”Don’t Lottie said, leaning in to rub her nose through it. “I prefer it.”

Lottie moved down so she was more comfortable before bringing her mouth to Laura’s pussy. She placed a gentle kiss to her clit, pulling away as she licked her lips. ”Fuck,” Lottie moaned, looking up to see that Laura was surprisingly looking down at her.

“You keep your eyes on me, understood?” Lottie instructed. Although she wasn’t domming Laura, she couldn’t help but want her to listen.

Laura nodded but that wasn't good enough for Lottie. “I need you to say it, baby, or you’re not getting my mouth,” Lottie smirked, bringing her hand to the blonde’s pussy. Lottie took a single finger, running it gently through Laura’s folds. Smirking as Laura whined, fighting the urge to close her eyes and doing as Lottie instructed. “Come on, baby, tell me what you’re going to do.”

Laura whined as Lottie sped up her finger, “I- I need to keep my eyes on you!”

Without saying another word, Lottie leaned in, replacing her finger with her tongue. She hummed, running the tip of her tongue through her folds before wrapping her lips around her clit. Laura cried out as Lottie began to suck gently - she gripped the sheets as she tried to grind against her mouth. Lottie brought her arms to Laura’s thighs to hold her in place.

Lottie moved one hand and brought it between her legs. Pulling her mouth away just as she lined a single finger to Laura’s entrance. She slid her finger in slowly, licking her bottom lip as Laura was struggling to keep eye contact with her.

“Good fuckin’ girl,” Lottie praised as she slid the full length of her finger inside. Lottie spit on Laura’s pussy, bringing her thumb to rub it in against her clit. “Can’t wait to have you on my cock.”

“L- Lot-“ Laura whimpered as the brunette slipped a second finger into her. “Please.”

Lottie tilted her head, “Please what?”

She fucked her fingers in and out of Laura, finally adding a third one as she wait for the blonde to respond. Lottie slapped Laura’s thigh lightly, getting her to focus on what she had been asking “Please, what?” Lottie asked once more.

“I- I don’t know… just feels so good and I don’t want you to stop,” Laura pleaded, looking at Lottie with wide eyes. Lottie almost stopped anyway, wanting to hear her beg even more, but told herself that would be for later as she curled her fingers.

“You’re squeezing around my fingers,” Lottie pointed out. When Laura nodded, Lottie continued. “I want you to come for me. Go on.”

Laura did as she was told, coming with a small cry as Lottie fucked her through her orgasm. As soon as she came down from her orgasm, Lottie pulled her fingers out and brought them to her lips. She sucked on her fingers, maintaining eye contact with the blonde as she finally looked away. Normally Lottie would spank her for that, but this wasn’t the time for that.

Lottie sat up on her knees in between Laura’s legs, grabbing the bottle of lube before squirting some onto her fingers. She slowly pushed her now-lubed fingers back into Laura’s pussy, studying her face to make sure she was okay.

“F- Fuck, Lot,” Laura whined. She was sensitive and her nerves from earlier were now completely gone. “Please.”

Lottie removed her fingers, squirting some lube on the dildo. Laura watched as she sat the bottle on the nightstand before grabbing the base of it. She lined the tip up with Laura’s entrance, pushing in slowly. Once it was in, she waited for Laura to let her know she could continue. After a minute of waiting, she nodded, and Lottie pushed the rest of the strapon inside of her as slowly as she could.

“How do you feel, baby?” Lottie asked, leaning down to take one of Laura’s nipples into her mouth.

“So… full,” Laura whimpered as Lottie brought one of her hands down to play with her clit. “Please move, I need you.”

Lottie removed her mouth from her nipple before she began to move at a slow pace, just to get the blonde used to the feeling of being stretched. After a few minutes of this pace, Lottie sped up.

“More, please, just-“ Laura cut herself off with a moan as Lottie listened to what she was starting to beg for.

“That’s what you want? Me to fuck you harder?” Lottie teased.

All Laura could do was nod, focusing on how good it felt as Lottie fucked her at a bruising pace. The room was silent, only filled with their heavy breathing and when Laura’s orgasm hit, she held her breath as Lottie fucked her through it.

Finally, Laura let out a breath, causing her to tear up. “Fuck,” she whimpered as Lottie pulled out of her.

Lottie wiped her tears away, giving her a soft smile. “You did so good, baby,” she praised, kissing Laura’s cheek. “I know you’re comfortable, but you need to get up and pee.”

Laura whined, “Do I have to?”

Lottie sighed playfully, “Yes, then we can eat those snacks you put out for us. I’m hungry.”

Laura smiled, “And cuddle, right?”

Lottie nodded. “Fuck yes.”

[star-girl69]

Ultraviolence

Natalie Scatorccio x Fem!Reader

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a/n: i hope you all enjoy!!

warnings: mentions of death, swearing, mentions of a knife, mentions of starvation, tell me if i missed anything!!

Chapter Six - Prayers

Chapter Six - Prayers

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1996-

Late last night, Misty had heated up the blade of the axe she used to cut Coach Ben’s leg off, and pressed it to his wound. He screamed for only a moment, before it tapered off- stopping abruptly.

When you got up to check if he was still alive, Misty was wrapping the new burned wound on his leg, and his breathing was harsh and heavy, but he was breathing.

With the silent forest, save the crackling of the fire and the sounds of the wilderness, you eventually fell asleep- telling yourself that morning will come, and so will rescue.

When you woke up, there was no rescue, and all of the girls whispered that it would simply come later in the day.

In the meantime, the grave digging started.

They weren’t finished until noon, using scrap bits of metal from the plane as shovels. Everyone stands around the small plot of graves, marked by pieces of metal with names drawn in marker.

You wonder faintly if that’s what they would have wanted.

Now, the earth is freshly scared with the imprint of the bodies, raising up the soil, but soon- the scars will fade. The ground will level out again. And besides for the metal marking the graves- no one would know they’re there.

“Before we took off,” Van starts, staring at the grave right in front of her, “I heard Rachel say that she was going to see Oasis at the Meadowlands next month. She was really excited. And she’s never gonna hear “Wonderwall” again.”

You can’t help but dig your feet into the ground, the tip of your Converse making a small indent in the soft soil. You thought back to what Shauna said to Javi. Is it really like sleeping? Does the dirt feel like a blanket? Are they warm? Cold?

“Come on,” Laura Lee says after a moment. “Let’s join hands.”

Squished between two freshmen, you hold out your hands, and the two girls on either side of you tenderly intwine their hands with yours.

“We’ll pray for them,” she says, and you almost smile- because what else would you expect from Laura Lee?

Slowly, all of the girls follow suit, grabbing hands, closing their eyes.

“Rachel,” Laura Lee starts, “You just moved up from JV, so we didn’t really know you. But, in Trig, you never confuses your secants and your cosecants. You seemed really smart. Anyone else?”

“I saw her carry a flute case once,” Van rushes out.

“Oh, Lord, please accept Rachel Goldman into your arms so that she may fill your kingdom with music.” She licks her lips, and blinks harshly. “Please accept Coach Martinez into your glory, too, and flight attendant Janet, pilot Robert, pilot Fred. Even thought I walk through the valley of the shadow of death…”

The world seems to fade out, and you faintly remember the funeral your mother had taken you too, the open casket, the eerie stillness of the body of a woman you never knew. But she knew you.

Your mother had told you not to be scared of death. But she had never been to the wilderness before.

“The Lord is my salvation. Whom shall I fear? The Lord is my strength. Whom shall I fear?”

“I’m going for a walk,” Tai announces suddenly, letting go of the others hands, walking towards the forest, away from the graves.

And soon, everyone followed suit, their hands dropping.

—-

“This is all we have?” one of the girls asks, a group gathered around the small collection of food and drinks the flight attendant was giving out.

“Yeah. We gotta ration,” Van says. She studies the small collection, before glancing at Shauna. “Okay. Cut them,” she says, leaving the knife next to the food. “Split this water,” she says to another girl, giving her a plastic water bottle.

“Well,” Jackie starts, looking at a small chocolate covered treat Shauna had given to her, “Maybe we can find something in the forest. I saw some berries-”

You perk up. “What did they look like?”

Jackie frowns. “Uh… they looked like little oranges.”

“Oh, no, you can’t eat those.” Everyone looks at you, confused and curious. You feel your cheeks warm up, but a suddenly realization comes to you. You are useful. You know the plants. “They’re probably Buckthorn berries, which are native around here. If you eat them, they cause swelling of uh, the nervous system, I think.” Another moment of silence. “My mother is a botanist, so…”

“Shit, really?” Van asks, looking around the woods. “You know what we can eat from here?”

You nod, feeling a little proud. “Um, elderberries should be around here too. If we cook those, then they’re not poisonous, but uncooked one’s are.”

“Okay,” Shauna nods, “we’ll have a little more to go off of.”

Akilah starts rationing out the water using the little plastic from the cart, everyone reminding her not to spill any.

Suddenly, Travis stands up and marches over to the pile of food, grabbing a bag of CornNuts.

“Dude!” Can shouted after him.

“Travis, what are you doing?” Jackie asks, and all of you watch as he marches off, not even looking back.

You stare at the small bag he has clutched in his fist, your stomach twisting angrily at the sight.

“Uh… Maybe you didn’t notice, but we’re kind of in a situation here, Flex.” Lottie says.

“Don’t.” Nat says.

Travis turns around for just a moment, leveling a sharp glare at Lottie, before continuing into the trees.

“Who died and made him king of snacks?” Lottie spits.

“His dad, Lottie. Literally… his fucking dad.”

“Nat’s right,” Jackie sighs. “We should cut him some slack.”

“I guess it’s fine if we all starve to death, as long as Travis’s feelings are okay…” Mari says.

“No one is starving to death. When the rescue team gets here, it’ll be fine, but for now-” Jackie starts.

“You mean if it gets here.”

“Don’t say that, Van.” Jackie says, looking slightly shocked.

“It… has been three days, Jackie.”

She smiles a bit, whether to cover up her true feelings, or if she really believes that they’ll come, you don’t know.

“They’re coming.”

—-

“Guys!” Tai shouted, returning finally from her long walk, panting. “Guys! There’s a lake! There’s a lake. I saw it from over that hill,” she points, “It looks about 4 or 5 miles away.”

You couldn’t help a small smile from winding its way onto your face. Elderberries would grow well in the soil by a lake, and other plants too. Maybe if you could just get there and recognize a few of them, you would remember more, and be able to help more-

“Do you think we can hike it?” Shauna asks.

“It’s pretty rocky,” Taissa breathes, “but yeah.”

“Uh, we, uh, we can’t… we can’t just leave,” Jackie stutters, standing up and gesturing from the plane to the direction Taissa came from.

You can tell she has no support.

“We have two days of water, tops.”

Jackie shakes her head slightly, as if to say “so?”

“And then what?” Tai continues. “Just sit around and die?” Your stomach twists.

Before all of this, you had things you wanted to do, a life you wanted to live.

“What of the rescue team comes?”

“Do you think they’re taking their time on purpose?” Taissa looks around, and while some people haven’t accepted it- you’re not a fool. If they were coming, they would have come by now. “If they knew where we were then they would be here already.”

“You don’t know that,” Jackie sneers, not unkindly, but she gets the point across.

“What do you think, Coach?”

Everyone turns to the man who you once thought wouldn’t make it through the night, now barely alive, sitting on a plane seat the girls had dragged outside. He relied on Misty for everything.

“I don’t- I don’t know,” he says, clutching his amputated leg. “Uh, I mean, you’d have to leave me behind. But, whatever.”

“We could make you a stretcher,” Tai declares, looking around. But at the first inkling that going to the lake would keep you all alive for longer- most of the girls were swayed.

“Oh, okay,” Jackie laughs.

“Seriously. If we take turns carrying it-”

“N-no! This-this is bullshit. I say no. Okay? No way.”

After Jackie’s outburst, no one speaks for a second. You look around the group of girls gathered, and most of them can’t even look at Jackie. They’ve already made their decision. You look at Nat, but her eyes are fixed to the floor.

“Let’s put it to a vote,” Tai says, staring at Jackie. “All in favor of waiting here?” Jackie raises her hand. Only a few other girls follow suit. “All in favor of the lake?” Tai raises her hand, and after a moment, you do as well.

Natalie raises her hand too.

Even Shauna raises her hand, which earns her a scorching glare from Jackie, but before anything else can happen, Tai speaks.

“Then it’s settled.”

—-

You stuffed all your clothes into your bag, a hairbrush, other toiletries- and finally, after a moment, you grabbed the small glass cube. Your mom had gifted it to you a few years ago, back when she was around more, before your dad had left, and she hadn’t thrown herself into your work and slowly stared to forget about you.

The rest of these girls probably all had people who cared for them. Who wanted them to come home. You wondered if your mother had even noticed your absence.

Inside the small glass cube was a preserved sample of deadly nightshade. A small stem with a few berries, one leaf. You wondered often if the poison still worked.

Slowly, everyone filed into a rough line, and you all began your descent to the lake.

You wondered faintly if Laura Lee should have lead you all in prayer before you started the hike.

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[juchily]

Yellowjackets (+ relationships) as song lyrics

(most if not all of it is rock ithink) and italics are being rlly weird so please excuse irregularities with that

Ve: tragic angst JackieShauna (Snackie), my beloved. Drug refs

Yellowjackets

"In a crooked little town They were lost and never found Fallen leaves, fallen leaves Fallen leaves on the ground" - Billy Talent's "Fallen Leaves"

"From chagrin I've been released Paint me in a portrait sans The fig leaves, fig leaves And I will not be concerned Or ignore the things I yearn My hunger is the rule I cannot overturn" - Dirt Poor Robin's "Enchanté"

"We are the angry and the desperate The hungry, and the cold We're the ones who kept quiet And always did what we were told" - Rise Against's "Prayer of the Refugee"

Literal all of "'Shia Labeouf' Live' by Rob Cantor

Natalie Scatorccio

"I've got a new low All fifty two cards in a row I see now that I won't let go No I won't let go

Well who am I? A cold shoulder left to cry You feel bad, well so do I Yeah so do I" - Middle Class Rut's "New Low"

"Did I try, did I try to make amends? To live and die or did I really just pretend? Nightmare's talking as I'm sleepwalking And I can't stop thinking" - Bad Wolves's "If Tomorrow Never Comes"

Lottie Matthews

"You can't breathe until you choke You gotta laugh when you're the joke There's nothing like a funeral to make you feel alive

Just open your eyes Just open your eyes And see that life is beautiful. Will you swear on your life, That no one will cry at my funeral?" - Sixx:A.M.'s "Life Is Beautiful"

"I raised myself My legs were weak I prayed my mind be good to me

An awful noise Filled the air I heard a scream in the woods somewhere

...

How many years I know I'll bear I found something in the woods somewhere" - Hozier's "In The Woods Somewhere"

Misty Quigley

"'Cause you don't talk to the water boy And there's so much you could learn But you don't wanna know You will not back up an inch ever That's why you will not survive" - Spoon's "The Underdog"

Shauna Shipman

"Strawberry lipgloss, oh, it's wasted On this dumb boy who likes the chase

But why am I so angry in the first place? Why am I hurting?" - Nxdia's "She Likes a Boy"

Jackie Taylor

"Maybe you were wrong and I was right I don't care, won't you stay another night? I just need some time to be myself I couldn't say "I need you" on that night When you left and I lost all track of time I just want you close so I can feel you Can you feel me? Mmm" - Prateek Kuhad's "Co2"

Taissa Turner

"This is unbecoming of me It's like my own reflection's not what it used to be Tryna figure out where I missed I'll never find the answer, it's just the way it is" - Saint Asonia's "So What"

Van Palmer

"I'm on fire" - Pitbull's "Fireball"

Laura Lee

"Early days and sleepless nights Death and resurrection, life My body is a sacred note Sung between the flesh and hope My dirt transformed within a breath Before I took a single step I'm looking forward to the day When life can grow without decay" - half·alive's "creature"

Travis Martinez

"'Cause so badly I wanna go outside. (Such a lovely day) But everyone knows that a man ain't suppose to cry, listen. I gotta cry 'cause cryin' eases the pain, oh yeah. People this hurt I feel inside, words can never explain. I just wish it would rain. (Oh, how I wish that it would rain)" - The Temptations's "I Wish It Would Rain"

Jackie x Shauna

"I've been cold in the crypt But not as the cold as the words across your lips You'll be sorry baby some day When you reach across the bed where my body used to lay" - Three Days Grace's "Chalk Outline"

""Come on in, boy" said the skeletons Sitting by her closet door Dirty secrets, empty memories And broken hearts across the floor I was knocked out, heels over head So you dragged me by my feet To a ghost town, where you buried me No wonder no one heard my screams

Love's so alive, but it died in it's sleep And now that it's dead I live in your head And I will haunt your fucking dreams" - Set It Off's "The Haunting"

Taissa x Van

"Well, I'm not the world's most passionate guy But when I looked in her eyes, well, I almost fell for my Lola Lo-Lo-Lo-Lo-Lola Lo-Lo-Lo-Lo-Lola" - The Kinks's "Lola"

"Believe me you really don't have to worry I only wanna make you happy and if you say "hey go away" I will But I think better still I'd better stay around and love you Do you think I have a case let me ask you to your face Do you think you love me?" - The Partridge Family's "I Think I Love You"

Lottie x Laura Lee

"Maybe in another life I could find you there Pulled away before your time I can't deal, it's so unfair" - The Offspring's "Gone Away"

Lottie x Nat

"Tell me who you are Your father has forsaken you Left you with those scars My hope is that you'll make it through Hate must never win Even when we're worlds apart Your love is not a sin Even if it's hard" - Falling In Reverse's "Coming Home"

Travis x Nat

"I am still dreaming of your face Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away I don't wanna be your good time I don't wanna be your fall-back crutch anymore" - Everclear's "Santa Monica"

Laura Lee x Nat

"I thought love was only true in fairy tales Meant for someone else but not for me Love was out to get me, that's the way it seemed Disappointment haunted all my dreams

And then I saw her face Now I'm a believer" - Smash Mouth's "I'm A Believer"

Jackie x Nat

"I just feel so out of place Well, except for when you're near me When you're gone, I'm like a plant with no root Or a song that's on mute Don't you dare call it cute! You should fear me!" - Kaden MacKay's "Your Stupid Face"

Adult TaiNat

"Maybe you should just fall And leave the world and lose it all And if that's what you need To finally see I'll be with you through it all

Bring on the pills, roll the dollar bill Medicating will never heal Relapse, rehab, repeat Always thinking about the me, me, me

Self-destruct, spiral down Until your want becomes your need Please get up like I know you can Or forever love the fall" - Nothing More's "Jenny"

Adult MistNat

"Nothing in the world that I do means a thing without you I'm just half alive in my struggle to survive without you" - Frank Sinatra's "My Way Of Life"

This has been sitting in my draft for like, a week now, and I needed to get it outta there, reblog with songs/song lyrics you think fits a Yellowjackets character -🦎

[lovevanpalmer]

why did laura lee die, in your opinion. v curious

[whitegownsandflowercrowns]

My Faves As Preacher’s Daughter

Family Tree (Intro) - Helaena Targaryen

Jesus can always reject his father/But he cannot escape his mother’s blood/He’ll scream and try to wash it off of his fingers/But he’ll never escape what he’s made up of/The fates already fucked me sideways/Swinging by my neck from the family tree

American Teenager - Luna Lovegood

Grew up under yellow light on the street/Putting too much faith in the make believe/And another high school football team/[…]/And I feel it there/In the middle of the night/When the lights go out/And I’m all alone out here/Say what you want/But say it like you mean it with your fists for once/A long Cold War with your kids at the front/Just give it one more day then you’re done, done/I do what I want/[…]/I’m doing what I want and damn I’m doing it well/For me

A House In Nebraska - Shosanna Dreyfus

You and me against the world/You were my man and I your girl/We had nothing except each other/You were my whole world/[…]/And I still call home/That house in Nebraska/[…]/And you might never come back home/And I might never sleep at night/But God I just hope that you’re out there somewhere/I just pray that you’re all right/And I feel so alone/And I feel so alone out here

Western Nights - Evelyn Evernever

I’d hold the gun/If you asked me to/But if you love me like you say you do/Would you ask me to?/[…]/Trouble’s always gonna find you baby/But so will I/[…]/I’m never gonna leave you baby/Even if you lose what’s left of your mind/Cause you know I’ll be right there beside you/Riding through all these Western nights

Family Tree - Peter Gordon

These crosses all over my body/Remind me of who I used to be/Give myself up to him in offering/[…]/I’m just a child but I’m not above violence/My mama raised me better than that/[…]/So take me down to the river/And bathe me clean/[…]/I’ve killed before, and I’ll kill again/Take the noose off, wrap it tight around my hand/[…]/And Christ, forgive these bones I’ve been hiding/Oh, and the bones I’m about to leave

Hard Times - Laura Palmer

Tell me a story about how it ends/Where you’re still the good guy, I’ll make pretend/Cause I hate this story/Where happiness ends and dies with you/I thought good guys get to be happy/I’m not happy/I am poison in the water and unhappy/Little girl who needs her daddy real bad

Thoroughfare - Mantis

I met you there in Texas somewhere on the thoroughfare/On the side of the road in some torn up clothes with a pistol in my pocket/I didn’t trust no one, but you said “baby don’t run, I’ll take you anywhere”/So I hopped right in, outta luck to spend, and at least your truck beats walking/And you said “hey, do you wanna see the west with me?”/[…]/But in these motel rooms I started to see you differently/Cause for the first time since I was a child/I could see a man who wasn’t angry

Gibson Girl - Georgina Sparks

He’s cold blooded so it takes more time to bleed/Obsession with the money, addicted to the drugs/[…]/“Baby if it feels good/Then it can’t be bad”/And if you want it good/Downright iconic

Ptolemaea - Max Mayfield

I followed you in and I was with you there/I invited you in twice, I did/[…]/Suffer does the wolf, crawling to thee/Promising a big fire, any fire/Saying I’m the one, he’s gonna take me/I’m on fire, I’m on fire, I’m on fire/Suffering is nigh, drawing to me/Calling me the one, I’m the white light/Beautiful, finite/Even the iron still fear the rot/Hiding from something I cannot stop/Walking on shadows I can’t lead him back/Buckled on the floor when night comes along/Daddy’s left and Momma won’t come home/You poor thing/Sweet mouring lamb/There’s nothing you can do/It’s already been done/What fear a man like you brings upon a woman like me/Please don’t look at me/[…]/Stop, stop, stop, make it stop/[…]/Blessed be the children/Each and every one come to know their god through some senseless act of violence

August Underground - India Stoker

Televangelism - Beth March

Sun Bleached Flies - Laura Lee

What I wouldn’t give to be in church this Sunday/Listening to the choir so heartfelt all singing/“God loves you, but not enough to save you”/So baby girl good luck taking care of yourself/[…]/And I just prayed/And I keep praying, and praying and praying/If it’s meant to be, then it will be

Strangers - Cassie Ainsworth

Thinking back to what I was always told/“Don’t talk to strangers or you might fall in love”/[…]/I tried to be good/Am I no good? Am I no good? Am I no good?/With my memory restricted to a Polaroid in evidence/I just wanted to be yours/Can I be yours? Can I be yours? Just tell me I’m yours/[…]/Don’t think about it too hard or you’ll never sleep a wink at night again/Don’t worry bout me and these green eyes

[queenofthediscotheque]

Almost done with S1 of yellowjackets and here are some thoughts.

Why did they do that to my girl Laura Lee 😭 all she did was be positive and pray

I’m convinced you guys like Jackie for Ella Purnell cause she’s kinda the worst?

Nat is my favorite like she don’t gaf but she does at the same time

I always wanna feel bad for misty but then she does some bullshit

I’m scared to see what’s gonna happen to the other girls

The Nat and Misty scenes when they’re older are so funny. The c*ke scene had me crying 😂😭

[fairytwles]

ANGEL prologue

𝐋𝐞𝐧𝐚 𝐁𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞.

She goes to church every Sunday morning, listens to her father's sermon, chats with Laura Lee before the girl has to make her way to soccer practice, then she catches up on her school work, puts her curlers in, prays, and goes to bed strictly at ten pm. It's a cycle she's gotten used to over the past 17 years, it hasn't changed once. 

at least, until she met that grunge girl on Laura's soccer team.

𝐋𝐞𝐧𝐚 𝐁𝐮𝐬𝐡𝐰𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐬 𝐬𝐞𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐮𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞;

she'll graduate high school, maybe go to college, marry a nice boy from their church, Laura Lee will be her maid of honor, she'll become a pastor's wife, have babies, be a homemaker, and then she'll die as Mrs. whoever, devoted wife and mother on her headstone.

and honestly, that's how Lena sees her life too, she doesn't know any different, so why stray from the already violently forged path?

Lena's parents, Pastor John and Nancy Bushwick were, for lack of a better term, protective over their only daughter. With Nancy unable to have any more children, it meant that all the attention and expectations were left on Lena. Every step she took, every breath she breathed, every skirt she wore, the Bushwick parents made sure she did with God in mind.

and she was turning out perfectly.

Editor in chief of the yearbook club, an avid attendee of church (like they would ever let her skip anyway) straight A's, best friends with good girls, like Laura Lee, always modestly dressed, never un-ladylike, Lena had the best table manners you could teach a girl. Lena's life was turning out just the way they expected. 

Lena was a good girl, a faithful girl, they had no reason to be worried about the trip to Seattle, Lena just has to photograph the yellowjackets and then in a week, she'll be back home.

Their daughter will be perfectly fine.

[lingeringscars]

i think mari was raised religious, probably Catholic, but did not really practice. she would go to church with her family on Sundays but she usually was thinking about Other things. she was spiritual and believed in ghosts, she would pray on occasion but sometimes selfishly (think devi in nhie tbh) and would participate in grace when laura lee brought it up, but she would also roll her eyes at the idea of saying a prayer before a scrimmage. the wilderness really sparked some of that religious belief, though. her background left her open to it, and lottie's visions coming true and seeming ability to gather food out of thin air made it so she was 100% willing and able to believe in the wilderness and lottie by extension.

[ones-g]

ᗩᑎᎥᗰᗩᒪ 丅ᗴᗴ丅ᕼ

Chapter Three.

>Cap. Two!

𝟏𝟗𝟗𝟔

<ᴼᵐⁿⁱˢᶜⁱᵉⁿᵗᵉ >

The land was once again desecrated, this time the young people dug a couple of graves for the lifeless bodies of their traveling and even living companions. Certain girls wiped away their tears as they looked with pain at each of the graves. Vanessa had mentioned that Rachel was due to see Oasis at the Meadowlands next month. Victoria dryly swallowed the little saliva she had in her mouth. The youngest remembered the talk they had once had together about the band. —She was very excited— She murmured to herself.

“Actually, Wonderwall is my favorite song, yours Vic?”

“I only know Wonderwall!”

Pains in her chest began to bother her too much. Her lip was curled and her head was bowed to the ground. Her left foot began to grind the soft earth she was stepping on. Her funeral was terrible for him. More so when they involved young lives. Like that funeral of her only dark-skinned cousin. They had shot him mistaking him for a “criminal”, he was only 15 years old.

Suddenly Laura Lee's voice began to be heard clearly due to the melancholic silence of the circle of young people. —Rachel, you had just moved from JV, I didn't know you very well— The blonde said, attracting Victoria's attention. –I must admit that in Trigonometry you never confused secants with cosecants, it was obvious how smart you were…- Laura Lee remained silent.

—She liked volleyball, but she was afraid of the players because they were too tall... that's why she joined us— Victoria declared in a low voice. –She was sweet, she liked romance novels and she loved her cat who died last summer... I think they will meet after that long separation- She finally concluded. Laura smiled at her friend in gratitude for participating. Van added just one observation to throw out. –Lord, please accept Rachel Goldman into your arms so she can fill your kingdom with music. I also ask you for Coach Martínez, and for the purser Janet and our pilots Robert and Fred-

Ty had decided to let go of Victoria's hand, she looked at her out of the corner of her eye to confirm that she was okay. Laura Lee was about to finish praying for the deceased when Ty decided to intervene. “I'll go for a walk” she turned around and walked straight through the forest. Victoria stared at her. He wanted to go with her, he couldn't stand the idea of ​​hearing an “our father” coming from her friend. She believed in God, but at this moment the situation was drowning her more and more.

She swallowed again, determined to leave without explanation and follow Ty to wherever she went. –Amen- she released the chestnut ironically. She immediately copied the taller one's movements. She turned around and deigned to follow at a brisk pace.

–Taissa- She called her, she did not turn around, rather she gave him a knowing laugh. –Where are you going? – Asked the shorter one.

–Wherever my feet take me... will you accompany me?-

– Will we have deep talks? –

—Iugh passed- She declared, laughing at the opponent's proposal.

-Then I'll accompany you- Victoria hurried again to be close to the other. –Do you think we will find a treasure? – She joked.

—Do you think you are a pirate? – She asked with grace. The brunette raised her shoulders in response.

–We may find scattered clothes or a broken suitcase– She assured.

–I need to find Natalie's suitcase- –Ouu and why is that?-

–She has bottles of alcohol for sure-

–You're not wrong, she said herself that she had brought a few- They both laughed.

–Speaking of alcohol, wasn't it that you weren't going to drink for anything in the world? –

—In special situations I need some vitamin in my body– Both teenagers walked aimlessly in their minds. At times they remained silent after saying something that they needed to think about in silence but then they continued with other topics of conversation, none of them touched on topics that really needed to put a definitive pause on the talk or the walk. They had respected the code “no deep talks.”

Both of their feet were already starting to hurt and each one's stomach was growling louder and louder. "I think we should go back," Victoria said, stopping short. –My feet will swell if I don't rest for at least 30 minutes–

–You've been very soft lately…–

–Hmm… hello! I have a cut that has been hurting like hell for three days now – Ty rolled his eyes, turning his back on his companion. She looked everywhere, nothing seemed interesting in that space. But the girl had a hunch, there was something that would be fundamental for her and the team, she could feel it. (Maybe her curiosity to continue was driving her crazy). "Stay here, I'll take about ten more steps and come back," she informed Vic. She nodded without any problem while she leaned on a dry log.

Ty continued on his way, turning around steep grades and even some mud puddles. The ten steps had already passed and he had gotten too far from Victoria. She stopped when he regained consciousness. She had left Victoria alone in an unknown forest without any energy to run in case any danger threatened her life. Determined to return, she turned her head slowly. And, there she was. Just a few kilometers away is the treasure, the joy of the thirsty. Aquatic life. An immense lake called, she screamed for attention. A smile of abundant happiness spread across Ty's face.

Her energy and hopes returned to her and with all the euphoria he returned to where he walked to look for Victoria. Recognizing some footprints of his shoes near Victoria, he began to shout her name. "Victoria!!" When she heard her friend shout her name, horrible images came to her mind: “Did they attack her? Did she hurt herself? Did she fall off a cliff? Did an entity appear?” Thousands of unanswered questions invaded the girl's head. With the last of her strength Vic rose from the ground with a wandering movement, she had sprained her ankle.

–Victoria- Taissa appeared, giving Vic a surprise, making him scream in fear. –Victoria there is a lake! –

—Ty are you an idiot!? I thought something bad had happened to you… – she whispered with her hand on her chest to lower her heart rate. Ty's smile did not leave his face and that caused the brunette a slight confusion. -A lake? What with that? –

–If we move towards that place, we have more benefits, be it water, food and we are even out of danger, the forest is immense… anything can come out of the trees, and even the dead can rise…– She said with total sincerity. Victoria raised an eyebrow reproachfully.

–Don't talk like that… it's stupid – The opponent quickly apologized for what she had already said. –Your idea is not bad, in fact I'm already tired of that place and I need a bathroom… – Ty smiled even more when he heard how Vic agreed with her proposal. Now they had to tell the others and start moving. –One more thing…– Vic said. –I need you to carry me–

—No way-

–I won't be able to walk because I just bent my foot, plus these are already burning thanks to this girl scout walk, I need you to carry me– Taissa bit her inner cheek to think about it, she was also tired but not hurt, she was hungry but with renewed energy to run a few kilometers carrying her friend.

–Okay, but the moment my back doesn't give any more, I'll throw you away- Vic nodded without reproach.

<ᴾᵒᵛ 'ⱽⁱᶜᵗᵒʳⁱᵃ>

–She turns left, I can see the wing of the plane– Despite putting a lot of weight on Ty's back, she didn't leave me on the ground at any time. Ty's steps were strong but were already starting to slow; she had run more than four kilometers by herself without resting.

–Let me get off, we are close–

–It's not necessary, I'm fine and even more so, we're close… don't worry. Guide me where to go-

–Continue straight, you will see a somewhat curved tree, on the left we will be with the others– Ty nodded to my words. She held my legs tighter. I noticed that she took a breath and expelled it in a matter of seconds. It was obvious that she was going to start running. I held on to his shoulders out of instinct and security, I wasn't going to fall taking Ty to the ground with me.

Taissa began trotting her where I indicated. I remained silent, closing my eyes as I felt my abdominal wound being pressed every time by Taissa who jumped to avoid stepping on a stone.

Ty's steps calmed down, some voices of our companions could distinguish.

—I'll get off but take care of me— Ty asked me. I nodded firmly. When I touched the ground I allowed myself to release a sigh of defeat. In my face I adorned a terrible grimace from which my companion laughed. —What hurts you?— She asked when my left arm passed through his shoulders.

—the right foot is still weak— I replied to what she laughed again. —Talk they on the lake, I'll go with Misty to see if this is solved

—Okay …— Being in view of all the other Taissa spoke while I separated me from his support. —Girls! Girls I need to listen to me— he exclaimed calling the attention of anyone who listened.

For my part I died in looking for Misty while going through the middle of the others. Shauna was the first to get up and ask me if I was fine when I was breastfeeding from one leg. "It's nothing …" I hits my arm to prevent the chestnut from grabbing me. It was not necessary since Misty was a few meters away with coach Ben.

"You'll do with Misty?" She asked what I nodded when he felt his totally worried gaze focused on me. And I must admit that Shauna's eyes were not the only ones who looked at me.

—They give attention to Ty, he found a lake which can benefit us— I shouted trying well the words like that everyone understands me.

To the latter the murmurs of the others began to hear "a lake?" "Why would we need a lake?" Unconsciously my eyes rolled. Taissa continued, his voice was calm and with a hint of authority as much as hope. —We can walk?— I heard Shauna ask.

Misty smiled at me strangely. He moved away from the coach and put his hands on his hips while analyzing me from head to toe.

—Your ankle again, right?— It seemed my mother's attitude, when she was going to scold me.

—still sensitive …— I replied. She approached enough and then guided to a closed suitcase. It made me sit and extend my leg to support it in yours.

—It was your footwear, it is not very ideal to walk on rocky roads with these— She said when unbuttoning my sandal. —It is not serious, a slight swelling … if we had ice you would be better but … for now… rest— I nodded with a slight smile. She lifted again down my leg gently.

Suddenly the demanding voices of Jackie and Taissa were heard violently. We both turn towards your address. —And if the rescue arrives?— Jackie asked.

—Do you think they are taking effect? If they knew where we would have arrived— Ty replied.

An ironic snort left Jackie's lips. —You don't know that— She said. I turned to see Misty and to my surprise she returned to Martínez. It was like a damn tick.

Laura Lee's voice caused her to look at her, the girl asked the older about "what he thought." He began to doubt. I didn't know what to answer. His hands were still pressed his beheaded and that sincerely gave me shame to see. This was not Ben who knew. His voice trembled by saying that we would have to leave him for his condition. The blonde denied the idea. —We can do a … kind of stretcher— I proposed not listening to anyone contributing anything.

—We have a turn to load it …—Ty accepted my proposal with a smile from ear to ear as well as several girls. —It's a joke? You are also wrong, it limps like the damn janitor and danger to open your stomach when trying to load it— Jackie intervened. —I'm sorry but for me it is much better to stay here—

Sigh. Jackie was right, at this time I was also a burden for the group. Fucking fucking.

—It doesn't need her to load— said Van. —I can take your turn if necessary, it's called empathy in case you didn't know— he said sarcastically.

Vanessa Palmer, who would do without her? We both smiled with complicity. —We will have a vote— Ty proposed.

Capturing all the attention again. —All in favor of waiting here, please raise a hand— Several girls built. But they weren't enough. —And … all in favor of going to the lake?— And as expected, those who supported this idea were the majority, we had won. —It's decided, take your things—

<=>

The walk was extensive, but I had the advantage of knowing where to step on seeing my footprints. If I did not exaggerate so much, we had spent about 20 minutes walking, nothing wrong to be in a misaligned row with a somewhat heavy cargo.

Misty recommended looking for a resistant branch to support me and not put all my weight on my foot. The idea really served me but I continued with the inability to move to my liking. Just by my side was Lottie. During the walk he asked me of everything, if I was hungry or thirst or if it hurt too much, if I wanted to rest or rely on it. I denied her protective friend questions several times. It was sweet but did not need that kind of containment.

A rotten smell was installed in my nostrils. I turned to see if Lottie smelled exactly the same as me and confirmed it to see her press her nose with her fingers.

—Why smells like shit?— I asked. —I don't know … it's horrible— she replied, giving me a way to go on when he noticed that the road became smaller and smaller.

Natalie's back posed in my eyes. —Be careful— Lott told me to see certain deformation on earth.

—Holy Shit—Natalie exclaimed. Out of the corner of my eye I managed to see a dead creature on the ground. That was the rotten smell.

I had an arcade when I saw how a bird put its beak in the dead body of the animal feeding on it. —I'm going to vomit— I whispered.

Lottie touched my back so that I continued walking but faster. I heard Shauna ask about what I could do that. Ben replied that the wolves in herds were those indicated to attack that way.

—Hey… hmm Matthew … I think now if I want water—

<=>

We had walked approximately 7 kilometers, my body unconsciously took stock by not having more strength on my legs and occasionally my shoulder collided with Lottie's. This was trying to walk at my level and that appreciated it.

It was a matter of trusting whoever is to reach our destination. Again the rivalry previously formed between our captain and Ty showed off again in the air. I surrounded my eyes and exhale heavily when we noticed that we should raise an steep floor. I took with my last strength the thick branch of which I held and uploaded to me. The suitcase that carried with me did not bring me any benefit.

—Oh shit— Van exclaimed. —We got it bitches—

Then I hurried. I hurried to rise, to push a little stronger the suitcase that my skillful hand loaded behind me. I hurried my weak steps.

And I saw it. I saw the lake, I felt my cheeks burn when smiling at that place.

—Let's not waste time— Ty said when he arrived at my side. He took my shoulders and squeezed me next to her.

In seconds our rags were all over the place. The laughs flowed as much as the ice water that caressed my píes. The moment was fantastic.

—I want to say, be careful, don't make sudden movements why the points are very easy to get out … Victoria are you listening to me?—

—You have to be careful, okay?— She asked again, his voice was heavy to my ears that sought calm.

"Okay," Babbling . I feel that he moves away when she listens to my answer and knows that she is not happy for this. But I don't have the luxury of thinking. I can't even stand to keep my gaze on Natalie.

The blonde dominated my mind, some time had passed in which she had not seen her half -naked silhouette. And I don't want to sound like a stalker, much less a pervert. But his body was hypnotizing. I kept turning my back like that night I was the one who maintained my distance when I was on his back in front of her.

Natalie turned a microsecond and felt her eyes stick to mine. I had caught seeing her without containment.

I tried to evade his eyes, as I analyzed looking for the mini reaction of shame. I felt my shoulders tense and my jaw aggressively press.

"Too many clothes!" Someone screamed and then blatantly threw water at me. The shirt that covered me had been soaked by the joke of a redhead. —Make yourself to the water tare! Or are you afraid to become a siren?— Brome again. I laughed to listen to her.

—My feet are submerged— I said clearly and with a pinch of hesitation in my voice.

Vanessa denied. —I demand that you enjoy this lake in a decent way. Don't make me drag here— I surrounded my eyes for the third time in the day. But this time I agreed. My hands went to the edge of my shirt. —We have an exhibitionist among us— Again I heard the playful tone of the redhead. And I followed the game. I started to wiggle my hips while listening to applause, whistles and laughs of others. I am apocus my wet shirt came out of my body and my support was exposed to everyone. —cute bra!—Mari shouted. To what I turned to see her. And I realized that both Mari and the others had seen me do the show. Including Natalie.

My eyes went to the lips of the blonde by noticing as the word "sexy" silently spell. But I ignored her.

I ignored how my face was dyed with a violent crimson. I ignored how my heart accelerated. I ignored the sweat that had formed in my hands. And as if it were a siren as they said, I got into the water. Let me carry out the flow of this.

The fire we have with Scatorccio will never end. And we both know.

The group of survivors had fun under the mantle of the lake. The time they had passed under the era indefinable and that did not worry.

—I would kill for an ice cream— Little Victoria was surrounding her best friend. Charlotte doubted to share the chestnut response.

—I would kill for a fucking Sushi— She admitted the highest making the opposite laugh. They both had different tastes but wanted the same. Decent food —If we get out of here I swear I will buy all the ice cream you want— —Why?— Victoria asked. —I need to create promises to feel able to survive in this place— The jet replied with his head and a sad smile on his lips. —I want to fulfill all the promises I do—

Both young people kept silent. Victoria stretched her arms and wrapped Lottie in a hug. —We will continue from here … and when I do it, I will try to eat Chinese food— Charlotte omitted a laugh.

—You hate Asian food— he said and both fangs showed happily.

—If … that's why I said I will try— they both separated from the hug, the lowest of the two began to swim around the other.

The silence seized the talk. But a long distance reflection seized Lottie's interest. —Vic, look that— She said, pointing to his finger the restless reflection inside the forest. —That … it's interesting— Lottie nodded confused by continuing to see it.

Suddenly Lottie was screaming at others about that reflection in the hill. All when confirming what the girl had discovered hurriedly came out of the lake.

The reflection could mean two things. One: a part of the plane or two: a window of some cabin. But Lott had a bad feeling, his steps were doubtful and his shit was lost. I knew that I wanted to say something about this but he was silent, he swallowed his words. Although she had seen that reflection, it seems to be, that he regretted having found it.