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Just wondering if they'd have been friends ~ @miasonwing
#graytodd art#richard dick grayson#robin!dick#jason todd#stray!jason#dick and jason#digital art#fanart#manga panel#dickjay au#for my billy
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Soo, some dragons I had on my pocket a time ago :p
Yes yes, I like think they are some kind of gargantua in their maturity 👍
I love em btw ❤️💙
#my art#fanart#i love them#digital drawing#jason todd#dick grayson#jaydick#dickjay#dc nightwing#nightwing#dc red hood#red hood#dragon au
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Yesterday with a friend we created this AU i can't stop thinking about it. There's more, but i'll be posting Little by Little hehhe
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thinking about how Jason's apartments are shown to be serial killer pristine but Dick keeps house like an emancipated sixteen year old. if they lived together they would kill each other
#I never vibe with Jason's weird nice living spaces but next to Dick? perhaps#“it's your turn to disinfect the door knobs” “....what”#Jason following his trail of utensils and misplaced items n putting them away and dick turns around and loses it bc I WAS USING THAT?#roommates au of some kind...I see it#jaydick#dickjay#muir talking
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Actually going insane over the implications of Jason asking Dick to be the Robin to his Batman in Battle for the Cowl.
Like I initially took it at the purely surface-level of Jason wanting a partner in the general sense. Which made sense, it's a huge responsibility and a lonely one so an assistant/sidekick/partner seems a no-brainer if you can get one.
But then I really thought about it, because Jason is not asking Dick to be his partner in the general sense; he's not even asking Dick to be his Nightwing. He's asking Dick to be his Robin.
And they both know exactly what Jason means: "Be the light to my darkness. Be the smile to my scowl. Be the hope to my fear. "
He's saying "Be 'Robin'; be the embodiment of Love and Justice and Goodness. Be the exceptional person that you have always been. Be the slightly-less exceptional person that I was when I wore your colors. Be the person that I was in the process of becoming and might have been (or might still be), if only Joker hadn't clipped my wings."
He's saying "I am prepared to become vengeance, become the Night. And I will go further than Bruce ever dared to, because it is what is needed. I will be the necessary evil. But you don't have to be. If Batman is Gotham's curse, Robin has always been its blessing. I will be the brutal punishment to our world, and I am asking you to be its incandescent gift."
He's saying, "Be for me, what we were for Him. Be my anchor, my comfort, my hope. Remind me what it's all for, why it's all worth it. And remind yourself as well."
He's saying "Be 'Robin' again--for both of our sakes."
#dick grayson#jason todd#battle for the cowl#jaydick#dickjay#kinda but also not kinda#batman#dcu#otp: be my robin#'we can rule together as just it always should've been with you as my guiding light and conscience'#is that not in essence; a sort of marriage proposal ?#well no but it's not NOT one either if you catch my drift#i should note that i haven't actually read bftc yet and i know it's considered controversial/bad#and considered ooc for pretty much everyone#so i am not even sure if I will like it#but i am still planning on reading it for the jaydick crumbs#and b/c i am using it and knightfall as the primary inspo for my krisnix au#apparently jason does ask tim to be his robin first and that's interesting as well#but honestly a little less powerful/interesting to me at least since jaytim just doesn't interest me as much as jaydick#and honestly i've looked at the panels and it seems a little more genuine when jason asks dick idk#more like 'last chance; i'll let you live if you join me' for tim vs. 'join me because this feels right' for dick#and honestly even with clumsy execution; just the narrative and emotional richness of this scene is still making me absolutely feral#this arc could be complete trash in any and every other way but if it gives me THEMES; i will forgive anything#it's the former english major occupational hazard#*apollo justice voice *: I'M FINE#(narrator voice: she was not in fact fine)
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Jaydick Twitter au part 3 featuring trans Dick bc i started my period and wanted to project my pain onto him
#nightmare speaks#jaydick#dick grayson#jason todd#dickjay#tim drake#roy harper#artemis of bana mighdall#wally west#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#barbara gordon#damian wayne#batfam twitter au#dc#dc comics
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Secretary AU: A pipe has burst in Jason and Dami's apartment--they have to stay elsewhere for a week or so while it's repaired and things are being cleaned up and restored. Where are they staying, and how does Bruce make it so the manor is the obvious solution? 😂
It goes without saying that Bruce is the first to extend an invitation for Jason and Damian to stay at the manor while their apartment is being restored. A very eager, borderline aggressive invitation for how intensely it's offered lol.
Jason respectfully declining because Bruce is his boss; it'd be weird. A devastating blow to Bruce's heart, truly.
But Bruce isn't deterred. He insists.
And is promptly reprimanded by Tim who smacks him with a folder filled with contracts they need to review because Bruce is going to be the face of their next HR mandated training on harassment if he doesn't watch it.
Just Bruce tasting bitter defeat in the face of corporate culture and an amnesiac son who still doesn't remember him (and who Bruce had an ulterior motive to wanting to stay at the manor because maybe if Jason could stay in his old room, he would remember something. Something being Bruce. He misses his boy).
Tim offering to help find a hotel. Which he's already researched at length and has a list of suitable choices (all high end, safe, conveniently located on a route to/from the manor).
Jason being grateful for the effort up until he sees the unrealistic prices, at which point his smile drops to an unimpressed look of pure judgment because CEO and CFO salaries can afford this; Jason is a secretary.
Tim insisting WE will front the charges
Leading to Jason quipping about how Tim is going to be at the top of WE's audit risks this year, undoubtedly
And Tim can't even argue because either he's an audit risk or an HR problem - there's no winning
At which point Jason laughs and thanks his bosses for looking out for him, but Jason is fine. He can take care of himself. He's already got a motel booked.
Meanwhile, Bruce and Tim doing their utmost not to react to 'motel' like the rich bitties they are; they can't help it. They do ask which one though. And only let themselves visibly wither and die after Jason leaves the room because it's in such a dangerous location!! They know for a fact that there's an open investigation for a murder that happened on the premise; drug deals go down regularly in the alley just behind it!
Cue Batman and Robin wasting a portion of patrol monitoring the location. Stewing over the circumstances and startling when another pipe breaks.
It's an act of god (it's the League, courtesy of Talia who hears the news and refuses to have her son stay in such an environment) and, like the overbearing dorks they are, Bruce and Tim text Jason to check in, fully expecting news of needing a place for the night after all
The message they get instead: All good. Thanks.
The both of them thinking Jason is too proud or doesn't want to impose. But it's like, 2am and Jason is caring for a toddler. He needs support.
Which is precisely when Dick pulls up and Bruce and Tim (still as Batman and Robin) are so peeved because fucking dick.
But yes, Jason turns to Dick when everything at the motel goes tits up. Because somehow all the motels nearby are booked (again, courtesy of Talia) and Jason just needs help for a night, please.
So Dick comes over despite the late hour (and having been on patrol himself). He helps pack up the few things Jason and Damian have into the car, sends a cheeky little nod Batman and Robin's direction, and then they're off.
Which leads to the dickjay portion of this ask ///u////:
Where Dick's apartment isn't much of a home. It's not something Dick has ever cared about; he's not around enough for any comforts to matter.
Only he might care in that moment. Because Dick brings Jason over to this. Someplace empty and unwelcoming and cold.
'Did you get robbed?' Jason asks, a joke that Dick can't help but laugh at because he realizes that there really is nothing.
Because Dick moved abruptly. He left what little he had behind because everything he wants is here in Gotham now that Jason is back ;A;
But also because he genuinely stopped caring at some point and he's a bit staggered by the apathy in that - it's depressing.
It's such a contrast to Jason's apartment which is filled with warmth and life and comforts. Books on tables, Damian's art displayed on the fridge. Worn blankets folded over chairs and discolored drapes that paint shadows like lace across Jason's skin when the sun starts to set and they're sitting back on his couch and-
Dick's apartment isn't a home. And Dick might feel a little self-conscious about it because there's a vulnerability in exposing your home to someone and having there be so little. ;//////;
And Jason might not say anything, but he clues in. It gives him a new perspective on Dick and it's surprising, but he's not put off. Jason's more than familiar with having nothing and the slow process of finding things to build yourself (and your home) up.
But anyway. Dick showing Jason to the guest room. Scrambling to find which box he stowed away some quilts in. Passing off extra sweatshirts because they might not be enough to keep Jason and Damian warm.
And Jason calming him down by simply grabbing Dick's sleeve and looking up at him and telling him, 'thank you.' Because even if Dick feels it isn't enough, the gesture of being there in a time of need and putting himself out and wanting to do more for them means a lot more than Dick gives credit.
Stand by we're gonna get back to the building a home train of thought after this:
Where the next morning Dick is cooking breakfast for everyone and lowkey sweating because the domesticity is a lot
Jason coming out first (in Dick's sweatshirt and it might take Dick out at the knees a bit; might steal his breath) and being all endeared because Dick is cooking according to Damian's dietary restrictions and the thought is really sweet. ;U;
Something something wholesome breakfast while stood/sat at the counter. Dick, Jason, and Damian ahhhhhhhhh.
And that's how Bruce and Tim find them. Because they 'have a key' (they don't) and 'wanted to talk to Dick about a family matter' and 'oh, hey Jason didn't know you were here.'
Just the contrast of these two guys dressed to the nines while Dickjay + Damian are still in their sweats/pj's LOL
Then they all have breakfast together and it's sweet. It's a taste of the big family Dick misses from his childhood. <3
But yes, back to Dick's home being so scarce. Because of course by the time Jason and Damian leave to return to their apartment, Dick has Damian's art pinned to the fridge. As well as a blanket Jason knits (while on the clock at WE lol; Bruce and Tim are so jealous it's not even funny). It feels like this AU's Jason would know how to knit. Or he’d teach himself on the spot just for this.
Dick's home becoming more and more full of things as Dick sets down proper roots. Gifts from friends and family, second hand furnitures he picks up that Jason (+Tim and Bruce when they find out) helps him move in. (♡´艸`)
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i read this fic the other day that gave me an interesting idea for a jaydick fic. i have never written them i probably won't ever write this idea. it'd have to be a long fic for it to be satisfying
but the premise is just: what if dick was visiting jason's grave the day superboy prime decided to punch reality and therefore bringing back jason? and in this version superboy prime's punch reverts jason back to how he was before the joker got to him, none of his physical injuries present. the psychological damage is still there. i think i remember that his brain damage came from being hit by a truck as soon as he got out of his grave
but just dick visiting jason's grave, sitting down and talking to his gravestone when there's a sudden shift in the air lasting barely a second and then he can hear muffled cries from underneath him.
dick unsure how to react for a moment but the muffled cries continue and then he's running to borrow a spade from the groundskeeper. maybe they're there and try to stop him, maybe they're not and dick is alone in the graveyard except for the cries coming from jason's grave.
just dick being there to meet jason halfway as he tries to breakout of his coffin and crushing him to his chest because somehow jason is alive and they can figure out how and why later.
and maybe jason is confused because him and dick weren't close before he died and he's still disoriented from waking up in a coffin and why is dick crying and clutching him. but he lets himself be held because the last thing he remembers is being alone and knowing he's going to die and now he's not alone.
it'd be so interesting to explore how much that would change his dynamic with the family as a whole. wish i had the writing chops to flesh this more out.
#jaydick#dickjay#jason todd#dick grayson#dc robin#nightwing#batfam#batfamily#jaybin#it could be a gen fic where it's just exploring family dynamics#it could be a ship fic w them getting closer now#also had a thought of a soulmate au w pain sharing and dick knowing jason is his soulmate and feels the pain of him waking up#in his coffin and digging his way out and just calling out to uncle clark to come help him get his soulmate out of the ground faster
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Dilfwing...
I didn't mean to make an au but I did
this is the art equivalent of the PWP tag dffgnskdnfgdf
So Kory and Dick were married and had Mari, but they realized that together they became extremely toxic for each other and amicably divorced and now are coparenting. Jason is 18 and newly at college and picks up random odd jobs to make ends meet. He gets a job babysitting and ends up being the babysitter for Mari anyway this leads to fun times that I can't post on this site <3
find the rest over at my bsky
#batcest#dickjay#dilfwing#dick grayson#jason todd#f: dc#dc#scribbles#babysitter dcau#koriand'r#tumblr gods dont smite me pls#jason is transmasc in this au bc I said so#no capes au
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HI I thought you'd like to vote on this poll!!!! Because I hate how annoying people can be (and yes I voted for yes and that's the propaganda I'm trying to give here lol) don't feel forced to! https://www.tumblr.com/bibibusinessman/745499108695048193/do-you-support-batcest-even-for-not-legal-batkids?source=share
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Yes I would like to vote. Yes I did vote yes. And yes I am incredibly bitter about the amount of people in the tags and comments saying Babs and Steph aren't really BatFam members.
Like one, the fans at large didn't fight fucking hard to get Babs and Steph as officially recognized as BatFam members.
And two, Jim and Bruce are friends there's no way that baby Babs didn't call Bruce Uncle at least once. Dick//Babs is a Cousin Ship and I will die on that hill.
#batcest#batman#dcu#dc#dc au#dc comics#🐝 has spoken#anonymous#jaytim#timjay#brudick#dickbru#s: jaytim#s: brudick#s: batcest#damitim#timdami#dickdami#damidick#dicktim#timdick#dickjay#jaydick#jaydami#damijay#timcass#casstim#duketim#timduke#dickcass
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Nasty dog❤️🩹😋
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Absolutely random universe for the sake of designs🙏 (Similar to: Batfamily - mafiosi)
Dick looks like a prince and I am totally addicted to that image
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ТГК: Ночная улочка☆゚.*・。゚
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Hiii! Can I plant an idea in your wonderful brain? the batfam pampering their pack omega 🤭🤭🤭👀👀
I honestly drew this panel twice; the first option didn't seem to fit your suggestion. I hope this is what you were hoping for, anon !♪
#inbox#anon#thank you ♡#graytodd art#omegaverse#abo au#alpha!bats#omega!jason#digital art#fanart#hint of dickjay cause you know#alpha!dick gets overprotective over his omega ~~#he's the oldest after all#richard dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#duke thomas#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#damian wayne al ghul
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I'm still on, don't worry ⚰️
#my art#fanart#i love them#digital drawing#jason todd#jaydick#dick grayson#dickjay#mermaid au#nigthwing#red hood
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Olympics AU you say? 👀 Please tell me more
I essentially had a basic idea for a swimmer!Jason and gymnast!Dick, the same team and different sports meet cute idea that ended up getting a lot more fleshed out after a discord conversation 😆
The summary is basically they meet in 2008 in Beijing, Dick's second games but Jason's first, and there's an immediate attraction between them in the olympics village. But they're so focused on their sports they don't do anything about it, only for them to go home (Jason to Gotham because he was still adopted by ex-olympian Bruce, and Dick to his still alive parents who live in Bludhaven where there's a good gymnastics programme) and realise they don't live that far away from each other. Shenanigans ensue, both at home and during London 2012!
I've not started writing it yet, but I'll hopefully have it written before the end of the year ☺️❤️
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Dickjay, Brujay and Bruce/Slade (idk what would be the name of their ship 🤔) for the ask game :3
DickJay:
MY FAVE DC SHIP. Fun fact: I went from "I guess I should learn who the robins are" to shipping DickJay within 12 hours of reading Dick's Wiki entry. I read his and Jason's wiki pages and went "Jason should totally have a crush on the older guy, it'd be some psychosexual homoerotic brocon shit" and then immediately went to look up fanart. Before that, I was like 100% only a RiddleBat and maaaybe a BruDick shipper (I had only read like 20 of the very first Batman comics ever at the time I think?)
Ultimately I like them bc they don't work, so it's like a puzzle with extra pieces to me, trying to find a way to MAKE them fit together. Their canon relationship is thin enough that it can be molded, while being varied enough that it can apply to lots of different tropes and scenarios and still feel like them.
They're like a rubik's cube I can't quite solve but I'm having lots of fun along the way. Tragic, really.
BruJay is on my last post, I JUST answered it like 2 mins after getting your ask too and I'm on mobile so I cant exactly link it </3 but tldr: they're better to me when they're not fucking and instead just biting each other angrily. They're so raw. I love them.
Bruce/Slade:
I feel entirely neutral towards this ship other than I want them to meet for coffee and be like "why are all our kids fucking. What did we do to make such incestuous situations. What the fuck."
I will say the Bruce vs Slade fight in Arkhamverse (origins I think) was really good, when the rest of my experience with that game was uuuh not! I... I think that's their only interaction I've actually seen before, huh, I should fix that
#ask tag#thank you so much!!!#corn tag#batcest for blacklisting reasons#batcest#one of my lifes missions rn is to make a dickjay au thats canon compliant as much as possible where they end up married and its Not Working#its fun tho
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Flowers For My Love
One of my Dick /Jason wips. This one just won't get out of my head recently.
It's a soulmate hanahaki fic. 🌸
Check tags for possible tw / cw
Dick has known since Jason was Robin that they are soulmates. Jason didn't know because, at that time, he was too young for the bond to wake on his end, and Dick didn't tell anyone because he didn't want anyone or anything to influence Jason.
He's still a kid and he deserves to explore who he is and what he likes and have his own experiences like Dick did. He should make friends and date whoever he wants and not feel guilty for it. He refuses to take that from him.
So Dick balances his time with Jason very carefully. He makes sure that he isn't around too much. He's absent more than present but when he is around he makes sure that they spend some quality time together and have fun.
It doesn't matter if that's just sitting in the library talking about what book Jason is reading, playing a game or watching a movie together, going out, or even patrolling together. Sometimes Jason comes and stays with him at Bludhaven. Dick shows him his city and takes him train surfing.
It really is a balancing act for Dick. He doesn't want to woo Jason and doesn't want Jason to slot him into the brother role either. His plan is to be a fond yet distant presence in Jason's life until he is old enough to decide what he wants Dick as without Dick having influenced his decision. It's the only thing that seems right at this point.
He wants Jason to grow up with the same freedom he had and to decide what he wants them to be when he is old enough.
Then Jason dies and all Dick can do for years is mourn all the lost time and the future they didn't get to have together.
After Jason comes back and has really started to settle from the pit madness, Dick tries to tell Jason that they are soulmates. He had tried waiting for the "perfect time" to tell him before, and Jason had died. Dick isn't going to make that mistake again.
This time he has rushed it too much.
The remaining effects/magic from the Lazarus pit are still blocking Jason's side of the bond from waking, and without that connection Jason doesn't believe him. The pit rage surges with a fury. Jason thinks Dick is lying to him, trying to manipulate him and Jason is deeply hurt and feels so betrayed. Dick knows how much having a soulmate means to him, and the belief that Dick would use that is crushing.
Dick coughs up his first petals that night.
He doesn't have hanahaki yet. This is a precursor, a warning. There are no ill effects, just the occasional petals. Jason didn't reject him. He just didn't believe Dick.
But things get worse.
Jason is furious. He avoids Dick and, by extension, the rest of the Bats. Everyone is confused by this sudden change. and not so secretly blaming Bruce. Dick is desperate and scared. He just wants to talk with Jason. When he does, it turns into a huge blow-up that becomes incredibly vicious and cruel. In the end, Jason leaves Gotham. Dick leaves the fight heartbroken and not only with hanahaki but the aggressive variant that can kill in a few short months.
Bruce finds out about the hanahaki first, but even he doesn't figure it out until it has already reached the point that it's dangerously critical. He has to hospitalize Dick in the cave and within just a few days Dick requires extensive medical assistance to survive.
Bruce has had the surgery for hanahaki and they have a conversation that turns into a fight. Bruce is demanding that Dick get the surgery and Dick adamantly refuses.
Bruce has the same problem that everyone who has the surgery has. He can't feel love or any of the connected emotions such as compassion, affection, fondness, or tenderness. He can, however, still feel off shades of happiness or pride, a detached sense of pleased, satisfaction, or contentment. He can feel frightened, angry, and responsible.
He can feel deeply possessive.
Bruce can feel all of his negative emotions just fine but the good ones are so much harder to get to now and they aren't as full and complete. But those few bright and beautiful moments in his life are all connected to his family and he can still vaguely remember what it felt like to love his son.
So, he logics it all out in his head that Dick is emotionally compromised and can't be trusted to make this decision. That he knows better than anyone that after the surgery, Dick will be okay and even thank him for this. Dick doesn't need love like he believes. He can use logic and the code to navigate life like he does.
Bruce sets up the surgery for Dick.
He uses Dick's trust in him to drug him and take him in for it.
The hospital staff doesn't account for a Bat's tolerance, and Dick wakes up while they are still preparing him. Dick absolutely freaks out. He tells them he hasn't consented to the surgery. That he doesn’t want it. The staff already knows. Bruce has already taken care of that. Dick tries begging. He's crying and pleading with them.
"Please, don't do this to me." They just put him under. "You'll destroy me."
Dick goes under but never really comes back up.
He is not okay. Bruce thought Dick could live on cold logic and reason. He thought that Dick followed his code because he believed in it. Bruce believed that he was doing what was best for Dick and that when Dick woke up, he would see that.
Bruce was wrong.
There are a few reasons it is so extremely illegal to force someone into this surgery. One of those reasons is because the state of mind they are in has an enormous impact on how they come out of the surgery. Things like depression, suicide rate, or probability to turn violent are deeply affected by there mental state before their surgery. Patients are supposed to have as much therapy as they can manage beforehand. Then afterwards they need a strong and dedicated support team for the rest of their lives.
Another reason is that because without love or compassion it's nearly impossible to forgive.
Dick wakes up with a screaming void ripped into him. It radiates a cold so severe it burns his soul. Dick is furious. Bruce has betrayed him. Bruce has ruined him. He has literally torn apart his soul and stolen all of Dick's love, extinguishing any hope he had left with it.
Now there isn't anything to stop Dick from pouring his fury and pain out onto Bruce and all of Gotham. If Gotham thought it had seen the worst a Bat could do under the Red Hood's fury. Then it hasn't seen anything yet.
Because Nightwing no longer has any mercy left to give.
The streets of Gotham will run red with his wrath and pain.
Meanwhile, space and time to think is exactly what Jason needed to get his head on straight again. He is doing much better when word of Dicks condition reaches him. When Jason hears that Dick has hanahaki, he rushes home to find Dick.
He's two days too late.
If Bruce would have waited just two more days.
When Jason does find him, Dick is standing in the middle of a warehouse turned bloodbath. They talk, and Dick tells him precisely what happened and about just how broken he feels now. He spares no detail, but neither does he embellish anything.
Jason clutches Dick as tight against himself as he can. Like, if he holds Dick close enough, he can merge his heart with Dick's. As if their broken pieces can heal together and make something whole and new.
"I love you, I have always loved you," Jason breathes the words against Dick's skin like an apology from deep within his soul meant to reach the same depth within Dick's.
"I loved you once," Dick murmurs back. "I meant to love you always."
Jason coughs up his first petals.
Jason's hanahaki is the excruciatingly slow variant. Dick didn't reject him, the exact opposite in fact. However, now, by no choice of his own, Dick is unable to love Jason.
Jason feels crushingly guilty for what happened to Dick. The way he sees it, if he would have just trusted Dick or at least not ran away then this would have never happened to him. It makes Jason cling to Dick all the tighter.
"I don't want to lose you again, please, will you let me stay with you." For a long moment Dick just stares at him. His expression having never been more impossible to read before.
"I don't think I want to be alone," Dick answers after a painfully long silence.
Dick is set hard core on his revenge path against Bruce and this is something that Jason understands in spades. The thing is that Dick is really unstable right now. Just like Bruce, he's unable to feel any kind of love anymore and that includes all the adjacent emotions to it as well. Dick remembers feeling the full range of emotions. He remembers fond affection, passionate love, warm compassion and just being able to care. He remembers what it felt like to love his family and remembering hurts.
So instead, he burns with his anger, betrayal, hate, and pain. It's an icy fury that can't be banked and knows no end.
He's hurting and he doesn't know how to stop anymore. Not when the anger is the only thing keeping him going.
This leaves Jason as the voice of reason and as the one who has to throw the brakes on when things start to go too far. Jason has to help Dick realize when enough is enough. Dick always listens. If Jason is saying, "This is too much," then it has to have gone too far. He doesn't question Jason. He trusts him.
Dick struggles with both raging fury and stretches of deep depression. Sometimes swinging straight from one extreme to the other. Jason tries to help Dick modulate his emotions and mental state. Their relationship is rather unhealthy. Jason clings to Dick, refusing to leave him, and Dick ends up becoming really possessive of Jason.
Jason is with Dick nearly from the very beginning of his new life, and he is his grounding point. Dick knows he's better when he is with Jason, and he feels better around him. Just because Dick can't love that doesn't mean that he can't feel any good emotions. He still feels shades of happiness or excitement. Dick can't love Jason, but that doesn't mean that he can't enjoy him. He still has physical needs, and the way he sees it since he and Jason are supposed to be soulmates, it makes sense to go to him for sex.
He means it as a kindness. He doesn't want to hurt Jason, and Dick understands that him sleeping with other people would hurt Jason. So, if Jason meets his needs and keeps him satisfied, then he will only be with Jason. Even if he sees someone else he wants, in order to keep things good between them, he'll abstain.
He basically hands Jason an ultimatum though he doesn't actually mean to.
It doesn't occur to Dick that sex with him now might be heartbreaking. That, because it will mean more to Jason than simple gratification like it is for Dick. It will be a special kind of torture.
He has no idea why Jason cries in the shower after they're done that first time. He doesn't ask though, Jason had obviously been trying to hide it and Dick isn't sure he actually wants to know.
So with Jason as both his grounding point and the source of most of his positive feelings Dick becomes highly possessive and dependent on him.
"How long are you going to stay with me," Dick asks into the dark, sad and hurt and so very scared.
"My entire life Dickie. I won't leave you until the very end," Jason promises.
They both know that end is coming too soon.
Another problem is that Dick knows he isn't really good for Jason. Even though he really does try there are still times when he is unintentionally cruel. Despite this Dick can't let Jason go.
"I'm going to keep hurting you, and sometimes I won't even care that I am." Dick is going through another bout of depression.
"I know Dickiebird, and I'll let you, I'll forgive you, and I'll stay." Jason does his best to take care of him and reassure him. To help his soulmate claw his way back out of the darkness he has fallen into.
The people of Gotham quickly take notice of Nightwing becoming a merciless killer. The few that still believe in law and justice mourn the fall of a hero. The good but down trodden of Gotham that are starving for protection, relief and change see him the same as they do Red Hood. As what Gotham really needs. As someone that will be the catalyst for a change for the better. The criminals only see death.
A lot of theories get thrown around. The most prevalent is that he just finally snapped. That someone can only face the worst of humanity every day for so long before they can't take it anymore. After all, what change do the Bats see? They just face the same goons and villains every night on repeat.
But there are a few who see and recognize the signs, and they know.
Nightwing, a beloved hero, went down and never got back up.
Jason lasts a couple of years with the slow, torturous progression of his hanahaki. If he got the surgery, he could save his life, but that isn't even a consideration. He doesn't want it, and even more than that, he could never do that to Dick.
Jason had read once that the flowers are a physical manifestation of the shattered pieces of a person's soul after being rejected by their soulmate, like petals falling off a dying flower. He had always thought that it was people romanticizing hanahaki.
He isn't so sure now.
He thinks that someone stripped Dick of all his soft and loving petals and cauterized the wound where he was bleeding out, leaving only a thorny stem that remembers and mourns when it was once a flower.
It's cruel.
But he sees how hard Dick tries. Even now, with no love left in him, Dick still tries so damn hard for the people he remembers once loving. He shows it to most by refusing to see them. By telling them over and over when they hunt him down that the Dick Grayson they knew died on that operating table. That he is just the ghoul left behind to haunt them, seeking vengeance for the sin committed against him.
God, does Jason get it. He understands exactly how Dick feels.
Dick is different with him. He clutches tight to Jason and never lets go. Not even when Dick cuts deep into Jason and leaves him emotionally bleeding. Even then, Jason is grateful. There isn't anywhere else that he wants to be than with Dick.
When Jason's condition gets to the point that he has to be hospitalized, Dick stays with him. He feels a sense of responsibility for him and is grateful to Jason for all he has done for him, and frankly, he wants every last second he has with Jason before he loses him forever. So, he stays with him through long days and sleepless nights. Even when the rest of the family comes to see Jason, Dick doesn't leave.
There isn't much the hospital can do for him. Jason is mostly there for comfort care, but he refuses most of the pain meds. They mess with his head too much and make him sleepy, and he doesn't want to waste any of the time he has with Dick. He has been living with this pain for years now. He knows how to endure it.
It's close to the end, and Jason will have to be fully intubated soon. They have put it off as long as they can. When they intubate him, he will have to go on sedatives until he passes. Dick is lying in bed with Jason cuddled close to him.
Dick sets up and leans over Jason to look him in the eyes. “Let's try again in our next life. This was all wrong, but if we hadn't had our chance stolen, we could have been beautiful together. So promise me that we will try again.”
“I promise, for all our lives, however many that may be.” It's obviously painful and a herculean task, but Jason does it even as it leaves him struggling to catch his breath.
Dick holds his gaze and dredges up every last scrap of memory he has of love. He digs up the warm soft, and tender affection and hot and deep passion. He tries to fill himself with it. He kisses Jason and tries his hardest to give everything he used to feel, all that had always belonged to Jason, back to him in that moment.
“It's okay, Little Wing, let go. I'll be right behind you.”
Jason never sees Dick slip the needle into his IV. After Dick injects the lethal amount of morphine, he simply falls asleep and never wakes.
Dick wouldn't let Jason needlessly suffer through the last few days, and he wouldn't let the hanahaki steal his life. It belonged to him.
After he is certain that Jason is gone, he slips out of the hospital. He makes a single stop by a florist to pick up an order he had placed two days earlier. It is a truly massive bouquet with what a casual observer would consider a bizarre mix of flowers. To Dick, it's perfect and terribly beautiful.
Scabious - unfortunate love
Carolina rose - love is dangerous.
cypress flower - eternal love, memories of past love, or love that's unrequited or in vain.
Orange Blossom - Innocence. Eternal love
Primrose flowers - I can’t live without you
Hyacinths - Please forgive me
Blue hydrangeas - forgiveness, rejection, and regret - gratitude, grace, and beauty.
Sweetpeas - Departure, remember me, good-bye, a tender memory, thank you for a lovely time.
wisteria - devotion that transcends death
marigold - the brevity of life, despaired love, grief, sorrow, despair, and mourning, remembering the dead, power, strength
cyclamen - a new path in life, separation, goodbye or resignation
Love-lies-bleeding - hopeless love or hopelessness
Bleeding Heart - Unconditional love, Heartbreak and sadness, unrequited love
All flowers that Jason had coughed up and choked on over the years. Flowers that Jason had grown just for him.
Flowers for his love.
Dick heads to the top of the highest building overlooking Robinson Park, the place where Haly's Circus performed. He very carefully situates his bouquet by the edge and then climbs up onto it.
“Dick, what do you want?” Bruce asks from behind him.
It might seem like an odd question, but for them, it isn't. They both know what he's doing, and Bruce knows that it's because Jason is gone. What he doesn't understand is what Dick is hoping to achieve by doing this.
Dick looks out over the park where his parents fell to their deaths. Bruce had been there that night. It seems fitting that he will watch the last Flying Grayson fall as well.
“I just want to be with him,” Dick answers without turning to face him. “We'll get it right next time.”
Dick had grown his flowers for Jason when he wasn't there to receive them, and they had been stolen away before he could make it back to Dick, but now Dick falls for Jason just like he has so many times before.
Jason is waiting for him, and they will get it right next time.
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