#dez did it best

[slashdementia7734]

1982.

[deztryx]

DEZ CAN WE SEE BRAWLLOUT POCO AND DRACO INTERACTING OR JUST COMFORTING EACH OTHER??? 🥺🥺/nf/vpos

YEAAHHHHHHH🗣🗣🗣‼️‼️‼️

Im gonna tweak

Okay so both poco and draco are wandering musicians, they travel all around the wastelands performing in different areas to make caps(money) or just to brighten people's mood since the wastelands is dookie

Unfortunately for Poco, he has bone cancer because of the lot of radiation he's been exposed to. Draco been there comforting him and doing his best to take care of him

Sadly he passed away, his last wish was to be buried by his lover (Emz) Draco did so, Draco had a crush on poco way before the war/bombs, he always loved him but he was with emz so he thought he never had a chance, his regret was that he never told his true feelings to poco, "adios amigo" was the last thing he said to pocos grave before leaving.

GUJHHHH I LOVE THESE TWO SM EJVXJEHF

[davenportia]

lab rats, if it was not produced by disney, or at least not disney xd (maybe netflix or disney+) would have been a much better show. bryan and chris did a great job with what they had but unfortunately were working for disney. if you’re following my insta, you heard me talking about this on my story yesterday, but i’m going to try to type it all out here. trigger warning, trauma, abuse, and deaths. i will also do another warning right before the topic is brought up. here we go

time: i am aware that disney shows whether channel or xd only have a certain amount of time for table reads, filming, editing, and then airing. for a show especially like liv and maddie, they REALLY didn’t have time as dove had to film everything twice. disney episodes, unless a special episode, are usually between 24-30 minutes. but it’s so annoying how everything gets solved so fast. the laugh tracks (i am very used to them but i am aware that people find them annoying). it’s not very realistic that way. now to swiftly move to the next topic, scripts and reality

scripts and reality: even a show like fuller house on netflix, which also only had 24-30 minute episodes, had a more realities script. disney said “tweeter, twits, facegab, e-phone, madame googoo, vuuugle” because they’re cheap, fuller house would say “new kids on the block, facebook, nintendo, hamilton, pippin” ACTUALLY NAMES OF things. even outside of that, they talked like normal people would. in a disney show, something would go wrong, they would cut to commercial break, then come back and say “i can’t believe you ____! how are we going to fix this?!” NO ONE talks like that except for disney characters. whyyyy

characters:

adam; he was the token dumb character and honestly, not a nice person. i know that disney always has sassy characters but adam was just rude and didn’t have a filter. there should have been more to his character. maybe he would have had some sort of special interest like dez from austin and ally. dez was dumb but had his sweet moments and was a really good filmmaker and director. all adam seems to do is make fun of others and use his super strength. he should have been more useful outside of his bionics. had some sort of personality other than being dumb.

bree, trigger warning - drinking? ; bree, desperately wanting to be a normal teenager, would have gone crazy with partying. literally in the first episode, she said she was close to getting a curfew she was going to break. she wanted to be rebellious from the first episode. bree would have been one of those teens that either did not want to grow up or wanted to grow up too fast. she may have even been a bit of a rebel in school. not too bad, but like getting detention sometimes. once she grew out of that phase possibly, she would have had an identity crisis. and yes, i mean that kind. she was not straight. there’s no way. she should have struggled with her sexuality. maybe even a potential love interest that was a girl. i mean, considering she was the only girl besides tasha, there should have been some sort of identity issues with her.

chase; chase probably could have been explored the most. disclaimer, i promise i am not being biased by saying that; i just know him the best out of all the characters. chase is the smartest man in the world and in my opinion, was way too sane. katie from alexa and katie would get overwhelmed thinking about high school and college and would have panic attacks. chase was stressed out a lot and probably should have had panic attacks. and it pains me to say that because the last thing i want is for him to have mental health problems but it’s very realistic that he would have struggled with anxiety and panic attacks. additionally, i have seen a lot of people say this, i could see him being autistic. i don’t think he is, but if someone were to confirm it somehow, i would totally see it. i could see him being overstimulated and like how he jumps up and down when he’s excited? that could be him stimming. also, i’ve always wondered this, isn’t it painful to use his bionic eye? i feel like i would get headaches. and then all the apps he has? commando app (i will talk about spike momentarily), magnetism app, override app (no pressure??), internal hard drive, laser bow, molecular kinesis, super senses, levitation (which was only used once wtf), and obviously, super intelligence. think about how overwhelming that is, and they called him WEAK? bro was holding the team together. even if he weren’t autistic, he should have gotten overstimulated more.

follow up- spike; i’m going to be incredibly contradictory here but just bare with me. what the fuck did spike even do? he just caused destruction and distress for chase. when chase was nervous, mad, or embarrassed, he came out, but only when the episode revolved around him. i understand davenport’s intentions: remove the flight part of fight or flight, but why did he make him so angry? and also, i think that’s a bit insulting to chase, as if saying he’s too weak to handle himself. ugh, the very little he did was just useless. i wish we had gotten more of him and that he had had a bigger role. he was written terribly and never came out when he really should have come out. leo’s jam, trent gets schooled, rise of the secret soldiers, bionic rebellion, space colony, and the attack episode are all examples of where spike could have come out because chase was embarrassed or upset. also chase clearly didn’t like spike being a part of him. why did davenport never realize this and remove him when not only does chase not like him but also, he was doing anything but help chase.

leo- trigger warning, mentions of divorce, abuse, possible death; did the writers forget the literal first scene of the show? his mom literally got remarried. what happened to leo’s dad? did they get a divorce. did leo’s dad die? was he abusive? was he not around? so many questions. and we know they were married because leo excitedly said “my 𝐧𝐞𝐰 dad is batman!” so it’s not like tasha and leo’s biological father had a baby but were never married. in ‘can i borrow the helicopter?’ leo confides in davenport about his crush on janelle and he told tasha, which leo was upset about, but he had the opportunity to be more upset than he was. maybe his old dad never would have done that. maybe he’s used to it so he wasn’t as upset but he never thought davenport would have done that to him. he also forgave him way too fast (again, fast-paced episodes😒). he also should’ve had a harder time adapting to gaining 3 siblings after being an only child his whole life. i mean, even chase - who already had a brother - had a hard time gaining even on sibling. other than familial life and possible trauma leo could have had, i don’t have much to say about the character. he was written pretty well and had some awesome lines

i’m going to make a part 2 so stay tuned!

[bruhhhh-huhhhhh]

hear me out

hear me out

surely you’ve heard girl crush (the harry styles cover) right?

think you could write some junkerqueen x reader with that? it could be either way, i just need more junkerqueen. thanks so much <333

RAHHHH I haven't heard it until now but GOD ITS GOOD

I wasn't sure how angsty I wanted to make this, so I apologize in advance. I will not be paying for anyone's therapy.

Also this took much longer than expected, so sorry bout that T~T

Girl Crush (JunkerQueen x Reader)

You didn't think much of the attraction that you felt toward the queen of Junker Town. She was tall, buff as hell, and pretty. What wasn't to like?

You caught her attention almost immediately. It was already custom for her to greet anyone that came to Junker Town, but when she seemed extra enthusiastic when she welcomed you. A wide smile spread across her lips and she shook your hand firmly, not wanting to let go.

You were short compared to her. Everyone was. But the height difference felt right to Odessa. She wasn't even sure why, but she had an infatuation with you ever since that first meeting. Dez kept tabs on you throughout your time at Junker Town. The two of you often hung out around her place where you'd help her with some of her duties. The two of you were fast friends.

So, imagine her surprise when she finds out that you're a member of Overwatch there to try and recruit her. Dez thought she knew you pretty well, but to think that you were a part of this and didn't tell her? It surprised her.

Still, she accepted your offer. You were overjoyed. Odessa quickly put her council in charge while she was gone, warning every one of her subjects to behave. The council wished the two of you well, and you were off. There was a hovercraft waiting for the two of you with Tracer and Cassidy waiting inside.

Cole welcomed you in, pulling you into a hug and smiling widely. It rubbed the queen the wrong way, but she brushed it off and cleared her throat. You and the cowboy quickly detached, your face slightly red. Cassidy shook Odessa's hand and welcomed her.

Tracer warned the three of you that she was going to be taking off soon. You helped Dez get into a seat and get buckled in before sitting next to her. Cole then helped you, despite your protests, and sat down on the other side of you.

At this point, Junker Queen was staring daggers into the man. You'd only been in Junker Town for just under a year, but she felt rather protective over you.

The whole ride back to Gibraltar consisted of the two of you catching up. Cole flirted with you occasionally, earning an eye roll from you and a clenched jaw from Dez. Still, she said nothing and tried to talk about what being in Overwatch would consist of. Every time she tried, the conversation ended up going back to you and Cole reminiscing.

By the time the hovercraft landed, Odessa was irate. She wanted nothing more than to tear that stupid cowboy's smile off his face and then take the rest of his head with it. You noticed her tense posture and look and tried to ask her about it, but Dez just brushed you off and asked to go to her room. You quickly lead her over to it, assuming that she was just homesick, and wished her a good night.

Dez barely slept. Every time she closed her eyes, she could only see you and Cole flirting. What did he have that she didn't? Dez always prided herself on her good looks and fit body, but is that not what you wanted? Cole was soft on the eyes and less toned than she was. He just seemed so...soft. Compared to Odessa's sharpness, it seemed like the better option.

Those next few weeks consisted of her sulking around the base, trying her best to avoid you and Cassidy. It didn't work much since she had to see you every time she wanted to have a meal, but she made due. You, Cole, Hanzo, and Genji all sat together at one corner of the room. Every time you saw Dez you would wave her over to come and sit next to you. She did the first time, the morning after her sulking session, but never again after that.

The whole meal consisted of Cole flirting with you. Or, what she thought was flirting. If she had actually been paying attention, then she would have noticed the blush that spread across Hanzo's cheeks every time Cole looked at him or the subtle way that they would hold hands under the table. But, since she was so focused on you and Cole, she didn't notice any of those things. She didn't even notice the horribly hidden hickeys and bite marks on each of the men's necks and collarbones.

After that breakfast, Dez ended up sitting by herself on the opposite side of the room. Still, her eyes wandered to you every time she looked up from her food. Sometimes you would lock eyes with her, and in those small looks you would question her.

What's wrong? Your eyes asked.

And every time, she would shake her head and break eye contact.

After a while of this, you ended up cornering her after training. You hadn't known what to do, and Cole was the one who advised you to do this.

~~~

"She won't even look at me, Cole! What did I do?" you asked. You and the gunslinger were currently sitting on his bed like you did every time you hung out. Cole just rolled his eyes and look over at you.

"Ya gotta corner her. Ask her what's going on and don't give her the chance to run away. It's what I do with Han all the time," he explained, getting up and walking over to his desk. On it sat various pictures. The ones of him and Hanzo ranged from the two of them smiling to the archer meditating. There were a lot of group pictures from his time in Blackwatch to his time now. There were even a few of him with Ashe. Cole dug through the drawer before pulling out his cigars and lighting one. "Now, get outta here. I'm gonna go see Hanzo in a bit and I have to look presentable."

You rolled your eyes and stood up. "Like it isn't going to end with the two of you naked anyway," you said sarcastically.

"Not always. Sometimes we like to-"

"NOPE. Don't wanna hear about your sex life. Bye, Cole," you cut him off and practically ran out of his room.

~~~

Now you're here, a giant of a woman stuck in a corner because you demand to talk. "What's going on?" You asked.

"Nothin'," Dez said.

"Bullshit. You won't even look at me anymore when we used to share a bed back at Junker Town. Did I do something?"

The look of worry on your face sent a pang of guilt through the junker's heart. She looked away from you before sighing and deciding to just ask what's been on her mind. "Are you and that cowboy dating?"

You choked on your own spit and looked up Dez. "What?! No! God, I'd rather die than date him. Besides, Hanzo would kill me if I tried to take his man."

That last comment shocked Odessa. How hadn't she realized that they were together? Now that she thinks back to every time that the two of them had been together. Stealing glances and brushing hands. It was so glaringly obvious now that she thought about it.

Dez couldn't help but laugh, relief flooding through her.

"What is it, Dez? What's so funny?"

"I thought you two were...you know. God, I feel so stupid now."

"Why would it even matter?" You asked innocently.

Odessa looked at you, shocked. As you had mentioned earlier, the two of you would share a bed back at Junker Town. Almost every minute of the day was spent together. She thought she made her crush pretty obvious.

"Because I like you, you drongo," she said after a long bout of silence.

Shock flooded through you and you just stared at the woman in front of you for a while. How had you not realized? You obviously liked her back, but you thought it was a one-sided thing.

Dez started to back track before you brought a hand up to her cheek and went up on your tip toes. All you could stare at was her lips. Dez seemed to realize what you were trying to do and leaned down to make things easier on you. "Can I?" you asked.

Odessa just nodded and you pressed your lips to hers. They were slightly chapped, but you didn't mind. All you could think about was how good they felt against yours. When you pulled away, you and Dez just looked at each other, your faces still close together.

The two of you stayed like that for a while before you heard footsteps getting closer to the training room. You quickly took a step back, staring at the door. Dez detested that but didn't pull you back just yet. Instead, she waited until the footsteps went away before she kissed you again, this time with more passion.

The kiss left you breathless, and the junker smiled. "Let's take this back to my room, yeah?"

You could only nod.

[abraxo-official]

hey! It’s my birthday! Jew, how do you thingk peole in the wasteland celebrate birthdays and shit? Like cannonicly they celebrate Christmas and Halloween but what else?

How people celebrate birthdays in the fallout universe!

I did this by faction, hope that’s ok :)

Do raiders/watelanders know their birthdays? Their parents would have to survive through childbirth and to the point where a child can grasp the concept. Even then, would they celebrate? For many, being born in the post-nuclear apocalypse feels like a curse but do they still value their souls to the point they accept their existence? What about ghouls? Do they still keep living out of fear of the unknown, yet resent growing older with each passing day? Would they still care? 

Personally, I love the concept of raiders being akin to a kindergarten class when it comes to birthdays. Someone brings in a huge box of Fancy Lad Snack Cakes and they go to town. Most likely not presents, but a bit more respect and kindness. After all, isn’t that the best gift in the wasteland? To know someone cares?

The brotherhood would probably award the participating party with half a day off to do whatever. Many probably have family members who are outside of the brotherhood’s ranks, or in Fo4, back in the capital wastes. Giving time off (as a reward) can allow for communication between loved ones, boosting morale and giving something to work for. I can just see a knight stepping out of their power armor and heading downtown to see magnolia sing. 

No one in the institute would celebrate birthdays in a sentimental manner. Many will be recognized for a good job they did since they were first created/employed, but aside from that, birthdays will be scarce.

In the railroad, parties are kinda a big thing, mostly due to decon. Dez thinks it’s all a waste of time, but also secretly enjoys some levity. Lots of pranks and shananagins and cake smashing. It’ll be fun until someone runs in interrupting about some synth or safe house lost.  Then back to business as usual.  - (Side note: I headcannon the brotherhood interrupting during glory’s birthday party :). )

Minutemen is a bit tricky tbh. As a group, they definitely can spare a bit of supplies for a higher-ups birthday. If it’s just a regular soldier, they’ll probably get a pat on the back and a few nice words from Preston, with maybe so ammo. They don’t have a lot of time to spare, as well as materials to make it happen. 

At home, (with the individual families and settlements), it’s hard to day. Depends on the person���s situation and preferences.

I think a lot of people celebrate turning a year older on new years. I’m guessing NYE is kinda a big deal. Like, we survived another year! Isn’t that great? And notjust us, but the world as we know it. Things shift, but they also stay the same. But war. War never changes. 

Thanks anon for giving me this prompt!

[hannah-shipper-banana]

I’m bored so here’s a ranking of the Austin and Ally seasons IMO

4) Season 1

It was cute. They were all such babies.

It was goofy and the songs were bops. No drama, just fun.

What was the wardrobe department smoking tho , because why did they have Ally (a 14/15 year old girl) looking like a grandma? Austin, you’re not getting away with your wardrobe choices either buddy.

3) Season 4 (there i said it)

In terms of comfort episodes, this season has it all for me. No drama (until towards the end of the season) just vibes.

The comedy for sure matured and the characters were developed and grown up.

Also AUSLLYYYYY. They were 100% married for the entirety of the last season, no one could tell me otherwise. They were just living their best life being happy. They all acted like normal high school teens in this season which I liked. (I liked when they got to be normal teens instead of pop stars all the time)

Austin and Ally were in FULL mom and dad mode with season with Trish and Dez being the fun aunt and uncle.

Also younger me (and low key present me) wanted Ally’s wardrobe. SUCH an improvement from season 1.

Genuinely such a funny season with a lot of funny episodes.

BUT I low key missed Sonic Boom and there were a lot of filler episodes (IMO). Also idk if its just me but I felt like they were acting more grown up than they actually were.

Also where were all the performances? Where were the Auslly at the piano scenes? WHAT WAS UP WITH AUSTIN’S HAIR?

With all that being said I still really loved this season.

2) Season 2

The writers really did that!

The comedy, the goofiness, the angst, the drama, the romance! THE WARDROBE CHANGE!

THE FUCKING PERFORMANCES! (That ‘Better Than This performance’ + that ‘Tunes and Trials’ episode lives in my head rent free)

BABY AUSLLY! THE BEGINNING OF THEIR LOVE STORY! ALLY LOSING HER STAGE FRIGHT! WHAT WAS IN THAT MF NOTE?!

That finale still has me in pieces

The comedy was still kinda childish but it was a Disney show! Come on now.

THIS was the season that hooked me onto the show. MWAH chef’s kiss.

AND COMING IN AT #1, WE HAVE SEASON 3!

I don’t know what the writers were on this season but MY GOD!

This was peak Disney Channel greatness for me. Younger me was SHOOK!

The comedy was matured and the episodes were entertaining af.

The angst and THE DRAMA!! THE JEALOUSY!!!

Cannot think of a bad episode this season. (Well…)

THAT FINALEEEEEE! THE BIG I LOVE YOU SCENE!

Started off with Austin and Ally missing each other while he was on tour, a few shenanigans in between, a few relationships filled with jealousy AND THEN ended with an Auslly love confession and Austin giving up his career for her! Who’s doing it like that?!

Also what was in the water that year, cause how did everyone look so damn good?! Ally’s hair will forever be goals, it was GIVING.

There was a balance of comedy, romance and drama AND performances and that’s what made this show what it was essentially.

[solstice-system]

Listening to case of identity part 2 and I have some thoughts

I think it was extremely interesting how they dealt with this. I frankly can’t even tell if it was a case of delusion or of DID but either way I found it rlly well handled how they showed that Dez did a horrible horrible thing but was also a deeply troubled man.

I think John spoke to him in what was the best way possible in that scenario. Often reality checking someone can do more harm than good, and it was definitely important that he handled it well when he had a knife 💀 Also speaks to his background in medicine ofc.

I do wish that they delved into how Sherlock may have related to it seeing as he canonically has DID but I didn’t miss the fact that he very candidly said he understood.

Anyways those r my disorganized thoughts on this episode lmao, I don’t rlly have much to add 💀💀

[itsallmadonnasfault]

Madonna and I were super close during that film [Desperately Seeking Susan]. We really bonded heavily and had a deep female friendship at the time … for many years. Then she married Sean [Penn], I was at the wedding and all that stuff. We lost touch in these years, except I was at the [Celebration Tour] show in Los Angeles. Unfortunately, I didn’t get to see her and was really bummed.

When we made that film she of course was exploding. Melanie Griffith was up for it [Madonna’s role], who was one of my best friends. Ellen Barkin, another one of my best friends, was up for that role and they were talking about this pop star that wasn’t an actor and I was kind of bummed out about it at first. And then I saw the “Lucky Star” video. She was so enigmatic and gorgeous and I had to throw myself into being obsessed with Madonna like everybody else in the world was while we were making the movie. 

I always had a fantasy, because you see them doing sequels all the time, about what happened to them? Who are they now? It would be so great to make that movie. And where did everybody go? Do Dez [Aidan Quinn’s character] and her stay together? What happens to them?

The original ending, which is not in the film, they [Arquette and Madonna’s characters] are not with the guys. They are off on an adventure together on a camel in the desert and we filmed that … and it wasn’t happily ever after with the guys. It was a great ending and I was really bummed they didn’t choose that.

Queerty

[that-basic-simp]

Broken

I stared at my reflection, my shoulders shaking and tears were streaming down my face. I tried not to breathe heavily as Y/N was still asleep. My hair was out of my normal mohawk and was like a curtain covering my face. My facepaint was removed in preparation to go to bed, but as I stared myself down, I knew no amount of facepaint would cover the bags under my eyes. Turning on the sink, I cupped my hands together and placed it under the cool water. I splashed my face with it before I turned the knob, silencing the faucet. Reaching up, I grabbed a towel and rubbed the water droplets from my face. As I lifted my head up back to face the mirror, a flash of what happened occured and I took a step back, banging into the bathroom door. I grimaced as I heard some shuffling coming from the bedroom.

"F-Fuck," I whispered.

I turned off the light before quietly opening the door. Y/N's sleeping form was still sprawled out on the bed. I let out a sigh of relief, knowing I didn't wake her up. Walking over to the bed, I crawled in beside her and wrapped my arms around her, pulling her into my embrace. I shimmied down to where I placed my forehead at the top of her back. Squeezing my eyes shut, silent tears slid down my face as memories of the Wasteland and Overwatch plagued my mind. I let out a hushed sob, squeezing Y/N ever so tightly to where I was afraid if I let her go, she wouldn't be there to silence these raging memories.

Turning my head over my shoulder, I found Odessa was a tad lower than normal. Rolling over, I was free from her grasp ever so slightly, but she grabbed at me, yanking me back into her embrace. Her face buried in my chest as I could only imagine what happened last night for her to be like this.

"Dez, babe? What's wrong?" I asked, running my fingers through her hair.

Her eyes were tightly shut and her entire body shook. The grip around me grew ever tighter and her fingers dug into my night shirt, forming a clump with the fabric to where I thought she was going to rip it.

"D-Dez, babe, I-I can't breathe."

"I-I'm sorry," she said and loosened her grasp on me.

It wasn't the fact that she stuttered, it was the fact that her voice sounded so broken, like she was going to cry any second. I brushed her hair back a bit before placing a kiss to her forehead.

"Oh, Dez," I whispered as I held her to my chest. "I'm here, babe. I'm here."

She nodded as tears started to fall down her face. I reached over and wiped them away.

"You're so strong," I whispered. "You're so strong to the point where ya can't be weak in public. Everyone sees ya as a strong, cutthroat leader of the Junkers. Why is it that you cry with me?"

"You should know that answer, princess," she said, trying not to let out a sob.

"I know you feel safe with me. But is it only me?"

"Yes. You've seen the best and worst of me. Everyone else has seen the best of me. No one should see the worst side of me besides you."

"Not even the people in Overwatch?"

"Not even them," she said, nuzzling closer to me.

"I mean that much to ya?"

"You mean everythin' to me," she breathed out. "I can't afford to lose ya. I might lose myself if I do."

"Dez," I whispered. "What's botherin' ya?"

"Everythin," she said. "Everythin' from my family and I being banished by Mason. To my time in Overwatch and seein' all that death and bloodshed. While I am one for a good fight, it eventually takes a toll on ya with the level of death I saw there. Women, kids, infants, and men. War doesn't halt for anyone. Not even the young and unborn."

I brushed my hands through her hair as she reached underneath my shirt, running her fingers against my skin.

"Did ya sleep last night?"

"N-Not really. I kept wakin' up, hearin' the screams of those who suffered the battles I was fighting in. I can see 'em clear as day. The lifeless look in their eyes," more tears were streaming down her face as she spoke. "How their eyes were fixated on the sky and their mouths hung open. I had to push so many eyelids down to where I am numb to it now. You'd think I'd be numb to it all by now, but i-it still gets to me."

"I don't blame ya, Dez. You were in the front line. You faced a lot of hardships. And so did everyone else in Overwatch. You all have trauma from it, I'm sure. I just wish there was somethin' I can do to help ya."

"J-Just be here when I need ya, princess."

"Of course, Dez. I am not going anywhere," I said and pressed a kiss to her forehead.

"Thank you," she whispered and buried her face in the crook of my neck, giving me a small kiss. "You're all I have in this town."

"I know, Dez. I know," I said, rubbing her head as I placed mine on top of hers. "You shouldn't do anythin' today."

"But I must, princess. Same with you."

"No. You're still gettin' over this. I know it's gonna take a while and some days are better than others. Some days are worse than others. Ya need your rest, especially since ya didn't sleep well. And the last thing this town needs is a very agitated Queen with no sleep."

A soft chuckle escaped her lips, "Alright. I won't go. Only, if ya do one thing for me."

"Anythin'."

"You don't go in either. And ya stay with me."

"I'm stayin' right beside ya," I said.

"Thank you. A-And if ya don't mind."

"What is it?"

"D-Do ya mind if I can be the little spoon?"

I chuckled as she looked up, a pleading look in her eyes only I get to see. I nodded my head and she smiled, pecking my lips before she rolled over. I got behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist. I trailed the pads of my fingers up and down her abs before settling on them, feeling her diaphram move as she breathed. Her hand reached down and grabbed mine from above. Looking in front of me, I was right at her cervical spine. As she bent her head downwards a tad, the base neckbone popped out, creating a small bump. Leaning towards her, I placed a kiss against it before resting my forehead on the top of her back.

"I love you."

"I love you, too."

[diverse-hearts-ocs]

@lachrymosestorm asked:

Dez had definitely not expected to marry anyone in the mafia. Her cheeks were red as she walked down the aisle in the black wedding gown - arranged or not she had been very insistent on the color. She reached the aisle and the vows were exchanged and lips were met as she married the man decided for her.

It was a moment of privacy as the party raged when she turned to look at her new husband, Garth, and she looked at him with a flustered expression. She knew what she got out of this, financial security and a few other things but she didn't know what he got out of it. "Can I ask you, why did you agree to marry me?" // Garth for the arranged mafia marriage AU

Unprompted - Always Welcomed ~

As things went, this wasn't the worst situation that his father had placed him in, but he couldn't help but feel rather sorry for the girl that was marrying into the mess that was his family - nor understand as to why she would agree to such a thing. Surely she was aware that the Mafia came with some rather undelightful side affects...and surely her life had been better before this?

He gazed towards Dez as she asked him why he'd agreed, the confusion pretty clear to see within his gaze. It wasn't as though he had much of a choice, but even if he had, why would anyone want to turn down someone who was so beautiful? Course, there was more to a person than their looks, and it might turn out that they didn't mix well, but a part of him silently hoped that somehow this would work out.

And if that was his wish, then he should start off with making the silent promise of being as honest as he could be, "Honestly, I had no real choice. My father's a rather powerful man and wished for this arrangement to happen...but at the same time...", he paused, swallowing back the slight nerves he felt, "...I hope that we get along...that this can be a good marriage for us both...I will do my best to make sure you lead a good life". He gave a weak smile, before taking a small sip of his wine, hoping that he didn't sound too childish with such ideals in such a dark world.

[everydayyoulovemeless]

Hi! Could I request the SFW alphabet for Desdemona, please?

Also, I really like your username <3

➼ Word Count » 1.2k ➼ Warnings » None ➼ A/N » You're so sweet, Nonnie! Hope you had a nice day <3

A - Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Dez isn’t a very physical person. She’s busy and doesn’t have the time or patience to do anything like that. Instead, she shows her affection through her words, vocally standing up for you or simply telling you how important you are to the Railroad (and her, but she doesn’t want to pick favorites).

B - Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

In every timeline, the friendship starts with synths and the Railroad. She’s an incredibly supportive friend and always seems to be there whenever anything goes down. She’s not afraid to speak up for you and defend you whenever she deems it necessary. If you’re a part of her cause then you’re a part of her family, and she’d be damned if you caught any fire for it.

C - Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

She’s not doing that, so you can just forget it. Touching isn’t her thing. The most you’d ever get is a firm pat on the back.

D - Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

One day she would. She’s more than a decent cook and would love to have a child, but for now, her job will have to come first. The apocalypse isn’t exactly the easiest environment to raise a child in, and her survival and the survival of those around her is the most important thing right now.

E - Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

She’d be very direct with you. She prefers it that way, whether that be the business-driven person within her or not. She’d give it to you straight and as professional as possible, although, the slightest bit of emotion is guaranteed to show.

F - Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

She’s fine with commitment, but would rather wait till the Railroad was in a more stable place before officially tying the knot. Getting married in the middle of a war isn’t always the best course of action.

G - Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Dez is just the right amount of gentle to where she’s kind but doesn’t coddle you. You’ll always get the truth from her and, unless you did something outrageous, she wouldn’t find it in her to shout at you or anything.

H - Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Her hugs are rare, only happening when something big has gone down. When you finally destroyed the Institute, she let out a huff of disbelief before enveloping you in a tight, albeit short, hug.

I - I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

She’s more of a “show don’t tell” type of person. She doesn’t say she loves you often, but you can always tell through her infinite actions. Sometimes she’ll give you extra boxes of Cram, and that’s how you’ll understand she cares.

J - Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

Dez feels very secure in herself and her relationships and just doesn’t have it in her to feel jealous of anyone. She will, however, get pretty vocal if she notices someone getting a bit too handsy with you, but it’s more so you don’t feel uncomfortable than her being jealous.

K - Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Firm and long. She never knows when one kiss will be your last, so she always makes sure they count, and they’re always on your lips.

L - Little ones (How are they around children?)

She’s amazing with kids. Dez doesn’t always get the chance to be around them in her line of work, so she likes to make a point of playing along whenever she does. She’ll humor their questions, and hand them little trinkets and whatnot.

M - Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Mornings are spent restocking the deaddrops and mapping out the next course of action.

N - Night (How are nights spent with them?)

The nights are spent counting heads to make sure everyone survived another day, before taking a quick smoke break in the pews of the church.

O - Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

She’s built on secrecy, therefore it’s incredibly important for her to slowly introduce things about herself to you. She’s a huge political figure in the Commonwealth currently, and can’t afford to have any weakness for the time being.

P - Patience (How easily angered are they?)

The only way she’d get angry is if you recklessly put someone’s life in danger, but other than those extreme cases, she's an incredibly level-headed individual.

Q - Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Are you kidding? She remembers everything. From the exact words, you said down to the date you both met. What kind of leader would she be if she didn’t catch everything in passing?

R - Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

Her favorite moments are those rare occasions when the two of you walk down to Bunker Hill together to discreetly pass messages to other agents, before hitting the bar.

S - Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Dez is VERY protective, but she’s sorta that way with everyone under her. Of course, she expects that same loyalty in return, but truly, if it ever were to come down to it, she’d very willingly take a bullet for you.

T - Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

Not much, she hardly hands you gifts. She’ll reminisce and thank you for everything you do, but she hardly has the time to search for gifts to give you.

U - Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

She's almost always stressed and can sometimes start projecting it onto you. It usually comes in the form of her snapping, but she definitely tries her best to keep herself calm.

V - Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

She'll do small things to touch up here and there, but nothing big. She just thinks it's important to look somewhat presentable when you're expected to lead an entire movement. She refuses to look like a hobo.

W - Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

In short, no, Dez is a very independent person and makes a point to never be too attached to anyone.

X - Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

She's a caffeine addict and is almost always drinking any form of coffee or nuka-cola drinks she can find.

Y - Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Someone inconsiderate or irresponsible. She needs someone willing to stick by her and make rational decisions, not only for themselves but for everyone around them.

Z - Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Whenever she has time. It's very sporadic and unplanned, but she's adapted fairly well to it.

[that-one-dork]

Uwu, WW2... such a twagic event! It makes me swo saaad, but I will do my best to twell you about it!

In WW2, the Nazis invaded Poland! It made the world very sawd... But the Allies fought back! The USA, the Soviet Union, and the United Kingdom worked together to defeat Hitler and his Nazi Party.

It was a big win! The Axis Powers did many very spooky things--like the Holocaust! But the Allies and the Russians won in the end. The War was a big, big victory for freedom! And now, we have all sorts of things like TV shows and chocolate! It's vewry exciting!

Hey Dez how do I react to this 😭

[sabusthings]

9 and 13

I already answered 13 but get ready for 9!!!

9. Write a recommendation of someone else's fic you enjoyed!

(With a few exceptions, I don’t know some of the authors’ tumblr names. If you see ur fic here, Im kissing ur face thank you for ur service. It also goes without saying, but please keep in mind the tags on these fics if you choose to click; if they ain’t your cup of tea, click the back button. But f you do like them, please leave them a comment!!!!)

A Mindless Melody Maddening Me

Most fics have Salieri having an angst session over Mozart (which is always excellent!!!) but few have it the other way around. I love this fic because Mozart is so fucking PETTY over others spending time with Salieri in a normal fashion that he can no longer do. He acts very nonchalant about it but you can see that it’s eating him up inside ITS GREAT.

Hibiscus

Okay so I did a Salieri/Dantes doodle and it resulted in that fic so mild bias. I love it when Dantes gets teased. Ilu dez ur gr8

Pulled from the shadows

More bias, I commissioned this one, but Adet is PEAK writer. Anything they have is just 10/10 and I recc everything they have made!!!!!

Direct Someday

Yashiki/Mashita soft fic. It has old man being soft about the tsundere man. The author has another fic of them getting Spicy which i also recommend.

The indomitable human soul

Carm real MVP. I love this fic so much and it’s still ongoing. I love how they get into the nitty gritty of Dr tenma (2003 edition) and his thought process from how to bring his old best friend back to how he thinks of himself and everything in between. A+++++

Goodbye to a World

Do you like seeing Astro boy being emotionally in pain? Bc this story is about him being in emotional pain All The Time. It’s an excellent read and I love the conflicts Astro gets put in and how he gets through them. I especially love the chapters where Astro deals with the aftermath of a PTSD episode (boy that feels weird to write!) and its a chef kisssss

In the House of our Lady

DEEP INHALE. Please read about Salieri’s catholic guilt. And after that, please read all the other things that Ginger writes. Ginger is amazing I love them their writing is so good SO GOOD

[gamergirl-06]

Ma Meilleure Ennemie

Pairing: Bozzy X Reader (GN!)

As you can tell from the title this is based on that one scene From season 2 of Arcane (not spoiling for those who haven’t seen it it’s really good I had so many emotions) and the song (the title) translates to ‘My best enemy’. So yeah that’s pretty much what this whole thing is based of like I said, the song is really good despite being sung in French but still a goodie!!!

Also would like to mention that the apocalypse never happens in this one. Also in the scene I realised powder reminded me of Dani with the hairdo 🤣

Taglist: @dantegreaves00

You were excited for tonight’s party and couldn’t wait. Having spent the entire day working on something with Bozzy and Rav you couldn’t wait to just let loose.

Hopefully he would have that damn mask off that he always wore. But anyway.

Both you and Bozzy were really close, closer than you two were with anyone else.

A lot of people who didn’t know you two were friends would have said that there was something between you two, a spark of some sorts.

You probably would have denied it to their face anyway despite the way Bozzy made your heart race and turn you into a giddy school boy/girl/student.

The party was going to be held at the bar with Dani being tonight’s bar tender since she used to work at a liquor store and had a knowledge of mixing drink and whatnot.

The other group members were going to be there along with the other bobcats.

Bozzy and Rav headed long ago off to get ready for the party and in classic you fashion, you were going to show up reasonably late but to make a big entrance like you always do, it was just you.

-Bozzys POV-

Me and Rav make our way to the bar where the party was held and we walk in the see Dani at the bar talking to Jacob while serving others drinks, Carla talking to Emma, Ryan and Michael, Bruno conversed in the corner with Andrea in both English and Spanish. Finally I see Amy talking to Sam.

I wasn’t wearing my mask this time because screw it it’s ok to have a bit of change for just one night right?

We walk up to the bar where Dani and Jacob are and dez comes up to us for a minute

“You made it, I thought ya never show up” she said her accent slipping through “and look at you, parting ways with your mask”

“Yeah well we did and yeah thought I’d have some change for 1 night” I said and I scanned the room for (Y/N) but didn’t see him/her/them anywhere. I became disappointed because I really liked (Y/N) so if she/he/they aren’t here then I’m leaving.

“Where’s (Y/N)?” I asked

Jacob turned to me “You know him/her/them)”, probably going to make a big entrance “

I chuckle before it goes silent and music starts playing.

T'es la meilleure chose qui m'est arrivée

Mais aussi la pire chose qui m'est arrivéе

Ce jour où je t'ai rencontréе, j'aurais peut-être préféré

Que ce jour ne soit jamais arrivé (Arrivé)

La pire des bénédictions

La plus belle des malédictions

De toi, j'devrais m'éloigner

Mais comme dit le dicton :

"Plutôt qu'être seul, mieux vaut être mal accompagné"

-end of Bozzy’s POV-

You walk through the middle of the dance floor as people move out of the way making it easier for you to get through.

Finally stopping when you see Bozzy you smile “hi”

His handsome face wasnt obscured by the mask he wore all the time so you were happy to see him.

He got up and held out his hand “wanna dance?”

“Of course” you say taking his hand in yours as you dance around and laughed together.

People danced around you while watching you both and Bozzy spun you around before you stopped.

“You wanna go outside for some fresh air?”

You smile “I’d love that”

You go outside and sit on the quiet street with no one around and you sit in peace.

“Beautiful night tonight” you say

“Yeah sure is.

You turn and look at him and place your head on his shoulder.

He smiles down at you taking in the moment like it could be ripped away from him at any second.

“I’ve been thinking” you began and he looks at back at the sky and hummed in response.

“We need to do this more often” you say without much thought “I like nights like this”

Bozzy wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you closer and you look up at him.

“Listen (Y/N/N), I can we just pretend like it’s the first time.

“What?”

He cupped your cheeks and pressed his lips to yours to which you reciprocated. Good to know he felt the same way.

[cornmealor]

Here folks have more au stuff

The 4 main bosses(Gonna do the au ver of Pizzaface soon)

I’ll rant about them later

(Changed Theos design a bit also they have a kid)

Wip (don’t know if I should still tag it as antonblast tho)

So gonna rant about the bosses:

First is Mr.Pepper who is a cop, he isn’t the best one but he’s trying his best to stop crime anyway he can. He’s close friends with Director and Skatter(well he’s not the best friends with her but can tolerate her because Direct is her best friend).

When he first encountered Gunther and Rick he’s under the impression that their criminals (thanks to a certain someone) so his first instinct is to try and stop the duo.

(Off to the next boss)

Second is The Director who’s well a film maker and wants to get on the big screen. His dream is to become know by a lot of people for making amazing movies but he has a short temper and lashes out a lot.

The only people he’s chill around is Skater and Mr.Pepper. He REALLY doesn’t like Gunther (he doesn’t like Rick either but he definitely hates Gunther). He only tolerates Theodore along with Pepperika, he did hire them to be actors but fired them immediately.

Third Is Hazey Skatter (Ik Skater is spelled wrong). She’s extremely ecstatic and energetic, she’s a fast talker and is jittery. She likes to bother Gunther because she thinks that their friends ( their not ).

She gets along with Pepperika, the two sometimes hang out and Pepperika even babysits Dez. She loves Theodore and they are a stupid energetic couple who loves their son.

Director is her best friend and they make it known, Director often lets her chill on the set and even lets her be a guest star on set.

Finally there’s Gus

Gus is a weird robot that often stays in the vents and usually spectate others from a distance. It’s voice consists of different peoples voices because it usually mimics voices and uses that to form his own sentences

It is extremely skittish and hides a lot. Pepperika was able to convince Gunther to let Gus stay because he felt really bad for it and even saw that It was just like Gunther is someway. Gunther doesn’t like Gus but he doesn’t hate him as much as before, Rick is scared of It and doesn’t like being near it.

(That’s all for now folks)

[cljordan-imperium]

hey! this is chance & here’s week 3’s prompt. share an excerpt that you’re very proud of from any of your wips.

I thought I had shared this before here on Tumblr, but I've searched both this blog and @theimperiumchronicles and cannot find it. That doesn't mean that I haven't, it means I can't find it. SO...I'm going to take this opportunity to share it again. My piece I'm most proud of is linked under the History link in my pinned post, it is Pixies. This is the 2nd most proud and less shared. The title was "All Things Die". And I cried like a baby writing it, because I felt the emotions of my characters as I wrote it. I hope it will at least a tiny impression on y'all. This is a bit longer than my normal posts at 4269 words.

Standing erect, Abbadon surveyed the courtyard.  He was relieved that apparently none of them had been touching one of those beings that were attacking them.  Nothing they’d done had seemed to affect them.  Only their wards even slowed them down.  He hadn’t been sure that they were even going to survive to make it home.

Turning in a slow circle, he caught sight of Talia standing in Leandre’s arms.  So that is who had found her!  He started to cross over to her, “Talia!”

“Boss!” Thinius tried to get his attention.

“I’m so sorry it took us so long!”  

“Abbadon!”  Thanases growled.

“Did they hurt you?” Abbadon’s face became a mask of concern.

“Your Majesty!” Arioch yelled starting to head towards the King.

“We have a suite prepared for you.”  Abbadon looked down at her as she tried to crawl inside Leandre.

“Hey!  Asshole!” Abbadon turned his head finally just in time for Adriel’s fist to slam into the side of his face. “You seem to have missed your bride is still on that godforsaken planet!”

Leandre let go of Talia and headed for Adriel, “NO!”

Before he could reach the Angel, Adrield slammed his fist into Abbadon’s head again.  Standing up he walked over to where Dez was standing stunned.  He put his hand up to Dez’s head.  “Mist there.  You see it?  You have the power to do it.”

Dez nodded and they both disappeared.  As they did, everyone stared at Abbadon like he’d lost his head.  The way he was behaving, he just might have.

When Dez and Adriel appeared in the center of the tower nothing looked different.  There were no footprints leading out of the black goo that coated the walls and floor.  “We’re too late.  FUUUUUUUCCCK!” Adriel screamed and slammed his fist into the wall.  

“Adriel?”

He heard Brie’s voice but he couldn’t see her.  He and Dez both turned in a circle trying to figure out where it was coming from.

Mithos dropped his ward and both of them appeared.  Well, he appeared and a set of legs between and behind his from what both Dez and Adriel assumed was Brie.  Obviously she had been doubly protected.  Both were relieved.

Mithos stepped forward to shake hands with the two males, “You guys took long enough.  A few more hours and I couldn’t have held a ward any longer.”

“We were only gone a few minutes..maybe five?” Dez looked confused.

“Not here.  Here you were gone several hours.”  Brie stepped up next to Mithos, keeping in close to his side.  “Where is Abbadon?” She looked between Dez and Adriel.  It wasn’t that she wasn’t happy to see them, but why hadn’t her mate come?

Dez and Adriel exchanged wary glances.  How did they answer that without upsetting her more?  “He’s...uh...a little distracted dollface.”  Dez offered, it was the best he could do.  He would not lie to her.  

They could see that upset her, but it completely enraged Mithos.  “Distracted?  His Queen is stuck in this hell and he’s DISTRACTED?!” 

Adriel held his hand up, “we can discuss this later.  Dez, get us the fuck out of here.”

“I’m not sure I have the power to get us back.  Getting here took a lot of power for.”  Dez sighed.

“Then we’ll use mine.  I’ll give you the power, you get us home.” Brie looked at all of them.  Her face was grim, but she was resolute.

“I can’t allow that, M’Lady.  You have not fully regained your power.  It could put you into stasis.”  Mithos took her by the shoulders and bent down to look her straight in the face.  He couldn’t let her do it, wouldn’t let her.

“Take.me.home.  If we stay here we will die.  You all will die.  I will die  And it will be my fault.”  She looked at them with tears in her eyes.  “Mithos, you’re here because you were shielding me and it somehow blocked us leaving.  Dez, Adriel, you came looking for me.  I can’t have you die here; I can’t watch you die here.  I know you will die defending me, which means /I/ die last and after I’ve watched them kill you.  Don’t ask me to do that!”  Tears made slow tracks down her face as she looked at them.  “Take me home Dez.  Take me home where the last face I see can be Cruz before I fall asleep.  Where he will not mourn without a grave to visit, but at least have...something...  Take me home, please.  And live your lives happy and not die here.  We won’t survive, if I’m going to die at least let it mean something.”

Dez wanted to deny her, but he couldn’t tell her ‘no’.  He pulled her into his chest and nodded to the other two.  She wasn’t going to die; no matter what he had to do, he wasn’t going to let her die.  As her power started to flow through him, he made a vow to whatever deity happened to be listening that he would find a way to save her in the end.  Closing his eyes, he attempted to mist them back to the Palace.

While it had been over fifteen minutes on the planet, it was only a few seconds that passed in the Palace.  When the four arrived, they were all weak and fell to their knees.  Dez kept a tight hold on Brie, but she was completely limp.  

“CRUZ!  She’s going into stasis!”  Dez yelled, trying to keep from dropping her.  He was sure that the creepy fucker would kick his ass later, and he’d take it.  

Cruz came running, almost sliding across the ground to take his sister in his arms.  “How?”  He could barely talk, barely breathe, pain so deep and strong it was overwhelming him.  No one else moved, all were stunned into silence.  His hand hovered over her as shock and horror played across his face.  This couldn’t be happening; how was this happening?

“I couldn’t make it back on my own.  Mithos was exhausted from keeping her safe for hours that passed there in the few minutes we were here.  Adriel didn’t have the power.”  Dez explained between heavy pants and fighting back emotion.  He was sitting between Mithos and Adriel.  All now on their asses with their feet out in front of them, they looked ready to drop at any moment.  “She didn’t want to die there bro and she didn’t want us all to die.  We couldn’t have survived if we’d stayed.  She just wanted to be home,” he swallowed as emotion threatened to overwhelm him.  “She wanted to be with you.”  A tear slowly made its way down his cheek.  Maybe they all should have died together; the guilt started eating him alive.

Abbadon stood off to the side, the only one near him now was Talia, who looked horrified.  Hands to her mouth she stared in horror.  Looking over to her father, he appeared blank.  Maybe he was stunned into inaction, but he almost seemed...bored?  Was this some kind of trick the beings were playing on her?  Her head swung back back to look at Cruz and she did something she hadn’t done in a long, long time...she prayed.

“NOOOOO!!!”  Cruz almost screamed as Deacon and Olly finally came running over.  He cradled his sister as if she were a child, her body limp and growing colder.  She wouldn’t die, but she would never truly be alive again.  He hand raised to push hair off her forehead that had been stuck in the black ooze that was the blood of those beings.  “Sister mine, open your eyes.  You can’t leave me yet.”  His voice was wracked with pain and his shoulders shook with emotion.  In his chest, it felt like his heart was being squeezed in a vice, his lungs were refusing to breathe.  He was petting her hair, trying to will life back into her.  There had to be something, anything that he could do.

Thinius and the rest of her guard drew near; none could believe what they were seeing.  How could Abbadon have left her there?  How could he not have gone back?  As they looked to Mithos, he was a man devastated.  The expression on his face said it all, he felt he’d failed and it would forever haunt him.  It was also clear the male had not one bit of strength remaining, Dez hadn’t been exaggerating.

“Fight it, damn it.  FIGHT!  You’ve done this once, you won.  Don’t you damn well leave me!”  Cruz’s voice was strained as he felt Olly and Deacon lay hands on his shoulders.  The shadow of the guard fell over them, he knew he wasn’t alone but he’d never felt more so.  She was the only one who looked at him and smiled, who loved him.  He’d never knew he needed anyone, and one tiny female had changed that.  She’d made him feel again, and now he felt everything he’d prayed he never would.

Adriel moved, slowly and shakily toward Cruz and Brie.  Raguel finally moved to help him, his heart breaking for the Angel.  As much as Raguel had looked over Brie, Adriel had thought of her as his own child.  Now that child was going somewhere that none could follow, and somewhere she’d never come back from.  There was nothing that any of them could do to stop it.  Adriel was becoming an Angel broken, devastation overwhelming him as he laid a hand on Brie’s head.  He’d known she wasn’t strong enough to do this, but he couldn’t deny her wish to be back here.

Still Abbadon stood off to the side, unmoving and his face blank.  Talon looked over and shook his head, tears streaming down his face.  His friends, dear god, they were losing the most important thing to them.  Yet, through this, his dad seemed unaffected.  Where had his love for her gone?  Had his jealousy so overpowered him that he’d lost all touch with reality and decency?

Cruz felt the moment that Brie fell into stasis.  All of her emotions were gone, her breathing almost stopped and she grew even colder.  The sound that came from him was one of utter devastation and loss.  All assembled dropped their heads in mourning and in respect; while all felt loss the all knew that none felt it like he did.

“No greater love.  That’s what my son said.  No greater love has one than to lay down their life for their friends.” 

Heads lifted and turned towards the sound of the Divine’s voice.  Where had he been?  Why show up now?  It was all over.

“Why are you here, father?”  Raguel asked confused.  He was holding Adriel’s shoulders to keep the other Angel sitting upright.

“I was summoned, I guess you could say.”  He said as he looked around at the confused faces that were looking at him.

“Summoned,” Adriel said, breathing hard through the pain he was feeling, both physical and emotional.  “You can’t be summoned.  You’re the Divine..God.”  

“Ah, yes, you are correct.  However, some interesting things just happened here.  Things that quite frankly surprised me some.”  He looked over to Cruz, who wasn’t even acknowledging his presence.  1,500 years of faithful service and now the Nephilim thought he’d been abandoned.  He could feel the loss of the male, and how he now felt lost himself.  His poor child, such a tragedy.  A tragedy that didn’t have to happen, but he’d get to that later.

“Which would be?”  Deacon asked, his voice quiet and choked.  One of the only friends he had in the world, and quite possibly his best friend, lay essentially dead.  He wanted the Divine to get to the point so that they could take care of her, or what was left of her.

“Forgive me, my child, of course.  I hear all prayers, and all are answered.  Some don’t like the answer they get, just as children don’t always like what their parents say.  And today I received some interesting prayers.”  Now everyone but Cruz was looking at him, wondering what the fuck he was talking about.  “Human prayers are rather quiet, I barely notice them.  The prayers of my Nephilim, now those are louder.  The prayers of my Angels, louder still.  Today I discovered something though. Something that /I/ didn’t know because it had never happened before.”  Everyone looked at each other confused.

“See, when Lucifer, the Princes, and all of their followers were kicked out of Heaven, they pleaded to get back in.  I’ve heard their pleading since it happened.  It’s like background noise that you learn to ignore.  But today...today I found out what happens when Demonic Nephilim and pure Demons pray.  Oh and not just pray but pray to ME to do something, not for themselves...but someone else.  They make my Angels sound like they’re whispering.”  His gaze swept over to Mithos then Thinius and the Guard then over to Arioch, all of whom looked absolutely stunned.  “Yes, you were heard boys.”

Now Cruz turned his head to look at the Divine.  His eyes rimmed red, for the first time in 1,000 years, he cried.  His heart was shattered, and the Divine’s words seemed to just be dragging him through the razor sharp jagged pieces of it.  There was a buzzing in his ears that only made whatever anyone said sound like it was through a drive through speaker.  “And?”

The Divine walked over and whispered something in Cruz’s ear.  No one could hear a thing, but Cruz held his sister tighter and openly wept.  Had the Divine said he’d do nothing?  Had he just came down to say he’d been heard?  All knew deities could be royal assholes, but was this really the time for that?

Olly’s hand tightened on Cruz’s shoulder.  He was losing his patience.  “I take it we’re not going to like the answer.”  His voice was hard and cold; it belied his true feelings of loss and grief.

“Oh, we’ll get to that.”  The Divine pointed at Olly.  “Keep that thought.”  He looked around and turned back to Abbadon.  “FIRST, I honestly want to know something from you.”  Pointing at the Destroyer, he started to walk over to him.  “Why were YOU the only one who didn’t pray?  You didn’t just not pray to me...you didn’t pray to anyone!  I asked.  Your daughter did, and she hates Brie.  Your DEMON friends did.  YOU didn’t.  And, even more importantly, why the ever loving fuck am I here? You could have gone back and gotten her. And for pity’s sakes, once they were back you could have saved her yourself!”

“WHAT?!”  Leandre lunged forward to be caught by Thinius and Andronicus before he could get too far.  They looked no happier, but thought it might be better to let the two sons of the Source have it out rather than getting into the fray.

“You bastard!”  Thanases added, helping to pull Leandre back.

“Father?”  Talon asked moving over towards where Talia was standing.  “He’s lying.  Tell us he’s lying.”  No, his father loved Brie.  He wouldn’t have forgotten her on another planet.  There was no way he’d let her fall into stasis.  Was there?

“Abbadon?”  Arioch asked when the other male didn’t move or respond.  “Tell him he’s wrong.  Tell him there is no way you would let her basically die if you could stop it.  Tell him, or consider your life forfeit.”  Someone finally put a voice to the words all of them were thinking.

“He’s not.” Abbadon replied flatly. Growls of rage echoed in the courtyard.  His head dropped, he didn’t know what to say.  He didn’t know what to think or how to feel.  Finally he looked back up at his brother.  “D, I don’t know.  I fucking don’t know.”  He sighed and ran a hand through his hair.  “All I’ve felt since you put those cuffs on our creator is possessiveness, jealousy, and apathy.  I missed that she was sick before, and I didn’t look for her when we got back.  It never crossed my mind.”  He stopped.  If he said more, it would  most certainly lead to extreme violence of which he would be on the receiving end.  

“And you don’t care one damn about any of it.” His brother finished for him.  He nodded.  “Wow!  That I did not expect, but maybe I should have.  We’ve noticed...” 

“Your Lordship, can we make a deal?”  Mithos’s voice cut in, causing all heads to turn.  Everyone, even the Divine, was surprised to see him standing.  Not standing steadily, but the male WAS on his feet.

“What deal?”

“If there has to be a death, let it be mine. I failed her.  It should be me.”  Mithos’s back went straight and his shoulders back, even though he was still swaying slightly.

“You would diminish her sacrifice?”

“She wanted to be here, with her brother.  She didn’t want us all to die on that goddamned planet.  It seemed the only way.  Let her have a life, and her brother have his sister back.  My vow to her was to give my life to save hers, regardless of circumstance.  To allow her to essentially die if I can trade my life for hers, that would be to break that vow.”  Dark eyes bored into the lighter ones of the Divine.

“And you’re willing to be damned into the bowels of hell?”

“Yes.”

“To have me send you to the deepest torture pits?”

Fear laced through Mithos’s heart, but he didn’t even blink before responding, “yes.”

“To spend eternity in unyielding and unending pain and agony, in all forms and fashions?”

His head was screaming for him to sit down and shut up.  The thought of it all was causing him to be filled with fear and almost to tremble; yet Mithos took one strong step forward.  “Did.I.stutter?”

No one moved.  Any of them would trade their lives for her, but none had thought to do it like this.  Now there was a bit of guilt amongst them all.  No one would diminish what Mithos was doing by trying to step in now though.  How he was even standing was a big enough mystery to them and spoke of his conviction of action.

“No.” The one word from the Divine seemed to almost crush Mithos and he swayed heavily.  Moving to him, the Divine put out a hand to the male’s shoulder to steady him.  “She’s not in stasis, she’s just asleep brave knight.  I fixed everything when I got here, that’s what I told her brother.”  Their eyes met and the Divine smiled ever so slightly.  “She is blessed to have a guard and loyal friend such as you.  I hope she never forgets that.  You are brave, very brave.”

At hearing that Mithos’s knees gave way.  The Divine helped him back down to the ground so he didn’t completely fall and lose face.  When he’d shown up the Divine already respected those of Demonic blood that were gathered.  He respected their Captain a lot more now.  Before standing, he leaned over close to Mithos and said something privately to him that had the Captain nodding his head. Everyone else felt they could finally breathe again, her guard all now looking relieved but also still highly enraged at their King.

Turning back to Abbadon the Divine just sighed and shook his head.  He couldn’t believe his brother, even more so now seeing the loyalty of those who had known her a far shorter time.  “Do you see what her Captain is willing to do?  Yet, again you never thought to even try to bargain with me for her life. Or better yet, to bring her out of stasis yourself.  Fucking hell, A, that was nothing for me to do.”  It was clear the Divine was grappling with what Abbadon was doing, or more correctly...not doing.   “Her guard hates you right now, in case you couldn’t guess.  Your own son REALLY hates you at the moment.  You honestly don’t want to know what my two Angels over there want to do with you.  And those two demons...yeeeeeaaaah...you REALLY don’t want to know.  And the other three Horsemen,” he cast a glance over to them.  “If I weren’t binding their powers, they might just unite against you.  You have completely pissed everyone here off except for your daughter, who is still about to pee herself from terror at this whole fucked up situation.”  The Divine nodded with raised eyebrows and a thin lipped smile.  

“I feel so much better now.”  Abbadon replied flatly, sighing.  “So, what’s wrong with me?”

“You’re lazy.”

“What the fuck does that mean?”  It came out as a growl.  He was getting tired of his brother being cryptic or just flatly holding back information.

“When we bound the creator’s powers, it affected us all.  There was a lot of him in all of us.  His anger and rage was what drove Brie to go batshit crazy whenever she got upset.  His love was what made Aphrodite who she is.  Get it?  We all got a little something from him.  Your basal emotions are all negative anyway, but you are the Destroyer after all, brother.  Unlike some of the rest of us, you didn’t even try to work on the part that was missing, the softer parts that Brie brought out in you.  You just went with what you were feeling and didn’t give a shit what the fallout was.  I guess that worked for you in the past; but it’s not going to work for you anymore.  Without the conscious effort to think about and care for others, you haven’t been.  She’s your bride; you should be devoted to her.  Instead she’s just a possession and something to keep away from everyone else.  Her well-being and happiness became just side notes for you, not to be worried about unless it becomes a problem.  Well big brother, you now have one major motherfucking problem.  Look around this courtyard.  Do it...look…”

He didn’t want to; he knew what he’d see.  They hated him, resented him, wanted to kill him, and right now he couldn’t blame them.  Finally his eyes scanned them all.  Other than Talia, who looked just as his brother had described her,  and Cruz, who wasn’t even looking up from Brie, they were all enraged.  Every.single.one. Of all of his fuck ups, he wasn’t sure there was any way that he could top this one.  This was the mother of all fuck ups.  Not to mention that he had a feeling that Brie was going to want to eviscerate him when she woke up, another wonderful thought for him to ruminate on.

“So how do I fix it?  I know I need to, but…”

“It doesn’t really bother you and you don’t really care if you do.  As long as I keep all of these people from causing YOU any pain, you don’t give a shit how they are affected.  Yeah, I know.”  D scrubbed a hand over his face.  “You know, if you don’t want them to stop caring I’m standing here and as a group kick your ass...you might want to shut the fuck up.  I know this is a new concept for you, you being the Destroyer and all…but you have some major fucking powerful creatures that want to annihilate you and I’m the only thing in their way.”  The Divine sighed, how DID his brother get this bad?  He’d always been a being of vibrant passions, deep and powerful.  Now he was like an empty shell of the being he’d once been.  Maybe there had been so much of the creator in him that removing it really had left him empty.

“Gee, thanks.”  

“Listen, I can talk to our siblings on Earth.  Maybe we can devise a way to help you.  None of us are ready to unleash our creator yet.  Trust me, it’s bad.  He has possibly gotten worse, and temper tantrums are constant.  Come with me to Heaven, we’ll meet with our family later.  However, staying here isn’t an option for you.  If you don’t come with me, you’ve got to go somewhere.”  The Divine looked over to Cruz, “it’s better you're not here when she wakes up.”

Abbadon nodded and followed his brother’s gaze.  That should be him, and yet he felt nothing watching it.  He realized the only reason he reacted to Talia was because he’d actually been rehearsing it for days.  It hadn’t been genuine emotions, just rote activities that he’d practiced in his head. “Let’s go.  I’m useless here.”  He turned to look back at his brother.  One failure after another, he felt pity for himself but oddly enough not for anyone else.

“Yes, you are now and you have been.  Be GONE!”  Everyone suddenly turned to look at Cruz again.  Adriel was now holding Brie, looking all the relieved father he was.  “You are not wanted by any of us either. You heard your brother.  Not by a one of us.  None cares one single fuck if you live or die.  Fix whatever the fuck is wrong with you, or DO.NOT come back.”  His hand was on his sword’s hilt and his eyes were firmly fixed on Abbadon.  Truly, he wanted to end the being, but he knew his sister loved the male.  For that reason alone, he would let the other male live….for now...

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