#destruhction

[destruhction]

they say that loving someone is predetermined, predestined.

people speak of the instantaneous bond between mother and child, and, yes, she had become more than familiar with the biological and socio-psychological reasons for that. but it wasn’t that. or maybe it was that, but it was certainly something more.

whether you call it fate, or chance, or circumstance, loving someone persists beyond what our minds can comprehend. and she was convinced of that when she first held him. like she had wandered in her thirty-some years here, aimlessly searching for someone she faintly recognized, and yet could not name.

so, years later, when she gazed hazily into the eyes of her child she could no longer recognize, the waning yet persistent strength by which she held his hand, and the warmth she felt, could only be explained by something that had happened in a world before our own. it was no worry that her earthly mind couldn’t recall his name, or who they were to one another. in those the fleeting moments before she returned to the place that she, he, and you and i once came from, she hoped that she could relay through her gaze to this stranger she loves that she'll be able to find him again.

inspired by a beautiful excerpt by ritika jyala’s ‘The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire’, and the concept of barzakh

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: this is the last oikawa chapter he may not be my favorite but i love him so i wanted to make one last one. anyways i think the next chapter will be the last!

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My sleep is disturbed by the tiny beasts,

who devour the scraps of memories that reside in my mind.

My feet burn endlessly,

and as they char my past to perfection (it makes it easy on their digestion),

i am unable to run or escape,

and they singe them all thru the night.

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i once ran on diesel and a desire for survival. ran out of steam, ambitions evaporated into unidentifiable days that blend together into oblivion. cant tell if this is an oasis or purgatory. wherever it is, let me lay lightly.

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i have no ability to commit to finishing something. my books, my notes app and my hands have become filled with barely began, mostly-‘maybe i'll pick it up later’ ideas that leave me with nothing to show, and much to clean up after.

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i view the future through a pane of plexi glass. what lies ahead, i see superimposed atop what i’ve left behind. i cannot escape it. what i thought had passed me remains as a tether, preventing me from breaking through the transparent barrier of what could be.

[mochiiyaya]

Conflicts

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As Kuroo entered Kenna’s house he yelled out to him but there was no response. He look around to see everything in place as if nothing has been touched in a while. He walked to the kitchen to place down the take out food he brought to eat with him. He finally went to Kenma’s room to find him mopping in the same clothes he last saw him with. He went to open the curtain to let some light enter the room. Kenma groaned at the bright sun entering the dark room which hasn’t had any light.

“Well you really look like you’re going through a bad breakup.” Kuroo trying to lighting his mood, which failed miserable. Kenma turned to the other side to ignore the bed hair guy.

“Okay i’m sorry that wasn’t funny”. Kuroo awkwardly laugh. “Kenma have you eaten anything? I brought food so let’s go eat.”

“Im not hungry.” He finally replied. “Well from the look of it, you haven’t showered much or less eat.”

“I’m too tired right now Kuroo, i don’t feel like doing anything so go away.” He said quietly. “Kenma get up and shower please or else i’m going to carry you there.” Kenma slowly sat up looking at Kuroo in disgust. “Don’t you even dare carry me, I’ll go shower then” Kuroo pouted “Fine then and when you’re done showering come to the kitchen so we can eat together.” Kenma hummed in response.

Once Kenma finished his shower he headed to the kitchen. He sat down across from Kuroo looking unmotivated to do anything. Kenma’s eyes were puffy and had dark circles under them. The bed haired guy was worried about his health but he started serving Kenma a plate so he could at least have something in his stomach.

He placed a plate in front of him. Kenma looked at the food unwilling to eat but there was a loud growl coming from Kuroo’s stomach. Kenma’s eyes widened and let out a small laugh. As he started eating a small smile was formed.

“Soo how are you feeling?” Kuroo asked awkwardly. “Well as you can telling i’m living my best life, i’m very happy. Definitely not been laying on my bed for the past days” He replied sarcastically.

“Kenma you idiot just tell her you like her.” Kuroo said calmly, getting up from his seat walking to the sink. “I couldn’t even do that when someone wasn’t in the picture but now there’s this tall, muscular, nice hair, probably an athlete guy in the picture, i definitely can’t tell her now. I’ll probably have zero chances.” Kenma said as he mopped. Kuroo let out a big sigh as he left to a room. After a few minutes knocks were heard from the front door. Kuroo quickly open it.

HInata rushed in. “Kenma!” He yelled out and went over to him. “I heard everything from Kuroo in my opinion, I don't think Y/n is a type of person to lead someone on. When we all went out together that one time she looked liked she was having a great time with you.” He paused and sighed. “I’m going to say this once and one time only. If you dont even try to fight against that mysterious guy then i don’t think you don’t deserve Y/n so you should let her go for someone better.” Hinata said with a stern look. All eyes were all on him. Both guys eyes widened by what the orange haired said.

“Hinata i dont think that’s very encouraging right now.” Kuroo said worriedly. “This is what he needs to hear right now even if it’s the painful truth.” Hinata added. “He’s right though. Maybe i probably never did deserve her.” “Ke-.” “I dont feel like i do deserve to be around or with her. If can’t fight for her now that someone is in the picture then what’s the point, maybe i should give up.”

Kenma got up and went back to his room to isolate himself again. Kuroo looked back at Hinata and shook his head at him. The orange head guy sighed not knowing if he pushed him in the wrong direction. 

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: HI EVERYONE IM STARTING THIS BACK IM VERY SORRY FOR THE DELAY. theres probably like 4ish chapters left and they will be out around the same time together. i’m sorry again that this chapter is short but please enjoy!

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: hopefully this isn’t wack i haven’t been writing in a while so i’m sorry! i’ll try to post the next chapter soon

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[mochiiyaya]

Can We Fix This?

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As you were cleaning, ignoring the notifications you hear a ring from the door. “Ah sorry, we are closed, come tomorrow.” You said as you looked up to see a familiar but slightly different brunette. “Y/n.” He softly said. Your eyes widened. It felt like time stopped. “T-tooru? What are you doing here??” You said almost like a whisper. You rubbed your eyes to make sure your eyes weren't deceiving you. “It's me Y/n.” He says as he comes closer. “P-please don't c-come closer.” You said as you backed away. Your hands were shaking as you tighten your hold on the broom. It was dead silent and you can hear your unsteady breathing. You knew the reason he was here yet this came to you as a surprise.  

“Why are you here.” You said looking to the floor. “Y/n i wanna talk. I texted you saying I'll be coming. Please let's talk.” He said. “I didn't check my phone..” You softly said. “I'm glad you didn't then because you would have left. We both do know that. Y/n I'm not planning on staying forever in Japan, I'm going back to Argentina soon.” He said as you could feel his eyes on you. “Then why come back there no poi-” You were cut off, “You are the reason…” He said softly. Your eyes widened trying to hold back to tears. “Stop! Just stop it... Why?” You said.

“Y/n..” His soft voice makes your heartache. “Tooru just stop... Please just.. stop.” You say. “No Y/n hear me out, please. Just for now.” He said as he reached out for your hand. You pushed his hand away, letting go of the broom. “Why should I? When I pleaded for you to just listen you didn’t give it a second thought.” You said getting frustrated. 

“You are the reason why I'm back in Japan. You were always on my mind. I wanted to hold you, I wanted you by my side, I wanted to hear your voice, see a text for you. I couldn't handle it anymore. I just had to see you. Don't you understand Y/n.” He said as you heard his voice break. Tears falling from your face. “I want to say how much I hate you yet I just can't.. because I know I don't. I don't think I will ever hate you even after everything that has happened.” You said letting out a sigh. “Can we fix this? Can we fix us?” He said as he reached out for your hand holding it tightly.

“Maybe if you came sooner maybe we could have..” You said as you pulled your hands away. “D-do you have someone new?” He said as his voice break. You looked at him. Your eyes widened seeing the brunette face covered with tears. “Y-y/n p-please tell me you didn’t, p-please tell me that it's not true.. Tell me that I'm the o-only one, the only one you love.” He breaks down falling to the ground. Your heartaches to see him like this. Your sight blurred from the tears.

“Tell me that the years we spent together meant something to you, tell me that the memories we had never left your mind, tell me that you still want to marry me. Please just tell me please. I'm begging you.” He paused a moment trying to catch his breath. “Y/n please don't leave me alone. Don't leave my side... Don't give up on us. W-we can try this again right?” He said, looking straight into your eyes pleading to you. “Tooru..”

“Y/n, please... I-i know it's my fault yet all these years I couldn't let you go even how much I tried too, I couldn't even think of anyone besides you. I was stupid and young yet I knew you meant the world to me but I l-let you go.” 

“Get up please.” You said softly. He did what he was told to do. You wrapped your arms around him for an embrace. He did the same yet buried his face in the crook of your neck and held you tighter. 

“T-tooru” You took his silence as he was listening. “I um where do I start this.” Your mind running wild trying to find the right words. ”Um I don't regret the times we spent together. I was really happy. I miss the dates we had, the late-night calls or talks, our little adventures, cheering you on when you had a games, and of course you.” You heard him trying to hold back his cries. “I'm glad I met you even though how we ended things could have been better but we were both still young and trying to figure out who we were. I know that night, the things you and I said were not true, we were just shouting out random things out of anger. Maybe if I was a better girlfriend for you, you wouldn't have left me behind, maybe if I convinced you that I'll stay with you until the very end you wouldn't have given up on me… on us.” You said as you gripped his shirt he was wearing. 

He backed up to look you in the eyes. “Y/n you were enough. You gave me everything a person can-” “But i-”. He cut you off before you can say another word. “I promise you that. You made me feel like I was actually enough that my endless training was good enough for once. You stood by my side when I needed it the most. You were everything to me. I was so stupid..” He went back to the same position he was in.

“That day you left broke my heart in so many ways. You showed me how to love but you showed me how painful a heartbreak can be. When you left I questioned if you ever loved me, if I meant anything to you, if you ever needed me to stay with you, or if I was enough for you. It took me years to get over it. I wanted to know these answers from you yet not that long ago I have been feeling okay. To answer your question yes I meant someone. He now means the world to me, he made me feel like I was enough, that I'll be okay, and i wouldn't change that. I'm happy now, Tooru.” You felt his breathing change. You back away and hold his face. He grabbed your hand and held it tight. His eyes have gone puffy and his nose seems a bit red.

“Tooru I love you I truly do but I'm slowly moving on and you should too. Maybe things might have been different but this is how things ended up. Maybe in another time, we ended up together and we were happ-” 

“Don't say that in front of me because I really really wish that's how we ended up.” He said with a sad soft look. He placed a soft kiss on your forehead. That small kiss had so many emotions that weren't said.

 You both looked at each with love in your eyes yet you both knew there's no going back to how things were and after this, you both are going to move on with life. You knew he loved you and you loved him but your feelings for Kenma only grew with every moment you spent with him.

“Does he make you that happy?” He asked. “Very” “Then i-i guess that okay by me..” He said as he holds you tighter, ceasing your hair. “If you hadn’t met him would it have been me?”

“Tooru, I thought of marrying you”. “But look at you now liking someone else that’s not me.” You let out a small chuckle. “I'm not sure because what if we didn't settle our argument and never talked.” You let out a sigh.

“Right... You have no idea how much I wish we were together again at this moment.” He left a small hurt laugh. “If only if it was true.”

“Maybe it is, you never know. You believe in aliens so why not believe in another universe where we are happy and we fix this.” You backed away flicking his forehead. “Oww that wasn't necessary.” He rubbed his forehead. “And aliens are a different story.” He said as pouts. You let out a laugh

Hearing you laugh makes his heart race. Your laugh was music to his ears. How much he misses being the reason for you smiling, laughing, and overall your happiness. He knew he wasn't the one in your heart now and he has to learn how to be okay with that. He blames himself for letting you go. If only he could go back in time to change everything he would in a heartbeat. He felt like crying again. He’s willing to put his happiness aside if it means you’ll be happy. 

You looked at him with a soft loving face and smiled. You placed your hand on his cheek to wipe away the tears that were running down with your thumb. He pulled you in a tight hugged. “Y/n I love you will all my heart remember if he doesn't treat you right I won't hesitate to hurt him I won't back down if he breaks your heart. Okay?” He said. You let out a small laugh and hummed in response. 

How much he didn't want to face the truth that you're no longer his he had to accept it. “In another life time, we can fix this huh?” He thought to himself.

You both held each knowing this will be a goodbye and both of you are moving forward. 

Little did you know someone was watching your heartfelt moment.

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: hey everyone i just want to say since school has started i won’t be posting has much since i need to focus. this doesn’t mean this smau will be on hold it’ll just be sometime before i post. btw sorry for the cliffhanger! but i hope you guys understand

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: i hope you’re all doing well! this is a filler chapter sorry i hope you enjoy 💘

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: people have already guess who it was so ✨ i’m thankful for everyone understanding that updates won’t be frequent 💞 i working on this when i have break or something so don’t worry

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↳ ❝ Yn owner of a rising bakery cafe. One day a pudding head boy enter with his close friend looking for an apple pie. What will their future bring them when they keep meeting?❞

❥ a/n: so i might post the next chapter soon but i’m not sure when. i’m sorry for the filler chapters 🥺

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