#depressioin

[the5parkers-blog]

Here's To Future Adventures

There have been a lot of changes in my life over the last couple of months. I finally finished my BA which I never thought it would happen. (My graduation ceremony is August 2nd!) I passed my Exceptional Student Education Certification Exam and will start a job as a middle school ESE teacher in August. In the midst of all this, I was trapped in a job that I would call toxic. I intended to work…

[depression-culture-is]

Depressioin Cultuer is intentionally triggering youreslf to feel something

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[agc4doie]

(Fanfic) Fine

Doyoung isn't a stranger to depressioin. Being an idol, after all, wasn't for the faint of heart. He's been on this rodeo for more than 7 years, and he's been up and down multiple times. He knows how easy it is to be on top of the world one day and fall to the bottom the next.

And he's always bounced back stronger and more determined to prove everyone wrong. He's always believed in his talent, always relied on his single-minded drive to succeed to get over whatever hump he encounters.

Until the stadium concert, when he stared out into the sea of green and the stress and exhaustion of the past months crashed into him, washed everything out of him, and left him empty.  Hollowed out.  

He shakes himself mentally. He can't dwell on that, or he'd sink again into the terrifying emptiness that Haechan has worked so hard to drag him out of. Instead he focuses on the ocean of pink flowers before him. He focuses on the scent of fresh air filling his nose, the crisp cool air on his face.

And he does feel better. Being around nature, seeing how BIG the world was, how flowers bloom and die, and the cycle of life goes on, makes him appreciate how fleeting everything is, how small his worries are in the bigger scheme of things.

Endings and beginnings, he tells himself.  Focus on working on the next concert.  Work on having a BIGGER concert.  Climb a higher mountain.  

“Think of the opportunities we’ll have next year!”  has been Haechan’s constant refrain during the trip, his gaze bright with determination.

Doyoung smiles and nods, and bless Haechan’s persistent heart, each time he does it feels a little better.  A little less forced, a little more real.  

He WILL get over this.  

A rustle behind him alerts him to his companion’s return.  “Everything alright back home?”  He asks.  Haechan had excused himself to call his mom.

“Should be,” a familiar voice, albeit NOT Haechan’s, replies.  Doyoung’s head whips around so fast he almost gives himself whiplash.

Boba eyes twinkle at him as Taeyong careully lowers himself on the empty space beside Doyoung.  “It was when I left,” he amends after a thought.  

“What - “  Doyoung gapes at him.  “What are you doing here?”  He tries again.  Then as another thought strikes him, “Why are you up?!”  His eyes go to Taeyong’s back.

“I’m fine.”  Taeyong assures him quickly.  

“You should be resting!  In bed!  Why are you here?!”  Doyoung doesn’t realize he’s shouting, until Taeyong shushes him.

“I’m okay,”  he says soothingly, although he can’t deny a spark of warmth at the concern on Doyoung’s face.  Even now, when Doyoung is in the middle of a personal crisis, he still cares about his best friend.  “I rested all day yesterday.  I was just tired.”

Doyoung stares at him, bewildered.  “You should be resting today too!”  

Taeyong shrugs, holds his gaze.  “I need to see you,”  he says quietly.  “Need to know you’re okay.”  Not just hear about it from Haechan.  He needs to see for himself.  Doyoung’s breakdown at the concert had scared him.  His best friend was sensitive and tended to get emotional, yes, but never like that.  If his back hadn’t acted up, he would have taken Doyoung away himself.

Doyoung’s breath catches at the look in Taeyong’s eyes.  The concern.  The warmth.  HIs heart starts beating faster.  His gaze slides away.  “I’m fine,” he mutters.

Taeyong keeps his eyes on him, noting with relief the color that had seeped back into the pale cheeks, noting with concern the persistent dark smudges under his eyes.  

Doyoung shifts restlessly under his gaze.  “I’m FINE.”  

“Not yet,”  Taeyong corrects him quietly.  “But you will be.”  The conviction in his voice rings in Doyoung’s ears.  

Doyoung rolls his eyes, but he can’t help the way his lips tug up into a wry smile.  Taeyong has always been able to do that.  Drive him bat-shit crazy with his insane mood swings.  Lift him up with a few words.  Melt his heart with those boba eyes.  

“So Haechan -?”

“Went home to see his mom.”

Of course.  “I don’t need a babysitter.”  Doyoung protests, the thought that Taeyong has specifically flown over to watch over him jars.

“You don’t,”  Taeyong agrees easily.  “I wanted some time off too.  Haechan said this is the perfect spot, and so I came. I was the one who told Haechan to go home.”  He pats Doyoung’s knee reassuringly.  “It was my idea.”

Doyoung digests that for a moment, then unable to find any loophole in the reasoning, lets it go.  

They sit in silence for a short while, just soaking in the short peace Haechan has bought them. Gradually, the sound of the wind and the birds work their magic and the unspoken tension eases.  They start talking quietly, exchanging bits of news, bantering lightly, sharing a smile and a little laughter.  

This is them.  This is how they are.  Comfort.  Support.  Care.  

And maybe, love.

“I really like it here,”  Doyoung sighs, nodding at the field of pink.  “Wish we had more chances to do this.”

We.  Taeyong’s heart skips a beat.  He knows intuitively that Doyoung wasn’t referring to the members, he was talking about them.  Just as he knows he was being offered a chance to confess his feelings, if he wants to.  

If he lets it pass, they stay teammates and best of friends.  That much was set in stone.  But this chance once lost, may never be given again.  

He takes a deep breath, reaches out to take Doyoung’s hand into his.  He feels Doyoung tense, but the other man doesn’t pull back, and Taeyong takes that as encouragement to go on.

"I like you.” The words spill out,  and he realizes that the words weren’t hard after all.  Away from the hustle and bustle of their schedules, away from the noise of the media and their fans, it feels like the most natural thing to say.  “I really, really like you.”  He emphasizes, “More-than-friends like like you.”

Doyoung instinctively glances around.  

“No cameras, no show.”  Taeyong assures him quickly.  “Just us.”

Doyoung stares at him intently.  Us.  The word sinks into his soul  He chews on his lower lip thoughtfully, not missing how Taeyong’s eyes follow the movement.  “Hmm,”  he breathes out slowly.  “More-than-friends like like?” he asks, his tone carefully deadpan.

But Taeyong has known Doyoung long enough to hear the thread of humor underneath.  And the acceptance.

“Wanna-be-boyfriends like like.”  Taeyong nods solemnly.  Only the shine in his eyes gives away the happiness bubbling inside him.

Doyoung looks down at their intertwined fingers.  He smiles.

“Okay.”

-o0o-

[liketheoceannotthetree]

Your root chakra, your mental health

Your root chakra, your mental health

Trigger warning: assault, depression, PTSD, suicidal ideation Last week was a root chakra week. I cleared some crap, for sure — literally. Not only was there a sewage issue in my house, resulting in the literal clearage of “crap” from my life, I also cleansed some deep-seeded baggage. (Yes, mopping up sewage counts as energy work!) As I continue to work on each chakra, a new aspect of my…

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

Stupid and reckless. Thoughts spiral but everything connects. Self-Destruction. I just want the pain to stop.

[sow-ay]

[betterlyf]

Why Do We Need a Counsellor for Depression? If you’re feeling low or depressed? Do you feel isolated and as like no one understands you? Fortunately, there is a solution! BetterLYF is an online platform where you can connect with depression counsellors with just one click on your phone. We are a one-stop shop for all your mental health needs and offer a range of services that are tailored to your specific requirements. BetterLYF is the perfect choice for anyone who is looking for a counsellor for depression.

[traumaticchild]

my friend without any mental illness trying to equate them listening to drake to my major depression episode

[marghobby01-blog]

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[everythingplus-thekitchensink]

I have no energyyyyyyy

I would like to thank my asthma (its allergy season wheee I can’t breathe), depressioin (fucking everything always), and possible anemia (I took an iron supplement this morning so we’ll see how it goes).

[kunaigirl]

I had a dream the Cuphead DLC finally came out and then I woke up to nothing except more depressioin lol 

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

My dog wakes me up around 11am every morning because I can never get up then I lay there for45 minutes just wanting to get up. The second time he comes in he amps up his Wake Up tactics with raming his nose into my neck, plopping down beside me and dog piling. When I finally get up, that’s when he eats. My mom said he doesn’t touch his food until I’m up, he’s just rambunctious until then. I love my alarm clock, it definitely puts a smile on my face first thing. Then after a little while of him calming down, I give him his bone and he turns into his puppy self throwing it around, bouncing and spinning in endless circles followed by pings and thuds.

My moms psychiatrist is a fucking dumbass. She decreased anti-depressants and now she’s not on anything for it. Needless to say she’s really depressed. Since I’m on the same medicine as she was, I’ve been giving her one. I know it will hurt me in the end because I’ll be days short but I hate seeing my mom hurting or crying. Thankfully her next appointment is this following week so I’ll be giving the psychiatrist a piece of my mind. Chemical imbalance needs to be balanced to function on a minute to minute basis. Negligence is all there is. Fuck doctors. Annd the worst part, her psychiatrist might end up being mine in a few months.

Me. I don’t have energy to do anything. Constantly tired. Ran out of weed and no one deals so I’m fucked. CBD helps to an extent but that’s my sleeping meds at night so I can’t jip myself during daylight hours. I don’t have energy to do anything at all. 

Except those thoughts to say “End it all”

[sow-ay]

[je-juniper]

2019-2020 | resolutions and goals for the new year

2019-2020 | resolutions and goals for the new year

Let’s talk about my resolutions and goals from 2019 and for the coming year, 2020. Last year, I came up with a list of resolutions for the new year and this year I’ll be making a new set of goals.

Before I tackle what I want to accomplish next year, I thought I’d reflect on the things I was able to fulfill from my list this year. The year passed by in a flash. I’m regretful to say that it’s…

[nerdystudentbakerydonkey]

Mood in life

I think a lot of people suffer with depression in life at times throughout the year. Me personally has suffered from depression at times, but a couple good pick me ups are thinking of what three things that you are grateful in your life or just vibing to music. A good pick me up song I enjoy listening to is “Your Soul”- Forrest. Very enjoyable song to just vibe to. Having a couple of rough days can be helped by just the little things that you can think of. I’m grateful for my mom, music, and my Friends!

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