#delete later (probably)

[fujoshiribbon]

internalized transphobia hitting hard and its not helped by the fact that i feel weird n out of place in the community as of late. i feel like folks on here are more interested in pushing the idea that there is a Right and Wrong way of being trans than they were like five or ten years ago. and it’s also not particularly hospitable to like. multigender people or intersex people or sexual abuse survivors or people who aren’t 100% white. and also i wish more ppl talked about shit transmascs and nonbinary people face without being weird transmisogynists about it.

[phurpurr]

not to be rude but the fact that some of y'all's takeaway from this game is this makes me sick 🤮

[killianhemlock]

i cant believe everyone in the suckening is trans thats so cool pt 2

[meruz]

your raph and casey art makes me so unbelievably happy that i cannot even express it in coherent words. i cant even think of anything to say that could be funny or entertaining to see in an ask, its just really fucking good and thats all i can think of right now!

THANK YOU!!!!!! I'm glad to hear it... I actually have. a truly insane amt of drawings of them that I'll eventually either clean up to post or idk... put in the inevitable tmnt zine. But here's some sneaky peeks

inexplicable scenarios and even more inexplicable 10 Things I Hate About You au dialogue LMAO (mikey could be bianca i guess. raph is just so kat. To me. to ME... I repeat over and over as if it makes me sound less insane)

[civetcider]

What do you guys think about this fit

[loveisurvival]

text taken from my favorite post ever

[cupiidzbow]

can i be so honest for second

i don’t post it i don’t bring attention to it on here, i don’t want to show other people on here and i know i failed in ignoring it by talking about it.

I get racist shit flung at me so much and it fucks with me so much more than i’d like to admit , and like I know im an easy to target bc i love primates my sonas are monkeys and I know theres racial connotations that can be flung AT me that I didn’t ask for .

i know its used to be hateful against black people and people purposefully use it to be discriminatory and people use it against me. I can’t escape that, and I always have to live with the knowledge that people are probably giggling to themselves coming into my inbox calling me the hard r or someone coming on my pinned post to call me a slur or call me a disgusting monkey or my f/o will never love me bc im black or whatever .

and it makes sad that the moment I want to be upset and vocalize something about it people get uncomfortable and want to bail bc I guess hearing me complain about people being blatantly racist to me and makes me upset is too much . I don’t know i just wish I was allowed to be openly upset about it without people getting upset at me. I don’t know

[spookygibberish]

Trying to find a way to lightly word my distaste for the moralization of Dehumanizing your Enemies (and also even just people with like... different life experiences and interests...) while still making it clear there are many people who, through their beliefs and actions, I have absolutely zero desire to interact with and Extremely Do Not Want Around Me, who I do not think should be forgiven or absolved, yet still think remain fundamentally privileged to the quality of being considered a human being

[arcanefox207]

Hey. Sorry I've been so quiet this past week. I am just having a rough time and I am finding myself struggling to do basic things that usually bring me joy like reading and writing smut. I tend to isolate myself when I feel like this, and then be sad about it so idk what to say. Stupid brain. I love you all so much and I haven't been meaning to ignore your tags (thank you to everyone who has tagged me in their fics, tag games, WIP posts and so on. I see you and I appreciate you). I am ok just wanted to let you know I'm here and Im not ignoring anyone and I'm sorry if I've missed anything you have created this week (feel free to link me below and Ill try to check it out). I am feeling overwhelmed and going to attempt to just start fresh tomorrow. I love this community and the friends I have made here and my heart goes out to anyone else struggling <3

[andr0nap-wf]

todays delusions :)

[tender-engine]

i come online to change my avi and then throw my phone into the sea 🤎

[miafeystits]

re: that last poll i reblogged, one of the reasons i find both mpreg & a/b/o fic kind of morbidly fascinating after many years in fandom (despite not liking either) is how these kinds of fic often function as a way of mapping the tropes and gender dynamics of cis/heterosexual romance onto (almost always cis) m/m stories without going so far as to gender-swap either character

like, this is pretty obvious with mpreg centered on cis men, which is often just the application of common pregnancy-related romance tropes to cis m/m couples (note: im excluding depictions of trans masc pregnancy from my discussion here because i just think its a separate convo with its own nuances, and because i think much of the fic im describing here generally draws from ideas about cis men & women without much consideration for transness). however its ESPECIALLY apparent if you look at common a/b/o tropes in m/m fic. namely, the fact that an a/b/o universe is generally a world in which irl gender essentialism and the resulting sexual power dynamics between (cis) men and (cis) women are able to be applied to relationships exclusively between cis men-- with one partner being dominant, often physically stronger and aggressive, and socially privileged for this (perceived or real) biological superiority, and the other partner (who is generally the one able to bear children) being sexually submissive, weaker, and thus socially disadvantaged or oppressed as a consequence.

furthermore, something EXTRA interesting to me is that in this type of fic these power dynamics are very frequently not just social constructs (the way they are in real life-- pls dont misunderstand me and think im saying women are inherently biologically submissive to men irl or something), but rather almost always depicted as a biological reality within the world of the story. this type of au (at least in m/m dominated circles) offers a way of exploring and depicting what are basically misogynistic tropes without ever naming it as misogyny or involving women at any point. and i'm not trying to make a moral judgement here--i just genuinely find it very interesting that one of the main ways that misogynistic sexual dynamics (and, frequently, the violence resulting from such dynamics) gets explored in fandom spaces is through the development of an alternate biological and social reality in which cis men experience a mirror of those power dynamics, often turned up to 11 via in-universe biological essentialism. it strikes me as a way to engage with irl misogyny and its role within relationships with a certain amount of emotional distance, for better or worse. on one hand, it might be used to explore this imbalance of power without ever needing to depict misogynistic violence happening to female characters, but on the other hand also often offers a way to engage with romantic tropes steeped in irl gender essentialism in a way that is justified within the fiction of the universe and therefore do not need to be considered as critically

now i dont think this alone justifies this trope's existence or popularity (i'm sure a large part of its popularity is people just thinking it's hot tbh, which is fine im not here to judge), and honestly i'm not interested in litigating the question of why people write or read this trope in the first place, but i AM continually fascinated by the degree to which heteronormativity is able to influence what are ostensibly depictions of queer relationships

[satellites-halo]

how r u a 'character designer' and have 0 disabled characters ...? 🤨

how r u an 'oc creator' and purposefully avoid giving your OCS with 'cool' or 'aesthetic' disabilities the 'less aesthetic' parts of it ...? 🤨

how r u an 'inclusive writer' and only have one physically disabled character, who either magically gets cured or is evil ...? 🤨

how r u a creative and still leaving out, tokenizing, or stereotyping disabled people?

[nmirah]

Everyone is so "no such thing as cringe" until it comes to something even remotely popular or something you don't personally like or find annoying and then you turn back into cringe haters. you can't pick and choose!!!!

[ghostr0tz]

sudden epiphany while feeling down

[mournthebird]

this next part in the series is gonna be sad af i apologize ahead of time