#dearnoone

[yes-brandeebleueaurelie]

Thanksgiving 🦃🍽️ Dinner Revelation |

I don't really like my family IRL.

[mixtapenumber16]

Dear No One, Dear Me

Hey internet void,

Sometimes, the loudest conversations happen in silence. Like the song "Dear No One," it’s a letter to yourself, a raw and honest dialogue with the echoes in your mind.

It's easy to get caught up in the noise of the world, chasing validation in the wrong places. But there's a quiet strength in turning inward, in acknowledging your own worth without the need for external approval.

It's like finding a hidden room within yourself, a sanctuary where you can be completely authentic. No masks, no pretenses, just the raw, unfiltered version of you.

Maybe that's the real love story – the one you write with yourself. A tale of self-discovery, of overcoming doubts, of celebrating your unique journey.

So, here's to finding your own inner voice, to writing your own love letter to yourself. To embracing the quiet strength within, and to realizing that the most important relationship you'll ever have is the one with you.

[yes-brandeebleueaurelie]

Exactly 💯

[samtanx]

#DearNoOne

Hurt people, hurt people.

This is a saying i've seen everywhere and have used even. But it's only now where I've actually experienced the gravity of it.

Earlier this year, out of my stress and exhaustion, I did something wrong. So so terribly wrong. Whoever ends up accidentally reading this, please don't do it. I talked shit about one of my closest friends because of one very puny thing. Imagine, it wasn't even a mistake, I was just so fucking tired and needed someone to point my frustration towards.

And some might say, you just talked shit. But the reality is, words when transmitted can often be lost in translation and words can hurt way more than physically hurting others cause it hits the heart. And the heart may look past it and may even be forgotten. But the hurt claws its way into one's heart, forges it in there and is kept in one's amygdala–our body's pocket for trauma.

So yes, it was bad.

And as the saying goes, hurt people, hurt people. Just as I hurt her, she hurt me. And boy did she hurt me back I never thought I ever would be.

She almost got me fired, turned everyone I know against me, made me feel alone in this foreign land where she was one of the people I considered family here.

And I get it, I hurt her I really did. But did I deserve all that? Did I deserve it so bad that I'm still payinh for it til now–6 months later?

I didn't even have the opportunity to apologize but at this point, do I still want to? There are days when I'm better but there are also days like this when I'm just reliving all the pain.

[rename93]

When will I be in a relationship?

Dear no one where are you?

[yes-brandeebleueaurelie]

Hunh, I don't trust that feeling... "being chosen".

And I wondered what it was like to be chosen. I was never chosen. I was a maybe, a probably, sometimes even a definitely but never the one, never the chosen one.

Unknown

[dearnoonepodcast]

Dear No One Podcast Episode 1, Part 1, 2 & 3 Features guests, Hip-Hop Artists / Rappers Da Loop and Mesha Akira

[el-ardor-de-tus-ojos-blog]

Para mi querido nadie

La mayoría de veces nos sentimos solos, sin saber el porque de todo, otras veces solo tratamos de huir como corderos en fuga cuando es temporada de caza. Por alguna razón cuando estoy contigo mi sentimiento de soledad desaparece, así que gracias, mi querido nadie... 

El-Ardor-De-Tus-Ojos

[mzindependent87]

Thinking bout you 💕 #dearnoone #feelingmyselftoday (at Pomona, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-bhXLpJAU5R-LILMZ0h0_ojeya5gQLuYiUBMQ0/?igshid=i9v3l3glsxr4

[yes-brandeebleueaurelie]

When your house 🏡 is anything but a fucking home 🏚️...

[jgreyblog]

Dear No One,

I wanna be the person you call at 2am when you can’t sleep;

The thought that makes you smile:

The reason you get up in the morning.

~future spouse

Dear No One,

(You fill in the blank) 

[samtanx]

#DearNoOne

I've realized that I've forgotten how to talk and interact with people.

It's been a few days since this realization. And I haven't been able to fully process it yet. But maybe as I write further into this letter, by the end of it, i'd come to a conclusion, or a way to actually put what i'm feeling into words. Maybe.

It started with me typing out a message to my friend, and just as how fast as I was typing, it took me twice as fast to delete.

Supposedly, I was to share about feelings of being unnerved by someone. But as I was typing it out, I realized that it wasn't anything really. I realized that these feelings were actually more about my discomfort towards this person.

Which is weird because I've hung out with this person more times than a lot of the people in my life. We've eaten out quite a lot, been to multiple concerts together (say about 6?), even went on an overnight trip. So it would be kinda stupid to say that we aren't close.. but I'm just quite hesitant.

And it's not on them.

I know a 100% that it's on me.

I have this mask where people think I'm so free and comfortable around them and that we're best friends–but I know in me that I'm still at an arm's length (if not more) distance from them.

Or maybe I do let my guards down but at any sign that they'd betray that, no questions asked and i'd build up even higher walls.

And it made me think, who else in my life have I considered close but treat this way? Who have I actually allowed to get a glimpse of me?

And I can't help but think about the trauma of what last year has brought me and how while it no longer makes me bawl, it's changed me quite a lot.

I'm not 100% comfortable with the people I meet and I don't let people in because I'm scared to make a mistake again and ruin relationships again.

I'm a coward. I'm a coward because I'm too scared of taking a chance on people–on myself.

Fuck

[drrunknmonologue]

tidak ada tempat untuk kita di sini

aku menghela napas panjang dalam pelukmu yang renggang berkedip pun aku enggan, takut kehilangan barang sedetik momen kebersamaan

sebab setelah ini, kamu akan kembali mengembara dan aku pulang ke peluknya

june 19, 2021

[drawmehere]

Someone to give me his jacket when it’s cold.

- Tori Kelly

[mzindependent87]

Thinking bout you 💕 #dearnoone #feelingmyselftoday (at Pomona, California) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-bhXLpJAU5R-LILMZ0h0_ojeya5gQLuYiUBMQ0/?igshid=1tsn1y6ghgqzl

[yes-brandeebleueaurelie]

It's incredibly hard to love someone that attacks your peace(s). The fact that she is your mother starts to mean less & less. You're going to hate her, soon.