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#DearNoOne

Hurt people, hurt people.

This is a saying i've seen everywhere and have used even. But it's only now where I've actually experienced the gravity of it.

Earlier this year, out of my stress and exhaustion, I did something wrong. So so terribly wrong. Whoever ends up accidentally reading this, please don't do it. I talked shit about one of my closest friends because of one very puny thing. Imagine, it wasn't even a mistake, I was just so fucking tired and needed someone to point my frustration towards.

And some might say, you just talked shit. But the reality is, words when transmitted can often be lost in translation and words can hurt way more than physically hurting others cause it hits the heart. And the heart may look past it and may even be forgotten. But the hurt claws its way into one's heart, forges it in there and is kept in one's amygdala–our body's pocket for trauma.

So yes, it was bad.

And as the saying goes, hurt people, hurt people. Just as I hurt her, she hurt me. And boy did she hurt me back I never thought I ever would be.

She almost got me fired, turned everyone I know against me, made me feel alone in this foreign land where she was one of the people I considered family here.

And I get it, I hurt her I really did. But did I deserve all that? Did I deserve it so bad that I'm still payinh for it til now–6 months later?

I didn't even have the opportunity to apologize but at this point, do I still want to? There are days when I'm better but there are also days like this when I'm just reliving all the pain.

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I always find comfort in being in an unknown place; searching for something you're not really sure of--only to catch yourself finding well.. yourself.

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Who else thinks that Dany is slowly turning into a real, ~*insane*~, Targaryen she was born to be? *cough* Viserys, Mad King *cough*

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Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn fast.

William Nicholson (via wordsnquotes)

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Don’t be mad cause i’m doin’ me better than you doing you.