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let me cook👀👀 | DARREN & CHOOK HEARTBREAK HIGH · 2024 · Teen · Drama · S2·EP1
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Eshay Baby. (Anthony Vaughn x Chook's Sister Reader)
Word Count: 5.8K
Y/N Cooper and Anthony Vaughn had a complicated relationship, which becomes even more complex following the reveal of the incest map.
WARNING: This work is not intended for those under the age of eighteen as it does have mature content. This story deals with alcohol, sexual content, drugs, explicit language, violence, death and triggering topics such as sexual assault and abuse.
A/N: I really hope you enjoy this fic as much as I do, I am a sucker for an ex's to lovers trope! This will be an ongoing series with each chapter correlating to a different episode! Love you! x
Fuck you Monday.
I am not a bad person. At least, I don’t believe I am. Research suggests that people become products of their environments, in fact, there’s an entire theory surrounding the self-fulfilling prophecy which suggests that if environmental factors such as the people and community surrounding you believe you will turn out a certain way, you will. It’s something to do with the phrase ‘if that’s what people think I am, then that’s what I will be.’ For as long as I’ve been alive, I have done my best to combat this. Not wanting to prove the countless social workers, mental health professionals, teachers and police correct. I am a good person.
My brother on the other hand, that’s slightly more complicated. He’s four years older than me, he understands and remembers more of our childhood than I do. It’s not something that we often talk about, him opting to avoid the subject entirely not wanting to reminisce on the past. His words not mine. I don’t blame him for this, nothing I can remember is positive. Being passed from one distant relative to the next, each being significantly worse than the last. Until one day we ended up at the home. I can only imagine what other horrors he may remember.
Hence why I stated it’s complicated, everything he does, he does for us. That’s the way it’s always been. Not once has he failed to protect me, agreeing to be my legal guardian the moment he turned eighteen in order to remove me from the clutches of any government mandated home. I’ll forever be grateful to him for that, and so I could never argue that he isn’t a selfless man. Not when it comes to family.
Others may disagree with me, believing he is cruel, callous and cold. Inherently evil is a term that has been used to describe him many times before. I’ll be the first to admit that there are times when I don’t agree with his actions. However, I don’t believe this defines him as a person. People are so complex and have many different layers that somebody cannot be defined by one small thing. So would I say he’s a good person? No, but I also wouldn’t say he’s a bad person. He’s just different.
“Your brother said to tell you he’s setting off in ten minutes so to make sure you’re ready.”
The soft voice at my doorway startles me, too focused on applying my lipgloss to notice the boy standing in the doorway. As I glance up at him through my mirror, I’m hit by the unmistakable stench of marijuana that seems to flood the room. My nose scrunches, slightly disgusted by the thought of my brother and his friends getting high in the living room at eight am on a monday morning. Continuing to apply multiple layers of the shimmery pink gloss, I notice the figure is still standing in my doorway, his back turned to me, stance appearing almost awkward as he scratches the back of his head nervously.
“Cash you can come in.”
He turns to face me, hesitantly stepping through the threshold into my bedroom with a small smile on his face. Closing the old wooden door behind him, only to almost be knocked out by the numerous bags I have hung up on the back of my door.
“That’s a lot of bags.” He comments, resulting in a small laugh from me due to him stating the obvious.
Beginning to gather my textbooks, notebooks and any other supplies I may need for school, I notice Cash standing silently simply observing my bedroom. It’s a stark contrast to the rest of the house. Walls painted a burnt amber with photos and posters plastered up anywhere I could reach. Crocheted blankets are thrown over every piece of furniture in the room and my window stays wide open, allowing the bright morning light to flood the room, the gentle breeze blowing just enough to allow a melodic hum to reverberate through my wind chime.
“Your bedroom is nice. It’s homely.” Cash tells me, waiting patiently as I continue to throw things into my bag.
“Not a chance in hell was I letting Chook decorate my bedroom with graffiti.” I laugh, throwing my chunky black cardigan over my shoulders before the eshay opens the door for me, being the gentleman that he is and allowing me to exit first. “There’s another spray paint to cover a skatepark in here as it is.”
My finger traces one of the many swirls of blue spray paint that lines the hallway as I speak, eliciting a chuckle from the boy that follows behind me. Entering the lounge, I find Jayden and Tilla sprawled out on the sofa, eyes glazed over and it’s clear that they’re both stoned out of their minds. Chook sits on the armchair that he’s claimed as his own, nobody else dares to sit there, knowing it’s his seat. He’s playing with the car keys in his hands, eyes fixed on the unconscious man laid out at his feet. Occasionally nudging him with his foot in an attempt to humor himself.
“Who’s that?” I question, capturing my brother’s attention for the first time since we set foot in the lounge.
“Fuck knows brah, couldn’t handle his drinks though clearly.”
With one last surprisingly gentle kick to the stomach, Chook rises from the chair. Ruffling my hair as he strolls past me and towards the front door, much to my annoyance. I sigh quietly, swiftly smoothing my hair down, to which Cash does his best to muffle his laugh as we follow my brother out the door. Stepping over yet another unconscious man as we leave the house.
Hartley High is only a twenty minute drive, most of which I spend in silence, trying my best to enjoy the drum and bass that erupts out of the speakers as we fly down the streets of Sydney. Chook was never one for following the speed limit, no matter how many times I lectured him on the importance of driving safely.
We pull into the car park outside of school with an ear piercing screech, slamming to a halt directly outside the gates, the unnecessary amount of noise causes many students to look in our direction. Many whispering to their friends as they gawk at us, I do my best to keep my head down as I clamber out of the vehicle. Embarrassed by the commotion Chook has caused.
“Don’t get expelled!” Chook yells out of the car window as Cash and I trudge reluctantly towards the quad. Not wanting to dignify him with a response, I simply throw my middle finger up behind me, hearing his raucous laughter followed by the screech of his tires on the asphalt once again.
“You reckon this year will be any better?” Cash inquires, knuckles white due to how tight he is clenching the strap of his fanny pack that is thrown over his shoulder. He’s nervous. Contrary to what people believe, Cash is a sweet boy. He’s so loving, caring, considerate and kind, he has a lot to offer the world we live in. Nobody seems to see this though. Believing Cash is a good for nothing eshay that will make nothing of himself upon leaving school, most likely following in the footsteps of his mother and ending up in prison. Even he himself believes this.
“I don’t know mate, maybe for you, I mean you technically don’t even need to be here. I don’t have a choice unfortunately.”
“Yeah but that just means you’re stuck with me for another year kiddo.”
“I am literally a year younger than you.” I sulk, giving him a gentle shove in order to express my annoyance. “Besides, you wouldn’t have screwed me if you saw me as a kid.”
Cash stops in his tracks completely, I smirk, pleased that I’ve rendered him completely speechless and offer him a quick wink from over my shoulder as he jogs to catch up to me. We agreed to never speak of it. A one night hook up when we were both heavily under the influence of certain illegal substances. My heart was in pieces following the breakdown of mine and a particular church going brunette’s secret relationship. If you could even call it a relationship, we never exactly labeled anything, nor made anything public. However, it felt as though my heart had shattered, I’d never experienced anything like that before. Not even the pain of my childhood compared to this.
One thing led to another and Cash and I were stumbling into bed together. Both of us knew it was wrong, Chook would kill Cash if he ever found out. Fortunately it only happened once and while I wouldn’t say that I regret it, it did definitely put a strain on our friendship for a while. Mostly due to him being terrified of me telling my brother.
Remembering the memory, I can’t help but smile to myself. Even if it was just for that one night, Cash made me feel whole again. Like I was worthy of finding love. The dopamine from the positive recollection seems to crash like a wave over my body, uplifting my mood drastically despite heading into what is ultimately prison for the next seven hours. That is until I catch a glimpse of the one person I was hoping to avoid completely for the next year.
Anthony Vaughn.
“Oi there’s a fully gacked sex map in the old stairwell.” Shouts from the redheaded girl catch my attention and I’m grateful to be provided a distraction. “It’s called the incest map!”
Students from all directions flock together in a sprint towards the old stairwell. The scene could be described as something out of a nature documentary when a pack of wild animals chase after their prey together. It’s wild and chaotic, completely undignified. So, with a quick glance at one another, Cash and I also follow the crowd, taking off in a run to identify what a ‘sex map’ truly is, and why it is so interesting that the entirety of our school is racing at full speed just to catch a glimpse.
I thank my lucky stars that I’m not claustrophobic when I eventually manage to squeeze my way through the horde of students. Names are scrawled in huge letters across the wall, each with different lines and symbols linking one to another. There’s a key chart to the left hand side and it’s safe to say nobody’s sexual endeavours were safe due to how graphic the key chart was.
The usual suspects are on the map, those who aren’t quiet about their partaking in hookup culture, such as Darren and Dusty. Those in relationships are also unsurprising, for example Missy and Sasha are of course linked, having only just recently broken up. Other names however do manage to shock me, for one I was not expecting to see Quinni’s name on the map, nor was I expecting Cash. Following the three lines connected to his name, it’s only then that I realize in bright red letters accompanied by a pair of devil horns, is my name.
Y/N - hooked up - Cash. Y/N - blowie - Spider. Y/N - fucked - Ant. Y/N - destined - Ant.
With each passing second it feels like my heart has stopped, secrets revealed to the world that were supposed to never see the light of day. How did anybody know about this? Sure, Spider may have blabbed about me giving him a blowjob, most likely bragging to his two best mates about it as though I’m his latest conquest. However, what happened between Cash and I, as well as Ant and I was meant to be kept quiet.
With trembling hands, I begin to anxiously scan the room, looking for any sign that somebody other than myself may have noticed my name. Catching the eye of the brunette, who stands timidly between Dusty and Spider, I discern that he is just as concerned as I am. Fearful of the consequences of this coming out.
“Yo Ant, you fucked the eshay’s sister? Nice one bro.” Dusty shouts, clapping his friend on the back which only leads to the red blush on his face to creep to an even deeper crimson.
“You got further with her than I ever did.” Spider comments, a mischievous smirk spread across his lips. “Why didn’t you tell us?”
Ant simply lowers his head, eyes focusing on his shoes which appear to be a lot more interesting than the map in front of him. I can’t lie and say it doesn’t hurt that he won’t speak about us, but at the same time, I understand. With mates like his, I would want to keep things hidden from them too, especially if this is how they react. Not to mention his overly religious family upbringing and the overwhelming amount of shame he is afraid of bringing on his family.
“Hey, you okay?” Cash whispers, hand faintly grazing mine in a subtle attempt to offer his support.
“I was just about to ask you the same thing.” Offering the mullet wearing boy a forced smile, trying to cover up the embarrassment of suddenly being the center of attention.
Continuing to stare at the map in disbelief, only the shouts of rowdy teenagers can be heard as they find more and more connections on the map that they hadn’t seen upon their first inspection. A few even run out in tears, the map ruining many people’s relationships, outing people and just causing pure humiliation for everybody that has their name scribbled across the wall.
“Hey, do you reckon if we ask real nice, Y/N will let us double dick her?” Spider asks Ant obnoxiously loud, nudging him as they both look over in my direction. Humorless expression evident on my face. “What, we’ve both already been there.”
Spider’s comment is directed to me, with him and Dusty both finding the utmost amusement in the entire situation. Ant, on the other hand, looks as though he wants the floor to swallow him whole, unable to make eye contact with me.
“Are you sure you’d be able to get it up? You and I both know how difficult it was for you last time and that was just for a blowie.” Without giving Spider a chance to respond, I’m pushing through the sea of teenagers, who are now staring eagle eyed between the blonde boy and myself. Invested in the very minor argument between us, a chorus of laughter can be heard at Spider’s expense. Even Dusty seems to take amusement in the mortification of his friend. As I brush past the trio, it’s hard to ignore the self-consciousness on their leader’s face. I can’t help but feel a small sense of pride, knowing that my comment really got under his skin. Eyes trailing over each of the guys, I notice that Ant is already looking at me, a regretful look on his face.
Unlike his two mates, Ant has always been the more caring of the three. Whilst still partaking, somewhat reluctantly, in the shenanigans that the other boys rope him into, he has always had more of a guilty consciousness. Often disclosing the amount of regret and guilt he felt due to some of their actions. Though, he made me swear that information to secrecy, not wanting the boys to view him as weaker. It’s one thing we regularly argued about, with him being unable to fathom the idea that having morals and a consciousness doesn’t make you any less of a man.
The deafening shrill of the school bell sounds whilst I stomp across the quad, alerting me of the fact that I should be headed towards the gym for the mandatory back to school assembly. Yet, I can’t bring myself to face it. Wanting to avoid Spider for a little while longer while I can in the hopes of steering clear of another confrontation. Half an hour into the new school year and I’m already wagging, what a great start.
Without turning to look back, I can hear the shuffle of feet as everybody begins to pile out of the old stairwell. Heading into the main school building, still, I tread on. Doing my best to sneak behind the science block and finding solace in the old dunnies that were closed off to students back in the nineties. Technically, nobody is supposed to be back here, I’m risking detention just by being here, though Cash and I continue to use it as a safe space to hide from the world whenever we need peace.
Rummaging through my bag, I’m quick to find the box of Marlboro Gold’s that I always keep stashed at the bottom, just on the odd occasion that I do feel the urge to smoke. It used to be a rare occurrence, these days, unfortunately it seems to be more of a recurring problem. I’ve hidden the habit from just about everyone in my life, not that Chook would care, he’s done far worse that I ever have. I just don't want people to perceive me as any less that they do now, I know smoking is a dirty horrible habit and yet I can’t seem to quit. So, as I spark my lighter, inhaling the toxic fumes, I begin to take comfort in the calm that fills my body from the lungs outward.
“Shit, sorry, I didn’t think anyone was gonna be in here.”
My eyes sweep up from the ground, and if the baggy jeans and tie dyed jumper weren’t enough of a give away as to who stood before me the cross chain hanging from his neck certainly did. It’s the first time he’s actually spoken to me directly since the night everything came crumbling down eight weeks ago. When my eyes lock with his, I can’t help but take in his beauty as if it’s the first time I’ve ever seen him and before I can react the cigarette is falling out of my fingers.
“I didn’t know you smoked.”
He points to the ciggie that is now beginning to burn out on the concrete floor. With an awkward laugh, I quickly pick it up, stubbing it out on the wall, humiliated that he caught me.
“I don’t really,” Playing with the ends of my hair as I desperately try to think of an excuse that doesn’t truly reveal the extent of my habit.
“Just needed to destress after this morning.”
“Yeah, crazy morning, right?” Ant asks, leaning against the doorframe as he attempts to make small talk with me. “Actually, do you have another one of those?”
With raised eyebrows I nod swiftly, pulling the pack out of my bag and offering them to him along with my lighter. He lights his and I do the same, after all I didn’t exactly get to finish the first one on account of dropping it on the ground.
“You wagging assembly too?”
My voice is quiet, unsure on whether he actually wants me to make conversation with him or he’d prefer to sit in silence. Despite my best attempts to not make it obvious, I watch as he takes a drag from the ciggie, allowing the smoke to delicately fall from his lips. It’s awkward not knowing where I stand with him, sure, what happened was a while ago now and I’d assumed we’d both moved on but that doesn’t make the entire situation any less awkward.
“Couldn’t face it, Spider and Dusty wouldn’t stop hounding me for all the details and I just needed some space.” Ant admits, picking at the skin around his fingers between drags.
“Oh right, I can leave if you want some space, I don’t mind.”
Grabbing my bag and hauling myself off the window ledge, I throw the end of my ciggie to the ground, ready to leave. That is until his hand grabs mine gently, his touch soft as I’m forced to stop and look at him.
“No, stay. You should stay.”
Ant offers me a small smile before letting go of my hand, the touch so fleeting and yet it still manages to make my heart flutter even just the tiniest bit. Sitting beside him on the cold, mucky floor, not minding the dirt if it means that Ant and I are one step closer to mending our friendship. Truthfully, I miss him. I miss him as a friend more so than anything. Our bond was one that you don’t find much in life, one that others struggle to comprehend.
“I owe you an apology.” His words catch me off guard, unaware that he felt the need to apologize to me, let alone, doing so on the first day back at school. Granted it hasn’t been any ordinary first day back. “I was a complete dickhead to you and you didn’t deserve it-”
“Ant you don’t need to explain yourself.”
“Nah, I do. I think I knew I couldn’t be the guy you deserved, and I got scared. It’s no excuse, I know that. Just believe me, I didn’t mean any of the stuff I said to you that night, I was so pissed, honestly, I hardly remember any of it. All I know is I woke up with the worst hangover of my life and you weren’t there.” He stops for a moment, collecting his thoughts with furrowed eyebrows, trying his best to put what he wants to say into words. “You weren’t there and then I saw the messages. Y/N, I’m so sorry. I didn’t ever want to hurt you.”
He’s staring at me intently, eyes trying to find any glimmer of emotion on my face in an attempt to determine what I’m thinking. Opening my mouth to respond, I find myself rendered completely speechless. As I focus on Ant, I can see the worry in his eyes. Uneasy as to what I may have to say.
“Shit, sorry, I’m no good with words, I-”
“Stop talking Ant.” I mumble, putting an end to his rant before he can even properly begin. “Cheers for the apology, it means a lot.”
“Do you hate me?” The question is blurted out before he can stop himself. Shocking even himself judging by the way his widened followed by his head falling to his hands.
“I could never hate you. You should know that.” I tell him, his whole body instantly less tense as the relief floods through him. “I’ve actually really missed my friend. We should’ve never complicated things.”
I almost miss it, but there’s a flash of pain in the browns of his eyes as I say those last words, though he nods in agreement. The silence that follows is no longer awkward, instead it’s tranquil. Plainly embracing the warmth of the early morning sun in one another’s presence feels relaxing compared to the events that unfolded prior. Blissfully enjoying the reblossoming of our once torn apart friendship.
“If it isn’t Anthony Vaughn and Y/N Y/LN. You’ve not even been back a day and you’re already wagging.” Ms Woods’ tone is extremely unimpressed as she addresses us, evidently not happy that we’re getting into trouble this quickly. Ant and I can’t help but hold in matching mischievous grins. “My office now!”
—---------------------------------------------------------------------------- “So what were you and Ant doing in the dunnies together?” Cash mumbles the minute my brother is out of earshot and inside Harry’s diner, no doubt trying to chat up all the girls who are trying to eat their chippies in peace.
Slapping him straight in the chest, my eyes flicker towards the door of the diner, wary that Chook will pop out at any second and overhear our conversation. He feigns annoyance, dramatically throwing his hand up to his chest, acting as if I’ve just shot him.
“Oh my god, nothing!”
“I saw your names on the map Y/N, can you blame me for thinking you were trying to cop a root?”
“Shut the fuck up! Nothing happened okay?” I whisper as aggressively as I can, playing with the hem of my pinstripe mini dress in the hopes that I can distract myself from this conversation.
“I dunno, Amerie seemed to think you two were destined.”
“Who’s destined?”
Chook’s voice alarms me, head snapping up to spot the slightly older, male version of myself walking only mere feet away from Cash and I. His casual demeanor suggests he hasn’t overheard the rest of our conversation for which I’m thankful. Locking eyes with Cash, I shake my head in the subtlest way possible so he knows not to say a word. If Chook found out about the map, not only would I be dead, but Cash as well, so it’s in the best interest of both of us not to open our mouths about yesterday’s events.
“Spider and his imaginary girlfriend. That boy is gonna be in a serious relationship with his hand for the foreseeable future.” The lie slips off my tongue so easily that it’s rather concerning. Chook doesn’t question me, though why would he? I learned from the best.
“Sure. You prepared for the cemetery tonight kid?” Chook asks Cash, not even bothering to look up at him as he stashes the boot of the car with countless amounts of junk food he had just collected from Harry’s. “Thank god you stayed at school for another year, since this little bitch didn’t wanna take over as our connect.”
“My bad that I didn’t wanna be running around, pushing drugs for you for the rest of my school life.” I argue, Chook pulling faces as I speak in response. Deciding that this is an argument not worth having today, after all, it’s one we’ve had many times before.
“Yeah, all good brah.” Cash chimes in, answering Chook’s question to put an end to our petty argument before we can take it even further. Before we can get physically violent, even if it is only in a playful manner.
“You two best get going hey, maximize profit and all that.”
Cash doesn’t need any further instruction, hopping on his motorbike after passing me his fanny pack to store in the bag on the back. Something he always does in order to ensure that all his supply is kept perfectly safe while he drives. I’d consider it smart if I didn’t know it was drugs he was keeping safe. Chook jumps in his car, nodding in our direction as he flies out of the car park with Jayden and Tilla shouting out of the window at us. I can’t help but smile at their antics.
Cash offers me a hand on to the back of his bike, hiking my tiny dress up even further so that I can throw my leg over the vehicle. Wrapping my arms around his waist tightly, he watches in his mirror for me to nod before taking off. A habit he picked up when he first began to drive me around on what I like to call his ‘death trap’.
Dance music is belting from the many speakers when we arrive at the cemetery, a fire pit glowing in the middle of the makeshift dance floor as people crowd around it. The sun is already setting as we arrive, illuminating the party in a way that looks angelic. Upon reaching one of the many piles of drinks, it’s hard to notice Amerie dancing crazily, along with Darren, Quinni and Malachai. I point it out to Cash, the pair of us surprised that she has any friends left considering her actions.
Parting ways with the eshay I find taking a swig from one of the numerous vodka bottles before grabbing a bottle of bus, watching as Cash immediately begins to get to work, Sasha instantly running over to him the moment she spots him alone. Rolling my eyes, I plant myself further away from the party, sat with my back against one of the decrepit headstones.
I’ve always been more of an introvert. Opting to be a wallflower and observe rather than be the center of attention, unlike my fellow classmates who all seem to thrive when the spotlight is on them. I hate Amerie for forcing me into that spotlight.
Between sips of the slightly warm lager, I begin to roll myself a joint, figuring I may as well attempt to have a good time at the party. Even if it isn’t my ideal Tuesday night. I couldn’t let Cash come on his own though, not when he’s working for my brother.
“You are a bad girl Y/N Y/L/N.” Ant’s voice shouts from a short distance away, strolling towards me with a cheeky grin slapped across his face. “What is this? The second time I’ve caught you smoking now?”
“Right well I was just about to offer to share this with you but I guess not now.” I joke, lighting it up as Ant flops down beside me. “And technically, I haven’t even smoked this yet so you’ve only caught me once.”
“It totally counts!” Ant argues, waiting patiently as I take a couple of puffs before handing him the joint. “How’d your brother take it when he found out about the map?”
“You’re safe if that’s what you’re asking. I haven’t told him and he’s not the type of bloke that answers the phone when Woodsy rings.” He hands the joint back to me, fingers brushing mine tenderly. “Your mum?
“Not great. Amerie really fucked things up for me, I have to go to church three more times a week now, all because of one wristy and well you know.”
“Did you tell her the truth about us?” I inquire, wondering if he did come clean completely about our situationship of sorts.
“Nah, I told her it was just the once.” He admits, glancing at me sheepishly, almost embarrassed to recount the memory. “Figured that was better than telling her the truth. I may have also turned her that you were my girlfriend at the time, you know, to kind of make it better. Not that she approves of premarital sex or anything and I know we didn’t label what we were but it sounded better in the moment. I hope that’s okay.”
“Lying to your mother Anthony, that’s not very christian of you!” I gasp, to which he snatches the joint back out of my hand in retaliation, laughing along with me.
“Fuck yourself.” Ant chuckles, blowing the smoke directly in my face without any warning, causing me to descend into a fit of coughs.
“What’s the deal with you and Cash anyway? You two a thing now?” Ant’s not looking up at me when he speaks, all his attention fixated on the crowd of teenagers partying in the distance. Anxiously pulling blades of grass from the ground beneath me, I continue to gaze at him, a sigh falling from my lips as I had hoped he hadn’t noticed the line between Cash and my name. It was inevitable that it was going to come up, I had just hoped it would be something that people skirted around, not asking any direct questions.
“Nah.” The word is faint, shaking my head, my eyes fall on the boy in question, completely unaware that we are speaking about him as he stands in conversation with Darren. “We’re just mates.”
The boy nods besides me though I can tell he doesn’t truly believe me, still unable to look in my direction. Nudging him slightly, I give a small smile when he does hesitantly face me. “We hooked up once a few weeks ago, I was pretty much black out and he was just there. It was a fucking stupid decision.”
“Just mates though?” Ant asks, more of a rhetorical question, as if to reassure himself, much to my confusion as I can’t see why it would matter to him whether we were just mates or not. “Okay but who was better?”
Bloodshot eyes and a lazy smile indicate to me that the joint has hit him quicker than either of us expected. Warm blush present on his cheeks, his head tipped back against the headstone , gazing up at the stars that begin to light up the late summer skies.
“You’re so stoned.” I comment, completely dodging the question in the hopes that he’s too high to remember what he had even asked.
“Just like old times, yeah.”
Ant’s fingers brush over my hand just barely, the touch so slight that I wouldn’t have felt it had I not been looking in that direction. Thumb softly tracing circles across the back of my palm, skin feeling as though its been set alight with every small movement. Turning my head, I find Ant already staring at me, mouth curved upwards into a slight smile.
“I wish I never cooked it with you.”
Despite knowing that he is as high as a kite, his words still manage to catch me off guard. Forcing me to pull away, leaning back to take him in properly. From his somber expression to the deep intensity with which he looks at me, awaiting a reaction.
“Cops!” Before I can respond, shouts from the party grab my attention. Head spinning round to see the chaos unfolding, teenagers running in every direction, some scream, whilst others laugh. “Cops! The cops are coming!”
“Oh shit.”
Discarding the bottle I had been nursing, I hop to my feet within seconds, Ant, who now looks surprisingly sober, does the same. Without hesitation, he is grabbing my hand before we take off in a sprint, running in the opposite direction of the flashing lights and sirens that are rolling up to the gatho. As the crowds disperse, I find myself scanning through the seas of people, looking for a certain eshay that would get into a lot of trouble, should he be caught. “Where’s Cash?” Voice breathy, I force Ant and I to a halt, searching my entire field of vision for any sign of him, head spinning so fast that I’m shocked I didn’t give myself vertigo. “Ant, I can’t see him. Where’s Cash?”
“Y/N we need to go.”
With his free hand, Ant easily slides it around my waist, using all his strength to pry my feet from the pavement. Regardless of my unwillingness, I allow the boy to lead us away from the party. Not wanting to run the risk of getting caught, so instead I recite prayers in my head that Cash also hasn’t been caught.
Upon reaching the locked gate, Ant wastes no time in easily pushing me up so that I can scramble over the metal. He does so with ease, a proud display of his strength and it makes me blush. Reminiscing on the ways he used that strength before.
Running hand in hand down the noiseless streets of Sydney, I find myself giggling at tonight’s events. The prospect of an exciting, if slightly chaotic year eleven rises upon the horizon and I can’t help but display my enthusiasm at seeing where the next few months take me. (Hopefully, with Ant by my side, but nobody needs to know that.)
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Cash would’ve killed Chook in broad daylight if he found out what he did to Darren
#heartbreak high#cash heartbreak high#douglas piggott#darren rivers#chook#cash x darren#dash#and I’d like to see it
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Finished 2x05 of heartbreak high and oh boy stuff went down (contains spoilers!!):
I kinda expected the identity of bird psycho but also didn‘t want it to be true. He was kinda acting sus during the camping trip and something about his mannerisms, the way he looked made me suspicious
On reason why I threw away that thought is because I couldn‘t think of a motive since he‘s the new kid but I‘ll guess why‘ll find out soon
Poor Malakai tho, he deserves someone who truly likes him :( I can‘t tell if I still like Amerie x Malakai because she‘s done some not so nice stuff but let‘s see
Amerie listing out to Malakai what he‘s done wrong in a frog costume and a flute was hilarious
Poor Quinni, I totally get it tho :( She was so focused on her detective work and then suddenly it all collapsed. I also panic when my friends have so much stuff going on and I feel left out. I‘m just glad we got such great autism representation
Darren, Cash and Harper sounds like the most chaotic living situation ever (I feel like Cash would do all the household chores and being stressed out)
Kinda need more Darren and Cash scenes, I‘m glad they‘re communicating more ( minus Cash not telling Darren about the whole Chook thing, which also understandable)
Interesting that we get a Spider redemption arc and yeah, after seeing his living situation, I can understand why he behaves like that (what Missy said). I hope he learns that he doesn‘t have to be such a shitty person
Also MISSY IS SO GORGEOUS I HAVE A FAT CRUSH ON HER (Spider you better treat her right)
#heartbreak high#heartbreak high spoilers#heartbreak high s2 spoilers#heartbreak high 2x05#malakai mitchell#amerie wadia#darren rivers#darren x ca$h#ca$h#missy beckett#spider#rowan callaghan#quinni gallagher jones#harper mclean
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da$h watch 1x08
"I figured out your superpower. Invisibility. You have the power to be in class one minute, and the next...(snaps fingers)...vanish into light air. I've been looking for you."
We see a flashback of the festival from Harper’s perspective. When the girls arrive they buy drugs from Cash and there’s a distinction between him and the other eshays—he’s polite and Harper seems to be comfortable with him from school, e.g. she’s making raunchy jokes. Meanwhile the others are sitting separately, looking at Harper and making her uncomfortable.
Later that night, she awakens in Chook’s car with the group having kidnapped her and clearly planning to assault her. Cash is riding shotgun, quiet and serious; he keeps looking back at her in his peripheral vision. When two of the guys have gotten out of the car at a gas station, Cash looks at her and silently conveys that he’s unlocking the door. She runs away and as the other guys start chasing her, Cash slowly gets out of the car looking rattled, then joins the others.
In the present day, Peter comes to Harry’s and asks to talk to Darren during their break. He notes that Darren isn’t themself and “sad Darren is a lot worse than extra Darren” (which feels very meaningful in light of Darren being “too much” and “exhausting”).
Darren explains that they still want to be with Cash and they love him. Peter agrees to give them advice even though he doesn’t approve of Cash. His advice is “love is sometimes all about the timing” and Darren’s unimpressed: “that is the most lame gen X thing I’ve ever heard! I don’t believe that!”
Peter asks what they do believe, and Darren says tearfully, “I think I’m a hard person to love.”
Peter tells them that as a kid he pushed people away too, and it didn’t protect him. He encourages them to put themself out there because “with love sometimes you have to do the crazy thing.” Some of the dialogue is off because of the forced references to the original show but it’s still a sweet conversation. Darren finally gets a parent telling them they’re beautiful and lovable and like...they accept it, they’re listening and crying and it clearly means a lot to them. Good!!
At school, Amerie talks to Cash about what happened. She asks him why he didn’t stop the guys from kidnapping Harper. He sort of gives two explanations: first he stammers, saying he just froze, then he makes an argument for why it was the logical thing to do because going along with it meant that he could be there to help Harper.
Amerie complains there’s no evidence. She asks Cash if the eshays have done this before and he fervently says “no, never.” She asks if they’ll do it again and he can’t answer. She tells him it’s fucked up that he still hangs out with the eshays, and to stay away from Darren.
Cash comes home and Darren is sitting on his front porch. They tell him, “I figured out your superpower—invisibility." He sits down with them as they talk about how hard he is to find, and finish intensely, "I've been looking for you." Looong look between them and then they both look away.
Darren: “I haven’t been the best person recently. I’ve been a pile of rats in a trenchcoat really” (no response) “but I’ve thought about it and I know we can make this work.” (Oh really Darren?? You thought about it? Did you care to share any of those thoughts in season 2?)
Cash immediately gets up and walks to the corner of the porch. Darren follows him and gives a very intense vulnerable speech about how they want to be with Cash more than anything, that he doesn’t have to be alone just because he’s ace, and that they’ll love him “for what you want or what you don’t want...I'm in."
Unfortunately, Peter was right—it’s bad timing! Cash just listens quietly, and finally says, “Me and you, we should stop wasting each other’s time.”
Darren: so that’s it? You won’t even try?
Cash: I can’t.
Then one of my favorite musical transitions--"Don't Know How to Keep Loving You" by Julia Jacklin, which somehow works really well both for the Darren/Cash scene and Harper deciding not to visit her dad in the hospital.
Next up, Nan is surprised when Cash comes in and starts unpacking a lot of canned food. She asks if they're going into "locky d" again (lol), and he starts bossily telling her how to freeze bread. She calls him out on being patronizing and then the ULTIMATE callout: “you’re always trying to take care of me. Dougie, who’s going to take care of you?”
Then we see Cash at Chook's house having the worst time. Apparently what the eshays do in their spare time is sit in the dark, drink beer, and play video games, but not in a fun way. No wonder Cash was so happy to hang out with Darren and their friends.
All the eshays decide to cut the kid's rattail off (a blessing tbh) and when they're busy with that, Cash grabs Jayden's phone and hides in the bathroom with it. Jayden took a video of Harper unconscious in the car, and Cash starts sending it to Harper.
Chook INSANELY knocks on the door asking what Cash is doing in the bathroom ? like what does he think ? and Cash replies "just having a shit bro" and Chook is like...very excited that Cash is taking a shit ?? The darkest moment of all
The next day, Cash is walking up to his house absorbed in his phone when he sloooowly notices his nan is in front of the house arguing with cops. She notices him and yells “gun it, boyo!” and he takes off running.
Meanwhile the kids are in SLTs discussing the subject of “why a person might choose not to have sex,” when Ant points out that Cash is outside running from the cops. The kids all look out the window but in the meantime, Cash has run inside and appears in the doorway of the class to tearfully confess his feelings to Darren!
Cash: I love you Darren. I’ve loved you since year 8, and the only good thing about coming to this shithole every day is seeing your face.
Darren: are you serious?
(Cash nods, sniffling. Darren also starts crying.)
Darren: I love you too!
They dramatically kiss while crying and are ripped apart by the cops. Cash seems cool with it, reassuring Darren who is hysterically laughing/sobbing and collapses into Quinni’s arms saying “idiot!”
That’s all she wrote!!
Thoughts:
Man, I just think season 1 is so well constructed. We already learned in episode 4 that Chook is evil, and that Cash is pretty different from the other guys, but feels stuck in the gang. We learned these things in a natural way as pieces of who Cash is.
Then when we learn what happened to Harper, it’s with a character who we’ve already been introduced to and who we can easily believe doing something awful. And the reveal that Cash helped her, but stayed in the gang and acted like nothing happened, makes perfect sense with how he’s been established.
“I think I’m a hard person to love”=what more is there to say!!
This line hurts so much because it’s both true and not true. Like, Darren’s not unlovable as a person—they’ve been made to feel that way. But that trauma does make them difficult to get close with because they are so defensive.
We see this repeatedly play out in s1: they shut people out, but they’re learning—hating Amerie and then befriending her, pushing their dad away and then gradually accepting his love and support. Cash adores them and was all in, but because of their own fears, they pushed him away about as hard as they could have. But they realize they were wrong, and they keep coming back, trying to make it work.
It’s interesting how when Amerie asks why Cash didn’t stop the eshays from kidnapping Harper, he first is like I don’t know, something’s wrong with me (which is what he says to Harper in s2–“I’m a coward, I’m fucked in the head”), but then he goes into a pretty reasonable explanation of why confronting them wouldn’t have worked and keeping quiet allowed him to help her.
So which thing is true? I guess they can both be true. Freezing and keeping quiet is Cash’s trauma response. Sometimes it’s maladaptive like when he’s so secretive/avoidant about the Chook thing in s2. But sometimes it’s a very effective response, which is why it’s so ingrained.
The porch scene doesn’t get a lot of attention but I think it’s better than the Strawberry Kisses scene! Darren’s opening lines are great—they’re calling Cash on the fact that he’s great at blending in, appearing to be a certain type of guy, while actually not being that guy at all. Darren sees him, and they’re willing to put in the effort even when he’s trying not to be seen.
The reason Cash doesn’t respond to Darren on the porch is because he’s already decided to get the evidence for Harper, so he’s expecting to either be arrested or possibly get targeted by the eshays. This is also why he’s worried about stockpiling food for Nan.
I’ve always been a little meh on the reveal that Cash has “loved” Darren since year 8, because that’s not love, that’s just a crush? They didn’t know each other.
This time around it worked for me, specifically because of Darren’s insecurities. Nope, Cash is definitely not confused or embarrassed about his attraction to Darren. He’s liked them for 3 years and can’t wait to tell everyone. Even the fact that it’s in public and so OTT, which would usually feel like it’s just for extra drama, becomes meaningful if you think about what it would mean to Darren.
Btw, this is all Greek to me as an American but apparently Strawberry Kisses is a meme in Australia and James Majoos suggested it for this scene for the camp value??
Final thought: in season one, we see less of Cash’s perspective than Darren’s, and what we do see is lacking full context. The reveals in episode 8 cast everything in a different light.
Despite the fact that we see him appearing to have fun with the eshays in the early episodes, and he continues to hang out with them, Cash already saw them doing something morally reprehensible and acted to stop it. It's weird to watch back once you know that because you can see what a good faker/actor Cash is.
I feel like Cash is a person who has a very strong internal sense of who he is and what he believes. But his flaw is his superpower--being invisible, compromising, surviving, acting out of fear. He doesn't have any angst or hesitation about what he feels for Darren, but he was just scared to approach someone who's so far outside of his world. He would never hurt anyone, but he might not have the courage to stop someone from being hurt, unless he can do it under the radar.
It's obvious how Cash represents what Darren is missing (tl;dr unconditional love), but the reverse is also true. Darren represents visibility; just existing in the world as Darren is tough. It's not easy to be Darren, which is one reason Darren is not the nicest person, but they are immensely courageous. I think that's maybe why Cash was so drawn to them in the first place.
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axe throwing - a.v + h.m
spoilers for heart break high season one and two !!!!!
anthony vaughn x harper mclean
request: hi !! could you do a sweet first date type fic for ant and harper ?? i dont really see a lot of love for them so far but I AM OBSESSED! I was thinking maybe they'd go axe throwing for a first date since harper mentioned she wanted to go. ant is lowkey scared he's going to get a limb cut off then overcompensates w the bravado just bc he can see how much she's enjoying herself. u dont have to do this at all obviously but it was just some thoughts i had popping up
in which two of the hartley kids finally get a moment of peace together (or ant thinks he's gonna lose his arm)
lowercase intended
hbh masterlist + main masterlist
cw: mentions of past trauma, mostly fluff, end of season 2, i basically made up my own timeline to make it work, ive never been to axe throwing so i made some stuff up, not proofread !!!!
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the hartley high kids were stuck in a sort of limbo - since the school had burn down not even two weeks before the term break, the school board had decided everybody deserved an extended break to help 'unpack their trauma'. almost everyone thought it was a load of bullshit but couldn't fight having almost a month off school.
harper had been struggling, although she'd never admit it to anyone. it was unfair - every time she almost healed from one experience, a brand new one happened. darren had recently been going through a housewife phase, and in one cooking attempt, they'd accidentally set off the fire alarm. it caused the blonde to shut down for almost 24 hours, the experience of being locked in a smoke-filled projection room taking over her thoughts.
ant had accidentally been a lurker for quite a few of these mini events - like witnessing chook stare down harper at the housewarming party. when woodsy had called for harper and amerie during the fire, his whole body had been filled with a sense of dread (although he'd never tell harper how he'd fought to try and get to her).
the two decided to keep everything between them as light as possible, which had led to today's activity being set up.
harper dashed out of her shared home with darren and ca$h (their fake moans and tips for safe sex following her) and started up her borrowed car from robert.
when she drove up to ants place, he was sat outside, waiting already. harper couldn't fight the grin that stretched across her face as he wandered over to the passenger side. anthony had taken the concept of axe throwing and lumberjacks very seriously, and had dressed for the part - a plaid button up tossed, un-buttoned, over a cropped white tank top and a pair of baggy jeans.
he got in and immediately leant forward to kiss the blonde, and she pulled away with a smirk. "what's with the gay lumberjack cosplay?"
"i'm breaking lumberjack stereotypes, harps. be happy for me." but he glanced at her with a lazy grin and she shook her head, trying not to get distracted.
as they drove, ant insisted on being on aux. this meant that when spider called him, the audio was put on speaker.
"heya, spider."
"ant, you'll never-"
"hey spider!" harper piped up chirpily, and spiders whole demeanour over the phone changed.
"fuck off, harper."
"wait until i tell missy what you just said, dickhead. don't think i won't steal your girl." harper grinned as she said it, and ant turned to her quickly.
"hey!"
"you wish, harps."
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"i actually don't think we need to throw axes," ant stood stiffly, his gloves shoved in his pocket and axe in one hand.
harper, who was in the middle of putting her safety glasses on, paused and stared. "what?"
"i just like- don't feel like losing an arm today. ya' know?" he looked at her hopefully, and harper raised a brow.
"don't worry, baby. i'll protect you."
the nickname flicked a switch in his mind, and immediately, ant was back to his usual antics. "no need, m'lady. i will be protecting you."
glasses on, harper turned to stick her tongue out at him - only to be met with the flash of a camera. "ew, ant. i look proper munted with these on. delete that."
he didn't respond, and to be fair, she didn't really care all that much anyways. the two walked forward with their safety gear fully on, prepared to let out some of their anger.
at first, they mess around a bit, until harper finally gets her axe to actually hit the target. from then on, it's a full-on war - they're making up mini competitions, tallying points, and getting into arguments.
halfway through, harper's got 12,368 points while ant has -12.
"we should totally turn our competition into a drinking game, harps. it would be so fun."
"and dangerous." harper braces herself and launches her axe at the target. "ant, we suck balls right now - imagine what it'd be like if everyone was drunk?"
"oh. ohhhhhhhh! yeah, i didn't even think of that."
"of course you didn't, babe."
ant grabs harper and yanks her closer to him, hugging her. some employee chides them for being dangerous.
"you're so pretty, harper." he's looking down at her, grinning, harpers cheeks are pink.
"you're not so bad yourself, anthony." her hand wraps around the back of his neck and pulls him closer.
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"i cannot believe that we seriously got kicked out for making out!" harper exclaims in the car, pulling out of the parking lot.
"it was totally worth it." ant's still dazed, and he fumbles plugging his phone in.
it goes silent except for the frank ocean playing in the background, until ants phone buzzes with a notification. on instinct, harper's eyes flick to the screen - and her heart jolts.
his lock screen is a recent picture - one of harper, eyebrows furrowed and nose scrunched. her tongues poking out and her hairs a little wild, but she looks happy.
"ant! is that the picture you just took of me?"
"of course it is. can't get it out of my head, it's seriously driving me crazy." he looks down at the picture, a slight blush on his face.
"you just wait until i get a new picture of you, vaughn."
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#anthony vaughn#anthony vaughn imagine#ant heartbreak high#ant and harper#harper mclean#harper mclean imagine#harper heartbreak high#harper and anthony#heartbreak high 2022#heartbreak high imagine#heartbreak high#fluff#heartbreak high fic
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Going back your blog and seeing you life blog season 2 is really funny. Like, I knew exactly that episode you were on and what you were talking about, even if there was no context.
I don't know, I feel like you should know that I like your blog and had fun with it.
What you are expecting from season 3?
omg thank you! i’m so glad you enjoyed it! i have very much fun going feral over these dorks on this blog :)
ok as for season 3.
for relationships: I would just love to see more development of the relationships we saw start in s2. I really hope harper x ant gets more air time!!! Also i am DESPERATE for malakai to come back. He has to, right????? Also just super curious to see what they’ll do because it seemed like sasha x quinni was teased to be coming back but idk how i feel about that personally because i genuinely haven’t seen a huge amount of character development from sasha over s2 aside from the last episode. I’d love to see cash and darren communicate. period. just. at all. and I also just want more wholesome amerie and harper moments!!!
As for non relationship stuff: WHAT ARE THEY GOING TO DO ABOUT THE SCHOOL BURNING DOWN!!!! I am soooo curious to know how they’ll handle it. (What if they share classrooms with Brunos???? Can you imagine the drama???? There would be fighting on day one. Someone would die.) Also! Not gonna happen but I’d love to see chook die on screen :). More woodsy awesomeness and more jojo awesomeness incoming is also honestly one of the parts I’m most hyped about. Also 100% not going to happen but I’d love to see Rowan actually get real help and be able to feel at peace with Jett’s death and not feel the need to blame himself or anyone else. But ultimately I really just want a grand finale for these kids that feels satisfying and also lets them experience joy for more than two minutes at a time (@ malakai).
#sorry i rambled a bit!!!! but thank you so much for your kind words anon!!!#heartbreak high#hbh#lmk your speculations too i wanna hear them#hbh s2#heartbreak high s2#hbh s2 spoilers#hbh renewal
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