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#I CANT BELIEVE I MOVE TO [redacted] IN TWO DAYS!!!!#SO I CAN START MY PHD IN THE FUCKING GOD DAMN NEUROSCIENCE DEPARTMENT OF [redacted] FUCKING [redacted]!!!!!!!!!#darkest hour is just before dawn etc etc
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the letter ꕥ higuruma hiromi
summary: reader writes a letter for an absentee. one that she will never send.
tags: f!reader, implied past relationship, higuruma x reader, angst, break up, longing and general heartbreak.
wc: 1k
notes etc.: this is actually my original style of writing in my native language before i began writing in 2nd(?) + 3rd person pov on ao3 and tumblr this year. it’s different from what I’ve written so far, but I hope you guys enjoy it. the style translation was hard, holy shirt. song → shake it out (florence + the machine).
ꕥ collection of stories: "jujutsu partners au" → masterlist
i like to keep my issues drawn ꕥ it’s always darkest before the dawn
I was debating if I should start this with “hey, Hiromi”, “hi, Higuruma”, “dear” something, and I still haven’t arrived at an answer. The first sounds too casual for what we have become — and what are we now if not strangers? The second, however, is just too impersonal, and I don’t need such a stinging reminder of how much I’m not entitled to your first name anymore. At last, “dear” to start a letter is just tacky.
Alas, I digress.
I don’t quite know what possessed me to pick up a pen and a piece of paper (analogical, just like you’ve noted me to be) to blurt out the swirling hurts in my mind, but I guess I still had a lot to say, even if you weren’t here long enough to hear it.
Here goes nothing.
You might be wondering how I’m doing (at least I hope so), so I thought I’d let you know.
Tonight, more specifically, I’ve been for an insurmountable stretch of time — were it hours? Minutes? Days? Out of my priorities, tracking time has not been one of them — staring at the empty vacuum making its presence known by my side. It seems to mock my stare, that longs, against all odds, for a miracle — for you to simply materialize right there, out of thin air.
Seriously, you should see the mess you’ve made when you left.
You left an emptiness of shoes, black suits, wet towels on the bed, cup marks on the furniture, scratches of morning beard, warm legs under the covers — an emptiness of body that has been giving me nightmares. You came in, flipped everything upside down, blew up my walls and made so that every edge, vertex, color and smell of this heart and bones surrounding our leftover life would incessantly scream for you.
It’s like my misery extended beyond myself and resoundingly expanded against the walls of this house.
But… even though I wish you were here with every tiny part of myself, I couldn’t ask for you to stay. I know it wouldn’t be fair. You’d never ask me to betray myself, and the least I could do was to love you in the same earnest way.
You wouldn’t be the man I loved if you didn’t go. I wouldn’t be the person you loved if I asked you not to (I apologize for the past tense, it’s one of those truthless comforts I’ve decided to give myself for the time being).
You still linger here, though. I still keep your gaze close to my chest, your face pressed against my skin, your warm voice caressing the edge of my ear and your hair stroking through my fingers, even if it’s just my soul pretending for a minute.
A long minute.
You know, it has been hell without you here. The couch cushions wrap around me like your arms, the bed always bounces by the time you used to get up, and the kitchen smells like your favorite take-out meals (because God knows we’d set fire to this building if we so much as dared turning that stove top on). The window reflects two back at me when only one is looking at it, and my hiking boots are dearly missing those black oxford shoes. My coat hanging on the edge of the closet is also dearly missing your crumpled black ties sprinkled around the room (of course you took weeks to properly wash and organize them — when you ever did).
Oh, and the bed.
The bed is just not the same without that stupid, ridiculous blotch of water your towel would always leave on it.
A huge chunk of our house is missing.
I know I can’t let my selfishness kidnap you from what you need to do — and I do know you need it. But damn, sometimes it’s hard to fight the urge of hopping on the first train your way, grabbing you by your wrist and asking you to become once again part of my wallpaper, my duvet, my pillows. Just promise me you’ll make all of this pain worthwhile, even if you ran away with ten thirds of me.
Ever since you left, though, I learned a few tricks to mask your ever so present absence. I can pull the pillows towards the middle of the bed, eat in the living room and read in the kitchen, being sure to slowly put all my pieces back in place.
It’s harder to notice an empty chair across the table when you willingly choose to sit on the ground.
However, I didn’t want to do that. Not today. Call it insanity, clarity, or just meet me in my madness like you always so kindly did.
Today, I wanted to let you invade me, come into my house with my full permission and go on turning everything upside down once more. That way, I can almost feel you there. To me, at least for now, that’s good enough (or as good as I know it’s gonna get).
Your muted way of sharing our space could be so, so silent. That quietude brought me the deepest of peaces.
Unfortunately, I never anticipated the silence from your absence would be so loud, and not peaceful at all. It has been hammering at my breathless heart for days.
I miss you.
I love you, too.
***
With a sigh, you put the pen down and stared at the paper sheet for a minute, your own calligraphy so foreign with a pain you hadn’t let out properly ever since Hiromi… actually, Higuruma stepped out that morning.
Considering your options, you resigned, and pulled the letter in a crinkled messy ball, tossing it in the garbage can.
No need to talk to a voluntary absentee. No need to bother him, either.
You got yourself back up and picked up two pairs of keys, the blue buttoned shirt and made your way out of the apartment, not failing to hear the rumbling echo the door made when it slammed closed.
An echo that only happens in truly empty places.
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i started taking a yoga class a lil while ago, which means i think about your tomura yoga au at least twice a week.
i wonder if he (like me) underestimated how fuckin hot they keep the studio — not even for hot yoga! — and when he went to his first class, ignored toshinori’s suggestion not to wear that oversized hoodie bc he’s shy and self-conscious. only to have to take it off twenty minutes in bc he’s so sweaty and miserable and maybe seeing double
fr if i hadn’t committed to 2 months of classes, i might’ve just spun on my heel the second i walked through the door bc holy fuck
HE IS SO NOT PREPARED FOR HOW HOT THE STUDIO IS.
next time he goes he tries something different. long-sleeved shirt and joggers. still too hot. toshinori is (of course) wearing luxury athletic wear head to toe, and offers to take tomura shopping to pick some up for himself by touting the various benefits the labels claim (sweat wicking, circulation boosting, aura purifying, etc., etc.) and tomura is having NONE of that. he tries his old high school gym shorts. those are a bit better, but the elastic in the waistband has sort of started to give-way and he's terrified of accidentally flashing another student. he starts wearing t-shirts, but hates how they tend to slip up his torso when he does any sort of inverted poses—it always makes him panic and throws him off his rhythm when he hastens to tug it back down.
finally he lets toshinori take him to get some (SIMPLE. NORMAL.) workout clothes. nothing elaborate, though the price at the end is enough to make him want to walk out of the store and give up materialism altogether—but thankfully toshinori swoops in to (happily) pay before his darling son has the chance to turn to buddhism.
the one issue is that tomura is so paranoid about one of his nosy roommates finding any of his yoga clothes (and thereby unearthing his deepest, darkest secret) that he starts doing his laundry in the early hours of the morning—which may as well be the middle of the night to his dirtbag roommates. spinner's none the wiser, and everything is going well, until touya comes home from a night out one day at dawn and discovers tomura putting detergent in the washing machine like a deer in the headlights... and then proceeds to tell everyone they know that tomura has chronic wet dreams.
#liv got mail#tomura would rather everyone he knows think he's cumming in his sleep than doing a sun salutation three times a week with his dad#and frankly i think that's funny#yoga!tomura
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good morning, the darkest hour is just before the dawn, japan is the land of the rising sun, i'm on the strongest dose of copium and hopium etc etc.
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Fo the fanfic asks: 11, 13, 21! :3
11) What perspective do you write from most and/or least and why? (1st, 3rd limited, 3rd omniscient, deep pov, etc)
Most: 3rd limited, it's just what I feel most comfortable with and feels most natural for the way I write my stories.
Least: I haven't written in first or second person in yeaaaaaaars... I ought to give it another shot sometime now that I'm more experienced.
13) Are you a fast or slow writer?
if I'm not feeling inspired, then it goes sloooooooow. ;~; but when I'm on, I am ON, and can be disturbingly prolific. like, remember Darkest Before Dawn, the MW fic I wrote for @snail-studios 's ghost AU? that's 3,644 words, and I wrote that in something like. two and a half hours. and that's just one example. @_@
21) Writers choice - pick any of these questions that you want to answer.
OOH OKAY LET'S SEE HERE
8) Do you take inspiration from real life? If so how do you incorporate it into your fics?
yes!!! I use it wherever it'll fit in most naturally, like the bit from the first chapter of Winter's Moon where Mipha is thinking about her family's moves. I also use more abstract stuff, like thinking back to my own physical reactions to things and working that into how the character I'm currently writing would react to whatever is happening to them, as well as feelings I've had about certain things. as well as taking things said by a certain jerk and turning them into Gildan dialogue...
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OP I am baffled by your confusion? But meteorology is fun! I'm going to blather about meteorology now, but I suspect you know a lot of this and forgot. Please drink some coffee. It sounds like you started today on the wrong foot; I hope it goes better for you.
"Always darkest before the dawn" is not just a saying, it is true. Generally that will be the coldest time of day. Afternoon will generally be the warmest. This is very noticeable in the middle of winter, where the kind of cold weather gear you need changes throughout the day. In January I'll need a hat/scarf/mitts at 07:00, but I might forget them at work when I leave at 16:00 because the afternoon is noticeably warmer.
If a new high/low pressure weather system is coming, then the hottest/coldest part of the day might happen when that weather system arrives. Weather systems usually include changes in pressure and humidity, which can cause precipitation and winds. Particularly dramatic weather systems are sometimes be called "storm fronts". No one knows exactly what hour the storm front will arrive. The best meteorologists can only narrow it down to about a 2h timeframe.
Environment Canada has satellites, weather stations and weather balloons all over the country that track weather systems for airplanes to safely land. The data is fed to theweathernetwork.ca and other news outlets.
In the US, the weather stations were initially setup in the 70s to have 1.5miles between the weather station and pavement & buildings. This was to prevent buildings from interfering from the wind readings, and prevent pavement from artificially heating the temperature readings on the weather station. The weather stations are now often in parking lots, on top of buildings, etc. I'm sure there are other systems that have been built - planes still land in the US every day - but I don't know who owns the best readings or how to access them as a consumer.
Meteorologists update their forecasts in real time based on the data they receive about the past hour. A meteorologist who only has information about Toronto will be useless; they need to know what weather systems are moving across the continent, and what temperatures/pressures/precipitation occurred in the cities that have already experienced that weather system. This is why most news outlets publish weather maps - I might not know when exactly that weather system is going to hit Toronto, but I can look up Detroit or Sudbury, see what happened there, and that will give me a good idea of what to expect when it arrives. Every farmer knows where the prevailing winds are coming from and has several radio stations pre-programmed in their truck so they can get the forecasts from nearby towns. If you need to get 10k acres of wheat in over a three day span before the rain falls, an accurate forecast can be the difference between paying the bills that winter or going into debt.
The weather forecast gets less accurate the further in the future it is. Meteorologists know two things for sure 1) the weather in the past hour, all over the country 2) what happened on X date going back 5 years. So today is Jan 10, meteorologists are pretty good at predicting the weather for Jan 10, 11, 12. For Jan 13, meteorologists are going to be relying more on historical data than anything current. For Jan 14, historical data matters even more. By the time we get to a full week out, Jan 17, the prediction for Jan 17 is everything to do with historical data and nothing to do with observed phenomena. The weather forecast for one week out is made of hopes and dreams that we will have "average" weather on that date. As Jan 17 gets closer and closer, the projected forecast will change because meteorologists can start adding reality to their forecast. On Jan 15 meteorologists will know "the high pressure system in Sudbury should be in Toronto by the 17th" so the forecast will become more accurate. Don't plan your vacation around a 7 day forecast. Just look at the next three days.
the rapid temperature swings brought on by climate change are making me realize that either my weather app just changed how they do things or maybe i never a actually knew how to read a forecast in my whole life.
i always thought that looking at today’s high/low meant “this is how hot it will get today, and how cold it will get tonight.” the things you need to know! but i just realized the high/lows in the apple weather app are the temperature high/lows during the calendar 24 hour day, so by the time you wake up and check the forecast… the “low” has already come and gone.
was it always like this?? even when weather info came in the daily paper? the fuck?
this post brought to you by me spending all day trying to figure out how we can have a flood warning for heavy snow melt tonight with a “low of 17F” (-8C), and finally going into the hourly breakdown and realizing that temperature was this morning at 3 am. it’s 40 degrees outside right now. to make forecast comprehension matters somehow WORSE, tomorrow’s “high of 50” is somehow going to happen tonight at 3 AM. and then get colder and freeze by midafternoon. i feel like i’m going insane.
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Persona 3 HEX: Before the Dawn
*rubs hands together* Ok storytiiiiime!
Read Hex: Before the Dawn on Ao3!
Spoiler-free Q’s & A’s:
What is Persona 3 HEX? Before the Dawn??
Persona 3 HEX: Before the Dawn is a fanfiction story taking place in an alternative universe where Strega didn’t get experimented on by the Kirijo Group. Instead, they have been happily adopted by the school Chairman himself, Shuji Ikutsuki. From then on they start to have an average normal childhood with their adoptive father and be actual kids that they can be, and after awakening to their Personas naturally they join SEES as their allies.
The title ‘HEX’ was something I threw in in reference to the Dark Hour being a ‘curse’ and Strega being another word for ‘witch’. The ‘Before the Dawn’ subtitle is based on the more or less infamous phrase, “The Darkest Hour is Just Before the Dawn”, and I think it’s fitting given the whole theme of the supernatural era is literally called the Dark Hour.
I’ve also been calling this AU a “Gekkoukan!Strega AU”, due to them also attending the same school as the rest of the characters, so you may expect seeing that phrase over and over again in my other blogs too.
So what does that mean for... you know?
This will mean that the differences will happen in this story. First off, there won’t be an actual Strega group for SEES to face! Meaning Shinjiro won’t die by the hands of Takaya, and Chidori will be happier and live in pursue of her dreams and love from her family (and perhaps not die either, lol). To be fair not everyone is going to be saved in this matter. Death will still be an ongoing event (just not as much) in the story, just happening in different ways and with different characters. I’m keeping this blog spoiler free so once I start posting the chapters up... you’ll know!
And yes, I’m very well aware about Ikutsuki, and I have plans for the guy. I mean I have been changing my mind over and over with how things would unfold, first being completely angst to an actual twist of something else entirely! But I’m sure I’ll stick to one of the plans later down the line, and it’ll be a bumpy ride throughout.
Are there going to be Junpei x Chidori then? What about other ships?
Yes! I’m planning to add some Jundori in the story! Their way of meeting, interacting, confessing, etc. will be modified to fit the story better, but yes they will be together, and it’ll be a slow burn (heh, get it? burn as in... ah nvm!). Just as a heads up there will be a rarepair within this factor too: Jin and Fuuka! I’ve been head over heels over this pairing since I put them together as a crackship at one point... and then I ended liking them for real. Also there will be some ShinHam (FeMC x Shinjiro) moments here too, not as much as the others but they’ll appear here and there. Other than that, that’s about it. While I’m also a fan of ShuYuka and AkiMitsu too, I’m not planning to have them as much of a pairing?? I don’t think?? I figure with less ships in the story the less complicated it’ll be. Just my thoughts on that.
So you’re adding Hamuko/FeMC in the story too? With her Orpheus Persona?
She’ll be in the story, but with a separate Persona. Since it would be weird for two characters to have that same type of Persona, I’m giving her a different one to differentiate them. Hers will be based on a Greek Goddess known as Hestia, one who is the goddess of hearth, or ‘fireside’ if you will. Since her elements has been fire, I thought the persona works for her in that sense. However, with her and Chidori added to the party, that makes a total of four? Five fire users? Which is a lot, but I’m going to dismiss that extra thought since they’ll still have their own unique abilities. Also her name will be Kotone in this story, since I prefer that name over Hamuko.
Are Gekkou!Strega’s Personas going to remain the same? Why?
I have given some thought that they would at least maybe awaken to a different Persona due to the fact the deities based on them are children of Nyx, and play more of the antagonist roles altogether. However, my very knowledge of Greek Myth is veerrryy little and I hate the idea of choosing the wrong ‘Persona’ for each of the three characters if they were to represent them. Besides, Ken’s Persona is also a Nyx child so I don’t see this as much as a problem, and there will be those second awakenings that, yes, the three Strega ppl will have one later on in the story. So that’s something to look forward to!
What would Gekkou!Strega’s roles be then, based on their skills and abilities?
With their addition to the team at least two of the three characters will have their respective roles in the team. Instead of Mitsuru as navigator, that role will be split among Chidori and Jin, with Chidori as the main navigator and Jin being the one to pinpoint weaknesses and resistances from enemies. And while that may not sound to be the most ideal for some readers, this is my way of giving them their own moments in battle. Mitsuru in that case will be already in the team of the other Persona users early in the story.
Takaya himself will be part of the main offense team too, and his skills will be similar to his canon counterpart in consists of Megido skills. I will be adjusting other things with them regarding movesets and stats that will be mentioned in the story for them to be more... unique, to put it.
Who is this ‘OC’ character in the story? What do they do?
Ah, yes, there will be an original character in this story, but he is not my OC (if that makes sense). This character, named Izumi, is based from a Japanese Persona 3 novel known as “Shadow Cry”, and he is really just a book-exclusive character who is one of the survivors out of the hundred children from the Kirijo Group experiments (and is real good friends with Jin and Takaya, but from what I’m gathering mostly Jin). This book unfortunately never got localized or officially translated for the english readers, though I figure some would say it’s not part of the P3 canon by any means (which is understandable, but I’m taking this as such cuz the lack of Strega content saddens me personally). The first chapter, however, has been fan translated from a user called chuuni from LiveJournal, and if any of you are interested I totally recommend giving that part a read, just for you guys to get a perspective of Strega and the Izumi character a bit more!
What will we learn about Gekkou!Strega? Is there going to be some backstory about their pasts?
Yes, of course! Absolutely! Including bits with how each of them will ‘naturally’ awaken to their Personas! There will be random points in time where there will be flashbacks regarding the Strega children and how they experience with the Dark Hour, and also how they interact with the other SEES members in the dorms (I will even put the respective dates down on where those take place). Now they won’t always be in chronological order, as they may mainly appear in the story in relevance to the current event happening in the story (or maybe not, if I have the need to squeeze some flashbacks somewhere). But surely they’ll all connect to each other and hopefully they may make more sense along the way.
Are you planning to ‘replace’ Strega in terms of position of rivalry?
Hmm, yes and no. I’m not going to give too much out about it, I don’t want to give anything away too soon. But there will be some scenes where certain events of canon Strega would be replaced by something else. Not in a sort of rivalry like a gang or anything, so I’ll keep it at that. But there will be something going on here and there, that’s for sure.
Ok but— about Ikutsuki tho...
Hey, I said it’s all good, remember? There’s going to be some good dad moments between him and the adopted children throughout the story, with them in flashbacks and how they grew up together than such. But not too many though, I don’t want to make this story too long, lol.
Conclusion
I know not many people really care for Strega and how things would’ve ended differently for them (with the exception of Chidori, ofc). But when I started to getting to know them and found the book more about the group (aka Shadow Cry), I wanted to express my inner joy by writing this story up! Hopefully I keep up with it, I’m planning to post them once a month in accordance to the actual in-game months (After the Prologue the second chapter will take place in April, third chapter takes place in May, etc etc,). While this would be somewhat of a rehash to P3′s plot, expect some of the similar scenes from the games. The major differences would be Gekkou!Strega’s moments and flashbacks during those events and even in new scenes for the story. I would also be taking various scenes from the movie, game and manga for what I see fit, and even switch around some characters in those situations that have been shown before.
And as expected the story will be rated M, just like the game rating. So expect content like strong language, blood, death and such. Overall there will be family/friendship moments, romance, angst, and feels. Lots and lots of feels <3
I do hope I actually write all the chapters and post them accordingly as planned, but most of all I hope everyone else coming across this story will enjoy it just as much as I would ^-^
#persona 3 fanfiction#strega#gekkoukan!strega AU#takaya sakaki#Jin Shirato#chidori yoshino#takaya jin chidori#ao3 fanfic#persona 3 au#art by krystaldragonart#who is also me lol
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scattered post-viewing thoughts on Fahlanruk episode 10 (though I actually started writing them about two thirds in)
- this is a good show to watch while the combination of caffeine and vague physical discomfort has absolutely destroyed my already limited attention span. It is not made any worse by watching in 15 to 30 second increments.
- this really is The Gossip Show. Over half the scenes are either of people gossiping about each other or digging for information so they can gossip later. Now, I like to gossip as much as the next person, but it's kind of boring to watch? At least the way this show is doing it. It means not that much actually happens, people just talk about it.
- Anna's back! Unfortunately all she does pretty much is gossip too :-/
- I love Pie's outfit and his sparkly bag. This show keeps presenting me with characters that I want to love, who seem very intriguing, but then they turn out to be gossips or creeps or both. No one on this show understands boundaries. Except Namwan, my one true love. Namwan darling, I hope you find someone equally kind and wise to love you the way you deserve. You may have to leave this university to find them though.
- I appreciate the show's commitment to keeping Fah shirtless as much as possible. (Congratulations to the actor for your impressive strength training results.) But also I felt very uncomfortable for him through the whole costume fitting scene, it seemed like everyone was trying to sexually harass him and his magically intermittent hickeys.
- Bringing all this food onto the stage and into the dressing room is making me nervous. I feel like you aren't supposed to eat so close to the sets and costumes.
- Perhaps Fah is learning to get over his jealousy around Sher's friendship with Prince? That would be healthy for everyone.
- Did Prince and Gear make up last episode and I just totally blanked on it? I cannot for the life of me recall anything about them post Prince sobbing in his living room. But he seems very calm about them this episode? Sorry guys, I just find you so very dull you don't stick in my brain.
- Oh maybe Fah is not getting over his jealousy lol.
- Oh hey it's finally this scene from the opening credits! (The shirtless photo shoot.) We still need to see Ping and Tap's tentative kiss and Sher sobbing on the floor.
- Oh my poor pining babies. That tentative non-hug. They are both so sad and awkward with each other. But also I feel like things are finally moving in the right direction with them. The darkest hour is just before dawn etc.
- I continue to think that Ping's actor is the best of the bunch. And he brings out the best work in Tap's actor. Who I think is the prettiest boy in the show. Although I do love Ping's hair. I hope I get to see them in other stuff!
- Ok I know I said I find Prince and Gear boring, but that little cheek kiss was cute!
- Oy. Yet another repetition of the same old fight between Fah and Sher. I know that's realistic to relationships but it's not that engaging to watch.
- Oh great, a return of the I'm mad at you/hurt by you so I'm going to sexually assault you trope. 🥴 (I typed tripe at first which honestly is a better word for it.)
- I feel like Fah and Sher's storyline keeps just going in circles. But I also find them fairly uninteresting and my brain becomes a sieve whenever they're on screen so it might just be that.
- My pining babies continue to be my favorite and there was not enough of them this week. But it looks like next week we get that tentative kiss!!!
#fahlanruk ep 10#fahlanruk#fahlanruk the series#kind of like liveblogging#gillianthecat reacts to bl#caffeine
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darkest before dawn etc
god anyway so i loaded etsy in an incognito window and checked out as guest and even though it asked for my email address it still let me give it money. so i did the thing. i did. i had three separate people offer to help me and that made me feel very warm and fuzzy but also embarrassed. i love you guys, i was going to bully my sister to do it instead but i didn’t even have to do that.
i am a disaster today too but yesterday a coworker said something and it was only today as i looked at the video transfer desk where i was multitasking four different orders using an organizational system i had refined on my own that’s been foolproof for two years now that it struck me that, oh, I am actually exceptionally skilled at not only the physical aspects of this (it takes rather a lot of dexterity to thread the 8mm machine) and at handling the complicated software, but I’m really quite good at the workplace management stuff, the result being that I can multitask four entirely separate orders to maximize the work the expensive machines can do during open hours.
Like, I’m a fucking idiot who can’t count to 100 (and got in a fight with my supervisor about that on Tuesday, when I wanted to do an order for a qty:100 by weight, since we’d tared the scale for that exact purpose and I still had the weights written down, and he wanted them counted even though it takes longer because he, not having a numbers-related disability, thinks that’ll be more accurate), but I am also really fucking good at what I do.
So that realization has helped. The problem with staying in a job that sort of treats you like shit in exchange for maximal flexibility is that it really does wear down your self-esteem.
Also i just discovered that Maddy Prior (how did i not already know about her? i do not know she is not exactly obscure and YET somehow I’d mixed up Steely Dan and Steeleye Span my entire life) has not one but two recordings of Of All The Birds, which I did not know was the title of that song my dad used to sing my niece. (It’s about an owl and we always called it The Owl but the first line is Of All The Brave Birds and apparently Roud categorized it as “Of All The Birds” so anyway. Whatever.)
(If you think this song isn’t going to make an appearance somewhere, likely related to mocking or alluding to Philippa, then think again.)
#about the author#less whining i guess#listen someday i will be as put-together as the average twelve year old#someday
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The Week Ahead: February 28 - March 6, 2022
Void of Course Moon
Tuesday, March 1, 02:01 UT (Aquarius) - 22:53 UT (Pisces)
Thursday, March 3, 21:45 UT (Pisces) - Friday, March 4, 00:52 UT (Aries)
Sunday, March 6, 04:02 UT (Aries) - 08:00 UT (Taurus)
US followers are reminded that submitting/filing one’s income taxes during a void of course Moon, is said to prevent audits.
Lunar Phases
Wednesday, March 2, 17:35 UT - New Moon, 12:07 Pisces
The key phrase for the New lunar phase is to “set a new intention for the month.” Remember to find something you’ll be able to establish in only one month’s time. This particular New Moon has close connections to Jupiter and Uranus, giving us (to quote myself) “a prime opportunity to become more tolerant and humanitarian. But this New Moon is also conjunct the Centaur Nessus, whose reputation is scary. Cycles of abuse, obsessions, bad family karma through the generations, things like that. But at Tumblr astrolovecosmos I found some ways to help Nessus break these cycles. For ‘Nessus in Pisces,’ they write, ‘Cycles are broken by listening and following their intuition, find space to be alone and with ones self, learn healthy detachment, and seek out healers or those who have been in similar situations as them and have overcome the cycle.’” Maybe just a commitment to meditate for 10 minutes a day?
Sunday, March 6, 09:28 UT - Crescent Moon, 0:46 Taurus
The key phrase for the Crescent lunar phase is to “gather and mobilize resources.” The Sun is now exactly conjunct Jupiter, but they’re also exactly semi-square the Venus-Mars conjunction in Aquarius - and they are exactly square the Taurus Moon. We may think we already have everything we need - or maybe we’ll need to share, and we don’t want to - or maybe what we need is out of reach. We may not be seeing the situation clearly, for whatever reason of going overboard, due either to pessimism or optimism. Best to keep it as simple as possible and save ornate plans for another time.
Retrograde/Direct/Etc.
Pre-retrograde shadow: Saturn/Aquarius
Retrograde: nothing until April 29!
Post-retrograde shadow: Venus/Capricorn (until Wednesday), Ceres/Gemini
Transiting Venus exits her post-retrograde shadow on Wednesday, March 2, at 03:45 UT. Yay, I guess - she still has a tough road to hoe, in the immediate future. Venus’ next retrograde zone is in 2023, from June 19 to October 7, between 12:12 and 28:36 Leo.
Ingresses
Sunday, March 6, 06:23 UT - transiting Mars enters Aquarius
I’ve always liked this placement. It makes me think of electricians and engineers - Scotty! Geordi! - and is (somewhat) less selfish and competitive than Mars tends to be. Think of what we can do with a “team player” Mars!
Sunday, March 6, 06:30 UT - transiting Venus enters Aquarius
On the other hand, Venus in Aquarius has a bad reputation, mostly for being cold and unloving. Phooey. This can be a very friendly placement, and I think this will be a great time to brush up on our friendship skills. Not without challenges, of course, but without challenges life is too bland.
Et Cetera
There is one Opportunity Period this week: on Wednesday, March 2, between 17:05 UT and 18:05 UT, half an hour before and after the New Moon. “If you have something important to start around now, this is a great time to do it.”
This doesn’t promise to be a very light-hearted or fun week. We’re starting out with the very best intentions, but we’re challenged as the week continues. Definitely a time to remember “the darkest hour is just before the dawn.” Let’s focus on getting ourselves and our loved ones through the hard times with a minumum of bruising; that’s going to (have to) be enough. Take care of others as well as yourself.
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“BRONCO" STARTERS
taken from orville peck's new 2022 songs. feel free to change pronouns, etc.
DAYTONA SAND
' we've got major blues. ' ' i hope you brought your walking shoes, 'cause it's quite a ways, from what i understand. ' ' rack 'em up. ' ' i think i could've been your man. ' ' long hairs, slow eyes... i like your style. ' ' we both ain't got a job. ' ' nothing seems to last that long. ' ' take me home to mississippi. ' ' it's not tat i don't care, it's just hard to make a plan. ' ' i'm not mad, for what it's worth. ' ' you always take the dare. that's what i learned. ' ' i'm getting tired of this earth. ' ' they say some stones are better left unturned. ' ' is that another whispered plan? ' ' i've been around long enough to know you can't trust a man. '
THE CURSE OF THE BLACKENED EYE
‘ i’ve been hiding out. ’ ‘ darling, i can feel it coming every time. ’ ‘ i sat around last year wishing so many times that i would die. ’ ‘ it follows me around. ’ ‘ nothing to lose. ’ ‘ wouldn’t miss it, anyhow. ’ ‘ it ain’t the letting go. it’s more about the things you take with. ’ ‘ i can feel it getting closer with every kiss. ’ ‘ you gotta beat or join ‘em. ’ ‘ try to act surprised. ’ ‘ just flip a coin, because i’m too bored to lie. ’ ‘ you always said i should work on my escape. ’ ‘ have a heart too long, it’s bound to break. ’ ‘ you’re acting out the opus of your last eternal ache. ’ ‘ just sing the song, for heaven’s sake. ’
OUTTA TIME
' i'm outta time. ' ' he tells me we've got something special. ' ' some things ain't what they seem. ' ' reno never felt so slow. ' ' i'm a wednesday child with a rented ride and a head that's full of woe. ' ' drag me into the party. i guess i've got nowhere else to go. ' ' i guess i've got nowhere to go. ' ' i've got a man to my left and one on my right, and they tell me 'bout what they know. ' ' i want a little less conversation, please. ' ' let's go, baby. i'm outta time. '
LAFAYETTE
‘ i knew that i’d lose you the moment we met. ’ ‘ the bayou still sings every night in my head, though i can’t understand what it wants. ’ ‘ i love when it rains, but i hate getting wet. ’ ‘ i never thought it’d be me that you’d haunt. ’ ‘ words don’t matter. it’s what’s in your head. ’ ‘ if you don’t ask, then you’re bound to not get. ’ ‘ i still know what you said wasn’t wrong. ’ ‘ i can’t turn a corner or walk down the street without seeing your face come along. ’ ‘ i recall somebody saying there ain’t no cowboys left, but they ain’t met me. ’ ‘ they ain’t met me, and they ain’t met you. ’ ‘ the months march away. ’ ‘ it hear it takes years for the heart to reset. ’ ‘ one of these days, i’ll be done with regret. i didn’t think it would take me this long. ’ ‘ i remember how you loved this song. ’
C'MON BABY, CRY
' i can see the sadness in your eyes. ' ' you've been trying to hide what you left behind. ' ' they say it's darkest before the dawn, but you've been smiling for so long. ' ' a thousand teardrops can't be wrong. ' ' i don't want you to be afraid. ' ' let me see you cry. ' ' i got an hour or so. ' ' take my hand and let it go. c'mon, baby, cry. ' ' i can tell you're a sad boy just like me. ' ' don't deny what your poor heart needs. ' ' it's been so long since he called your name. ' ' you're on the run from a losing game. ' ' just bat your eyes, baby. ' ' let me feel the pain. ' ' three words everybody knows. ' ' must be nice where lovers go. ' ' take my hand, don't let it go. just cry. ' ' take my hand, darling. ' ' call me up anytime. '
IRIS ROSE
‘ i would’ve wanted you to watch me play, but i hear the songs there are better. ’ ‘ i’d give it all to hear you call me. ’ ‘ i know that’s why we don’t say never. ’ ‘ i wish you’d stayed. ’ ‘ maybe i’d be the same. ’ ‘ get along, darling. ’ ‘ let’s sit alone together and watch the sky. ’ ‘ they tell me not to cry, so i just sigh. ’ ‘ i think about you nearly every day. ’ ‘ dream a lot, and it starts to sting. ’
KALAHARI DOWN
‘ i was born in the badlands. ’ ‘ it was a strange place for a boy to drown. ’ ‘ you’ve been gone away, and i’ve been riding around. ’ ‘ i’m writing out a song on my daddy’s guitar. ’ ‘ did you find your way? skip another town? ’ ‘ i said i couldn’t stay, but it’s different now. ’ ‘ i’m always down for hanging around. ’ ‘ baby, there ain’t a trail to follow. ’ ‘ better off alone, if you ask me. ’ ‘ maybe next time i’ll take you with me. ’ ‘ tell me not to frown. ’ ‘ what do i know? a bunch of sorrow. ’ ‘ maybe someday i’ll get to see it all. �� ‘ i still hear the sound. ’ ‘ i left to roam on a reckless wander, raising sand on the setting sun. ’ ‘ keep an eye on that dusty highway. ’ ‘ tell my mother i’m nearly done. ’
BRONCO
‘ pack your bags, baby. ’ ‘ you gotta bolt when you see the gates are down. ’ ‘ baby, i’m on fire. ’ ‘ i’m just my daddy’s child running something on the wire. ’ ‘ who’s laughing now? ’ ‘ forget about the score. who cares anymore? ’ ‘ bad news, buddy: every dog gets its day. ’ ‘ catch the sun, let them say your name. ’ ‘ i’m sick of waiting for the hole to mend. ’ ‘ play it out like it’s all pretend. ’ ‘ it’s just another scene. ’ ‘ you’ve gotta live with what you said. ’ ‘ can’t you see the gate from here? ’ ‘ nothing holds me back at all, there’s nothing left to fear. ’ ‘ best of luck, my dear. ’
TRAMPLE OUT THE DAYS
‘ you’re awake. ’ ‘ the season’s gray. ’ ‘ you drive real fast. ’ ‘ i can tell that it’s just not your lucky day. ’ ‘ give me nothing. you’re the one i chose. ’ ‘ baby, the light stays longer when it rains. ain’t that a shame? ’ ‘ toast our mistakes. ’ ‘ i hate to say i spent it all on masquerades. ’ ‘ i’d forgotten how it goes. ’ ‘ take a seat while i trample out the days. ’ ‘ your eyes grow cold into the night, babe. you start to fade. ’ ‘ you had your reasons, but i’m telling you that seasons always change. ’ ‘ watch me waving as i go. ’ ‘ bury my heart at the rodeo. ’
BLUSH
‘ i still think of calling. ’ ‘ you met me alone in the city. ’ ‘ my dad liked to run. ’ ‘ i couldn’t picture your face, but i knew it was pretty. ’ ‘ i saw love in your eyes, but i didn’t know how to begin. ’ ‘ baby, some of us, we ain’t meant to win. ’ ‘ come and find me, waiting on the street where we met. ’ ‘ i haven’t found the time to forget. ’ ‘ funny what we lose when we bet. ’ ‘ i was holding too tight. ’ ‘ i had a dream we were fine. maybe somehow we were, in between. ’ ‘ there’s something about men that i don’t understand: they’re always leaving wherever they’ve been. ’ ‘ i don’t know much about love. ’ ‘ i don’t know much about love. still, i give it a try now and then. ’ ‘ i guess it’s been long. ’ ‘ i haven’t gone back that much to your city. nothing compares to the night we were there. ’ ‘ it’s okay. i don’t want your pity. ’ ‘ i don’t want your pity, but spare me a thought if you’ve got any heart. ’ ‘ spare me a thought if you’ve got any heart. i know you had one, deep inside. ’ ‘ i don’t miss you that much, but baby, watching you blush... ’
HEXIE MOUNTAINS
‘ young man, fill yourself with dread. ’ ‘ come home. ’ ‘ come home to begin another end. ’ ‘ it doesn’t feel right to see you, friend. ’ ‘ wouldn’t it be nice if i could sleep in my own bed? ’ ‘ what happens when the well has dried? ’ ‘ i can’t find the words. ’ ‘ i guess it’s time to move on once again down the path less tread. ’ ‘ wouldn’t it be nice if i could let the dead stay dead? ’ ‘ take me far enough to say we’re gone. ’ ‘ i haven’t been out in so long. ’ ‘ i’m not saying i’m not scared. ’ ‘ wouldn’t it be nice if i could hold it off again? ’ ‘ wouldn’t it be swell if i could get things off my chest? ’ ‘ maybe you’d learn to live with what’s inside your head. ’
LET ME DROWN
‘ i’ve been finding it hard to be kind. ’ ‘ i’ve been out there, losing my mind. ’ ‘ i still keep on searching for what i can’t find. ’ ‘ let me drown. ’ ‘ there’s nothing left but the summer rain. ’ ‘ drag me ‘round ‘til i never complain. ’ ‘ suddenly, we’re writing out the same old lie. ’ ‘ baby, i can be the one you drown tonight. ’ ‘ i had the sun in my eyes. ’ ‘ we’re no worse off than the worst of them, it’s fine. ’ ‘ i never knew where home was. ’ ‘ i spent a lifetime alone. ’ ‘ we had it one time, but it’s gone now. ’ ‘ i know with pleasure comes pain; i figured we were the same. ’ ‘ as i get older, i get more afraid. ’ ‘ i can’t be kind since i lost my mind. ’ ‘ this town just ain’t big enough for the both of us now. ’
ANY TURN
' pack it in, pick it up. ' ' i'm crying all night. ' ' dreaming about the time—but you can't now, never mind. ' ' i'm gonna find any turn. ' ' something about a horse, and a man, and a cadillac. ' ' set them up in the motel room. ' ' baby, it's all come and go. ' ' i feel down tonight. ' ' yeah? where's home tonight? ' ' set it all on someone else's bill. ' ' boredom's gonna get you. '
CITY OF GOLD
‘ i used to find hope in the wreckage. ’ ‘ all i can feel is the feeling that we’ll never say hi if ever we pass. ’ ‘ you know all good things come to an end. ’ ‘ i’m too easy on giving out chances. ’ ‘ you might think that i’m strange, but i come with a pain. ’ ‘ some folks think about their lovers, some folks think about their goals; i’ve been thinking lately about the way you’d speak to me. ’ ‘ i’ve been thinking lately about the way you’d speak to me. ’ ‘ i think it’s time i disappear. ’ ‘ i’m feeling old. ’ ‘ just sit with me, morning and nighttime. have me on your front porch. ’ ‘ i’ll be still. i’ll be quiet. ’ ‘ i never knew why it was so hard for me to be who you want. ’ ‘ i’ve thought about finding new lovers, thought about burning the past. ’ ‘ all that i want is a kind heart to haunt. ’ ‘ my shrink says it ain’t too much to ask. ’ ‘ i’ve been told you’re fine. ’
ALL I CAN SAY
‘ lay in bed, sleep the day away. ’ ‘ think of all the things we used to see. ’ ‘ i know this time tomorrow i gotta go. ’ ‘ love doesn’t live here anymore. ’ ‘ all i can say is goodbye. ’ ‘ i sit alone anyway, every night in your arms. ’ ‘ count the lights, think of what we had. ’ ‘ i’m headed back west. ’ ‘ drive ‘til we’ve got nothing left. ’ ‘ i’m scared to death. ’ ‘ i hate springtime anyhow. ’
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Magic AU
I created a whole ass magic system on the fly. @eyecandyeoz helped me finetune these headcanons. Also this features the Survivor trio
There are 3 ways that magic is acquired and boosted
Knowledge
Deals
Mana boost
Knowledge
By studying different magic types the user can increase the range of types of magic the user can use
If you understand how different types of magic work you, in turn, can use it
Mana
all things contain some amount of magical powers
the objects or food near leylines have higher magical properties
consuming the food with high mana it boosts internal mana levels for 6 hours
Another way to absorb mana is to keep the object with a high mana count on your person
Deals
This is the most high-risk technique for boosting and acquiring magic
In order to do this process, you need to pick a deity and bring an offering
There are many deities to choose from: angels, demons, gods, spirits, ghosts, etc.
Once you've chosen a deity you offer up an offering and then strike a deal
By striking a deal you've agreed to become an extension of the deity
Your magic now comes from that deity and are bound by contract
The contract is very strict
Depending on what is staked in the deal it also affects the strength of the magic
If something very important is staked in the deal then the magic is strong
Ex.) Necromancy in exchange for the soul- high-level magic
Ex.) Light magic in exchange for a cheeseburger- low-level magic
Familiars
Can store and use magic/mana
can range from creatures to objects
Ex.) Sentient pocket watch
Crosshair
Portal magic
can go literary anywhere but chooses to stay with the Empire
uses his portals to shoot anywhere
Made a deal with a space entity
Contract mark: the circle on his crosshair tattoo
When he uses his magic the circle glows red
He staked his life because he wanted to be strong and dramatic
Omega
Bubble/gum
can steal mana
make explosions from the stored mana in the bubble
Either use bubblegum or soap bubbles or glass bubbles
Can store mana in bubble-like objects
made a deal with a goddess of healing
Contract mark- ring around her thumb and pointer finger
By dipping her mark in the bubble liquid and creating a bubble the mark glows white
Staked her agility
Wrecker
Fire and explosive magic
can create fire and explosives from his fists
siphons heat from objects of from peppers
can control explosions if he understands how it was created
Mainly uses his fire for cooking which boosts mana levels for 6 hours
Always on the lookout for high-level mana ingredients
Struck a deal with a fire sprite
Contract mark: scars on his hands and forearms
When he uses his magic his scarred eye glows orange with his fists
Tech
uses runes, knowledge, and alchemy
he uses runes/spell cards to fight mainly like Yu-Gi-Oh or Pokemon
Makes potion capsules for mana boosts or containing different magic
It's like ninja smoke bombs
When they visit a village or city Tech will wander off to go trade rune cards
Ditches the others to go to collectors gatherings
Struck a deal with a god of knowledge and a god of strategy
In exchange for his sight and his majestic hair
This is why his vision is shit and his hair makes him look like he's 50 years old
Contract mark: intricate tattoos on his forearms
When he uses his magic his glasses glare up and the wind blows his long robes around dramatically with a green glow around him
Echo
uses elemental magic/controls the elements around him
uses magic to create prosthetic limbs
the strongest out of the entire batch magic wise
When Rex finds Echo again he makes a deal with a demon to save him
Rex trades his ability to be surprised and Echo's fucks to give
As soon as he wakes up he uses his magic to get his melanin back
He's kinda like a bard
Go in punching, ask questions later
10/10 has and will screw a dragon
The demon who saved Echo said there was a drawback to his magic
Echo has to use 20 sided dice to keep his magic in check
That led to him making his decisions based on a dice roll
If he gets a bad roll he just bodyslams the obstacle
keeps a wide array of elements on his person at all times
Uses beskar with a high mana level for his leg prosthetics
Contract mark- scars on his amputated appendages
depending on the element his aura is that color.
Hunter
Animal instinct
his senses are enhanced
his senses and strength are enhanced depending on the animal he decides to mimic
usually uses predators to mimic
while mimicking an animal their diet becomes his
there are times when he turns feral
he made a deal with a god of animals
gave up some of his common sense
Contract mark: his skeleton tattoo on his chest
When he uses his magic the animal he chooses is what his aura is shaped as
Rex
he struck a deal with a god of patience
The god gave him everlasting peace with a side of dealing with Banthashit
he saves all the spite for later when he bitch slaps sense into the others
According to @eyecandyeoz he reserves the strongest bitch slap for the biggest dumbass Anakin, Fives, and Hardcase
He traded his natural hair color for this power
Fun fact of the day: stress can turn your hair white
Contract mark: his hands glow red along with his eyes
Wolffe
After his fight with Asajj Ventress he was left in the snow
A pack of wolves find him and offer him a deal
They would heal him
In exchange at every full moon Wolffe would join a the pack as a wolf
Contract mark: his scarred eye glows
His powers turn him into a wolf at will
Gregor
This guy made a deal with the bouncey ball that belonged to a hyena
he did this when he got drunk and wandered into a zoo
the ball gave him the power to bounce back from anything within reason
Contract mark: ass tattoo of the pixar bouncey ball
Lore
Before the fall of the Republic only the Jedi held the secrets to magic. The Jedi claimed they were the gatekeepers of magic. They taught their students by intense studying and meditation. It was thought that suppressing emotions would make their magic stronger but it wasn't true for most.
Most people knew about the jedi and thought they were myths. But they were feared by parents because they took their children away claiming that they were made for a higher purpose. If not the jedi then the other practioners of magic would sweep the children away, the Sith. The Sith mainly used the deals side of magic in order to become stronger than their light-sided counterparts. But that all came to an end with the rise of a so called "savior" and a war fought with slaves.
The savior was corrupted by the darkest wizard of them all, Sheev Palpatine. With his corruption came the end of a war and a new era dawned on the worlds.
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#bb theme headcannons#bad batch#star wars omega#clone trooper hunter#clone trooper tech#i did a thing#clone trooper crosshair#clone trooper wrecker#clone trooper echo#magic au
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hey!! i loved your hoo playlist! can you explain more or less where which book begins and ends? or just your thought process behind picking the songs?
omg hi!! this is going to be really long I’m so sorry... I vaguely broke them up by book and sorta character/event/theme, it’s not super strict or anything but that was the logic!
I kinda imagine it playing out like a movie or tv series.. and so some of these kinda play over a scene or transition to the credits in my head? some more than others! otherwise it’s like punny titles or just songs that remind of plot points!
Lost Hero
- Goodbye Stranger - for Jason, since he has no idea what’s going on lol
- Teenage Dream - for the three of them, but mostly Piper!
You think I'm pretty without any makeup on You think I'm funny when I tell the punch line wrong
- Parachute - kinda Jason and Piper, I think as she realizes their relationship isn’t quite what it seems? (and just playing with his flying lol!)
- Metal Guru - Leo!
- Pretty Girl - Piper, I was imagining this when she clashes with Drew/learns about the Aphrodite cabin
And I could be a pretty girl Shut up when you want me to And I could be a pretty girl Won't ever make you blue And I could be a pretty girl I'll lose myself in you
- The Sky’s The Limit - when the three of them take off on Festus
- Snowqueen Of Texas - this was for Khione lol
I'm on my knees, your majesty; Snowqueen, save a cold kiss for me I'm on my knees your majesty
- Sweet Talkin’ Woman - this is book-wide but it’s for Piper’s charmspeak!
- Are You Gonna Be My Girl - is sorta general but I was imagining it when Jason and Piper kinda decide to be together/give it another go
- It’s Not Unusual - I think this was sorta the entire book/wider series but I just think it’s cute and fun and a Guardians of the Galaxy type end credits song? And just them accepting their very bizarre situation
Son of Neptune + Mark of Athena
I put these together because there wasn’t really a set bookend in my head!
- Hello Stranger - finally reuniting with Percy! (and I wanted the Percy and Jason songs to mirror each other)
Hello stranger (Ooh) It seems so good to see you back again How long has it been? (Ooh it seems like a mighty long time)
- Diamonds - Hazel
- Don’t Go Breaking My Heart - Frank trusting Hazel with the wood, also Percy + Annabeth, everyone really
Don't go breaking my heart You take the weight off of me Oh, honey when you knock on my door Ooh, I gave you my key
- Beautiful Soul - I literally don’t know why I added this I just wanted an excuse to add a Jesse McCartney song (which feels so tonally correct to me?) but also I think it’s Frank liking Hazel in spite of her big secret and Percy loving Annabeth
- Pocketful of Rainbows - encountering Iris!
I don't worry Whenever skies are gray above Got a pocketful of rainbows Got a heart full of love
- Am I The Same Girl - Annabeth’s POV upon reunion!
Why don´t you stop And look me over Am I the same girl you used to know?
Why don´t you stop And think it over Am I the same girl who knew your soul?
- Bizarre Love Triangle - Frank, Hazel, and Leo
- Treasure - Hazel again + the literal treasure?
Pretty girl, pretty girl, pretty girl you should be smiling (you should be smiling) A girl like you should never look so blue (blue) You're everything I see in my dreams I wouldn't say that to you if it wasn't true
- The Sweet Escape - off on the Argo II
- Okay Okay - to Italy! and I just think Italian disco is so fun
- On An Evening in Roma - walking around Rome, seeing all its history
Though there's grinning and mandolining in sunny Italy The beginning has just begun when the sun goes down So please meet me in the plaza near your casa I am only one and that is one too few On an evening in Roma Don't know what the country's coming to But in Rome do as the Romans do Will you on an evening in Roma
- Stuck on the puzzle - Annabeth + the Mark of Athena
- Coca Cola - I was imagining the pirates+sacrifice to Dionysus/ his appearance
- Edge of Seventeen - I think Annabeth remarks to herself something like am I really going to die at 17? so this is for her and all the kids just on the cusp of being 17
And the days go by, like a strand in the wind In the web that is my own, I begin again Said to my friend, baby (everything stopped) Nothin' else mattered
- Landslide - when everything goes wrong and they start falling to Tartarus
Oh, mirror in the sky What is love? Can the child within my heart rise above? Can I sail through the changin' ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Well, I've been afraid of changin' 'Cause I've built my life around you But time makes you bolder Even children get older And I'm getting older too
House of Hades + Blood of Olympus
these are more thematic I think? but a few moments in particular
- Head Over Heels - falling down...
I made a fire, and watching it burn Thought of your future With one foot in the past, now just how long will it last?
Something happens and I'm head over heels I never find out until I'm head over heels Something happens and I'm head over heels Ah, don't take my heart, don't break my heart Don't, don't, don't throw it away
- You and Me - Percy and Annabeth in Tartarus
If the stars don't shine If the moon won't rise If I never see the setting sun again You won't hear me cry as I testify Please believe me boy you know I would I lie As long as there is you and me
- Don’t Worry Baby - Percy and Annabeth in Tartarus, on the shore of the river
Well it's been building up inside of me For oh I don't know how long I don't know why But I keep thinking Something's bound to go wrong
But she looks in my eyes And makes me realize And she says "don't worry, baby"
- It’s Only A Paper Moon - the mist and Hazel starting to understand it
You smile, the bubble has a rainbow in it Say, it's only a paper moon Sailing over a cardboard sea But it wouldn't be make-believe If you believed in me
- Money, Money, Money - Hazel + Pluto
Money, money, money Must be funny In the rich man's world
- Magic - the whole story, but particularly with the presence of Hecate
- Summer Wind - Jason harnessing the winds!
The summer wind came blowin' in from across the sea It lingered there, to touch your hair and walk with me All summer long we sang a song and then we strolled that golden sand Two sweethearts and the summer wind
- Mala Femmina - the return of Khione
- Would You? - Leo and Calypso
Well, you know she took my hand And we walked away And I can't understand why she would stay Would you like to fall in love with me?
- Love is Like a Fire - Leo and also Frank
- Don’t Wanna Fight - Percy and Annabeth
Take from my hand Put in your hands The fruit of all my grief Lying down ain't easy When everyone is pleasing I can't get no relief Living ain't no fun The constant dedication Keeping the water and power on There ain't nobody left Why can't I catch my breath? I'm gonna work myself to death
- Love Really Hurts With You - Leo after leaving Calypso’s island
- What Makes the Sunset - Percy and Annabeth (and by extension Bob and Damasen)
What makes the sunset? What makes the moonrise? What makes the tide remember to hide and why does it soon rise? What makes a star fall? Where does it fall to? Why does its flight make us stop in the night and wish as we all do?
- Dedicated to the One I Love - everybody, but an ode to Bob and Damasen (their goodbye made me cry!)
While I'm far away from you my baby I know it's hard for you my baby Because it's hard for me my baby And the darkest hour is just before dawn
Each night before you go to bed my baby Whisper a little prayer for me my baby And tell all the stars above This is dedicated to the one I love
- Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want - Percy and Annabeth in Tartarus, I was thinking about this post-curses and them being so done with everything
Good times for a change See, the luck I've had Can make a good man Turn bad
So please, please, please Let me, let me, let me Let me get what I want This time
- Lonely Boy - Nico
- Fantasy - indulging all their visions... the mist, etc.
- Stupid Cupid - Nico and Cupid (of course)
Stupid Cupid you're a real mean guy (stupid Cupid) I'd like to clip your wings so you can't fly (stupid Cupid) I'm in love and it's a crying shame (stupid Cupid) And I know that you're the one to blame (stupid Cupid)
Hey hey, set me free Stupid Cupid stop picking on me
- Suzanne - still Nico, looking over at the couple (sorry... all the mopey songs)
- Dream A Little Dream of Me - dreams... also Percy’s wishes of the future
Stars shining bright above you Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you" Birds singing in the sycamore tree Dream a little dream of me
- Our Day Will Come - I think Annabeth says a line almost like this? somewhere at the end of HOH, I think when they’ve just gotten out of Tartarus and are all sitting together, like haven’t they had enough? won’t their day finally come?
Our day will come If we just wait a while No tears for us Think love and wear a smile Our dreams have magic because We'll always stay In love this way
- Call Me - all of them! also Nico and Reyna, just being there for each other
Tell me and I'll be around Now don't forget me 'cause if you let me I will always stay by you You've got to trust me, that's how it must be
- Nobody - Nico... oh buddy
Venus, planet of love Was destroyed by global warming Did its people want too much too? Did its people want too much?
And I don't want your pity I just want somebody near me Guess I'm a coward I just want to feel alright
- I’m a Believer - Jason and Piper
I thought love was only true in fairy tales Meant for someone else but not for me Love was out to get me That's the way it seemed Disappointment haunted all my dreams Then I saw her face, now I'm a believer Not a trace of doubt in my mind
- Summertime - Piper singing and it being the end of summer
- Happy Trails - more singing ( I want to include the songs actually mentioned!)
- The End of the World - the big battle!!
Why does the sun go on shining? Why does the sea rush to shore? Don't they know it's the end of the world? 'Cause you don't love me any more
- Too Late To Turn Back Now - departing with Festus (I think Leo almost says this too!)
- Here Comes The Sun - day comes, the Athena Parthenos is back
Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter Little darling, it seems like years since it's been here
- Walking On Sunshine - Will Solace
- Evil Woman - Gaea fight
Evil woman, how you done me wrong But now you're tryin' to wail a different song Ha, ha, funny, how you broke me up You made the wine, now you drink a cup I came runnin' every time you cried Thought I saw love smilin' in your eyes Ha, ha, very nice to know That you ain't got no place left to go
- Seven Wonders - the seven! also traveling the world... making it this far
If I live to see the seven wonders I'll make a path to the rainbow's end I'll never live to match the beauty again The rainbow's edge
- This Will Be (An Everlasting Love) - to me this is just after Annabeth and Percy’s kiss, shots of everyone back to camp, wides of people running around, new cabins under construction, the sun is shining, the camera pulls out
Loving you is some kind of wonderful Because you showed me just how much you care You've given me the thrill of a lifetime And made me believe you've got more thrills to spare, oh!
- Love Makes the World Go Round - like the end credits! last pov with Piper, love makes it all happen
Without love flowers wouldn't grow in the spring And without spring, yeah the birdies just couldnt sing Everybody needs love to watch the twinkling stars above It makes a boy and girl, Say they feel so fine, now
#SORRY I REALLY WASTED A LOT OF TIME ON IT#percy jackson#pjo#hoo#heroes of olympus#piper mclean#annabeth chase#jason grace#leo valdez#hazel levesque#frank zhang#Anonymous
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Hi guys, 👋 i just wanted to make a post about something that i feel is about to happen on the show, like i am completely convinced of this now.
I'm seeing major foreshadowing going on with Elu and what will be the outcome of the spoiler movie plot.
Ok, so something i've noticed with Eliott this season is that he's kinda in his own world. Yes i know they are showing his individualism and i'm happy to see that because i think he's a beautiful and complex character and deserves so much insight.
But certain things i've noticed in scenes and certain things i've heard Eliott say is starting to make me think we are heading for Eliott having his own rock bottom moment. I'm just gonna list some things that seem to connect for me.
• The hiding and lying really been highlighted with Eliott's arc. The almost casual way too. Like it's a habit and second nature. He's done it so much in my eyes to hide his true self that it's basically become a mask now. How he justifies these things to others and how oblivious he really is to how others see it too. How outside perspective is different from Eliott perspective e g. Lola calling him out with the urbex hiding, Lucas's anger when he was blindsided with Lola being in their home.
•For the first time ever with Lucas we see him at Daphne's party monitoring himself in regards to Eliott's mental illness. He's not monitoring Eliott and i have a theory on that. Lucas is so afraid of being a Lucille that he's passive with things that may be seen as controlling. So instead he tries to be cautious and make the situation about it being Lucas's choice and not a choice made for Eliott. I don't think it's an accident at all that Arthur walks up to Lucas and Eliott and wants to share a joint and Lucas who is cuddling Eliott and playing with his hair brushes Arthur off without saying what the audience is picking up on. For the first time ever we see Eliott chafe under this and we are aware that Eliott knows what Lucas is doing. Eliott tells him in an almost biting the tongue way to go and it's ok. And Lucas says these very telling words "Can i?" And Eliott says "yes Lucas" Lucas then happy kisses Eliott on the cheek and goes off with Arthur.
• The argument Lola wakes up to where we see that Eliott impulsive, forgot to let Lucas know what he was coming home to. Now i must say i don't blame Eliott for not doing this as the night was intense. And he'd just saved a girl from attempted rape and was prob up for hours with her and got very little sleep himself. But i also see Lucas's point too. Lucas is passionate. It's not out of character. It is part of who Lucas is. That is why he is a hedgehog. He is simply prickly and reactive. We have seen this throughout the show. He initially acts in a defensive way (hedgehog quills) and then he calms and deals. But again we see Lucas thrown off guard with Eliott and his impulsivity. So they are yelling and then Lucas says "she has problems" and Eliott tells him he has problems too, and Eliott acts offended that Lucas is being judgmental. And again it's a trait with Lucas too, and highlights again the group dynamics and the reaction to outsiders. Lucas accepts Eliott's illness but found it hard to accept his mothers. His love for Eliott changed his perceptive though as we see in S3. Lucas still shows that he has prejudices. He has made comments that are ignorant and unfair throughout the show e.g. mental illness, LGBTQ+, ableism with Arthur, Panphobia stereotypes etc. He just did it again with Lola. Like i said before, i play no favourites i see these characters as complex and when they're messy or flawed they are more interesting to me. So i have no issues when they F up. They're young, insecure, and it feels true to life. But yeah i notice with Lucas (again highlighting insulation in the group v isolation in outsiders) that Lucas has a moral view. If i care and love you i will accept you warts and all. If you are unknown and alien my quills are ready to go. And this is a direct contrast to Eliott who comes in and spreads his arms ready to hug the world. Even adopts furry animals. 😍
Then again something is said that shows how Lucas views his position with Eliott and his mental health. Eliott gives a hypothetical and says to lucas if he were in trouble Lucas would want him to be helped and safe, and Lucas says back. Yeah, but Lucas himself should be that person that should handle it. Now i don't blame Lucas. He loves Eliott so much and he wants him safe but i got subtle control out of that comment and an implication that Eliott can't handle himself. And we see the direct contrast the night before when Eliott, who the last time we saw in that hoodie with the hood raised, he was at his worst and crying in La Petite Ceinture needing rescue. But now he's the one that finds his power and rescues someone else. That he is capable, individual and has 2 feet.
•The mental illness talk with Lola and us learning more of Eliott's past. I loved this because we again see Eliott speak for himself. We get the much begged for past history of Eliott and his struggles. And he gets to impart wisdom and help someone else. That there is power in this friendship with Lola. For Eliott he not only sees the mistakes of his past he can rectify but he can be strong and guide someone out of the darkness he once found himself in. I find that incredibly beautiful and amazing character insight. But again it highlights how oblivious Eliott is to his actions on the one he loves most. His Lucas. Like i could write a huge ass post on Eliott alone and why he does the things he does, but i may get kicked off the tag if i do. 😄 but 2 words come to mind with Eliott and his love with Lucas.
FEAR: The fear of the past repeating and control happening AND the fear of being real and true because it's too much and you are a burden. And it all being rooted in his mental illness.
"i don't know how to control it and it is killing me"
Eliott tells Lola that his bipolar episodes can be quite violent. That there are funny ones (choc labrador thievery) and very sad ones (3 time attempt to take your life) like i knew his past was dark. (anyone that creates a refuge to release in and cry like you're still hiding, even from yourself and uses that as a coping mechanism?) Something horrible must have happened for you to resort to that.
And i've always maintained that Eliott is one of the darkest Even's, and France have not romanticised the portrayal of his mental illness in any way shape or form. He has snapped at lucas during his crash , had episodes where lucas can only watch him helplessly and love him regardless, his insta journal has been quite heartbreaking with his mental/emotional state, he sometimes won't take his meds, he'll hide his bipolar out of fear and run, he has his personal refuge, he's tried to take his life, he needs to get away and breathe, and he still has suicide thoughts even though he has Lucas. You have got to applaud the show with how they've handled Eliott and his illness. It's very real, and you may love someone immensely but depression doesn't care what they mean to you. They will be by your side but they can't fix you and love your mind to better health. You're still gonna have negative thoughts, you're still gonna slip and regress but having the one you love hold your hand makes it easier to navigate those scary moments. 👏
But through this something dawned on me. Eliott is sabotaging his relationship in his pursuit not to. And i gotta say i find that so sad. He's creating this love bubble, actually they both are, and nothing can penetrate the love bubble. That means fears and insecurities stay outside. He's lying and hiding to protect himself, protect Lucas from himself and keep Lucas from leaving him. Lucas is too but that essay is for another time. 😄 and he says to Lola that to love someone is to accept them even with their flaws. But he's lying to Lola too because he won't let Lucas see his flaws because it means Lucas leaves. 😭 we saw Eliott once open up to Lucas in S3 Lundi and the way Maxence played that scene was beautiful, because you see just how heavy being mentally ill is on Eliott. That he believes he'll just ruin everything around him
"things will change, i don't want them to but they will and it'll be because of me"
He can't keep eye contact with Lucas and his entire demeanour is one of wobbly defeat. You have never seen Eliott more vulnerable in this moment. His shame, embarassment, and self loathing is oozing out of his pores. He doesn't even want Lucas to have to deal with it, and his expectation is that the relationship ends here. And to add to that, he shows just how much he loves Lucas by saying how he can't bear to see him hurt or in any kind of pain. Lucas fights for them and Eliott has hope. But we realise that things don't just change overnight, days, months etc. Eliott still has demons inside him that tell him hurtful and toxic things that all people who suffer with mental illness go through. And when Lucas tells him he loves him there's still a voice in Eliott that says " for how long" and "you won't when you see who i am" i'm not exaggerating here. I deal with mental illness and it destroys your self worth. It is a daily fight and you kinda can see yourself as an alien in the world. It really has the power to twist your perception of the world in the ugliest way. FYI and TMI but when i had a severe anxiety episode that had crept up over years of denial and added to a huge life stressor. It lasted weeks before i accepted i needed help. I used to do what Eliott would do, and when it was too much i would up and leave, go to a nearby park and sit on the bench alone and sad. One time i looked up at the clouds and instead of seeing the beauty of nature, i saw mockery. I actually saw clouds laughing at me. 😄 no it wasn't delusions. It was simply a twisted perception of the world where there was self loathing, failure, and the feeling of powerlessness. I don't know why i included this, sorry for the discomfort. ☺️
But back to Eliott. Lola asks if things will be ok with him and Lucas. Eliott is like yeah and just throws out:
"He's worried about me, i have bipolar disorder, do you know what that is?"
Anyone else pick up on the emphasis Eliott does there in his relationship with Lucas. Brings it back to the mental illness and the oblivious nature of other things, like miss-communication and hiding things. Like Eliott's world in this relationship is "I have bipolar disorder" like that's a huge focus for Eliott.
Then they are comparing loves. Eliott telling Lola that "And i have Lucas, I can't lose this" we are actually hearing this from his mouth, and again, the reinforcement of the root of Eliott's insecurities. I can't lose Lucas. He has made my life better and makes the bad stuff not so overwhelming and scary AKA i'm afraid he will leave. So i will use my power to stop that from happening. She's sad and tells Eliott she had a Lucas (Maya) but lost her. Eliott tells her to find her Lucas and if she loves her she'll accept her. Which is obviously going to happen with Maya and Lola. She'll tell her the past which is connected to Lola's addict issues. And like Lucas, Maya's love for Lola will help her to overcome her pain and move forward, and Lola to find her light and not be so scared of her darkness.
• Every single time Eliott is asked by someone about him keeping things from Lucas. His answer is the obsessive "i want to protect him and i don't want to stress him or worry him" We saw it with Imane in S4 and we saw it with Lola recently. We add on the inner insecurities with "It'll be too much and he won't stay" and here's Eliott folks. 😔 We know he has an arc this season. Max said Eliott has a beautiful emotional journey, and that he helps the main with his past.
But one thing that every person who goes through emotional turmoil AKA Skam season main journey. It's called the moment that is the wake up call for the character. The moment that you are at your lowest and you must face yourself. Eliott can't be main as he's blocked but we are seeing that he has a lot of focus. So far he's in the show a lot and very active too.
We know that Elu's seasons long issues are being addressed finally. We know that Eliott himself will be addressed. What's one thing that has remained the same in Eliott and Lucas's love? The hiding things from Eliott and Lucas forgiving him AKA Lucas has never left. What's one thing that could be a very scary wakeup call for Eliott? Lucas leaving.
Now i don't think those scenes are throwaway at all, and i don't think the dialogue is either. They've slowly set this arc up since S5 for Eliott and the relationship with Lucas. Little stressors that just watching S5 you play off but now paired with S6 become very serious. I've mentioned some of them in other posts. We know the spoiler movie is coming. We know how lucas reacts to Eliott being honest and we can almost say how Eliott reacts = impulsivity and rebellion.
But the fallout? And i do think the story is going there guys. Which i'm fine with tbh, along with the conflict and the relationship. Saying it's just drama or out of the blue would be a humongous lie. This has been building for seasons and it is incredibly consistent with the relationship and the characters. Now i'd agree with fans if Eliott and Lucas were eternally blissful and then suddenly boom issues. But that hasn't happened at all. It's been tiny little stressors building up to the eventual crack, or my analogy = the bubble eventually pops.
So the movie happens, and for Lucas it's the straw that breaks the camel's back. His breaking point for him to end the relationship or leave Eliott. And it's Eliott's breaking point. We have his words, we didn't need them, let's be real, but we have them. He needs Lucas and everyone knows how much he loves him. Like that is not even debatable. Eliott is deeply in love with his hedgehog. But it's the wake up call to the relationship, and it's the wakeup call to Eliott. He can't continue this self sabotage and he has to face everything. But guys, Eliott really emphasised his need for Lucas. That ultimately tells me he's put his mental health on this need too. I think Eliott is going to be triggered and spiral. Like i'm sure of it now. And i think that is when S3 main Lucas will have his talk with S6 main Lola. I think she's gonna bring them back together. And i think that's what Flavie meant in her live "she helps him too"
I just wanna say i'm not gonna be in the tag saying Eliott or Lucas is a villain. I think it's sad when stress happens we pit the characters against each other. I wish the fanbase could be compassionate and empathetic. And you may not agree with what a character does but you accept that these characters are not black and white and they make mistakes, mess up and do stupid shit. It's the journey that we all go on and as other fans have said, growth is not linear.
Finally, god these posts are getting longer. I've lurked for so long and now my thoughts are just piling up. 😄 but yeah, i noticed some fans say that this Lucas and Eliott stuff should be over, they're together a year so should have dealt with their issues. Like i just have to say to that what?? Like relationship issues happen. You don't just fix them and bam happily ever after. The same issues can crop up throughout a relationship, because you are not just dealing with you as a unit but you are dealing with you as an individual too. You have the baggage the relationship causes and your carry on's that you yourself bring to the relationship. Your own personal issues and insecurities can continue to crop up causing problems.
Stressors can expose cracks, and that is what is happening. Denying and placing to the side issues like you'll deal with them later but you never do because you're afraid of the response thinking The relationship fails or you lose each other. Like think of anxiety. It's the ultimate result of not dealing with life issues. They build and build throughout life untill they become a disorder. These 2 haven't dealt with them untill now, and that's why they are coming to a head finally. And from a show perspective the format really limits them. Focusing on one main can't explore others and their issues, because the main has to be there. The only way you can do that is breaking format and Skam is quite strict with their narrative. What's happening with Eliott is a case of 'this is the best we can do' he's blocked but they want to give this beloved character the insight the fanbase has been begging for. They don't usually do this. Usually it's the main and his/her ensemble but this time it's the main + 2 part mains in Daphne and Eliott. The ensemble is background this season. And Eliott has an arc since S3 so of course they are going to bring these seasons built relationship issues to the surface and address them. They are wrapping up the old generation and handing over to new now. All these threads are being dealt with.
So what i said about stressors exposing cracks. Well here's a stressor? moving in together. Before Eliott lived alone, with his parents checking in frequently (prob his bipolar disorder) but he could breathe and be, and hide and be alone whenever he wanted. Now he's living with Lucas. And they love each other but there are teething problems. We saw them laid beautifully in S5, and being together only a year is really nothing. Most of that would be a honeymoon period, let's be honest here. And they have such an intense and emotional love. Like they are young (17/18 and 19/20) and have found the life partner they want. Just think about that, and the issues of that responsibility as well. In reality you don't find your life partner at that age. You really don't.
And people mess up. They make mistakes and they grow but it's not a full stop there. You make other mistakes and you mess up. And environmental triggers can happen that can make more mistakes happen, and can even make you regress. You fight in life. You don't sail through it. Does anybody? So yeah, oh sweet the lovebirds moved in together but moving in together has also highlighted issues not dealt with. Couples face tests. And importantly that "minute par minute" scene is now being seen in action. That means the bad times as well as the good. This relationship started in so much fear for both and i'm sorry that level of fear doesn't just poof away. We are seeing that.
Now i'm done. I really don't blame anyone if they don't read this. Even i'm ashamed at the length. But will i still post it? Yep 😄💜
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Salaam Alaykum, hope you’re good? I’m mentally low. Everyone around me seems to be advancing and progressing with their careers. Mine feels stagnant, I do creative work so I’ve spent more money than I’ve made this year and it hurts. I hate to compare and I try to remember shukr but it’s hard. It feels like Allah gives me the rejection in multiples and it just feels so painful. Just when I think I can come up for air, I get pressed into the ocean of rejection and frustration, I didn’t mean to vent, I’m just tired of everything
Wa alaykum assalamu wa rahmatu Allahi wa barakatuhu :)
Sübhanallah, that's one heavy ask.
First of all I'd like to say that I get it, I understand you, I feel for you and I am sorry this is happening, I am sorry this is how you feel.
However, I feel like you are so focused on the 'rejection' and you feel that bad things are purposefully happening to you, which I assure you is not the case. Yes, sometimes we go thru phases in our lives where nothing seems to be working our way and we feel stuck in a dark place, but always remember this phrase: “the darkest hour is just before the dawn” means that there is always a ray of hope even in the worst situations, or circumstances. That's for one. And for two, I want you to see with a wider perspective. The pandemic hit the world so hard. Thousands if not millions of people lost their jobs? (And we are not taking into consideration the ones who lost their lives or their loved ones) but what I am saying here is, I don't want you to think that you are the only one that this is happening to, you are the only one going thru a rough patch or that you are personally targeted. Because that's the vibe I got from your ask, and it's not healthy to think that way. - But I understand the frustration, I promise.
Moving on, there is a thousand stories of prophets and sahaba and good people who kept being tested by Allah swt, our islamic heritage is full of these stories and lessons and I am sure you already know them, but you could be sick of hearing about it at some point. I understand that too, that is why I won't mention them in details, I just want to say a few words: Allah swt is Ar-Razzaq. He is the provider. Whatever we get is from Him swt, money, work, health, wealth, etc. It's all rizq and it is all from Allah swt. - And what is with Allah swt, we won't obtain it only through one way: obedience/worship. So I have a question for you, how is your relationship with Allah swt? Do you pray your daily five on time? How often do you read your Quran? Do you give sadaqah? .. Allah swt says in the Quran :
وَمَا كَانَ اللَّهُ مُعَذِّبَهُمْ وَهُمْ يَسْتَغْفِرُونَ
nor will He punish them while they seek forgiveness. [8:33]
So if you feel that you are drowning in a sea of 'rejection' and punishment maybe? Try incorporating Istighfar into your day. May Allah swt accept from you, from us, and forgive our sins, ameen.
And always remember, Allah swt is the most merciful, the most graceful, He wouldn't have decreed anything bad upon us unless there is good in it. We are just incapable of see it with our limited human capacities. Most probably, Allah swt is saving you from a bigger evil that you can't see, but He swt is the best of the planners, and He has designed the plan of your life better than you can ever imagine it, so have good positive faith in Allah swt, and be a little patient. Rely on Him swt, and in shaa Allah before you know it, things will take a good turn.
May Allah swt grant you the strength and patience to keep going. May Allah swt grant you Hikmah (wisdom) to see the point out of all of this. May Allah swt ease your affairs and hasten your relief, ameen.
Stay safe. :)
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Sunset Love ch. 8: The hour before dawn
AN: Here’s the next part in my Slaxl fic. Hope you like it! If you do, please Reblog, share, Like, etc. xx
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Slash sucked deeply on the reefer someone had passed him, leaned back his head and blew up a long, slow stream of aromatic smoke at the sky.
It was sometime in the darkest part of the night, before dawn. His head swirled as he surveyed the blackness above. The noise in the lot outside their rehearsal space off Sunset and Gardner - music from a ghetto blaster, voices, laughter, bottles breaking, cans crunching, grunts from people fucking - was all around him, but he felt remote from it, disconnected.
A dull pain rumbled somewhere in his gut. He couldn't identify it ... He closed his eyes. Oh yes. He remembered. He had fucked some chick and Axl was giving him the silent treatment. In fact, he hadn't seen him since they left the Whisky.
Rage swelled in Slash's throat. He had known this ... thing... between him and Axl was a bad idea. He shook his head. He had been drunk, high, lonely, let his guard down... whatever. And now look where they were: Axl breaking his balls, acting like a fucking teenage girl.
He shoved the reefer into someone's hand and pushed his way through the crowd in the lot, looking around him. He was going to have it out with that motherfucker once and for all.
He searched all over the lot and the alley. No sign. Slash elbowed his way past some people and pushed through the half-open door to their rehearsal space. He heard a female voice moaning and looked up to the loft. In the half-light cast by a lamp on the floor, he made out Axl, his face buried in some girl's breasts, his ass humping energetically between her thighs.
Slash stood, frozen, for a second. Axl must have heard him come in because he lifted his head. When he saw it was Slash, an expression crossed his face... what was it? Through the haze in his head, Slash realised it was... vengeful.
Slash stumbled out the door. Appalled, he felt tears pricking behind his eyeballs. What the fuck? He wasn't seriously upset?
He went and stood at end of the alley where it opened into Gardner Street, the party roaring behind him. He pulled a crumpled pack of Marlboros out of his back pocket, lit up with shaking hands, inhaled and closed his eyes.
Footsteps on the ground behind him. A rough hand at his shoulder, pulling him around.
They stood facing each other. Slash sucked coolly on his cigarette. Its brief glow highlighted Axl's face, his lips pressed together in a snarl. No fucking way am I saying anything, thought Slash. Let's see if the amazing lyricist has the balls to talk first.
Slash couldn't help smirking when Axl opened his mouth.
"Your little performance in the Whisky didn't mean shit to me, asshole."
Slash couldn't help having a little fun. He widened his eyes.
"You didn't like my playing?"
Axl's eyes narrowed and Slash saw the muscles in his jaw tighten.
"Funny. Making eyes at that chick all night. Making sure everyone saw you going into the restrooms with her. Acting like the big fucking stud coming back out."
Axl shoved his hands into the back pockets of his leather trousers. He was clearly trying hard to be cool but his chest was heaving.
Slash frowned.
"Are you kidding, man? That chick gave me the eye first, not the other way around. And I don't give a fuck who did or didn't see."
Slash exhaled his last drag and ground the cigarette under his toe. He steeled himself. He was going to say it.
"What the fuck do you care, anyway? We fuck chicks, that's what we do, what we've always done. I did it tonight, you did it tonight. Who gives a fuck?"
Axl was looking at his own toes now. He rubbed a hand over his mouth and turned away.
Slash turned away too and looked down Gardner at the intersection with Sunset Boulevard. A solitary car sped through, going west, and disappeared into the night. The low, ever-present, night-time hum resumed. There were hours to go yet before the day's din began.
His head ached. A familiar emptiness was gnawing at the edges of his consciousness. What was he doing with his life?
"Slash."
That voice. That deep rumble. It made his goofy nickname sound like poetry.
"I -".
An exhale, almost like a gasp. Slash looked around. Axl's back was still turned, he was still looking at the ground. Was he actually stuck for words?
"What?" snapped Slash, a harsh tone to his voice. He wasn't going to make it easy.
Another exasperated breath.
"I - I didn't like it." Another pause before Axl continued. "You and the chick in the Whisky. It - it made me pretty fucking pissed. Okay? You happy now?"
Slash felt warmth seep through his belly. Axl was jealous and... Slash realised he liked it.
Axl's arm was cold when Slash reached out and pulled him around as Axl had done to him minutes before. He folded the other man into his arms.
"Jesus fucking Christ," hissed Axl. Slash felt himself being pushed roughly up against the wall around the corner from the alley opening.
"D'you want someone to see us?" Axl demanded, his face close to Slash's.
For a split second he thought Axl was about to beat the shit out of him. Then he felt the other man enveloping him in his arms and burying his face in Slash's neck.
Slash slowly circled his arms around Axl's sinewy torso and stroked the back of Axl's head, equal mixtures of relief and arousal flooding through him.
"I'm fucking pissed at you, too," he said softly into Axl's hair.
He felt Axl's ribcage contort with a chuckle.
"That girl there?" Axl's voice came muffled against the fabric on Slash's shoulder. "I totally did that to get back at you, man."
Slash held his friend tight, drinking in his scent, a sweet blend of sex, sweat, smoke, whisky, and something else, something undefinable that was just pure Axl. His head was swimming again, but not from weed this time. Axl had shown vulnerability.
Slash felt Axl lift his head and slowly, cautiously, touch the tip of his nose to Slash's. That cute, adorable nose. Slash gently kissed it, the soft skin around it, then moved his lips down. Their mouths met hesitantly, almost carefully, as if they were mindful not to hurt each other again. The kiss deepened slowly as they held each other even more tightly, Axl's pillowy lips so incredibly soft and yielding, Slash drinking in the taste of him. Their tongues found each other and intertwined, harder now, searching inside each other's mouths more urgently, hands grasping in each other's hair.
Axl pulled his mouth away, his breath coming hot and fast.
"I want you, Slash," he whispered, pushing his forehead against Slash's, eyes closed.
"I want you too," said Slash.
Without another word, they made for their door in the alley, heads down, not looking at anyone. A quick glance inside showed it was empty. Axl pulled the door shut after him and fumbled for his keychain in the dim lamplight. Slash heard the grind of the lock in the metal door.
Their bodies slammed together, hands everywhere, pushing off clothes, pulling at belt buckles. Slash yanked off Axl's pants, followed by his own. He had never felt such want; he wanted all of Axl, every part of him, now. Their mouths sucked at each other greedily, teeth pierced delicate lips, the taste of blood tinged Slash's tongue and it was good, so good.
"Loft," panted Axl.
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