#dark ambient noise

[postpunkindustrial]

Mouth Wound

[womenofnoise]

Women of Noise Fest, Night II

Giltvein

Moth Eater

Domesticatrix

Glad I Didn't Get My Stupid Wish

Pulsatile Tinnitus

All photos by Leperwitch.

[everydaym0nstrosity]

Current 93 - Faust (2000).

[officialpropheticnightmares]

It has been a LONG time coming! But, finally, my new album is here!

Heaven Spat Me Out, Purgatory Filters Me, And Hell Awaits Me

It's a barely contained manic energy and the softest soothing lullaby one could endure at once. A sonic dissection of myself.

I really hope you enjoy. This is my magnum opus.

[haveyoulistenedtothisalbum-poll]

Tracklist:

Intro • Nothing is Safe • He Dead • Haunting (interlude) • La Mala Ordina • Club Down • Prophecy (interlude) • Run for Your Life • The Show • Possession (interlude) • All in Your Head • Blood of the Fang • Story 7 • Attunement • Piano Burning

Spotify ♪ Bandcamp ♪ YouTube

[uboatheflesh]

Here's me recording/performing of empathy shield live on Behind The Mirror, RTR 92.1 FM on the 24th of August 2023. photos by alt.live.perth (Jess).

Set was a little shorter due to the radio time constraints. Also gave a brief interview (the interview on the site was done beforehand over email, theres also a pre-mastered version of empathy on there, I only spoke briefly after the set on radio). Again, empathy shield was completely improvised based on carefully pre-selected sound design elements. Done in the middle of autistic burnout, where I could barely speak on radio due to slowly going into verbal shutdown . Luckily my tour hosts Jess and Amir were absolutely supportive and got me through it.

I went on to play this show a few days in later, also in borloo/perth at the Badlands Bar. It used a lot of the same elements of empathy shield. I have a few feelings about it.

After the end of my set, I had a total verbal shutdown as soon as I got off stage and snuck back into the green room.

Worse, I managed to break the zip on my dress (got caught in the mesh I was wearing) and was stuck in it for 20 minutes before I had to ask a band for a shirt to cover the broken top half. Then several old perth friends I had not talked to in ages came in to talk to me only to find me simply unable to say hi back. I felt terrible about it. Indeed, I was in a terrible state. However - everybody around me there understood. A fellow autistic woman even gave me a fidget spinner. Even if I didn't use it (weirdly too overwhelmed to stim?), I kinda happy cry every time I think about that somebody even offered one to me non-judgementally. Only a few years ago would I have seen as a ridiculous r*tard baby for being a 'professional musician' who does this, but now it's ...its treated kinda like normal. Wish I had this kind of understanding growing up before I was diagnosed. Now, I am never the only ND at the gigs I play. Indeed, the NT's are usually the minority at them. Then theres the fact that so many other (and more well-known) musicians are being open about their autism (like Ethel Cain or Justin Broadrick) which would also be unthinkable years beforehand. It genuinely warms my heart. This is why I am loud, proud and cringe about my neurodivergence now. I don't want to be repeatedly traumatised by it anymore based on misunderstandings that we autists inevitably get, or failing to meet allistic standards. Every time I see a fellow autist get horridly traumatised because somebody (usually NT) got the ick it fucking hurts. Or when they blame themselves for failing to meet arbitrary allistic standards and fall into a horrible depression for not being 'normal'. It hurts even more if its a fellow autistic transfeminine person. I wish I could do more about it, like psychology or social work - but music is what I am stuck doing for the time being, so I'll try to do what I can here. Hence several upcoming songs /records (including the two Roadburn commissioned original compositions) neurodivergence takes a central role. It's lame, but sometimes its good to be lame. Sometimes it's necessary. We have a long way to go, but its also important to remember we have also come a long way too.

/gen

[zef-zef]

teeth dreams - fears unspoken from: teeth dreams - With My Back to the World (2024)

Violet Aisling (teeth dreams): synths, noise, cassettes, electroacoustic devices, no-input mixing board, controlled feedback, field recordings, laptop, vocals

Xandra Metcalfe (uboa): mixed, mastered, emotionally supported

Orchid Carmen (twinsoul): album art

[radiofreealbemut]

Welcome back in PAYwHATYOUWANTdAY (zero include) !!! Now each no air month, the 23th you will find a selection of 10 records from the PWYW zero include land of freedom. I do this because it’s important to do not forget that to break the rules is the better way to stay free ^^ And also of course because it’s so frustrating to share only free download music. (Previous selection is here https://radiofreealbemut.tumblr.com/post/751249798357745664/various-artists-out34-1-welcome-in )

[censormusick]

[nuka--ion]

im so proud of this song, but im open to critique

[rubuspinosa]

bedtime prayer EP is finally out

This means so much to me, this are the first songs I've ever done and It makes me very very happy to be able to show them to the few people who are willing to listen to me.

♡♡♡

[postpunkindustrial]

Mouth Wound - TALLOW

Bandcamp HERE

[haveyouheardthisband]

[everydaym0nstrosity]

Owen Davis - Silent Death (2025).

[officialpropheticnightmares]

🎃HAPPY HALLOWEEN!🎃

And be sure to check out my new album, Corpsegirl Slumberparty!

Now on all major streaming platforms!

Bring it here, keep it queer

Make obedience your whole career!

Please share! RBs appreciated!

[naphthu]

a walk beside the river with your estranged cosmic mother

I'm especially proud of this one. it's been by far the most involved process since starting to record & share my sounds at the start of last year. everything was recorded aloud through a bass amplifier in the late afternoons/evenings of 4 nonconsecutive days in the june heatwave, at the end of a 2 month period of intensive daily prayer & journalling

on one of the between-days I woke up with an almost magnetic feeling pulling me towards a small muddy river just outside of town. so there, by the tadpole-rich riverbed, I prayed for an hour or so to Holy Sophia for help and guidance, for answers to questions I'd been asking all my life and questions the answers to which I had always been too afraid of to sincerely & humbly ask for, until then. I sobbed for about twenty minutes the moment I got home, feeling answers that came one by one lodged like gems in the tender flesh of my heart, and a well of healing & forgiveness where once had been a pit of fear & shame. "return to the water" is one of the smaller of these gems, and the decision to title the track this way came that afternoon

"return to the water" is not necessarily an instruction to return to a physical body of water, but the cosmological primordial water that the Spirit rested over before the creation of the Heavens & the Earth (in the Genesis version of the cosmos' beginnings), a water that can be accessed both exoterically through the living water of Creation and esoterically through the Spirit in prayer or meditation. it is a surrender of will, of selfhood, of all the trappings of culture, identity, and circumstance, to be temporarily removed from the fantasy world we have collectively & individually built up around ourselves and returned to the inconceivable ambiguity of reality, bringing a little back with us each time in the hope that someday we might live free of blake's "mind forg'd manacles". you are a saint, nothing more, and everything less

god bless

hope you enjoy

naph