#dandelion: 'but it's not my real name. don't you want to know my real and famous name' | geralt: 'not particularly'

[hanzajesthanza]

geralt "i will NEVER deadname my best friend" of rivia

"he will ALWAYS be dandelion to ME"

[sharkylass]

ALRIGHT, I ASKED FOREVER AGO, BUT WHO WANTS TO HEAR ABOUT MY ISA LOOPS AU??

Heads up this contains a lot, and I mean A LOT of spoilers for In Stars And Time. Including: = Act 6 spoilers, including main mystery and secret encounter = Minimal Act 5 stuff = And a bunch of extra stuff that happens through Act 3 and 4. SO BASICALLY ALMOST EVERYTHING, FINISH THIS GAME COMPLETELY BEFORE READING (ESPECIALLY THAT ACT 6 ENCOUNTER, IT WILL LITERALLY BE THE FIRST THING I MENTION UNDER THE CUT)

With all those warnings out of the way-

IN REPETITION AND CHANGE

Initial Concepts:

I feel it's important to show these sketches because they were the first ideas I ever had. I wasn't even entirely sure I wanted to make an AU at this point, I didn't even know how I'd approach it. But I started sketching and it's been on my mind since- SO! Isa is stuck in the timeloop. I know what his wish is and he DOES have a Loop equivalent! The grumpy dandelion guy is Roboro (it/they/he). Their name is a very small play on Ouroboros and they call Isa "Seedling". However, this post is not about them, as I'm gonna talk about it and Isa's dynamic in a separate post. In short, Isa is his normal loud self up until Act 3, right? They beat the King, they reach the end, and whoops, the loop isn't broken. So now, what happens is that Isa starts getting his brains out. He starts thinking more analytically and tries to problem solve.

The more stuck he gets in his head, the less he's able to perceive his friends as real people, and more like them holding him back. Because even if Isa explains that he's smart, that they shouldn't be surprised if he says something, shock of all shocks, reasonable- They'll forget it the next loop.

So Isa is stuck with trying to portray his confident, loud, supportive facade- Which is fine! It wouldn't be the first time! But it progressively gets more and more frustrating, as he tries to find answers and simply looses the energy to pretend to be stupid.

TL;DR: Isa in the timeloop, unlike Siffrin, becomes more distant and cold rather then something more akin to Sif's mania.

NOW, MORE ART!!!

KILL KILL KILL:

I imagine Isa didn't have this encounter the same way that Sif did. Yeah, frankly, Isa is pissed with the sadness- But that's not why he goes through with this.

In this moment, Isa is trying to kill two birds with one stone. He's trying to get through this quickly, as well as reassure Mira that they can do this! If he shows how strong he is, then she'll feel safe right???

Poor Isabeau forgot that whenever he shows that he thinks ahead, he scares people. How could he forget that? How could he forget that he's inherently---

Family Quest:

I still think Odile is the one to call out to him (same with sus quest).

The hangouts I'm still figuring out, cause I don't think they'd too similar to base game- But, fun fact, at the end of this run, everyone agrees to keep travel together!

Isabeau brings it up, can't hurt if you can fix your mistakes right? And everyone agrees. The relief on Siffrin is the most palpable thing Isabeau has ever seen.

In this moment they love you. In this moment they all love you. In this moment---

Death Screen:

He loops back anyways. (This is one of the initial concepts that I ended up animating. This line in particular is when he reaches the end)

Act 5 Tarot Card:

NOW TO SEE MORE OF HIS PASSIVE AGRESSIVE SIDE

Thanks to @the-bitter-ocean for prescribing tarot cards to Isa (THEY ALL FUCK SO HARD) and for the RAW ASS LINE

If interacted with in act 5, predictably, Isa tears it apart. He doesn't need the divine judgement upon him, he's faced everyone's perception his entire life.

However, he tears it methodically. Tears it once in even pieces, twice, three times, and one of the pieces once more. In a way he isn't even getting his emotions out, it's like he's actively trying to tear it apart so it stops nagging him, like he wants to shut it up. Though, the Judgement card symbolizes rebirth, absolution and inner calling. In Act 6 he'd be able to look at it and find comfort and confidence in the card.

Act 5 Mirror:

And lastly, I have the Act 5 mirror picture. I haven't quite figured out how to make the normal ones work yet, however, I couldn't let go of the idea that Isa would not want to be in the picture.

The idea of seeing himself at all makes his head hurt and his stomach squeeze. The memory haunts him as he stands to the side and says the word. He didn't think the mirror would catch him.

AAAAND THAT'S ALL THE ART STUFF FOR NOW!!

I still have quite a bit of it to post, especially about Roboro, but I'm gonna leave it here for now.

I still gotta figure out the hangouts and potentially the dagger equivalent- but I have ideas for Bad Touch, the glass equivalent, and some extra little things that didn't happen in Siffrin's loops.

I needed to yap about this, because I've been slowly stacking up ideas and writing and I needed to share it at some point- If anyone read all this and has questions and stuff I fully welcome 'em!!

[howi99]

Ashen Knight 9

Kid Cinder: *looking at their new identities* Pfft, Jaune? That's the name they gave you?

Rk Jaune: *shaking his head* It was my real name, Cinder. The only thing they changed was the family name.

Cinder: *laughing* But Jaune?! Really!? Ahahahahah! It's just a color! What, did your mom lack names that were related to your hair color?

Jaune: Yes, actually.

Cinder: ... Wait really?

Jaune: Seven sisters and a bunch of cousins that are all blond really weeded out the number of names they could use. Heck, if i remember correctly, i had... Have? *Shake his head* One of them was called dandelion and another crucifer, which is basically another name for mustard.

Cinder: ... That last one did sound badass though.

Jaune: ... I do have to agree on that one. *Taking another look at the false papers* The last name isn't bad at least.

Cinder: Amaryllis? Why? It sounds like we are from Argus.

Jaune: It's a good cover. A father and daughter leave Argus to search for a better life in Atlas-

Cinder: *deadpan* The grimmland would have been preferable to this god forsaken place.

Jaune: *roll his eyes* I know Atlas is the second worst place in Remnant after Mistral, but trust me when i say that i'd prefer to stay another hundred years in the ever after instead of getting my foot in the grimmlands for more than a week.

Cinder: *pouting* But i still want to go!

Jaune: ... *Kneeling down to her size, smiling at the little girl* Cinder, i know that you want to leave this place as soon as possible. *Chuckle* Trust me, i miss Vale as much as you hate Atlas... But you saw how Winter reacted when she talked about her dad. *Shaking his head* I can't just leave her alone, nor her or her siblings.

Cinder: *Sigh* I know that, but why can't i just use my semblance on him? It would be finished in a matter of seconds!

Jaune: *serious* And you'd have killed.

Cinder: *trying to justify herself* B-but he's a bad guy! Like in your stor-

Jaune: *Cutting her, his voice authoritative* Cinder!

Cinder: *surprised by Jaune reaction* W-whu-

Jaune: *sigh, calming his voice* Cinder... Killing is not a solution to a problem. It's a consequence. *Closing his eyes, taking a deep breath* Grimms don't have feelings. They don't have aspirations or dreams... But peoples? People have dreams. *Open his eyes, seeing Cinder's eyes reflecting his own* When you look at me, what do you see?

Cinder: *unsure* M-my savior? A knight?

Jaune: *shaking his head* Cinder, when i look at you, i see how good you can be. I see your future, i see all your potential... But do you know what i see when I have to kill someone? When they lay before me?

Cinder: *shake her head*

Jaune: *sigh* I see nothing... When they die, they cannot change anymore, Cinder. Death is the end, not A end, THE end. Killing someone is robbing them of their future, of everything they could have done. You cannot repent in death... *Look at his broken sword* Nor can you dream of better days...

Cinder: *looking down, ashamed of even thinking about killing Jacques* I'm sorry... I thought i could be useful... I just-

Jaune: *taking her in his arms, hugging her* You don't need to be useful, Cinder. You need to be you, to be happy!

Cinder: *slowly hugging the knight back, silently crying* B-but then... What good am i?

Jaune: *Tightening his hug a little bit* You aren't a tool, Cinder. You are a kid... Be kind, be happy... And that will be plenty enough.

[skeelly]

"trust that you betrayed, confusion that still lingers"

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[ace-of-hats]

Ok, after a month I think it's time for me to actually say stuff about my OCs! (be warned–this is going to be kinda long.)

I have a few stories/worlds (three I drew characters from I think–) so I'll break it up based on that. After the character’s name, I'll put a day I drew them (I don't want to write descriptions…)

1 - A fantasy world set a long time ago. Basically, the world runs parallel to our world. Set around the year range 1000-1500 (i had a really specific one but i forgor). There are significantly less people than in our world because when “wizards” (normal people who take magic from places it isn't supposed to be taken from) die, there are great natural disasters/magic related catastrophes. Along with wizards, there are naturally occurring magical creatures/people. (I’ve done a lot of worldbuilding for this over the years, so if you are confused I would be happy to elaborate! I'm not going to write it all in this paragraph because that would be. a lot.)

Dandelion (day 2): she is a shapeshifter (can be a human or a mountain lion) who comes from the forest surrounding a small kingdom. Her mom was killed when she was young and she gets separated from her siblings, but she ends up making her way to the outskirts of the small kingdom and eventually becomes some sort of royal guard thing. She wants to go back to the forest, but her best friend (Lev) isn't allowed to leave, and she wont go without him.

Leverett ‘Lev’ (day 13): he is a prince of the kingdom, but not in line for the throne (that's his older sister). He gets sick easily (and is allergic to grass and pollen and whatever), and so is not allowed to do lots of things his sister is. Despite this, he wants to go on a “grand adventure” (with Dandelion) and sneaks out to try to do that more often than people usually want him to. He is really friendly, and is well liked by pretty much everyone he meets. This sort of makes up for the fact that he was taught zero survival skills.

Pon (day 12): they are the literal shadow of the latest wizard. They were brought to life in the wizard’s attempt to live forever (it's complicated) but it didn't work. After the wizard died (old age), Pon lived with his widowed wife until she died a few years later. They inherited the house, a small cabin/cottage in the middle of the woods, and they keep up the garden and read to pass the time. Pon is solid in direct light, and can be solid in the dark, but can also become more like a shadow and also move through walls. They meet Dandelion when she breaks into their house.

2 - Platformer video game concept I've had for a while that I probably wont start for a few years, if at all. Very basic, there are five areas: ocean, volcano, clouds, forest, and mirror world.

Farris(name may change)(day 24): main character. The flower behind their ear gives them a different power/attack for each area. They are friendly/helpful to a fault, causing them to help a magic talking tree.

Briar (day 3): she is the person who gives little hints about the map and the controls. She seems to know a lot about this strange world–more than Farris, maybe more than she should…

Cat merchant(day 27): is a calico cat that sells stuff. She's real silly. Makes Farris eat cat food.

3 - set in 2024 but there's magicians and vampires and dragons etc that are kept secret from normal people. Magicians do magic with the help of a familiar. A magician’s magic is passed down through genetics. Most people have some magic in them but not enough for them to do magical stuff. Not really important but I thought it was a cool idea–vampires drink the magic that's in blood, and if you don't have any magic in you, you're immune to vampires (and some other magic stuff). Same with werewolves–you would just get chomped and have to go to the doctor probably. But I'm getting off topic here. The type of magic that magicians use is different than the type of magic that magical creatures (vampires, dragons, etc) use.

Korbin (day 7): he's a highschooler who thought for all his life that he was just a normal guy. One day he discovers that he is a slightly cooler guy (can do magic), and makes friends with a couple other magical teens. His familiar is a raven named Peanut. She likes peanuts. Korbin really likes drawing, reading and going to the library. He 100% almost immediately gets a crush on Viktor. Because of some worldbuilding that I don't think I wrote down and have mostly forgotten, he accidentally does something and gets features from his familiar (aka cool wings).

Hecate (day 23): she has known she was a magician. She really really wants to do weird necromancy shit, but it is illegal (she does it anyway)(her parents dont know). She wants to be a doctor (100% for necromancy reasons). She has a snake familiar, I forgot her name tho. Snakie is totally on board with the whole creepy bones magic stuff, and she brings hecate small animals to “practice” on, causing hecate to have a bunch of small bones on her at all times. She is a grade younger than the other three. 

Erin (day 20, dragon form day 4): she is a dragon who was secretly swapped at birth with a kid in a magical family. She can change from dragon and human forms. When she uses magic, her eyes turn from brown to a yellowie gold like they are in her dragon form. She is very silly i love her. Since she is not a magician, she has a fake familiar (pet)(a possum named Theo) to blend in more (dragon changelings are really rare and her parents let her keep the possum that she found in her garage). She doesn't like Viktor as fast as Korbin and hecate do, but she warms up to him. She likes sewing.

Viktor (day 8): he's a vampire who grew up in a cult trying to get rid of the type of magic that magical creatures have, out of the fear of it being “too powerful”. He has a cat “familiar”(as a vampire he doesnt need one) named moon. He usually wears a turtleneck to hide his bite scars from people, but his family and the leaders of the cult do know about his vampirism, and are using him as a sort of test subject to try to learn how to un-vampire someone/take away the more potent magic from a magical creature. He ends up becoming friends with the other three after they learn that he's not a crazy cultist.

aaaand as a reward for reading all that (or just scrolling through idk), heres some of my favorite pieces from oc-tober!

[allovesthings]

What's your headcanon for Katniss and Peeta's children?

How old was Katniss when give birth to their daughter?

How many years apart between them in age?

Your headcanon for their name?

Who gets the singing and art skill from their parent?

Bonus question : please give recs of your fav everlark post-Mockingjay fanfic.

Thank you :)

@curiousthg

Hi !!

What's your headcanon for Katniss and Peeta's children?

I just kinda love the idea that one of them pursue an artistic career and the other one is a doctor.

Being free to paint or sing or just do art without it being crushed by the necessity of taking responsibility for an entire family like Katniss or sorta instrumentalized like Peeta's paintings as a talent for the Capitol would be a good way to contrast theirs life to what theirs parents lived through.

For the doctor: It's mostly because of that line in Mockingjay when Katniss is talking to Prim and she realize that Prim having the opportunity to train to be a doctor is part what they are fighting for because Prim wouldn't have that opportunity in 12. There is something kinda poetic about theirs children actually getting that that in 12 (I think Katniss might have been pretty reticent at first when they announced they wanted to be a doctor).

I could also see one of them taking over the bakery one day but that's just a me thing, no big reason why).

How old was Katniss when give birth to their daughter?

Well...the epilogue mention 15 years and if they took around a year or two to be in a place where they could be romantic and maybe another year or two before Peeta even mentioned children, I think around 34-35 ?

How many years apart between them in age?

I think the boy is around 1 or 2 in the epilogue (considering he can barely walk, i would say he is 1 and half) and the girl probably elementary school age ? I think they have a five years age gap, probably.

Your headcanon for their name?

I don't know actually, I think they have flower names probably and If Peeta has a naming tradition then maybe one of them is probably named after that. Maybe one of them is actually named Dandelion ? (I mean I don't thing Katniss was a name before Katniss so why not ? ) or Daisy (it's a flower name and I kinda like it).

Who gets the singing and art skill from their parent?

I think both of them can sing actually because it's something they both do with Katniss, I think the girl is a really good baker and the boy draw.

Bonus question : please give recs of your fav everlark post-Mockingjay fanfic.

Let me check my ao3, real quick, they are all Post-Mockingjay but Pre-epilogue:

you believe in my heart by cafeinmama: This is so good ! It's everlark season by season. I love it. It is incomplete

Gravity by VanillaCottonCandy I need to reread it but it's so so good !

Bonus :

The Victors of District Twelve by DustyAttic: This one is a bit canon-divergent because it's abut Lucy Gray coming back after the war to meet the rest of the distric 12 victors but I couldn't not rec it. It's so good.

You and i'll be safe and sound by greensgable: This one is because i want to have my cake and eat it too. It's both canon-divergent with happier endings and noy (Four times things ended a bit happier, and the one time they didn't), it's so sad and and also not.

Thank you for the ask !!!

[marsalaqueen]

Ok, I have a sad theory about Alex Turner's relationships with his women and his music, that is, I hope, not 100% true. And I do want to share it with you!

The concept is that Alex takes only inspiration from his girlfriends for the new albums, write lyrics about them, but not really love them. And the only person whom he is in love with is Miles Kane.

Before we start I'd like to say that I don't wanna blame or offend anyone. I personally do not know any of the people described below and I can be wrong about them. I respect everything they do, and in fact I sympathize with absolutely every character. All the thoughts described below came to my mind only during a small investigation of some Alex's texts, which hooked me with their references even though sometimes they are not obvious.

Sooo, let's begin with Johanna Bennett. They were dating in 2005-2007, Alex was 19, for sure just a kid. The development of Arctic Monkeys has just begun, first album, first fame and fans confession. In fact, there is little information about them on the Internet, and the only thing I found was what he recorded with her "Fluorescent Adolescent". I can't say anything about specifically her influence on the first albums, because the press did not really catch their relationship. Then let's slowly move on to the favorite of most fans Alexa Chung.

Alexa was a real match. Their names, appearance and magnetic charisma spoke for themselves. They were dating from 2007 to 2011, Humbug and Suck It and See were released in this period (Favorite Worst Nightmare was recorded before her). And if in Humbug I can’t clearly trace any references (except perhaps Crying Lightning), then SIAS is one continuous declaration of love to Alexa. It has a lot more melancholic, romantic, incredibly touching songs - «She’s Thunderstorms», «Reckless Serenade», «Piledriver Waltz», «Love Is a Laserquest», «Suck It and See» and others. There is no doubt that the main source of inspiration was Alexa. And when Alex performed live She’s Thunderstorms after their split, the bitter pain was felt throughout the song. I mean, read some lyrics from SIAS:

Your love is like a studded leather headlock

Your kiss it could put creases in the rain

You're rarer than a can of dandelion and burdock

And those other girls are just postmix lemonade;

The type of kisses where teeth collide

When she laughs, the heavens hum a stun gun lullaby

Those twinkling vixens with the shining spiral eyes

Their hypnosis goes unnoticed when she's walking by

And I do believe that Chung was his last true love. Some sort of a special chemistry could be seen between them, a strong real feeling. Alexa was loving, easy and sincere, just like SIAS.

But after only a month in 2011 he started dating Arielle Vandenberg, a Hollywood actress. With her they had their best (commercially and judging by the love of the audience) album AM. IT was cheeky, luxurious, sexy - posh as an American dream, whose incarnation can be called Arielle. She was in R U Mine? and One For The Road clips (maybe even in some more), she is definitely his Arabella starting at least from the leopard coat that she often wore. In a word, she fit well into the concept of AM. They also looked cute with him, drinking together in bars and wearing damn cool Halloween costumes. And, more importantly, she got along with the rest of the members, as did Alexa, by the way!

Several months passes and Alex is in a relationships again - this time with a model Taylor Bagley, the most chaotic and crazy one (in a good way). After stunning success of AM Monkeys are taking a hiatus, and Alex starts having fun with Miles. We come to the intriguing part. During their relationship with Taylor, they are recording a new album with TLSP, which, in addition to the sound of vintage soul with strings, is also very romantic and poignant. What they did with Miles on stage is another story, but we'll get to that later. So, he and Taylor got paired tattoos with their names, he literally wrote at least "Sweet Dreams, TN" about her (Although being born in Oklahoma, she states in interviews that she considers herself a Nashville, Tennessee, native and she has a piercing in her nose), by the way, she also made a tattoo with the name of this song. Together with Miles they hang out at her house with a pool and dog; she is in "Bad Habits" clip, and in general they are real safely threesome. They are crazy, drunk and happily doing some odd things, like the 2nd TLSP album.

And finally we are coming to the most provocative part. Louise Verneuil. I will not say whether he cheated on Bagley with her or not, but the time between the breakup and the new relationship was negligible. Rumors say that Louise was almost in his dressing room backstage while he was still in a relationship with Taylor. So, so far, their relationship with the French singer is the longest he's ever had (2018-till now). Visually, I am insanely impressed with how they look together, they complement each other incredibly, if only because Louise is finally lower than him ahahaha. She is petite and flirtatious, infused with the spirit of the 70s and Jane Birkin. Look at her clips (Love Corail, Desert and etc.), and then at the Car....

Yes, he produced some videos for her, so maybe they are similar. But his style of Alain Delon, the image of the horny teacher of geography from the 70s, scarves at concerts and so on - all this gives off the atmosphere of Louise. For example, a There'd Better Be a Mirrorball clip, in which, by the way, there is Louise as well.

The only thing that confuses everyone is her bad relationship with fans (I saw a screenshot of the correspondence somewhere, where she rudely asked the girl to remove the photo with Alex from her stories), scandals with likes on posts about rape, photos of Alex once in a while a year, and the absence of Alex's sincere smile next to her, let's be honest. And one important notice - he stopped celebrating Halloween with Louise, which he apparently loved very much, as he always carefully approached the choice of costume (my favorite is Florence and the Machine with Arielle, it's fantastic)

Let's sum up a little. 1) Since 2005 Alex cannot be without a relationship for more than 4-5 months, which is not normal obviously. He seems to be afraid of being alone, thinking that he will not find inspiration for a new album, or, in principle, he has a fear of loneliness. 2) Vibes of all his albums are a reflection of his girls. Next to them he changes also. 3) Remember the evolution of his images, in addition to age and interests, the style of girls also influences him. With Alexa, it’s simple T-shirts and old jeans, while she is in plain dresses and shorts with knee socks; with Arielle he is in tight pants and leather jackets, and she is in extravagant coats and heels; with Taylor he is in colorful suits and flared pants, and she is in very short tops with pink hair; with Louise he is in corduroy jackets and white shirts, whilst she in vintage jeans and flowing blouses - boom, all matches! 4) Obviously he has a type of girls with a square face, blond hair and bangs. The only one who deviated much from this type was Taylor. 5) I have not seen him hugging, laughing and kissing someone the way Miles Kane does, next to whom he literally glows, not afraid to show himself, not afraid to be real, foolish, but really himself.

Perhaps happiness loves silence and Alex, as a not very public person, keeps all the feelings between him and his woman, but he is too open next to Miles, not afraid to show his feelings in public, which raises some doubts.

I would like to write a separate final post about Al and Miles, if it is necessary at all. Please let me know if any of this resonated with you, and if I can flesh out any of these points to you in more detail, I will do so with pleasure!

[cheruverse]

i found this at my notepad. this was made at like june, or something 😭

no format or anything, just wanted to share this all with you guys

warnings: mention of bullying and being left out. angst. read at your own risk.

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RUI is so inlove with you. he was planning to confess his feelings and hopes that you like him back too.

he texted you a message to come to a nearby park because he had something to say, you saw the message and texted back.

'i'm on my way'.

rui's heart was squeezing at the thought of confessing, because he kept those feelings inside and cares for you.

he was waiting in a dandelion field, opening an umbrella as it started pouring lightly.

suddenly, there was faint sounds of footsteps in the distance, he saw you. his heart was racing, and butterflies danced on his stomach as he's preparing himself for this moment.

"hey there, rui! it's raining heavily today.. i really want to know why you texted me to go here." you ran towards rui and wave with an apologetic smile.

"i hope you don't mind, but.." rui's voice trails off. he hesitated for a moment. you can almost notice how nervous he is, but he's just masking his fears. "is there something wrong, rui?" you said in visible worry.

"i like you. i like you in that way." he confessed. "i don't know how i explain this to you, but everytime i meet you, i always want to stay by your side. whenever we leave, i would think of you at the end of the day, wondering when we can interact again."

"you mean a lot to me, [name]. you really do. you're special." he finished, his heart pounding. he's nervous, and is silently awaiting for your answer.

your smile faded a little bit. didn't know what to say. you would feel bad if you've rejected him, but you don't want to force yourself in a relationship with someone you don't even like.

but if you've rejected him, you would feel guilty. you don't want him to suffer. if he does, you'll blame yourself for it.

you're at a loss for words.

you gulped, your heart thrumming as you try and sympathize with him.

"i'm sorry but, rui.." you hesitated, looking down at the ground. you gather yourself and calm down.

"i.. don't feel the same way." as soon as you said it, rui's eye's slightly widen. "i am really sorry. i only see you as a friend, nothing more."

"it warms my heart to know that you like me in such way, but i feel guilty for having to reject you like this. i'm really sorry. we can be friends instead." you muttered, slowly looking up at him.

you can't tell if he's tearing up or not because of the rain. you feel absolutely remorseful. rui is inlove with you, and you didn't know what to do.

a moment of silence is shared between you two. the dandelions on the field flew along with the breeze, and the earthy smell of the rain fills the atmosphere.

rui didn't know what to say. he kept up a neutral face, but behind that exterior, he is absolutely broken. he's shattered in pieces. he's promised himself that he won't hurt himself ever again, but this happens right after he promised?

it feels like he's wasted his time on observing you and your signals everyday.

to think he's found the one for him, only for them to have his heart shattered in two.

he's had so much years of healing from his past. from the bullying, the weird looks, and him being left out.

just as he was about to heal, his heart broke again.

he feels outright horrible.

you stared at rui. "rui, are you oka—" ".. that's fine, [name]. we can still be friends, i understand." rui cuts you off and lightly smiles, empathizing with you.

it felt real. rui felt bitter and crushed for assuming that you feel the same way. he was.. really sad. he wished you well as friends. he respects your decision, but hoped you liked him back.

"only as friends, right?" you were hesitant.

if only, just only he could turn back time. to stop all this madness. to make him reverse the damage it had done to him. to make him have a second thought.

"just only as friends." rui smiles a bit.

but it was too late anyway.

[sam-loves-seb]

weekly tag wednesday

thanks for the tag @roryonic

name: sam(antha)

age: six and twenty

location: boston, mass

and now…

If you could hang out with any cartoon character, who would you choose and why? buttercup from the powerpuff girls. i feel this needs no explanation.

If you could bring back any fashion trend, what would it be? i have no idea dude, i don't think any trends really go away enough to be "brought back" i just wear what i wanna wear yk

What sport would you compete in if you were in the Olympics? women's soccer (summer) or women's slalom racing (winter). both i did competitively for a number of years.

Which actor would you want to play you in the movie about your life? zoey deutch

If you were the captain of a pirate ship, what would be the name of your ship? the enchantress

If you could see one movie again for the first time, what would it be and why? dead poets society

What’s one thing on your bucket list that you really want to do? skydiving or publishing a novel

If you could have any animal, real or imaginary, as a pet, what would it be and why? as a pet, probably a cat. they have it made.

If you could invent a holiday, what would it be, and how would people celebrate it? i would invent a holiday where people stay up all night just to celebrate. celebrate what? who knows, but they do. they could gather with friends, or just chill out at home, doesn't matter, they just can't go to sleep. they have to enjoy the nighttime. and nobody has work the next day so everyone can sleep the day away after.

What’s the most interesting place you’ve ever visited in your country? god idk, fucking nowhere. maybe philadelphia. went to a bunch of museums and historical sights on my trip there, so that was kinda cool.

tagging: @mybrainismelted @deathclassic @gallawitchxx @suchagallabitch @svltburn @transsexual-dandelions @transmurderbug @deedala @suzy-queued and anyone else who wants to play

[nightcityace]

[ SUBJECT INTERVIEW: SUNNY ]

[NICKNAME:]

Sunny: I guess technically Sunny was a nickname before it became official, but I've also been called Sunshine, Sunbeam, Ray of Sunshine… you can probably see the pattern. Interviewer: And what is your real name? Sunny: Sunny is my real name. Just because it might not be the first name I had doesn't mean it's not my real name.

[GENDER:]

None for me, thanks.

[STAR SIGN:]

Misty says I’m an Aquarius. I guess I never really put much thought into any of that, but she really enjoys it so that makes it fun for me too.

[HEIGHT:]

5’ 9”, but some of my boots make me a little taller. No platforms or anything though, I wouldn't be able to walk to save my life.

[ORIENTATION:]

Only interested in men, but I guess I don't really try to define myself often. Just queer in general is probably the best term I suppose.

[NATIONALITY / ETHNICITY:]

That's another one I never really think too much about. A lot of people tend to think my family are Nomads, but we’ve been here since before Night City was Night City. My… (counts on fingers) great-great-great grandparents actually bought our property back when California was still one state, so we’re about as local as you get. Before that I think someone came from New York and before that I don’t really know, all over Europe I think.

[FAVE FRUIT:]

Strawberries, not like synthetic ones or those over priced cloned ones, real strawberries. We managed to get a little section of them growing at home and nothing can compare. 

[FAVE SEASON:]

Probably spring. I love getting to watch everything sprout and bloom, even out in the desert. 

[FAVE FLOWER:]

Sunny: People usually expect me to say something cliche like sunflowers, but I genuinely love dandelions. Especially when they grow up out of cracks in pavement or sidewalks. It's proof there's still nature in the city, even when they try to hide it under all the concrete. They’re stubborn little flowers and they're perfect. Interviewer: Aren't dandelions weeds? Sunny: Only because someone wanted to sell people on the idea of a perfectly sterilized, useless, solid patch of grass which completely destroyed the biodiversity of most yards. They’re yellow, they're cute, I like them. Interviewer: Got it…

[FAVE SCENT:]

This is a hard one to describe, but do you know how sometimes you can kind of smell outside? Not like… exhaust and garbage obviously… but there's a certain smell that gets in your hair and clothes when you've been out in the wind and sun and you can just tell that's what it is.

[COFFEE, TEA, HOT CHOCOLATE:]

Yes please, all of it.

[AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP:]

Probably about 6 or 7 normally. I tend to wake up early after having to for most of my life, but I love going back to bed. I'll usually wake up about sunrise or earlier and go have a cup of coffee and check my plants to see if they need water and if Vik isn't up yet I'll scooch back under the covers and go right back to sleep for a few more hours. Plus naps, naps are great.

[DOG OR CAT PERSON:]

Chickens. Okay okay, I know obviously I can't have them in the city, but the farm is well outside the avian exclusion zone. Seriously, they're adorable. (Pulls out phone to show no less than 300 different pictures of chicks and chickens)

[DREAM TRIP:]

Honestly I don't know. I like being close to my family and being in NC, so I don't think I'd want to go anywhere long. I have some Nomad friends though so a trip with them might be fun, maybe somewhere with actual mountains since I really like climbing around the canyons and stuff we have out in the Badlands. 

[FAVE FICTIONAL CHARACTER:]

Hmmm… I'm gonna go with Bugs Bunny. Both extremely cute and extremely chaotic, I respect that.

[NUMBER OF BLANKETS YOU SLEEP WITH:]

I usually start with one or two, but I tend to run warm so by the time I wake up it's not uncommon for them all to be kicked down to the end of the bed or piled up on Vik’s side.

[RANDOM FACT:]

Sunny: About me or just like… a fact I like? Hm, how about: it's surprisingly easy to get a wild coyote into the front seat of a locked car. You wouldn't think so, but getting it out is actually much harder. Interviewer: Okay... That's slightly troubling... how about a fact about you? Sunny: I know how to get a wild coyote into the front seat of a locked car. 

This was so fun to do!! Thank you @dreamskug for tagging me!

I have a few other tag things I still need to do with Sunny, I swear I havent actually forgotten, I just have terrible time management... >.>

EDIT: oh dang I forgot to tag people D: I think most of my cp friends have been tagged already so I'll toss it to @wraithsoutlaws bc I want someone to have the audacity to interview Dagger :P

[burninface]

🍾Weekly Tag Wednesday Friday🎉

FINALLY, after overtime work for three days straight, I can leave work on time and have time to finish all the interesting tag games 😇 it's a 3 in 1 post so:

first thaaaanks for tagging me ling @lingy910y , Al🧊 @spookygingerr, dean @transsexual-dandelions , deanna @deedala , sarah @atthedugouts 💖

name: face

age: it’s year of loong🐉 and 🐉 is my animal sign

location: bed

what is your dj name? well… hddnd, pronounce upside-down puppy

if you were a genre of music, what would it be? Fusion, a little bit of this, a little bit of that

what would you title your biography? Random Dream Generator

what are the first three things you'd do if you were invisible? It sounds boring and nerdy😴: 1)test out the how invisible I am, will all my metabolic substances also be invisible. 2)test what will happen if I intake some drink or food, or use skincare. 3)find out how would I look like in mirror/camera/photos

what subject do you wish was taught in every school? adulting classes and death education, maybe sex education and mental health too.

when was the last time you tried something for the first time and what was it? I tried osmanthus cheese ice cream today (I just picked out the box from my trash bin to check the English title lol), it tastes… meh😌

what is the most underrated city you have ever visited? I don't know? I never check much negative comments about a city before I go there...?

what day in your life would you like to relive? If I can relive it as my recent self, then maybe the day I birthed. if I can only relive it as my past self, then none of them.

if you could eliminate one thing from your daily routine, what would it be and why? Picking up my hair all around my home😩

how long would you last in a zombie apocalypse? Depends, if it’s bite-you-and-you-die kind of zombie, about a week I guess (with all my skill learnt from zombie games lol). If it’s bite-you-and-you-become-zombie kind, at first day I’ll be bitten (out of curious) and I’ll try my best to write down how it felt like to become a zombie.

what would be the most surprising scientific discovery imaginable? I’m actually living in my dream and my dreams are my real lives neuron regeneration/ braindance (physical sensations, emotions, and thoughts recording technic in cyberpunk2077, but ethically it may won’t be achieved)

if you could have any view out your office window, what would you choose? As far as it’s natural scenery, I’m ok with it

🎊pinterest tag game🎊

thank you Al, deanna, nosho @creepkinginc , julia @blue-disco-lights , tee @mickeym4ndy for tagging me💕

rules: search up fashion, pantone, mood, and food on pinterest and then save the first picture that comes up.

that outfit looks like smth I'll be interested in enough to try out in the shop but then never choose to buy. and that pantone pic is just…… so me. and I got the same mood pic with tee! the last one, not a fan of green onion😬

🍦positivity tag game🍟

thank you Al🧊, ling and keely @thepupperino for tagging me do this💝

rules: list 3 things you’re excited about for today.

1 after overtime work for three days straight, I finally can leave work on time! 2 I finally left work on time! 3 I LEFT WORK ON TIME!

Ok, just kidding 😗

1 after overtime work for three days straight, I finally can leave work on time! 2 ELDEN RING Shadow of the Erdtree released today! 3 Adam Lambert has a new song cvnty released on today too!

No tagging anyone since I'm late but just go ahead if you want to do any of these games!

[atthedugouts]

weekly tag wednesday

Thank you @burninface for the tag 😊

name: Sarah

age: 34

where in the world are you? California

how tall are you? 5'2

what color are your eyes? blue

what’s something that frightens you? Bees. I freeze when I hear the buzzing. I've been stung three times in my life

do you have children? if not, do you want any? No and nope

are you the eldest, middle, youngest, or only child? Middle/twin

what time do you usually wake up? 6 for work 7 on weekends

relationship status? single

do you identify as a member of the queer community? I might be the lone straight person on tumblr. But that was also true when I worked with Girl Scouts.

any tattoos/piercings? I got my ears pierced when I was 10 and let them close up real quickly because I didn't want to do the maintenance for them

something you love: Disneyland

something you hate: seeing people live vlog at Disneyland

do you have any pets? I have a dog

do you have a license/can you drive? Yes and yes. It's hard to get around California without a car

if you could tell your younger self one thing, what would it be? Don't be afraid of getting in trouble

and finally, something people would be surprised to know about you: I can play the alto saxophone

Tagging: @mickeym4ndy @transsexual-dandelions @em-harlsnow @thirstyvampyr

@especially-fuk-u @iansw0rld @hayscodings

[acacia-may]

Hiya Acacia, I hope you’re doing well 🥰! Since you’re in a bit of a romantic mood, I thought I might ask for your thoughts on YuNeva and Zerilliam 👀? And for Platonic relationships how about Asta & Yuno and Fuegoleon & Nozel?

Sending you all the hugs and positive vibes in the world 🥰💜!

Aww Lyra! You're such a sweetheart! Thank you so much, dear! Sending you lots of love as well. 💕 I'd be thrilled to give you some ramblings. (Apologies in advance if they're too incoherent).

Zerilliam

I hope by now that you already know, but just in case you didn't, I absolutely adore this pairing! When I first started reading "Dandelion Wishes," I actually made my poor sister listen to me rant about how much I love this ship (and she hadn't even read the fic so she had no clue what I was talking about), and honestly I had more to say about them than most canon x canon Black Clover pairings, so needless to say, it is definitely canon in my mind.

William is such a sweetheart, and I can really imagine him as someone who has domestic dreams of finding love, settling down, and having a family so it warms my heart to see that he did get to have this (even if it ended in tragedy--which I will never get over. They deserved their happy ending! 😭 Even if I'll admit the angst is delicious, and their boy, Alistair, is just so precious to me).

Also, your backstory for how the two of them ended up together is just delightful. Honestly, "Dandelion Wishes" is one of my favorite fanfictions I've ever read in my life, and I have been so invested in it and in William and Zera's relationship from day one. They are so perfect for each other in my opinion, just absolutely made-for-each-other soulmates. I love how they share common interests but have a lot of balance in personality with Zera a little more headstrong and William a little more reserved. They really are in awe of each other's strengths too and have so much respect and admiration for their differences which I just adore.

Zera as a character is so vibrant and so real to me, as well. She just commands attention every time she appears, and every time she does pretty much anything, I can just vividly imagine William staring lovingly awestruck at her and zest for life with hearts in his eyes or floating around his head like in an old cartoon. (He's so in love! I'm going to cry!) Also, her quirks and the adorable way she names her plants is super endearing, and the fact that she is a florist only makes me love her more (but my family actually runs a flower shop (A/N: But I don't work there), so I think I'm very biased in this regard 😅).

I honestly don't get this intense about ships all that often, but I cannot describe to you in words how much I think about this pairing and how desperately I need them to kiss. And I mean desperately. To be perfectly honest with you, at this point, I am so invested in it that it's really hard for me to imagine William with anyone else...which concerns the more neutral, multi-shipper part of me, if I'm being honest, but this ship is just that good. Reading about them has made me laugh and cry and squeal just like (and in many cases more than) reading about any ship between canon characters, and I'm honestly just in awe of how compelling this ship and their story is. I really can't thank you enough for creating Zera, Zerilliam, and the masterpiece that is "Dandelion Wishes"! 💖

YuNeva

Aww they're cute. 😊 To be honest with you though (and I am very sorry to have to say this) in general ships with Yuno in them aren't really my cup of tea personally since I tend to see Yuno as someone who isn't all that interested in romance and (possibly) would just never really want that kind of relationship. That said, according to the Assorted Question Brigade in Vol. 31 he does have a “type” of person he likes...so who knows? Maybe someday he'll want to find love. If he did, I would definitely be supportive of that, and I'm not against the idea of shipping him. It's just not something I personally have ever given much thought to, and, for that reason, I feel pretty neutral towards Yuno ships in general and don't have many thoughts or opinions (Again, I'm sorry about that).

All of that said, if I was to imagine Yuno falling in love, YuNeva is a very sweet pairing, and they make me smile in your stories and posts about them. I really enjoyed them in COTF too! ^^ Going back to that Assorted Question Brigade I mentioned, Yuno himself described his "type" as "someone who's relaxing to be around," and that's something that really sticks out to me about his relationship with Neva. It's very comfortable and almost cozy. They just work so well together, and it feels effortless--like they just naturally gravitate towards each other and genuinely enjoy each other's company. I love that a lot, and I also love how their bond is built on mutual respect and admiration. They really support each other and the moments they can share their vulnerabilities are always very compelling to me. I also think Neva is just a great character on her own (especially her platonic bond with William. So wholesome!). I like her dynamic with Yuno a lot too and how they complement each other. I think I'm a little more invested in their friendship (because I'm weird like that), but I could definitely see them very happy together romantically and I definitely want good things for both of them, so I'd support them falling in love and think you’ve done a great job crafting their love story. 💕

Platonic Relationship Ramblings! Yay! Thank you so much for this, dear!

Asta & Yuno

Aww I adore them, and their brotherly bond. Their dynamic and rivalry which is built on a such a strong foundation of familial love and mutual respect was what initially hooked me in Black Clover, and it has been such a delight getting to watch their individual journeys and how they have supported each other through the series. I'm getting a little emotional just thinking about it, honestly. 🥹

One of my favorite things about them is just how wildly different they are as people. Asta has such a big personality, and Yuno is so reserved, but their differences are always respected and really help inspire each other. In that way, I love that their relationship is kind of a twist on the usual rivals dynamic because it isn't just Asta trying to live up to the (quite frankly very OP) Yuno but Yuno also views Asta as his rival as well because he has so much admiration for his passion, resilience, and determination. I was not expecting that when I first watched the anime and thought it was such a refreshing reveal. I love how Yuno's genuine admiration for Asta has been such a driving force for his character throughout the series.

Fuegoleon & Nozel

Yes! I love this dynamic! Nozel being tsundere about his friendship feelings is just so entertaining, and I love to see the trope used in a platonic way instead of just an explicitly romantic one. The love between friends is really important too and can also be difficult to express sometimes, so it was really great to see Nozel kind of struggle with that and struggle with how much Fuegoleon means to him and how much he admires and respects him even if he lacks the words to say it. And yes, it was kind of played for laughs sometimes, (and my sister and I made so many "tsundere besties" jokes about them while binging the anime), but even so, there is something really genuine and really wholesome about their friendship. Getting to see how Nozel reacted to Fuegoleon's injury and subsequent coma and how motivated he was by his respect and admiration for him was just really compelling, and I found the scene in the elf arc in which Nozel is thinking of their rivalry and how much Fuegoleon inspires him to be really moving. Definitely a solid BROTP!

[3-frogs-in-a-trench-coat]

Day 18: Pining

Going with 1 prompt today. Special shout-out to my twin for giving me the idea. (You know who you are. 😉)

Phoenix begins to find strange envelopes in their mailbox.

Divider by: @silkholland

NOTE: The poems mentioned throughout this fic have been taken from real poems written by people. The credit to the poems told within this fic don't go to me or my f/o. Full credit goes to the original authors of these poems, and I don't wish to ever steal any of the credit for what they wrote.

....Weird...

Phoenix stood outside their house, leaning slightly to the right so their elbow lightly propped up against the top of their mailbox.

An unusual envelope held within both hands.

They didn't know when it had arrived, but it seemed pretty new. The envelope itself seemed to have been made by hand, with a square scrap of scrapbook paper. Decorated with a light, almost mint, green colored background with a violet pattern across it.

A single heart sticker sealed the envelope. Its position up on the envelope a bit cricked, as if it was left there by either a nervous or energetic hand.

Other than sealing the envelope, the sticker had another purpose. A single yellow dandelion, not fully bloomed yet and slightly wilted, sat between the sticker and the paper of the envelope.

Phoenix took care to peel the sticker, making sure not to break the dandelion's stem and, holding it on their hand for a few seconds, ended up deciding to tuck it between one of their ears. Patting it gently to make sure it stayed in place. They wanted to make sure it stayed safe, while they looked at the contents within the envelope. Even though they didn't know who had sent this.

Before opening the envelope, they looked around the outside of it one more time. No address anywhere.

No address, no name, nothing to help Phoenix find out who had sent this....

Phoenix's mouth twisted in confusion. A bit hesitant at first,before they finally unfolded the envelope.

A single slip of paper fell, fluttering down towards the ground.

They gasped. Grabbing it in one hand before it touched the ground. Cringing a bit as they felt the paper scrunch up a bit within their tightened grasp.

Straightening their posture, they gently tried to un-crinkle the paper, before reading.

It seemed to be a letter. A mix of sweet nothings with an excerpt of a poem at the end. This is the part that particularly stole Phoenix's attention.

It said:

"Our hearts are so gentle, so pure. I'll keep loving you, I know for sure." - Mohit

And that was it. Besides the words that filled the paper above the bit of poem, there was nothing else added. No names or initials at all.

Phoenix felt.... Emotionally numb. They weren't sure why, but the way everything was written was so... Familiar, but new. They could have sworn they saw that hand writing somewhere before, but the words said within it came with a type of.... Elegance and such a deep love that didn't seem to be fully recognizable to them.

They took a deep breath, and sighed. Gently folding the letter, they walked back into the house. Standing in the doorway temporarily to look around outside for any signs of this mystery person, before closing the door behind them.

The next few days were similar as the first. Soon, Phoenix would end up checking the mailbox every day due to the pure anticipation and curiosity of it all.

Each day they'd open their mailbox. Each one enclosed within a handmade envelope made from a square sheet of scrapbook paper, each one with different flower patterns. Sometimes there'd be a heart sticker sealing the envelope, other times it would be a random postage stamp that depicted different animals or plants.

A leaf or a single flower would sometimes be stuck up on the sticker, while on other times small paper confetti in the shape of flowers or hearts. The confetti falling down towards Phoenix's feet like snow.

Phoenix would end up picking up each piece, and placing the confetti into a single sealed bag. Feeling like it would be disrespectful to let this person's dedication to their craft go to waste.

As for the letters themselves, they'd continue to stay nameless. The only names being the ones that ended the last poem at each letter, giving credit to the original author from which the excerpt of the poem had come from.

Each poem itself slowly becoming more and more romantic.

For the rest of the letters, the parts that were written before the poems, Phoenix could never seem to be able to place a finger on where they'd recognized that hand writing from.... But this person's words.... Each loving sentence becoming more intimate as time went on.... They'd begin to fill Phoenix's heart with a feeling they didn't feel before. So much romance on a day to day basis.... It was overwhelming. The passion this person gave in their letters....

Phoenix would end each day telling their partners about these letters. They didn't notice it, but Aza and Thimble would give each other this knowing look whenever Phoenix wasn't paying attention...

And then.... It all stopped. No more letters. Nothing to ever signify that the letters had even arrived at all, in the first place.

Phoenix wouldn't notice it at first, but their heart would slowly fall.

Did something happen to this person? Were they hurt? Sick? Did Phoenix upset them somehow? Was this all some kind of mistake??? Was Phoenix mis-reading what the person had been writing to them?

Phoenix would find themselves on some days re-reading the past letters that had been given to them, on their free time. Silent. Brooding, in a way that gave off their obvious curiosity towards this situation.

This whole situation was just..... Unusual.

"Come here."

The voice was a bit softer than usual. A bit shaky too. Strange...

Phoenix looked up, snapped out of their thoughts. Thimble stood before them, dressed up in one of her nicer looking outfits.

Something seemed to be on her mind, but Phoenix couldn't figure out what.

"To where?" Phoenix asked, brows furrowed in confusion.

The house was a bit more silent than usual. Aza was at a leg modeling job. This new company was a bit smaller than the others he sometimes worked with, and wasn't as old as the others to. They seemed to really like his work though, and had asked Aza to stay a bit longer, to discuss a possible modeling job with them in the near future.

Due to this, and Thimble's strange silence, Phoenix couldn't help but feel a bit more anxious than usual.

All Thimble did was reach out a hand, letting Phoenix place their hand in his, and gently pulling up their partner to a standing position, before leading them outside, to the back of the house.

It was near night time. The air a bit chilly, but not uncomfortably so. The sky lit just enough for you to still see clearly.

A small section of the yard held a fold out table and 2 chairs. The table decorated with a tablecloth the color of moss, and the chairs topped with cushions of the same color.

A small cluster of various sized candles sat on the center of the table. Phoenix was pleasantly surprised that they gave off the scent of sandalwood as the couple walked closer to the table.

They stopped just a few inches from one of the chairs, before Thimble let go of Phoenix's hand, and took a few steps backwards, not breaking eye contact.

It took a slip of paper out of its pocket.

He spoke. Not looking at the paper, but instead seeming to speak from his heart.

His words were full of love and care. Voice a bit shaky, but slowly becoming more confident as his voice became that of someone who'd often recite poetry. (Which he actually would often do, to both Phoenix and Aza.)

Something about these words seemed familiar. Phoenix could swear they heard at least some of these sentences before... That they came across this same feeling they were currently feeling, before...

And that was when Thimble held up the slip of paper he recently took out of his pocket. Flipping it around to show Phoenix the words on it.

Only 15 words were written on it.

"Our hearts are so gentle, so pure. I'll keep loving you, I know for sure." Thimble recited, as Phoenix read the words.

These..... Were the same words written in the first letter they got from their mystery person. But that would mean....

"That person.... That was you?" Thimble gave a slight smile at this question.

Phoenix continued. "The envelopes. The hand writing. Ohhhhh it makes so much sense now!" Phoenix cried out, not knowing how they didn't notice this at the start.

"The paper from your scrapbooking supplies. The... The hand writing..." They had to stop to take a breath. Exasperated at their lack of words, despite having so much to say.

Thimble took a step towards them.

"I thought it could be something to surprise you with... I know you like poetry. And that you haven't had things like this happen to you before. I guess... I thought that maybe it would help you realize more that you're worth feeling loved more than you might tell yourself. It was... Both mine and Aza's idea, but they thought it might be good for the both of us if I were to do most of the work."

Phoenix began to tear up. Thimble did too, up on seeing this.

Phoenix fell into Thimble's arms. Who of which, admittedly stumbled back a few steps, due to how short they were compared to their partner. But he was able to balance the both of them, and held Phoenix close.

"I don't know what to say..." Thimble turned their head towards Phoenix a bit, their partner's voice a bit hard to hear due to Phoenix speaking barely above a whisper.

"Thimb, I..... I really needed this.... Thank you."

Thimble's grasp on their partner tightened as they could feel them begin to cry within their arms.

Thimble's shoulder getting a bit damp from the tears.

Phoenix looked up soon after though, and sniffed.

"Thank you." They repeated, voice just about hoarse.

Thimble took a while to make sure Phoenix was taken care of, before leading them towards one of the chairs. Having them sit down before sitting down in a chair himself. The next hour or so was spent with Thimble serving Phoenix their favorite dishes. At one point they were able to cheer Phoenix up by doing a few different accents. Something they knew seemed to entertain their partner.

At the end of the night, Thimble led Phoenix inside, and to bed. And it all ended when she joined them, both partners holding each other close as they both drifted off to sleep.

Aza would join them soon after. Finally back home and having had some dinner, he made sure to slowly crawl into bed, careful not to wake his partners, and joined in the cuddle. The energy both Phoenix and Thimble gave off was one full of a new found closeness and intimacy at a bigger extent. It was almost irresistible not to join in.

Plus seeing Phoenix's face lightly streaked with dried tears, made him want to join in even more.

Aza could tell tonight was a good night for both of their partners. And their love for both of them only grew after sensing how good of a time they had. They needed this.

Soon all 3 partners laid in bed, lost in a deep sleep, arms wrapped around each other in an embrace that would, if they had the option to, never break apart.

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[meimi-haneoka]

Hiya~ Dimensional-bitch is my side blog, and I guess I cannot send mail from it!

Anyhow, I saw your reblog and wanted to send you a note personally because...damn. I get it. I've been seeing the same...stuff around. And my extraocular muscles have been getting an EXCELLENT work-out from all the eye rolling.

So many temper tantrums. Half of them whining that CLAMP worked on something other than their preferred manga for a few years, half of them mad about...whatever exacting expectation they had for Clear Card that wasn't met.

And honestly? THESE ARE THE SAME TANTRUMS MY 3 YEAR OLD HAS.

If I dare to do something other than take her to the park we went to yesterday? Instant fit! Worst Mommy EVER!

If she gets the milk she wants in a blue cup instead of pink? DAY RUINED. She can't enjoy milk again, EVER.

I am old enough now to realize that every time a CLAMP manga ends we are going to get this same round of preschooler "BUT IT ISN'T WHAT I WANTED!" foot-stomping. And it's...fine. Whatever. But even though I expect it now I am still. so. tired. And salty. I could salt the seven seas.

So THANK YOU for taking the time to look at and put together something that really gets into what Clear Card IS and DOES. (I am looking through your blog now and I am sad I didn't find it sooner - you've got lots of great stuff here! Especially about Kaito - I do NOT understand the fandom hate??? He's obviously a tortured but ultimately good soul????) There are so many good (and fun! - I've been reading this with my 8-year-old son and he is totally into the magic of it all, even if some of the symbolism flies over his head for now) things about it that get buried under the tantrums. And I am so happy to see them discussed like this!

Best wishes! <3

WAAAAAIT WAIT I HAVE TO REPLY TO THIS ONE BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE BECAUSE I feel like I'm about to cry...

You know the feeling when.....you feel *seen*? You feel understood? This is what I felt when I received your ask, Dandelion! (Is it ok if I use this name?) Omg yes. a thousand times yes....you summarized pretty well what I've seen and what I think about this whole situation too. (BTW I'm a mom too and I know what you mean! 😂)

I am old enough now to realize that every time a CLAMP manga ends we are going to get this same round of preschooler "BUT IT ISN'T WHAT I WANTED!" foot-stomping.

Ever since I got on the internet, I was able only to witness the endings in "real time" of Tsubasa, Holic and Kobato, and while I don't remember much for Kobato (probably because it's so underrated and no one was reading it), I DO remember especially the uncomfortable "atmosphere" in the fandom that accompanied the last chapters of Tsubasa's serialization. I remember all the negativity, and all the exact same complaints of today with Clear Card, "it's too complex!" "this has dragged too long please END IT". It was so overwhelming that I got dragged into it too. I COMPLETELY understand what you mean. I didn't expect I'd see it again with Clear Card, but hey people can always surprise you for the worst, isn't it? So I had decided, towards the end of Clear Card, that I wouldn't let ANYONE make me go through what I went through when Tsubasa ended, and I've set limits and lines to not be crossed with everyone, even close friends. I wanted to enjoy this story in peace to be able to write about what I TRULY feel.

I am SO GLAD that you're checking the rest of my blog and that you find my posts interesting. Most of the time, especially when I talk about Kaito and Akiho in the desperate attempt to make people understand those characters a bit better, it's a bit like shouting in the wind.....but I won't stop doing it. I love those characters, and I thank CLAMP everyday for creating them, they brought so much depth and enriched CCS in a special way.

Thank you so much for this ask!! 🙏❤️

[stardust-in-my-mind-blog]

blurring

it feels like I spent most of my life

staring through the welling of my own tears

it always made things difficult to see fully

and I learned how to see that way

clearly but with that subtle movement

that ability and capacity to suspend my belief

and also deny my own reality

a barrier of water between me and the pain

of having a sensitive heart and a curious mind

in an environment where people didn't

want to question or change things

just live their version of peace

and deny anything outside their strict limitations

negative emotions were absolutely prohibited

and all I felt were negative emotions about

they way I was forced to understand the world

and I somehow knew it wasn't the same everywhere

and so I escaped into stories of others

and wrote a few of my own to live in

until it was time for me to make a move

and get the fuck out of a situation

that always seemed to be slowly closing in on me

why did I keep finding myself in these situations?

what was I doing wrong?

why couldn't I just fucking belong somewhere?

but I never got a chance to learn how to belong to myself

just fit myself as a character into other people's stories

and other people had such boring ass stories

but still hope I'd get hired more than a seasonal role

hasn't quite happened yet but I'll keep trying

plus I have a few new tricks up my sleeve

I didn't have last season and I think things are going

to get really dicey but in the best kinds of ways

more calculated risk taking and savvy negociations

rather then showing up like a dandelion

to fulfill some crack in the concrete's aspirations

apparently I need a "sense of self"

which is really interesting

because I've always saw myself clearly

and reflected and ruminated on my own behaviors

pretty obsessively and routinely

but I believed the "self" others projected on me

because I crumbled under the pressure of unaccountability

in others because that's the only thing I learned

how to do since I manifested as a soul into a body

it's really interesting to see how people treat you

when they don't want something from you

how people treat you

when suddenly they do

it feels like I've never known a time

where someone wasn't asking me

to do something I didn't want to do

then painfully justifiying anything they did

to make me submit to the task

it's all I fucking knew from people who loved me

but I think it's time I learn something new

and I've pruned myself down to myself

so there's really no more pruning that I can do

and cutting myself down to size isn't an option

they say to change a behavior

you have the best success rate

if you essentially make it your identity

and I've made so many different identities

that I've spent most of my spring and summer

integrating all the aspects I separated myself into

some of them weren't all that pretty

but making friends with all the past versions of yourself

is pretty much a requirement in your thirties

or else you become some kind of ghost of yourself

and I don't mean that implication lightly

I'm not who I was and I only have a vague idea

of who I am going to be and this time

I'm the one responsible for all of it

and while I'm always happy to blame myself for something

the pressure is real and slightly suffocating

but I think for me as I'm writing this

which is the time when I am most honest

is when I'm writing anything

I think it really all is going to be in a name

I'm still living under this ghost name

doing my ghost tasks of a ghost wife

with my very real children

and my very real role as a mother

in the tomb house of my marriage

expecting something to randomly change

and inspire me into an action I'm desperate to take

I just don't know... what action to take

and when I try to think about it

my heart and chest suddenly become rocks

which is difficult for my lungs to breathe around

and my mind becomes pinball machine

with voices that say 'it hurts, make it go away!'

in a rather panicked chorus

and suddenly there's fire somewhere

and maybe I could order pizza

and... I guess now is a good time

to take a chisel to that stone in my chest

because this isn't going anywhere

and neither am I

but first I'll dance

because this is hella uncomfortable

and this energy needs to go somewhere else

fuck the intensity is overwhelming

sometimes healing is the woooooorst

(but I will feel better after I deal with it)