#damaged was compounded by it

[venacoeurva]

Apologies if this in intrusive, but did you give Wren a bad leg because you also have one? Just curious, because I’m also disabled and pretty much smack my disability on like 60% of my characters

I do! Just not amputated or quite as bad as his (him amputating his is kind of a version of me fantasizing about chopping my own dumbass leg off), I just have to use a cane if I'm walking or upright for too long, like going to the store. Around the house is doable without, maybe with a brace if it's a bad day. My right leg has been weakened after injuries and it keeps getting worse (maybe covid damage mixed with the injuries, general age, and poor genetics?), not specifically and solely due to disease like his is (leg has degraded severely in his case from corprus).

I would probably be a lot happier if I could get it amputated and could summon a leg to replace it too though tbh, he's livin the dream

[hellspawnmotel]

I finished wild arms yesterday! what a great game

[st-peculiar]

Today seems like a good day to mention that Jacobi is hard of hearing/partially deaf to me

[solarsunshine]

something that has been really getting to me as i’ve fallen back into destiel and all it’s insanity, is how little people understand the pressure of being queer in red states. like, in no other fandom have i seen the amount of normal world/no power au’s that i’ve seen in spn/destiel verse, so you would think that there would be at least a little understanding/research onto how queer people live and stay safe in conservative cities or in the case of the small town au’s, places with less than 15,000 people? instead i see an abundance of fics where dean is closeted and that makes him the central focus of conflict/the “problem” in the relationship, or the fact that he’s closeted means he has to be suffering from internalized homophobia. as someone who has lived in red states while being very queer, for a lot of other folks being in the closet means safety, not repression. sometimes the closet door’s purpose is to keep people out, rather than keeping us in. there is a very prevalent idea in the minds of a lot of LGBTQIA+ people that small town/midwest/southern queer folks are all repressed, or that freedom means leaving our homes to be out and proud, and i’m not saying that that isn’t true for some people. but for others, we feel that our liberation comes from loving and being loved in the places we’re rooted in. when living in a largely christian and/or conservative town, county, or even state, having the ability to feel love and be loved is freedom and protest all in of itself. whether the couple holds hands on main street or only in their shared apartments (*whispers* and they were roommates) doesn’t negate the fact that they are living queerly and are alive and finding joy in a place that would rather see us dead. to wrap this up (and bring it back onto destiel lol), i do think that dean would be a character that does repress his sexuality, but i don’t think that it’s solely because he’s from freaking kansas. i would rather see how his relationships with family, he’s own self-worth issues, and past relationships affect him, instead of a lot of the stereotyping the fandom does of both him and queer culture in conservative environments. (and please can we stop with the urban, worldly castiel coming in to bring enlightenment and social reform to poor, hick dean? it’s giving classism and i hate that this dynamic is so popular😭)

[avephelis]

announcement team i will be taking my regular "week off of social media" break again i need a detox. keep it freaky in my absence.

[sammygender]

its so crazy that what we actually see of the winchesters childhood in the show is INCREDIBLY bleak. just awful. but listening to dean and sam talk about it like even in the later seasons you'd just think they didn't really get on with their parents. as late as season TEN dean is still going 'haha yeah dad raised us right'. like oh my god. dean. you are SO damaged. every single problem you have including all the ones you take out on other people that ruin your life and your relationships can be traced back to ur father using you as perfect son and obedient soldier and surrogate wife and telling you family is everything and sam is selfish and bad for wanting things and still also flying into drunken rages whatever that means and terrifying you. (the way literally one of those things would be insanely damaging and its this mishmash of all which makes everythng like 10000x worse... child abuse squared.... insane). and dude is acting like his dad was like. A bit mean sometimes but essentially a nice guy :) and the show rarely directly comments on this (past like s3 when you get him screaming I DIDNT DESERVE THE SHIT HE PUT ON ME) or on the fact that sam and dean are not whatsoever to be trusted when they talk about their childhoods and it was usally 100x worse than whatever they say. which means i truly think people dont really GET it no matter how much they 'hate john winchester'. but fucking christ it was awful

[angelstrawbabie420]

crazy how a twelve years later i still get intense pain in the leg i broke

[faggling]

what if lamictal is causing all of my brain fog and if I stop taking it, it'll get better? <- had brain fog beforehand that was so much worse

[ghostzzy]

honestly i lump my neurodivergence and my EDS into the same category in my mind wrt my personal life narrative about my disability. they're holding hands. they're often indistinguishable.

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

tbh i think one of the biggest things they could have done to make five and nine hate each other without bullying or bigotry involved would have been to lean into the thing where some adhdtistics naturally vibe, whereas others have an incompatible combination of nd traits that make them viscerally unable stand each other, and go from there

[jasmancer]

god this fucking sucks.

[drbtinglecannon]

WILLOW'S DAD IS JUST. LYING THERE. DROPPED ONTO THE FLOOR LIKE NOTHING. THAT'S HER DAD AND HE WAS DROPPED ON ODALIA LIKE A PIECE OF TRASH 😭

[bluesky-on-fire]

i am going to fucking KILL fanfic writers what the hell is this. who gave you the right to do this to me. it is MY heart and i did NOT give you permission to tear it from my chest and stomp on it until it becomes a bloody pulp and then offer to put it back in like that will fix anything only to let it slip through your fingers and when you do finally put it back it has been through a fucking BLENDER���

anyway. can yall tell ive been reading “aziraphale dies” fics

[collateraldamage-inc]

HOW MUCH WERE YOU PAID TO MAKE YOUR CHILD SHIT LASERS MRS ROBINSON?

Remember when, I don't fucking know, a couple years ago now it was revealed that all Vought's supes were GASP injected with a drug called COMPOUND V and not actually BORN with their powers? God didn't bless his chosen few with gifts?

Pepperidge Farms remembers.

Parents all over the country took payouts to make their babies into fucking GUINEA PIGS for SCIENCE, SCIENCE done by a company founded by a literal fucking NAHTZEE. Isn't it fucking wild? Isn't it fucking disgusting? All these people said "yes" to turning their children into little fucking sideshows and playing Russian Roulette with their fucking lives.

Hey, some parents scored bigtime. Some parents got the Homelanders and A-Trains of the day, the Starlights to be trotted out before adoring audiences to do tricks and smile and demonstrate what the fuck they can do. All the while hiding the fact that they let an experimental drug be used on their precious babies. Anything for money, right? Anything for fame and fortune.

I wonder what the PAPERWORK looked like? I wonder what the NDAs and the other shit looked like, all the warnings and the "well this really fucked-up shit only happens 0.01% of the time, Mr. Jenkins."

I wonder how much utter shit we don't know about around that program because Vought covered it up?

How many died because their little bodies couldn't take it? How many killed people because they couldn't control their powers, or because they didn't get their way? What kind of body count did little Lamplighter have that nobody knows about because Vought covered it up?

That's Vought's response to everything: cover it up, make it disappear.

Dosing your kid with Compound V is spinning a wheel of fuckery. The powers were random, not everybody gets something useful or wanted, some get shit that makes their lives harder or that can't be properly exploited for cash—then what? You just had your kid experimented on for nothing, your greed rewarded with absolute fuck all or a fucking prehensile penis.

If they're lucky, maybe they'll just get a power that'll doom them to starring in the hokiest shit to ever grace television and they'll spend their lives on the convention circuit chasing a taste of that fame they used to have.

Or they'll get swept under the rug by Vought and nobody will ever know they existed.

On that note, fans and trolls, never forget: Vought is not a friend. Every hero is manufactured, it's all smoke and mirrors, and the real product is you.

[anxsity]

reaching for my phone like oh no! i almost went to bed without listening to the new fob song. surely this is what i need right now. (<- naive bastard)

[ayakashibackstreet]

Local failcringe IT reject boy once again mourning the fact he can't solder