#daily dose of misha

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Daily-Sh Dose Of Misha

FEELING SUPERNATURAL? GIVE TODAY TO DEFEND THE AMAZON!

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Let it begin...

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Idol Challenge Day 24: Favorite gifs

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Misha will always be beautiful and the love of my life but you, op, are the real MVP. Thank you for daily dose of Misha. You make my day, better, everyday... 💕💕

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prettiest man ever fr

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4x20//14x08

video version

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Tumblr + : Would you pay for Destiel/Cockles content?

Me:

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My reactions from episode 13x09 of SPN

!!!!SPOILERS!!!!

The fuck'n recap was 2 minutes the hell? We remember.

Oooo artist. I likey. He cute.

"Speak of the devil." Um, half-devil.

JACK, what the hell, man!!?? You deep-fried his brain!!??

*cue sarcasm* Oh, great, one mention of Cas, that's exactly what I want. *end sarcasm*

That first shot of Kaia picking at the styrofoam cup is beautiful.

Speaking of 'beautiful', meet Kaia Nieves.

Jack's gotta keep

One jump ahead of the breadline,

One swing ahead of the sword,

I steal only what I can't afford,

That's Everything! (I'm not sorry)

MAMA!!

Fuckin' Dean's face.

You bitch-ass angels killed hot-artist-boy?! OH hell nah.

"You. Castiel. You're my family." My heart!

Dean stopped that car so fast! WHAT'S WRONG CHILD!?

"Come with us, come home." I am home, bitch.. "I am home." YAH!

"Get in the car." Dean, what th- "Get in the car.." Dude..are you seriou- "GET IN THE DAMN CAR!" WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?......that was kinda hot...but a little out of character......

That aerial shot of them running across the bridge and going into the boat is amazing!

Jodi! Jodi, Jodi.

Bo-ber-di, bo-na-na fanna.

Fo-fer-di. Fee fi mo-mer-di, Jodi! (I'm still not sorry)

Ok, I hate multi-replays. She did not need to scream three times. It would have been fine if it was an elongated scream, but don't give me that shitty-choppy-crap. It ruined the immersion.

*sees angel blade melted on the ground* ooohhh-ho-ho-ho-*sees angel wings on the wall*-ho-ho-ho-hoooly-shit!

You're killing me with these aerial shots! Damn.

Jack: MOM!

Mother Mary: MY OTHER BOY THAT I DON'T KNOW YET!

Uh-oh, brothers' in the bad place.

WHAT?! IT'S A DINOSAURAA!!

*stay tuned for the next scenes of supernatural* Every time I see Cas in that little scene I get heart palpitations.

Next Episode.

Returns January 18th?

Great.

Sam and Dean get chased by a dinosaur and get tied up?

Great..

No Cas?

Ggrreeaatt.

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You had posted a response to a question earlier and proved lots of pictures with Misha and Jensen but the one I loved was the Lock Screen, what picture was that? I don’t think I’ve seen that one before and also any other pictures you have of them lol

Hey there! I think I have to thank @paradoxical-head for so many pictures. You know they are the reason I have any or so many pictures of Jensen and Misha and adjacently J*red and Misha and J2M. Let me send you the deets- 

Also I just googled, my lock screen is on google :O Imagine that! 

Here is your daily dose of serotonin 

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Opening tumblr dot come for my daily dose of supernatural psychological warfare and seeing that Misha himself is making jokes about shipping wincest

Like, go girl, give us insanity!!

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Daily-sh dose of Misha

Stockholm Comic Con 2024.

fimmf edition.

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Dose of Misha

Sunshine ☼

[↓ Link to the video at the source of this post]

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hairhairhairHAIR!!!!!!!! also VERY smoochable!!

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Enough Bullshit.

(This is a personal post full of mental health issues and triggers.)

Went to the doctor this afternoon, and while we were waiting, Bill and I had a chat about posters that were on the wall. There was a check list for depression and another with info about bi-polar disorder next to the more common doctor’s office things like prostate health and diabetes. 

He’s a bit older than I am, but we both grew up in a time where mentioning depression or anxiety was not done. You didn’t even tell your doctor about it, because it came with negative reactions like “Well, just cheer up” or “Eh, you’re just sad. Be happy.” 

I live with this fear constantly, still. Not two years ago, I went to my doctor (and saw his elderly partner) and I told them that I was having suicidal thoughts and he told me, I kid you not, “Well, go do something you like. Go shopping.” I got up and walked out of the office and didn’t get the help I needed that day. 

It wasn’t until I had a nervous breakdown months later (while working at an SPNCon) that I realized I couldn’t handle it myself anymore. I saw a different doctor and he diagnosed a panic disorder and I’ve been on meds ever since. Nothing is perfect, but they help. I still struggle with this daily, and while it’s not bad most days, it’s always there, on top of my other medical issues. Some nights I can’t shop shaking, some nights I see my death on a loop. Some nights I have no troubles at all. I struggle with a severe panic disorder and suicidal ideation, and occasionally I turn to cutting to ease the other stuff. It’s just how my brain works.

If I talk about it, I still get people telling me, “Oh, everyone’s stressed right now.” “Just relax.” “Don’t be sad, you’re awesome.” OK, but... I can’t stop this. For me, this isn’t anxiety, it’s physical panic symptoms. I cannot think my tremors away. I cannot use breathing techniques to stop the my legs from moving body from twitching so painfully for hours that I’m left exhausted at the end. But, if I tell them that, I still get the “yeah, right. Just be happy.” Even from the nurse today. “Oh, stress will do that! haha! Ya know, wearing masks can be stressful!” OK, but... no. 

I’ve been having a severe panic attack since Sunday night. It’s been building to this for a while. I’ve been clenching my jaw unconsciously so hard for about a month now, and I knocked a tooth loose. I’m doing it now as I type this, but I can’t stop until I realize I’m doing it. Sunday, I started having strange dizzy spells and my eye has been twitching like crazy every ten minutes or so. I lost vision for a bit the other day, just couldn’t focus my eyes. Yet, I didn’t say anything. 

My husband and friends told me to go to the doctor on Tuesday, and I refused because, in my experience, they don’t do anything. 

I woke up last night scratching a hole into my head. I was bleeding and terrified and I couldn’t stop. I sat on the phone with one of my best friends for over an hour, incoherently crying at her, unable to calm down, unable to move, unable to breathe. I saw a shadowy figure slicing my wrists and suffocating me, and I was crying for Misha. Don’t ask, he usually calms me down, but I couldn’t make my imaginary Misha appear. I was shaking so bad that I was in pain from head to toe. Every muscle in my body was at the fullest tightness that it could be. Every. Single. Muscle. I almost called an ambulance. SHOULD have called an ambulance, but I refused to be a burden to anyone. It was 2am, everyone was asleep. So I shook and gasped and cried until I passed out at 3. Woke up shaking at 3.30. then 4. then 5. I slept from 5.30 - 7, and thought, “OK, it’ll be over. I slept.” No. It was not. I wasn’t able to move from the position I woke up in for 2 hours. Not just get out of bed, MOVE at all. I spoke to another friend online and they suggested hospital and again, I said no. I didn’t want to bother anyone, I didn’t want anyone to worry, I didn’t want to go to get help and then have nothing happen. 

Anyway, I went to the doctor, and he took one look at me shaking on the table and helped. He didn’t tell me “oh, just cheer up.” He told me that if my heartbeat was any higher, he would have put me in the hospital. He took it seriously. He gave me a higher dose of meds to “calm my brain down before we do anything else.” which will stop the dizziness and eye twitch, and then we can readjust my meds. 

Simple. 

Yet, I spent all week in pain and hiding the fact that I was barely holding on for fear of what someone would say. For fear of being a burden. For fear of being ignored or my symptoms pushed aside. 

WHAT BULLSHIT. 

I came home, took a pill, passed out, and I already feel better. I’m still shaking and twitching, but I know it’s going to be OK, because someone listened. I spent a week alone and in pain because we still don’t talk about mental illness in an open way. 

We still look at someone who’s depressed and say “Hey, go for a walk, you’ll feel better.” or... “Well, maybe if you lost 40lbs, you’d be happier.” 

NO NO NO NO. 

Stop making people feel bad for feeling bad. 

Some of us have brains that do not fire in the same way that everyone else’s do. That’s nothing to be ashamed of or hiding. 

I SHOULD NOT BE AFRAID TO SEEK MEDICAL ATTENTION WHEN NEEDED JUST BECAUSE OF ANCIENT STIGMA. NO ONE’S GOING TO SHOVE ME IN A STRAIGHT JACKET. 

But that is a legitimate fear of mine. 

It’s WRONG.

It’s DEADLY. 

But I can’t stop it. I’ve been told my entire life that I’m fat and if I lost weight I would feel better, if I practiced some self-care I would be happy. If that works for you, I’m glad. But that doesn’t work for everyone. 

I guess my long ranting point I’m trying to make is: 

TALK ABOUT IT. NORMALIZE SEEKING MEDICAL HELP FOR MENTAL ILLNESS. DON’T REVERT TO PLACATION IF SOMEONE IS IN PAIN. 

SEEK HELP.

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So, I'm TRYING to enjoy my daily dose of beautiful Jared here (especially since you threw in one of my all time fave gifs)

BUT MISHA FUCKING COLLINS IS HERE TO DISTRACT. what is that!? what is that from!? whyyyy does he look so fucking good right there??!?!? those arms?! I want them to punish me.

also. fuck yes Daddy Negan. Hot damn.

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Idol Challenge Day 26: Hats

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knock knock misha wakey wakey it’s time for our daily dose of insanity