#Misha wears a lot of hats

[number-one-fan-of-heavy]

what do you with your team for the holidays?

SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!! WE HAVE ALREADY BROUGHT HOME A TREE AND HAVE DECORATED IT!!!!!!! But Misha und I go out to buy a special ornament every year und Pyro and the others do crafts so we are always adding to it up until Smissmas. AFTER THANKSGIVING, WE BEGIN TO WEAR CHRISTMAS HATS (I do it earlier) AND FESTIVIZE OUR GEAR!!!!!!!!!!! WE GO TO DEUTCHLAND TO FIGHT KRAMPUS SOMETIMES, TOO.

Jeremy, Misha, Dell, und I all spend lots of time together! Pyro, too. We love to go to the malls und think about what we will all get each other for Smissmas !! Jeremy likes to wear Christmas hats like I do. It is tbe one time out of the year where he is not so annoying. Actually, everyone is a little more bearable ! I AM SO EXCITED, AHA!

[creationfathers]

Wow. I just discovered another psycho “fan” on Instagram. Instead of that “twin flame” shit it seems she is into mainstream religion (Christianity) and instead of harassing Misha she spends all her time posting long rants on Danneel’s Instagram. It’s super disturbing. Her name is @ clarawhippo6 She seems VERY angry. She makes no sense, says fuck a lot, claims that Danneel and Jensen are making scam accounts to ‘turn on fans’ and then stealing their money?? She seems angry that Danneel doesn’t post much on her Instagram but also angry that she does post stuff sometimes, claiming that Danneel is ‘a sick rich bitch’ and that she only wanted to go kayaking with Jensen and read his palm?? (Or something?? Like I said she just rants and makes no sense. She wears an NRA hat in some pics and sounds legit angry insane (like walking alone at night in the dark filming herself yelling into her phone) so she’s kind of scarier than Amber. Look at her page and tell me if you can make any sense of it. Seems like she works at a McDonalds drive thru or something? I totally understand why Danneel doesn’t use sm very much after finding this nut job. Big yikes.

Shit people need to lay off the hard stuff

[greenappleeyes]

Idol Challenge Day 26: Hats

[shows-i-like]

I saw people say if they were to make edits to RTC this is what they would do so i'm gonna do it.

Non song changes

. Ricky will only be played by a disabled actor and treated correctly

. Ricky will also use a wheel chair

. Bring back the cut lines

. lots of props (I love costume changes and props)

Uranium suite

. Can it show Ocean's pov on the ride in the back

. During the first part of uranium suite it shows photos of uranium

. Most of the formations will somewhat reflect where their bodies were after the coster crashed

. use the turn table on the "round and round" part

. The singing will be normal but dance wise (once they're dead) some will be off count

What the world needs

. I saw someone else say this but they reflect what Ocean is saying

. it looks like high school musical

Like Noel and Mischa have those like varsity jackets, Jane and Constance have pompoms, and Ricky has a mascot head

. they can also have mega phones and flags that say "go Ocean" on it (this happens during the verses when she's talking about Mischa,Constance,and Ricky

. but we can keep the faces of Ocean for the chorus

. As Ocean starts to talk more about them they start to show discomfort (but Constance and Jane)

Noel's lament

. Ocean Jane and Constance costume change (think NXDE by (g)-idle)

. Misha wears a trenchcoat with the collar up maybe a fake sticker on a lipstick mark on his neck

. Please lots a lot of props (like the McCarter version)

. Can we get a knife prop when pulling it out and putting it back there can be a thing attached to Noel's leg to hold the knife (this that one Yzma meme)

. the loud-ish BAM BAM during the instrumental part the others can stomp during that part (it looks nice in my head)

. Can we keep the child line (just tone it down)

. When the slower part of the song hits the rest are dancing but like in slow motion to the back part of the stage (by slower part I mean the rolling on the floor part)

. during the second half of the slower part (aka where Noel starts to sing again) they cast can be lined up in the back and the lights can be bright enough that it shows their silhouettes and they're in the poses they've been doing throughout the number it changes after every time they sing

. For the "my child" line Ricky can very quickly put on a robe and priest hat for the scene then go back to normal

. use some ideas from the cell block tango chorography

. fog...

This song is awesome

. I don't really have many changes for this song

. I think it's good how the original is

Talia

. I'm a sucker for the code name theory so yeah 🤪

. In the back the projections of Talia slightly switches her and Noel but as the song progresses the more it starts to switch

. Please blackrose and spacedolls dances in the back

. As the switching happens maybe Ocean can be the only one to really show that she notices it (I feel like she's the only one who seems like the person to notice)

. During the hip hop section each of them start to leave the stage at different sections leading to the next note

. rainbow lights at the hip hop part

. You know the thing that Mischa and Talia do at the end yeah. Replace it with Nole but like the rest of the stage is blacked out so your focus is on them. It kinda shows the progress of the song

. At the end so it makes sense the background projections of "Talia" would just by the basic field one it's Mischa's and Noel's part at the end

Space age bachelor man

. Ricky can use ASL

. He can do spinning things in his wheelchair

. Can it show projections of what Zolar looks like

. can Mischa "play" the guitar during the instrumental part then the rest of the choreography with Noel is the same

. The rest is fine

. Towards the end when they're doing the "zero gravity" part they're all in a line and Ricky does a duet with each of them

. can we keep the cat fight scene (seen in the 2015 production)

The ballad of Jane Doe

. I like the first part that can stay

. But right before the music changes all of them are in the rollercoaster formation then during the "WHY LORD" part then she starts to fly out of the formation

. I saw someone make a concept for this but can the girls have hats with like a piece of transparent fabric covering their eyes

. fog...

. I saw the Ohio production do this but please lights on the "WHY LORD" parts

. I saw the McCarter production do this but add the scream at the "ahh ahh" part if you know what I mean

. at the "and she's asking WHY LORD" do what the McCarter production did and have them sound like they're somewhat screaming

. at the end Jane can fade into the background and the dings at the end can have each of the choir members come forward so when they say "Jane Doe" it's just the choir without Jane

Sugar cloud

. Nothing needs to change about sugar cloud, sugar cloud is perfect

It's just a ride

. I like it as a whole

. But I want to add towards the end before they get back into the rollercoaster formation they see what their lives would be like if they didn't die on screen (I need angst)

. After the curtains close it shows Ocean's pov on the cyclone again (I also like the time loop theory BTW)

Uh yeah 🤪

[bloodheartz]

Misc. Medic TF2 Headcanon Post

Because I have so many opinions on this silly silly man.

Just heads up I’m not going to be sharing any of my more serious headcanons in this post ^^

Narcissist who experiences mild psychotic delusions and before you say anything I have NPD and experience delusions, this isn’t me stereotyping him because he’s a mad scientist it’s me projecting onto a middle aged man.

Now for an actual explanation I think we can all agree there’s more than enough evidence that Medic has a strong god complex. That doesn’t inherently make him a Narcissist but that as well as his personality and how he interacts with the other mercs is what swayed me.

His internal thought process, especially during battle greatly reflects this. His role in the fight is not to serve and tend to your needs, your role is to protect and serve his current goals. And yes he is very vocal about what he believes your priorities are and how bad of a job he thinks you’re doing. Gets himself in a twist whenever anyone disagrees with his vision on what the team should be tactically be doing.

As for the delusions it’s like 90% me projecting sorry bout that I don’t really have an explanations.

Also autistic king, look at that man and tell me he’s allistic. You can’t. First thing he did after bringing a man back to life was infodump to him about his great achievements. Autistic Narcissist Icon.

Okay now onto completely random headcanons that bounce around in my brain live a DVD player logo

Despite being a muscular 6ft tall man and fall and winter being his favorite time of the year, he cannot stand the cold at all. It gets a little chilly outside and he’s bundled up like he’s gone mountain climbing.

Also generally runs cold, and that (along with just wanting to dress professionally) is why he wears so many layers regularly

Casually I one hundred percent believe he’s a button ups and sweaters/sweater vests guy. He has a bunch of fun collar clips to go with his outfits though, like a wing design, maybe a few with human organ designs.

Also think he enjoys some leather clothing, specifically jackets, boots, and maybe certain types of hats (specifically Scally Caps and Searchers). I could go more into depth on this but that’s for another post ;)

Enjoys drinking, especially beer. That being said he cannot hold his drinks easily. He’ll be one pint in and as drunk as Demo. When the team goes out for drinks they have to deal with him being a giggly mess over half the time.

Spends a lot of his free time with Heavy. Usually quietly reading together in the common area sharing thoughts on their book of choice, playing chess, or even just having gentle conversation, even if sometimes the gentle conversation is in the middle of some ludicrous invasive procedure.

Also cooking and baking for the team together, though that’s less often.

He loves his doves so so so so much you guys. He lets them free roam around the infirmary, and sometimes takes some of them to the common areas on base. He could tell stories about them, rant about proper caring techniques, and just share general information on doves and pigeons for hours, wether asked or not.

Archimedes is his favorite though he’d never admit that out loud.

Oops now I have archimedes on the brain alright bonus archimedes headcanon tangent

He is a horrible horrible little bird (affectionate)

Very territorial and just a very “attitudy” bird. The kind of pet that acts like the world is ending the moment you stop showering them with attention and affection.

Very curious about whatever procedure Medic is doing. “Oh you’re looking inside this person? I better hop in there too!”

Ludwig is of course his favorite person, but I think he would like Misha a lot as well. Flying over the land on his head or shoulder whenever he comes into the infirmary.

He pecks though. The only way he greets people he likes is by a strong strike from his beak.

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

it's hilarious how no matter what people do and say, if they're conventionally masculine(like misha or Jensen) /feminine they'll be perceived as straight but only by straight people. Like if you're bi and have bi friends you look at people like misha and it's like looking into a mirror. And I have to laugh because straights always are surprised that I'm not straight because I am pretty basic, like no glitter, rainbow flags or shaved head lol. BUT OTHER NON STRAIGHTS ALWAYS KNOW RIGHT OFF THE BAT WE ARE THE SAME SPECIES.

not to mention if you’re man married to a woman/vice versa, that clinches it to biphobic people that Obviously They’re Straight. 

but for real, while i haven’t had the opportunity to be in a lot of irl queer spaces, some people you just Know, and misha is 100% one of those people. i honestly didn’t know that anyone in the fandom thought he was straight/”an ally”. how... how do you spend any amount of time perceiving misha collins and come to the conclusion that he’s straight??

jensen is a little tougher cause he does more performative masculinity than misha, but he also does stuff like this

and this

obviously that stuff alone doesn’t mean he’s queer, but it means the performative masculinity stuff is exactly that, a performance. like, that was the entire Joke in the misha’s mockumentary, that jensen presents himself as Tough Cool Bro who likes steaks and rock music, but actually he does tai chi and eat tofu and wears mud masks. 

another thing that cracks me up is that jen regularly does the bisexual finger guns, without prompting. i’ve seen it more than once, but really, look at this picture and tell me this isn’t a chaotic bisexual.

eta:

;LAKJSD;FLASKDJF I WAS THINKING THE SAME THING

like i’m not even bi but my immediate reaction is “that is a bisexual hat”

[bijoharvelle]

doing these prompts! today is “cutting snowflakes out of paper and taping them to windows” and it’s dedicated to @heller-jensen because i love marlo

“Be careful with those,” Dean finds himself saying over and over again. Each time, Jo just lifts her eyes to her uncle, smiles easily, and then gets back to her task of snipping out paper snowflakes. She’s going on eight -- Dean knows that she knows how to use scissors, how to be careful with them. (Last year, there was an incident where she gave her baby brother an impromptu haircut but she’s grown up since then). Still, he finds himself watching her like a hawk to ensure that she doesn’t hurt herself.

Cas is trying to coax little Dean into taking a nap in the living room, so it’s just Jo and Uncle Dean doing crafts right now. Maybe that’s why he’s feel so hyper-vigilant. If she gets hurt, it’ll only be Dean to blame. His fault.

So he watches her every move. Watches her fold the printer paper into quarters (“Like a hotdog,” she tells him, folding it in half vertically and then, “Now like a hamburger.”). Watches her consider the piece of paper seriously, turning it this way and that before snipping little shapes and curves into it.

“Can you help?” she asks, after a minute, holding the paper and scissors out to him.

“What’s up?”

“I want...” She struggles for a minute, and then points in the center of the folded paper. “I want a hole, just in the middle.” She pushes the paper toward him, but Dean just slides it back.

“Here, you hold it. I’ll show you how.” He shows her how to bend the paper and cut a slit in the middle and then trim a circle from that slit. 

Jo pays brutal attention, tongue caught between her teeth. Her eyes are bright and focused and her hair is a dark mop and Dean is struck with how much she reminds him of Sam at this age. She grins once she’s accomplished it, Holding her triumph up for Dean to see.

“Great job, JoJo,” he tells her and they unfold the snowflake together. His niece gives a happy little gasp at the shape that’s revealed. It looks more like a crooked slice of Swiss cheese than a snowflake to Dean but he keeps that opinion to himself.

Cas comes in just as Dean is helping Jo to brush clear glitter glue over her masterpiece.

“Uncle Cas, look!” she demands gleefully.

“Very beautiful,” Cas confirms with a nod. And then Jo signs quickly to Cas, asking him to cut a a dove from the paper for her. “Like my name,” she adds.

Cas smiles and takes the seat across from Dean. “Of course, little dove.”

Jo giggles happily at that, clapping her hands once. And then she’s back to her snowflake, reaching for the ice-blue tissue paper and bottle of glue.

“Hang on, champ,” Dean says, snagging the glue from her. “How ‘bout I control the glue so there are no puddles or rivers.”

Cas grins to him across the way, elegantly snipping a simple dove shape from the paper. Jo points out where she wants the dabs of glue to go, all while chattering on about a new made-up land, where rivers and lakes are made of glue and all the people are paper dolls. (“So when they want new clothes, the go swimming! And then they paste the new paper outfits onto the glue on them!”)

Dean settles into the feeling. His house is warm against the winter and his family is safe. His nephew is asleep in the next room, his niece is spinning new worlds into existence in the next seat over, and Cas is right there, across the table. He’s wearing socks that are extra-thick and a sweater that belonged to Sam at one point so it droops and sags and his hair is still wonky from wearing a hat earlier in the day, when they went sledding and snowman-making. Low, in the background, the radio is crooning out Christmas songs and all his days, now, are merry and bright.

When Sam and Eileen come back from their hours of Christmas shopping, there’s an army of paper snowflakes tacked up to the windows, and a few even strung up to hang above the mantle. It’s easy to identify which Cas made (perfect, resembling actual snowflakes), which Dean made (a little crooked, a lot more glitter), which Jo made (haphazard, but with attentive embellishments of glitter and tissue paper) and which Deano made, once he woke from his nap (Cas’s perfect shapes with enthusiastic coloring in crayon done over them). Dean falls asleep, again, against Sam’s shoulder as they stand at the doorway to leave and Jo signs up that it was the perfect day. Dean finds himself agreeing.

The snowflakes stay up long past Christmas.

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[wemakeitupaswego]

To the anon who sent this... Sorry it got deleted..

The thing is nonnie there are a lot of Cockles blogs who have better answers for this than me, but I will do my best here.

First of all if you dig deeper in Cockles, the anniversary post comes from a specific vintage photo album that has the same background as Danneel and Jackles photo he took and posted from way back. So he keep those photos by heart in an album. What Jensen sent to Rob is clearly a Polaroid. You know the kind you keep in boxes until you move out and reminisce when you dust the boxes.. Jensen recently moved Nonnie so did those boxes I suppose. He is now in Toronto so there's the least probability he has access to this kind of photo. My two cents is when Jenneel were digging through items as they moved to mountains, Jackles saw this and sent Rob probably months ago when he was quarantining..

Second is, nonnie this photo was posted by Rob. Anniversary photo was posted by Jensen himself with intention in heart. There's an obvious difference.. Dec 14th is something special for them and Jackles remembered that and made sure we know. He normally doesn't remember shvt but this he did.

Third is in the anniversary post there's no space for God between Cockles but in Rob's photo, there clearly is space for God, pun intended. And Js are wearing first class airplane pyjamas. Cute! Matching outfits but not intended to match tbh.

And fourth, nonnie let me tin hat in this ask I hope you don't mind. See the word in the street was Jackles was jealous about Misharius and many of us hoped he might post something with a man in his life to get back at Misha for thriving oh so publicly without him. Well.. Rob did the work for him. And Jackles liked all of Misharius photos today. So.. Mission accomplished..

Have a great day nonnie.. Hope you got some perspective..

[you-cant-spell-subtext-without]

(Tone/intention indicator: non-aggressive!! Pensive and open/hopeful for discussion and/or advice. Not at all trying to be a grouch.)

I do get the joke and I get that there's plenty of evidence that he does like to take it up the ass which is rad for him if he does, you know, but it feels crappy to me, the way a lot of the fandom (NOT you—I haven't seen anything like this from you) and actually also Misha treats Dean and sometimes/by proxy Jensen with the whole calling him/them a bottom, especially when Jensen isn't part of the conversation and doesn't even know that there's anything to respond to. It just gets said about him in public, and then onus is on him to find it and respond. It's a gotcha situation though, I don't think there's even anything he could say in his own defense (if he wanted to, that is. idk, for all I know, maybe Jensen is into it too, but that's sort of my problem.. I don't how he feels about being called a girl, a bottom, an omega etc) that people wouldn't claim that, by saying he isn't a bottom, sub or femme, he actually is proving he's a "subby little girlboy," or so I saw it said. I wish we as a community could talk about the nuance and inherent homophobia and transphobia in leering about it that way, in stereotyping 'bottom/subby behavior' and categorizing that behavior as feminine etc. I'm a trans dude, a dom and a top and a lot of the things I see people saying about Dean being a bottom or, worse, about Jensen being a bottom, are just so.. emasculating to me, because a lot of that stuff is stuff I do, too. Dean is a fictional character so his feelings can't get hurt, but Jensen is a real person, you know? And there's like a million people on the internet saying they can tell he's a subby, femme bottom despite whether he's ever said anything to the contrary or not. It's.. jarring, too, since I'm also a real person and they're often pointing to traits and behaviors that I share as evidence. It makes me so dysphoric to see so many people calling him girly and needy and in heat or what have you and citing how he (over)performs masculinity. I over-perform masculinity, too, but I do it because I enjoy the presentation, not because I'm over-compensating and Actually A Girl. I'm actually pretty comfortable in my relationship with gender at this point. Sometimes I also wear dresses. I'm still a dude. It sucks that it seems like the overwhelming opinion is that loudly performing masculinity can only ever mean overcompensation, and never gender euphoria. It seems like a lot more people are more interested in forcing Dean to perform femininity—like people want to humble and humiliate him for his past/present comphet and his idea of his own masculinity—not in allowing him to participate in traditionally non-masculine things according to what he likes, or to perform gender in ways that make him feel authentic and happy. It's like, instead of him aggressively overcompensating his Manly Man-ness, everyone wants to make him aggressively, stereotypically effeminate and one dimensional in the opposite direction. What are your thoughts on it, if you don't mind sharing? Do you think there's a way to have this conversation in the fandom? Or am I missing the point?

hi! okay first of all I love your tone indicators, we should all be doing this online tbh because it absolutely sets the voice for the rest of your ask and I appreciate it so very much.

preliminarily - I am not an expert on this topic in any way, so please take my response with an entire value-size canister of salt.

I think your feelings and thoughts are absolutely valid, and I don't disagree. I personally try to steer clear of most of the real person is this and that thing unless they uh. you know. tweet it out loud at the internet (for what it's worth, I do think - any joking I may have vaguely done aside - that Misha's past two top related tweets specifically were fairly pointed at himself (yes, I know one was about Dean and Cas fanfic, but he said "I" enjoy being on top, not Cas enjoys topping Dean). I am certain he is aware of the innuendo though, and how fandom will take it so your commentary on his being a participant is certainly correct as well. Also, I firmly believe that Misha does treat humans, especially those he is close w, with the utmost respect and any joking he has done re Jensen has been in a place of Jensen being okay with it (like I don't think he would ever say anything he knows would make Jensen feel uncomfortable whether he is within earshot or across the country when it's said).

*takes off Misha apologist hat*

As for the rest, I think your points are extremely well made and it's definitely a conversation that can (and should!) be had in fandom. I do agree that this topic can and has been misconstrued (sometimes for shitposting's sake sometimes not) as it applies to irl people and situations. I personally think that Jensen is a very multidimensional and layered human (which serves him greatly as an actor, I mean he contains literal multitudes) and to classify him as either pendulum end - as you mentioned, is doing his human self a disservice. I think it's also important for all of us to remember that gender is a construct and can be so fluid, so putting any of it in a socially constructed box just defies the entire point of the conversation.

I don't know if this is making any sense (your points are a lot more well spoken and coherent than mine), but I do think what you said is so important and needs to be out there. Also, I hope you know you are so freaking valid and nothing that's said on this site or others about traits/behavioors of Jensen's that mirror your own is a firm definition for those traits/behaviors, especially if people are putting them in a category you don't necessarily agree/feel comfortable with or identify as the right 'definition' if you will. Your words - "to perform gender in ways that make him feel authentic and happy" really resonated with me, and I think they hold true for both Jensen and you. To radically be our authentic selves is the goal, and I'm so glad that based on what you said you're feeling about your own relationship with gender it seems like you are in that place!!!

Sorry this is so long of a response and probably. muddy. I hope I got the gist of what you were asking, but also thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me, you expressed them really clearly and it's given me a lot to think about :) if I got anything wrong, or misunderstood a point you were making please feel free to pop by and clarify or correct me.

I hope you have an excellent day <3

[theyarebothgunshot]

hey! :) hope you're doing well! i gotta be honest and say i'm a little bit on the fence with the idea that cockles actually being real, but i'm open-minded, so would love to hear your take. what do you think of the instance when misha brought up cockles and said jokingly 'there are people who think this is real and look for clues' as if it was just a funny, weird thing? is there actually evidence that misha's explanation for the clothes sharing isn't right? would love to hear your thoughts!

hi anon! thank you for dropping by, i love talking about these two so asks like this one make my day haha. i understand what you mean, and will give you my two cents. imo, it’s very strange that he chose to bring up the fact that people think they are together, without ever denying it. he could have very easily said: ‘there are people who think this is real and look for clues, even though it’s absolutely not true. we’re just very close friends, but people will believe what they want to believe’. i think it would have made a lot more sense to actually deny it if it was in fact not true, than how he decided to bring it up and address it?? 

as for the clothes sharing, there are multiple reasons why his explanation doesn’t fit (or is at least not the entire truth): he says that jensen doesn’t want to wear the same shirt twice on stage, but the first time we see misha wearing something that belongs to jensen, is in a bts picture of him filming episode 5x4 the end, and not something jensen wore at a convention or on stage, but something he wore in a season 2 episode. another reason why it doesn’t fit is the fact that the famous jeans shirt has apparently been going back and forth between them, not just from jensen to misha, but from jensen to misha to jensen etc. i wish i had a link to the post in which i saw this mentioned, but i cant find it right now. then of course there is the time that misha told us himself that jensen offered up his brand new shirt that still had the tags on it, for no reason whatsoever, basically disproving his own explanation. (not to mention the fact that by telling us that story he literally implied that they woke up together that morning, because when else was jensen supposed to have asked him if he wants to wear that shirt? at breakfast when he is already dressed? i mean??) 

i think it’s not far fetched to conclude that jensen likes it when misha wears his things (jewelry, hats, clothes and even sunglasses) and he likes taking care of misha (getting them matching outfits and jewelry, or shirts from the same brand, offering up his unworn shirt, etc) and the fact that they continue to do this even though they are quite clearly aware of the implications, is very loud imo.

[angelcatsiel]

My 2021 wasn't all bad! Some favourite pictures/highlights in order:

Taking Poppy outside for the first time

Some lovely walks exploring new areas near me

First flight home to see my family in almost a year due to lockdown

Saving the life of a little buzzy bee

Meeting some cute goats at London Zoo, which was also the day I got engaged!

All Time Low, my first concert back after covid

My first convention since covid, crossroads 3, where I met Misha again

Meeting my mum's new kitten, Domino

Poppy just being her usual cute self all the time despite trying to destroy everything I own

And seeing my favourite band (and current special interest) Enter Shikari for the first time, twice in one week!

I also got my autism diagnosis this year, did a day's work volunteering at the cafe/residential home where my dad works (my first time working in years), and stayed self harm free for almost the entire year! It was still a tough year, but better than last year for sure. Goals for 2022 include figuring out more of my health issues, getting a wheelchair, finally getting my house organised and looking nice, and hopefully doing some more volunteering days at the cafe with my dad!

Image alt text below the cut

Image 1: A tabby cat, Poppy, standing on a paving slab in the garden with a wooden shed just behind her. She is sniffing at a twig growing up between the paving slabs, and she is wearing a purple harness with a lead.

Image 2: The view looking up a path in a forest in sunny weather. The path curves upwards ahead, and there are tall trees either side of the path, as well as plenty of lush green grass and mostly clear blue sky above.

Image 3: The view of fields and trees and farmland from an aeroplane window, and the setting sun shining off the ocean in the distance.

Image 4: The OP Chloe’s hand, with a bumble bee resting on her finger. She is standing in a small garden.

Image 5: Chloe crouching down with her walking stick and smiling next to two large goats, one black and white and one brown, who are eating from haynets.

Image 6: The view of the stage at a concert, from quite far back. The band are visible on stage with white lights behind them, and there are lots of people standing in the audience watching.

Image 7: Chloe in a plaid shirt and sock monkey hat, standing leaning against the front of the Impala from Supernatural and making a heart with her hands. Misha Collins stands nearby, also leaning against the Impala and making a heart.

Image 8: A black and white kitten with yellow eyes, curled up on Chloe’s lap and looking up at the camera. Chloe has her arm underneath the kitten, and her butterfly tattoos are visible.

Image 9: A tabby cat, Poppy, lying on Chloe’s lap on a blanket and staring up at the camera. There is a laptop on Chloe’s lower legs, and Poppy has a paw resting on the mouse pad.

Image 10: Rou Reynolds, the Enter Shikari singer, standing on stage smiling and holding a microphone, wearing a red jacket. There are white lights behind him, and some confetti floating around him.

[peacockwinchester]

Some fluffy dsmp things:

C!Phil and my self-insert Misha have been together for centuries and because Phil travels a lot, every year on their anniversary, Misha sends him a bead. So, Phil has a really long string of beads that is attached to his hat. He has to tuck it into his belt because it's so long now, but he refuses to stop wearing it. Also, Dream tried to steal it as leverage but it kinda back dired on him.

So, when I'm comfortable with people, I just kinda flop onto them (never happened bc I have no one currently I feel comfy with, but I definitely do it with my cats and maybe a couple times with my mom). So, imagine c!Sapnap, c!Karl, or c!Quackity just vibing, doing whatever and then this person just walks over and lays on their lap or whatever. I think it might be cute.

[enochianribs]

5, 7, 8, 9, 13, 15, 16, 17, 19, 20, 21, 22, 26, 27, 28 YOU DONT HAVE TO EXPLAIN THEM ALL I MISS A LOT

Rancid Nuts

After the finale, Misha Collins posted a link to an article about how to know when your nuts have gone rancid saying it made “salient points” and the article basically said you know they’re rancid if they leave a bad taste in your mouth (EVERYTHING POST 15X18?)

Don’t Feed The Baboons (guest starring A*drew D*bb)

Edit: this was about Dabbs new show. 

#TheySilencedYou

This was a hashtag started by SPN fans on twitter who were rightfully livid that they buried cas (yes he was technically alive but literally where was he after despair) because he was gay and they killed Dean because they basically set him up as bi and then realized they could either follow through with it or kill dean too, which they did :^)

“It wasn’t a bury your gays” (guest starring the CW’s sniper)

The hastag successfully trended and drew a lot of attention to CW. They, however, said nothing officially. Instead, Misha posted a video saying that he thought it was a beautiful ending to Cas’ character despite LITERALLY HAVING CALLED IT A BURY YOUR GAYS LIKE. A WEEK BEFORE. and us fans were like misha sweetie we love you but you know it was bury your gays stop covering for the CW which he immediatley apologized for and had a sincere twitter thread with angry fans. Basically, CW was using him to cover and they had a sniper trained on him ALA Disney w/ Oscar Issac.

whatever those birds chirping in the Brazilian dub were (if someone has more info on this, please share!

Actually, I also have no idea what this one is about. 

Heller Obama

A really long time ago, when Obama was president he autofollowed an insane amount of accounts (idk why). One of them was a destiel heller account. Heller!Obama jokes ensued. (Not my favorite episode fjdaslkf)

Misha Collins’ bare ass on both Obama’s and Biden’s Timelines

Misha’s friend subtweeted him with a bare picture of his ass while he’s standing in the middle of a burned down forest saying that was a threat and he had worse where it came from. Personally one of my top three episodes of SPN 16.

Reverse Mishapocalypse: The Secret Tumblr

I missed this one too I think. People started changing their icons to misha but I was too busy tin hating to notice.

Fart Jokes and Spitting on Locks

They released a short gag real for season 15 at the live panel with stacey abrams. Jensen makes like. two anal jokes because he’s a beast.

The End of Heller Obama

Obama unfollowed the heller account which was arguably way funnier than him following it in the first place because SOMEONE must have made him acknowledge it?

Dean’s Fruity Heeled Boots

Dean wears these boots with heels. They’re fruity. We want them. 

Heller Taylor Swift (guest starring A Chevy Door, November and a Flannel

Taylor Swift released a new album and it’s very deancas apparently. Idk. I don’t stan her so that’s all i’ve got.

The Rogue Director (aka canon destiel #4

The director of the LATAM dubs (destiel goes canon 2) has this live facebook conference thing and he was basically like FUCK whatever they were trying to do we made dean reciprocate because it made sense. 

Jenmish flavoured Beer

Jensen and Misha were acting up as they always do, making me pull out the tin hat. I answered an ask about that already here u go.  My personal favorite episode because I love it when they get sappy.

Heller Obama’s Possible Comeback: The Boys Edition

no idea because i resolved all of it’s possible humor when he unfollowed the account. 

[the-empress-7]

It’s rather hard to find now, but the boat picture had Sarah Ann Macklin (much prettier than mm) who was also rumoured to be seeing Harry whilst Meghan was only a booty call. Also pictured was Misha Nonoo in the centre w/ M and her third rate lot, Heather Dorak and Benita Litt at the other end of the boat. She was even wearing that stupid Panama hat! Knowing what a predatory jealous insecure stalker Meghan is means it was probably true that Harry was also seeing this other woman. Creepy af.

It is amazing the trail she has left behind.

[lifblogs]

My ridiculous and over the top text to Misha:

The conversations around voting are so unnecessarily difficult this year. There are too many people who don't even care, so they'll just vote for whoever. Their ideals really lean towards white supremacy. I'm white, but I think white supremacy is absolute fucking garbage. We as white people have privileges despite the hardships we may have gone through/are going through. We're shown white is normal, that it's beautiful, that it's the ideal. Having more people of color in TV and movies would remedy this a bit. (As an aside, I love Billie from SPN.)

The white supremacists think their way of life is threatened just because black people are demanding that they stop getting killed. Someone I know constantly says the world is going to flip, and white people will be used, and beaten, and killed. What a bullshit way of thinking. It's not even close to true. As you know, equality doesn't mean the system will be unbalanced. But a large group of people think they're being threatened. They want their rights to wear MAGA hats, they want their rights to own guns in case a black person tries to get in the house, they want their rights to practice Christianity and preach and preach and preach about loving everyone and God loving everyone. And then they leave church, and it's okay to "agree to disagree." It's, "You know, a lot of black deaths are from other black people." It's, "Soon we won't be able to go out and safely practice our religion."

And this means nothing against Christianity. Believe me, Misha, I was a devout Catholic for years until I realized people spoke of love, and then the church would fight against equality. At one point before entering church, the priest made us fucking write down anyone who was gay. My bro and I had to lie, of course, and not do it. But what the fuck is that about?? What the fuck???

Okay, I went off on a tangent. My bad. But yeah, white supremacists, or people who are Trump-leaning, or boomers, even, think their way of life will change. And hopefully they're right. It SHOULD change. But it won't do it the way they think. They won't be the people who were stolen from their country, the people who were slaves, the people who were tortured and killed, the people who were kept separate from society, the people who are spat on and crushed by the system. Fuck white supremacy. FUCK IT. And sorry for basically giving you a book to read, but I had to get that off my chest. And you're someone I'm sure would understand. So glad you're working to get people to vote, and to do it responsibly.

You're pretty cool for all this. And we're doing this without being "white saviors." We're just trying to give the unheard a chance to finally, FINALLY, be heard by society, and LISTENED TO, and UNDERSTOOD. We do need to speak up for people who society deems unimportant to listen to. But you know what, Misha (I'm 100% sure you know this, no 2,000,000% sure)? Black people are loud. They are demanding to be heard. They are beautiful with their words and their actions and their lives. They state things so eloquently. They act. They sing. They are fighting to rise up as equals, and it's good to know we both stand with them. As a minority myself, it sickens me that other minorities have to suffer.

(Okay, this is a book series now. Sorry.)

[elenatria]

I know this is a crazy idea but.

So like... does this guy look like he’s wearing Valery’s clothes, to you?  I mean everyone else in the street is in a jacket or a hat.

In this pic here he’s standing right behind Johan Renck. 

I mean... he’s in a LOT of shots with extras, and he’s not wearing a hat or a jacket, as if he just went out to cross the street and buy cigarettes or something.

Or meet a couple of journalists and give them the tapes. Or talk to Misha, the day before his suicide.

And.. I know the guy’s sweater has a pattern, and Valery’s doesn’t, but don’t they look like they’re wearing the same clothes, with a similar body type even..?

Maybe he’s Jared’s stand-in in that scene...? 

Following @litttlesilkworm​‘s lead  (even if my theory is a bit far-fetched).