#daily despair time

[dailydespairtime]

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based on that one squid game meme (ignore the background …)

[macdoodlebrains]

Trying something different. Background first, character last.

Embodiment of emotions. Despair. Hopelessness. Despondency.

[welpuu]

fork...

[mocha-tapioca]

pov xander eye reveal speedrun (gone wrong)

[staringkat]

On July 15, 2023, i started a project to draw eden tobisa every day. though we technically didn't draw every day, I, alongside all those who worked with me finally got to 366 days today!

for today, i decided to redraw the very first daily eden drawing

mastermind eden!

this is the original, you can really see my improvement!!

[daily-gin-ibushi]

do you know nico hakobyan? I think them and gin would be friends

DAY 22 - IMPOSTOR!!!!!

i admit i did not know who nico hakobyan was before i received this ask but youre right they do seem very similar! i like their cooler blue colour palette a lot

[quotelr]

Tell me, who have never be knocked down by life’s circumstances? It takes grace and enough strength, to get up and begin again

Lailah Gifty Akita, Think Great: Be Great!

[daily-drdt]

Not a real post but I’ve been craving a MM!J au and I’m honestly just gonna make it myself.

[yingdu-lover]

I relate to Lu Guang a bit too personally. And whether that's for better or for worse I don't really know.

For me, timeloop and timelines are metaphors for how we cope with PTSD. Lu guang's character flower is forget-me-not. It's about remembrance. Even though the object of melancholy is cheng xiaoshi, I think it's more about lu guang's perception of his personal grief that's being portrayed here.

Talking from my experience and the meagre knowledge I have about subjective perception of time, reconstructive memory is the most significant tool to negotiate with one's trauma. While coping with PTSD, we

1. Continually revisit the same traumatic memory again and again even though it's traumatic enough to immobilize us to the point of causing physical agony

2. We dissociate. Even though fundamentally our cognitive system functions in such a way that constantly blur the division between reality and imagination (meaning that none of us in any state can have a concrete sense of absolute, objective and non-fragmented reality, our sense of reality is a version of reality which we subconsciously create, hence our subjective biases are mixed with the version of reality we create), post traumatic encounters with this cognitive function feels jarring.

The multiple timelines we have seen so far may really have been the overlapping of different lines/stages of reconstructive memories Lu Guang has created so far for himself. Two poles of the spectrum of extreme grief are the death of the person grieving or the person finally being successful to manage to overcome the loop of trauma.

With some amount of needed sobriety, I can say...Cheng Xiaoshi really died. And his death is really unchangeable. Up until Yingdu episode 3, this is my most honest theory. I hate to say this but...it is a doomed love story that was doomed even before the narrative began. Or probably it was never about love at all, but about grief and reconciling with our grief? Omg Given vibes.

If the storytelling shifts in a way where I will feel : wait, the timeloop is actually happening and it's beyond lu guang's mindscape and memories and it is really fantasy and supernatural so I should change my spectacles and DIVE IN...then it's a different story (which I personally yearn for)

what should I say? Lu Guang reminds me of a phase of me I have already left behind and grown out of it for good. It will be realistic to make it a story of grief and reconciliation but...well that's just too sad. There is no other justification, it's just sad. I know good literature/art is not escape from real problems but rather poses a mirror to it but...it's just...sad...

...

was it my fault that I came here expecting an epic Achillean love story? maybe. And that will be... *sigh*. I'll think twice before choosing any media which is not 'canonically' a love story.

I came to watch link click with those expectations. Like mdzs? there are impossible perils and inhuman agony of separation but somehow...they get their deserved happy ending at the end.

The rhetoric of "probably...in the next life, we will meet each other again" is well good and fantastic but the problem is I will not be the same person in my next life writing this Tumblr meta. I am a fragile human, I only live for once. (I also dream that in my next life I will overthrow capitalism but ykw that's saved for the next life and I can't really have full authority over what my next meal will be)

Vulnerability and acknowledgement of vulnerability is central to link click and honestly it gives it the most power. Fragility of human existence, mundane or grand, is portrayed in a very poignant way. And love is just an emotion that somehow persists in remembering our deceased loved ones ...*me getting all cranky when love is not a metaphor for revolution that defies the rules of the universe*

well, honestly, ugh, I don't have much hope for Shiguang sailing. So much focus on Lu Guang's grief makes my chest heavy and tired to some extent (I am NOT criticising link click and calling it bad, NO). Love is so central to link click that if I have to reconcile with myself at the end saying : it's ok, it's a good show, great show, everything is good just don't ever think about shiguang...but HOW THE FUCK AM I NOT SUPPOSED TO THINK ABOUT SHIGUANG. Why did you make them obviously gay and so hamlet-horatio coded in love. tragic chinese time traveller boyfriends?

[ratatouillestew]

hey gang im not into drdt anymore but i've got some doodles so here ya go

[yukennico]

the end of an era, daily doodles of xander comes to an end in twitter, but the grind never stop (hes literally my oc now)

[dailydespairtime]

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areiiiiii :3333 our girlieeee

[amberinn]

Feel like David Chiem rn the way I stir up negative pointless chaos in a server and drain everyone of their energy/give people headaches/confuse them

like damn i pulled out an ep 12 david impression out of my ass

worst of all i finally feel sort of okay

like I've come back to life for just a moment and found genuine enjoyment in something to the point I feel happy again

[welpuu]

happy birthday eden!!

and happy new year!! 🎉🎉

[smudgesticksgonnasmudgingflip]

Day twenty-seven- I lost track of time, I'll post another one today later

I don't know if I posted this, but I redid the maid Xander and got it laser printed awhile ago

[staringkat]

i didnt encapsulate the sassiness of the original image but it's alright for a 10 minute doodle before school