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Chapters: 13/13 Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Rape/Non-Con Relationships: Castiel/Dean Winchester, Gabriel/Sam Winchester, Past Dean/Nick Munroe, Background Bobby/Jody Characters: Dean Winchester, Nick Munroe, Castiel (Supernatural), Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer, Benny Lafitte, Jody Mills, Cesar Cuevas, Jesse Cuevas, Rufus Turner, Missouri Moseley Additional Tags: Rape/Non-con Elements, Hurt/Comfort, Dom/sub, Collars, Aftercare, Dom Castiel/Sub Dean Winchester, Phone Sex, Blow Jobs, Panty Kink, Dean Winchester Has a Panty Kink, Castiel Has a Panty Kink (Supernatural), Bisexual Dean Winchester, Light BDSM, Praise Kink, Happy Ending Summary:
After his current Dom boyfriend crosses too many of Deanās limits, he wants to break it off totally and finally. He finds the perfect way, but it involves stepping outside his comfort-zone one more time. As he is nervously preparing to do so, a guy with amazingly blue eyes and a natural domineering aura asks him if he could help. Dean declines, even if every instinct he has wants to allow it. After the actual dumping, the man shows up again, and just in timeā¦
#week 205#creator: hectatess#hectatess#fanfic#destiel#sabriel#dean x nick#bobby x jody#rating: nc17#cw: mentions of rape
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Just thought to myself "can't women have a bad time in fiction without rape being involved" which really shows you how much you're in the fucking trenches if you are both a horror fan and women fan
#rape mention cw#LIKE VERY LIGHTLY BUT STILL#im playing i have no mouth and i must scream#and it was mostly handled well#but i also went. sigh. of course
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cw: mentions of past sexual assault of a child, pedophilia, just westeros being a shitty place to live if you're female, oh and murder
pairing Jena x Gwayne
āWho was your first?ā he asks, knowing Jenaās infamy began when a giggling Lady Alicent revealed to her cousins of what Jenaās goodmother had revealed to Ser Otto. No name was given, there was no need for it, all that mattered was that the recently widowed heiress Gwayne Hightower fancied was not worthy of him.
āA bookmaker my father owed money to.ā The laughter dies with her sober words.
Everyone assumed it was something scandalous and consenting, no one seemed to understand that a five and ten year old girl may not want to fuck a disgusting old man for pleasure.
No one knew how much she delighted in seeing the fucker die from the poisoned wine the Maester of Mistwood had taught her to prepare.
And when her soon-to-be goodsister finally fucks the uptight Ser Criston, Jena may get her revenge on the prudish queen and spread a rumor of her having a common born lover.
For old timeās sake.
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non-normative sexuality is not the root of sexual abuse or rape. for a huge amount of history in a huge amount of the world, sexual abuse and rape have been thoroughly normal (cf. marital rape exemptions being removed from US legal codes as recently as 2019). rapists are not 'freaks' -- the default, 'normal' paradigm of sexuality across the world is one of violent misogyny. 640 million women are or were child brides and the men marrying them are not abberations or exceptions, they are normal. men who engage in endemic workplace harassment or frat boys who assault women are behaving in a way that is 'normal', they are fulfiling the gendered expectations for expressions of heterosexual sexuality when they harass and catcall and abuse women. projecting sexual violence onto the specter of the obviously deviant, abnormal outsider is a scapegoating mechanism intended to sanitize and exonerate the cisheteropatriarchal standard of normalized and ubiquitous sexual violence
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can you guys be normal for like five seconds please
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Can 2024 be the year we stop using stupid fucking terms like āunalivingā?
Self-censorship is still censorship, and mature conversations should use mature language.
Same can be said of āgrapeā instead of ārapeā, ācornā instead of āpornā.
We need to be able to discuss these things, and we also need to use that language so people who want to avoid these conversations can block the tags. Using silly language like that circumvents the space that people curate for themselves.
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Mouthwashing, Dual Protagonists, and Captain Curly
While the vast majority of Mouthwashing is shown from Jimmy's perspective, the events leading up to the Tulpar's crash usually follow Curly. There are several interesting reasons for this, but there's one reason in particular that I'd like to focus on.
By setting Jimmy and Curly up as dual protagonists, we're invited to draw comparisons between them. Not only are they the lenses through which we view the story, they pass the role of Captain back and forth between their chapters.
It's easy to feel sympathy for Curly, given the state he spends the larger part of the game in. It can also be easy to gloss over his more subtle shortcomings when measuring him up against Jimmy.
In this post, I want to take a closer look at Curly's character. And more specifically, how he relates to one of the game's most obvious themes.
Is Curly able to deal with the consequences of his actions? Does he realize his own failures and how they harm the people around him? What does he do with the power he's granted over others?
Does Curly take responsibility?
Jimmy's fixation here gives us a good jumping-off point. It's certainly possible that he's only really been told this once or twice, but because he's Jimmy he's blown it out of proportion out of spite. It's also possible he's entirely making it up because he's projecting, but I think the former is more likely if anything.
And, if I had to take a guess where he heard it from, I'd put my money on The Pony Express itself.
In the eyes of The Pony Express, a "great leader" isn't someone diligent or able to meet the needs of his crew. The real reason Curly was able to rise to the top of the ladder and become captain is because he gets the job done without rocking the boat.
I'm establishing all this because I think it's worth examining by what metric he's being judged. Because, while it may be Jimmy who most often digs this point up, Curly doesn't disagree with him. Even in the depths of his ennui, it's important to him that not only is he the Captain, but a good one at that.
When comparing the two, that can again seem difficult to argue against. Jimmy is quick to lash out and shift blame. His resentment and insecurities often drive him to pick fights. Curly prefers to avoid conflict, but knows his position doesn't always allow him to do so. He tries to pick his battles, but when he has to get involved he focuses on de-escalating the situation.
But although their similarities are few, they do exist. And they greatly influence the narrative. Because it is from their shared selfishness, callousness, and cowardice that the entire story is born.
It's time to address the elephant in the room. We can't draw any conclusions about Curly's nature, his character, his role in the story, and his relationship to its themes without digging into his handling of Anya's assault, and the chain of events that follow.
I find it interesting that we never see the initial conversation Anya has with Curly about the assault. We simply know that she confided in him. He is the Captain, after all. The crew is his responsibility.
The thing is, we don't really need to know the exact conversation they shared, because we can imagine it went quite similarly to their conversation about her pregnancy.
She tells him how scared she is. She fears for her life. It never even occurred to him that she was upset about anything other than losing her job. He swears to her that everything will be fine. They'll fix this. All he has to do is talk to Jimmy.
He does not talk to Jimmy.
Maybe the first time he really did intend to. He just needed time. Jimmy has always had... struggles. If we want to, we can be generous to Curly, we can assume his old problems were much less vile. Otherwise, he would have never pulled the strings to get him this job, never put him in a position of power over vulnerable people. Right? But now, this was whole new beast altogether. Because he and Jimmy go way back, he had to process this, figure out what he was even supposed to say.
But at the same time, The Pony Express had just gone gone under. He'd been struggling with dissatisfaction and indecision for so long, and now his hand has been forced. He has his own problems. And Anya seems fine, doesn't she? If she hadn't said anything, he'd never have even known there was anything wrong. It just doesn't seem that important.
Anya talks to Jimmy herself.
She's scared, she fears for her life. But now she knows now that Curly won't defend her, nor give her the means to defend herself. Still, he promises her, they'll fix this. He just has to talk to Jimmy.
Things are different now. He can't sit by and wait for things to work out anymore. After all, it's not only her problem anymore.
Now it's Curly's problem too. How is he supposed to find another job with this on his record? There's only one other person on this ship who understands what he's going through.
He talks to Jimmy.
And he understands. Not that what he did was wrong, of course. Not that he'd done something horrific, irreversible, cruel. But that it now had consequences, and that he wouldn't suffer them alone.
Curly made his decision. He chose his paper-thin illusion of peace and his eroding friendship with Jimmy over the safety and well-being of his crew. And when it all came tumbling down, he decided it was better to bury them all under the rubble than to face the struggle to rebuild.
If Jimmy hadn't been there, hadn't been his co-pilot, Curly almost certainly would not have been able to bring himself to actually follow through with something so selfish and reckless.
But Jimmy was there, and Curly made sure of that.
So, it's time to ask again. Does Curly take responsibility?
Well, yes.
But it's too little, too late.
As much as Mouthwashing is about Jimmy fighting furiously against the consequences of his actions, it is also about Curly being forced to watch them unfold anyway. His silence and inaction, once a choice, are inflicted upon him by his mangled body.
Jimmy may have crashed the ship, but Curly gave him the keys. And so it's fitting in the end that Curly is made to take the full weight of responsibility by the man who he helped avoid it so many times.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#analysis & discussion#cw rape mention#long post
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Supernatural Rating: Mature Warnings: Major Character Death Characters: Castiel, Crowley, Dean Winchester Additional Tags: Self-Harm, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con, Physical Abuse, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Implied/Referenced Suicide Summary:
AU One-shot. In the world of firsts, Crowley took a lot of CastiĆ«l's. Dean took a lot of others, but purely out of necessity. Angsty, not happy fic. I don't know what came over me, but this just rolled out of my pen. Warning! Mentions physical and mental abuse, selfharm and suĆÆcide. Major character Death.
#week 205#creator: hectatess#hectatess#fanfic#castiel#crowley#dean winchester#rating: nc17#cw: major character death#cw: drug use#cw: suicide ideation#cw: self harm#cw: mentions of rape#cw: abuse
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I donāt feel bad for the IDF soldiers who return from Gaza and then proceed to kill themselves. Sorry, but you donāt get to go and ravage someoneās homeland, kill their mothers, fathers, sisters, grandparents, friends. pets, etc. and then go back to your own (very alive) families and play victim.
They donāt feel bad about what theyāre doing, yāall, these are willing participants who make games out of bombing buildings, shooting children in the head, taking elderly citizens hostage, etc. If anything, the supposed trauma is most likely from seeing their fellow terrorists soldiers being rightfully blown up with bullets.
They didnāt feel guilt, remorse, or sadness when they blew up hospitals, bombed schools, left sick infants to die, snipped children, tortured prisoners, raped civilians (men, women, and children alike), or destroyed churches and holy sights. So why should I bat an eye when they take themselves out? If anything Iāll cheer.
#tw rape mention#tw rape#tw suicide mention#tw suicide#cw suicide mention#cw suicide#personal#palestine
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I'm watching people trauma bond with Calypso from EPIC in real-time. Y'all. A character can be a woman and be a rapist at the same time. And her being a woman doesn't mean that ACTUALLY there's some trauma in her past that justifies her imprisoning men on her island and taking them to bed against their will, it means that she's a rapist that just happens to also be a woman.
I love how Calypso is depicted in EPIC, she's just dripping with a nastiness that is only matched by Penelope's entitled suitors. She's sugary sweet at the outset, but when Odysseus rather violently rejects her, she laughs at his rejection, saying he's adorable when he's angry and that he doesn't have any choice but to submit to her will as a god. And then she goes right back to the sweet lover in paradise ruse!!! It's sickening! She denies his autonomy because it gets in the way of the fantasy romance that she's forcing upon him.
So, I'm frustrated with people trying to paint it as though she's the victim in the situation, that what she's doing is somehow okay because she's a pretty woman and they feel bad for her. That's so patronizing.
I've seen people justify her behaviour by saying she's lonely. Tough shit get a hobby. Being starved for affection has never justified being an abuser.
I've seen people insist she truly cares about Odysseus because she tries to talk him down from suicide... but an abuser talking you down from taking drastic measures to escape their abuse isn't them showing genuine care, it's them not wanting the game to end, it's them exerting control over your very life. If anything, it's more disturbing because she is the one who drove him to be suicidal. So she's playing this game where she drives him to the precipice and then tries to lure him back down with "reminders" of "their love", those reminders actually being of the words of his dead loved ones that she's pilfered and warped as though they were her own.
The most ridiculous argument I've seen in defending Calypso's behaviour is saying that we can't use terms like "rapist" for her because "it was a different time" so "it's not certain whether or not what she did would be considered non-consensual for the time"... Like must I even point out that... that sleeping with someone against their will has always been and will always be rape? Anyway, her actions fit the ancient definition of rape to a t anyhow, so it's weird to try and weaponize "cultural differences" for the sake of having plausible deniability in Calypso's favour. Rape is also used to mean kidnapping, which is why we have pieces titled the Rape of Ganymede, the Rape of Persephone, etc..
Even if Jorge were to come out and say that, somehow, nothing sexual took place on Calypso's island in seven years, that despite her explicitly telling Odysseus that his "no" means nothing to her as a goddess she somehow never went so far as to sexually assault him... it doesn't make her abuse any less bad that she spared him that one trauma! Like holy shit dude.
Imagine if there was an adaptation that featured Zeus' rape of Io, and the audience responded to every literally dehumanizing action Zeus took against Io by saying "ooohh but he's lonely. i feel bad for him the most he's just a widdle lonely baby man. his wife is so meaaan."
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this kind of post is deeply silly because without exception 100% of the time when someone's like "if it can happen to this rich and powerful person it can happen to anyone" the thing in question has already been Happening To Anyone for ages. people have gotten away with posting Actual, non-fake revenge porn including revenge rape porn of women for years. i promise the most rich and influential poeple in the world are not bellwethers for the rest of our rights and safeties and it is never necessary to treat them like they are
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Ok, my long delayed post about Kabru and the Winged Lion. This does not end here, I'm adding more in a reblog.
Heavy on spoilers. Taking the extra material from @dunmeshistash who I apologise to as usual
Let's start here:
I don't care if you're a wasp you owe him 22 years of alimony
Two important takeaways here:
1) Kabru's hatred of monsters is caused not just by the Utaya catastrophe, but also from the fact that even before that, his unusual eye color was connected to monsters in local lore, and this led to ostracisation and, we can imagine, violence or at least the threat of violence towards him and his mother, serious enough that she escaped to Utaya, aka the place where the dungeon would kill her.
Kabru crucially does not place the fault for this on his father's family, but on himself for being born with 'monstrous eyes'. This is a normal way of reacting to ostracization in children, interiorising instead of projecting the trauma. It's much easier to imagine a world in which there's actually something wrong with you than one in which others might make you suffer for no reason. Monsters are also much more likely to be offered as an explanation by the adults than the actual more realistic explanations (infidelity or rape), which would not be considered appropriate.
This means that indirectly, child Kabru feels that his own 'monstrosity' is responsible for his mother moving to Utaya to protect him and ultimately dying.
2) in the Dungeon Meshi world there are specifically legends about *demon* succubi and incubi (real world lore says succubi prey on men and incubi on women and I assume that's what Laios is referring to with the distinction, but besides that lets assume theyre one and the same), distinct from the *actual monsters* succubi. The demons and monsters have a similar MO of using a person's desires to capture them, but while monster succubi suck a person's vital force, the demons supposedly use the men for their seed and the women for their womb to reproduce (again, completing dungeon meshi lore with bits of real world lore here). Laios, our local monster expert, thinks those demons are just legend. He tells us there are monsters that do use people as incubators for their eggs but I highly doubt that's Kabru's case, uncanny resemblance to a wasp notwithstanding (Laios...)
From here we go to:
Kabru's incredible rizz
This is where the tumblr search function spat in my face and ran away with the rest of my references while giggling. Oh well.
It's noted over and over in canon and extra material that Kabru is charming. More than that: Kabru *will do anything to get someone to like him*.
Worth noting that Daya and Holm *like* Kabru. This is not them disparaging an acquaintance, this is them levelling a criticism at a good friend, a criticism that seems to have been levelled at him before even ("it's no surprise...").
So, important takeaway: Kabru isn't just charming in general, he VERY SPECIFICALLY makes an effort to be charming. He needs people to like him, to trust him, and in order to obtain this, he's willing to lie and pretend.
Like with the Canaries: he needs them to trust him so they will keep him privy to their plans. So he plays up the poor innocent baby orphan angle:
And with Laios? The what (pretending to like monsters) we know, but why?
Kabru thinks Laios is the only one who can conquer the dungeon without the elves or the dwarves intervening and taking control. He is however very worried about his motivation. He wants to know why Laios is going so deep into the dungeon - beyond wanting to save his sister. What motivates him? Can he be trusted?
In the Toshiro chapters we find out that he has been trying to get in contact with him for weeks, possibly months, but this is the first time he has had a real possibility to meet him, and in order to make sure to leave a positive memory and possibly be an influence in the future, he pretends to be aligned with Laios' as much as possible, including hiding his hatred of monsters. I have written tons on this that has now been lost to tumblr like tears in the rain, but: I do not joke when I say that I think Kabru is flirting with Laios before and after the harpy egg incident. Let's be clear: Kabru's intentions are not romantic at this point. But he has noticed how lovestruck Laios was with Toshiro before their confrontation, and he's thinking, well, if I can get him to develop a similar crush on me, I can probably get him to listen to me more easily. Like I can mince words and put things in scary quotes but that's straight up what's happening. Kabru is trying to establish a close bond that wasn't there before: it might not be necessarily sexual, but it's definitely a type of seduction.
It kinda works.
The rest in a reblog because I ran out of space.
#cw rape mention#dungeon meshi spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#kabru#meta#this is a monster of a fucking post sorry
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part 2 of D-16 carrying Sentinelās sparkling please?
Your wish is my command, anon! I had a lotta people asking for this, so many messages! Ya'll are so sweet, I really appreciate it, so thanks for that! Let's get right into it ^-^ part 1 is here, part 3 here, part 4 here!
Orion is at his side in an instant, yelping, "Dee, no! Stop, you'll hurt yourself!" As he forcibly grabs his friend's servos to stop him from tearing himself apart. D-16 shrieks a wordless noise of agony, and then collapses forward onto Orion to begin sobbing violently into his shoulder. Clutching onto him like a lifeline, wailing with all the devastated force he can. Bawling against Orion and falling to pieces, brokenly asking what he's going to do.Ā
Orion numbly wraps his arms around Dee, letting his chin fall onto his shoulder. His arms slowly tighten, til heās clinging with near-denting force, and his optics begin to sting with tears too. It hits him later than it did D-16, what exactly Sentinel did to them. That he intentionally got them drunk and lied to them, he lied, lied, lied about them being special and lied about caring for them, all so he could make them pop their panels. It sinks in, slowly, exactly what he took from them: he robbed them of their first time, something that shouldāve been one of the tenderest, loving moments of their lives. He used them and threw them away just because he could. He ravaged their bodies selfishly, under false pretenses, without a care for how it would effect them. He touched their sparks. He raped them, both of them, and a sob suddenly flies past Orionās lips. It hits him all at once, with a feeling like a train has just plowed into his chassis full-force, and all he can do is cling onto D-16 and wail. They cry together, desperately holding onto each other there on the cavern, weeping with all the force of their broken, disgusted sparks.
Alpha Trion stands vigil over them, observing in sorrow, letting them mourn and grieve all that theyāve lost. His spark aches for them. Poor, poor childrenā¦ theyāre so young. Too young to be forced to weather something like this, such an egregious sinā¦ he watches Elita approach them with a haunted look on her face, B-127 wandering closer in her shadow, and she reaches a trembling servo to gently rest on Orionās shoulder. He grabs onto her wrist like a lifeline, face angling up to look at her lost and broken, optics shattered and expression void of all hope. She bows her helm, mouth pressed into a thin line and lips trembling. Struggling not to cry for them. B-127 creeps closer and, after hesitating for a moment, pads forward to glom onto D-16ās arm. Heās silent as the bigger mech cries, patting at his arm and trying desperately to think of something he can do. But thereās nothing, not really, nothing in the universe could ever soothe a pain like this.
They cry until they canāt shed any more tears, til their bodies have completely exhausted their optical cleanser and lubricant stores, and theyāre left dry sobbing and shuddering in exhaustion, slumping against one another and barely upright. It hurts. It hurts. Everything hurts.
ā...little one,ā Alpha Trion gently addresses D-16 at last, stepping forward and flicking the last of his tears off his face. āI cannot undo what has been done to you, but I can offer to relieve one of your burdens.ā
D-16 sniffles miserably, still huddled close to Orion where theyāre now sitting side by side on the floor. Orion is cross-legged, face in his servos, with Dee snuggled close against his side, his helm cradled on the blue mechās shoulder. āWhā¦ā his voice creaks like a rusty hinge. āWhat do youā¦?ā
Alpha Trion steps back and raises his palms to the sky, optics closing and exhaling a great puff of air. āONYX!ā his deep voice echoes through the cavern like a clap of thunder. āOnyx, my brother, I beseech you. Speak to this child in my place!ā
A warm wind blows in from nowhere, with such force it disturbs the magnetic sand all around them. It begins to swirl, lifting from the ground and into the air to form a funnel, billions of grains chasing one another around and around and forming a curtain around Alpha Trionās body. They cluster around and seem to consume him, rushing over his plating and molding to his form like a second coat of paint. His helm drops back so his face is parallel to the ceiling, then he gasps as his optics fly open. No longer blue, but a warm, crackling orange-and-pink, like a freshly lit hearth.
He stumbles forward, unsteady on his pedes, taking to one knee and his left palm touching the floor as he stabilizes. āOhā¦ā when he speaks, it is not Alpha Trionās voice. Heāsā¦ a bit higher pitched. Warmer. Even gentler. āMotherā¦ mercyā¦ā
He shakes his helm and the sand stubbornly clings, before at last he raises his face, zeroing in on the frightened, confused quartet.
āOhā¦ā he straightens up, optics drifting from each of their faces before focusing wholly on D-16. His expression slips from bafflement to a sort of pained compassion. Not quite pity, but if the way his mouth turns down and his optics narrow with sorrow are any indication, his spark aches for them. āOh, dearā¦ā
āD-Did he say-ā B-127ās optics are impossibly wide, and heās frozen on the spot, unable to move his pedes. āO-Onyx Prime-?ā
āIndeed,ā he nods in affirmation, straightening up. Though he remains in Alpha Trionās body, the sand constructs his visage, shaping around the crests of his helm and fanning out on his back to take the form of his wings. Wings that were missing from his corpse. āThough I wish our meeting was under less dire circumstances, children.ā
āY- Youāre-ā Elita is starting to frown, inching in front of her group with one arm out. āYouāreā¦ th-the god of death-ā Oh, Primus. Is he here to reap their sparks? Has Alpha Trion channeled him here to take them away?!
āDo not fear, little one. Peace,ā Onyx holds up one servo, and his optics glimmer with warmth. He smiles, gently, hoping to put them at ease. āI mean you no harm. I shepherd over the dead, those who have already passed on. I help them find their way home to Primus, and assist them in seeking rebirth, but I am not here to be your reaper. Pleaseā¦ do not be afraid.ā
He approaches them and kneels down just before D-16, looking deep into his optics. āBrother Alpha has called me here to speak to you, child.ā
āM-ā Dee is clinging tight to Orion, spark pulsing in fear. This- This is death incarnate! They said his hands could bleed a spark from itās frame with a single touch! They said he lorded over the afterlife and knew everyoneās date and time of death to the millisecond. Having him here, specifically to speak to him, made his throat threaten to close in panic. āMe?ā
āYes,ā Onyx Primeās servo gently touches his helm and he yelps, they all do, flinching away. But after several seconds he realizes, waitā¦ he can still feel everything. He can still feel Orion beside him, can still feel the warm gush of his vents. Actuallyā¦ he feels better. Physically, anyway: his frame is already beginning to lower itās heightened temperature back into the green zone, the insistent, horrible pain in his tanks is abating. His optics peak open, and finds Onyx still there, smiling kindly at him. āPleaseā¦ you neednāt be afraid. I swear to you, upon my graves, I shall not harm you.ā
āWhā¦ā Elita gulps. āWhy are youā¦?ā
His optics drift lower, to D-16ās chassis and abdomen. His expression saddens. āYou've been forced to endure something terribleā¦ oh, you poor, poor thingā¦ā
The Prime pulls his servo away from Deeās helm, though not before giving him an affectionate pat. āListen to me, little one. You are young, you are hurt, and the journey ahead will be very difficult regardless of the path you take. Forcing you to bear this sparkling forced upon you would be a great cruelty if it is not your choice to do so. If you would like, I will take them and return to the Allspark.ā
D-16ās spark slams to a stop in his chest. He stiffens, and Orion sits up straighter beside him. Elitaās mouth falls open.
āWhā¦ What are youā¦ā
āIt wonāt cause you nor them any pain. They will be safe, and you shall not be punished for it,ā he nods down at him. āI know this one, as I know all of them. They are a good spark, they will not resent you if you donāt wish to birth them. They will love you just the same, just as I will, and just as Primus will. The choice is entirely yours, little one.ā
Deeās audials start to ring, and he presses both palms to his chassis. Itās warm, overly warm as it has been the last several decacycles, and before heād thought it was the heat of fever, but now he knows it is because he hosts an infant soul anchored to his.
He feels frozen in place. He- he couldā¦ Onyx Prime wouldā¦?
He sobs again and covers his mouth, bowing his helm. āI- I donāt-ā he chokes. āI d-donāt know! I donāt know, I- I dunno, I-ā
Does he want this sparkling? Does he? He doesnāt know! When Alpha Trion had announced his state, heād been so happy. Over the moon in fact, beaming with pride and so excited to share the news. They were living proof of his and Orionās tryst with Sentinel, proof that they were loved and important, and they were so indescribably precious. Now, thoughā¦ now, theyāreā¦ theyāreā¦
Primus, he doesnāt know what they are! He wants to curse them, wants to rip them from his spark chamber and toss them away so thereās no evidence of what that monstrous false Prime had done to him. He doesnāt want to remember, doesnāt want a constant, hideous reminder of the worst thing to ever happen to him.
Butā¦ the part of him that was previously excited wars with the other half of him. He doesnāt know that thatās what this sparkling will be. Heād been so excited, so happy, and now in itās place thereās sadness and horror, and yet another part of him is so angry and repulsed andā¦ andā¦!
He sobs again, clawing at his helm. āI DONāT KNOW!ā he shouts, grinding his denta. āI donāt know, ok?! I donāt know!ā how can he? Everything is such a mess in his helm, emotions at war and raging back and forth, grappling for dominance and all trying to shove the other down. Heās scared. Heās hurt. Heās sparkbroken. This is his first sparkling. Perhaps once heād dreamed of this day, but pictured it so differently, hand in hand with someone who meant more to him than anything else, both of them with transformation cogs because they were good and hardworking and had been rewarded for their efforts. Perhaps he had dreamt of a home, with- with someone special, and a family with one or even two precious sparklings. It was a dream that was supposed to be achieved far into the future. Now, broken as he is, he worries it never will. Never can. It would be an impossibility, as he is nowā¦ if he kept this sparkling, he would have to look at it every day knowing he did not love the sire, and never could. He would have to look upon them as their only parent and know that his dreams of a happy life died long before they were even born.
Butā¦ if he lets them go, if he lets the god of the dead pluck them from his chest, he might never be fortunate enough to conceive again. What if this first sparkling is his only sparkling, and in letting them go, he loses his one chance? Itās too soon, itās too early, and circumstances are dire, butā¦ is he prepared to let them go? Knowing this could very well be his only chance?
D-16 sobs again, and Orionās arm wraps around his shoulder, pulling him close against his chassis. Deeās face burrows into his neck, whole body shaking as he whimpers again and again that he just doesnāt know!
ā...peace, my little one,ā Onyx Primeās voice is rife with sadness and empathy. āYou need not make a choice now, or even today. Iā¦ I apologize for bringing you further distress, but please know,ā he places his right servo over his spark in oath. āThe Primes are with you. When you make your choice, utter a prayer to me, and I will come to you if you require my aid.ā
With a sigh, all of the sand suddenly falls from Alpha Trionās body with the whisper of countless grains trickling to the floor, and when he blinks his optics become blue once more. āAhā¦ā he takes note of their distress, and shakes his helm sadly. āPoor childrenā¦ rest. You are weary. Rest, and I will feed you.ā once theyāve eaten and had time to process, he can reveal more to them, but that can wait.
They have suffered enough for one day.Ā
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And that's where I'm gonna cut part 2! Poor, poor Dee... this is the worst day of his life, but at least he has Orion to support him. I hope ya'll enjoyed this angst nugget :3 if you want part 3, ya'll know what to do. Abuse the crap out of my ask box lol. Gimme your thoughts or predictions as well, that's always fun
#transformers one#d-16#orion pax#alpha trion#elita#b-127#onyx prime#cw rape mention#cw discussion of abortion#press f for dee#brandwhore writes#your daily dose of angst#hope you guys enjoyed my onyx prime uwu
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So I think my perception of Grian's reasoning for enabling the horrible Jimmy ecosystem and also my perception of his character as a whole has been turned on its head completely and I feel really bad for him after watching Kingdom of Valor and it's like bad roleplay but it's. it's done things to me and I've never ever felt this much for Grian not even in my sadboy Grian Desert Duo phase. I don't know what to do about this
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Episodes 6 and 10 (like the entirety of it) for context. :( . :(. But like major warning if you watch those episodes, especially 10, because um they didn't use any disclaimers
#what the fuckkkkkkkkkk man what the fuckkkk hello#dont talk to me#Grian will never be the same to me again. Like everything makes too much sense now esp with Jimmy but at what cost#dont want Grian to kill himself anymore but at what cost...#like obviously its a completely seperate and abandoned thing but it makes so much fucking sense#from the perspective that Grian prioritizing his wellbeing over anyone else's is why he enforces the ecosystem#just so no one else including potentially him can take his place. Not so much putting Jimmy down as it is him protecting himself#he is still very awful but. I feel bad for him he might be a little bit of a son now I fear#Grian repeatedly saying he'd kill himself and shit. what the fuck#cw sa#cw suicide#tw suicide#tw sa mention#tw rape mention#and they made the conscious decision to put a new skin on him of him being bloodied and his clothes ripped and in um specific ways#and I could so easily see Jimmy in that same situation like that is just alternate universe Jimmy right there#and the two guys with him. his FRIENDS. who he cares about. are just joking about it nonstop and hitting him. help him. Help him#and they have this whole diary about a previous victim who's named Jimmi like hello. what a wild fucking coincidence#most unintentional abhorrent foreshadowing ever just to torture me specifically even though I've seen kingdom of valor only now#kingdom of valor#ok bye dont talk to me#tubby art
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