#cw negative //

[shamebats]

They should invent an economic system where I don't have to choose between having enough income to live off of and being able to feel joy

[howlsofbloodhounds]

man it is so hard for me to get behind fanon nightmare at all “ooh he saved them he saved killer 🥹” no the fuck his ass did not. color did that stop lying on my man he put in all the hard work and time and effort and blood and sweat and tears

[likeorpheus]

so i don't typically post stuff like this, especially because I really try to avoid negativity on this blog & have worked really hard to be distant from people due to a rough past here (past abusers & groomers). I also just came back from vacation with my family & was finally feeling refreshed so of course this would happen. & that isn't to say I haven't made good friendships here again or that I haven't somewhat come out of my shell (thanks to several people that I may list in a separate post for positivity reasons). But, the tumblr RPC is not my life nor my job. anon & response below the cut:

I can't insist enough that I have spotty activity or that I'm semi-selective & mostly when it comes to interactions. I can't insist enough that I am a college student & being in my student teaching program & working full-time hours & having side gigs to boot, is draining & debilitating. writing for me has always been a passion & a privilege. I've been writing 1x1 with my RL partner on discord for 3+ years now & recently we both decided to come back here because we missed the community. We missed nerding over our content with our mutuals/friends. We missed the connections, the memes, the art, & the creativity that comes with a community of like-minded people. I guess I forgot that people can be hateful. & the only reason I screen-capped the anon is because of my intention to block & to open up a dialogue about the anonymous messages intentions towards me. I will not write with someone who feels entitled to me. I will not interact with someone who also thinks that I'm "selfish" for taking time for myself, considering that I do my best to message people privately to apologize & let them know that I still have their reply, it's just that I'm dealing with a lot. I have fellow writers that I've written starters for & they never got responded to? But I don't go looking for them to make them feel bad about themselves. I understand they have lives, obligations, & things to deal with. half of the people I follow are the same people I knew from 10 or so years ago & the landscape of activity is very different & I'm not going to pretend that I am entitled to their time, their writing, their replies, their whatever.

I never thought I'd receive a message like this. & yes it hit where it hurts. considering that I feel a lot of embarrassment & a lot of anxiety for being low activity (despite stating as much in my rules & my pinned). But this goes for everyone that feels the same way towards me: tumblr rpc is not my life nor my job & you are not entitled to me.

[err0r-t4ken]

Tried to pretend to burn the revive book...

It. It went well, The Warden put me back into my proper place. He is definitely not standing over me with an axe to my I'm so grateful to have such a good influence here with me in the prison.

Someone who knows how to keep me in line and knows when to stop, knows when it's enough. I can always trust him and Si Quackity to keep me focused on what really matters.

I'd also like to send an apology to anyone who is concerned with my treatment in the prison. I am not being tortured. It was just a harmless prank

I am not in danger.

I am getting what I deserve.

They are right.

Do not look into the prison system.

Do not ask questions.

I am safe.

[draconicfool]

hey gamers so I was gonna make a post about turning anon on tentatively but it's just hard off now bc I think I'm being stalked or smth. The second I turned it on I got another one calling me an elitist bitch who ignores people when "writing isn't to standard"

So call this a vague or whatever cuz I'm assuming they can see. I'm so sorry that I'm not going to write with people who blatantly ignore my character's canon and try to push their headcanons and lore onto mine. I'm sorry that I'm not going to write with someone who purposefully antagonizes Eros just to turn around and act as if he was the victim. This is my blog I get to currate my space and choose who is and is not in my inner circle and who I write with. And if that makes me elitist then I don't care. I'm here to have a fun time at the end of the day and constantly having to argue my headcanons and what was canon for my character was not fun it was exhausting and it made me genuinely consider not writing anymore.

So I hope you find smth better to do with your life than sit on my blog waiting for the chance to bark at me.

[averagenolofinwean]

Maedhros: Why? Why do you always have to forgive me? Why can't you just let me rot in despair and die? It would be better that way, you know. This is difficult for you. This won't make you happy. I won't - I can't make you happy. Why don't you just choose someone else and let me fade peacefully? I don't have anything, I don't even have the silmarils, I am bound to an oath, an oath no elven creature can fullfill, I am a disgrace and an abomination-

Fingon: *sighs* Take your meds, love. Here, drink some water. Have you eaten something today? Here, let me help you. Let's go outside for a walk, okay?

[r1pleys]

there is literally nothing more heartbreaking / infuriating as parent then my child asking me if i'm going to leave them like papa did 🙃.

[forestofforever]

I'm not sure what the point of this blog even is anymore.

[levil0vesyou]

(in Antwort auf eine Frage ob es im Fitnessstudio geschlechtsneutrale Umkleiden für Nicht-Binäre gibt:)

Könnten cis Leute sich selber hören? 🤔

[magebastard]

i am my biggest hater i fear

WHY IS EVERYTHING I SAY/DO THE MOST ANNOYING THING I HAVE EVER HEARD/SEEN!!!!! I OVERTHINK EVERY THING I SAY/DO SO BAD AND IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE I AM BARELY A PERSON AT ALL!!!!!! IM LIKE A HALF GUY!!!!!!!!! AND THEN WHEN INTHINK BACK ON THINGS IVE SAID/DONE/POSTED IM LIKE “GOSH DUDE THIS SUCKS LOL” WHEN DO I GET THE FREEDOM OF NOT CARING!!! WHY MUST I CARE SO BAD!!!! ABOUT HOW I AM PERCEIVED!!!!!!!! IM TOO OLD FOR THIS!!!!!!

[restrainedhungr]

im not tolerating extreme hate that goes on the lines of telling or suggesting people should or will self harm because the series is bad because of the last 3 episodes

please seek genuine medical help if you believe this

[merrilark]

Not to keep harping on TUA S4, but that last anon reminded me that it's kind of hilarious how I actually got a lot of things I wanted out of the season, just in the wrong ways.

"I hope Ben doesn't have a romance with Jennifer!" = Technically doesn't because it's forced onto them by the marigold/durango reacting to each other, but it's still a "romance" by TUA standards.

"I hope Diego and Lila break up, or at least that the writing will acknowledge they're not healthy!" = They do, but in the most agonizing way possible with no resolution to the point that I can't be relieved.

"I hope Klaus has an intimate relationship with a woman, even in passing!" = He does, multiple times, but it's because he's being trafficked.

"I'll take any ending as long as it's not a time loop!" = Weeeell...

Truly a Monkey's Paw kind of situation and I need to be clearer about my wishes in the future. "The Unbearable Tragedy of Getting What You Want", indeed lmao

[styxisms]

// I'm sorry for not being active this weekend so far. I'm still recovering from the pink eye. And I got the news that my mother's health is worse than we expected and isn't going to improve. So my father was having a long talk with me on Friday about if/when she dies. I've always been very close with my mother. I knew she was sick but I'm just not ready for all of this. We talked briefly about a transplant but idk. I just don't know. I haven't been able to talk to her about it because she said she wanted to talk later. I can't even sit alone with my thoughts at all without tearing up. I know it's part of life. But man. It's so hard. Every time I start thinking I start crying. I haven't even slept much.

[shamebats]

Oblivious privileged US American trans people when someone asks for advice on how to pass pre-HRT replies simulator:

Comment 1: go on T/E

Comment 2: just start hrt it's like the bare minimum if you ever want to pass

Comment 3: I went on hrt the very moment I realized I was trans, just do that and then you can start transitioning for real

Comment 4: why no hrt?

Comment 5: I didn't come out until I was 5 years on HRT with a full beard and both top and bottom surgery with a body builder figure because I knew I could never pass as a man without all that it's literally impossible

Comment 6: it's simple, ok so if you want to pass as a man you'll need new glasses, a haircut (dye your hair dark), a whole new wardrobe, new shoes, voice training, minoxidil, a gym membership, protein powder, pre-workout, these 10 supplements and also you'll have to lose 20% of your body weight and remove all your piercings and get rid of any clothes in a color that isn't black, grey or blue, train yourself to always look annoyed and serious, also don't ever laugh or raise your voice when speaking and don't ever be friendly to people

[moenxs]

This is just a lil vent that i need to get out after therapy yesterday lmao.

let me preface this by saying this is not about anyone in particular but just something I've noticed over the last few months-

Okay i don't know if it's just me being a chronic over analyzer or like, is it really hard to properly talk to people in the rpc??

not that i don't understand that people have livelihoods outside of roleplay and writing because of course, that's a given and very much an expectation these days

i just mean more in the sense of like, sometimes it just feels like talking to brick walls sometimes? Like especially when it comes to trying to plot with someone. my gripe with this I guess is the fact that a lot of the times these same people are posting constantly about how much they'd like to plot with people and yet at the same time, it's like I'm the one doing all the work when it comes to approaching or even guiding the conversation.

which is especially rough considering i'm still not the best at plotting in general.

I hope this doesn't come across as just straight up complaining because I do get it that it can be hard to talk to new people or just in general but I just wish that people would put the same effort i do into cultivating a friendship of sorts.

It's the mutuality that I just think is missing and i don't know if it's because i'm a strictly OC writer, if maybe I'm too forward when messaging??? or maybe it really is just the other person and I'm just doing my best.

Idk i just wanted to get this off my chest because I've been sitting with these feelings for a little bit now and normally i wouldn't post something like this but i dunno maybe there's a mutual that feels the same way and needs to feel heard as well?

This will probably get deleted at some point within the next few days but hopefully this doesn't come off as entitled or anything, I'm pretty bad at describing these kinds of things in a way that doesn't sound horrifically blunt QAQ

[draconicfool]

also um hey hi so i don't wanna be a drama queen or an ass or whatever

but here's what we're not gonna do to rat. we're not gonna go on anon and claim i'm an elitist who ignores people for funsies and that i'm 'a fucked up creep' for writing what i do

you have a problem you can talk to me or you can block me. point blank end of story period that is it.

anon's getting turned off.