#cw drvgs

[aspd-culture]

aspd + probably delusional culture is feeling like some kind of substance abuse will fix you (it definitely wont but can't hurt to try right?) (it definitely can but oh well)

aspd-culture-is

[the-only-kim-k-that-matters]

I lost my pen and still had a cart so i took apart the charger to a vibrator i dont use anymore and am currently reaping the fruits of my labor. Thinking about being an electrician by trade. What a time to be alive

[jxstbxnny]

[epinephrinelove]

took this from a video on tiktok, i forgot the user but they post 2015 tumblr stuff.

[perkyaddict]

All I ever do is get fuckeddd uppp

[keiiniine]

Average DPH OD

[aspd-culture]

I'm curious what other pwASPD's relationships with cannabis use? I find it usually helps keep my temper down and just smoothes out some of the rough edges, but at the cost of making me even more blunt and paranoid

In my experience, it is SUPER strain dependent. I can't even reliably say things like "oh, hybrids are ok but sativas make me flare", it is literally strain by strain. I may be completely chill and have less symptoms on one strain when it's in a hybrid, but that same one on it's own can make me irritable and distance myself from others. I definitely have met some that worsened my impulsive reactions to anger.

I am also more prone to "greening out" because literally never having smoked even one time or getting a contact h1gh, like literally nothing until I was around 21. So admittedly, that could be part of it, but I know other pwASPD irl who have smoked since they were teens and have the same issue with having to go strain by strain.

It also seems to depend a lot on your specific symptoms and neurology because the same strains that I use to feel affectionate and social make some of my antisocial friends withdraw from socializing. Unfortunately, it seems to be a lot of trial and error.

[nothindjinn]

counter productive choice bc these donuts definitely not getting eaten but also good bc who's trying to binge here

[jxstbxnny]

💉🫀🫗

[heavens-gateway]

He's a dead man walking..

[qassttuf]

I hate that stimulants make me hungry 😭

[opioidenjoyer]

Ive heard that $2 bills can bring luck into your life, heres some for my 500 enjoyers now 💛☘️

R039s 2mg 🚌🍟

[coke-n-butterflywings]

[mental-illness-bingo]

CW venting about UTI - mostly just referring to pain though so not a lot of bathroom talk & nothing gross:

Also I’m gonna fucking collapse from the pain of a UTI. I literally got antibiotics prescribed via my insurance’s telehealth at like 5:30am because I woke up at 5am out of dead sleep (and under 3 hours of it) unable to sleep from the sudden Unbearable Urge™️. I got them as soon as I possibly could and took them as soon as I got home because I need this to go away.

It’s worth noting that my pain tolerance is quite high too! This is not joking around levels of pain.

I’m in so much pain right now and nothing is helping enough that I can get any calm. Not ibuprofen, not chugging water which I HATE so I put my hydration stuff for pots into it to make it at least not taste like shit, not going to the bathroom every single time my body even slightly tells me to go (not the unending urge but the genuine “hey go to the bathroom” underneath it) so like every 30 minutes or less rn, not heat pads. Hell not even fucking w**d which I hate using for anything bc I have trauma with it (it’s legal here and I use the tiniest micro-hits of a vape cart maybe like one or two hits a month when my PTSD is extremely severe out of nowhere, but rn I’m doing a full hit and it’s easing it but only a bit). It’s not that none of it is helping at all, but it’s not helping enough that I can even slightly relax. It is not ignorable pain not even for a full minute.

No position I stand, sit, or lay down in is helping either. It hurts exactly the same in all ways.

I went ALL DAY with only bearable pain that I could distract myself from well enough to be alright with it, and then suddenly at like 10pm my body was like “welp hope you had fun with that”.

And yes, before anyone worries, I am taking the antibiotics they gave exactly as prescribed but it’s only been like a little over 12 hours so it’s not at the point where it would ease up yet.

I already struggle so much with my mental health and this has driven it into the ground. Why bother with anything when life simply does this to me at random times and there’s nothing I can do about it?

And I can’t buy the UTI specific pain relief (AZO) because I don’t have any money until my refund processes for something which should be soon but probably at least a couple days at which point I will either feel better or literally go to the urgent care and if they wanna send me to the hospital they have my blessing just make. It. Stop.

And I couldn’t ask the doctor on the app to give me something for pain bc I’m gonna sound drvg seeking when all I want is whatever that OTC stuff is just long enough that the antibiotics make this ease up or I find my way to a doctor in person.

Also I live with an AMAB who, while hearing and seeing me in extreme pain, is totally brushing me off and asking me to do a bunch of stuff and I can’t even focus on taking two deep breaths. And when I say “you do not seem to realize how painful this is I am literally on the verge of tears”, I just get told about how he’s had a UTI before. Like okay?! But clearly it either wasn’t as severe as this or you’ve forgotten what it felt like. But you do not seem to give two fucks about me being in pain. “Come hang out with me” I would genuinely love to but I am laying in bed because The Horrors are currently living in my body.

[jxstbxnny]

꧁𝔱𝔴: 𝔡𝔯𝔲𝔤𝔰, 𝔞𝔡𝔡𝔦𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫, 𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔱𝔞𝔩 𝔥𝔢𝔞𝔩𝔱𝔥, 𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔲𝔪𝔞꧂

ㅤ♡ྀི 𝔣𝔢𝔢𝔩 𝔣𝔯𝔢𝔢 𝔱𝔬 𝔞𝔰𝔨 𝔞𝔟𝔬𝔲𝔱 𝔪𝔶 𝔠𝔬𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔫𝔱 & 𝔭𝔯𝔦𝔠𝔢𝔰 ㅤ♡ྀི

[youwillleaveme]

i just want to take molly with my besties rn everything would be fixed