#cuz then id have to go change all the links

[trashshouldnt]

hello, please use this as an excuse to ramble about your favorite hyperfixation for as long as you want.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAY OKAY SO. now you all get to hear about fish again >:] [putting thjs under the cut for a bit too silly]

so im thinking when I'm older and have a bit more money i might open a fish store of some kind, cuz there's really only chain stores in my area and i wanna change that! ideally i would have like maaaybe a section for other exotic pets too but thats debatable. id have large tanks for the fish including the bettas because thats a major gripe i have with places like petco/smart, that they just keep their fish in poor conditions and make them sickly. like maybe a big display/community tank with plants and some of my favorite fish, so that beginner people can see what you can do at a more advanced level and advanced fishkeepers can go "huh that's cool he's got a [such and such fish] in there with a [so and so fish] and blah blah blah", like a real conversation starter yknow? and then i could research and make like. okay so in thinking of a pamphlet/s for the fish that get commonly mistreated [cough cough goldfish cough cough bettas] for common misconceptions and debunking it, and then maybe i could also have a website for all this so people can find links to trusted care guides!! the floor plan would obviously have to be accessible because i cant gatekeep fish, what am i some kind of fish... gatekeeper? and the kind of fish i keep there would probably change every so often with new shipments and stuff. id definitely also have a designated Cool And Awesome Shrimp Tank so people can see the different shrimp i have. that might be better as like a shrimp wall where its a bunch of tanks though...

i know you said hyperfixation and not crazy scheme but in my defense its a really cool scheme lol

[mezmer]

Mention of death toward the end

Lately I've been thinking about how much pain my grandma was in during her last days and how she was opening up for years about the pain she felt, how she felt nobody was respecting her or helping her in her last years, how she felt like everyone hated her cuz that's genuinely how my mom kind of treated her. And I grew up yanno when I was old enough to handle it, with my mom telling me how bad my grandma was. And id ask her what grandma did and one thing that seemed to really bother my mom was my grandma having a breakdown and stabbing the couch with a knife. That's it. And stealing my mom's Ritalin. Idk that's a mentally ill woman. Maybe I feel bad looking at it from the granddaughter's point of view as opposed to a daughter. My grandma had a hard life. She was close to her brothers and lost them both in freak accidents when she was young. Both her parents also in freak accidents, separately. Swear to God. And my grandma had a good handle on life probably 90% of the time. She was a very funny and sweet talkative woman. And I've seen her cry, when I was very young, and it changed me, not in a bad way. My mom has huge resentments yet calls me "little sue", as in, she compares me to my grandma often, and I've gotten similar trwatment. My mom has chilled out a lot about her treatment of me since I moved out though.

Anyway, the point is, I feel that growing up with my mom whispering in my ear that grandma is a miserable woman, dramatic, always complaining, shaped me before I was able to take a step back and reason with those comments fairly. So while my grandma was growing more ill and weak in her last few years, my mom would make comments like "she's being so dramatic, talking about how she's going to die" well yeah. She is. And everyone is acting annoyed by her. Everyone is leaving her to cry instead of listening to her. Well it isn't easy to be there for somebody in that situation, I know.

But one thing my grandma taught me from a. VERY early age. Respect your elders. Respect your grandparents. And she told me that her own grandparents taught her that when she was very young.

I regret not listening to her and sort of gravitating toward whatever it was my mom said to me. But really, I never believed my grandma was being dramatic. I JUST COULDNT comprehend her suffering. Now I do. Now I understand. It was like blank space to me, and I would just avoid it. I never should have avoided it. Her final days, I was there about a month before she passed. Usually a month before old folks will still be lucid. God, she was in so much pain, crying out, still even on very strong opiates. In contrast, my maternal grandma was smiling and talking to me two days before her passing, similar situations and ailments between the two of them.

But lately I have been thinking about it so much. She moved to Michigan toward the end so my aunt could help her. She was living with us a year prior and that's when my mom was just a mess. I can't blame my mom too much, but I know it was wrong. I'm remembering all the YouTube links she was posting on my wall that I wouldn't always watch. Remembering her making a photo of me her profile picture before her last fall. And when she passed, it was her profile picture. My aunt went on and changed it back to a photo of her which I appreciate. It was hard seeing that. And she loved me so much. When I came to see her, she said "Maddie oh Maddie ..." And started to cry. After that, she did not recognize me or interact with me ever again. What I would do to hold her. Why didn't I embrace her and hold her in that moment? Why did I step back and watch? I am sickened by it. I regret it so much

[spoiledlbleach]

About Q!BBH not being able to die, what about what happened to Q!Rubius? BBH uses a mixed mythology, in some Mythology gods can be killed such as Norse (i.e. Baldur) he could theoretically be killable in his current form or his current form itself may be killable. I mean other players were able to kill him in purgatory albeit not permanently. Other powerful beings such Cucurucho, Lil J and Lil S have creative mode while Q!BBH doesn't.

so if you're curious I'm answering an ask which touches upon my theory on q!bbh's immortality

the continuation is under the cut

so yeah i havent thought a lot abt my theory so it doesnt make some sense so i thought id spit out some thoughts i had while writing thatthe original post

q!bbh has lived longer than possible for any human, a few millenia. usually in media it means that the long living creature is immortal. yet we have qbbh's limbo which means he can die (wanna point out that the wording in the original post wasn't great but what i meant by "bbh cant die" is that hes not allowed to, not unable; read more in the last paragraph but shortly speaking: power imbalance). and this leaves us with other variants of limited immortality, or immortality on conditions like dependent on will (the creature can die if it gives up on living), prophesy or some other stuff

i think in q!bbh's case he can live forever or die if he puts his mind to it. and his immortality doesnt mean constant regen or inability to be hurt at all or something like this, he is vulnerable to illnesses and hurt from physical world and to live on he has to endure it because he can and his physical form can handle it

and actually i dont think its fair to include purgatory in this cuz at that time period everyone was killable and immortal in some sort. deaths didnt count so i dont think we gain something from that kill system in terms of lore (and lore can be anything that is meaningful to the story)

and i think creative mode is a great sign for absolute immortality. cucurucho doesnt die at all. and in terms of q!rubius i can link him being a mortal now with christianity??? umm lemme explain. so. jesus was a son of god right. and he was human (sorta?) and was killable (also sorta?). and considering that theres Lil J who may be jesus???? or not i think as a god he can canonically (bible lore wise) turn into human? yeah this was a great train of thought amirite

and i also dont think bbh is a god. hes a grim reaper and dapper is a grim reaper in training, which either mean grim reaper is a title and can be given to the worty by the previous grim reaper or q!bbh can be joking and just being cute w his kid like "omggg look dapper is a grim reaper in training" and being gr in training is impossible yk

so grim reaper is a powerful being which doesnt mean they must be immortal at all times. and yet grim reaper dissappearing from the world full of mortals who die constantly (in terms of.. yk millenia) is going to change the balance of the universe and the disappearance of lil j and lil s wont (bc evil and good is gonna exist anyway, they are not embodiments of these concepts respectively; and also these dudes were acting like some type of sponsors and mentors at the same time and after their disappearance nothing happened and none of the residents was sent to the purgatory because they were called sinners right? did i just fucking think of another theory)

so yeah. q!bbh

[yuukei-yikes]

do you think shintaka ever sort out their codependency or does it just get worse

*cracks knuckles*

they do sort it out. but it's obviously not super ideal lol

in my sick twisted mind it is all stitched together with the mess of shinaya too. I WANNA WRITE A FIC SO BAD *banging table* i have this very specific relationship hell for shintaro thought out. *scratches head*

i talk a little bit abt it here and i think in other places but heh. honestly when i link to other posts its not rly like begging u to read them its more like a disclaimer that i might repeat myself which honestly i dont mind doing bc im crazy and im gonna talk abt the same things 1 billion times GLADLY. SO... >:3!!!! ITS MY TIME. have fun:

basically. so the usual right, takane feels like if she isnt watching shintaro all the time he could suddenly revert back to being a shut in and shintaro is comfortable having takane because she's familiar and the single constant in this life and all other lives in all other timelines. ene has always been there. takane = ene while a shock, to shintaro he can barely make a big deal out of it after retaining is activated bc he's seen it a million times. of course takane is ene. if anything the one needing closure over this reveal is takane.

i think post str shintaro is incredibly kind to her about it though. i think he feels immensely guilty for route xxx and is able to be openly thankful and they have a tender moment together. i think this single heart to heart changes everything for them. shintaro acts annoyed over takane's clinginess post str but becomes terrified when she's away, and sort of desperately looks for her the same way she does for him essentially reciprocating the sick need of each other, the difference is that he tries acting all cool abt it and making excuses while takane is sort of more direct abt like. HEY ARE U ALIVE??? JUST CHECKING IN LOLLL OK TALK TO U LATER ASSHOLE LOVE UUU!!! while shintaro's like ermmm...i was calling u cuz my comp is acting weird?? idk i tried some stuff but id rather u look at it to make sure. and takanes like LOL

like takane is totally delighted. shintaro isn't resenting her, he's gladly accepting her into his life and treating her like a friend and she KNOWS him so she knows that even if he says he wants her away the way he acts says otherwise. like she can read him like a book there is nothing he can hide from her, takane is able to see everything going on thru his mind. no one but her is more mindful abt everything that retaining eyes implies. maybe ayano, but we know which one shintaro is more comfortable about HEH. the fact takane is so direct about knowing about it and how hard it must be is also immensely comforting to shintaro (AGAIN ayano also does this but ayano is scary to shintaro) shintaro reciprocates takane's need for him again bc she is familiar and a comfortable constant but also because she is taking care of feeling all the heavy things for him. shintaro is desperate to stop feeling and takane is desperate to ignore her own feelings. but it doesn't REALLY work. shintaro still feels sad and broken and terrified. and takane still feels overwhelmed and in disbelief and unsure about everything. does this make sense.

takane's thing is like... okay erm. let's put takane under the microscope for a single moment. I'll try not to go TOO crazy.

ok. disclaimer. i could get very fun and nitty gritty abt the misogyny in takane's writing, how all her povs revolve solely around haruka & shintaro and essentially ends up being a female character who revolves everything around 2 guys, if not one the other and etc. but. i will not do that. i will just mention it there in passing and do what u do with it lol. that aside, basically takane is the kind of person who desperately focuses on worrying about someone else so she doesn't have to think of herself and her own problems.

takane is dealing with... a lot. because she had given up on life. well life gave up on her rather. she was dead you know. she decides to dedicate herself to shintaro and shintaro alone. her purpose was being company for him and keep him moving. and all of a sudden she finds herself alive and having to face the life she unwillingly left behind, and everything that comes with that like. having a body, being honest with haruka, accepting her illness is a part of her, etc. i think takane deals with a lot of existential crisis LMAOO like she CANNOT BELIEVE she is real. she has 1 line saying she felt like the whole time she was ene felt like a dream and it felt like a relief to hear shintaro talk to her as takane because it made her see it really happened. and i took this line and RAN WITH IT‼️‼️‼️

shintaro needs to be needed by takane and takane needs to be needed by shintaro. lol. they got 30 mental illnesses💗 but the thing is. one has retaining and the other doesn't 💥

their relationships to haruka & ayano are important in this and play a huge part in it too not only because its REALLY REALLY REALLY funny for takane to ditch haruka all the time to go find shintaro's wallet or something and for shintaro to tell ayano ok u can sleep over tonight i practiced cuddling with takane so im all good to go like that wont make ayano scream in her pillow for the next day. like theyre so sick in the head. but anyways ITS SO mixed in with shinaya's sick as hell relationship that i already wrote like 80 posts about and im not repeating myself im just gonna assume u know what i mean LIKE THIS IS WHY I NEED TO WRITE A FANFIC whatever.

as that happens with shinaya (like actual dumpster fire sirens going off glass breaking trashcan falling over etc) takane has haruka. haruka has his own set of problems feeling not good enough for her + survival guilt (for konoha) + terrified of being alone again. but takane's aware of the codependent issue basically bc haruka keeps telling her even if not as firmly and she would need so it takes longer than ideal. it's like present in her mind that it's a totally fucked up way too feel. also haruka & takane are totally in the same page abt holy shit we're ALIVE?? AND WE HAVE OUR BODIES??? WE HAVE TO FACE OUR LIVES AND MOVE FORWARD?? WE'RE IN OUR TWENTIES??? AUGGHHHH lol they go thru it together MAN I LOVE HARUTAKA sorry im normal. i know jin is allergic to giving takane a problem that isnt related to a guy but to me she also goes thru the same omg im in my twenties thing as haruka. bc like. yeah hiyori and ayano were stuck in the daze too but haruka was also watching everything outside. like takane he was a painful bystander. even if takane's spirit wasnt in the daze she was still playing a sorta similar role outside. like u can watch but u can barely do anything!! because youre DEAD!! haruka&takane understand each other's struggles more than anyone else, and suddenly they're alive and also the oldest in the group and they're like. ok lol. let's fucking go i guess. haruka and takane existentialism crisis crying for 3 hours then having to pull themselves together bc they have to do groceries. the horrors are indescribable but we have to pay rent. i love harutaka *shaking*

and haruka is super comprehensive about takane's thing with shintaro even if it's mixed in with all his feelings of omg takane prefers him omg takane is super best friends with the dan who all probably resent me for replacing konoha omg im gonna be alone augghhh like lol he's GOING THRU IT TOO but!!! takane also helps him!!!!!! theyre there for each other!!! they dont weaponize these things against each other, in fact it brings them closer. total opposite to shintaro and ayano. so takane's getting out of this mindset before shintaro does and she is really self aware and slowly making progress and ermmm becoming a little pissed off abt how he takes her for granted. bc he does.

again. takane is a constant. that means she is always here. in shintaro and takane's relationships it doesnt go both ways how they help each other. they dont help each other, takane helps shintaro and thats it. ene's always been secretive and ene is always been ene and now ene is always been takane and while shintaro knows this he's also never... had takane as takane before? so even if she's familiar and accepting her helicoptering over him, he's also totally preoccupied with all his other issues to even think about takane's side of things. shintaro despite his babygirl tendencies is at the end of the day a very self centered person, its hard for him. i dont mean it to say he sucks or anything. i think its genuinely rly hard for him!! he's going through a lot!! and he's bad with people and words and emotions!! he doesnt... stop being self centered though. not for now at least. and takane isnt exactly begging him to help her or anything because HARUKA is helping her with her issues. while shintaro is trusting everything on takane, and ayano is begging him to open up to her, takane is trusting haruka and continuously lets him help her and also helps him with his stuff. like shinaya and harutaka are dealing with similar situations in TOTALLY different ways

so for shintaro to find out/realise takane is also hurting he's like oh my god im such an ASS because OF COURSE SHE IS!!! but he's like i thought letting her be insane abt me was enough help??? bc AGAIN he hasn't really recognized that it actually goes both ways and he needs her as much as she needs him. it only becomes apparent when takane is needing him less and less bc she's been healing outside of their fucked up dynamic and he's like wait a damn moment???!!!!! so he's like TAKANE why didn't u say anything!!! and takane's like erm idk. it just kinda played out like that it's fine haruka is there for me im working on it and stuff and shintaro is SOOO insane abt it because realising takane's been relying on someone else takes him out of this familiarity and he's like oh my god TAKANE IS ALIVE HARUKA IS ALIVE AYANO IS ALIVE OH MY GOD THEYRE ALL MOVING ON WITHOUT ME OH MY GOD and its so uncomfortable for him. its so uncomfortable to see takane with haruka the same way it makes him uncomfortable to be with ayano because it makes him so painfully aware of like. THIS IS THE GOOD ENDING. yknow.

anyways... shinaya breakup happens lol!!! takane is again here to pick up the pieces. and shintaro is SO broken over this that takane soooorta reverts back bc YIKES HES NOT DOING GOOD. shintaro is clinging on her so bad it makes him look stupid. like i said in the insane shinaya reply. being back to being despaired over ayano and crying on takane is familiar! self sabotage at its finest, its pain that he knows. new things he hasnt seen are terrifying!!! and this way.... takane is away from haruka, rather paying attention to him instead and he is dragging her down with him!!! its awful but its comforting to think for him like YES!!! TAKANE IS ALSO BAD!!! TAKANE IS ALSO STUCK WITH ME!!!! BTW THIS IS ALL ON AN UNCONSCIOUS LEVEL FOR SHINTARO LMAO.

but takane is AWARE... like yeah she gets he's sad over his breakup but takane doesnt TOTALLY revert back. like by this point its been a long time and she's totally aware of their codependency & working on it & already resenting a little how shintaro takes her for granted. and when it's been long enough and shintaro is still pathetically sobbing abt ayano, takane's been back in ene mode trying to distract him and cheer him up like always but she's like. man i have a job to get to. can we wrap this up for today. LOL LIKE takane has a fucking life so even if shintaro's (unconsciously) like omg yess its like it used to be, it isnt because takane has shit to take care of outside of him😭 she can be like. sorry man i gotta go i got a thing with haruka and shintaro's like ???? because... "normally" she would cancel on haruka for him and now she wont and shintaro's like wh??? and maybe he points it out and it REALLY pisses takane off LOLLL

ok so takane ticking time bomb abt to tell shintaro off + shinaya breakup + kanoshin insanity. *rubs hands together* shintaro about to accidentally finish destroying his relationship with takane that's already hanging by a thread. because he's dealing with all the guilt over his breakup with ayano and the newly found kinship with kano(+internalized homophobia) and he's like... so desperate. he's like. ok. there is 1 person in this world who will still have me and make me feel normal abt being this way.

sorry for shipping shintaka and being insane. shintaro wants to date takane. SORRY I KNOW its born from an insane fucked up situation and its truly the last straw for takane because she's like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUIUUUT WHAT THE HELLLLLL bc shintaro's only going to her bc 1. to make me feel straight 💥 2. to make me feel valid💥💥💥 LIKE HES NOT THINKING OF HER FEELINGS AT ALL and i do think he'd fall for her in a little fucked up way like well idk??? i dont know but i definitely think shintaro&takane feel a very specific way abt each other and in his desperation shintaro decided to call it love LOL. takane would treat it sensibly if SHE DIDNT FUCKING KNOW WHAT WAS GOING ON and she sends him to hell for it LOLLLL !!!!! this also distances haruka & shintaro because SHINTARO KNEW haruka is insanely self conscious and insecure and always treated the situation with kid gloves in fear of takane being like lol u dont like me hanging out with shintaro?? bye then. like he knows haruka has always been scared of takane choosing shintaro over him (even if not romantically) and then HE GOES AND DOES THAT AND even someone like haruka is like. bro... because listen by this point!!! haruka and takane have grown A LOT as people and as a couple while shintaro was stuck in this insane quarrel with ayano and himself and has his head so far up his own ass he couldn't see how horrible of an idea it is until he does it and ends up fucking up with friendship with both takane AND haruka. fun

SO............. umm. ur question. yes they do sort it out. shintaro has to grow a lot though. i think its his fallout with takane that is his last straw and he sort of realises he has got to make a change and accept this reality as terrifying as it is. its definitely a quartet fallout too. ofc they makeup!! ofc shintaro apologizes, of course they start talking again (i don't think they'd go long without talking btw i think takane's just like we. need time apart) and ofc they get to a point where the quartet is all together again even if shintaro and ayano are broken up, they get to be on friendly terms after enough time apart, and shintaro and takane can also be normal friends. they are still bestest friends but definitely more proper and shintaro now acts like a person to takane instead of taking her for granted and is there for her like a proper friend would be and etc. ofc it gets to that!!! but lol. isnt it so fun to have a circus first :3

THEY JUST NEED A BIT OF TIME APART..... but they are best of friends. they're one of a kind to each other💗 erm. Hi

[meiko3323]

Father in her character demo be like:

ok im not by any means a lore theorizer, my brain is much too smooth for that, but every now and then, like a bouncing DVD logo touching a corner, i have a coherent thought. and Arlecchinos demo sparked some which id like to put forth. making it as a text post cuz archons know, i get real wordsy ^^'

spoilers obv if youre not far enough in story.

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now. upon several rewatches of the original and reactions, the first non-Arle voiceline jumped out at me:

"A spark cannot shatter all shadows until it sets all ablaze or else to the other end of light lie still bleak shades"

this made me think back to was it Childes or Wanderers voiceline? where they say that given the chance, the Knave would betray the Harbingers if it suited her. so what if, hear me out, in her quest of retribution she seeks to somehow go against the Fatui/ Harbingers/ Tsaritsa? retribution that is, for the myriad suffering theyve caused to innocent ppl around teyvat. idk abt full on taking them down, as the top 3 harbs are said to have power that rivals archons, but mb put a sizeable dent in their forces, or otherwise impede their plans. she also heavily implied a wish to collaborate w us, the Traveller, in the future at several occasions during the Fontaine AQ. mb she wants to enlist our help in her goal. circling back to that line, i think the spark is obv Father, and the shadows she wishes to shatter i strongly believe are the Fatui/ Harbingers. and unlike me, the line after is confidently saying "set ALL ablaze" = complete eradication of that organization.

my next thought was actually aided by a yt comment under one of the recent vids w her (idr if teaser, demo, or short, likely short) that said sth along the lines of "shes not a wolf in sheeps clothing, shes a sheep in wolfs clothing, forced to blend in w the wolves that took her in". this comment popped into my mind as i watched the scene where she is walking in mb some type of dream or mind world, w numerous children running around, playing and singing. and she has such a soft look on her face as she gazes at them. but then she collects herself w her signature 🤫 to flip the switch to ig we can call it her wolf side, and the scene changes to her against the red eclipse moon thing (crimson moon?). where was i going w this?.. i think the fact that her "natural" or innermost state is her sheep side where she just wishes to run the orphanage in peace and be a good mother Father to the children and she has to actively suppress that and channel her wolf side in order to carry out her version of justice, and ofc keep blending in w her adoptive wolves (harbingers) until the time is right.

finally, her last voiceline of the demo struck me as very crucial:

"I hear that the children love to play by the fireplace, so let us continue to use the name, "House of the Hearth". Still... its flame is no longer needed for you have the strength to defend yourselves"

from what i can unpack, this is obv talking abt her leaving her position as orphanage director and passing that torch (heh) to Lyney. which btw goes in line w a theory proposed by ABD Illustrates on yt regarding pyro characters (and jumping off to predict plot of Natlan). ill link it btw, go give it a watch, its very insightful:

anyway. she wants the orphanage to keep its name after her retirement. she feels that the children no longer need her (its flame) as under Lyneys leadership they can fend for themselves. a sad look comes across her face as she says this. i believe shes not as unfeeling/ uncaring and is more attached to the children than she dares to admit, and is pained to leave them behind in pursuit of her greater goals.

oh and going back to the 4.6 patch trailer, the boss battle bw her and her main trio of children - despite her thinking Lyney is fit to take over, she wants to give him one final test ig to reaffirm her decision, and to give him the confidence boost to take up that post. cuz he is very unsure of himself, and is always anxious of disappointing Father and not living up to w/e expectations he believes she has for him.

omg that was a lot. this was prob a solid hour of pure stream of consciousness. hopefully theres some coherent nuggets in there. most of it isnt horribly deep, honestly prob surface level stuff that might be painfully obv to others. but i wanted to write it out nonetheless

i invite anyone that bothered to read these long-winded ramblings to respectfully share their thoughts/ theories in the comments and/ or reblogs. was there anything i missed or forgor?

thank you for your time ^^

ps: the trailer was phenomenal btw OMG - the cinematography, the music?! i cant wait for tnbee to make an epic remix of it. and ofc for real lore theorists to dig in and drop their videos on it o3o

[goremet-chef]

i love polyamory 🗣‼ life changing for real like. IDK i think a lot of my disconnect to things directly comes from autism so to ik to a lot of people they CANNOT imagine such a thing but its pretty easy for me? like its just a bigger relationship its great, i work better in groups anyways thats why like all of my self inserts are inserted into polyam relationships. if its not virginia and kelvin, its link and sidon, papyrus and mettaton LIKE. SHIT LIKE THAT its just second nature for me.

(didnt mean to ramble so hard but welcome back to dominics yapping club today we're going to be yapping about my connection with romantic vs platonic love because its my tumblr and im here to YAP)

i guess that disconnect honestly. i STILL really have no idea if im actually aromantic or not. like i do a lot of yearning but am i REALLY yearning? i cant read myself so i have no idea like genuinely it is a FULL mystery who knows!!!! i think maybe like. okay it falls on bpd and how that affected my relationships, when i think back to it i can tell everyone ive ever been in relationship with, they were my FP so maybe i did love them? but i know i was also obsessed like.... listen looking back on younger me clueless to what bpd even was, having a mental breakdown in middleschool cuz yr online girlfriend made matching icons with HER AND HER FRIENDS FURSONAS..... like genuinely i was SO CRUSHED i thought it was over and done and i was like what about all that we had!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO DRAMATIC OKAY... i dont blame younger me cuz he couldnt have known but like... the signs have always been there KSFS im a lot more. managed now, at least i try my best to be and from what i can tell in my 'recent' relationship adventures, one of them i was ONLY obsessed with for a little while cuz he gave me attention even tho he sucked a little and then the obsession like.. faded. it was over and i said goodbye and that was that (which. IK IT SOUNDS AWFUL but it was one of those sexual interest things and outside of that attention, he was very manipulative and honestly a little rude so. i did the right thing idk why i keep losing the relationship lottery)

i guess i just get nervous about that happening again, but like. im slowly realizing i can be obsessed with someone yes, but i can also love them. i think i spent a while there like.. discrediting any of the love i felt for anyone because it was accompanied with obsession, but thats not true!! i did love them, i loved her and i loved him and it all like. idk its a lie, ive been lying to myself and saying im only capable of brutal obsession when its not true, i can love too. i love all the time!!!!! i love my pets i love my friends like. im a lover!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is honestly the first time im really realizing that tbh but. its the truth even if theres a lot of bitterness and anger and pain inside of me, there is also love

i think my problem is i just dont understand romantic relationship? like on an autism level cuz to me like. whats the difference between a partner and a friend? LIKE GENUINELY cuz im about as affectionate with a friend as how i should be with a partner SO WHERES THE LINE? to me there just is no line like idk i really cant see it! i think if yr dating someone, they SHOULD be yr friend because what................. like how could you get with someone whos not yr friend already yknow what i mean where did you find that guy!!!! and where has he BEEEN put him back bro.....

and even then i think i hear a lot of people describe their relationships as like 'dating their best friend' yes im sure but that just makes it murkier like. i think that romance isnt real guys i think its made up and its just a word, theres this like. this elevation of romantic love in comparison to platonic love and i do not understand why because its the same thing for me? i love my friends just as hard as id love a partner because thats what they DESERVE, so like idk i think in my head i dont see it either way its just love? the lines are too blurry for me to process so i just disregard them completely, somethin like that.

interesting to think about but it. like no one else feels that way so its very. if i did have a partner, could i give them what they need? i could love them til the very end, but like. what do they want from me............... like is there some unspoken rules that i need to have spoken to me or something, is it wrong for me to love my friends like that? is it wrong for me to love my partner like that? like i genuinely cant tell. i know people say ohh when you fall in love its this connection youve never had before its so special and new and different from yr other relationships and to that??? you must just not have very close friends!!! id do anything for my friends id lay my life down for them id eat them out id DO ORGANIZED CRIME AND BECOME A MAFIA BOSS i let them PEER PRESSURE ME INTO DRUGS AND ALCOHOL (lie), id go out on FRIEND DATES BASICALLY its so cute we all go out together and just hang around and shop and eat together like i love it and i would sit in their beds and just. be quiet because we dont need to be talking !!!!!!!!!!! ill sleep with them ill let them touch me even which says a lot cuz i REALLY dont like to be touched!!!!!! its love so deep it makes my brain fuzzy like im giggling right now teehee i love all my friends so much i give every single one of them a little kiss

my POINT IS i jsut dont see the need for like. the labels i guess? because to me there is no difference between romantic and platonic love, its all just LOVE i think thats whats made me feel so. STRANGE all the time, everyone always describes sparks and shit and i just dont understand cuz i spark with everyone i love, i wouldnt love them if i didnt!!!!!! grining

so am i aromantic? i do not know because i dont believe in romantic love/???? like. i dont think its that im lacking romantic attraction i think its just that romantic attraction and platonic attraction are the same thing for me basically like its just RAW LOVE AND ADORATION and i can extend that to anyone

OKAY i know this is so long this is literally me just. im like self mediating myself rn okay im HELPING MYSELF UNDERSTAND ME BETTER cuz i really have no idea whats going on at all

[kennyisaloserr]

LAST UPDATED ;; 10 / 08 / 23 !

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" YEAH ... IM TIRED GUYS , THINK I'M GONNA GO TO BED . . . " /Q

WAVES HI HELLO HII !!! im kenny ! you might have originally known me as slime (@vicchaos) ! ive decided im going to recreate my blog , brand and new . and this is my intro !! :3

;; ABOUT ME !!

my name is kenny !

i use he / they pronouns & im a transmasc omnisexual ( fem pref ! ) :3

my birthday is 04 / 01 ( april 1 ! ) and i am a MINOR ( age range 12 - 15 )

i love south park !! im also a previous dsmp fan ( previous since it sadly came to an end )

i also like total drama , stranger things , et cetera

i love singing , drawing , and im also a gachatuber !

;; WRITING INFO !!

my blog is SFW !! requests are open :3

fandoms i will currently write for include only SOUTH PARK and DREAM SMP ( only some characters , mainly being c rather than ccs ! )

i WONT write ; NSFW , fandoms i dont know

i wont post fics all the time , but ill try and post some occasionally :3

i WILL write ; south park fics , dsmp fics , angst / fluff / hurt+comfort , ships

pls dont request nsfw fic prompts ... i will just ignore !

;; CHARACTER CRITERIA !!

i will write for any south park character ! adults , kids , etc .

regularly , i will not age them up or down , ages would range from 6 - 13 if i were to change their ages though

any characters that are not on this list , you can request ! i will only write c ! smp members

the only characters i will NOT write for dream smp wise are ...

- dream

- george

- sapnap

because of problematic issues .

- punz

- boomer

- antfrost

- connor

- ponk

- michaelmcchill

because ive never watched them and dont know how id write them

( list may be continued if recommended certain characters)

;; BEFORE YOU FOLLOW !!

✩ i am a MINOR !!

✩ i use tone indicators

✩ i make kys jokes and have south park humour ( lmk if uncomfortable !! )

✩ might take a bit to respond to dms , etc cuz of my timezone + lack of social skills

✩ i might be dry sometimes but im sorry if i come off that way !! /gen

✩ i use a typing quirk ( have not adapted toward many of them , the only one i have is spaces before punctuation )

additionally ( i dont think this counts as a typing quirk but i add it just incase ) , i sign off of all my posts . originlly i used ' -slime ' , now i will use ' -kenny ' :3

✩ i misspell words sometimes

✩ i use silly emoticons !! ( ^_^ , :3 , :] , etc! )

;; DO NOT FOLLOW / INTERACT !!

✩ basic dni !! ( nsfw, homo / trans phobes , racist , etc )

✩ kyman / proship

✩ TW // self harm twt / sh tumblr + eating disorder twt / ed tumblr

✩ dteam supporters ( sorry old dteam moots )

✩ hellparkies

✩ if you dont use tone indicators

✩ 20 or over ( unless sfw ! )

;; MAIN TAGS !!

all my posts will be tagged accordingly ,

#kennys-thoughts - random posts

#kennys-reblogs - posts i reblog

#kennys-askbox - asks

#kennys-fics - 5+ paragraph fics

#kennys-ficlets - 4- paragraph fics

#kennys-art - my drawings :3

( fics will be tagged fandom accordingly as well ! )

;; MY OTHER SOCIALS !!

my twitter !

my youtube !

my discord !

more links might be added but this is all i can think of rn LOL

;; EXTRA / END OF POST !!

thats it !! if u follow me on my old acc ( again , @vicchaos ! ) pls refollow n btw I WILL FB EVERYONE :3 unless ur weird or follow my dnf / dni criteria i will block u

OTHERWISE SOUTH PARKIES AND DSMPERS PLS INTERACT AND YAYAY HOPE I CAN MAKE BACK MOOTS BYE BYE WAVES TO U !! ^_^

-kenny

[yunjardi]

YOUR DOING cam GOOD W THE FACE ID CUZ ME PERSONALLY I KEPT ON DOING IT UNTIL THEY SENT ME A LINK TO MY PHONE NUMBER.

back to all seriousness: eventually they’ll ask for your ACTUAL phone number or email that you use for the account and they’ll send you a link. click on it and it’ll lead u to the log in page on instagram and it’ll HOPEFULLY log you in and make you go through security to change your password and everything immediately.

tip: if you have an email attached to ur account plz replace it and make a new one. Like if you put your phone number back as the primary number, then the hacker obviously can’t do anything cuz you get the text messages instagrams sends you, not them. They only changed things up so they can get things sent to them. so if instagram possibly and randomly asks you any question abt ur account being linked to the device you have rn, say yes. Cuz it’ll make the whole process easier trust. Cuz my dumbass got all suspicious and said no which made me get kicked off again.

PS: the hacker will change something abt ur username. Whether they add a underscore or dash, keep in contact with ur friends, mutuals, and ask them if ANYTHING abt ur username(capital or lowercase letters, numbers) has changed from the original username you knew it as. Because if they changed something abt ur username and you have no idea, instagram will say “no account found” when you go to type in your username to click “forgot password” or “can’t reset password”. Which will obviously make you worry, panic, and think that they sold your account. Which they did to me. Still can’t believe they hacked my account the day before EID. like I was so devastated. but dw, I got it back the day of EID :).

All this advice is coming straight from the heart, and I truly wish you the best. Patience will key. don’t sob and panic like me.

WAIT THAT RHYME LOWKEY ATE EVEN THOUGH I WAS BEING SERIOUS 🤭💡😛

yk what instead of question mark anon from my first two paragraph advice I gave you, call me lightbulb anon cuz the ideas zoominn through my head rn 🥸-

love yaaaaa

💡anon :)

HELLO 💡 ANON, WELCOME TO THE CLUB 🩷

but anyway, THANK YOU SM for giving me hope 😭😭 i really wanna get back into the account because i've had it since i was like 10, and it's such a big piece of jardi lore that i don't wanna lose to a dumbass hacker 💀 IM ALSO HAPPY YOU GOT UR ACC BACK TOO BABE

love you lots and lots and i look forward to interacting with you more my 💡 love

[syrupspinner]

i just played the demo for beat, heart, beat

i think im just gonna start linking the steam page in everything i review. now its your job to click that link and try the demo. but read my post first cuz i like it when people do that

so this game kinda confounded me when i first saw it. i knew it was inspired by mad rat dead, like cmon the protagonist is a little rodent of some sort and theres this whole motif about following your heart. but then i saw the gameplay and it was an auto scroller with... idk the terminology but its a muse-dash like where youve got the top and bottom rows. and then i actually played the game and realized how much of its own thing this game was going for

so in muse dash your character is kind of in the centre between two single-width lanes, yes even if it looks like theyre on the bottom one, because the upper lane is always mapped to a dedicated upward button and the lower to a dedicated downward button. unless youre using a touch screen, this usually splits your controller in half, one side being up and the other down. i always end up holding it sideways

anyway, thats not how this works. its way more like a platformer, as in when you attack, you attack relative to where you are. the right key attacks in front of you, the up above, and down... down. this really fucked me up at first believe it or not, cuz my silly rhythm game brain is used to a perfect parity between lane and input

let me break it down cuz i dunno if that makes sense. if theres a note in front of you, hit ->. if theres a note above you, hit ↑, cuz youre on the ground and that note is in the air. now that youve done that, youre gonna hover in the air for a bit. theres another aerial note coming up, and since youre still in the air, you hit ->, because its in front of you, even through its in the air. i feel the need to be this granular because i really havent played a game like this before, lane relativity is uncharted territory (intentional pun)

they do some fun stuff with this! so theres this enemy that looks like a blueberry pancake and/or deflated balloon? look we were moving fast and i was focusing on the beat. anyway, its always gonna be below you (in the air over a pit) so you always down-attack it, but when you do you bounce right back up to the elevation you were at. this sets up for some really cool patterns where youve gotta be attentive to know what the inputs are thanks to the lane relativity, and that makes a fun and challenging section of the level! im really excited to see the patterns they use in the full game

i do have a few snags. first, the cue notes really fucked me up. all the notes are really visually distinct, and thats important cuz theyre gonna do different things to your character and fuck with your note relativity. but the cue notes are only different from their colour, which i find a lot harder to process than shape if ive got half-a-second to register what input i need. one cue has a different tempo, and another starts on an offbeat, so it really threw me off whenever i had to react to em

another thing, really minor, no controller support. not a problem since i, yknow, own a keyboard, but the menus use the mouse way too often? the main menu is permissable, but even the results screen makes you click confirm with your cursor instead of being able to highlight it with buttons and stuff. whats weird is that the song selection lets you use arrow keys, so i really dont get it. the last point was just me struggling with the gameplay, this feels like something that id actually wanna see changed in the full release

but heres some things i LOVE. first, the vibe, fucking obviously. i love the gritty overtoned garageband soundtrack i love the mishmash collage visuals, i love the design of the main character i wanna snuggle them to bed.

so heres something ive never seen a rhythm game do before, right? and i cant confirm this is the case, but i feel like this has to be what happened just watching the gameplay difference: they make the judgement windows tighter on higher difficulties. thats genius, why are you the first person to do that, that feels so obvious in retrospect but it just makes sense as a thing to do. i understand in a lot of more 'professional' traditional rhythm games, yknow the beatmania kind, wanna give you a more uniform experience across songs and let you personalize your input windows and yadda yadda we dont do that here. you are a little mousie and hard mode makes the timing harder too, thats badass

dont worry about the difficulty btw, from what i can tell the game is pretty forgiving to newcomers while still offering a challenge. all the levels defaulted to easy mode in the level select (no story mode in the demo, whatcha gonna do) but you still get tutorials and stuff on the higher levels, so its accepting if you just wanna jump into tough shit. either way though you cant really fail a level, theres no health bar and no minimum score. if you fall down a pit you just head back to your last checkpoint and you dont get a medal on the results screen, so if you dont care then you can just blitz through. they dont even have overstrum so you can just spam that shit and look at the pretty backgrounds

so i think BHB is gonna be something special. i love the looks, the sounds, everything has this raw vibe to it. like, the singer has a really scratchy and heavy singing voice, and i think that adds a really good emotional quality to all the songs. the cue notes are gonna fuck me up and itll probably take the whole game for me to get used to the lane relativity thing but you know i dig a game that lives on its own terms.

if you like rhythm games then youre gonna try the demo and youre gonna wishlist it because you like psychedelic visuals and alt-rock vibrations. if you dont like those youre gonna wishlist it anyway because that really helps the algorithm pick up indie games and more people need to see this, i think this really has potential to be a gem and it deserves the recognition for it. after youve done that youre gonna play the demo again until you like it. its a good demo for a probably good game, i dunno cuz its not out yet but i just have a good feeling about this one. its 1 am and i woke up early as shit today so thats the best youre getting

[hannhsboothang]

⠀[𝟣]⠀⠀❤︎ '⠀⠀chuu⠀⠀:⠀⠀strawberry⠀rush⠀-⠀ep ⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀❝　2024　　⎯⎯　　album⠀link　　　　༜𑜞𑇓࿐

⠀𝒯rack⠀⠀【⠀⠀ー⠀⠀001⠀⠀】⠀⠀⠀⠀𝜗𝜚⠀⠀⠀⠀𝄗⠀⠀⠀⠀𝒮trawberry⠀ℛush ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀◟⠀rating⠀⠀:⠀⠀⠀“⠀⠀10⠀/⠀10 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀。SOTY!! we all shout in unison. this song is literal crack. its such a perfect song like everything about this is beautiful and so fucking chuu??? like this is chuu in a song girl. not a day goes by where i dont sing this song bc i love it sm, it lives in my head RENT FREE. strawberry rush actually changed my life for the better, idk where i would be without this song. i think everyone needs to listen to this song + the its live verison BC HER NIGH NOTE ACTUALLY SENDS ME FLYING AND SOBBING AND SHAKING AND TEARING UP AND THROWING UP!! i love chuu.

⠀𝒯rack⠀⠀【⠀⠀ー⠀⠀002⠀⠀】⠀⠀⠀⠀𝜗𝜚⠀⠀⠀⠀𝄗⠀⠀⠀⠀ℋoneybee ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀◟⠀rating⠀⠀:⠀⠀⠀“⠀⠀10⠀/⠀10 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀。such an angelic song, her voice is so soft and angelic here and i fell in love. watching the mv too, ugh so cute. i think this is such a cutesy song like u get it if u get it, yk? idk if its just because i love chuu's vocals and her tone when singing but it scratches my brain just right. this right here is the perfect like doing nothing song IDK i would play this while getting readyyyy or just laying down in bed or doodling. just such a perfect song!! love!!

⠀𝒯rack⠀⠀【⠀⠀ー⠀⠀003⠀⠀】⠀⠀⠀⠀𝜗𝜚⠀⠀⠀⠀𝄗⠀⠀⠀⠀𝒟aydreamer ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀◟⠀rating⠀⠀:⠀⠀⠀“⠀⠀7.5⠀/⠀10 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀。honestly, not really my cup of tea. i do think the song is very pretty and she sounds very beautiful in this song but, its just not a song i would go out of my way to listen to. ur girl loves bridges and this song had a really beautiful bridge!!! the lead up to that last chorus was so pleasing to hear so i do applaud and give points for that.

⠀𝒯rack⠀⠀【⠀⠀ー⠀⠀004⠀⠀】⠀⠀⠀⠀𝜗𝜚⠀⠀⠀⠀𝄗⠀⠀⠀⠀ℒucid 𝒟ream ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀◟⠀rating⠀⠀:⠀⠀⠀“⠀⠀8⠀/⠀10 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀。similar to the previous song, i wouldnt actively go out of my way to listen to this song BUT if it played i wouldnt skip it. i think her voice just is so heavenly like i can listen to chuu sing anything. girl can sing me the abc's and id start sobbing cuz shes so pretty and her voice is so soothing.

⠀𝒯rack⠀⠀【⠀⠀ー⠀⠀005⠀⠀】⠀⠀⠀⠀𝜗𝜚⠀⠀⠀⠀𝄗⠀⠀⠀⠀𝒞hocolate ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀◟⠀rating⠀⠀:⠀⠀⠀“⠀⠀10⠀/⠀10 ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀。this + the english ver... MY JAM! i love these cutesy soft songs from chuu because i feel like it suits not only her personality but her voice so well. something about that just overall cute soft vibes make me feel happy. everyday i thank 50/50 for making cupid bc we got beautiful masterpieces like CHOCOLATE! i have no words u just need to listen to this song.... asap...

⠀⠀“overall⠀⠀⠀✿⠀⠀⠀thoughts⠀⠀⠀⠀◟⠀⠀⠀김���우:⠀⠀⠀[ ... ] ⠀⠀.⠀im such a kkoti its not funny anymore. me and my one chuu photocard r thriving listening to this ep, every.. single.. day. album full of cuteness and bangers. u will NEVER catch me skipping ANY song on this album because its so beautiful. i will never shut up about how chuu's vocals and tone is so gorge?????????????? like omg????????? she needs so much more fame i love her sm. also i did not add the english ver of chocolate bc... ho thats the same song..

[adaginy]

ID: A series of tweets from Angelo Carusone, at GoAngelo. 1/ There's something incredible in the background during this Dominion trial that is at least as significant (and possibly even more significant) as the trial itself for Fox News' bottom line. My goodness is this a doozy...

2/ As the trial is happening, Fox News will be renegotiating or gearing up to renegotiate carriage renewal with 3 cable providers -- Xfinity, Chater and Cox. It's hard to overstate how significant this and how potentially consequential this is for Fox News' future. Here's why...

3/ The dirty secret is that Fox News is the only commercial tv channel that actually doesn't need a single ad. They could have $0 in ad revenue and they'd still have more than a 35% profit margin. That's cuz Fox is the 2nd most expensive channel on every cable bill (ESPN is #1)

4/ How we got to this point is a story for another day. But here's a thread about this if you're really curious how they got so high. Point is, these carriage fees are really important for Fox News' bottom. [quote tweet link to another thread from him, starts out 1/ I want to share a bit about Fox News, advertisers, revenue and accountability. Let me first start by saying that, Fox News is actually suffering quite severely on the advertiser front. (The next chart will illustrate just how badly)..., end quote tweet]

5/ Now, Fox News is going to renegotiate these deals in with a lot of headwinds. Cable providers tightening belt due to cord cutting, Fox is in barrel PR wise due to Dominion trial and their audience is kind of tepid on them (something Fox need to pressure cable companies).

6/Here's the thing: Fox doesn't just need to renew at the current rate. Oh no. The Murdochs have been promising to extract big increases from cable companies in order to offset ad loses and massively increase profits.

7/ Cable companies already probably pay about 2x market value for Fox News in these fees (which is absurd). But now, Fox is going to go into these meetings...and say not only should cable companies continue overpaying, but that they pay increases of 30-35%.

8/ There are about 90 million cable customers in this country. There are about 3 million regular Fox News viewers. Fox is not only forcing everyone with cable to overpay, but now they will try to pick Americans' pockets even more.

9/ This is a real pivot point for Fox News. A genuine moment of potential accountability. If they are able to renew with the increases they're hoping to get, then well, Fox News will continue to have obscene profits, guaranteed revenue and no reason to change. But...

10/ If Fox meets resistance and the cable companies don't roll over and force everyone to overpay in order to subsidize Fox News (as they have been doing all these years), then Fox News quite literally can't continue it's current course. It would need to change.

11/ If you want to know what you can do this in moment, I strongly recommend you visit https://nofoxfee.com The website tells you how to contact the current providers talking to Fox and what to say.

12/ Your participation matters. This exact approach worked with One America News. Enough cable customers contacted DirecTV and Verizon and urged those providers to stop overpaying for OAN. Eventually this resulted in them dropping the channel entirely.

13/ It also recently worked with Fox. Back in December, Fox was negotiating with a major cable provider. Not Fox News, but Fox Sports and other Fox properties. But, it's all the same bucket. Thousands of customers called this company and said they didn't want to pay Fox fee.

14/ And what happened? The company held firm. No increase for Fox. Off that one deal alone, Fox likely lost anywhere from $150-250M in guaranteed revenue they were hoping to get. Point is: This approach has worked and will work here.

15/ If you want to help make sure Fox actually experiences meaningful accountability for the lies, extremism and bigotry, this is really the only way to do it. This opportunity won't come again for at least another 3 years. So, it's now or never. [end twitter thread, end ID.]

On Fox news, advertising, and cable news:

Link to ^that thread for people who wanna see charts and more background about this

TL;DR: Fox can be so awful because it isn't as beholden to advertisers as it should be, because cable/satellite have to pay for the channels they carry and they're waaaay overpaying for Fox. So if you actually pay for TV, go to nofoxfee.com and learn about calling your provider to say "knock this off or I'm gonna join the cord-cutters who don't have to pay for this." Will reblog with ID in a few minutes, stand by.

[serowotonin]

Keep name for the love of everything unholy

;-;ok then one vote no to changing my url...

[curry-and-casteliacones]

Various Picrews Of My Characters

Gonna be kinda long to scroll thru just cuz of the amount of images so im putting it under a read more :)

Just in case you aren't aware. Picrew is a site that hosts artist made character makers. So none of these are my own art. Most of them have a signature on them if you want to look up the artist. If not, ask me and i can probably find the picrew link to give you.

Also as a note: none of these are 100% accurate. Theyre picrews, not my actual art so of course not every detail will be correct.

And another note: OH MY GOD PICREWS ONLY EVER HAVE STRAIGHT HAIR OPTIONS?? WHERE IS THE CURLY HAIR?? ID EVEN SETTLE FOR WAVY??? EVEN JUST SLIGHTLY FLUFFY SO I CAN MAKE ORION?? PLEASE???? But fr anything other than flat sleek hair feels like a godsend. Also good non white skin types??? Pleeeeaaaasssseeeeeee. Its so hard i need smth more than just 30 shades of pale, some non human colors, and then like 2 darker shades which both dont look good. Edit: JUST FOUND ONE THAT JUST????? DOESNT HAVE ANYTHING OTHER THAN PAPER WHITE???? Theres just no other skin options, yall im- i cant do this no more.

Young Cherry:

She used to wear all black!! No red or pink at all when her and Sana first met, despite them being her favorite colors.

A softer look for Ai

While she loves the pop of black, white, and gold she gives to her outfits sometimes some softer pastel colors can be a good look as well!

Wyv My Beloved:

He's talking about dragon types :)

Au ideas:

So i have a lot of "Bad End" Aus floating around where Ai does give in to Volo's allure of making a better world. I mean, hasn't she suffered enough? Hasn't she worked hard enough for it? In the end i think all it comes down to is Ai's familial bond with Ingo versus her romantic bond with Volo. Who managed to make a bigger impact on her after she was kicked out by Kamado? If it was Volo then i genuinely think she could be swayed to work with him to confront Arceus. In this particular version of it i think the two would strike a deal. Ai pretends to take on Volo and win. Everything continues as normal up until she fights + captures arceus. Suddenly she's giggling like a madwoman. Volo and her had done it. Arceus was hers. But the two quickly realize it isn't enough power in this sliver of Arceus to actually remake the world. But. It was enough to remake themselves. And to change some things. At this point Ai has mostly regained her memory of modern day, and she wants back. Volo wants into her time as well. It sounds so much better than the miserable place they were stuck. Ai just wants to see Orion again and show him how powerful she's become! And wants NOTHING to do with her dad ever again. So her and Volo reforge their own bodies. Volo changes almost nothing, being who he is this isn't very surprising. Ai just wants her hair color gone. The last reminder of her dad. She wants Orions hair color. Why couldn't she have gotten that to begin with? And while she's at it, Orion always had such pretty eyes. She'll look just like her big brother! (That's who she think Orion is with her not all quite there memory. . An older brother who moved out, leaving her alone with her dad. But she doesn't blame him. She would leave too if she could have.) Ai is someone full of a lot of love. She loves Orion so so So much. And she loves Volo so so So much. But in two very different ways. In this Au they arent exactly....healthy ways. She becomes obsessive. And Volo just feeds into it. He adores how dedicated she is to him. And he's dedicated to her as well. She controls Arceus, and she could beat him in battle so he respects her a LOT. Anyway, they go back to modern times, bringing a VERY concerned Ingo along with them. (Ingo knows they shouldn't be doing this. And Ai seems so... different. But he just wants to go home) When the three arrive in modern Unova Orion and Emmet are relieved but when Orion sees Ai they are.... surprised to say the least. They are greeted by basically a tiny femme version of himself...? Ai seems ecstatic, almost maniacally so, and explains to Orion what happened and introduces Volo. Orion finds something familiar in Volos appearance, but chooses to ignore it for now as more pressing matters are at hand. Orion seems concerned, even somewhat judgemental of Ais actions, but when Ai's anger quickly flares and Volo gets a very dangerous look in his eyes with his hand on a pokeball Orion backs off. Orion can clearly see how unstable Ai is but he doesn't know what to do. One false move and Ai might just remake him as well, changing him to a puppet that fits her fantasy world. Anyway yeah thats where i left off in the daydream lol. This will never be canon but its fun to think of what ifs :)

Young Orion: The teen years

He spent a lot of time with Ai at this point in time and was starting getting serious in his fashion pursuits. Ai was dropped off at him and Aerow's parents house a lot so Orion + his parents could babysit Ai while Aerow and his wife wanted to have a date night. The barretes were placed there by Ai(they were in her hair originally, but toddler Ai knew orion liked stars and so she confidently decided they belonged on him now)

Ai Visits Oliver:

I do have an eventual meet up for Ai, Oliver, Hime, and Wyv planned one day. Despite 3 of them being based in Unova and only one in Galar, Oliver manages to convince them to meet up in Galar if they pay for the travel expenses. (Oliver is uh... a tad loaded after becoming champion) Oliver cannot wait to brag and show them around Galar so they tell the other 3 to bring "nothing but the essentials". Oliver (after FINALLY getting to reveal their the galar champion) then takes them all on a shopping spree to get the clothes they will be wearing in Galar. Oliver manages to convince Ai to get some more dressy clothes while they are out and about.

Nova, A Messy Introduction:

Nova is a name for another OC who i ended up scrapping. But i realized the name Nova fit my character from Violet VERY well. And i wanted to turn her appearance into an OC anyway. (yeah if u ever wonder why my OCs that are the "main" character for that game story are girly looking its cuz i think "pretty" or "cute" looking characters are more fun to play as. Whether that be male of female is fine w me but u usually get better clothing options as a girl character ofc that didnt end up mattering this time around.) Anyway, meet Nova! She is originally from Paldea but moved to Galar with her mom at the age of 7. 6 years later at the age of 13 Nova moved back to Paldea with her mom. This makes her the youngest of any main characters. She is very childlike and innocent in a lot of ways and is also very proper. The idea of being anything other than a perfect mannered kid is somewhat appalling to her. However, her idea of prefect mannered isn't always the same as everyone else's. She doesn't follow rules, she follows morals? in a way? Which 90% of the time lines up with whatever rules are in place. However if something is against the rules but the correct thing to do she won't even consider before she does it. She doesn't really think before acting as she always has her mind made up pretty early on. Very confident but not in an arrogant way. She isn't your typical middle schooler kid and isn't rude or angsty like many others end up being. She is naturally very curious and loves to do well in anything she tries. A bit of Gifted Kid Syndrome and doesn't know how to handle failure. And take all of this w a grain of salt im just brainstorming lol

Ai At A Festival In Hisui:

She would love dressing up and always is planning her outfit to be made at the tailor's the second she hears about an upcoming event. That festival hosted at the end of the game was so much fun and it was wonderful seeing al her hard work paying off.

Bad End Ai Versus Normal Ai:

Quite a difference if i have to say. Normal Ai is still a lil not ok after everything. But she is generally a very well adjusted adult. Just a little prone to panic attacks and could body slam you into next tuesday both physically and in a pokemon battle. Also a lot more confident after everything. But also unable to have confidence in a lot of ways? Like i said she's a lil not ok.

More Nova:

more picrews of the bby. i think either this picrew didnt have the right skin tone for her or i was just tired and forgot to change it lol.

Unnamed Water/Ghost Trainer:

I've drawn her a couple times but have no concrete ideas for her. I just know she has really long hair that looks kinda wet and i wanter her to have "drowned ghost" vibes.

More Wyv!:

I literally love him so much. I wish i could draw dudes easier cuz he's such a great character and i've had so many ideas for his character recently.

Young Ai.... she's so smol...:

Look at how small the bby is. This is an older picrew i did of her, you can tell cuz she still had blue eyes in this one instead of gold. But yeah this is young Ai before she even started dying her hair. She probably still had a pretty good relationship w her dad and was still pretty messed up over the death of her mom but wasn't an overly unhappy kid all things considered.

Another "Bad End" Ai:

So basically, she dies after getting kicked out of Jubilfe. She at first tries to make her way to Ingo but manages to freeze to death in the snowy area after being attacked by a pokemon before reaching him. So she turns into a hisuian zoroark. And yeah basically thats it. She's a ghost now and takes her death out on everyone she can get her hands on. Eventually rumors of the banished member of the galaxy team reach Jubilife and Rei goes out to investigate. She spares him and tells him what happened, promising that when she returns to Jubilfe to take out Kamado that she would leave Rei and Laventon alone. Rei nervously thanks her and on sking legs runs back to the nearest base camp where Laventon is. Rei talks to him and they now have to figure out what to do about her. Basically i just like making Ai turn evil and want revenge on the world. She can have a little murder. As a treat :)

Brooke and Merida:

Two of Olivers friends. They are a tft lesbian couple who specialize in water and fire types respectively. And by that i mean Brooke (the red one) owns a vaporeon as their main pokemon and Meridas (the blue one) ace is a flareon. Yeah. They think its hilarious. Both of em are pretty big gamers and are the only two Oliver would hesitantly admit are better than them at something.

Despite the fact that i could keep adding picrews forever and ever i'm going to stop here as to not make it obscenely long. Expect a part 2 :)

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for the plural ask game y'all just reblogged, we wish we could reblog it too. but we aren't out as a system on our main cuz we don't wanna deal with ableism and/or fakeclaiming :(

anyways, 4, 11, and 25?

Ah sad but understandable :( Personally, we created a whole separate account (this one) for our system stuff, so it's completely separate from our first one and not connected in any way.

For the questions, Telmar, Mhedaeve, James, and Chrellys will be answering! (Or just James and Telmar while Mhedaeve and Chrellys hover and make cryptic facial expressions)

4. Who has the weirdest music taste?

The music taste that gets the most flack in system is Ryan, who listens to way too much "exercise bro" music (that's how we describe it anyway), but the technically "weirdest" music would go to one of our top vocaloid connoisseurs, Chrellys. She listens to the horror stuff.

11. Do you have a favorite plural character or headcanon? 

Hmmm, since system discovery, we have started seeing a lot of plurality in media, even without official representation, though it's kind of hard to think off the top of our head ... we'll aim more towards plurality we liked/wish for

(i.e. the favorite part stressed James out).

For canon plurality, we personally like Alluka and Nanika Zoldyck from Hunter x Hunter. Even though at first it kinds of leans into the potential of an "evil alter", it completely subverts things by the end and fully asserts Nanika's personhood and rights.

For a headcanon, we love the idea of a plural Link from the Legend of Zelda. With his reincarnations and all the different versions of himself, there's a lot of fun interaction to be had and having all the Links in one body (or even just a few) would be fantastic. A lot of fan content and AUs that show multiple Links together already has plural vibes, and it could also be so cool as a gaming concept.

25. Do different members have different art or handwriting styles? Feel free to show examples! 

We don't have drastic changes in our handwriting or art (at least that we've noticed), but we do have a form of shorthand that we came up with collectively that only we know how to write in (Telmar: I feel like that's related enough)(Mhedaeve: It really isn't).

Example is a transcribed conversation between Crickett and Agony about Idan and Patrocles that Crickett wrote while we were stuck in a waiting room with a dead phone.

[Image description: Page in a notebook written completely in the Glass Dragon Collective's personal shorthand transcribing a conversation between Agony and Crickett. End ID]

Example Two: List of our System Members under their respective sections.

[Image description: Picture of list of system members in the Glass Dragon Collective's shorthand with some names crossed out for privacy. End ID]

Hopefully that answered some things!

Dragons out :)

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What’s your fannish ID? ajay_lotte

What types of fanworks do you create? I write fanfics.  Lots of fanfics, most of which don’t see the outside of my one drive ngl.  I love fanfics because sometimes I can lose that bit of realism: in the marvel universe, basically anything goes, and in fanfiction, it’s even less limited than that.  Basically anything goes, and I love that.

What are your favourite types of fanworks, when you’re not creating? Fics, for sure.  I’ve read so many great ones, and there’s a fic for every vibe.  And also incorrect quotes and Twitter feeds.  They’re always brilliant

What do you like in particular about this fandom? Honestly, I’m just here for the double d content.  With every fic I read, I’m always changing my mind abt the best ships and tropes, but ones I always love have gotta be the Frank/Matt ones.  Wholesome af.  Maybe add Elektra to spice it up… ;) And Matt and Jessica, saltmates or romantic jackasses, either works.  I mean, they’re basically the same person with their tragic backstories Tm, their whiskey, brooding, and bullshit. There’s also that deaged trope which I gotta admit to liking, any chance for ppl to see an angsty child soldier Matt Murdock is a win, especially when they try to make him all happy too.

Do you like participating in fan events? Never done it before!  I’d really like too, though.  They always look great :D

What about your creating process? Lmao, “process”.  I’d love to call it that.  Usually there are just too many thoughts and head canons and my brain’s just a nonsensical place.  So… chaotic fanfics!  I’ve been trying to write longer fics for a while, but they always get interrupted with new ideas, so I write them instead!  It’s always wild to see where they go

Do you interact a lot with other fans? Bro, it took ages to actually register an ao3 acc but I’ve been working on it.  Becoming more interactive is definitely a thing that should happen

Do you have other fandoms you'd like to talk about? No, but yes.  Important question!! Teenage mutant ninja turtles, right?  Same chemicals as Daredevil.  Edgy sewer lords.  It’s a whole thing.  Netflix MCU and main MCU are basically kinda the same universe, earth-19999 or whatever.  So that’s fine.  The turtles are also featured in the main marvel into thing.   That’s 19999 enough. So when Peter Quill brings up the TMNT in guardians of the galaxy, is he referencing a fictional kids TV show, or does he have some inside knowledge on the super secret sewer ninjas?!?!?!  I’m pretty sure they’re referenced in something else too.  Can’t remember… anyways, but like are the turtles real or not in the MCU?  What’s going on Kevin?   Why are you like this :o ???  HeLp

Is there any particular piece you'd like to showcase for this post? Yes!  The Yellow Car Initiative, featuring a version of Matt who is actually kinda happy in this series of attempted humour.  I’d like to showcase it just cuz it’s actually a finished series… even if I’m a write more stuff for it, maybe.  Probably.  Ugh.

Is there anything else you want to tell us about yourself? I’m actually chill, I swear Also I unintentionally talk like Clint.  I’m pretty sure I’m one “bro” away from an intervention.  It doesn’t help I know so many Kates honestly.  Or should I say… Katy-Kates :)

Where can your fanworks be found? My works can be found on ao3!  Here’s a link to my acc :p https://archiveofourown.org/users/ajay_lotte/pseuds/ajay_lotte

Thank you, @ajay-lotte !

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AH ChitChat Notes 3 22 21

Chitchat 32221 with Jeremy , michael and matt ft disembodied voices of lindsay and maybe kaden , gus in chat and joins

Jeremy: Kaden spoke up because of donuts earlier… Michael: Jacks time is over now… but he will be on stream later. Jeremy: oh yeah schedule. Slight last minute changes doing Fall Guys first cuz S4 came out… me michael  lindsay and matt did a letsplay in it earlier today … gus will be doing fall guys this stream (eyyy)... oh yeah and i wanna impersonate what jack does. Matt: do it. Jeremy: and if you're watching on the site we can see your chat like FatHippoHippo wrote BET in all capitals … yeah i just wanted to get into the spirit and be like “what would jack do, what would he think is funny” and that was it. Lindsay: alsoone of those WWJD bracelets from the 90s What Would Jack Do… (matt: ive repurposed them) Jeremy: so how are you doing? Lindsay: good weekend i guess , just telling Matt we watched Big Hero 6 yesterday (Jeremy: aw hell yell) still an awesome movie , kids loved it. Jeremy: where they scared of - idk if he has a name the kabuki villain… *looking it up* apparently its Yokai… guess they never really say it cuz that's generic. Lindsay: that's VERY generic. Michael: IVE GOT TO TAKE THIS CALL *facecam becomes void* Jeremy: ok spoiler alert for Big Hero 6 but just looking at the wiki… it makes an audacious claim. It says “professor robert calahan OR ALSO BETTER KNOW as his villain name Yokai”... is it? Lindsay: well its based on a comic right so i guess canonically he has a name…. But to answer your question No they werent scared … anyway something we noticed upon rewatching is that 2 characters before a MAJOR event happens to the fistbump… but DON'T do the explosion… like oooohhh foreshadowing. Michael: not really foreshadowing if they keep doing it throughout the movie , if anything its foreshadowing that like… hell… whats the robots name - baymax learning it… not really foreshadowing the building explodes (gen notes MAJOR EVENT) … what blew my mind was that movie has a post credits scene. Jeremy: oh yeah was it like with the dudes father. Michael: Fred yeah! Remember remarking upon them entering the house theres a portrait of the dad and i just went “his dads just Stan Lee… just a portrait of him” Post credits scene and guys talking to painting and - wasn't paying attention but he like hits his head on it and the wall opens up to show a superhero room with paraphernalia everywhere and Stan Lee walks in like “son we got a lot to talk about” Jeremy: Chat asking about if i watched the wrestling PayPerView… remember how i updated you last that the guy died in the ring after being set on fire (Michael: lemme guess hes a zombie now) - yep exactly last night a hand reached up and grabbed someones leg , he came out of the smoke with a melted messed up mask so yeah…. Hes a furry (i think?) zombie clown Michael: hey wait a minute let me read the chat , someone named Gus said “whoa no idea there was a post credit scene”  “what is a fastfood restaurant combo wish would open” Lindsay: Miss my KenTaco Hutt… Michael: idk im usually just in the mood for SOMETHING , not looking to combine , only time is when i want a certain food and they don't have the same sides i want other places have . like Sonic is amazing for sides , apps and drinks… don't care for entrees , but if i could get Sonic sides at McDonalds or Taco bell or something.. Jeremy: guess in the same vein id combine Dairy Queen with a lot of places (Matt: i was about to say) to get a BLIZZARD with whatever. Matt: that's how it usually goes anyway , you get the food , you drive by the Dairy Queen and get a desert - you don't get the food at Dairy Queen cuz why - just why Lindsay: i mean theres icecream but there isnt really fastfood places for other deserts… like theres not really a Cake or Cupcake place (Matt: not yet *tilts head at camera like “you know what i want”* ) there IS the cupcake ATM Matt: alright checking the google… Michael: Matts checking the driving distance. Jeremy: another questions whil matts looking up cakes (Matt: oh i already have it) nevermind then. Conware asks “what is your fave controller for console and whats fave controller you own” Jeremy: Idk really… i know for a while everyones was the Elite 2 Michael: yeah just most comfortable. Matt: well that's like a specialty type… if its a stock one then the switch pro controller is pretty good. Michael: i mean i also have this 8Bit do SNES bluetooth controller thing , love it Lindsay: i love the nintendo switch controller grip… makes it feel like it curves comfy around your palms Jeremy: the XBOX sea of thieves one is great (Matt: i was about to say…) got a glow in the dark skull in the middle , RT is like a gold tooth , is partly see through Matt: and it comes with some exclusive stuff for Sea of Thieves Lindsay: yeah like Motion Sickness. Matt: i got one that's just a donut. Lindsay: gave me an idea… you know how theres Pez Dispensers (matt: heard of them) yeah and how you don't really even use them right you just eat the candy and play with the thing  ( *matt nods approvingly* yeah about right) what if we invent a controller where every once in a while it opens up to give a snack. (Matt: yeah like everytime you get an achievement, Jeremy: yeah i did good! Just go up to the controller and eat it) “You Are Good Boy” Matt: be funnier if it just throws at you “everyone have a fave seasons and followup do you like seasons where you grew up or where you are now?” Jeremy: i mean springs probably my fave its easy to be outside , not boiling hot nor snow everywhere… great time to camp and fish , falls cool with changing colors… texas is like “do you want REALLY hot or hot?”  Michael: i do really like Fall on the East Coast but its like - yeah i miss it and its nice to be there when it happens where its light jacket weather. I used to wear sweatshirts all the time - i don't bother with long sleeves in texas cuz i know im taking it off within 30 min…  never knew about the Water Cup thing until i lived in texas where restaurants just HAVE water cups… blew my mind its free  - because people will drop dead . noticed they just have this seperate stack of clear cups which is i guess like “i BETTER not see any soda in that cup THAT'S  A WATER CUP!”. I don't like it when its 105 degrees but i do like being able to just wear Tshirts most of the year and not dealing with snow Lindsay: i like Fall the most cuz like its blend of i guess i embrace the basic bitch stereo types of fall , want my pumpkin spice latee but ALSO i know halloween is coming and ive said before how THAT'S like my religious holiday so like… i come alive. Matt: probably fall , maybe winter. I don't go out much but fall is like the right amount of cool but not TOO cool. Jeremy: over the weekend me and kat went to a town called rockfort (i think?) which is like right on the ocean , the weather was a little cold for it , like 50 maybe and the sea breeze made it chillier… im not really a beach person just more water. You say beach and you think  like Boogie Boarding Bros (Michael: whoooaah boogie. Lindsay: beach volleyball) yeah .. id reather be on a rocky shore than a sandy beach. Michael: youd rather be like a mermaid sitting on the rocks *jeremy laughs loud* is that what you're saying Jeremy: yeah Matt: attracting sailors to their DOOM Lindsay: i gotta send you a link but theres this one TikTokker i guess that i watch that talks about that an eastern european beach she went to and was like “i cant wait to go on my beach outting yeah!” and she gets there its rocky , really windy , noones there and goes “ooh its really cold” Matt: depends the kind of beach to me… for me East Coast beaches SUCK *jeremy nods yep* its water you cant see anything in its terrible Lindsay: that's also texas beaches , all brown. Matt: its just one of those things where you get in the water and your like “ok… at anymoment i could be attacked by everything around me”  Michael: well that can happen on land too matt (Gen Notes WELCOHME TA JOISEY!!!) (paraphrasing jeremy here) Jeremy: theres this guy who flys a drone out over beaches into the ocean , and he released the footage… apparently due to there being a lot less people now theres just Great White Sharks that go relatively close to beaches now… there are times where hes filming people playing and like 10 ft away is a fucking shark ya know just swimming. And cuz they're really far away hed be like “id see it , film it , then go to a lifeguard and show it like “oh btw…” “ Michael: so you know 2 hours ago someone may have been eaten. MattL he should put a speaker on the drone to like announce the sharks like HEY! DEATH OUT THERE!. Lindsay: “whats that Dronie? Theres a shark in the water?!?” Jeremy: and it was funny seeing that behavior where everyonce and a while a shark would be swimming then someone would do something near it not seeing the shark and the shark just goes “fuck dat” and swims away MattL god dude…. So close to death *gus joins* Lindsay: oh you're the guy who was like Texas beaches have Tar Gus: oh yeah i grew up in texas and i thought all beaches were like that just “oh you don't sit on the tar”