#cuz it brought nothing but anger to me but its just been something thats been stuck on me lately

[hecksupremechips]

Girl help I keep thinking about freaking persona 4

[primussavethesemechs]

I want the human/cybertronian life difference to be talked about more in canon

Cuz I mean. it’s RIGHT THERE.

Just a smidgen of true acknowledgment I BEG YOU HASBRO‼️

i mean come on all it takes is someone mentioning how long the wars been going for one of the humans to go “4 MILLION YEARS???? WHAT THE FUCK HOW OLD ARE YOU???”

And optimus or ratchet to be like “…5/7 million?” And all of the humans to have a break down CUZ WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOUVE BEEN ALIVE SINCE BEFORE THE HUMAN SPECIES EXISTED??? WE WERE MONKEYS WHEN YOU WERE BORN???

And the (woefully uniformed) cybertronians to be like “??? What do YOU mean your species was still evolving when I onlined, how long do you guys live?? A thousand?? A few hundred??”

And the gobsmacked humans to be like “??? NO WE HARDLY LIVE OVER A HUNDRED ITS CONSIDERED AN ACCOMPLISHMENT?? AVERAGE OLD AGE DEATH IS LIKE MID 80s!! TECHNICALLY THE AVERAGE LIFE SPAN IS 72 OR SOMETHING???”

Cue the autobots being like “😨 72??? THATS A CHILD WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT⁉️”

the more attached/emotional bots looking at their charges and realizing that not only are they sparklings compared to them but they’ll die as sparklings too in just a few decades, causing them to straight up have a mini meltdown.

Yeah they’re in a war and they’ve lost plenty of friends, but never to anything as predictable and inescapable as old age.

It’s the seeing-it-coming part that gets to them, the slow dread of knowing that even if they do everything right and keep them out of danger and they stay healthy there’s nothing they can do to stop them from withering away in a couple of decades.

Most versions of bumblebee looking at their charge/friend and realizing his assumptions about the fact that since they’re both still young that they’ll have plenty of time to just. Live together and have fun- are wrong?? Immediately tears. Even if cybertronians can’t cry tears he’s doing whatever the equivalent is and running away to cry in his room. And then running back to snatch them and take them with him cuz HE CANT WASTE A SECOND IF THEIR LIFESPANS ARE REALLY THAT SHORT HES GONNA JUST HAVE TO SPEND 24/7 WITH THEM

This whole concept ESPECIALLY applies to TFP since all of them got their own little human buddy and there’s only like 5 autobots to begin with (of the main season 1 crew) they’ve lost so many of their own so recently, their numbers are already dwindling down to nothing, they’re losing the war and the kids are what’s given them a major morale boost. To continue fighting they need hope, and the kids have kind of become their hope for the future- to know they’ll die off in under a century despite how young they still are is a shot to the spark.

Look me in the eye and tell me bee wouldnt panic hearing that Raf only has 70-80 years to live. LOOK ME IN THE EYE AND TELL ME HE WOULDNT HAVE SOME KIND OF FIT OVER BEING TOLD THAT HIS LITTLE BUDDY (from a cybertronian perspective) HAS A LIFESPAN EQUIVALENT TO A LATE STAGE TERMINAL ILLNESS DIAGNOSIS. Bee would start treating Raf like a kid with stage 4 cancer 😭

I just KNOW bulkhead would have the worst reaction other than bee, maybe even worse cuz he looks at miko and realizes she’s used up basically a fifth of her entire lifespan already and she’s Still So Little and straight up starts weeping. That’s his DAUGHTER you can’t take her from him so soon it’s not FAIR! He might have to go destroy a canyon wall or something to let some of the anger and grief out

Arcee is Not taking it well either.

She JUST got attached to this one, just got used to a new partner and your telling her that no matter what she does he’s never going to last as long as tailgate of cliff jumper did?? Even if both he and she do everything they’re supposed to do to protect him and extended his life?? Depression time baby

Optimus and ratchet don’t react as much outwardly to the news as the others but inside they’re both 💔💥

These kids have brought optimus a level of contentment he hasn’t felt in vorns, and he sees how bright their spirits shine- Only to now know those precious spirits will burn out in less than a century- it gnaws at him inside, yet another strike from the cruelty of fate

Ratchet is devastated but refuses to acknowledge it, these kids- yes even miko- have become his pseudo grandkids and he’s not ready, nor will he ever be ready, to outlive them. Jacks reminds him too much of a younger optimus, still learning and still hopeful. Miko is… well she has a fire to her that ratchet can appreciate (when she’s not actively annoying him) she’s determined enough to make anything happen which he does begrudgingly respect even if he wishes she wouldn’t just throw herself into any and every situation just for fun.

And Raf…

Raf is his apprentice, the only one of the kids to understand him and listen intently to his stories of cybertron. To show appreciation for his work and his ideas, to Listen and Learn and Improve his inventions. He harbors the most fondness for Raf since he sees so much potential in him, and has taken him under his wing in teaching him cybertronian language and biology.

He feels almost like he’s training a student to take his place- only for the ground to be ripped out from under him to know that Raf will never have the chance to succeed him, will never even outlive him.

A parent should never have to bury their child, and ratchet already feels that he has.

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TLDR the autobots find out humans have fruit fly lifespans next to them and become one big soggy mess of tears, optimus and ratchet included although they try to have a stiff upper lip about it (and fail to varying extents)

I swear this was supposed to be about any and all continuities but TFP took over completely😭 idk it just fits the best since they focus so much on how attached the bots get to the kids

Edit: btw this was inspired from the fact I found out that the cybertronian equivalent to a year (yes I know technically they have solar cycles which are roughly a human year but what they consider a year vs their lifespan/time perception is different) is a vorn. A vorn is 80 HUMAN YEARS. I saw that and went “oh wow a vorn is like a whole human lifespan!😃” and then I went “OH A VORN IS A WHOLE HUMAN LIFESPAN 😀“

[sunfish999]

The nitty gritty is watering down katara's character so she's just a meek girl ? Your lying If you really think that's the same character. The producers said they would take an axe to the main characters and that's where the show really suffers...also nothing is perfect people like you is why we get stuck with mediocrity

?? I finished episode 5 but what😭 how is katara just a meek girl, i feel like yes she has a little less rage but other than that she shows that shes smart and powerful and her own person? Explain what is watered down i feel like animation usually over-exaggerates facial expressions and voices for the most part, so i’m not surprised that katara has more subtle strength so far, and also the actress has a very kind face, but i think shes still able to show some of that anger. (I havent watched the water master fight yet so maybe thats where you’re talking about, so i cant speak on that)

Idk what taking an axe to the main characters means (like really cutting them apart? Cuz i doubt they would promote a show by saying its gonna be bad but who knows). But i feel like the characters are all pretty accurate with how they carry themselves, of course they’re younger so acting wont be perfect but i think the imperfections are what brings them to life. I know a lot of people hate the writing, i feel like it’s quite similar to the show? (Though its been maybe 3-4 years since i last rewatched it) and some lines especially from something previously animated are gonna sound awkward in real life, which is why generally i believe live actions arent necessary for any animation, though in this case i’m really enjoying just rewatching atla and my childhood be brought to life.

Nothing is perfect: ok i was using perfect mostly because i was very excited about it, of course i know theres things that could be changed to improve it but a lot of those things are impossible (like you cant get an actress thats EXACTLY katara and will make everyone happy, because shes a drawing) but overall, i think the landscapes come close to perfect (i’m just really into fantasy scenes and i think it’s so beautiful and impressive to see things like the omashu supply rail and the air temple come to life. And zuko’s boat looks so awesome and so accurate too.) And i thought the cgi looked slightly silly at first (especially air) but then i realized that we were always seeing drawings of aangs air in the animation which would look even stupider irl so i made my peace pretty quickly.

People like me is why we get stuck with mediocrity… hm. I feel like my opinion probably has nothing to do with what comes out on tv, especially because in this society haters have the real power, and you guys tearing it down are more likely to get it cancelled. I don’t think any production team takes an animated film or show and thinks ‘yea im gonna make this absolutely awful,’ (though i’m really not sure what they were thinking when making the pjo movie, its good as a standalone but they went so off course from the plot…) of course they’re all just trying to fit what they think into the show and express their own opinions, which are ultimately going to be a lot different than some people watching it.

Overall, ok i haven’t watched the og in years, so my memory on comparing each episode of the show to the live action is not going to be at the level of others (which i think boosts the enjoyability 100x over). But as i watch it, i remember tons of parts of the animation, and it makes me super happy that it has the same air as the show, albeit slightly more serious because they can’t fit all the funny filler episodes (if they ever created a live action lost appa episode i would lose it that cannot happen).

Maybe i sounded rude in my original post (i changed it quickly bc it was very angry at first lol) so sorry i know you’re all entitled to your opinion, it’s just i was SO EXCITED and then checked the tag on tumblr only to see that everyone hated it… i always feel inferior to people who really like films etc because i tend to enjoy things that other people hate, (like i really enjoyed the avatar way of water movie even if it was super long, and i know people DESPISED it). So maybe i seem like someone who is satisfied with mediocrity, and maybe i am, i focus mostly on the backgrounds and beauty of movies because im really into art and much less on acting and script (though i can appreciate beautiful characters, i was Blown Away by live action suki and hair down sokka my jaw dropped fr) i agree i am fairly simple to please in terms of this type of thing.

SORRY THIS IS GETTING QUITE LONG IM SURE U WONT READ IT ALL but i hope ur finding joy in life since live action atla is obviously not doing it for u

[dreamychick]

Hobbit thoughts part 3 (final)

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How in the hell are all of these Warriors such deep sleepers you go on the road and sleep on the road and hunt on the road and run and do all the things constantly where danger is constantly a factor how can you be such a sound sleeper so that when somebody is moving around you you don't even feel it?

Also in a party this big you only have one person keeping watch?

How in the fuck did he just Escape that hoard of whatever the hell those creatures were just by ducking down like he was in the thrall of everything and then he's slumped down got on his hands and knees and they just walked right past him how in the fuck?

No seriously what the hell are these things? One of them is just sitting in a little pulley and then just write on his little notepad and goes zip lining away their King has all this skin the flapping around that looks like a beard what what is this creature race?

Oh and here comes Gollum.

Too smack the shit out of that Goblin with a rock! And then in the process lose his ring.

The full scene with the rocks and Gollum like taking his prey and stuff kind of reminds me of that video game until dawn like a cool part kind of just reminds me of that

Gollum has a split personality? He just talks to himself he's been alone for so long that he only has himself for company that's kind of sad.

So askin what you had in your pocket was stupid. You should have known when he was wrong hed want to know what the answer was. Dummy.

So what manner of creasture is gollum? A gollum? Isnt that just his name?

No they didn't just put a Wilhelm scream in here

And hes put the ring on. So it begins.

To be fair that wasnt his fault.

He wants to help them get their home back thats commendable

Ok so his sword was stuck in the soft flesh of a monster. How did it make a shhhhingk sound when he pulled it out?

When you watch a prequel there's kind of no sense of urgency for certain character is because you know they don't die because they show up in the original series like you can have a sense of hey what's going to happen but there's no sense of actual urgency or dread because you know that ultimately they're going to be okay like Gandalf is never endanger Bilbo Baggins is never truly in danger

Thorin buddy where ya goin?

You dumb idiot. Running into a fight that you knew you couldn't win just for the sake of Pride and anger listen you wait until the right moment to get your fucking Revenge I'm not saying don't have Revenge I'm saying wait cuz running into a plan half-cocked only to get yourself Gravely injured or killed does nothing for no one now your people are not Avenged you still don't have a home. And they're down one good fighter as well as a leader of their people and for what it didn't even benefit anybody

Bilbo go pick up his sword.

Oh my God Eagles ex machina.

They even were thoughtful enough to grab his sword.

So thorin is alive again. Huzzah. But i mean were we ever scared?

Hey eagles can you carry us the rest of the way? I mean. You brought us this far. Eagles? Eagles?? No. Fuck us then. That mountain is only about another month maybe mores walk away. You could fly us there in a few hours but nah. Its better this way.

"The worst is behind us." -Cliche. Ding.

Dun dun dun.

So all and all it was pretty good. I still don't think it's really my cup of tea, like I wouldn't seek it out, but it was ok to sit through. I didn't fall asleep with this one so that already was a point in its favor. I just think it had a bit to much...I don't know. I still can't put my finger on it. By all accounts I should love this series.

Magic. Fantasy. Adventure. Dragons. All that stuff. But I dunno.

Something is still just not there. I'd be willing to watch the next one because. Dragon. But not right now. At a later time. But all in all, final verdict: Not bad.

[lauriejuspeczyk]

embarrassing q&a about izzy and john,,, @honeybite and @kiryukazumas ayyyy

1. How did they first meet? Izzy gets transferred to Hope County and on her literal first day on the job she gets sucked up into the whole fiasco with the peggies and she ends up stranded in Hope County (with Reina and Aria wooooo). She and John first find out about each other when she helps Nick Rye steal back his plane!!! Nick tells her about what’s goin down and she feels sorry for him, and then he describes John to her and she’s like “wow he sounds like a douchebag. let’s break into his shit.” because Izzy loves being a shit disturber. It turns into a whole big rivalry after that. 2. What did they think of each other at first? What was their first impression of the other? They do a lot of just like, hearing about each other from other people, or arguing over the radio before they actually physically meet. (They physically meet for the first time when Izzy gets kidnapped to be baptized). John’s first impression is she’s just another out of control sinner who needs to be shown the error of her ways blah blah blah pbbtbtbtbpbt. Izzy thinks John is pretentious and very high strung, which supremely clashes with her own personality, but she really likes fucking with him and gets a lot of satisfaction from making him mad lol 3. Were they immediately interested / attracted, or did that come later? Oh they hate each other at first!! They finally actually like MEET meet at the baptism. John knew who Izzy was right away but she didn’t really piece together who he was until she heard his voice. John was physically attracted to Izzy when he saw her and he like,,, wasn’t expecting that, because all she’d done up till then was piss him off lol. It causes a lot of inner turmoil for him because it’s the whole,,, “I shouldn’t feel like that because you’re a filthy sinner so I’m gonna repress the fuck out of this. im sure nothing bad will come of that. bottling ur feelings is good and works”. He tries drowning her right away at the baptism and Joseph has to come and be like “chill.” Izzy doesn’t really think anything of John after she first meets him, it takes a lot longer for her to be interested in him like that than vice versa, but getting almost drowned is really a big wake up call for her in that the guy she’s fucking with probably has a lot more personal issues than she realized lol 4. Why did they fall for each other? lMFAO UHHHFHFHH its so complicated, fuck. John’s feelings are at the start just a big crush at first. He just thinks she’s very pretty and she pisses him off constantly but he subconsciously likes the attention she gives him. John wouldn’t realize he’s in love with Izzy until a while after their rivalry starts weirdly turning into a strange friendship. I’m writing a stupid fic that may or may not actually ever be finished so I’ll just recap events here: There’s a moment when John is really angry (For reasons...u’ll see... or will u... who knows...) and Izzy calms him down by like,,, grabbing him and making him lie down with his head in her lap and she just kinda like shushes him, and he just lies there looking up at her and he’s like,,, never really been touched like that his whole life. Like never when he was growing up and then certainly never now, especially in response to his anger, so he just kind of I think,,, realizes it in that moment. but also he has a LOT of conflicting feelings about it because he also realizes he can NEVER change Izzy in a way that lets them be together (ie make her join edens gate, nevuuuurrr gonna happen). For John it’s a combination of she’s brave and kind and patient and all her fucking around aside, she’s genuinely a good person, and she relates to his pain and they have funny conversations and she makes him feel good and loved, just like NORMAL ASS REASONS TO FALL IN LOVE? but again, he can’t acknowledge that he genuinely loves her, because she’s a sinner and working against Eden’s Gate, so instead he processes it as this weird crazy religious thing where he thinks she’s a bigger deal than she actually is, like she’s somehow really important and God sent her just for him or something lmao... basically realizing he was in love with her really fucked him up a lot more. For Izzy it’s EVEN MORE COMPLICATTTEDDDD... She probably has feelings for John by the same time he does for her, but she represses it a lot harder and better than he does. For her it’s this thing of she also has genuine reasons to love him but she struggles a lot with how broken as a person he is. She thinks she sees a genuinely good side to him that she’s in love with but she can’t figure out how to make the like,,, crazy part of him,,, stop lmao, and she also struggles with the idea that it’s not her responsibility to BASICALLY FIX HIM so she just represses instead. She also struggles a lot with how he’d probably want her to join Eden’s Gate and how she knows she can probably never convince him to leave so she doesn’t even try to have that conversation. She handles all the repressing like A TON BETTER than John does lmfao she’s much more emotionally stable and just like way more level headed than him, but it’s still a big thing that she’s really just not sure what to do about, so she does......Nothing! 5. Who flirted more before they started their relationship and how? Izzy! flirts! all! the time! She mainly does it as a joke because she loves how fuckin mad John gets when she does lmao!!! 6. Who made the first move/confessed first? no confessioooonnnn I don’t think... probably not ever, or at least not until it’s way too late lmao. See #4, they both are basically pre-convinced that it would never work so they never do anything about it. If anyone was to confess it would be John but he’d have to be under a lot of pressure to do so ie: one of them is about to die or something 7. When did they have their first kiss and under what circumstances? GOD I DON’T EVEN KNOW HONESTLY I HAVEN’T THOUGHT THIS FAR AHEAD JKJKFKJAFJK. I can honestly imagine Izzy doing something stupid as fuck like asking John to kiss her because she thinks it’ll just make him freak out or get mad, and John actually doing it and then Izzy being like UHHHHHHHHHHH I HAVE TO GO.  8.  Which one is more easily made jealous? John 100% but he pretends he doesn’t get jealous :-) but he is toxic as fuck and getting jealous puts him in a MOOD 9. What do they fight about? Who’s the first to apologize? THEY FIGHT LITERALLY ALL THE TIME IT’S ALL THEY KNOW BAYBEE!!!!! JOHN JUST GETS MAD AT HER AND THEN IZZY LAUGHS ABOUT IT THATS THEM THAT’S THE WHOLE DYNAMIC!!!! 10. Did they have a first date? Where did they go? lmfAO I mean they have a lot of little hang outs together at John’s cabin that despite their intentions can sometimes get TENSE... but   again...you’d have to beat them with a stick to get either of them to acknowledge the romantic undertones to anything that happens between them 11. What do their friends and family think? Do they approve of the relationship? NOBODY KNOWWWWS LMAO. Izzy goes out of her waaay to lie about it; she tells Jerome for example that she’s just spying. Some people think its like glaringly obvious though (ie Adelaide being like “hey so John Seed is like...crazy in love with you huh” and Izzy being like “WHAT?????? NO???????”) The only people who know she’s friends with John are Reina and Aria, but even them she lies to about how deep it got. She’s esp cautious with Reina because Reina hates John and honestly she thinks that’s hilarious. In general depending on the person she actually feels kind of ashamed because it feels like she’s betraying hope county on some level? so she just kind of is constantly juggling various lies depending on the person lol 12. Do they like to cuddle/hold hands? Do they prefer to do it privately rather than in public? honestly I can imagine them ending up holding hands or something and just like NOT looking at each other at all when they do, and then stopping and never acknowledging that it happened ever again lmao 13. How long do they wait before sleeping together for the first time (If they do)? Under what circumstances does it happen? ajsfkjsajkfjkakjfjskkjakasfasjf I DON’T KNOW!! I haven’t thought this far but it would probably happen at his cabin when they are alone and they’d probably just like somehow end up just making out somehow lol and Izzy would constantly break it off for a second to be like “we should stop” and then keep going lmfaofjsafkksaj it would be just like way 2 messy and way too much touching and kissing cuz they’re both way too much bottled up, and it would most definitely only happen ONCE and then John would be even more obsessed with her afterwards and Izzy would be like “wow I fucked up lol” 14. Who tops? physically John; emotionally Izzy, does this make sense, who knos......... 15. Do they get married? Who proposes & how? that’s a no from me dog 16. Do they have children? How many? What are their names? again no, but I feel like if you brought up the stupid ass cliche idea of getting married and having some kids and having a little suburban house John would start frothing at the mouth and then izzy would wake up in a cold sweat somewhere

[nozomijoestar]

Instead of following this meme as a list of ask prompts I love the idea so much I want to do everything in one go myself

The Bowl of Embers - What would be the title of your trial listed as in the duty-finder?

The Endless Dunes  - named this because of the fight location being in a secluded area deep in the Sagolii Desert at night; significant since thats where she was born and raised

Thok ast Thok - Write a brief flavor-text about your trial one would find as a listed description in the duty-finder

At the end of your winding road awaits a figure shrouded in the sands. Life has ceased to be in this barren land; there is but one path forward. The figure meets your gaze unshaken and expectant. The night winds howl in rage. Silence the Warrior of Light. 

Cape Westwind - What is the setting of the battle? Where will it take place?

Deep within the Sagolii Desert in Southern Thanalan, past her birthplace of Forgotten Springs. She used her power in anger to raise earth into a platform surrounded only by towering dunes and some of the locale’s rocky sand filled ravines. Its extremely difficult to enter and life threatening to leave if you aren’t careful. 

The Howling Eye - Write a description of the opening cut-scene preceding the fight

The questline leading up to this fight would involve the player discovering the WoL has gone rogue and wants to renounce the world and herself as Hydaelyn’s instrument. She’s been driven to her breaking point and despairs over the future and freedoms she feels were robbed from her when she was given Echo without consent; thereby made to endure pain and suffering she never asked for. 

Because at this stage she’s been unable to find a cure to get rid of Echo, all her hidden negative emotions have made her snap into a mass of destruction. The  player must fight her to make her come to her senses, which involves killing her multiple times only for her to be revived more pissed than before (due to Hydaelyn continuing to reconstruct her body to reinsert her soul upon any events that would kill her physically- this is my personal explanation for how the Echo buff in gameplay would work lorewise)

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Player(s) enters the battle area at midnight and looks around to find only the stars and dunes they can’t see past. The entire land is swept by an unnaturally strong wind and sandstorm they shield their face from and as it ends the compact platform in front of them has Vaste standing with her back turned. She’s staring at the sky as you approach and unarmed, then closes her eyes hearing you. She’s known you, or something like you, was coming. When you reach almost halfway she sighs before opening her eyes and reaching her right hand out beside her. In a flash of energy that looks and sounds like lightening and thunder her spear is summoned. The player stops in their tracks, shocked. Slowly she turns appearing furious and assumes battle stance. Cue the traditional FF pan out then zoom in as the frame blurs white.

Thornmarch - What would be your character’s opening dialogue(s) upon the start of the battle?

Approaching party: “You should’ve let me stay gone.”

As players initiate their openers: “There is nothing here but your grave.”

The Chrysalis - What would be your character’s final words upon defeat?

As she falls to the ground: “I see it clear...a world of light.”

The Final Steps of Faith - How would some of the mechanics of the fight operate? Include as many as you want and specify whether it is for hard-mode or extreme (if applicable)

I’ll describe only the EX version but any lower difficulties would roughly the same just not as intensive

Initial phase she’ll hit the MT with enhanced damage Fang and Claw and Wheeling Thrust combos combined with the Heavy Thrust and Blood for Blood buffs; a special version of the Wheeling Thrust combo called Dragon’s Spin is a tankbuster with massive crit because it has Life Surge effect applied to its damage on final hit, this will come after 20% of total health bar is gone, due to LS 10% of her HP is restored from her damage dealt

As the MT activates their mitigation two cone AoEs will appear behind her diagonally shooting out Geirskogul attacks before alternating position to be two cones facing front of her and repeating the attack, finally the cones will become a pair of rectangles from her sides, she will then perform a centered circle AoE with Dragonfire Dive

The next mechanic sees her use Mirage Dive to chase the party around the arena with rapid small circle AoEs that fan out in position from the center to the edge of the platform before returning to neutral battle stance and using a platform wide AoE that starts at the center and which players will have to run to either the southeast or northwest corners of the arena to take the least damage, this is Dragonsong Dive

From here the arena is shattered and there’s an Active Time Maneuver to get yourself on a stable piece of debris as everyone is tossed into the sky, as the pieces crash back down they form a massive crater that hits down to the rock beneath the sands and the entire area is surrounded by a massive sandstorm 

All party members will gain a Buffeted debuff that does 150 damage constantly until the end of battle due to the environment and can be healed through to deal with but not Esuna’d away

She will land and target the MT with Spinshatter Dive, at this point she’ll buff herself with Battle Litany and enter red Blood of the Dragon to charge Nastrond

As she charges the attack adds will appear called Fragments of Agony that must be destroyed or they will charge her Agony gauge and the Nastrond will instant wipe everyone when it goes off, if everyone successfully kills the Fragments the Nastrond won’t wipe but deal massive damage

There is a brief resting period as she becomes untargetable and creates shades of Yugiri, Estinien, Lyse, Y’shtola, and Haurchefant from memory using leftover charge from her Agony gauge when it was prevented from being filled, players will then have to prioritize all adds in a dps check as they shield her and each has their own AoEs to look out for

After all adds are down she will rejoin the fight with Jump as a large centered AoE, then repeat her initial mechanics before the phase change until brought to 0%

Urth’s Fount - Would there be any mechanics that when ignored would result in an instant wipe?

Failing to stop the Agony gauge from reaching full or failing the dps check will be instant TPKs

The Royal Menagerie - Describe your OC’s techniques or special attacks that the party will have to avoid or be cautious dealing with

Players will need to be on the lookout for Geirskogul, Mirage Dive, Dragonfire and Dragonsong Dive whenever they appear as they’ll hit fast and hard, the entire first phase will also have her in Blood of the Dragon which will increase her attack potency

The Singularity Reactor - Will your character summon adds and companions throughout the encounter, or would it be a single-target fight?

The second phase will have shade memories of her closest NPC friends as adds

Akh Afah Amphitheater - Will your trial be a single-phase fight or will there be different segments to the encounter?

Two phases

Battle on the Big Bridge - What would the battle theme sound like? Will the music shift when the second phase of the fight begins?

The opening music for phase one will be something in the same vein and tone as Ramuh’s Rolling Thunder theme while the second phase shift goes into something closer to Shiva’s Oblivion theme; in both halves of the theme theres an undercurrent beat akin to Revenge Twofold

The Navel - How easy would it be for a DRG to fall off the edge of the stage in your trial?

Since she’s a DRG herself, pretty hard for another to fly off the side since there’s a lot of room just for her attacks to go off well

Castrum Fluminis - Would your OC drop any loot at the end of the fight? If so, describe them (tokens, tomes, weapons, crafting reagents, mounts, etc.)

Her completion reward is two chests with orchestrion rolls for both fight phases respectively, a minion of herself, and rarer a copy of Alba her chocobo mount alongside whatever gear is the current standard ilevel and 50 tomes of the current highest grade

Emanation - Name someone else’s OC you would like to see as a trial boss. Be sure to tag them

@uss-edsall @m14-mod3 and @aethernoise ! You guys don’t have to or you can just rb the meme list up top if you don’t want to do everything at once like I did

Ultima’s Bane - On a scale of 1 to 10, with ten being the most extreme, how would you rate the difficulty of your trial?

I feel like I probs went a little overboard so a 7-8, if I were to actually run it she’d beat me into the ground lol, gl trying to kill her cuz she’s no pushover

[i-see-thevision]

Not So Fast (Part 2)

Genre: Angst/fluff eventually; high school!au

Pairing: Haechan x reader (ft. the rest of dream)

Summary: You and Haechan were best friends in middle school, practically inseparable. But when he becomes known as the mischievous bad boy in High School, your parents forbid you from seeing him. However, that doesn’t stop him from seeing you.

A/N: Wow this gif has me sweating okay  a n y w a y s . . . 

Also I wrote this while listening to “Like We Used To” by The Rose. So, prepare to cry cuz I was crying while I wrote this. 

Part 1 // Part 3

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“You can't just forbid me from seeing my best friend!” You raised your voice at your parents, which you immediately regretted. 

“Excuse you? You are not the boss here missy, we are. And we’re telling you that boy needs to be out of your life.” Your mother says, motioning for your father to say something. 

“He’s only going to get you into serious trouble.” He says, agreeing with your mother. 

You had to keep your jaw clenched to prevent yourself from another outburst. Because that would ultimately end with you getting forbidden to leave the house. Yes, that has happened before. They called your school and had them send all work to your house. You didn't have any contact with anyone but your parents for over a month. It drove you crazy. 

But, hopefully if you just stayed silent and agreed to this, they would leave you alone. So that’s just what you did, you nodded your head and agreed that you would cut Donghyuck out of your life. 

He was not going to take this well.

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You closed your car door and locked it before weaving through the other cars in the parking lot. You saw Donghyuck’s car just before leaving the parking lot to get to the school entrance. You couldn't help the knot that began to form in your stomach at the sight of his car. When you two weren't sneaking around at night, you and Donghyuck would just drive wherever and talk about nothing and everything. It would always be so peaceful and serene. It was on one of those road trips that you realized you were in love with him.

“It’s so beautiful.” You awed, standing in front of Jeongbang Waterfall. Donghyuck demanded he took you here once he found out you had never been to Jeju. And now you were surrounded by the most gorgeous scenery you have ever laid your eyes on. 

“I knew you would love it.” He said coming behind you and wrapping his arms around your shoulders, resting his chin on top of your head.

You both stood like that for a while, just admiring the waterfall and it’s surroundings. And it was in that comfortable quiet and mix of chirps from nature that you realized that you never wanted this to end. That your feelings for Donghyuck went way beyond friendship.

You now stood in front of your locker, grabbing the things you needed before heading off to your first class. You passed Jeno and Jaemin in the hallway, you all exchanged quick waves and smiles. Your parents didn't say you couldn't hang out with the rest of your friends. But it would be nearly impossible to hang out with them and not Donghyuck. So you had to figure this out. You had to talk to Donghyuck.

The rest of school was boring as hell. Not that you were really paying attention. Your mind was a bit preoccupied with the thoughts of telling Donghyuck that your parents told you to cut him out of your life. And with how things ended last night, you doubt that its going to be as easy as a simple conversation. 

You were brought out of your thoughts by the boy himself, leaning on your locker with his head down. He was wearing black ripped skinny jeans, a white t-shirt and a flannel. His hair was slightly messy but still perfect, if that even makes any sense. It didn't occur to you that you were staring until he looked up to make eye contact with you. Immediately you noticed there was something in his eyes, an emotion you couldn't quite read.

But you knew something was wrong. 

You walked up to him, neither of you saying anything. Just maintaining eye contact, trying to decipher where you two were at without saying anything. But Donghyuck eventually broke the silence.

“Y/n.. I don’t like this. I don’t like whatever passive aggressive stand off we’re in.” His hands found purchase on your upper arms. “I just want you back.” 

Those words cut deeper into you than you thought they would. Did he know he sounded like a boyfriend? Did he know he acted like one? Did he know that it tore you apart inside to keep your feelings hidden from him because it would only further complicate things? Did he know that what you were about to say would crush not only him but you? Well you’d now find out.

“Donghyuck, my parents forbid me from seeing you again.” Well that came out less tactful than expected. Donghyuck’s jaw visibly tightened. And the previous emotion you couldn't read in his eyes was now replaced with confusion and anger.

“They what?” He said through gritted teeth, trying to maintain his composure. You felt his grip on your arms tighten, not enough to hurt you. He would never hurt you. Not intentionally.

“I already tried to reason with them. But I don't think I can handle the whole solitary confinement thing again, Donghyuck. I’m so sorry...” Your voice cracked. You could feel the tears beginning to well up in your eyes, the sob that you were holding back in your throat. And as if that wasn't enough, you could see the hurt written all over Donghyuck’s face and it was killing you.

“They can’t just fucking do that!” He raised his voice slightly, causing you to jump a little. You were already in an emotional state and you knew this was going to end with a hell of a lot of tears. 

Before you could respond, last nights events seemed to be repeating again. Because soon enough your back was pressed against the lockers and Donghyuck had his hands on your waist, keeping you in place.

“Why is this happening to us?” You nearly broke down at how defeated he sounded. The tear falling down his cheek being caught by your hand that had subconsciously drifted to his face.

“Donghyuck, I’m sorry for last night. I just think it might be better for us to keep some distance between us.” The tears were now falling down your cheeks at full force. 

“What are you saying?” His voice was nearly a whisper. His grip on you tightening, as if you would disappear if he let go.

“I’m sorry.” You let out a silent sob before pushing past him and running out of the school doors. Leaving him there, tear stained cheeks, staring at the place you just were. 

You could barely drive with how hard you were crying. You weren't going home, that’s for sure. You didn't even want to look at your parents. None the less be in the same house as them. You just wanted to be alone. 

Actually no. 

You wanted to be with Donghyuck. But since that wasn't an option right now, being alone was the next best thing. 

You drove to the hideout, the one place that brought you comfort and peace. You climbed over the fence, and walked inside the abandoned building you called your second home. Making you’re way up to the roof, you felt your chest tighten. You felt so many emotions at once.

You felt broken.

There was a slight breeze when you got to the roof. You rubbed your arms and walked over to the edge of the building, sitting down and taking a deep breath. You wiped the tears on your face and looked out over the city. The pent up emotion and rage feeling the need to be released.

So you just screamed into the air. Body hunching forward and sobbing into your knees. It was like you had no control over your life. Like you were just a puppet and the strings were being cut one by one. 

You didn't go to school the next day or the day after that. In fact you missed the whole week. Your parents didn't care, they were just happy you weren't with Donghyuck. You couldn't leave your bed. You felt like your heart had been ripped out of your chest. And you weren't even dating him. But maybe that made it worse. Maybe that made this hurt so much more.

On the third day after your conversation with Donghyuck, you were sitting on your floor, leaning against your bed with a blanket wrapped around you, just staring out your window. 

The boys have tried reaching out to you, but you just told them that seeing them hurt more. But right now thats all you wanted. You just wanted them back. You just wanted Donghyuck back. 

Your attention was brought to a knock on your door.

With a soft sigh, you got up and walked to your door and opened it. Not at all expecting who was behind it.

“Noona...” It was Jisung. He was holding two Boba Teas in his hands. Despite how you were feeling, your heart warmed at the fact that Jisung came to see you. 

“Jisung? What are you doing here?” You said softly, your voice hoarse from crying.

“I wanted to make you feel better, so I brought these.” He said handing you one of the drinks. You couldn't help the smile and the tears that were now coming back. You fell forward and engulfed Jisung in a hug. Crying into his chest.

“Thank you.” You cried. Jisung rubbed your back and led you into your room. Sitting on the floor next to you in the spot you previously were.

You let out everything you had kept inside this whole time. How you were in love with Donghyuck, how he had been more affectionate, how you couldn't handle it that night at the hideout, how your parent are tearing you two apart, how your unrequited feelings for him have been tearing you apart. You let it all out. And Jisung listened, occasionally rubbing your shoulder or wiping your tears and telling you it was all going to be okay. 

“Forgive me but screw your parents y/n. I can't stand seeing you and Donghyuck like this. So honestly, i’d say go to Donghyuck. Because he loves you too y/n, he has forever.” Jisung says, placing his tea down to look at you intently.

“I don’t know Jisung...” You say, feeling hesitant.

“You don't have to decide that right now. But at least promise me you’ll think about it.” He says picking up his tea again. You nod, taking a sip of your own tea.

“Okay, get some sleep.” He says, leaning forward to wrap his arms around you. You’re thankful for the embrace, you needed it. 

Once Jisung left, you found yourself exhausted emotionally. So you made your way to your bed and fell asleep rather quickly. 

The next morning you decided to go to school. You knew you were going to see Donghyuck there. You knew you were going to have to decided if you could keep this up any longer. 

So there you were, walking into school. You hadn't seen Hyuck yet today. Your fifth class just ended and you were at your locker, putting your books away so you could go to lunch. But just as you locked your locker, a hand grabbed your wrist and pulled you into a near by janitor’s closet. Locking the door behind you.

You looked up to see Donghyuck.

“What are you doing?” You questioned, though your heart was racing.

“Where the hell have you been?” He said taking a step forward, causing you to take a step back. 

“I’ve been sick...” You used an excuse you knew he wouldn't buy. 

“We both know that’s not true. You can’t just fall off the face of the earth for a week, y/n!” He had a point. It was unfair of you to cut yourself off from everyone.

“I know... I’m sorry. I just have a lot going on in my head right now.” You tried to explain without sounding too cryptic. Donghyuck just sighed, taking another step forward. But this time you stayed put.

“I can’t do this anymore.” He suddenly said, looking into your eyes with that look again. The one you couldn't read last time. 

“Can’t do what anymore?” You asked, voice ready to break. This was it. This was going to be the end of your friendship.

“I can’t keep pretending that I'm not in love with you!” He said, his eyes searching for a response in yours. You didn't know what to say. 

“I’m so fucking in love with you.” He confessed, hands finding their favorite place on your waist and lightly pushing you against the wall behind you. And before you could react, his lips were on yours. 

Donghyuck was kissing you. Wait- Donghyuck just said he loves you. 

Once you wrapped all of this around your mind, you kissed him back. So much emotion flowed into the kiss. it was equally as desperate as it was passionate. Your arms wrapped around his neck and you felt his hands move to the back of your thighs as he broke the kiss momentarily to breath “jump” and instinctively you wrapped your legs around his waist. 

He held you up against the wall while you unloaded all of the anxiety, stress and pent up emotional fears onto his lips. His tongue darted across your bottom lip and you parted yours to allow him access. Your fingers tugged lightly on his hair. Eliciting a groan from him, a sound that had you feeling like you were drunk. His scent intoxicated you, everything about him was intoxicating, addicting. And you knew in this moment...

There would be no way you could keep your parents rule after this. 

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A/N: PART TWO. Lol okay so I was gonna keep this part strictly angsty but I just couldn't help myself because after “Like We Used To”, “Baby Don’t Like It” came on and I was just like fuck it let’s get frisky. ANYWAYS. Yes there is going to be a part 3!! And yes it’s gonna get steamy. OH And it should get posted tomorrow so look forward to that. Thank you guys for reading! Love you!! 💕

[euphorianyx]

Can you make an angst where you meet JungKook but see him with some other girl while you were crying another member takes care of you i would pick v but you can change if you want loves to my fav on tumblr

Angsty / Fluffy Something 

(Even I don’t know what shit is this)

JungKook / V / YN

Do Not Kill Me Cuz This is Trash

You saw him. The light blue shirt and black jeans complimented his features and skin so well. His hair was done up, making him looking manlier than ever. You took one step and you saw her…

You were so frustrated and raged. His eyes were drinking her in. Her hands were slowly exploring every piece of his face. Lips locked together, the lust light in the air. The way JungKook tugged her hair behind ear so gently made you sick to stomach. The way her fingers tugged into his light blue shirt broke you. 

Noticing that you saw them together JungKook made his way towards the huge wooden door quickly. He stopped right in front of you, eyebrows furrowed. Playing with his dark hair he muttered.

“Uhh…I…”

Biting your lip you tried to fight the tears threatening your eyes. The tie in your throat made it hard for you to speak. JungKook directed his doe eyes at yours.

“I am sorry… That must have been a shock.”

You shook your head but wasn’t able to hide your tears anymore.

“No not at all… It was my stupidity to expect something different.”

JungKook put his hands together, still spoke gently.

“I am sorry. I get it…”

You cut him off, laughing bitterly.

“Get it? Do you really GET IT JungKook? I spent my time learning Korean day by day so that I could speak to you. Do you know how hard it was for me travel across the world here.I saved money for months. God I worked overtime so I could have these days off of work.”

Your hands turned into fists as your anger grew.

“See that gift? I picked it because I knew you would like it but I see how simple things are for you.”

JungKook arched an eyebrow.

“Excuse me but what did you expect. You expected me to fall for you at first sight?You are blaming me for I did not?”

You couldn’t believe what you heard. Those words hurt even more. Heart torn into pieces, you wiped the tears off of your cheeks. Held your head up, your voice was harsh.

“I Blame Myself… For being this stupid. For hoping what I shouldn’t. I feel sorry because I could have done much better with whole the effort I have putted into this. You worth none of it.Ahh don’t worry I will keep my mouth shut so your famous ass won’t get in trouble. Wonder if she will do the same when its done…”

JungKook stared behind you uncomfortably with his mouth dry. Whole those words just hit him but why? He wanted to say something but nothing he thought of made sense.

You turned to leave. You took two steps away yet you have been stopped by noone other than TaeHyung. One hand casually shoved in his pocket, he was muttering…

“Uhhh I was looking for …”

When he saw your face he stopped. Studying your face carefully TaeHyung asked.

“Are you ok?”

You simply nodded then tried to move forward. TaeHyung gently held your arm.

“I was looking for you actually.”

His voice was calm and soothing.

“Me?”

You asked, eyes probably wide.Dumbfounded you didn’t realize JungKook was gone. TaeHyung smiled at you, nodding.Finding it hard to believe you shyly asked why. TaeHyung thought for a few good seconds, trying to find the words to explain. 

“I heard you spoke english earlier and I was wondering if you could teach me. I want to learn.”

Taken a back you arched your eyebrows with half smile.

“You could have asked NamJoon though.”

His face was all focused and serious while answering.

“Nah… He doesn’t have time for that. Aannnd … You didn’t hear this from me but… You speak better than him,”

Knowing that you weren’t from South Korea, he asked.

 “Where are you from?”

You couldn’t help but smiled at him.

“I am from somewhere that has nothing to do with English if to be honest.”

Thinking of your unnecessarily long sentence his face was blank.

“But you speak English? Was that a hint? Or are you…”

The smile on his lips widen when he went on.

“How about I buy you coffee you I can get more hints?”

Giggling you nodded. You spent whole evening together and time flied by with him. You didn’t even realize it was that dark outside. Walking down the street he stopped. You could see he was thinking of something. He was doing this weird thing with his long point finger. Soon you figured it out.

“TaeHyung are you lost?”

Shy looking at you that square smile came back.

“I think I am…The dorm isn’t far away but…”

You asked the adress and thanked god he remembered it fully. Kept walking, you found a taxi stop nearby. You tapped the window, waking up the sleeping driver. 

“Uhhh, excuse me, I have to go 123th street. Can you tell me the way please.”

Seemed kind of annoyed he answered with a flat voice.

“Just go along this street , turn right. Keep walking and take the second turn on the left. Its that street.”

You thanked him and grabbed TaeHyung’s hand. Soon you realized and was about to let go but he didn’t. Instead he kept looking at you. Finally you reached their dorm and you were ready to say goodbye however he dragged you upstairs. When he rang the doorbell you bit your lip.

“TaeHyung is this even a good idea?”

He shrugged. Soon enough you were welcomed by a confused YoonGi.

“And who is this?”

TaeHyung walked in, explaining.

“My english teacher and heroine.”

YoonGi arched his eyebrows with a smile.

“Heroine?”

I shyly explained.

“He got lost and I brought him here thats probably why.”

Hearing you YoonGi burst into laughter. 

“Making a foreigner find the way for you. Its too much even for you Tae.”

Not answering back at YoonGi, TaeHyung dragged you along with him to the living room. You felt somewhat shy but you ended up there so you just greeted six dumbfounded guy in the room. One of them was way more shocked than the others.

JungKook’s dark eyes burned into yours then shifted to TaeHyung’s arm casually resting on your back. He wasn’t expecting this. Few hours ago you were pouring your heart in front of him. Tearing up for the things you felt for him. Now there was TaeHyung beside you. That didn’t make sense but one thing he knew. He didn’t like it at all.

[leenasleena-blog]

I Love You Too...

Authors Note: I know i should not have a thing for this devil child but damn i cannot help it…he’s like the worst but yet i don't care. Just a little drabble for any Kai girls out there..sorry if its not that great. 

Warnings: Um i guess maybe some language oh and this is damn long sorry…think that’s all. Not my best work but at least it’s something. Let me know what you think. 

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     I laid there staring at the ceiling on my bed. So as usually we save someone and then something else happens, it’s this whole freaking vicious cycle. Bonnie and Damon finally were back, but them being back somehow brought a crazy fucking sociopath with them. Malachai Parker, killed most of his family he’s like a witch but he only can get powers from some other supernatural being or something. I don't know the whole thing is nuts. He should not be here. Not to mention since the day he got here it’s like as soon as he laid eyes on me he won't leave me alone when he see’s me. So here i am staring at the ceiling thinking about none other then Kai. God what the hell is wrong with me? Yeah sure he was hot as hell and all but he KILLED basically all of his family. He very recently killed Jo on her wedding day we’re all having a hard time dealing with it, and Luke and Liv he killed also so he could be the leader of his coven..It’s been weeks since then, not really leaving my house since then he was now a heretic witch/vampire. And there was no way i was going to be his snack, Me and Matt are practically the only humans left here in Mystic falls. Caroline is my best friend and when she’s not scheming with the rest of them on how to kill Kai she hung out with me. It was about 8pm now. Knowing i’d most likely be home alone tonight i made sure the doors were locked; windows too. closing all the curtains. i walked back to my room rummaging through my dresser, i grabbed my very baggy oversized grey t-shirt and my black lace panties. Then walking into the bathroom i stripped off all my clothes, starting the water for a hot bubble bath. Waiting till the tub was full to stop the water i put my hair up in a messy bun and stepped in. Taking a deep breath trying to relax and get that devils child out of my head. Just leaning my head back, eyes closed trying to not think at all almost nodding off; that was until i felt someones hands massaging my shoulders..I jumped letting out a little scream. Turning to see none other then…Kai. I moved in the tub trying to hide my body under the bubbles. How the hell did he get in here he was never invited in? “Hey, you” Kai said with his signature smirk. “How the hell did you get in here?” i said glaring at him. “Well, you see (y/n) I'm not just a vampire. I've been looking for a spell that would get me in here for weeks. I haven't seen you since that wedding.” i felt sick what could he possibly want me for? I felt terrified, he killed his family, my friends. I felt my eyes starting to water. I blinked a few times before finally speaking up. “How dare you. How dare you, you have no right to talk about that and you have no right to just break into my HOUSE!!!” i yelled at him. He let out a small laugh. “Aw common (y/n) you know you've missed me. Besides your just such a fascinating little human, you don't expect me not to break in do you?” i was so pissed off i didn't know what to say so then he continued. “Yeah i know i killed Jo on her big day, and pretty much most of the people there including the rest of my family. They all knew it was coming…” “GET. THE. FUCK. OUT. OF. MY. HOUSE.” tears now spilling from my eyes, i was so beyond done with his crap. I just wanted him to leave. “Well i could but i mean you look so damn tasty.” “Get the fuck out Kai.” I yelled at him again his smirk only getting bigger. The water was getting cold and the bubbles were starting to dissolve. Looking at Kai. I let out a loud exaggerated sigh. He had just been standing there staring at me for the past like 5 minutes. “What are you staring at?!?” i was getting very annoyed. His smile got bigger, “You, I'm looking at you (y/n). Your so damn beautiful.” i rolled my eyes and sighed again. Haha he was being nothing but hilarious, so funny. Notice my sarcasm. “Would you at least let  me get dressed without an audience?” i tried to stay calm. Another moment of silence passed both of us staring at each other. He chuckled surprisingly leaving the room. Quickly i pulled the plug and got out drying off quickly with my fluffily towel, i yanked my panties on and pulled my shirt over my head. Walking out of the bathroom across the hall to my room. There he was sprawled out over my bed, sitting up when he seen me walk in. I just stood there in the doorway arms crossed over my chest looking at him. The more i stared at him the more mixed feelings and emotions i got. Disgust, Anger, Sadness, Hatred, Heartbreak…all because he killed my friends. He’s the reason there gone, but there was another feeling there too, oh god no. How? Why? No fucking way was that feeling, could it really be? Butterflies? “Hey why don't you come sit down?” Kai said smiling at me patting a spot on my bed. Before i could think about it i was already walking over to sit down next to him. God I'm going to be sick what the hell did he want from me? why was Kai here? Why can't he go disturb someone else? “So since I've killed Lucas and all I've been, I've been getting these weird, I've been feeling weird and i cannot figure out whats wrong.” He sounded confused, which i found kinda amusing. Sitting there silently looking at my hands while he looked around my room and at me. He spoke up again “It’s like one minute i just want to kill your friends and the next i’m feeling like, like all tingly. What is that? No one will explain it to me.” “i couldn't imagine why.” i said under my breath, but of course he heard me. “Yeah cuz I'm a sociopath killer i know. But seriously what is that? It’s happening right now.” He was looking at me intently waiting for me to answer his question. I sighed knowing he wouldn't shut up until i answered him. “Tingly, like butterflies?” “Um, yeah i guess why? What does that mean? It feels like I'm going to be sick or something, it won't go away what do i do? I haven't been able to find a spell to stop it.” “ i looked up at him staring into his blue grey eyes. “You don't do anything. It happens when you have feelings for someone, like when you like someone like alot.” “But i don't like anyone. I never have..” “Exactly, you never have because all you do is kill and hurt people. You didn't have emotions before and after you murdered my friend to ‘Merge’ with him you finally got some. And then you were turned into a dumb fucking vampire. Which when you get turned all your feelings are heightened. So not only are you a crazy witch murderer your a vampire. A stupid annoying heretic. Your evil, i don't see how you'd ever have feelings.” With that he turned away. I seen him clench his fist taking a deep breath slowly turning back seeing his dark veins under his eyes. Kai Parker was going to kill me this was it. He’s going to drain my body of blood. Thats why he’d come, he killed my friends and now he was here to kill me. This was it; this was how my story ends. Me falling in love with a killer…someone incapable of of ever feeling the same way. Someone i should in no way shape or form have feelings for. My friends would probably of killed me if they found out anyways minus well get it over with now. “What are you thinking about?” his veins disappearing. “Kai why the hell are you here? What the fuck do you want?” He seemed a little surprised. “Just wanted to see you, i missed you…” “Thats bullshit, you don't miss anyone. Your pissing me off god dammit get the hell out i want to just go to bed.” I was so done with his crap either he was going to kill me or he was going to leave. I'm not playing his stupid games. To my surprise he got up looking at me once more then he vamp sped away. Finally he was gone i crawled under the covers. Turning my lamp off. Then i started crying softly into my pillow. He’s pure evil, so much worse then Klaus was more then Katherine worst then Silas. The worst of the worse. And I'm pretty sure i was falling for him. I was falling in love with my friends murderer. He was someone i always thought about since i met him. I’d say he had put a spell on me but considering he didn't even know what feelings were i’d highly doubted it. I cried myself to sleep. I hadn't seen Kai in a month which was fine with me i did not want to see him or deal with him. I decided i was going to move out of this crap town, away from all this crazy drama. I was all packed up car was ready to go. I stopped by the grill to say goodbye to all my friends. I was seriously going to miss them. I noticed Kai in a booth in the back corner. So i was trying to say my goodbyes as fast as i could. Crying more with each person i said goodbye. Damon tried to make me laugh trying to cheer me up, telling me it’d be safer for me to leave right now anyways. I hugged Caroline last. “Saving the best for last, oh my god I'm going to miss you. Call me when you get there, and be safe. As soon as we deal with the Kai problem i will call you so you can move back.” i just smiled pulling her in for another hug tears still falling from my eyes. I said one last goodbye hurrying out the door. i was moving to Cali. Going to basically start over. i was walking back to my house to get my car and stuff. i walked the few miles back crying making it to the driveway when woosh. Oh god, please no. i slowly turned tears running down my face to see him…i didn't say anything i averted my eyes to the ground. i could feel his stare on me. It was silent for a while before he spoke up. “(y/n), whats wrong? I heard your moving and you didn't say goodbye. Why are you moving?” i stayed silent wiping my eyes. Then i closed my eyes. “(y/n) look at me. Why? Because of me? I mean I'm flattered and all but thats a bit extreme don't you think? Common (y/n) look at me..Please.” All sense of humor lost by the end of what he was saying. i opened my eyes looking him right in the eyes as emotionless as i could i said “I’m moving because someone has to make it out of this terrible town, someone has to escape the devil.” He looked away his facial expression looked as though he was sad or upset. “I’m not the devil…i did what i had to do.” i started to walk to my car when woosh there he was right in front of me. He stepped closer only mere inches away from each other now. Kai’s face sad as if i’d said something to hurt him. He looked at me and spoke again “(y/n)…I did what i had to do. I don't want you to go, why don't you just stay here it’s your home. Look I'm sorry i killed your friends..i had to..I can't stop thinking about you.” he looked at the ground. “You did what you had to do? LIKE HELL YOU DID. This isn't my home as long as your here, and you could never be sorry for what you've done..” Feeling my heart pounding practically right out of my chest trying to keep my breath steady, still looking at him. “I am sorry, id of never meant to hurt you. Ive never cared about someones feelings before nor have i ever had any myself. It’s all new to me..And i think..and i think that, that i, that i might that i might have feelings for you.” i shook my head. i don't even know how to explain my feeling for Kai it was complicated, messy even. He was this monster but i wanted to be with this monster, fighting my feelings for almost 2 months now i just have to get outta town then id be free. Kai lightly ran his hand over my cheek caressing it. Then he leaned down kissing me. i didn't kiss back though. He pulled away looking at me. Still looking upset now staring at the ground. My heart was going easily 100mph at this point. Oh my god Kai just kissed me. Malachai Freaking Parker the devil child just kissed me. Oh god was i about to spill the beans i gulped down a big lump in my throat. i coughed making him look back up at me. “Yeah probably a really bad kisser i mean it was my first time so..” He looked somewhat shy in the moment. Kai is typically a cocky son of a bitch so it caught me a bit off guard. “Kai..” “hmm?” “This is the last thing i should be telling myself let alone you, but for the past 2 months now I've been trying to completely ignore you. Your a terrible person. And i could never forgive you for what you've done but..” i paused seriously considering if i should say it. He looked at me trying to figure out what i could possibly want to say to him. i took a deep breath and continued while looking into his beautiful blue eyes. “ Kai I'm in love with you..I minus well be in love with the devil himself. I have no idea why but i just do..” I watched as his expression changed from confusion to surprised to his cocky smirk. “Don't go then say here.” then he pulled me closer n leaned down kissing me again this time i kissed back wrapping my arms around his neck fingers going into his soft dark brown hair, his hands on my hips holding me close. We stayed that way for a while before i pulled away for air. “Fine i suppose i could stay, besides my friends want to kill you so i’ll need to convince them not to but you can't hurt them.” His eyes were dilated looking into mine. “I won't….and I Love You Too.”

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Ive been thinking

Not enough people talk about how shaming people for being hypochondriacs can cause people from seeking out help for things

Like for one thing just don't shame hypochondriacs. Even if there's nothing physically wrong, there's obviously something that's going on mentally that needs to be addressed. And then hypochondria is kind of weaponized against disabled people.

Like. I grew up with 2 friends who had chronic health conditions from a young age. Teachers. Other students. Even my other friends. Sometimes even my parents. All of them would accuse my 2 friends of faking being sick for attention at times. Or that maybe it was "just" their anxiety making things seem worse than it actually was.

And then I have a cousin who IS a hypochondriac. She takes anxiety meds to manage it now. But I had to grow up hearing family members talk about it as this inherently negative thing to point where it felt like they saw it as like...a moral failing I guess? And idk if that's how they were meaning it but its how it solidified in my head from a young age. And then some people around me had a tendency of thinking anyone with an anxiety disorder is automatically a hypochondriac and isn't actually sick if they say they are.

Add in my lifelong fear of going to the doctor and you got a teenager that doesn't tell anyone theyre in pain.

And thats not to say that I never brought it up EVER. I would occasionally mention something casually or jokingly to friends only for them to be all "okaaaayyyy, grandma." And while that maybe should've told me that the pain I was feeling wasn't normal, but in my 15 year old mind it turned into "well it must just be my anxiety making me /think/ I'm in pain and I should just shut up about it."

Or like....when I worked at subway and had shifts longer than 4 or 5 hours I would be in SO much pain. Like enough that I would lay down on my friends couch after work and not be able to move for a couple hours cuz of how much pain I was in and this bastard had the fuckin audacity to be like "everyones in pain after an 8 hour shift. Stop being so dramatic." Like. I would need help standing up because I could not make my hips or legs cooperate. And hed be wanting to go work out on the ellipticals.

And I get that its frustrating when someone complains about pain but won't get help but when the only reaction someone's gotten when they DO reach out for help is dismissive or disbelieving or even anger at not being told about the problem sooner, it gets really hard to /want/ to reach out for help. (Honestly the anger one is another big one for me. My moms been guilty of that one in the past. Just remember that if your kid doesn't tell you about something until its really bad part of the reason might be that they didn't realize it wasn't normal until it got to that point.)

I'm not really sure where I was going with this (fuckin adhd) but I guess just....be careful in your criticisms and how you word things when it comes to health(both physical and mental)? Like obviously you're not responsible for other adults seeking help for things or not but like....your kids might be internalizing those things and then not come to you when somethings wrong.

Also im really appreciating how my moms been starting to unknowingly work /with/ my pda profile (pathological demand avoidance) instead of against it. Like part of my problem with going to the doctor is it was always framed as something that /had/ to happen. Something that I had no choice in. And that definitely affects my ability to ask for help because I'd complain about something as a kid and my mom would automatically be like "well you gotta go to the doctor then" so that definitely makes me avoid bringing up my pain to my mom sometimes.

But lately when I bring it up she frames going to the doctor as a suggestion.

And recently my pains been getting pretty bad and I brought it up and she was like "well you dont need to be suffering like this. How about after next week, you'll know if you have to go into jury duty or not and you'll have already had your bert nash appointment so you won't be worrying about that anymore...how about we fill out that paperwork for heartland and then maybe I'll call pretending to be you and make you an appointment?"

Like goddamn i know what she's doing but its fuckin working lol

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Life Imatating art. Im a warrior. Dont get it wrong i have survived, but im not a survivor IM A WARRIOR!

#evenMorriganwascrushbylove, #homewreckerthisallyou #owie

  Are you proud of Who You Are. Do you like Who You Are. I don’t know how you could! I couldn’t like somebody  who purposely hurts children and ruins their homes. I couldn’t like someone who would knowingly cause pain 4 no reason other then she had a ache in her crotch. Did it make you feel accomplished or strong, 2 get your hands on my husband. Real strength is in doing what’s right. Strong women get their own man,  not act like sneaky whoring holes that cant understand right from wrong. How do you sleep at night I ask because my children can’t they keep having nightmares about a divorce or if I leave.   You took their security way.  Shame on you curse you they dont deserve someone like you taking there home and family from them on a whim, how alful. You put them through this only because you want to see if you could, just some game to you, a challenge but its nothing, you dont even really cared about anyone. you have destroyed seven people my family is shattered your affair with my husband has stripped my home of joy so I asked you are you proud? it doesn’t seem right that you get to smile well my adult children worry about a mother that seems empty anymore they watch me fight for so long just to live now i wish i hadnt.  Why did you walk in and take what little bit of joy and hope and happiness I had. Take the pride of family and make it a joke. You took form him to my husband, he lost the respect, lost the trust of his children wife nieghbors church.  You stole from the children the sleep and carefree youth,   the younger two keep having nightmares since this happened they’re afraid if I leave or we get divorced what will happen to them,they  remember what it was like before me and they know what it’s been like   up until now the short lived happiness of family and wholeness and none of us are sure we can do that anymore and here’s a really screwed-up thing if you cared about him you would have thought about these things you would have thought about the fact that if I don’t pay the rent and I’m not here if I leave my husband he will lose this house because he cannot even afford the rent on his income  muchless add electrinity Child Care  food xcetera.   I on the other hand would be just fine my monthly annuity would go up by $450 my medical would be reinstated at full free and I have family here now. I am heartbroken I truly have lost everything I love my family but you don’t care about that you just wanted to get laid. I want you to fully understand the situation you caused the selfishness of your actions I hope someday that you feel the anguish of having to go on while  simultaneously know that the happiness  the joy and the trust, everything you believed has dissolved just suddenly gone. because some girl walked into your life ripped your family like you did mine. I hope that you have to hit your knees like I do and that you pray you wont wake up the next morning  because these nothing worth the pain you gonna feel.  and I hope you feel the crushing despair of waking up the next morning and knowing you’re still there and the situation still exist and then the other woman still exist but she’s smiling and you’ve got  no smiles only uncertainty there is no choices left really, cant leave without children lossing everything, dont want stay anymore because now there is nothing to stay for. And you cant just get over it and forgive because you nolonger have a heart to forgive with.  I hope you have to come to a decision for sake of the children because without you they won’t have a home they won’t have their care because you’re the only mother they’ve ever had and see it’s a little different than other children because these kids have already gone through being abandoned these kids have already been shipped from foster home to foster home.  and while your head spins and you can’t think straight and all you hear is your own silent screaming inside. you have to paste on a smile and you have to do day-to-day life and you have to see doctors and therapist and help your children and you have to pretend everything’s okay even though you’re dead inside. The love you felt is fire that only burns you tourtures you.  they emptiness were your faith in love and husband were  is now dark cold ugly  impossising and swallows all hope all of  you like black whole devoring your soul .And the pain spreads he looses frieds and his family, then three verry good people who called him dad nolonger can look at him with out shame and anger. we are all stuck in a Time Loop of endless imploding doom what gives you the right to be so flippent with other people lives and well being.  You devastated me in a way ( I have to give you credit because you did to me but cancer couldn’t, being raped couldn’t, losing family couldn’t) your actions brought me to my knees your actions have taken form my kids their sense of values our sense of family their belief in wedding vows loyalty and honesty. you ruined the respect for their father and you’ve left them wondering if relationships never work. If anybody is ever faithful because I mean Dad couldn’t do it,  oh but I did and there witnessed to what i got for it.   All I can do is think about the whole situation over and over and there is no going backwards no matter what I do there’s no fixing it it’s just too smashed up. One of the things I thought of since my husband wasn’t exactly faithful honest or trustworthy wasn’t exactly respectful of our marriage. Maybe he wasn’t completely honest with you either about me. So I introduce myself I am the woman the wife the mother you so casually took all hope from. the ones whose foundest memories are now only painful I am his wife we have been for 8 years you probably don’t know. But when I met him he had nowhere to live is children were in foster care and about to be adopted out his oldest son had already been adopted . He was struggling to get sober, he had court issues and fines and a record. but I fell in love so I gave him a place to live with me and my children in my home and I filed all the paperwork with the courts to get his kids back I took him to all of his DUI classes & parenting classes, anger management things that he had to do for the courts. I took him for his drug testing I got him his Sr 29 I paid for his alcohol classes and I made sure that he was able to go through with every hoop CPS through at him. and then together we went back to court with CPS and we got custody now something you should know is his little daughter Mia and Andrew had been in the foster care system being bounced around for almost 1&½ yrs at that point they were only 33mo and six when I brought them home.  It was hard those first 6 years I was the sole provider. So he could do all the things that the courts and CPS wanted him to do. Then there was his criminal history he was unable to get a job so I got all the paperwork and I wrote his dissertation for his judge and I got a lawyer to stand in court with him so he had an opportunity actually talk to the judge and I expunged his record. now he has been working for just over a year. And this last month March was the first month in 8 years that my husband’s pay any rent we split it.  he has contributed to electric bill twice in 8 years. so you see I keep the roof over our heads and his children I keep the power on I get them to school I take them to doctors to therapy I do the all the homework I clean the whole house, he doesn’t do housework at least never has I do the laundry I watch the children this is my day. I get up at 5:30 I have half hour to make coffee take a shower and come to life before I wake up the kids they get on a school bus at 6:30 then I clean the house I start whatever laundry check to see what bills need to be paid or what appointments need to be kept and then my husband rolls out of bed at 10 I drop him off at work we leave here at 11:30 I get back home at 12:30 I now have two hours to clean other people’s toilets to subsidize our income so I can put food on the table because at 2:30 somebody has to be here to get Andrew off the bus because if you don’t know Andrew is physically and mentally disabled and he requires 24/7 care it does not go to regular school he’s in a day program Mia gets home at 4:30 usually I’ve gotten Andrews homework done by then I know it’s time to Mia. Next I have to make dinner so it can be served at 6:30 cuz one of the things with Andrew is autism and he has to have a schedule thats consistent or it throws him into episode he also has ADHD and oppositional Defiance disorder which means that any day the school can call me to come pick him up because he’s not getting along. if im not here what happens to them.  I can make it with out him I do have my annuity from the cancer.  A long fought lawsuit after years ago the government put a magnesium plant at the bottom of the hill we lived on. my mother, father, three Sisters two brothers and my grandmother have all died from cancer I am sole Survivor after 12 surgerys so I get paid every month a breakup of award from the lawsuit that’s what Shawn lives off my misfortunes. I have to stay up and get him after work, and am expected to have time together while he unwinds after work im lucky if i get more than 4 hrs a sleep a day. I havent had a day with out his kids in yrs.  I was home with his kids, paying his way, loosing my medical care while him and his kid get free medical through state, because the kids are not my bio.  so i nolonger have depents and his income is held against me but i get no bennifits or bills paid from him no it gose to his games and nights out with friends, and fucking around with you. You two get drunk and go dancing at the bar, and full around in front of all my nieghbors.  He gets pulled over and gose to jail for dui and i get all your fucked off inappropriate sex text to him.  So for all my doing “the right thing” for being his rock and wife in every sense possible.  Along comes you and 1000’s of dollars in fines and court fees and impound fees. As it is he only sees his kids while they are awke for 8 hrs wk after school on Thursday and Friday. The rest of the time hes asleep when there leaving for school and they’re already asleep when he gets home.  But you two can go out on the town?  I have only been out with my husband with out his kids 3 x in 6 yrs.  How dare you how dare both of you.  That is some shady shit, you two did to this family so dirty AND YOU HAD NO RIGHT OR REASON TOO. If there is any justice in this world i hope it finds you. I hope you get a taste of my life. I hope you get cancer, i hope you get so sick and your teath fall out from it the chemo and the puking. I home the treatment robes your bones of strenght and you get degenerate disc disease and loose use of different extremities all the time with no warning,. and you get to feel the pain of neuropathy from having a stroke. Be cause your so physically over extended and exhausted from doing it all for your family.  And I hope you fall madley deeply in love with some that you would do everything for them and you get to be a mom but to kid that are his not yours and then i hope someone like you comes along and and suduces your husband and it ruins everything and you have to hold those kids why they cry and beg you make it work cause there scared to death of the life had before you, and everyone including that other woman knows, if you go thats exactly were they will be.  So you really cant do any thing but struggle to breath and cry and hurt in ways no one ever should.  And i want you know i mean really understand what a selfish awful person you are. i want you to beg for death like i do because of you.  The only difference between us then will be you will have deserved it.

Amy cannday and your little check out friend now the world knows what you are