#cristina is losing her mind

[cto10121]

Amāre (Aimer) - Latin Translation

A/N: Guess who stumbled upon a Latin grammar textbook in her local library? Yeah, this took me awhile because I had some options. There was “Amoris pulchritudo” (The beauty of love), which would have been badass. There was also “Amor est pulcherrimus” (To love is the most beautiful), very close to the French. But I realized quickly that any starter word more than two syllables long would be murder, and I’m a stickler for accent stress. Hence, I took advantage of Latin’s syntactical flexibility. At least I got to keep the infinitive. Hope you enjoy!

Amāre (Aimer)

Romeo Pulcer est bene amāre Est ad summum surgere Et alas maiesti tangere Pulcer est bene amāre

Juliette Pulcer est magnē amāre Vīvens gloriam manēre Et in cor ignis ardēre Pulcer est magnē amāre

Both Amor est potentissimus Nobis optimum dāre Ama, et in spei vīve Ama ultra timorem

Chorus Pulcer est bene amāre Est ad summum surgere Et alas maiesti tangere Pulcer est bene amāre

Pulcer est magnē amāre Vivens gloriam manēre Et in cor ignis ardēre Pulcer est magnē amāre

Chorus (+ Juliette) Amor in noctem ardet (In noctem is ardet) Amor pretium habet (Amor pretium habet) Etiamsi nōs consūmeret Amor in nōs vīveret

Chorus (+ Romeo) Pulcer est bene amāre (Pulcer est amāre) Est ad summum surgere (Ad summum volāre) Et alas maiesti tangere Pulcer est bene amāre

Semper…

English Translation

Romeo It is beautiful to love well It is to rise to the highest And to touch the wings of majesty It is beautiful to love well

Juliet It is beautiful to love greatly To remain living in glory And to burn in the heart of a fire It is beautiful to love greatly

Both Love is the most powerful [It is] to give the best of us Love, and live in hope Love beyond fear

Chorus It is beautiful to love well It is to rise to the highest And to touch the wings of majesty It is beautiful to love well

It is beautiful to love greatly To remain living in glory And to burn in the heart of a fire It is beautiful to love greatly

Chorus (+ Juliet) Love burns in the night (It burns in the night) Love has a price (Love has a price) Even if it consumes us Love would live in us

Chorus (+ Romeo) It is beautiful to love well (It is beautiful to love) It is to rise to the highest (To fly to the highest) And to touch the wings of majesty It is beautiful to love well

Always…

[tabithatwo]

—sophie thatcher

—sophie nelisse

[mysticstarlightduck]

Villain Sneak Peek (Supernova Initiative) - Red Adder & Arachnys

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☆ ・・About/General Info ・・☆

The most dangerous and infamous power couple in both the Junction and Khosmonian Galaxies, Ciara (alias - Red Adder), and her husband, Evander (alias - Arachnys), are the bosses of the ruthless Saphir crime family - they own most of the sprawling criminal underworld with almost nothing from the shady side of the law that they don't somewhat control. Basically, they are the Queen and King of organized crime in both galactic systems. They're also the founders of the conglomerate that owns the illegal, shady clubs responsible for the disappearance of Tarah's best friend and are also the sponsors of Meridian Shardd's inventor. A lot of other lowlifes, mobsters and space pirates in the series answer to them and cause a lot of trouble to the main cast.

☆・・More Info ・・☆

Pronouns:

Arachnys/Evander Saphyr - He/Him

Red Adder/Ciara Saphyr - She/Her

Age:

Arachnys/Evander Saphyr - 42

Red Adder/Ciara Saphyr - 41

Current Role - Antagonists, two of the Main Villains

Appearance:

Red Adder - She is a lithe, yet voluptuous woman, with dark lilac eyes and striking, yet refined, makeup. Her skin is warm white, and she often favors a deep red, almost wine-colored, lipstick, along with pink sunglasses. Sometimes, she wears a black leather choker and leather gloves, especially to avoid leaving fingerprints on anything. Ciara wears dark clothes, often choosing stylish black-tie style clothing, especially dresses, with a white, silk jacket on top and killer heels. She is often regarded as the colder and more menacing looking out of the duo, and that is true. Her hair is a deep shade of red, with her fringe occasionally dyed pink.

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Arachnys - He is a muscular, tall man with tan skin and piercing eyes with pitch-black sclera and ghost-white irises. His smile is impeccably dangerous and his canines look akin to vampiric fangs. He often wears white and gold long-sleeved shirts, slightly unbuttoned, under a dark grey overcoat or jacket, along with black pants and boots. His hair is a dark, striking shade of pink-ish red, with a white streak on the fringe. His brash, short-tempered personality also shines through in his style and appearance more than often.

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Personality Types

✶ Enneagram:

Red Adder - 7w6

Arachnys - 6w5

✶ MBTI:

Red Adder - ESTJ

Arachnys - INFP

Species & Place of Birth: Humanoid Aliens (Eillahn); Unknown;

Sexuality: Straight (both of them)

☆・・Extras・・☆

✶ Character Playlist (A full Character Playlist is still To Be Made. Also this playlist applies to both of them!)

Old Money - Jonathan Young

You could have it all This city would bow beneath your feet Walk like a wolf amongst the sheep And each day you shall dine You could have it allDon't be another casualty You can join our family [...] You could have it all Forbidden fruit that you can bite Follow temptation like the tide Why walk when you could fly? You could have it all Join us and rise above the rest

Feeling Good - Micheal Bublé

Birds flying high You know how I feel Sun in the sky You know how I feel Breeze driftin' on by You know how I feel It's a new dawn It's a new day It's a new life For me And I'm feeling good I'm feeling good

Deal You Can't Refuse - Cristina Vee

You need protection out there Don’t walk the streets alone You can’t deny that you’re scared You know you’re on you’re own You need some peace of mind That I can help you find You only just need to sign Upon the dotted line Make you a deal you can’t refuse Alone, or safe with us - I’ll let you choose Make you a deal you can’t refuse So tell me what you’ve got to lose There are no angels out thereJust demons on the streets This city doesn’t play fair We’ll help you play for keeps

Playground - Bea Miller

Who told you what was down here? Come along, if you wanted a peek I've seen your face around here Come alone, tell me under the table What do you seek? [...] Welcome to the playground, follow me Tell me your nightmares and fantasies Sink into the wasteland underneath Stay for the night, I'll sell you a dream [...] What brings you to the lost and found, dear? Won't you pull up a seat? Everybody got a price 'round here to play Make me an offer, what will it be? Oh-oh, what will it be?

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✶ Tags:

#wip supernova initiative #oc: ciara saphyr #oc: evander saphyr #oc: red adder #oc: arachnys

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Supernova Initiative Taglist (-/+): @ray-writes-n-shit, @sarandipitywrites, @lassiesandiego, @smol-feralgremlin, @kaylinalexanderbooks,

@diabolical-blue @oh-no-another-idea

@cakeinthevoid, @clairelsonao3, @sleepy-night-child

@thepeculiarbird

@the-golden-comet, @urnumber1star, @ominous-feychild, @anyablackwood, @amaiguri, @lyutenw @finickyfelix

Let me know if you'd like to be added!

[bananasfosterparent]

TAV x ASTARION SONGS ABOUT: Life as Lord Astarion and his Dark Consort

Since I have a massive 180+ song playlist for my Tav, Efenity and Astarion, I decided to gather the most "important" and relevant ones, for my own reference/index mostly, but also if anyone else's Tav has a similar dynamic with him maybe you can swipe some of these songs :P Maybe it will give you ideas or help expand your own TavxAstarion playlists idk. (Obviously I have a lot more for Efenity vs just Astarion, but that's because I'm always inside her head lmao Also, all links lead to Youtube btw. And it's mostly electronic music)

For context of my Tav: Efenity Kelmorn is a half high-elf, Storm Sorcerer (mostly lightning), and criminal. Neutral Evil, ESTP. More about her here.

Here are songs about (my) Lord and Lady Ancunín post-game:

⚔⚔⚔ Astarion's POV ⚔⚔⚔ ⚔ Written In The Scars (Anki Remix) - Galantis (ft Wrabel) ⚔ U Found Me - Tritonal ⚔ Parachute (Krazy Kat Extended Mix) - Matthew Koma ⚔ Touch - Great Good Fine Ok ⚔ Sunset (Michael Cassette Remix) - The Midnight

🌩️🌩️🌩️ Efenity's POV 🌩️🌩️🌩️ 🌩️ Your Love Is King - Sade 🌩️ Expectations - SVRCINA 🌩️ If The Devil Is You - RUNN 🌩️ Giving You The Best That I Got - Anita Baker 🌩️ Losing My Mind - Tritonal & HALIENE 🌩️ Peace Sign - Lights 🌩️ Shelter (ft Melanie Fontana) - Jason Ross 🌩️ Ain't Nobody - Chaka Khan 🌩️ Sanctuary (Daniel Kandi Remix) - SMR LVE, Cristina Novelli 🌩️ No Ordinary Love - Sade 🌩️ Jai Ho - Pussycat Dolls 🌩️ Praise You (ft Fatboy Slim) - Rita Ora 🌩️ Sweetest Taboo - Sade 🌩️ Every Every - MOONZz 🌩️ Dissolve - MOOZz 🌩️ Follow You (Stereopole Remix) - Nitrous Oxide

🌩⚔🌩 BOTH ⚔🌩⚔🌩 🖤 Could Have Been Me (Mash Up) - Halsey, The Struts 🖤 There's Nothing Holdin' Me Back - Tori Kelly, Taron Egerton 🖤 Toxic (ft Lunis) - Besomorph 🖤 You Make My Dreams Come True - MAX & Kenzie Nimmo (originally this was just in their playlist as a meme to myself but now it fits unironically lmao) 🖤 A Part of You - Didrick 🖤 Force of Nature (ft Paperwhite) - Break Science 🖤 All Eyes On Us (ft Racella) - Lenno & Jack Novak 🖤 Rule The World - TheFatRat & AleXa (it's so happy and ill-fitting in sound, but the lyrics fit so well lmao) 🖤 We're All We Need - Above & Beyond (ft Zoe Johnston)

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My other playlists like this: SONGS ABOUT: FALLING IN LOVE SONGS ABOUT: THE RELATIONSHIP SONGS ABOUT: BECOMING ASTARION'S CONSORT

[sapphicdepressionn]

Hail Mary

Amelia Shepherd x yn!little sister

• You're the youngest of the Shepherd's and you are an addict like Amelia. You disappear on a bender for three weeks and you finally show up on Derek's door step where you find yourself in the middle of your own intervention.•

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It was the middle of the night and you stumbled up the stairs to your brother's mansion, hastily shoving a key in the door and heading inside.

"Oh, thank god!"

Before you could even process anything you found yourself wrapped up in your sister's arms

"Melia, loosen up!" You groaned as you pushed her away from you and finally took in your surroundings.

Derek, Meredith, Maggie, Cristina, Addison, and your girlfriend Arizona all sat around the living room area with varying looks of concern written on their faces.

"Oh, no. Absolutely not." You refused.

You turned on your heel and stormed back towards the door but not before Amelia could block you.

"Get out of my way."

"No, you're not leaving! I know exactly what happens when you leave here because I've been through this. You're going to sit your ass on that couch and you're going to talk to us because we love you and we refuse to lose you!" Amelia argued.

With a glare and a huff you dropped your bag on the floor and headed to the couch to suffer through this talk with one thing on your mind:

When could you get your next fix?

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A/N: if y'all would like a longer and more in depth part two, comment and let me know!

[torsamors]

incoming post abt greys that no one cares abt.

Anyway. i have to say i think its silly that greys painted this whole picture of cristina losing herself to burke but NOT doing that with owen ??? i have many issues with burke’s actor n im glad he was removed from the show HOWEVER overall burke was much more patient with cristina and just understood her so much better…like when she miscarried he went out of his way to tell her he didnt care if she wanted to keep the baby or not and tbh he was pretty patient with moving the relationship forward with cristina…he loved all these things abt cristina that other ppl dont. n dont get me wrong their relationship wasnt perfect its greys LMAO but the show painting her getting married to him as like…..her losing herself….idk i found it silly! she loved him a lot! it wasnt like burke was asking her to give up her career or have kids or whatever he UNDERSTOOD her…so while i dont mind him ‘setting her free’ so to speak, i think it couldve been set up better lmaooo her getting married, having a bit of a bigger wedding n letting her mother in law wax her eyebrows for one day isnt her losing herself😭 i am obsessed with the idea of loving someone so much u both cant be together or else you’ll ruin urselves but that wasnt….really what they were

meanwhile owen and cristina’s relationship went at lightning speed tbh n owen doesnt even seem to love anything abt cristina let alone LIKE HER. burke loved her passion and her dedication to medicine n he also understood that. owen doesnt seem to??? n again weird that the show makes it seem that cristina never told owen she didnt want kids before they got married bc it did come up he just ignored it😭 n then married her ANYWAY HOPING SHED CHANGE??? like he thinks shes shallow, and uncaring and that there’s literally something broken/wrong with her for not wanting kids. n cristina literally shrinks as a character with him in that a lot of her stuff becomes owen centered (n teddy centered later). idk the show is like ‘oh cristina changed too much for burke and lost herself’ which is stupid bc burke understood her, was usually patient with her, and loved her for who she was meanwhile she’s literally shamed and pressured to change herself CONSTANTLY by owen !!!! they literally only have good sex n thats like IT😭

[dei2dei]

More MK1 Headcanons

Some new dialogue from the MK1 dialogues that has prompted some thoughts... * Johnny was previously married (prefight with Liu) * Johnny asks Kenshi about Jax (prefight with Kenshi) * Kenshi asks Johnny if he's talked to "Cristina" - and Johnny says no, "it's too hard". * Johnny teases Kenshi about being a Special Agent with the FBI * Bi-Han says something about Kenshi's secret.

So with these tidbits in mind, my current theories/headcanons:

Johnny was married to Cristina. They broke it off (not necessarily amicably) but he's still hurting; maybe she's the one who broke it off because she couldn't deal with his me-me-me attitude, being perpetually in and on social media or having her life broadcast for public consumption. He has regrets, but none that he wants to admit. Reaching out to her again, talking to her, would be too hard.

Kenshi's working with the FBI. The yakuza would absolutely kick his ass if they knew - but Jax is his contact, and Jax (and perhaps Sonya?) are his liaisons. Maybe Sonya's undercover with the Black Dragon, or getting info from Kenshi around the Black & Red Dragon, but he's their inside man (and it's a callback to Sonya having Kenshi undercover with them in the MKX comics).

Kenshi will run into Jax and Sonya; maybe there's a scene where there's the Black/Red Dragon and one of them is undercover, or captured, and he gets involved. Maybe there's a meet because his handlers want to know what the everliving fuck is up with this tournament and why is he blind now?

Inevitably, the Black/Red Dragon are going to find out that Kenshi's been two-timing and they're going to come for him (maybe that's how he loses his sight?).

[fromashesweriseuphiddenones]

Following isa-belle1367's post, I too have some head canon pertaining to our beloved assassins and their sexuality.

My pride month 2023 six first

Desmond Miles: bisexual, given how much we ship him with men and how in canon he's been interested in two women (Elijah's mother and Lucy).

Malik Al-Sayf: Asexual, this guy was accused of welding the Creed and The Tenets like a shield, suggesting that he doesn't find sex for the sake of sex appealing but Secret Crusade does reveal he has a son.

Kadar Al-Sayf: Lithsexual, there is not much in the way of information for this sweet baby but given how fans portray him, I went with him liking Altaïr but not necessarily wanting those feelings reciprocated.

Altaïr ibn-La'Ahad: Demisexual, preferring to get to know someone before sex enters the picture. Weather it's Maria Thorpe in canon, Malik whom he's known for years or Desmond/Vega in Eagle of Alamut Altaïr wants to know them before sex happens.

Ezio Auditore: Pansexual, the man usually at least until brotherhood is with a different woman. And by the end of two has been romantically involved with Cristina, Caterina, and Rosa, nevermind how many courtians. Then nevermind the fact that we ship him with Leonardo and Desmond.

Speaking of Leonardo Da Vinci: Homosexual, I think this one is historical fact. The reason he is well known to Paola is that he a) has pertook of some off screen male courtians or b) he's a good wingman.

Rosa: Sapiosexual: Rosa likes someone with more than two braincells to bang together. She fell for Ezio Auditore mind you. A man who is highly intelligent and has studied before becoming an assassin.

My pride month art always includes an Ally.

Maria Auditore: Straight and Cis, also warning heavy topic in bound, she has survived losing her lifetime spouse Giovanni Auditore and very likely having been raped. The thing that struck me is her silence. Sure the loss of her husband and two of her four children could do that but something Annetta said caught my attention "She’s in shock. They… When she resisted…". That seemed weird to me. So either they beat her, likely, or raped her, more likely. But to circle back to happier topics, she is supportive of her children and thus an ally.

Other assassins

Shaun and Rebecca: Straight (Married by Valhalla)

Evoir the Wolfkissed: bisexual

Federico Auditore: Homosexual

Claudia Auditore: Demisexual and Sapiosexual

Edward Kenway: Pansexual

Connor: straight

[belamcandas]

is that AVAN JOGIA? oh, no, that’s HARIJ ‘HARI’ VASAV, a THIRTY-TWO year old ER NURSE PRACTITIONER AT VALPARAISO CENTRO MEDICO who uses HE/THEYpronouns. they currently live in VALPARAISO, and the character they identify with most is CRISTINA YANG FROM GREYS ANATOMY . hopefully they find their own little paradise here in el país de los poetas! 

NAME — harij vasav  NICKNAME(S) — hari NAME MEANING — harij: the horizon. hari: lion, one who forgives all sins. vasav: lord indra AGE — thirty-two DATE OF BIRTH — october 25th STAR SIGNS — scorpio sun, virgo moon, scorpio rising PLACE OF BIRTH — boston, massachusetts SEXUAL ORIENTATION — queer RELIGION — agnostic, it's complicated SPOKEN LANGUAGE(S) — english, gujarati, spanish OCCUPATION — er nurse practitioner at valparaiso centro medico RESIDENCE — valparaiso FAMILY — munjal vasav ( father ), roslyn vasav ( mother ), hayva vasav ( sister )

tw: mentions of alzheimers, passing of a parent ( non descriptive for both subjects )

when your dad is a world renowned neurosurgeon it’s a hard pedestal to fall from, especially if you feel like you haven’t even begun to measure up. it’s even harder when that same father slowly starts to lose his memory. 

hari grew up as a shadow, at least, that’s what his dad called him when he would go to work with his father because him and his mother were fighting again and they couldn’t find child care. it seemed insane that a couple years later they would inevitably get back together again and have another child. then, his father would have two shadows. 

hayva would be the golden child, the one that would step up to the plate and do everything that his father had always wanted for hari, and hari wanted to make the same kind of difference – it’s just not in the way that their dad wanted. 

whenever they visited their mother on weekends she would look at her son, rest a hand on his shoulder and squeeze it as if she was saying that she understand what it meant to come second or third in his father’s life. 

but hari would always be his shadow, he was interested in the brain, but wanted to be at the heart of the action. 

when his dad is diagnosed with early on set alzheimer's their world shifts, hayva goes into overdrive into finding a cure, hari thinks that havya is a little naive to believe that they’ll be able to find one in such a short amount of time. it’s a slow process, and hari doesn’t want to just stand by and watch. 

they were a gifted student, but their extracurriculars lied behind a camera, growing up with other hospital kids gave them an abundance of free time and they would make movies, their playground was white walls and sterile environments but they made it into a kingdom. 

between weekends at moms, week days with his dad, he had his camera, but he stuck to his studies. he never knew what he wanted to do, and never felt like they quite fit in with their peers because they never had much time to get to know them. 

their dad used to say he was in his glory days before the disease finally took him out, their dad wrote books, did research, gave talks and began to prep hayva to take his place when she was old enough. 

hari loved their sister, but they loved their peace of mind more. 

it didn’t quite hit until their first year of college, that first taste of freedom when they were still deciding on what to major in. there was a college party, no one could really remember what really happened, too much drinking, too many kids who made stupid decisions, but hari had stepped in, with his calm demeanor and steady presence, he took control of the situation, saved a life. 

emergency medicine was what he was passionate about. they decided to become a nurse, and then eventually, an emergency nurse practitioner. 

his dad said that he was proud of him, but sometimes he wished that he would take his place, hari had said, why have me when you have hayva?

it would be years little communication, his dad’s disease worsening, and then, eventually a funeral. 

then there was a will, entitled to harij vasav, his dad had a little place in valparaiso and it was up to hari what they wanted to do with it. 

they’ve been trying to clean up the place, while living in it, with intentions to settle up. but they keep finding things in the house that belonged to their father throughout the years that makes it hard for them to let go. 

news articles of their fathers works, while harij’s school campus articles of the student film project they did when they were a sophomore, on top of him making the dean’s list, and when he got accepted at his first job, and how yes he might have been the munjal vasav’s child, harij was a good er nurse practitioner carving their own way in life without their father’s fame. 

maybe they’ll sell the house, but right now they’re finding that hard to do. 

headcanons & fun facts: 

kind of shy at first but once you get to know him a total goofball 

copes by playing video games 

has a letterbox account that they run like the navy 

actually a good little ‘filmmaker’ it was his passion all throughout his life but never got around to living it #sad but oh well !! 

a fan of so many muses in valpo like how come theres so many celebs and musicians living here this is crazy 

renting out a room so if anyone would like that connection im so down 

very good at their job !!!! like online they sound like an idiot but trust they know what theyre talking about when it comes to work matters !!!!! 

lowkey a pothead when they were not working but like thats fine theyre allowed 

also an avid vaper with esme and dante i fear :///// 

not close with their sister unfortch but she is a badass and is still currently in school etc to take up their fathers position 

mama’s boy !!! they talk all the time they’ve gotten very close over the years which is good but also sad bc theyve both felt that neglect ( even if it wasn’t purposeful on their dad’s end ) 

idk they’re an idiot to all relationships i fear

they wanna be loved so bad, and just like Seen

has a bearded dragon its their bestie frfr

[lingeringscars]

I should make a separate post just for alex but little things about Derek's death, Meredith leaving, and how it impacts the people left behind.

Maggie feeling abandoned for the first time in her life. Derek made Maggie feel welcome when no one else did. She was struggling to find her footing, her place, missing her family, and reeling from the one she found. But Derek hugged her and invited her over and made her feel like she could have friends or a place here, too. That she wouldn't have to just be the lonely, friendless person in a new place without even her family to rely on.

And despite how they started, Meredith really did become a sister to her. They hung out. They talked to each other. They understood each other. Maggie sent her some when she was worried about Derek because she knew how Meredith's mind worked because it was how hers does. Then Meredith left without telling her, without checking in, and she feels abandoned.

From the moment the news broke, amelia focused on work. She's been here before. She knows what this is like. She knew there would come a time when this could happen. So she bottles it up, lives at the hospital, and does her job. But it's amelia so nothing is ever bottled up. She makes jokes that make people uncomfortable about her dead brother. She's aware that she told Meredith that she didn't understand what it was like to lose the love of her life, but she doesn't care about that. Meredith pulled the plug without calling her, and she will never forgive her for that. She will never forgive Meredith for taking all of this away from her, no matter how unfair it is to hold against her. She finally felt like they were in a good place, and in one move, she stopped trusting mer.

She can't handle this pain, but she's been through it before. She feels it every day. So even though she also feels abandoned, she can keep moving. But she can't go back to that house where Meredith and Derek are both absent (and Owen is present). She can't deal with the looks given to her because her brother died. Every man she has ever loved has died, and she's had to face all of that grief and pain and hurt in a couple months (jackson and aprils baby dying reminding her of her baby, everyone finding out about her boyfriend who died with her in bed with him, telling Meredith about that moment because she lives in that grief and doesn't get to be judged for trying to figure it out, and then Derek dying and leaving her without this person that always protected her even when she didn't want it but now she would kill to have one more day of him undermining her).

And then there is alex. Alex who...wasn't close with Derek so much as he was another colleague. But alex is close with Meredith, and he feels that pain for her. He and izzie got married, and Meredith earlier that year told him that it didn't count because of the circumstances, and he knows what it is for someone you love to die in your arms.

He's been there, and he is there. He watches mer collapse and thinks this is the end. He's going to lose her, too. Because that's all he knows in this life. He's been abandoned more times that he can count, but he does have a count. So Derek dies and he's the only one not trying to talk in that moment. His eyes are locked on Meredith.

And then Meredith leaves. Meredith abandons him. Meredith vanishes without a trace and refuses to pick up the damn phone. But Meredith is his person, too, and that rocks him. Izzie vanished and didn't say anything until he was given divorce papers. He's worried it'll be worse when Meredith resurfaces. She's gone, and she was there after izzie so she knows what this would do to him.

He's calling everyone. Cristina. Meredith's dad. Hospitals around Boston and other areas. He's searching and searching. He keeps calling her, and she doesn't respond. And he's basically going through the motions, but only physically. He isn't being an ass to anyone, he's just there. He's doing his job, but he's not talking.

[mewp2rawr]

ITTTSSSSSSS MIRACULOUSS TIIMMEEEE 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

thank you miraculous ladyblog for updating about the latest news about this movie and OMG I WAS CRYING HELP AAAAIFKFLDLSJDJFJDOF 💚🧡💙💜💛 when I first heard about the movie I HAD TO get the tickets~ sadly alot of the times were during work so I didn't get to see those times 😭😭😭 BUT THANKFULLY CINEPLEX WAS KIND ENOUGH TO HAVE TICKETS AFTER WORK AT 7 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 BLESS 🛐 I booked my tickets and prepared everything EXCEPT THE MOST IMPORTANT PART AAAAAOFKFKFO~ I forgot to bring my ladybug figure so instead I just used my bokuakaa charm and pokeball plus to commemorate me sitting alone in the theartre thinking about how love is great and how ladychat actually hit it off except me I mean WHAT IM NOT ALONE anyways 🥰🥰🥰

so I obviously am horrible at chronologically ordering things but HOLY MOTHER OF HOT DOGS HAVE I WITNESSED THE GREATEST MOVIE POSTWR OF ALL TIME 💕💕💕💕💕 I WISH I HAD LADYBUG WITH MEEEE 🥺🥺🥺

the poster had EVERYTHING~ from the cute title (maybe a little red tint might be super cute for added effect to make it like REALLY ladybug and chat noir) AND LIKE THE MIDDLE OF THE POSTER HAD A SCENE WHERE I COINCIDENTALLY NOT COINCIDENTALLY (it was coincidental) took MY ONLY PHOTO of (I am so sorry cinema staff) of such a cute scene I mean LOOK AT THE BOY HES SO KYYAAAAAAAAA ~ his smile his everything his hair the LOOK IN HIS EYES LIKE HES LOVING YOU WITH ALL YOUR HEART HOLY MACARONI PLEASE PUT ME ON A PLATTER OF SWISS CHEESE JUST FOR CHAT NOIR 😳😳😳

credits to exaltatuss for the gif~ bless them 🛐 short NON NON NON spoiler movie review basically the movie was a dream~ woke up feeling like it was the most beautiful movie of all time~ the animation was most certainly from the world of dreams and something I did not expect but I LOVED was that the movie was a MUSICAL ~ THERE WAS SIGNING AND OMG I WANT TO SING ALL THE SONGS I CRY EVERYTIME WHEN MARINETTE SANG HER FIRST SONG I WAS ABOUT TO LOSE MY MIND CRYING AT HOW BEAUTIFUL THE ART OF CREATION IS AAAAAAA (real miraculous of creation pun) ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨ thank you zag studios for this direction it's LITERALLY A DISNEY MOVIE~ okay done talking about the movie it made me so happy and I just LOVE ladybug and chat noir they are THE WORLD 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 bless them and all of Paris 🌸🌸🌸

after the movie I made a quick stop of ice cream because I didn't eat anything 😝 yes ice cream is real food~ I got (I forgot the flavors already) lemonlike? ale? with strawberry - double scoup - waffle cone~ the bestest orders as the waffle cone is legendary and I can never go without it no matter how many times the cone has broken on me because it's so brittle BUT I LOVE ICE CREAM 🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓🍓 when I got home finally I reunited myself with ladybug~ took a photo of her with my lovely ticket that I will frame and keep forever waiting until Cristina vee to sign that peace of paper and put in in the museum of Paris (real)

💗💗💗 thank you ladybug and chat noir for being the best and being the cutest couple ever like actually #couple goals they are SO ADORABLE I CRY 😭😭😭 thank you everyone and seriously this movie is life-changing Disney magic ladybug movie any ladybug lover needs to watch~

Lots of Love~

Mewp 💖

[stressydepressydetesty]

11.30 2024

Today was Brenda's wedding. Joyous day surrounded by her family and friends. Such contrast to my life. Or am i exaggerating? The prospect of losing my best friend, brayan, to something like sexual assault never crossed my mind. These overwhelming emotions of being present for my friends and family yet feeling so lonely. School is stressing me out. I feel unappreciated yet so valuable that i am consistently used. Im insecure yet im not. idk why i have been having these emotions lately. I feel emotionally drained, so much so that i just want to exist without doing anything anymore. Go back to appreciating life. Emotions arent bad, but i have a ton this time around and its becoming hard to act normal. Feel numb while feeling every pinprick of pain. I needed a good cry and ive been having a lot of those lately. I hate losing brayan but it will eat at me forever. Knowing what i know and previous experience. I think its best for me to distance myself before i build resentment towards him. No he didnt directly do anything to me. But his actions have impact to much more than the intended person. Plus in our conversation talking about it, seemed the same. I knew this was coming from our first time traveling to atlanta. Me and cristina vibed, he and i struggled. Again in chicago. Plenty of other times when we had petty arguements over something that bugged me or him, disregarded. Anyways i cant mourn the wicked. Haha (wicked just came out)

Im happy for brenda. She deserves the best, such a sweet gentle soul. Im happy to have been an officiant for her, i sucked but at least she got her happing ending. She and cody look happy and compliment each other so well.

When will it be my turn lol. I know not until 30 but sheesh.

Anyways its hard to go into details about my friendship issues with brayan and in general. I feel as if my worries are unwarranted. Ill pray and meditate on them.

[mykingdommusic]

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OF THE MUSES: the existential universe of her sophomore album

"Underheavens— Of Blood, Ghosts and Saltwater" is the evocative title to OF THE MUSES' new album. Cristina Rombi, mind and soul of the project, is now in Brussels, Belgium, to record the new album. The potent production of Opus Magnum Studio, ran by famed producer and musician Déhà (Slow, ex-Dropdead Chaos, Wolvennest among others) will definitively shape the sound of the Italian artist's newest endeavor.

If with "Senhal" Cristina Rombi ushered us into a world of poetry, anger and melancholy, for "Underheavens— Of Blood, Ghosts And Saltwater", the talented Italian multi-instrumentalist will take us into a very private and intimate universe equally full of pain, but painted with utterly vulnerable and existential tinges, no longer conveyed through the extremism of screams, blastbeats and distortions, but rather with impressive emotional depth and staggering transparency both in lyrical themes and musical delivery.

Explains Cristina: "While I'm still internally debating whether or not 'concept album' is an appropriate definition, I can definitely say there's a red thread weaving together the sonic and lyrical tapestry of this album. At its core, this is an album about addiction, illness and losing a parent to AIDS during the health crisis of the 80s/early 90s, back when HIV was still an irrevocable death sentence. But in a broader sense, it's also about breaking cycles, finding closure, the devastating consequences of dehumanization and erasure, reckoning with life and death and what to do with the time we're granted here on Earth. It's really important for me to get these songs and these stories out there and I hope you will find them worthy of your time and attention".

We are deeply proud of what is about to emerge and incredibly eager to share it with all of you. "Underheavens— Of Blood, Ghosts And Saltwater" will be released next spring on My Kingdom Music on CD, vinyl and digital; further details to be revealed soon.

Keep in mind: OF THE MUSES is cathartic, eclectic and emotional Art!

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OF THE MUSES: l’universo esistenziale del suo secondo album

"Underheavens— Of Blood, Ghosts And Saltwater" è l'evocativo titolo del nuovo album di OF THE MUSES. Cristina Rombi, mente ed anima del progetto, è volata in Belgio, a Bruxelles, per registrare il nuovo album presso gli Opus Magnum Studio del grande produttore e musicista Déhà (Slow, ex-Dropdead Chaos, Wolvennest tra gli altri) il quale ha il compito di plasmare definitivamente il suono potente della nuova ceratura dell'artista italiana. Se con "Senhal" Cristina, ci aveva introdotto in un mondo di poesia, rabbia e malinconia, con "Underheavens— Of Blood, Ghosts And Saltwater", la talentuosa polistrumentista italiana ci accompagnerà in un universo molto intimo e personale altrettanto ricco di dolore, ma dipinto con tinte vulnerabili ed esistenziali, espresse non più attraverso l'estremismo di urla, blastbeat e distorsioni, ma con una impressionante profondità emotiva e tagliente trasparenza, sia nel tema trattato, che per come questo viene manifestato in Arte, musica e parole. Nelle parole di Cristina: "Anche se non ho ancora deciso se 'concept album' sia o meno una definizione appropriata, ciò che posso dire con certezza è che c'è un filo rosso che percorre l'intelaiatura musicale e concettuale di questo disco. Più di tutto, è un album che parla di malattia, dipendenze e del perdere un genitore a causa dell’AIDS durante l'epidemia degli anni ottanta e novanta, quando ancora questa patologia equivaleva a una vera e propria condanna a morte. Ma è anche un disco sull'accettazione, sull'interrompere i cicli, sulle conseguenze devastanti della deumanizzazione e dell'invisibilizzazione, sul rapportarsi con l'idea della morte e sull'uso del tempo che ci è concesso sulla Terra. È davvero importante per me condividere queste canzoni e queste storie, e spero le riterrete degne della vostra attenzione".

Siamo profondamente orgogliosi di quello che sta per emergere ed incredibilmente desiderosi di condividerlo con tutti voi."Underheavens— Of Blood, Ghosts And Saltwater" diverrà realtà la prossima primavera su My Kingdom Music in CD, vinile e digitale; ulteriori dettagli verranno rivelati presto. Tieni solo a mente che OF THE MUSES è Arte catartica, eclettica ed emotiva!

[honeybearee]

A Mother's Touch

By the time Cameron found his way back home, the sky had dimmed enough to spark the streetlights to life, and he found no trace of Anna's car. Or Hanna or Jesse's for that matter. He breathed a sigh of relief as he neared the house, slowly climbing the front steps as he was suddenly aware of how heavy and sore his legs felt.

He'd long since worked off the anger and irritation that kept winding itself into his brain, like a fly that kept buzzing around his head. Now, he just felt exhausted and sad, and he desperately wanted to shower and climb into bed, where he could scroll endlessly online until he passed out.

However, once inside, he noticed his mother sitting cross-legged on one end of the couch, a crochet needle in hand as she worked through whatever project she had going currently. He could hardly remember a time when she wasn't crocheting in the evening -- and he'd had countless blankets and winter hats and scarves to prove it.

His father sat quietly at his desk, clacking away at the keys, and Cameron honestly had no clue what he was doing -- only that he was a million miles away and completely oblivious to his son's presence. All the more convenient for his mother, he decided, as she beckoned him to sit next to her on the couch.

"The kettle is still warm, if you want some tea," she offered as he sat down beside her, groaning softly as he did so. She smiled sympathetically as she continued to crochet.

"No, thanks. I'm probably just going to shower and head to bed."

"Well, why don't we talk for a little bit?" Mel asked, trying to keep her tone casual but Cam knew that she was far more invested in this conversation than she wanted to admit. Cameron glanced back at his father, whose gaze remain fixed on the computer screen in front of him, keys clicking rhythmically as he wrote. What on earth was he up to? Nevermind, he thought as he looked back at his mom.

"Yeah, sure. What do you want to talk about?" Cam asked, crossing his arms over his chest. He knew, of course, but he was going to make her ask him.

"Seems like things maybe didn't go so well with you and Anna earlier." Mel said, but she kept her eyes fixed on her project, only glancing up at the TV screen every now and again.

"No, I guess not..." Cam sighed, and he felt overwhelmed all over again. He had gone over it again and again, and he just couldn't make sense of what she had said. He never would have ignored a text from Anna. Never would have left her on read. He could see not taking a call in certain situations -- namely if Cristina was around, if he was being honest with himself -- but not outright ignoring it.

But if she said he had, then he had. Anna wasn't a liar, he knew that much hadn't changed about her.

He wound up circling back to the thought that maybe something was wrong with him. Was he suffering some weird sort of memory loss? Had he just straight up ignored people and not realized it? He had even gone through his messages and phone logs as he walked, trying to find any evidence of what she was saying, but he came up empty.

He felt like he was losing his mind.

Cam sucked in a deep breath and sighed heavily before saying, "Mom, I think I'm going crazy."

Mel's hands stilled, her hook halfway through a stitch, but she set it down in her lap, her place completely forgotten.

"What do you mean?" She asked, eyes narrowed.

"I just mean like. I must be forgetting shit or just. I don't know. Anna said that I've ignored her for years and then suddenly I just want to act like everything is normal, but like. I never really got anything from her after Cristina and I got married. She just. Stopped messaging or calling me... but maybe she did, and I just deleted them and forgot about them?" He settled back into the couch and rested his head on the back, eyes staring blankly at the ceiling. "Maybe I've just hit my head too many times."

"I guess that's one explanation," Mel said slowly, absently picking her hook back up and then placing it back down. "Have you been having other memory issues?"

Cam shook his head slowly from side to side.

"No, not really... I have some trouble focusing, but you know, that's the norm," He smiled as they locked eyes, and Mel nodded, a grim smile on her face. He could vividly remember the way that she'd struggled to get him to sit at the kitchen table and work through his homework, and he felt guilt creep in, thinking about how difficult it must have been to have to try to understand a hyperactive child like he had been.

"So then what are some other ideas you might have?" She asked him as she picked her project back up, examining it closely to try and ascertain where she had left off.

"What do you mean?" Cam asked, an eyebrow raised.

"Like, what are some other explanations you can think of for why this might have happened?" She asked as she expertly dove back into her stitches, crocheting with quick, fluid movements that looked so subtle he didn't know what she actually did to get it to fit together so neatly. He had never been able to sit still long enough to pick it up -- unlike Anna.

"I don't know," He sighed, frustration creeping in as he suddenly felt like he was being led to a rationalization he hadn't yet figured out. He'd done it enough times, guiding his students to the correct answer through thinking out loud. He might as well play along if he had any hope of getting her to say whatever it was she was hinting at. "Maybe she messaged and called me somewhere that's not my phone number?"

"That seems easy enough to check," She answered, nodding her head toward his cellphone. Ah, true, he realized, and he quickly dove into the various apps on his phone, daunted by the sheer amount of "connection" focused apps that really just gave you another place to log in and forget about.

He'd gotten so lost in sorting through the various emails and messenger apps and social media and whatever else he could think of that people liked to use to chat these days that it was finally dark by the time he looked up from his phone. His father paused as he walked back into the living room with a fresh glass of iced tea, eyes locking with Cameron from over his phone.

"Hey kid."

"Hey Pops."

He walked past Cam and sat back down at the computer, keys clicking away once again.

"Did you find anything?" His mother side-eyed him from the end of the couch, and he shook his head at her, sitting up from the slumped position he'd sunken into as he scrolled and swiped through is phone.

"No, nothing... I mean, I guess the phone could have eaten the texts and stuff, but then why would it be working now? We were just texting a couple of days ago, no problem." He asked, brows furrowed in confusion as he tried to puzzle his way through.

"Do you think..." Mel paused, her hands suddenly still as she chewed on her bottom lip, before darting her eyes back to her son, her face apprehensive as she cleared her through before asking, "Is it possible that maybe they were deleted by.... someone that's... not you?"

"What?" Cam asked, cocking his head to look at his mother.

"Does anyone else have access to your phone?" She suggested, trying again to feign nonchalance, but it was the anyone else that suddenly called Cristina's face to Cameron's mind.

"Well, yeah, but-" Cam's tone was immediately defensive.

"I'm not saying anything. I'm just throwing ideas out there." Mel cut in, raising a hand to try and pacify her son before they wound up in an argument, too. Cam let out a heavy breath as he crossed his arms back over his chest, sinking further back into the couch.

"I guess if I... if I'm hypothesizing, then maybe it's possible that," He stopped, suddenly feeling a stab of guilt creep in, but he pushed through, nearly hissing her name as he continued, "Cristina could have deleted them."

"Do you really think she'd do that?" The question fell out of her mouth before she realized how dismissive it must have sounded -- she was just so flabbergasted by the idea, even though she herself had been somewhat pushing him to think in that direction. Cam even uttering the words almost felt like confirmation of what she'd suspected since he'd been home -- this marriage was probably over. "I'm sorry, I just mean that it's such a... mean-spirited thing to do."

Cameron almost burst into laughter at the words mean-spirited because it was such a simple small town and yet devastating way to describe someone -- but maybe also because it really felt like a fitting way to describe who Cristina had become over the course of their marriage.

Mean-spirited.

Could she really have stooped so low as to do something so abhorrent? Of course, he'd have to confront her, and what a horrible terrifying notion to consider. He would just as soon quietly pack his things while she was at work and simply serve her papers from afar. If this was something that she'd actually done, he didn't know if he'd ever even be able to look her in the face again.

"I don't know, Mom," Cam said honestly, pushing himself to his feet. "But thanks. You've given me a lot of stuff to think about. I'm gonna shower and head to bed, though."

He gave her a quick kiss on the top of her head and mumbled goodnight as he dragged himself up the stairs and into a hot shower where he could stand and hopefully not think for a while.

[dalsblog]

As of recently I lost my mind,and trying my darndest to find it I stumbled upon old loved ones, so here are some words to their memory

To maris;

find myself in my room,plotting and rehearsing speeches and accotationes,quirks and remarks,as if you were here and I had your attention, and maybe your hand

But you weren't here,and the quirks are getting old, dust covered books and Eminem CD's that I bought with money mama gave me

A piggy bank,a therapist, a bridge to therabitia

To Cristina

I live my life as a book, chapter by chapter,day by day,word by word, trying ever so thoroughly to be eloquent and Captivating,not for them,but for you,for when we meet eachother again

But it's been 2 years and my phone didn't ring once.

Congratulations,I give up

To Aline

I hold only one firm believe in this fluid life,God plays sims in her sparetime,

God is a woman, God is divine, God is the light in your eyes and the reflection on your mirror, God is in every little thing I didn't see, in every little moment we shared,the life we could have lead and the moments that fled

So then, it is no wonder that a nihilist like me killed you, only for to be revived again phoenix

May your journey only bring you pure hearts and kind words,loving embraces and moving moments,

Visions of love,and kids, a home and a partner, a life well lived and light washing off any of your bad dreams

To Johannes

Life's hard, but I was harder, time heals and pain is better than apathy

I didn't want you

You didn't deserve me

And yet a good bye remains owed

So goodbye and farewell

To Vladimir

I can still feel your fingers through mine,your weight on me, and that's enough

I could talk about our childlike wonder,and how you taught me to not take too long growing up, while exploring what makes your childhood so important

I could talk about your beautiful nose,your sweet eyes,your glasses and your ass

I wish it was back then when you patted my stomach to show me you care

I wish you torture and pain in delightfully macabre ways,baby

To my mom

In your next life,I hope you buy a cat instead,mom

To all the people I once loved,or lead on,thanks

If I ever were to lose my mind again, I wouldn't know where to find it,and that's okay

[spookyrobbins]

Why do you think Arizona was so enthusiastic about getting pregnant and carrying their baby in those flashbacks? It always seemed so ooc to me. Her reaction later in s10, where she really wanted Callie to carry the baby was so much more in character for her. Her enthusiasm about getting pregnant always seemed more like some fanfic version of Arizona where she's a happy stay at home mom with 5 kids than actual canon Arizona.

i think it’s a couple things tbh

1. i’ve discussed this at some point on here (zero clue when though lol) but i think that arizona was never anti kids like say cristina. i think it was in large part bc of tim and then also her job. like i think at some point in her life, before tim died, probably before she was fully in peds, arizona considered having kids. now i don’t think it was as deeply engrained as say callie, who probably grew up with that mental image, but like in the back of mind considered it. also, callie was kinda sloppy in how she dealt with approaching arizona and i think it put arizona on the back foot and maybe made her overreact slightly. so while kids maybe isn’t the end all be all for arizona like it is for callie or others, it’s not the end of the world either for like cristina or even ellis grey.

2. arizona carried a lot of guilt from the car crash, which presumably meant it would be challenging or even impossible for callie to have kids esp only a year out from the crash (this is based on some cursory googling i did once upon a time). arizona probably saw carrying as something she could do to make up for the crash. by s10, it’s further out from the crash so callie might be more physically able to do so (again i think i googled this once i have no medical knowledge)

3. in s9, arizona was clinging to normalcy and being the wife that she thought callie needed so i think there was an element of overcompensating. i’m guessing calzona had talked about a second baby in s8, just like very early starting to discuss the details kind of thing. sofia would just be around a year by the end of s8 and given how long ivf could take, it seems reasonable that they’d have some degree of a plan. i doubt either one of them, but esp arizona, would want sofia to be an only child. so in s9 after everything, arizona saw it as an opportunity to sort of claim back the life they had before the plane crash, which i think made losing the pregnancy all that more devastating for arizona. it was just another way where she couldn’t live up to who she was a year before.

i think overall her enthusiasm was over the top but i do genuinely think she was excited about the possibility of having another baby. and i think she was excited about the process bc this time it was her and clalie going through it together and it was probably the closest/most in sync calzona were the entirety of s9