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hexcryingwolf · 1 year ago

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hey so, like,

i need somebody close to glip to confront them about the Pearl thing.

i need someone to be as upset about the idea of it as i am.

i need it to be the last straw for somebody.

because if none of that happens, i cant even articulate how horrid that is. that the prospect of this accusation doesnt upset people.

i hope its not true. i hope with every fiber of my being that it didnt happen.

but i fully believe it did. four years after leaving that space my want was still for glip to heal, stop hurting people, and become a better person. i was still pretty scared of them, but i had pretty much moved on by the beginning of this year. there was nothing i could do about it, and sharing my experiences would just put a target on my back anyway, so as a lot of huge life changes were on the horizon for me i felt prepared to let go.

but i cant let this go. after years of tending the wounds that community inflicted on my this was a knife directly into my heart.

remember that political thing that happened in november 2016? i was in the flora irc by that time, and everyone was very rattled by it. glip announced that, to put some good into the world, theyd do a commission for anyone who donated x amount to y charity (i dont remember the specifics). id been a fan of glip's for years at that point, and this was an opportunity to finally have something id wanted for a long time.

a portrait of my cat, who i got as a baby, who passed away after almost twenty-one years, from my favourite artist.

they truly did a wonderful job with it. it looked so much like him. i dont have a lot of photos of him, he lived in the pre-smartphone era, so this was a precious thing to me. i had it printed, i got a frame, i hung it on my wall. it meant everything to me.

after all of the stuff that happened to me and leaving flora, it became tainted. now instead of reminding me of something i loved dearly it reminded me of something that hurt me badly. i couldnt get rid of it though. i took it off the wall, out of the frame, and slotted it onto a shelf where i could still see it, if i wanted to. it felt really awful, but i knew i loved that cat more than i could ever fear glip, so maybe someday i could look at it again without being reminded of them. maybe someday that portrait could go back up on my wall as an expression of love for my first best friend.

then i was told about what they had supposedly done to Pearl. and when i tell you i fucking bluescreened when i heard that... it fucking shattered me. it was a cold knife in my heart. the dog stuff was horrid of course but, something about this just broke something in me.

i had to walk away from my phone. i had to go find one of my cats and just. i just sat on the floor and pet her as she lay on the futon and purred and trusted me utterly, like im sure Pearl did for you, glip. she knows i love her, that i provide for her, that i would never bring harm to her. i just sat with her and cried.

im crying now, writing this. my hands are shaking.

do you care, glip?

my husband came to check on me, i told him what i was told and he was disgusted, the correct response. he was angry. he was angry. and for the first time in years, i wasnt scared of glip anymore.

i was fucking pissed.

i wish i didnt have to explain why, because it should be damn fucking obvious, but let me lay it out: a person's pet is their ward. we have a duty and responsibility to do everything we can to give the best lives possible for the animals we bring into our lives. we are their source of food, shelter, healthcare, everything. we are their world. and they should be able to trust that we would never use them for something selfish, because here's the thing: they don't understand the world as we do. theyre animals, they simply cant. WE are the ones who know right from wrong and act for them accordingly. WE keep them fed. WE keep them safe. WE make that final decision that they cant make when their suffering is to much to bear anymore. they trust us to do the things for them they can never understand.

we dont use them for our own sexual gratification. we dont do this because they dont understand that theyre being used, they have no context for how they are being treated, they dont know it shouldnt be happening.

they are helpless.

they are voiceless.

they are the perfect victim.

like a baby who will never grow up and tell everyone the truth.

like a baby, glip. like a helpless, voiceless baby.

and dont you ever fucking try to play the "well she initiated it" card. animals initiate all kinds of shit they shouldnt, things that are dangerous, could hurt them, could make them sick. knowing better is OUR job.

also. uhm. hey. did you know that "well they started it" is a thing child predators have said, do say, will say, about their victims.

here's a 10yo who "came onto" her abuser

here's a dad who claimed his daughter was just "a sexual kid"

here's a daycare worker who said the 1yo he abused was "promiscuous"

and you, glip. using Pearl because she was just "showing you love". just because its a "nicer" reason doesnt make you any fucking different from these monsters in my eyes.

i could not look at that portrait anymore. how could i ever look at him, and not remember what you do to helpless creatures like him. how could i think about what you did and remember you telling me no, of course marl never touched the cats, when i asked you if you were concerned that he might have. seems my worry was misplaced.

i burned the portrait. i took a small cast iron pot into my yard, ripped it to shreds, and spent a two hundred count box of matches on it. one wasnt enough. ten wasnt enough. one hundred wasnt enough. i did not want this thing to exist anymore. i did not want him, my cat, my first best friend, that piece of my soul that left this earth with him, to ever be able to be associated with you. that fire is burning in me now.

i do not capitalize your name anymore explicitly because you are subhuman by my standards. i do not want you to find healing and get better. i want you to face the consequences for all the hurt youve cause. i want you deplatformed so you can finally stop putting so much agony into the world.

if you didnt do it, youll have to convince me. you know my discord.

if you did do it, admit it. tell everyone what you did. you owe it to people so they can decide whether they want to associate with you or not based on it. i think if someone asks you directly, you wont lie about it.

because you dont believe you did anything wrong, do you?

#/csa

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epickiya722 · 1 year ago

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SHAKES YOU stumbles into ur askbox . shakes you shakes you . now. now this is incredibly importance okay. i nneed to know. what do you think abt kirishima and bakugou seperately and Also as friends tell me what you thingk. on a scale of 1 - 10 1 being nah not for me 4 being eh theyre ok and 10 being i care about these fictional characters so dearly , in fact i might explode. this is critically important not To my ability to still enjoy them as my favorite characters ever to exist but to know if you also enjoy them as dearly . gazes into ur eyes

for context i just discovered my brain is massive and i quite possibly may be creating the most incredible work of art the kiribaku but ALSO deku in there somewhere maybe not romantically but he's Definitely Involved enjoyers may ever read in their entire lives please tell me if you want to know more because i am So ready to tell SOMEONE about this <- desperately wants to start posting but knows the ultimate quality of the fic will go down in my mind if i post it prematurely because what if i want to go back and include Fun Foreshadowing and Moments That Will Be Referenced Later ??? passes out dead on your doorstep. do you understand i am abnormal.

Okay, okay, okay. Can I just say I'm enjoying this very much? Currently sick and this is just making me smile. I can tell you're very passionate about whatever fic you're writing.

Now to answer your question!

I adore both boys! Their relationship is one of the first I took to in canon because they just vibed well to me and what worked is because how they are as individuals.

Both are a strong 9 for me.

With Kirishima, I find he's just one of the characters that you can't really hate because he's just so him!! He's such a sweet guy, always there for people, does his best, so manly! That's probably one of my favorite gags in BNHA is how he will anything is manly, I admire that, we need more Kirishima's in this world. There's the fact he's thick-skinned. Literally and metaphorically. Perfect against someone like Bakugou. What I love about that detail most is how he became that way. His growth from middle school and onward is just beautiful to me.

Also, I want to bring up character design here about him. Love how he looks like the typical protagonist with his spiky red hair and even got the personality, but nope! Ha ha! Tricked! It's actually the green one here with the freckles. And his black hair from middle school. I don't know why, but I like it. His hair being down is nice really.

Now onto Bakugou! He is an ass, yes, but that was just a telltale sign to me that "He's gonna get hit with that CD" and what do you know! He got hit with that character development. And I love that. What I love about it is how it's not forced on him by others, like no one really went "dude, you need to change". Nah, over through the story, he makes his own self-reflections which is influenced by the events he went through and how others act around and towards him. Love that he has moments of vulnerability where he cries. We all need to cry sometime. And the apology scene. Oh my gosh, that's my favorite Bakugou moment right there. He pours his heart out and apologizes to Midoriya and does this by himself. No one really told him that he to do that, to apologize, but he does so on his own in front of the others and that's rare for Bakugou to show emotion like that in front everyone else.

And I like that even after that, he's still Bakugou. I know some people expected him to be "nicer" but I didn't and honestly did not care for that if he was because he wouldn't be Bakugou if he was. He recognized his faults and expressed it and that's enough for me.

And that skull shirt. Every time I see that I'm just reminded how I would wear this black skull shirt a lot during my high school years.

#kiya answers #bnha #mha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #bakugou katsuki #bakugo katsuki #kirishima eijirou #kirishima eijiro #🧡💣💥#❤️🗻🪨

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raccoonnutella13 · 10 months ago

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my oldest cat died about a month ago when he was only 8 or 9. i still remember when the neighbors had found him and his sisters and put them in a box--they had presumably been abandoned by their mother--and we were called over to take a look. my dad didnt hesitate to scoop up the littlest one in his arms. my older sister named him rosie because we thought he was a girl at the time. the name stuck so we kept it after finding out he was a boy.

he grew up to be a big boy and was grumpy a lot of the time--he was very particular about where he wanted to be pet and where he wanted to sleep. but we knew that he loved us. i believe he lived a happy life even if he was cold at times and i loved him dearly.

in his last months he became more comfortable around me and would sleep in my bed at night. the day i found him dead i was watching tv in the basement living room just outside my door, and i had walked into my room to grab my phone. there i found rosie laying sideways on the floor next to my bed. i thought he was asleep but it was an odd sleeping position for him so i picked him up. for a long moment i was in denial; i thought he was doing that thing that cats did when they're asleep and sort of limp. i didnt even believe he was fully gone when i called down my mom and she scooped him up and took him upstairs. when it hit me i was in hysterics. i couldnt stop crying. even just thinking about it now makes me want to cry.

my grandparents came over as soon as they heard and i cried in my grandma's arms for a while. when my little sister got home, she was in denial just like me and asked us to bring rosie back. i was so hurt because rosie was young and we all thought he was going to live such a long life. we dont know for sure how he died but i found a puddle of bile next to his body, and when i had first picked him up he was still warm, so he had just died. for a long while all i could say was "he was my baby, my baby, my baby"

i'm saying this because most people really underestimate how much a cat can mean to a person. rosie was my friend and family--there were times when he was the only thing that could make me happy. most of the time i want to be around my cats more than i want to be around people. what i'm saying is that losing rosie is the hardest loss i've ever felt because i was so used to his presence around me.

even now, a month later, i still think i see him at times. i still forget that he's gone. i miss him so bad. it never gets easier, but eventually i know i'll be able to look back on rosie's life and celebrate it, maybe even make an art piece about him, i'm not sure yet

this is for anyone struggling with a pet loss. theyre our best friends and we'll always have them in our hearts

hi Mr. Gaiman. My cat died two days ago and I really miss him. I’ve seen pictures of your dogs so I think you might be a dog person so I don’t know if you’ll get this but, I not only miss my cat (Kittywitty), but I also miss the the unconditional love that he gave. I’m scared that I won’t experience that kind of love again and it makes me very lonely. I’m scared of forgetting him, he deserves the world. He wandered into our farm one day and never left and I’m so grateful. He reminds me of you a lot, he carries this wonderful, otherworldly magic. I’ve known him since I was three. Life got less magical, but he never did. You could have the worst day, but then you’d see him and it was suddenly the best day. Anyways, I hope you have a wonderful day. You’re truly amazing and your writing enraptures me.

I'm so sorry about your cat.

I don't believe that there are cat people and dog people. I had so many cats from 1992 on -- they would turn up at our house and never leave. I wrote a story about them, and about one in particular, called "The Price".

This is Zoe, who was blind, and died in 2010:

This is Princess, who turned up (with kittens, and pregnant with more) in 1992 or 1993 and died in 2013...

One day, maybe, I'll be ready to have a house full of cats once more. It took me ten years after my dog first died to get another dog though. It never gets easier. It's always wonderful.

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nochukoo97 · 2 years ago

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hold me while you wait

Pairing: Jungkook x OC

Summary: Oc has a break up and goes to a bar. Shes heavily intoxicated before someone stops her…

Warnings: Mentions of alcohol consumption, cheating in relationship, but Jungkook is here to save the day 😊😊 oc cries alot, and drinks way too many bottles than she should, Jungkook has a fat crush on oc, OH! and theyre childhood bestfriends who distanced a little during ocs relationship with her ex 😔

Word count: 2k+

You can’t remember how many drinks you’ve ordered ever since you came here, but you know you definitely need this alcohol in your body. Especially after your boyfriend of three years, Jaehyun, had broken up with you out of the blue. Apparently he had been interested in his girl best friend all along, and you wonder how you did not see their suspiciously close relationship. But right now you feel like an idiot. Not only have you been broken up with, you also have been cheated on. Your ego and pride dropped to an all time low after Jaehyun had explained everything. You didn’t even try to fight back, just nodded and accepted this was how it was gonna be.

You order another beer as you chug it down, finishing half the bottle in one chug. Your head is spinning and you start to feel the migraine coming in. Shit, even if you go home, it's another 40 minutes by bus, and right now you either want to get home fast or stay here and drink the pain away. Was Jaehyun the stupid one for cheating or was it you who was stupid for not being able to see the now obvious red flags in that guy? Frustration and anger pent up in your body. One part of you was mad at Jaehyun for cheating on you while acting like he loved you so dearly during your relationship with him, and another part of you was angry that you were so blind and paid no heed to the signs of your relationship.

From across the bar counter, there were a group of guys sitting at a nearby table. Upon seeing your state and the number of bottles piling up around you, one of the boys said, “Hey, look at that girl over there, must have gotten her heart broken for her to drink nearly what? Ten bottles of beer?” The rest of the guys laugh and comment here and there at his statement. You can hear their remarks, but you are not in the mood to bother with them so you ignore their words. The ringing in your ear is way louder than any of what they were saying anyways.

Little did you know, that that table of guys contained someone who you were really close with…

Upon hearing Jimin’s comment, Jungkook turns his head in the direction of this ‘girl’, out of curiosity, wanting to check just how many bottles she had drunk. He’s counting the endless beer bottles on the counter when he watches the girl pick up the half full beer and chug it down once more. He watches as her hand grabs the bottle, slightly shaking, and there's a purple bracelet on her wrist. Wait. That bracelet… Jungkook squints at the girl once more before coming to a conclusion that that was really you, his childhood best friend, as well as crush for god knows how many years.

“Gguk! Look! I made a bracelet when I went to Japan, and I made you a matching one!” 14 year old you had exclaimed after not seeing your best friend for two weeks. Jungkook took the blue bracelet in hand and stared at it, before putting it on. On the outside, he didn’t show much reaction, simply smiling and saying a small “thanks”. But on the inside Jungkook was going crazy. He’s had a big fat crush on you since the early ages, as early as he can remember. And here you are giving him a matching bracelet, something mostly only couples would do. But you, being young and naive, could not see Jungkook’s love for you, and when you had gotten into a relationship with Jaehyun, it broke Jungkook’s heart and he distanced himself away from you as well. You were confused and hurt why Jungkook had seemed more cold than usual and was giving you one word replies, but you did not spend too much time thinking about that as you were so occupied in your new blooming relationship.

“Shit,” Jungkook muttered under his breath. He had never seen you drink more than two bottles of alcohol, and even when you had drunk two bottles you were already super intoxicated. He didn’t want to know how you were still holding on to consciousness at this point. Jungkook walks over to your figure, as you pick up the bottle again, wanting to chug finish the beer, you feel a warm hand grasp onto your hold on the bottle, stopping you from bringing the bottle to your lips. You look back at who this stranger was, trying to stop you from drinking your 11th bottle of beer. Your eyes widen and you freeze as you see the familiar face standing in front of you.

“That’s enough, I’m taking you home, come one,” Jungkook commands. “No! Who are you to tell me what I do!” you hiccup back, “I’m staying here and I’m ordering another drink! You’re not stopping me!” You stutter over a few words but manage to get it out. “Y/N, please, enough, you’ve drunk ten bottles already, that is more than enough.” Jungkook’s voice is stern and firm, his hold on your hand is still strong, even more so tighter.

You pathetically try to fight back this muscular man's grip on your hand, as he prys the bottle off your hold. You attempt to stifle his movements by kicking at his shins and pushing against his body, but he doesn’t move an inch. Of course, this is Jeon Jungkook, the gym rat ever since young. What makes you think you can make him move a muscle, more so when you're drunk? You can’t take it anymore, so you start to cry out in his hold. Frustration and anger yet again fills your mind, this time for another reason. Your wailing and sobbing into your best friend of 18 years' chest, as he manoeuvres you through the crowd at the bar, and brings you outside the bar.

When you two are outside, he relaxes his hold on you, allowing you to finally not be trapped in his hold. You slump to the floor and sit on the sidewalk, figure slightly trembling as you whimper and cry pathetically in front of Jungkook. He stands in front of you and crosses his arms, raising an eyebrow as he questions, “What’s gotten into you huh? Tell me why I find you at a bar you have never been to, drinking like a madman?” Jungkook’s eyes search for you face to try and read what you are processing in your head but you turn away from his gaze and mutter a “Don’t wanna tell you” Before Jungkook sighs and his heart melts when he hears your sniffles as you bring your knees up to your chest in attempt to hug yourself.

You can hear Jungkook fumble with something in his pocket, a mixture of his car keys jangling and plastic crinkling. You find a lollipop being shoved in front of your face, and you reluctantly snatch the lollipop from his hand and attempt to open the plastic wrapped around the lollipop. To no avail, your weak hands fiddle around with the plastic and fail to even cause a tear in the plastic. Jungkook sighs upon seeing this and squats so that he is now eye-level with you, grabbing the lollipop back to open the plastic packaging for you. “How did you expect yourself to bring yourself home if you can’t even open this small packaging huh?” He scolds you gently. You only sulk at his words before he says, “Open,” And at first you look at him with confusion, wondering what he was referring to, until you see the pink lollipop being held close to your mouth, so you obey and open your mouth before he sticks the lollipop in. He whispers a “Good girl” but with how intoxicated you are at the moment, you don’t fully process his words.

You allow Jungkook to guide you to his car, as you cling onto him, he opens the car door to the passenger side, before carrying you into the seat and buckling you up. Jungkook then goes over to his side and starts the engine, before he hears a quiet, “He broke up with me” Followed by a hiccup, “And he even cheated on- on me…” You slowly start to cry again. As surprised as Jungkook is, as well as the thoughts of wanting to beat the man who hurt you so badly up, he sighs and rubs your back in comfort, allowing you to cry out to him.

You slowly begin to get exhausted from all the crying and drinking you had been doing the past three hours, so you find yourself curled up on the passenger seat, eyes fluttering shut. Jungkook sees this and you feel him gently remove the lollipop stick from your mouth. You whine at the lost of the sweet in your mouth but Jungkook softly shushes you, lulling you back to sleep.

Soon you’re fast asleep, and Jungkook has reached your apartment. He carefully unbuckles you and picks you up, causing you to stir a little. He carries you to the door of your apartment, and seeing that the lights of your shared apartment were off, he realised that your roommate had probably gone out of town. Jungkook lays you on your bed, and retrieves a towel from your bathroom, wiping down your face with it. He was about to leave your side to put the towel back when you grasp onto his t-shirt, whining, “don’t go… stay please,” He sighs again as he places the towel on your bedside, tucking you into the blanket and mumbling a “I’ll be back soon, wait awhile,” Before walking to your closet to find the drawer where he knew his clothes were, you two often had sleepovers when you were in college, before Jaehyun was involved in the picture, and Jungkook would leave his clothes here to make things easier for him.

Changing into his new clothes, Jungkook makes his way back to you, and when you sense that his presence was near, you whine and grab your hands towards him, wanting him to cuddle you to sleep. Jungkook slots himself under your duvet next to you and you curl into his body as he wraps his strong arms around you, petting your hair as you drift off to sleep…

You’re awoken the next day by the throbbing in your head as you try to recall what had happened last night. After you went past five bottles of beer, your memory had been cleared and you could not remember a thing that had happened. Suddenly, the phone beside you lights up as a notification pops up on the screen. On the lock screen, is a picture of the familiar brown dog you know, Jungkook’s dog, Bam. You piece two and two together and figure out Jungkook had brought you home and stayed over. As you wondered how on earth he had found you at the random bar when you two were not contacting each other as often anymore, Jungkook came in with a glass of water and three pills, eyes widening a little, he was not expecting you to be up when he came back.

“Gguk, my head hurts” You whine, rubbing the temples of your head in an attempt to soothe the migraine. “That’s on you for drinking like crazy yesterday. I tried to stop you and you kept fighting back” He explained as he handed over the pills. You sulk at him before popping the pills in your mouth, swallowing them with the water Jungkook brought. “Go back to sleep, get some rest, I’ll cook you hangover soup when you get up okay?” You smile at his words, snuggling deeper into the comfort of your bed and shutting your eyes. Jungkook brushes the hair out of your face before muttering a “I’ll be back when you’re awake”, walking out of the room to cook you the soup.

You smile to yourself as the door shuts, maybe with Jungkook, your life won’t be so miserable after all.

#jungkook comfort #bts jungkook #jungkook smut #boyfriend jungkook #jungkook au #jungkook ff #jungkook x oc #jungkook #jungkook x reader #jungkook fluff #bts ff #bts #bts fic #bts smut

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lumiereandcogsworth · 2 years ago

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TOP 5 ADELLE MOMENTS

okay first of all how dare you make me choose. second of all FINE. but let the record show that Every Adelle Scene sends me into a state of insanity 💖

i’m counting down to number one just for funzies <3 enjoy

5. Celebration Ball Dance

UHHHHH. this is at the end of the movie. most likely at the end of like a 5-7 hour experience of me watching this movie and going through many emotions. i’m so deliriously happy by this point that i’m just. insane. this dance is everything to me. it’s like really all i get to see of them being both human together so it’s just ESSENTIAL for my fic writer brain to see such exquisite visuals of THEY. belle’s smile!!!! ADAM’S SMILE!!!! HE LOOKS SO HAPPY I WILL ABSOLUTELY NEVER BE OVER IT. it’s their happily ever after dance and gosh it’s just so bright and beautiful and they’re both so happy 😭🌸

4. Colonnade Conversation

this conversation is just so important!!! this scene + the paris scene are so so special. it just lets you see them BE together. talking, joking, you get to see their rapport. the something there montage is LOVELY but it’s when the world quiets down and they get to just exist together that i really lose my mind. it shows off their friendship and their care for each other and you really see the way they look at each other and i just!!!! gosh!!!! they’re best friends in love!!!!!!!

3. Bridge Scene

*sighs dreamily* oh bridge scene. they’re so insane for that. i love this scene DEARLY. SO DEARLY. because it’s not so much like, “omg they’re falling in love” it’s more like “they’re actually starting to See each other…” like that moment when they look at each other and then look away it’s like. neither of them have even had so much as a real, genuine friend in their lives. the words in the poem hit them both in the same way. Look at me, come wake me up… like it’s just??? OH MY GOSH. their souls are recognizing each other before either of them do. there’s a spark of something so absolutely beautiful in this moment. it’s just wonderful.

2. The Kiss

crying sobbing screaming my head off. i know it may be surprising that this isn’t number one, and it IS hard keeping this at number two, but just know it’s a VERY CLOSE SECOND. this kiss is perfect. i know i’m suuuuuper biased but i do think it’s the best, if not one of the best, movie kisses ever. just the way they look at each other, the way they draw closer. there is SO much said between them with just their eyes. VOLUMES. belle can’t believe it’s him. and adam can’t believe he’s alive, he’s human, he can’t believe what it must mean. SHE LOVES HIM?? it’s just so profound and astonishing that they’re both speechless. belle touches his face for the first time ever and adam’s little smile when she does 😭 and then adam touches her face (WITH HIS HUMAN HAND!!!) AND I JUST!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH it makes me insane. INSANE! AND WHEN THEY KISS— THE WAY THEY JUST. DRAW INTO EACH OTHER. THEY JUST. OH MY GOSH IT’S PERFECT. it’s everything.

1. The Dance

surprise surprise! the dance makes me lose my gotdamn mind!!!! it’s the only scene in the movie that absolutely makes me at least tear up every time. i’ve certainly cried at MANY moments over the years but this one gets me without fail. this dance is just so utterly gorgeous. every single thing about it from the moment they see each other at the top of the stairs, to that last twirl and their hands parting. i have butterflies just writing about it like!!! oh my gosh!!! the nerves !!! the way belle leads them off at first and adam looks down at his feet and then they just melt into it. and the way they get into it!!!! and it’s just!!! it’s so graceful and beautiful!!!!!!! THATS THE FIRST TIME THEY’VE EVER DANCED TOGETHER LIKE WHAT THE HECK DUDE.

AND DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT LIFT AND TWIRL AND THE GORGEOUS GALAXY OF CANDLELIGHT AROUND THEM I JUST SHDKSJDKSHDKSN!!!!!!!!!

yeah anyway. super good. yes.

honorable mention because AAAAAHHHH THEYRE HOLDING HANDS!!!!!!

and bonus because i said so: my favorite adelle gifset

#gosh they literally make me lose my mind #GOSHDKDJEKDJE😭#adelle #batb 2017 #answered

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icecreamkink · 4 years ago

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watched all of the untamed / cql in two weeks after my friend 1 told me abt mdzs a hundred years ago and my friends 2 and 3 tried to get me into cql for like two whole years and there are.

feelings.

very first scene is a very dramatic death in the middle of nightmare battle on sith planet land . i will forget abt it in the next tenish episodes and then will be very surprised when it becomes Extremely Painful

anyway magic flying gays and possession and human sacrifice! we are off to a great start

in retrospect, chaos goblin wei wuxian must have had a blast pretending to be so cRaZy and be as disruptive as he could as mo xuanyu lbr

listen. why is fire always evil coded. cant a magic clan wear red, black and orange and have flame motif while being wholesome?

For Legal Reasons These Are Not Zombies

i wish the politics of the sect were a bit clearer, especially at the beggining when the wen clan had sm power, was wen ruohan the chief cultivator? is that why they were so slow in responding to the attacks? im v confused by the pre yiling patriarch politics

fighting in the roof by the moonlight as way of flirtiiiiiiing. as i understand this is a wuxia/xianxia trope and honestly...... thank u for ur service

slight bullying and being a nuisance in general, as a way of flirting we love to see it

wwx: if i drink on the rooftop, thats not inside the cloud recesses! hmmm check and mate :D lwj: i will fuck u up so help me god wwx: :0

i lov them

through hell or high water (quite literally) wei wuxian rem ains a trashfire gremlin till the end and i love him with my whole heart

in the pt subs wei wuxian calls jiang cheng a stubborn duck and i dearly wish that had come back

my opinions on almost every character goes from love to hate u - Hmm Me Like U - BABY. ILY. and i am Very Pleased w that. its been a while since i loved such a complete cast so much i think

no really. i WONT go into a detailed rant abt what i love about each of these characters and each of their relationships to each other. but i COULD.

some lan disciples in the loudest whisper ever: YEAH THATS THE JIN BASTARD MENG YAO HEARD THE GOT SUPER HUMILIATED BY HIS DAD LOL SURE HOPE HE DOESNT TAKE SLIGHTS TO HIS CHARACTER TO HEART

lan xichen, immediately: i must Love him

being into problematic ppl is in the Lan genetics, we come to realize

wen qing deserves so many awards for so many things but not snapping and just stabbing wen chao is at the top

that scene at lan qirens class where wwx talks about using resentful energy to fight a violent spirit. exquisite.

It establishes Good Student lan wangji, wei wuxian as curious and questioning and not afraid of taboo, lwj sees that wwx is not, in fact, a dumb ass hes just a Dumbass, shows us the audience (esp. a western audience) how shocking the idea of disrupting the dead/dying and controlling resentful energy actually is, the theoretical foreshadow arguing, everyone else like ‘shUT UP’, “and how could you ensure that the resentful energy would obey you and not hurt other?” “well i havent thought that far” and of course, lan qiren just straight up lobbing a hard object at wwx head,. chefs kiss

fellas is it gay to bother the hot rule obessessed nerd from ur school and make drawings of him with flowers in his hair and then hide gay porn in his book to antagonize him and ask him to hold ur hand and be ur friend and talk to him all the time and get him drunk and give him bunnies bc you know he likes them and give him a lantern and always want his attention and dedicate yourself to getting him to smile-

and after all of that wwx rly said oh i Admire him, aksd like yeah we all were there in high school buddy

i have Learned. caves = gay.

accidental marriage +beint physically tied together with the sacred married ribbon+ gay panic+foreshadowing+bunnies! in the cave (1)

the story abt lan yi and baoshan sanren tho. i would like to see it

early days wen bros pull my heart strings like a guqin

EVERYTHING about the lantern scene; disaster hets jiang yanli and jin zixuan; how wwx made lwj a bunny lantern. how soft and touched lwj was. wwx gleefully pointing out he was smiling and lwj IMMEDIATELY PULLING HIW SWORD ON HIM LMAO. tragically foreshadowy promises to do right by pepople, living without regrets. lwjs 'oh no do i love him??' face. just. all of it.

i have it on good acc that in the novel lwj is explicitly Repressed Gay Panicked Big Horny which is delightful and rly Adds to the performance

baby lwj is really just conceal dont feel dont let them know u have EMOTIONS (derogatory)

jiang cheng rly went "why dont.u go play with HIM if u like him so much"

jc and wwx have big BIG annoying sibling energy dont think too hard abt it or youll cry

lotus pier is soo pretty :((((((((((((((((

up until episode 13 you could think this could be a magical ancient chinese gays pride n prejudice w swords and shenanigans ................youre just not prepared for the game of thrones of it all

seriously ha ha ha i cried so much w this show my eyes genuinely swelled up . like. physically. fun timez fun timez

that being said, its hilarious that wen xu goes to cloud recesses like 'come out or ill kill all these hostages' and then DOESNT WAIT FOR AN ASWER AND KILLS THEM ALL IMMEDIATELY. do u know how blackmail works sir

would like to make it recorded that from day one i was like 'CALL A GODDAMN CULTIVATION G20 THIS ASSHOLE SECT IS LITERALLY MASSACRING YALL!!' and it took them like 3 or 4 massacres to do anything and they STILL sent their heirs into their territory LIKE

when wwx cites the gusu lan rules to wen chao tho. that rebel/attention whore/cutie pie 'look lan zhan i DID memorize the rules after all' ‘also a big fuck you to the wen sect :D :D’ sweet spot that scene achieves . delicious

all the cultivator young masters being petty af even though they are practically prisoners at the cave is hilarious and i love them

hurt and comfort + gay mistunderstandings + watsonian gay declaration music + accidental evil acquisition! at the cave (2)

its like where do i start? the fact theyre both trapped and kind of heavily injured inside an isolated cave with a murder turtle? wwx gay panicking lwj into coughing up bad blood? lwj being jealous as wwx babbles abt mianmian? telling him he shouldnt play with people and wwx saying he never played him? wwx going Oh. I See what is happening. YOU like mianmian, and lwj absolute done face ??? (iconic) wwx touching the sacred married ribbon Again? the telepathic communication? the sword? WEI WUXIAN ASKING LAN WANGJI TO SING TO HIM AS HE IS PASSING OUT AND LWJ SINGING HIM. THE SONG. HE WROTE. FOR WWX. AND THAT HE CALLED. THEIR SHIP NAME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

they are SO insufferable pleeeeease

in the words of my friend 1 : “CQL is so gay we were all amazed how it got past the censors Ofc unfortunately it can't be novel level gay But they did their best And we love them for it”

in the theme of songs THIS OST. WUJI HAS BEEN LIVING IN MY MIND RENT FREE SINCE I FIRST HEARD IT the whole ost is so so sO beautiful.

the costuming in this is also soooo exquisite. the embroidery? the fabrics? the details? how every sect and clan has a distinct style and architecture? (also ik they based each off of dif periods in chinese history which is REALLY fucking cool) just chefs kiss

the direction too!. i enjoy the unusual camera movements and i think they give it that Vibe, also their composition is PARTICULARLY good when it comes to telling the subtext through position of camera/position of character (like nhs off to the side in scenes he at first glance doesnt need to be/ how lwj is often centered when hes Jealous Yearning at wwx being affectionate w other ppl, wwx return from burial mounds etc)

ik madam yu is like Badass Milf Check and shes not getting any mom of the year awards but im delighted at how messy she is. IMAGINE that woman on tiktok

you better have enjoyed gay cave (2) bc its Just Pain from here on out!

jiang fengmian and madame yu win the Most Dramatic Way to show they do care about each other, actually ..... ever :)

i thought jiang yanli jiang cheng and wei wuxian forcing themselves to escape yunmeng barely holding on after their parents are killed was going to be the height of pain in this show. ha.

the family dynamics in general on this showwwww, both blood/ adopted/ found families, brotherly bonds and lifelong friendships just. rly. truly. fucked me up. theyre all so important and complicated and well rounded and beautiful and tragic

and beyond being a Win For the Gays im so glad the relationships w wwx and jiang yanli/ wen qing were NOT changed from platonic bc they are so much better like that imo. like maybe if we didnt Live In A Society it wouldnt be so, but the fact wwx and others can love and value them so much and theres nothing romantic or sexual abt it is like. so refreshing. especially @ jyl, with the way he and jc are overprotective of her and shes such a nurturing/care taker figure for them, it would just not vibe as well if they made it romantic

i love that this is a story abt Wei Wuxian, the Yiling Patriarch aka Actual Satan/Boogey Man/Village With/Public Enemy Number One , my dude is literally a necromancer who only dresses in black and has evil smokey black tendrils wafting out of him, but the really edgy one is still jiang cheng, pastel purple fashion icon

and speaking of best/worst siblings wei wuxian and jiang cheng *immediately starts crying*

The Golden Core Transfer i just. no thots only tears

wen qing and wen ning putting themselves in so much danger just.... to help them. wn saving jc from wen chao. wq finding a way to get wwx to transfer his core. like thinking about the monumental work these two did to help wwx and jyl and jc... jyl trying so fucking hard to be strong and keep on moving and giver her little brothers comfort after losing everything... jiang cheng. losing his parents and his home and his ability to do anything abt it and his complete desperation and lack of self worth and turning on them with agression when he didnt realize all that they did for him ... hhhhhhhhhhhhh

me, pointing at the whole cast “i just LOVE them mom!!!”

its sad tho, that BARELY ANY of the women have like.... actual important conversations let alone relationships with each other at all in the story. and like wq and jyl have stayed at the same place for extended periods of time, where wq actively took care of her TWICE, and still! not one measly convo, nothing! ................ .𝓌ₕᵧ

everyone in this show need a good sip of Self Worth and Stop Sacrificing Yourself juice

ngl the sword flying looks very dumb

“a-cheng, please bring a-xian back.” “i will, i promise.” ;-;

the whole calling each other by the More Intimate Version of the name, first as teasing and later as true intimacy. mmmhmmm yes

untamed where everythings the same but wwx evil flute song is eoeo

related that scene when wwx comes back from the burial mounds for the first time w demonic cultivation and he acts all formal and calls lwj hanguang-jun and keeps being evasive and distant and mean and soooooo................. facetious

and how hes kind of desperately trying to keep intense lwj at bay (A FIRST) and avoiding actually talking to either of them and its all tension ughhh and then he MOCKS his and lwjs relationship, he jokes w him in this like... mean echo of their usual ~banter~ oof

and like!!! uncertain but so relieved jc who just HUGS him w no reservations for once and its not like he isnt just as worried as lwj abt wwx and what hes doing, but he chooses in that moment to enjoy getting him back first and mmhmMMMmMm yes (maybe my favorite scene in the whole show? MAYBE SO. )

highkey hurt me but also. i might be into mean wwx. i will take no criticism.

lan zhans sad eyes tho :(((((((((

on one hand i wish we could have seen what happened at the burial mounds but on the other the timeskip adds so much flair to his return so im hnnn

also i love that hes been missing for 3 months reappears kinda melancholic and bloodthirsty and knowing malign tricks and jc is like 'so. are u sad bc of lan wangji'

when ur bae survived the war but he thinks ur evil/ might be evil so you cant kiss :///

hmmm talking at the rooftop under the moonlight not mentioning everything that stands between usssss

they are the two jades of lan and we’ll be the two heroes of yunmeng is the type of line u dont even need to know whats gonna happen to know thats gonna be sad

when they fight wen ruoshan at the nightless city i thought that was the battle we see at the first ep and its not and its so easy and theyre all like ‘yayy we won go wwx!’ i was just. SCREAMS WHAT is gonna HAPPEN

so like. post burial mounds/sunshot campaign pre yiling patriarch wwx is like. ultra arrogant, ultra mocking, peak lil shit and it gave me e v e r y t h i n g i wanted

even tho having the wen prisoners at the targets at phoenix mountain and still having wwx and jzx shooting the arrows was???? so.... tone deaf

wwx: fucking w demonic energy jyl: he has never done anything wrong in his life, ever <3 <3 (mood)

the parallels between meng yao/wei wuxian (and even xue yang a bit?) are Seen and they are Valid

wwx post burial mounds: can yall SHUT UP abt the goddamn sword (suibian left the chat)

LIKE truly, we talk abt the angst and yearning with wangxian. but what abt wwx and suibian. xianbian / xianqing angst and comfort 100k

take a shot everytime someone coughs up blood

zidian is simply the coolest spiritual weapon rip to suibian and chenqing and bichen and sendou and baixa........ but tis the truth

cons: everyones families died in a nightmare war! everyones homes burned to the ground! everyone is traumatized! pros: everyone gets cooler clothes and weapons!!

wen ning and a-yuan and yanli bestest babes squad dont touch me rn

everyone: brooding and fighting wq and jyl: why dont you try some acupunture/drinking some soup and calm down huh? how abt that bitch??

showing the battle/massacre at the nightless city first was genius actually bc then everytime we have a cute scene w yunmeng bros and theyre like 'we'll be together forever! uwu' youre like oh. oh no. oh no no no.

justice vs lawfulness vs means and ends 👁

jc: stay in the right path and practice the art of the sword wx: yeah thats not gonna happen chief

my reaction to wwx renouncing to the sect politics to help the wens was just that elmo burning gif in succession

the dramatic rain. wen qing desperately calling out to wen ning. the ghosts/puppets killing the guards. how terrifying wn actually was while wwx was controlling him :( lwj goeing after him to try and stop him and then he just; he Sees him and understands him even if he cant actually do anything about it other than let them go.

“there must be somewhere in this earth we can go to :(((((((((”

"IF I HAVE TO FIGHT THEM, I'D RATHER IT BE YOU. DYING BY YOUR HANDS WOULD AT LEAST BE WORTH IT." oh my god oh my god oh my goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooddddddd

also lwjs umbrella is white w black smoke.. . . nice

yiling patriarch / demonic farming burial mounds settlement is like one of my favorite concepts. they an "EVIL" FARMING COMMUNITY LED BY THE VILLAGE WITCH COME ON

they planted TURNIPS and LOTUS FLOWERS and ONE (1) baby and made lanterns and a common hall :(((((((

wen qing and wei wuxian, baddest bitches and genius science best friends i absolutely LOVED to see it. they rly went ‘is anyone gonna sibling/project partner that’ and didnt wait for an answer

both wwx and jyl getting lotus ponds at the burial mounds and in lanling bc they miss lotus pier ;;;;;;;w

;;;;; wish jyl had actually gone into the burial mounds. we were robbed of jyl and wq meeting again and jyl meeting a-yuan and seeing the settlement and the homes and all ;w; at least jc did go, stab wounds and broken arms and all

wwx like... having thrown his whole life away to help the wens (yeah the sect leaders and jin guangshan in particular wanting his stygian tiger amulet was an Element but still) and not.... necessarily regretting it, but grappling with all of the consequences of it... becoming moody and drepressed at times, missing his family and lotus pier and his friends and probably simply missing being around people and causing trouble, extrovert that he is, lashing out at the wens and at a-yuan, just in general the whole messiness of that experience

the way the resentful energy does affect his temperament is rly nice bc its not too in your face,(i mean outside of the Shaky Hands of Rage) but like he clearly has a much lesser control on his anger and impulsivity (tall order) than both before bm and after hes ressurected

on that note A-YUAN BABIEST BABY BOY BEST BOY

lan zhan being like oh hey there wei ying fancy meeting u and our son here. just passing by u know how it is hmmmmMm and then PLOT TWIST having defied orders to go see him and being punished for it. oof;;

they habent seen each other in like? a year? and now theyre tgt 10 seconds and are already parenting a child together

also lwj rly kneels down in the snow way too much to be healthy

wwx: calm down guyssss i wont lose control of demonic cultivation omgggg . spoiler alert: he loses control of demonic cultivation

did u enjoy cute children? good bc now the Real Pain Begins

jiang yanli and jin zixuan rly out there APROPRIATING both disaster gays AND bury ur gays huh ;w;

i KNEW jin lings birthday was gonna fuck something up but the GASP that left my body when wwx lost control of wn and killed jin zixuan .. . .

im sorry and thank you aaaaAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaAAAAaAAAAA

when wen ning and wen qing were telling wwx their plan i was saying NO NO NO NO NO NO out loud in despair

also can we talk abt how wq is definetely talking about only the both of them surrending themselves but then? everyone else just surrenders w them? IT MAKES NO SENSE LIKE WHY WOULD THEY what would be the Point

sometimes there are some pretty gaping jumps in logic and continuity that are just like ? ?

wwx: oh so when you try to murder me its justified but when i survive through dark magic and murder all of you its a "war crime"

unsurprisingly, his most feral, most spiraling moment talking to the sect leaders on the roof and attacking them and even fighting lan zhan is among my favorite scenes... its like, so painful to watch but also so thrilling (and maybe my wen bbs dying arose some resentful energy in me what can i say)

and its JUST, all they ever wanted was to do good but then... war. and trauma. and hubris.

jiang cheng on the ground clearly thorn between what to do and feel is a Mood, lets just say

i was already crying when jyl showed up, but if i wasnt-

i suffered SO MUCH through this series trying to figure out WHY jc would kill wwx. and when i understood. its somehow not as bad as i thought and also MUCH MUCH WORSE

a look into my group chat during the last flashback episodes:

SO ANYWAY. after the BLOOD BATH and RIPPING YOUR HEART OUT and FEEDING IT TO YOU the untamed goes ‘ayy back to the present!! tu du dud ud du’

literally it ends a quarter into an episode and then KEEPS GOING i had to pause and stare blankly at the ceiling for an hour

babie cultivators and detective soulmates . i do need some cute after All of That

(not that the pain is over LOL)

lwj is significantly less emotionally repressed in the present and its delightful. hes just ALL IN with wwx. and not just in the ‘i would and have killed various men and risked my reputation for you’ but also ‘ur tired here have a drink i brought it up cause i know u like it and it want you to be happy, always’

“when everyone praised me and wanted my power, you were the only one that challenged me. now that everyone hates me and wants me dead, youre the only one that stands by my side.” hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

and just filling in the blanks how lan zhan searched for him. for all of those 16 years he searched for him and was punished for it and raised a-yuan, the only survivor of the burial mounds settlement, as his own in gusu......

and jiang cheng. being the tough love uncle . having raised the yunmeng jiang clan from the rubble all alone, his whole family dead, some of it on the blame of his own brother, his siblings, his closest friends gone.......and only jin ling there needing his guidance.

THE PARALLEL BETWEEN JIN LING BEING A LIFELINE FOR JIANG CHENG AND A-YUAN FOR LAN WANGJI AFTER THE BATTLE AT THE NIGHTLESS CITY

great now i made myself sad

and like . the fact! that lwj and jc dislike each other!!. jc projects blame onto him for wwx both “leaving” him and indirectly causing their families deaths and when hes so consumed by it he makes wwx an enemy, lwj is there now? trying to protect him?? and lwj, who can never understand the pain that wwx , indirectly or not put jc through, but who was right there when jc tried to kill him and will never allow him to hurt wwx again. and how they like. in a way project blame of their tragedies onto each other while dealing with some type of survivor guilt and in their own way still loving wwx through it all??? amd in way its kind of fundamentally selfish but also tragically understandable? and like when u put it against the fact that after he disappears during the sunshot campaign they were looking for him together and fought together??

JUST. THE CHARACTERS. AND THE RELATIONSHIPS IN THIS. MAN. UGH. GOD.

and like i think thats what makes it so good? its such a sad and painful and violent story, edgy even, but its compelling bc at the center of it there are all of these relationships and different types of love and hope and. :( i love it

enough crying lets talk abt wwx sleeping at the jingshi with lwj and wearing his under garment for a minute 🙏

jin ling just has that Was Raised by JC energy tho lmao i love him

babie cultivator squad is the perfect ammount of cute and comedic relief while still bearing the weight? of the narrative in a way, both from sizhui and jin lings existences, and also. like. how do i put this. they feel hopeful? they were born after a war, they came of age at a time of relative peace, they dont hold on so closely to the resentments of their parents/father figures, they are specifically shown as more accepting and open minded. and its like.... Hope for the future

one of the ?? things i love the most is the fact that the main cast are often in situations where theyre hunted/running but they like. never wear disguises... just going around in their gorgeous expensive clan clothes and hair ornaments and distinctive spiritual weapons.... maybe w a straw hat on, just for kicks

wwx teacher 🥺🥺🥺

so this is why its called Yi City Misery huh

a-qing is such. an icon. im so sad. my girl even knew to leave xys dumb self rotting by the road but no one listens to her thats why theyre all dead or sad

her and xue yang measuring each other up was so entertaining lmao

its the funniest thing when hes like. HERES MY SAD STORY. FOR WHY IM A SADISTIC MURDERER. I BROKE MY HAND ONCE.

like ok someone broke his hand in a horrible way, and like Poverty, i get it but also like.......... that lost the brunt of a proper sob story like, 50 sadistic murders ago bby

and i love that xingchen does not entertain that for a second hes like ‘not ?????? good enough???’ and the best thing is he wasnt even like 'u hadto be the bigger person' or sth but ' well then break that dudes hand back, rip his arm off for i care, what do the rest of us have to do w anything???”

anjo sensato :(

xue yang is like..... the sexy sadistic evil version of a himbo..... a meanbo...

the fucked upness of xy’s feelings for xxc/ xxc and sl feelings for each other... like my dude literally gave his bf HIS EYES. and xy getting so attached to xxc .... the fucked up fake domesticity.... having him hurt sl..... then desperately trying to bring him back ...................... oof

song lan........... literally had his eyes AND tongue removed, his bfs eyes put in place, was almost killed, turned into a puppet by his bf unknowingly, manipulated by xy, sees his bf killing himself in despair.... and STILL finds the strenght to get up from there, and keep on traveling and helping people and attempting to fix xxcs soul.......... like, my man. damn.

wangxian looking at songxiao and seeing an Actually more painful parallel for themselves. ft. that Color Coding.

THE A-YUAN/SIZHUI REVEAL PUNCHED ME IN THE HEART but in a good way for a change

should have know that he would be the Best Boy the cute one w all the braincells

the butterfly AND the bunny lantern. i see how it is

u know is very convenient that no one can see the stark black veins on wen nings neck, ever

BAT WEN NING

wns face when lwj comes into wwx room like ‘:0 omg did u two finally get your shit together? good for you master wei good for u’

(they didnt) (yet)

DISASTER DRUNK LWJ. JUST. THRUST SOME CHICKENS TO SHOW UR RESSURECTED BAE THAT U LOVE THEM.

i have absolutely no idea WHY they gave lwj the same punishment for fighting his own sect/allies to protect the burial mounds as when they got drunk on cloud recess class days.... like? its such a ... emotional continuity error again

also is lwj gonna get an actual friend besides wwx , ever

mianmian marrying and having a family and a cute life after saying FUCK U AND UR SYSTEM TOO in a much less unhinged and dramatic way than wwx......... fills me w joy

also lol the idea that like. her husband not knowing that shes friends w satan/the boogey man/the village witch is hilarious

i love nie mingjue bc hes the resident Though Guy but also the most dramatic bitch in this show and thats Saying Something

jin ling cant have one uneventful relative can he

the fact that everyone present already knew “mo xuanyu” was wwx at the stairs is so funny, their faces are like ‘oh............ wow. that. sure is a development. shock”

in the tradition of extremely loud whispers wwx tells lwj with twelve guards standing like one meter away from them: HEY PSH LAN ZHAN PRETEND IM FORCING YOU TO STAY W ME DO IT

oh my god oh my god

the absolute Yearning on his face when he leaves wwx and a-yuan at the burial mounds and refuses to stay for dinner was already Enough but the fact?? they brought it back?? to this declaration of love?? their expressions??????? strike me dead right now just go ahead

lFor Legal Reasons We Cant Kiss but we will have a very sappy declaration of love and trust and look at each other in way that is the actualization of 💞💘💗💖💓💘💞💗💖💘💗💖💕💞

also icb all the sect leaders and guards are standing there watching them say they like like each other with a dozen swords pointing at their neck

i enjoyed the depiction of the fickle public perception and how easily it can be used to scapegoat people. when the sect leaders turn on jgy and wwx knows thats its more for convenience than anything else...

poor lxc is literally like 'oh so when YOUR problematic boyfriend gets called evil its a misunderstanding but when its MY problematic bf-'

ok like i cant get over nmj let jgy play a song that messed with his temperament at all, like maN u KNEW he might be shady wth

wwx: “hey dont say anything bad abt lan zhan hes not an arrogant dick, thats just his face.

ME ON THE OTHER HAND"

the cultivators as wwx is poking holes in their narrative is literally *nazaré meme*

"wei wuxian-!" "what did i break your leg, too?" not to be problematic but i laughed so hard

not as hard as "you dont have the rank to talk to me " tho

i Enjoy that, over the course of story, wwx sees that... theres nothing truly to Do, but move on. he saw how his arrogance and his mistakes hurt others, and hes trying to fix what he can, but he already did die for his mistakes and there are things he cant fix and that's. just how it is. even towards jgy, the narrative doesn't go gleefully and completely with "lets make THEM pay bc theyre the big bad" bc its not that simple, and it wouldn't lead anywhere but more pain...

re him and jiang cheng and the wens and kinda. isnt that what nhs did? scheming to displace jgy out of revenge more than any justice and doing so in the most painful way?

idk if that actually makes sense im truly just babbling

i thought the scene at the lotus pond would be CUTE but the context was PAIN again

jiang cheng finding out about his golden core and his conflict with wwx at the guanyin temple .... destroyed me but in a nice way kinda.... same way it destroys him look at his face oh god

and. the fact??? he sacrificed himself for wwx?? first?? and he'll probably never tell anyone much less wwx???? keeps me up at night

i havent decided if the neckbreak transition between jgy does sth super Evil or does he he does OR Does He yes he does O R does heeeee is sth i dislike or not

jin guangyao and wei wuxians most interesting parallel is that... theyve both seen 'hmm hey this system is fucked up' and wwx went 'so fuck it all i will renounce it and challenge it' and jgy went 'so fuck it i will use all of it to my advantage and manipulate it to my goals and whims'

the fact jgys mom was actually great and he loved her and his whole issue w it was more than simply being ashamed of being a bastard kinda got me ngl

never trust a dude with a fan.

nhs and jgy: the first rule to a convoluted and decades spanning violent revenge plot is to have fun and be yourself!

when a-yuan finally FINALLY remembers ;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; wen ning has someone in his family back and a-yuan has someone to talk abt his wen family and wwx has him back bc he survived and lwj raised him anD HES THEIR SON. THEYRE MARRIED AND HAVE A SON. UGH.

and theyre allowed to heal. everyone is allowed to try and recover and be happy

netflix put all of the 3 endings on top of each other and it looks kinda weird actually BUT I DONT EVEN MIND :’’’’’’’’’)

the gasp that left me when lwj says ‘wei ying’ and wwx turns.........

there was also a screen with ‘thank you mxtx for creating these characters, we hope their wishes come true’ and i might. have cried then too. maybe.

that was . a ride. as is proven by this behemot of a ramble clearly i just really needed and Outlet. i am currently trying to convince dumb monkey brain to not consume the other medias of mdzs immediately bc i REALLY need to like. live. a life. and take care of real responsibilities. *longest oh boi ever*

#m.#ANYWAY #ENOUGH TALKING #THIS IS SO LONG #LOL #but whatever this is MY performative journaling i do what i want #rambling impressions abt what i watch is a thing i do now? apparently??#cql #untamed #the untamed #fun fact that chat is named 'k keeps on babbling abt the untamed' and it STILL wasnt enough #also it took me 15 episodes to realize lwj was yibo #IT WAS V SHOCKING #i did not recognize him at a l l #but in retrospect he WAS the perfect choice

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im-not-a-joke · 5 years ago

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hcs on the losers club? ive been waiting for the green light. okay sO here's the thing: Reddie's Wedding with drunk Stan giving a speech

Jamie I love you this is an amazing request

Reddie Wedding Things

- they’ve been engaged since eddie turned 18 in 1994

- (eddie proposed on the day after his birthday)

- once gay marriage is legalized in the US in 2015, they are immediately on it

- they have been waiting 21 years for this, they are going to make it official asap

- mike and ben are huge help when it comes to planning

- they decide on a color scheme of red and gray

- bev tries to convince richie to let her make him a dress

- “i would rock that, but my parents are going to be there”

- instead of roses, they go with chrysanthemums and yarrow

- richie does let bev put yarrow in his hair and he looks fabulous

- stan is richie’s best man, and bill is eddie’s

- (its definitely because theyre best friends and totally not because of a pact they made in the seventh grade)

- maggie and went are there to support their gay son and their other gay son that isnt technically related to them yet

- sonia isnt there but FUCK sonia

- went walks richie down the isle

- as soon as richie sees eddie, he bursts into tears

- eddie also cries but he lasts like 5 minutes longer than richie

- the entire losers club is crying by the end

- (especially mike and bev)

- both the wedding and the reception are small, they just want it to be a friends and family thing

- ben and mike go absolutely feral on the dance floor

- they drag bev in with them, who drags stan, who drags bill, who drags richie and eddie

- suddenly, it’s like theyre kids again, dancing all together at bill’s house instead of school dances, because they could have more fun on their own.

- their first dance is to the song somewhere only we know by keane

- instead of throwing a bouquet, eddie takes the chrysanthemum pinned to his lapel and throws it

- bill catches it and everyone is like 👀

- everyone gets absolutely wasted

- at one point stan stands and is like “hey, id like to say some stuff about the newlyweds”

- bev immediately starts recording

- bill is an anxious drunk so he tries to stop stan but stan brushes him off

- “these two have been my best friends for my entire life, and i love them dearly, especially you, trashmouth”

- “...even though you keep me awake until 3 am with your random questions...”

- “i may act like i hate you, but i wouldnt be here without you, and im really happy things worked out for you two, because i really dont think i wouldve won a fight against eddie”

- richie proceeds to use this in rebuttal every time stan makes a comment about hating him

- basically, stan’s speech is half roasting richie and half being sappy

- they all clap for him at the end and he does a ridiculous bow

BONUS

- richie comes out at his next show

- “im taken, ladies and gentlemen, by the best person ive ever met, and i didnt think i would be doing this this soon, but im really feeling it tonight, so this one goes out to my lovely husband, eddie kaspbrak-tozier”

- it goes over very well for both of them

#i really liked doing this #hopefully you like it!#reddie #friend jamie #grandchild jamie #carson rambles #also please request more losers club things i love them #another note:#we do Not feminize eddie on this blog #so if you feminize eddie pls leave

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heliophilial · 4 years ago

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𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒖𝒔 . (a tbz 3rd year anniversary special)

genre :angst ,fluff (more of brotherhood)

group and member involved :the boyz ,all members are involved !

between :the whole group and thebs hello cuties <3

warnings :u may or may not cry but i cried typing this so gluck ig HWUJDF

word count :844 (i didn’t count my notes to thebs and the boys in)

brief description :when all seems dull ,when times are grey ,it is only when we are together that the world gains its colour .theres no one else like you ,no one else like us ,theres really nothing like us .

playlist :literally just nothing like us by justin bieber like a 1 hr loop or smth ,depends on how long u take to read this

before you continue to read also please note that ‘we’ refers to thebs here !!

quiet .peaceful .light snores of the members filled the dorm .the room filled with nothing but darkness .black shade hovering over the members faces .they had just wrapped up a little celebration in the living room with cakes and party poppers to celebrate their 3rd year together not long ago .shortly after wrapping up the party ,they had fallen asleep on the couch ,all lying on one another comfortably .

sangyeon slowly blinked his eyes open .he rubbed his eyes and slowly unwrapped eric's hands from his waist and placed chanhee's legs that were on his lap onto the space of the sofa that he had previously occupied .careful to not wake the members up .

he looked at the members' sleeping forms and smiled ,glad that they were finally able to catch some rest after their packed schedules .he walked to the kitchen to fetch himself a glass of water and at the corner of his eyes ,he spotted a glimmering light .he placed his glass down and approached the light that was so very alluring for some reason .

there on the shelf of where all their awards have been placed on ,laid a book with its contents blinding his eyes with its bright light .he inspected the book for a while before proceeding to open it with caution .

inside the book ,there were sketches of the key moments the members have shared together such as their debut stage ,their first ever music show award as well as their first ever full length album promos .as he flipped to the first page that displayed their first moment together ,there were harsh winds blowing past him and a force from the book pulled him towards the page and right into it .

he looked at the 12 boys on stage ,introducing themselves for the first time to the whole wide world .and he looked at them with pride and honour in his eyes ,the boys' who had no idea what being idols would be like for themselves ,clueless of what the future had in store for them .he looked at them from the bottom of the stage and sucked in a breath ,"wow we've really grown a lot ."he thought .

after they had introduced themselves as a group and individually ,the sight in front of him suddenly pauses and his attention gets diverted to the door to his right .

he walked into the room .

he gets transported to the very first time they cried together ,over the pain ,over the stress ,over the tiredness of it all .

he looked at the 12 boys shedding tears of pain .he swallowed the lump in his throat ,the feelings of helplessness ,confusion ,fear coming washing over him once again as he sees the very moment they broke down .

tears flows down his face ,and that my friends are tears of the caretaker ,the leader ,the person whom the members depend on ,lee sangyeon .

as heavy as the weight he carried ,the tears poured like a fierce and powerful waterfall .

and then the door right next to him yet again invites him to step into yet another memory .

he steps onto the stage of road to kingdom ,and as he looks ahead the ending poses of all their road to kingdom stages are there right in front of him .all the members still and not moving ,just statures .

he walks down the long stretch ,as he looks at the legacy they left behind ,the power and strength ,the confidence from these stages that the members have gained progressively with each stage .

as he finally reaches the other end of the stage ,the screen opens up to when they had their 'the stealer'promotions .where they had their wins .

his smile grew wider and wider as he walked through all the performances they have done for the stealer and all the trophies they have gotten from the era .

and finally he reached another door .a door with a question mark on it .

he opens the door ,to pitch black .

darkness ,just darkness .and the fear in sangyeon grew ,"what does this darkness mean ?what is it gonna be for us ?"

suddenly , the door creaks open to reveal the members one by one .

sangyeon looks up at them and suddenly the fear stops ,hes no longer afraid as he looks into their eyes .

they ran to him and extended their hands out to him .

he proceeds to embrace all the members into a big tight group hug .drops of colour starts to paint the room ,slowly forming a picture showing the many stages they have performed ,every milestone theyve achieved ,the concerts ,every moment with their fans ,every moment together ,every vlives .everything starts out when theyre together .

we opened the door carefully ,proceeding to join our hands together and form a circle surrounding the boys .as we cried tears of joy and pride ,we hugged each other as well and this is when we knew

"theres nothing like us ,theres nothing like you and me ,together through the storm ."

for thebs

thank you for being one of the most caring ,loving ,welcoming and inclusive fandoms ever .to all the thebs all around thw world ,thank you for supporting them and giving them love as well .i love yall <3 lets protect them at all costs ♡

for my beloved boys

hello my loves ❤ik its 12 am in korea already but i still just wanna type this for you !so there's really a lot of things i want to say to you ,im sure many of us have already said whatever im about to say but i will still say it to remind you or to let you know that ,yes ,you do make me feel that way ,you do make me feel those kinds of feelings .

i dont know how ,like no nothing at all can show how grateful i am towards you .i cant tell you how many times there were this year when i just got beaten up (mentally)to the point that i couldnt even have the energy to stand back up and continue life normally .but whenever these times come ,ik i just know even though youre not here physically ,i know you want me to stop crying ,i know you would want me to stop hurting myself and i know you would stay with me even when my walls come crashing down onto me .you made me feel the greatest kind of happiness possible ,i never knew that this feeling was even possible to feel until i met you .

there was never a moment when i regretted stanning you ,supporting you and giving you all my heart and soul ,my energy ,everything .i just want you to know that you are so special ,so wonderful ,so incredibly talented ,so hardworking ,so beautiful ,just the most amazing bunch of people ever .ive never seen people so passionate ,so ready to help ,so genuinely loving and caring towards the people who love them .

i know its hard to be an idol ,and i know that its especially hard to even speak your mind ,speak what you wanna say without having the media chase you down .but i just wanna let you know that we are and will be by your sides forever .no matter what happens ,im sure ,very sure u know that u can run right back into our arms like how uve always welcome us back into urs .u are the people who made me feel the most bizarre feelings ,beyond happiness ,beyond joy ,beyond euphoria ,beyond all the feelings ive ever felt in my whole 16 years of living .

we are so proud of you of how far youve come ,how much youve accomplished .im so so proud ,so so happy to be able to call myself a fan of yours ,a theb ,someone who so dearly supports you .and i really hope you know that .i would wish for there to never be an end to this .for all i know ,im in this shit for life ,forever ,till the end .

im just so happy because of you ,i feel joy ,i see the light in life ,the reasons to live ,so much more prominent to me now because of you .there will come one day ,when we can finally see each other face to face and i can finally shout out to you ,my words of gratitude ,my words of thanks and my words filled with love and affection for you and just see your faces .but till then ,please take good good care of urselves ,rest well and eat well okay !we're always here ,remember !❤

its really been a rocky and crazy ride these 3 years ,you my friend ,are indeed the best character i can ever invite into my story 💜i hope youre sleeping tight ,i love you so much more than words can ever describe .with that ,happy 3 years to my favourites ,my loves ,my bbs ,my shining lights ,my everything ,happy 3 years to the boyz ❤💜💙💛 - berinne

#deobiwritersnet #the boyz #theb #deobi #the boyz angst #the boyz fluff #happytheboyzday #the boyz imagines

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air-bison-yip-yip · 6 years ago

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crisana, theyre hanging out with the girl squad and the girls tease them about how romantic they are. zoenne, senne moving into zoë's flat

I hope you enjoy! Somehow this got a little more romantic and sappy than fun teasing, but I hope it works for you! I’ll add your zoenne prompt to my list!

Summary: (3) times the girl squad noticed Cris and Joana being in love & (1) time Cris notices that the girl squad loves Joana (also on ao3)

(i) Viri

The summer heat was bearing down on the girls. Eva, Nora, and Amira were lounging in the shaded pool chairs listening to music and drying off after the swim. Viri was refusing to get out of the pool even though soon she would need to reapply sunscreen. Her pink polka dot bikini covered little, but luckily, her giant pink sun hat kept the rays off of her face. She was currently floating on an inner tube watching Cris and Joana at the other end of the pool.

They seemed, as often happened, to be in their own little world. Joana had her back to the side of the pool and her arms across the top while Cris swam up to her. Viri was too far away to hear them and the music from Eva, Nora, and Amira drowned out any other sounds, but suddenly Cris and Joana traded positions.

Joana cradled Cris’s face and had a furrowed brow as she looked into Cris’ eyes. Cris, for her part, blinked rapidly while Joana seemed to say soothing words gently running her fingers down Cris’ face. Cris moved Joana’s hands out of the way and gently rubbed her eyes. Cris looked up and smiled and rolled her eyes at Joana. Gently, and slowly, Joana kissed each of Cris’ eyes and then her lips. It was chaste. But it felt too intimate for Viri to continue to watch. The smile that Cris radiated, the loving look in her eyes, the deep concern in Joana’s face. It was pure and loving, and a small part of Viri felt a tinge of sadness that this type of love seemed out of reach for her. But only a tiny part. A much more significant part could feel her heart burst in happiness for both Cris and Joana. They found each other.

Viri looked away and got off of her floaty, swimming to the steps and walking over to the shade with Eva, Nora, and Amira. She felt as though she needed to give Cris and Joana space, but once she had wrapped her towel around her body and pulled her sunglasses off, she couldn’t help but glance over at the two again.

Now, Joana was floating flat on her back, and Viri could see Cris’ arms gently supporting her body, just in case.

It was a simple moment. Nothing special, but for perhaps the first time, Viri felt so lucky to see these happy moments between two people she loved dearly. To see love so freely expressed, even in the mundane moments. Viri smiled down at her lap before looking over at Eva, Nora, and Amira and joining the conversation. But the rest of the day, Viri continued to think about Cris and Joana illuminating happiness in the pool.

More than the sun had warmed Viri that afternoon.

(ii) Eva

Eva was excited for tonight. The party, if PCris was correct, should be big and fun and Eva was ready! She pulled out her phone to text Cris.

Message to Cris -Ready to party, GIRL?

Message to Eva -You know it!

Message to Cris -Is Joana coming? She didn’t respond to the group text.

Message to Eva-We’ll see. We are playing it by ear to see how she feels later.

Message to Cris -Gotcha. Tell her we hope she comes because we are going to have F U N.

Message to Eva -Of course. See you later, dancing fool.

Message to Cris -*Eva Dancing Sticker*----Eva was happily tipsy. She had arrived at the party and was currently dancing between Viri and Nora. Cris was challenging a friend of her brother to a chugging contest, and Amira was standing close by, making jokes with Dani about the chances Cris had as winning. Eva grabbed Nora's hands and swayed her hips near her. She lost herself in the dance moves and could hear Viri’s laugh over the bass of the music. Eva closed her eyes and relished the feeling of being in the moment, of letting loose. She opened her eyes when she heard Amira and Cris’ laughter get closer. She saw a smug looking Cris high five Amira and join their dancing circle.

Eva shouted a quick “Ayyyye” when the song changed to one that Cris and her loved. They began dancing when Cris’ face broke out into a massive grin, her eyes darting behind Eva. Eva turned around to see Joana slowly making her way to them through the crowd.

Viri, Amira, and Nora shouted iterations of “you came!” and enveloped her in their circle.

Joana laughed at the antics and Eva gave her a wink as she kept dancing. Joana moved to Cris and gave her a kiss on the lips and Eva could hear a small “hey beautiful” addressed to Cris.“Are you feeling okay?” Cris asked, her hands circling Joana’s waist and pulling her towards her dancing body.

“Better now, yeah,” Joana replied a lazy smile spreading over her lips. Joana carefully pushed back some of Cris’ hair behind her ears.

Eva, although still dancing, had turned entirely to the two of them. Their natural smiles and passionate eyes were contagious, and Eva could remember a time that she and Jorge felt the same, that they could face anything together.

It was nice to see Cris, beautiful, passionate, and funny Cris, feel settled and peaceful, even amid all the partying chaos around them. Eva moved closer to the two of them.

“Room for one more?” She asked Cris and Joana cheekily.

“Of course, girl, get in here,” Cris exclaimed pulling Eva next to them and throwing her head back laughing. Cris’ hand was still tightly holding Joana’s even as her attention drifted to Eva and the girls.

Eva noted that Cris’ smile and dancing kicked up a notch as if Joana’s mere presence was enough to sustain Cris’ happiness forever.

(iii) Nora

Nora had said goodbye to Amira, Eva, and Viri as they left to head for class. She sat in the courtyard at school, knowing she should get out her homework to start during her free period. Instead, she people watched. A few students were running late to class. A few were just talking or looking at their phones. Nora fumbled with her headphones before putting them in and playing some music as she continued to look out into the courtyard.

She was surprised to see Joana standing off to the side, biting her nails, and shifting her weight from side to side. She looked...nervous, and Nora contemplated going over to her and seeing if she was okay before she caught a flash of blonde hair bounding towards Joana. The change in Joana’s demeanor was immediate. Her hands felt to her side, she stood straighter, and instead of looking nervous, her face lit up. Nora still had her headphones in. She couldn’t hear what they were saying, but she could see plenty.

The soft caress of skin.

The shy smiles.

The longing in their eyes.

Their bodies shifting towards each other.

Nora continued to watch them for a few more minutes. Cris and Joana’s movements were unhurried, and Nora couldn’t help but form her own small smile in response to them. She watched them grasp hands and walk out of the courtyard together, Joana watching Cris talk animatedly.

As they walked out of sight, something caught Nora’s eye, and she turned to see Alejandro walking towards the school’s entrance. Her heart beat faster for a few seconds before she looked away. Nora resolutely refused to believe her elevated heart rate had to do anything other than the fact that Nora was happy for her friends in love.

(i) Amira

For someone who hated people making decisions for her, Amira was always surprised when Joana did that exact thing to Cris. It wasn’t that Amira didn’t understand. In general, she loved Joana and knew how great her and Cris were together. But sometimes, like now with Cris’ head in Amira’s lap and a frown etched onto her face, Amria couldn’t help but be annoyed. Her person, Cris, was suffering and Amira hated that she couldn’t do anything more than be the supportive best friend to fix it. It wasn’t her place to text Joana. It wasn’t her place to lock them in a room together. It wasn’t her place to trick people into talking. But, oh, Amira wanted to alright.

Currently, Joana was going through a hard time with her mental illness, and she didn’t want Cris to see her right now. Amira knew that Joana was entitled to her space, and she knew what she needed. But Amira also thought that this was a defense mechanism. That Joana was afraid of looking vulnerable in front of Cris. The problem was that Cris had the biggest heart of anyone she had ever met, and she loved to give her heart away to her loved ones. This meant Joana was suffering alone and so was Cris. Amira ran her fingers through Cris’ hair in what she hoped was a comforting gesture.

“Why did she want to be alone again?” Amira asked having a hard time hearing Cris the first time due to the muffling effect of the pillow Cris had face planted on.

“She didn’t want to burden me. She knows I have exams this week,” Cris muttered.

“And what did you tell her in reply?”

“That school doesn’t matter as much as her,” Cris said, and Amira rolled her eyes fondly down at her.

“You don’t see how that might have made her feel worse about asking for you?” Amira gently questioned.

Cris sat up and narrowed her eyes at Amira. A blush stained her cheeks. “Maybe.” She replied grumpily.

“Can I text her?” Amira asked. Cris looked curiously at Amira.

“About what?”

“Asking if she needs anything. You have a test that you need to study for, she’s right. But I don’t. Nor does Viri, or Nora, or Eva. We can support her.” Amira stated simply.

Cris lunged herself at Amira wrapping her arms around her neck and giving her a massive bear hug. Amira chuckled at Cris and heard a small whispered, “I can’t believe y’all would do that.” into her ear.

“You are so ridiculous, girl. She’s one of us. We love Joana too.” Amira laughed out.

Cris’ cheeks were even redder as she pulled back. The shine in her eyes alerted Amira to the tears forming. Amira kissed Cris’ forehead. “We’ll ask Nora to take the first shift. She’s good at making jokes and silent support, and I’ll help you study. Text Joana and make sure it’s okay.” Amira told Cris while Amira texted Nora at the same time. Of course, Nora replied immediately telling her she was bringing three movies for Joana to choose from.

Cris did what she was told, pulling out her phone and sending a text to Joana telling her that Nora was hoping to come watch a movie with her and asked if it was okay. Cris showed Amira Joana’s response.

“She said, yes!” Amira noted. “See! A solution. Nora already said she was on her way over with movies. And knowing Nora, a selection of truly terrible sugary snacks.”

Cris relayed the information to Joana, making sure she knew it was the girls' idea, not hers.

The final text Cris typed out to Joana she didn’t show to Amira, but when Cris was getting her books, Amira saw the message.

Message to Guapa Joana:

They love you too, you know.

Amira ducked her head in fondness before grabbing her textbooks and her study materials to help Cris study.

The night had definitely improved.

#skam españa #skam espana #crisana #girlsquad #pasks #tumblr prompt #i kept wanting to do all the dialogue in spanish and it slowed me down lmaoooo

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boojersey · 6 years ago

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VIC DO ALL THE ASKS BC I LOVE U AND WANT U TO HAVE FUN

*SWEATS* AYE AYE CAPN

cw for like some common lgbt+ topics such as dysphoria violence discrimination etc just. tread carefully if u get triggered easily by bad lgbt experiences

What do you identify as and what are your pronouns? -im a gay trans man and my pronouns are he/him but they/them is also acceptable!

How did you discover your sexuality, tell your story?-oh wow i originally thought i was a lesbian because i didnt even know what transgender was i just thought wishing i was a man meant i was butch and then i met my friend donnie in eighth grade who told me he was trans and it was kinda a huge slap in the face but with a sack of gay bricks? and i found out i dont like women through actually having sex with cis women and finally realizing it. really wasnt for me so now im just a gay man as opposed to queer as an umbrella term but i periodically refer to myself as such

Have you experienced being misgendered? What happened and how did you overcome it?-oh yea i literally was misgendered today i just kinda brush it off but it can be hard sometimes especially when people know im trans and do it

Who was the first person you told, how did they react?-i first told donnie about my gender, it was a thing where i went to bed the night i met him and was like .. wait holy fuck and then the next day i was like BRO HOLY FUCK but sexuality? i dont really know???? it was so long ago it was honestly probably my group of friends on kik that i had in 2013 (u were included in that mister!!!!)

Describe what it was like coming out, what did you feel?-im not actually fully out but the first time someone who was an adult knew about my trans-ness was what really set in for me the fact that i could come out one day; my friends mom referred to me as seance (and like. obviously she respected my gender she has a trans kid) but it was just super jarring bc no adult had known yet abt my identity in any way and as a result i was rlly glad it was nighttime in that car bc i cried almost immediately; the first time i came out on my Own was to my cousin and he laughed in my face so that was pretty damn awful and its kinda funny cuz the bastard is bi so u would think hed have been accepting but n0pe!

If you’re out, how did your parents/guardians/friends react?-im out to my friends now ! and the reception was generally positive bc i think i do an ok job at picking ppl to be around in terms of morals so there was little bad reception

What is one question you hate people asking about your sexuality?-i hate when ppl ask if im gay as in for men or gay as in for women because im trans, i am a man so when i say im gay i feel like that should be easy enough to put 2 and 2 together but when they ask that i feel as if they still view me as a woman

Describe the style of clothing that you most often wear.-emo of the gods themselves it is absolute scene and emo vomit and i love it; its seriously hard for me to wear dresses and skirts without dysphoria and just general discomfort but i own a couple anyway bc theyre cute i just. never wear them

Who are your favourite lgbt+ ships?-my main thing at the moment is gerard/frank/grant morrison bc i love poly fics very dearly and gerard/bert because bert mccracken deserved better than gerawrds internalized homophobia lol

What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?-makeup to me is an androgynous thing so i wear eyeshadow a lot and lipstick sometimes, eyeshadow is easier on my eyes than eyeliner bc im allergic to a lot of makeup thats on the heavier side so if i put on eyeliner my eyes will water and burn throughout the day but with eyeshadow im mostly ok; other opinion is that makeup on Anyone can be sexy as hell if they do it for fun and wear literally what they truly want and not just what they think is accepted or what they Should wear

Do you experience dysphoria? If so, how does that affect you?-oh yeah my dysphoria is pretty debilitating if im gonna be honest; i used to have very little problems with it because my hold on reality was loose at best (before i was medicated to clarify) but now that i am almost completely Here my dysphoria is pretty bad and even just like. the knowledge that i have breasts is pretty awful; a few weeks ago i put on an outfit that i have to wear a victorias secret bra to fit properly in and just one look in the mirror had me sobbing and i had to change my clothes before i could leave the house and i havent worn a bra since because just the thought of showing off my chest makes this stark fuckin dread shoot through my veins but i also have dysphoria in regards to my voice that i discussed at my last trans therapy group meeting actually ; my voice has a tendency to bounce around my octave range so sometimes ill be like. excited then hear what i sound like. and ruin it for myself immediately u kno? im not even gonna talk about my dicksphoria bc thats just. awful.

What is the stupidest thing you’ve heard said about the lgbt+ community?-ohhhhhhhh my god u know what? ive heard..so much .. that im gonna instead take this opportunity to mention my mother genuinely thinks dnd is satanic

What’s your favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?-the fact that were so strong. we are so fucking strong we deal with violence and opposition constantly and at staggering rates yet we stay strong and we continue loving through all of it, whether its in dark corners in secret or loudly in the streets we continue loving and do so with all of our beings because we know its our own truth and well gladly go to hell if it means we got to love on earth (not that everyone believes in hell or the idea that us gays go to hell but my point stands)

What’s your least favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?-we have this audacity to create divide (to the fault of mostly cis white gay men thank u very much) when what we need to do is love each other because we are different but at the end of the day we all need to remain in tandem and as a family or we will never get to where we need to in terms of acceptance and that means being uplifting and protecting our trans sisters of color, our disabled lgbt members, our autistic lgbt members, our anything past cis white gay man because we all need recognition, we all need love, and to exclude any letters of lgbt is to tear ourselves down and set ourselves on fire

Have you ever been to your cities pride event? Why or why not?-no :((( no one would drive me in the past and i dont think ill have a way to get there this year either

Who is your favourite lgbt+ Icon/Advocate/Celebrity?-brian molko! my bisexual, androgynistically-inclined father who birthed me at the tender age of 16 when i found placebo

Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?-ya theres been a few and i dont rlly like to talk abt my relationships with anyone unless theyre online relationships so im just gonna leave it at that

What is your favourite lgbt+ book?-pantomime by laura lam! its one of if not my favorite book to this day

Have you ever faced discrimination? What happened?-y a every damn day bitch ! example is when i was deadnamed by my psychiatrist while she knows full well what my name is the other day; another is the countless times i get called a lesbian ???? and when strict lesbians ask me out i get a very bad taste in my mouth (i understand full well that sexuality is fluid, these are lesbians that spit the ‘penis is gross blegh’ rhetoric)

Your Favorite lgbt+ movie or show?-uh im just gonna say preacher bc its my favorite show altogether n cass is bi/pan/something similar

Who are some of your favourite lgbt+ bloggers?-@ble3dmagic is my boyfriend in crime (not rlly thats a joke) and @musicalsense is my sunburnt Brother

Which lgbt+ slur do you want to reclaim?-queer! i also use f*ggot a lot when talking about myself and my friends that are ok with it

Have you ever gone to a gay bar, or a drag show, how was it?-i went to a drag show and it was so amazing and one of the first times i felt accepted in my own community that i cried

How do you self-identify your gender, and what does that mean to you?-well i identify as a man with no leaning towards womanhood or nonbinaryhood in any way, its just . man . but in terms of Expression i am quite androgynous bc i can rlly appreciate femininity (NOT the same as womanhood) and being a man to me means just that ive always wanted to grow up with that “gender role” like i always wish i was raised as a stereotypical parent would raise a son and ive always been more interested in stereotypically masculine things and people since i can even remember and i feel like puberty was just this unpreventable spiral into something i didnt want. i didnt want it at all . this is tmi but when i got my first period i cried my eyes out bc the idea of being called a Woman repulsed me so much and since i didnt even know that being trans was a concept i was just this scared puppy full of confusion and fear aimed at myself because all the stuff i heard i was supposed to be proud of the change but i wasnt i was so ashamed of it and the idea of being called a woman made me sick to my stomach and i just wish i could go back in time and hold myself and tell me itll be alright

Are you interested in having children? Why or why not?-absoLutely not i hate kids (and by that i mean i hate being around them and the culture that surrounds having children; i do not treat kids like shit and i do not act like hating children is a personality trait; i get migraines and usually the second a child starts screaming or crying i am on the floor of my brain writhing in dire pain and i have absolutely no desire to support another human life when frankly i cant even support myself; its also just not a lifestyle i want to live)

What identity advice would you give your younger self?-god so fucking much. so fucking much. so many things i wish i could say to myself

What do you think of gender roles in relationships?-i think if someone wants to adhere to them then hell yea go ahead just dont expect others to do it or try to tell other people its a Norm or something; theyre for the most part christian in nature so i dont have any desire to follow them myself, i want a relationship (if any) thats more of a coexistence if that makes sense, like. roommates plus dick

Anything else you want to share about your experience with gender?-i always used to anxiously chew on the idea that my chest dysphoria is just me holding disdain for the shape and size of my breasts but let me tell you. the second i put on my binder for the first time i immediately started crying because i was so overwhelmed by the fact that i was looking at something one step closer to myself and i know full well i am never going to have that doubt again. this week has been exponentially cathartic and therapeutic for me

What is something you wish people know about being lgbt+?-i want the cisheteros to know that nothing they learn about us is new. everything about us has been around for so so long but has been silenced and erased to the point where a lot of us dont even know many things about our rich and beautiful history

Why are proud to be lgbt+?-honestly? its hard for me to not just straight up say im not proud of my identity. its taken me years to stamp down the plain grieving toward my identity and wishing i could have the easier path but frankly? the fact that i am choosing this path of hardship and hell on earth just to be who i truly am i think speaks volumes of my pride in my identity at this point; further back in my archive by a few years my posts are littered with sentiments of bitterness wherein i stated that i hate being trans and not just cis but i like to think ive finished hating myself for my identity. i like to think im proud now. to ask me why is to ask too much of me, all i know now is that i am proud and thats enough for me right now.

#LONG POST #KAY I LOVE U BUT HOLY SHIT MY FOLLOWERS ARE GONNA GET MOTION SICKNESS FROM SCROLLING PAST THIS AT LIGHTNING SPEED #saltwaterfox

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tetraremade · 6 years ago

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(I hope you're having a good day) what's puyo puyo?

Im having an alright day! I hope you’re having a nice day!!

im sorry for how long this is going to get

Short base info; Puyo Puyo is a Puzzle game series originally made by Compile but eventually was bought and is now owned by Sega. The game play is connecting blobs, puyo, of different colors. if you connect 4 or more of them you pop them and you can set up chains. The games include the cast from Compiles RPG series; Madou Monogatari

now lore wise.

Puyo is about a young girl named Arle Nadja, Arle is the reincarnation of Lilith, a human soldier who created a world to escape a god who favored demons (basically, magic beings that arent human in this universe) during a battle that the lore refers to as Ragnarok. Lillith was the friend of Lucifer who was out cast by god and was stripped of his wings and his name and now goes by the name “Satan”. Anyways, Arle is a young girl (Shes 16) whos real good at magic and hates Satan, she can and will kill him. In Madou Arle goes on a quest collecting gems? I think? Im bad with madou lore. Anyways one of them is carbuncle i think and so she takes carbuncle who was originally Satan and he wants his pet back and keeps pursuing arle to get him back.

Along her adventures, she meets such great characters such as Rulue, a martial artist who thinks satan is a hot fucking piece of ass (he saved her when she was younger) and will do anything to impress him. Schezo Wegey who is a cursed immortal dark mage whos not great with speaking and got decapitated by arle in MM2 but he got better. Draco Centaurus whos a dragon woman obsessed with beauty and being the cutest. And Langnus Bisashi an over the top hero from another dimension cursed to keep fighting to keep up his 17 year old form (if he doesnt he becomes 10 again), to name just a few.

Im a lil spotty on the contents of madou since theyre not,, translated in the slightest but- in the original Puyo Puyo Arle made a spell that using the energy of 4 or more same colored enemies (puyos) she could defeat satan so she goes on her merry way to kick in his teeth in with that. So thats what made the jump from MM to PP

Anyways, the series got rebooted in 2003 with Puyo Puyo Fever (Puyo Pop Fever over here). It was the first one localized for us other than a puyo puyo arcade port so thats neat. it features a new protag named Amitie, whos a sweet and energetic girl who wants to be a powerful wizard. I love her dearly. She hangs out with her classmates a lot featuring Klug, a book worm know it all who got possessed in Fever 2, Sig a half demon boy who loves bugs and is a bit quiet, Raffina a tough rich girl whos amities rival, and Liddle whos a sweet and shy little angel. The games were a lot more light hearted lore wise than the mm gangs nonsense but still used fantasy elements and story telling it was good and bright and nice to look at. but it wasnt the last time they felt it needed to be rebooted

In 2009 the series was rebooted again with Puyo Puyo 7. This time with Ringo Andou as the protag. the old cast and crew are still there they just are focusing on the Suzuran kids. Ringo, and her friends Maguro and Risukuma. They have to fight a dimension hopping weirdo- Ecolo. Ecolos just kinda annoying tho. hes like comprised of squishy material, i say jello but who knows. Ecolo possessed arle and tried to cover the world in puyo because why the fuck not.

So like they have kept it going with the current kinda big cast with anniversary games and what not. They had the noticeable cross over of Puyo Puyo Tetris. Puyotet is a personal fave and also the easiest to acquire over here. its on the switch and steam please play ppt. anyways. The game is the original cast but the dimensions are merging with the tetris universe and so the Tetra crew hangs out with the cast. the Crew consists of Tee, the captain and tetris king who in his own words is “a responsible person, and up to the task!” he loves his crew dearly. The engineer, Ai, a dog person whos very skittish and scared about everything. he cries a lot but is very refined and kind when not scared out of his mind. Their navigator Ess whos a bratty teen who picks fights with everyone and heckles Tee a lot, she loves her papa but hates her dad. The care taker Zed, a kind and patient robot who ess affectionately calls her “Papa”, he takes care of the crew. the communication officer O, whos.. uh. hes an orb i dont know how hes communication officer. And then Jay and Elle, I dont know what they do other than bully Ai. Anyways the Best Gang with the rest of the cast goes off to find out why the fuck worlds are merging and it shows you best boy, Ex keeper of dimensions. He’s Ess’ dad and is very very depressed and lonely bc the keeper is a role of solitude and isolation. Its okay tho we love and support him

This probably makes no sense and I am sorry I have a lot of love in my heart for puzzle game.

#father mention #loukarr

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Do you have any headcanons for the El Internado gang having a Disney movie marathon together? Like if Paula convinced Marcos and then they all ended up loving Disney and wanting to watch them all. (If you can I love Marcos/Ivan and Vicky/Julia!) Thank you so much!!

this took,,, so long and i’m so sorry, heres 1.3k of these kids terrorizing one another with sad disney deaths and old childhood crushes bonding

- alright so to set the scene here, it’s spring break or something of the like and the school is mostly cleared out save for The Kids

- so it’s edging on day 3 of break and when all your friends are off doing whatever 8 year olds do on break and you’re alone, 3 days is an Eternity

- thus Paula decides she has to do something, because she has the worst thing you can have as a child aka Boredom

- and so she readies her best puppy dog eyes and lip pout and she marches herself to the boys’ dorm room and she settles herself beside Marcos and she does what baby sisters do

- now, Marcos loves his sister, like a lot, so he finds himself agreeing to Paula’s request to watch a movie with her

- 94% of Marcos’ life is him not realizing what he’s getting himself into so this literally is no different vksnfjs

- Paula thinks that it was way too easy to get Marcos to agree and by golly she didn’t prepare her best puppy dog eyes only to find her brother’s a pushover

- Plus, she remembers how much fun she and Marcos and their parents used to have when they’d build blanket forts in the living room and watch movies until way past her bedtime so she puts 2 & 2 together or rather 2 and 6 and she sets off to pokémon the shit out of the rest of these teenagers

- she has the easiest time finding and convincing Carol, and Carol in turn gathers up Vicky and Julia; Caye’s also an Absolute Pushover, and Roque can’t say no to Caye so there’s the majority of her band; all she has left is Iván

- Marcos, in addition to loving his sister, also dearly loves his boyfriend. and though he is completely jaded when it comes to the former he is Not when it comes to the latter (read: he doesnt want her to catch Iván on one of his off days and for her to get her feelings hurt)

- but Paula is Determined, she’s Stubborn, and she also Does Not Care about Iván’s teenage angst bullshit

- Getting him to agree, she will years later realize, is one of her biggest life accomplishments

- so they pool together what pillows and blankets they can get together and they all turn to vicky bc they figure hey! vic’s smart she can do this.

- Vicky Cant Build A Pillow Fort For Shit

- cut to julia and iván handling it like oh my god (roque: is that a cup holder made out of a pillowcase ? julia, grinning: you bet your ass it is)

- so now that theyre gathered and in a Pillow Castle™ someone (caye’s bc he has every movie ever on his laptop lbr) laptop gets tugged out and they then commence The Great Movie Decision Debate

- they eventually settle on The Little Mermaid (it’s a classic, iván argues; ariel was hot, carol inputs)

- about 20 minutes in everyone Immediately Knows why iván was im favor of the little mermaid

- prince eric, really? marcos asks, definitely not jealous of an animated, completely fictional man or anything

- vicky Loses It bc this is literally the funniest thing that has ever happened to her ever she cant believe she got to witness iván trying to defend himself against marcos’ accusation

- iván gets her back tho lmao

- but he bides his time

- in the mean time they watch

- the lion king: caye loses his shit, he’s straight up sobbing when mufasa dies and he’s got roque on one side and paula on the other and paula’s patting his hand and telling him it’ll be ok

- mulan: why do Roque, Caye, and Iván know be a man by heart why are they so in sync and on tune How Many Times Has This Happened Boys Oh My God Did You Guys Rehearse Choreography

- the fox and the hound: *marcos voice* fUCK-paula dont repeat that-THIS MOVIE

- bambi: iván cries (“no, carol, i’m not, it’s just hot in this fort with all you shits and im sweating”) but it’s chill bc marcos wraps his arms around iván’s waist and rests his head on his shoulder and it’s sweet and iván’s still Definitely Not Crying Thank You V Much Carol but he’ll admit he’s a bit emo ok

- after bambi ends iván thinks it’s abt time for him to exact his revenge so he suggests hercules and VICKY LAUNCHES AT HIM

- (mind you paula is still here, she just migrated abt the fort and is with carol and is content enjoying her movies and her snacks and her convo with carol’s cool gf who’s on skype as vicky tries to murder iván in the bg)

- julia’s intrigued, and so she smiles real sweet at her Best Friend caye and bc he’s a good good friend caye obliges

- julia, 2.2 seconds into the movie: ITS MEG ISNT IT VIC

- vicky, trying to strangle iván over marcos’s laughing form: N-NO SHUT UP

- julia: are you always this articulate ;-)

- vicky, dying and living all at once, no longer trying to kill iván

- carol: Why didnt we see this before julia is totally meg

- roque: thts true

- julia: i cant wait for halloween

- vicky: tht one meme where the dude’s wiping sweat off his brow you know the one

- marcos to iván in the back even tho he hasnt said a word: only if youre ariel

- things start to wind down after tht and they decide maybe one more movie bc it’s gonna be late soon and theyve already decided to end the marathon with paula’s only real request so theyre abt to start tht when caye’s like:

- Wait. we’ve all had our emotions plucked at or embarrassing childhood crushes critiqued What Abt Julia

- julia: i’ll kill you tbh

- marcos: yeah julia what’s Youre movie

- iván: if i have to suffer knowing marcos now Knows then you gotta suffer with vic Knowing too

- julia: …

- julia: thts fair

- julia: caye play aladdin

- vicky: ohmYGOD

- iván: aladdin or jasmine

- julia: *voice crack* STOP

- caye, in tears, having to lean on roque for support or he will literally fall on his face with laughter

- julia, under her breath: both

- marcos, in the back: damn. same.

- it takes Forever for them all to settle down to actually Watch the movie tbh it’s ridiculous but instead of letting them tease her abt it julia ROCKS every single song and yes, she knows every word (julia: ive literally owned multiple vhs copies bc i’d watch it so much they wouldnt rewind Of Course i know every word)

- (for weeks after this marathon everyone quotes movies at each other but marcos and julia’s aladdin quotes are truly Iconic)

- after aladdin ends it’s like 9 so they still have time for paula’s pick aka frozen and god do they go out on a high note tbh

- paula singing, pointedly looking at marcos then flicking her eyes to iván, shrugging: so he’s a bit of a fixer upper

- Also can i just say that carol and paula’s duet of let it go was absolutely the stuff of legends even if that song should have died years ago

- anyway it’s Incredibly Much So after paula’s bedtime by the time theyre done with the movie and paula’s passed out in the corner, vicky and julia have a blanket over their shoulders and are trying not to nod off together, carol’s saying goodnight to her gf who has been in and out on skype all day, marcos and iván are bickering (lovingly??) and roque and caye are Gone (they went to bed lol nerds)

- marcos ends up having to carry paula back to her room and of course iván goes with him and julia and vicky and carol gather what pillows and blankets they Think are theirs and trudge back to their room and all in all it was a Good Night

#my hcs #el internado

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p0int-bl4nk · 5 years ago

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You asked for all of them

Questions time

· 1: is there a boy/girl in your life? Theres a couple

· 2: think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? Not yet, but im working on it

· 3: what do you think of when you hear the word “meow?” Ashlyn Harris

· 4: what’s something you really want right now? To not feel this was anymore

· 5: are you afraid of falling in love? absolutely

· 6: do you like the beach? Love it, and miss it dearly

· 7: have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? yes

· 8: what’s the background on your cell? 5 people I have matching tattoos with from all of the world and my two best friends, Emily and Julie

· 9: name the last four beds you were sat on? Mine, Megs, Royas guest be, Mollys (Amsterdam)

· 10: do you like your phone? It does the job

· 11: honestly, are things going the way you planned? Of course not, that would be too easy

· 12: who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? Gillian

· 13: would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler? Can I have them both?

· 14: which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? emotional

· 15: would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? museum

· 16: are you tired? always

· 17: how long have you known your 1st phone contact? Since grade 6 but we don’t talk anymore

· 18: are they a relative? nope

· 19: would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? Im not sure I would call them an ex but yes

· 20: when did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? Thursday, we ended our ‘thing’

· 21: if you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? No, I have mixed feelings on the concept of marriage

· 22: would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Probably but only in a hook up type of situation

· 23: how many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now? None, I have a watch on

· 24: is there a certain quote you live by? “attach yourself to sails, not anchors”

· 25: what’s on your mind? A lot lately, a lot of people

· 26: do you have any tattoos? 8

· 27: what is your favorite color? Burgundy

· 28: next time you will kiss someone on the lips? No idea

· 29: who are you texting? Hanna and meg

· 30: think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch? yes

· 31: have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? yup

· 32: do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? yes

· 33: do you think anyone has feelings for you? yes

· 34: has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? I don’t think so, their pretty lame

· 35: say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you? I don’t think I would care, I wasn’t invested in the person

· 36: were you single on valentines day? Its complicated

· 37: are you friends with the last person you kissed? Yeah kinda

· 38: what do your friends call you? Coady

· 39: has anyone upset you in the last week? Not intentionally

· 40: have you ever cried over a text? yup

· 41: where’s your last bruise located? Im covered in bruises from work

· 42: what is it from? Work – I work in the trees

· 43: last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Kind of always?

· 44: who was the last person you were on the phone with? A guy I was interviewing for my thesis

· 45: do you have a favourite pair of shoes? Yes but theyre very dirty right now

· 46: do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? I wear hats all the time (gay)

· 47: would you ever go bald if it was the style? Nope

· 48: do you make supper for your family? I don’t live with or near my family

· 49: does your bedroom have a door? It sure does

· 50: top 3 web-pages? Its gone be boring because of thesis-ing: Qualtrics, Mturk, PsychINFO

· 51: do you know anyone who hates shopping? Sure do

· 52: does anything on your body hurt? Everything? My knees and hips are pretty bad and my arsm from the gym

· 53: are goodbyes hard for you? They haven’t been in the past

· 54: what was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Water, all the damn time

· 55: how is your hair? Short and in a hat currently

· 56: what do you usually do first in the morning? Message Hanna and Meg

· 57: do you think two people can last forever? Not really

· 58: think back to january 2007, were you single? I was 11 so probably

· 59: green or purple grapes? purple

· 60: when’s the next time you will give someone a big hug? Probably whenever I see meg next? I only hug a handful of people

· 61: do you wish you were somewhere else right now? switzerland

· 62: when will be the next time you text someone? Im texting Hanna right now

· 63: where will you be 5 hours from now? Hopefully home again

· 64: what were you doing at 8 this morning. Laying in bed, turning off my alarm

· 65: this time last year, can you remember who you liked? My girlfriend, Rachel

· 66: is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Does a dog count?

· 67: did you kiss or hug anyone today? Nope

· 68: what was your last thought before you went to bed last night? Probably wishing I wasn’t alone

· 69: have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Of course

· 70: how many windows are open on your computer? 24

· 71: how many fingers do you have? All 10!

· 72: what is your ringtone? The basic iphone one

· 73: how old will you be in 5 months? 23 still

· 74: where is your mum right now? Home probably (Nova Scotia)

· 75: why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? The relationship was really unhealthy

· 76: have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? Just Megs dog

· 77: are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? Yes, ive know two best friends since grade 3 and grade 6

· 78: do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? Mmm proably Mitchell?

· 79: is there anyone you know with the name mike? Not personally but yeah

· 80: have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Yes

· 81: how many people have you liked in the past three months? 3

· 82: has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Yes, via facetime I think

· 83: will you talk to the person you like tonight? Im literally always talking to both of them

· 84: you’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? I would never

· 85: if your bf/gf was into drugs would you care? Yes, Ive grown up around drugs and I want nothing to do with it depending on the drug and the use

· 86: what was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? I was doing inappropriate things most of the movie

· 87: who was your last received call from? My bank

· 88: if someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? No, wtf poor little guy

· 89: what is something you wish you had more of? Right now, money and time… im hurting for both

· 90: have you ever trusted someone too much? No I don’t think so

· 91: do you sleep with your window open? In the summer yes

· 92: do you get along with girls? I would hope so

· 93: are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth? I think they know, we just don’t talk about it anymore

· 94: does sex mean love? Nope

· 95: you’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? No, we’d probably just sleep together again

· 96: have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? No I don’t think so

· 97: did you sleep alone this week? All week

· 98: everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? I suppose so, again complicated

· 99: do you believe in love at first sight? Not love but infatuation

· 100: who was the last person that you pinky promise? Meg probably, that seems like something wed do?

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