#cr3 ep95

[your-enby-antihero]

Any time there is intra-party conflict

Delilah:

[wherethemagichappens]

Liam "Is he floating again?"

Matt+Laura "No, he's Seth."

Liam *deep sigh* "I want him to float and I want him to be purple!"

Matt "Well you don't know abou him floating. You have not seen him float yet."

Whole cast teasing Liam

Liam "YES, I HAVE MATT! Yes, I have!"

Matt "Liam has!"

Liam "I've seen him float all oooover the place" *excited hand gestures*

Matt "Caleb has" *sly*

Liam your Caleb is showing! + THE WHOLE CAST IS IN LOVE WITH THE PURPLR ELF!

[kittygxl]

The narrative foil of Imodna calling themselves anchors making sure not to fly away and Dorym calling each other buoys to keep each other from sinking is CRAZY!

[kansasassy]

[zeephyre]

CRITICAL ROLE CAMPAIGN 3 EP 95 SPOILERS

jesus christ these nerds are going to kill me.

before i get into my think piece abt... everything that transpired at the end of this episode, i would like to say this is one of the best c3 episodes.... one of my favourite episodes of all time. idk idk.

essek? smut? astrid? poly bells hells allegations?? i was already fucking sold dawg. i cannot goddamn believe that this four hour episode was... mostly... a shopping episode. i cant wait for the new art, regardless of the batshitery that happened that kinda throws my vibes off. i digress.

oh ashton greymoore i love you so much. i have been so worried abt them but honestly they're probably the lat person im concerned for currently. the grief was so compelling to watch and taliesin is a master of roleplaying as minus charisma but genuinely charismatic in his dorky awkward gruff and fumbling way. his rizz is actually just blindsiding us with earnest acts of service and comfort for his friends and i think thats so neat. im happy that they're all going to aeor with fcg intertwined throughout their outfits. its poetic and also maddeningly sweet.

(love the little callowmoore moments sprinkled through this episode... they're so real to me)

pumat was fun and i am so damn glad they got all the items matt offered cause they were all so fucking cool.

also??? sugar daddy dorian storm??? yeah i see you gay boy. dorym is so real guys we need to prepare for a confession and soon. idk i get the vibe liam is gonna drop it in the most heartbreaking way. or robbie. they're both sick in the head tbh.

loved the little queer inn that essek dragged them to and the calm before the storm was genuinely the cutest shit ever and im glad they were having fun despite everything. we got the essek and ashton dunamancy scene that i have been begging for but i cant even talk abt that right now.

before i address orym and laudna...

delilah briarwood. im gonna fucking kill you. best believe that.

theres been so much discourse on twitter abt who was right or wrong or this or that, but ultimately the point is: neither of them is RIGHT. they're both stricken with trauma and grief, and motivated by the love they have for a) the ones orym has lost and b) the one laudna is fighting not to lose. laudna WAS worried abt orym before delilah twisted that into paranoia, and orym didnt wield that fuckass blade bc he DOESNT feel sick touching it.

he says its not abt revenge but... god. orym. you want revenge. call it whatever you like but you've been angry for a while.

laudna says she KNEW the sword was cursed, but she was lying or in denial abt the fact that delilah is the one who coerced her to hold the blade in her hand.

if either of them had decided to talk to each other or the group as a whole then this could have -- most likely -- been avoided. orym decided to take the blade and shoulder the burden of what it meant and what it represented so they didnt have. laudna felt betrayed and hurt but instead of trusting orym she was manipulated back into that cunt's clutches.

i dont prescribe to trauma olympics, especially when laudna and orym never actually denied each others' trauma with otohan and that blade so i think its slightly irrelevant when discussing them both.

(i will say this... otohans blade is what killed laudna but delilah is the one who had her in a cage when she was dead. otohan murdered oryms family and there was absolutely nothing that could save them. i firmly believe THAT is what chetney meant, not that laudna hasnt suffered so we can all just... unclench a little idk)

in all the discourse, lets not forget who the real villains are -- evil milfs (delilah and otohan). delilah chose this moment to sew distrust in laudna towards orym for a reason. its like the spider queen and opal. she NEEDS laudna isolated and dependent, and she cant sink her teeth in completely if laudna has someone to fall back on.

imodna... jesus imodna breaks me every time. that entire scene on the roof while laudna looks so much like her abuser -- the woman who MURDERED her -- and having that visage fade as laudna proclaims her love for imogen. peak romance and tragedy.

it was still so upsetting hearing the echoes of delilah as laudna spoke tho. knowing her hold on laudna is getting stronger and laudna has no real faith that she will be able to fight against her. hearing her ask imogen if shes still fun scary and knowing that imogen cant tell the truth. this isnt fun anymore. laudna is in danger and imogen doesnt know how to fix it.

"I'll always love you, Laudna. I just don't know what to do with it."

its uh its not looking good for our sapphics fellas.

anyway, i do think that ashton was the emotional mvp of this episode, especially while shit was escalating. putting themself between orym and laudna, PROTECTING laudna despite knowing she attacked him, TRUSTING that she was actually telling the truth and guiding her to see the forest for the trees and apologize for an irrational choice made through a mixture of trauma, delusion and paranoia.

im... excited? for the next episode? not sure why we keep having really horrible inter-party conflict the day before going on a suicide mission but the hells are my problem babies and i have to accept that they're just little fucked up guys.

god. is it thursday yet??

(AND WHERE THE HELL IS SAM)

[pinkestpurple]

Marisha saying that Laudna dosent lie is literally this

[nezanie]

Not getting into the validity of actions in ep95 bec i agree with the cast. It's more complicated and both parties have valid and understandable reactions.

I think I've fallen more in love with Laudna by how human her feelings and trauma as well as the asshole whispering in her ear to push her to make some hurtful choices.

I think her case reflects many relatable human issues. There's the addiction metaphor but to me it also seems to be showing an toxic relationship (with Delilah) and mental disabilities such as anxiety, depression.

Things I found relatable:

A fractured Self esteem: I also think about the how for 30 years Delilah likely groomed her to believe theyre in an equal partnership, shes there to help her keep safe, and she's not Matilda any longer. Delilah gets angry 'matilda is dead' at the mention of her when she sees her control slipping away bec acknowledging matilda means unravelling her biggest connection to her patron.

Trauma burdeneding her is hidden. Ignored. She likely never had a chance to process. She's taken up another name to bury deep the grief of loss that she can't quite run away from because its scared deep into her body and she has become another for many other humans. A hollow one. Deflecting the conversations from desling with her grief has been a laudna thing.

Anxiety. I think she's always felt a step behind the others, she wants to be strong enough to protect Imogen and the others too (Delilah learns this is the way to manipulate her using her big Love and Trust [as Prism put it]for others).

I found it interesting that after Orym took the sword and ignored her calling out to him for his resolve scene she kind of mimicked the way he took it by doing it in secret, no talks or discussions. Some people learn by observing others and incorporate it into how they do things and possibly with extra Delilah pushing her into an isolated bad choice that accidental though it might have been it still HAS hurt her friend and caused a justified lashback (darkness, 5 pts of damage. Thats scary to wake up to.)

Her explanations are her truth but she lack the words to convey the whole truth. She is lost in her own truth and stubbornly holds on. She does have very valid points because shes always been stressed by visual reminders (her reaction being in whitestone is telling). I think she believes SHEs using Delilah bec she probably cannot face the fact she's being puppetted and Delilah is actually a parasitic entity and there is no almost symbiosis in this relationship. I think Laudna is allowed to use tricks Delilah learns but in turn her patron is then she is caging her.

Now more than ever at the height of a meltdown she needs support and she needs to hear that they need Laudna because she has this misguided idea the Bells Hells need Delilah's power. If her abuser could have 30 years to groom her, Laudna should have the chance to have time and patience to combat that heavy a burden because she has yet to be given that chance. She has tp be given the chance to want it and in her particular case theres no wanting it without support.

[kkwolf5]

Wow that episode broke me in the worst fucking way possible. I have lots of thoughts and just no idea where to start, but I’ll start with one.

The way that Laudna pleaded with Imogen at the end of the episode when they were on the roof, that wasn’t Laudna, that was Matilda begging to be loved, that was the girl who was hung on a tree for some purpose that she had no idea about, who’s choice was taken away( who is now giving it to Imogen). That was her begging, that was her childlike naïveté, her inability to think past the point where she died. She hasn’t grown up bc she has had no people to talk to, to develop good coping skills. Matilda was begging for someone to see her for once and love her, bc in a sense Laudna is still Deliah and so for Imogen to love Laudna she must love Deliah and that’s just so fucking tragic. She’s a child who was put on a tree and hasn’t grown from then. She lost her choice and so the only thing she knows how to do is give her life for someone else, previously the choice was taken from her, but now she feels she’s taking power back by making a choice to give her life for something else, something greater. She hasn’t grown to learn to live or want to live. She’s just waiting for the next purpose to give her life to and that’s Imogen and the gods, just like Orym and maybe that’s what makes them both so tragic. Never learning to live, simply learning to fight and die for something

[thechekhov]

CR3 Quick Reacts: EP95

[amihyperfixatingagain]

Saw someone say this in the YouTube chat and it’s got my brain racing. (Idk who it was it went by so fast)

What if Chetney slight of handed a different dagger to Laudna and not actually Scream Needle? And that was the text that Travis sent Matt at the end there.

[kittygxl]

I know how we're all talking about how Essek messages Caleb every night but guys we have to remember that for weeks. Sending. Didn't. Work. and it must have just started working recently so they can NOW send messages back and forth