#could i have gone for smth that was around in the 90s? SURE....

[becameundone]

ANCHORAGE TASK 04 / HALLOWEEN COSTUME

FEATURING... TOMO KATSUMURA as THE WIZARD HOWL (howl's moving castle)

Tomo has always taken Halloween costumes seriously, even if he's usually more drawn to costumes that look cool rather than costumes that look scary. There probably isn't much need to explain why he'd enjoy Howl of all characters, either. The coat is the highlight of this look; it looks expensive and well-made, and that's because he commissioned someone he knew back in LA to work on it months ago. That's how seriously he takes this. No wigs were involved in this outfit, by the way. Just Tomo's own hair dyed black and some light extensions thrown in courtesy of Min. There had been discussions of a group costume but Tomo was busy and distracted and, most crucially, he'd come up with his own idea. He'd never been good at letting go of something once it crawled its way into his head. (tomo is not participating!)

[cherryishl]

my very own human!warriors headcanons based on my very own human!modern!warriors AU

alright yall i've been on tumblr for like ten or more years and that sounds crazy but i've never had like sort of blog there. i was only reading and looking for sum stuff but never actually wrote smth. in tiktok they said 2024 is the new 2014 so i gotta try having a nice tumblr blog about warrior cats lol 1. you remember that moment in the books when pinestar left his clan because he was scared of some difficulties in his clan life, right? and oh i know he had to kill tigerkit cuz he received a prophecy about him he had this he had that and he couldn't handle all this but let's stop for a minute and think of what: what if pinestar had some sort of mental illness such as schizophrenia and the voices in his head made him leaving the clan? so that makes this illness some family issue. u know schizophrenia can be easily inherited. so, in human!modern!AU pinestar left his family and the country because of some voices in his head or he could've even gone crazy for the same reason. tigerstar could've probably had this too. and pinestar's greatgranddaughter dawnpelt could too. flametail's death had affected her so much as we remember from the books and this could've worsen her mental illnesses. my mentally unstable queen

2. sandstorm has a 'lady' title, actually. not only because her husband is firestar which makes her a 'first lady'. sandy has both 'lady' and 'first lady'. she was born into wealthy aristocratic family. her father, redtail, comes from well-known family too, and he was also some sort of trustee or even a vice president for bluestar. her mother's (brindleface) ancestors were first people on a new land and oh well she comes from a wealthy family too. daumn sandy is THAT girl & knows her worth p.s. i know right it allegedly states that brindleface and redtail are not her parents and it's unofficial info but then who? so let that headcanon be lol 3. comes from a second one. sandstorm, as a lady herself, was raised in a lady-like way. perfect posture, elegant clothes, good manners... she's a royalty and she can't behave other way (her sharp tongue doesn't suit with this fact but let it be) and ofc she tried to raise her daughters the same way. and while leaf is modest and obedient enough, squirrel... isn't the definition of 'roalty'. you get it right, she IS a troublemaker. she lives for 4am parties at clubs, cigs, half-naked outfits and promiscuity sort of things. at younger age she had that 'kate moss in the 90s' lifestyle FOR SURE 4. despite that wild lifestyle that makes sand & fire grey hairs grow intensively, squirrel is sandy's favorite daughter. theyr're actually so much alike (sand isn't a saint virgin mary herself, she has manners and aristocratic origin but oh she was a wild thing at young age). you know, squirrel is mommy's daughter and leaf is daddy's daughter. squirrel is also the youngest in the family 5. tawnypelt is TALL. around 6'1 + wearing heels regularly. ofc cuz she has tall as hell parents (both of them tho). tawny is also way taller than her husband rowanstar. who also lives for the 'tall tawnypelt' headcanon? let me know hehe!

that's all for today xoxo

[tired-reader-writer]

Say what now?!

All this time I thought it was on the northeast not northwest??? Y'know, near his former domain????? What.

Excuse me ex-fucking-cuse me what do you mean it's on the northwest?! West of Atropatene?????

I'm sure this will actually end up making sense logically in the end but right now I'm losing my mind and I need to confirm it myself. It's fine, absolutely fine, it's just me misremembering shit, but my god what.

So hm, according to my past calculations Ecbatana to the east border is 200farsangs or thereabouts, the whole length between the east and west borders is around 347.8farsangs, ish. Which would mean the distance between Ecbatana and the west border should be around 148farsangs.

I'm sure Narsus' mountain villa doesn't quite go as far as the border, so some distance will have to be reduced, and Atropatene is not Ecbatana so, again, reduced.

I don't have my ruler w me so eh, let's just roll with estimations. I'm sure this can't go horribly wrong.

It can't be that far so I can believe they got there in a day of riding bc one can apparently cover 20-30miles (~32-48km, aka ~6.4-9.6farsangs) on horseback in a day. Probably.

It was the 16th of month 10 that the first battle of Atropatene took place. It was around... the same time, ish, two months later that Arslan and co. finally arrived at Peshawar, according to the fanmade timeline.

The distance between Narsus' villa and Peshawar could be around ~90-100farsangs perhaps? Just an estimation. Which means it'd take around 10-15 days, in ideal conditions (which they were not in), on perfectly smooth, flat terrain (absolutely not), with no interruptions forcing them to go in circles (not), soooo yeah. No wonder it took like two fucking months. Poor Team Arslan.

Don't mind me, don't mind me, just freaked out for a hot second after I realized I must've misremembered things, and ended up dumping my thoughts here since I didn't have a notebook within an arm's reach, whoops. Probably should've gone and grabbed a notebook but lololol eh you guys get to see me running around like a headless chicken so here you go, enjoy my chaos, I guess.

At least my mind can be put to ease with this, else I would've been wondering all the time. I thought before that they went all the way from Atropatene to around Daylam in a single day which didn't make a whole lot of sense considering the distance, haha.

What was I doing again? Oh, yes, the reread.

Man. This is horrific. Look at the man on the bottom right, he must've been trying to climb back up the pit and... yeah. Fuck. This hits harder after 121.

I wonder if being given a position at court or smth could be turned down or it would be seen as a great offense— Narsus clearly didn't want to be there (neither did Lushan, if I remember correctly) but he still stayed until he couldn't take it anymore, same with Lushan.

That aside though, I dig their clothes here.

Food ref food ref food ref food ref

I wonder what Narsus is thinking/feeling in these scenes. What assumptions did he have about Arslan, and which ones are being overturned? He was still at court when Arslan entered the palace, right? At least in manga canon. What did he know about Arslan? I don't think they ever came face-to-face, what did he think of the young prince back then?

(from a much later chapter) This panel too. Why does he Look Like That. Why so sad? What's going on???

Answers, Arakawa. I need answers. NARSUS TELL ME WHAT'S GOING ON IN THAT HEAD OF YOURS.

[timextoxhajima]

The Boyz as things and feelings (just cause)

this is a small thing @haechanhues​ needed help with so i decided to make it an actual post uwu [this is gonna be pretty long cause i might write little scenarios]

[THE BOYZ AS THINGS AND FEELINGS]

SANGYEON - MIRRORS AND PILLOWS

mirrors make a place look bigger than it really is - i feel like sangyeon has that ability to make you feel like you’re more important on your worst days

the things he’ll do just to make sure you’re alright, even when he knows you’re not

he also has the ability to reflect what you need: sad? he’ll come and hug you and let you cry or talk about your shitty day. happy? he’ll joke about the way you snort while laughing then he’d probably do something dumb to keep the energy up there

mirrors also feel very private and at-home, and that exactly how i feel he curates an environment

pillows are self-explanatory ig, smth to cry into, smth to fall asleep with while hugging, has the best homely scents ever, very comfortable

i imagine going home after a long day and finding your partner also tired, but he’s cooking or like in the couch watching tv and he just invites you into his arms uwu

“tell me about everything! whatever that makes you happy or sad and i’ll try my best to be who you need at that point of time!”

JACOB - FLOWERS AND MUSIC

ok like jacob with a guitar is just a stellar sight to behold, he looks like he was born to hold one, and his vocals are super underrated imo, most of tbz’s discography doesnt really suit his voice - i really wish he had a chance to have more lines in more ballads or maybe even a solo thing

he would drag you out to go on walks after he knows you’ve buried yourself in your work the whole day, and he’d be the kind to stop at a pretty flower and contemplate plucking it but he wouldn’t cause he’s a fairy and wouldn’t hurt a fly, much less a pretty flower

would probably play a piece in the background while you’re stressed w work and hum a tune so the singing wouldn’t distract you

would stop when he notices you stopped working and your sad ass is probably crying lmao

he’s a very soft and gentle man imo

he’s the innocent daisy amidst other bright colored, flamboyant flowers but he still stands out

“i’ll grow you a rose bush in the yard so i don’t have to be sad about plucking flowers next time.”

YOUNGHOON - WINTER COATS AND COFFEE AND PASTRIES

he definitely radiates tsundere vibes on first sight, but when you get to know him, he’s obviously the opposite: a crybaby

but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t keep up his model-like appearances when he’s outside - in fact, he’d be the one to influence you into caring more about how you look (of course not materialistically, but more into actually caring about making yourself feel good with your fashion and appearance)

i chose winter coats as a symbol of coverage - he doesn’t show much of himself unless he’s close to you (like when you wear winter coats to keep warm, he’s a burrito because he doesn’t bother too much about sharing his feelings), but when he does, it feels like he has the ability to keep you warm and comfortable, even on the coldest days, even if his inner savage comes out

it’ll be like he scooped you into his coat and has you warm in one of this inner breast pockets

i see him as the kind to get regular coffee and like, a tart or something, at a cafe. it adds on to the warmth, when he remembers what you like. the details. maybe you like your coffee with cinnamon or less sugar or something, but then he tops it up with a muffin and he knows you like it heated up so he specifically asks for them to do so

ok but he’s defo the kind of guy that catches people’s attention at public spaces so every now and then when he’s laughing or smiling, some girl would gawk at him and he would be embarrassed about it, but lucky for you, you’re already wearing matching coats so they know the man’s taken uwu

“if only they knew how long it took to convince you to wear that coat.”

HYUNJAE - CONCERTS AND CONVENIENCE STORE DATES

classy but calm. dream-like but realistic. 

i say concerts as in the instrumental, ballad kinds. he loves it and he knows you probably need the sleep where you have that kind of background white noise/music that provides you the best quality of sleep there is. but when you’re not dosing off, he’s admiring how much time you’re willing to invest into being at something he loves

of course, in turn, he doesn’t complain much when you’re hungry and you meet him down the street at the nearest convenience store for some instant noodles and potato chips with a coke and he lets you ramble about your day 

he would probably buy you an ice cream just so you’d feel better, then regret it when you get a stomachache later cause it was like 2am in the morning

you probably have like 5 of his hoodies at home that you refuse to wash cause his scent is tainted all over it and the only time he gets to take them home is when he stays over or visits and he sneaks one into his bag when you’re in the kitchen making tea or a bowl of noodles

then you’ll get it back without even knowing it was gone

the kind that would probably surprise you after a day of work with a casual date idea to the movies, and i mean showing up at your place, impromptu, after he knows you’re home with two tickets 

“act like my girlfriend for once and go on a date with me, would you? your work isn’t going to be there with you when you die at 90.”

JUYEON - STARGAZING AND VR GAMES

as dumb and sometimes bimbotic as he seems he is, he’s gotten most of the visible constellations memorised and he would not hesitate from telling you all about his childhood with his family when they would travel and try to spot every single constellation they can remember

which brings me to the point where he remembers what you like, but... backhandedly. he doesn’t remember what you like but he remembers what you hate instead, so you don’t ever have to worry about getting that licorice flavoured jelly bean

he would offer a midnight walk to help you relieve your stress, cause he knows you just like seeing the nightsky amidst the peace and quiet while he rambles on for his own satisfaction. not everything has to be so emotionally attached and shared. you can share blissful moments without being the reason for each other’s and that’s totally fine.

juyeon is kind of a scaredy cat in the sense that he isn’t really into horror movies or games but he’s always had that dream to become a pilot and so for his birthday, you brought him to a vr game arcade where he played some plane simulator and ever since, you’ve been taking turns to surprise each other with a new vr arcade spot or adding on to the vr game console set you have at home

“maybe i should digitalise you so i can see you in the vr game”

KEVIN - KARAOKE SESSIONS AND NEON LIGHTS

the best-friend kind of partner you would come across once in a lifetime

a billion film shots of you after he drags you to the karaoke and he beats you at super intense songs like the bohemian rhapsody just cause he can hit those high notes and solely because he was screaming on the floor when he did it

almost left his film camera behind 

absolutely LOVES those walks along streets where there are a million neon lights

would come across that one sus neon light signs that indicate a sex toy store and he would give you that sly smile and probably joke for you to go in 

kevin has a moon neon light in his room and you have a star or something (whatever you want)

corrects your grammar and pronunciation, only for you two to bicker about it even more when you use google translation and there are different pronunciations depending on where/what accent you’re using

he really is your light in the dark, even if he’s known to be introverted. once he’s comfortable enough with you, he makes you feel like the most important person in the world

has one of those portable speaker microphones at home and he drones on and on and on with some billie eilish song until you hurl a pillow at him

“so you’re the tough girl, like it really rough girl, justcan’tgetenoughofkevingirl, chest always so puffed girl”

CHANHEE - DUETS AND STRAWBERRY PICKING

(i could not find a more candid, softer aesthetic pic for chanhee rip)

his entire wardrobe fits you - the only problem is that he’ll never let you wear it in fear that you’d stain or tear something

shared playlists because that’s how similar your taste in music is, and so sometimes when you have your earpiece in and you’re humming the melody of that song, chanhee picks it up immediately despite not hearing that song, and ends up harmonising with you

got kicked out of the library once or twice because it was exam period and the two of you won’t shut up

ironically doesn’t sing that much if you’re not around

chanhee is a true blue introvert - which is a miracle that you’ve managed to tear through that barrier of his and find out that he giggles at every stupid thing you do: he’s having a bad day? trip over the pavement. he’ll laugh. it works

dragging him out to go strawberry picking was so difficult - but of course chanhee isn’t safe from how beautiful and enticing the fresh fruits were.

didn’t touch anything strawberry flavoured OR any strawberries for the next month or so

his straightforwardness comes with the breakdown of his barrier - but that’s what brings you comfort. he will never lie, he will only be sarcastic and even then, you’d know it’s true

i used duets as a symbol of harmony and being in-sync, though never really exactly the same, and that’s how it is with chanhee. your thoughts are very similar even though he’s much more introverted than you, but that’s what binds you 

“i’m gonna tell the librarian i don’t know you if we get kicked out again.”

CHANGMIN - CITY TOURS AND MATCHING OUTFITS

city tours - the kind that you already know inside out and yet you STILL travel the area as if you were a tourist 

that’s exactly how it is with changmin: you know him inside out, after being friends for so long, but it never gets old

you’re used to him biting your hand out of nowhere and yet it startles you all the time. that stupid chucky doll in his living room? old, but it never fails to scare you

he doesn’t ever talk about it that much, but he loves it when you co-ordinate outfits

no, it doesn’t mean you wear couple tees, but it’s aesthetically pleasing to changmin that if he wears cool tones, you would too

he’d be reserved about his thoughts and feelings sometimes but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t think or feel them

there’s a strange sense of familiarity with changmin, because you kind of know what to expect but then you’re never disappointed, you know?

“i got you this white pigeon cause it looks like the one i already got... you can give it back to me if you don’t like it though-” /he takes it before you can accept it/

HAKNYEON - STAND UP COMEDY SHOWS AND RUNNING ALONG THE BEACH

there’s something about ju that makes it very casual and easy-going

he hates horror genred themes so fuck that, he would queue online just for the latest ali wong comedy show, even if it’s an online show, and he would laugh until he cried

sometimes he’s a drama queen but that makes it alot easier for you to know what he’s thinking or feeling - it makes communication alot easier

that means a lack of arguments

he’s also very empathetic but straightforward, exactly like how comedy shows are - because they are relatable, they are funny because they bring out the irony and sarcasm and all the dumb things in life that people are sometimes afraid of talking about and hak just says whatever he wants to say, even if he knows it might be hurtful or upsetting

he prioritises truth and honesty over anything else

it makes you a better person, honestly

beach walks - very calming, very liberating. he lets you yell and scream and kick sand back into the water because you can, and he does it with you

tries to teach you how to skip rocks but you suck and you can’t so he just pulls you away from the pile of rocks you amassed

“flick your wrist like that, not like you’re meowing!”

SUNWOO - SOCCER FRIENDLIES AND STUDIO SESSIONS

he will NOT go easy on you in a friendly match: you might be one of the fastest players of the female team but he’s ruthless in his ball-stealing, so even if you were fast enough to keep the ball out of his reach, he’d still be able to snatch it right out between your feet

very, very competitive and does not like to lose

you would always play the ‘ladies first’ card but then he’d throw the ‘feminism’ card back at you 

sometimes you act more like siblings than anything else 

the only time when he isn’t fuming with competition is if you’re injured because he accidentally tackled you - he’ll gracefully give himself a yellow card before absolutely trashing you in the next match

has one foot into the production game recently - likes to play with the beat board and mixing tunes, and since you’ve had your hand in doing music remixes for a deejay job before, you’re there to identify which songs have the same bass line or beat counts for easier mixing

would make you a playlist of remixes but wouldn’t admit that he spent a whole day in the studio without you just so it would be a surprise

a soft boy stuck in the wraps of an egoistic man

“a day? please. i illegally downloaded half these remixes off the internet cause i’d think you’re too internet-dumb to find them.”

ERIC - BAKING AND SKATEBOARDING

full of impromptu, casual ideas to hang out 

baking is a fucking mess - why did he suggest it when he doesn’t even have the right ingredients?

wanted to replace eggs with water - like ok thats supposedly healthier, but why????????????

he likes cleaning so that was the only fucking bonus in baking - had to call his mom for help halfway through because the cookies looked more like goop than playdough

gave up in the end and he repaid his debt by helping clean your kitchen

tried to teach you how to skateboard, but he ended up falling off his own in the process and now he’s got a grazed knee 

the kind of person you’d have so much chaotic fun with, he’s that friend your mom told you to NOT hang out with that much if not you’d get run down by a car 

has the most fucking random pieces of clothing in his wardrobe, like where did he even get that pink coat from?

“no you have to do this and like lift up your leg and then kinda rest your weight on it before flicking your ankle and like- whOA- OH OW OHNO OHOHOH OW”

[witheringwidgetwrites]

Priorities (707 x MC)

Ask: could you write something angsty to fluffy for Seven? i need the serotonin :(( say like they argue and mc leaves their house and Seven just stays there angry but then after a while mc doesn’t come back and he panics and runs to find her (insert smth here idk how you go on a hunt for someone HHAHAH) and then he apologies and *insert fluff here*

Prompt: 707 hurts his dear MC and panicks after she doesn't come home.

Genre: angst/comfort

Pairing: 707 x MC

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ : *✧･ﾟ✧･ﾟ

Originally, it just a small a small predicament.

"Seven, I feel like we haven't gotten to spend time together in weeks," she sighed, pushing her hair out of her face, "I feel like you're always working, and I miss you."

"You knew what I did when we started dating." He, admittedly was way too defensive and it blew up in his face.

He sat in front of his computer, glancing at his phone every couple seconds. It had been, 7 hours since MC had stormed out the door. Zen, Yoosung, and MC, none of them answered his texts. All he recieved from Jumin was, MC isn't with me.

He started to worry at 9. MC should have been back by then, right? It was just a little fight.

By 9:30 he had wondered if MC had left him. Was it over?

By 10 he had started to panick, calling Zen and Yoosung relentlessly. He knew Zen was a flirt. What if MC had went to him for comfort and one thing turned into another? MC wouldn't do that to him. He was sure. But what if?

By 10:30 he was doing 90 in a 70, down a highway to Zen's. But as soon as he pulled into the apartment complex he knew Zen wasn't home. His stupid motorcycle was gone.

By 10:45, he was in Yoosung's apartment complex, luckily a quick drive away.

His fist slammed on the door, pants erupting from his throat. His white knuckles were stopped short when the door opened.

"He-" Yoosung's groggy form opened the door, rubbing the sleep from his eyes as Seven interrupted him.

"Is MC here?" He pushed the door open, hesitant to force himself past Yoosung.

"Uhh, yeah. We're mad at you though so, you can't come in."

Seven's brow furrowed, turning a little less panicked now that he knew MC was safe, "what? We?"

"Yeah. MC came here crying, and now I'm mad at you too. Been a jerk." A yawn left Yoosung's lips, leaning back slightly to stretch.

He was silent for a moment. "I know. I wanted to apologize." The guilt really started to set in at this point, his head hung a bit lower than normal, and his knees seemed to shake. What if it really was over with MC?

"I guess I can let you in. But MC is asleep. And I'm mad at you too."

"Please, Yoosung." Seven sighed, looking up to meet Yoosung's tired gaze.

"Ugh, fine. Lock the door on your way out." Seven was thankful to see Yoosung go back to the couch, a cover and pillows laid out.

He quickly made his way to Yoosung's small bedroom, avoiding the random objects that laid in his path.

He opened the door quietly, trying to lighten his footsteps as much as possible. He sighed softly when he approached MC's sleeping form, running a hand through his hair. He sat himself down on the bed next to their side, carefully running the back of his hand over their hair.

"Hey, MC," he watched them stir as he pushed their shoulder. Deciding against it, he crouched down to the side of the bed, facing MC's sleeping face.

"Hey." A peck on the cheek. "MC." A peck on the forehead. "Hey." A peck on the nose. "Hey." He chucked, moving faster as MC started to stir, their brown furrowed. A peck to the lips, and then to their cheek, holding their face in his hands as they whined. He gave them little pecks all around their face, smiling at MC when their eyes opened.

"Finally. I was really worried about you."

"I'm surprised you even noticed I was gone."

"I did. I went to Zen's first, so thats why I was here late..." he trailed off, sitting next to MC as they scooted their body over. "I'm sorry."

"For what? MC rolled over, snuggling back up into the blanket.

"Well, for not spending time with you. And then basically blowing up on you whenever you just told me how you were feeling. Priorities change when people start dating, and it just wasn't fair for me to act like that."

"That was, oddly mature of you." MC turned back over, smiling softly at him.

"I promise I'm gonna start spending more time with you. Like, a date night every week, or maybe at least an hour every night, or-"

MC reached their arms out, "we can talk about it tomorrow. Can we go home and go to sleep? Together?"

He gladly leaned into their embrace, "of course. I already signed off for today." He snuggled his face into their neck. He sighed softly, kissing their neck, "I love you."

"I love you too. Scratch my back."

[iam93percentstardust]

samtony: Sam, after Riley's death, becomes obsessed with the idea that smthwent wrong with the wings. It was a routine flight and he knows Riley - he knows that Riley would've never fucked up. So the obvious conclusion is that the Air Force is hiding something. He's consumed with the idea that the Air Force is covering smth up, and - chalking it up to PTSD, he's served discharge papers. But this doesn't stop Sam and he traces the wings all the way back to one Anthony Carbonell

Also on ao3 here

~

The thing is, Riley had been the best of them. He had. It was a simple fact. When they’d first gotten their wings, most of the rest of them had all needed lessons, help, and training but Riley? Riley had taken to the sky like a fucking bird. The Falcon wings had come easy to him, as natural as breathing. Sam will admit that he’s good but Riley had been better.

So when he finally lands, barely able to see through the tears, and demands to know what the fuck happened out there that he’d been forced to watch as his best friend, his brother, fell out of the sky and they tell him that Riley must have made a mistake—he doesn’t believe them.

An unfortunate training exercise.

That’s what they always say when they’re trying to cover something up and that’s what they say now. Doesn’t matter that Sam can still hear Riley’s last words ringing in his ears, the desperation when he told the squadron that something was wrong seconds before he went down. He tries to take it higher, gets turned away no matter who he goes to, and he wonders how high this coverup goes, who else knows that his best friend was all but murdered.

He’s discharged, honorably for his years of service and his PTSD though he’s sure they did everything in their power to try to make it a dishonorable discharge for his meddling and insistence that the truth of Riley’s death is being smothered with lies. Hard to pin a dishonorable discharge on a war hero though and Sam is the hero of the 96th Bomb Squadron.

It’s as he’s packing to go that an officer, only a few years older than Sam himself, slips into his room. Sam jumps to his feet and salutes. “Sir,” he says smartly.

“At ease,” the officer replies. He sticks his hand out. “Major Jim Rhodes.”

Slowly, Sam shakes his hand, wondering what’s going on. “Airman Wilson.” Or, well, he supposes he’s not an airman anymore. There’d been talk of him going to Randolph AFB after this tour was over to work as an instructor pilot but now he’s been discharged so that plan has gone down the drain.

“I know. Word going around the base is you’re going home.”

“That’s right,” Sam agrees.

“Any thoughts on where you’re going to go?”

Sam narrows his eyes suspiciously. “Not sure yet,” he says slowly. Are they fishing for information on him? Planning to keep an eye out on what he does? Who he talks to?

Major Rhodes nods like it’s nothing less than what he’d expected. “Do you know who made your wings?” he suddenly asks, apropos of nothing.

“Stane Industries.”

“Have you ever been to one of their facilities?”

“The one in California,” Sam says, starting to understand what might be happening. “That’s where we were outfitted for our wings.”

“Yeah, that’s a nice one,” Major Rhodes says, nodding absently. “I got to visit their New York facility myself. This was back in the 90s, back when it was still Stark Industries. I’ve still got a friend working there in R&D. You might try looking him up if you’re ever in New York. He’s a great tour guide.”

Sam smiles to himself. “What’s his name?”

“Tony.”

“Does he have a last name to go with that?”

“Not one that he recognizes anymore. Besides, you can’t miss him.”

“Everyone has to have a name.”

Major Rhodes thinks about it for a minute and then softly says, “You might try Carbonell. Tony Carbonell.”

~

His first attempt at getting inside Stane Industries doesn’t go well. He gets as far as the front desk where the receptionist asks who he’s there to see. He gives her the name Major Rhodes gave him, she goes as white as a sheet, and then politely informs him that no one by that name works at SI.

“Then is there a Tony who works in R&D at all?” he asks, frustrated. He can feel that he’s in the right place, he just knows it. But it’s just like it was with the military: getting turned away at every corner with people who definitely know something pretending that they know nothing. And badly pretending at that. If they’re going to lie to him, the least they could do is make a decent job of it.

“Do you have an appointment?” the receptionist asks.

No because he doesn’t want the guy to know he’s coming.

“Then there isn’t a Tony who works here.”

He glares at her and turns on his heel, stalking out of the building, already planning how he’s going to either break in to meet with this guy or stage an appointment. SI has an underground garage attached to it and he’s walking back to his car when he hears the heels clicking behind him.

“Mr. Wilson?” someone asks.

“Who’s asking?” he says grumpily, turning to face the young woman in the pristine white suit. Seriously, who wears white to an office job? That’s just asking for dirt.

“Virginia Potts, Mr. Stane’s PA,” she says smartly. “Ms. Arbogast said you’re looking for Tony Carbonell? Who sent you?”

Sam stares at her for a long time, trying to decide if she’s a friend or a foe. Ms. Potts has an impressive poker face though and she just stares back at him blandly, waiting for his answer. “Major Rhodes,” he says eventually. “He said Carbonell was a friend of his.”

Ms. Potts relaxes, dropping the tension that he hadn’t even realized she was carrying. “Rhodey,” she breathes. Her hand twitches at her side. Sam glances down at it and realizes that she’d had her thumb on a small button, hooked up to a wire that runs up through her sleeve. What was it supposed to do? Call for help? Something more sinister?

With her other hand, she extends a business card to him. He doesn’t take it. “Mr. Wilson,” she says quietly. “If Rhodey sent you, then you must be the one with the questions about the Falcon program. Take the card.”

He searches her eyes, trying to find any hint that she’s going to hurt him. But her expression is open now, earnest, and he gingerly reaches out and takes it. It’s mostly blank with only a short address in upstate New York printed on it.

“Ms. Potts?” he asks. “What is this?”

There’s no answer and when he looks back up, he realizes that she’s long gone.

~

The address leads him to a small cabin in the backwoods.

“I’m gonna be murdered,” he mutters as he climbs out of the car. “This was a terrible idea. I should never have trusted Rhodes. I am definitely gonna be murdered.”

“If I was going to murder you, I wouldn’t have picked the most suspicious location in the entire state to do it.”

Sam doesn’t shout but it’s a near thing. He spins, hand automatically reaching for the pistol in his back pocket, to see a short man in his early thirties standing a few feet away, his own hands jammed into his pockets.

“Sorry,” the man says but he doesn’t sound apologetic. “You must be Sam.”

“Who are you?” he asks instead of confirming it.

The man’s lips quirk in an unamused smile. “Tony.”

“Tony what?” he asks, thinking about what Rhodes had said and how the name had sounded unfamiliar in both his and Potts’ mouths. You might try Carbonell.

“Just Tony.”

“Rhodes said you were Tony Carbonell.”

Tony barks out a laugh. “Is that what he says?” he asks. “Carbonell was my mother’s name.” He turns and heads for the cabin. “Are you coming? Rhodey said you had questions about the Falcon program.”

“And you’re the one with the answers?” Sam asks.

“No. But I’m the one who’s going to help you get the answers. So. Are you coming?”

[ghostnebula]

I’ll gladly keep the asks coming 😘 Let’s have some Richie comforting hurt Eddie

I think I’m legitimately running out of ways to write this because it’s in almost every single fic I’ve written shjdshsdjkhf

I’m thinking college AU, therefore set somewhere in the 90s, but the Losers stick together through it. Which gives Eddie the opportunity to learn and grow as a person in some ways, but still -- old habits die hard, and old cycles of abuse die harder. In fact, sometimes they return with a vengeance :))))

(haha get it)

Anyway, what Eddie gets right is escaping Derry with his friends, owning his sexuality (albeit tentatively right now), and taking matters involving his health into his own hands. What he gets wrong is steering clear of people who remind him of his mother, but this isn’t entirely his fault, because the resemblances aren’t always obvious, and even then the association tends to be subconscious.

So when he meets this guy who he just can’t stop thinking about, and who dotes on him but in ways that are comforting in their familiarity but not glaringly obvious in their origins/associations, and he seems to... maybe even like Eddie that way, well, Eddie’s fucking gone for him. He doesn’t know why. He wants to be around him, is all. It’s like they’ve known each other forever. Incidentally, he has pretty much known Richie forever, and Richie dotes on him, too, but in ways that aren’t bordering on sinister, and Richie’s head over heels for him, but Eddie’s so accustomed to that kind of stuff that he wouldn’t realize Richie was in love with him if it slapped him across the face. He also doesn’t seem to realize half the reason he’s even chasing after this guy is because he’s trying to get over his feelings for Richie, or at least just find a different outlet for them, because “obviously” it’s never going to happen.

He’s less than a week from risking it all and just asking this dude from his program out on a date when this guy (let’s call him idk Curtis or smth) asks Eddie out, and Eddie’s fucking elated. He’s on cloud nine. He has a fucking boyfriend. “A boyfriend, Bill, can you believe that? Someone who actually wants to date me!” (Poor Bill’s ready to fucking explode, he’s just nodding along like, holy fuck oh my god how are you this oblivious oh my god I can picture another person who’d saw off their arm to date you pretty fucking easily to be honest.

Things with Curtis are fantastic for the first couple months, and then once -- about 3 months in -- Eddie has this weird fleeting thought that Curtis... kind of reminds him of his mother, sometimes. Funny, huh? Maybe it’s just that he’s so insistent on doing everything for Eddie, which is just him being a gentleman, obviously. Then there’s that time Curtis cries for a fifteen minute car ride because Eddie chose to spend the afternoon studying in the library with his friends instead of with him, and he was so lonely, and “You don’t hate me, do you? It makes me feel like you hate me when you put me on the back burner.” And, of course, Curtis asks him to move in with him, in his apartment just off campus, which means he’s not rooming with Richie anymore. It feels weird and almost awful the first few nights, but he gets over it because Curtis would be offended if he thought Eddie might like Richie (or any of his friends) more than he likes his own boyfriend.

By the time they’ve been dating for a year, Eddie’s lucky to see the Losers more than once a month outside of classes or grabbing a quick meal on campus, but he’s always so grateful when Curtis lets him spend time with them. And Curtis is (usually) so nice, and he’s always taking care of Eddie, and Eddie doesn’t even need to have a job anymore because Curtis pays for everything, anyway, and insists on never letting Eddie spend a cent, which is just so nice, right? Isn’t that lovely of him? In fact, Eddie doesn’t even need to be bothered with money at all, because Curtis handles it all. 

Bev tries to tell him, while they’re waiting in line for coffee before class one morning, that she doesn’t like the way Curtis treats him, and Eddie snaps at her. He doesn’t know where it came from, or why he felt the need to be so defensive, and after he storms off he feels so terrible about the whole thing he doesn’t know what to do. He tells Curtis first thing when he sees him that afternoon, because there’s guilt weighing in his chest about it, and Curtis spends the whole evening pampering him and telling him how much he loves him and how one day, if ever it’s possible, he’s going to marry him. “Don’t you see what they’re doing, Eddie? They’re trying to sabotage our relationship. They think we’re disgusting. They think we’re sinners. They won’t say it out loud, but they’re going to try to ruin us because they can’t stand what we have. You just have to ignore them, okay? Don’t let them ruin this for us.” Of course Eddie believes him. That makes sense. Of course it does. He must be stupid for not realizing that earlier.

But as with all things doomed from the start, there’s a breaking point, and it’s the day Curtis has the gall to actually hurt Eddie. Not in a little way, like he sometimes does when they argue, or how he’s been pushing him to eat less and less because he’s “put on some weight,” or the way he’s been carefully manufacturing comments and insults to keep him down, keep him doubting himself, which in the end is just as bad as any physical hurt, isn’t it?

Eddie’s late coming home from school because he ran into Mike outside the library and they sat down to chat, and he lost track of the time, and there’s a cold feeling in his gut when he gets home and Curtis doesn’t look up from the television as he asks, “Where have you been? Your class ended over an hour ago.”

And Eddie knows, he knows they’re trying to sabotage his relationship, Curtis told him so, but part of him just doesn’t want to believe that, and Mike seemed so sincere. He never once made any kind of negative comment about Eddie’s love life. The most he’d done was ask how Curtis was faring. That was as much as it was even mentioned. So he tells the truth, and Curtis still isn’t looking at him in the few moments of quiet that stretch between them, or when he says, “Come here.”

Eddie obeys. He always does, after all. Curtis grabs his arm too hard and it hurts but he bites his lip because he should have known better, after all, and he’s stupid, and that was stupid of him, and what if Mike is just out to get them? 

“Do you want to fuck this up? Do you want them to take you away from me?” he demands, face contorted by his anger, and Eddie shakes his head. He can feel tears burning at his eyes but he fights them because Curtis told him he’s a crybaby and no one likes a crybaby -- he doesn’t want to make him more angry. 

“No,” he tries to insist. “I just--” But he doesn’t get a chance to finish because Curtis’s free hand connects with his cheek hard enough to snap his head to the side, and the tears overflow even though he really really doesn’t want them to, as he stands there, stunned, mouth agape, cheek stinging. “What the fuck?” he’s demanding, and Curtis is yanking on his arm to drag him closer, holding so tight he’s almost worried the bones might snap.

“Sometimes I think you don’t love me at all, you know that? Sometimes I think you’re just fucking mooching, and you don’t give a shit if I feel valued or not.”

Eddie would normally defend himself. Tell Curtis that isn’t true, that he does love him, that he shows him that every day, to the best of his ability. That he’s given himself over to him completely, and isn’t that proof enough that he loves him? Except right now, he can’t remember exactly what it is that he “loves” about this man.

The arm Curtis isn’t crushing in his grip reels back and Eddie smashes his fist into Curtis’s nose and he knows, in that moment, there’s no salvaging any of this, and wonders how he ever even cared. In his shock and pain, Curtis lets go of him, and Eddie doesn’t hesitate to get the fuck out of there.

He’s definitely crying when he shows up outside Stan and Richie’s dorm, and he’s trying to stop it because he doesn’t want them to be mad when they see him (because he’s an annoying fucking crybaby, isn’t that right?) but he’s knocking before he’s able to compose himself because he can’t fucking compose himself. He’s shaking and he ruined it but, really, isn’t that for the best? When was the last time he was truly happy with Curtis? The shaking won’t stop anyway, and he can feel anxiety building in his gut, making his stomach twist, because he has nothing now. He’s just gone and completely fucked himself over, and the rest of the Losers, well... they probably barely consider him a friend anymore, or if anything they probably think he’s a shit one, and this was a bad idea. Yeah, this was definitely a bad idea, because he’s imagining Stan sneering down at him and demanding to know why the fuck he thought they’d help him when he hasn’t been bothered with them in months, or Richie scoffing and telling him maybe if he wanted help so bad he could go ask his boyfriend, and--

The door swings open and Stan’s eyes go wide, and Eddie can’t get the words out, and he knows he isn’t having an asthma attack but this feels like an asthma attack. “Richie!” Stan is calling, but Richie’s already leaping up from his bed because he caught sight of Eddie through the gap in the door, and besides, he’d know that wheezing anywhere. Stan barely moves out of the way in time to avoid being bowled over. Richie freezes, though, halfway to grabbing Eddie to drag him into a hug, not sure that he’s alright with that (didn’t he always used to be?) and not sure what the fuck is wrong, but there’s a red mark on his cheek that’s pretty telling, anyway.

Eddie’s the one who surges forward first and wraps Richie up in a hug, because he needs it, and because Richie looks stricken, and Eddie knows somewhere deep down that Richie would never hate him. He’s always known Richie could never hate him. He has to repeat it to himself, like a mantra, as Richie awkwardly tries to shuffle back into the room with Eddie latched around his waist, but Eddie’s scared to let go. “Please don’t be mad,” he says, not quite meeting Richie’s eyes.

Everything he’s done in the last year has been so fucking stupid and he’s a fucking idiot and he’s well aware of that, so everyone else must be, too. So he excuses his behaviour with, “I just thought he loved me.” Maybe, in some way, Curtis does love him, but not the way that Eddie wants or needs to be loved, and he just wasn’t smart enough to see it before. He can barely wrap his mind around it now. But his cheek is throbbing where Curtis landed a pretty fucking solid blow, and his arm aches with the beginnings of a bruise, and he’s tired and hungry and miserable and he doesn’t think he’s ever felt less loved.

Richie, though -- Richie helps. Richie makes him feel better just by being here. By not letting go of him as they settle onto the bed, lying on their sides. Probably because he can tell how much Eddie can’t stand the idea of letting go right now. Stan brings them ice wrapped in a cloth from the kitchens and Richie holds it to his cheek for him and wipes the tears away and Eddie apologizes, over and over, until Richie tells him to stop. “You’ve got nothing to be sorry about, Eds. Okay? You’ve got nothing to be sorry about.”

Stan whispers something to Richie as he’s pulling on his shoes, and Richie nods, eyes flickering up to look at him, but then he’s looking at Eddie again as the door clicks shut behind Stan. 

“I’m just glad you came here. I really am. You know we’ve got your back, right? Whatever you need. We’re here for you.” Richie’s gone all soft, eyes shining, his hand resting on Eddie’s cheek even though he isn’t trying to dry his tears anymore. His glasses sit at an angle on his face, one side pressed to the pillow, and it would probably be funny if Eddie weren’t so goddamn miserable right now.

“I gave him everything,” he says, through the thick feeling of tears blocking his throat. “I... I just thought he loved me.”

(That softness in Richie disappears for a second -- so brief Eddie’s immediately wondering if he might have imagined it -- to be replaced by something hot and fierce and pissed, like he could burn cities to the ground if so inclined, and inclined he is.)

A tear finally slips out of Richie’s eye and runs sideways down his face to soak into the pillow. “I know,” he says. “I’m sorry. We’re here for you. We love you, you know that, right?”

He should. He can’t believe he’d ever doubted it, but something (Curtis) had him doubting. It’s hard to believe Richie doesn’t love him when they’re lying here like this, and harder to believe he ever thought Richie might turn him away. And as for the other Losers... well, he can only hope they’ll forgive him, in time.

He doesn’t answer because he isn’t sure how to explain that, but he’s sure that he fucked up, in some capacity, and that the love the Losers have for him isn’t completely unconditional. Right? Or is that something Curtis wants him to believe? He bites down on his lip so hard it bleeds but he starts crying all over again, anyway.

The door slams open and Bill is there, Stan behind him with Mike in tow. They file inside just as Bev and Ben come thundering up the corridor behind them, and then the mattress is shifting and dipping as several more bodies pile on around them, and somewhere he hears Stan snap at Bill to, “Take your damn shoes off, you animal,” and Richie, close above him, retorts, “Who the fuck cares? I wear my shoes in bed all the time.”

“Animals,” Stan repeats, climbing over them to sit against the headboard and pull Eddie’s head into his lap. He takes the melting ice from Richie to hold against Eddie’s cheek, which is still swelling despite their best efforts. 

“Sorry,” Eddie says, when Stan tsks and shakes his head after examining it for a second, and several voices at once are telling him, “You have nothing to apologize for,” and “We love you,” and Richie smiles at him, albeit tremulously, before pressing a kiss to his forehead. Eddie hides his face in his hands because he can’t stop fucking crying but now it’s because he’s so fucking happy. Happy to be back with his friends and to know beyond any doubt that they do love him and it is unconditional and he might just be okay, after all.

[thoughts-of-the-unheard]

i just dreamed

that two of my friends slept over and they both slept on my bed but i slept on a sleeping bag at the foot of my bed and i didnt think anything of it until we went to do it again the next night and i was thinking the boy should be on the floor and i should be in my bed bc its my bed but then two indiscriminate people showed up to sleep on the floor on the sides of my bed and im not quite sure who they were but i wasnt bothered and a bunch of other people started showing up like a party and this one kid that was in like four of my classes and i think is really attractive  was there but we werent friends so i was  

confused about that but my father showed up and we have a bad relationship and wed always fight but never in front of people but there were all these people in the dream and he was snippy but quiet so no one else could hear him and he said some rly scathing thing and tried to leave but i followed and said smth about him and he just stood there which he never did so i went to go back upstairs to the party and he followed as he said smth and i backed up the stairs and across my room as he talked and i walked into the guy friend who slept over (gfwso for now on) but i didnt really acknowledge it bc i had some kinda tunnel vision bc my father was still talking and the music from the party in my room was turn down or off idk but everyone was staring and i started to tear up and he glared at gfwso then left and i turned and went through the attic door bc thats what i walked into and i didnt want anyone to see me cry and gfwso followed to cheer me up or smth but my attic wasnt my attic to the right of the door it was a whole other house that i promise ive never seen before and we were in the kitchen and there was our old couch but slightly off in it and the cabinets were almost blindly white with the lights on them and there were stairs going upstairs behind that you could see in spaces and i wanted to explore because “i never knew this was here!” and suddenly the place was full of more people but just generatic like space filling people no characteristics but it wasnt like they all just appeared there it was more like my mind had just registered they were there but anyway i went exploring and gfwso just kinda followed along but id ask him where to explore next and i grabbed his hand and like tugged him with me and there was this section that led to like a back deck that was level with the ground where the rest of the building was like built up anyway it was dark and we were looking out and i said “wow” bc i thought i saw a lake in the property of the people next to us but it was just really wet pavement and i was embarrassed but i hadnt told him i thought it was a lake so i wasnt embarrassed about like him just to myself for being so dumb and then we went back inside and up the stairs behind the kitchen and he started kissing my neck but i kept pulling away and laughing as i led us upstairs bc i hate pda and i knew ppl could see us and we werent dating and i wasnt even sure he liked me until he kissed me and i found like a supply closet or smth and went to kiss him back like actually kiss him but his top half was a cleaner bottle like spritzer one and i was kissing a spritzer bottle and i was excited to kiss him but when he was a cold plastic bottle i was disinterested and disappointed but i wasnt confused about him being a bottle i thought it was his halloween costume but i dont know what my costume was and i walked out of the supply closet to see some tall masculine person standing there like angry at me for being there bc they wanted to make out with their short boyfriend in there but they didnt say that i just knew it they said they were angry bc i was making out with a boy in there but i knew when they opened the door that bottle head gfwso wouldnt be there so i just left and eventually i found gfwso again and he didnt have a cleaning bottle body and him and his friend and i walked off the deck and were walking home bc gfwso and his friend live close together but its x miles (i didnt catch how many i just knew it was far) from me but i didnt want to stop talking to him so i walked with them and his friend didnt say anything the whole time but we bickered lightheartedly and i remember walking across an intersection but there wasnt any buildings around us and it was really bright and i thought it was early morning so i was confused about that and i said so and i looked back at my house to see it was still kinda dark there like we were in a time zone on the other side of the world but i looked at my phone and it was only 6am ish but it looked like 2pm where i wouldve been bc the sun was wholly out it was getting toasty and gfwso’s friend left well more like disappeared but i understood that he had gone home and we kept walking and lovingly bickering and stuff and there was this tree on the right side of the road and it was short but wide like a motel and on the other side of the road there was a tall chainlink fence like 10ft high or smth and it was a bit taller than the tree and this old couple was driving on the road and we thought they might get into an accident if they kept driving like that and right as we thought that they went off the road and crashed right beside the tree into a trailerbed that wasnt there before and we ran over to them to see if they were okay bc were both first aid and cpr and aed certified and we asked if they needed help and i thought the old man who was driving had died bc his head was bent toward me but his body was 90 degrees away but his head just moved back to his body like memory foam would rise back to its position after someone layed their hand on it and i thought it was weird but i didnt say anything and the old lady who i understood was his wife said they were okay and they were lucky they went up the trailerbed and not into it and she laughed and i looked to gfwso who was suddenly my ex bf connor who i ended on bad terms with and then i woke up to my alarm

thoughts? theories? interpretations? analysis? ideas? comments?

[hansjisung-nolonger]

~ Hi, i'm such a big fan of your blog, your gifs are so pretty and i'm always in awe of your colouring, I learnt how to make gifs recently but I'm lost when it comes to colouring them and sharpening, if you don't mind can you make a tutorial for that? or if you would rather not, do you have any tutorial recs? Thank you! Have a nice day 😋🤗

hello 🌼🌼 thank u for the compliments, that means a lot ahah!! and yeah sure, i’ve had this ask for about a week and i was making a taeyong gifset so i’ve started from right where the gif is unsharpened and uncoloured to it being finished!!

this is going to be a very long tutorial so like it’s under the keep reading, i hope this helps!

my sharpening and colouring process (long tutorial)

above is a screenshot of the original gif, it’s not coloured nor sharpened! now first i want to start the colouring, if u look at the colours that catch ur eye first, it’s the black of taeyong’s jacket, the yellow undertones of skin and the pale grey background

there’s no point in me trying to play with the levels for a colour like green because there isn’t any green to work with here

i always increase the neutrals first, to me, it highlights the shadows on a person’s face!

the black being increased highlights taeyong’s jacket and it gives the gif more depth

here’s something u need to be careful about, i like my gifs to be more reddish hued as it highlights the lips

but if u increase the red too much, it gives the person a very pinkish hue w their skin tone and that is a natural trait found in european / caucasian ethnicities as compared to east asian (if ur giffing kpop for example)

we’re not trying to change their skin tone, make it too red and it can be considered close to white washing, some say its a stretch but i just never go there, once again, we’re not trying to change their skin tone!

so afterwards i always balance it out a bit w yellow as u can see below

now the next thing i do is optional really depending on your scene that ur giffing! the background behind taeyong is more of a pale grey but i want it to stand out more so i increase the white

now that i’ve done that, let’s look at our gif so far!!

if u compare that to the first screenshot, there’s a noticeable difference, however i like my gifs to be slightly unique in their colouring so this is more of my colouring style and how i achieve it, if u send an ask i’d be happy to upload the psd i use!

i first change the brightness and contrast because obviously, these are important factors in colouring!

now this is where things get interesting, the next few steps might look weird but it all comes together :))

these are the settings i use and i mostly achieve these by playing around with the adjustment settings but now i end up w this:

definitely not close to our final product, but hold on!!

i mix around the levels and the saturation a bit and then i end up w this:

this is about as freaky as it’ll get, now it’s slowly gonna come back to normal

photo filters saved the day!! then i shifted the black a bit higher because i felt taeyong’s jacket didn’t rlly pop!

i changed the midtones a bit and i wanted to shift the spectrum more to magenta!

now that overwhelming cyan look is gone!! it’s more close to how i prefer my gifs to be

i want the gif to be a bit darker but i don’t want to fully plunge the gif into eternal darkness w the lightness setting

now it’s darker and i’m quite happy w it, sometimes i’d leave the colouring at that but let’s go a few steps further :))

it has a very high contrast and some ppl don’t prefer that so i applied the above setting and now:

that’s the final colouring finished and i’m quite happy w it and now it’s time to sharpen!

these are the sharpening settings i use about 90% of the time, i apply this smart sharpening and then a blur, of course this is all adjustable and up to u!

sometimes i might not like the effect of the smart sharpening and i adore this action by @bt21net which u can find here, i use the WITH LUV sharpener a lot!!

now this is a side by side comparison of gifs w no sharpening vs smart sharpening and the WITH LUV sharpener!

smth very important to keep in mind is that it depends on the quality of the video file! this was the highest quality i could find of nct 127′s 2019 comeback performance but check out this small gif i made to show the sharpening difference on a higher quality video (with the BT21 sharpener)

i had the resize the gif but u can def see the difference!!

anyway, this tutorial got really long but i hoped it helped

[crionsbelt]

This may or may not go up by the time midnight hits or slightly after for me, let’s see what happens! I’ve been working on this since 9:30 PM EST, I expect it’ll be done by 12:50 AM EST. Hopefully I’m right so it ain’t too late gjnhg

For starters: Happy New Year everyone! Hard to believe we lived in the decade where this beauty was created. Nonetheless, there are multiple people I want to thank -- along with a much needed personal note from me. Everything will be put into a read more, but trust me, it’s long. Thank you all for making the final days of this decade very welcoming for me!

@kiidreamu​ & @theabyssalmuses​

It’s rather silly for me to start with you two, because I’ve got quite a bit to say; so here goes! I’ve known you two for...quite a while huh? I can’t recall the exact time, but I know we’ve been mutuals since I went by Phantom -- which was a long while ago. Regardless, I’ve always enjoyed you two on my dash; and I’ve always really liked interacting with y’all OOC! I’ve always had a blast speaking with you two (specifically now w all this fuckin Bear Ass shit).  I really enjoy the way you two write your muses, I think you both should have a lot more faith in them because they’re very fun to see on the dash! It’s pretty clear y’all put a lot of effort into your writing, even if you say you don’t, I for sure notice it.  Hime, I know you said you admired me - but there’s nothing to admire! You and Kii are equally as good as me, but I’m definitely not much. However, I never posted it (because I had it in my drafts and still do) because it meant a lot to me. I’ve never been told something like that aside from Norgie, so it made me feel happy in a dark time.  Thank you both for continuing to be my friends, truly. 

@fantasyacrossworlds​

Awoo! You and I have known each other for a long time, too (most people tagged here I’ve known for 2 - 4 years hujhj)! I’m VERY happy that we’re mutuals again, I’ve truly missed interacting with you! I’m so glad that it seems Orion and Cass are going to have a chaotic friendship that will always end on Orion running to Artemis LMAO. I’m looking forward to more interactions! 

@sanzenxsekai​​ 

I already gave you a super long post explaining how much me and Norgie are thankful for you, so I’ll remind you in a tl;dr version. WE ALL LOVE YOUR STINKY GREMLIN + YOU!! Please keep writing Nobu in 2020! Thank you so much for being such a good friend to me. 

@mcphistcples​

You don’t even realize how much of a positive impact you’ve had on both me and my girlfriend. You’re absolutely hilarious and I’m incredibly happy you chose to start interacting with a disaster like me. As a Dies fan, I fucking love your Rein. You write him fantastically and it’s always fun to see your interactions with BB’s JAlter.  I am looking forward to the dramatic reading of My Immortal: Bear Ass Edition : ) 

@stxrdust-pxper​

We haven’t talked much OOC properly, but we’ve known each other just about the same time as me and Norgie have been dating - so almost 2 years! You’re a pretty cool person, I’m happy you joined my new server because it’s given myself and others a chance to chat with you more. Thank you for all the kindness you’ve given me throughout the time we’ve known each other, I’ve never said it until now, but it truly has stuck with me and helped me become happier.

@bloodsoakedsakura​ / @idoldragos​

There’s actually a lot I’d like to say, some I’ll leave out for now. For starters, thank you for having my back for three years straight. Seriously. You’ve been there for me through a whole lot, honestly surprised you’ve stuck with me for as long as you have.  You’ve stood up for me when the time came for it and I’m honestly so thankful you did. Every time you hop in call with us it’s usually always fun and stupid (in a good way), so thank you for being part of my band of misfits as long as you have Sades. Even though you’re a boomer who didn’t stop me rolling 200 of my Quartz, I forgive you... dontkillmepls

@yuichiroswife​

Speka, you’ve been a great help to me and Norgie a great amount of times as of late. Thank you so much, you’re an incredibly kind person and I’m glad we became friends!!

@muniificus​

I’ve known you for 3 years too I’m 90% certain, it’s insane how long I’ve known a lot of you - it feels like forever but it also feels like time has gone by so quickly! Much like Sades, I’m very thankful you’ve stuck around for as long as you have Icarus. Thank you for putting up with my dumb ass, and ultimately having fun in return! alsoihavethereplyforanastasiadraftedipromise

@fakepriest​

I’ve sent you an ask with a lot of what would’ve been said in here, but I want to let you know that I’m extremely grateful that you’ve kept being my friend to. I enjoy our conversations a lot, especially when we talk about things like Heaven’s Feel because they’re usually always such fun things to talk about. 

Much like the ask I’ve sent you, your Kirei is so scarily accurate it nearly simulates his actual personality flawlessly. That’s how scary good at writing this tofu loving fake priest. I’m so happy it’s you who’s writing him, not to play the pedestal game, but I genuinely can’t see anyone else (not even myself) coming close to how phenomenal your portrayal is.  #kireisquad

@arkdiia​

Though our first conversation first chatting again wasn’t expected, I’m super glad you came back to Tumblr and I’m thrilled to be friends w you again! Hopefully for 2020, you and I /both/ catch a break lmfao.

@saintguine​

Much like Anna, I’ve already told you what I wanted to here in the form of an ask a few hours ago - however, I do wish to say smth that I’m sure a lot of people feel. Regardless of how you think about yourself, you’re a very good person BB and we’re all very blessed to know you. You’re absolutely one of my best friends, and though there was a point where we lost communication for a bit, I’m very grateful our friendship is the exact same. 

We all care u BB, thank u for bein gud to all of us

Kayla & Sere

This post is incredibly long already, luckily I’m just about done -- but I’ve got three people to go starting with you two!

Sere, you’ve heard me vent a lot and you’ve known me (Kayla has known me this long too) for a pretty damn long time if you ask me, 3 years may not seem like a lot to people, but with all the stuff we’ve all gone through these 3 years? It’s been a LOT and I can’t say I’d be the person I am without you hearing my dumb ass vent and creating Cursed Night.  I appreciate all of your icons, thank you for giving us (Hell) special treatment with them. Seriously! While you are a best friend for sure, you’re also practically family to me. Thank you again for everything. 

Kayla, the same of what I said for Sere is said for you. You’re legit like my older sister, you’ve been there for me for just bout the same amount that Norgie has; you’re someone who means a lot to both me and Norgie, so thank you for giving talking to us a chance way back when you were shy (I think that’s what it was!). There have been a lot of ups and downs for all of us, but I’m glad the downs at least had the positive effect of giving me a second family who I love dearly. I actually teared up on this part, so god help me when I write for Norgie.

@letoborn​ / @uwuwrote​

I’m going to save a lot of what I want to say to you for our anniversary in June, but I will say a few things because I love you so very much.

When I met you, I was not expecting you’d turn out to be the woman of my dreams. You’re genuinely my better half, and I have never been as happy as I am than I am with you. You’ve truly had the biggest impact in my life Norgie, you’ve made me laugh, cheered me up when I’m sad, called me out when I was dumb and helped me better myself. 

I’m so incredibly happy I got to spend the rest of the last decade being your boyfriend, and now, going into 2020 - a whole new decade with you. Like I said, you’re my better half - I can’t see myself with anyone else but you. You’re the greatest treasure in my life, I’m so happy we’ve had all this fun with roleplaying.

Thank you so much Norgie, for giving me Orion/Artemiis, all of our other ships - being my soulmate (at least, I think so). I hope 2020 treats us both well, but I’m willing to go through whatever as long as it’s with you.

Now, that’s the end of that -- but I have a few extra things to say.

My 2019 has been...quite possibly the hardest year of my life, at least on the internet. For a very long time, I was fearful of interacting with others - I made mistakes that I wish I could take back, I got put through hell for nothing...man, I don’t wanna go back in and say what happened, what is and isn’t true -- the long story short is, shit happened, but it’s the past now. 

I want to go into 2020 just..as positive as I can be, I’m tired of the drama, I just want to have fun with my friends and my girlfriend you know? So, I’m finally choosing to move on and just...try having fun again. This choice would be impossible without the people mentioned in this post. 

From the bottom of my heart, thank you to all of you who have stuck around through it all for me. I’m so incredibly thankful to be part of the friendgroup I’m in, to know everyone I’ve met who’s put up with me. I’ve had so many times where I wanted to leave this site, but I wanted to keep trying to write with everyone -- to have fun with everyone. You all have no idea how genuinely happy you’ve all made me, just by writing with my Orion and Norgie’s Artemis. 

Though I couldn’t think of anything to say specifically for the others tagged below here, thank you all for everything as well -- just following me makes me happy. I’m sure I’ve forgotten some people, but trust me, I’m so very happy to know all of you.

@dekirukoto @wisesteyed @lacobscur @akhilleuskcsmcs

[szopenhauer]

Using the first letter of their name, use a word to describe your partner. meow Where’s the closest church to you?  like 10 minutes of walking 

Last thing you did that made you feel like an adult? look for a job? What’s your favorite picture of your mom? Dad? maybe What’s something exciting that’s happened to one of your friends recently? ask them Do you have any board games? If so, where do you keep them? yep, here and there What were the last things you glued together? two pages of a notebook If you have a collection of anything - where did you get most of that collection? thrift store/second hand

What was the last thing you purchased? food and t-shirt 

What are you wearing right now? pajama all day long sleeves and leggings What did you last order from a restaurant? smth disgusting that I don’t recommend And what restaurant was that from? local

Have you ever seen 50 First Dates? nope

Have you ever read any of John Green’s books? from what I remember If so, which one is your favorite? I don’t like him Are you a protective person? oh well... Does your license plate number contain the number 8? I don’t have a car Were you ever a ghost on Halloween? never Are you a fan of penguins? they’re ok Are you a good painter? meh Before buying a car, do you usually test drive it? dunno if I would  Have you ever met your favorite author? noooo Have you and your best friend ever liked the same person? sorta When was the last time someone called you babe or baby? recently  Do you have an older brother? he’s dead Do you watch Teen Wolf on MTV? I should lmfao

Do you have a movie that you have to watch during the summer every year? wtf Do you know anyone who has a flower tattoo? I believe Marta does Do you like the name Carter? not really Have you ever had a secret admirer? believe it or not but I had at least one How many different languages can you say goodbye in? 3 or more

Do you adore plaid pajama pants? why not

Can you see another person from where you are? my parents are asleep already

Can you curse in a foreign language? I can 

What was the last thing you tripped over? not sure what was last

Do you have anything to say about eels? remind me of Ariel (Ursula)

If you could have a giant swimming pool, what would you fill it with? it’s a secret ;)

When was the last time you ate cardboard? that didn’t happen, ever, in my whole life

What song is stuck in your head? Tame Impala - Borderline

What color is the carpet below your feet? there’s no carpet

Is it raining? no

What was the last thing you laughed at? smth with M.

Have you ever petted a chicken? yasss <3

What about a llama? I wish

Or a cow? petted a bit

Can you play pool? I tried ^^” 

Ever won a game of chess? I don’t recall

Approximately how long did this take? *shrug*

Where you a 90’s kid? I was born in 1992

What color(s) are the clothes you’re wearing? blue and grey

Where were you the last time you kissed someone? sigh...

Are you a godparent? no way

How much water do you drink in a day? 5 mugs?

Do you sleep too much or not enough? depends 

Have you ever gone a full day without interacting with another person? not possible Where were you going the last time you were on a train? Ełk or Warsaw

When you shop at IKEA, do you always stop to eat a snack/meal in the cafeteria? I did  Are there any ways in which you greatly differ from everyone else in your family? for example - I’m gay Do you have any gay relatives? speaking of the devil... Have you ever had to have a pet put down? I’m against that in most cases  Have you unfollowed, deleted, or blocked anyone on social media recently? not last days? If so, what was the reason? I block porn blogs that follow me constantly  Do you know what your vocal range is? no idea, that’s interesting When was the last time you spoke to your parents? this evening What’s the biggest financial mistake you’ve ever made? don’t wanna talk about those mistakes Do you like metal music? not a fan Have you ever turned down someone who didn’t handle the rejection well? could be worse When was the last time you went for a walk? yesterday What’s the longest you’ve ever stayed as a guest at someone’s house? counting my grandma and aunt? if not then one night  Are there any colleges or universities in the town you live in? there aren’t How bad was your acne when you were a teenager? bad Would you rather exercise on an elliptical or a stationary bike? eliptical

Do you know anyone that’s painfully, socially awkward?: ... me? How do you usually pose in your pictures?: make stupid faces to cover my ugliness XD Do you know anyone that absolutely freaks out if you try to take a picture of them?: me again Do you pick on them for it and attempt to take loads of pictures anyway?: stop! If you ever had to take care of a fake baby in family ed - were you a good mother/father?: not applicable Do any of your friends put ‘lol’ in almost every single text they send you?: I do that too so...

Do you like movies more if they’re based on actual events?: prefer fiction What would you do if your gf was hitting on someone else right in front of you?: I would be sad Can you recall the first person you ever drank/got drunk/high with?: John and arab ^ are you still friends?: I still chat on fb with J. but only rarely What did you last stretch the truth about?: hmm... Have you ever had withdrawals from something?: omg  Someone?: that as well How many nicknames can you think of for marijuana?: weed, marycha, Mary, trawka What about the police?: better keep quiet lol Do you know how to use roman numerals properly?: yep Most people who’ve slept over at your house all at once?: 5 Have you ever stapled yourself?: I’m not that clumsy Who would you like to spend the night with?: you know who... Is flirting really cheating?: it is What’s something you own that’s /only/ of sentimental value?: shitload of stuff What song would you use to torture someone?: smth that they hate  Has anyone licked you today?: lmfao  Three things you want to live without?: my problems A random stranger walks up to you and says 'you’re hot’. You say: ...

Do you wear the same shirt multiple times before washing? I might Would you rather be surrounded by maple trees, fir trees, or palm trees? definitely not palms What does your favorite bikini look like? I only own one bathsuit Do you have a balcony? we do have a balcony 

Is Friday 13th REALLY that unlucky? Do you believe in any superstitions? normal day for me (I started to worry when I typed that down - kuszenie losu)

Does your country celebrate Halloween differently than in other places? Poland doesn’t really celebrate Halloween tbh

Do you see many bats in your area? sadly not, that’d be nice

How many board games do you own? mine or family’s?

Newest musical discovery? bunch of Tame Impala songs Last thing you cleaned? washed a wooden knife What exactly do you carry around all your stuff in? I own plenty of bags/backpacks/totes etc. What is your Mercury sign?  still Aquarius Last thing you disposed of? food package and paper kitchen towel Are you good at recovering from injuries? been told How many different public restrooms have you used this week? less than 5? Do you have more piercings or tattoos? equally none What was the last picture someone sent you? selfie I asked for to make a morph out of our faces Did you hear a siren today? I did not What do you typically drink? water

[janiedean]

After joining tumblr, my dream of becoming a published writer is forever broken and ruined. It may be drastic but I cannot imagine a future in which I'm a happy writer, knowing that what a large amount of people think is that you can't write about a gay character if you're not gay yourself, you cannot have a poc character if you're not poc yourself etc. It's frustrating and sad. That's what tumblr taught, along with simultaneously complaining all the day about the lack of rep

anon, let me tell you something first and foremost: tumblr is not a good audience when it comes to original fiction and if that’s what you want to do, delete tumblr from your perspectives.

now, I’ll go and say a lot of unpopular things before addressing your concerns, but here we go:

people on tumblr don’t read. or better: either they read fanfic which then they decide to consider the same thing as published writing, and like... while there’s a lot of fic that’s better than some published writing technically, the fact that they say it about classics or stuff they’re supposed to study in school shows that they have no idea of the basic difference in between the two media... or they read YA that gets hailed as the Next Best Thing In Literature when at most it’s a good YA and at worst it’s mediocre stuff that looks revolutionary because they haven’t read the fifteen other things that YA has taken inspiration from. at most they read harry potter when they were kids and never moved on from it, as showed by the fact that it’s 2019 and I still have to see people arguing about sn/ape being BAD OR GOOD when he’s the standard gray archetype, and if you can only think of sn/ape when you think about a gray character and you still haven’t made sense of his moralities or lack thereof, then you haven’t read anything else; (never mind that once I read writing advice like SORT YOUR CHARACTERS INTO HOGWARTS HOUSES LIKE FFS SOME OF US HAVEN’T READ HP THAT’S NOT A UNIVERSAL ADVICE FOR CREATING A CHARACTER’S BACKGROUND)

as people on tumblr don’t read, their understanding of how you write or anything else related to the craft is pretty much useless - like, the only thing each single writing manual agrees on is that if you want to be a writer you have to read a lot, because how are you going to deconstruct tropes (to say one) if you don’t know how those tropes work? or how are you going to play into them if you don’t know how they work regardless? I can’t write a tolkien deconstruction if I haven’t read all of tolkien’s writings back to back ten times at least, I can’t write a good novel about vietnam veterans in the early eighties if I don’t read all the history books on the topic I can find and at least ten tomes about how war-related ptsd in veterans works and possibly a lot of books written by vets themselves. I can’t write a stephen king deconstruction if I haven’t read stephen king back to back ten times either. which shows they think original novels are like fanfic - like, I personally have researched the shit out of things for fanfic, but I wouldn’t ask anyone to do it for a thing they do for free. like, if I see badly researched italian reinassance AU fic I won’t gaf if the author just wrote it based on the anglosaxon tv shows about the borgias around because I can’t expect them to read ten books about the topic to write a thing they don’t get paid for and that just people in fandom most likely will touch, but if it’s a published author that gets paid for it I’ll expect that at least they’ll do some research if they want to write stuff somewhat realistically. people on tumblr think that writing a novel requires the same effort as fanfic, as in, not much when it comes to background work, which is ridiculous, because that’s the difference - with fanfic, unless I write a detailed AU or smth, the author already did that work for me. I just have to expand on it and trying to understand the characters. like, it’s nowhere near the same thing;

which means that people have gone with this concept that ‘you can’t write X if you’re not X’, which is honestly ridiculous and counter-productive because it shoots down any chance that you, as an author, might actually understand what people who aren’t from your background feel like. also, I personally think that if you want to do that and you want to be good at it you need to a) find a way to relate to your characters that goes beyond your differences, b) talk to people from the category you don’t belong to. now, if I had to write a 50k short romance novel about two guys falling for each other at a record shop without too much drama happening, I’d probably just write it myself, some people who are actually guys into guys, ask them to read it, tell me if I fucked it up, get them to explain me how I fucked it up and run it by them until I’m done, but admittedly I don’t need research to find out how people run a record shop. if I had to write a story set in europe but idk there’s a zombie plague and one of the protagonists is a black american tourist I’d go ask someone who is black and american and possibly from the area I decided that person is from to give me background info on how I could write this person etc. and then run it by them after I’m done. if another of the protagonists is idk polish (because there’s not many polish people in mainstream european fiction outside of polish authors), I’d find a polish person to do the same thing and run it by them etc., because I’m not a black american nor a polish person but I still want to write those characters etc. but I mean, let’s say it’s the zombie apocalypse - can I make sure people connect with both of them because they’re surrounded by zombies and as all human beings in existence they don’t want to die? most likely I can. meanwhile I’ll have learned a lot of things about both categories because I talked to people belonging to them;

or, let’s say I want to write some story with a large cast where I decide that for the purposes of it straight character falls for a trans character and it ends well because fuck that I want people to be happy. I’m not trans, but I do know people who are. I’ll definitely talk to them running stuff and ask if thing X is offensive or not etc. because of course I’m not so I can’t know for sure, maybe I’ll stick with the straight POV or maybe not but I’ll definitely run it by them to make sure the thing is actually well-planned/not in poor taste, and meanwhile I’ll have learned a lot about the topic that I might not have known before, which is good because it means I know more about experiences I don’t have which is, guess what, how the entire point of writing stories is. you want people to empathize and feel for characters that might be not the same as them, that’s exactly your damned job, but if you don’t do it yourself first how do you assume others will?

all these people who think you can’t write a gay character if you’re not gay are the same people who think that if you’re a straight woman you can’t write about two men being in love/fucking but you should be able to do it about f/f pairings because since you’re a woman then you have to guess how that works out of that, which shows that they have no idea of how anything works - like I argued with half of tumblr on this topic so whatever, but as a straight woman I think I have more aesthetic tastes in common with a gay man since we both want to fuck men and we both are familiar with handling that equipment, so I’d find it easier to write about that rather than about the contrary as I don’t generally find women attractive in that sense except for like two very specific people who are not a very common aesthetic in general. but like, assuming that in virtue of being a woman then you have to know how it feels to be attracted to women while you can’t possibly do 2+2 about how gay men are into each other when technically you’re into men yourself shows exactly how these people have No Idea Whatsoever of how attraction works, never mind how empathizing with someone else works, never mind of how writing things with research behind it goes;

also, assuming that if you’re X then you can’t understand Y is extremely damaging because it means you can never understand other people’s struggles and that’s......... worrying? I mean, it’s an incredibly dangerous (and calvinist) position to say that if someone is X and so doesn’t know how it feels to have a specific kind of issue then they can’t get it not even intellectually. idk, I’m straight so I can’t possibly understand or relate to why would lgbt+ people want to marry and adopt kids/have their children recognized/have the same rights as I do? are we serious? so if idk I wanted to try and change some bigot’s mind about it when I see that they’re just parroting bullshit and they haven’t thought about it I shouldn’t even try because they’re a bigot and they’ll never understand or change their mind? so people who used to be bigots, then found out their kids or their kids’s friends were lgbt+, listened to them, realized they were bigots and are now allies/supporters couldn’t have done that because at some point they used to be bigots? how the hell do you want people to change or to be an activist or change the world if you don’t believe that people can change themselves or worse that you don’t believe that people coming from any background can’t understand people coming from another background? that’s not how it works. I mean guys ffs I read a bunch of nonfiction lately about endemic poverty in the center of the US out of personal interest and I’m as far from the US and any of those situations as it goes (I’m not a veteran, I never was not taught to read and write even if I finished high school, I never lost 90% of what I had after getting sick, I never needed to hop on a train illegally to go places, I never had to sell my own plasma to buy lunch, I never needed to live in a tent when I was going to middle school after my parents had to move to a totally different state and I never had to go live in a trailer after my house was sold by a bank before I couldn’t pay off my loan, I don’t have a five year old child that won’t be insured because she was born with a pre-existing medical condition), and like... I cried while reading some of them? because I could envision it and I felt like the system failed them and I hate reading about people being failed by a system that should support them, and I swear I’m not a US person who comes from that background whatsoever. I could probably write you a full novel about how immigrants in Italy have it like shit whether they’re legal or not because I worked in the field for two years and one of my oldest friends has immigrant parents and she was born here and she can’t use her ID to travel in europe only because she still doesn’t have a citizenship and she’s been waiting for years to get it. I’m not an immigrant in italy but I’ve known enough, seen enough and heard enough from them that I could most likely do it and it wouldn’t be badly researched. like, you can’t tell people to not tell stories if they want to do it with respect and not wanting to make it about themselves only. that’s bad writing. but if you care about the people you’re giving rep to then you should try imvho;

now: I suppose that you’re belonging to categories that are Not Minorities given how the ask is worded. (same as me more or less unless you consider atheists a minority but nvm that.) there’s a lot of writers around that are Not Minorities and most get published more than people who are actually minorities. people saying that you can’t write X if you’re not X and X = minority are pretty much telling you that you shouldn’t use your spotlight to give people rep when you could and you could do it reasonably well if you do your research and talk to those minorities. so they’re basically going against everyone’s interests because you could learn things and become a better person and make sure your readers empathize with your characters and more rep is always good esp. if well-done. I personally think that people should write about what they want - there’s topics I wouldn’t feel comfortable touching because idk if I could do that well and things I really wouldn’t want to write about so I most likely never will -, but that they should also go for what they want if it’s what they believe they can do. so if you feel like you want to write gay characters or whatever go for it and then find yourself a sensitivity reader or ten before you send your book around instead of worrying about what kids on tumblr who are still arguing about snape’s morality and think that writing the divine comedy is the same as self-insert fanfic think, because they will never create shit for anyone, you might. and you’ll have automatically done more than people who complain about everything but wouldn’t produce one single piece of fiction themselves and wouldn’t most likely waste ten minutes of their life researching the fiction they want to write.

tldr: if you want to write professionally, influence people and give the world good stories, don’t give a fuck about what tumblr says because it’s people who most likely will never read your books anyway unless you want to write the next YA saga that has the same six archetypes of characters in which then the only slightly problematic white cishet dude will be without further ado compared to sn/ape and everyone is going to get sorted into hogwarts houses and people will fight about that rather than giving a damn about whatever message you wanted to pass. don’t give a damn about tumblr and do your thing anon, no one deserves to have any perspective ruined because of this hellsite’s opinions on anything. ;) 

[doglvr]

Do all of them

1. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU HELD HANDS WITH?

umm i don’t remember

2. ARE YOU OUTGOING OR SHY?

i’m pretty shy

3. WHO ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING?

no one in particular

4. ARE YOU EASY TO GET ALONG WITH?

yeah i’m pretty nice

5. IF YOU WERE DRUNK WOULD THE PERSON YOU LIKE TAKE CARE OF YOU?

idk

6. WHAT KIND OF PEOPLE ARE YOU ATTRACTED TO?

just people who share a lot in common with me, and people who are easy to talk to

7. DO YOU THINK YOU’LL BE IN A RELATIONSHIP TWO MONTHS FROM NOW?

nah

8. WHO FROM THE OPPOSITE GENDER IS ON YOUR MIND?

my dog

9. DOES TALKING ABOUT SEX MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE?

nah

10. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU HAD A DEEP CONVERSATION WITH?

probably my friend sw

11. WHAT DOES THE MOST RECENT TEXT THAT YOU SENT SAY?

it was a text a few days ago asking my dad to pick me up 

12. WHAT ARE YOUR 5 FAVORITE SONGS RIGHT NOW?

homemade dynamite by lorde

broken clocks by sza

white  mustang by lana del rey

garden by sza

this must be my dream by the 1975

13. DO YOU LIKE IT WHEN PEOPLE PLAY WITH YOUR HAIR?

yes i looove it

14. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LUCK AND MIRACLES?

yeah ig

15. WHAT GOOD THING HAPPENED THIS SUMMER?

i went to canada for the first time and i loooved it 10/10 would go again

16. WOULD YOU KISS THE LAST PERSON YOU KISSED AGAIN?

i’ve never kissed anyone

17. DO YOU THINK THERE IS LIFE ON OTHER PLANETS?

yeah the universe is so big there’s gotta be smth there

18. DO YOU STILL TALK TO YOUR FIRST CRUSH?

nah

19. DO YOU LIKE BUBBLE BATHS?

yeah

20. DO YOU LIKE YOUR NEIGHBORS?

yeah they’re a’ight

21. WHAT ARE YOU BAD HABITS?

i bite my nails a lot it’s so bad

22. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO TRAVEL?

anywhere in europe like france, the u.k., italy, etc. i wanna go to japan and south korea, and i wanna go to canada and vietnam again

23. DO YOU HAVE TRUST ISSUES?

nah

24. FAVORITE PART OF YOUR DAILY ROUTINE?

my nightly skincare routine!! i wanna have clear skin

25. WHAT PART OF YOUR BODY ARE YOU MOST UNCOMFORTABLE WITH?

my nails since i pick at them so much

26. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU WAKE UP?

go back to sleep or go on my phone

27. DO YOU WISH YOUR SKIN WAS LIGHTER OR DARKER?

i wanna be tanner right now

28. WHO ARE YOU MOST COMFORTABLE AROUND?

my sister

29. HAVE ANY OF YOUR EX’S TOLD YOU THEY REGRET BREAKING UP?

no i don’t have an ex

30. DO YOU EVER WANT TO GET MARRIED?

yeah it would be pretty sweet

31. IF YOUR HAIR LONG ENOUGH FOR A PONY TAIL?

yes

32. WHICH CELEBRITIES WOULD YOU HAVE A THREESOME WITH?

none, i’d rather admire them from afar

33. SPELL YOUR NAME WITH YOUR CHIN.

brave sky

34. DO YOU PLAY SPORTS? WHAT SPORTS?

i run cross country, and i sprint and long jump in track. sometimes i do triple jump!

35. WOULD YOU RATHER LIVE WITHOUT TV OR MUSIC?

tv

36. HAVE YOU EVER LIKED SOMEONE AND NEVER TOLD THEM?

yeah, basically with all my crushes

37. WHAT DO YOU SAY DURING AWKWARD SILENCES?

talk about stuff i’m looking forward to, or stuff i did yesterday

38. DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM GIRL/GUY?

the girl reading this ;)

jk ghkdsflhg

39. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE STORES TO SHOP IN?

target and lush!

40. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO AFTER HIGH SCHOOL?

go to college

41. DO YOU BELIEVE EVERYONE DESERVES A SECOND CHANCE?

yeah, unless they did smth super fucked up

42. IF YOUR BEING EXTREMELY QUIET WHAT DOES IT MEAN?

it don’t mean anything i’m jus chillin

43. DO YOU SMILE AT STRANGERS?

if they smile at me first yeah

44. TRIP TO OUTER SPACE OR BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN?

outer space!

45. WHAT MAKES YOU GET OUT OF BED IN THE MORNING?

my dog who wants to pee

46. WHAT ARE YOU PARANOID ABOUT?

nothing really

47. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN HIGH?

nope

48. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN DRUNK?

nope

49. HAVE YOU DONE ANYTHING RECENTLY THAT YOU HOPE NOBODY FINDS OUT ABOUT?

maybe

50. WHAT WAS THE COLOUR OF THE LAST HOODIE YOU WORE?

black and red

51. EVER WISHED YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE?

yeah

52. ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE ABOUT YOURSELF?

my height! i wanna be taller!

53. FAVOURITE MAKEUP BRAND?

don’t have one. i don’t really wear makeup, but i wanna try using nyx!

54. FAVOURITE STORE?

target, can’t go wrong with them

55. FAVOURITE BLOG?

if we’re talking about tumblr, i like thebootydiaries

56. FAVOURITE COLOUR?

blue

57. FAVOURITE FOOD?

lasagna

58. LAST THING YOU ATE?

apples

59. FIRST THING YOU ATE THIS MORNING?

pasta

60. EVER WON A COMPETITION? FOR WHAT?

i’ve won kahoot a few times

61. BEEN SUSPENDED/EXPELLED? FOR WHAT?

no

62. BEEN ARRESTED? FOR WHAT?

no

63. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?

yeah

64. TELL US THE STORY OF YOUR FIRST KISS?

never had a first kiss

65. ARE YOU HUNGRY RIGHT NOW?

no

66. DO YOU LIKE YOUR TUMBLR FRIENDS MORE THAN YOUR REAL FRIENDS?

i like them both equally

67. FACEBOOK OR TWITTER?

twitter

68. TWITTER OR TUMBLR?

hmm tumblr

69. ARE YOU WATCHING TV RIGHT NOW?

no

70. NAMES OF YOUR BESTFRIENDS?

penny, chip, and used napkin

lmao jk

71. CRAVING SOMETHING? WHAT?

i want some mangoes rn

too bad they’re out of season 

72. WHAT COLOUR ARE YOUR TOWELS?

i have some blue towels, some white towels, and a few tannish beige towels

72. HOW MANY PILLOWS DO YOU SLEEP WITH?

2

73. DO YOU SLEEP WITH STUFFED ANIMALS?

yeah, just one

74. HOW MANY STUFFED ANIMALS DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE?

too many

75. FAVOURITE ANIMAL?

dog

76. WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR UNDERWEAR?

white

77. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?

chocolate for sure

78. FAVOURITE ICE CREAM FLAVOUR?

mint chocolate chip!

79. WHAT COLOUR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?

red

80. WHAT COLOUR PANTS?

purple

81. FAVOURITE TV SHOW?

sense8 is one of my favorites i can’t believe it got cancelled after only 2 seasons :( it’s so good

i also like parks and recreation and the office

82. FAVOURITE MOVIE?

heathers!! and legally blonde!

83. MEAN GIRLS OR MEAN GIRLS 2?

mean girls, i hear the second one is awful

84. MEAN GIRLS OR 21 JUMP STREET?

mean girls 

85. FAVOURITE CHARACTER FROM MEAN GIRLS?

damien is a gay icon!!

86. FAVOURITE CHARACTER FROM FINDING NEMO?

probably dory

87. FIRST PERSON YOU TALKED TO TODAY?

my mom

88. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO TODAY?

my sister

89. NAME A PERSON YOU HATE?

trump

90. NAME A PERSON YOU LOVE?

barack obama i miss him ):

91. IS THERE ANYONE YOU WANT TO PUNCH IN THE FACE RIGHT NOW?

yeah, those people who wanna repeal net neutrality

92. IN A FIGHT WITH SOMEONE?

is this asking me if i have been in a fight with someone bc i actually fight with my sister a lot lmao

93. HOW MANY SWEATPANTS DO YOU HAVE?

uhh like 5

94. HOW MANY SWEATERS/HOODIES DO YOU HAVE?

probably 5 as well

95. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?

christine

96. FAVOURITE ACTRESS?

uma thurman

97. FAVOURITE ACTOR?

chris pratt is great

98. DO YOU TAN A LOT?

not really, only during the summer

99. HAVE ANY PETS?

i have 2 hamsters and a dog which i’ve only mentioned a few hundred times

100. HOW ARE YOU FEELING?

i’m feeling a lil frustrated bc i’ve accidentally gone back to the previous page bc my mouse is annoying as hell and none of my answers saved so i’ve had to go back and start over 

101. DO YOU TYPE FAST?

yeah

102. DO YOU REGRET ANYTHING FROM YOUR PAST?

yeah lol

103. CAN YOU SPELL WELL?

yes!

104. DO YOU MISS ANYONE FROM YOUR PAST?

yeah a lil bit

105. EVER BEEN TO A BONFIRE PARTY?

i have! it was just with a few people but it was rly fun!

106. EVER BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART?

nope

107. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A HORSE?

yes

108. WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING?

studying for my final lmao

109. IS SOMETHING IRRITATING YOU RIGHT NOW?

yeah

110. HAVE YOU EVER LIKED SOMEONE SO MUCH IT HURT?

umm not really?

111. DO YOU HAVE TRUST ISSUES?

no, i think i was already asked this

112. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU CRIED IN FRONT OF?

my mom?

113. WHAT WAS YOUR CHILDHOOD NICKNAME?

it was a vietnamese word, but i don’t remember what it was!

114. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN OUT OF YOUR PROVINCE/STATE?

yeah

115. DO YOU PLAY THE WII?

yup

116. ARE YOU LISTENING TO MUSIC RIGHT NOW?

yes!

117. DO YOU LIKE CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP?

ofc!

118. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?

hell yea

119. FAVOURITE BOOK?

deep and dark and dangerous by mary downing hahn

120. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?

no

121. ARE YOU MEAN?

sometimes

122. IS CHEATING EVER OKAY?

no way man, but idk how to feel about cheating bc your partner cheated on you first

123. CAN YOU KEEP WHITE SHOES CLEAN?

probably not

124. DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?

not really

125. DO YOU BELIEVE IN TRUE LOVE?

no

126. ARE YOU CURRENTLY BORED?

nah

127. WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?

going out and doing fun stuff

128. WOULD YOU CHANGE YOUR NAME?

nah

129. WHAT YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?

aries

130. DO YOU LIKE SUBWAY?

yeah

131. YOUR BESTFRIEND OF THE OPPOSITE SEX LIKES YOU, WHAT DO YOU DO?

if i don’t feel the same way i’d just tell them 

132. WHO’S THE LAST PERSON YOU HAD A DEEP CONVERSATION WITH?

already answered

133. FAVOURITE LYRICS RIGHT NOW?

got a sweet asian chick she go lo mein!

134. CAN YOU COUNT TO ONE MILLION?

ain’t nobody got time for that

135. DUMBEST LIE YOU EVER TOLD?

umm ok i was gonna go see a movie with a few friends, but i forgot about it and the morning they were gonna see it, i told them i had plans with my mom khglsdhfhg

ik i coulda just had my parents drive me to the theater but they hate it when i tell them about my plans last minute

136. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED?

closed

137. HOW TALL ARE YOU?

5′1″

138. CURLY OR STRAIGHT HAIR?

straight

139. BRUNETTE OR BLONDE?

uhh neither? i have black hair

140. SUMMER OR WINTER?

winter

141. NIGHT OR DAY?

day

142. FAVOURITE MONTH?

december

143. ARE YOU A VEGETARIAN?

no, but i wanna limit my intake on meat

144. DARK, MILK OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?

dark chocolate is the best

145. TEA OR COFFEE?

coffee! i love matcha green tea tho

146. WAS TODAY A GOOD DAY?

it was okay

147. MARS OR SNICKERS?

snickers

148. WHAT’S YOUR FAVOURITE QUOTE?

love yo self!!!

149. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS?

yes, but i’ve never had any experiences with them

150. GET THE CLOSEST BOOK NEXT TO YOU, OPEN IT TO PAGE 42, WHAT’S THE FIRST LINE ON THAT PAGE?

from my sister’s physical science textbook: “How do you know which characteristics are physical properties?”

[zairehyun-blog]

can you do all of the ask things? 🙈

OH GOD 

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

mic drop - btstraining wheels - melanie martinez drive - halseydo i wanna know - arctic monkeysnicotine - panic! at the disco ready for it - taylor swift 

bonus: forever - exo, earned it - the weeknd, & cherry bomb - nct 127

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

fhgjfkjhgf maybe my mom

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

answered

4: What do you think about most?

answered

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

from my twin and it says “I FUCKING SWEAR SQUISHY YAWNED”

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

ok it depends here. it depends on how cold it is and if my boyfriend is willing to share his shirt but normally no

7: What’s your strangest talent?

i’m like really flexible for no reason??? 

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

answered 

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

i’ve had my sister’s stalker write a poem abt me akfjdhskl 

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

answered

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

no lol 

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

Wh- who does that-

13: What’s your religion?

answered

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

trying to go back inside no but probably taking pictures of the sky to show my dad lmao

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

answered

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

fdhsfjk between exo or bts

17: What was the last lie you told?

i told my dads that my sister was the one who broke a lamp ASFJSD

18: Do you believe in karma?

answered

19: What does your URL mean?

answered

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

i talk abt my twin a lot but, being away from her literally drains me of my energy, and i’m not sure abt my greatest strength lmao

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

this mAN

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

answered

23: How do you vent your anger?

i write it down or i tell someone im really close too

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

of very long sweaters lol

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

it depends,,, im a really talkative person so i guess both

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

Kinda, I’m still learning who I am, so I can’t answer this yet. 

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

answered

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

answered

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

tHIS HOUSE IS FUCKiNg haunted no one tell me otherwise and, i do because how can we be the only species in the entire galaxy?? it doesn’t make sense

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

I touch my boyfriend and he looked at me like “what the fuck are you doing” asghsjf i also touched a pillow

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

answered (still cologne) 

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

fcuckIng school

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

I love both :(((

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

fdhjfkdfh i don’t know lmao

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

mansae - matthew 2k17

36: Define Art.

the way he looks at me

37: Do you believe in luck?

Yeah

38: What’s the weather like right now?

Perfect tbqh

39: What time is it?

8:40 pm

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

Yes and no

41: What was the last book you read?

Alice in wonderland

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

ADJFHSDjfk i don’t like it but i also don’t hate it

43: Do you have any nicknames?

Zaza, Z & then my korean name (which I won’t state.)

44: What was the last film you saw?

“IT”

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

I broke my pinky and now it can bend in weird ways

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

YeS GHJDSKF

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

I’ve been getting into more animes and I’m getting back into cosplay lmao

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

answered

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

answered

50: Do you believe in magic?

yes i am a magical little bean

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

it depends on how wrong the thing they did was lmao

52: What is your astrological sign?

Pisces

53: Do you save money or spend it?

I save it and then I spend it on other people HAHA

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

i bought myself a promise ring (for smth personal agfhkjsf)

55: Love or lust?

love

56: In a relationship?

to my lovely baby (’:

57: How many relationships have you had?

2 but if you count this one then 3

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

no

59: Where were you yesterday?

at school & i went out to dinner C:

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yes 

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

no

62: What’s your favourite animal?

🦄

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

tbh my hair or my charm lmAo

64: Where is your best friend?

She’s in Seoul >:c

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

answered

66: What is your heritage?

Korean, Japanese & Arabian

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

eating

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Satan is his last name his first name is Lucifer

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

answered

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

Yes, honestly. That’s what I aspired to be, to be what my younger self needed.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

ILL SAVE THAT FUCKING DOG LIKE IM ABOUT TO DIE FUCK MY JOB. IM NOT LETTING A DOG DIE

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

I’m not sure if I answer all of these so I will

A, I would but I wouldn’t because I wouldn’t want anyone hurt but I know that they would be hurt even more if I didn’t say anything so ??? 

B, I would spend it with people I love 

C, Yes. 

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

ASFJHDS love.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

DIAMOND BY EXO AKSFDSJK

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

answered

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

trust & communication

77: How can I win your heart?

^^

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

We’re all a little mad.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

saying i love you

80: What size shoes do you wear?

11

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

“we’ll love again we’ll laugh again and it’s better off this way”

82: What is your favourite word?

adventure idk why

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

well i think of andi but i also think abt him.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

“FATHER SUE HIM/HER/THEM”

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

mic drop

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

pastel colours & black and purple

87: What is your current desktop picture?

my twin, her fiance, my nephew, my boyfriend, my parents & myself lol

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

my sister’s stalker

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

I’m not sure lmao

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

I’d would be like “how thE FUCK DID YOU GET HERE, and u can stay if u want just don’t be a dick.” then i’d let them stay and i’d be the real mummy of the groUP IM SORRY

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

FLYING/TELEPORTATION

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

When I said i love you

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

what she did to me that night akfjhgjfdks

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

,,,baekhyun,,,,

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

BACK TO OSAKA TO SEE MY FAMILY 

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

my uncle

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

no

98: Ever been on a plane?

yes

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

answered but that i still love my boyfriend 🌷

[resilientreader]

1-98 for asks like we did a million years ago, I dare you

i knew the MOMENT i saw the notif in my inbox that it was gonna be YOU pulling this shit and i crossed my fingers when actually clicking, HOPING i wouldnt have to answer all 98, maybe you’ll be tame this time, but no! this is what you’re doing to me. and ykno what, Fine. u dare me and i Will do it. i hope u rb the asks post so i can do it to u too, tho

1. coffee mugs

2. chocolate bars

3. bubblegum

4. that smart student who always read instead of actually paying attention

5. soda from glass cups is the best

6. its hard to just Decide between all these styles so ill say which one applies to mine most, which i Gotta say has to b preppy even if i want like goth or grunge to b mixed in

7. headphones

8. good omens, fmab, castlevania, uhhhh. those are just the ones ive watched so far this summer

9. my grandparents’ home. which is kinda weird but i have a lot of summer memories there

10. i sucked at like Everything in p.e., there Was no best

11. leftovers

12. i cant choose a favorite playlist?? /some/ of them, tho, are soar my ethereal heart, neither here nor there, mountainside storms, and sync of my heartbeat. so like any of my more recent ones

13. lanyard

14. i had to google a list for this bc honestly i always eat just chocolates but i like starburst

15. fahrenheit 451 was a rly fun read. ray bradbury’s writing gave me inspo for metaphors and writing and such and it was rly nice

16. sprawled across one of those comfy armchairs where i can swing my legs over one arm n lay my head on the other one

17. my black converse

18. cool temperature and rain without storms, or a cloudy day that lets me take a nice walk

19. on my side if i can but on my back otherwise

20. on my laptop, in google docs, to be more specific

21. winnie the pooh

22. idk?? i try not to look to just one person for a source of “this is how i should be”, so i guess,,,, a mix of family members and then a couple like more famous ppl??? which would basically consist of one of my aunts, my dad, and jenna marbles, to keep my Brain Process for role model stuff simplified

23. i dunno if any of the habits i have are strange?? i bounce my right leg and my right hand kinda. like. shakes when im nervous. i cant rly think of anything else i do tho i Know i probably have other habits

24. amethyst or pyrite

25. ur really just assuming my memory is good enough for this but if i had to say, it’d be any popular song from 2009 specifically

26. hide in my room with a fan and ac

27. read with a blanket wrapped around me or smth

28. atlas: six by sleeping at last, flaws by bastille, atlas: five by sleeping at last, she by dodie, and neptune by sleeping at last. there are probably more/better ones but those are the first ones i found

29. listen. be open with me. talk with me. not to sound like that person, but sharing ur life secrets is a rly big ice breaker for me because it helps let me know i can trust u. but also idk im a really awkward person and can accidentally distance myself from ppl so when ppl notice theres smth up w me or even do the bare minimum of doing Their part to maintain a friendship, that’s always rad as shit when idk how to communicate what i need

30. my room, my high school’s auditorium, the local barnes and noble

31. black boots, black jeans, any button-up shirt that’ll match that combination OR a really cool sweatshirt

32. im a bad bitch, you cant kill me. road work ahead? uh, i sure hope it does. it is wednesday, my dudes! welcome to chili’s. i love you, bitch, and i ain’t ever gonna stop loving you, bitch.

33. probably “omg” or “oh my god”

34. sc johnson. a family company.

35. i dont even have one but on a good night like 10-11

36. the troll face memes

37. suitcases feel much more organized

38. lemonade

39. lemon cake

40. ummmmm....one time a tech/theatre kid left a paint can sitting out in the open accidentally and a person took a shit in it or smth then knocked over the can, spilled a bunch of paint, and tried to clean it up w a broom and proceeded to like snap the broom in half. then they ran away to leave the kids to clean it up the next day. i wasnt actually there for that but ive heard the story firsthand enough times to Know

41. my dad

42. jacket pockets

43. hoodie is what i wear, tho everything else is Very Good

44. lavender

45. fantasy, my dudes

46. this set of pjs i got for xmas w a soft tshirt and matching baggy flannel pants

47. colby jack

48. uhhh a banana?? i could probably give a better answer if i was more

49. i dont rly live by a quote or saying, i just Go for it

50. my sister has probably done smth before to like Break me

51. everything ever but mostly myself

52. arial

53. uhhh...kinda worn? my nails aren’t doin so good and i have a couple scratches and stuff that Still havent healed after a few weeks

54. get a move on

55. the ugly duckling

56. tradition is kinda vague but i like that it became tradition for me and my siblings to go to my grandparents’ home every summer

57. i think im still overcoming like everything ive been faced with ever

58. writing? listening, helping, giving advice. idk tbh like talents who?

59. "jesus christ, my dude”

60. a fantasy/comedy, or at least if its gonna be fantasy with death and stuff, it should be dope as fuck

61. "isn’t vulnerability the opposite of being in control?” from a webcomic called aerial magic. super simple but the entire scene leading up to it,,,,,so good

62. umm fuck! i dont kno whether favs r usually ones that i relate to or ones that i wanna b like but??? keith from voltron, jirou from bnha, chromedome and/or rewind from transformers/mtmte, sypha from castlevania, and jayfeather from warriors

63. planetary (go!) by mcr, the seed by aurora, hayloft by mother mother, the cup/halloween blues from relient k, choke by i dont know how but they found me

64. coolmath was THE shit

65. yes! two on my leg from a surgery i had to get to realign my femur, bc i snapped the bone in half

66. lavender, snowdrops, hibiscus

67. i dont really have any, mostly bc i have a hard time attaching like. That sorta meaning to just random objects, but i do still have a small teddy bear stashed safely away in my room from when i was a little babee

68. pickle-flavored pringles. disgusting. would not recommend

69. lions’ roars can be heard up to 5 miles away from the original source

70. right handed

71. horizontal stripes, i guess? there’s not much wrong with them but i just Never wear them

72. math

73. i dont usually eat /weird/ flavor combos, even tho ill eat basically anything, but i like ketchup in mac and cheese sometimes. or fries in shakes. chicken and waffles. stuff like that

74. 11

75. idek honestly, my memory is too bad

76. hashbrowns

77. i dont kno a Lot of plants off the top of my head other than the Basic ones but literally any flower in a windowsill is like bone apple teeth in my mind

78. sushi from a grocery store. publix taught me that grocery stores can, in fact, be trusted when needed

79. my school id photo

80. earth tones

81. fireflies

82. pc

83. writing

84. talk radio is nostalgic but podcasts are always more entertaining to actually listen to

84. polly pocket

85. mythology with a dash of fairytales

86. cupcakes, because of my dog’s name

87. abandonment

88. to grow unbreakable attachments with everyone i care very deeply about and grow into an old age with them, or something

89. i feel like answering this question totally honestly would hurt ppl’s feelings, but also i literally could think of like 4 people to put down for this and i’m bad at deciding, esp w smth like this, so. not to b vague but These People kno who they are

90. becoming a part of a certain website with a bad crowd and managing to pick out the good apples in such a rotten batch

91. boxes

92. lamps /and/ fairy lights

93. i dont rly have any but my parents call me hannah banana. that’s ab it, tho

94. fall/winter? it kinda is inconsistent because fall has bad weather in florida but winter is when like everything has Gone Wrong in life these past few years, but then fall has such a GOOD aesthetic and my birthday is in winter, so they’re pretty even rn

95. uhhh??? thats such a weird thing, to try and assign a “favorite” app, but the only thing i could think to say would be spotify just bc i use it so much on my phone, even if the app itself isnt the greatest

96. i havent set one, actually, bc im lazy and havent found anything that’d fit

97. 2 and a half

98. the part where fish were learning that they could walk on land

[bambl-ing]

I'm…going to ask for all the get to know me asks, haha. ^^;

I WONDERED IF YOU WOULD BUT I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN

alright get ready for wAY TOO MUCH INFORMATION ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ

1. What is you middle name?jokes on u I don’t have one

2. How old are you?20, but I feel eternally 17 which grows more and more awkward with each passing year

3. What is your birthday?10/05/1996

4. What is your zodiac sign?Libra !

5. What is your favorite color?it’s a tie between orange and purpleI also like blue 

6. What’s your lucky number?5

7. Do you have any pets?a dog, two cats, and a snake!

8. Where are you from?like where was I born ? I was actually born in Korea, but I moved to the states when I was 2

9. How tall are you?like maybe 5′7″ or 8″ idk it’s been a few years

10. What shoe size are you?Sometimes 8, sometimes 9

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?more than I ever thought I would, probably not as many as other people

12. What was your last dream about?I was at my old manager’s house and she had me doing laundry, but when I put the clothes in the dryer it started filling with water and I was like “um I don’t think it’s supposed to do that” and she was like “oh no I know what’s going on” and she told me about this time in ‘86 when all across the country, everyone who had washed their clothes with a certain kind of soap went to bed and were rudely awoken by their clothes just randomly flooding water out ? 

so then she was like “that’s what’s happening but it should stop soon, so if you could just take apart the dryer and let it drain before putting it back together and drying the clothes that would be great” but then she also had a really old shelf unit that she wanted me to build but I had a thing I had to go to in like, an hour? and there just wasn’t enough time to take apart and rebuild the dryer AND the shelf, so I was a little annoyed and also like “crap, which one should I do first”

13. What talents do you have?uh. nothing out of the ordinary really ?14. Are you psychic in any way?nah (at least not that I’m aware of and nobody’s mentioned anything)

15. Favorite song?The Middle by Jimmy Eat World

16. Favorite movie?uhhhh…I guess right now Arrival? I just REALLY want to see it again alsdfh

17. Who would be your ideal partner?someone who respected me and who I could trust completely 

18. Do you want children?NAH

19. Do you want a church wedding?don’t really want to get married either? unless like, the benefits…,,

20. Are you religious?Not really 

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?yis

22. Have you ever got in trouble with the law?nope

23. Have you ever met any celebrities?I mean I went to Warped Tour and met a bunch of bands does that count

24. Baths or showers?you know if I had an actual nice big bathtub in which I could actually submerge myself without my knees awkwardly sticking out and getting cold, I would probably really like baths?? I’d definitely shower first though, baths would be for soaking in warmth

25. What color socks are you wearing?I’m wearing two pairs, white and the other is white and blue

26. Have you ever been famous?LOL NOPE

27. Would you like to be a big celebrity?not really, all that attention…………

28. What type of music do you like?all of it

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?nah

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?4 ( ᐛ )

31. What position do you usually sleep in?I can and will sleep in any position, lately I’ve been falling asleep on my back though because Jack’s been sleeping by my pillow and I like to shove my face in his fur, nice n soft

32. How big is your house?not that big, but big enough

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?cereal of some kind or a bagel and butter, sometimes a cheese omlette if I have enough time

34. Have you ever fired a gun?nope

35. Have you ever tried archery?yes ! and I loved it

36. Favorite clean word?a few, serendipity, soliloquy, and haphazard just off the top of my head

37. Favorite swear word?I can work pretty well with any of them in the right mood

38. What’s the longest you’ve ever gone without sleep?maybe like two days ? maybe a lil more I dunno

39. Do you have any scars?a few here and there

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?well if they’re secret i wouldnt kno would i ( ᐛ )

41. Are you a good liar?unfortunately I think so, as long as like…the benefit of the lie outweighs my guilt over lying

42. Are you a good judge of character?I got no clue

43. Can you do any other accents other than your own?really badly sure

44. Do you have a strong accent?I mean I don’t think I have any kind of accent ? 

45. What is your favorite accent?Cajun( •⌄• )✧

46. What is your personality type?like the MBTI? I’m an INFJ

47. What is your most expensive piece of clothing?as if I’d remember (probably nothing that expensive tho)

48. Can you curl your tongue?yeah but I can’t do the clover thing

49. Are you an innie or an outie?innie

50. Left or right handed?Leftie !

51. Are you scared of spiders?yeah but I don’t like killing them unless they’re in my room and I don’t have a jar

52. Favorite food?how do people pick one food like,,, there’s so much good food, food is so good??

53. Favorite foreign food?again, how ????

54. Are you a clean or messy person?more messy than clean, but I also get really annoyed with too much mess and then angry clean

55. Most used phrased?if I’m counting everything I say out loud AND what I just think to myself, probably “you’re stupid,” “shut the fuck up,” “fuck you,” and “I’m going to stab you” 

…all of these are aimed at myself, and it probably makes me sound really self-hateful? X’D but I’m not, I just get frustrated with myself and am always 100% done with my shit

56. Most used word?probably “I” “a” or “the” going statistically lmao

57. How long does it take for you to get ready?depends, I usually shower at night but my showers are usually 15-20 minutes, and for work I have to put my hair up and also a hat, and I’ve got blunt bangs that I have to make sure are perfect, u know? so give me another like 8 minutes

58. Do you have much of an ego?no, not really at all

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?suck, then when they get small it’s been a few minutes and I’m impatient so I crunch ‘em

60. Do you talk to yourself?oh yes

61. Do you sing to yourself?me and only me

62. Are you a good singer?no? maybe? average? I’m probably not that terrible but when other people are around I become terrified and choke up and die

63. Biggest Fear?People™

64. Are you a gossip?only with my close friends who I know won’t spread the gossip

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?hlkfshdfos I don’t watch enough movies and my memory isn’t that great 

66. Do you like long or short hair?long !

67. Can you name all 50 states of America?give me a pencil and paper and like an hour

68. Favorite school subject?English and PE

69. Extrovert or Introvert?Introvert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?I’ve been snorkeling, close ?

71. What makes you nervous?A Lot

72. Are you scared of the dark?yes, but sometimes nah

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?mostly no if they’re strangers (it’s terrifying to do that okay), but occasionally yeah

74. Are you ticklish?very, don’t touch my sides

75. Have you ever started a rumor?not that I can remember, and I don’t think I ever would intentionally?

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?define authority

77. Have you ever drank underage?in the presence of my mother, yeah

78. Have you ever done drugs?nah brah

79. Who was your first real crush?probably like…third grade, this kid named Micah. idk if it was a “real” crush, but like I really liked him and wanted to hang out and talk about dragons

80. How many piercings do you have?4, double piercings in my ears

81. Can you roll your Rs?yep

82. How fast can you type?I actually knew this at one point in like sophomore or junior year? it was either 86 or 96 CPM, smth like that

83. How fast can you run?fast, but not super fast, so like…kinda fast. I’ve probably gotten slower cause I don’t run regularly tho

84. What color is your hair?brown and really nice in the sunlight, I love it

85. What color are your eyes?brown again. sometimes I’ll just remember “oh yeah I have brown eyes!” and I actually really like them too, I think they’re a nice brown

86. What are you allergic to?I honestly haven’t run into anything yet

87. Do you keep a journal?I keep like an angry journal? but not just ordinary anger, it’s when I’m REALLY in a shittastic mood

88. What do your parents do?my mom’s a transcriptionist/editor/proofreader and my dad own a secondhand store

89. Do you like your age?I mean,,

I don’t hate it, but it makes me really uneasy when people are like “oh you’re 20 you definitely do 20-year-old things and you are an Adult” and I’m just like “no not really actually”

90. What makes you angry?some stuff, but I don’t like getting angry so a lot of the time I’m able to reason with myself

91. Do you like your own name?well enough

92. Have you already thought of baby names, and if so what are they?I will birth no babies ever and I have no desire to raise any real children, but if my OCs count as my babies then shit tons and counting

93. Do you want a boy a girl for a child?again, OCs? all of them. actual real, breathing, sticky children? none

94. What are you strengths?I know my weaknesses ?

95. What are your weaknesses?sighs

96. How did you get your name?I think like…it was my grandmother’s middle name? 

97. Were your ancestors royalty?not that I know of

98. Do you have any scars?déjà vu

99. Color of your bedspread?which one LMAO uh the top one is blue, the one underneath that is pink, then a blue/white/gray patterned, a darker pink knit, white, then a white knit

100. Color of your room?orange ! a really nice light orange that can look yellow in some light >u