#conversations need to be had over that. cus it was very much giving that vibe

[rozegolden]

Im on twitter and IG. I’ve seen hella videos. Maybe you and the people you speak for are just on another side of the net from what I and others are seeing. Thats the bulk of the outrage we see. We do not see family friendly drag. It’s disturbing and those shows need to ban kids. I’m for them making a law banning explicit activity from kids. I feel like most people would be okay with that. There was a video that went viral of a wedding where wives were on their knees pretending to give their husbands hand jobs as some sort of game. Kids were there. Everyone drug those people to hell for that in the comments. The average person is just against kids witnessing adult activities in general.

The law makers are obviously trash for making this a law that pretty much targets the drag Queens. But this wouldn’t have happened had those mothers not been weird as hell bringing their kids to those non family friendly shows. Those parents put those drag queens in a very compromising position. Tbh, i see more outrage at those parents than i do the drag queens. Obviously they have some fault for even doing all that in front of kids (deserved outrage cus wtf..) but it is bizarre that these parents are insisting on doing this. Some drag queens are even speaking out against those parents too. The laws need to be more focused on those parents imo. They are a bigger problem to me and many others. I don’t agree with the law now that you’ve explained it. I do however feel like those parents need to be addressed and bars and events should ban entrance to their functions if parents show up with kids. Thats my stance because I’m sick of these people at this point.

Republicans are garbage.

[astrobydalia]

💭 Astro notes: Gemini moons⚡️

Work by: astrobydalia on tumblr

⚡️ Gemini moons can actually be cold as hell. They are the real CEOs of emotional detachment and coldness when they want. They're air AND mutable so I'm not exaggerating when I tell you they don't give a fuck, they're SO easy to drop something and not give a single fuck anymore. This is not because they are emotionless, I honestly feel like this is because they actually dislike intensity, drama or overly-seriousness and much like their sister sign they prefer things to be chill and light hearted. That's why if you come to them with your unnecessary and irrational bullshit they'll sign out like “🤨.... kay bitch bye😂”

⚡️ They only stick with people who they can really understand and stimulates them every now and then with either long interesting convos or quick but multiple interactions. To illustrate, one of my best friends is a Gemini moon and he told me once that he loved the fact that I had multiple accounts on IG cus that way we can have multiple convos at the same time in the DMs

⚡️ They also like people who don't take things too seriously. They are very humorous and like all sorts of jokes and a lot of times they can be super cut-throat so they won't like someone that is way too dramatic about everything they say and can't have a flowing conversation with.

⚡️ They only vibe with people who they can just chill with and send dumb memes to each other one day and talk about the social stigma around mental health issues the other

⚡️ Gemini moon people are SOOOO well-liked tho. Like I've noticed even when they're are introverted they are low-key so fucking popular and so many people love their energy and talking to them. They also have an ease to talk to possibly everyone and they always feel super friendly and close honestly

⚡️ This is because they are very friendly, funny and light-hearted and they usually have a very approachable boy/girl next door vibe. They definitely don't make people feel judged and that's a huge plus

⚡️ However, I've noticed Gemini moons are that type of people who vibe with everyone but deep down is friends with no one, like they go around "befriending" every soul but could low-key be loners and have very few true friends/people they care about

⚡️ Discussing anything emotional with a Gemini moon is like discussing feelings with a computer program. Like "we've found the rational explanation/solution to your issue why you still crying?" energy. Again, this is not because they are emotionless this is because this is the way they processes their own emotions and that't how they genuinely feel good. For them what makes them feel good and at ease and "nurtured" is rationalizing things and understanding and knowing the reasons for something, so that's how they provide emotional support -by finding a logical explanation- cus that's what makes them feel at ease.

⚡️ In consequence, this makes them extremely curious people, they NEED to understand the reason behind everything and they won't stop until they understand it. If a Gemini moon has a question, they WILL get an answer for it one way or another, they're like "well, now I need to know it damn". Amazing researchers.

⚡️ They were probably the type of kid who would ask why to everything and would NEVER accept a "I can't tell you why" for an answer and be like "no no TELL MEEEEE!!!"

⚡️ Making a decision "from the heart" is something they prefer to avoid, like what do you mean make an irrational???? decision??? Furthermore, I feel like for them making a decision from the heart IS racionalizing things because the world of emotions is directly brought to the realm of thought and reason, so they honestly embody a very interesting blend between heart and mind

⚡️ They seem to feel attracted to people that are a total mess in some way. They like that all over the place energy. They just love that stimulation. They also want someone that makes them laugh much like their sister sign

⚡️ Could also go for people that are completely different than them because like I said, they enjoy understanding things, so the journey of trying to understand someone that is very different or all over the place is very stimulating for them. The down side is that they can get bored eventually so that's why Gemini moons kinda like people who have a certain level of unpredictability

⚡️ When underdeveloped, they could become overly-rational to the point where they become extremely cold and self-serving. Like they would approach things rationally and therefore be like "okay but what's the most convenient outcome/choice for me then?". Like they could approach everything very coldly as if it was some equation to solve and only care about the most "rational" outcome which, rationally, would mean the most convenient for them. They can basically have that "it's logical, therefore it's good/correct" approach towards EVERYTHING and this can make them very cold people

⚡️ A lot of times they are total nerds and they like being seen as intelligent. It's common for them to take a lot of pride in knowing a lot about a certain thing specially if they also have Sagittarius energy

⚡️ When it come to being good listeners.... gemini moons are honestly hit and miss to be honest. Mostly miss if you ask me. They can A LOT of times be that type of people who in a conversation they don't really listen they just wait for their turn to talk. Sometimes they don't even respond they just talk lmaoo. Most of the times while you're talking their mind is racing, deep down they're having a conversation with themselves in their head and they're externalizing it to you. They're also prone to interrupting to just make a comment or be like "ohhhh that reminds me of.... !" *proceeds to tell a long-ass anecdote*. Like this is no shade seriously, I’m a Mercury dominant so I understand that y'alls mind just CAN'T STOP and you don't like staying too focused on just one thing at a time, but honesty having a convo with y'all requieres a bit of patience lmao.

⚡️ I've noticed however that with the people they care about they genuinely listen, they take it upon themselves to find a racional solution for their loved ones

⚡️ They are very cut-throat and straight forward, they like short and straight forward answers that makes them understand things in a pinch. If they asked a simple question don't come to them with a whole thesis

⚡️ The only times when they like to give long elaborated answers is when it comes to story-telling. Have you ever read ANYTHING written by a Gemini moon?? One of the best things you'll read for sure. Literally so talented and have so much eloquence, and they're also the best at providing short but entertaining and enriching info.

⚡️ I've noticed Gemini moons are either very happy-go-lucky people or have a RBF and tend to be super snarky

⚡️ RANDOMLY CONTINUING A CONVERSATION YOU LEFT UNFINISHED THREE MONTHS AGO AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED LIKE "YEAH, AS I WAS SAYING.." IS MY FAVORITE THING ABOUT Y'ALL

⚡️ Also, Gemini moon's ability to be telling you a story and in the middle of it spend 20 min telling another long-ass side story that is likely unrelated and swiftly recap the main story as if there was no interruption whatsoever.... y'all are fascinating

⚡️ A lot of times Gemini moons have siblings (usually older) and their siblings are probably the most important relatives they have in their life. I’ve also noticed it’s common for the Gemini moons to be the middle sibling

⚡️ When it come to mothers I’ve noticed Gemini moons have multiple mothers/nurturers. For example they could have step parents, they were raised by their mom and grandparents, etc. Whatever the case may be there’s an energy around them where they had multiple mother, multiple homes (divorced/separated parents), multiple people that took care of them here and there, etc. And the native often felt like these people came and went.

⚡️ If this is not the case then Gemini moons have very scattered mothers. In most scenarios they have a mother that is always busy, probably has multiple jobs or something like that. The native was kinda left to roam around on their own mostly.

⚡️ The native may be used to having quick and light-hearted interactions with the mother as if talking to your sibling. And also long interesting conversations as if chatting over coffee with their mother type of energy. The relationship with the mother may not feel very serious and a bit detached

⚡️Their mother probably treated them very “rationally” like if the native came to her with an issue their mother would be like “well what can we do about it?” much like what I explained before about finding a rational solution to things and not so much corny emotional support.

⚡️ The mother may be younger than average or she looks young or the native was raised by someone young like an older sibling or a nanny

⚡️ Gemini moons may be used to constant short rides (through car, train, etc.) around the city/country throughout their childhood usually with the purpose of visiting relatives

⚡️ As kids they probably had lots of extracurricular activities

astrobydalia on tumblr

[boku-no-loveletters]

(1/3?)Hi! Idk if you're still doing match ups but I was wondering if i could get a prohero match up pls! If not, please feel free to ignore my ask, I completely understand and hope you're resting 💕 if soooo-I’m a straight cis Hispanic female that’s 5ft tall, I have wide hips, big butt/thighs, my top half ain’t special tho and I have black hair/bangs and dark brown eyes+glasses! I’m a cancer with an INFP personality, I’m shy and closed off at first but as I get used to you I open up.

Also, my favorite season is fall, I have been told that I have a motherly, clownery, therapist type of vibe. I’m stubborn, not big on commitment (when I commit tho, I COMMIT) My ideal date is napping, eating our junk foods and watching anime and movies! I’m a cancer sun, Leo moon and Libra rising. I’m an introvert and Hufflepuff.

I’m shy and closed off at first but as I get used to you, I open up. I like sleep, anime and boys (But I like anime bois more than real ones :( )…I also have daddy issues…the following info has nsfw/sfw, if it makes you feel uncomfortable, feel free to ignore it! My hobbies include dancing and singing! My turn on: Love and understanding (Nfsw-degradation and praise/daddy kink)-(I base my love life off of Disney movies and Wattpad)

LAST ONE! Turn offs: not willing to understand that I need space to cope with my moodiness. (NFSW-someone that doesn’t care about my consent!) I’m the type of person that tends to want to listen more than I want to talk. I’m always on TikTok cuz crackheads things. My names Larissa, but my friends prefer “Dummy”, “idiot, ”, or clown cus even though I may be book smart, I am very stupid. THANK YOU IN ADVANCE IF YOU DO CHOOSE TO DO THIS, MAKE SURE YOU DRINK WATER, REST AND PLS EAT!

Heyo, I did your match-up!

-I had a lot of fun with this one! I enjoyed reading your description and being really specific helped me determine which Hero was better for you. At first, I was torn between All might and Hawks since they both seemed to be really laid back in certain activities they do, but hawks and you seemed to have similar interests and similar attitudes.

-I felt that Hawks would like someone with an attitude like his, laid back and idealistic, yet healing and therapeutic. Hawks needs someone that he can confide in since he goes through a ton of pressure daily despite not looking like it. Having someone that is gentle to a level where he can let his guard down is important, trust is important for him. Plus, what kind of relationship is it if you don’t trust your partner?

-I think he would absolutely adore planning out little dates that specifically involved only you and him since he just wants some time with his girl alone, but if you asked him that you wanted to go out he wouldn’t mind at all. I think that he’d like Movie marathons with take out KFC more since that just kinda sounds like his thing. I think there’s also a really high probability that he’d like anime too, but I think he’d be a fan of sports animes like Haikyuu!

-Hawks is a thinker and I think he’d be more than happy to give you your space since he understands how much some people, like him, need their alone time or a break depending on your mood.

-If you dance and you sing, then you already have your number one supporter on your hands. This man will cheer you on and/or secretly videotape you doing one of your most beloved activities without you noticing and when you’re done, he will come to you and show you how beautiful you look or sound and compare it with the other videos he took of you.

-He has a hard time deciding which one is going to be his new ringtone, he thinks it’s nice waking up and hearing you singing before he gets ready for the day.

-Daddy issues? No worries! The number 3 pro hero, to the rescue! He will try as many humorous antics as he can to get your mind off of family problems, sometimes he'll go in for a scare to completely snap you out of the subject if it takes your attention away from more important things.

I think that the way you guys meet would be by pure coincidence, You are another citizen of the city while he was the number three hero, it ‘s bound to happen by some point unless of course, you both were known to come to a common place that you loved.

Ah, yes. Today was a Friday, AKA the perfect today to start on another one of your most favored series along with various amounts of snacks that you are sure will mess up your stomach afterward. But hey, who cares about that? It’s the weekend! That means no work, no worries, and certainly no more bothersome people!

You took in a deep breath and smiled happily, content that your day of work was already over which left you the remaining of the last day of your workweek and the rest of Saturday and Sunday! Your right hand gently steering the wheel of your vehicle while your left hand held the small wad of cash for the food that you were using for something special.

You pulled up to the parking lot of the convenience store, picking up your purse and stepping out of the car with your money already in your hand. The door opened ahead of you with a small ding, revealing the rows of food and the clerks' desk upfront.

You scanned over the store’s range and noticed how weirdly empty it was, not a lot of customers were present at the moment though the woman already at the front desk looked oddly excited. Maybe it was someone important? Well, it was probably none of your business anyways, you’re just a customer after all so you just paid attention to what you came here for.

Fried chicken. Hell yeah.

Fried chicken along with potato chips and drinks was the main ingredient for a great marathon to where you could binge-watch all the episodes you wanted. ALL the episodes, although your parents would probably scold you for your unhealthy habits, as you said before, you could care less.

So you began walking down the aisles, dragging your finger over the tags to look for your favorite brand of chips under their company name all the while obliviously ignoring the floating crimson object that drifted across the air.

You then felt a little tickle at your neck at which you swiped to the back of your head and grabbed what appeared to be..a feather? Which was strangely familiar as it was red too.

The only red feather you had ever seen was that of a certain famous hero's wings and it's not like he'd pick such a low profile store to get some food, right? But then you really couldn't think of him any less based on the current decisions you're making right now.

Just as you were about to inspect the small little feather, it zoomed from out of your grasp and flew ahead over the aisles. By then, you had finally paid attention to the conversations that carried over the wave of food and products.

You craned your neck over to look at the superintendent and... a man?

Much to your surprise, it was the number three pro hero, Hawks! His cheerful demeanor was just as laid-back as ever. His blonde hair was slicked back with a few stray locks framing his face while he donned a leather jacket and matching black pants for an outfit.

Your mouth was wide open in surprise, what a coincidence! You were right! So you leaned in quietly and began listening in on their conversations, being sure not to make yourself get exposed and labeled as another one of Hawk's stir crazy fangirls.

Your ears then picked up on Hawk's smooth yet rough voice, the volume of his speech echoing across the store as he asked a certain thing about the manager's day or what he'd thought about doing all the while digging through his pocket, both front and back.

He must've been looking for something...like money.

You clasped a hand over your mouth to silence yourself from laughing before you were caught. The number three pro hero, Hawks, had forgotten money to buy some things at the store...which was fried chicken.

Respectable choice, a faith that you had to save a fellow chicken eater from.

So you quietly walked over to their positions, being mindful not to interrupt their conversation and gently tugged on Hawk's jacket. He gradually turned around and met your gaze directly with just a hint of surprise and turbulence.

"Oh, hey! Another fan? You need me to sign something of yours?" he spoke in a cheerful manner to which you simply shook your head and brought his hand to yours and put in a couple wads of cash before walking out of the store and waving him and the superintendent goodbye.

Perhaps another time would be better, you could always wait for your paycheck and get a much higher paying. 'Yeah, that'd be much better than that shabby amount.' you thought to yourself while bringing your purse closer to your chest in giddiness and opening the door to your automobile.

He was confused for a moment before he brought his attention to his hand and gently opened it. The slips of cash you left in his care were just the amount he had been missing to get himself a quick snack ere going back to his house.

He felt a small blush creep up his neck when the realization hit him, you must've seen his crappy attempt at finding some random change in his pocket when you were just a few aisles behind him in the store.

So, wasting no time to say his thanks, he quickly paid for his food and said his goodbyes before rushing to the front of the store and catching your vehicle leave just at the last moment.

He used his large vermillion wings to wave to you while you left and hazily watched your car leave to the next street on the highway. How oddly nice of a citizen to give him some spare cash, maybe he'd repay you the next time you came around...that is, if he could find you.

-So after that, Hawks did manage to find you the next time around and he did keep his promise of returning your fair share of money. Although the other times you guys did meet up around the store was when you returned to get more snacks and he was simply buying more chicken, claiming that the store had good quality food.

-He tries to make small talk with you either by using the fact that he doesn’t have enough money as an excuse or that he’s just simply another pro hero passing by and checking in on his favorite citizen.

-The time when you guy’s actually agreed to dating was by him confessing and using chicken drumsticks as a gift for your first date. It worked.

-Both You and Hawks have energy that matches each other, you practically fit like puzzle pieces based on how I view it. You both share similar views on how the world could work if it would differ on a creative basis or when you know how to take a break from certain things and just be in each other’s presence.

-He tries to get as many breaks as he can from doing hero work, so if he consults his agencies about how much time he’s missing being away from you, he’ll try and send little trinkets from his workplace to you and let you know he’ll be home sooner or later.

NSFW!

-Now, this guy has the DNA of a hawk, you can definitely expect him to randomly go into phrases involving sexual matters such as mating season and i’d imagined that would happen mostly around the spring with the summer sometimes being an exception.

-Hawks is that one bitch that prays before eating you out, I will not hold a discussion for this. HE IS THAT BITCH and NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE.

-Oh, a daddy kink you say? Hawks is going to enjoy this. No doubt this man here is going to get rough in the bedroom and he will waste absolutely no energy on you. Just one slip up of calling him that name and he will ravage into the bed mattress.

-If you’re really into making him wait a bit before actually getting into bed, this man will praise your body throughout the whole session as if he had never had a drip of pleasure in his life.

Hope you liked your match-up!

@animeboihoe

[aylinaliens]

get to know me more! 

tagged by @metawwin thank you so much ali 💕

✨ what do you prefer to be called name wise?

my name is kayla but i typical go by kay. you can honestly call me anything though because i'm not picky.

✨ when is your birthday?

december 21st!

✨ where do you live?

the us

✨ three things you are doing right now?

cuddling with my dog, drinking hot cocoa, and watching 3 Will Be Free

✨ four fandoms that have piqued your interest right now?

so many fandoms has piqued my interest honestly but atm i would have to go with 2gether, extraordinary you, uwma, and maybe the very small fandom for the romance of the tiger and rose. honorable mentions to girl from nowhere/3wbf since i'm binging them right now.

✨ how is the pandemic treating you?

not the best.

i have a chronic illness so i've been stuck inside my house for like 4 months straight. i think i only left the house about 6 times? it's safe to say i'm *this* close to losing it.

but being stuck at home for so long gave me time to focus on my writing, learn how to use photoshop, bond w/ my family, and watch a bunch of shows i had on my watchlist soooo...not all bad i guess??

✨ song you can’t stop listening right now?

it's a toss up between @brightwin EarnPear/wlw inspired song ‘of soft pink skies and candy floss’ because it makes my little sapphic heart so full and 'i loved you first' by joan. it gives off big pansoda vibes (or lgbtq+ couples in general) so i can't stop listening to it. also iu’s ‘give you my heart’ is another song i can’t get out of my head.

✨ recommend a movie.

tune in for love.

✨ how old are you?

22

✨ school, university, occupation, other?

i’m a junior in college studying sociology w/ an emphasis in criminology. i’m planning on heading to grad school in a few years after i gain some experience/discover some more interests i might have.

✨ do you prefer hot or cold?

cold for sure! i’ve never liked summer/the heat. as for drinking/eating wise it’s the opposite. in the dead of winter i tend to eat ice cream/cold foods but in the summer i can’t get enough of hot stuff. which is why i’m drinking hot chocolate when it’s nearly 90 degrees fahrenheit outside.

✨ name one fact others may not know about you.

i was born with a hole in my heart. is that consider an interesting fact? or is it just morbid one who knows wjdjdjdj

✨ are you shy?

painfully. both online and irl. that’s why i don’t interact with that many people on here and lurk instead. i always feel so awkward/like i won’t add enough to the discussion so i just stay quiet

✨ do you have any preferred pronouns?

she/her or they/them is fine!

✨ any pet peeves?

a pet peeve i can’t stand is when people are condescending. or people who make others feel bad for something they like. especially when you try to tell them about it and they ridicule you over it. it isn’t cute to jump on the hate bandwagon. thankfully no one in this fandom is like that which makes me <3 we can have the most weird head canons or analysis on something and you can count on someone else supporting it. anyways I love that we all just collectively get along for the most part. it’s a nice change from some very toxic fandoms i was in when i was younger.

✨ what’s your favorite “dere” type?

i only knew the meaning of Tsundere but after looking it up i would say Dandere or Deredere i guess. i’m a sucker for sweet, quiet, and friendly characters.

✨ rate your life 1-10. 1 being really crappy and 10 being the best you could ever be.

like most the pandemic has changed a lot for people so i’m not going to include it in my rating. i’d go with 6. life could be better (which i’m working on) but i’m lucky enough to have the chance to pursue/further my education, become comfortable in my sexuality, and be surrounded by wonderful friends.

✨ what’s your main blog?

this is my main blog! i have a side blog where i post about kdrama’s @eundanharu but honestly i’m too lazy to manage it. that’s why this blog is just a mess of various fandoms instead of just thai bl like i intended.

✨ is there anything you think people need to know about you before becoming friends with you?

i’m really awkward and sometimes will not reply to your messages for a long period of time. it has nothing to do with you but i either forget or can’t think of anything good to say so i put a pin in it for the future. plus 99% of the mutuals i have are incredibly talented so i’m always feel like a lowly peasant who doesn’t deserve the attention i’m receiving. yes, i do realize that is a bad thing to think, the people in this fandom are genuinely sweet/always welcoming, but i’m a lil bit of a dumbass.

that being said i would love to make more mutuals on here so please don’t hesitate to send me a message/ask/etc. i’ll try my best to be active and not disappear. chances are after we get back the initial first conversation things will be go more smoothly. all you really have to do is mention sarawatine, earnpear, or deanpharm and i’ll come running.

tagging @sarawatism @pastel-butnotreally-angel @cu-tine @nongfiat + whoever else wants to do this!

[tedfashionski]

Seeing Red

I was drawing today and reminded somehow of that depressing development where the sister of David & Samantha Cameron has been appointed editor of the Evening Standard. Like, I’m looking past the implied wider corruption problems in ‘real’ journalism here, but one point she said in her announcement interview really bothered me. She said, something to the effect of ‘Oh, thank god I spent 20 years working at Vogue while David was in politics, because I am just so fond of him and I would hate to have to be critical of him. So I was safe at Vogue.’

That, right there, sums up how far fashion media is from even being able to recognise the functional role of journalism. Oh, thankfully, at Vogue we can hide from criticality and awareness of the political dimensions of the world. All the while, the fashion industry is feeding this planet-killing spirit-crushing capitalist consumerism. But, no, why would it be political? Stop making it political. It’s just clothes.

 K, I’m going to RANT a little about these digital fashion weeks we’ve just been subjected to. I’ll preface by saying, yeah, I get it, it’s hard to be creative in the thick of a pandemic. My standards have been accordingly lowered 20%. I am very generous.

 Chanel and Dior’s lack of energy was no surprise. Although, keeping in mind female designers tend to be more pragmatic as a matter of course, it’s sad the two top women are being so listless. I was pleasantly surprised by Azzaro – it gave a hint of a vibe but was sure of itself. It emphasised that there was no reason for the Chanel & Dior videos & collections to exist, no point of view. The smaller couture players like the Dutch trinity of Ronald van der Kemp, Iris van Herpen, and Viktor & Rolf were a little more canny, you got the impression they were enjoying themselves at the very least.

 Regarding men’s, I do think Rick Owens was actually well judged in its boringness – we don’t need product-based experimentation necessarily. I enjoyed the meta-narrative aspect, it seems to me a good time for that kind of subtle, slightly snide interplay of references. Yohji’s design’s really sang, the video could have worked harder, it felt thrown together and didn’t do the clothes justice. (Side note, that showstudio Yohji review video, 45 mins of failing to say anything, was what finally pushed me over the edge. Dude. Are you guys for real? ‘Where is the avant garde’? If you don’t know, give up already. I’m not even a Yohji fanbear but he deserves better.) Kiko gave us a real stab at a pscho-medieval vibe, and I would’ve written a full review about it cus there’s stuff going on there. But fuck that. If he doesn’t want to talk to us, and show his full vision to the public in a spirit of optimism and faith in the culture, why should I bother with him? Mean and snooty gatekeeping gets mean and snotty graffiti right back.

 Fashion culture (twitter, specifically) wants to be wowed by everything all the time. Then, it complains and says why is fashion week even happening during a pandemic, now isn’t the time for fashion. Another example of our schizo cognitive dissonance as we consume this shit. What do we even want?

 I’ll tell you what I want. I want fashion designers to be engaged in a collective speculative in-depth discussion of what the future feels like right now, as an artform. So, I’m not going to analyse anything as a commercial proposition, because the future features less and less buying shit. In part as I believe that with growing internet dispersal of OG systems, awareness will rise, the vocabulary will expand, and we’ll stop caring so much about the performative aspects of fashion clothing. The interiority aspect will only grow, and that means unique-feeling experiences that are like conversing with a familiar presence. The fashion designer as moot, a parasocial meta-commentator. A friend you don’t actually have to talk to, just talk with, in the culture. That process won’t start from a point of ‘buy my shit’. First, a relationship should be built up, set up and running along. Then, if product occurs it’s incidental. Wow, I’m being a real little weatherbear. Check out my prophecies!

 So, I’m pretty disappointed and depressed about the resentful undertone of much of the work presented to us. Like, they’re crossing their arms and getting all grumpy about how they’re not allowed to carry on like they always do. FFS, you’re FASHION PEOPLE. Change is the name of the game, this shit should excite you. It’s your job to guide each other in an open-ended perusal of future possibilities, and to make recommendations. It’s not just clothes, they’re the medium, the language in which you build the commentary. If all you care about is nice product (*cough*, hedi slimane, *cough* jacquemus), stop calling yourself a fashion designer, because you’re a clothing manufacturer and I don’t care about you.

 Why are all these videos so boring? Have any of these people heard of editing, rhythm? They do realise you can hire people for this kind of thing, right? The deadening lack of imagination amongst people whose full-time job it is to be creative about the present’s transition into the future is astounding. This really underlines the risks of nepotism and gatekeeping. The only people who can afford to participate are the gutless products of a bloated upper middle class. I don’t believe in that class’s creative capacities for one fucking minute. They’ve got nothing at stake, no guts to go against anything, because their boring shitty system works for them, so why should it change? Ugh, vom.

Where is the communicative power? Nothing is being said, it’s filler for an elite determined to go down with their ship. I’m glad it’s sinking, it wasn’t fit for purpose and I’ll happily stick some extra holes in to make it sink faster.

 I’m going to single out Jonathan Anderson again. Listen, he’s a little pretty boy who’s working so effectively within the system, who has played the game perfectly to the best of his ability. His work is top level, he wins every time. So, I reckon he can be held up as an example. He can take it. I’m looking at the box-shows he did for Loewe and his own brand, and I’m thinking, oh that’s such a lovely take on alt fashion communication. So much heart, and care. Then, what’s the internet equivalent? A little video showing off the box. Some 3d shots & backs of looks and boxes. A little extemporised pitter patter from Jonny. That’s it. It’s still classist as fuck. With garment design there’ll always be limits on what’s possible in terms of digital translation. This isn’t actually garment design though. It’s fashion design. If I’m stuck with a low-grade clip and some jpegs, it’s pretty clear to me you don’t care about your wider fashion community. There should be an open digital experience that feels equally cared for and crafted. And here’s where I get really angry: all these fashion journalists have been delivered this unique, beautiful experience, and what are they doing with it? Where is the thoughtful response? Every single one of these people in this privileged position should be DOING THEIR JOBS (WHICH THEY ARE PAID TO DO, FULL TIME) and WRITE ABOUT FASHION. Not post online, ‘omg lovee ittt, so cutee!’. Anyone can do that. Are you a fan or a professional? This is an embarrassment. I’m stuck analysing some pixels. You’re getting the ‘real’ experience. I know I’ll never be an insider given these opportunities. I chose this path and I’m not going to try and play that game, because the rules are: you get access, in exchange for sacrificing criticality. Because these people, as educated and privileged as they are, don’t understand the value of criticism. Good criticism, the detailed, even handed, unafraid kind, pushes the culture forward. You can’t have a healthy art form without it, it’s essential because it’s the back in the back and forth. I probably could’ve tried to play their silly PR game a bit harder. But I had a nervous breakdown, in part, because I knew I would never be allowed to get close to the art enough to analyse it fairly if I spoke freely as I do now. And freedom is essential. So, pixels it is. Rudeness it is. Because there is work to do to salvage the bottom-dwelling wreck of our fashion dreams so that maybe we can travel somewhere new and better with them. It just sucks that there’s people standing there with the tools to help and no desire to save themselves or anyone else.

[dcmnjas]

JASMINE DIXON sits down with the heavy hitters of 99.7 to discuss her up and coming music, her personal life and her social media. We talk to the artists you guys want!

“Alright, alright, alright! We’ve got the pretty girl, KILLA JAS, aka JASMINE DIXON in the building today.” Cuing the sound effects, cheers could then be heard as a result of the animated sounds. Readjusting herself in the office chair that she sat in, JAS proceeded to ease the chair inward, wanting to ease closer to the microphone so that she wasn’t over extending herself to talk into it. “What up, y’all? What up?” She shouted out in an energetic tone while running her fingers through her now dark brown tresses. Though JASMINE loved her honey-blonde and sometimes platinum blonde locks, a switch up was always nice, and so, she decided to change the game by going back to her dark brown mane — at least for the time being. Even if she ended up going back to her blonde tresses days later. “I’m so used to seeing you with blonde hair that to see you with this darker hair caught me by surprise.” The radio personality stated as JAS let her faint laughter flow into her microphone seated before her. “Well, you know, I wanted to come on something different today. I wanted y’all to see that your girl can be versatile — besides, my hair is naturally dark brown, anyways. Don’t get it twisted though, I can very much go back to my blonde hair with ease.” JASMINE uttered out in a sassy tone with a subtle grin painted over her pudgy set. “We feel that, we feel that. So, there’s a little rumor going around that we may be getting some new music from you? Any truth to that?” Giving the group a nod, followed by a sly grin, she then proceeded to clear her throat before actually answering the question at hand. “Oh yeah, there’s definitely some new music on the way. I’ve been working so hard and been so focused for so long that it’s only right that I put what I’ve been working on out here for everyone to vibe to.” The group gave a nod of approval, understanding entirely just what JAS was getting at in her response. “When exactly should we be expecting this music? Like, this week? This month or later this year?”

“I can’t imagine myself waiting another year just to put out a single or two. Y’all can expect these songs soon. I won’t put a date on it like GOTTI, but I will say it won’t be later down the year or anything like that, because I’m ready to have you guys here it.” Respecting her hunger and drive, they nodded once more before switching ships and turning the conversation off of her music and onto another topic at hand. “So, your last relationship was in the public spotlight. Now that that isn’t a thing anymore, have you been dating? Is KILLA JAS single?” Shaking her head as she ran the tip of her pink toned tongue over her pearly whites, she paused there for a moment before finally giving the group an answer. “Oh, nah. I’m for sure single. I’ve been in my bag so heavy lately that dating hasn’t even been a thought of mine. Of course guys have tried, but honestly, I just need some me time. I just want to focus on my music with no distractions whatsoever, so to answer your question directly, I haven’t been dating either.” Of course her ex-boyfriend had a big do-ing in JASMINE not even wanting to date, but she would never admit that out-loud. She was using her music and busy schedule to keep her busy and excuse her from even having to deal with the opposite sex — at least for now. Shrugging off the awkwardness that was now in the room as a result of the surprise that JAS wasn’t dating, the conversation swiftly moved to something more interesting. “Well, we respect that. Sometimes breakups turn us on to our grind mode. We’ve seen that you’ve been booming on YOUTUBE and INSTAGRAM, How did you get such a following on social media?”

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BNHA Fic: Blink! Ch. 5

Read Ch. 4 | Masterlist

SPOILER ALERT: This chapter will begin the spoilers for those who haven’t read the manga. Season 4 will cover what will happen from here on. This chapter is basically a filler to the main storyline.

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The long awaited weekend came about. While a certain two begun their provisional classes, a few other students of 1-A were interviewing for internships even though a unanimous ‘no’ came from the staff. Some were engrossed in group study sessions.

As much as Ren wanted to sleep in, a few students took her up on the one-on-one stamina and quirk training sessions in the morning. After that, it was off to her internship interview. Hawks recently became much busier with the Hero Billboard Ranking coming up soon, so he was out of the running.

In the end, she relied on her senpais for recommendations; Tamaki-senpai threw her name into the ring for Fat Gum. Sir Nighteye was her first choice having caught wind of an interesting investigation; unfortunately, Midoriya got the jump on her before she could even ask Mirio-senpai. And even if she did, she was sure he’d say no for a variety of reasons.

Nejire-senpai was all gung-ho in introducing her to Ryuukyuu, but ended up giving her spot to Uraraka and Asui instead.

Feeling the rush of regret for putting this off for so long, she tugged at her own hair lightly. Checking her bag to make sure she got everything she needed, Ren headed out to the elevator and saw a spiky redhead waiting by it.

“Oh, Ren-senpai! Mornin’!” Kirishima greeted. “You headin’ out too?”

“Yeah. I have an interview in Kansai...”

“Really?! Me too!”

The elevator door dinged open and the two entered.

“I’m surprised you guys are still going for it, even though the school said no to first years,” Ren remarked and hit the close button.

“Well, y’know a lot of us are just antsy and wanna get stronger...” Kirishima said and clenched his fist. 

“That’s… a very noble response, Kirishima-kun.” She gave the boy a small, sympathetic smile. “Yours… is a hardening quirk, right?”

“Yep!”

“Can you shoot anything out of your body like an arrow?”

The spiky redheaded boy chuckled at the thought and replied, “Nah. Can’t do anythin’ like that. I’m just focusing on retaining my hardened form so I can fight longer right now.”

The door to the elevator slid open and the two made their way out of the dorms, continuing their conversation en route to the train station.

“A hardening quirk is certainly a good one for defense and offense, but if you can manipulate it where you can shoot projectiles out of your arms or something, it’d definitely increase your attack mobility,” Ren suggested. “You can also use it as a diversion and make the fight a close quarter to use your power to its full potential.”

“Whoa, I never thought of that. That’s amazin’, senpai,” Kirishima praised. “Never in a million years would I even think that far.”

“I am here to help you all draw out everyone’s maximum power, after all,” the pink haired girl pointed out. “By the way, who are you interviewing with in Kansai?”

“Oh, I asked Amajiki-senpai to recommend me to Fat Gum,” he replied, prompting Ren to turn her head. “What ‘bout you, Ren-senpai?”

“What a small world,” she chuckled with a curve of her lips. “We’re going to the same place.”

“Alright!” he cheered. “I can’t wait to see your quirk in action!”

“It’s really not that interesting...” she confessed sheepishly. “I just go from point A to point B like Nightcrawler.”

“Eh? Naito-what*? Is he a hero from America?”

“A-ah.” Ren stuttered out with a small blush forming on her cheeks from embarrassment. “He’s… a comic book hero from America I used to read about. He really left an impression on me since we have a similar quirk. My costume at one point was modeled after his.”

“Whoa, that’s so cool!” he admired with a wide smile. “Mine is Crimson Riot!”

“That… explains so much about you,” Ren deadpanned.

“Was that supposed to be an insult?! Hey!”

The two reached the train station and bought their tickets to transfer to the bullet train down. The duration of the trip allowed the two to talk and know one another better over bento boxes and bottled tea.

“So what made you wanna be friends with Bakugou?” Ren wondered. “He’s… brash.”

“Yeah, he really is. No matter how many times I tell him he needs to tone it down...” he chuckled loosely. “As a matter of why… Because he’s strong. And even though he doesn’t look like it, he’s a reliable guy to have your back up against when you’re in a pinch.”

The look on Kirishima’s face was one that radiated respect and brotherly love for the explosive blond.

“So let me ask you: out of everyone in 1-A, who do you think pushes everyone to be a better version of themselves?”

“It’s hard to say. Everyone has their own qualities, but if I had to choose…” The roaring redhead thought long and hard about his answer. “Probably Midoriya, Bakugou and Todoroki.”

“Why those three?”

“Well, Todoroki’s the strongest in our class ‘cus of his duality in power, but Bakugou and Midoriya work the hardest in bettering their quirks. They push the rest of us to be better heroes.”

Ren let out an interested hum and sipped her drink.

“Better keep a closer eye,” Ren thought aloud half-jokingly. “Those three have the scent of trouble on them. I feel bad for Aizawa-sensei having to deal with all of their stuff.”

Her travel companion could only laugh.

“They do kinda give off that vibe, don’t they?”

A short silence broke between the two.

“Senpai… can I ask you a serious question?”

“Go for it.”

The mood around the two began to shift ever so slightly. Kirishima tightly clasped his hands and took a breath.

“I trust you’ll be honest with me, senpai,” he began, sensing the anxiety build up in his chest. “Do you think...I’ll make a good hero?”

“Why do you ask?”

He loosened his intertwined fingers and bent over, wearing a wistful face.

“With all the things that’s happened recently with our class, I feel like all I’ve done is stand on the sidelines while everyone else did what they could with their powers. I just... I wanna close the gap on our levels so I can be more helpful.” 

She turned and faced him with a solemn expression.

“If you want strength to just protect and be on equal footing with your peers, then no...” she quietly answered, making him audibly hitch a breath in his throat. “You’ll be a great hero.”

Tears began forming from the corner of Kirishima’s eyes, urging him to turn away to wipe them away with his right arm and sniffled.

“Sure, you’re a bit rough around the edges when it comes to your fighting style,” Ren continued. “But you work hard at improving it. You also have a big heart to go with your head-strong tenacity and determination that’ll push you to be the hero you aspire to be.”

Her words devolved the boy into a crying and blubbering mess, throwing his R.A. into a tight and awkward sideways embrace. She was trying to quickly comfort him as curious eyes from other passengers began looking in their direction. Her eyes darted back and forth.

“Kirishima...” she quickly hissed in his ear and slapped his back. “Stuff your emotions back in! People are staring.”

“But-but-but–” he stammered out as tears continued pouring out.

“Miss, is everything okay?” one of the train attendants came by.

“Y-yes! He’s fine,” Ren answered a lot quicker and louder than she expected. Nervous sweat began pooling at the crown of her head. “He was telling me about one of his pets that recently passed away and well...” Her hand gestured to the current bawling version of her travel companion and let out an uncomfortable laugh.

“Ah… I’m sorry to hear that,” the attendant sympathized.

“I’ll get him to calm down soon. Promise. We didn’t mean to disturb the passengers.”

The attendant left the two alone and the redhead was able to calm down soon after. Ren handed him a tissue to clean himself up in the bathroom and sat in her seat, covering her face in exhaustion. The tips of her ears cascaded red from embarrassment. They’re still about an hour out to Kansai and she already wants to go back. Feeling his presence nearby, she sat up to let the redhead back into his seat.

“S-sorry ‘bout before, senpai.” He shyly looked away and scratched the back of his head, still sniffling. “That wasn’t very manly of me.”

“It’s fine,” she disregarded with a wave of her hand, her face showing weariness. “Just… Try not to do it in a public setting. I think onlookers thought I was breaking up with you,” she jested.

“You? Break up with me? But I’m perfect,” he returned the joke.

“Okay, now you’re starting to sound like Bakugou.”

The two chuckled to ease the tension.

“Ren-senpai?”

“Hm?”

“Thanks.”

Giving him a smirk, Ren raised the back of her left fist to bump with his. Another hour later, they finally landed in Kansai, the land of food. Making their way through the local commuters around Shin-Osaka Station, they finally found the connecting train to get to Fat Gum’s office. Amajiki met them at the front entrance.

“You’re late,” the brooding indigo haired boy blurted out.

“We got a bit lost and grabbed some takoyakis on the way,” Ren huffed out from running, holding up the clear plastic container of food. “The line was stupid long and I heard Fat Gum likes it.”

“Bribery’s not gonna get you the internship,” Amajiki replied and turned toward the entrance. “Let’s get this over with.”

The upperclassman led the two travelers into the elevator and presented them to Fat Gum, who was currently sitting at his desk looking over something important on his computer.

“Fat Gum, these are the two juniors I was telling you about the other day,” he announced.

“Oh, right, right. ‘Bout the internships, yeah?”

His friendly demeanor caught both Ren and Kirishima off guard, as they were both expecting to be greeted much more harshly from a pro.

“Alright, little hatchlings, take a seat,” Fat Gum happily said and noticed the plastic container in Ren’s hands. “Could that be–”

She immediately took notice of his line of sight staring at her gift.

“O-Oh, right! These are for you.”

She handed the food item to the BMI Hero with both hands, lightly bowing her head. “I remember reading in your profile report takoyakis are your favorite food and we happened to pass by a stall in Dotonbori on the way here.”

He graciously accepted the gift and looked on top of the container, where a sticker with the store logo was stuck on top. It was from his favorite stand.

“Young lady…” he began in a serious voice. “What is your name?”

“I’m Takahiro Ren, currently a second year at U.A. My quirk is Flicker, where I can teleport to and from a certain distance.”

“And you, young man,” he gestured to the redhead, who was currently shaking out of nervousness. “What about you?”

“I-I’m Kirishima Eijirou, a first year at U.A.,” he introduced. “I have a hardening quirk.”

“Both defense types huh...” He rubbed his chin and popped open the container to partake in the spherical food item. “Tamaki, you brought some interestin’ hatchlings.”

“It’s more like… they cornered me to,” he gasped out from the back and slouched. “I wanna go home...”

“So tell me, hatchlin’s: How many ultimates do you have?”

“I currently have four at my disposal and am working on two more. They’re near completion,” Ren answered with clarity and no drop of hesitation.

Kirishima quickly glanced at his senior and thought how amazingly focused she was. To already have so many moves under her belt while creating more… If he were being honest with himself, he couldn’t help but feel insecure. But now wasn’t the time or the place for it.

“I… I currently have three,” the redhead replied. “And am currently exploring other options in expanding my battle skills.”

“It’s good you continue to expand your skill sets,” he commended. “So tell me, why would you like to intern here?”

“Truth be told, I’ve been hesitating to apply because I don’t think I’m strong enough. But, a senpai of mine scolded me recently and made me realize I was only making excuses for myself.”

Ren let out an unsteady breath and nervously glanced at Tamaki-senpai in the corner, knowing she wouldn’t be able to lie here.

“And out of all the pro heroes in the circuit, you’re the most well known for using defensive tactics in subduing villains,” she explained. “I’d like to learn from your experience as to how I’d be able to better use my own and double it as offense. As for what I can offer to your firm, I believe my quirk would be a strong asset in scouting if we’re to locate various villains.”

“I’d… like to build up my defense so I can better protect others,” Kirishima got to the point. “My quirk isn’t the fastest or flashiest, but I’m sturdy. And while we’re gettin’ everythin’ out in the open here...”

He looked at a random spot on the floor, a flash of uncertainly graced his expression before he looked up again.

“I wanna intern here not because Fourth Kind couldn’t take me, but I wanna get strong quick. Comparing myself to my classmates, I feel like I’m falling behind. I wanna get closer to those at the top in my class! As for what I can contribute to your office, I really don’t know but I’m willing to do the work.”

The rotund hero leaned back in his seat, analyzing and absorbing both of their answers with an understanding hum. He grabbed a couple of papers from his desk and casually glanced at the information written on there as the two U.A. students waited for his response with baited breath.

“Tamaki...” Fat Gum addressed. “What do you think of these two?”

“Ren-kun’s abilities are as solid as they come since she trained with us last year,” Amajiki calmly answered. “And from what I saw of Kirishima’s quirk during 1-A’s spar with Mirio, he has potential.”

Kirishima widened his eyes in shock. Did he just hear that right?

“Senpai, you trained with the Big Three?!” he whispered within an earshot.

“We can hear you,” Amajiki pointed out. “And yes, she did. For an entire summer.”

“I barely survived it,” she groaned out with a grimace on her face. “And this is something I rather not let anyone else know, Kiri-kun. So please keep this between us.”

“But why?!” he argued. “You’re, like, super strong! It’s a huge deal! You trained with the friggin Big Three!”

“Think about it: word gets out, I’m gonna have everyone and their moms asking me to train or spar with them,” she reasoned. “It’s bad enough your hot-headed brother from another mother already wants a piece of me. Also, I don’t like that kind of attention.”

“She doesn’t like confrontation,” Amajiki translated.

“Neither do you!” Ren turned and snapped at her senior. “You’re always saying how much you wanna go home while facing a wall!”

“While that’s true, I still do what needs to be done without hesitation,” he argued back and crossed his arms. “So what about you? What will you do when we come across a villain? Will you freeze up like you did when–”

A sudden bang could be heard from his side of the office. He couldn’t finish the rest of his sentence as Ren teleported straight at him with her left hand slammed onto the wall, trapping Amajiki in on one side. Her green-hazel eyes glared into his indigo ones dangerously.

“Tamaki-senpai...” she spoke with a low, warning voice. “With all due respect, choose your next words carefully.”

“Now, now. Let’s not get all worked up,” Fat Gum’s booming voice interjected to break the tension. “We’re here for your internships, not to bring up the past.”

The pink haired girl huffed a breath through her nose, closed her eyes and removed her hand from the wall. As she walked back, Kirishima could see her melancholic face. Just what was it that got her so worked up like that in an instant? It was then he realized how much he didn’t know.

“As much as I wanna hire you two, I’ll have to run it by U.A. first and make sure it doesn’t interfere with your studies. You should hear from me in about a week. Sound good?”

The two underclassmen nodded in understanding. Thanking Fat Gum for the opportunity again, they made their way out of the office.

“Tamaki...” Fat Gum called, prompting the boy to turn. “You took it too far.”

His intern stood stationary. The boy then scratched his face and let a breath out from his nose.

“Because I’m frustrated with her. She has so much potential and she’s just… playing it safe with everything. It annoys the hell out of me.”

“While I understand how you feel, that’s not how you should go about encouraging her,” he lectured. “Everyone goes at their own pace and impatience will only undo the work you and your friends did.”

Amajiki nodded in silence. The large hero leaned back in his chair again and sighed aloud.

“That girl, Ren… she’s Rennosuke’s daughter?”

“… Yes.”

“I can see the resemblance.”

“So will you hire her?”

“I’ll hire them both and take them under my wing. We need all the people we can get.”

“Are you referring to...” the boy suggested, with Fat Gum nodding and making direct eye contact with his.

“Sir Nighteye’s team up request.”

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*If you’re to say ‘Nightcrawler’ in Japanese, it’d be ‘Naitokuroolaa.’ Aren’t phonetics fun?!

[steamishot]

End of July

i think i’ll be starting my period sometime in the next 24 hours. my friend who i am synced with just started hers this morning. tomorrow, i am using a sick day to go to to dentist. my dentist is in san gabriel- a 20 minute drive east of my home. in the past, i would only take a half day, but then i thought, why am i stressing and rushing myself to go to work when i have all these sick hours. even more so when there’s not much pending at work. so, i plan on going to the dentist in the morning, having lunch in the area, then coming home and painting my living room and kitchen. my dad asked one of his home depot contacts to come work for us lol. i’ll be taping and painting along with him tomorrow so the job gets done faster. just came back from home depot earlier and bought two gallons of shiny luster paint- the same shade and sheen as my room. i also bought a darker grey to paint the borders for contrast. hopefully it looks good. a few weeks ago, our gallon full of coins got topped off. my mom would sit and individually package the coins into the sleeves banks provide whenever we wanted to exchange the coins for cash- this would take her nearly half a day. not sure why we never used coinstar before, but we finally did it. i learned that its an 11% fee if you exchange the coins for cash, but there is no fee when you exchange for a gift card. so, with one gallon full of coins, we got about $350 total- i put about half on a home depot gift card, and half on an amazon gift card. it was funny/so coincidental today that our total came out to be exactly 2 dollars less of our home depot gift card (my dad also had things to buy and we weren’t computing the costs).

events this past weekend: friend’s going away party. she received a scholarship from fullbright- which is a prestigious academic award to represent the US in international affairs. i didn’t realize how honorable it was til today and previously saw it as another “teach english abroad” opportunity. we ate at roe seafood in long beach. i thought the food was pretty bomb- i’d give it a 7/10. however, the more i ate of my scallop porcini pasta- the more water i had to drink. taste wise it was definitely there, but the cheese/carb combo was so damn heavy. i liked the group and it felt easy/natural to socialize (also because i was sitting in between my good friends b and s). in my last blog, i was venting about b, but i realize in the grand scheme of things- the little things i get annoyed by don’t matter. she continued to do the things i got ticked off by over text, but instead of getting irritated, i tried to teach myself to be loving and forgiving and think- she’s not me, i’m not her, don’t think that what i think is the “right” way of doing things is actually right. we had a nice time together that night. good vibes throughout. 

watched lion king with my mom, grandma, bro and wife. i went into the movie having low expectations due to what everyone else was saying, but i enjoyed it. the fact that we got to live through seeing the cartoon version in 1994 to seeing it full in CGI in 2019 is incredible. i love the storyline of lion king. the scene where mufasa dies always gets me. i had to hold back tears during the emotional parts of the movie lol. 

matt’s free time is decreasing and decreasing. he now has to work 6 days a week. he’s at work before i wake up, and still at work after i’m off work. on a GOOD day, he’ll only be at the hospital for about 13 hours, on a bad day, maybe 16 :(. he also has to study outside of work as they have monthly exams. saturday was his one day off during the week and it was kinda sad lol. he has one day to catch up on sleep and he’s too tired to do anything else. he tells me that he doesn’t have time to drink water at work, let alone use the restroom. his lunch consists of downing a soylent. his hospital is severely understaffed and he is doing nurses’ duties (drawing blood, patient care taking). he normally calls me right after he gets off work. i get to talk to him for about an hour or so, while he’s prepping dinner and eating. he then goes shower and gets ready to sleep and i get to see him again for a few minutes before he sleeps. i feel lucky that i’m the one he wants to talk to and see every day. i hope i brighten up his day, as he keeps saying he’s “dying” lol. when he didn’t match into a residency program, he was depressed. now that he’s in residency, it’s also depressing (but at least there is an end in sight). apparently the second and third year residents are super jaded and negative. i wouldn’t be surprised if he became like that in a year lol. on saturday, he called me right before i was going to shower. so i told him that i’ll call him back afterwards. as i got out of the shower, i saw a message from him saying - take your time, i’m gonna go shower too. so i took my time and started getting ready for the going away dinner. he called me 10-15 later and was like “you didn’t call me back!” there was something so satisfying about him being needy and clingy LOL. he’s naturally an independent cerebral person so i love it when he is needy. 

saturday night at like 1am, i got a random text from L asking me about relationship stuff. coincidentally, i couldn’t sleep cus your girl would have been dead asleep by 11 any other day. i’m happy that she felt comfortable enough to reach out to me and share her feelings. i learned that we both are perfectionistic, have unrealistically high expectations, and are quite sensitive. she cares a lot about how others/her friends perceive her relationship. she shared with me an instance where her bf came off a bit rude to her in front of her friends and she felt “very disappointed” in him. if i place myself in her shoes, i can understand why she felt hurt. and if its an reoccurring thing, then i’m sure the pain is stronger. however, being “very disappointed” in your partner for being human is stressful for both you and them because you set unrealistic standards for the relationship. she wasn’t able to let it go and gave the incident more attention than it needed. from hearing her story, i basically saw my problems in someone else. it makes me realize how silly and crazy i am sometimes in making mountains out of molehills. i used to think that it was good to have high standards for your partner, and i often felt disappointed by my last partner. i think it reflected more on myself than him- my needs weren’t being met, i wasn’t happy in the relationship, i stayed with an incompatible partner, etc. having “high” standards is only valuable if the standards are attainable and something that can be worked towards. 

i feel very happy with my current partner. being away from him for almost two months now has allowed me time to reflect on us and myself. i’m way more forgiving with the distance, and considerate about his new schedule and circumstance. in my last relationship, i started seeing the flaws around 8/9 month mark. and if i was smart and experienced enough, i would have realized those were dealbreakers (because in the end, i broke up with him for the same reasons). coming up on 9 months with matt, i feel secure and that our issues are small issues. we’re able to get along and have similar values and ideals. 

his words can sometimes come off harsh but i’ve gotten used to it and actually really appreciate him being honest and constructive with me. a week or so before he left, i was hanging out in his room. i forgot what we were talking about before but he said, “you would be much much prettier if you worked out. not that you don’t look good now, but you would look better if you worked out.” i was a little bothered by that at first, but realized he is 100% correct. i never paid attention to my body much before- but skinny fat is not a good look or feel. my bikini pics in hawaii were meh lol i was flabby, weak and out of shape. i started working out recently with dumbbells and find it so fun- more efficient work out than without any equipment. working out also helps my face maintain its shape. i realized in the past months my face started looking more bloated and fat. i’ve even received comments from two of my older friends - “you got fatter. but just in your face.” i was never mindful of how my diet and exercise routine affected how i looked. which is really dumb as a human lol. i kinda wish i was more athletic when i was younger because i’m almost just starting from scratch now. however, i am grateful that i was at least somewhat active (hiking here and there, walking, leisurely workouts) in the last few years. so, he helped me gain weight to be at a normal range (this is the heaviest i’ve been my whole life). now it’s my job to tone myself. i’ve been saying this for some time, but i’m getting more cognizant about fitness which will help the consistency. 

throughout our time together, he’s only lost his patience/raised his voice a little twice during arguments. the last time he did actually helped so much in putting me in my place. he is very smart and makes pretty good arguments sometimes haha. the last time, it made me realize that it’s better to nourish my relationship rather than bring drama into it. since then, i’ve thought twice about bringing up small issues that i can learn to let go. i love that he pushes and inspires me to be better and to be hardworking. and i’m glad i’m pretty receptive to his ideas. 

i read old conversations with my past partner today. it was super cringy. i come off as cold, inquisitive, and serious and he comes off as immature, emotional and uninterested in my thoughts. even reading through our messages now i felt the frustration i felt when i was talking to him then. i felt i was always trying to change him into the person i wanted him to become. i saw the potential but i didnt see the person he was. to me, he was gross, trashy and had many insecurities. the more separated i am from it, the more i am disgusted with myself for choosing that lol. however, i am grateful for what he taught me, which was what attracted me to him in the first place- how to be intimate emotionally and physically, how to talk about feelings, how to communicate, how to talk about more difficult subjects, how to bring up issues, how to understand what i’m feeling, etc. 

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Dan’s Playstation 5 Reveal Analysis

Alright so first off, if I say something bad about a game you care about.. It’s just my opinion, although tbh they were all pretty decent games so.. yeah.. Just gonna give my thoughts on stuff, Idek if anyones interested I just feel like doing it. Maybe have some conversations with people about it. 

Okay let’s do this.. Under Cut cus long.

GTA V

It’s a ps3 game, cool that the online is free when it comes to PS5 but like..it does just feel like Rockstar paid to have this mentioned and they just shrugged and quickly shoved it at the front of the presentation to get it over and done with before starting for realsies. 

Spider-Man: Miles Morales

Now this isn’t their Spider-Man 2, this is a side game like Infamous First Light was a side game but I love the PS4 Spider-Man it’s one of my favourite games and I know I’ll love this one too so yeah, real solid start. Makes me realise I need more Miles Morales in my life. 

Gran Turismo 7

I played Gran Turismo back on like.. maybe the Playstation 1, honestly Car games just aren’t for me but in like my first initial reaction to the whole reveal I said that there’s games for basically everyone, if you like a specific type of game there is a game for you and car nerds have this. Looks visually stunning though. 

Ratchet and Clank: Rift Apart

Looks stunning, so much happening and really good at showing the power of the Playstation with the travelling to different worlds instantly so quick. I grew up on Ratchet and Clank and I am down for more! I wish it had a dirtier name like Rift A Whole or something to go with the vibes of Up your Arsenal or Quest for Booty or Full Frontal assault.. but looks great! 

Project Athia

Games with the word Project in the title we don’t end up seeing for ageeees but visually it looks stunning, I’d like to know more about it but we’ll just have to wait and see. 

Stray

I have no idea if this is a linear story or a wide open world game or anything. The world looks amazing, robots and fun Grafiti art hinting at a really dark past but yeah Stray cat sim looks cool. I just wanna know more about it but it’s for sure on my to watch list. 

Returnal

Terrible name.. but the game’s story seems somewhat interesting, I thought it would be a first person horror space game with survival elements but then the gameplay seems like a third person bullet hell type thing, honestly it’s not for me but I’m sure there’s some people hyped for it. I’m also a coward so too spooky 4 me. 

Sackboy: A Big Adventure

I like Sackboy as a mascot, same with Ratchet and Clank actually, and I actually really enjoyed Little Big Planet, I never really messed around with the creation aspect of it, I’d like to know if that’s still in the game or if this is simply a platformer type game that you can also play with your friends, either way I might get it but with all the other games around, maybe not. Great if you’re a parent who wants to play something with your kids though!

Destruction Allstars

Honestly.. I haven’t played a Destruction Derby game since like the PS2 and I am so ready for one, I like the whole being able to get out of your vehicle aspect too, seems like a really new and fun idea and take and I’m down to play. I kind of hope it’s free to play with like paid customisation options, like Fortnite, because then I can Just play it for free and people can work out if it’s for them or not. 

Kena: Bridge of Spirits

OHMYGOD THEY ARE SO CUTE THEY KEPT MY BOLD ON! No but this game looks gorgeous and kind of like a Pixar film but in the best way. It’s like a mix of Pikmin, Horizon Zero Dawn and Zelda and I am sure it’ll be probably quite liniar maybe with puzzles but loooook atthe spirits omg they’re the cutest. The enviroments also look gorgeous so.. I’m down. 

Goodbye Volcano High

One of those like Teen growing up discovering the world but like.. they’re dinosaurs and I’m sure the game probably ends with the meteor wiping them out.. honestly not a game for me but people that love that feelsy teen drama type game might be loving whatever this is. 

Oddworld: SoulStorm

The first game creeped me the fuck out as a kid but fans of the series are gonna love this by the looks of it, personally it’s not for me, I’m terrible at these kind of side scrolling lemmings type things but.. I’m sure it’s someones game of the year when it comes out for sure. 

Ghostwire Tokyo

Again, I’m a coward. Game looks interesting, too spooky for me for sure but I’m sure some people will enjoy it’s aesthetic but yeeaaah just not for me.

Jett: The Far Shore

This game looks stunning and very interesting but I also have no idea wtf it even is, it’s like a space.. exploration game maybe? No idea. For sure a wait and see game. 

Godfall

This trailer is terrible for a game that I could enjoy. This is like supposed to be like Destiny from what I’ve heard where you play with your friends and you get better gear but this trailer feels like it’s from 2011. I’d like to see what the progression looks like because right now all the gear I’ve seen looks the same, I need to see what a starting character looks like, someone who’s in the middle of the game and then someone at the end, because the getting gear loop is only good if you actually want the loot.. but yeah looks interesting, i need more information and maybe a better trailer? 

Solar Ash

I never played Hyper Light Drifter but the fact the name rings a bell to me means it’s probably a great game, this gives me like weird Journey vibes which is a game I found really gorgeous and if you haven’t played Journey you should, it’s a basically the answer to “Are games art?” and the answer is yes. But Solar Ash.. I need more than these like 5 seconds so.. We’ll see. 

Hitman 3

Kill people the most creative way you can, now with better graphics. Idek if anyone is interested in the actual story of it anymore but I know a lot of people will be hyped to play it, it’s not for me because I’m terrible at it, but for sure going to see a lot of this on youtube probably. 

Astro’s Playroom

If you’re hating on this, you don’t understand it. Apparently, first off, it’s apparently free. So.. instantly you can’t hate it. Second off, it’s really just Playstation’s tech demo for the controller. I think it’s just going to show you how the controllers haptic feedback works and feels and maybe show some cool Playstation graphics but yeah, it’s a free way to see how cool the controller is now so.. fair enough. 

Little Devil Inside

This is the game I’m probably the most curious about. I love the art style of it, I don’t really know what the gameplay is of it, it seems like ti could be some sort of big open world monster hunter type thing then you bring your kill home to your Butler Jeeves, who knows. Looks really interesting. 

NBA 2K21

is basketball

Bugsnax

This is made by the people who made octodad so maybe it’ll be a big like youtuber or streamer game.. the ending of the trailer for it is.. like.. suddenly spooky and scary for some reason :P Honestly though, I’ve seen the trailer a few times now and that fucking song is stuck in my head even though the only word i know is ‘Bugsnax’.. again it looks like a game for kids and parents so like that’s nice!

Demon’s Souls

The daddy of all the souls type games is back and remastered. Honestly, I can’t play those games to save my life, i don’t enjoy them because I just get annoyed and stop playing forever, but this will be someones favourite game of all time. 

Deathloop

I have no idea what this game really is despite seeing gameplay, is it two player where one of the people has to kill the target and then the other has to kill them before they do? Or singleplayer? Or.. ???? either way I love the style of it and I like the death time loop mechanic so I am more than happy to give this one a go. 

Resident Evil VIllage

Very cool use of the VII to be quite honest, but I’m a coward so this looks to be a stunning game that a lot of people will love that I will never play :D 

Pragmata

No fucking clue. Your guess is as good as mine. *shrug* wtf? 

Horizon Forbidden West

I love Horizon Zero Dawn, I platinumed it.. So I am really fucking down for this sequel. I don’t even know what to say, it looks interesting, some new environments, new robot things to take down. I’m sold. 

The Actual Ps5 Console 

I think people will either hate the design or love it. I really like it and honestly the more I see it the more I like it. Idk about the digital edition, I kind of like owning disks but if it’s considerably cheaper then maybe it’ll be worth it seeing as I do tend to buy most of my games digitally now. Either way, looks cool, the tech is impressive and Yeah.. let’s face it, I’ll get one. Idk if it’ll be on release, but I will get one.

[hishem25]

Considerations Before Buying A Fire Pit Fountain

By Jerry Snyder

Fire is the quintessential element we band around on. From campfires to fireplaces, theres comfort in the warmth and beauty in the dancing and flickering flames. Therefore, appurtenances that cater to it are important as comforters and gatherers. In looking for your next conversation piece, you should take a look at this Fire Pit Fountain. These are particularly great outdoor fixtures. They mesh well with whatever condition and environment. You can light it to provide warmth on the cool and breezy evenings, but on warm and balmy ones, it still does well solely as a centerpiece. A fire pit is a versatile and do all fixture. Therefore, with many purposes and choices up for the taking, theres also correspondingly many choices out in the market, and you might be overwhelmed by them. Consider the size first, such that if you would opt for something small and portable, or else large and permanent. There are a midsized line of products as well. And then you may get down to consider the materials its made of, and then toggle with the erstwhile considerations. For example, the tile and stone material doesnt really sit well with portability. Steel models may also rust easily if you go off powder coating. And then theres copper, cast iron, and then stainless steel. Copper is a really popular building material in this enterprise. That is because the resultant patina, although its a result of oxidation, is very much different from corrosion, and it can actually be pretty pleasant and becoming. CU is also a malleable material, and it can be molded pretty much into any shape. Although theyre comparably extensive, you may be able to find that theyre worth it. Cast iron is yet another popular material. The reason is that its easily sourced and found. It is easy for the artisan to work with because its light and quite malleable. Its inexpensive to boot, with all the advantages of wrought iron, without being as strong and heavy. However, its still durable. And then you have stainless steel, which is desirable because of its rust free property. They can be pretty costly though. The nub of the matter is that when you are sourcing something thats quite remarkable in size, then you must have the ways and means to accommodate it. Consider your likelihood and propensity of renovating your house or else relocating completely. Choose the suitable size. In that way, you can better assure yourself that they are purely enjoyable, with no trace of a hassle. All things considered, you may have decided that maneuverability is important to you. In this case, the mid size appurtenance will do. Aside from being less bulky, they are also more convenient and less costly, which naturally follows. Compared to the pygmy sized ones, they still hold a good amount of wood. The styles in this line also comes with features that make them easier to clean. Of course, theres still some fun and enjoyment to be had with even the small sized ones. They are more versatile as well, since you can bring it over to a smorgasbord of places, like a friends house or a camping ground. They have foldable parts and may come with carrying cases so that theyre much easier to carry. Also, you will have to see on what material that fire pit is built with. They give you an idea on the relative durability of the fixture. This decision is also something that impinges on your style preference and needs. That is why its build and makeup can incur a huge impact on the results and your satisfaction. There are pits made of steel, some of tile and stone, and those mad of copper, cast iron, or else of stainless steel. Not only that, it evidently serves artistic purposes as well. Exactly because theyre unique, and that they jut out not quite a bit, they add a cool and unique outcrop to the landscape. They give off an artistic vibe thats really out to make a statement. Of course, we must also pitch in the campfire ring because theres just no use to having this if youre not planning to hold this quintessential activity right in your backyard. However, it can even be better than the pile of woods and matchsticks procedure, since it is controllable and, therefore, safe.

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1st, I am beyond excited and grateful that you took the time to write all this!! I asked for a rant, Amy, you delivered. 2nd, /I/ should apologize because my reply's probs gonna be long. (Half an ask already. Ugh, I'm hopeless, and you extremely polite.) I'd seen Fitz said Deke's the worst to be their grandson, but not that he persisted! GO, FITZ!! Didn't Iain use to say back in S1 that he didn't want FS to happen? I loved him for it, esp when Liz can't seem to do anything other than wax (1/9)

the rest go under the cut because it’s a lot of asks XD

poetic about FS. (Whyyy, Liz?? Seriously, does she talk about anything other than FS?) LBR though, Fitz is #relatable here. I’ve watched 3 S5 eps and seen many spoilers, and Deke’s 95% a dick, right?? I think TPTB might’ve been going for that particular FS brand of determined, unapologetic, do-what’s-necessary but their compassion and drive to protect were always evident even in their “harsher/colder” actions/attitudes/treatments. (I’m missing the right words but you know, right??) /But/ (2/9)

they missed the mark by 100 miles. Anyway. Frankly, Amy, Jemma fighting viciously Fitz’s pessimism and fatalism, esp by putting forth a positive twist on fatalism (for lack of a better word) has rubbed me so wrong for so long. It’s not necessarily ooc?? But it’s also not Jemma in a right mental and emotional state?? (You’re getting a terrible description of what I mean but I’m no good for anything else right now.) Like she’s broken, resigned, fighting for some thing that just happened, (3/9)

that she didn’t consciously choose, it was forced on her through guilt of her own and of others’ making, and through others pushing for it, and she’s sort of accepted it, it’s just part of her life now, vaguely, automatically placed under the “good stuff” category, and everything around her is in chaos, so she just fights for /it/? I don’t know. There’s a difference between “the universe says we’re gonna be together, look at the signs!!” and “we want to be together and we’ll work for it”. (4/9)

About the logic fail, Jemma probs grabbed onto that “my mom told me the ‘right direction’ thing which her mom had told her”, ergo she raised her some, and coupled with the need to make Fitz feel better and the talk with yet another always unhelpful team member (😒), she just went for that stupid line. Does that make it not ooc? Well, /no/. *makes a paper plane out of your last 3 bullet points and shoots it @ TPTB, yelling “TAKE NOTES!”* Amy, in the AOS house we don’t perform surgery to the (5/9)

tune of melodies that calm and steady and help us concentrate. In the AOS house, we perform surgery while conversing on things that test our ability to hold back tears and shouts and shaking and violence, because we’re hardcore. So, the dog thing. @ Hydra WTF??!!?! Yeah, I’m glad I missed that. And OK, can someone finally confirm if Ward shot Buddy??!! It’s getting ridiculous. I say probs nah, because John used to prod him too often for not being cruel enough, but… I don’t know. Also, (6/9)

I’m so glad Ward didn’t attend Hydra’s School for Young Octopi!! I mean, everything does point to that!! :D Teen!Ward busted out at 17 and dumped in the woods, switching to Brett!Ward still in the woods, John alluding to Ward shooting Buddy and finally leaving the woods as the end of his training and immediate beginning of his SHIELD career… If he attended any Academy, that was SHIELD Ops. It’s canon! New Ward backstory! I LOVE IT!! OK, because Hydra has that elitist vibe, I’m imagining (7/9)

more of a posh-secret-club-inside-the-academy kind of thing?? You know, like the actual Piggate scandal with the UK PM, and there’s many a movie too that show secret societies inside colleges etc, whose members are wealthy kids of old families, and their fathers were members before them, and their grandfathers, and they have weird, twisted rituals. You know the kind. Malick, his daughter and the council of people they had brought to meet Hive, they remind me of that. Anyway, I’m still not (8/9)

forgiving Ruby for what she did to Elena, but the dog thing and the Hydra-engineered super-baby thing are something…?? I’d have to watch S5 to pass judgement and LOL NO, I ain’t about to do that. I thiiink I’m done. Man, I hope that was some damn good strawberry shortcake. I’m gonna need all the favor I can get. 😇 ❤❤❤❤ Also, what’s a strawberry shortcake and why are people discriminating against its physique??? Ah, and why do you use that squiggly line (~) at the end of some words??? (9/9)

Okay! Here we go! XD

First off, I…..go back and forth on Liz’s support of fs. On the one hand, it’s silly to hold it against her; it’s not like attacking her own storyline would be a smart move, either with fans (who for some reason overwhelmingly support it) or with Jed&Mo (who, after all, have made clear that they based fs’ relationship off their own). Sure, Iain got away with it, but look at the way the show treats Fitz vs. Jemma……he’s clearly the favorite. *side eyes aos* Plus, fs being together gets her more scenes with more people (gotta have everyone reminding her how destined~ she and Fitz are after all!!), so it’s understandable she’d like it.

That said….HOW CAN SHE NOT SEE HOW TERRIBLE IT IS? I DON’T UNDERSTAND.

And we could talk about that all day so…moving on!

Deke started out as the harsh/cold/doing what’s necessary to survive in a terrible environment character (he SOLD DAISY TO KASIUS because he was afraid her search for Jemma would endanger the rest of them), but the show kind of….dropped that? And tried to switch him to the lovable moron instead? It’s weird.

As for Jemma’s optimism……I guess I can’t totally blame her. Like, she does love Fitz, that’s clear enough. I personally don’t think she’d have gotten there if she hadn’t been constantly pushed towards him, or if he hadn’t made a big deal of “I can’t be just friends,” therefore forcing her to choose between a romantic relationship with her best friend or NOTHING AT ALL of him, but. Whatever.

My point was, she loves him. And he is CONSTANTLY going on about how they’re cursed and they’re never gonna work out and how ‘doesn’t sound great for the girlfriend’ and ‘I don’t deserve you’ and blah blah negativity. And it is just super not fair to her that she has to forever fight this attitude of his and try to keep him positive about THEIR RELATIONSHIP, something he should be excited and positive about ON HIS OWN. Ugh.

So from that perspective, I guess I can see why she’d cling to this, as evidence~ they’re not doomed and they’re gonna be okay. Good point, nonnie!

And another good point: I’d forgotten about the daughter saying that her mom had said the steps in the right direction stuff! to her That makes Jemma’s logic fail a little less egregious, I feel better now.

Oh, right, silly me. Of course aos is way too hardcore to want to focus on the situation at hand when surgery is underway!

I think the show kinda confirmed that it was Grant who shot Buddy? In 2x21 when Bobbi was trying to talk Kara out of the whole….torture thing that was about to happen, she tried to convince her that Grant was grooming her and that he probably started small and probably was started small himself, and Kara was like “yeah, Garrett made him shoot his dog.” So that probably counts as confirmation.

(But I am all about #denial so I choose to ignore it. Alternate explanation: Garrett was the one who did it but Grant wanted to use the story to connect to Kara, so he was creative with the truth. See? It still works!)

And yep! Garrett said, when he finally got Grant from the woods, that he’d gotten him into the ops academy! Which admittedly was four whole seasons before this mess and probably they didn’t know yet they were gonna give Hydra its own Academy, but why would Garrett make Grant do the dog test in the woods if he was about to go to Hydra and have to do it all over again? Doesn’t make sense! So yes, definitely Grant went to SHIELD Academy.

As for the “posh” sense you get of Hydra, nonnie, you are SO NOT WRONG. Hydra’s Academy was seriously SO prep school vibes, I can’t even fully describe it. They had UNIFORMS, nonnie! Suit and tie uniforms with HYDRA LOGOS on the breast pocket!!!! It was…….ridiculous. Ri. di. cu. lous.

And right? TOTALLY NOT COOL that Ruby cut off Elena’s arms, but I have some sympathy for her now. Some.

And thank you for asking, the strawberry shortcake was DELICIOUS! And it’s not discrimination (XD; I literally lol’d, nonnie, thanks for that)—strawberry shortcake is a dessert with sliced, sugared strawberries, whipped cream, and a kind of cake that’s called “shortcake” because of its crumbly, sometimes crispy texture. It is THE BEST and I’m so sad it doesn’t exist in your life. I’m sorry, nonnie.

ETA: sometimes people use spongecake instead of shortcake when making strawberry shortcake. these people are wrong and should not be trusted.

As for the squiggly line, it’s hard to explain! 

Sometimes, I use it to add a note of sarcasm or mocking. Since tone is hard to convey online, it helps me get my meaning across (and feels necessarily mean, in such statements as “Jemma and Fitz are destined~”)!

Other times, it’s more…..hm…..like a gesture, maybe? Like in my rant I wrote “the glory of Hive~” and the sguiggly was meant to convey a kind of handwave, like “the glory of Hive and all that stuff the Hive-worshiping parts of Hydra would concern themselves with.” Does that make sense?

I don’t know, it’s kind of like the tumblr habit of randomly capitalizing words in the middle of a sentence, you know? Sometimes it’s for emphasis, sometimes it’s for sarcasm, sometimes it’s just because it feels right. I hope that makes at least a little sense. XD

Thanks very much for the conversation, nonnie! Sorry it was such a struggle getting your thoughts to me!