#context is that one of them got really jealous cause the other cheated and was getting abused by this person as well?

[paperglader]

the way that I just had the cutest dream about imodna, like they were so soft 🥺 but then the dream turned into a nightmare of sorts and they started killing each other?

[batmanfruitloops]

Can you guess who's next? Eddie, our favorite riddle-spewing gremlin!

Eddie was born to two parents where neither wanted to take care of him so that's pretty unfortunate, but it wasn't too bad at first. His grandma, Emily Nashton, happily raised Ed from a baby when her son Elliot (I'll be referring to him by his middle name as Eddie is actually a jr. - also he really hates the name "Edward") unceremoniously dropped him off at her house. She'd have preferred to just dote on and spoil him, but she'd rather Ed be taken care of properly.

Eddie has always been very blind, so he's had glasses for pretty much forever.

Eddie got to stay with his grandma until he was about 6 (I'm still not too sure, he's pretty young at least) when his dad randomly showed up again claiming he was going to take over raising Eddie from then on. He was confused, but he figured it was just for a visit. However, Eddie rarely got to go back to his grandma's from this point. His dad barely took care of Eddie either, mostly ignoring or berating him. The dad lived off of Eddie's child support and spent most of it on booze and rent.

Eddie missed having a full stomach, being able to ask all the questions he wanted to, and knowing he was loved. He got used to sneaking around to get things done, like scarffing down food when his dad was out of the house or asleep, or quickly taking a shower, or even sneaking out to visit the library and do laundry.

He also got to attend school and while his grades were impeccable, he wasn't able to make any friends. They all thought he was too loud, too annoying, too angry. His teachers also scolded him for causing disruptions, when they usually only started because other kids were being mean. Sometimes it's because of Eddie's OCD and OCPD, as that makes it hard to not have things a certain way, or more specifically how Eddie perceives it should be. Again, I'm by no means an expert on such topics, but that's to my best understanding. Eddie was also on edge a lot at school because of his dad. His dad was bitter and jealous about how smart Eddie is, and so he accused him of cheating a lot. For context, this Riddler is NOT a cheater as a know some versions are willing to do so.

There were three good things during Eddie's school years. He had one teacher who understood him well, and so Ed was behaved in that class. As mentioned in my previous post regarding this au's Joker, Eddie got to see Arthur at Cobblepot Park most days of the week, and they also understood one another very well. They could just talk and talk about whatever and not have to worry about their home lives. Eddie also got birthday cards from his grandmother every year, and got to visit occasionally. He often found them stuffed into the garbage and the money she had sent with it was never in there, but he cherished them all and still has them to this day. His grandmother also liked to slip him money during his visits, which Ed hid under his floorboards along with her cards.

When Eddie was 12, Arthur stopped showing up. Eddie assumed Arthur was just sick or something, but he never showed again. It made Eddie feel betrayed. From this point, Eddie is a bit more skeptical of people, but he does still try and remain optimistic that good people are out there. Most of them are just lousy, it seems.

Eddie's senior year, he got a job as a cashier at one of the local grocery stores. He liked asking customers riddles when they went through his isle. He came off as rude to a lot of customers and some of his coworkers, but he still defended them when a customer was wrong. This is also where Eddie learns how to speak Spanish, although it's very little. When Eddie turned 18 though, his father and him got into a fight that led Eddie to being kicked out. He had to scramble to pick his few things out of his room, load them into a suitcase and go. Eddie never told his coworkers that he was now one of the many homeless of Gotham. They weren't close enough for that. So Eddie's bedraggled state from sleeping in abandoned buildings and eating little from his paychecks seems a bit out of nowhere. Eddie also finally gets fired. He's just had too many incidents of fighting with customers, even if he's always remorseful afterwards. Now with no income, Eddie is panicking. He'd also be becoming more and more upset with those in power, and the rich class. They were bad people and yet they got to get away with it. Can't hand them over to the police since the whole district is corrupt. What else can be done about it? Why, expose it of course. And so Ed takes on the role of the Riddler, every waking hour spent coming up with traps and riddles and clues on who to go after. Luckily there's plenty of abandoned tech and whatnot around. His physical health would continue to decline though. This is about where the au starts. Eddie is already an established villain and is enjoying his time harassing bad people and getting Batman's attention.

- Sarsee

[theonlypastel]

Recently I watched the 2016 romance/drama “The Unmarried Wife”, per watching a video Kenny J.D. posted about said movie. The amount of actual rage that filled me when I watch it can’t even be put into words unless I write a review about so, here we are. Anywho, these are my thoughts on

The Unmarried Wife.

⚠️WARNING ⚠️ SPOILERS AHEAD. READ WITH CAUTION.

If you haven’t watched the movie and don’t plan to, I will bring you up to speed. Our main character Anne meets her future Husband and father of her child Geoff and they hit it off instantly. They get married and move in together and everything is fine, until Anne gets a promotion because the former employee was accused of infidelity. This seems to cause a rift in Anne and Geof’s relationship and they start to grow apart. In attempts to bring some spark back into their relationship Anne surprises him at work when she catches him in the act with his co-worker. She ultimately makes the decision to stay with him for the sake of their son Ino, even though it is awkward between them. As they are mending their relationship Geoff cheats on Anne again even after constantly reassuring her he isn’t cheating on her again. At her breaking point Anne meets Bryan, whom she meets at a family function. They bond over failed marriages and eventually form a relationship. In the midst of all this Anne is trying to get a divorce from Geoff finalized. Things are going relatively well when Anne and Geoff are advised to have a “family outing” with Ino by Ino’s teacher. During said outing Bryan gets jealous and follows them there, forcing Anne to tell him she loves him over the phone. They get into an argument back at Bryan’s apartment when Bryan’s supposed ex wife barges in. Turns out he lied to Anne just to be with her, making her his mistress, her worst nightmare. She pretty much blocks him until one day he comes throwing rocks at her house angrily to get her to talk to him, and he almost hurt Ino. Because of the insistent she cuts all ties with Bryan. Fast forward a little bit in time and Anne and Geoff are happily co-parenting Ino. Geoff asks Anne if she would ever be up to starting over between the both of them, despite the fact that he cheated more than once, and while Anne is still healing from everything. However Anne says no, at least not now, and we end on a beautiful shot of a happy family playing together.

So my immediate fist thought after finishing this movie is Omg, the audacity of men. The whole movie not a single man that Anne is romantically involved with treats her with the bare minimum of respect. Geoff cheats on her on way more than one occasion, AND even gets another woman pregnant and still has the AUDACITY to beg Anne for forgiveness?!??

And at the end they act as if Anne being cheated out of a good relationship by stupid men had barely any effect on her. She WILLINGLY keeps Geoff around. There are so many things wrong here.

Her first inclination should have been to end it with Geoff the first time because even if she was staying with him for Ino, having parent that won’t talk and/or trust each other and argue all the time is more than likely worse that mmm having 2 Christmases. 

Also one thing that doesn’t make sense is why she stayed with him even after her past. [For some context her mom got cheated on by Anne’s dad.] Considering her relation to cheating and how it can effect feelings, it doesn’t really make sense for her to tolerate Geoff cheating.

On the topic of things that don’t make sense, the way the production team was trying to tell the story was quite confusing. It was told through a series of flashbacks due to Anne getting hit in the head with a glass bottle and falling.

The pacing of the story is a bit odd as well. Something dramatically would happen and they just brush it off almost as if it didn’t happen.

At any rate, the Unmarried Wife is a decent watch if you like messy movies like me. Once you get used to the flash back, it gets easier to understand the story. The writing is bearable and the shots are pretty good. The musical score is probably my favorite part of the whole movie.

Anyways I could talk about how bad this movie is, but I will spare you my thoughts. If you choose to watch “The Unmarried Wife”, it can be found in Netflix.

And if not, watch gameboys it’s better :)

[enchantedfanfictions]

Prologue - Part 1

There are two parts to the prologue as they are set on two different days.

Just some context for the story. It is set in modern day era. Lady Danbury owns 'Danbury's bar' and is teaching Simon the ropes so that he can run it one day. Kate and Anthony are both 23 in this (along with Simon) and they both attend Oxford University. Hope you enjoy it! :)

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Like most Friday nights, Danbury's bar was crawling with students from the local uni who were desperate to forget the work piled on their desks. Groups gathered in the corner, shouts overlapping each other as orders were thrown at the bartender. Anthony Bridgerton occupied the end of the bar, his gaze fixed on a young woman in a short purple dress attempting to catch the attention of the bartender. Her efforts failed and she huffed in defeat, before a mischievous look crossed her face. She quickly darted her eyes to where Anthony was sitting before pulling out her phone and typing furiously.

Moments later, another bartender hurried from out of the back room and nodded in the woman’s direction,, immediately making two drinks and sliding them over to her. She gave a nod of  thanks and made her way towards Anthony, occupying the seat next to him. 

“Mr Bridgerton.” She acknowledged, passing him his drink and sipping her own.

“Miss Sharma,” He greeted, taking a swig of his drink. He let a moment of silence pass before he muttered: “you do know that that doesn’t count, right?” 

“Oh come on!” She groaned, glaring at him. “I got the drinks within the time limit.”

“Yes, but the bet was to get a drink from Danbury, not to get a drink by flirting with Bassett.”

“First of all, you didn’t specify a bartender,” Kate lectured, “and second of all I did not send a flirty text to Bassett.”

“Really? Then why did he basically run to get you your drinks.” Anthony accused, gesturing to the bartender in question.

“Oh, is somebody a little jealous?” Kate teased, elbowing Anthony playfully causing his face to burn red.

“No. I just don’t like cheaters.” He muttered, causing Kate to laugh and beckon Simon over. She quickly downed the rest of her drink, pushing it towards the serving side of the bar.

“Finished with your drink already, Miss Sharma? Does that mean I won our little bet?” Simon asked, wiping down the bar in front of the duo before refilling her glass.

“Bet?! What bet?” Anthony questioned, head flicking between Kate and Simon. 

“Do you want to tell him or should I?” Simon asked, looking between the pair.

“I’ve got it.” Kate answered, turning slightly in her chair to face Anthony. “Simon and I have an ongoing bet for all the bets we make. If you accuse me of cheating, Simon wins and I have to down my current drink and the next one.- Speaking of…” Kate paused to down the drink Simon had prepared, a grimace crossing her face. “If you gracefully accept defeat, however,” she continued, “ I win and Simon pays for the rest of my drinks that evening. So far, I’ve only won one.”

“And that was on a technicality.” Simon added, ducking to avoid the coaster Kate had thrown his way. “Okay that- was very unladylike.” He chastised, picking the coaster up and chucking it back at her, laughing at her reaction. She scrunched up her nose in annoyance and stuck her tongue out at him, making him laugh even harder.

“I do hope you are not abusing my customers, Mr Bassett.” Lady Danbury warned, joining the little group.

“I wouldn’t dream of it, Lady Danbury.” Simon defended, winking at Kate. “I was merely returning Miss Sharma’s property.”

“Is that so?” The owner asked slyly, looking around at the trio. “I suppose you’ve stolen something from Mr Bridgerton as well. He looks like he’s contemplating the best way to kill you.” Lady Danbury warned, patting Simon on the arm and turning her attention to Kate. Simon turned to Anthony noting straight away the murderous look in his eyes. His hands were clutching his glass tightly, jaw clenched and knuckles turning white as he glared directly at the bartender. Simon also noticed that the space between Anthony and Kate had gotten significantly smaller since he had first joined the group. Before he could say something to break the tension, his boss beat him to it. 

“It looks like you have an admirer, Miss Sharma.” She commented, gesturing to a gentleman seated a few tables away from the bar. 

As Kate turned to look at the man, Simon noticed Anthony’s jaw clenching even more, his grasp on the glass tightening.

Simon knew one thing for certain. This was not going to end well.

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[gl1tchb1tch0]

A Hundert Synonyms for Laughter (Kusuke Saiki x Reader)

(Here’s a little scene from a FanFic I’m working on. It doesn’t really have Context, cause the Fic itself is just short stories like this stitched together. Please excuse any spelling or grammar mistakes, I’m not a native English-Speaker. 

Possible Trigger Warning: Talk about Sex, Alcohol

The Giraffe-Joke in this is sponsored by Milo Murphy’s Law.

Enjoy.)

Laughing you threw yourself back, your head landing in Kusukes lap.

The wine glass in your hand was dangerously near to toppling over. You let him take it from you and place it onto the table without complaining.

“And this woman seriously had the audacity to ask me: ‘What are those hideous creatures? Why are their necks so long? And are those horns?’”, You roared, waving your hands around gesticulating.

Unconsciously his fingers found their way into your hair, pushing some stray strands out of your face.

Your eyes, meeting his, were shining a little from the tears you laughed. He grinned at you, laying there tipsy and giggly and your face all red.

“Where is she from? No-Giraffe-Land?”, you heard him snicker above you.

The sound of your giggle filled the room again.

“Right?! She programmed one of the best Pathfinder-AIs on this planet, but she doesn’t even know what Giraffes are?!”

You huffed and shook you head. “Really, how did she even get that job?!”

“Probably fucked the recruitment committee.”

You scrunched your nose in faked disgust. “Ew, that was definitely a really ugly orgy.”, you laughed.

“You should be glad they took you without any… extra work.”

“At least with me you could sell that as a porno.”

“That wouldn’t make much, don’t overestimate yourself.”

You shoot him a challenging look.

“Sure… You’re just jealous you weren’t on that committee when I applied there. I never guessed you as having such strange fantasies.”

He leaned in closer to you, hushing his voice.

“I don’t need to be on any committee to live out my fantasies with you.”, He grinned.

You nearly choked on your own tongue, your face heating up bright red, as Kusuke laughed at your reaction. That Idiot really loved to make you blush.

“Ok, ok. You win this round.” But you still laughed with him, rubbing your hands over your face to get rid of your blushing cheeks.

Kusuke pulled them away, grinning.

“No, no, no, that’s cheating.”

You huffed at him, fighting the urge to turn your face away for his eyes.

But oh well, you would let him have his fun, so with a sigh you looked back up at him.

 You two stayed like this for a while. Looking into each other’s eyes, smiling, as silence enveloped you.

You stretched out your hand to softly caress his cheek. He leaned into the touch, as your thump drew little circles over his skin.

It was comfortable like that.

“I should give you a haircut soon. Your hairs getting really long lately.”, You whispered eventually, your voice suddenly sounding too loud for the room. “I can just go to a barber.”

“No, I really like doing it.”

“Ok good, but please don’t make me look hideous”

“Like a Giraffe?”

“What’s a Giraffe?” He asked, daring and sarcastically.

You broke out into laughter again, sitting yourself back up to hold onto the backrest of the couch.

“Stop it, you’re going to kill me!” you huffed out in between giggles.

You heard Kusuke laugh softly behind you, as you tried to catch your breath again.

When you could breathe again, you sat back normally on the couch.

Still smiling, you picked up your glass again, taking a sip. Kusuke watched you intently as you put it back, licking you lips clean from the red wine.

How could you enchant him so much even after so many years?

When his gaze shifted from your lips back to your eyes you looked at him questioning.

“Something wrong?”

He had to laugh.

“No, It’s just…” He shook his head smiling to himself. No nothing could be wrong when you were here.

You cocked your head to the side, still looking confused, while he just chuckled.

With one last sip he emptied his own wine glass and set it down on the table next to yours, before he scooted closer to you, your legs touching softly now.

He laid his hand on your cheeks, cubing your face and bringing it closer to his. You watched him with your confused smile, your eyes on his, but you wouldn’t stop him.

His breath fanning your face felt warm and inviting, as you leaned in.

You closed your eyes as your lips met.

It didn’t matter how often he kissed you, his heart would always pick up its pace and his fingertips tingled as they wandered from your cheeks to your sides and then to your back, to pull you closer to him.

Your own hands found their way into his hair, sending little shivers down his spine.

You heard him sigh contently as you deepened the kiss, licking his lips to push your tongue past them.

You could taste the wine on his tongue, a little bit acidic but sweet.

 When you eventually parted you stayed in this embrace, taking a moment to catch your breath again. His hand found his way to your cheek again, brushing aside some strands of hair that had gotten lost.

Your face was red and your eyes wide. He liked that sight.

“I love you”, He smiled, genuine and true.

You chuckled softly, a little breathless.

“Oh No, the great Dr. Saiki got feelings? The end of the world has finally arrived!”

He rolled his eyes at you, laughing again. “Good, I don’t care about this world anyway.”

[lazarus-lazuli]

Loki and Sylvie aren’t endgame and here’s why:

(SPOILERS FOR EPISODE 4 OBVIOUSLY)

The TL;DR version: The director herself confirmed that their relationship is not going to be romantic. I could literally just leave it at that. Please calm down and stop clogging the tag with outraged posts about something that’s not even happening, thank you.

But I also want to argue that the episode itself makes it ABUNDANTLY CLEAR that they’re not gonna be a couple. Hit the read more to learn why I think that. Or don’t, honestly the fact the director confirmed this should be enough to assuage you, I’m just actively choosing to be annoying at this point.

If you pay attention to the text of the episode, it’s pretty clear that no, Loki and Sylvie aren’t getting together. Heteronormativity in media may have corrupted us enough to jump to that conclusion (because in most shows a man and woman interacting for five or more minutes in a meaningful way = romance), but I don’t think that was the writers’ intention. Hell, if anything, the episode makes a stronger argument for Mobius and Loki getting together which I’ll touch on a bit as well. And while I do ship them I don’t think they’ll be endgame either since Disney is incredibly fucking homophobic and we’re lucky we even got bi Loki; the Pacific Ocean will be a desert before we get to see him with another man. 

So a few ways the episode told us that Sylvie and Loki aren’t gonna get together:

1) Ravonna and Mobius have a VERY important conversation in her office, not just in the sense of Mobius realizing “Oh shit I’ve been lied to”, but in the sense that she talks about their relationship. She makes a point to define their relationship as a friendship several times, while also making it clear that they have a deep emotional connection to each other - one that transcends time and space. It’s a type of relationship that often gets skewed as romantic when we’re talking about tropes, but no, in their case it’s set in stone that their relationship is completely platonic. Character wise the whole thing gets thrown away since she was very much onto him and proceeds to stab him in the back minutes later, but writing wise it was a very important point they were trying to make to the audience. Like, it was important both in universe and for the audience but for different reasons, if that makes sense. Since they established this strong connection between Loki and Sylvie at the very beginning of the episode - strong enough to cause a fucking Nexus Event - they also wanted to sprinkle in the idea that a strong connection does not necessarily equal a romantic one.

2) The main thing people took away from the conversation between Loki and Mobius was that Mobius was jealous - which, yeah, that’s valid and I agree. I mean he was deadass acting like a scorned boyfriend who just caught his partner cheating on him. But another big takeaway that people need was not only did the show itself confirm that Sylvie x Loki is gross (I mean for God’s sake they’re the exact same person; Sylvie was literally confirmed to just be the AFAB version of him IN THE COLD OPENING), but the whole idea of them being together all came from Mobius. All we know is that Loki cares for her - the feelings he’s experiencing are confusing for him because he’s a loner who hasn’t had any friends at all until Mobius and her came along. The one who’s defining those feelings by insisting they must be romantic is Mobius. This is to get under Loki’s skin because he is jealous. Loki never once gives into the idea of their relationship being romantic, even when Mobius lies about Sylvie being pruned just to get a reaction. Loki may not know EXACTLY how he feels since it’s all new to him, but even he’s not obtuse enough to think that he’s actually falling in love with himself. Mobius is just angry at Loki in this scene for multiple reasons, thus all of the romantic interpretation falls on his shoulders. He’s literally just jumping to conclusions. 

Also when he says Sylvie got pruned Loki just gets visibly upset for a moment, but when Mobius himself gets pruned Loki CRIES and is fucked up about it to the point that even Sylvie picks up on it. So make of that what you will (I will make of that that Loki and Mobius are IN LOVE). 

3) Final point: people got REALLY IN THEIR FEELINGS about the scene where Loki tries to confess to Sylvie. And yeah at first glance, it is somewhat set up like a romantic scene - someone actually posted “what in the Y/N x Loki is this” and honestly I had to laugh at that one because I agree it kind of has that vibe, especially since he starts the whole thing off by saying he’s new to feeling the way he does. But based on everything we know about them and everything that happened up until that point of the episode, LOKI IS VERY MUCH NOT ABOUT TO CONFESS HIS UNDYING LOVE FOR HER. His feelings for sure, but not necessarily romantic ones. He even has his hands on her shoulders - a gesture of affection, but not one that can be read as exclusively romantic. He’s just grabbing her attention, holding her there (since she does seem freaked out - maybe in her mind she thinks he’s about to confess his love, which is actually pretty funny). While there may be a misunderstanding on the part of the characters, I think the text itself makes it pretty clear that no, Loki is not in love with this woman. He ultimately just wants to tell her he cares about her and wants to stick with her through whatever happens; that they’ll make it through together. If you’re cynical you can be like “It was at the very least set up to LOOK romantic to bait the audience” and yeah, I see it too. That’s completely possible. Granted, instead of baiting people with a “OOO, what’s he gonna say?!”, it more so rubbed salt in the wounds of the people who have been queerbaited by TV shows in the past because all they could see was “Bi Man Falls for His Female Self Then Dies” which is bad so I can’t blame them for being upset. But given the context of the show it’s also very much not what happened. 

And hey, I’m just as affected by queerbaiting - I was a Magician’s fan for fuck’s sake. I know queerbaiting when I see it and as far as I’m concerned, if there’s any queerbaiting in this show, it is NOT coming from the interpretation of Loki literally wanting to fuck himself. We will be donning our clown wigs and big red noses for a different reason (that reason involving Disney being Disney). If you’re choosing to be optimistic about the possibility of Loki and Mobius getting together, I fucking commend you and hope you’re right. It would be really amazing and satisfying if they did. I’m not holding my breath, though. Sadly just because Loki x Sylvie won’t be a thing doesn’t mean Loki x Mobius will be, either.

Anyway, I hope this explanation helped to clear up the fact that no, Marvel is not advocating for selfcest and never was. This isn’t Johnny Test. I think it’s good to be critical of Disney and Marvel because they’re both very flawed, but that requires actually watching the content instead of making surface level assumptions based on what you saw at first glance, you know?

[quasieli]

top six: fictional characters that give you gender envy, flowers, little things that make you happy and d&d moments :D

Ooh lotsa questions!

Gender Envy:

1) Bow from She-Ra (2018). Something about buff athletic dude who wears crop tops and is soft as hell is very Gender to me.

2) Vax from Critical Role. Pretty boy, kinda goth rogue? That’s sexy as hell and I wish that was me. 

3) In a wildly different idea of gender envy, I’ve been thinking about it lately and @quantum-lesbian’s character in the Frostmaiden game I’m in with them, Ambrose, is Big Gender. Beautiful non-binary drow with a starry and kinda witchy aesthetic that dresses super grandly and ostentatiously no matter the occasion? Yes please.

4) Pete from The Unsleeping City, specifically season two. I adore season one Pete but season two Pete that works in a queer bookshop and has a teapot arcane focus, is artsy and is unapologetically a trans man who doesn’t give a shit about gender roles? Sign me the fuck up.  

5) Beau from Critical Role. Buff GNC lesbian mixed with academia, but like academia from the prospective of a grad student with ADHD trying to learn everything about their special interests? A+, I love her and I’m jealous. 

6) I’m gonna cheat a lil bit for this last one. I know the prompt is fictional characters, but Julia Lepetit and Jacob Andrews in their Hitman streams? Simultaneously both of them were Gender for me. Jacob esp felt like that for me, which is weird cause dresses can make me dysphoric, but I am also slightly envious of the Dude in a Dress type of gender presentation. 

Can you tell that I’m a confused trans masc enby

Gonna put it under the cut from here cause oof, there’s still a lot more.

Flowers:

1) Big slut for Sunflowers, always have been, always will be.

2) Fun fact, my dad’s family used to own a flower shop (in like the 70s, so I never got to see it :(), and one of their big things was hydrangeas. My dad has always loved them and now I love the snowballs too!  

3) A recent favorite, the Baker’s Globe Mallow. It’s a type of flower that only grows from the soils of forests that have been affected by wildfires. It’s a simple little flower but I love the idea of something beautiful rising from the ashes after tragedy. A little dramatic, but I’m queer, ofc I’m dramatic.

4) Roses are another important flower to my family (Rose was a family name for a couple generations), and ya know, they’re a classic. 

5) There’s this beautiful magnolia tree in front of my house that blooms with the most beautiful white and pink flowers every spring, and it’s one of my favorite things to see every year. 

6) There’s so many different types of Lillies and they’re all very pretty, but the Purple Stargazer is prob my favorite.

Little Things That Make Me Happy:

1) My cat, Maddie. She may be a cranky girl at times, but she is also very sweet and will always be my baby (even though she is 12). 

2) Not a little thing really, but my best friend. Just getting a sweet/silly text from her or the two of us chilling in a room, sitting in a comfortable silence because we just like being together, nothing better. 

3) Baking, esp if I’m doing it for others. I’m not much of a sweets person myself, a little treat every once in a while type person, but I love baking. It’s a very relaxing process for me, even when it can sometimes get stressful, but seeing people enjoying something I made, especially something that brought me great joy to make, is simply the best. 

4) In the same sorta vein, crafting and other art, but that’s a bit more personal. I love making things for others, but art, particularly drawing, is something I do more for me. It’s such a great feeling when you can get into a really good art mood and just sink yourself into a project. I love it.

5) My plush toys. Yes, I am a 23 year old, no I will not stop loving my plushies. I just got a few new friends, which I made a post about recently, and they such good cuddle buddies. However, there is one king amongst them all. I have this old, beat up christmas puppy beanie baby, on his tag named Jingle Pup, but I just call him Jingle. I had one version of him since I was like 6, but he currently lives on a shelf cause he is very beaten up and fragile, but his “brother”, who I got when I was 8, is still in kinda good shape and is currently chilling on my chest as I type this lol.

6) Again, not a little thing, but it’s important to mention; D&D. The game itself is such a joy, but truly the best part of it is the people. I love creating stories and memories with people through this weird little game. Truly one of my favorite things to do.

D&D Moments:

These are all gonna be personal moments, rather than anything from actual play shows/podcasts. RC is Reforged Campaign, where I play Saube, and FM is Frostmaiden, where I play Sparks.

1) RC - Meeting Mahety, Saube’s girlfriend. We met her way back in session 12 and we are now up to like session 73. Saube saw her and was immediately big heart eyes at her but also felt a bit awkward and shy. So, being a game a dice, I decided to roll. 10 or higher, Saube would talk to her, 9 or lower, she’d stay put. I rolled a 17, 17 is now a lucky number for me. I love Mahety and I’d die for her. 

2) FM - This was an insane fight that should not have been so crazy, but in a fairly early session, my group went up against an angry druid and her awakened animals. So much batshit stuff happened in that fight, and we unfortunately lost our bread loving bard (RIP Agneyis), but one of my favorite combat turns happened in this fight. Our artificer, Omaren, has a robe of useful items and one of the patches on it creates a large pit. Thinking quickly, Omaren tore off the patch, slid it under one of the dire wolves we were fighting and created a looney tunes style pit under it, allowing us to take it out easily via pot shots. Such a clutch move and such a funny visual, especially because the dire wolf kept failing the checks to get out of the pit.  

3) RC - Saube’s Zebrith (I will never remember how this actually spelled RIP). So, for context, Saube ended up with a death curse (long story) that mechanically meant they had disadvantage on any death saving throws. Scary as hell, need to get that fixed! So, Saube and their party had to be smuggled into another country to talk with some religious leaders of a goddess known as The First, the goddess of death. They were told that Saube would have to go through the aforementioned ritual, which included her soul leaving her body for a short period of time. During this ritual, her friends had to call back to her, to say things that would bring her back to her body and I still cry thinking about that game. That ritual was not only important for Saube bodily, but spiritually as well. After that ritual, Saube officially became a cleric of The First! 

4) A real sappy one, RC - Saube meeting all of her friends. Anyone who follows along with the rantings on my blog probably knows how important this game is to me. I met this random group of strangers on tumblr and formed a D&D party with them and now, a year and a half later, I honestly think it’s one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. I know that sounds silly and dramatic but not only has this game brought me so much joy and comfort, but I also gained a group of really amazing friends who have been nothing but amazing since day one. As much as Saube knows she can depend on SICL, I know I can depend on my group of weirdos lol. We both love our friends very much and even though we’ve all been through some crazy shit, we wouldn’t change it for the world.    

5) RC - Just playing Saube in general. I really didn’t intend for it to be this way, but Saube is very much a reflection of myself. She is the first long term character I have ever played and so much of me is in her. I try not to treat D&D like therapy, because that’s unfair to my DM and fellow party members, but playing Saube has allowed me to work through some of my own problems, especially social anxiety, in a lot safer of an environment. It isn’t so much that I’m asking this game to help me fix my life, but playing out these scenarios that, in the real world, would make me anxious or make me freak out, I can stop, take a moment to breathe and work out these issues in a way that makes sense to me. Playing her has led me to understanding myself a bit better, as well, and that’s truly such a wonderfully unexpected gift from this whole experience. 

6) Lastly, a silly one: RC - Getting a crit 6. The last session of this game got real interesting. Saube’s party ended up in the ethereal plane and magic got real fucky there. So, any time any of us tried to cast a spell, we’d roll a d20, not look at the result, and then try to guess what number rolled. The closer to the number, the better the result. A few times, a few people managed to get within like 3 or 4 of their roll, but oh the power I felt when I rolled a 6 (on Saube’s die!) and guessed it correctly! So, not only did the spell (Bless) work, but it worked super well. So instead of getting +1d4 to attack rolls and saving throws, Saube and two other party members got +2d4 to attacks, saving throws and skill checks. So powerful I broke the rules of D&D lmao. 

[fuckitup-in-style]

JULIE AND THE PHANTOMS!

Hey guys, so I just finished watching JATP and I am absolutely obsessed with it! The songs, the characters, the plot - it’s just beautiful how the creators have brought to life this light, whimsical but also very heartfelt and warm show and I am so glad to see the wonderful reception from the fandom here on Tumblr and other social media outlets because the more reception, the more likely the show will come back for season 2 - which, I think we can all agree is something we all want to see (OH, and the TOURRRR)

But I couldn’t help but notice that there is some budding tension in the fandom concerning the controversy over shipping the characters Julie Molina and Luke Patterson, which I have noticed makes a lot of people uncomfortable (and I understand).

But I got some red flags when I saw words like predatory and sickening were labelled to the ship, and specifically to Luke as a character (and the casting team). I also noticed people attacking others for shipping Luke and Julie and I felt like I needed to say something.

So, as you probably can tell, I ship Juke or Jukebox as some people have started to call them (which I think is really cute). I only ship Juke, I do not under any circumstances ship the actors because 1) I dont ship actors as a principal because too many times have actors and the relationships they have held with others in their life been damaged because of people taking the chemistry they demonstrate with their onscreen relationship out of context 2) Maddy is underaged and I don’t ship child actors at all especially with 3) their co-actors, especially if they’re over 18 like Charlie is because 4) they have a very controversial age gap.

Now that I have gotten that out of the road, I was to explain why I ship Juke - and I can’t believe I feel so anxious about defending myself for wanting to see the relationship/friendship explored with Julie and Luke over the seasons but I understand. 

1. The characters themselves are 2 years apart. It’s an interracial relationship and I love the representation with Juke as well as with Willex. Maddy has promoted and publicly shipped the idea of Julie and Luke as a couple on social media and I think that if she was okay with it, than it shouldn’t be a problem (we’re the same age and i could see how, as a actress who would have the emotional and mental capacity to consent to acting out romantic scenes, it would be ok - keep in mind, it is a G-PG teens show so it would be limited to kissing. Wishing for anything beyond that to be presented as canon is wrong and I can admit that without any shame or regret). Julie canonically has a crush on Luke and Luke has canonically confirmed strong feelings/ chemistry with and for Julie. I love seeing this demonstrated when they are singing, songwritng, performing and dancing and even during really soft or playful moments like Unsaid Emily and Edge of Great and would like to see more of these really powerful moments between the two characters as the show progresses.

2. Be that as it may, I don’t want the characters to get together in the second season. I still believe that this show is primarily about Julie and the Phantoms, a band of friends consisting of a girl rediscovering her love and passion for music and continuing to do what she loves in her mom’s memory and three boys who died before they could make their dreams come true. The Orpheum was their first step to becoming legends and I don’t believe that’s over yet.

3. I also love the idea that Charlie and Maddy both have implied that they want Luke and Julie to build a strong, formidable friendship in the show before they even consider acting on any romantic notions and I support this and would look forward to seeing it! It would be great to see how their friendship, and she friendship she has with Alex and Reggie, grows and evolves over the show. Some people might argue that this will be boring and would slow the seemingly fast progress of the bond that has been shaped but I don’t think so.

There is so many subplots for the show to explore based off of what the show creators gave us in season 1:

- The obvious, Caleb possessing Nick. I have seen the Juke shippers jump right onto this one and saying how Caleb (as Nick) trying to get closer and make moves on Julie would make Luke jealous but I think we have seen a bit of that already from when Luke first interacted (kinda) with Nick when he and Julie were talking by the lockers. I think that the Caleb subplot would not only be a good idea to show how Luke will be conflicted with how he feels about it, but it would also show how Julie might be conflicted with her own feelings if she sees Nick presenting a different attitude. As to Caleb’s true motives, this presents the opportunity for some advenutre kind tropes where Julie and the Phantoms have to stop Caleb and save Nick from possession. Both Caleb and Nick have demonstrated an affintiy for performing (Nick with guitar and Caleb with singing) so that will be interesting to see. Also Willie is still under Caleb’s thumb so that will cause some angst and tension between himself and Alex.

- Willie and Alex’s relationship has a chance to develop. The last time they saw each other, Willie thought that Alex was crossing over so I think it will be super cute to see their reunion. (Boo Boo Stewart is a cutie) so I’m interested in seeing him and the Phantoms interact. Also - I kind of want to see him and Julie meet. I want to see if Julie’s ability to see ghosts extends to all ghosts or just the boys (this can relate back to the Phantoms connection to her mother and that can be explored).

- I want Reggie and Alex’s backgrounds to be developed and explored with music and with their friends. They didnt get much bonding moments with her and I want to see their friendship with Julie grow like Julie and Alex talking about relationships and Willie and Julie and Reggie talking about how he sees Ray as a father figure and how this might relate back to his own family history. 

- Carlos knows about the boys being ghosts and I want to see how that will play into everything. I know that Reggie has shown to be playful and indulgent in his ‘Ghost Hunting’ hobby so maybe they can have some fun playing pranks on Aunt Victoria. 

- I want to see Flynn’s character become more involved in the Phantoms and helping Julie reach her dreams but I also want Flynn’s dreams to be introduced and to be explored because she is such a fun and relatable character - and her and Julie’s friendship is pure - and she deserves to have a storyline independent of that or dominant and explored.

- I want more flashbacks too of Carrie and Julie’s friendship, of the boys when they were still alive, of Julie’s mom and how her connection with Sunset Curve was forged. I just think that would be super cool to see.

- Bobby has now seen the boys perform with Julie, finally achieving their dream performance at the Orpheum so I wonder how that will go on. I want to see the boys confront him and I want to see like some real shit going down on why and how he could cheat them out of their music. They were his friends and they died and he stole their dreams, their musics, their very souls laid bare on paper and I feel like that’s some good angst.

- Like I said before, it’s a show about Julie and the Phantoms and they want to make it big. After the Orpheum, it will be interesting to see them go on to play at other venues, tackle getting involved in the music industry and making more songs. I WANT MORE SONGSSS BRUH.

- Guys, if Julie and the Phantoms are going to become stars sometime in the show, they’ll be pretty famous. Like maybe they’re going to be on TV and they’re supposed to be dead and what happens if Luke’s parents see him like Bobby did? WHat will ahppen then?!

- As for romantic relationships (besides Juke and Willex) I want to see Reggie have a love interest or maybe even come out as Bi. That would be so cool! As a fellow bisexual, I think that would demonstrate a lot of representation to not only have a openly gay character (maybe two bec Willie’s sexuality hasn’t been confirmed yet but fingers crossed) but also a bi character. Maybe another ghost ? I want to see more ghosttss.

As for how I want Julie and Luke’s relationships to be explored:

- MORE MUSICCCCCC (because I feel the safetest bet right now considering, I feel everyone agrees that their music chemistry is A+ and gives their performances some fire😉)

- Some shenanagins with them and the rest of the Phantoms (+ Flynn) like them being actual teenagers (the boys were 17 when they died and I think that’s pretty sad as a 17 year old) and showing up at school and Alex dancing with Carrie when she throws Dirty Candy performances. I think it would be funny if the two of them ever met.

- Luke making fun of Nick (jealoussyyy) and him and Julie bickering like they always do. Maybe Flynn and the boys making fun of them both. Flynn will definently want to protect her friend after seeing what a wreck she was before the performance when she thought the boys might have crossed over or gotten destroyed by Caleb’s curse, so she might convince Julie to keep her distance like in ‘Edge of Great’. Alex and Reggie will make fun of Luke def. No questions. It’s what they do best but they love each other.

- Guys, they can’t just ignore Perfect Harmony like - come on. Like, if Luke goes snooping inside Julie’s dream box (because, let’s face it, it’s sitting right there and it’s full of LYRICS people and he loves MUSIC and he loves JULIE’S MUSIC and - yeah, come on.) I also think it would be funny to see more of Julie saying Luke’s name by accident or daydreaming because I thought - ACTUAL TEENAGE GIRL REPRESENTATION!

- More fighting because her and Luke have such strong, dominant personalities and I can see them clashing in the future over the direction they want the band to go in and, more or less, petty teenage stuff.

- Possibly being more diverse with their style of music like in Perfect Harmony and Unsaid Emily. Maybe exploring some really deep and emotional lyrics and changing it up with their performance (although, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE THAT BIT WHERE JULIE DOES THAT HIGH NOTE AT THE START OF THE SONG AND THAN THE BOYS JUST ROCK IN LIKE LEGENDS AND - ) but yeah, I want to cry again like I did in Unsaid Emily so. 

Anyway, feel free to add what you guys most look forward to but the whole point of this was I want this fandom to be a fun, free and safe environment. So don’t ship actors, I don’t support sexualizing child actors and don’t expect Luke or Julie’s relationship to go past the soft, chaste, fluffy kisses you see at 16/17 because it is a kids show and once again because Maddy is underage and her and Charlie’s age gap is controversial. But shipping Juke isn’t predatory because Luke isn’t a predator, the character is 17, 1-2 years older than Julie. It’s a kids show and it’s very tender, very pure and very sweet. We have seen nothing to contradict this so don’t make it something it’s not.

Anyway that’s my two cents so don’t @ me to yell at me, okay?

[cutiepisenpai]

Sinfully Delicious (Spencer Reid x Female OC)

Warnings: mentions of cheating, mentions of unsubs crimes. Angst with a happy ending.

Reid is sitting at his desk going through paperwork when a man walks in holding a large vase of flowers. "Delivery for Dr. Reid he says looking around." "I'm Dr. Reid.", Spencer says, getting up and walking towards the man. "You're Dr. Melinda Reid?" He questions. "Oh, no that's my wife but I can take them to her." The man hands the vase over to Spencer and leaves. "That's so cute having flowers delivered for Mel. But if you wanted to surprise her you should have made sure she was down here when they were delivered." Announces JJ. "They aren't from me." Spencer dejectedly walks to Melinda's desk leaving the vase there. Or at least that was his plan until curiosity got the better of him and he decided to read the card. 

A special gift for the most marvelous woman. I can't wait to see you again, we can talk over wine and discuss all the fun treats I would love to lick, suck and eat for you. 

Reading the card sent Spencer into a rage. He could not believe his wife would cheat on him. He thought she was happy, that they were both happy. He knew their job took a toll on both of them from time to time but overall they were happy. Before he can go into a full spiral he hears Hotch calling everyone to the briefing. Melinda takes her usual seat next to him but when she reaches for him he pulls away. They have a habit of intertwining pinkys while at work for limited PDA. But Spencer is still upset and spends the meeting avoiding eye contact and any conversation with her.(Unsub is taking male and female victims torturing them over 3 days before killing them) Once the meeting is over and everyone is leaving they grab their go bags and head for the plane. Spencer is the first to leave without saying a word. 

Melinda knows something is wrong with Spencer but he isn't giving her a chance to talk with him about it. Once they're all on the plane discussing the case she can tell he is going out of his way to avoid her. Sitting on the opposite side of the plane never responding to what she was saying. It's making the entire plane ride seem much longer than it should. The team doesn't get involved, from past experiences they have learned the best way to deal with the two Dr's lover quarrels is to leave them be. They will work through it on their own hopefully sooner than later. 

The team makes a break in the case when they find the relation between the victims. All the males and female victims who were taken together were having an affair. The team is delivering the profile to the local police. "The unknown subject is a white male in his early 30's." Hotch starts by saying. "We believe he is targeting couples who are cheating on their spouse or significant other." Morgan continues. "We believe he is committing these crimes because a significant other cheating on him in the past." Says Melinda finishing the profile. Hearing Melinda say that so nonchalantly makes Spencer scoff, "Guess you of all people would know." This is just one of the many passive aggressive comments Reid has made towards her in the past couple of days, but it makes her snap. "Okay enough! I don't know what's wrong with you but you won't tell me and I'm not a mind reader so why don't you just come out and say it." "Why bother talking to me, why don't you just talk to the guy you're screwing!" Reid spits back. Before Melinda gets a chance to respond Hotch is dragging both of them by the arm into the conference room. "Are you two serious? We are in the middle of a case and people are dying. We don't have time for this! Now talk you have 10 minutes!" Hotch says before walking out of the room. "Why would you think I'm cheating on you?" "The flowers!" Reid yells. "The flowers that were delivered before we left aren't from me but whoever sent them is obviously more than a friend." Reid's statement just confuses Melinda even more; she didn't even go back to her desk before they left and she had no idea why someone would send her flowers. It might have been one of the team members messing around, they played terrible pranks from time to time but if it was one of them they would have said something by now. "What did the card say?" Reid didn't want to think about the vile words on that card let alone say what someone else would want to do to his wife. Reid is clenching his jaw so tightly he can feel his teeth begin to grind. "The card read, A special gift for the most marvelous woman. He can't wait to see you again, you can talk over wine and discuss all the fun treats he would love to lick, suck and eat for you." Reid finally relents. Melinda is focusing on the words they sound familiar, out of context but she figures out who sent the flowers. But when she opens her mouth to tell him all that comes out is laughter. Her laughter upsets Reid even more, "Seriously Mel this isn't funny." "Oh my jealous little honeybee it is. And you're about to find out why." Instead of saying anything more to Reid she pulls out her phone, finds a contact and presses send. The phone now on speaker begins to ring, Spencer is anxious not wanting to know who this person is. "Hello beautiful", they hear in a familiar voice. It's the voice of Emily Prentiss who is currently working in London. "Thought you'd never call and thank me for the flowers", she laughs. "Yea about that, I didn't know you had sent them but my oh so jealous husband did not like what you had to say, especially since you didn't put who it was from." Melinda says holding back a laugh. "Oh my God, Reid I'm so sorry. You must have been so upset. I didn't think I needed to sign it. If she had read it she would know it's me. But you can't be mad, you're supposed to be grossly happy and making a BAU prodigy.  Actually scratch that if you two have a baby between chasing after baby genius and creepy killers she won't have time to make more delicious treats." They chatted for a few more minutes before hanging up. With the tension and anger finally leaving Spencer's body he pulls Melinda into a bone crushing hug, before Hotch reappears. "Good to know everything is better, now we have a killer to catch."

On the plane ride home everything seems back to normal Spencer and Melinda are sitting side by side holding hands with her head resting on his shoulder. Everyone is tired after this case and ready to get back home. But everyone is also still curious about the now from Emily. "So lil sis, I have to know what Prentiss meant in that card." Morgan asks. His question catches the attention of everyone else curious to know what those innuendos really meant. "Oh, well we were talking on the phone about a week ago and she was saying how she missed all of us and wished she could come visit. So I sent her a care package. I put two bottles of wine and a container of homemade pastries. Everything was wrapped individually so I did a little Alice in Wonderland theme and wrote things like drink me, eat me, taste me and lick me on the labels." Melinda says and she starts to laugh, thinking of Emily opening the package to see that. "I was just having some fun, didn't think she would respond in a way that would require an explanation." Her confession causes everyone to break out in laughter. "I don't know, I have had your baked goods before. It should be a crime they taste so amazing." JJ said. Everyone nods in agreement now asking when she will bring in more treats for me. 

[shoutoismybaby]

Enouement- ch 3

ch2/Masterlist/ch4

Sorry that I missed last week and am posting late, I’ve been really busy recently but I am trying! I will put a warning that there is a lot of angst int his chapter so be prepared! Tell me your thoughts and, enjoy!

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There was something off, the air was way too tense as you followed your boyfriend out of the cafeteria. Before exiting the door you looked back at your table of friends, who were all giving you questioning looks. You could only shrug in response and go through the door that was held open for you.

“What's up?” It was then that you noticed how rigid Denki was, “Babe, you okay?” You worriedly place your hand on his shoulder but he immediately shook you off, causing you to frown in concern knowing that everything was not okay.

“Babe?” “Not here,” Was his cold response, and so you shakily followed him all the way to the stairwell. The one you had already been at two times this morning alone, both times ending well, yet this time you were uneasy. Fearing that it wasn’t going to end on a good note.

What could possibly be wrong?? Did he find out? He couldn't have, only you and your family knew about your pregnancy. Well, and Bakugou, but by now you knew that he wouldn’t tell without your permission. The only other idea you could come up with was death. Was his family okay?

Well, there was another reason... But you shook off that possibility. That couldn’t happen, right? Oh God, maybe it would, was he going to break up with you?

“You know that I love you, right?” His first sentence calmed the fears that came with the last scenario you had thought up in your head.

“Of course, and I love you too. Did you just want to come all this way to te-”

“Then why would you do it?” He had now made eye contact with you, and you could see the tears building in the corners, threatening to fall.

What did you do? Did he find out about the pregnancy? If he had was he upset that you had been hiding it, or did he find out about the abortion too? You were just trying to do what was best for both of you after all. A baby would totally ruin his career and future, and you could never wish anything but happiness for him.

Still, after being with him again, a deep part of you wanted the baby. You were selfish and wanted as much of Kaminari as you could get your hands on. You loved him and you knew that you would love your baby endlessly. Maybe you could have figured out a way to make everything work. A baby was a miracle after all, and what if you never got this chance again?

Kaminari was one of the best people you have ever met. Sure, he wasn't the smartest, but you’d be damned if everything else about him didn't make up for that. His kindness, compassion, and drive were things you saw in him every day. He had goals, and he wasn't afraid to work hard to achieve them. He had an endless pit of love and was one of the least judgmental people you knew. He was already the perfect hero in your eyes.

So what had you done to him? Your lack of response had only caused his tears to spill over, silently falling, but he made no attempt to wipe them. He could only keep his gaze on you and it shattered your heart to see him like this, but you really didn’t know what was wrong. The only thing you could think of to say came out in a whisper, afraid if you spoke too loud something would happen.

“I, I don't understand Denki… What did I do?” Your response only seemed to anger him. His brows furrowed and his teeth were grinding together, you felt the rage coming off of him in waves. Goosebumps traveled up your arms at the sight of him, never before have you seen him like this, it was terrifying and alarming all at once. Your heart began to feel heavy with dread and you were aware of the tears stinging behind your eyes as they were being forced to stay back for now.

You couldn’t stand to think that you had hurt him this much. You hated yourself for whatever you did, and you just wanted an answer to fix this mess.. Kaminari was so perfect, often you felt like you didn’t even have the right to look at him. So how could you let yourself hurt him this much?

“Please, don't lie to me. I can't take it,” Despite the tears still falling onto the floor, both his voice and clenched fists gave insight to just how infuriated he truly was. You wanted to hold onto him, but that look in his eyes had only caused you to fold into yourself, pleading silently for everything to make sense, you were so confused. This new side of him had you scared to be around him, and you didn’t like the feeling of being afraid of your boyfriend. 

“Denki I’m serious, I really don't know.” Your words came out strangled, and it was only then you noticed the pain in your voice due to how strained your throat felt... It was as if you had swallowed a cup of saltwater after eating a cactus, making your eyes sting.

“Don't call me that anymore.” You had no idea how to respond, and the icy tone was hurting you more than the lump in your throat.

Why was he so mad at you? He could at least tell you straight out instead of continuing to be cryptic. At least then you could fix everything. But when you looked at how broken he was, you couldn't even bring yourself to blame him at all.

“Baby-” Your chest hurt as if one by one it was tearing itself into pieces. But your attempt to comfort him got cut off,

“You don't deserve to!” He was loud now, voice echoing along the stairwell. It made you jump, not expecting him to shout. However, as soon as he did, you could see the pent up frustration leave his body. His tense form relaxed, shoulders slouching and hands opened up. You once more had to hold yourself back from reaching out to hold him, his body looked broken and beaten and you wanted nothing more than to make him feel better. The seething look in his eyes died, but it also took any light he had once had. Now, his eyes looked dull, void of all other emotions besides pain.

There were times in your relationship that you imagined what your first serious fight would be like and about. Now you could only wonder what was going on and how you really didn’t want to be doing this. The confusion made you feel dizzy and you leaned against the wall for support. Your thoughts were scrambled, and you searched for something, anything, to say,

“I really dont understand whats going on. Did I say something wrong? Please, just tell me!” Your words felt like knives as they left your throat. Everything was painful yet numb at the same time. You never wanted to hurt Kami, but at the moment you had no idea what you had done. How could you fix it if you didn’t even know how it broke?

Kaminari’s shaking body once again turned away from you, choosing to focus on the stairs instead of your form in front of him..

“You know, I was always jealous of Bakugou,” His comment caused your brows to furrow as you were thrown off from the mention of your friend. What did he have to do with anything? “Well, I guess I’ve been jealous of most of our class actually, but mostly him. He’s always been at the top. He's smart, strong, and his control on his quirk is that of a pros. And somehow he has all these friends despite his, extreme, personality… But I always thought, you know, I have one thing he doesn't have. One thing that makes me so happy-” His voice broke then and you felt a stab in your chest at the fact that you couldn't console him, since all he’d do is push you away. He took a moment to collect himself, breathing was shaky as he took deep breaths before turning to face you. Oh how you wished he hadn't, the agony in his eyes was almost too much for you to handle,the disgusting feeling of vomit was viciously clawing its way to your mouth.

“But now he’s even taken you away from me.” A new wave of tears fell from his eyes but you couldn't seem to react to them. You were only more confused than before.

“Kami, what are you talking about? No one has taken me away from you. Especially not Bakugou.” You tried to laugh to lighten up the situation, but it came out too forced. You expected a verbal response from him but all you got was him fishing out his phone from his pocket before shoving it in your direction. Once you grabbed it he took steps away from you, allowing his arms to cover his face.

You wanted to wipe his tears, but you also had to know what he was even talking about.

You unlocked his phone, which opened up right into text messages that he had looked at back at the table. Messages that made your knees falter as you realize exactly what the picture looked like.

Suddenly, you understood.

“Kami, I know what this looks like but I swear-”

“Please don't, I said to not lie to me. I really can't take it.” His speech came out through hiccups as he struggled to stop crying, quickly grabbing his phone back from you.

“I’m not lying! I swear it was an accident and it's not what you think.” It was now that everything came crashing down for you.

He thought you cheated on him. With Bakugou of all people.

You had just had to go through this whole pregnancy and abortion thing without him, and now someone had taken pictures of you and Bakugou?

You had thought the two of you were alone, it was the only reason you had really opened up to him in the first place. Now, these pictures of you both on the floor, in various positions that looked so incriminating out of context… Things couldn’t possibly get worse, and you were trying to get out what had happened in a way he would actually believe you. He needed to know that Bakugou had just fallen on you, nothing more than that. But the strain of your throat made it nearly impossible.

A strangled whimper left Kaminari’s throat as you looked at each other.

“I wish… You had just broken up with me. I wouldn't have blamed you and-” another soft hiccup interrupted his sentence. “I just want you to be happy (y/n).”

By now you knew what he was going to say next. And you couldn't take it, you didn’t want to believe it.

He had been the center of your universe basically since you arrived in UA and you wouldn't know how to continue without him by your side. This was the guy who you wanted to marry one day, no one else would do.

“I just fell and I grabbed onto him for support I promise that's all that happened!” You worked to get your sentence out, a last effort to save whatever was left of your relationship. However, the so-called “proof” of you cheating must have been too strong, because it was too late. Kaminari didn’t even look like he was listening anymore as he turned his back to face you and started to talk softly, voice conveying the pain he must have felt

“I don't want to talk to you again, it will hurt me too much.” For a moment he didn't move, as if he had something else to say, but he didn't. He just began walking after the brief pause, leaving you to crumple to your knees as you watched him.

You had only seen him walk in such a defeated fashion a couple of times before. And seeing it because of a misunderstanding that could have been easily fixed if he would listen just tore your heart right out of your chest. All at once it seemed to hit you, really hit you, and the dam of emotions you’ve been doing well to keep at bay burst forth. It was not that it was all settling in, the dam broke.

The pain in your throat finally released in deafening sobs, but you couldn't hear them. You felt like you were underwater, everything was muffled and the only thing that you could make out were the memories together, and the rushing thoughts that buzzed all too loud to think correctly and all you could hear was your strangled sobs.

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ZEP: S1 -  PARALLELS

This is part of my ZEP: S1 Thoughts Master Post

Here’s the new & updated long analysis post for ZEP S1. This one features the whole season, all 12 episodes.

Just me...dissecting & analyzing the storyline...with focus on Zoey & Team Max. But since the stories are so intertwined, there’s Zoey/dad & Zoey/Simon talk, too. Among other things...relevant to it all...

ZEP: MAX & ZOEY -  THOUGHTS 1 [LINK HERE]  

PARALLELS

ZOEY & MAX AS NEW TEAM MANAGERS #twoofakind

In 1x02 when Zoey gives her first introductory speech as the new Team Manager on the 4th Floor, she prepares flash cards for the speech..with the first one being her name (Hi, Im Zoey). In 1x10 when Max becomes the new Team Manager on the 6th Floor, he prepares flash cards for his speech..with the first one being his name (Hi, I’m Max).

In 1x02 Zoey makes an awkard joke at the beginning of her speech “Please don’t say anything stupid” (one of her notes to herself). In 1x10 Max makes awkard joke at the beginning of his speech (Please hold your applause til the end" (one of his notes to himself)

In 1x02 Zoey tells Joan that she prepared for the new job by reading multiple books & listening to several popular podcasts on how to be an effective leader. In 1x10 Max tells his new team that he prepared for the new job by reading about a 7-step leadership program..online….

In 1x02 Joan is watching on the background as Zoey gives her team a great motivational speech (in the end)... and connects with them. She smiles like a proud parent seeing this. In 1x10 Ava is watching on the background as Max gives his team a great motivational speech (in the end)... and connects with them.  She smiles like a proud parent seeing this. 

MATCHING OUTFITS 

In 1x12 Max wears a dark green hoodie in the beginning of the episode (Cheesequakes scene)....during the day. And in 1x12 Zoey wears a dark green hoodie (with a zippr, and same colour top/T-shirt under it) later in the episode (Movie Nights/Make out session scene)...later in the same day. They match tone-to-tone in this episode.

TURNING POINTS: DAD’S HEALTH

1x06 vs 1x12 The mud-season finale & the season finale. In 1x06 Zoey's moment with Max was interrupted by a phone call about her dad's health. Because while the episode focused on the Z/S/J triangle, a turn of events had just happened. Max, after witnessing the burnt roses, dropped everything (his plan on finding a date), and was there for Zoey, by her side..every step. Then a phone call, and he made sure she got to her family, and stayed by her side..the whole time (til bedtime). In 1x12 Zoey & Max's movie night "date" make-out session was interrupted by a call about her dad's health. Max made sure she got to her family, and stayed by her side... the whole time (til it was time for "just the family").

1x06 ended with Zoey saying goodbye to Max and shutting the door of her parents house as he left. And this happened after a sweet moment between the two (hug & his promise to always be there for her). And then she leans on the wall next to the door...and hears Max continue singing his heart song to her. This night/song was, IMO, the turning point for her...the moment when she was really starting to see him in a new light. The moment that was her "I think I might love him" moment for her. 1x12 ended with Zoey saying goodbye to Max (after the funeral/wake) and shutting the door of her parents house as he left. And this happened after a sweet moment between them (them sitting on the stairs as he sang his "AP" verse, and him hugging her & giving her a forehead kiss before he left). And then she leans on the wall next to the door...and she starts singing "AP".

CHEESEQUAKES

1x01 We see Zoey getting cheesequakes for her & Simon...but then she learns that he's engaged. It's a "love triangle" moment as she meets Jessica...with her being the third wheel, the one who is jealous... Simon hadn't told Zoey the truth... that he is taken/with someone. 1x12 We see Zoey getting cheesequakes for her & Max...but then Simon arrives. It's a "love triangle" moment as Simon sees the two acting in a "more than just friends" way....and with himbeing the third wheel, who is jealous. Zoey hasn't told Simon the whole ruth about her relationship with Max. Shes claimed that they're just friends, and after this claims he has nothing to be jealous about.

GRIEF ACTIONS 

Grieving Simon proposed to his girlfriend Jessica after his dad's death. Everything points to his proposal being more about trying to pretend to move on. It was a distraction. Grieving Zoey pursued the engaged man, Simon...as her dad'd health was declining and she was preparing for her dad's death. Everything points to her pursuit of him being about pretenting to move on. But is is a distraction. (and so will be her choice to be with Simon...for now, after Mitch's death...)

MRI (BACK TO THE BEGINNING…)

In 1x01 gets an MRI...that goes wrong..."thanks" to an earthquake...and she end up having a "zoeyality" superpower. In 1x02 we hear her sing a song [even if it turns out to be just her dream]...the first one she sings..inbtead of others singing to her. The song is "I've got the music in Me". In 1x12 we/Zoey sees the same MRI machine & same technician/doctor as she's in a hospital [for Emilys false alarm], and he sings to her/hums to himself the song "I’ve got the Music in Me".

Remember how it all started? With Zoey’s MRI in Pilot…going all wrong…because of an eathquake. She went to check on her health because she had concerns..because of her fathers condition. We saw her “take the test”. But… we never heard how it ended. Did the earthquake interfere with the results & she’d have to get another MRI to find out the results? Did she get the results, but never mentioned them?

After the MRI we see her talking to her mom, but it’s never mentioned how the test went. The results…or lack of them…is never mentioned… until episode 11. Instead…after the experience she’s “going crazy” - hearing everyone sing their inner feelings. But not once does she mention the MRI in any other context than it being the result she got her superpower. And we’ve only heard her mention it to her family, Mo & Max, no one else even knows she got an MRI.

A lot of things in the series are hinting at Zoey having the same disease as her dad has. And the singing might be her first, early, strange “symptom”. Because she has the same condition is probably why she hears people singing, too. Even the ASL storyline supports it. Not to mention some other scenes & lines from songs in the show. Like her mom/family singing “We’ve Gotta Get Out of This Place” in 1x11. And since we know that the lyrics of the heart songs tell the truth and are part of the narrative/story, then they have a real meaning.

A stranger at the caskett room sings during Maggie’s song: “Now my girl you’re so young and pretty, and one thing I know is true: You’ll be dead before your time is due, I know” & later Maggie sings the same lines, and then the camera moves to Zoey…witnessing the song, and it doesn’ really feel like it’s cause we see it all from her POV..but cause the line is a “clue” for her…

CHIRP vs ZOEY-ALITY PARALLELS

Invading privacy. How come no-one has mentioned this? Especially Max. We’ve seen him be concerned about “mind reading”, and then they’re all working on “mind reading code”

I do think that all this was done intentionally & they chose to use a piece of technology that is similar to Zoeys ability…to make a point..in the future. And I’ve found it quite interesting that no-one has…yet (by the end of episode 11) questioned how ethical the tech is, or how it could invade peoples privacy.

If they’d had a character mention it, I would’ve expected it to be Max. I mean… in episode 1x01 when Zoey asks him what he thinks about te ability to read other peoples minds, he says that he’d get his feelings hurt a lot..more. And he has voiced concern about Zoey being able to “read his mind”…several times. His main concern has been that she can read his mind/see into his heart (via heart songs…while he can’t see into hers…). And he was also very uncomfortable when he found out that everyone could “read him” (that everyone knew he has had a crush on Zoey…forever). He’s the one character whose expressed most concern about people knowing his secret feelings & thoughts. Hence I have been surprised he hasn’t commented on CHIRP yet (until ep 11).

Though anyone on the team might bring it up..at one point. And another good possibility is Simon. Because since he’s still in the dark about her superpower, that would be one way to take it back to the beginning. Cause as we remember from the PIlot, he was “impressed” by Zoey’s ability to “read his mind”..only he thought that that must mean they have a “natural” connection, so when he finds out she had help (from her superpower…which is basically like getting help from a CHIRP technology), he’s gonna have a whole new look on their connection and everything. And he’s most likely gonna be “betrayed” and “disappointed”, because he’ll realize that their connection wasn’t actually real, and she “cheated in the game”.

And CHIRP is most definitely a “plot device”. The parallels to/with Zoey’s abilities are just…too obvious

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J/H 4-24: Eric’s False Alarm

Another partial re-write - the last one of Season 4, I promise. Context for all of these should be clear to anyone familiar with the episode, as these are more adjustments than wholesale rewrites.

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SHOW TITLE   INT. FORMAN BASEMENT - DAY   A quiet afternoon. HYDE in his chair and FEZ on the couch trade jabs with one another. “What’s Your Name” by Lynyrd Skynyrd plays on the radio.   JACKIE enters through the basement door, dressed for work at the Cheese Palace. She has a bag full of cheese cubes in her hand.   JACKIE: Okay, boys. I brought cheese samples from work.   HYDE: What’s wrong with ‘em?   JACKIE: Nothing. (beat) Well, they were in the trash.   Hyde and Fez share a look.   HYDE/FEZ: Cool./Bring it over.   Jackie hands them the bag, and they dig in as she sits.   KELSO enters, also through the door, and makes for the deep freeze.   KELSO: Hey. You know how my brother locks me in a closet with a pillowcase full of dead fish until the stink makes me cry? Well, while I was in there, I heard him make a phone call. And it seems that he’s got a little surprise for Donna tonight.   Popsicle in hand, he sits between Jackie and Fez on the couch.   KELSO (cont’d): The honeymoon suite at that French motel in Kenosha.   JACKIE: The Le Motel?   FEZ: Oh, no. It sounds like Donna and Casey are going to le do it.   KELSO: Yeah. Eric’s gonna freak out when we tell him.   HYDE: Then why would we tell him?   KELSO: To watch him freak out.   HYDE: Kelso, he’s gonna take it really hard, man. We just need to keep our mouths shut.   KELSO: Wow. That’s very considerate of Eric’s feelings. What the hell, man?   He scoffs, crosses to the record player.   HYDE: I just think that we all need to zip it. (to Fez) Especially you.   FEZ: Hey, I can keep a secret. I didn’t tell Kelso you took five bucks from his wallet.   KELSO: (gasps) Hyde!   Hyde shrugs, gives Fez a sour look.   JACKIE: None of you guys can keep a secret.   KELSO: Well, you sure can. Especially when it’s about you kissing other guys.   Jackie stands, crosses to him.   JACKIE: Michael, it was one guy from work. And I told you I’m sorry.   KELSO: Well, tell me again, and this time, maybe you should cry or give me money.   JACKIE: No, Michael. I’m not going to beg for forgiveness. I didn’t make you do that when you cheated with Pam Macy or Laurie.   HYDE: Don’t forget the Sacred Heart chick and Mrs. Ferguson.   Jackie nods, at Hyde and Kelso in turn.   KELSO: (sputtering) That is totally different. When guys cheat, it’s because they need some hot action. But when girls cheat, it’s way worse, ‘cause girls don’t even like sex.   JACKIE: We do too!   KELSO: Then why aren’t we doing it now?   JACKIE: Because I don’t want to do it right now.   KELSO: I do, point made! Thank you!   He nods triumphantly, Jackie throws her arms up and goes back to the couch, and Hyde shakes his head.

***   INT. FORMAN BASEMENT – EVENING   THE CIRCLE. ERIC stirs in his seat.   ERIC: Well, I called the Le Motel. Fez, you were right. Casey has a reservation for tonight.   Pan to Fez.   FEZ: And Hyde, you were right. I cannot keep a secret.   Pan to Kelso, a slip of paper with a phone number scribbled across it in his hand.   KELSO: Speaking of secrets, look what I found in Jackie’s cheese. Some guy Phil’s phone number. I can’t take this anymore. I just know it, Hyde. She’s cheating on me again!   Pan to Hyde.   HYDE: Well, whaddya know? Two more, and you two might be even. (to Eric) Forman, man, you gotta be cool about this Donna thing, or she’s gonna know you’re jealous.   Pan to Eric.   ERIC: Whoa. Hey, you guys, I’m not jealous. I’m just looking out for her. I mean, Donna’s practically a sister to me. A tall, shapely sister. Who I’ve done it with. About a million times.   Pan to Hyde.   HYDE: Look, maybe Donna and Casey won’t even do it tonight. I’d call it 50-50.   Pan to Eric.   ERIC: You would?   Pan to Hyde.   HYDE: Oh, I’d be wrong. But I’d call it that to keep you from doing something stupid.   Pan to Kelso.   KELSO: Forman, you gotta do something stupid. Sitting around feeling helpless all day – that isn’t healthy. That’s why I’m gonna stalk Jackie.   Pan to Fez, holding up a small slice of Swiss cheese.   FEZ: You know, I really love things with holes. Swiss cheese, donuts, inner tubes. I don’t know what it is about a hole, it just feels good.   He pops the slice into his mouth.   CUT TO:   INT. JACKIE’S ROOM – EVENING   Jackie sits on her bed, flipping through an edition of COSMO. “Sign, Sealed, Delivered” by Peter Frampton plays on the radio.   The bedside phone rings. Jackie picks it up. SPLIT SCREEN as Kelso, in the basement on the other line, holds up the slip of paper with Phil’s number.   JACKIE: Hello?   KELSO: Is Phil there?   JACKIE: Who?   KELSO: Phil, some guy you kissed! I found his number in your cheese!   JACKIE: Michael, Phil is the guy who delivers the sausage.   KELSO: You tramp!   JACKIE: No, idiot, he brings food to our store. He’s our sausage guy.   KELSO: (beat) Tramp! (notices the song) Who’s that singing? Who’s singing love songs to you?   JACKIE: Peter Frampton.   KELSO: Are you kissing him?   Jackie slams the phone down. SPLIT SCREEN ENDS. She has no sooner begun reading again than the phone rings. Scowling, she picks it up.   SPLIT SCREEN as Kelso is joined on the other line by Fez. Fez is on the phone, held up by Kelso as he listens in.   JACKIE: Hello?   FEZ: Hello, this is Norman. Shall we kiss?   On her end, Jackie rolls her eyes. On their end, Hyde appears behind Kelso and Fez. He frogs them both in the arm and takes the phone from Kelso.   HYDE: (into phone) Just leave it off the hook.   He hangs up. SPLIT SCREEN ENDS. Jackie leans back into her pillows and sighs.   ***   INT. FORMAN BASEMENT – NIGHT   The boys are hanging out. Hyde is in his chair, Fez snacks on cheese on the couch, and Kelso fidgets with incense in the lawn chair. “Count on Me” by Jefferson Starship plays on the radio.   FEZ: The red cheese is chewy.   HYDE: The red cheese is wax.   Fez dwells on that for a moment, but continues to eat.   Eric storms in through the basement door. He struggles to rip his jacket off and throw it to the floor.   ERIC: Oh. Hey, guess what, fellas? Turns out I still have feelings for Donna. Yeah. Deep feelings. Warm feelings. Tingly-in-the-pants feelings. And I can’t do anything about it, because she has those feelings for someone else.   KELSO: I think that admitting you still have feelings for Donna is an important step. Because it reopens the door for this. (mocking) Eric loves Donna! Eric loves Donna!   The guys get in a laugh.   ERIC: Look, you guys, I don’t love her. I just think that if she’s not with me, the fairest thing for everyone is if she’s alone and unhappy.   Kelso stands, crosses to Eric.   KELSO: No. That is a bad plan, man. ‘Cause if you leave a chick alone, the next thing you know, she’s licking the roof of another guy’s mouth. Like the cheese guy. I hate that guy!   HYDE: (to Kelso) God, will you give that a rest already?   KELSO: Oh, here we go! Man, we’re supposed to be friends, Hyde, but you take Jackie’s side whenever she and I fight, even when I didn’t do anything.   HYDE: “Didn’t do anything?” Kelso, Jackie took a kiss from her boss after you kept blowing her off. You slept with at least four women behind her back for months. What’s your excuse?   KELSO:  My excuse is that... I can’t think of one. But I will think about it, and I will find one on the way to the mall, where I’ll be stalking Jackie.   He turns up his nose and marches out the door, Fez in tow.   Eric flops down across the couch.   ERIC:  I just... I can’t believe Donna’s in a motel room with him right now.   HYDE: Man, I don’t like it either. But there is one thing you can do. I believe you have a stack of Playboys underneath your bed? Go use ‘em.   He pats Eric on the leg and heads out the door.   *** INT. MALL – NIGHT   The courtyard’s got a new attraction – a kiddie train track, led by an electric Thomas the Tank Engine, advertised by a sign for “ALL THIS WEEK!” A few kids ride in the cars, while the conductor keeps his cap pulled low over his head.   Around this space hog, Jackie walks the floor, offering cheese samples. A GOOD-LOOKING GUY approaches and takes a sample just as the train comes around to them. The conductor lifts his head up – it’s Kelso.   KELSO: (to the guy) Stay away from my girlfriend!   The guy hurries away. Kelso brings the train to a stop.   JACKIE: Michael, what are you doing? What, are you spying on me now?   KELSO: Well, you’re around strange guys all day, and apparently, every once in a while, you up and French one of them.   He starts the train back up. Jackie walks alongside it.   JACKIE: You have lost your mind!   KELSO: Yep, and I don’t miss it!   JACKIE: Michael, look at you! Riding around on a kiddie train so you can spy on me? I mean, do you not see how crazy this is?   Kelso thinks, brings the train to a halt. He stands, and he and Jackie move into the space inside the train track.   KELSO: Yeah. But I don’t know what to do. I want to believe you when you say you’re sorry, but I can’t, because you never seem like you mean it.   JACKIE: Well, I... you’re right. I don’t.   KELSO: What do you mean?   JACKIE: I mean, I’m not sorry, you idiot! I’m still angry at you for blowing me off the last couple of weeks, and I’m still hurt from all the times you cheated on me!   KELSO: Well, I’m – I’m angry too. And not just ‘cause of the kiss. You don’t support me! You didn’t want me to be a model, you always call me names like “idiot” and put me down, and it makes me feel bad about myself. I think that’s why I cheated!   As they argue, one of the kids climbs over the cars to get to the engine and starts the kiddie train up again.   KELSO (cont’d): Man, it’s... it’s like we’re in this loop, going around and around, just spinning our wheels and holding each other back!   JACKIE: Michael, what are you saying?   KELSO: I’m saying... I’m saying I don’t think I can be with you anymore. I want to break up.   Jackie drops her cheese tray. As the kiddie train goes around, kids reach out to pick up the spilled samples.   JACKIE: Wait, break up? No, no, Michael, please, let’s talk about this -   KELSO: No.   He throws his conductor’s hat aside and walks away.   JACKIE: Wait, but Michael!   She takes a few steps after him before she can’t go on anymore. Unfortunately for the kids, that means she’s standing on the train track. The KID DRIVER stops the train and leans his head out.   KID DRIVER: Clear the track!   The other kids chorus the thought, even as Jackie begins to cry.

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Jealous (T’Challa x Reader)

“It’s not your fault that they hover I mean no disrespect It's my right to be hellish I still get jealous” - Nick Jonas

A/N: Warnings: Nothing really. Our king is jealous and is not that great at hiding the green eyed monster.

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T’Challa Udaku couldn’t hide the pure irritation in his face as he watched you, his wife, converse with Amare, King of Maligeria. The man practically eye fucking you and you were oblivious to his advances. Or maybe you liked another man flirting with you? Maybe you liked him too! “Brother....” Shuri tried to get his attention but failed because his eyes wouldn’t leave you two. “Brother, are you ok? I can hear your teeth grinding in your mouth.” T’Challa cleared his throat, sparing his sister a glance. “I am fine , Shuri.” He grabbed a glass of sparkling cider and sipped, hoping she’ll drop it. “Yes until you saw Y/N talking with that handsome king over there.” She giggled at her fuming brother who glared at her, causing her to sigh. “Come on, T’Challa! You can not seriously be jealous!” He almost spat out his drink. “Me??? Jealous??? That is preposterous!”

“Brother, it is ok to be a little jealous. It’s a normal human emotion. It shows that you really love her and you know she can do way better than you.” T’Challa attempted to scowl at his sister again but she made her way out his sight. He looked back at you and ceased his inner seething as you walked up to him with the other king right behind you. Maybe his eyes were deceiving him, but he could’ve sworn he was watching your posterior as you walked. The audacity of this fool. “T’Challa, this is King Amare of Maligeria. He was just telling me how he is interested in a trade agreement between his country and Wakanda.” You stated cheerfully. Amare’s eyes stayed on you and T’Challa was burning holes through him until you looked at him and he tried to drop his murderous expression. Emphasis on tried because he was failing at it. “I was talking to your lovely queen and was hoping I could meet with you, King T’Challa tomorrow afternoon.” Amare spoke, sparing the annoyed king a glance then his eyes were trained back on you. You smiled at him and at that moment, he wanted to grab you by the ass and tongue you down while staring at Amare to let him know you were all his. “I’m sorry but I will not able to. I have a very important meeting tomorrow. Perhaps we can meet another day.” T’Challa silently hoped they couldn’t. “Unfortunately no. My last day in Wakanda is tomorrow and then I must go back to my country. I guess this was not meant to be.” Amare sighed in disappointment but then beamed at you. “But Her Majesty may take your place.” T’Challa’s face dropped at his suggestion. He played right into his fucking hand. He was hoping you had something going on and would decline. You shyly smiled but excitement was all over your face. “I would love to!” T’Challa fought to mask his fuming. He did not see that rejection backfiring on him. Damn him. The devil, aka King Amare, was working hard so he shall work harder. “My love, I am not sure about you attending this meeting with King Amare.” T’Challa spoke with concern, watching you get ready to meet with Amare. You were looking too good to be meeting with him. He desperately wanted to strike the man with his Panther habit and he hasn’t even seen you yet but your husband knew he would ogle you intensely. That thought really pissed him off. You sighed as you tried to put your gold dangling earring in. “Baby, I must go. You have to meet with the Avengers which is very important and this trade meeting is just as important but unfortunately you can not be at 2 places at once. That’s why you have a queen for.” You shyly smiled at him through the mirror and he looked away sighing. “I know but this meeting with the Avengers can be rescheduled.” “T’Challa, it is too important to be rescheduled. You know that.” “It’s just that.....this King Amare.....he’s very arrogant and pushy and a lot of other things. I feel like he will be unprofessional with you and-“ T’Challa pauses before he could reveal the whole truth of what he’s feeling but he glanced up at your face and it seems like you already figured it out. “I see what this is. You do not trust me.” You stated solemnly folding your arms. His eyes widened. “My love, of course I trust you! It’s just that-“ “You don’t think I can handle my first meeting as queen without you there. I can do this. You don’t have to worry about me messing it up! Wakanda is my country as well!” T’Challa heard a record scratch in his head. That’s what you think? Not that he was jealous, but that he didn’t trust you to make a decision on his country’s behalf? Your country’s behalf? He grabbed your hands staring into your eyes. “My queen, I trust you with everything inside of you. Please do not think I do not. I just do not trust Amare. He seems very sneaky and I just don’t want to lose you to him.” He cleared his throat and began to mess up his words. “N-not lose you t-to him, i m-mean-“ You cupped your husband’s face and pecked his lips. “I know, my king. You are just doing what a husband does and look out for your wife. I do appreciate that, love. I do but I can handle this and Amare will not fool me. Believe that.” He wanted to smile but that jealousy he had wouldn’t allow him to. Amare was handsome and charming. Who’s to tell that you wouldn’t leave your clumsy husband for that charming king?

“I don’t blame you for being jealous-“ “I AM NOT JEALOUS!” T’Challa roared cutting Erik off which caused the latter to snort while taking a sip of Wakandan liquor. “Jealous, envious, pick whatever fucking word you want, nigga. I ain’t no damn thesaurus. But you are jealous which makes sense because no homo, that king is a handsome ass nigga. If I was a girl...” Erik opened his arms wide. “Legs wide open to that nigga but no homo though.” T’Challa wanted to smack him hard. “You are not helping, N’Jadaka.” Erik put the bottle down. “But I’m about to. Listen. If you’re that fucking worried he gonna take your wife, then just spy on them.” “I’m not sure about that and I do have this meeting with the Avengers about this-“ “That nigga is about to fuck your wife and you worried about some damn Avengers.” T’Challa knew Erik was clearly doing too much and clearly you wouldn’t cheat on him. However, that emotion called jealously was a strong bitch. Shuri pinched the bridge of her nose. “Wait tell me this again. You want me to what?!” T’Challa groaned loudly doing the same gesture as his sister. He thought his request was clear and did not think it was unreasonable at all. So he repeated it. “I would like you to upgrade my panther suit to give me the ability to turn invisible.” “Why?” “Because-“ T’Challa hesitated in explaining himself. How did he not expect the genius mind of his 18 year old sister to question why he suddenly needed this new ability? Because her mind was so genius, she figured it out herself. “T’Challa, you are not seriously trying to spy on your wife! Y/N loves you! Way too much, I would say!” When he glared at his sister, she put her hands up. “I’m just saying. I do not see what is so great about you. Anyway, you have no need to spy on her! Don’t you trust her?” “I do trust her! I don’t trust that Amare and I will need to protect her if he tries anything.” Shuri snorted as she observed one of her blueprints. “Brother, Y/N is a grown woman. She can handle herself. You must’ve forget she used to be one of the War Dogs. Who is the idiot that gave you that idea?” “Yo Princess!” Erik’s voice boomed throughout the lab. Shuri sighed shaking her head, watching Erik approach. “And here comes the idiot.” She glances her brother. “Why do you insist on listening to him? Things always turn left when you listen to him. Remember when you were trying to court her?” T’Challa thought back to how disastrous it was when he took his cousin’s advice on asking you out. Long story short, it was the worst advice out of all the others and it still amazes him to this day how he managed to get a chance with you, let alone marry you. Erik used his context clues to figure out what his two cousins were talking about and scoffed. “Stop living in the past, Princess. I’ve grown since then.” “You are telling him to spy on his wife. WHERE IS THE GROWTH?” Erik sucked his teeth and shook his head. “You see the problem is that you too close minded. I’m thinking outside of the box. If he doesn’t do this, the only other way he can win this is to suck her titty right in front of him.” The royal siblings gave him perplexed looks and he sucked his teeth loudly. “Think about it. Would you continue pursuing a female if a nigga walked up to her and sucked her titty right in front of you? I wouldn’t!” T’Challa continued to furrow in perplexity as he turned to his sister. “Shuri, please give me this upgrade.” Shuri sighed deeply in defeat. She was completely against this but seeing the pleading in her brother’s eyes urged her to do it. When she did, she continued to voice how much of a bad idea this was but T’Challa didn’t want to hear it. He just wanted to hurry up, spy on this meeting, and stop Amare in whatever he plans to do. Amare decided to meet with you in a private VIP section of one of Wakanda’s 5 Star restaurant. A place T’Challa was planning on taking you but the bastard beat him to it. He fucking knew it. T’Challa didn’t tell him but he knew the bastard knew. The guards stood outside of the section which annoyed the king because they were not present in case Amare did something to you. He got this but someone is getting fired for this. During the course of dinner, the topic remained on the trade and T’Challa was beginning to feel ridiculous as he stood behind you, completely invisible and listening to the conversation. Maybe he was wrong about Amare. “I’m glad I was about to meet with you, Her Highness. You are a wonderful queen. T’Challa is a very blessed man. I’m surprised he let you alone in this meeting.” “Thank you, King Amare. He was a little nervous about me doing this by myself but he trusts me. We trust each other.” He swallowed feeling his heart drop at your words. He was feeling like the ultimate idiot right now. Jealously is a bitch of an emotion. “I just pray Bast blesses with a queen like you.” Amare says slowly as he moves closer to you. He fucking knew it! He wasn’t wrong about Amare after all! He was right! Enraged, T’Challa dashes forward to push you two apart. You and Amare were shocked and confused at the sudden force between you two. T’Challa noticed a ticking in his suit and panicked. “What is that?” You asked looking for the source of the ticking sound He had to make a hasty escape. T’Challa attempted to jump over the table but his foot got caught in the tablecloth, causing the table to collapse with plates shattering and food and drinks spilled. The guards stormed in, hearing all the commotion and asked if the royals were alright. All of the sudden gasps were heard and T’Challa froze. “......King T’Challa?” Amare questioned and he cursed in his head realizing that he was now visible. “T’CHALLA UDAKU!” Your voice boomed throughout the section. He turned his head to glance up on you. You were standing over him with your arms folded, fuming. He deactivated the helmet part and sat up. “My love-“ “Why would you-how could you?” Your face displayed pure anger but your voice was cracking. You were hurt. He could tell that he hurt you and he felt his heart break. You turned to your guards. “Let’s go. I need to be away from him right now.” “Y/N, please-“ T’Challa attempts to catch up to you but slips on a water puddle. Okoye stays behind to help the king as the rest of the Dora’s leave with you. She helped him up as she shook her head in disappointment. “With all due respect, my king-“ T’Challa sighed deeply holding his hand up. “Yes I know. I’m an idiot.” When T’Challa arrived to the palace, he wanted to see you to apologize and explain himself. Once the jealously passed over, he realized what he did was completely moronic and you had every right to be pissed at him. A few hours had passed since the incident and he still hasn’t seen you. You weren’t present at the Avengers meeting and now he was having a meeting with the council. You weren’t present to that either. When the meeting was over and the members, he had his back turned when you stepped into the room. He turned around and gulped hard not knowing what’s about to happen. Were you going to scream? Slap him? Or even worse, stay silent? You still haven’t said anything and the silence was killing him. “I’m sorry, sithandwa sam.” You looked him in the eyes and sighed deeply. “I just don’t see why you would marry me if you think I couldn’t do my job as queen.” “It’s not-“ “Do you realize how embarrassing that is? My husband doesn’t trust me to discuss international affairs without him that he takes drastic measures to spy on me! That is humiliating, T’Challa! Not only do you not trust me, another king and other people see that too! Why would you do that to me? Why?!” “Because Amare is good looking and suave. I was afraid...” T’Challa trailed off but then cleared his throat, knowing the next words he was going to say were silly. “I feared that with his flirting, you would realize how more attractive he is and.....leave me.” He expected you to either get mad at his insecurity or laugh in his face calling him silly, but you did neither. Instead, you just looked puzzled which he did not expect at all. Your eyebrows were knitted together in confusion. “Why would he want to flirt with me?” “Why wouldn’t he? You are a beautiful woman with a body to match! How did you not see him flirting with you?” You shrugged. “I just didn’t see why. I’m not as beautiful as the other queens and princesses that come around here . I mean you see that, don’t you?” You stared down at your fingers exhaling deeply. T’Challa had no idea you felt this way. In his eyes, you were the most beautiful woman he ever met and couldn’t thank Bast enough that she blessed him with you. It hurt that you didn’t see what he saw. He sat next to you, holding your hands making you make eye contact with him. “Y/N, I love you so much. I love everything about you. Please do not feel this way. And to answer your question, I see the other women but I only have eyes for you. No one else but you.” Your forehead touched your husband’s as you two made eye contact. You began to giggle a little bit. “I guess we were both jealous.” You leaned your head back. “But I wasn’t as bad as you. Seriously? An suit that turns you invisible? Shuri invented it but there’s no way it was her idea. Who gave you that stupid idea?” “Awww I guess the invisible suit worked! Look at y’all cup caking and shit!” Erik’s loud voice boomed throughout the conference room as he flashed his gold grills. “Don’t let me interrupt! I just left my phone here. I’ll be out in 5 seconds.” “And there’s my answer.” You said when Erik left the room and shook your head turning to T’Challa. “Seriously? I don’t know why you keep listening to him.” He sighed. “I don’t know but what I do know is that I am sorry, Entle.” You wrapped your arms around his neck. “I’m sorry too. How could you think I would fall for Amare? You are suave too.....You know, when you are not clumsy and freezing.” T’Challa gave you a look which caused you to laugh. “Listen we may have been together for a long time now, but you still make me freeze, my love.” You felt your cheeks flush. “I love you. You are all I want, my idiotic, handsome, sweet king.” He kissed you softly. “How shall I make it up to my lovely queen?” “Mhmmm I don’t know.” You had your finger on your chin in pretend thought and pecked his lips slowly and sensually. “Maybe if you follow your queen to the bedroom, something will come to you.” You bit your lip, throwing a wink in his direction as you walked away swaying your hips. T’Challa’s thick eyebrows rose to his hairline as he followed you out, but was interrupted on his journey to the bedroom by his cousin. “Look at y’all all in love and shit again! Anyway, are you busy, T?” “Yes I am busy.....really busy. Listen, do not let anyone bother me for the rest of the night and tomorrow morning too because I’m really busy.” He attempted to move past Erik but he interrupted again, causing T’Challa to be even more frustrated than he currently was. Erik raised an eyebrow skeptically. “Rest of the night and tomorrow morning? Nigga, what are you so busy doing?” “Producing an heir!” T’Challa snapped pushing Erik’s arm away. “Now....how do you say? Ahh yes. Stop blocking the cock!” “Nigga it’s cock blocking!” Erik shouted after T’Challa who was making haste to your shared bedroom. Erik scrunched up his face in disgust and muttered to himself. “Cock. I fucking hate that word.”

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2019 Star Wars Rare Pairs Exchange Letter

Hey! While I’m pretty sure I will love WHATEVER you make me, if you are in need / want of some advice, the following may be of interest to you:

In general, I like: pining, unrequited love that turns out not to be unrequited, people being friends & in love with each other generally, found family, ridiculous references, fic that explores what characters mean to each other in a greater context, alt!timeline shit (ie, what would happen if a character had made x choice instead of y), complicated relationships, baby/kid!fic, hurt/comfort.

Things I do not want: character bashing, unnecessary character death (ymmv here it’s Star Wars, characters die, I accept that, but please don’t kill anyone off in the pairings, canonical deaths are fine), gratuitous / explicit violence, mundane!AUs (coffee!shop, high school/college, etc), dubcon/noncon in any form, cheating, first person POV.

General links that might be useful to you: my ao3 works, my fic writing tag, my ficlet tag, and my general star wars tag. 

General note: I like characters, and relationships, best when they’re situated in a world that feels real, and that means having other characters around them, and the relationships between them. While the pairings below should definitely be the focus of any fic, please feel free to slip in other things that you think I might like. I think what’s below should give you an idea of that, hopefully :D. For instance, I adore Wedge’s relationship / friendship with the rest of the Fab Four / his pilots in general, and I find the Han / Luke / Leia dynamic endlessly fascinating (both platonically and romantically on all sides), I’m always up for guest appearances from anyone from any point in canon.

Also, in every universe, Wedge Antilles is bisexual. That is very important to me.

Wedge Antilles/Luke Skywalker

Would happily take anything, but specific loves include stuff with them founding Rogue Squadron and that early part of their relationship, where they’re a little unsure and unfamiliar but still utterly trusting of each other? Or in the aftermath of Endor where Luke’s off founding the Jedi Order and Wedge is off fighting the Imperial Remnant and they’re trying to work out if they could have a relationship in all of that? I really love these two, the relationship between them really is one of my all-time faves.

I am also desperate for pre-and-post-TLJ era fic for them. What does Wedge make of Luke’s choices and decisions? Did Wedge go with him to Ahch-To? If Wedge is present, how does that affect the choices Luke makes?

I would also sell my soul for Jedi Academy-era fic in which Wedge is a teacher at Luke’s Jedi Academy, either with them in an established relationship and founding the school, or where Wedge gets involved somehow and slowly realises, oh, actually, Luke is very attractive and there is a lot of pining, and Luke is off having the same realisations about Wedge.

Wedge Antilles/Mara Jade/Luke Skywalker

In which Wedge Antilles and Mara Jade have precisely one thing in common: they both think that Luke Skywalker is endearing and also kinda useless, and would do anything for him. Which includes teaming up to save Luke when he gets into yet more trouble (insert situation of choice here) despite the fact that Mara is really not very convinced by this short flyboy with floppy hair who cannot act, and Wedge is not really over the fact that Mara wanted to kill Luke. Bonus points for them discovering that they have far more in common than they think, and for Talon Karrde & Booster Terrik background shenanigans.

(I’d be okay with platonic!wedge&mara, if you can’t get that bit to work, but I would like Wedge and Mara to both be in love with Luke - or on their way there - and for Luke to love them both back.)

Things which I would also be down for: Wedge and Mara having a drunken one night stand, and when Luke hears about it he is very jealous and also how that might just be the answer to all his problems.

Wedge Antilles/Leia Organa

I think Wedge and Leia are very alike, in some ways - both soldiers with a sense of duty that goes far beyond themselves, who’d sacrifice their personal lives for their ideals every time. So anything that builds on that, really; either early Alliance / Rebellion (pre / post Yavin), with Leia still trying to sort out her feelings for Han / Luke and working them out with the person who is the mid-ground between the two (fight me on this Wedge is Han’s smuggling no-good self crossed with Luke’s idealism and good!man nature), or possibly after the Jedi Temple Massacre, or post TLJ, where they are the last two left standing and seek solace in each other?

Also! If you have read the 2013 Marvel Star Wars comic (the Wood/D’Anda one), you should know I was so very very very weak for Leia as Squadron Commander and Wedge as her second, and I cannot believe that was an actual thing that happened in Legends okay??

(as you can see below, I like Han/Wedge too, so please feel free to alude to polyamory / open relationship stuff with Han/Leia in the background if that takes your fancy.)

Wedge Antilles/Han Solo Okay I can hear you probably going ‘huh what’ and I submit to you these quotes from the X-Wing books, and actually the entirety of Solo Command as a book. Essentially, Corellians giving each other shit. But no seriously in Solo Command there’s a real easiness and willingness to tease and I’d be really interested as to how they got there, and if it ever was anything more.

Also, in new canon – I’ve always figured that Wedge and Han might have a bit of antagonistic start to their relationship, Wedge is much more of a believer and very willing to die for the cause – how does he react when he finds out what Han did in Solo? Aiding Enfys Nest? Does that change his feelings?

(as you can see above, I like Leia/Wedge too, so please feel free to alude to polyamory / open relationship stuff with Han/Leia in the background if that takes your fancy.)

Wedge Antilles/Biggs Darklighter

They must have known each other on Yavin, so it’s not inconceivable that they might have met and, y’know, got it on. So quick and dirty introductions, or possibly even something set later, after the Death Star battle, where Biggs!lives and the two pilots who didn’t get that shot off try and find solace in each other.

Wedge Antilles/Bodhi Rook

So – well, Wedge was at the Imperial Academy for a time, as was Bodhi, and although it’s unlikely they were in classes together, I think that their paths could have crossed; what’s it like when they see each other on Yavin all those years later? If Bodhi is the only survivor of the Rogue One team, and Wedge is the only survivor of the original pilots (Luke is too new, really) do they find solace in each other? Do they only really catch up after the war with each other, and suddenly realise that no one else is quite going to understand their grief? (I am heavily into Wedge Antilles has a case of survivor’s guilt the size of a Star Destroyer this ship only compounds my feelings).

Wedge Antilles/Lando Calrissian

They took down a Death Star together, that’s a start. I think the other thing about these two is they’re both very set on keeping their people safe – Wedge with his pilots, Lando with the people of Cloud City, and they have principles and lines they won’t cross but they’ll go through hell and back to try and save as many as they can. So maybe something about that?

Wedge Antilles/Mon Mothma

This was mostly crack, until I incepted myself (and several other people) with it, and now I have very serious feelings about it and I want them to be in love. And have really good sex.

I think they are both serious impassioned people who want to do what is right, only Wedge is brash and daring and Mon is tempered by experience / diplomacy. So maybe something where Wedge does something reckless and Mon has to take him to task for it? Or Wedge trying to lure Mon out of her seriousness, but also he is a very serious person himself but seriously, Chancellor, you have been at your desk for twenty hours please come to the mess. Love letters – they write letters after the war and slowly fall in love?

I also have many, many feelings about how Mon apparently trained as a starfighter pilot after the fall of the Republic and was ready to quit the political life until she realised she could do more good there. What about a universe where becomes a pilot, becomes the senior starfighter officer. Does it turn into mentorship or a rivalry? Or maybe Mon—as chancellor—just decides to use her training and goes on a mission with Wedge and Wedge is completely and utterly impressed by her.

Fucked-up power dynamics are also very much a feature: Mon is ultimately Wedge’s commander in chief, his life is in her hands, etc. I like the power play, I like it a lot.

Wedge Antilles/Amilyn Holdo

There’s something about the way Amilyn reacts to flyboys doing stupid things, like she has seen it all before. Maybe she has? I feel these two would have really good banter and a very sparky relationship, lots of challenging each other. But also mutual respect, possibly found later – they are both very good at their jobs.

I’d love fic set post-Rebellion era, where they’re both trying to find their footing in the new Galaxy, or maybe fic set around TLJ – what if Wedge is with the Resistance? Does he conflict with Amilyn over her command decisions? (I think Amilyn should still have charge of the Resistance, don’t make Wedge outrank her.) Can he mediate the conflict between her and Poe? What if Wedge is with the Republic and brings a fleet to save the day?

Wedge Antilles/Louis Hoshi (Battlestar Galactica)

everyone SHUT UP yes i have a type yes it’s stoic dark haired men who face great personal tragedy and still do their duty SHUSH

Look, I’m not even going to attempt to justify this one.

Anyway, I have two main thoughts on this. One, the Pegasus finds the GFFA instead of the Galactica, probably shortly after Yavin, and Wedge and Hoshi bond over basically losing everyone they’ve ever cared about. In the second, post-Blood on the Scales / The Oath and that horrendous mutiny, the Galactica finds the GFFA, and Hoshi finds a kindred spirit who has sacrificed and believes in doing his duty just as much as he does.

Wes Janson/Derek “Hobbie” Klivian

So Wes and Hobbie are like the ultimate wingpair / brothers-in-arms, they are two peas in a pod, and I love them. I like slow realisation of feelings, the dragging out of the relationship over the years, perhaps one of them pining away whilst the other one wakes up one day and is like ‘oh, it’s you, you’ve been here all along and I never noticed.’ But also! Comic shenanigans, prank wars between them, practical jokes, truth or dare - I’m easy to please, honestly.

Jagged Fel/Jaina Solo/Zekk

Okay, for those who didn’t go and read all of Legends… Jagged Fel is Wedge Antilles’ nephew, Jaina Solo was Han and Leia’s daughter, and Zekk was one of Luke’s students. There was a bit of a love triangle going on. However, in many points, it was less of a love triangle, and more… well. They should have all banged.

Key moments include that time Jaina and Zekk were in a hive mind, and got slightly confused over whose memories were whose, leading to this conversation:

Our boyfriend means business, Zekk observed.

Don’t know that it’s him. And it’s old boyfriend.

Right. We’re so over him.

We?

And also the bit in Legacy of the Force: Invincible, where after Jag and Zekk help pull Jaina out of a sticky situation, she, in a state of confusion due to her banged up head, asks them to both to bunk with her.

So, basically, I want poly shenanigans – fic after the proposed quarters sharing would be great (what if Jag and Zekk took her seriously and had already moved everything about by the time she came round???), messy relationship rebuilding after the Dark Nest fiasco, something where Zekk steps in as Jaina and Jag’s relationship starts to fall apart post NJO? I dunno. But I want them all to kiss.

Plourr Ilo/Evaan Verlaine

They are both kickass lady pilots, and they are both very gay, sooooooooo… it is a crime that they do not exist in the same canon. I want shenanigans. I want an encounter where one or both is undercover and they don’t realise the other is a rebellion / new republic pilot until after everything. I want them on different squadrons trying to one up each other.

Iella Wessiri Antilles/Wedge Antilles/Luke Skywalker

Okay so look what I really, really want is the utterly tragic fic after Mara’s death where Iella ‘I know what it feels like to lose a spouse’ Antilles and Wedge ‘I loved you once before who says I can’t do it again’ Antilles decide that they’re going to put Luke back together again, in whatever way it takes. Featuring movie nights, bed sharing and a lot of relationship negotiations.

Also acceptable would be fic set around the time of the X-Wing books, in which Wedge is trying very hard to move on from Luke but is doing an utterly terrible job of it but also really really likes Iella, and the mess (and eventual happy polyamory negotiations) that comes out of that.

Iella Wessiri Antilles/Wedge Antilles/Diric Wessiri

So, Diric really didn’t seem to have any objections to Iella and Wedge getting it on when Wedge (tragically) goes to ask Iella out in the Krytos Trap. So what would happen if something had happened between Wedge and Iella. How do the three of them navigate that—does Diric try and encourage them and leave them to it only for Iella to miss her husband too much, or does Iella try and ignore her developing feelings for Wedge in favour of her marriage.

I am also very interested in what happens if Diric lives—Wedge and Iella still have that tension between them, does that develop? I suspect they both feel absolutely awful about it and try to keep it underwraps while Diric is subtly—or not so subtly—trying to push them together.

Somewhat related thoughts: based on the fact that Iella and Diric married when Iella was very young, and she took his last name when that’s not the standard for independent corellian women… I have an elaborate headcanon about how she married Diric to get out of a really bad home situation, and only fell in love with him later on. How does that play into the dynamic?

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‘Ships & Qs - Berenice Adaar/Cullen Rutherford

No takers so far for this one, so I thought why not just do one anyway? ~grins~ Gives me an excuse to show off this gorgeous artwork by @hes-per-ides of my adorable Benni Adaar again, too! Benni/Cullen is a Modern AU ‘ship - firefighter and EMH (emergency mage healer).  It’s long, so it’s under a cut - enjoy!

Who in your ship is the serial butt-slapper and who is constantly getting their beautiful butt slapped?

Benni is the butt-slapper, and it is purely because Cullen blushes like a fire engine every time she does it. In public, it’s a playful slap to the butt just to shock him into smiling at her in front of their colleagues; in more private moments, she’ll squeeze as well. Cullen would never admit it, but he really likes how brazen she is with her playful affection.

Who wants to be immortal and who wants to die before they’re old?

Interestingly, neither for neither. Benni wants to live her life to the fullest, with friends and love and experiences galore, but she knows it wouldn’t really mean anything if it never ended. For the same reason, she doesn’t want it to be cut short. She’d love to have a future where she and Cullen are elderly and embarrassingly in love in front of their grandchildren. Cullen is a little simpler - he’ll be happy living so long as she is.

Who smokes and who pulls the cigarette from between their lips every time they try to light one?

Cullen smokes, or at least he used to. As of their relationship, he has been trying to give up for a while. Benni takes the cigarette out of his mouth every damned time, regardless of his mood. She’s completely unflappable in the face of his annoyance.

Who always has cold hands and who is always warming them up for them?

Benni always has cold hands (and feet). Cullen would rather not have to warm them up at all, but if he doesn’t, she sticks her hands up his shirt and does it herself.

Who plays candy crush in important meetings and who elbows them in the ribs to make them pay attention?

Benni’s the one on her phone, playing a game or texting, during meetings, to the point where Cullen has given up elbowing her and just confiscates her phone before they go into handover or official meetings. He isn’t subtle about it either - everyone knows she can’t be trusted not to distract herself if she has her phone with her.

Who can fall asleep anywhere (and does) and who has to put them to bed?

Cullen’s the serial sleeper. Benni envies how he can just switch off and sleep anywhere, but he’s pretty much impossible to wake up once he’s settled in. She’s got used to having to haul him back to bed and tuck him in.

Who is the genius procrastinator who wings every test but still comes away with straight As, and who takes preparation and conscientious work very seriously?

If Benni could, she would never sit a test ever again. As it stands, she does the bare minimum, while Cullen crams and studies and write up revision schedules. They both get the same grades in the exams they have to take for work, but they approach it in very different ways.

Who takes their coffee black and who likes it with milk and two sugars, getting called a pussy by Person A?

When they first got together, Cullen drank his coffee black because he seemed to think that was how he was supposed to drink it. Once he tasted Benni’s cream and two sugars, however, he switched and ignores all the teasing from their coworkers because of it.

Who initially seems shady but turns out to be a cinnamon bun, and who initially seems like a cinnamon bun but turns out to be shady?

It’s Cullen who started out seeming shady. He had an attitude and issues, and then sort of melted all over her. Benni, however, is not the shady one in her family. For this context, though? Okay, yeah, she’s a shady cinnamon bun.

Who moans and talks with their mouth full whenever they eat good food, and who tells them to stfu but can’t help laughing?

It takes a while, but this is Cullen’s main method of embarrassing Benni in public. He knows perfectly well what his moans do to her, and her only recourse when he does this is to try and laugh it off or make him shut up. Or both. It never works.

Who gives the bear hugs and who is always sidling up to them and snaking their arms around their waist?

Benni’s the bear-hugger. Cullen pretended not to like it at first, but he can’t really hide the fact that there is something remarkably freeing about having a girlfriend who can completely envelop him in a hug and lift him off his feet in the same motion. He’s definitely the waist from behind hugger, combining that usually with a kiss to her shoulderblade, because he’s just a soppy romantic, really.

Who still buys juice boxes and fruit snacks to put in their lunch?

Benni. She never got juice boxes and fruit snacks when she was in her Circle boarding school, so as soon as she became an independent adult, they became a staple of her packed lunches. Cullen steals her fruit snacks and thinks she doesn’t know it’s him.

Who packs the other’s lunch and who repays them in sexual favours?

Cullen packs Benni’s lunch - for a healer, she is appalling at remembering to feed herself most of the time. He doesn’t consider the consistent sex life as repayment for something she wouldn’t do anyway, though.

Who leaves notes in the other’s lunch and who tells them they’re dumb (but secretly has a collection of every note Person A has ever written them)?

Cullen packs the lunches, so Cullen writes the notes. He also watches her face when she opens her lunch to see her expression when she reads them. Benni’s collection of those notes is not at all secret. She has a bright pink binder covered in multicolored hearts where she keeps everything even slightly related to their relationship preserved for all time.

Who unconsciously holds their breath the first time they kiss, and who pulls back and says, “Breathe…”?

Cullen was the one who forgot how to breathe. ~chuckles~ She took him by surprise a little, but he certainly warmed up to her. Once she reminded him that breathing was kind of important for his continued enjoyment.

Who gets arrested for a petty crime they committed by accident and who bails them out?

Is this really a surprise at this point? Benni is definitely the accidentally arrested one, and Cullen is absolutely the one who bails her out. Bonus points whenever it happens in the middle of the night.

Who grabs the other’s hand just as they’re getting out of bed and pulls them back under for cuddles?

Cullen, perhaps surprisingly. Benni’s the kind of person that once she’s up, she’s up, and there’s nothing she can do to stay in bed. Which is how Cullen ends up being the one who pulls her back into bed at stupid o’clock and cuddles her until she gives up and cuddles back.

Who gets mad about something unrelated to Person B and punches the wall, and who patches it up and kisses it better?

They follow their actual stereotypes with this one. Cullen has a lot of pent-up anger and frustration, and every now and then it spills over. And yes, he punches walls. Benni’s a healer, first and foremost; she’ll always kiss his boo-boos better. More importantly, she’ll be right there to help him through what caused the injury in the first place.

Who has the plain black phone case and who ordered one with cat ears off ebay?

Ah, now ... Cullen may have ordered the one with cat ears off ebay, but it was a present for Benni. And once he did that, he should have known his plain case wasn’t going to stay plain for long. She bought glittery pens and decorated it while he was sleeping.

Who likes to drive with the music blaring and who is too shy to sing along?

Benni can’t drive, so it’s always Cullen behind the wheel. But she’s the one who turns the music up and sings along at the top of her lungs, while he tries to simultaneously enjoy her unashamed performance and pretend he isn’t in the same car.

Who’s the fantastic kisser and who has the beautiful eyes?

Neither one of them would give me a straight answer for this one, so I’m going to go with both, on both sides.

Who has the sunshine smile and who has the seductive gaze?

Benni‘s definitely got the sunshine smile, and she’s very free with it. She likes to see people smiling, and the best way to do that is to smile herself. And then Cullen will look at her like that, and she gets adorably flustered for about five seconds before dragging him off to a broom closet.

Who gets offended by the intensity of the other’s crush on a celebrity?

Cullen! He knows it’s just a crush, he knows there’s no chance of Benni ever meeting Alistair Theirin, poster boy of the Grey Wardens, but he still gets mildly offended when he overhears her gushing with her friends about him.

Who is embarrassed that they have to wear glasses sometimes and who wants them to wear them in bed?

Cullen is so embarrassed by needing to wear glasses on occasion that he managed to keep it a secret from Benni for quite some time. He stopped being embarrassed about it when he forgot to take them off one afternoon, and wasn’t allowed out of bed until the following evening.

Who cheats on the other then immediately begs for their forgiveness?

Neither one would ever cheat. It’s just not in their natures to be able to do that to someone they love.

Who is the jealous one and asks why the other was being so flirty all night, and who is oblivious to their own charms?

This one depends on the moods they’re in going into the evening. Jealousy only really comes into play when one of them is feeling insecure about something, and it’s fairly easily talked out. However, Benni is the one who seems utterly oblivious to her own charms, which Cullen finds adorable. She’s 6′7″ of curvy Qunari goddess, and she has no idea why horny people flock to her.

Who orders a milkshake with their food and who orders a soda?

It took a bit of coaxing, but Benni finally managed to talk Cullen into enjoying his food rather than just consuming it. Which is why he gets the chocolate milkshake and she gets the soda, because he deserves to have something innocently enjoyable, dammit!

Who runs their battery down to 1% and who feels the need to charge theirs at 80%?

You know, I think Cullen’s the one who always has his charger with him and never uses it? Whereas Benni is never down to anything past 49% on her battery at all times. What can I say, she’s obsessive about being contactable.

Who has the excellent singing voice and is always singing around the house (and for Person B), but has no interest in going professional?

Cullen! Absolutely Cullen. And Benni loves it. It started with singing in the shower, then he started singing to himself while he was cleaning, then singing along with the radio while they were cooking. It usually turns into dancing and laughing in the kitchen, but she adores his singing.

Who would rather be barefoot if the setting is appropriate, and who has the huge and spectacular shoe collection (possibly also socks)?

To be honest, if Benni could go naked everywhere, she would. She’s not that fussed on clothes unless they’re spectacular, and she is incredibly comfortable in her own skin. And then there’s Cullen, who not only has a pair of shoes for every occasion, but probably has underwear specifically for every day of the week, too.

Who takes their liquor on the rocks and who likes it neat?

Cullen’s a drink it neat kind of guy. Benni, on the other hand, likes to not be hungover, so she’s all about the ice and lots of it.

And I learned a lot about them doing this!

[soullessgingersociopath]

Rewatching Buffy 2x07

first shot: creaking merry-go-round spinning, in the middle of the night, without any children nearby...

oh and look, the swings are moving too...

still probably the least creepy thing that’s ever happened in Sunnydale

Drusilla is such a good villain (is she a villain? honestly not sure)

why does Buffy always enter situations at the exact moment when things could be taken out of context to make it seem that Angel is cheating on her?

the exact same thing happened literally. last. episode.

i mean, c’mon

Giles and Ms Calender are so cute

does Cordelia deliberately express the most shallow opinions possible during class? like, does she plan these out ahead of time? cause there’s no way that someone who has the depth that she herself has demonstrated she possesses could be so dumb

oh look: a random guy from Buffy past, who she used to have a crush on and maybe still does, shows up in Sunnydale during the same episode in which Buffy doubts Angel’s feelings?

oh yeah, this kid gonna die

“he looks older than her” “you’re not wrong” well-phrased Xander, well-phrased

“woah, cold hands!” “you’re not wrong” Xander is having way too much fun with this

Buffy, stop using Ford to make Angel jealous, that’s not fair

does anyone not know Buffy is the Slayer? (besides her mom, who--much as i love her--is completely oblivious to the point of absurdity  

and Ford owns (?) a vampire-themed club...I guess?

the two goals of the American teen are to die young and stay pretty? gotta disagree with you there; my goals were to graduate and get into college (and I don’t think I was particularly unusual)

...Angel...are you, perchance, blaming your kinda creepy jealousy...on Buffy? instead of, say, taking responsibility for it? not cool

i honestly didn’t believe that Willow’s parents actually existed (maybe they don’t: we still haven’t seen them)

Willow’s got a good point: do sore thumbs stick out?

was Joss Whedon meaning for the message of this episode to be ‘inclusiveness is bad’?

cause that’s not exactly a safe thing to say

Jenny, i get you were trying to get Giles to try something knew, but monster trucks?

finally! Ford is not a good guy, Buffy!

poor Spike, he’s surrounded by incompetents

Ford, why are you deliberately antagonizing Spike? that’s just dumb

“i’ve known you for two minutes and i can’t stand you” same Spike

i think Drusilla’s got the most tragic backstory on the show

i mean damn, Angel really messed her up

“Angel was in your bedroom?!” “ours is a forbidden love” i love Willow

her name is Chanterelle? like...the mushroom? wut

these kids are batshit crazy, all of them

sorry Ford, i don’t care that you’re dying

far too many people get terminal illnesses, and it’s tragic and horrible, but most of them live what life they have left with as much dignity as they can

you, on the other hand, are evil and i have no sympathy for you

right and wrong do not change simply because you are in pain

i’m shipping Spike and Drusilla a lot more this time round

got the feeling that if Drusilla was at full power, Buffy would be history

and look, Ford’s dead

still don’t feel sorry for him

Giles and Buffy’s conversation at the end (the ‘lie to me’ one) is really touching though