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Wrote this on Twitter but wanted to ramble it here too.
Personally? I hope that Emmrich is not a skeleton in a magic skinsuit or whatever the theories are coming up with. đŤ˘
Itâs rare enough to even get distinctly older-looking characters as companions / romanceables, Iâd rather not have it taken away to be a token unique character - as cool as the flaming skeleton character in the early concept was. On the off chance he does end up a skeleton for some reason, I only hope it makes sense. Iâll likely still enjoy him, but itâll be a shame.
Let us have visually distinct older characters who are romanceable because love isnât limited to the youths or young-looking ancient beings please and thank. Get past the odd stigma that older-looking characters are too weird to be proper romances. đ
#time to ramble#not tagging the main tags cos itâs unnecessary#but I just wanted to ramble in my own space#and maybe the few others who follow and feel the same#idk if my point got across?#I think ageism is such a sad and common thing#so I always support keeping obviously older characters looking the way they do#Iâm tired of ancienct beings having romances with little to no scrutiny just cos they look young#let old people have love too#also a bit presumptious to think that fans will only make young Rooks to pair with him#consider that people can make older characters too#also Rook is an adult so folks need to reroute their brain that itâs weird to ship adults
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Reminder for the dpxdc writers!
Yeah I know lots of us get canon and fanon confused and some never watched Danny Phantom which is why Iâm going to *friendly remind everyone* that if you donât want to use the Ghost King Danny thing, itâsâitâs fanon. Like. You do not need to go out of your way to make it Not A Thing, if you find itâs hindering your plot line or whatever. You donât have to write around it. At this point, you might need to clarify itâs not something youâre doing, since itâs so common, but likeâif I have to read one more plot where theyâre twisted up in knots to avoid it, like. Pls. You can do what you want and that includes this, we already disregard canon all the time, you can buck common fanon as well Iâmâ
Thatâs not to say Iâm against Ghost King Danny, but Iâm starting to think itâs one of those things people are afraid to stray from because they think itâs itâs one of the more⌠pillar parts? Of Dannyâs character and canon? When itâs, like, not. If you want to write in reasons why heâs not king and etc etc you CAN, itâs your story and maybe it even serves your plot or tone or you just want to, but you can also just not even have it be a consideration. Youâre free to just not do it.
#dpxdc#this isnât me going Itâs Not Canon So WHY-#like yâall do what you want#but I keep seeing these fics or posts or comments and itâs very much like theyâre trying to dodge something they literally donât have to do#like we say disregard canon for a reason?#some stuff we kinda consider what Iâm calling either required canon or pillar canon#where you can only shift it a little or only one of them at MOST before it becomes unrecognizable as a fan piece#take Dannyâs first name. we sometimes switch his last name or his legal full name#but his nickname STAYS Danny. this is very rarely strayed from#Jazz is always his older sister. sam likes gardening. thereâs ghosts around. stuff like that#itâs not that itâs never messed with (mermaid au or reverse ages) but there is a sort of boundary there#like maybe you switch the ages or switch the hobbies or the ghosts are something else but like thereâs only so much? if that makes sense#bc eventually the characters and or setting become unrecognizable if you do Too Much#and I feel like maybe people think Danny HAS to be Ghost King just like how the Waynes HAVE to be the Bats#I canât stress enough that you can do what you want#but esp for fanon things you can just. not do them.#I donât do obsessions in my (unpublished) works!#bc I donât like working with them! itâs fine to read and all but I donât like writing with them very often#it also feels like the ghost king Danny thing is often so backburner that itâs like⌠why?#why have this when it seems itâs just More Stress And A Costume Change Powerup#but thatâs just my thoughts and rant you can ABSOLUTELY ignore it
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Most people's reactions to the new RF: Oh thank god all the likely love interests thus far actually look like adults!!!
Me: Please god let them be hyping up the "town building" addition more than necessary. I DO NOT want to actually make and shape the town. Please.
#rune factory#literally i have never had any desire to do any kind of landscaping or building placement in games#if i WANTED that i'd play animal crossing. give me a pre-built town that i can just tack on a few necessary things like a monster barn#heck i'm one of those people who doesn't even mess with the houses when playing sims!#i can spend HOURS making a family of sims. just to stick them in one of two default houses depending on how big the starting household is#also for the record i do not care and have never cared for the 'age/appearance discourse' that constantly haunts this series#regardless of how some of the characters look and/or act... they are considered close in age and an appropriate match for the PROTAGONIST#the protagonist is still pretty young too! so the choices will be similarly young! it's not rocket science.#heck i much prefer this to say a game where you're given the option of significantly older love interests despite a canonly young protag#(cough persona 5 cough. kawakami is GREAT just as a social link but being able to romance her when playing a highschooler is... a choice)#that said at the end of the day it's all fiction so i don't really care that much.#ultimately i'm of the opinion that the more love interests the better! more options means more opportunity for EVERYONE to strike gold!#it just bothers me how a huge chunk of the fandom hates on or is uncomfortable with several completely valid love interests
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the fact that taylor lautner mr. jacob black himself is team jeremiah like yeah đ
#two boys in love w their childhood best friend who are described as sunshine golden warmth#who call her bells and honey and are there in every way that counts#having to watch her choose some boring older loser bc sheâs blinded by rose colored glasses and abusive tactics#and theyâve been character assassinated by the narrative to make the choice make some kind of sense bc otherwise itâs crazy#esp considering both isabellaâs are canonically in love with them as people#but have an unhealthy obsession w the one they end up with#this is what i love abt outlander tho frank is always the wrong choice and she actively chooses jamie and leaves frank in the dust#and the only reason she goes back is the 20 year separation we donât talk abt it â¤ď¸#but this is what iâm saying jamie is jacob is jeremiah#frank is edward is conrad#like jamie jacob jere know her love her for who she is#encourage her to grow and be her full self#support her and worship her and do acts of service they know she appreciates#let her be her own person know she can handle her own etc#frank edward conrad are STIFLING and have an idea of her in their head and want to mold her into that#verbally beat her into the ground and act like she canât make her own choices#but claire moves heaven and earth to be reunited w jamie while belly and bella get sucked in too deep and end up w total losers#but the difference ig is claire is 27 at the start of outlander while belly and bella are teenage girls#who get stuck with their losers forever one w marriage the other w vampirism on top of marriage on top of a demon kid#which claire and frank were married but she said she does not give a fuck bye frank!#and claire had a unique situation where she could easily fuck off to the 18th century and frank couldnât follow bc he doesnât have the gene
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it helps me to remember when i get sad about how annoyed lydia gets in s4 is that sheâs fourteen at that point so she is ACTIVELY going through puberty. and weâre all kind of annoyed with the world at that point, even the people we love.
that's very true. she's also known him for years at that point, and he can be uhh a lot. he can't get away with displaying his huge flaws as often as he used to, lydia doesn't allow it, and when he DOES get away with it, the episode ends with lydia disappointed and even outright mad at him. Midnight Scum in particular is so hard to watch, you can see her losing respect for him as the episode progresses and...then it ends. episode over. beetlejuice is horrible, what did we expect?
but yeah season 4 is. whoof man.
sure, you can chalk up part of it to teenage hormones making her more irritable, but i really do think she's just like, at her limit sometimes. i can't blame her, i too want to strangle him a lot of the time and i'm not even the one putting up with his shit, babysitting him or having to deal with the consequences of HIS actions.
this isn't Critter Sitters anymore, she is simply not having it and she won't make a cute little excuse for him "oh he makes me laugh and eats bugs hee hee"
season 4 lydia reacting at his jokes like đđ
she's probably heard that one a thousand times by now. beetlejuice is a static character; he doesn't change, he doesn't go through character development, he doesn't learn his lesson (outright refuses to) but lydia DOES change. and she will continue to change as she grows older. and i KNOW this is a sad theory but i can't help but think that, as she grows and moves forward, she's just...gonna leave him behind.
it'll be hard for her not to. not only is she starting to make her own life and will continue to get busier and busier and not having time to hang out with her ghoulish best friend...she's also maturing. something beetlejuice has never done, and seemingly never will. and as she grows more mature, those puns and pranks and hijinks will become less funny, and his lying, clinginess and refusal to grow will become more evident. season 4 has lydia expecting better of him and being let down, constantly. if it's exasperating for us imagine how it must be for her.
at what point does it become too much? how often has lydia sat and thought about this kind of thing? considering how intelligent and sensible she is for her age, probably more than a few times. this dead guy inadvertently saved this depressed little girl by becoming friends with her and giving her the confidence to be herself and make her own friends. does she know that though? beetlejuice does, he saw it when they showed him the reality in which lydia never meets him. but lydia has no idea (and he will never tell her) so sometimes i wonder if she's missing that key aspect of why he's so important in her life. it's possible she might've come to the same conclusion herself; but even then, these things can be hard to remember when you're having to, once more, clean up after him and the messes he gets them into because his chaotic impulses are always stronger than him. you can tell she's very tired of this. and she will become even more so as time passes.
best friends forever though.
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...right?
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I licked it so itâs mine
pairing: stepbrother!yuuji/fem!reader
premise: After a long day of work, you decide to make use of the empty house by having some drinks and a movie night with your older stepbrother. Eventually, one drink turns into two, two become three, and so on. As the buzz of the alcohol progressively fills you with more and more courage, interesting things commence.
cw: 18+ MDNI. stepcest, âin the flurry of the momentâ setting, no curses AU, characters are in their 20s, intoxication, dubcon, implied corruption, coersion and pressuring from reader, descriptions of size difference, manhandling and roughness â poor yuuji gets a little too into it in the end.
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divider credit: @/adornedwithlight
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Your big stepbrother Yuuji is likeable. He always has been.
To be fair, what is there not to like? When it comes to his looks, Yuuji is tall, handsome, a proud owner of a pair of pretty honey-coloured eyes that make him resemble a puppy, and an even prettier smile. Every summer, his skin gets this wonderful, almost golden tan that makes him outright glow from within, and his face gets sun-kissed, causing his already rosy cheeks to get dotted with tiny, barely visible freckles that gather under his eyes and only enhance his cuteness.
However, after living with him for so long, youâve since learned that he rarely actually pays attention to his appearance, much less dresses to impress.
After all, Yuuji is a simple man. He does not care about clothes besides the level of comfort they provide, and yet he still somehow manages to achieve victory. Catching girls checking him out when heâs in nothing but his trusty pair of sweatpants and an old T-shirt is a common occurrence. Even listening to flustered whispers and giggles has turned into a regular thing at this point.
On top of all that, heâs also nice. Kind and open and warm â you could use so many more positive words to describe your stepbrotherâs wonderful personality, but youâre pretty sure that theyâd never do it justice. Perhaps the only bad thing you could say about him is that heâs too nice. Too helpful and giving.
Especially towards the people who donât deserve it.
And as you watch him from the corner of your eye now, hanging out at the park and licking the ice cream that heâd treated you to as a reward for beating him in his favourite video game, you try to consider yourself as one of the people who do deserve his everlasting kindness. Who do deserve to be treated nicely by him, and to hear the laughter in his voice, and to accept his almost naive generosity.
Itâs a nice day out today. The wooden park bench that youâre sitting on currently is warm from the setting sun that still filters through the leaves above your heads. Small, moving patches of light and shadow linger everywhere, causing you to stare, almost mesmerized, as some of them lazily continue to dance across your big brotherâs face.
Yuujiâs arms are splayed wide open and draped on either side of the worn backrest that youâre both leaning against. Heâs finished his ice cream ages ago, so now heâs got his legs outstretched and his head angled up towards the sky, enjoying the peaceful tranquility that this yearâs summer brings.Â
There are quite a few people out and about in the park during this time of day â most of them joggers and dog walkers that are using the slightly cooler temperatures to their benefit â but if you listen closely, you can make out distant shouting and laughter coming from a group of children who are occupying the playground thatâs on the other side of the trees.
The sound makes you feel kind of old, so you zero in on your sandals to keep yourself busy.
âRemember when you used to scream like that?â
âWhat?âÂ
When you turn your head to the side again, Yuujiâs gaze looks expectant.
âBack when we were kids,â he explains, jerking his chin towards the direction of the playground. âYou got all shrieky and high-pitched whenever it was my turn to chase you, remember? Made you sound like a deflating balloon just by running in your direction.â
âOh!â You take another lick of your ice cream, fully flattening the scoop before sinking your teeth into the edge of the cone. The scent of strawberries fills your nose in an instant. âIn my defense, that probably happened because I didnât like playing tag with you all that much.âÂ
He quirks an eyebrow at this, intrigued. âHow so?â
âWell, for starters, your legs were longer than mine, which made you catch up so fast that it wasnât fun for me anymore. Aaand your hands were also always sticky for some reason,â you reply, still chewing on the wafer. âIt was gross.â
âWow, okay.â He rolls his eyes but it immediately gets followed by a brief chuckle that escapes his lips. âExcuse me for trying to be a little bit sentimental with my clean freak of a baby sister.â
âIâm normal⌠Youâre just nasty,â you fire back, smiling when he goes to playfully shove you.
His hand is warm when it lands on your shoulder; so warm, in fact, that you can feel the rise in temperature even through the sleeve of the thin, cropped T-shirt that youâve put on this morning.Â
It doesnât take you by surprise. For as long as youâve known him, Yuuji has been one to have blood as hot as molten lava running through his veins. Youâre unsure how he survives it whenever the weather is scorching hot, like today for example â August has always proved to be a bitch whenever it comes to heat â but so far he seems to be doing just fine.
And while it may be weird to some, him being hot-blooded is the reason why you sometimes like to drag him into your bed during the winter months, when itâs cold and you come back home from work feeling like your toes have turned half-frozen in your shoes. Besides being provided with good company, heâs also like your own personal heater.
And thatâs it. Thereâs nothing else to it; how could it be when heâs your stepbrother, for crying out loud! You grew up together and have lived under the same roof for years. Heâs walked into your room just to leave the lights on and the door open so many times. Youâve endured his godawful Fortnite phase and have seen him be at his worst just as he did with you. The only feelings that you harbour for him are strictly platonic.Â
Youâre both pretty set on that.
âI should take that ice cream from ya as a form of punishment for being so mean to me,â said stepbrother teases now, pulling you back from your thoughts. When you look up at him, heâs grinning like a little boy. From ear to ear and in a way that makes his eyes crinkle at the corners.
Cute.
âNu-uh,â you respond, allowing the evidently distrustful tone to lace your voice. âI licked it so itâs mine.â
âTsch.â He clicks his tongue against his teeth. âLike thatâs ever been an issue before. Câmon, give.âÂ
âIt is for me because unlike you, Iâm not- Hey!â Before you can finish your sentence, he swipes the ice cream from your hand, successfully stealing it right in front of your nose.
You glare at him now, brow slightly furrowed in annoyance, as Yuuji proceeds to lick the melting sweet with exaggerated delight. Since whatever was left of the scoop sank deeper into the cone, you realize that youâre unexpectedly intrigued by the fact that he needs to push his tongue out a little more to get to it.Â
And he does; of course he does. He twirls it across the flat, creamy surface, and itâs not long before the inside of his mouth is coated in milky pink and thereâs a hum of overly satisfied approval sounding from the back of his throat.
Youâre unsure how to feel about the entire thing, but you definitely donât dwell on it.
âMmm,â he purrs, squeezing his eyes shut. He even makes sure to go as far as to smack his lips. âMmm-mmm-mm! So good.â
For whatever reason, you feel your stomach do a weird spin as you listen to the sounds heâs making now. Itâs like thereâs an instant flash of heat searing through your body, similar to the pesky one that you get in the middle of the night when youâre hormonal and on your period, but before you can even properly acknowledge it, itâs gone as fast as it came.
âAgain: youâre so gross,â you manage to say with a huff thatâs supposed to be disapproving but doesnât sound like that at all. The shake of your head that you add to the jab also feels somewhat unnatural. Every one of your mannerisms does, actually.
Yuuji, seemingly blissfully ignorant of your inner turmoil, laughs before he takes a giant bite out of the side of the cone and finally hands it back to you.
âHey, at least my hands ainât sticky this time.â
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The house is empty when you come back home that evening.
This too is not much of a surprise, really. Your parents have been gone for the last couple of days, enjoying their yearly vacation to the seaside that neither you nor Yuuji could attend this time because of your work schedules.Â
So while your mom and his dad are basking in the sun and drinking sugary cocktails, youâre waking up at six in the morning every day to make it to your dull desk job in time, and heâs stuck flipping burgers at McDonalds and honing his social skills in the drive-through booth for eight hours every day.
Poor, poor you.
âDid you see the drinks theyâre having over there? Gosh,â Yuuji grumbles on this exact topic as he throws himself onto the couch and flicks the TV on. His expression looks mildly conflicted at the list of movies heâs being offered by the streaming service youâre both leeching off of, but it eases back into neutral as soon as he rests his feet atop the coffee table and crosses his ankles. âThey even had those fancy umbrellas on the top and everythinâ.â
âThere, there,â you say, quickly patting his knee before sitting down beside him. Youâre not sure why, but you pay extra attention to the small sliver of distance that you keep between his leg and your own now. The feeling from earlier didnât fully go away yet, so touching him or him touching you still feels kind of odd.
Meanwhile, Yuuji doesnât seem to acknowledge it at all, because now heâs resting his head against your shoulder, invading your personal space whilst he pouts.
The action is nothing unusual for him â itâs normal, he does it all the time â and yet you still swallow thickly, trying to ignore the sudden hyper awareness.Â
âWhat is it now, you big baby?â you manage to muster out, taking the remote from him.
âEh⌠Itâs nothing,â he says.
âAha,â you say.
âWell⌠Itâs just that I want nachos and cocktails with fancy umbrellas, too!â he bristles at your prodding, pressing the side of his face even further into your shoulder. His hair tickles your cheek because of it.
âWe have nachos at home,â you utter, trying to avoid the ticklish sensation.
âYeah. Shitty tortilla chips that come in a bag, with a side of tasteless dip from the fridge,â he quips. âYum.â
You stifle your laughter. Heâs making such a big deal out of a silly thing like nachos. âIâm pretty sure they all come in a bag, Yuu⌠Come to think of it, theirs are probably stored in one of those big, wholesale bags that most food places get.â
âWell, I want the wholesale ones, then.â
âYouâre pretty set on this, huh?â
He just gives you a look.
âOkay, okay, okay,â you ramble, pulling back just enough to make him lift his head and look at you properly. âHow about⌠we try to make semi-decent nachos and cocktails with what we have, and have ourselves a little movie night since weâre both off work tomorrow and we definitely deserve it after all the pain and suffering weâre going through?â
Yuuji muses. âAll you do at your job is sit behind a desk all day.â
You feel your eyes narrow. âSo?â
âSo,â he says, sounding smug. âIâd hardly call that pain and suffering.â
âOh, Iâm sorry,â you chide. âI wasnât aware that your job also consisted of crawling underneath barbed wire and coming face to face with excruciating death between all those burgers you flip.â
He pokes you in the side for the insult. After jumping a little bit at the ticklish sensation, you make sure to immediately return the favour.
âDo you want those cocktails or not, Ronald McDonald?â
Yuuji stretches his arms above his head and yawns before he gets ready to stand up. âYeah, yeah⌠Letâs make âem fancy.â
He follows you into the kitchen then, where you both work to recreate the vacation food and drinks to the best of your â and your pantryâs â capabilities.Â
The nachos end up being surprisingly decent after you sprinkle some shredded cheese on top and give them a spin in the microwave. The cocktails, on the other hand, are a mixture of cheap wine from the corner store and coke, adorned with pieces of sliced pineapple at the top because you sadly ran out of cute paper umbrellas, much to Yuujiâs disappointment.
Though in the end, everything works out just fine.
You have yourselves a nice, perhaps you could even call it relaxing kind of evening. You change into your comfortable pyjama shorts and tank top, he gets rid of his T-shirt because he prefers being shirtless during the summer, and you play a couple rounds of his favourite game again; all of which you lose because Yuuji decides that he isnât holding back this time. Afterwards, you watch a movie that isnât all that good necessarily, but isnât half bad either, and take rather hefty sips of your makeshift cocktails.
By the time the credits start to roll, youâre both feeling a little buzzed and warm in the face. Neither of you feels like calling it a night just yet, though â being off work the next day at the same time happens so rarely, after all â so you decide on watching something equally as uneventful and drinking some more.
So that is how both yourself and Yuuji end up drinking more than youâd initially planned. The alcohol becomes easier to swallow down when youâve already numbed out your taste buds and have adapted them to the cheap, shitty wine flavour. It even makes the pineapple slices look cool.
And now youâre both drunk. Not shitfaced, per se, but definitely more than tipsy. Enough that itâs making your vision a little bit blurry around the edges, your limbs soft and pliant, and your mind fuzzy. Enough that itâs making you feel like you could do just about anything youâd set your mind to.
Youâre both giggling like morons as you sit cross-legged and face each other on the couch. Heâs desperately trying to tell you a story about one of his co-workers, who, according to him, is supposed to be very weird, but he keeps on slurring his words and keeps on losing track so often that itâs making the entire thing outright incomprehensive.
âDude-â Your voice falters as yet another set of giggles pushes its way out. Goddamn alcohol. âYou have got to stop laughing and tell me whatever it is you want to tell me about this weirdo, because if you donât, I swear to god that Iâm going to fucking lose my shit.â
âListen⌠Jusâ listen-âÂ
âI am listening, you dumbass!â you interrupt, reaching over to flick his forehead. He flinches at the action.
âNo, but like,â he mumbles now, rubbing the aching spot. âI want to tell you, but at the same time⌠I kind of donât.â
This instantly succeeds in sparking your interest. Thereâs something heâs unsure about telling you? How curious; you tell each other everything!
You lean forward slightly, resting your elbows on your knees. âHow so?â
Yuujiâs eyes flicker towards the television for a quick second. The movie is still playing â it bathes half of his face with light and the other half in shadows.Â
Much to your bafflement, he sheepishly bites his lip before he says, ââCause itâs a secret.â
âA secret? Really?â You groan as you grab the small decorative pillow just so that you can throw it his way. Despite his intoxicated state, heâs still rather quick to deflect it. It lands on the ground soundlessly.
âWhat was that for?â he asks now, trying not to laugh.
âOh, I dunno,â you say, bristling. âDid it maybe ever cross your mind that telling me that is only gonna make me want to hear it more?â
âI mean,â he says, scratching the back of his head and shrugging. âI guessâŚ?â
You give him a pointed glare. âYou know how much I love secrets, Yuu!â
âI know.â
âThen tell me!â
âNo.â
You pout in answer, clearly unsatisfied.
Yuuji looks at you, his expression slipping into something thatâs a bit more sincere and apologetic. He watches as you continue to avoid eye contact and push out your bottom lip, clearly trying to appear upset as much as you possibly can in order to get him to change his mind.
Sooner or later, it ends up working.
A person like him is so giving⌠Who is he to ever tell you no?
âOh, fine,â he says, sighing with defeat. âJust pinky promise that you wonât tell anyone, okay?â
Your grin is pleasantly lazy because of the alcohol thatâs still coursing your veins as you chirp, âOf course.â
He hooks your pinkies together and shakes them from side to side lightly as if itâll help solidify the promise better.
âSo, whatâs the secret?â you ask when you pull your hand back and use it to support your cheek.
After a short moment of silence, he finally forces himself to blurt out, âMy co-worker, he, uh⌠He thinks youâre hot.â
You stare at him, arching one eyebrow. âWait, thatâs it?â
Yuuji can feel his entire face tingling with heat now. The blush that steadily continues to bloom makes his skin slightly itchy, but he refrains from scratching it. âYeah, thatâs it.â
You watch him closely.Â
âWhat?â he inquires, not liking the fact that you arenât saying anything. The flush of red has crept down to his neck now.
âYouâre lying,â you reply at long last, expression blank.
He sputters when he inhales a sharp breath, ready to defend himself. âAm not!â
You throw another pillow at him. He avoids this one, too. âAre too!â
âStop throwing stuff at me!â
âI will, if you tell me the secret!â
âI already did!â
âThe actual secret, dumbass!â
âFine⌠Fine! Ugh,â he groans, scrubbing a hand over his face. âHe also said that, ummâŚâ
You enthusiastically gesture at him to continue when his voice fades into nothing again. Curiosity is threatening to eat you alive at this point. âYes? He said what?â
âHe said-â His Adamâs apple bobs in his throat as he swallows thickly. âHe basically told me that if you were his stepsister, that he wouldâve been all over you ages ago. Or whatever.â
You stare at him once more. He stares right back.
âWhat?â he asks again, this time slightly more nervous. His pupils are huge and the blush is starting to make him sweat. âWhat is it?â
After a moment that seems like forever, you repeat, â...Thatâs it?â
Yuuji feels like his heart has dropped to his ass. âWhat dâyou mean thatâs it?!â
âExactly what I said,â you say, shrugging. âYour co-worker has a âOh no, stepbro, Iâm stuckâ fantasy. So what?â
âI-â Yuujiâs eyebrows draw so tightly together until thereâs a small v etched between them. He pauses for a long time before he says, âDonât you think thatâs weird, though?â
âNot really.â You take another small sip from your glass and place it back onto the coffee table. âI mean, have you never noticed how popular it is in porn? Lots of people are into that kind of stuff.â
âN-noâŚâ He stutters, somehow succeeding in turning even redder in the face. âI donât-â
âWatch porn?â you offer quickly, already rolling your eyes.
âNot porn like that,â he quips, suddenly sounding uncharacteristically snippy.Â
You chuckle at the tone he uses, attempting to tame the upward curl of your lips. Things are getting interesting and dirty â something you donât get to encounter a lot whenever it comes to golden boy over here. âWell, what kind of porn do you watch, then?â
Oh, that is very bold. If it werenât for the liquid courage, you doubt youâd dare ask the question. But itâs out in the open now.
Hanging in the tense air thatâs between you two. Waiting. Preying.
âNot the stepsister kind,â he says in a low mutter, surprising you that he even chose to answer. âIâm not into that.â
You canât help but let the smile show now. âHow can you know if youâve never seen it?â
Yuuji gawks before letting out a nervous laugh. â...What?â
âI said,â you repeat, leaning ever so slightly closer. Enough to make him feel on edge, but not enough to scare him away. âHow can you know that youâre not into it-â Thereâs another pause, another closing of distance. His freckles are visible now. âIf youâve never seen it? Hmm?â
âI just-â He tenses up when your knee bumps into his. The short moment of contact is electrifying for some reason; it jumpstarts his heart into a far quicker rhythm. âI just, uh, do.â
You look him directly in his sweet honey eyes. âYeah?â
And he immediately rushes to break eye contact. âYeah.â
âYou know,â you trail off innocently, patting his knee this time instead of âaccidentallyâ bumping it. Unlike before, though, your hand remains on his leg. âFor someone who swears up and down to not be into it⌠You really donât sound so sure about it to me.â
âWell, I am,â he protests in a heartbeat, however the bite thatâs supposed to be in the statement isnât quite there.Â
The reason behind it might be because heâs quite tipsy and canât bring himself to be firm with you. Or maybe, just maybe, itâs because heâs staring at his lap when he says it; right at the spot where youâre still touching him.
Your hand feels so warm as it sits on his thigh. And pleasant.Â
He doesnât exactly⌠want it to go away.
You watch as he huffs in defeat and shakes his head with evident frustration the thought must have evoked. It causes a giggle to bubble up your throat from how entertained you are. You donât even try to stop it this time.
He could tell you off, call you names, push you away, whatever⌠But he doesnât.Â
No, heâs just too good of a big brother.
So you allow the flat of your palms to rest on both of his knees now. Still careful, though not nearly as much as before. Meanwhile, your own knees dig into the softness of the couch as you readjust your weight forward so that you can lift yourself just enough to be eye level with him.
Guilty anticipation pools inside his gut and turns him frazzled when you use the momentum to invade his personal space even further. All of a sudden, you find yourself nose to nose with your cutesy stepbrother. Chest to chest. So close that he can feel the heat of your breath on his lips and smell the fading scent of your perfume mixing with thin layers of sweat and sunscreen.Â
âProve it, then,â you say. Your voice could barely be considered above a whisper but the silence that follows after it is so loud.
Yuuji gulps from how unnerving this entire situation has become. Gulps. âProve⌠Prove what?â
âProve that youâre not into it.â
Thump, thump, thump! His heart is going wild. âHow?â
âWatch it with me.â You move your hands upwards ever so slightly as you speak the words, but itâs not long before youâre sliding them all the way up to his thighs.Â
Theyâre strong, his legs, and the muscles in them flex and harden underneath your touch, making the lines of his gorgeous, so profoundly male-like physique all the more defined. The hairs there are lighter in colour and theyâre silky smooth. They tickle the tips of your fingers when you finally let them settle at the very edge of his gym shorts.Â
Digging your nails into his skin just enough to make him jump a little, you add, âPlease?â
God, youâre so drunk and⌠something else. Your pupils are huge; so big that Yuuji swears he can see himself in them, and the laugh you let out a moment later is girlish and kind of breathless.Â
And he, well, he just looks so goddamn confused in response to it. Like a little puppy thatâs been caught doing something naughty and bad. Big, round eyes, twitchy upper lip and everything.
âI, umm⌠I dunno,â he chokes out finally. He feels like coughing so that he can clear his throat, but he somehow manages to stifle the annoying sensation. âI just⌠Iâm not so sure about that-â
âPleeease, Yuuji,â you repeat, pushing, pushing, pushing. You even start pouting right at him as a means to get him to budge. âI wanna!â
Fuck.
The whine thatâs appeared in your voice now makes his cock involuntarily twitch. What the actual fuck, his dick is responding to you â his baby sister. Little by little, blood is rushing south; right below his waistline until he can feel warmth slowly taking over every inch of his lower half. He tries to make it stop, to put an end to it, to slow it down at the very least, but his efforts prove to be completely useless.
His throat feels scratchy and dry now from not allowing himself to cough, and his skin feels too tight on his face. It makes him rasp as he says, âYou, uh, you wanna?â
âMhmm,â you purr in a mere instant, squeezing his thighs again just the tiniest bit. Goddammit, since when did those parts start feeling so fucking sensitive? âWanna⌠wanna see you start sweating a little when you realize that your dick is getting hard over dirty shit like stepcest, you know? Wanna prove you wrong.â
A second twitch, a second rush of blood. Yuujiâs stomach spins and tightens with anxiety. His nerves go haywire. With each passing second, he can feel his cock getting heavier in his shorts. Can feel pre-cum turning the front of his underwear more and more sticky. Can feel his mind going dizzy with quick-paced lust.
Youâre just so goddamn close. Staring right at him, with your tits almost on full display in that tiny thing you call a shirt, and with that infuriating, shit-eating smirk plastered on your lips. Kneeling right between his legs, talking about stepbrothers fucking stepsisters, allowing your breaths to intermingle as if itâs no big deal.
But thatâs not all. Besides being too close for comfort, heâs also pretty sure that youâre quietly hinting at the possibility of something happening tonight, like letting him stuff your pussy with his cock. Hell, forget stuffing â even just seeing it would be nice.Â
Not that heâs ever thought about laying eyes on his sisterâs cunt, much less filling it, but now that this entire thing is unfolding in real time, before his very eyes, and he swears that he can feel the tips of your fingers subtly brushing against the ridge of his hard-on over his clothes⌠He doesnât feel like refusing the idea necessarily, if it were to actually happen.
Fuuuck!
âIt-it wonât,â Yuuji stammers in one last attempt at keeping his sense of morality, however all he does is end up fumbling over his own damn self like some pathetic loser. Heâs so red in the face, itâs obvious now. âI, ah, I already told you-â
His sentence gets interrupted by a sudden kiss that you press right onto his still half-open mouth.Â
You donât know what exactly it is that compels you to do it, but here you are. Kissing your big brother. Latching yourself to him. Offering him things you shouldnât.
Oh, here you are, all right.
The kiss itself is clumsy, rash, idiotic. Your teeth clash as you hurry forward to wrap your arms around his neck, and thereâs a small, muffled noise â that terribly sounds like a squeal of excitement â escaping your lips when his big hands find your waist and he yanks you forward until youâre fully seated on his lap.
One second ago you were merely looking at each other, tip-toeing the line but never quite overstepping it, and now youâre grinding against one another like animals in heat, tangling tongues and tasting each otherâs spit. Everything happens so fast and itâs all based on pure instinct and executed with zero thinking, because if it happened any other way, youâd surely regret it.
He tastes like pineapple and the lousy chewing gum that he bought back at the corner store earlier in the afternoon but spat out pretty soon after. You shouldnât find the odd combination of flavours that good, you know this, but right now the inside of his mouth tastes like sweet, sweet heaven.
And possible release.
âFuck, Yuu,â you pant between messy kisses, running your fingers along his undercut. âYouâre so hard, look⌠Proves me right, mm?â
Yuuji wants to tell you to shut up, to stop saying things like that, to stop making him feel both so guilty and turned on at the same time because itâs complicated and he doesnât fucking know what to make of it.
But all he ends up saying instead is, âYeah...â
Because, as always, heâs simply too good of a big brother. Too good to tell you no.
Especially when youâre right.
And even if your big brotherâs cock is hiding underneath several layers of clothing, you can still feel it pressing firmly between your legs now. Thick and heavy and in urgent need of some tender affection; a little sisterly love, if you will. Itâs making you grow more and more expectant of whatâs to come. Thereâs no space for shame left.
His size seems promising â at least judging by the feel of it. Each time you push your weight against him, circling your hips a little, he responds by pushing you down even further with the help of his hands on your hips; spreading your folds slightly apart and allowing the seam of your shorts to dig straight into your clit.
Your breathing grows laboured because of it. Slowly but surely, youâre becoming a hot mess of mmâs and ahhâs. And Yuuji, poor, sweet Yuuji, is nowhere near to being any better after heâs forced to hear all of it.
Heâs sweating like crazy. Is throbbing between his legs. Is trying to tame his pulse but it just keeps on hammering and ringing inside his ears. The blush is making his entire face itch all over again and his clothes feel too tight on his body. What else is there?
Oh, even his heart feels like itâs jammed itself inside his throat when he pulls back just enough to break the string of saliva thatâs bridging the narrow space between your mouths and asks, âYou sure you wanna do this?â
âJust fuck me already, god,â you hiss in response. Youâre so sexually frustrated that itâs making you pissy.
Neither of you has planned this nor expected this to happen, but youâve both been feeling lonely, terribly single; are yearning to be touched. Itâs been a while for the two of you, shit happens and people get too busy to enjoy the simpler pleasures in life, and you both consider the other to be attractive, so⌠why not?
Why not? Maybe because this entire thing could, quite possibly, be a disaster in the making.
Still, it doesnât feel like a disaster when Yuujiâs hands wrap around your sides and slam you down on the couch. Doesnât feel like a bad thing when he blindly hooks his fingers to the waistband of your shorts and you bring your legs closer to your chest and lift your hips a little so that he can tug them off easier.
Either heâs too impatient to wait or he did it by complete accident, but he manages to pull down your panties right along with your shorts. Theyâre both left dangling from your left ankle now, hanging uselessly and completely forgotten because heâs too busy trying to push himself inside you.
His back is hunched and his rosy lips are parted as he sucks in and exhales sharp breaths above you. They fan your forehead, cooling the sweat thatâs gathered there, only causing you to shiver.Â
You press your foreheads together when you lift yourself slightly with the help of your elbows so that you can reach between you, tug his waistband low just enough to expose him and guide him inside you. He grits his teeth, baring them like a threatened animal as soon as your fingers curl around the base of his cock, mindlessly stroking the impressive length, spreading the pre-cum thatâs gathered at the tip without any sense of patience.
Neither of you looks into each otherâs eyes; all of your attention is aimed at the spot where you almost connect. After all, his fat cockhead is bumping against your sticky pussy now, inconsistently gliding up and down and smearing arousal. Every time he teases your entrance, your breath hitches in the back of your throat and you cling onto him a little harder.
âYuujiii,â you whine, teeth sinking into your bottom lip so harshly that you fear you might have drawn blood. He almost doesnât recognize the sound of your voice. âWhatâre you waiting for?! Put it iiin!â
âYeah⌠Y-yeah, okay,â he bites out, trying to stop the persistent flutter of a muscle in his cheek. His arms feel like giving in but the muscles in his biceps still flex and shudder with anxiety and anticipation when he finally presses in.
His cockhead pushes past the initial ring of muscle pretty effortlessly from how wet youâve gotten from mere kissing and a little bit of grinding. Perhaps itâs the alcohol thatâs making you so pliant and eager, but itâs easy to open your legs wider so that you can let in even more of him.
Yuuji feels dizzy; like the entire world is spinning. Youâre underneath him, panting so loudly and youâre so warm inside, so accepting, so wet. Your pussy hugs him just right, walls squeezing around his girth, sucking him in further. The sensation makes him drop his entire weight right on top of your writhing body the second he allows himself to slowly rock into you and sink balls deep.
He hides his face into the crook of your neck as he begins to lazily thrust inside you, doing whatever feels best because he canât possibly bring himself to form thoughts right now. In and out, the strokes are long, slow and deep. So deep, in fact, that they make you wince each time he hits the sweet spot thatâs hiding inside.
Youâve ended up so close yet again; with your limbs intertwined and your bodies pressed tightly together that your shirt is crinkling between you. It rides up with the movement of his hips slamming against your own, exposing your stomach, making you stick to each other from how sweaty youâve gotten.
âNngh⌠You feel⌠sâgood,â he grits out, quiet moaning already lacing his voice. His breathing has gotten so heavy that itâs creating moisture on the small patch of skin on your neck that heâs got his mouth pressed against. âWonât last long⌠Ca-ah⌠Canât.â
He sounds so fucking drunk as he continues to say pure nonsense into the side of your throat and keeps on pressing you into the softness of the couch. Not only on alcohol, but also on your pussy it seems.Â
It makes him practically start pounding into you now. Abusing your tight little hole. He slips one arm underneath you and pulls you even closer so that he can steady himself a little bit, and wetness squelches between you as a result. Skin slaps against skin, breaths intermingle. His fingers tangle into your hair crudely â it hurts when he tugs at the roots even if youâre well aware that he doesnât mean to.
Heâs so big above you. So strong. So stupidly male. And heâs also gotten lost in the moment. For a second it makes you scared of him a little bit even if heâs the sweetest man youâve ever met, a real proper marshmallow. And it doesnât help that his cock is as big as the rest of him is; stretching you so deliciously, splitting you wide open, causing tears to prickle at the corners of your eyes even if the booze thatâs coursing your veins is supposed to numb you out to a size like that.
âYuuji, wa- fuck, waitâŚ!â You cross your ankles at his waist in an attempt to slow him down, heels panically digging into his back dimples and toes curling.Â
âN-no, I canât, please⌠Donât make me wait, please, please, please, câmon,â he babbles, still not slowing down, not stopping. His eyes are half-closed and they show concern, but theyâre also dark and foggy when he lifts his head just enough to look at you. âJust a lilâ more, yeahâŚ? Yeah? Just a lilâ... Ugh, keep still just a bit longer- Iâm almost there. So⌠mmh⌠close.â
You try to fight against him, tugging on his hair and sinking your nails into his back, but all he does is endure it, not really caring much about your thrashing and turning. Heâs got you caged underneath him, crying out his name, clawing raw red lines into his broad back. Itâs all drunken breeding instinct and no brain as he uses your body like a toy, and the realization that you can do nothing but take it is terrifying as much as it is thrilling.
His pounding has turned borderline ruthless by now and in his urgency to cum, heâs pushed himself so deep inside you that youâre pretty sure heâs fucked his way straight into your goddamn womb. In his weak attempt to make you last until the end, heâs even started to messily rub irregular circles into your clit.
It makes a thin line of drool dribble down the corner of your mouth from how fucked out youâve become in a mere fifteen minutes. The overstimulation is probably completely accidental, but it achieves the same result just the same. He outright forces the climax out of your body, and the second he feels you squeeze around him, abused pussy trying to milk him dry, heâs giving in, not resisting anymore, shooting his load inside you in an instant.
The groan he lets out is almost like a growl. He arches his back again, balls tightening, grip almost turning iron-like. You can feel the warmth of his cum as it fills you in steady waves of pleasure.Â
You both stay still for a long while after that, trying to gather your senses, attempting to calm down your trembling. His cum is warm and sticky; tacky between your thighs. It starts to drip out of your hole by the time his cock softens enough to create more space.Â
Thereâs just so much of it. A fuckload.
And heâs still breathing so hard. You both are.
âIâm so sorry⌠Fuck, I-â he rasps out. His mouth is so dry that he feels like he could chug an entire jug of water, but he pushes that need away for now in order to get a good look at you instead. âI just- I-â
Yuuji stops mid-sentence when he sees you push two of your fingers between your legs before bringing them up in front of your face again. He watches, eyelids heavy, as you spread them then, toying with the glimmery, cloudy white substance thatâs gathered there until you gently push them inside your mouth, licking his release right off of your fingertips.
His jaw almost hits the floor. Heâs so baffled by what heâs just seen that he barely registers the fact that his cock is trying to get hard again, throbbing against his thigh.
âWhat?â is all you say in response to the incredulous look that sits on his face now. Your voice is muffled from the way you keep your mouth stuffed full.
âI licked it so itâs mine.â
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Writing Profoundly Intellectually Disabled Characters
[Plain Text: Writing Profoundly Intellectually Disabled Characters]
While there is a glaring lack of intellectually disabled characters - except maybe big, physically strong, white men who canât âtell right from wrongâ or have a personality - in all sorts of media, specifically profoundly intellectually disabled characters are next to non-existent, with the existing ones being used more often as plot devices rather than portrayed as human beings.
This does make a degree (and not more) of sense considering that 85% of ID people have it mild, 10% moderate, 3.5% severe and only 1.5% has profound ID, the larger group inevitably gets more representation (which doesnât make it good, but it does exist). However, it hopefully doesnât need explaining that minorities deserve to be represented too (...and represented well), so this is what this post will be about.
Please donât treat this as your only source on writing a character like this (even though Iâm willing to bet itâs the only one like this, at least on tumblr), do your research and always check other sources.
Also, for clarity: intellectual disability isn't an umberalla term for "mental/brain disability". It's a specific, singular diagnosis that used to be known as "mental [r slur]". It's not the same as brain damage, autism, dementia, dyslexia, and anything else that's not specifically "intellectual disability". It's something that you are either born with or acquire early in life.
How do I Include Them in the Story?
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A profoundly ID person will spend the majority of their time either at home or in some sort of care facility since they will require 24/7 help. The easiest role to put them in is probably a family member of another character. I've mentioned on this blog before that the "ID characters always end up as the annoying younger sibling" thing is overdone, but none of these necessarily have to be true for this suggestion to work (especially not the "annoying" part).
A non-ID character could have an intellectually disabled older sibling, twin, cousin, uncle/aunt, the sibling of a grandparent, etc. Seriously - a severely disabled person can be an adult, or even an elder. Just not as a parent, since a profoundly disabled person can't consent (a lot of ID people very much can, but this is the one disability where your level of functioning is baked into the exact diagnosis - profound ID comes with the inability to consent/understand the consequences enough to consent).
"They're a family member" is basically the easiest "excuse" to include a profoundly intellectually disabled in a story (and, as a bonus, you don't have to figure out how the other character would react to meeting them for the first time, since they probably knew each other for a long time already).
If your story isn't about the profoundly disabled character and instead just features them as a character, it would be much easier to not make the other character their primary caregiver. It's simply a ton of work and the character wouldn't have time for fighting dragons and whatnot - it'd be easier to have the abled character spend time with the disabled character at home (or care facility; you can very much visit someone in one) hanging out rather than actually doing the caregiving part.
Outside of a home and a care facility, there are also day care programs that some people might attend. This is the rarest solution out of the three mainly because of financial reasons, but also these resources arenât as common for people who canât walk, learn self-care, etc. Going to one takes time (the profoundly disabled person isnât gonna walk there by themselves) and probably requires a specialized van (that you can bring a wheelchair in, which is incredibly expensive). Most day care programs are focused on people who are moderately or severely ID at most. One made for profoundly ID people would require 1:1 aides, which generally means the programs are much smaller for logistical reasons, but also even more expensive. For most people, too expensive without funding. Basically, this is an option, but you have to consider your characterâs financial situation and/or what kind of financial support do disabled people get where they live.
Another way is having the disabled character in some sort of high position - in real life there were quite a few cases of profoundly and severely intellectually disabled royalty. Depending on the place and time there might have been pressure to not let the public see them, but this wasn't always the case. The biggest example of the latter was probably Emperor An of Jin (the first Jin, Eastern one) who was, as his title suggests, crowned at some point. He didnât actually rule (his uncle did) but yes, you can have a severely disabled person as the head of a monarchy, itâs not without precedent.
In fiction you can do whatever you want anyway when it comes to ableism, you can have it be there, or you can have it not be there - and if it does exist then there are still different kinds of ableism you can portray that aren't the "literally killing-the-disabled-baby/hiding-them-in-some-dungeon level of eugenics" kind. Maybe a rich family who cares about their image would actually be unable to shut up about their kid to show how "saint-like" they are for caring for the disabled - it is unfortunately realistic, and can be a potential way to have the character exist in public, not ignore ableism, and also not go the aforementioned literally-just-murder route that writers usually do to show an ableist family.
Characterization
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Warning; the bar here is somewhere in the Earth's inner core. If your character has a single characteristic beyond aggressive/loud/unmanageable*, they're automatically at the top of most complex fictional representation of severely/profoundly ID characters. Congrats.
* - Some people are those things but, unsurprisingly, they're other things too. A lot of profoundly ID people can actually be completely quiet - you notice people who are loud because they're loud.
As with literally every character, you need to figure out what they like and not like. This can be quite literally anything, but try to think of the basic stuff. Do they have something they really enjoy eating (and conversely - something they refuse to eat)? Do they have some sort of comfort toy or object they don't want anyone touching (and maybe showing them playing with it with a different character could be a way to show how much they trust them)? In more modern settings, do they have a favorite show they always bug everyone to put on? Are they really clingy or do they hate physical contact (again, maybe they only enjoy it from a specific character)?
Another characterization could be comfort objects. A lot of profoundly ID people are autistic (which I'll touch on later) and will have an object that they bring everywhere the same way that non-ID autistic people might. There's nothing really specific here, just another layer of "this character is a Person". Maybe they have a blanket they really enjoy chewing because the texture feels good or some sort of plushie they like to throw around because it makes a sound they find funny. Lots of options. Maybe they have a personal âtellâ to let others know they want their comfort object brought to them.
Keep in mind, you have to show this all in non-verbal manner. A profoundly ID person is probably not using any sort of AAC device (the most robust one I remember seeing right now was a low-tech one with "yes" and "no", but there are probably ones who operate on a larger amount of singular words). This is basically another opportunity for characterization - what do they do when they're happy - laugh, flap their arms, make sounds? - and when they're upset - scream, hit themselves, make different sounds? Obviously, you'd have to take other disabilities into account (e.g. many profoundly ID people won't move much, some might not be able to make much audible sound, etc.) but almost anything helps.
This brings us toâŚ
Communication
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An important thing (concept?) I'll throw here is "total communication", which can mean different things in different contexts, but here I'll use it to mean "using everything you can to communicate with someone who cannot do so in a âtraditionalâ way".
Communication can be categorized as having two sides; expressive and receptive. For most intellectually disabled people in general, receptive skills tend to be significantly higher than expressive ones, though there are specific disorders where itâs reversed or equal. As mentioned before, most profoundly ID people wonât speak orally, wonât use sign language, and wonât use AAC (though out of all three, AAC is the most likely one). Some might say single words, but thatâs about it. Itâs not a âphysically mute but can write perfectly grammatically correct sentencesâ situation, itâs more of a â[single noun]â one, if anything. Receptive skills however are pretty decent (in comparison) and they would probably understand their name, the name/title of their carer(s), names of things they see every day, events they have some frame of reference to (e.g. if they grew up Christian, they would probably know what Christmas is), etc. Your other characters could (and should) talk to them like they can understand, even if they donât catch everything or even most of it. I say a lot of âprobablyâ there, but the people who canât do so usually have other comorbidities, which Iâll mention later.
To go back to expressive communication, eye pointing can be used to figure out what the character wants. A change in breathing can be used to tell that a character got stressed. Throwing an object can be used as a hint that the character wants to play. Maybe them reaching towards person A means they want to eat, but reaching towards person B means they want them to sing a song for them. Maybe them making a particular face means they just had a seizure and need to be comforted. Whatever their "tells" like this might be, other characters who know them would probably be able to tell more-or-less what's going on - you don't have to go really in-depth, especially if it's a minor character, but figuring out the ways your character communicates with others will make it feel more like a person and not a Disabled Lamp (âif you can replace a disabled character with a lamp or a sick dog, theyâre not a characterâ).
If you read some of these and go "that's a thing that a child would do" then you're not necessarily wrong. A profoundly ID adult might enjoy activities that primarily kids partake in. This is, I can't stress this enough, not the same as "mentally being a child". Otherwise, a whole bunch of adults on this very website would be "mental middle schoolers" based on the shows that they watch - but they're obviously not. A profoundly ID adult doesn't have the "mind of a baby" if their favorite game is throwing a toy, they have the mind of a profoundly intellectually disabled adult. Sometimes people assume that since ID people aren't mentally [incorrect age], they always "act their [actual] age" and essentially end up downplaying how much some people's ID affects them, when the point is that no matter what you do, you are your age. An ID character who is 26 years, incontinent, constantly puts their hand in their mouth, can't speak, whatever, is mentally 26 years old the same way that they would be if they had a wife and a mortgage.
For the last thing from this section I'll circle back to the assumption that all severely/profoundly ID people are loud, aggressive, etc. - as I said, some of them are (just like abled people). The thing is, this is not always an unreasonable response to being unable to communicate with the people who are caring for you. If you had a pressure sore but couldn't explain it to anyone you'd be pissed off and screaming too. That's an extreme example, but still applies. If someone is severely stressed out (for an abled person, this might be inheriting a ton of debt, for a profoundly ID person it can be a change in daily routine), they can lash out. It's an unpleasant but very much human reaction to have, even if what's behind the ID person's behavior is significantly different from what an average abled person might consider "a good reason".
So I guess my advice is, try to show some empathy to the character, even if they genuinely are loud and/or aggressive. Intellectually disabled people - including the profoundly disabled ones - aren't some alien species that is just mean and hates their caregivers for no reason, some just can't process their feelings the way an abled person might because of their disability. That's not to say that caregivers aren't allowed to feel frustrated - because they are - but that very severely disabled people aren't purposefully evil. As mentioned in the earlier parts, all behavior has a cause, just like for literally everyone. So if the character is being "unmanageable": maybe they aren't some cursed burden, maybe they're just stressed out of their mind and now someone they don't know that well is trying to do *something* to them, which they can't figure out because of their disability affecting their receptive language skills.
Resources and What to Keep in Mind
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Some resources you might read about ID can be potentially misleading. Even if you specifically look for causes of the profound severity of intellectual disability, you will get results for mild ID. That's mainly because people with mild ID make up >85% of intellectually disabled people and those with profound ID make like 1%, so they're a minority in a minority.
Basically:
Down syndrome is a very unlikely cause. It's always listed as the main genetic cause of ID, but that's only true for mild and moderate severities. If you choose any of the common causes of ID make sure it actually has the symptoms you're looking for.
Most profoundly ID people will have either severe brain damage early in life (and this can come with cerebral palsy), cephalic disorders (e.g. microcephaly), genetic conditions that you've never heard of (e.g. Pallister-Killian or Emanuel syndromes, 3p deletion), genetic conditions that you've never heard of for a very understandable reason (e.g. X-linked intellectual disability-limb spasticity-retinal dystrophy-arginine vasopressin deficiency⌠there are hundreds named in this way), or just have it without a known cause. The last one happens much more often than people tend to assume.
For a reason I'll probably discover at some point, most disorders and syndromes that come with ID are said to have "autistic-like features" rather than being "comorbid with autism". In practice, it's the same thing. Your character is probably autistic.
In the same way, a lot of practical resources will assume that ID = moderate ID (since most mildly affected need no or minimal support, and severely/profoundly disabled ones are a small minority) so pay attention if you're looking at the right things. If it's talking about having a job, travelling alone, etc., then you got clickbaited.
Another subsection here will be comorbidities because there are a lot of them. Iâll mention the biggest ones.
Brain damage is the most common one (except autism) and can vary a lot. There is barely anything I can say about this one, itâs an enormous spectrum that for some people causes disability and for others barely affects their symptoms. Cerebral palsy, especially quadriplegic, is seen a lot and might affect the characterâs mobility a lot. Some people might be unable to breathe or swallow and need a breathing or feeding tube.
Deafness and blindness are comorbid with a surprising amount of causes of ID. The thing is, you could take advice for deaf/blind characters as-in for a character that has both (e.g.) glaucoma and mild ID and not change much, but this doesnât really work for a character whoâs profoundly disabled like this. The situation that can happen here is that itâs not actually known if the person is or isnât deaf or blind because they canât tell you. As mentioned earlier, some people will have absent receptive communication skills. How do you verify if theyâre deaf or just not reactive to language? Some people wonât react to even extremely loud sounds, even if they can hear them perfectly well (besides, a lot of deaf people can still hear some). Same for verifying if they are blind - obviously, sometimes thereâs something visual going on, but often there isnât. Especially since the main causes of both blindness and deafness will be brain-based, not ear- or eye-based. Another character not being sure if the disabled character is blind or just very uninterested in visual stimuli is a possibility, especially with less advanced medicine. This is also why you might see those weird statistics of "between 5-90% of people with [condition] are deaf" kind.
Mobility is almost always severely affected. Some are fully mobile, but thatâs simply not common. The average person will be unable to walk independently. Itâs not always a muscle or nerve problem (though it absolutely can be), itâs mostly an issue of coordination. Because of this (and understanding physical space), operating a wheelchair (...successfully) might be impossible. This doesnât mean you should just drop your character in a hospital wheelchair for them to get wheeled around because they will probably need a wheelchair that will actually support them - a headrest, ability to tilt, a harness, all that. This could be done with a powerchair (they can have controls on the back for a second person to operate), a manual wheelchair, or an adaptive stroller.
Now for resources;
One good resource I can recommend is SBSK (which I shared before), to my knowledge this is the only place that interviews severely and profoundly ID people (+their families) and the interviewer is great at actually interacting with many of them.Â
Most resources on the practical things only ever talk about caregivers (who are very important) but completely ignore the actual person being cared for which IMO kinda defeats the point.
Good luck writing!
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Tamsyn Muir's writing beyond The Locked Tomb
Y'all, turns out there's lots of imagery and themes in TLT that Muir was already playing with in her earlier fiction. A lot of it is easily available online, in which case I'll link to it. (The short stories that aren't can also be easily read if googled, to be quite honestâthat's how I read The Deepwater Bride and Why the Mermaids Left Boralus). ⢠The House That Made the Sixteen Loops of Time (2011)
5K. Short sort-of-cozy romance (?) with (you guessed it) a time travel loop. Explores a very queer potential relationship. CamPal enjoyers might find a similar sweetness.
⢠The Magician's Apprentice (2012, Lightspeed Magazine)
5K. This is the one that stopped me dead on my tracks. It features an older, male mentor figure called John (a âvery ordinary manâ with âdark eyesâ) who introduces the young, female main character to magic that has a terrible costâand to literature such as Lolita. This excellent post by @familyabolisher does an incredible job of analyzing the very deliberate intertextual links between TLT and Lolita.
⢠The Woman in the Hill (2015, Lightspeed Magazine, originally for Dreams From the Witch House anthology of Lovecraftian horror by women)
4K. Possibly my favorite! It's a straightforward Lovecraftian horror, centered on the image of the woman (is it human though?) trapped in an unnatural pool inside a cursed cave. Chain imagery too. It does something different from Alecto, mind, but you can see links, ways of playing with facets of a strong central image. It's fun to consider how reliable the two narrators are. Here's an analysis and afterthought from Reactor Mag.
⢠Chew (2013) 4K. Zombie abuse and cannibalistic revenge story ft. an uncanny woman revenant, told from the eyes of a traumatized German boy. I was strongly reminded of Harrow's conversations with the Body. Tamsyn gave an interview on the themes and her intentions. Interesting to read in light of Alecto, I think, although I don't think she's going the same route in TLT: âthe idea of post-war rebuilding connecting to rebuilding the body of the zombie; a Frankenstein who once rebuilt doesnât act as planned or desired. [âŚ] I love cannibalism [âŚ] itâs innately spiritual [âŚ] any afterlife she goes to, heâs going too.â
⢠Apothecia (2014, published on Tumblr and tapas.io)
Short webcomic where an alien monster tries to corrupt the ruthless human girl who holds it captive. Musings on responsibility and murder, mention of child abuse. The alien's speech patterns remind me of a Resurrection Beast. You get wonderful dialogue like âMurder is a profession. Job. Employment, you tiny leg dog. There you are, walking along. Walk walk walk. Now you are a walker. Good job. Special child. Murder is like this.â Art by Shelby Cragg.
⢠The Deepwater Bride (2015, Fantasy & Science Fiction Magazine)
The opening line is: âIn the time of our crawling Night Lord's ascendancy, foretold by exodus of starlight into his sucking astral wounds, I turned sixteen and received Barbie's Dream Car.â Need I say more? Extremely fun. A novelette where a young queer girl from a clairvoyant family struggles with an apocalyptic event while being annoyed by another very plucky girl. Lots of descriptions with nerdy marine zoology terms. Close in tone to Gideon. In the background, someone dies EXACTLY like that one death at the end of Gideon, which makes me wonder what happened to make Tamsyn interested in this particular image. I also liked that Tamsyn is aware of Nightwish. No link, but you'll get a PDF immediately if you Google.
⢠Union (2015, Clarkesworld Magazine)
5.5K. Very weird, extremely Kiwi story about a town that gets sent lab-grown wives by the government, but they're not made the usual way so they're Weird and people have feelings about it. Fascinating and eerie description of non-human (in some people's eyes, sub-human) women (?) who cannot be observed to have recognizable feelings or thoughts, yet have some sort of inner life. Quite touching, very uncanny.
⢠Princess Floralinda and the Forty-Flight Tower (2020)
Short novel (~200 pages). Very funny. I was reminded of Coronabeth because the whole plot is âprincess finds herself branching out into decidedly non-princess-like activitiesâ, but other than thatâthis is a fairytale for adults about people who make eachother worse. No particular links to TLT but a very fun read with some gut punches. Extremely Tamsyn through and through, what with the dubious morality and all.
⢠Why the Mermaids Left Boralus (2021, in Folk & Fairy Tales of Azeroth by Blizzard Entertainment)
Set in the World of Warcraft universe. Haven't read this one yet, will report back lmao. As with The Deepwater Bride, no link but I easily found a PDF of the entire compilation. It's illustrated!
⢠Undercover (2022, from Into Shadow, Amazon Original Collection)
Haven't read it either. Will edit once I do.
#TLT#TLT meta#The Locked Tomb#Tamsyn Muir#TLT analysis#Chew#The Magician's Apprentice#The House That Made the Sixteen Loops of Time#Why the Mermaids Left Boralus#Union#Undercover#Princess Floralinda#Princess Floralinda and the Forty-Flight Tower#The Deepwater Bride#The Woman in the Hill#Alectopause#Tamsyn#tazmuir#Apothecia
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Portfolio advice, from a lead who hires Concept Artists
(This was originally a twitter thread I wrote before the site self imolated, hense it's strange structure.) I wrote this after a weekend of portfolio reviews - 1. Like a maths exam, please please show your working. I want to see thumbs options, mid options and of course a final design.
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2. Arrange your portfolio, I don't want to bounce about between subject matter and pipeline. Your portfolio's narrative should be as strong as your work... 3. Please make worlds that excite the viewer, make them want to go in and explore them, explain to them the interesting parts of the town, or the way the character's hat unfolds. How will this draw the viewer in? 4. As I've said before the majority of your project work is explanatory not mood, make sure your portfolio contains explanatory work. Explained here -
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5. A lot of beautiful post apocolyptic paintings, , but 80% of realistic games and film, we just give the environment artists photo ref, they are capable artists in their own right. Different work in stylised where you do need to create rules for how things can be translated. 6. Production art contains call out sheets, material references and flat graphics. This doesn't have to be your final image, but it should support it.
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7. Design characters on a swatch(es) of the environment they will be viewed in. Not on white. I make swatch backgrounds from screenshots, it avoids assumptions that damage readability. 8. Reverse of this, put people in your environments, show me the scale.
9. It's not a deal breaker for a review, but if you intend to get a job, please show me your work on a screen larger than a smartphone (print outs probably the cheapest option with the best battery life). 10. Please have your contact details clearly visible, and by that I mean email address, I will not pass your social media contact on, I cannot input your form into my tracking system. EMAIL ADDRESS emblazoned and bake it in, sometimes recruiters do funky stuff to pdfs
11. Your portfolio will never feel done, not to you anyway. You will have learnt from your latest pieces and want to apply it to older work. But we know art is a journey. Send your portfolio anyway. I've been in the industry 10+ years and my portfolio is still not 'finished'. 12. If you are applying to an environment centric Concept Art position then please vary your times of day! Golden hour is cool but show me some happy sunny days, looming overcast days, what about at night? Vary your weather too! Sunny snowy day? Rainy Spring day? Stormy night?
13. If you are applying for a character centric Concept Art role then please ensure your portfolio shows a variety of body types and ethnicities. 14. Designing characters for games? Please show back views and feet (!) Many potfolios contain only front views. This is a problem because:
You haven't shown you are considering the design from all angles.
In many games rear view is the main view.
Stop cropping feet.
15. If you are entry / graduating and looking at Portfolios to compare content and standard of yr own work too, look at hired grad/junior artists as opposed to seniors Seniors and leads often have old or personal work in their portfolio which isnt representative of the day job. 16a. Show clearly the intended use case for your Concept Art. Mention the game type in the description. Are these player character designs for a 3rd person adventure game? Then more back views please. Bonus points for diagetic ways of showing health / equipment / role etc.
16b. Are these designs for an FPS? Then really the player view of the gun needs to sell the player style/ choices, in an FPS your weapons are almost your character. Are these world designs? What's the view distance? For an RTS your shapes need to read from above & a distance. 16c. The lack of clarification means I am judging the design in isolation, which both harms the design (you might be considering the backview of a char as the main adventure character.) Or an NPC, their waist up expressions may be important for conveying exposition and mechanics.
16d. Concept art is not separate from gameplay, great concept art serves the game team before it is a good illustration.
17. Play games. A variety of games. Think about them. IMO to be a good concept artist you need to understand the common language & references used by your peers. Also understand the principles and common language your audience are used to. FPS design rules are v.diff from RTS.
18. There are many skills that are needed in concept art, please show them. For example: Graphic design - logos, liveries, typographic use etc. VFX concepts - Abilities, Ambience, motion concepts. Architectural knowledge - How buildings are built! & more but I'm out of space :O
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are we still friends? + (ren kaji, hayate suo, umemiye hajime, sakura haruka)
cws. | gn!reader, headcanon + scenarios format, sorta character study, fluff, angst, comfort. | redirect to blog navigation.
syn. | How do they react to confession when the feelings are mutual?
notes. | Will there be part two? who knows? but for now please have these. I forgot how to write smut so I'm writing fluff.Â
â Ren Kaji: Ren does not like talking or listening so he pretends that he can not hear and with his headphones on it's easier to convince but when you specifically ask him to take it off so that you could talk it annoys him. He rarely takes his headphones off since it was a gift from someone. So all he does is to take the lollipop out of his mouth and say, "You can talk. I am not listening to anything," It really irritates you but you do not wish to act on it right now. He has started to grow a little too comfortable with your presence around him and maybe. . .just maybe it's time to create a ripple in his stagnant heart. At the rooftop of the school, where gentle breeze and sunlight prevails you say you like him and watch his eyes go bigger. He takes off his headphones with utmost haste demanding, "Say that again," but now it is your turn to annoy him. All your comebacks are full of: "no." , "Did you not listen when i said once?" , "This is why i told you to take your headphones off," and so on. You are so engrossed in conversing with him that you fail to notice his swift motion of leaning and planting a kiss on your cheek. Your lips cease to move for a while yet it is ever so quick and swift that it happens within a blink of your eyes. "Okay, I'll say it for you then," Ren says. Gulping and continuing, "Y/n likes Ren Kaji. and I like you too." in one breath and just vanishes out of your sight. The next few days he is spotted sleeping at unusual times because he has spent sleepless nights regretting why he did not take his headphones off.
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Hayate Suo: Suo has known for a while that you like him. Well, he is not too sure but he always had a pretty good idea when it comes to emotions. He has probably known even before you that you could harbor feelings for him so when he hears the rumors from other students he does not react much except with some snarky comments to shut those rumors with his sickly sweet saccharine smile. But hearing it from you, at some secluded place near the bike stand of the school is certainly is out of the syllabus for him. At first, he does not know what to say, what to do, or how to react but when your eyes slowly look up to meet him the first thing he thinks if you did it because of rumors or some sort of dare. If so, then both are wrong. He thinks confession should come when it's time not when it is influenced by others. So, all he says is: "I know." eyes blinking a little too much, unable to consider you as his focal point. " I've known for a while." And then, he asks for some time to think about it which is unexpected because from what you have heard he has rejected every other proposal that came his way. You came prepared to be rejected when you decided to confess but this goes out of the syllabus for you too. So, you end up thinking if this is his new way of tormenting people who like him but he really needs time to properly think because he thought there is no way he thought you would like him back. He does not want to hurt you. That goes against his morals. He could feel his cheeks being warm, ears too, palms tucked behind his back cold, and rapid heart rate. "So, this is how it feels to be confessed."
â Umemiya Hajime: Being an older brother to everyone has never been a bother until he developed a gut wrenching crush on you or that is how he would like to put it. Not only that, you have developed quite a friendship with Kotoha ever since you started helping her out in her resturant. You are probabaly same age as her which makes things a little more complicated. Was it not enough that you might be under the impression that Kotoha is his girlfriend? Like most other people; But thanks to Sakura for clearing that confusion up. Still. . .still he feels his heart twist whenever he visits the resturant. All he does is to silently watch you. He could have easily creeped you out if you had not developed a crush on him. When Umemiya's visits became you became a little bold, like talking to him, asking about his day, exchanging numbers but never have been alone with him. He always comes with his band of boys. It denifitely nice to hear him laugh, talk and sometimes steal sneaky glances but it does not help with the wave of emotions he makes you feel. So, one day when the door bell chimed and as usual you said, "Welcome" looking in the direction of entrance ceasing your chores all you could do is stare for a moment since the customer is none other than Umemiya Hajime and he is all alone. So, you repeat again, "Welcome Umemiya-san." tearing your gaze away from him. "Kotoha is busy. Should I let her know that - he cuts you off with," i'm not here for her today." sipping water ever so slowly from the glass you just served on the coaster. Is he nuts? is he really doing this? Right now? why is he not freaking out? or maybe he is, internally, just like you. "I'm here for you today." And, when he confirms you turn around to get a proper look.Â
"I see," you say.
"You didn't answer my call so i had to come here," Umemiya remarks.Â
"so, you are here to scold me?" Umemiya's heart drops in some bottomless pit. He did not mean it to come out this harshly. He is just tensed, especilly after how you texted last night : "I like you Umemiya-san."Â
"did you check your phone after last night?" and to that you just nod. You do not want to and who honestly would after confessing to the brightest star. You are so out of league from him. Umemiya smiles. "I see," he speak softly. He gets up and then he is about to leave but just before exting the door he says, "Please, check you phone."
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Sakura Haruka: Sakura has a habit of talking, and going on and on about it unless someone interrupts. If possible, he would talk in one breath. So, when you say that you like him he dismisses it as a joke. "quit kidding. Nobody likes me. y'know that. . ." And there goes your probably hundred-and-fifth confession. He never takes it seriously no matter how serious you try to be Sakura manages to bungle up your intentions so quick yet you can not seem to blame him. If anything he is too honest, so often he comes as rude and obnoxious but his intentions are so pure that sometimes it makes you think can a person be this stupid? But this time when you confessed you thought this would go in the usual direction; him dismissing it as a joke but this time when he looks at you he is faced with something new, something he is not good at handling. "you. . . are you crying?" And it dawns on you how heavy your heart has become with his oblivious nature. all those "I like you-s." never reached his heart, only his head. You quickly wipe away your tears and try to cover it up with the most brilliant lie ever to exist. "It's just dirt." given his oblivious nature he is supposed to buy but he is asking questions again. "You. . . all these time. . . were serious?" Yes, you absolute dimwit. You can not even nod to confirm his thinking. You swallow hard trembling lips parting to speak and you are met with his chest with his arms wrapped around you. " I-I ... was told that if you like someone...you can hug them... y'know when they ...say they ...like you," he starts to stammer and it creates a swarm of laughter arises from your stomach. "Whoever told you that must know a lot about dating," you say having a fair idea who it might be.
#windbreaker#windbreaker headcanons#fluff headcanons#fluff hcs#sakura haruka x reader#umemiya hajime x reader#ren kaji x reader#suo hayato x reader#x gn reader#x gn y/n#wind breaker (satoru nii)#umemiya x reader#wind breaker nii satoru#drabbles#fluff drabble#anime fluff#anime x reader#anime x y/n#manga x reader#hajime umemiya#ren kaji#sakura haruka#suo hayato#hayato suo#wind breaker#fluff and angst#hurt/comfort#fluff#angst scenario
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My older brother is an autogynephilic TIM.
After a long time of trying to hide my real feelings and convince myself to be supportive, I came to the conclusion that I couldnât do that anymore.
I believe that a main motivation for his transition was jealousy towards me growing up. Itâs become increasingly clear that he genuinely just wishes he were me.
He was misogynistic, controlling, talked down to me and treated me like I was stupid during our childhood. As a teenager, he got interested in pedophilic anime. The kind with the characters who look like little girls but are supposed to be high schoolers. He likely became interested in yuri manga at this time - pedophilic anime lesbian porn.
The way he treated me had a very negative effect on my self esteem and mental health as a young woman, and that was part of what led to my trans identification and eventual transition. I hated him. But he had also been part of what shaped my negative self image, and I had internalized it. The idea that I was stupid, not worth the same as he was, that my feelings didnât matter, that I was a burden on the family. It wasnât just him, but my childhood in general shaped me into a self-hating young woman who felt like she needed to escape and become something else.
A few years after I began transition, he âcame outâ. We were living under the same roof at the time, and I was truthfully very uncomfortable. I was on edge all the time, and didnât feel at home in my own apartment. And I kept trying to push that feeling down because I thought it was the right thing to do. I thought I was being judgmental, that my instincts were wrong and I shouldnât listen to them. Thatâs when I started peaking and started to consider detransition. I found a roommate and moved out. And even then I felt guilty, because he whined about not having anyone else to live with.
When he changed his name, he was pissed off that he hadnât been born female, because he wanted my name. He said this in front of the whole family. That he doesnât know what name he wants to go by, his only idea was what he would have been named if he were female, which is my name. He ended up choosing one of the most cliche TIM names you can choose. Another time, someone asked him his favorite colors. He told them his favorite colors were the ones I always said were my favorite as a kid. This isnât a coincidence - Itâs a specific list of colors.
These sound like just little things, and most people would brush it off, but they instantly made my brain go into red alert mode. Since then heâs become very outspoken about being a âlesbianâ. He talks about wishing he could find a girlfriend, being a âlonely lesbianâ, a âuseless lesbianâ, being âsoooo gayâ, whatever. He has the flags, he suddenly likes cats despite being allergic and never liking animals at all before. He watches anime and tv shows with lesbian characters and thirsts after characters like Vi from Arcane while talking about his âgender envyâ.
He makes objectifying comments about womenâs bodies, calls himself and my female family members âbitchâ. Infantilizes himself and loves to talk about how âweakâ he is. (At 5â11 with a clearly male frame) There are too many things to list honestly. All the ways in which itâs obvious that he has no idea what being a woman actually is. Itâs just some concept he made up in his head, a male fantasy of what womanhood entails.
Weâve only seen each other a few times a year at most in the years since then, and Iâve just tried to avoid and ignore and not engage in conversations with him. All the while he acts nice, like he never treated me like shit growing up, as if being trans was his problem and âbecoming a womanâ fixed him. As if Iâm the one being unreasonable for being distant and not having a close relationship.
Iâm seeing more and more clearly how hollow it all is. How fake it all is. How probably perverted it all is. He was a harmful influence on my life. And now he acts like heâs a woman, and itâs hollow, and somehow he thinks that means itâs all erased and forgiven.
Weâre both grown adults now, and he only physically hurt me once as a kid, but growing up seeing him fly into a rage every time I didnât agree with him still makes me afraid of the threat of violence from him. Thatâs part of why itâs hard to speak up and why itâs still uncomfortable to be around him.
The crazy thing is that I know multiple detrans women who have TIM older brothers. Iâve heard from other women that there seems to be a trend of lesbians in general with TIM older brothers. Thereâs a pattern here, and itâs not a good one.
We need to be talking about this. Stop the silence đŁ
#feminism#lesbian#detrans#trans#detransition#radical feminism#radblr#ftm#butch#mtf#lgbt#wlw#lgb#lgb without the t#lgbtq+#gay#bisexual#terf#terfblr#radfem
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-ËË FLOW ËË
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SYNOPSIS. with your auto workshop at risk of closing down, your best friend kira ryosuke offers to introduce you to people who are definitely in need of your high quality services: underground street racers of blue lock, whose obsessions are winning the races. however, your arrival at the track makes them think otherwise.Â
CHARACTERS. isagi yoichi, bachira meguru, chigiri hyoma, kunigami rensuke, barou shouei, mikage reo, nagi seishiro, yukimiya kenyu, otoya eita, karasu tabito, shidou ryusei, itoshi rin, itoshi sae
CONTENT. f!reader. street racer au. fluff. 1.3k wc. rewrite of flow at my old main blog @/verxsyon. reader is labeled as âkira (ryosukeâs) girlâ because they are always seen together. possessive behavior (barou). mentions of violence (shidou & rin).
VERA. whatâs better than egoist soccer players? egoist street racers. you know what could be better than egoist street racers? the reonagi divorce arc in hdâ oops, lmao. you know what could be better than the reonagi divorce arc in hd? season 2 premiere this week and sae has more screen time! i also bought a reo figure in his high school soccer uniform to celebrate, and it was the last one too. lucky!
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đŕźâ§âË. ISAGI YOICHI
the heart. quickly becomes popular for his freshness to the arena. isagi is a good friend of kira, so thereâs one more person you can trust. while in his care as kira meets up with his team, he gives you a tour of blue lock to keep you entertained. sweet and kind, he fetches you water and asks if you feel alright because the racers have been ogling at you since you arrived. interrupted by an uproar caused by a racer who is standing on his car with paint all over his body, isagi is beyond irritated.
đŕźâ§âË. BACHIRA MEGURU
the monster. obsessed with spray paint and loves decorating his car with it. bachira is terrible at being an artist. playful and cheerful outside, he holds amateur art performances for the crowd before races to get them pumped up. his gaze makes isagi flinch when he is told by the latter to quiet down. you can still hear the warning of staying close to someone you trust. he emits a dangerous aura, a strong first impression. bachira feels the same when heâs up at your face, studying you intensely.
đŕźâ§âË. CHIGIRI HYOMA
the surge. the fastest racer in blue lock, securing victories at the speed of light. as chigiri approaches bachira to scold him for scaring newcomers, his beauty is so unreal that you donât even realize youâve been staring at him. he apologizes for his friendâs antics, justifying that he acts like this before a highly anticipated race. unfortunately, chigiri is not in this one due to a leg injury but luckily has someone helping him to stay in shape: an orange-haired racer waiting at the garage in his car.
đŕźâ§âË. KUNIGAMI RENSUKE
the hero. kunigami has the highest endurance in blue lock, outlasting all racers in long-distance races. he acts like an older brother as he is very protective and solves issues in a civil manner, balancing out his friendsâ hot-blooded personalities. kira trusts him enough to take you home as your best friend has matters to take care of. you thank kunigami for the ride and being nice to you. embarrassed, he says heâll see you at the race and nothing else before zooming away.
đŕźâ§âË. BAROU SHOUEI
the king. barou is the racer that kira complains about for as long as you can remember. heâs selfish and arrogant based on what you gathered so far from kira, claiming that the venue is his throne and the next race is his for the taking. his attitude fits your expectations; you already dislike him upon the first encounter. barou has the audacity to âclaimâ you as his prize when he wins this race. youâll definitely follow kiraâs advice to avoid him for sure when you see this guy again.
đŕźâ§âË. MIKAGE REO
the heir. reo considers kira to be one of the best in the arena, besides his best friend, nagi, of course. a master of negotiations due to his status as the future chairman of a corporation, he hopes you will find his terms reasonable and collaborate with him as a business partner. but what he doesnât expect is you playing hard to get. a pretty rich boy does deserve wild goose chase, making his pursuit exhilarating just like races at blue lock. nagi thinks that what he is doing is a waste of time.
đŕźâ§âË. NAGI SEISHIRO
the genius. most people are happy with their achievements, but nagi does not care less as theyâre essentially reoâs efforts. all he cares about are his video games and his cactus until you arrive to the arena with kira. all of a sudden, he attempts to impress you; âattemptsâ being the keyword. yet reo does the work once again by introducing him to you as his precious treasure and brags that you will see nagiâs full potential at the upcoming race. nagi doesnât find you to be a bother, so he hopes to see you again.Â
đŕźâ§âË. YUKIMIYA KENYU
the model. his charm is the focal point of his character, which drives the audience nuts. curious by nature, yukimiya wonders about the qualities you possess other than being âkira ryosukeâs girlâ and how you manage to get the likes of barou, who treats everyone like trash, and nagi, who thinks of only going home, at your whim. seeing you teach nagi about car anatomy allows him to introduce himself. he believes that there is something special about you, but a friend of his thinks so otherwise.
đŕźâ§âË. OTOYA EITA
the ninja. otoya claims to be not like his fellow racers and prefers to stay in the shadows. he doesnât see you as an angel sent by god in the form of a mechanic to fix their cars, not understanding why everyone is smitten by you. he isnât interested in interacting with you at first, however, that is proven wrong when yukimiya makes you laugh at a silly joke. itâs rude to make you feel unwelcome, so he decides to give you a chance. a crow- like racer mocks him for thinking he doesnât find you attractive one bit.
đŕźâ§âË. KARASU TABITO
the assassin. all about good vibes and good times, karasu does not want anyone to act âmediocreâ around you. many newcomers are notorious for never setting foot in this place after their first round. he is relieved to hear that you came at your own volition thanks to kira. majority of racers you met so far are nice to you, so he doesnât need to worry about making an impromptu spiel of why blue lock is great. if you think heâs too friendly for your taste, what about the guy stalking you right now.
đŕźâ§âË. SHIDOU RYUSEI
the joker. unrestrained both in words and action, shidou goes about his day and does everything as he pleases. judging by how yukimiya, otoya, and karasu are quick to shield you, heâs bad news. the altercation grabs kunigamiâs attention, who he has massive beef with. being âkiraâs girlâ doesnât phase him, nor your best friend going after his head for being near you. one of his rivals isnât amused by the ongoing circus act, as if he didnât break his nose in the previous race.
đŕźâ§âË. ITOSHI RIN
the puppeteer. rin has a score to settle with his older brother, sae, who is betting on shidou for the next race. physical violence is a usual solution to settle arguments, and itâs worse for rin to be involved in another fight with shidou, especially before a race that determines his fate and prove to his brother that heâs the best of the best. he doesnât spare a glance at you or ask if youâre alright, as sae walks into the garage to check out the commotion.
đŕźâ§âË. ITOSHI SAE
the prodigy. sae is one of the top eleven racers at the underground. you now know that he is betting on shidou for the upcoming race. rin does not seem pleased. even if itâs not obvious at face value, everyone can tell that thereâs bad blood between the brothers by the intense atmosphere created from their staring contest. sae looks at you then at his brother, who he scoffs at for his lack of concern for you. for a girl to experience this in the first week, heâll stop by your shop as reparation after the race.
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On David Tennant and Aging
So, Iâve seen a lot of posts in response to Tumblr usersâ habit of affectionately calling their favorite middle aged dudes âold menâ, David Tennant in particular, saying things like âclearly youâve never met an actual old personâ, âomg you talk about these guys like theyâre 80â, âplease be normal about people agingâ, etc. And on one hand, all of these statements are objectively right and true! But as someone whoâs always been really fascinated by and found a lot of beauty in getting older (which Iâve explored in some of my writing on A03 because nobody else is going to do it for me), Iâd like to provide a bit more nuance on how I think this label applies to David in particular.
David, obviously, in literal terms, is not âoldâ, at least not to me- I donât personally consider people old until they get past 60. 52 is middle aged, simple as that. And yet, when I see David stuck with the âold manâ label, it still somehow feels weirdly right, for a number of reasons.
It annoys me so much when people say David âhasnât aged a day since Doctor Whoâ, because, wellâŚ
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He clearly has. A lot. Heâs got forehead creases, deep crowsâ feet and eyebags, and I think that post-Fourteen weâre gonna see him rocking the grey temples a LOT more. He also has the voice of an older man now, his upper range is still there but the default is much more deep and rich, with a gravelly, rumbling quality that just goes straight through you. I personally think Broadchurch was when David finally started to embrace looking his age- Alec Hardy just wouldnât have been served by Tenâs fresh-faced boyishness.
Obviously, these are the kinds of changes youâd expect any 52-year-old man to have, but something about David just makes it all seem a bit more⌠intense? The expressiveness of his face combined with his almost gaunt frame makes his wrinkles very prominent, and when he works his voice to its emotional extremes, his lower register can sound positively ancient, to devastating effect.
David, I think, is someone with an old soul- I donât think he could be as good as he is at playing ancient characters like Crowley and The Doctor if he werenât. He has lived so many lives, given so much of himself to so many characters, often incredibly tragic ones, and I think it wears on him. David also has five kids. FIVE. Do you know how exhausting it is to be one of the hardest working actors alive and be a present, loving father to even ONE child? But David somehow does it anyway! Nowadays I see him and my heart breaks because he looks so tired, so weary and fragile. But heâs all the more beautiful for it to me because I know that that is because he is kind. Heâs a deeply empathetic person who feels and lives to the absolute fullest, and that story is written so clearly on his face, along with every other story he has ever been a part of.
Thereâs other things about David that make the label endearingly fitting- his utter hopelessness when it comes to technology, for instance. And heâs just got that warm, wise, grandpa energy too sometimes- look at that above Fourteen picture and tell me Iâm wrong!
I once showed my friend whoâd only seen David in Doctor Who and Harry Potter a picture of David from Around The World in 80 Days. It was a particularly emotional scene, and his face had just the most beautiful expression of compassion and sadness, every wrinkle on full display. And she said, in a less than complimentary fashion, âhe looks so old!â Which, of course, offended me quite a bit at first. But to me, referring to David as old almost feels like a badge of honor, something heâs earned by living fully and selflessly, working hard and being wise and compassionate beyond his years. I think David himself is secretly more than a little insecure about the fact that heâs getting older. Thereâs sadness behind every jovially self-depreciating remark heâs made about his age in the past year, particularly in comparing himself to Ncuti Gatwa. I know how much David struggles with his impostor syndrome and how people perceive him, and I can clearly see in his eyes the fear of being discarded, the anxiety he feels about if heâll still be as loved as he was back in 2007 now that heâs closer in age to King Lear than he is to Romeo. So I hope David knows itâs a privilege to watch him grow older, to watch his soul and talents deepen with the crinkles around his eyes. If I, in my silly goofy tumblr girl-ness, call David Tennant an old man, itâs because itâs a label that suits him beautifully- even if it isnât TECHNICALLY an accurate one yet.
#David tennant#doctor who#the tenth doctor#the fourteenth doctor#good omens#crowley#shakespeare#around the world in 80 days#phileas fogg#pro aging#growing old
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summary: All throughout her formative years, Y/N has always harbored a bit of a crush on her best friendâs brother, Yunho. Having not seen him for years, she doesnât expect those feelings to come back when she joins the Jeongâs on a family trip to a cabin in the Alps for the holiday. When she meets Yunho and his girlfriend, sheâs hopeful that she can finally move on.
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a/n: here I am with the kick off to this holiday collab! I had a fun time writing this and really enjoyed how it turned out. She's kind of lengthy but are we really surprised? That's pretty on point for me lmao Thank you so much for reading and if you like this please consider reblogging! Also make sure to check out the others as they come out! As always, this is a work of fiction and all characters are not reflective of their respective irl counterparts. for entertainment purposes only.
smut warnings: lots of heavy petting, unprotected sex (wrap it up), fingering (f receiving), size kink, praise kink, use of pet names (baby, angel, kitten, etc), choking kink (f receiving), daddy kink, dirty talk, soft dom!Yunho, sub!Reader, Yunho is smitten, like head over heels for MC and she is too. Theyâre just obsessed with each other. If I missed anything please let me know!
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For most people, the one constant in their lives is their best friend and for you, it was no different. Meeting Yumi on the playground in elementary school would bring with it not only a friendship that would last but it would also bring with it your first love.
Yumi was the middle of three children. She had a younger brother, Gunho, who always annoyed her whenever you came over, wanting to join in on whatever the two of you were doing. Typical kid brother stuff she told you. Gunho wasnât as insufferable as Yumi made him out to be and he was nice enough so you werenât really that bothered by his presence.
Yumi also had an older brother, Yunho. He was in middle school the first time you met him, though you and Yumi werenât that far behind him. Yunho was polite and friendly towards you while simultaneously teasing and taunting Yumi, something she said was also typical brother behavior.
You first realized you had a crush on Yunho when you started middle school and saw him in the hallways between classes. You could feel it whenever he smiled or laughed at something his friends said, or the way he went out of his way to make sure you made it home safe before walking Yumi home.
Your crush on him blossomed and grew even into high school. Even when it became clear that he didnât see you that way, you still hoped in the back of your mind that Yunho might notice you or that he felt the same way but then he graduated and was off to college.
You hoped that with him gone, you might finally be able to move on and for a bit, you did.
Until he came back from college for winter break.Â
Seeing Yunho even more grown up stirred up all the old feelings you thought youâd buried, and you were reduced to a bumbling mess when you walked in on him, shirtless, in the kitchen in the middle of the night when you were looking to get a bottle of water.
As quickly as he came back, Yunho was gone again, off to college. When you graduated, you and Yumi chose to attend the same college, one Yunho didnât go to. Another year and another winter break, Yunho returned once again bringing with him a girlfriend this time.
Seeing Yunho with someone who wasnât you gave you the final push you needed to move on.
Or so you thought.
When Yumi asked you a week ago to join her family on a trip to the Swiss Alps as your family decided to spend the winter in the heat of Australia, it didnât dawn on you that a family trip meant Yunho would be there too. You were mad at the way your body betrayed your years of repression, heart skipping a beat upon seeing him now, years later.
Heâd matured into a very handsome man, taller than you remembered with broad shoulders. His hair had finally returned to its natural color after he experimented in college with bleach and bright colors. You fondly remembered the time he came home during break with bright blue hair and nearly gave his mother a heart attack. While you thought he looked good in any color, youâd always had a soft spot for his natural hair.
As you approached the group, you saw Yunho wasnât alone.
Heâd brought a new girlfriend who you learned was named Seomi.
You smiled politely when you greeted the pair and had you been paying attention at all, you would have noticed the way Yunhoâs eyes lingered a little longer on you as you turned to greet your best friendâs parents. It had been some time since youâd seen the brothers and even Gunho had grown up and was starting to look a lot like Yunho, tall but not as tall as the giant of the family.
The flight to Zurich was a long one and thankfully, you had one layover in Istanbul which was an experience in itself but after a few hours, you were back on a plane bound for Switzerland. The first flight, you sat between Yumi and Gunho but the second flight had you seated next to Yunho by the window while Seomi had the aisle seat.
To say it was awkward was the understatement of the century. You spent most of that leg of the flight trying to sleep or listening to music downloaded to your phone. Whatever you could do to avoid speaking to or looking at Yunho.
Arriving in Zurich made you feel like you were part of a traveling circus; Yumi lost her luggage, Gunho left his carry-on in the overhead compartment and had to go back for it, Seomi misplaced her passport but found it in Yunhoâs bag. It felt like you and your best friendâs parents were the only ones who had it together.
From Zurich, you were to take a bus to the village of Siebnen. The bus ride was mostly quiet, the sun coming up as you drove through the empty streets and slowly made your way out of the city. The village was at the base of the Alps and youâd never seen such tall mountains before.
The sight of the perpetually snow capped mountains looming over the city as the bus headed closer and closer to the next stop had you more and more excited for the trip. You were practically bouncing in your seat next to Yumi who was taken aback by your sudden enthusiasm.
Once you reached the village, your travel group disembarked from the bus and made your way to a car rental place to pick up a van to take up the mountain roads. You were in the very back with Yumi and Gunho with Yunho and Seomi in the middle seats.
The ride up the mountain was just as exciting for you as the bus ride had been and you couldnât stop yourself from staring out the window, taking in the grandeur of it all. The rolling farmland was interspersed with forests as the road wound up the side of the mountain, climbing higher and higher as the road got steeper.
As you passed a small farm, you were whisper-shouting to your best friend about the cute sheep when the van turned onto a road that led into a vast forest. The forest grew more and more dense as you climbed even higher still. There were remnants of snow from the most recent winter storm and before you could ask how much longer, the van turned onto a dirt road, driving a little slower.
You twisted in your seat, trying to catch a glimpse of the lodge where you were to be staying. Yumiâs family had rented a massive lodge for ten days and youâd only learned during the layover that Yumiâs extended family would be there as well.Â
It dawned on you that this would be your first time meeting her cousins, aunts, and uncles.
As the van rolled to a stop, you were far beyond the reaches of your normal excitement as Yunho and Seomi first climbed out, followed by Gunho, Yumi, and finally you were the last to be let out, stumbling as your foot caught on one of the seatbelts. Yunho managed to catch you before you went down.
âWhoa,â he said, chuckling. âSomeone is excited.â
âSorry,â you mumbled, making him chuckle again. âDonât apologize for almost falling,â he replied. âJust be careful,â he added with a wink. You thanked him again and awkwardly scurried away to join the others at the back of the van to collect your luggage.
The lodge was mostly empty, save for a few family members. You followed Yumi to the room you would be sharing for the next ten days which happened to be next to the room Yunho and Seomi were sharing. On the other side of their room was the room where one of Yumiâs aunt and uncle were staying.
Once you had dropped off your luggage, Yumi dragged you down to the main living area to meet the rest of her family. Her aunt and uncle were on her maternal side and they had three kids as well.Â
The eldest was a girl with waist length hair named Haneul. Yumi had told you she was in college. The middle child was a boy named Jun-seo who was in high school, wore glasses and carried his Nintendo switch everywhere. The youngest was in his last year of elementary school and his name was Ju-won.
You greeted them politely but the moment Yunho introduced Seomi, all attention was on her and you were able to breathe easily. You hated attention more than anything and now that the attention was on someone else, you felt a lot better. At least until dinner.
Attention was divided with some focusing on Seomi and wanting to know every little detail about her and Yunhoâs relationship while a few were more interested in Yumiâs best friend from childhood. You answered all the questions thrown at you despite feeling like a blinding spotlight was on you.
The next day brought with it more snow and more family.
This time from Yumiâs fatherâs side. His sister and her husband and their two kids. Twin boys named Kang-min and Jang-min. You learned they were around your age and while being nearly identical, they had vastly different views, opinions, and interests. Kang-min was more the quiet type. He loved sports and academics and was a model student in college. After graduation, he found work as a nutritionist.
Jang-min on the other hand was much louder, more boisterous, and loved a good party. He landed a job as a journalist, writing for an advice column. His interests were more in the home. He loved to cook and bake, and you learned when he had a little too much wine, he got overly friendly.
You found him to be very funny and found his shameless flirting harmless.
Everyone else thought it was kind of funny, too. Well, almost everyone.
Yunho made his distaste of Jang-minâs actions known pretty quickly when he noticed Jang-minâs hand lingering on your knee a little too long. He didnât even hide it, instead calling his cousin out in front of the whole family.
âIs it really appropriate for you to be touching her like that?â he asked his cousin as the latter leaned against you, his hand perched on your knee as he laughed at a joke you made. The laughter subsided almost instantly and Jang-min looked at his cousin with wide eyes.
âWhat?â he asked. Yunho glared at the younger man. âJust keep your hands to yourself,â he retorted. âSheâs not your family. You canât just touch people like that.â You felt your heart sink, not for yourself but for Jang-min who recoiled, crossing his arms over his chest immediately.
âYunho,â his mother chastised. âJang-min didnât do anything wrong,â she continued. âAnd Y/N didnât say anything about it bothering her,â Yumi added, turning to look at you. âWas it bothering you or making you uncomfortable?â she asked softly. You shook your head. âNo,â you replied.
âJang-minâs just a touchy person. I get like that sometimes when I drink,â you added.
Yunho said nothing, instead excused himself and got up from the circle, heading upstairs, Seomi on his heels.
That wasnât the first time Yunho had told off one of his cousins for getting too close to you. He did the same thing a couple days later. The parents had all gone to bed as had the young ones leaving you, Yumi, Yunho, Seomi, the twins, Haneul, and Gunho sitting around the fire pit outside on the patio.
Instead of wine, Yumi and Haneul had gotten into the liquor stash and made drinks while the others had opted to drink beer. After Jang-min had gotten another scolding from Yunho for his behavior, the younger man had picked a spot furthest from where you sat, putting you between Gunho and Yumi. You were nursing your drink when Haneul spoke up.
âWhy donât we play a game,â Haneul said, looking around the circle. You glanced at Yumi who nodded. âWhat did you have in mind?â she asked excitedly. âI swear if you say Truth or Dare, Iâm out of here,â Yunho grumbled, Seomi flashing him a smile.
âTruth or Dare is so juvenile,â she added with a nod. You looked away from them to Haneul who seemed to be deep in thought. âWhat about Paranoia?â you offered, regretting it the moment seven pairs of eyes landed on you. âWhatâs that?â Kang-min asked, leaning forward to see you better around his twin.
âItâs a party game,â Jang-min answered quickly. âYou sit in a circle and one person whispers a question into another personâs ear and then that person has to answer the question out loud for everyone to hear. It has to be a question about someone in the group like âwho do you think gives the best hugsâ or something similar. And then if you want to find out the answer, you have to drink and then ask. If the person doesnât want to tell you the question, they also have to drink,â he explained.
âSounds complicated,â Kang-min murmured. You wracked your brain for another game. âOh!â Yumi said quickly. âWhat about Ring of Fire?â You let out a laugh. You knew all too well what Ring of Fire was as you had both played it a lot back in college. âIf we want to play that, weâre gonna need to go inside,â you reminded her. âWe have to sit at the table.â
Yunho glanced up at you and then to his sister. âIâm down,â he replied, looking at Seomi. âYou want to go in? It is kinda getting cold out here.â Seomi nodded. âYeah,â she answered. âLetâs go in.â
Once the fire had been dealt with, the group moved inside, sitting around the table while you and Yumi worked to set up the game. You found a pack of cards in one of the end tables in the living room while Yumi hunted for a large cup. Once you had your supplies, you started setting up.
âHas anyone played this before?â Yumi asked as she set the cup in the center. You noticed everyone shaking their heads as you cut the deck and set the cards in piles face down around the cup in the center. âEveryone is going to need full drinks,â you explained.
There was a brief pause as everyone grabbed refills. Once they were all sitting back down, you and Yumi took turns explaining the rules of the game.
âIf you draw an Ace, thatâs âwaterfall.â Going around the circle clockwise,â Yumi explained, drawing a circle in the air with her finger. âEach player starts drinking their drink consecutively and you have to keep going until the player before you stops.â
âIf you draw a two of any suit, thatâs the âyouâ card. You point at someone else to take a drink. Likewise, if you draw the three of any suit, thatâs the âmeâ card and you have to take a drink,â you continued. Yumi nodded and continued the explanation. âIf someone draws a four, thatâs the âgirlsâ card and all girls have to take a drink.â
âThatâs kind of sexist,â Haneul complained but Seomi waved her off. âItâs just a game,â she replied. âFive is the âthumb master.â Whoever draws this card has to discreetly put their thumb up which everyone has to copy. The last person with their thumb up has to take a drink,â Yumi continued.
âHow many rules are there?â Kang-min asked. âAs many types of cards there are,â Yumi said with a shrug. âSix is the âboysâ card and all boys have to take a drink. Seven is the âheavenâ card, which is similar to thumb master only you have to point up to the sky. Last one to do it has to drink,â you continued.
âWhatâs eight?â Seomi asked. âEight is âmate,ââ Yumi answered. âWhatâs that?â Seomi asked, tilting her head to the side like a curious puppy. âYou pick someone to be your âmate,ââ you answered. âIf you have to drink, so do they for the rest of the game.â
You didnât miss the way Seomi flashed Yunho a mischievous grin.
âNine is the ârhymeâ card: if you draw this card, you have to pick a word and then we go around the table and everyone has to come up with a word that rhymes with that word. Ten is the âcategoryâ card. You pick a category and everyone has to name something in that category, anyone who canât come up with something for either nine or ten has to drink,â you added.
âOkay, so what is Jack?â Yunho asked, looking up at you. âMake a rule,â Yumi answered. âYou get to make up a rule or forfeit that has to be obeyed throughout the game. Itâs sort of a power card,â she explained. âAnd Queen?â Yunho asked again, his eyes still on you. âQuestion Master,â Yumi answered quickly. âYou have to ask the others questions and they have to answer with a question. Whoever doesnât answer with a question has to drink.â
Yunho nodded, eyes still on you. âAnd what about King?â he asked. âFill up the cup,â you answered, nodding at the cup in the middle. âPour some of your drink into the glass and whoever draws the fourth king has to chug the entire contents.â
Yunhoâs lips twitched into a smirk. âOkay,â he said, sitting up and looking down at the cards in front of him.
âLetâs play.â
The first round was a mess, trying to re-explain the rules of the game each time a card was drawn that you resorted to writing the rules down for each person who asked for clarification. The second round was a lot better. You drew a six and laughed, pointing at Jang-min who playfully glared at you as he took a drink.
When it got to Yunho, he pulled the 8 of diamonds. Seomi glanced up at him, expecting him to pick her but was surprised when Yunho instead picked you. âNow you have to drink every time Yunho does,â Yumi said as Seomi picked up a card. She drew a two of Hearts and immediately pointed at you.
You raised your glass and took a drink without complaint. Yumi had mixed something together and it tasted amazing. It was so good you werenât sure if there was even any alcohol in it. âYour turn Kang-min!â Seomi said, positively beaming as she smiled at him.
Kang-min drew the first King of the night, grimacing as he reached over to pour some of his beer into the glass. âUgh, this is gonna be so gross,â Gunho said when he pulled a king from a different pile and poured some of his drink into the cup.
Haneul drew a ten of Clubs and pondered for a moment before calling out her category. âChristmas movies!â she said excitedly, turning to look at Yumi. âElf,â Yumi answered, turning to you. âJingle All the Way,â you said softly. Gunho said Miracle on 34th Street and it continued back around to you.
âDie Hard,â you blurted out. Seomi pointed at you. âDrink! Thatâs not a Christmas movie!â she said excitedly. âYes it is,â you replied. Seomi shook her head. âNo itâs not! Itâs an action movie,â she argued. âThat takes place during Christmas,â you added. âItâs a Christmas movie.â
Seomi turned to Yunho for help but he merely shrugged. âSheâs got a point,â he said with a chuckle. âItâs also listed as a Christmas movie on Hulu,â Jang-min offered. âItâs your turn Gunho,â Yunho said, looking at his younger brother. âHome Alone,â he said without hesitation. âNightmare Before Christmas,â Yunho said, turning to Seomi who hesitated.
She took too long because Yumi, Jang-min and Haneul all pointed at her. âDrink!â they said in unison. Seomi begrudgingly took a drink and glared at Yumi who shrugged. âThemâs the rules,â she said, unphased. âItâs just a game, babe,â Yunho said softly, placing a gentle hand on her shoulder.
The next couple rounds had Gunho pulling thumb master, Yunho drawing the Me card which you had to drink with him. Yumi drew the third king and poured half of what remained in her cup into the center cup. You held your breath as you drew a card and sighed with relief at the little nine looking back at you.
âNine,â you announced, flashing the card. You pondered for a moment, trying to come up with a good word to make everyone rhyme with. âDime,â you said, looking at Gunho who stared at you. âLike, the currency?â he asked, making sure he heard you right. You nodded. âLime,â he continued, turning to Yunho. âCrime,â he stated, turning to Seomi. âGrime,â she said, looking you directly in the eye.
âChime,â Jang-min chirped, turning to his twin. âIâm,â he said, looking proud of himself. âMime,â Haneul said excitedly, turning to Yumi. âPrime!â Yumi shouted, apologizing when several shushed her. âClimb,â you said, turning to Gunho. âRhyme,â he said smugly. Yunho chuckled and shook his head. âSublime,â he continued. âTime,â Seomi said quickly.
It continued back around to you. âThyme,â you said softly. âThe herb,â you added. âLyme,â Gunho said. âLike the disease,â he clarified, making you and Yumi burst into laughter. Yunho fought the urge to laugh as he stammered out âslime.â It fell to Seomi again who froze. âOh shit,â she cursed softly, lifting her glass to take a drink. âWe kind of exhausted all the options,â Jang-min said with a laugh.
Gunho pulled the eight of clubs and pointed at Yunho. âDoesnât that mean whenever I drink, Yunho and Y/N have to drink?â he asked, looking past you at Yumi. âLike a chain reaction or something?â Yumi nodded. âIt does!â she answered. âSorry Y/N,â she added with a smirk.
When it came around to you again, you luckily pulled the eight of Hearts and smirked at your best friend. âAlright, mate,â you said with an evil grin. Yumi groaned loudly. âI knew youâd do that,â she grumbled as Gunho pulled the three of Diamonds. âAlright drinking buddies, letâs go,â he said, taking a drink. Yunho followed, as did you, then Yumi.
Yunho pulled the four of Spades and laughed maniacally. âYou have to drink twice, Yumi,â he said, sticking his tongue out at his sister. She glared at him but did as he said. Seomi pulled her card and stared at it for a solid six seconds before Yunho glanced at it and gasped.
âShe pulled the last king,â he said softly. âOh⌠looks like you gotta chug the drink in the middle!â Jang-min said excitedly while Kang-min looked on with mild curiosity and disgust. Seomi took a deep breath but as she reached for the cup, Yunho took it instead. âIâll drink it for her,â he said, lifting the glass. âSheâs got a weak stomach. I donât want you getting sick,â he added in a soft tone, looking at her.
Yunho downed the contents quickly, grimacing as he set the glass down. âAlright,â he said, coughing. âIs that game?â he asked, looking around. You glanced at Yumi who looked back and shrugged. âWe could keep going,â she suggested. âUntil all the cards are gone.â
You shook your head. âLetâs just call it there,â you suggested. âThe Kingâs cup is gone,â you added. âWe could always shuffle the king cards back in,â Jang-min suggested but you shook your head. âItâs okay,â you said as Seomi started to get up. âLetâs call it a night. We have plans tomorrow anyway,â Yumi said.
The group split up, heading to their respective rooms to get ready for bed.
The next morning, Yumi woke you up early so you could shower before the trip into the nearby town. According to her, it was a small picturesque town, already decorated for the holidays. You both dressed in silence, heading down to the dining room for breakfast.
Yunho was already sitting at the table, Seomi sitting next to him with her arms crossed over her chest, a slight pout on her face. âMorning,â Yumi said as she took a seat, leaving an open seat next to Yunho. Rather than taking it, you sat on the other side of your best friend.
It didnât take long for the rest of the family to join you, Haneul sitting beside you while Gunho took the seat between his sister and brother. Breakfast went by in mostly silence as everyone was still waking up and eating. After eating, you followed Yumi back up to the room to finish getting ready for the day.
Once everyone was ready, you all piled into the vans outside and headed for the village. The drive down didnât take that long and soon, you were looking out the windows, catching glimpses of the architecture, roofs blanketed in snow, and holiday decorations everywhere.
You were in the very back again, this time with Yunho and Seomi while Gunho and Yumi sat in the middle seats. Yunho sat in the middle, you on his left, and Seomi to his right. You opted to stare out the window the whole time as to not stare at Yunho or make eye contact.
Last night, the way he stared at you while you explained the rules of the game stirred something inside you and you didnât really want to revisit whatever it was that was coming back to life inside. Not to mention the way your heart jumped into your throat every time his thigh brushed against yours on the bumpy mountain road.
Once you were in town, vans parked, You scrambled out with the others and gathered around so the older adults could explain the rules. You were allowed to go off on your own and explore but everyone was to meet up for lunch at a specific location. Once this was explained, you were free to go off on your own. You took off with Yumi, Haneul tagging along so she didnât have to go with her brothers or with the twins and Gunho. Yunho and Seomi obviously went off on their own and you were able to breathe easily.
Yumi ended up dragging you and Haneul to a little boutique that caught her eye and although there was nothing you were interested in, it was still fun to watch Yumi and Haneul shop and try things on. After the boutique, you wanted to step into a shop full of crystals and glass to check it out. There was even a demonstration of glass blowing near the back that you couldnât seem to pull yourself from.
Eventually Yumi and Haneul dragged you away and the next shop you stumbled into was a jewelry shop. You were looking at the necklaces with Haneul when you heard her gasp slightly. You looked up and followed her line of sight, spotting what she saw.
Yunho and Seomi.
The latter was looking at rings and you felt your heart stop, bile in your stomach rising as you tasted something sour in the back of your throat. You looked away, not wanting to witness whatever was going on over there as Haneul waved frantically at Yumi, drawing her over so she could point.
Yumi stared in awe before grabbing both you and Haneul and dragged you out of the shop onto the sidewalk to peer through the window. âIs Yunho going to propose?â Haneul asked softly as she stared into the shop. Yumi shook her head. âI have no idea. I donât even know how long theyâve been dating,â she answered. âIt canât have been long because Iâve never heard about her before.â
You tore your gaze from the couple inside the shop, your eyes landing on a bookstore nearby. âHey,â you said softly, tapping your best friend on the shoulder. âIsnât the twinsâ birthday coming up soon?â you asked. Yumi turned to look at you. âYeah. Which reminds me, I need to get them gifts.â
You pointed at the bookstore. âKang-min likes books, right?â you asked. Yumi nodded. âYeah, mainly manga but he also likes horror books,â she answered. âLetâs go in there. Let Yunho and Seomi have their privacy,â you suggested. The other two thankfully listened and the three of you headed across the busy street to the bookstore.
After the bookstore, the three of you stopped by a small courtyard with all kinds of statues. Yumi wanted to take some pictures and you obliged as the three of you squeezed together to fit in the cameraâs view. As the day wore on, your stomach started to rumble and Haneul complained of being hungry. Checking her watch, Yumi saw that it was almost 1 pm and looked at her phone.
âWe should probably head for the restaurant,â she said softly. The three of you headed back, walking down the busy sidewalk, chatting. It was mostly Haneul and Yumi chatting as you couldnât get the image of Yunho and Seomi in the jewelry shop out of your head.
You thought you were past this. The fluttering of your heart when he was around was one thing, but getting so jealous it made you nauseous was another thing entirely. Youâd never once felt that way before. It made you wonder what was wrong with you. Yunho wasnât yours and he never would be but you still couldnât let go of these feelings.
âY/N?â you heard Yumiâs voice pull you from your thoughts. âYou alright?â she asked. The two of them had stopped and were looking at you with concern. âIâm okay,â you murmured. âJust feeling a little nauseous,â you added. âYou want to go back to the lodge?â Yumi asked. You shook your head.
âIâm sure itâll go away when I eat.â
You didnât want to ruin the trip because of your unbridled jealousy so for the sake of your best friend, youâd swallow it and suck it up. Youâd have to at some point.
The restaurant was a cozy place with a lot of nordic patterns. The three of you were shown to a backroom where the rest of the family was already gathered. The only three seats left were between Yunho and Jang-min. Before you could ask Haneul to switch you, she sat down next to her cousin while Yumi took the seat next to her.
âFuck.â
You moved and sat between your best friend and her brother, trying not to look at him.
Immediately, you picked up your menu and looked over the options. âWhatâre you gonna get?â you heard a voice ask. Looking up, you met Yunhoâs gaze. âIâm not sure yet,â you replied softly, turning your gaze back to the menu. âMaybe the chicken.â
âChicken is always a good choice,â Yunho murmured with a nod as he looked over his own menu. I might get that too,â he added. You said nothing, instead looking at the menu as if you hadnât decided yet. You were just trying to avoid conversation or eye contact with the man next to you.
When the server arrived, you took turns ordering your food and drinks. Once the menus were taken away, everyone fell into comfortable conversation. Everyone except you.
âSo Y/N,â a voice said, snapping you from your thoughts.
You looked up to see half the tableâs eyes were on you. The speaker was Haneul, Jun-seo, and Juwons mother. âHow long have you known Yumi?â she asked. You turned to your best friend before looking back. âSince we were in elementary school,â you answered. âWeâve been friends for years.â
âWhat do you do for work?â
You sat there, answering mundane questions about your life, letting the family get to know you a little more. Most of the questions were tame, consisting of inquiries about your work, your life growing up, your friendship with Yumi. Until someone brought up a question that made you want to sink into the floor.
âAnd you arenât seeing anyone?â
You thought you felt Yunho tense up beside you but it had to have been your imagination. You shook your head. âSheâs been on a few dates here and there since college,â Yumi offered, trying to take the attention off you. âBut she hasnât met the right person yet.â
You were thankful when the conversation shifted to talk about Yumiâs love life, or lack thereof. You had settled back down in your seat and were patiently waiting for your food to arrive so you had an excuse to not answer anymore questions.
âAre you okay?â you heard Yunho ask softly. Looking up, you met his gaze and nodded wordlessly, looking away from him. âIâm fine,â you lied with a forced smile. Whether or not Yunho bought your act you wouldnât know because before he could respond, the server returned with a few others, bringing your plates out.
The arrival of the food meant most of the party was eating rather than talking. It was a nice reprieve and you hoped soon that you could return to the lodge and call it a day. Seomi and Yunho were speaking in hushed tones before Yunho shook his head and Seomi got up, excusing herself to go to the bathroom. Yunho excused himself and got up to follow.
You exchanged glances with Yumi who shrugged and went back to her food, you following her lead not long after. Yunho returned moments later and sat back down, looking mildly annoyed at something. You took it upon yourself to check on him this time.
âEverything alright?â you asked softly, making sure not to draw any attention. Yunho gave you a smile and shook his head. âDonât worry about it,â he said just as softly. âItâs nothing,â he added. You chose not to push it and resumed picking at your food, most of your appetite having left soon after your food arrived.
âYou want to get it to go?â Yumi asked as the server eventually returned with the check and to go boxes. You nodded and thanked her as she handed you a box. You said nothing as you scooped your mostly uneaten chicken pasta into the box and closed the lid, setting the plate aside and waiting for the group to start making its way to the exit.
Seomi finally returned and declined to take her leftovers, leaving her meal mostly uneaten at the table.
Once the bill was settled, you followed the group out the door, Yumi at your side and slowly made your way back to the parking lot where the vans were sitting. The ride back out of town and to the lodge was quiet and you chose to sit in the middle seat with Yumi while Yunho, Seomi, and Gunho sat in the back.
Upon arriving back at the lodge, you followed Yumi inside, putting your food in the fridge and headed upstairs to shed your layers and put on some more comfortable clothes. Once you were done, you joined the group downstairs as they sat near the fireplace while Mr. Jeong got a fire going.
You watched the younger boys play before Mrs. Jeong and Haneulâs mother called out that the hot chocolate was ready. Yumi offered to get you a mug but you declined before telling your best friend you had to use the bathroom. On your way to the room, you passed Yunho and Seomiâs room and heard them arguing in hushed tones. You werenât sure what was being said but you didnât stick around, walking to the bathroom and shutting the door quickly.
After finishing your business, you opened the door and bumped into Seomi who glared at you. âWatch where youâre going,â she snapped. Before she could push past you into the bathroom you stopped her. âThen donât stand in the middle of the door when I open it like some sort of creep,â you snapped back and walked past her, passing Yunho who stared at you as you walked by.
You didnât see the way he looked after you as you reached the top of the stairs before you headed back down, nor did you see the way he glared at Seomi. Back downstairs, you took up your previous spot beside Yumi. âEverything okay?â Yumi murmured as you grabbed the blanket on her lap and pulled some of it over you while nodding.
Soon, the parents were rounding everyone up to play charades. You were put on a team with Yumi, Yunho, Seomi, Gunho, and Mr. and Mrs. Jeong. You werenât entirely in the game and after the first round, you excused yourself, getting up and heading upstairs with the excuse that you had a headache.
Only a few minutes later, Yumi joined you, asking once again if you were okay. You lied and said you were and that you just wanted to rest and get some shut eye because of your headache. She offered to get you some water and aspirin which you thanked her for.
Once you took the medicine and drank some of the water, you settled down in your bed and closed your eyes, drowning out the sound of excited yelling downstairs.
At some point, you passed out and when you awoke, your phone told you it was nearly midnight. You heard Yumi groan as she rolled over. âReally? This is a family vacation,â you heard her grumble in the dark. It was then you were made aware of the squeaking sounds and slight knocking that you assumed was from a bedframe hitting the wall and you felt your stomach churn.
It sounded like it was coming from the next room over which was⌠Yunho and Seomiâs room.
âGross,â Yumi grumbled. You pulled back the covers and got up slowly. Yumi turned over and looked at you from the moonlight filtering between the curtains. âWhere are you going?â she asked suspiciously. âWater,â you croaked, grabbing your empty glass and got up, pushing open the door and shutting it behind you out of respect.
In the hall the sounds were a little louder and you hurried down to the first floor, trying not to imagine what exactly was happening in the room next to yours only to freeze upon seeing Yunho standing in the kitchen, light from the fridge illuminating his figure. He turned and noticed you standing in the darkness.
âHey,â he said softly. You forced yourself to move, walking around him to the sink. âI thought you wereâŚâ you trailed off as he grabbed the milk out of the fridge and moved to pour some over his cereal sitting on the counter. He put the carton back and shut the door before moving to turn on the light over the sink. âThought I was what?â he asked, grabbing a spoon and sitting at the counter.
You shook your head and moved to get some ice from the fridge. âI heard noises,â you admitted. Yunho snorted and you turned to face him. âThatâs coming from my aunt and uncleâs room,â he admitted. It woke me up and so I thought Iâd come down here and have some cereal,â he added.
âHoped they might be done by the time I finish and head back.â
You nodded and turned away to get some water. Silence fell over the two of you as you sipped on your water and Yunho ate his cereal. Finally he spoke, breaking the tension. âYouâve really grown up,â he muttered and you looked up to find him staring down at his bowl.
âI almost didnât recognize you,â he added with a chuckle. âI was going to say your boyfriend is a lucky guy until it was revealed earlier that you donât have one,â he continued. You said nothing instead holding your glass firmly as he continued to eat his cereal.
The only sounds that could be heard were the heater working to keep the house warm, the crunch of Yunhoâs cereal and the slight squeaking and knocking coming from upstairs. âYou really donât have a boyfriend?â he asked finally, looking up. You shook your head.
âNo,â you replied.
More silence followed your admission. You fought the urge to add that no man ever compared to him but you knew that would be crossing a line and you could never come back from that. Better to just let it go and move on. Let him propose to Seomi in peace and move on with his life and be happy.
He deserved that.
âWhat about a girlfriend?â he asked, throwing you completely off guard. He looked up to meet your gaze. You stared back at him in stunned silence. âGirlfriend? Did he think you wereâŚ?â You shook your head. âN-no,â you replied. Yunho shrugged. âI wouldnât judge you if you did,â he added.
You shook your head more firmly. âNo,â you replied. âItâs not like that,â you continued. âIâm just not interested in anyone right now.â
âAnyone who isnât you.â
âOh.â Yunho said, getting up from his seat. Heâd finished his cereal and the sounds upstairs had finally subsided. How long had you been standing there in silence? How much time had passed since you came downstairs?
Yunho stopped in front of you, reaching around to place his bowl in the sink. âSo thereâs really no one?â he asked softly. You shook your head, looking up at him. He smiled softly. âGood,â he said firmly, making you tilt your head slightly.
âBoys suck,â he added and you couldnât help but laugh at this. It was a sound Yunho hadnât heard in a long time. A sound that he didnât realize he missed dearly. How much of a fool heâd been for trying to stay away from you these last few years.
âWe saw you today,â you blurted out suddenly, taking both yourself and Yunho by surprise.
âSaw me?â he asked. âWhere?â
Youâd already blurted it out, you might as well be honest.
âIn a jewelry shop,â you answered. âYumi wanted to look at something in there and we saw you and Seomi. She was looking at ringsâŚâ your voice trailed off. Yunho stared at you, unable to read your expression. âI was looking for a gift for my mother for Christmas,â he admitted.
You suddenly felt very small and stupid for saying anything. âOf course,â you answered. âSorry for assuming,â you said softly before downing your water and turning away. Yunho grabbed your arm gently. âSeomi assumed as much, too,â he admitted. âShe thought we were there for that as well.â
You looked down at his hand gently but firmly holding your arm. âThatâs why she was looking at rings but I told her I wasnât planning on proposing any time soon and that I was there to buy a gift for my mother, and thatâs when she got upset. Thatâs why she was so distant at lunch,â he added.
You nodded silently. He didnât need to tell you any of this. Why was he telling you this? Yunho let go of your arm. âSorry,â he apologized suddenly. âI donât know why Iâm telling you this,â he added. âMaybe itâs because Iâve always felt comfortable with you.â
You glanced up at him, finding him already staring down at you, the dim light over the sink casting him in a low glow. âIâve always found it easy to talk to you,â he added, stepping closer and closing the distance between you, trapping you against the counter.
âIâve always felt like I could tell you anything and you wouldnât judge me,â he explained softly, resting his hands against the edge of the counter on either side of your waist. âLike I could be myself and youâd accept me.â Your heart was hammering in your chest, blood pounding in your ears and almost drowning out his words.
Your breath caught in your throat as he leaned closer, his lips inches from yours.
A door opening upstairs broke the silence and Yunho took a step back immediately. âI should probably get back to bed,â he said as he turned away from you. âWe have a busy day tomorrow,â he added. You watched as he turned to glance back at you before turning away and heading for the stairs, leaving you in the kitchen clutching your water glass as you stared after him.
âWhat the fuck just happened?â
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The following morning was the ski trip and you were dreading going to begin with. You werenât the best with athletic activities, especially in the snow but Yumi had begged and begged the night before while you lay in your beds until you finally caved.
Now as you were in the back of the van with Yumi and Haneul, you were regretting your decision and would have rather stayed at the lodge and done nothing. The ride to the ski lodge wasnât far thankfully for those that wanted to go skiing but unfortunately for you.
You chose to try skiing with Yumi, Haneul, Yumiâs mother, and Haneulâs mother. Kang-min chose to ski instead of snowboarding with his brother and the others. As you strapped in, you glanced up to where Yunho was helping Seomi into her snowboard boots, making sure they fit.
You were finishing strapping your ski boots on when Yumi sat next to you. âAre you sure you wanna do this?â she asked, a little louder than you would have liked. Yunho and Kang-min both looked up. âYou begged me to do this,â you hissed back. Yumi nodded thoughtfully. âAnd Iâve thought about it but I remembered you arenât the most coordinated on snow or ice.â
You glared at her, cheeks burning. âItâs fine,â you hissed. âYou begged me to come and now weâre here. Iâm not backing down now and ruining the mood.â
You got up and walked over to the instructor to get your skis. You werenât sure why all of the sudden Yumi was asking if you wanted to do this when she was begging you the night before.
Once everyone had the correct gear and was ready, you headed outside and over to the lift that would take you to the top of the slopes. There was an orange partition between the two sides. One side was where the skiers were, to the right the more advanced skiers were flying down the hill whereas to the left, closest to the orange fencing, was where the beginners were.
On the snowboarding side it was almost the same set up but mirrored. You rode the lift up with Yumi and Haneul, holding onto your ski poles nervously as the lift climbed higher and higher. Behind you sat Yunho and Seomi with Gunho and in front of you was the twins and Haneulâs mother.Â
Your best friendâs mother chose to stay at the lodge for the time being.
Once at the top, you scooted off the lift and awkwardly shambled over to the side to wait for the instructor. Kang-min skied over and stopped beside you. âYou okay?â he asked softly. You nodded, staring at the slope. âJust take it little by little,â he offered.
âYou will fall,â he added. âBut it doesnât hurt. The snow is really soft.â You watched as he patted the snow with his ski. âVery powdery. Good skiing conditions.â You smiled at him as the instructor finally arrived. You watched as he explained the basics and let Yumi and Kang-min go first.
âGo slowly,â the instructor said as you moved to the edge of the summit. âTake your time.â You finally took the plunge, pushing yourself over the edge and started sliding down the slope to the first stop. The instructor joined you, commending your form but telling you to uncross your skis.
You tried again, heading down to the next part, cursing as your skis crossed again.
This continued until you reached the bottom.
âYouâre doing really well,â the instructor said. âBut you keep crossing your skis,â he added with a chuckle. âItâs so weird to try and hold them straight,â you admitted. He nodded as he started towards the lift. âYou wanna go again?â he asked.
You werenât looking at him. Instead you were watching Jang-min slide down the slope next to the one youâd just skied down on his snowboard. âCould I switch?â you asked, turning your head. âMaybe snowboarding might be better for me.â The instructor nodded and beckoned you to follow him back to the lodge and inside where you removed your skis and boots. He brought over a pair of snow boots to check the fit before helping you lace them up and make sure they were snug.
Afterwards, he grabbed the snowboard and handed it to you. âYou can put it on at the top,â he said before grabbing his own board, having also switched the skis out. The ride up was silent as you looked around. Yunho and Seomi were at the top, off to the side chatting. When you reached the top, you hopped off the lift and walked over to Jang-min who smiled at you.
âChanged your mind, eh?â he asked as you set the board down and stepped on, watching the instructor make sure your boots were secure. âI couldnât keep my skis straight,â you admitted with a grimace. âYou joined us?â Yunho asked, scooting up to the other side. You nodded as Seomi also joined. âAlright, you three go ahead. Iâm sure she doesnât want you watching her as she goes down,â the instructor said, waving them on.
You watched as they took turns. Jang-min went first and you could see heâd done this plenty of times before. Seomi went next, looking every bit as graceful as Yumi did on skis. Yunho went next, stopping at the peak to look back at you. He gave you a salute. âSee you at the bottom!â
You watched as he went next and you were in awe. You had no idea Yunho was so skilled at snowboarding, pulling tricks youâd only ever seen on TV. You were suddenly very aware that it was your turn next. The instructor had you go first and you half expected to lose your balance and tumble but you were surprised how much easier this was than skiing.
It didnât take you long to get the hang of it and soon you were zooming past the instructor as he laughed. âYouâre a natural at this!â Jang-min complimented as you joined him at the base of the slope. He held up his hand for a high five and you reciprocated as the instructor checked his watch. âI have a class soon,â he announced, looking up at you. âWill you be alright on your own now?â he asked.
âYeah, sheâs got us,â Jang-min said, wrapping an arm around your shoulders.Â
âWeâll keep an eye on her!â
And just like that, you were no longer in need of an instructor. You spent most of the time with Jang-min who was content to join you on the beginner slopes while Yunho and Seomi continued down the intermediate side. Kang-min eventually swapped his skis for a snowboard as well and joined the two of you, taking turns between you and Jang-min
Half the morning had gone by and you were really getting the hang of snowboarding. Yunho called break time and the group headed into the lodge for lunch, shedding your gear by the door. You ordered half a sandwich and a cup of soup, sitting next to Jang-min and Yumi as you excitedly told your success story to your best friend. âMaybe Iâll switch too,â she said with a smile.
âYouâve never even stepped foot on a snowboard,â Gunho said with a snort. Yumi glowered at him. âNeither had Y/N before today,â she snapped back. You nodded. âThereâs no way I believe that,â Yunho said suddenly from the other side of the twins. âYouâre a natural at this.â
Your cheeks grew warm at his compliments and you busied yourself with your soup. âShe really is,â Kang-min chimed in, looking at you with a smile. âSkiing didnât seem to be your strong suit but snowboarding definitely is.â
Heat spread from your cheeks to your ears at the sudden increase of praise thrown your way. Although you typically hated attention, you had to admit that it felt nice to be praised like this from time to time.
After eating, you sat by one of the fires, warming up while letting your food settle.
âI think Kang-min likes you,â Yumi said softly as she sat next to you. Glancing up at your best friend you knitted your brows together. âWhat?â you asked incredulously. She smirked at you, settling back in the seat beside you. âKang-min. Heâs been all over you today,â she said softly. âDonât tell me you havenât noticed.â You shook your head slowly.
âNot really,â you admitted. You glanced over where Kang-min sat with his twin, playing a card game with Gunho and Yunho. You looked away quickly and turned back to your friend. âIâm sure he doesnât,â you replied finally. Yumi shook her head. âHeâs totally into you,â she whispered as Haneul walked over and sat on the ottoman in front of your chair.
âWhoâs into who?â she whispered, looking between the two of you. Shaking your head, you tried to play it off but Yumi jumped at the chance to get a second opinion. âKang-min,â she said flatly under her breath. âIâm pretty sure heâs into Y/N.â Haneulâs brows rose and she looked at you quickly.
âHe is?â she asked, more to you than to your best friend. You shook your head. âI think Yumi is imagining things,â you replied. Your best friend groaned softly and turned to face you. âYou want me to go ask him?â she asked and you slapped her leg. âNo,â you hissed. âI donât want you to ask your cousin if heâs into me. Thatâs so weird!â you hissed.
Yumi shrugged and looked at Haneul. âI donât think itâs that weird but okay,â she replied.
After warming up for a bit, the group decided to head back out again. You pulled your gear back on, slipping into your feet into your boots. As you were lacing them up, Yunho knelt down by your feet. âMake this a little tighter,â he murmured, undoing your work and redoing the laces. âYou want it to be completely tight and snug. Otherwise you could twist your ankle, get blisters, or even break your ankleâ he explained.
âTh-thanks,â you murmured as he looked up at you with a smile. âNo problem,â he said, getting up and heading outside. You stood up, following him with Jang-min and Kang-min behind you. You decided to ride up with the twins while Yumi and Haneul rode up behind you with Haneulâs mother.
At the top, you waited for Jang-min to go first before following him. You wanted to ease back into it so you went a little slower. Kang-min flew past you laughing as he made a beeline for his brother, making you chuckle as you finally reached the bottom.Â
You headed back up, this time letting both Kang-min and Jang-min go first before you started down the hill with Yunho waiting at the top. You decided to go down the big slope like before and were gaining momentum when your eyes caught sight of something sticking out of the snow. Before you could evade, your board struck whatever it was and you went tumbling down with a yelp.
âY/N!â you heard Kang-min yell. Your ankle was throbbing as you tried to roll over. âY/N!â said a panicked voice. âAre you hurt?â You groaned in pain as they grabbed your arm and pulled you up into a sitting position. âMy ankle,â you groaned, the pain shooting up your leg from your ankle.
You felt someone fumbling with your helmet before pulling it off. You looked up, squinting in the bright light at Yunho as he set your helmet aside and looked you over. âYou didnât hit your head did you?â he asked. You shook your head. His hands moved down to unclasp your boots from the snowboard.
âWhere does it hurt?â he asked as Seomi came to a stop nearby. âIs she alright?â she asked. Yunho waved her to go on. âI got this, babe!â he called as he looked up at you. âWhich ankle hurts?â You pointed to your right foot. Yunho was quick, calling for Kang-min and Jang-min to get your gear on their second pass down before unlatching his own snowboard.
âIâm gonna carry you down to the lodge,â he announced. âCome on.â
He knelt down, back facing you so you could climb on. You were hesitant but in the end, you leaned against his back, allowing him to pick you up and carry you on his back down the mountain. You heard Yumi call your name from the base of the ski slope and looked over.
âWhat happened?â she called as she made her way over. âShe took a tumble,â Yunho called back. âIâm taking her inside.â Your cheeks burned as Yunho carried you into the lodge. You were carried inside and taken to the side where Yunho gently set you down and guided you to sit on one of the stools against the side wall. You did as he instructed, watching as he unlaced and carefully pulled your boot off.
Yumi had removed her gear and was moving to sit beside you as Yunho pulled your sock off. âDonât you think a medic should look at her?â Kang-min asked, peering over his cousinâs shoulder at your ankle. âWhat do you think I went to school for?â Yunho huffed as he carefully rolled your ankle.
Seomi was standing nearby, arms crossed over her chest. She didnât look happy.
âWithout x-rays,â Yunho started as you winced. âI canât say for certain but it seems to be sprained,â he said softly. He rolled your ankle in the opposite direction and you let out a whimper. âSorry,â he said softly. âBut itâs definitely sprained at the very least.
You watched as he pressed against the joint gingerly. âI donât feel any popping,â he murmured. âCan you move it yourself?â he asked, smiling slightly when you were able to roll your ankle yourself. âItâs definitely not broken,â he finally said. âWeâre gonna need to stabilize it,â he added.Â
Jang-min hurried off to find an employee and ask for the first-aid kit. They returned and Yunho looked through it. âThereâs nothing in here to stabilize it,â he murmured as he sifted through the contents. âDoes it need to be stabilized?â Yumi asked as her brother looked around. He nodded.
âIt really should be so she doesnât hurt it any further,â he answered. âWill this work?â you heard Yumiâs mother ask and looked up as she pulled out a wooden stick from her purse. âItâs a back scratcher,â she explained. Yunho smiled up at his mother. âThis is perfect,â he said. âThanks, mom.â
You watched as Yunho worked, using the scratcher to stabilize your ankle, wrapping the joint with as much gauze as he could before taping it off and covering the whole thing with your sock. âShe should probably go back to the lodge,â he added as he cleaned up his mess. âI can take her back,â he offered, looking up at Yumi who shook her head. âIâll do it,â she replied.
âYou should stay,â you interjected. âI donât want you to miss out because of me,â you replied softly. Yumi waved her hand. âNonsense,â she replied. âI donât care. Youâre my best friend. Iâd be a horrible friend if I stayed while you went back to the lodge alone. Besides, Iâm done skiing anyway,â she added.
Yumi turned to her mother who offered to drive back anyone who was done for the day. Haneul agreed to finish for the day as did her mother. The twins, Gunho, Seomi, and Yunho agreed to stay and Yunho would drive back when they were done.
Yunho helped you out to the van and to get in with Yumiâs help. âDonât put any pressure on it until I can properly wrap it. Make sure to ice it for twenty minutes. Then put heat on it for twenty. Back and forth with the temperatures,â he instructed before closing the door and backing up to watch the van reverse.
You watched him until the van turned and he disappeared from your view. âAre you feeling okay?â Yumiâs voice asked softly from beside you. You turned to look at her and nodded. âYeah,â you admitted. âIt doesnât hurt that much now.â
The ride back was silent as you stared out the window of the van, watching the scenery change and pass by. It felt like no time at all had passed when you were pulling up to the lodge. Yumi and Haneul very carefully helped you out of the van, helping you up the steps into the lodge and Yumi made sure you got upstairs to your shared room. Yumi took a shower first, cleaning off before coming out.
âThe others are back so you might want to take your shower now before they do and all the hot water is gone,â she announced. You got up and limped over to the door with your toiletry bag, towels, and clean clothes. As you limped towards the bathroom door, the bedroom to Yunho and Seomiâs room opened and Seomi exited, glaring at you as she exited and walked down the hall with an annoyed huff, entering the bathroom and slamming the door.
You let out a sigh and started to turn back to the bedroom when Yunho appeared. âOh, Seomi just went in there,â he said, noticing your toiletry bag and towels. You nodded. âI know,â you replied. âShe rushed past me to get there,â you admitted. Yunho frowned at your words. âIâm sorry,â he said softly. âYou can go before me,â he offered. âThanks,â you murmured and started to make your way back.
âHowâs your ankle?â he asked, looking down. âSâokay,â you shrugged. âThe gauze seems to be coming loose.â Yunho nodded silently, looking back up. âAfter your shower, Iâll wrap it again. We stopped on the way back to get some stuff from a pharmacy,â he explained. âThanks,â you mumbled and limped back to your shared room with Yumi who frowned as you entered the room.
âI thought you were going to shower,â she said as you hobbled over to your bed and collapsed onto it. âSeomi beat me to it,â you muttered, rolling onto your side, facing the wall. âThat bitch,â you heard your best friend grumble and rolled back to look at her. âI thought you liked her,â you said.
Yumi shrugged. âI did but when I saw the way she glared at you when Yunho was carrying you into the lodge, it just rubbed me the wrong way. And when I was walking back here, I could hear them arguing. It wasnât very loud but I could still hear it,â she explained.
âThen you were in the hall, holding your bathroom stuff and she just walks in there cause sheâs not slowed down by an injury. That makes her a bitch.â You snorted and rolled back to face the wall, closing your eyes. Maybe you would just wait until everyone else had gone so you wouldnât be in the way.
You werenât sure how much time passed before Yumi was gently shaking you awake. âSeomi is done in the shower,â she said softly. âAnd I think theyâre fighting again so hurry up and get to the bathroom before someone else does.â
You scrambled to get up and hurried out of the room as fast as your ankle would let you, passing the door to Yunho and Seomiâs room which was ajar and like Yumi had said, you could hear them bickering back and forth. Seomi definitely sounded angry but Yunho was surprisingly calm.
You dared not stay and eavesdrop and instead hobbled down to the bathroom. You closed the door behind you and turned the lock before moving to start the shower and undress, unwrapping your ankle and setting the gauze and backscratcher aside before stepping into the scalding water with a sigh.
You went about your business, washing off the events of the day and allowing the hot water to soothe any aches and tense muscles in your body. After you were finished washing and you had rinsed the last of the conditioner from your hair, you stepped out of the shower, wrapped yourself in a towel and started to dry off.
You sat on the toilet, lid down, so you could dry off without putting unnecessary pressure on your swollen ankle. Once your body was dry, you pulled on your clean clothes, snatching up the dirty ones and carefully started to hobble back to your room.
Once inside, you tossed your dirty clothes in the hamper in the room and sat on the bed, starting to dry your hair with the extra towel. Yumi had disappeared, no doubt downstairs. You wondered if you should make the journey downstairs for dinner but one look at your ankle told you that was a bad idea.
Your thoughts were interrupted by a soft knocking at the door. You turned as the door cracked open and Yunho peered in. âIs it okay to come in?â he asked and you nodded, watching as he pushed the door open further and came in, holding in his hand an ankle brace.
âI got this at the pharmacy,â he said as he moved to kneel in front of you. âYou already got your socks on, good,â he noted as he carefully took your foot and inspected it. âDoes it still hurt?â he asked, looking up at you. Shaking your head you looked down at his hands.
âJust when you put weight on it?â he asked. You nodded wordlessly. âGood,â he noted with a nod. âMeans itâs not as severe as I initially thought.â You said nothing as he put the brace around your ankle, making sure to strap it tightly. âThere,â he said softly. âYou should have no problems walking,â he added as he looked up at you. âBut just be careful. You should rest before dinner,â he continued.
You nodded silently as he got up and moved towards the door. âAnd sorry again about Seomi,â he added quietly. âSometimes sheâs⌠a little tough,â he said, hesitating for a moment. âGet some rest,â he repeated. âSee you at dinner.â
You watched as he exited, pulling the door shut behind him.
You were left alone for only a moment when the door opened and Yumi entered, Haneul and Kang-min on her heels. âAre you okay?â Kang-min asked, sitting beside you on your bed. You nodded. âIâm fine,â you replied. âItâs just a little sore at this point.â
The four of you froze as you heard a slam next door followed by muffled shouting. Haneul moved to close the door, drowning out some of the noise. âI donât think theyâre gonna last,â Haneul murmured, moving to sit on Yumiâs bed. âAnd good riddance if they donât,â Yumi muttered, drawing Haneul and Kang-minâs attention.
âI thought you liked her,â Haneul whispered, looking shocked. âI did until she cut Y/N in line for the shower,â Yumi grumbled. âSheâs also weirdly overly possessive of Yunho. She got mad at Y/N because Yunho was carrying her after she got hurt,â Yumi explained. âLike, what did she want her to do? Itâs not like Y/N could walk.â Their words fell to the back of your mind as you zoned out.
You were feeling tired from the events of the day and yawned. âAre you tired?â Haneul asked, noticing. âDo you want to nap?â Kang-min added. You nodded. âYeah, sorry guys. Iâm just really worn out.â Kang-min immediately got up as did Haneul and Yumi. âWeâll go talk outside. You get some rest. Iâll wake you up when dinner is ready,â she said softly as the other opened the door and exited.
You thanked Yumi and laid back down as she shut the light off and closed the door with a soft click. Not long after, you were out like the light.
Yunho closed the door and started for the stairs. He was getting sick of this. He was tired of the fighting and the arguments. And over what? Seomi wouldnât even tell him why she was upset, only that she was and that it was his fault. How could he apologize for something if he didnât even know what he did?
At first, he gave in and apologized the other night after the drinking game just to keep the peace but this time around, he wasnât going to apologize until she told him why he was apologizing. He reached the bottom of the stairs and noticed Yumi, Haneul, the twins, and Gunho sitting outside around the firepit.
He walked over, pulling open the door and stepped out. Whatever conversation they were having died the moment he stepped outside. âI think Iâm gonna help mom with dinner,â Haneul muttered, getting up and walking past Yunho and back inside. The twins exchanged looks and got up. âI think dad said something about needing help with firewood,â Kang-min said to Jang-min who nodded.
They disappeared inside the house and Yunho was left with his siblings sitting quietly as they avoided eye contact with him. Yunho looked between them before moving to sit down. He glanced back at the door first before speaking. âAlright,â he started.
âWhatâs going on?â he asked. âWhy are they avoiding me?â
Yumi glanced at Gunho who looked back at her and shrugged. Yumi narrowed her eyes at her younger brother before sighing. âItâs because of your girlfriend,â she replied. âBecause of Seomi?â Yunho asked. âWhat? Why?â Yumi sighed again, looking towards Gunho for help but the younger merely shrugged again. âYouâre no help,â she snapped.
âSeomi is kind ofâŚâ Yumi trailed off. âA bitch,â Gunho mumbled, earning a smack from Yumi. âSheâs kind of a lot to handle. Sheâs been pretty nasty to Y/N for no reason,â Yumi clarified. Yunho looked between his siblings. âWhat are you talking about?â he asked. Yumi sighed heavily.
âFirst time I noticed it was during the drinking game. I think when you chose Y/N as your mate, Seomi got mad which I donât know why. If you had picked her, she was gonna have to drink every time you did,â Gunho mumbled, picking at his sleeve. Yunho snorted.
âThatâs exactly why I didnât pick her. I didnât want her to have to drink every time I did.â Yumi nodded, shifting in her seat. âAnd we get that. Hell, even Y/N gets that but Seomi must have thought you were picking Y/N because you like her or something which is, again, dumb. Y/N is my best friend and youâre my brother. If it hasnât happened already, itâs probably never going to happen,â Yumi said softly.
Yunho forced a smile.Â
Itâs not like he hadnât thought about it before; being with you. There was something different about you. Something Yumiâs other friends lacked. You were funny, intelligent, confident, and you didnât really seem to take shit from anyone. You had your head on your shoulders which was more than Yunho could have said for some of Yumiâs other friends at the time.
Yunho was also well aware of the fact that he was your first crush, possibly even your first love, though he never actually heard it from you directly. He had only heard it second hand from a friend of his who claims to have somehow overheard you telling someone else. Someone who wasnât Yumi.
When he initially heard it, he wasnât sure what to make of it. You had never made it obvious that you liked him so he thought maybe his friend was pranking him. After all, he was in high school and you were still in middle school at the time, but he would be lying if it didnât cross his mind again when you finally started high school. Or when you came back from your first year of college. He never wanted to cross that line, in case you had moved on and gotten over your crush.
If it was even true to begin with.
Despite whether or not your feelings for him were real, his for you were definitely real. So he forced himself to move on, forced himself to date people who werenât you and hoped that by doing so, he might actually get over the silly feelings that lingered in the back of his mind. Only it didnât actually work.Â
When he brought his first college girlfriend home for winter break, he was certain heâd managed to move on but when he saw you coming out of Yumiâs room, all grown up yourself, his confidence that heâd finally managed to move on soared out the window.
He was back to square one.
It was after this that he stopped coming home during breaks as often and focused more on spending time with his friends. He and his girlfriend at the time had broken up after that trip, and it wasnât until Yunho met Seomi that things seemed to start getting easier.
Whether that was because you werenât around or because of Seomi herself, he couldnât say for sure.
His relationship was far from perfect but he really did like Seomi. He thought he might even love her but when he saw you show up at the airport for the trip, he knew he was screwed. He couldnât tell if your indifference towards him was because youâd truly moved on or if it was you trying to avoid him.
He just didnât know. And how could he when the two of you barely spoke this trip. You had seemed uninterested in him, in what heâd become and done with his life. He thought if you were really past it, then maybe he could actually move on with Seomi but his resolve was further put to the test when you injured yourself. He was down the slope before you even fully came to a stop.
He had been mid conversation with Seomi one second and the next he was rushing down the slope to get to you. To make sure you were okay. He could chalk it up to being a concerned physician but he couldnât lie to himself anymore. It was clear from the moment you showed up at the airport that he wasnât truly over you and he might never be.
âShe also got too excited when she thought Y/N had fucked up on the Christmas movies and then again when you took Y/Nâs side,â Gunho continued, pulling Yunho out of his thoughts in time to see Yumi nodding. Yunho laughed this time, surprising both his siblings.Â
âBecause Y/N was right. Die Hard is a Christmas movie. Just because itâs not some cheesy Hallmark movie doesnât mean it doesnât count,â he explained.
âAnd then again today,â Gunho continued, ignoring his brother. âWhen Y/N got hurt and you carried her into the lodge, Seomi looked pissed,â he added, looking at Yumi who nodded again. âI saw that firsthand. Itâs stupid. Itâs not like Y/N could walk. She just twisted her ankle. She was injured.â
Yunho shook his head. âWhy would she be mad at that?â Yunho asked. âIâm a physician. I help injured people at work all the time!â Yumi and Gunho shrugged simultaneously. âDoes she ever get really upset when youâre around other women who arenât family?â Yumi asked.
Yunho wracked his brain. âNow that you mention itâŚâ he trailed off, noticing the way Yumi and Gunho exchanged glances. âAnd sheâs been upset most of this trip because youâve been around a girl who isnât family. Picking her in a drinking game, helping her when she got injured, picking her side when she was right about something,â Gunho listed. âSheâs clearly jealous of Y/N,â he added.
âWhy would she need to be jealous?â Yunho asked, looking at his younger brother. âSheâs not jealous,â Yumi said, shaking her head. âSheâs insecure. She thinks that Y/N could pull you and she feels threatened by her.â Yunho stared incredulously at his sister.
âSeomi is my girlfriend. Not Y/N,â he retorted. âShe has no reason to be insecure. Iâm with her.â Yumi shrugged. âIn her mind, that doesnât matter,â Yumi replied. âIn her mind, youâre going to leave her for someone better. Someone like Y/N.â
Yunhoâs heart skipped a beat but he played it off with a scoff, leaning back in his seat, crossing his arms over his chest. âThatâs just dumb,â he muttered. âHas Seomi said anything?â Yumi asked, Gunho turning to look at his older brother with mild interest. Yunho shook his head. âNo,â he answered. âSheâs upset, I know that, but when I ask why, she refuses to tell me. She just wants me to apologize. I did the first time, but Iâm not apologizing again until she tells me why.â
Yunho watched Yumi shake her head. âSheâs expecting you to read her mind which is never going to happen. SheâŚâ Yumi trailed off, averting her eyes to the firepit. âShe what?â Yunho asked. Yumi looked back up. âShe sounds exhausting and to be honest, I think you deserve better. You deserve someone who isnât going to treat you like this.â
Yunhoâs brow rose at Yumiâs admission. He looked to Gunho who said nothing, instead staring blankly into the fire. âYou think Seomi and I should break up?â Yunho asked. Yumi nodded. âAs your sister, yes. I think you two arenât good for one another. But in the end, what I think doesnât matter. What matters is what you think. Itâs your relationship after all,â she replied.
Yunho watched as Yumi got up and walked around the firepit towards the door. âYou have to think about what makes you happy though, Yunho. Not what makes other people happy.â
Without another word, Yumi opened the door and entered the house, leaving Yunho and Gunho by the fire. Yunho turned to the younger who sighed and got to his feet as well. âIâm getting a little chilly out here,â he announced. âSee you inside,â he added walking past Yunho, leaving the eldest sitting there, stunned into silence.
Was this really how his family perceived his relationship? Was this how you perceived his relationship? Did everyone think he was some sort of idiot, dating Seomi without realizing the kind of person she was? Yunho sat for a moment longer outside before getting up and heading inside.
He and Seomi had some talking to do.
You woke up to total darkness, groaning softly as you rolled over.
âMorning sunshine~!â you heard your best friend say in an amused tone. You looked over to her side of the room to see she was sitting up in bed, a small light clipped to her book. âWhat time is it?â you grumbled, voice cracking. âLike eight,â Yumi answered, checking her watch for verification. âDid I miss dinner?â you asked looking back at her. She nodded, turning on her bedside lamp, casting a dim yellow light around the room.
âBut I brought you food~!â Yumi said in a sing-song voice, getting up as she set her book aside. On your bedside table was a plate covered with another plate. âWe just finished so it should still be kinda warm,â Yumi said as she got up and walked over. âI wasnât sure what you wanted so I brought a bit of everything.â
You looked up at your best friend with sparkling eyes. âThank you,â you whispered as she uncovered the plate and handed it to you. âIt looks so good,â you said, holding back the urge to groan. Yumi snickered at your reaction, picking up the utensils and handing them to you.
âJust eat, you weirdo,â she mumbled, patting the top of your head and moving back to grab her book. Instead of getting back in her bed, she moved over to climb into yours, snuggling up next to you as you ate. âYou want me to read to you?â she asked, looking up. You nodded as you took a bite.
You ate in silence as Yumi read aloud from her book.
As you were finishing your food, you could hear hushed voices on the other side of the wall. They grew in intensity and you could tell it was Yunho and Seomi. You glanced at your best friend who had stopped reading to listen, her eyes meeting yours.
âWonder what theyâre fighting about,â you murmured, turning back to your food. âProbably because Yunho offered to bring you dinner earlier,â Yumi muttered nonchalantly. You turned to look at her. âWhat?â you asked. Yumi looked up at you. âYeah. You were sleeping so I didnât wake you and then the twins asked where you were so I said you were asleep and I didnât want to bother you âcause of your ankle. So Yunho offered to bring your food to you, like Iâm not sharing a room with you,â she said, rolling her eyes.
âSeomiâs been mad at him for other things too but I think this just kind of set her off.â
As soon as Yumi said that, you both jumped as you heard a door slam shut and someone stomping down the stairs. You looked at Yumi who looked back just as wide-eyed. âWhat was that?â you wondered out loud. Yumi shrugged and got up as the door to Yunho and Seomiâs room opened and more footsteps were heard running down the stairs before the front door opened.
Yumi rushed over to the window to see what the commotion was. âItâs Seomi and Yunho!â she whisper-shouted at you. âWhat are they doing?â you asked. âI think theyâre yelling,â she replied. âStandby.â She set her book aside and carefully unlocked and opened the window a crack.
The distant voices of Yunho and Seomi could be heard arguing but you couldnât discern what they were saying. âYouâre being unreasonable,â Yumi whispered to you. âThat was Yunho.â
âIâm not being unreasonable. Youâre the one thatâs in love with someone else,â Yumi continued to whisper the entire conversation to you. âI wonder who sheâs talking about.â
âIâm not in love with her! How many times do I have to say it?â
âItâs written all over your face. Youâre bad at hiding it. Youâve probably been cheating on me with her--â
Yumi frowned. âOh hell no,â she hissed, pushing the window open some more. âYumi!â you hissed, throwing a pillow towards her but falling short. âHey!â Yumi yelled out the window. âPeople are trying to sleep here! Take your loverâs quarrel somewhere else!â Yumi shouted.
âStay out of this, Yumi!â you heard Yunhoâs voice shout.
âIâm trying to sleep!â another voice shouted out the window and you recognized it as Gunho.
âStop shouting! People are sleeping!â yet another voice shouted.
âTheyâre getting in the car,â Yumi whispered to you, watching the van no doubt drive off into the forest before she turned to look at you, shutting the window. âI wonder where theyâre going,â Yumi continued as she moved back to your bed. âWho knows,â you muttered, resuming picking at your food. Yumi noticed and sat up. âAre you done eating?â she asked softly. You nodded and thanked her as she took the plate.
âWhat are friends for if not to bring you food and take the plate away when your leg is all gimpy?â she asked, chuckling as you cursed at her. Yumi returned and grabbed her book, moving back to her bed. âIâll let you go back to sleep,â she said as she climbed back into bed. âThanks, Yumi,â you said again and she smiled up at you. âAny time,â she replied, turning the light off and plunging the room back into darkness.
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The next morning, you woke to a light knocking on your door. Yumi was still in bed so you werenât sure who it could be. The door cracked open and Haneul peered in, smiling at you. âBreakfast is ready,â she announced. âDo you want to come down or if your ankle still hurts, I could bring something up?â
You shook your head. âIâll come down,â you replied, pulling back the covers as you sat up. âThank you, Haneul,â you added. She shut the door and you grabbed a pillow, flinging it at Yumi who whined in protest. âBreakfast is ready, dork,â you called, pushing yourself up.
Your ankle wasnât as painful today but you still couldnât put all your weight on it.
You pulled on a pair of sweats and walked over to Yumiâs bed, grabbing your pillow and hitting her twice with it. âCome on,â you mumbled. âIf Iâm up, you need to be,â you said but she refused. âGet up or Iâll eat all the bacon,â you grumbled and she sat up quickly. âDonât you dare,â she growled.
Once Yumi was dressed, you headed downstairs. Yumi waited while you took it easy, one step at a time. The rest of the family was already sitting around the table, save for Yunho. You wondered where he was and hoped he was okay.
Luckily, you didnât have to wonder for long because Yumi asked for you.
âWhereâs Yunho?â
âHeâs in his room,â you heard Mrs. Jeong answer. âHe had a hard time last night,â she added. You glanced over at your best friend who stared blankly at her mother. âSo he made it back?â Yumi asked, drawing Mrs. Jeongâs attention. âHe did,â she replied plainly.
âAlone?â
âYumi,â Mr. Jeong said suddenly. âKnock it off. Your brother doesnât need this right now.â
âItâs fine,â another voice said and everyone looked up to see Yunho had joined the group and was moving to sit between Gunho and his father. You looked away, busying yourself with your breakfast. It was a simple congee but you added a fried egg and some bacon to yours.
âSeomi left,â Yunho continued, addressing not only his sister but the entire table. âWe broke up,â he added. âIâm sorry dear,â Mrs. Jeong said softly. Yunho forced a smile. âWhy?â Jun-seo asked, looking up from his game. âIt wasnât working out anymore,â Yunho answered.
You glanced up in time to see his gaze pass over you and linger before he looked away. âWell, maybe some time in town will help,â Mr. Jeong said as he continued to eat. âWeâre all going,â he added. âDad,â Yumi said suddenly. âY/N canât walk. She twisted her ankle yesterday, remember?â
Mrs. Jeong nodded. âOh, thatâs right,â she said softly, looking at her husband. âI can stay here,â you said quickly. âYou all go. Donât stay back on my account. Iâll just stay in our room or something.â
Mrs. Jeong looked worriedly from you to your best friend. âAlone?â she asked. Yumi shook her head, opening her mouth to speak but Yunho beat her to it.
âIâll stay behind,â he announced. âIâm not really feeling a trip to town. Iâd actually rather stay here.â Yunho looked down at his plate while his parents exchanged glances. âAre you sure?â his mother asked. Yunho nodded, forcing another smile. âOf course,â he replied. âAnd who better to stay here with her than a physician?â Haneulâs father chimed in.
It was settled and after breakfast, you leaned against one of the wooden posts by the front door as the rest of the family headed out, Yumi stopping to make sure you were sure you wanted to be alone with Yunho. You nodded and told her to go have fun. Once they all piled into the vans and drove off, Yunho shut the door and turned to you. âSo,â he said softly. âWhat do you want to do?â he asked.
You shrugged. âIâm not sure,â you replied. âBut I think I want to rest upstairs.â Yunho nodded wordlessly, moving over to where you stood. âYou want me to carry you or you want me to just spot you as you climb the stairs?â he asked. Your cheeks burned and you looked away from his face.
âIâll climb the stairs,â you murmured and moved to the base. Yunho followed, making sure you got to the top safely. Once you were back in your room, he waited by the door. âIf you need to go downstairs for anything,â he said, hand on the doorknob. âJust call out. Iâll get you whatever you need,â he added before leaving.
You tossed and turned in your bed, trying to will yourself to go back to sleep but you struggled. As you lay there, you could hear the wind outside pick up, howling and rattling the windows in their frames. You carefully climbed out of bed and limped over to the window, pulling back the curtain to peer out and find that snow was blowing around. âA snow storm?â you wondered silently.
You headed back to your bed, grabbing your earbuds from your bag and lay back down, plugging your ears and starting some music. Closing your eyes, you let the music lull you back to sleep, thankful the music was able to drown out the whipping wind.
When you woke up again, it was darker. You checked the time and saw that it was almost 5 pm. It got dark a lot faster than it did back home and you werenât used to it yet. You sat up, reaching up to rub your eyes before swinging your legs over the side of the bed and getting up carefully.
You limped over to the door, pulling it open to peer out into the hall. âYunho?â you called out. You were met with silence and decided not to bother him. You decided you could make it down the steps. Youâd just have to be careful. You exited the room and made your way down to the main floor, taking it one step at a time and hobbled into the kitchen to get some water.
As you were opening the cabinet, you heard the back door open and turned to find Yunho carrying an armful of firewood. âYouâre up!â he said as he moved to set the firewood by the fireplace and hurried over. âHere, let me,â he said softly as he stopped behind you, easily reaching the glasses and picking one out for you. âWhy didnât you call me for help?â he asked with a chuckle.
You moved to get some water from the fridge. âI called out but you were outside so I figured Iâd just be careful coming down the stairs,â you explained. Yunho removed his coat and moved to hang it up along with his scarf and hat. âAre you sure youâre okay?â Yunho asked as he moved back to where you stood.
You took a sip of water and nodded, setting the glass on the counter. Yunho stared at you, eyes searching your face. âIs it still snowing?â you asked suddenly. Yunho nodded wordlessly. âYeah,â he finally said. âMy dad called,â he added. âSaid if the snow doesnât stop soon, they might have to stay in town.â Your heart jumped at the thought of having the entire place alone with Yunho.
âSo weâll be here,â you said plainly. Yunho nodded, looking at you but not quite seeing you. âAlone,â you added to which he continued to nod. Silence fell over the two of you but it wasnât awkward. It was full of tension though. After a few moments, you finally broke the quiet.
âSorry about Seomi,â you whispered. Yunhoâs snapped up to meet yours. âWhat?â he asked softly. You cleared your throat before speaking again. âIâm sorry about Seomi.â Once you clarified what you said, Yunhoâs expression softened. âItâs alright,â he replied. âIt was never going to work out anyway,â he added.
âWhy do you say that?â you asked curiously. Yunho smiled more to himself than to you.
âI think deep down, she was just a replacement for something,â he explained. âOr rather for someone.â
You watched him carefully as he no doubt was thinking to himself. âWhat do you mean?â Yunho looked up at you, lips parted but before he could say anything, your phone rang in your pocket. You sighed, pulling the device out. The screen read Yumiâs name and you held up a finger. âHold that thought.â
You swiped the answer button and held the phone to your ear. âHello?â you asked.
âY/N, itâs Yumi,â you heard your best friend say. âYeah, whatâs up?â you asked, glancing up at Yunho who was leaning against the counter across from you, a small distance between you as he watched you carefully. âThe locals said the storm isnât stopping any time soon,â Yumi started.
âWeâre gonna have to stay in the town tonight,â she continued. Your heart started to hammer in your chest. You were going to be all alone tonight. Alone with him. With Yunho. You glanced up at him, his expression growing more and more concerned. âOkay,â you managed to squeak out.
âBe safe. And hopefully weâll see you in the morning,â you added. âOh,â Yumi said suddenly. âDad said to tell Yunho to bring in more firewood in case the power goes out up there. The stoves are gas so you should be fine on that.â
You nodded though your best friend couldnât see you. âGot it,â you answered. âBe safe,â you repeated. Yumi repeated the sentiment and hung up and you set your phone down on the counter. âThat was Yumi,â you started to explain. âShe said the storm isnât going to let up until tomorrow,â you continued.
Yunho nodded, waiting for you to go on. âShe said theyâre staying in town so weâre on our own tonight.â Yunho seemed to relax visibly. âAnd she said your dad said to bring more firewood in the house, just in case the power goes out.â Yunho nodded towards the fireplace. âI brought in three armfuls,â he explained. âThat should be enough,â he added.
You nodded slowly as the conversation with Yumi started to fade away. âSo,â you said softly. âWhat were you going to say before Yumi called?â You swore you saw a mild panic flash over Yunhoâs face before he laughed it off. âOh that? Itâs nothing,â he murmured. âJust me rambling.â
âForget I said anything.â
You reached forward, grabbing his wrist. âNo,â you replied. He turned to look at you. âNo?â he asked. You shook your head. âNo, Iâm not going to forget it. So just tell me.â Yunho hesitated before swallowing thickly. âDeep down, I think she was a replacement for someone,â he finally said softly.
âFor who?â you asked, looking up at his eyes staring back at yours. âFor you,â you imagined him saying. Yunho hesitated a moment longer before speaking. âFor someone I canât have,â he finally said, your heart sinking into your stomach. You let go of him quickly and pulled back. âOh,â you said shortly.
âI see,â you added, turning away from him. âI thoughtâŚâ you trailed off. âDonât,â you told yourself. âDonât do that. Donât tell him that.â It was Yunhoâs turn to speak. âYou thought what?â he asked.
âNothing,â you said quickly. Much too quickly. You hoped that like your childhood crush on him, he wouldnât notice but you should have known better. Yunho noticed almost everything about you, even if you didnât know it.
âTell me,â he said softly. His voice was somewhat closer as he spoke. âWhat did you think?â
You shook your head. âIt doesnât matter,â you said, choking back a sob that threatened to escape.
âIt does to me.â
The dam holding back your tears broke and you let out the smallest whimper, ducking your head. âY/N?â Yunho whispered. You felt his hand on your arm as he turned you slowly. âTalk to me,â he said as you fought to not face him. âItâs n-nothing!â you stammered.
Before you could move away, Yunho turned you to face him, taking your face in his hands and making you look up, meeting his gaze. âWhy are you crying?â he asked, thumbs brushing your tears away. âItâs stupid,â you sobbed. âDonât ask me.â
Yunho leaned closer, pressing his lips against your forehead.
The action was so intimate and unexpected that it caused your brain to short circuit. âIf itâs upsetting you, itâs not stupid,â Yunho whispered, lips brushing against your skin. âSo, tell me.â You shook your head rather than answer.
âIs it because you thought I was talking about you?â he asked.
You froze again. âDid he know this whole time?â
You slowly raised your eyes to meet his brown ones. âIs that it?â he asked softly.
Without a word, you nodded, maintaining eye contact. Yunho hummed, caressing your cheek slowly.
âYou idiot,â he said softly with a smile. âI was talking about you.â Your eyes widened. âYou were?â you squeaked. Yunho nodded. âOf course I was. I thought I had been obvious before but Iâve been in love with you for a long time, Y/N,â he murmured.
âY-you have?!â you squeaked again. Yunho nodded. âI tried to move on, date other people but none of them lasted because they werenât you. God, this whole time, I wanted you. I didnât want anyone else but I thought youâd never go for it. Yumi is your best friend and sheâs my sister. Dating your best friendâs brother? Sheâd never allow that. Sheâd hate me forever if I ever hurt you. So I stayed away. I tried to forget about the way I felt about you but each time when I thought Iâd made progress I would come home and see you and everything would fall back to square one.â
You stared up at him as he rambled.Â
âI tried so hard not to love you. To let you go and move on. I tried so fucking hard,â he said, his voice breaking as he held back tears. âBut I just canât do it anymore. I canât go on pretending I donât want this,â he said, caressing your cheeks with his thumbs again. âPretending that I donât want you,â he added.
âPretending like Iâm not completely in love with you.â
Your hands reached up to grab his shirt, pulling him down and crashing your lips against his, catching him off guard. His brief pause passed and he melted into the kiss, one hand moving to the small of your back and pulling you against him as he kissed you deeper.
You let out a quiet moan as his lips parted yours, his tongue slipping into your mouth and finding yours. Your fingers loosened their grip on his shirt as he pressed further against you. Without a word, he scooped you up, setting you on the counter before his lips were back on yours, hands wandering as he slotted himself between your thighs.
You moaned as his lips moved down the side of your neck, hands gripping your waist tightly. âGod, you sound so pretty,â he murmured against your ear. âIâve thought about what you sound like,â he continued. âWondered what you taste like, what you feel like.â
You felt a chill run up your spine. âIâve wanted you so bad,â Yunho continued, lips brushing against your pulse point. âSo many times, I wanted to take you to my room when you were spending the night and drown in you. Pin you to the bed and make you beg for release,â he continued, groaning when you whimpered in his ear.
âWhatâs stopping you now?â you whispered. Yunho groaned, pulling back to take your face in his hands firmly. âTell me you want this,â he said urgently. âTell me you want me. I need to hear you say it.â You looked up at him, searching his face before finally answering him. âI want you,â you managed to say in a shaky voice.
Yunho let out a growl, pulling you into another kiss, parting your lips, his tongue meeting yours in a frantic dance for dominance. You started to pull at Yunhoâs shirt, pulling it out of the way so you could fumble with the ties of his pants. âWait, wait,â Yunho mumbled, grabbing your hands and halting your movement. You looked up to meet his gaze.
âWhat?â you asked, worried you might have done something wrong. He shook his head. âNot here,â he mumbled. âYou deserve better than to be fucked in the kitchen like some cheesy porno,â he continued. You opened your mouth to protest but Yunho was gone before you could stop him.
He disappeared up the steps leaving you alone in the kitchen. You heard him rushing around on the floor above, his footsteps echoing through the floor before he started to descend the steps. You turned to look over your shoulder as he came into view, carrying an armful of blankets and pillows.
âWhat the--â you trailed off as he tossed the linens down in front of the fireplace before moving around behind the sofa. You watched as he pulled the sofa back, the wooden legs making a slight screech as they dragged against the wooden floor.
Next to move was the coffee table before Yunho started fumbling with the blankets and pillows. You started to move over to where he was kneeling to get a better look. As he came full into view, you could see he had created a sort of bed on the floor in front of the fireplace. You stared incredulously at him as he worked quickly before he looked up and met your gaze.
âHey,â he pouted. âBack in the kitchen,â he ordered. You chuckled as you hobbled back over to wait for him. Once he was satisfied that the nest was comfortable enough, he was back by your side in the kitchen, guiding you back onto the counter. âWhere were we?â he murmured, leaning in.
âBefore you so rudely ran away?â you whispered as his lips brushed against yours. âHey,â he whined. âI had to improvise. I didnât want to try to force you to climb the stairs and besides,â he added, pulling back to look at you. âAnd if the power goes out in the middle, at least weâll still have the fire for warmth and light,â he continued. Your hands moved up his chest to rest on his shoulders.
âHmm,â you hummed. âWeâll have more than the fire for warmth,â you retorted. Yunho leaned in closer. âOnly if you want to,â he answered. âI donât want to force you to do anything you donât-â you cut him off, pulling him into a kiss, smirking internally as he groaned against your lips.
And just like that, the brief pause so he could set the mood in front of the fireplace was forgotten as you felt his hands wander, one moving to the small of your back and pulling you against him as his tongue explored your mouth again. âFuck,â you heard him groan as he pulled back, lips trailing down the side of your neck. âCan I mark you?â he groaned, pulling away to look at you.
You nodded silently, chest heaving. âJust not my neck,â you admitted. âYumi might see,â you added. Yunhoâs fingers toyed with the hem of your tee shirt, eyes searching yours for permission to remove the article. You nodded and allowed him to pull it off you with ease. His eyes scanned your frame, taking in parts of you heâd never seen before, only imagined.
You resisted the urge to cover yourself even if you were wearing a bralette. Yunho said nothing, instead bringing a hand up, hesitating as he looked up at you through his lashes. âMay I?â he asked, waiting for your consent. You nodded wordlessly, wanting to feel his hands all over. You want to feel him everywhere.
âPlease,â you finally croaked out. âPlease touch me.â
Yunhoâs hands were on you in an instant, one cupping over your chest as the other moved to the back of your neck, pulling you into a heated kiss, one that took your breath away as he guided your movements. âCome here, angel,â he murmured, sliding his hands under your ass as he stepped away from the counter, carrying you from the kitchen to the living room.
He carefully set you on the couch before kneeling in front of you. âTell me if anything makes you uncomfortable,â he started, looking up at you, the light from the fire dancing over the both of you. Slowly, you cupped his cheek, almost melting when he leaned into your touch.
âDonât stop,â you simply said. âI want this. I want you,â you reminded him. âIâve always wanted you.â
Yunho gently pulled you from the couch, sliding you under him on your back against the blankets. âGod, I donât even know where to start,â he murmured, his hips slotting between your thighs as his hands held him up. âI want to touch you everywhere, kiss you everywhere.â Your fingers fumbled with the hem of his shirt. âWe have all night,â you reminded him.
âTake your time.â
Yunho did just that, kissing you slowly as one of his hands moved along your side, squeezing your hip and moving down to your thigh, pulling it against his hip and grinding against your core. You could feel the weight of his cock in his pants press against you, almost throbbing with the need to release.
âYunho,â you moaned as he kissed down your neck to your collar. âHmm?â he hummed against your skin. âPlease touch me,â you whined. He chuckled lightly, his breath hot against your skin. âI am touching you, baby,â he replied. Your heart skipped a beat at the nickname.
Hearing it come from him was something youâd always wanted but never expected. He wasnât holding back anymore. âPlease, Yunho, please,â you begged, trying to wiggle your hips but his weight held them down. âShush,â he mumbled, planting soft kisses against your collar. âBe patient, baby.â
You pulled your bottom lip between your teeth as you felt Yunhoâs lips move over your chest, feeling his breath through the thin material of your lacy bralette. âThis is in the way,â he grumbled, pulling back and slipping his fingers under the fabric. âIt needs to come off,â he added.
You allowed him to pull you up to pull the offending article off and toss it aside.
You laid back slowly, cheeks burning under his gaze as he took in even more of your form. It wasnât an entirely new experience for you, being topless but being topless in front of your best friendâs brother who you happen to be in love with was certainly a unique experience.
âGod,â he murmured, tearing his gaze from your exposed skin to look up at your face. âIâve never told you how fucking beautiful you are, have I?â he asked, leaning down to press a kiss against your cheek. âIâve thought about this moment a hundred different ways,â he continued, whispering into your ear.
âAbout what it would be like to have you underneath me like this. To have you laid bare for me,â he continued, kissing back down to your chest. âTo be able to take my time and kiss your body over and over. To taste every inch of you.â You let out a gasp as you felt his tongue against your nipple, taking it into his mouth with a gentle suck. Your fingers combed through his hair as he teased the sensitive nub, his hand moving to cup your breast and knead it softly.
âY-Yunho,â you whimpered as he pulled back, his mouth moving to the other side and repeated the same actions, taking your pert nipple in his mouth and teasing it with his tongue. Each flick had your back arching, quiet moans slipping past your lips and your panties starting to stick to you.
Yunho started to kiss down your stomach, stopping to nip at your hips. You moaned louder as he sank his teeth into your skin. âShit, Yunho,â you gasped as he pulled back and continued kissing down to the waistband of your leggings. âMay I?â he asked again and this time you nodded fervently. âYes,â you answered quickly. âPlease.â
Yunho moved slowly, pulling your leggings down past your hips before sliding them down your thighs and pulling them off completely, leaving you in your panties. Your cheeks burned as he took in the sight before him, his hands moving to your knees to hold your legs apart.
âYunho,â you whined, closing your eyes. âDonât stare,â you continued. You heard him chuckle softly. âThis is the first time Iâm seeing you like this,â he replied. âLet me savor it, baby.â
Your cheeks continued to burn under his gaze as he studied your body. Finally, his hands moved up your thighs, stopping at your hips. âLook at me,â he said softly. You did, eyes snapping open to meet his gaze. âThere you are,â he added, making you whine and try to cover your face with your hands.
âDonât,â Yunho warned, taking your wrists and pulling your hands from your face, leaning over to pin your wrists against the blankets as he hovered over you. âDonât hide from me. Let me see all of you,â he continued, one hand moving down to your cheek before sliding over your neck, marveling at the size difference between the two of you.
âFuck, youâre so tiny,â he murmured, fingers lightly closing around your throat. You let out a whimper and Yunhoâs brows rose up quickly. âOh?â he asked softly, squeezing just a little more, making you choke on your own words. âReally?â he asked, mildly amused. âChoking, huh? I never would have guessed.â
You tried to glare back at him but couldnât hold the seriousness in your gaze as he squeezed gently again, your lips parting as a shameless moan slipped out, making his lips twitch as he fought against a smirk that threatened to spread across his face.
âIâll keep that in mind,â he said, pulling his hand from your neck. âFor later,â he added as he leaned in, pressing his lips against yours. You moaned as you felt him grind against you again, the gusset of your panties covered in your own arousal and sticking to you uncomfortably.
Yunho noticed you shifting under him and looked down at you. âIs it uncomfortable?â he asked, lifting his weight off you. Shaking your head, you grabbed him but the hips and pulled him back down, resting the weight of his cock against your core. âMy panties are justâŚâ you trailed off.
Yunho cocked his head to the side curiously. âTheyâre just what?â he asked almost innocently. Your cheeks and ears burned in embarrassment. âSticky,â you finally managed to get out. Yunho said nothing, instead keeping his eyes trained on your face as he rolled his hips, grinding against you.
âWould you like me to change that?â he asked softly, maintaining eye contact. You hesitated. Did you want him to remove your panties just yet? Were you ready to be that exposed to him? You were almost entirely naked under him yet he was still clothed. You shook your head. âItâs not fair for me to be the only one exposed here,â you said.
Wordlessly, Yunho sat back, reaching behind and grabbing the neck of his shirt before pulling it off over his head and setting it aside, leaving him in just his sweats. You allowed your eyes to sweep his frame, taking in the sight. Youâd seen him shirtless before, spending many nights over at Yumiâs when you were younger but you never allowed yourself to really look, always averting your eyes in the past.
He was muscular but in a lean way. His shoulders were broad as you remembered and heâd filled out even more since the last time youâd seen him without his shirt. Your eyes continued to travel further and further, catching sight of a light trail of hair that started under his navel and disappeared into the waistband of his sweats.
âBetter?â he asked, his tone amused as he watched you stare at him. You reached up, grabbing his shoulder and pulled him down to meet your lips in a rushed kiss. Heâd spent so long working you up slowly and now you were more than desperate to have him.
âI know I said we have all night,â you murmured between kisses. âBut I really need you right now.â Yunho chuckled against your lips, hands sliding down to your hips. âYouâve been very patient,â he agreed. âI think you deserve a reward for that.â Without another word, he dragged your panties down, discarding them rather quickly.
You waited with baited breath as his eyes wandered, taking in the sight of you completely naked under him. His eyes stopped briefly at the spot between your thighs before he looked back up to meet your gaze. You kept your eyes trained on his face as he leaned over you, his hand moving between your legs and groaning as he collected your wetness. âIâve barely done anything,â he noted as he looked down, seeing his fingers already coated.
âSâbecause itâs you,â you murmured. Yunho looked back up, pressing his fingers further between your lips and easily finding your clit. You let out a gasp as he slowly started to draw light circles, watching your face as he explored. He was clearly experienced but it was still a new experience; a new lover.
He moved faster, still keeping the same pressure. It was teasing. It was enough friction to keep you on the edge but not push you further. âYunho please,â you begged. It only took one plea for his fingers to move down and sink two into your entrance, making you moan loudly.
âLike that?â he asked softly, curling his fingers against the spongy spot inside you, making you gasp and your thighs try to close around his arm. Yunho pushed your thighs apart, leaning against one to keep you spread open for him. As he continued to pump his fingers in and out of you slowly, he inspected you, keeping his eyes on the place where his fingers disappeared.
Your thigh tried to close and Yunho grumbled, moving his free hand and taking yours, moving it to your thigh. âHold your legs open before I tie you down,â he growled. Your walls clenched around his fingers as you did what he instructed. âGood girl,â he murmured, leaning down to press a soft kiss to your stomach before scooting further down.
Before you could ask what he was doing, you felt his tongue against your clit. It was slow, deliberate, and hot. âIâve wondered what you tasted like for years,â he murmured. âItâs better than I imagined.â With renewed vigor, Yunhoâs tongue lapped at your sex, flicking against your clit as his fingers continued to move inside you. The stimulation started to build tension and you felt your orgasm approaching.
Yunho must have felt it too because he pulled away, his fingers slowing to a stop. You whined, feeling defeated as your climax ebbed away. âShush,â you heard him whisper. âItâs okay, baby,â he continued. âI just need you to hold off a little longer for me.â
Yunho gave your sex a light lick before he pulled away, fingers continuing to move and curl, scissoring you open slowly. âYunho, please,â you pleaded, unshed tears filling your eyes. âJust a little more, kitten,â he murmured, kissing the inside of your thigh.
âJust a little more,â he repeated. Your thighs shook, your impending orgasm slipping away once again when he stopped. You were about to protest when you felt him add a third finger, groaning as you felt the stretch against your walls. âYouâre just so tight,â Yunho groaned as he continued to pump his fingers in and out of you. âI have to take it slow or I might hurt you.â
Despite your begging and pleading, Yunho took his time, opening you up until he was satisfied. You were an incoherent mess as he finally removed his pants and underwear, moving between your thighs and groaning as the underside of his cock rubbed against your wet folds.
âLook, angel,â he instructed. You opened your eyes and pushed yourself up onto your elbows to look down between your thighs. Yunho had rested his cock on you and you felt your stomach churn slightly at the sight. You knew Yunho was a big guy in general but the sheer size of his cock had you already seeing stars. The tip reached just under your navel and you were certain there was no way heâd fit all of it in you.
âSo big,â you commented. Yunho chuckled slightly, carefully pushing you back onto the blanket. âIâll go slow,â he reassured you, pulling back and taking himself in his hand. âJust tell me to stop if it hurts,â he added. You nodded as you felt him press the tip against your slit.
âDeep breath,â he added. You inhaled slowly and as you exhaled, you felt him push the head of his cock past your folds. You groaned as you felt it start to fill you. Yunho took his time, massaging your hips as he slid in slowly, inch by inch.
You winced slightly, prompting him to stop and whisper words of praise as you tried to relax. âThatâs it baby,â he murmured. âJust relax. Iâve got you,â he added. You willed your body to relax, sighing as he continued. It felt like ages before he stopped.
Your body has seized up again and Yunho was coaxing you through it. âItâs okay angel,â he whispered, thumbs rubbing soothing circles against your hips. âRelax, baby,â he added. âRelax and let me in.â
You groaned as he slid further and further, his size filling and stretching your walls. You tried not to clench but subconsciously, your cunt fluttered and constricted around him, making him groan as he tried to bottom out. You were certain heâd never fit it all in but to your absolute surprise, he did.
His hips met yours and he stilled, groaning as he dropped his head into your chest. âFuck,â you heard him curse, his voice muffled. âYouâre so fucking tight, Y/N,â he groaned. You felt him give a tentative thrust, as if to make sure his cock was fully buried in your pussy.
âSo f-full,â you stammered, the tears flowing freely now. âSo big,â you added. Yunho lifted his head and cupped your cheek tenderly, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips. âFeels good?â he asked and you nodded quickly. âFeels s-so good,â you moaned.
âSo fucking good.â
Yunho chuckled, his breath fanning over your skin as you felt him start to retract slowly before snapping his hips forward and filling you in one thrust. You gasped out at the feeling. âDoes it hurt?â he asked suddenly, stopping. You shook your head. âN-no. Feels so good,â you answered. âKeep going, please.â
Yunho pulled back and thrust into you again, setting a slow, heavy rhythm. Your walls constricted, trying to keep him from pulling out and sucking him back in with ease. Moans and mumbles slipped from your lips as he moved. You looked up, meeting his intense gaze.
âGod,â he groaned as his hips stuttered for a moment before he was pounding into you, one hand holding your thigh open, the other keeping him from collapsing onto you. âFuck!â he swore, eyes fluttering shut as he continued to thrust, his hips meeting yours.
You could feel him deeper than anyone had ever been, moaning with each thrust.
âSo small and yet you take me so well,â Yunho groaned. âLike you were made for me.â You whimpered in response, unable to form a coherent sentence. âDoes it feel good, baby?â he asked, his voice low and gravelly. âDo you like how good my cock feels inside you?â
You nodded wordlessly, moans slipping out instead of words. âOh shit, do you see that, little one?â he asked, his eyes now glancing down at your stomach. You raised your head to see what he was looking at. You could see a slight bulge every time he thrust into you. âIt almost doesnât fit,â Yunho said with a smug tone.
âMy cock is almost too big for you, kitten.â
You moaned as he took your hand, placing it over the spot halfway between your navel and sex. You moaned, feeling the tip nudge against your hand. Yunho groaned, pushing your palm down as he thrusted into you. You moaned loudly.
âFuck, you sound so good, baby,â he murmured, hips slowing as he pushed himself up. You groaned as he grabbed your waist, pulling you up so your ass was resting on his thighs as he thrust further into you. âHng! Yunho!â you gasped as the tip of his cock hit your cervix.
âOh shit,â he cursed. You felt him pull out entirely, making you whine at the empty feeling. Yunho rolled you onto your stomach, grabbing one of the pillows to put under your hips, propping you up for him as he re-entered you from behind. You moaned into the blankets as he bottomed out, the tip of his cock pressing against your cervix.
âThatâs it, baby,â Yunho groaned, holding your hips in place as he pulled out, snapping forward and filling you with one stroke. He set a much faster, more unrelenting pace, thrusting into you to a beat only he knew. You grabbed onto the blankets, trying to ground yourself against the power of his movements as he pounded into you, the sound of skin against skin drowning out the crackling of the fire and your whimpers.
âYuh-Yu-Yunho,â you moaned, walls clenching repeatedly around his cock and pushing both of you closer and closer to the edge. âGonna fuck you so good you forget anyone else ever existed,â you heard him growl. âSo you know youâre mine and mine alone.â
âMâgonna make you scream my name, baby,â he added, leaning over your back, one hand moving around to grab your throat firmly. You moaned, walls squeezing around him as your orgasm washed over you without warning. âFuck, fuck, thatâs it kitten. Cum on this cock like a good girl.â
Yunho continued to fuck you through your orgasm, enjoying the way you whimpered and whined as he continued to thrust into you, keeping a firm grip on your throat. âYou gonna cum again?â he murmured in your ear. âY-yes,â you whimpered, walls already fluttering around Yunhoâs cock, gripping him tightly.
âGonna let me fill this sweet little cunt?â he asked in your ear, giving you a hard thrust. âY-yes, daddy,â you whined. Yunho let out a growl. âDaddy, huh?â he asked, rolling his hips and making your eyes roll back. âThatâs a new one,â he continued. âAlright, baby. We can go with that.âÂ
âYou like it when daddy fucks you from behind?â
You nodded vigorously. âYes daddy,â you repeated. âSay it,â Yunho growled, pounding into you, burying himself to the hilt and making you squeal. âI like it!â you cried out. âSay it. All of it,â Yunho repeated, pounding into you once more. âYes, I like it!â you almost screamed. âI like it when you fuck me from behind, daddy!â
You felt him sink his teeth into your shoulder, making you whimper as his cock pistoned in and out of you, making your eyes roll back again, stars filling your vision. âThatâs right, baby,â he growled against your skin. âThis pussy is mine. Youâre mine.â You nodded wordlessly but that wasnât enough for Yunho.
âSay it.â he ordered. âIâm yours, daddy,â you answered.
âAnd who does this pussy belong to?â
âItâs y-yours, daddy,â you choked out, tears flowing freely and streaming down your cheeks.
âGood girl,â Yunho groaned. âOh fuck, youâre such a good girl. Youâre my good little girl, arenât you?â he moaned. Your second orgasm was approaching, your cunt convulsing around Yunhoâs cock as his thrusts grew more erratic and sloppy. The sound of his cock thrusting into you was audible over the crackling of the fire.
âFuck, fuck, fuck,â you heard him curse. âMâgonna cum,â he warned you. âWhere you want it, angel?â he whispered. âI-inside me, daddy, please,â you moaned. âPlease cum inside me!â Yunho let out a low growl, hips slapping against your ass with renewed eagerness, groaning into your ear as he came, filling your cunt with his release.
You felt more and more of it pump into you, filling you almost to the brim as he continued to fuck his cum into you. âOh fuck,â he groaned. âOh, god, I love you,â he whispered as he continued to thrust, his movements slowing. âI love you so much,â he continued. âTell me you love me, too, please,â he murmured against your shoulder.
âI love you, too,â you moaned as he finally stilled, burying his cock deep inside your walls with a huff.
The only sound other than your ragged breathing was the crackling of the fire as you both came down from your respective highs. You didnât dare move until Yunho did and for a while, you were certain heâd fallen asleep on top of you until he finally shifted.
He pushed himself up and slowly pulled out of you, grimacing as some of his release spilled out of you, running down the insides of your thighs. âDonât move,â he instructed and got up, grabbing his underwear and pulling it on before walking over to the kitchen and grabbing a towel.
You heard the water run briefly before he returned, wiping the insides of your thighs and carefully wiping your skin clean of his cum. âAre you okay?â he asked as he helped you roll over onto your back. âIâm great,â you said, your voice almost far off, a dazed expression on your face.
Yunho chuckled as he continued to wipe you down before grabbing your shirt and helping you into it.
Once he was certain you were clean, he tossed the used towel onto the coffee table and laid down next to you. âDid you mean it?â you asked finally as he pulled a blanket over the two of you and pulled you into his arms. âMean what?â he asked, watching as you turned in his hold to look at him.
âWhen you said you love me?â
Yunhoâs expression softened and he pressed his lips against yours tenderly. âOf course,â he answered. âI do love you. Itâs always been you, Y/N. I only want you,â he continued. You snuggled against him, listening to his heart beating in his chest. âDid you mean it?â he asked after a moment and you nodded immediately. âMhm, Iâve loved you for a long time, Yunho,â you replied.
âFor me, youâve always been it.â
You pulled back to look up at him. Yunhoâs lips spread into a grin before kissing you again, a bit more passionately. âYumi isnât going to like this,â he added softly. You shrugged, no longer caring now that you knew your feelings were reciprocated. âI think sheâd rather us be happy,â you said softly.
âWeâll just have to break it to her easily. We were both stupid and in love,â Yunho replied. Your eyes fluttered shut as you started to drift off.
When you awoke it was to the slam of a distant door. You opened your eyes slowly, bright light pouring into the room. You were still lying in Yunhoâs arms on the floor in front of the fireplace. You relaxed as Yunho snored softly. The next moment the front door opened and your eyes snapped open.
Before you could scramble away from Yunho who was starting to stir, you heard an all too familiar voice.
âWhat the hell is all this?â Yumi shouted. You sat up quickly, rubbing your eyes as you looked up at your best friend who was glaring down at the two of you. Yunho pushed himself up. âWe can explain,â he said quickly. Yumi narrowed her eyes before her expression softened.
âOh you donât need to explain,â she said, chuckling.Â
âIâve known for years that the two of you were hot for each other. Just waited for it to come out.â
You turned to look at Yunho who looked just as stunned as you.
âJust do me a favor,â Yumi added, making the two of you look at her.
âKeep the fucking to a minimum, or just keep it down,â she asked.
âI forgot to buy earbuds.â
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angels like you can't fly down here with me (i'm everything they say i would be), megumi fushiguro ;
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pairing megumi fushiguro x f!reader word count 11k synopsis people like him don't get happy endings but megumi fushiguro (foolishly) considers himself to be the exception â after all, he has you. content contains yakuza au, childhood friends to lovers, mutual pining, breeding kink, slight daddy kink, attempted sa, minor violence & depictions of blood author's note if ur on my ao3, you know this is from 2021!!! my writing has changed up since then, but i'm going to be releasing a revised version of this which will be rewritten and feature more scenes, more worldbuilding, more plot, relationship and character development, etc!! i figured releasing this on tumblr would help me gauge how worthwhile revision of this fic will be, so lmk if u like this au & want to see it become even better <3
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Donât do it.
He repeats the command inside his head again, and then one more time for good measure. (And then another time, just to drive the point across.)
He wonât â canât; isnât really allowed to â get into (another!) fight.
(Well, thereâs a part of Megumi that knows that despite Gojoâs sing-songy warning of ânow, now, Megumi, I donât need a frequent visitorâs card for the principalâs officeâ, he doesnât actually care. All heâs really concerned about â if the mild interest the reckless teenager turned legal guardian shows can even be called that â is whether or not Megumi wins.
And he does.
Every. Single. Time.)
For the most part, Megumi Fushiguro is fairly stoic in general, but to a concerning degree when one accounts for the fact that heâs only ten years old. For the odd three or so years heâs been under Gojoâs wing, Megumiâs mask of disinterest stopped becoming a mask and started becoming a part of him.
(Try as he might, Gojoâs not nearly as funny as he thinks he is. Maybe the connection between them might have been stronger if Gojo was a bit more responsible and if he was actually present, but heâs got his own shit to deal with. Besides, Gojoâs under the impression that what heâs doing isnât cruel, but rather a means to an end. Megumiâs never going to be able to get stronger if he doesnât learn how to survive on his own.
After all, being alone and having to fight to survive is the life people like them live.)
The older preteens in the area have a bad habit of picking on the younger students. Because the elementary and middle schools are so close together, the younger students who have the misfortune of walking alone tend to be targets for bullies in need of pocket change or a good laugh. Most of the time, they get both.
As of late, everyoneâs favorite target happens to be Megumi Fushiguro, the boy with the messy black hair and indifferent attitude, even when confronted by boys two years his senior and almost a whole entire head taller than him.
Last week, Megumi gave the three older boys dumb enough to harass him for money bloody noses, bruised egos, and a thirst for revenge. That was the first (and supposed to be the last) time he got into a fight (for this school year, at least â something Gojo had told him, while winking). So, even when the trio is back together again, taunting him and trying to get him to take the first swing, Megumi keeps walking forward with his perpetual look of disinterest, those cold blue eyes of his staring straight at the path ahead of him, never paying any mind to the gangly bodies of the middle school boys who keep trying to block him from moving.
Donât do it.
He tells himself this once more. You donât want to have to inconvenience Gojo. Then, youâll be stuck listening to him pretend to lecture you. You donât like spending too much time with Gojo. Heâll make weird jokes.Â
The thought of having to deal with Gojoâs presence is enough to get Megumi to unclench his fists.
âMove.â
Itâs the first thing he says to the group since they started following him after school. He tells the boy with the brown hair this. The brunet seems to be their ringleader of sorts, and even as nothing more than a ten year old child, Megumi knows that being twelve/thirteen and harassing little kids for sport is a sign of patheticness that will only grow and fester into something darker unless someone beats some sense into them. Obviously, they didnât learn their lesson from last week.
âHuh? What the hell did ya just say, ya little brat?â The brown haired boy sneers, looking down at Megumi.
School has just let out, so there are dozens of kids of all ages walking down the sidewalk. Theyâre all aware of the situation happening, but everyone chooses to turn a blind eye to it. Partly because this is such a common occurrence that it just starts to become something that blends into the scenery, but also because there are some rumors surrounding the Fushiguro kid thatâs enough to make anyone with a heart of gold reluctant to come to his rescue.
The main rumor circulating around the school is that Megumi Fushiguro has ties to the yakuza. Granted, most kids his age have no idea what the yakuza is, and even those who somewhat know only know through exaggerated definitions from their older siblings. Generally, everyone just accepts the fact that the yakuza is bad, and by default, Megumi Fushiguro must be bad too. Older siblings tell their younger siblings to avoid âthat boyâ at all costs, unless they want to end up with a finger cut off. Megumiâs classmates huddle together and conveniently choose to look everywhere else but at him when on the playground.
For anyone else, this might have been enough to cause some hurt feelings. Everyone thinks the boy must be some type of stupid to be so oblivious to the rumors centered around him, but the truth is this: Megumi is well aware of what people whisper about behind his back; he just doesnât care enough to prove them wrong.
And theyâre not wrong, anyway.
(For some parts of the rumors, at least.)
Because itâs true â Megumi does have ties to the yakuza. His father, who he canât seem to attach neither a name nor a face to, must have done something bad. Something bad enough to have him cross paths with Satoru Gojo, the young head of the Gojo Clan, one of Tokyoâs most prominent crime families. Itâs the same Gojo who decided to adopt both Megumi and his stepsister, Tsumiki, despite having nothing (so far) to gain from it. After all, why would a teenager willingly assign himself the responsibilities of caring for small children â one who resembles the man that tried to kill him and the other being an ill little girl confined to a hospital bed for who knows how long. All Gojo gets from this deal is a headache, bills, and more problems than necessary.
Megumiâs not really sure how the rumors started in the first place. He thinks itâs because kids his age are easily influenced and have a tendency to run wild with their imaginations. With the rising popularity of gangs from the high school students, this interest seems to have trickled all the way down to the elementary levels. Megumi certainly fits the description of their idea of someone from the yakuza: silent, secretive, scary.
(If they were a little bit older, maybe they would have just seen him as an introvert.)
No matter how ridiculous the rumors get, though, it doesnât change the fact that the root of them is true: he is connected to the yakuza. After all, heâs being primed and prepped to be someone of value in the clan. Once youâre tied with the likes of them, you might as well just resign to the knot fateâs trapped you with. Heâs learned quickly that the only thing harder than getting into the yakuza is getting out.
And because his sisterâs and his life both depend on him doing as heâs told, getting out is a funny pipe dream at best and the Fushiguro siblingsâ cause of death at worst.
âI told you to move. Youâre blocking my way.â Megumiâs tone of voice betrays nothing. Annoyance, maybe, but he speaks flatly regardless of how heâs truly feeling. Gojo says itâs kinda creepy. Gojo also says that being a little creepy isnât bad.
(Gojo should know; heâs a certified creep in Megumiâs eyes.)
âOh â so the little boy can speak up.â The boy with blond hair laughs. Itâs a nasally sound that grates Megumiâs ears.
Heâs not an idiot. Megumi is well aware of the fact that no matter how much he feels like it isnât true, heâs still just a little ten year old boy. He should be playing with the toy cars Gojo bought him, not worrying about the gritty future that lies ahead. But still, the phrase rubs him the wrong way.
Little boy.
He wasnât so little when he kicked them down to his height before properly bashing their faces, now was he? Even now, he can feel the anger coming up. He clenches his fists, wondering if heâll get suspended for fighting right next to school property.
âLeave him alone.â
Another voice appears, but not from any of the boys. No â this time, itâs coming from a little girl on the sidewalk across from theirs. Everyone involved turns to stare at the source of such a command and are greeted with the sight of you with a Hello Kitty backpack. Youâve got a frown on your face that doesnât match the brightness of your pink outfit.
Megumi recognizes you instantly. Youâre in the same class as him. You were in the same class as him last year, too. He tilts his head, trying to figure out what exactly it is youâre trying to accomplish here â and why.
He knows his social standing in the school. If heâs at the bottom, youâre right at the top. A beaming pillar of light, everyone flocks to you like moths after a flame. But youâre alone today, not surrounded by the usual crowd of boys and girls who are often vying for your attention. Seeing you alone enables him to see you more clearly, without all the distractions getting in his way.
Youâre small. Shorter than him, and way shorter than the middle school boys. Youâve got a bow in your hair and brand new shoes on your feet. If anybody should be socially aware, it has to be you. Those at the top, Megumi knows, like to remind everyone of their placement. You shouldnât be here. You should be ignoring him like heâs got the plague, just like everyone else.
All three of the boys start to laugh after sizing you up. The laughter only serves to make you even more irritated, but you canât speak because one of them is already talking through his laughs.
âDonât tell me. Is this your girlfriend?â
The group erupts into more laughter, and while Megumiâs expression remains the same as itâs been for the past few minutes, yours only shows your growing contempt.
âSheâs no one.â Megumi throws you an odd look, one of neither annoyance nor gratitude for trying to help him out. He uses your presence as a distraction, and he manages to take a few more steps before one of the boys is yanking him back by his bookbag.
âGrab her.â One of the boys says, and the third boy, the one with the messy red hair, starts to cross the street.
Megumi watches as you stay right where you are. Are you stupid? Why wonât you run? The boy still has a solid grip on his bookbag, keeping him in place. He wonders if itâll be a waste of his breath if he tells you to start running â you probably wouldnât listen to him anyway.
But then Megumi figures out why you donât look too frightened, because not even a second before the older boy manages to cross the street to your side of the sidewalk, a man in a suit is running towards you, a scowl on his face.
âYou said you were going to the restroom, young lady!â The man scolds you while panting for breath. He surveys the scene, looking at you, and then the middle school boy by your side before turning his head and seeing Megumi in between the other two boys. âWhatâs going on? Is everything alright? Did they do anything to you?â
âNo, Mr. Higashi. B-butââ Your bottom lip starts to tremble, and even though Higashi is certain that the tears about to fall are fake, the situation itself looks serious enough to the point where he doesnât call you out on it. âTh-these boys are being really mean.â You let out a high pitched wail that makes the boy let go of Megumiâs bookbag. âThey just threatened to attack me and my friend out of nowhere.â
âYour father will be informed.â Higashi frowns, eyeing the guilty boys who look confused and a little shocked at this turn of events. âMr. [Surname] certainly wonât be pleased to hear about this.â
The middle school boys pale when they hear the man name drop your familyâs surname.
After all, itâs the same last name thatâs engraved on plaques all over the school, thanking your family for the many donations theyâve received.
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You enter into Megumiâs life that way: unexpectedly. He never thanked you for intervening, but itâs not like you did it for the thanks anyway. You did it, you tell him, because you figured he needed some help.
âI had it handled.â He tells you flatly. âWhy are you even sitting here? Your friends keep staring at us.â
Itâs true. Stories of what happened are already circulating around both schools, and while all your friends spent the whole entire day pestering you for the full story, you chose to keep quiet about the situation. And now, here you are, choosing to sit and eat lunch with Megumi, someone who also knows the true story of what went down but the only one people aren't brave enough to ask.
Your whole entire table of friends keep their heads huddled together as they go back and forth with each other, every one of them sparing glances at Megumiâs table. It makes the rice in his mouth taste stale. He should have just stayed in the classroom to eat, especially if he knew you would be bothering him.
âGee, is that any way to treat a friend?â You huff, not at all actually annoyed with him.
âWeâre not friends.â
âToo late. I told my dad we were.â
There has been one question on his mind ever since that incident. Just who exactly is your father? Heâs not stupid; he knows that you must come from a wealthy family. If the buildings and auditorium named after your family isnât enough proof, the fact that you always have the latest toys, the nicest shoes, the cutest stationery sets â thatâs material proof of a spoiled princess.
You continue speaking, and as if you can read his mind, youâre already answering his question. âMy daddyâs called a CEO. But the man you saw is Mr. Higashi. He takes care of me when dadâs away at work, and everything I do gets typed up in a report that dad sees every day. He wasnât happy about what happened, so he says the boys will get in trouble. He told us not to worry, though.â You have a pleased smile on your face, waiting for Megumi to say something in reply.
âOkay.â He says, after a while. He only spoke because it seemed like you were waiting for him to. âIt doesnât mean weâre friends.â
âWhatâs so wrong about being friends with me?â You tilt your head. Everyone wants to be friends with you. And thatâs before they even figure out that you live in a real life mansion with actual servants, and that sometimes youâre allowed to eat dessert for dinner. Even without the wealth, you still draw people in, whether it be with your bright smile or cheery attitude.
âDonât you already have enough friends?â He canât figure out what you could possibly want with him. Even though Gojoâs got the backing of the clan and enough funds to run the Tokyo underground with cash to spare, itâs not like Megumi is in a position to take advantage of it. Gojo hands him a thick wad of cash every week with a tip to âspend wisely, heheheheâ, and Megumi takes the tip to heart. A majority of the money sits saved in his bedroom, underneath a floorboard he spent a week trying to figure out how to loosen without anyone catching on. (Which was actually easy whenever he realized that nobody seems to really watch him to begin with.) So, he doesnât look like he has money, and isnât that what all rich kids want? To surround themselves with equally rich kids?
âI guess.â Your bubbly mood seems to dampen a bit at the mention of the other kids. They like you, sure. But they like each other a lot more. The gap between you and the other kids isnât noticeable at first, but the novelty of having an endless supply of company has lost its luster. Meanwhile, the glamor of your life only keeps the hoards of âfriendsâ to grow as the days go by. Itâs always âletâs have a sleepover at [Names]âs!â or â[Name], we have to go to your house because you have the best toys!â. You wonder if they like you, or the shiny things that they get when theyâre with you. âBut, itâs not like youhave any friends.â
âI donât need any.â The response is quick â instinctual. Gojo, even if not the greatest guardian by any parental standards, still presses Megumi to have a proper (or, as proper as it can be) childhood.
(âYou know, I donât care if you bring any friends over. Just make sure no one ends up accidentally getting shot, okay, Megumi?â
Yeah, because thatâs definitely gonna push him towards throwing as many parties as he wants.)
People in his position donât have many friends. Itâs hard to, he assumes, because of all the killings and betrayals and power plays.
(And, heâll soon learn that it hurts a lot less to lose an enemy than it does a friend.)
âHmm. Okay.â
But you donât get up from your seat, and he doesnât tell you to move.
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The next day, youâre carrying two bento boxes. The lunches are prepared for you by world class chefs and everything is done in a rather cutesy manner to entice you into not wasting your food. The fruit is cut into pretty shapes, the food has picks with animals on them, and everything is colorful and to your own personal tastes.
You take a seat next to him once again. He looks up for a second, sees that itâs you, and returns back to his meal that looks pitiful in comparison. Leftover rice and some cold meat. You think itâs the same thing he had last time.
âFor you.â You slide the second bento you had requested towards him before opening up your own.
âWhatâs this for?â
âFor you to eat, silly.â
â...How much?â
âHuh? All of it, I guess? If you donât like something, tell me, and Iâll request something different tomorrow.â You donât quite understand what heâs asking you.
âNo. How much does it cost? I'll bring you the money tomorrow.â
âWhy would it cost you?â Now youâre really confused.
Didnât anyone ever teach you that everything comes attached with a price? If itâs not money you want, it must be something else. At least, if Megumiâs judgments are right. (And they usually are.)
âFushiguro, I brought you this because I want you to eat well and grow strong.â
He wonders what rice shaped like Hello Kitty has to do with his strength.
âAlso, so the next time people give you or me trouble, you can fight them, okay?â
Oh. So itâs protection you want. He contemplates what he thinks your request is before popping a piece of food into his mouth. A meal made with care â he can taste the thought thatâs been put into it. Shoving his old lunch to the side, he quickly starts eating at the one you brought him.
Okay. So maybe he does accept your offer.
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âMeguuuumi.â You whine out his name, messing up the navy sheets of his bed while he sits at his desk, trying to finish his application for university. âIâm bored.â
âGood. Go to your own house then, and leave me alone.â
âYouâre so mean to me.â You sigh, turning your head so that half of your face is pressed against his pillow. The scent of his shampoo still sticks to the fabric, and you subconsciously inhale the scent some more. Itâs familiar and reminds you of him, your favorite person in the world.
No one believes you when you tell them that Megumi is your best friend. No one wants to believe that itâs true. After all, the two of you look more like a shoujo manga trope than an actual pair of best friends. The cold, inexpressive dark haired male lead with a secretive past he doesnât want anyone to know about and the bright, bubbly, ball of energy that is constantly clinging to his side. Itâs like looking at night and day with you two.
âAnd yet, youâre still always here.â
Youâre still by his side, even when the two of you reached middle school and high school together, and he spent a majority of his time starting (and finishing) fights.
(âGet off of him!â You screamed, yanking on the collar of one of the boys who happened to be trying to grab Megumi from behind. You donât have the same amount of strength as them, but everyone at this point knows who you are and who exactly your father is. No matter what the origin of the fight is wonât matter; all that matters is that the precious daughter of one of Tokyoâs richest CEOs got caught in it, and thatâs enough to get everyone involved into some deep shit.
Immediately, the boy scampers off, and the other boy Megumi was punching into the squeaky clean floors of the hallway begins to thrash around wildly, eyes wide at the sudden sight of you. Seeing you coming from behind Megumi is like watching the sun peek through a dozen storm clouds.
Megumi gives him one last punch, not nearly as satisfied as he thought he would be. Honestly, getting into fights with low level delinquents is beneath him. Itâs not just his knuckles and clothes that are getting dirty; by feeding into the schoolâs image that heâs this young, violent yakuza heir, heâs dirtying the prestige Gojo claims is oh so important.
âMegumi.â He straightens up at the sound of your voice, which usually sounds so sweet, especially when itâs directed towards him. Instead, you have an uncharacteristic frown on your face and you soundâŚÂ mad. âLetâs go.â
Youâve got a hand wrapped around his wrist, and people part when they spot the two of you making a hasty exit. The teachers arenât bold enough to cause a scene with you, and the students know both you and Megumi are practically untouchable â one being the spoiled brat daughter of a rich and powerful businessman, the other, a ticking time bomb with ties to the yakuza.
You donât stop walking until the two of you are in a secluded courtyard at the school. No one goes here, mainly because itâs in such an inconvenient location and thereâs nothing but trees and weeds over growing it. The two of you found it within your first week of being here, and ever since then, itâs become your designated spot to avoid prying eyes.
âI thought you were over stupid fights. You told me yourself that they werenât the type of people worth beating up.â You scold him, forcing him to take a seat on the bench that creaks under his weight. You make a noise as you inspect the drying blood on his knuckles.
If an outsider were to look at the scene before them, they would gape at the unbecoming sight of you on your knees, in between his legs, too close for a duo who claims to be âjust good friendsâ. But thereâs nothing inherently dirty in your thoughts. Instead, youâre staring thoughtfully at his hands, inspecting the minor damage done to them.
Megumi swallows hard as he looks down on you. He shouldnât be feeling like this â youâre his best friend, his only friend. The only person whoâs by his side. If you could read in his mind, thereâs no doubt that you would be recoiling away from him in disgustâŚ)
Youâre still by his side, even when he told you the truth about himself after waiting years to see if you were truly his friend or not.
(âThe rumorsââ He starts to say, but you shush him, rolling over on your side to face him. The two of you are lying on the grass in your massive backyard, trying to spot a shooting star thatâs supposed to be passing by at any second now.
âI donât care about that.â You tell him. Middle school was a bitch to deal with, mainly because as everyone was in the process of growing up and âmaturingâ, so did the rumors they spread. Now, the two of you are halfway through your first week of high school. A new school, a couple of new classmates, and new rumors surrounding the odd pair.
âIf I told you the rumors about me being someone you should avoid were true, would you be mad?â Heâs lying on his back, still staring up at the night sky. Heâs not turning to face you, almost as if heâs scared to look at you.
âYes.â You answer without any hesitation. âAt the person whoâs spreading that around.â You clarify, poking him on his side to lighten the somber mood heâs setting. âYouâre the only real friend Iâve had in forever, Megumi. I donât think what anyone says about you would change that.â
âWhat if I did something bad?â Like kill a person. What then? What would you think of him if he told you the full truth: that Gojo told him that he canât shield Megumi from the dirtier aspects of this type of life. That heâs spent hours after school, hours after hanging out with you and pretending to be a normal teenager, learning how to assemble, disassemble, and then reassemble a gun. That his target practice isnât glass bottles lined up in a row or sheets printed out with human bodies. What happens if he told you that his target practice was low level scum from rival yakuza clans that Gojo couldnât be bothered to kill himself?
âMmm. How bad are we talking? Like, lied to me when you said my Christmas outfit looked good but half my ass was practically exposed bad or committing a felony bad?â
âWhat if I told you⌠that I really was a yakuza heir.â
The silence is palpable and especially soul crushing to Megumi as he waits for your reply.
âIt wouldnât matter to me, Megumi.â You say. You know that this isnât just some type of hypothetical question heâs asking for fun. From his odd living situation to the intense nature of him in general to the fact that he knows practically everything about you, but you barely know the full extent of his childhood traumas despite growing up alongside him, you know deep in your heart that there has to be something going on with him. Something dark enough to harbor stories about him.
âAre you sure about that?â
You reach for his hand in the dark, finding it without really needing to look. Heâs not one thatâs prone to initiating physical contact, but you found out that he doesnât really mind when you reach for him first.
âYou canât get rid of me, no matter how crazy or fucked up you think your life is.â You squeeze his hand, still staring at him.
You donât notice the shooting star flying past the night sky, but Megumi is looking right at it. He knows what heâs wishing for.
For your words to be true.)
Youâre still by his side, even when he brought you to his sisterâs bedside. Sheâs sick, afflicted with something no one knows, not even the private doctors that Gojoâs spent millions on. She was still conscious, albeit confined to her bed when the two of you first met, but sheâs been in a coma ever since the last year of middle school. You were by his side as he broke down about the news. It was the first time youâve ever seen him cry.
So, no matter how much it may seem like heâs pushing you away, you donât budge. For someone smaller than him and definitely weaker, youâre awfully resilient. And while people make the occasional joke, telling you to âblink twice if you need helpâ, you donât pay any attention to them. If only they knew the truth: that youâve got Megumi Fushiguro, heir to a massive yakuza clan, wrapped around your dainty finger.
Heâs so whipped that he found himself asking Gojo for a rare favor.
(âCollege?â Gojo rubs the back of his neck, staring at Megumi. âI mean, I guess itâll be good for you. Meet a wild party girl, take her to your dorm room, tame herââ
âAn education is the whole point of attending, you know.â Megumi interrupts him before Gojo can jump into a story highlighting all of his sexual endeavors with college girls back in the day.
âEh. I guess.â But then a grin lights up the feature of the man who [kind of/by definition] raised him. âBut yâknow what I know for a fact.â He wiggles his eyebrows, his glasses slipping down his nose as he tilts his head downwards. âYou wanna follow [Name].â)
It doesnât really matter if heâs not good enough to get into the university youâve already received an early acceptance for. Because Gojo tries to make up for being an absent father figure, he fills in those empty spaces with cold, hard cash. All it takes is one nice donation, and Megumiâs wherever he wants to be.
Where he wants to be, he realizes, is to be by your side. Wherever you go, heâll gladly follow. Funnily enough, despite the two vastly different backgrounds the both of you come from, you both have similar means of getting what you want.
Your father had already looked over the list of universities you had in mind, and all you could do was excitedly squeal and start rambling the moment the acceptance letters came in the mail. Despite the fact that your fatherâs physically absent from your life most of the time, he still tries to show he cares in the things he does for you. If paying off over half a dozen major universities in order to make you happy is something he has to do, heâll do it without batting an eye.
Itâs the same thing on Megumiâs end. Granted, Gojoâs means are more along the lines of using money as a lubricant and then death as an inevitable. Money talks, a gunshot to the head silences. Nobody can accuse anyone of taking bribes if said accused person is in a grave six feet under.
Sometimes, Megumi wonders how youâre just so oblivious to the fortunate circumstances in your life. You chalk up a lot of your fatherâs wishes as just âgood luckâ. In school, youâre placed on a pedestal, revered as some goddess-like, otherworldly being. People are practically tripping over themselves, running towards you for a crumb of your attention. Anyone sane would gladly wield this power and use it for all its worth. Not you, though. Not you, whoâs kind and considerate and completely clean from the corruptness that plagues everyone else.
Megumi knows good and well that heâs not a hero â couldnât be farther from it, if heâs being honest. He doesnât feel a moral obligation to go out and rid the world of all evil. (Itâd be hypocritical, he thinks, considering the fact that heâs most likely belonging under the evil category himself.) From a young age, heâs already known and come to terms with his fate. Heâs going to train and learn from the best, and eventually, he will succeed as head of the clan. That is his purpose. That right there is the reason why heâs still alive today. That is why he can find himself sitting at his desk, submitting an application thatâs already guaranteed to be followed up with an acceptance letter, ready to pretend for four more years that heâs normal.
âDâyou think college will be fun?â You ask him, making yourself comfortable in his bed.
âNo.â
You laugh at that. You like Megumi for a lot of reasons, and his honesty is one of them. Despite the fact that he likes to keep most of the darker details of his life to himself, you know that he would never lie to you. In a world full of people who are constantly lying, it gets tiring trying to figure out whoâs real and whoâs fake. It doesnât help that you want to believe in everyone either. If you didnât have Megumi loyally staying by your side all this time, you doubt you would have made it this far in your life without anyone taking advantage of you and your kindness.
âMy dad said I can finally get a boyfriend when I go to college.â You say this fact so casually that Megumi almost â almost â gets fooled into believing that this is not a cause for concern. Almost.
âOh.â Heâs at a loss for words. He knows that itâs inevitable; that one day, youâll find a guy you like and want to get closer to him. He knows that youâre not always going to be by his side, and he knows that itâs going to happen because heâll have to push you away eventually. The older he gets, the deeper heâs burying himself into his grave. He doesnât want you to get caught in the crossfire.
Itâs not like boys have never tried approaching you before. People have spent years thinking that you and Megumi were a couple, and then after finding out from you that the two of you are nothing more than âbest friendsâ, boys were still hesitant to talk to you. The glare Megumi would give them from behind your shoulder acted as a strong enough deterrent.
âI know. Now the only problem is finding a guy whoâll actually wanna date me.â
âThey all will.â The words leave his mouth faster than he can even think about them. Heâs not wrong, though. Every time the two of you are out in public together, he sees people shooting quick glances at you, at your ass, at your bright smile. The looks they give are predatory, dangerous, even. If itâs not your looks, itâs your shining personality that draws them all in. And if thatâs not good enough, thereâs always the enormous wealth attached to your last name. Thatâs the key to getting them to stay.
âYou can be so sweet sometimes, you know that?â You giggle, glad that heâs still typing away on his laptop. If he were to look at you right now, he would see that youâre reacting way too positively to such a lackluster compliment. Itâs not like he listed reasons on why anyone would ever want to date you, so he probably could just be complimenting you to make you happy.
(Thatâs just the excuse youâre going with. You know your best friend â that means you know that he would never say something he doesnât truly think or believe.)
Thereâs a secret youâve been keeping from him. A secret so big that you think you mightâve been keeping it from yourself, too. Something so big that your body simply canât contain it any longer.
You like Megumi.Â
Of course you do. You keep telling the whole world what great friends the two of you are. You talk to him about your dad all the time (which must mean heâs important, because you rarely get to speak to your dad, so you have to choose your topics of conversation wiseley). You trust him more than you trust yourself. Ever since middle school, youâve been telling yourself that you liking Megumi isnât anything to be ashamed or confused about. You like him because heâs your friend, and youâre supposed to like your friends.
And then you came to terms with the fact that you like Megumi beyond the borders of friendship.
It starts with you seeing him the way other girls must see him. Youâre not blind, you know. Itâs obvious that Megumi is far from ugly. If he wasnât so intimidating, youâre sure he would have had his fair share of confessions, too. Megumiâs pretty, although calling him a pretty boy wouldnât do his character justice. Heâs got lashes people pay extensions for theirs to look like, and the prettiest dark blue eyes youâve ever seen, and his hair, which he doesnât put forth any type of effort in, always looks good whereas the same hairstyle would look messy on anyone else.
Itâs not just his looks, though. Even if you look like the type of person who would judge others based on such shallow standards, you didnât approach Megumi simply because heâs attractive. HeâsâŚÂ interesting. Heâs got this reputation for being a delinquent, and maybe all the fights on his school record prove it, but heâs surprisingly respectful. Heâs the type of guy who gets up from his seat to let an eldery woman have it. He loves animals. Heâs honest and sweet despite his seemingly stoic nature, and heâs so oblivious to just how good he is.
Maybe itâs because heâs so blinded by the light that is you. You, with your cutesy bento boxes that used to be made by your team of personal chefs but are now made with your own manicured hands. You, with that bright smile of yours that he wants to always see because god â he thinks he would be willing to destroy the whole world if something were to ever make you so upset. Youâre kind and beautiful and everything people write love songs about. Youâre so good, and heâs nothing like you.
Heâs nothing like you, because he highly doubts that you spend your time fantasizing about him like he does with you. Itâs wrong, he thinks. And dirty, and disgusting, and vile. Youâd hate him, heâs sure of it, if you knew what he thinks about late at night. That he sits on his bed with his cock pulled out from his shorts, leaking with precum as he strokes himself to the thought of you. Do you not see him as any other guy? Despite your lack of experience, surely you know just how dirty boysâ minds can be? Youâve got to be conscious of the fact that heâs any other guy, right? So, why â why â do you always roll around in his sheets, letting your sweet perfume stick to his sheets. Your tiny tops and skirts are always clinging tight to your body, and you never feel the need to readjust your clothing when it rides up. Do you not see him trying his hardest to look you in the eyes when the two of you are talking, despite the tantalizing sight of your skirt bunching up, exposing the smooth skin of your thighs?
Little does Megumi know (and if you have your way, heâll never find out), you spend nights in your room, whining and trying to stuff your cunt with the same fingers that painstakingly made him his lunch. Heâs your best friend since childhood. He looks at you like youâre an angel, and you donât want to destroy that image by revealing just how dirty you really are. How every time he gets so close to you, you subconsciously bring your thighs together, trying to rub them together in a poor attempt to relieve some tension. Heâd be disgusted with you, youâre sure of it. Maybe even betrayed.
Besides, it would never work out. Megumi doesnât see you the way you see him. He might look at you with a soft look youâve never seen him give anyone else, but thatâs because youâre his only friend. Itâs not like heâs harboring any hidden feelings for you, and just because youâre so convinced that thereâs no one better than Megumi around, it doesnât exactly mean that you wonât feel this way about anyone else.
Megumiâs got a rather monotone cadence with his voice, so youâre not too surprised by his seemingly unethusiatic response to you saying youâre now allowed to date. Still â thereâs a slight pang of disappointment when you realize that he doesnât sound jealous at the prospect of you dating someone else.
You decide right then and there that the healthiest thing to do now is to just bury your feelings for him deep inside your heart, to tightly pack in all those pesky feelings and store them away so you can make room to allow others to fill in his space.
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gumi <3:Â where are you? gumi <3:Â iâm feeling tired and i have an assignment due tomorrow. iâm going home. gumi <3:Â you know i wouldnât leave without you. cmon [name]. letâs leave now
Megumi frowns at his phone. He can clearly see that all his messages are being delivered, not to mention that heâs already called you twice and has been sent to voicemail twice. He can be patient when he wants to be, but right now, heâs getting a little pissed.
You know that he doesnât like parties, and you know that he doesnât hang out with the same people you do. He also knows that you donât even really like most of the people you surround yourself with, so whyyou suddenly decided to do a 180 and reestablish your throne as the head of the social pyramid, he doesnât know.
Lately, things between the two of you have been a littleâŚÂ weird. Sometimes he catches you staring at him with a sad smile on your face; one that you immediately replace with your usual one when you realize heâs looking right at you. Despite him asking you if everythingâs okay, you vehemently deny that thereâs anything wrong, and youâre quick to change the subject.
He thinks heâs losing his best friend, his only friend. And maybe it only hurts because heâs grown used to your presence in his life. Maybe it hurts because youâre his friend. But he knows the truth. It hurts because heâs losing you.
Did he do something wrong? Did he accidentally somehow reveal the extent of his feelings for you? Did you suddenly decide that maybe associating with someone like him isnât something youâre meant for? Do youâŚ
Do you hate him now?
It doesnât matter. Maybe it does, but not right now. Right now, heâs more focused on getting the hell out of this stuffy ass living room, filled to the brim with drunken young adults and people he couldnât care less about. The only person that matters right now is you, and heâs on a mission to find your location.
Heâs got this ominous feeling in his gut, like something bad is about to happen. Heâs Megumi Fushiguro, for fuckâs sake, so bad things have a habit of following him wherever he goes. But still, heâs made a personal promise to himself that no matter how bad things get, youâll never get caught in the crossfire. Heâs willing to die to keep that vow.
If you donât reply to him, you most likely have a good reason. He doesnât want to be clingy, is pretty damn certain he doesnât even have a right to be, but heâs still worried about you. Heâs pushing past the wall of sweaty bodies, trying to catch a glimpse of your hair color, the waft of your perfume, the familiarity of your laugh, but he canât catch a single crumb of you anywhere.
Youâre nowhere in sight, and heâs immediately filled with dread.
He yanks a guy whoâs coming from upstairs.
âOw, man, what the fucââ
âIs anyone else up there?â Most of the time, the parties are restricted to just the first floor, with the unspoken rule being that only the upstairs should be used for people trying to fuck or to use the bathroom (or, people trying to use the bathroom to fuck). Youâre not anywhere downstairs, and if you were simply using the restroom, you would have been back down here by now.
âShit, I donât fucking know.â The guy squints at Megumi, as if trying to see if he knows him or not. With the way his expression pales, Megumi comes to the conclusion that the guy might not really know him, but he knows ofhim. Gojo says that with the right reputation, the two concepts are practically synonymous. âBut I heard a guy ân a girl, I think, walk past the bathroom. I donât know who, though!â
Megumi lets go of the boyâs shirt, and heâs quick to run off before Megumi can give him any more wrinkles in his shirt â or do something much worse.
Heâs thinking. Odds are, itâs probably not even you. With so many people roaming around this house, itâs likely that he just missed your presence. Your phone could have died, so that explains why he canât reach you.
He finds himself heading up the stairs anyway.
Itâs fine. He tells himself. Youâre fine. Youâre okay. Nobody would dare to touch a single hair on your head unless they want to suffer directly at the hands of Megumi. People around campus call him your guard dog, and itâs not necessarily a nickname he hates.
The atmosphere upstairs is vastly different from the one downstairs. There are no lights turned on, and all the doors to the rooms are closed. He hears a flush coming from one end, and out walks a tipsy girl whoâs staggering a bit. There are only so many doors to choose from, and he doesnât really want to accidentally walk in on two people trying to have sex, but the need to confirm your safety outweighs any possible embarrassment he may suffer from, so he continues on his mission.
The first two rooms are revealed to be empty, leaving just one more. Megumi takes a deep breath before trying to turn the handle.
Itâs locked.Â
His gut is telling him something isnât right, but heâs forcing himself to chalk it all up to paranoia. He curses under his breath, wondering why he even let you out of his sights for a single second.
Because he didnât want to seem clingy. Because he didnât want you to have any more reasons to keep on pushing him away.Â
He decides to call you one more time, and as heâs listening to the dial tone, he hears a faint sound coming from the other side of the locked door.
Itâs a phone ringing.
He presses his ear against the door, trying to make out any more sounds he possibly can. Is it still a coincidence when the phone stops ringing right as Megumi is greeted with your voicemail message of âsorry, I canât come to the phone right now, but you probably shouldâve just texted me!â
Without the annoying dial tone distracting him, Megumi can listen a little more clearly to whatâs going on. Thereâs⌠thereâs someone crying.
The voices are muffled, but he can make out bits and pieces of whatâs being said.
ââfuck up⌠crying like a damn bitch⌠want this.â
Heâs heard enough before heâs banging his shoulder against the door.
âOPEN THE FUCKING DOOR!â Heâs screaming, hitting it again. Thereâs a chance, the voice of reason inside of him is saying, that itâs not you thatâs crying behind that door. Even if it wasnât, Megumi still wouldnât have stood by idly. But instinct is telling him that it is you, and thatâs enough cause for him to bang his shoulder against the door once again. He hears a scream, and a male voice cursing.
The force of his body banding against it is enough to have the door really test the strength of its lock. Megumiâs never been the bulkiest person in the world, but heâs still got some defined muscle to him. The door is creaking, almost bending to his will, but he fumbles in the dark for the gun safely tucked away by his side.
Itâs a gift from Gojo. To speed up the process when something needs to be done quick is what Gojo said it was for. Heâs never used it in such close proximity to you, but desperate times call for desperate measures.
No silencer. He forgot the fucking silencer. With the deep bass rumbling from the speakers, he doubts anyone would be able to hear the gun go off anyway. He aims for the handle, pulling back the safety, and fires once, then twice. With a foot aimed at the door, he kicks at it, pleased to see the way the abused door finally bends to his will.
The open door reveals a scene that makes Megumi see red: you, with tear stained cheeks and your clothes bunched up and strewn across the floor with a guy Megumi vaguely recognizes as someone sharing the same Econ class as the two of you â Mahito.
âYou fucking bastard.â Megumi practically lunges forward, tossing his gun to the side. He doesnât see reason, is numb to common sense at this moment. All he feels is the need to hurt this fucker. To make him bleed, to have him on the brink of death, to see the light of life leave his dark eyes.
Mahito is fast, but even he couldnât imagine the speed that Megumi would possess when pushed to the edge. This is different from the fights youâve witnessed during school. This is something entirelydifferent.
The first punch has Mahito wincing in pain. The second, third, and fourth ones are thrown back to back, and thereâs no time given to recover, no chance to gain the upper hand. Heâs falling down, and Megumiâs on top of him, drawing back his fist only to slam it against him again and againand again.
Megumi knows heâs got something fucked up inside of his head â what other explanation is there to reason with why he finds this bloody violence so satisfying? His knuckles are bloody, and he canât tell where Mahitoâs blood starts and where his own ends. Thereâs a wild grin on his face, one that youâve never seen before. Youâre not sure if itâs a trick of the shadows, but the feral expression on Megumiâs face transforms him from your loyal best friend to something monstrous.
ââGumi, st-stop.â The words stumble out of your mouth as hiccups, but you donât miss the way Megumiâs raised arm freezes in its higher position before he slowly brings it back down to his side. Heâs breathing deeply, and all is silent in the room.
As if the sound of your cries is enough to snap him out of his daze, itâs almost scary how fast his mood shifts. Just a second ago, he was hellbent on beating Mahito to a bloody pulp, and now the darkness drowning those blue eyes of his is practically gone. He makes his way to the bed, each step hurried but still hesitant. Do you even want to be near him right now?Â
You answer his question with some more small sobs. ââGumi, Iââ
âShh, itâs okay, [Name].â Heâs picking up your clothes from the floor, ready to help you get dressed. âEverythingâs going to be okay.â
âMegumi.â His name seems to be the only thing youâre capable of saying right now. After he helps you get dressed, heâs thrown off guard when you cling to him, with your arms wrapped around his neck and your wet cheeks pressed against his shoulder.
The moment the two of you are exiting the room, both of you far too wrapped up with the other to pay him any mind, Mahito lets out a laugh before groaning at the pain Megumi inflicted.
The two of you donât know what you just started, but no worries â Mahito has the means of ending it.
Itâs only a matter of time.
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Youâre too good to be true.
You wonât listen to him when he tells you this (you never do), but he swears youâre a fucking angel or something otherwordly. Thereâs no other possible explanation for just how breathtakingly beautiful you are, or how youâre the only thing consuming his every thought. Despite the fact that all the blood on his hands has reached an amount that heâs sure heâll never truly be able to wash it all off, you donât shy away from his touch. As a matter of fact, it seems like youâre keening for it.
ââGumi.â You mewl out, sticking out your tongue to lap at the precum on Megumiâs thumb.
Youâre well aware of just how dangerous your boyfriend (the title makes you giddy every time you refer to him as that) is, but you know him. You know that the hands of a killer are the hands of your lover, and most of the time, you have a hard time believing the awful things heâs had to do with them. Because right now, those hands that are meant to be weapons are handling you with care, touching you so gently, you would have thought you were made of glass and ready to shatter.
âLook at you, all spread out for me. What happened to my precious, shy little girl, huh?â He removes the hand that was cradling your face back to his cock, stroking his length, the saliva from your tongue acting as a minor lubricant. The first time he fucked you was the first time youâve ever had sex with anyone ever, and it had been the start of an addiction. You love Megumi. You love everything about him, from his character to his tenacity, all the way down to his cock, with its red tip thatâs sticky with pre and leaking out more as he stares down at the obscene position youâre in.
Your face feels warm as he stares down at you, his eyes darkened with a mix of love and lust that you donât think youâll ever get used to being on the receiving end of.
âNeed you, need you so bad, please, âGumiââ Youâre staring up at him, giving him your best doe eyes.
âFuck.â Just the sight of you beneath him, completely bending to his will, whining out for him to pretty please fuck you has him ready to cum right on the fucking spot. Heâs pressing the tip in, his breathing faltering just the slightest as the warmth you provide envelopes the most sensitive part of him, nearly causing him to lose all self control right then and there.
You let out a cry as he pushes himself deeper in you, making himself at home in your gummy walls, one hand gripping your hip and the other holding onto the headboard.
âYou feel so good for me, baby, shit.â He hisses, waiting for you to adjust, impatient but willing to bear it if it means itâll feel better for you in the long run. After all, thereâs nothing he wouldnât do, nothing he wouldnât endure, just to ensure your happiness.
âMm â ah â please.â There are still tears welling up in your eyes â precious girl, he hasnât even began to properly fuck you, and youâre already tearing up? The sight of you completely and willingly at his mercy is enough to get him to start rutting his hips against yours, the satisfying sound of skin slapping against skin resounding and bouncing against the walls of his bedroom that is starting to feel more like the both of yours.
âYâfeel so fuckinâ good for me, baby.â He groans, his pace quickening, the thrusts getting sharper and rougher with every roll of his hips. Youâre powerless against his strength, and this type of easy submission feels so natural, feels so good, when itâs him thatâs taking advantage of it. âYouâve got the sweetest pussy, yâknow that?  I could fuck you forever.â
His praise goes through one ear and out the other with you, but your heart swells up to twice its size. Even if you canât focus on the words all too clearly, youâre still aware that Megumiâs probably praising you. You can come to this conclusion because heâs always praising you. Heâs always so sweet, so gentle, so loving â when it comes to you, that is.
âHng â daddy!â You canât help but let out a high pitched moan as he hits that sweet spot inside of you that makes you buck your hips up.
Thereâs no way you donât know what youâre doing. Clenching around his cock like that, making those cute little noises that he canât help but want to hear all the time, and then calling him that.
âDaddy, daddy, daddy.âÂ
Forget igniting something within him; you whining for him, calling him something thatâs the root cause of all his childhood traumas⌠Thatâs like dousing him with gasoline and tossing a lighter at him. Heâs going to burn through all his energy, channel all this dark, feral energy, and use you as the one unfortunate enough to be on the receiving end.
He fucks into you so deeply that if your eyes werenât shut tight, thereâs no doubt that you wouldnât see the unmistakable shape of his cock outlined against your tummy. The headboard is banging against the wall, and the squelching sounds of him roughly thrusting in and out of your sopping cunt is so lewd and so dirty that if you had any room to harbor a single ounce of shame, you would be downright embarrassed.
âHow about you make me a daddy, huh? How about I fuck a baby in you?â He wonât lie and say itâs not something thatâs never crossed his mind. The thought of your stomach round with a life the two of you created is enough to get him to continue with this near-brutal pace heâs set forth. âDoesnât it sound nice, baby? My baby giving me a baby, whatââ He grits his teeth as you tighten up. ââa fucking dream.â
âBaby. Wanna have your babies.â You cry out, tears spilling out and wetting your cheeks as your arms find their way to his neck and broad shoulders, trying to pull him in closer. The heat building up from within you feels like youâre about to fucking explode. ââGumi, I love you, Iloveyoupleasegimmeababyâ'' Your words are practically unintelligible as you slur them out, the words sticking together as you cum all over his cock, all that pleasure that has been building up now physically tangible, if the white ring encasing his cock every time he pulls out is evidence.
âFuck! You feel so fucking good. Always so fuckinâ tight.â Heâs reaching his own end, and youâre just lying there, trying to recover from such an intense orgasm but unable to as your too sensitive walls clench around the constant intrusion of his cock. Spurred by your little love confession and his mind imagining his daydreams coming true â you, as his cute little housewife, taking care of the kids the two of you made together â he finally shoves himself as deep as he physically can, making sure that as he cums, nothing will spill out.
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ââGumi.â You whisper, your head resting against his chest, listening to the beat of his heart. âDid you mean it when you said you wanted to start a family?â
Heâs silent for a minute.
âI wouldnât mind starting a family with you.â And he means it. He knows this life isnât one meant for children â look at how he turned out, for godâs sake â but he thinks that for you, he can do anything. Even make a family work out. As long as itâs what you want, he doesnât mind how hard it may be.
You snuggle closer to him, burying your face in the warmth of his chest. âGood.â You mumble. âI wanna start a family with you, too.â
Megumi feelsâŚÂ at peace. Like heâs got the whole entire world in the palm of his hands. He wraps his arms around you, and realizes that no â right now, heâs got his world right in his arms.
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Mahito likes to play with his food before he devours them whole.
Humans are just soâŚÂ vulnerable. Even the coldest people have a heart; itâs only a matter of whether or not they find someone warm enough to defrost it. Megumi Fushiguro, for example, likes to walk around this world, acting indifferent and claiming to follow his own moral conduct, only to give himself the biggest weakness he could possibly harbor: you.
He still remembers that party. He still remembers the way you were dressed like a little slut, completely oblivious (or maybe you were just acting coy) to the wolfish stares all the guys were giving you. He had the same class as you. Seen the way you clung to Gojoâs charity case, as if the ground would swallow Megumi whole if you let go of him. Youâre cute, and you scream naive virgin, and thatâs precisely why Mahito wanted to take you to that bedroom and have his way with you.
And then, your infamous little guard dog bared his teeth and pummeled him into the hardwood of a strangerâs bedroom floor.
Grudges are cancerous. If you donât deal with it right away, it develops into something worse. It takes over all your internal organs, ruining you âtil the only thing you can focus on is getting revenge. And the longer you wait, the more vengeful you get. It doesnât become a matter of ruined pride or reestablishing honor â it becomes about inflicting the most pain one possibly can. It becomes about suffering â about transferring your pain, your anguish, onto someone else.
Mahito isnât the type to hold grudges, but for Megumi, heâll make a special exception. He wants to see just how well trained the boy is; after all, heâs been taken under the wing and supervision of Satoru Gojo, the myth himself. Surely, his student must be nearly as skilled, right?
Itâs been a long game of watching and waiting on Mahitoâs end. A lot of lurking in the shadows and gathering intel. Itâs a lot more boring than he anticipated, but todayâs the day where all his hard work finally comes to fruition. Megumi Fushiguro is going to regret ever interfering with him that one fateful night. The burning humiliation heâs felt has long since fizzled out, but since heâs already been set on the path of orchestrating Megumiâs destruction, he figures it only makes sense to see it through. You only can let go of a grudge after you get your proper revenge.
Heâs been leaving Megumi all sort of taunting, teasing threats any chance he gets. Mahitoâs got nothing but disgraced yakuza members on his side; those who have committed acts vile enough to get them kicked out of what is essentially a group of criminals. He knows how to be twisted â hell, twisted might be the only thing he knows how to be.
Killing girls that resemble you and sending him the photos. Taking videos of you when youâre out in public alone. Leaving voicemails for Megumi, ones that leave him pale faced and unable to breathe as he listens to how Mahito wants to tortue you.
Megumiâs been on edge for the past few months, unable to explain to you why. Itâs why you donât understand why Megumi wonât let you go back to your car, even though you left your phone in there.
âIâll go. Or, we can go together.â
âYou have to wait for our coffee! And besides, I donât even know where I left my phone. It might not even be in the car, but youâll just waste your time searching for it if itâs not there.â
âSo then why do you have to go look for it?â
âBecause itâs my phone? Also, I reeeeeallly donât wanna have to wait for our coffee, so I figured looking for my phone in the car would kill some time.â You give him that sweet smile of yours that he loves so much before waving him goodbye. âIâll be back by the time our order is ready, pinky promise!â
At the end of the day, itâs all luck. Mahito realizes this as you happily skip out of the crowded cafe, headed towards your car to search for your phone. He doesnât know why youâre returning back to your car, doesnât even really care. All he knows and all he cares about is that youâre headed there alone. And while youâve been alone plenty of times, heâs never had an opportunity quite like this one. A chance to finally detonate the bomb thatâs been lying dormant underneath your car, ready to be activated at the press of a button. He couldâve killed you plenty of times already, but itâs not enough to merely murder you. He wants to make it a spectacle, sure, but he also only cares about one audience member watching:Â Megumi.
From where heâs hiding, blending in with the rest of the customers from the bakery across the street, heâs got a decent enough view of Megumi, whoâs sitting by the glass windows, watching you with furrowed brows as you unlock the car door.
Mahito canât help the cruel smile that spreads across his face as pushes the remote connected to the bomb.
Nobody expects to hear the loud, resounding boom of something exploding. The surrounding cars parked next to yours have their alarms going off like crazy; itâs nothing but high pitched, blaring noises blending together to create a disruptive harmony. People are screaming, someone is on the line with emergency services, andâ
âyour precious car is set aflame, reduced to a burning pile of scrap metal no salvage yard will take.
In this moment, Megumi Fushiguroâs world crumbles to ashes.
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cw: slightly inebriated smut (only tanjiro is tipsy, really). tanjiro being his soft self. fem!reader. modern au, characters are a little older than college age. one (or more) silly jokes. pussy eating. penetrative sex.
Your boyfriend is far too social, you think to yourself as you tip your red plastic cup to your lips, drinking the last of the punch Tanjiro handed to you before returning to practically schmoozing the crowd, the remainder of your friends and old classmates gravitating around him like moths to a flame. Itâs not his fault, you remind yourself again, taking another sip, the alcohol hitting the back of your throat with an airy gulp. Heâs popular and social; he shines like the sun always, while you are somewhere closer to hot summer rain, sweet at times but intense and easily transitioned to thunder and stormy weather if suboptimal conditions arise.Â
Similar to now.Â
You can already feel your social battery slowly drain to the end of its lifetime, dreading what will ensure thereafter. Shinobu and Mitsuri had enthused you earlier in commenting on outfits and filling you in on gossip (Zenitsu having a restraining order against him ordered by two girls in the exact same neighborhood and Inosuke accidentally eating cat food Gyomei had left out for the neighborhood stray then asking for more), but now Obanai had quickly captured the latter girlâs attention again and they were off to God knows where in this party house, while Shinobu had decided to turn in early and disappeared without comment. You find yourself perched on a high stool while the remainder of the party continues to rage, loud music making your head pound with the bass. At some point, Tengen and Rengoku started doing competitive keg stands and youâre almost sure that if you see Tanjiro do this too youâre going to head upstairs and go to bed without another word. Instead, heâs playing a drinking game with Sabito and Giyuu, Sabito with a pingpong ball in hand and aiming a little too seriously at the arranged cups. Murata stands at the other end of the table frowning and you wonder when heâll ever win a game.
The Demon Slayers are a rowdy bunch when they party.Â
You reach the end of your drink and consider a second when you suddenly feel a hand clap onto your shoulder, squeezing hard enough that it startles you to the point of nearly falling off your seat.
You yelp, and Inosuke is grinning once you turn, and you think again about the cat food before you ask what he wants.Â
âWhat do you mean what do I want- JANJIGO YOUR GIRLFRIEND WANTS TO LEAVE!â
Inosukeâs loud voice cuts clear through the music, enough that Kanao and Aoi whip around from their lazy positions cuddled on the couch to look in your direction.
âI did not say-â you hiss at him, but Tanjiroâs already quick to come over, smiling all the while. Inosuke grins and disappears, and you consider throwing something at him, your face is so warm and embarrassed, but youâre quickly distracted by Tanjiroâs gentle voice.
âHey, are you tired?â he says breathily. Heâs already easing you off the seat, taking the cup from your hand to discard it, and holding your other hand gently with the other. Heâs pleasantly buzzed, soft red on his cheeks matching the tint of his dark eyes. Heâs disarming you with how cute he is, and overly affectionate, his face nuzzling into your neck practically as he leans in.Â
âTanjiro~, there are people aroundâŚâ you remind him as he starts to kiss your neck, but he whispers a soft âso?â and you realize thereâs not much you can do to deter him from being too handsy, and decide to pull him away before you end up embarrassed. Heâs practically laughing as you pull him up the wooden steps of the rented home, and you move so quickly upstairs, you end up stumbling, only to be scooped up and pulled close to get kisses between giggles.
âWhat are you-â
âYouâre clearly too drunk to walk,â he teases, although heâs slurring his speech far more than you are, eyes gently lidded as he looks at you. Warm around the ears, you decide to abandon that fight, and remind him where the room youâre sharing with Mitsuri is, thankful that youâre not sharing with Shinobu and your roommate is nowhere to be found.
âDonât drop me,â you remind him.Â
âWouldnât ever for the world.âÂ
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Tanjiroâs coordination despite inebriation is a bit too good. Not content to just drop you off and see you in the morning (as you expected) by the time the door is closed, heâs at your neck and then your chin and then your lips, until youâre kissed every inch from your forehead to the center of your breasts, and heâs pulling off your jeans, lips still closed around your nipple. Hands heavier than usual under the influence of more than a few drinks run all over your body, and play with your pussy as he kisses you, spit-slicked fingers toying with your clit and your insides until theyâre wet, then further wetted by the motions of his tongue. Sloppily he makes out with your pussy, head between your dangling knees until youâre moaning and squeezing your thighs shut around his head; something that doesnât stop him, only spurs him further.Â
âSorry for leaving you alone down there,â he whispers against your pussy, then slurps further, and itâs almost laughable that he chooses now to apologize. You laugh and whisper that itâs fine but then he licks a long stripe through your cunt that makes your back arch as you let out a moan and your fingers tug shakily on strands of his hair. He says a playful âowâ that has you whispering sorry but shuddering all the while.
âIâll give you all the attention you need, okay?â he promises. You nod as he gets up and pulls his shirt over his head, your eyes practically swimming with desire as you watch him. He catches you enjoying the show and winks and you would die for the cringe if not for the act that heâs quickly turning you over onto your belly, taking a handful of your ass hostage before pressing his chest to your back.Â
Slipping inside you, he groans a bit.
âThe doorâs locked, right?â you murmur, trying to distract from the stretch between your folds.
âYeah,â he says through a grunt. You're not sure if he actually knows for sure but you do know, he'd never lie to you. You sigh, as he pushes in to the brim, and then lets you settle around him, letting his fingers pet your hair gently, and his other hand plant carefully into the mattress beside you. Still folded over the edge of the bed, he gently grips onto your scalp, and then heâs thrusting in, slow, then fast, then faster, then hard as your breaths deepen and you let out a moan. Skin slapping against skin, your voices melding together, Tanjiro is soon a little too exuberant, and a little too strong, soon lifting you off the mattress until your trembling arms are trying to find purchase on his slightly bent knees. Just seconds into this position, he has some mercy on you and itâs a normal stand, gentle, slow, loving - he kisses your neck as he moves you up and down, careful, until he slows, resting his arm against your tummy and breathing in your scent.
âI love you, you know that,â he says, breathily. You savor the twitch of his cock inside you as he eventually lays you down, additional, slower strokes accompanied with deep kisses. Your heart flutters as you keep going.Â
You know that. The social butterfly will always come back to you, whether youâre a thorny rose or a bright daisy, your special fragrance always carrying him home.
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