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Sorry do most people only have like one or two seizures before they’re diagnosed with epilepsy and put on meds?? I had FOUR GRAND MAL SEIZURES before they were like “okay let’s do an EEG to find out!” ???? No wonder i have ptsd from it I thought I was just being a baby
#actually epileptic#epileptic problems#epilepsy#grand mal seizures#seizures#medical trauma#medication#and then the meds kicked in#and I was loopy for like half a year#completely no memories of that time#besides the seizure I had during it
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Long time no FD how we feelin
#loz#legend of zelda#legend of zelda majoras mask#loz mm#majoras mask#fierce deity#FD#fierce deity link#my art#been such a long time since i've drawn him#of the links out there hes definitely one of my favs#i need to replay mm again...#i made a comic featuring him and skullkid a while ago that i never completed#kinda want to go back and finish it for fun#largely from memory so forgive any mistakes because ........ *walks off*
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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This is a brand new science for me, and I love it. The language of luck. 'Cause what is a coincidence but a form of accident? Two things bumping together unexpectedly. Like you and me.
#dwedit#doctor who#usertennant#userteri#userveronika#miatendos#userdiana#usertreena#ruby sunday#fifteenth doctor#maestro#*#originally this was just going to be ruby + snow and then it devolved from there#memories changing... being brought into the present..... some connection to the ancient one. luck coincidences connections.#the doctor describes the legion as a 'pantheon'; a group of gods. and so far they're all personifications#the toymaker is 'a living game'; maestro is 'the essence of music itself'; henry arbinger = harbinger and acts as prelude to the gods#then 'the one who waits' is perhaps... time? death?#and 'the oldest one'... that could mean a lot of things#my first thought was that the oldest one would be death since the finale is called 'the empire of death'. alternatively: life.#but if you connect it back to ruby: luck coincidences connections. so far that's been her whole thing. so maybe something related to that#then again we're only on ep 2 of 8 so... anyway. idk what any of this means but. thinking thoughts!!!#worth noting: if the snow is a warning it starts snowing in the tardis during the scan. it reveals her genetic id/species/age#but not her nucleotide composition. whatever tf that is. and it only gets to 75% complete before it pans away. but it does finish scanning#and in canon 6+ months pass between the end of ep 1 and the beginning of ep 2 so... presumably the doctor has SEEN those results. fwiw.
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Eddie’s live-streaming in his studio when Steve comes into the room like, “Did you hear about Lydia Martinez?”
Eddie: Who?
Steve: Lydia… Dude, she sat behind you in Click’s class
Eddie: ????
Steve: Tuesday/Thursdays?? 1985????
Steve: Big Farrah Fawcett hair. Green eyes. Great… *gestures* boobies. She was sweet! Really cute. Let you copy her homework. You know.
Eddie:
Eddie: Yesterday, you forgot what the password on your phone was but you remember a random person we went to high school with?
Steve, rolling his eyes: You know her though, right?
Eddie: Clearly not!
Steve: Well, she died. Heart attack.
#Steve later that day: You remember Lydia?#Robin: With the great rack? yeah#Steve will remember the most random memories in great detail#but has just completely forgotten his own ssn mid-writing it down#this is actually based on this one time I forgot the code to unlock my computer but could type it in using muscle memory#eddie munson tiktok saga#steve harrington#eddie munson
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does anyone else spend a concerning about of time thinking abt laios being the one to kill chimera falin or am i just unwell
#dunmeshi spoilers#dungeon meshi spoilers#spoilers out the wazoo im not kidding#anyway im thinking abt this again#every time i reread the final few chapters i see chilchuck joking abt laios suffocating her again#and my brain spirals into. does falin notice that little 'again'. is there any other circumstance where she'd find out#about how she was killed in chimera form#it's unclear how much she remembers from her time as a chimera#the other characters we see get resurrected have their memories perfectly intact#while falin mentions not being able to remember details from the time of her first death#nor her second one#which suggests her complete reanimation mightve scrambled up her mind#anyway. the point is#i dont think she remembers. but laios does + her body does#and im sure it bothers laios for the rest of his life#dunmeshi#chattering
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Read a post which said Daniel only becomes sympathetic to Louis after 2x05 because Armand's abuse had also affected him and he only cares about stuff when it affects him personally and, while i DO think we should talk more about Daniel being an asshole to Louis because Daniel being a monster is actually very important to the story, that's just a mystifying take to me. Daniel suddenly changes his mind about how he feels about Louis in that episode because he goes from thinking Louis is just the guy who tried to murder him that one time to realizing that Louis is actually the voice in the back of his head thats been keeping him alive this whole time. Like. Thats pretty explicit in the text. Thats not him being selfish, that's him finding out Louis not only saved his life in 1973 but has been saving his life continuously ever since then, that everything he has accomplished in life has been because Louis saw him in a moment of weakness and lent him his strength. Prior lack of compassion for Louis or not, anyone would have a change of heart about someone if they found that out.
#that whole post was a very bad faith take on daniel#completely ignoring the fact that in daniels memory louis tried to kill him the last time they spoke#iwtv#daniel molloy
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my personal headcanon is the vees were unremarkable nobodies when they were alive. i just love it as a thematic throughline for them. they love to let the public of hell speculate on them being famed and acclaimed since before death, but the the truth is they were a d-list failed influencer that got by on cheap controversey and scamming, a broke junkie who burned every shaky bridge he ever had, and a worn-out broadcast production assistant with more rejected auditions and tossed out script pitches than he could count. nobody missed them when they were gone, nobody cared who they were until they were dead.
#because villains who didn't start off supremely powerful are more interesting to me#vees#it's not that they CAN'T be better. or that they're simply ignorant of the ways they fuck up others lives#they actually all do have that knowledge of being the underdog. and it's made them all the more shitty#because they never want to be those people again#narratives about people who make each other worse <3#to be clear they were still shitty people in life. manipulative. consumed by greed and envy. all their individual flaws etc etc#but hell made them into the absolute worst versions of themselves#of course what their Worst Self is and the journey/length of time/initial reaction to being in hell varies#like val sees hell as a continuation of the things happening in life. just w/ the power dynamics always privileging him#it's the same drugs and violence. except the violence isn't just survival anymore but the chance to indulge his deeply sadistic desires#vox has completely dissociated from his time alive. that person is dead and he's reinvented himself 1000 times over since then#90% of the time he has those memory files shoveled into a hidden directory#he refuses to acknowledge that he's still haunted by some of the same insecurities from almost a century ago#val doesn't necessarily see his living self in a fond light but he does see that person as fundamentally him#velvette thinks life was full of people who weren't her demographic but fortunately that's been fixed by sinners!#they just couldn't Get Her and that was all their faults#the primary way they view their past selves can be summed up as: scorn (vox) apathy (valentino) and in denial (velvette)#sorry the bulk of the post was in the tags. i will be doing this again#the scorn is the coping mechanism for shame. of course
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"you can connect any song to a blorbo" is a lovely sentiment, but have you considered: "you can connect any song to a version of yourself?"
#my own ramblings#fictionkin#rainy day by ice nine kills and amnesia was her name by lemon demon are very akizet songs right now#i should make more posts about being akizet honestly#theres truly something interesting about having my own spotty memories becuase of the sheer distance between then and now#and the game itself having my memories fractured because of time for completely different reasons
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WHEN YOU COULDN’T SAY A THING BEFORE?
(i move fast with these things, holy moly. also i did not forget the loops! i just didn’t feel like including them :3)
#isat#isat spoilers#siffrin#isat siffrin#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#in stars and time siffrin#zeisty’s in betweens#yeah hi guys it’s me again#don’t mind me my brain just likes stockpiling ideas and forcing me to execute them#i do take breaks though!! i promise i do#anyway some of this was done by memory. and by which I mean the dialogue.#yes hello friend ammonite. i saw you reblogging the last versions of this animation. so i just wanna say:#THIS IS SPOILERS FOR ACT 5!!! you’ve only seen the first two loops so far!!!#so you should probably mute/block spoiler tags for isat!#seriously! it’s one wild ride and it’s fun experiencing almost completely blind#and you’re definitely wandering through the tags because you’ve been tagging me in cool stuff you find#so just keep in mind we’re not here yet. and there’s some stuff you should probably not know yet :3#yes i had to tell you through the tags. hewwo :3
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there's an alternate timeline where the new 52 reboot kept all three batgirls but retconned all the robins except for dick, who went back to being robin with nightwing banned from being mentioned at all
#batman#batgirl#barbara gordon#cassandra cain#stephanie brown#dick grayson#the trade off is that cass’s personality gets derailed and completely ruined by bad writing#while steph changes personality every time she has a new writer and no one knows what to do with her#so not too far off from what actually happened to them *shot*#other things: dick never gets to move on from the robin title. he's just robin forever#when the other batboys are reintroduced they're given different identities instead of robin with new backstories#barbara gets shot in the head as if being shot in the spine wasn't enough and suffers her own ric grayson arc#steph comes out as bi and starts dating some random girl (not cass) while also dumping and ghosting tim for like a year#right after she received memories of their pre-flashpoint selves and confessed her undying love for him#cass stops using the one thing she's most known for (her martial arts) in favor of like. hooks. in reference to the end of her solo series
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I’ve seen people bring up the fact that at the end of 2x04 Louis and Armand are fighting and then boom, start of 2x05 they’re the most sickly sweet in love we’ve seen them yet
I could be misremembering things. But uh. We haven’t heard anything about the removed diary pages since Louis asked to see them at the end of 2x01 and Armand agreed to gather them for him, have we?
Louis definitely hasn’t been given them because we know what’s in those pages, and we know it’s something Armand is trying to protect Louis from. But Louis was pretty insistent about it. And he hasn’t followed up on that at all since.
I’ve seen the interpretation that the beginning of 2x05 lovesick storytelling is just Louis and Armand putting up a united front to make up for fighting in front of Daniel before that. But the diary page discussion doesn’t happen in front of him. They have no reason to pretend in front of him for that particular thing.
Louis asked for the diary pages, Armand agreed. Louis was never given them. And we haven’t heard anything about it since.
I could see the performative unity interpretation of the 2x05 scene if it were in isolation. But both of these happen as they’re getting ready to sleep — getting ready to rest — and then the story abruptly forgets they ever happened. They parallel each other too closely for me to think the writers don’t want us to connect those
Armand, for as loving and protective as I know he’s trying to be, as well intentioned as I know he thinks he is, has rewritten the memory and mind and intentions and feelings of the love of his life multiple times in a matter of days
#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire spoilers#interview with the vampire#iwtv 2x05#iwtv#armand#louis de pointe du lac#I don’t think I’ve ever been this seethingly angry at a character before as I am at Armand right now#and please note I love Armand as a character#I think he’s sympathetic and interesting and layered and I understand his intentions and point of view and why#am I remembering things wrong about this??? im doing all of this off of memory so I could be completely wrong about this#but the thought of this is making me kinda sick#because if it’s so casual and so often#how many other times#what else#it could be anything
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"Arthur caught that."
"Did he?"
"And he killed that with his hands!"
#hamish <3#I think arthur definitely saw a lot of himself and his ideal life in hamish#a nice peaceful cabin by a lake completely uninterrupted by people?#with no worries except fishing and occasional animals?#arthur lives for that stuff#I'm glad hamish and arthur bonded so well and became good friends whilst they still had the time to#and john being able to bond with hamish over his memories of arthur?#my heart aches but fills with joy at the same time#I wish we could have buried hamish#oh arthur#oh john#mick squeaks#mick gifs#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#arthur morgan#john marston#hamish sinclair#red dead redemption community
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yaoifies your indie horror film
#my art#late night with the devil#jack delroy#leo fiske#every time they got like 2 inches from each other's faces in this movie i was holding my breath#it happened so much#the toxic yaoi potential goes kinda crazy...#also I drew leo completely from memory because there are like 0 pictures online so yeah FODSIFOSA
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UMM?? GUYS??
Alt coz ik the quality is bad::
[The mind Bill knows best. Pure ego. Putty in Bill's hands. Bill will also reveal that, while he was possessing Ford in the 80's, he ripped out a number of pages from Ford's journal and erased his memory of them. Bill will show the LOST PAGES from JOURNAL 3 that have never before been seen]
DOES ANYONE WANNA TALK ABOUT THE MEMORY ERASE THINGY COZ IM GOING PRETTY MUCH INSANE OVER THIS INFO. WHAT.
#ok but imagine if this is really what coulda happened. that bill suddenly realised that ford is the only one he's been THAT vulnerable with#and that he might or might not have fallen for him in the process#and in the pure NEED to avoid any sentimentality he doesn't only DENIES all that happened between them but also erases the memories of ford#like?? the first and only relationship he ever felt safe in enough to be honest about the reality of what happened to euclydia??#or the fact that it might or might not has been the only relationship in which he let himself be intimate with sb??#and this relationship CRUMBLING COMPLETELY#bill fumbling SO BAD that he wants to deny that any of that happened in the first place??#it kinda eliminates his manipulation of “hey look so we've been close w each other once so why not get back to that for old time's sake!”#but GOOD GOLLY this guy sucksss at manipulations anyway but is like an expert in the art of denies#it just adds such a huge ass layer to him as a character#this is prolly non canon btw but STILL#gravity falls#bill cipher#stanford pines#billford#book of bill#alex hirsch
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instead of nightmare approaching horror to recruit him for the gang i think it would be cooler if he talked to undyne about it. because she would not hesitate TWICE to ship horror off to fuck knows where in the multiverse
like booo booo boring horror would never cooperate and agree to join nightmare without him doing some extra work that he cant be bothered 2 do bc its doesn't benefit him enough 4 the effort put in. AND THAT METHOD DOESN'T EVEN GIVE HIM MORE NEGATIVITY!!!!! nonono the king deserves a show :3 so he goes to undyne who's the craziest of everyone in horrortale and yk yk does some stupid mind manipulation. maybe in exchange for horror he makes up some bullshit lie about how he could save alphys (is she even alive atp) or the rest of the underground and provide them food (like the same deal that nightmare WOULD offer horror) and undynes like 70x more fucked up than horror so of course she's accept in a heartbeat. shes the queen!!!! shes supposed to provide for her subjects (even tho shes kinda. erm. making them all suffer)!!!! and all it would take was a sacrifice of the guy she lowkey doesn't like??? undyne has more reason to accept a deal like that from nm than horror ever would. and it wouldnt be the first time she sacrificed horror anyways lol
idk she sends royal guards out to snatch up horror in the middle of the day (nightmare told her to make it dramatic and tense :3) (all of snowdin would probably follow in concern because OMG WHERE IS SANS GOING????) and then yeah. just like that horrors gone! nightmare probably didn't even give him a chance to say bye to paps. undyne never ends up getting the food nightmare promised because hes a bitchass like that (and papyrus probably ends up taking up the full leader role of food provider for snowdin (if undyne even lets snowdin stay out of her control) good luck for him!)
if horror had a nickel for everytime he got forced to be a sacrifice he'd have 2 nickels. which is actually 2 too much in his eye HES PISSED!!!!!! rightfully so become man ☹️ taken away from his world without even a choice or a reason (to his knowledge) or anything to benefit him??? and now hes STUCK in this disney movie castle with two freaks who look like him (what the FUCK) and then the most annoying THING he's ever had the misfortune of getting kidnapped by. he is in misery. it sucks. he IS infact bitter. if he ever came back to horrortale (which he literally would never get to without dying or losing his stolen eye) he would 500% commit anarchy and finally get rid of undynes annoying ass ‼️‼️
#horror gets to join killer in the forcefully kidnapped into the gang group#would horror lose hope of ever getting back to horrortale???? yeah probably :3#unlike dust he doesn't have dt so he would NAUGHT be that persistent#dust would die trying getting back to dusttale. horror would just want to die after not being able to get back#unlike dust (debatable) or killer (he's done all he can do to help his world and wants to move on) horror still has attatchments in his au#i KNOW the constant thought that snowdin is starving without him HAUNTS him like a plaugue#im like 80% sure horrortale would not survive without horror. it would implode without horror to keep undyne somewhat in check#NOOOO because like what if it was after Aliza manages to help all of horrortale???? like undyne#like she manages to get through the undyne somehow and everything seems to be going up slowly#horror FOR ONCE has hope for everyone again and then nightmare comes in and undoes ALLLL of aliza's progress!!!!!!#THE HOPE GETTING RIPPED AWAY FROM HORROR AFTER SEEING THINGS RECOVERING WOULD DESTROY HIM (maybe idk)#can just imagine killer having to be on suicide watch for horror bc nm can tell he's in a bad mood bc of that hope#killer doesnt have to be on suicide watch for dust bc he wont let himself die if his human still exists but horror?????#horror would not have the same will that dust and killer do. he tries to jump off buildings every mission#horror leaning off a ledge and killer's just holding onto his hood like man stop it this is wasteful and pointless#why does he keep trying to kill himself and have to make killer deal with this. cant horror just like get the fuck over it and do his job#anyways dust and horror exchanging stories about their aus and reminiscing about things before it all went bad#horror gets pissy anytime dust makes an offhand comment tying his story about the genos#dust completely ignores him when horror mentions something about the famine and how it fucked everything up#they rather just take this moment to pretend everything is alright in their memories#in that moment its almost like looking into a mirror. ok triglycercule getting a bit TOO poetic there#horrordust seeing sans in eachother only when they talk about their pasts and making it a way to deal with all thats changed#tricule hc#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#nightmare sans#murder time trio#bad sanses#nightmare's gang
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