#commit yourself completely

[creaturecannibal]

my favourite red & black album covers

bat for lashes - lost girls // fiona apple - when the pawn // interpol - turn on the bright lights // radiohead - amnesiac // lucy dacus - historian // beck - true love will find you in the end // mitski - laurel hell // car seat headrest - commit yourself completely // tv girl - french exit

[pimeboi]

Unpopular opinion (?) I hate the Commit Yourself Completely version of Beach Life-in-Death

[aromantisk-fagforening]

I love Commit Yourself Completely, but I also really like the intro to Fill In the Blank from Teens of Denial

[sylphidess]

the chinese really said hebe THE GODESS of youth

[nanihirunkits]

WE ARE | EP16

[s0fter-sin]

soap's whole deal being sniper and demolitions gets me going bc on the surface they sound so different but when you get into it, you realise it's bc soap's smart

sniping is all math; calculating distances and wind interference and bullet drop. something i think people overlook is he was listed as a sniper first so it can be implied that he's better at it than demolitions. he does more sniping in both campaigns than demolitions work; in capture or kill, ghost specifically calls on him to take down the aq snipers

and demolitions is math with a hit of chemistry; knowing what mixes with what, knowing how much to use, recognising environmental factors and adjusting accordingly. it's not just about the boom; so much work goes into contained/ planned explosions. especially when having enough power for a breacher charge and not bringing down the whole building is the difference between mission success and failure

the chemical bombs he makes in alone can't just be any old cleaners, they have to have the correct reaction to each other; he just knew off the top of his head what would mix with what to create what reaction. he would also potentially have to recognise them by sight/smell bc they would’ve been written in spanish

soap would also have to know architecture; recognising structural integrity and weak points so he knows exactly where to plant a charge to bring it down and how it'll come down

he has an incredible soldier's mind people just forget that bc he's sociable which itself is a skill

we know he tends to buck against orders he doesn't agree with like when he pushes back against ghost in capture or kill and shepherd when he tells them to release hassan

he gets closer to people and sees if he can trust them and that's when he follows them without question. really think about how he talks to alejandro and rudy; he asks about their home and alejandro's family and rudy's relationship with him. those aren't questions you ask a stranger after a few hours of knowing them. that's not even touching on his relationship with ghost

he also deliberately brings people of higher ranks down to his level; talking informally with ghost and giving him a shoulder punch, addressing alejandro (a colonel!!) by his first name and rudy by his nickname despite literally just meeting them. he personalises all of them and it’s in direct opposition to the reason most characters do that; it’s not due to insubordination or lack of respect, the more he respects and trusts someone, the more casual he is with them

he digs into people; he wants to know what makes them tick and that determines if he can one, trust them and two, follow their orders. once he decides that, he's the ultimate soldier; he bleeds loyalty which makes him vicious when that loyalty is taken for granted

he isn't naive or bubbly or insecure; he's an incredibly smart and aware soldier. he's aggressive and bloodthirsty and loyal and intuitive and i love him so much

[sunken-in-a-sense]

please forgive me for being cringe on the cringe website

this is actually a pre-split panic! blog i am just endlessly facinated by ryan ross. i keep spinning him around in the microwave that is my mind

[natjennie]

fuck. kristen this season is coming for my fucking throat.

[butchdoggy]

faulkner...

[maximotts]

Really quick before I go to bed because this boils in my more whenever anyone asks me about where whatever fic has gone/what happened to updates:

A lot of people have been asking for my confessions series to come back and I just have to say that part of the reason I stopped posting it regularly/have no real motivation to publish it anymore is because there were fairly low interactions for each chapter. I didn’t really feel bad about putting it on indefinite hiatus because it didn’t seem like it would matter to most people?

I’d been so excited to share this story and between the notifs ratios/low feedback/chapters being flagged within hours, it killed my love for the series and when I realized what was happening, I stopped posting the chapters so I could fall in love with my own work again. And it worked! I adore that AU and writing it at my own pace and talking about it with my friends, etc.

But it’s crazy to me that so many people ask when it’s coming back/why it’s stopped while continuing to like,, Not interact with the parts of the series that are posted?

I’m not saying I need anyone to flood me with notifications to get me to post because I make it my policy now to post on my own terms in order to protect my own love of writing/what I write, but basically.. don’t be confused when a series you supposedly love and miss stops updating when you don’t show that you care while someone is putting in time and effort into putting out content for you. Don’t wait for writers get discouraged or burnt out before you show your support.

[leezuhh]

i think game jams are a test of patience of how close you can get to snapping at someone

[blujayonthewing]

desire to roleplay authentically when my character has traits that can come across as difficult or frustrating vs irl intense fear and terror of ever being difficult or frustrating FIGHT

[aromantisk-fagforening]

this is probably only about recreational drugs, but like #painkillercore.

songs to listen to when taking paracetamol, ibuprofen and/or naproxen. (disclaimer do not mix ibuprofen and naproxen)

[liesonthefloordramatically]

Tiny round-up of TTRPG characters I played this year:

Oleander (she/her), the Wild Spirit in Wickedness

Julia North (she/her), the Secret Girlfriend in Alice Is Missing

Not pictured:

Picker (they/them), a warforged rogue in a D&D one-shot

(obligatory picrew link)

[homosexchad]

[opens reddit]

[despite muting about 10 fucked up subreddits every fucking time i open reddit, i take 60 points of psychic damage trying to navigate my homepage without seeing bigotry, far right content, or people complaining that reddit is leftwing]

[closes reddit]

[looks around, breathes, +1 psychic healing]

[opens tumblr]

[i've blocked tags that bigots use..... i've curated my feed....... i've followed people who's content i enjoy...................]

[fuck yeah]

[cosmicheartz]

When The Chips Are Down from the Hadestown musical is Kitty Softpawscore

particularly the lyrics " Cast your eyes to heaven you get a knife in the back "