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temporarymoods · 1 year ago
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"relax" time
hey bloggggerooni,
you're intercepting me in my personal time. you see, i've been employing apple calendar-- i cannot reccomend her enough-- and 10:07 PM puts us in the block of time labeled "Relax" and colored purple. I could do anything in these next two hours. And I decided to get a little high and talk to you.
<3
I haven't smoked in a while, it's true! Especially alone. A girl does not have the time. But I've been looking forward to it, knowing its at the priority list, but if I can just,, do enough,, to reach it. Lmao. I meant it when I said I've been busy.
Unfortunately, I've got so much, too much, sativa. I know, I know, so lame; shut up about weed strains. But I had to say it?! Why did I go crazy. Why did I do that. Lol. Anyway, the only non **wake up** product got with me is this hyrbid flower. Didn't even get the chance to think about rolling by the time I see this beautiful little blue bowl. Honestly viewer, I forgot where I got it from. Thus prompted the following one-handed-ly-typed note:
wherr did i get. t his bowl
I take notes a lot, when I'm awake. About lots of things, right. Here's another:
- directory ,, crm/?
So know they're (me) talking about those personal communications file flippers. Do you know the old ones? Where 90s business professionals used to keep track of how long its been since they last intereacted with a person? Boy have those had an effect on me. Why do I think about those all of the time. I just wished upon mine, but alas, it does not exist.
I've been thinking a lot today, yesterday. So much, in comparison to how much I've been looking at myself. Very little. So much so, that when I go to get a little high and on my porch with my blog, as a treat, hehe, and I see my reflection in the facetime app, it gives me pause. I am a person, I am a human, I'm one of them, the rest of them, who you think about all the time. And you've got people. Wait, who are those people? And how are they doing?
That might be something I need to do more.
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Welcome to K-Ray94.4, this is your DJ Kate. For your considering, the following, without further ado...
Hawks | Jodi
Rubberneckerss | Christian Lee Hutson
End of Beginning | Djo
Salvation Army | Harrison Whitford
Calling the Shots | Jamie B.
Horable Mention: I'd Have to Think About It | Leith Ross
Guys, gals, pals, despite love, despite commitment, despite trust, I can not get myself to listen to anything other than indie/folk right now.
I'll be back, though, I'll be back................
That one bowl went berserk. Another? she asks.
Trader Joe's chocchip muffin for now, thanks.
Part of me's been wanting to change the theme on here, super randomly. Like it's too bright. I really like the old Microsoft look, haha, but want something darker...? Or I'm clinging to a passing vampirism fetish?
I can see the glowing lights of the city skyline from here. They're twinkling, like jewels, through the new gap in the tree foliage. Soon there will be more of them, and I'll have a warm drink, a scarf and mittens. I look forward to those times.
Lots to look forward to. !! :)
I've been liking these thoughts so far, catching their flow through time. I like writing; i just always get so scared.
Until soon, very soon, as there's lots to discuss, Kate 10/10/23 10:31PM
p.s. playlist 'momtober'
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hyacinths-in-a-storm · 11 months ago
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Why did no one tell me Smoke and Shadow was 90% of Kiyi bullying Ursa for being anemic.
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jesterspecter · 25 days ago
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Knell of the Bells
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0rchidm4ntis · 1 year ago
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At least the moon will keep him company in the dead of night
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liebelesbe · 2 months ago
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my dad is going to see the Deadpool Wolverine movie and I'm so jealous :(
nobody in this house should be allowed to go out and have fun until I'm able to go out and have fun again >:|
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onenerdroaming · 10 months ago
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wanted to capture how silly I can look while hiking in the winter
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wkxs · 8 months ago
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Hello friends, life update 🍁
See tags for trigger warning.
In relation with my last life update post:
My sister had a miscarriage
We had a huge falling out (somewhat related to the first point)
I had to sell my car (technically it wasn't mine, and my sister owned half of it)
We are going to start to live separately as soon as possible (I'm trying to use my part of the money to buy an apartment)
I'm getting a raise in the next couple of months
I'm going to look for a diagnosis (I'm starting to think I also have a little bit of PTSD, it's not normal to have your heart skip a beat because you heard footsteps and doors opening)(you don't want to know why I have these reactions)
I always come back to Tumblr when my life is going downhill, and I saw the things one of my mutuals tagged me (I'm going to answer it, I just need to remember how to express myself), so I'll be more active in the near future.
If you have any tips on how to live alone/articulate my thoughts and feelings properly send them my way. I'm trying to save some cash to go back to therapy ✌🏻
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wlwaerith · 2 years ago
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the weather is getting colder and i finally feel like a person again
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cutexasxabutton · 1 year ago
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|⛄| ❝This is a tag dump!!!❞ |🖤|
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icewindandboringhorror · 2 years ago
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Daily Log 9
Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.
Activities: Worked on the previously mentioned tapestry style painting thing for like 5-6 hours today (with a few breaks in between), and that's just for the border around the main picture lol.. I think all the little sections and detail always take longer than I think they might. But hopefully the final product will look interesting! :0
I feel like I'm entering another Sick Phase where I just am weird/ill/sleepy/having joint pains much of the day (probably some vitamin deficiencies or hormone imbalances or general bodily inflammation or whatever nonsense seems to randomly pop up from time to time lol), so couldn't focus on anything more intensive like writing or editing videos, unfortunately. It's good to have smaller crafts I can do that don't take much mental effort and are just menial hand tasks (like carving, painting, sculpting, etc.), but I still always feel frustrated falling behind on the things I see as much more broadly significant to my overall life and potential career (making games, writing, finishing videos, socializing, costumes, etc.)
Organized my desk a little. Responded to some doctor emails. Paid bills.
Planned out something I might make with pressed flowers tomorrow.
Edited like 4 costume photos.
Also have a lingering sense of dread due to the weather. The heat often makes me feel terrible, and if I'm already in kind of a Bad Phase at the moment, I'm afraid of it making it even worse... stimky..
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Which I know these temperatures are nothing to some people but.. to me... aUGHHHH... I am abnormally heat sensitive + live in a dinky old apartment with no ventilation that gets direct sun the hottest part of the day.. on a 90F day outside, it literally gets about 84F inside.. like.. even people who love the heat I feel like would struggle to sleep at night if their bed is 85F lol... hewwo.. You can spray yourself down with water, drink ice water, put a fan on yourself, etc. etc. but.. sometimes it just feels so oppressive and inescapable..
ANYWAY. Aside from painting, feeling weird, and dreading the upcoming heat/contemplating my entire life and how to get enough money to move to a different climate somehow one day/existential exhaustion/etc., I didn't accomplish very much lol
Spent maybe 30 minutes thinking about a little more worldbuilding stuff, and some things in reference to the game I mentioned resuming work on at some point.
Notable sights: The clouds were really pretty and pastel this afternoon, and some stars are visible in the sky for once since the nights are beginning to be clearer. The 'forget me not' flowers that I thought had died after transplanting actually seemed to be perked up and healthy looking today, and perhaps may actually survive. >:3
Goals moving forward: Do new poll adventure post. focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with the ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.
Notable foods: Not much, kind of a warm day so didn't really want to use the oven. No idea how I'll handle the diet I've been put on by my doctors (involves usually cooking all food fresh, using the stove a lot, nothing is supposed to be canned or processed or premade, so that eliminates a lot of 'quick easy simple warm weather' meals, etc. etc.) during the heatwave. I might just have to break the diet a little and hope it doesn't give me stomach pains while I'm already hot and feeling sick lol..
I did have a boiled egg with some green onions on top, which is very simple but was refreshing somehow lol. Another ice cold ginger ale treat today, and some cold prune juice (which I know most people find gross/it's an old person food/etc., but I like that it's a smooth textured and not very sweet juice? Like it's slightly thicker than apple juice, has a lightly bitter taste, etc. I just find it nice for some reason. More evidence I am secretly an 85 year old wizard)
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#why can't it be global cooling instead of global warming.. what if everything was just ice and I was comfortable and happy all year around#heat also sometimes gives me like a.. mild situational claustrophobia (like not a place that you are confined in/can't escape#but more an environmental factor that's all consuming. Like when there's fires and smoke fills the sky for days and it's like no matter#where you are you could never get away from it unless you're locked inside shut off from the entire world. if you need a breath#of fresh air or are feeling too confined you no longer have the option of going outside. it's all toxic. etc.)#Or like part of why I hate long car rides is for that reason. If I'm 3 hours away from home there is no way for me to get home#other than to ride 3 hours back. If I suddenly decided I really would rather be home I could not get home quickly. the 3 hours#to get home is an inescapable barrier. No matter how sick I started feeling or how bad things are and how much I wish I was comfortable#and safe at home - the only way to get there is to get there. you knowwhat I mean lol? I can't just be home in 20 minutes#it's a 3 hour ride or nothing. etc. etc. Like if you're on a ship in the middle of the ocean and suddenly just desperately decided you need#to be back on land. there isn't anything you can do. nothing will get you back on land but to stay on the ship and travel the hours it take#to get there. there's no quick exit. No way out that isn't doing the thing you already really don't want to be doing anymore (being in a ca#r or being in a ocean or etc. No alternative route but to just suffer the situation longer). idk.. if that makes sense??#so with the heat sometimes it's like.. it's hot INSIDE and it's hot OUTSIDE and it's hot everywhere you go theres no escape#from it and nothing you can do but just.. be hot. no matter how desperate you are to just BE COLD even for a few minutes#you simply don't have the option. The only way to get cool again is to just wait out the hot weather. You can yearn for the feeling of a#cool breeze all you want but abdolutely nothing will get you colder than just to be miserable in place and wait for the passage of time.#I always get that feeling in the summer like after five 90+F degree days in a row you're like AAAAAAAAAA#JUST AN ESCAPE JUST A QUICK ESCAPE DEAR LORD ' and then 5 minutes later like 'hee he. no its fine. haha. im actually so okay#with my situation i am coping.' short bursts of heat induced frantic anxiety with some resigned calm in between ghjgj#ANYWAY. yes every year I complain about the same thing. I am a hater and a complainer first and foremost ggh.. I love to be honest and#express my thoughts and opinions. I think way too many people are so reserved and repress everything for the sake of like social etiquitte#or personal insecurity (like owrrying they're being annoying or talking too much or that novody cares what they say etc.)#and then that ends up causing passive agression and communication issues and resentments that boil under the surface for years because they#re never adequately expressed. I don't think complaining is an inherently negative thing and it's weird to me that people react so#like it's some sort of moral thing to be against it. Like of course within reason. don't complain to the point that you appreciate#none of the good things around you or like where you start bullying people or something. but broadly speaking. being able to express your#concerns and thoughts in small bursts easily and openly and release some of that tension is better than just holding onto it all and having#it come out larger later or making you internally miserable or etc.. ANYWAY.. yeaghh.. hate heat.. hopefully done with painting soon.etc.#daily log
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immcrtalsx · 8 months ago
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@mcnstercus ( Savannah )
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Hands off my bacon!
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mossyinkynebulous · 8 hours ago
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so, it's been a while where I've had a day off where I didn't have to get multiple classes worth of hw done and not go anywhere or have to get ready to go to the next day, like a breather day that I could take at my own sluggish pace.
I got an art piece done and almost 1 class's hw done that's for the rest of the semester basically. Did I "waste" half day where I could have been more productive? Sure, but I'm also in the least amount of pain I've been in a while. Did having a couple nibbles of an edible aide in the pain? Also probably. Either way though, I've had a generally productive day with the smallest amount of pain that I can recall for like at least the past month.
The point of this is to reaffirm to other people who deal with chronic pain that it's okay to take a break or day off to just deal with the pain. To have a day at your own pace that allows you to minimize the amount of pain you're in. That you don't have to keep pushing yourself at the rate and expectations that those aren't in pain do.
It's okay
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awildwriter · 2 days ago
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i wanted to have already had my agathario fic posted because I’m about to see wicked
gotta brace for that to consume me for a hot minute
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tinyweevil · 28 days ago
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RAAAAAAAAA AAAGHHVCVHHHZLDJZ AAAAAAAAAAA
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as-rare-as-trees · 2 months ago
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Yes! Summertime rage is over, it's time for, uh... winter blues?
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fallencelsetial · 2 months ago
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The weather is changing. I’m in pain.
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