#coldbloodpoetry

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I just want someone to tell me that loving me is easy for them

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I smoke.

There is a feeling of you in the cigarette smoke.

I inhale deeply. You are all around me, invading my lungs, leaving your scent on my clothes.

I can almost smell you, taste you in every breath.

The cigarette burns out. I light the next one with shaky fingers.

The ashtray is full.

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The bliss found in the absolution to destroying your life carelessly when no one needs you, no one loves you.

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In a haze of hedonistic melancholia

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If I were asked if I would rather never meet you, my answer would be yes. Because that would mean that I could never lose you, that I would never have to live in this agony of mourning you for the rest of my days.

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I realised how numb I was when I saw a shooting star, not knowing what to wish for.

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The disastrous thing about a low point is that you know exactly when you're headed for it again, and yet you can't do anything about it.

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Grief doesn't get easier with time. You just learn to ignore it and become numb.

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I've been wondering about my memory of you since the first time I saw you.

- Caterina Stamou about Venice

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Venice, I saw you now you can die.

Caterina Stamou

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It is so fucked up that I could have cried all day for years and now I can't shed a single tear even if I wanted to.

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only people with a pure heart will give you the advice to feel your feeling because they cant imagine people who have regret and grief burnt into their hearts

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the life old question: could i not cry for months and generally just don't give a fuck anymore because i did heal and it is just the normal range of emotions or am i just deep in depersonalization?

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even on the days i don't think of you i feel that piece of my heart i lost with you

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if you have no more secrets left you might as well be dead...