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I feel like night shift is going to make me be healthier because it’s midnight and my stomach is about to f’ing explode. I didn’t think I ate that much but I am nauseated and dying. Can’t even drink my energy drinks because any caffeine nauseates me. I’ve been up since 1pm- I’ve had 3 coffees, a taco, a bowl of pasta and a mandarin. And my stomach is fucking dying idek why that doesn’t SEEM like a lot of food.. but I’m fuckin dying. It might be the caffeine. I’m screwed. The smell of the facility is terrible and literally smells of sickness. I might die. Pray for me.
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working 2p - 2a and I'm tired
(it's currently 11:30, so a little bit to go 🥱)
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Why Midori is such a breath of fresh air or how to actually write a Villain.
So the awaited essay, the winner of the FrenchGremlin polls of laziness finally has come! It took some time but it’s finally over. If your choice didn’t get chosen that’s okay! I’ll repost a new poll with old and newer options. Please reblog this one i put a lot of time in it, it's like, five pages long over a silly goose. Also sorry for the grammar i sucks and i'm not native. So let’s begin:
(also here is the link to the video format)
So first let’s make things clear, What IS a villain?
“A villain is a character whose evil actions or motives are important to the plot.” That is why I do want to make a difference between a villain and an antagonist, an antagonist is a character who are a plot devices that creates obstruction to the protagonist. That means that a villain is forced to be an antagonist while an antagonist is not forced to be a villain. For example shin is an antagonist but not a villain, he is driven by selfish desires which are themselves fueled by fear anger and loss, he is the protagonist of his own story and is a sympathetic character despite it all, and Midori is just a bitch. Midori falls under multiple stereotypes of villains. Such as “the mastermind”, “evil incarnate” (lmao),”related to the protagonist” etc. Midori is evil, there is no denying in this, he is purely evil, and he doesn’t have a sad weepy backstory, he doesn’t feel empathy towards other, he is a despicable piece of shit who ruined so many lives. I won’t list everything but here is a list of his crimes, murder, assault, domestic abuse, grooming, verbal abuse, and torture, crimes against humanity lmao, stalking, violent crimes, and participation in a cult. And his worst crime is being a pussy bitch of course. So now that we have put the bases up let’s really begin.
Hollywood has a hate boner against villains and I hate them for that.
Recently Hollywood decided that pure evil bad guys is actually a bad thing, so now they decided to do stupid side story with them, to give them ”””depth””” since I guess how could we like those villains since they are bad. A great example of this is the Disney remakes which I loathe so much oh god I hate them. So first they did a maleficient it was okay honestly, then they did a freaking cruella movie where her mom gets killed by Dalmatians, that’s not a joke, in the peter and wendy movie that nobody saw they decided to have made the captain hook be a lost boy who was abandoned by the lost boys and peter, oh also they decided that PETER CUT HIS HANDS OFF AND LEFT HIM TO DIE BECAUSE HOOK WANTED TO SEE HIS FAMILY. They are going to do a freaking mufasa movie, in no time I can’t wait to have a Ursula movie where it’s discovered that ariel killed all of her family in cold blood or something’s. So you might say what’s the problem? I mean isn’t that supposed to make the story more interesting. No, no it doesn’t, because first they take all of the character personality traits and throw them in the bin, second they are supposed to be the vilain in a musical animated movies, I am not against complex villain, I love them, but by doing this, the original character doesn’t exist anymore. Just create original content with new interesting characters instead of doing stuff like this. Also it’s kind of funny than in all of those interpretation they take all the fun and sucks it out, what do I mean by fun, the gayness, Disney vilain are fun because they are camp, they are fabulous extravagant extra in all the ways possible, and that’s the reason we liked them. Not every character needs something super deep, like “my family was burned down at the stake and my dog was eaten by my ex”, sometimes we just like bad fun people, they are the story, and Hollywood hating them so bad just bothers me a lot. Also now the new thing is to not have a villain at all which can works in some narrative but not all of them, it gets boring after a while. In the past people were angry that villains are bland, but now I kind of miss it. While I will critique villains who have no purpose outside of being evil that’s dumb, like for example Voldemort is bland like white bread because his only motivation is being evil, but evil people do exist compared to what some Hollywood writers think, they should know. So that’s why I will put a difference between evil villains and villains whose only purpose is being evil; we loved Disney villains but they still had motivations, goals, reasons that to them a least were worth everything. World domination isn’t enough, why do you want world domination, what is the true reason deep in your heart, is it an inferiority complex, is it a savior complex fuelled by xenophobic beliefs.
That is how to write a pure evil villain, evil people exist all over the world, but I have never seen one who doesn’t have they own reasons to be so bad, it doesn’t excuse their actions nor really explains them. We do not want justifications we want explanations. If you are justifying evil behavior then do it, but don’t claim that it is a pure evil character. A pure evil character can be fun, can be interesting, he can be deep, it’s all about balancing all of their traits to truly make them greats. Which is why midori succeeds while current villains fail. Current stupid remake/spin off try to justify the behavior because they feel like this is what the audience wants, but it’s not what we need. So I will defend to the grave evil villains.
Creating an evil villain doesn’t make them boring guys.
Why the heck does big budget movies have either the blandest protagonist or the blandest villains sometimes both, like I said evil people do exist but comically evil character only works in satire not in a serious multiple millions of dollar movie. Example that boring ass avatar movie, the one with blue people, none of the characters are interesting the villain is one note. The lords of the rings also suffers from that, but I don’t care because the protagonist are so awesome that sauron being personality less doesn’t matter. Also sauron is more of a force of nature villains so it’s not the same. The recent kingsman movie has a bland one note villain, there is nothing entertaining, funny, about him he’s just evil, borrrrring. Every Disney remakes depiction of the characters are boring. I just feel bored out of my mind. Atla one of my favorite shows of all time has a main villain that’s kinda one note, Ozai, but he is actually intimidating guy, azula is the superior character, but I wouldn’t consider her a villain she is an antagonist though. I honestly don’t get why Hollywood thinks that just creating a character with no personality and whose only goals is to be evil is good.
So back to midori for a second, here is my question, when midori was on screen did you ever feel bored? Never right! Because despite midori being an evil character he has an actual personality, he’s fun, you want to punch him in the balls. Because midori has other personality traits than evil, midori is petty, childish, extremely intelligent, controlling, a natural manipulator, he is a trickster, he doesn’t seem to get some social norms, he is narcissistic, easily angry, and fears death etc See how I counted a lot of traits, traits that in other character would works, midori has positive traits, and I think that is the best thing nankidai could have ever done, midori has traits that a regular person could have. Which is why if I put midori in any settings his character would work.
Example, instead of a death game the cast is under the sea to discover the insane wildlife and supernatural stuff happening, what would midori do in this situation? Well he would very passionate about finding all of what’s happening, he’ll do anything to find out, even sometime sacrificing others, not only will he try to find what’s happening, but he is also going to try to find a way to make this discovery favour him in the end. Or let’s imagine it’s a vampire situation, where a vampire attacks the city, midori would try to stop it, not because he cares, but to experiment on them to get their biology and finds the real secret of immortality since he fears death.
Here is my second advice, after creating your character try to imagine them in another completely different situation, like normal life, or a fantasy world, ask yourself the question what would they do in that environment? If you can find a real complete explanation of their actions then yes your character has multiples dimensions if not try thinking about it again. Some example of questions I do want to point out are some like “if my character had all the power in the world what would they do first or”, “if my character had only a day left to live what would they do��
Why is Current media incapable of creating good threats like bruhhhh.
Okay so first of all let’s talk about stakes in a story, let’s say you are watching a slasher movie, slowly the cast gets slimmed down and people die in horrible ways, that should set stakes right ? Well if the villain is an absolute buffoon who makes the stupidest actions and decisions in the world, you wouldn’t feel intimidated at all because despite what the filmmaker might try to say the plot armor will NEVER make a character intimidating. It’s just like a detective character who just seems to know everything without a thought, well you won’t really fear the character failing. Worse is the the final girl, who is for some reason always escaping the slasher guy by pure luck every time, she is shown as incompetent but still she survives, which make the villain seem completely incapable so now you feel nothing.
To avoid this filmmaker often use techniques such has unpredictability, I mean good I mean good ones, for example instead of immediately seeing whose going to survive because the black guys always dies first and the virgin white woman is the last survivor, change the status quo, make us think that this character is obviously safe while they actually aren’t at all. Or actually make them menacing by SHOWING to the audience how horrible dangerous they can be. Which is why SHOW DON’T TELL is so important, telling us how dangerous someone can be only to see them get beaten to death at the end of the movie makes us feel nothing.
Midori felt like a impossible person to beat, he is smart, had twenty plans in advance, even in situation where the cast felt like they might have a chance he was always armed, just like the gun he promised to use or the rocket punch. When they felt like they were finally advancing, he put obstacle in their ways, such as the collar game or the moment he put the collar on explode mode for ranmaru. The entire point in the murder game was to make time pass, it took a long time for the cast top realize that this whole time they were losing precious time not realizing that the dummies were the real problem. The characters that made you feel the most hopeless were the dummies, if you won by killing midori they would die, but if you lost you might lose people you love (keiji or gin). It felt hopeless because they were no solutions in the end. That creates tension so that creates stakes. If we were told how dangerous unpredictable sou was then it wouldn’t hit the same, we are shown that he is that terrible. There is a scene ingame where bbg shin ai tells us that midori tortured and like to destroy people. That’s exposition so TELL, but do you why it works, because we are SHOWN before his behavior. Midori felt unbeatable, so the fact that we were shown his weakness such has his petty behavior, hatred of minors, and fear of death, for the first time it feels like there is a chance that we might survive this. And still after he isn’t shown has an incompetent buffoon, he is one, but the narrative doesn’t show us that he is.
What is also consider is good to make the audience feel actual stakes is to first really develop well the main characters, how can we feel worry for a character if we don’t know them, the audience need to feels emotional connection to the main cast to actually care. You can use things such has moments where there is nothing special happening just character talking getting to know them. Make us feel why we need to care about them possibly losing, instead of being indifferent. Or I don’t know maybe make an entire spin off game where we get to have the cast talk to each other and seeing dynamics between character that died early to get them a chance to shine and make their death even more tragic, or even make mini episodes of characters who only got a single chapter to show off their characteristic, to get us to know them better? But that’s just a silly idea of course, wink, and wink.
My favorite thing about Midori is that he is actually pathetic, like really pathetic, but weirdly realistic?
Midori is the most pathetic character in the cast, yes more than shin, shin is leagues less pathetic. No I’m not saying that midori is not intimidating or scary, I would piss myself if I saw him. He’s a scary guy. But if you look at him more closely you can see that he is a baby brat in a big boy suit.
So let’s start by something clear, Sou Hiyori clearly displays antisocial behavior, or in common terms he is a psychopath/sociopath, this illness is very badly seen in medias, I am not saying that people who lacks empathy like him are inherently bad, he is, a lot of people with antisocial behavior actually suffers a lot and have a difficult life. Sou real issues is not his antisocial behavior, it’s his narcissism and god complex. Sou feels the need to HAVE CONTROL over others, he like the feeling of being in power, he sees the rest of the world has beneath him, toys for his pleasure. He says that he “really like humans” because despite it all he seems to put himself in a different categories than regular people, they are beneath him. When he loses control his calm and cool behavior disappears and we see his true face, a grown man who has throws a tantrum like a baby. One of the best representation of this is midori views on the cast:
Midori hates kanna, like no jokes he has beef with her, a fourteen years old, actually he has beef with a lot of people in the cast. Midori views emotional people has weak, people who are loving optimistic as beneath him and useless. He preferred when sara was cruel and horrible, that’s what he loved about her, he liked seeing her scary emotionless side. But Kanna, kanna is everything he hates. A crybaby who not only puts the group in harmony, is a source of hope in general, is the reason he near got to have closure with shin (killing him), he views kanna as “not fun shin”. We have many proofs for this, if you type the word kanna kizuchi he says this: “Poor Kanna'd weep! I think a more worthless name would be better for someone like me” He mocks her, but also himself (I’lll come back on this later), he calls her worthless. Also in the electric charge minigame, when he can choose who to shocks he chooses two people in particular, kanna who he hates and hinako who ruined his fun by giving the cast a chance in saving ranmaru. But he does also says mean spirited stuff to other people, qtaro and gin. He also says some sarcastic comments about nao and joe, saying that it’s such a shame that they died so young. But you might say why kanna especially? Because he is a petty baby who is jealous of kanna, Yes jealous, of kanna, a fourteen years old. Because he feels like she stole his hubby wubby shin away from him…. God I hate him. And you know what that make him a pathetic idiot, after the scene where kanna beats his ass, he’s all mad and like “uhh I’m going to pout I wanted you to cry like a lot, now I’m gonna cry”. An that’s actually god, because it humanize him, he wants need thoughts, he isn’t one note, and that’s the most important!
Sou is a villain but before that he is a character, a fully developed character, and THAT’S WHAT MAKE HIM GREAT, Sou works because he works realistically, I mean if you forget the robot part, it’s easy to imagine a narcissist man child who needs to feel in power towards other, so his main prey are young vulnerable people.Which leads me to my next point:
Sou is a failure like really, and we aren’t sad for him.
Sou failed everything he worked on, he failed to get the paper from alice, he failed whith shin since he had to leave earlier than he thought he would leave, because of his mistake he lost his position in the death game, then he failed to kill gin or keiji, and then he died like an idiot losing his cool and acting like a toddler. And he knows it that why he is a bit self-hating (he should be). And yet none of us feel any sympathy towards him, why? Because sou is one of the most despicable guy in existence. He is a disgusting pervert, sadistic asshole, and abusive narcissistic cunt who thinks he is better than everyone. From the bottom of my heart I hate him sooooo much he is literally the character I hate the most in existence. He abused shin, ruined keiji’s life, traumatized the entire cast, literally assaulted sara like he physically assaulted her. He mocked nao and joe and kugie life as useless. He is an obsessive jerk AND I HATE HIM. And you know what…… It’s good. Like I actually feel a lot of emotions when I think about him, he fuels me with anger and disgust, and if your characters can make me feel that much rage then you did it, you created an actual perfect character. Hiyori is such a shit person that I think about him a lot, writers shouldn’t be scared to make a character such hittable assholes, example bojack horseman in bojack horseman is the vilest man on earth and I love it, because I genuinely hate him. Just like I genuinely love kanna, like really I really love her, I in the same time despise midori so bad. We hate him because he is horrible to good people that WE KNOW AND CARE ABOUT, not random npcs. There is a lot of… disgusting implications in his story with shin that I will not talk about it makes me really uncomfortable right now. SO HERE IS A VERY TACKY TRANSITION TO TALK ABOUT WHY I HATE JUNKO FROM DANGANRONPA.
Junko is boring, that’s it, she is boring, not funny not interesting, she is a fetish, she is the biggest Mary sue on earth, she is a gross character made to make fun of people with disabilities and queer people. Her only traits is being crazy, that’s it. I wouldn’t call midori that crazy actually, he’s methodical calculated, and precise. Crazyness is a term for people who aren’t in control of their actions and delusional about reality, sou is not crazy, he knows what he is doing, he is in full control, while characters like shin should actually be consider crazy, like shin is actually crazy but sou isn’t.
Conclusion:
Sou is a breath of fresh air, because nankidai had the balls to write an actually interesting deep and threatening character AND make him a villain. He didn’t fall into the trap of making him have a sad backstory or good motives, sou is just selfish, that’s all he is. He make him a fun entertaining guy who you absolutely hates, he made him threatening and at the same time a complete doofus. He made him humane and pathetic.
But the thing that make me love nankidai the most is this
The fact that he actually killed him that takes courage as a writer to just end a character THAT WAY, which is why midori will never come back alive he is forever dead. And that take a lot of talents as a writer to just take one of the most important characters and just get him drilled to death in the anus, like dammn nankidai you are a savage. That fact alone makes him one of the best characters in game, I hate him as a person, but has a character he is a masterpiece.
Though Kanna could solo him
this was posted as a video on my blog this is mainly so people who don't want to stay there reading a 24 minute video of my stuttering can have a bit of quiet
#yttd#your turn to die#kimi ga shine#shin tsukimi#kanna kizuchi#sou hiyori#midori yttd#cna you tell i have no life#i spend a part of my short existence writing about fucking midori#yttd analysis#frenchgremlim polls of laziness
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losing my entire mind at this hot take in an aggresisvely R+ Facebook trainer's post. comment section is full of people asking for sources and the poster claiming the "prey drive myth" has been debunked same as alpha theory. I can't comment because I'm not in the group but oh my god.
#dogblr#dog training#absolute nonsense#this was on a post about how ecollars shouldnt be used to train recall which like whatever#i have no strong opinions on that although i do and probably wil forever proof recall with ecollars#but oh my god#when you see this in a post you cna pretty much disregard anything else this person saus#im an actual real life biologist and i can confirm dogs do have prey drive and dogs are predators :)
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Im crazy- Im crazy! La-lalalalalala
ANOTHER COSMIC BALL POST HECK YEAHHHHH!!!!!! IM FREAKING OBSESSED
Also bc I remember is Pride Month so uh- this post will be bc of that Ig, idk-
Simple drawings I did in less than a hour! yeaahh :D enjoy!!
thing I have sketched for MOOONTHs aaaAAAAAA
seeing EVERYBODY doing this stupid meme so here I am, like- I have seen this meme A LOOOT and we are just in the third day of the month WHAT THE-
this 😗💛💛
btw yeah I like doing the kisses like hearts shaped hshsh also is just a visual thing I like to do it are technically not visible!
and quick headcanon thing bc yes
Yeh I dont have much headcanons hah- I dont rlly burn my head w this type of headcanon ig?? and also I dont rlly know much Im more of make backstory headcanons! hhahshshs is fun tbh ◉‿◉
WAAAAN I DID ALL THIS DRAWINGS TODAY??? hahshshhs-
JEEZ OK- Officially, I am kinda exhausted of Drawing (not rlly hAh-) so I'll not post in some days, maybe a week who knows, I FEEL like I need a quick rest??? hshsh
but also school so aaaAAA
but dw I might share random thoughts or just write sometimes hah
just that
This boy/girl (idk it depends on how u see me hahA) says Happy Pride to all the LGBT community around this app!
and and, idk I dint rlly have much to say about it LMAOO
Bye!! hahshs
im obsessed w this guys is- is rlly worrying to me tbh /hj
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#Cosmic ball is my life style rn /j#Cosmic Owl you have no idea how much I enjoy drawing u I Love u I love ur design#in special thise cute eyes of yours omg 🥹💛💛💛#COSMO MY LOVEEEEE#Also putting u as Demiaroace bc I am too and and- I like putting that hd in my fav characters hshsh#cosmic owl#cosmicball#fionna and cake orbo#orbo#fionna and cake#adventure time#💛's art#I ALSO ENJOY ORBO'S DEAIGN TOO IS JUST SO COOL EVEN IF SIMPLE#IDK HOW A CHARACTER CNA BE SO COOL W SUCH SIMPLE DESIGN???? ORBO LOVE YA U SO COOL!!!!#fanart
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OKAY YES, you were reading that right. idk why but i always imagine those three at the forefront of arguments. nikolai definitely being the voice of reason, but nick and julian are just assholes who argue 😭 but i can completely see albert being up their too, especially because of him releasing his solo music, and wanting to kick off his solo career. (which i don’t think was him wanting to leave the band in any way). i think im gonna have to make a whole post about my thoughts on their angles dispute
IM LITERALLY MAKING A POST ON THAT TOO lets compare notes after i finish my four fucking assignments due this week
and yes i can definitely see that. the thing is that nick is very opinionated and not shy at all to say it and julian is julian which is to say that hes a control freak who wishes he wasnt a control freak and all of them suck shit at communicating
HOWEVER i would say that nick is also definitely the voice of reason sometimes but in the way where he's clearly barely holding himself back from just yelling at you. it's great they all try so hard and i guess it must work to a certain extent considering theyre still together
nikolai is so reserved that it's hard to get a clear handle on him but given that mmitb quote from fab about him being the only one julian would bend to (which. i still need to fucking know what he meant by that changed later on.) and him being the one to wake julian up in a 2003 recording session (i knoww i wish we had a more recent one too but whatever the whole business of rpf is extrapolation and i cba to find a more recent quote rn) it makes sense that he would be a mediating force. but i will also say that i'd wager hes far more outspoken in private than he is in interviews so idkk
i wanted to post this as a quote and then i thought maybe i'd just synthesise it into a post summing up my thoughts on angles but anyway yes they argued a lot about albert's solo shit during pre-angles and from what he says it was partially him being fucking depressed from all the drug abuse and not feeling like he belonged in the band anymore. which doesnt mean that he didnt Want to be but when youre in heavy addiction and a very dark place mentally..yeah. i can't fucking find the quote about him describing how he self-sabotaged/sabotaged the band a lot trying to force them to fire him like he didnt show up to rehearsals didnt contribute etc i swear to god i read it but i can't finddd itttttt
#ask#bodytalkbaby#the strokes#i have a BUNCH of quotes i wanted to dump that are very relevant to this i'll synthesise them into that angles thoughts post umm after this#essay#god i cna lock in so hard for the strokes but not school fuck my life
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happy chinese new YURI
#b4 u say cny waks likr 12 days ago . i knwo . BUT ut is cellebrated fkr 15 dsys so im alllowefd 2 makr this joke#i dod actuaolly wabt 2 draw thjs by cny just fkr the joke but . Life#anywyas u cna tell thst the 2nd n 3rd imgs r the 1st passses bkt uh . pretendn (Ha) thry arent#great pretender#edaurent#edaurent yuri#<-tag 4 me . allso id likr to see hiw far i cna take this#edamura makoto#laurent thierry#grepre#my art
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He wants to order.
#ldshadowlady#smallishbeans#mcyt#as u cna see from ym last post im normal about them#eh might as well tag#life series#rose draws#nothing gets u to draw like boring uni classes amen
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life of a healthcare worker: short staffed and call offs every shift, without fail.
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god i am obsessed eith the tonal shift between ahlf life 1 and 2 in regard to the sense of success at ur accomplisments
in 1, nothing you do ever gives u a sense of success or accomplishment, u killed people, u killed aleins but u have so much more to do. its an empty feeling, oh u killed the tentacles? cool go down the hole, dog urself deeper into this mess. oh you killed the gargantua and turned on the railway? go down deeper into the water and blood deeper into the bowels of the beast you created of the facility. you kill the nihilanth and u look up at the fireworks knoeing you are going to die, you cannot escape the explosion and the mess youve created. ur pulled from the mess and you are told you have guranteed urself a future of killing and endless battles or a battle u can never win. mothing you do matter none of it is worth anything. you are cold and alone and soaked in blood and people are only getting more scared
but in 2 the mood shifts, the smallest battles give people hope for a future. you can kill even a few soldiers and even if you do have to go deeper, the people around you cheer, if only for a moment, theyre alive and breathing and so are you. so many things yo do youre asked to do them again and again and each time these people are excited, thwyre grasping for a semblance of hope til thwir nails bleed and they cheer becuz they are alive and in the sun and watching their breath freeze as they cheer in the cold air of the mountains. the grass is green and growing and its more life than uve seen since before you moved to the middle of a desert to work in a concrete prison far from the warmth of the sun where it bakes all that it touches.
do you think gordon feels the happiness of the rebels? feels a sense of accomolishment in even the smallest thing he does? is he satisfied or fullfilled for helpjng these people? can he feel the sun warm the skin of his face and the bite of eastern european chill on his nose the way the rebels do? does he relish in that he is alive still? is he coming back? or do you think he still feels dull as he sinks deeper and deeper into the recesses of his mind and the concrete cage of balck mesa where his old life died?
#judt thinking about how often citizens and rebels in half life 2 cheer at wven pulling down a sign ir killing a robot#and how joyous and gleeful they sound at the smallest accomplisment#compared to how the guards and scientists get more and more grim the longer the game goes on in half life 1#things get worse and worse in both games in the forces they face but the world seems brighter in 2#maybe its becuz things in hl1 can only get worse when ur in the middle of losing ur way of life#vs things can only get better when uve got nothing to lose and every small win is more than uve had for the last 20 years#but its still just so beautiful and tangible#and i love to think about how gordon fits into it all#hes a relic of a different time a different battle where nothing he did mattered#the whole time was a battle against a derivative of nihilism a foreshadow of torment to come from the combine#and he coukdnt win that battle withiur self destructung#is it a sign of whats to come#has he changed? will he change? cna he survuve or is he stuck in a loop of the same battle over and over again#killing himself with everylife he takes as punishment for dooming hjmanity#iwillspeakincessantly#sorry#thinking
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Listening to The Amelia Project in 2017: Oh haha what a fun take on an office comedy! A death faking business, this is hilarious!
Listening to the Amelia Project in 2023: Death is inescapable, we will always leave behind those we love and be left behind, we do the best with the time we have and it is never enough, our stories will always outlive us so long as there is someone to tell them after we cannot
#I’m fuckin#I just#and it was a GRADUAL transition!#it wasn’t a fun sitcom with a hard transition into heartbreaking drama it naturally evolved!#don’t get me wrong it’s still very funny!!#but in a very bittersweet way#I’ve been describing season 5 as the hospice season#I feel like a CNA at a hospice home care listening to one of my patients tell me all their stories#and it’s great because have you ever really sat down with someone who KNOWS they’re dying and they tell you their whole life?#from the most traumatic experiences imaginable to the happiest days of their lives??#what the FUCK Amelia Project how did you get that so right??#how did you capture that unique feeling that privileged moment of listening to someone’s story while they’re on their death bed?#IN ONE SHOW???#im gonna cry#the amelia project
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#I AM SORRY FOR NOT UPDATING UNSOLVED I AM AWARE IT HAS BEEN OVER 2 WEEKS#ive been trying to finish these never-ending list of assignments#so i cna graduate from this stupid college#since im not attending physically i have to submit assignments constantly#and also my chemotherapy got extended by 6 weeks#they have put me on anti depressants and in therapy#I WILL RESPOND TO COMMENTS AND WRITE SOON I PROMISE#i just got out of chemo yesterday i am waiting for The Symptoms ™ to attack me once more#IM SORRY I LOVE YOU GUYS YOU ARE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE#ari talks#tw cancer#cancer tw
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I want a loser twink bf and a loving, sweet, and perfect gf.
LIKE THESE. YUTA IS SO PERFECT AND KIARA OMG I LOVE HER/THEM SM!! I LOVE KANGEL SM AS WELL!!! ♡♡♡♡♡☆☆☆☆
#🦈gawr's fine!#i have different taste for men and women. msotly in real life though!!#like i will clean and do house wife stuff for those types of men and women#idk i super tired right now and i saw a video about types and boom#i also fisn unstable men and wkmen fine like omg i cna fix u... no i cnat and u wil probs ruin my mental health more!!!
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Actually TMA is so fucking sexy for having the viewpoint of morality is not black and white, and people can change and grow, but they have to put in the work for it. No one is owed a second chance, they work for a second chance, and you don’t have to give it to them.
#daisy tonner#mostly#but also like jon a bit#i cna explain more when im ready to do anything but vaguepost abt my life lol#landscaping your mind chapter one
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I blocked out my FB name. But I am a nurse. And I don’t make exceptions to my care based on history. I am a nurse. I care for people. While past medical history is a guide, it does not mean my compassion goes out the window. The #medical community needs to do better.
#healthcare#mental heath awareness#chronic illness#chronic pain#ignorant#nurselife#suck it up#compassion#law of assumption#you deserve better#doctors#nurse life#night nurse#cna#health care#medical colleges#medical complications#medical care
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