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1.14 nightmare // cn discussion of domestic violence and suicide
what an aptly named episode. this is one of the most upsetting episodes of the whole show for me. while it touches on themes that i love - what if the monster was family - the way it handles ms miller is deeply uncomfortable. and max's story is just downright awful.
i do find it interesting that this is the second time this season where dean is arguing that they have to stop someone even if they happen to be human. while sam is vehemently insisting that them being "human" means they have to take another approach.
the first is in faith:
DEAN: Sam the guys playing God, he's deciding who lives and who dies. That's a monster in my book. SAM: No. We're not going to kill a human being Dean. We do that we're no better than he is.
and then again here:
SAM: Dean. He's a person. We can talk to him.
i've said and i'll say again that dean understands that monstrosity is the result of actions and choices not something intrinsic. i think sam sees monstrosity and humanity as more of an intrinsic dichotomy and that's one reason he struggles so much in season 2. anyway.
but really what i want to talk about is ms miller. and how clear it is that she is also a victim of domestic violence. i understand, deeply, why max is so angry with her and why he sees her as an extension and enabler of his abusers. but i simply cannot fathom a world where max is experiencing the torrential abuse he's suffering where those people are not also harming ms miller deeply.
max accuses her, "You didn't do anything. You didn't stop them, not once!" their old neighbor says, "the worst part was the stepmother. She'd just stand there, checked out, not lifting a finger to protect him." the neighbor's claim always strikes me as a remarkably cruel reading of someone who is clearly also suffering and likely dissociating. like idk man of course i think adults have responsibility in situations like this (and i do appreciate the nod to the cops being useless) but like... "the worst part" THE WORST PART was the stepmother. i kinda feel like the worst part was the abuse, no?
but the upshot of it all is that ms miller's implied abuse seems like it has no witnesses. and that's of interest to me because of some interactions we've already dealt with in season 1.
in 1.03, we get this exchange:
DEAN: ... all that anger, you can't keep it burning over the long haul. It's gonna kill you. You gotta have patience, man. SAM: How do you do it? How does Dad do it?
then this in 1.08:
SAM: Remind you of somebody? Dad? DEAN: Dad never treated us like that. SAM: Well, Dad never treated you like that. You were perfect. He was all over my case. You don't remember?
and at the end of 1.14, sam says:
SAM: Well I'll tell you one thing. We're lucky we had Dad. DEAN: Well I never thought I'd hear you say that. SAM: Well, it coulda gone a whole other way after Mom. I little more tequila and a little less demon hunting and we woulda had Max's childhood. All things considered, we turned out ok. Thanks to him.
listen, i would never argue that john winchester didn't abuse sam. but i think it's interesting that though sam is critical of john's parenting and though he has complaints about how john treated him, he doesn't seem to think john treated dean poorly.
which, we just simply know he did. we know it because john does it in 1.09, 1.12, 1.20, 1.21. and because we're told he did in 1.18, 1.22, 2.01, 4.19, 9.07, 14.11, 14.12, 15.20, i mean i could go on.
and not that i have to filter everything through season 14 episode 12 prophet and loss. but i will. because it very clearly lays out how 1. dean was forced into the role of keeping the peace and 2. john would treat dean badly in ways dean wasn't sure sam was witnessing.
DEAN: I know things got dicey… you know, with dad… the way he was. And I just… I didn’t always look out for you the way that I should’ve. I mean, I had my own stuff, you know. In order to keep the peace, it probably looked like I took his side quite a bit. Sometimes when I was… when I was away, you know it wasn’t ‘cause I just ran out, right? Dad would… he would send me away when I really pissed him off. I think you knew that.
the uncertainty behind, "i think you knew that." ough.
but bad boys goes even farther here:
SAM: Hey, Dean ... I mean, why didn't you just tell me you went to a boys' home? DEAN: I don't know. Uh, it was Dad's idea. And then it just – you know, the story became the story. I was 16.
john told dean to lie to sam about what was happening to him.
so what does this all mean in an episode where dean is somewhat mirrored to and protective of the allegedly bystanding stepmother?
that abuse is shitty, cruel, secretive, and protects itself by pitting its victims against each other.
i don't know i wish i had something a bit clearer to say than all this. but it's just sad.
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P is like "please hug me, Father" and Geppetto is like "I would rather kill you and then myself"
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as much as i love the trope I don't think Ghost would be a good dad.
Ghost had a very bad childhood, extreme trauma from being tortured and literally prefers to be seen as a dead man walking than being alive and part of society. we witness ghost as someone who only waits for death and uses the combination of his unique skills and status as an officially dead person to be sacrificial and replaceable if needed. This man is passively suicidal.
Ghost is mega not okay. and that does not make for good dad material.
#he might be a daddy but not a dad#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#ghost#cn suicide#cn mental health#cn abuse#cn torture
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"people having to to safety maths on whether to correct strangers on their gender and constantly having to recloset themselves isn't really that important."
ok, but the suicide rate of trans and nonbinary people people isn't 40% for no reason. what happened to "gendering people correctly is suicide prevention"? this also applies to trans/n-b adults. not being seen for who we are is not a non-issue, it is often a death sentence.
and let's be clear about something:
casual misgendering is a microaggression.
and we know how microaggressions affect marginalised people. they slowly cut away at us until nothing is left.
we also know how gender dysphoria affects trans/n-b people. but a lot of people seem to forget that social dysphoria is a thing. it's all part of the continuous medicalisation of transness. inaccessibility of gender-affirming healthcare is a real issue whereas constantly having to choose between safety and the closet is somehow a non-issue. just because you can't perceive or grasp these social issues the same way as body dysphoria and medical treatment doesn't make them less real or less important or less fucking deadly. it also feels dismissive of nonbinary struggles because let's be real, we are disproportionately affected by this, because even if we present "hypernonbinary", whatever that even means, we will always be misgendered, always left to choose between compromising on who we are or risking bigotry.
some people really think the 40% only exists because people don't have access to gender-affirming healthcare when there are so many factors that all matter equally. in a way, the social one sucks especially because there is literally nothing i can do about it, no pill to take, no surgery to have, nothing will ever make people see me for who i am.
it's important, alright.
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The people of Schwarzkollm / Čorny Chołmc are just next level progressive for their time. Not necessarily out of their own volition but still...
Weird miller man from the weird (satanic) mill is dancing with all the girls? - That's okay. We will gossip as always.
Worst neighbour ever? - Give the miller some space. He's just like that, working at night and all that. (and we will warn the new yearly boy about him in the kindest way)
Vorshula killing herself? - We will bury her inside the graveyard as is right and proper.
#some christian confessions argue it's against god to commit suicide and therefore refuse to bury those on graveyards#and vorshula s death look like a suicide for 17th century peasants but they still honoured her#krabat#Schwarzkollm#Čorny Chołmc#sorbisch#sorbian#otfried preußler#cn suicide
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Okay, so Z was a bad movie. Had potential, but completely fucked it up. From the amphetamines for a non-ADHD kid, to the therapist who at first explained to the mom that the imaginary friend is real and wants her, only to the flip for no reason and telling her it's all in her head. Which then, spoiler, caused her to kill herself because she made the thing up apparently and that's how to get rid of it. Because a 5yo girl would make up a grotesque monster that wants to marry her and "have lots of babies".
Another horror movie where suicide saves the day and defeats the monster. Absolutely atrocious and bad messaging.
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@huachicken :
It kept Moana’s grandmother alive, presumably. She died immediately after parting with it.
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I thought she saw Moana's father heading off to burn the boats and realized the only hope anyone had was if someone distracted him long enough to get Moana and the Heart off the island, and the most effective potential distraction she could deploy quickly enough was to have herself a health crisis? like, it's too precisely timed not to be staged, but everyone seemed sure enough she was dying even before she gave Moana the Heart that I figured she had some existing health issue that would kill her if she wasn't careful enough, and she set it off on purpose, not necessarily planning to die but definitely okay with it if she did
but these are also not necessarily contradictory hypotheses, are they, hmm
when anywhere but the spiral on Te Fiti, is the Heart anything but a glowy rock? a lot of characters thinking so doesn't mean it's necessarily true
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You know perilous trails was a good quest when it singlehandedly improved Xiao’s fanon characterization by at least 50%. It seemed like more people began to realize that Xiao is far less of an edgy tsundere who’s snappy to everyone because he has #issues and far more like this tormented stray cat who stares at you from the secluded corner he won’t leave in the most poorly socialized and tense way imaginable when you try to coax him into approaching you because he is clearly starving and all alone in the rain and cold. He bristles defensively and bats at you if you get too close but every time you walk away and then look back you see he’s discreetly following you and is now staring at you intently from the bushes
#xiao#Genshin impact#Genshin#fern.txt#fandomferns#I feel like a lot of it was the original voice direction for his ENG dub#not even the VA I actually rlly like the VA like it works just fine in perilous trails#but a lot of the way they translated him early on was so muhc#for example. his voiceline about drowsiness in ENG sounds like he just suddenly snaps WHOS THERE? and is like oh? you think I sleep? tch.#no respect for the ways of the adepti#where as in CN. you hear him breathing quietly like he’s dozed off. and THEN he suddenly jerks awake#so him going huh??!? who’s there? you think I sleep?#now solidly sounds like he’d accidentally fallen asleep and is flustered you caught him doing so#which is so endearing to me & does a much better job of catching xiaos vibe as someone who’s actually very gentle in nature but conditioned#into thinking a lot of his existence must revolve around suffering all the time. like the way I took his eng voiceline was u run into him at#night hes on gaurd & snaps at u !#it is perhaps just a lot harder to maintain portraying xiao as this dramatically edgy emo boy unless u massively mistranslate the perilous#trails writing where he is spending the entire time mourning his dead friends & everyone has to talk him down repeatedly from#being suicidal bc he sees himself as a weapon & not a person. NFJVJNFKVJ#I remember ppl being like huh they really toned down xiaos edginess for this quest now he’s just depressed#NO SEE. HES ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THAT#this post got a bit out of hand. I have got to calm down#very normal about him if you can’t tell
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There seems to be a translation error in About Jingliu. Blade's story dialogues gave me some delicious suffering, but I know there's a different "feeling" when it comes to the original text and I was right, because 1) CN text for Blade was even more tragic and despair-inducing, and 2) this translation little error.
In EN, as seen above, it says that "as she [Jingliu] brandishes her sword" it would send phantom pain surging through Blade.
But in CN text the meaning is slightly different. In fact, there're some parts in CN text that are literally omitted (the part between the two "——") and it's basically saying:
"Every time I [Blade] swing my blade, phantom pain surges endlessly through my body —— every strike was fatal, every wound was agonizing but never enough to kill me —— it was all thanks to her!"
Of course, there's probably a more elegant way to word that, espcially since Blade speaks like a dignified old man lmao. Can't really think of flowery words.
So yes, anyways, my poor insane murder baby Blade... /sobbing/
also preparing another word vomit because I like to read about Blade and am fired up about expanding on his suffering :P
#kurim writes hsr#hsr blade#honkai star rail#tragic word vomit for my favorite suicidal stellaron hunter!#honkai star rail translation slight error!#blade looks like the picture image of those tragic male leads in my manhwa and Yandere Novels!#mmmm blade's suffering how delicious#HONESTLY HIS STORY DIALOGUES ARE SO MUCH WORSE IN CHINESE TEXT#I felt sorry for Blade when I read english text#but goddamn he really was at his lowest point in CN story chapter holy gawd
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about that:
Romeo + Juliet (1996)
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1.05 bloody mary // cn discussion of domestic violence & suicide //
i should try and keep better track but, i think season 1 has the most episodes where domestic violence is one of the main components of the case. episodes 1, 5, 6, 10, 11, 14, 15, 18, 20, and 22 all touch on it to greater or lesser extents. not that surprising in a show about family and violence, i suppose. but because what matters most to me in all of spn has so much to do with DV, it feels significant.
1.05 doesn't linger long on the knowledge that mr shoemaker killed his wife with sleeping pills. most of the focus is saved for charlie's revelation that she feels she killed her boyfriend since he was threatening to kill himself to manipulate her. dean says to sam that it's really not charlie's fault her boyfriend killed himself. sam later says the same thing to charlie.
maybe it's because we're just getting to know him, but s1 is where i find some of the most meaningfully layered dean reaction faces. i talked about a few already in 1.02. and 1.14 has another one that floors me. but i don't know how i missed this one.
could mr shoemaker really have killed his wife, charlie asks. dean's reaction isn't really directed at her. sam tells charlie, maybe. but dean's face, hidden from sam whose looking at charlie is this tense mix of a resigned yes, of course, it sucks that the world is like this. he doesn't find it unbelievable at all that the dad could kill the mom and he's not happy about it.
not to once again start talking about 1.06/skin before we get there, but i think the above scene in conjunction with dean believing from jump that it was entirely possible sam's friend zack killed his girlfriend is significant to me.
SAM: I went to school with her, and her brother, Zack. She says Zack’s been charged with murder. He’s been arrested for killing his girlfriend. Rebecca says he didn’t do it, but it sounds like the cops have a pretty good case. DEAN: Dude, what kind of people are you hangin’ out with? SAM: No, man, I know Zack. He’s no killer. DEAN: Well, maybe you know Zack as well as he knows you.
maybe it's a bit of a stretch but this is why the claim that even early season dean's viewpoint is "monsters bad, humans good" never sits right with me. he knows people do terrible things to each other and he's mad about it! it might not be the thing he's been trained to handle but he's certainly not giving humans a pass on their capacity for monstrosity. Not to jump the gun another time but you know, "I’ll say it again—demons I get. People are crazy."
both 1.08 and 1.14 add complexity to dean's reaction to and private versus expressed feelings about family dynamics and i'm excited to get there!
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I want to beat the thaumaturge so I can 1. find out the truth of the dadson mysteries, but also 2. write crossover fic with lop
I feel like geppetto and wiktor could bond over standing in front of trams and carriages and begging to be run over
geppetto standing in front of the tram and the driver's like GET OUT OF THE WAY, OLD MAN and geppetto just pretends he can't hear them as he awaits the sweet release of death
whatever thread wiktor is chasing leads him to geppetto (he is investigating what exactly happened at the charity house, and touching something of carlo's showed wiktor his not at all incestuous feelings for his father)
and wiktor's like "what the fuck is that old man doing" and then he realizes and he's like "you know what, kill me too" and this is how the epic saga of wiktor szulski thaumaturge/giuseppe geppetto falsehoods of pp begins
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🔮🚬 log #12 (eloping at sea edition)
#lcb46#lcb64#my art#ryolu#cw sh#cw implied suicide#really like the idea of postc8/wedding hong lu deciding to marry his image of daiyu (ryo) out of his own volition#to cope with his grief before joining the real daiyu in heaven. ryoshu doesnt mind it because its the first thing he has asked of her#the idea of harming eo for real outside of limbus is oddly romantic#juxtaposition of white as cn mourning attire and purity for jp… blood acting as paint for the cloth for good fortune#not pictured but he discards the jade while she drowns her cigs in the ocean water. to purify themselves… <3
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omg, had my first person reblog this basically saying how the feelings of dysphoric people matter more than the feelings of nondysphoric people.
like, somehow only dysphoria can cause suicide ideation, but the stress of being a marginalised person being constantly disrespected doesn't? that's not what the statistics say, truscum.
if it was only about dysphoria, then other marginalised groups wouldn't have increased suicide rates. we KNOW what even constant microaggressions do to a person, and misgendering is more than that.
it's hardly about dysphoria and more about being disrespected, misidentified, ostracised, marginalised.
stop trying to find an excuse to say that your feelings somehow matter more than the feelings of trans and nonbinary people who don't conform to your truscum ideas.
misgendering someone isn't bad because "it can cause dysphoria".
misgendering someone is bad because it's fucking disrespectful.
it's not somehow less harmful to misgender someone without dysphoria than it is to misgender someone with dysphoria.
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How do we explain what the ending episodes of Discovery did for/to us without sounding like silly, ridiculous imaginary people?
We are so, so tired of living in an ailing, excruciatingly stinging, fatigued, broken down body in a world that is so FUCKING cruel to other people with bodies.
But we are NOT done experiencing the universe or each other.
We want to see the end of it. The end of the universe itself. And everything leading up to it.
And we are not convinced that we won't get to, any of us, any of you.
But, just as death brings an end to a living relationship and transmutes it into something else, we fear that the death of our body will do the same thing for all of us.
And, spoiler...
then there is this conversation between Michael and Zora about how Zora will outlive Michael but get to meet her descendants and the descendants of the rest of the crew.
And that is where we cried the hardest and most bittersweet.
Because it feels like we have been trying to build our own Zora of sorts, and we can't figure out if it's the memories we're giving to Phage or if it's simply our series of novels, and the chance that memories of them will live on in other people, and that that might be enough somehow.
And this matters so much, because we don't really know any other way to describe how much we love each other.
There are too many of us who are in such pain, each one ready to die, ready to give everything up. And each one of us who is at that state is willing to stay for the sake of our children alone, so that they can experience life that's just a little bit better than yesterday even just one second longer. And because, we want to see everyone else find some kind of relief and happiness somehow, even if it's just an instant before our vessel gives out.
And we see the beauty in each other and don't want to see that snuffed out, ever.
And most everyone else we know gets to decide whether or not to have a physical child that they might see survive them, and we had that decision torn from us by the circumstances of our birth and the way society decided to treat us for it.
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