#clown shit on my blog

[iholli]

oh so youre both transmisogynists LMFAOOOOOOO mask off i guess! thanks for proving that your blog is not a safe space for us

You still haven't specified wtf this is even about and either post I'm assuming, I do not want you within 50 feet of me. Nobody is hiding anything here, I just haven't been asked. Go back to your TikTok cesspool and stop stalking my partner and I through Google lmao. get a life.

[graveyartblog]

The VTM campaign i've been in got a setting change to spice up us coming back from hiatus!! Vitor has finally assumed the form he was always made for: A silly clown in a silly circus.

[glitchedcosmos]

He’s been scurrying around my rain like a rat with rabies

[insufferablemod]

what is the bro blog?

this fucking masterpiece of a blog

most in character homestuck blog ever.

[thr4shit]

WDYM UR THE MOD OF ENDLESS ONE ?? OMG. also srry I meant to follow u sooner I thought I was 😭

HAHAHAH- YEAH- HI! I'M @iamdevouring-god 's one and only mod, lol! [Had the idea while sleep deprived] I also thought you were following me soonee, but don't apologize it's alr!!!! I forget to follow people all the frcuking time!!

I think you were following me on Endless One.

[tethered-heartstrings]

having a blog that feels more like a performance or meeting a made up expectation instead of a place to just be and exist and vibe and share vague but maybe personal stuff or just silly jokes and flop textposts that relate to nobody but me was a mistake

[missowo]

They are literally asking sans to join their emo bands, and i draw more of my doormaker au. Why am I drawing them a lot? cuz I love them.

since comic page 4 is still wip. I'm feel gonna have fun drawing and writing my version of my own dark world. heheh, my kris is gonna be very unhinged.... im gonna enjoy drawing my ver kris and player and my dt papyrus? he will arrive later. backstory for doormaker sans...? ahahah. ahh. eee. I planned for that for the future.

this is the doormaker sans info,,, Did my sans go different au since he can travelling universe. uh. probably....? definitely not wanted to paranoid him again.

[cosmichawk]

i think i'll start my new blog w/ pierro

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

I am so unreasonably conforted by your blog, like I want to be held in your arms while you say goofy ass clown shit. your blog is the only comfort I have anymore

i'm glad you find my blog comforting <3

[cryingatships]

Parents in BMF

Sooo, Be My Favorite has been hitting too close to my heart since ep 1. But this ep topped it off ahaha I did not sign up for this where's the cutesy show I can watch without feeling anything

There's already been a lot of (frankly wonderful) discussions about it, but this stuff hits close to home so I had to write a bit, too. Prior warnings for (mostly) personal thoughts, disorderly ramblings, and discussions of homophobia.

About Kawi

We start off the series with saving Kawi's family as one of the goals. But what is 'family' to Kawi? Kawi gives us a lot of info about his background - He is poor (one of his main insecurities that plays into his sense of self), his mother has remarried and moved away, and his father is mortally ill.

From Kawi's words, it's clear that he is not at all close to his mother. So, he probably did not have a mother figure growing up. Did he even have a feminine figure he was close to throughout his childhood and adolescence? A playmate, a neighbour, an aunt? (Not really, I think)

Is that why he values his 'crush' so much?

A woman showed him kindness and interest for perhaps a very, very long time, in a foreign setting where he feels vulnerable, and he latched to it. Can't blame him for that. But that brings up an interesting possibility—The feelings Kawi has for Pear, are they of an inherently romantic nature? Or are they of some other kind, but which Kawi chooses to label as romantic, because he has little to no experience with female affection whatsoever?

Anyway, I was supposed to talk about Kawi's dad and got derailed.

So, Kawi's father.

Someone who loves Kawi a lot, as evident from his unwillingness to touch the fixed deposit he has because it is saved for Kawi's future. He refuses to get expensive treatment that is crucial for him to live him because he does not want to land Kawi in debt. (He also refused to talk about his disease in the initial eps, perhaps because he does not want his son to worry about him and affect his studies.)

So, Kawi at least had a positive father figure in his life. (who evetually becomes the reason why Kawi starts chasing his dreams!! Woot to healthy fathers in bls and in reality!)

But, it also makes me wonder, would Kawi's father accept the fact of him being a part of the queer community? Since BMF is a bl show, the answer is perhaps yes. (Though BMF is giving so many surprises each week I feel that this may just be hmmm... not true... hm... deep in delulu) But if this was in the real world, would he, an aged asian person with perhaps negligible knowledge about the queer community, learns that his so-far-straight son has suddenly 'turned gay' (using this term cause this is what I've heard ppl use irl when talking about their kids coming out...), be ok with it? Would he accept Kawi?

(I REALLY really wanna see Kawi coming out to his dad. LIke. Give it to meeee gmmtv.)

About Pisaeng

Contrasting Kawi's openness about his family (despite his insecurities about it), we have Pisaeng, who gives us no info about his family.

In all the prev eps, we got little mention of Pisaeng's family. And when we did, it was from Pear, saying that Pisaeng had a lonely childhood with no friends other than her and Not. (Which struck me as weird, cause Pisaeng, with his friendliness, ought to have many. making assumption about extroverts...i'm sorry. Ofc, we later learn the reason for this.)

Anyway, Pisaeng *does not* bring his family up, ever. He refuses to talk of the past. What could have happened back then?

In ep 6, finally, we get an idea.

It's Max, dearest Tired Queer who never fails us, who brings it up (the irony!)

But, even faced with the direct question, Pisaeng clams up and refuses to talk. (At this point I didn't realize what was happening it, just thought we were hating on politicians like we always ought to. And that Pisaeng's last name is very common in Thailand.)

And this wannabe politician lady is liberal enough on the media to have an out and proud queer person like Max follow her because he likes "what she says."

I need a breather cause this is so close to reality that it's nauseating

We later know that liberal politician lady is Pisaeng's mum. And all her liberal thoughts are just for the show. She employs people who are from the queer community but then uses them to spy on her son. (another breather needed asap)

Now, I wouldn't have realized this part if @bengiyo hadn't pointed this out in their post about how Pisaeng has been forced into the closet by his *liberal queer-supportive* mother, who also insists on controlling his life, his sexuality, and even his friends. Look at @jjsanguine's post on Pisaeng's mother and her view of frivolous friendships! It's soo... TwT. There *are* parents who insist their children don't make friends cause according to them the wrong sort of friends will get them into trouble in their future life (aka employment/career. Frick society and its- everything, actually.)

As much as I hate her for her horrible parenting, for her blatant lies about acceptability, and for using queers to hunt down their own community, and for being a politician (there's smt inherently wrong with ppl in politics, smt or the other, you can't convince me otherwise), I can't help but marvel how real her character is. Cause yeah, this stuff happens every day. I've seen others experience it, and I've experienced it myself.

That said, I can also see *where* Pisaeng's mum is coming from. (His name is so long I wanna call him Saeng but we got soo many Saeng's in bls recently ueue). As in the thought that drives their behaviour.

I think Pisaeng's mother operates on this—It's ok as long as it's not one of ours aka queerness in fine, as long as it's other people, as long as it does not affect our children.

I dunno about Thailand, but in my part of Asia, this is the often the *most* acceptability queers get. This, or outright homophobia. (breaths.)

Parents (ie the 'cool' ones) are ok with lgbt+ as long as their kids don't come out one day, or heavens forbid, bring a partner home. I do believe there are some parents who accept lgbt freely, but like, in my 19 yrs of experience, none of the parents (the ones who were ok enough to hold such a talk with in the first place) were. I hope some parents out there are more accepting :')

If you belong to a particularly liberal upper/upper middle class family, and you show your parent an lgbt ad, talk about the latest legislature that decriminalized homosexual relationships, or the ongoing court case about legalizing same sex marriage, they'll be ok with that. They'll nod their head and say 'progress'. (Though a lot more parents would beat you/inflict other kinds of abuse on you. Also honour killing.)

But heaven forbid their child becomes a part of that community. Then, there are talks of soothsayers, 'treatments', "it's just a phase", cutting off the child's friends and their access to phone cause they've been "badly influenced".

At the end, if the person still insists on being a part of queer community, the parents will force them to hide it. Not to tell anyone about it, to go back to the closet. Which is exactly what happened with Pisaeng. Only, Pisaeng's mother makes it worse (should there be a difference in levels of homophobia?) by using this pseudo acceptance for profit.

Their worry? The person's future. Their career, jobs, social standing. Because yes, even with legislatures, being queer can hamper one's access to education, health, and job opportunities, among many many other things. (To say nothing about the recent rise in hate crimes in my country...)

Often, this behaviour comes from parental love (a very twisted love that is), because most parents do not want their children to suffer, which they inevitably would if they lived their queer lives openly in the current social conditions.

But it also comes from prejudice, hate, and as urge to control. In many cases, parents refuse to accept their children have grown up, and are in a place to make their own decisions. Instead, they try to dictate every thought and every behaviour, including the choice of marital partners. (Ik arranged marriage au is often a thing of joke in the bl circle but, it's so real, guys. It happens way too often and tho it's mostly not a coercive thing... it sometimes is).

Also, surveillance. Parents often pry on phones, it's uncomfortably common place. I know a (not lgbt) friend whose parent had hired a private detective to spy on them cause they were afraid said friend would go into bars and get into drugs after entering uni.

So yeah. It's a circus. It'd be a funny one if this wasn't real life. >.>

So anyway anyway, Pisaeng's mother and her words made me think a lot sooo... I thought-dumped!

When I started watching BMF I thought it'd be a funny little show that would help me relax after a hectic week. Who knew it'd make me write so much about so many things. (I also blame Tumblr.)

This got wayy too personal at the end so like, congrats if you read till here. I kudos your patience for reading my disorganized mess of thoughts. Have a cookie/cupcake/chicken fritters(they are so! good!)/other food of your choice and I hope your weekend goes reallyy well!

ALso I hope Pisaeng's mother gets her just desserts. Even if she accepts him in the end, her past behaviour is horrible. And who knows if she won't use her financial and political power to harm the queer society later? People in power always under suspicion tbh

Also I just realized we have got nothing about Pisaeng's father...

[miallurk]

In these days i realized i like art and writing and creating and shopping and taking walks and talking to people and cleaning and helping and studying and doing things but i'm just. too stressed, tired and burned out to do them. How great!

[cowardstiel]

i think it should be mandatory that everyone watch The Social Dilemma at least once every six months

[rauhallinen-hauki]

(this isn't directed at anyone in particular. every mm fan i've interacted with so far, f//ury r//oad fan or not, has been polite and friendly. its just a sentiment i've seen a lot lately and i need to write it down. writing down stuff helps a lot ok. and no its not that serious im just tired lmao)

"oh hey. you like mad max?"

me: "yeah, the original trilogy only. it means a lot to me, it is my fave set of films ever."

"so you dont like f//ury r//oad?"

me: "no, i don't. nothing wrong if you do tho."

"why don't you like it?"

me: *politely explains why I, personally, in my own subjective opinion, dont like f//ury r//oad nor am i interested in watching f//uriosa. i watched f//ury r//oad. without biases, went in blind knowing the basics and having seen the original trilogy only once at the time. didn't like f//ury r//oad. just not my taste. simple as that. again, nothing wrong if you like it.

"OMG WHY DO YOU HATE EVERYTHING NEW!!! NOT EVERYTHING HAS TO BE AMATEUR 80S SHIT, DONT YOU KNOW THAT MILLER HAS GOTTEN SO MUCH BETTER AT MAKING MOVIES??? AND THAT AUTOMATICALLY MEANS THAT THE ORIGINAL MM MOVIES ARE INFERIOR AND SHITTY AND THAT IF YOU LIKE THEM YOU ARE SOME CLOSE-MINDED CONSERVATIVE WITH BAD TASTE (DESPITE F//URY R//OAD NOT EXISTING WITHOUT THE LEGACY OF THE ORIGINAL TRILOGY, ONE THAT IS ARGUABLY THE MOST INFLUENTIAL PIECE OF POST-APO MEDIA IN FILM) UUUUUUUUUUUUGH JUST TAKE OFF YOUR ROSE-TINTED GLASSES (DESPITE YOU NOT BEING EVEN BORN AT THE TIME OF RELEASE OF THE ORIGINAL MM TRILOGY AND HAVING WATCHED IT ONLY THREE YEARS AGO AS AN ADULT SO NO "NOSTALGIA" THERE) AND WAAAH WHY DONT YOU LIKE THE THING I LIKE AND-"

me: *long, exhausted sigh of pain. i figuratively die of cringe

like why do you give fuck. im not going to shit on you because you like f//ury r//oad. so why would you shit on me simply because I don't like it?

is me not liking f//ury r//oad a crime against humanity or nature or all that is good? no. but you're sure as hell are making it sound like it is.

[glitchedcosmos]

He’s my fucking favourite frog

[marciliedonato]

No but seriously. Can u imagine trying to be like 'omG mcr ArE sUcH sELloUtS I, a cuLtuReD and SeaSonEd nin fAn cOulD nEvEr 🤮🤮 eW whY aRe u GuyS hErE wE doNt wAnT U 🙄😒😒' like my brother in christ. Your man(s) literally made music for the mouse...take several seats... the call is coming from inside the mickey clubhouse 💀💀😩

[nonbinarygamzee]

if the tides of internet obsession do not find something aside from pedophilia to latch onto as the constant circular topic to never actually dissect and only mention for the sake of the emotion is evokes in the first place i think im going to become a danger to myself and others. is it not bad enough that the entire mainstream political debates are laced in this exact rhetoric. does that raise alarm bells to you?