#cix my new world

[dat-town]

you are the knife i turn inside myself (that is love)

Characters: Seunghun & OC (Jieun)

Setting & genre: angst, hurt/comfort, set in the world of Save Me Kill Me MV

Summary: Jieun had always been an enigma. Yet, Seunghun can’t stop loving her.

Warnings: mentions of suicide (Yonghee’s), past attempted suicide (MC), bullying, parents’ divorce and neglectful behaviour (MC’s), deceased parents (Seunghun’s), academic pressure, depression (MC’s), therapy ‒ if any of these topics are triggering for you, please don’t interact with the fic. if you would like to know what to expect under any warning beforehand, feel free to send me an ask

International suicide hotline: https://blog.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines/

Words: 6k

Author’s note: it’s a spin-off to in your eyes i see another me, for my convenience I named the previous reader, as Jinah. I don’t think it’s a must to read it but it gives more context. Heavily inspired by the CIX story films and Save Me Kill Me MV, so the boys’ characters resemble that more than their idol personality. This story is heavily Seunghun-centric.

Title taken from Kafka, read the meaning here.

For @restlessmaknae, thank you for always being such a supporter, for introducing me to new music (and groups) and for fangirling with me over fictional characters or real people in general. I hope next year you find a place where they appreciate you the way you deserve it and that it will be a better one health-wise. I wish you more (kpop) concerts, travel experiences and happiness! love you <3

Seunghun couldn't tell when exactly he fell in love with Jieun. Was it love at first sight? The way her fringe had fallen into her dark eyes, the fierce fire in them, the way she had looked at him like everything was a challenge ever since the first day of high school? Or was it much later when she had held his trembling hand during his mother's funeral?

Seunghun wasn't sure but he knew one thing: he didn't remember how it was to not be in love with her. That's why it hurt when he started to notice her building up walls, acting weird and hanging out with Byounggon more. The boy told himself he wasn't jealous, he had nothing against the other guy after all, but lying could only take him that far.

Then his whole world turned upside down when it turned out that Jieun had a twin who pretended to be her while she was in a hospital. In a coma. Because of attempted suicide.

It was like an ice cold shower because Seunghun would rather have Jieun be with somebody else than dead. Or in pain. But Jieun was like a rose with sharp thorns, so to love her was like handing her a knife, ready to be hurt.

The smell of the hospital was the same. Seunghun remembered it all too well. It didn't matter that it wasn't the same building or that months had passed. He had spent too much time beside Yonghee's bed, praying that he wouldn't leave like his mom, to forget. And now here he was, right by the unconscious Jieun's side doing the same.

She looked so vulnerable in the hospital bed, all pale and put on machines that kept her alive. So unlike how she really was: wild and lively like ember among ash. Whenever Seunghun came to visit, his heart sank at the sight and he couldn't help checking the heart monitor just to make sure. Hoping that one of these days it would be different, that she would open her eyes and everything would be okay. What a wishful thinking but it's not like he had anything better to do.

"Your sister comes back from the UK tomorrow. You should see Byounggon, he's like an excited puppy," he recited, sitting on the uncomfortable metal chair next to Jieun's bed. He didn't believe she heard him but the nurses told him it could help, so he did his best. It made it feel less weird too, just being there, silent, watching her sleep. Like this, he could pretend they were gossiping, like she could chuckle anytime soon and call him out on his bullshit when he exaggerated. Not this time though; ever since Jinah notified them that she had finished all her final exams and was heading back to Seoul for the summer, Byounggon was restless. "How long do you think it will take them to get together officially? We all saw how they looked at each other and long distance can't be an excuse now."

Honestly, given Jieun's and Byounggon's arguing history, Seunghun didn't think the girl would have been thrilled to know that her twin got so close with the guy, but he would have rather taken her frustration than her silence at this point. He would have given anything for her to wake up. Maybe he was selfish but he wasn't ready to lose her too. Too many good people had left them last year.

"I miss you," he whispered, toying with a loose thread of her thin duvet. The realization wasn't sudden but his confession was. It tasted bittersweet on his tongue or like sour candy.

Seunghun gulped while watching Jieun's porcelain face, her dark lashes and listened to the rhythmical beeps of the machine beside her. Nothing even stirred. Gently, he reached out to take her hand in his, so cold against his sweaty palms, so still and unlike her. Jieun wasn't fond of public displays of affection after all. He sometimes got away with a brief hug or nudge on the shoulder, but Jieun was often quick to pull away. But she was like that with everybody, so Seunghun didn't take it to heart.

He squeezed her hand softly, suddenly nervous at being so daring, but naively he hoped that maybe the cliché things from dramas would turn out to be true for once. But no, even as he stood up to leave and let go of her pale hands, the heart monitor's beeps remained steady.

With Jinah back in town, they had one more person at those Saturday hang outs Hyunsuk liked to call movie nights in honour of the film club they used to be a part of.

Eventually all of them had graduated, even Byounggon and Jinyoung had managed to do so without having to retake the senior year. Seunghun wasn't sure it would have happened without Jinah. Sure, her lying to them and impersonating her sister had been morally wrong but with her around they had all gotten a new perspective: that they all had something to live for and none of the people who had left them would have wanted them to feel otherwise. At first, Seunghun had thought that it had been naive to think so, so unlike Jieun, but then he had gotten to know about her in the hospital and realized that maybe it had been their pessimistic mindset of theirs all along that had pushed the girl to the edge.

Hyunsuk and Byeol had gotten into the same college, sociology majors – she had wanted to study that and he hadn't known what else to do –, and it was cute how they lived their campus romance. Jinyoung had started working in a coffee shop and whenever they visited him, female customers were making heart eyes at him. Byounggon had gotten a job at a convenience store and often took night shifts because he had always been a night owl (and because with the timezone difference, this way he could talk more with Jinah), but with her back in time, it was most likely up to change.

And Seunghun? He had taken on a few children's dance classes to teach and was studying for the civil worker exam. With house bills to pay he couldn't allow himself to dream big. With all of them pressed up against each other on a couch, watching a movie, he was already paying his dream coins thinking of Jieun – that she would make faces but like this anyway –, wishing she was there.

It was almost the end of the visiting hours when Seunghun woke up. He didn't mean to fall asleep over Jieun's hospital bed, arms folded like a pillow but he was up late learning a new choreography. He loved the lack of crushing thoughts when he was dancing, the soreness in his muscles and the beats of music the only thing he was aware of. No what ifs or guilt or anxiousness, just dance. Except when Jieun had been watching him dance before because then his thoughts had been all about her.

The boy startled and pulled back, scooting back in his chair. He yawned as he rubbed his eyes. Then he froze, eyes widening.

Jieun was watching him.

Her eyes were misty and unfocused but she was awake. Seunghun stood up so vehemently that he almost knocked his chair back. Her name was a prayer of gratitude as he called it. The soft sound made the girl focus on him. Breathing through the plastic mask over her face, heartbeat measured by the wires put on her body, white hospital grown over her pale skin, Jieun seemed like a stranger but her eyes, they were still the same: sad but with fire in them.

Seunghun held his breath while a single drop of tear rolled down Jieun's temple, then she closed her eyes again right before the nurses arrived.

Seunghun was sent out while the doctors and nurses ran a million tests on the girl. He called Jinah and wrote in the group chat but he didn't know what else to do. He was pacing, walking up and down the corridor and while this was what he was waiting for, for her to wake up, it was also nerve-wrecking.

"How is she?" Seunghun ran up to the nurse who just came out of the room.

"Better than expected. But I can't tell you the details. Only family members are entitled to know medical details."

It left a sharp feeling in Seunghun's gut after spending in the hospital hours every week, but he wasn't surprised. He needed the family's permission to be able to visit too, so he didn't push it.

"Can I see her?" He asked instead, but the nurse looked at him uncertainly, with pity.

"I'm sorry but… the patient specifically said she doesn't want you to see her like that. Nobody apart from her family actually," she bobbed her head apologetically before hurrying away, leaving the boy behind.

Disheartened, Seunghun sank down onto the row of uncomfortable plastic chairs in the corridor and tried not to feel hurt. He knew how proud Jieun was, how much she hated to show weakness to others. He should have expected it, but it still stung.

He didn't know how much time had passed by the time the doctors and rest of the nurses left or when Jinah and Byounggon arrived. He just sat there, waiting, waiting. He wasn’t sure what for, not anymore.

Jinah told all of them that according to the doctors Jieun would make full recovery. She had to attend rehabilitation because she just spend months not moving and obligatory therapy due to the attempted suicide. She wasn't particularly happy about either of those nor having to repeat her senior year. But at least she didn't look like she was disappointed that she survived or so Jinah said. Not that they talked about it. Jieun wasn’t quite generous with words, not when it came to topics like this.

After a week of various examinations they would let her out of the hospital and she would spend two weeks in the mountains for recovery. Three weeks until Seunghun could see her again. If she was ready then.

"Seunghun, you are a beat behind. Where's your mind at?" His dance teacher's scolding pulled him out of his running thoughts.

Thoughts around and about her. Always her.

"Sorry," he mumbled and tried not to think of Jieun.

But he saw her even when he closed his eyes.

Jieun was alive and awake yet she had never felt farther. Seunghun's messages went unread on her phone and he only knew what was happening to her from Jinah. It felt wrong. Weren't they supposed to be best friends? When had it all gone wrong?

When she had jumped? Or when Yonghee had done?

Or when he had fallen in love?

Seunghun felt like she was slipping through his fingers like sand. It was almost like he was losing her all over again. For real, this time.

People said that it was natural to drift apart with your friends after school, once you didn't see each other every day, but he couldn't let go. He knew it wasn't about him graduating. Jieun was avoiding him. Seunghun told himself that she must have needed time. She was one of the strongest people he knew and she hated when she was seen as weak or vulnerable, she must have resented that he had been with her in the hospital. But how could he have not? At least he had been close to her that way.

The day after Jieun got back from the mountains, Seunghun got a text in the middle of his teens class. It was one simple message:

Can we meet?

His heart thrummed like a traitor when he saw it. He was sweaty and tired, but he wouldn't have missed out on the opportunity.

They agreed to meet at the park they often hung out later that night. Seunghun was more nervous than he would have liked to admit. His hands got clammy again after taking a quick shower and water droplets were still falling from his hair when he jumped on the bus. He was drumming on his knees to the rhythm of his heart, a jumpy little dance.

He didn't know what to expect. After months of not talking to Jieun, he wasn't sure. After her not wanting him to see her, he got even more uncertain. He kept replaying their last conversation. The one Jinah had confirmed wasn't with her. The way Jieun had smiled at him, nudged him playfully and stolen his fries. It had been painfully normal. He had used to beat himself up over not noticing the signs but all of them had been a mess after what had happened with Yonghee and Seunghun  had been busy with his mother's funeral too. There had been a new norm after that, nothing had been the same, so nothing had felt out of the ordinary. Nothing had felt like ‘Yonghee all over again’.

Jieun was already there when he got to the park. She sat on a bench with her long hair falling onto her shoulders, moonlight shining on her fair skin beautifully. She wore her signature eyeliner and black nail polish which reminded Seunghun of times before she got to the hospital where she was pale and bare faced, looking young, innocent and so so fragile. Seeing her again like this knocked the air out of the boy.

"Hey," she looked up, straightening her spine a bit once she was aware of his presence. The small movement didn't sit well with Seunghun. They were closer than to act differently around each other… Or so he thought they were.

"Hey," he echoed and took the seat next to her, his hands gripping on the edge of the bench. It felt unreal, being so close to her again, and she was awake, warm and real. "You… you look better."

It was a clumsy compliment but Seunghun knew Jieun would have never let him get away with calling her pretty or something like that. She didn't like that and the boy never knew why but according to Jinah they were always compared based on their academics and looks too. Early signs of Jieun's rebellion came with her going against what their parents would have liked to see her as: the ideal, well-behaving, perfect little angel.

"Better than half-dead in the hospital? Jeez, thanks," the girl snorted and her tone made Seunghun wince. Joking with her almost dying wasn't funny to him. He didn't say anything though, so silence embraced them for an uncomfortable moment.

"I'm sorry," Jieun sighed eventually and she sounded sincere.

Seunghun wasn't sure why she apologized though. For the insensitive joke? For ignoring his messages? For not letting him visit her in the hospital once she was awake? Or for the reason she had been at the hospital in the first place? Nevertheless, Seunghun shook his head, not wanting her to blame herself.

"Don't be."

"I am," she insisted, her eyes intense when their gazes met. "I never wanted to hurt you."

The boy sucked in a breath.

He was at fault too: he cared too much. But he couldn't say it was okay nor he could say he wasn't hurt. He was so damn confused at the same time as he was just happy to have her back. Because she was back, right? She wouldn't disappear like that again?

He wanted to ask. He wanted to beg even though he didn't have the right to tell her what to do. He wanted her to stay, but they didn't talk about it, about the elephant in the room, since everything was still so fragile.

Instead Seunghun looked into her deep dark night of her eyes and smiled.

"I missed you," he said.

Stay with me, he wished.

"I missed you, too," she said with the smallest of genuine smiles in the corner of her mouth.

For then, it was enough.

Admittedly, Seunghun had feared that Jieun wanted to meet because she would have preferred to cut ties with him, that it would have been a goodbye, maybe her moving away or just trying to start a new life. He was terribly relieved when it turned out that she just didn't want to apologize over messages for being distant ever since she woke up. She just needed time and space and she didn't like the idea of him wasting his time beside her hospital bed like he had done with Yonghee, too. He wouldn't have called it a waste of time though, he'd had nothing better to do and he had wanted to be there for them. Since he hadn’t been able to help, this was something he could have at least done. But convincing Jieun something like this was a lost cause and he didn't want to argue. A part of him just wanted things to go back as they were but another part of him, the one that wasn't a coward, wanted to be mature about it and talk it through. But he was afraid Jieun would put her walls up and shut him out then and he didn't want to lose her. He knew how much she disliked that therapy already that she had to attend for a year.

So Seunghun did the next best thing he could think of: making sure Jieun had reasons to live. He started writing a list, a list that he hoped would never end, of things that he knew she wanted to do, achieve or see. Be it a band concert, a trip to Gangnueng or just a choker she bookmarked on her phone. He knew her well and long enough to easily come up with a dozen list items but the hardest part was being smooth enough at delivering these that Jieun wouldn't call him out on it.

Like when they were out late again one night and he thought using that excuse that he was hungry would be enough to suppress her doubts.

"It's just so random," she grumbled when he told her dinner would be on him. It wasn't even anything fancy, just bibimbap that she always loved.

"I wanted to take you out from my first paycheck but you weren't awake then, so here we are," he echoed the practiced explanation. Technically it wasn't even a lie, he had wanted to do that. But now he had one more reason to.

When they crossed an item off his unwritten list, Seunghun added two more points in its place. With time, it turned into a little bucket list about things he wanted to do with her. Hyunsuk teased him that it was almost like he was planning dates for them and Seunghun had to make him promise not to call them dates out loud in front of Jieun. So what if he wanted to try out the new bingsu place with her or watch falling stars together or discover old record stores? He just wanted to be with her.

He knew it was only a matter of time that Jieun noticed the pattern and actually said something about it and then it would end. Seunghun guessed she kind of already knew, she just entertained him by letting him throw in a new idea for every weekend. Sometimes she asked if he shouldn't have studied instead but eventually let him be after listening to his nonsense excuses like how taking a break would fuel his productivity eventually.

Seunghun thought he could act like nothing had happened. Because it seemed like this was what Jieun wanted.

But sometimes he just couldn't.

"Jinah told us that you went to a psychologist," he said quietly after they visited Yonghee and his steps halted when Jieun fell behind.

"She shouldn't have. She had no right," she snapped, sounding both cold and angry at the same time, brushing past him, clearly not wanting to talk about it.

It was exactly what Seunghun wanted to avoid, but the cat was already out of the bag, so he didn’t want it to be an affair to brush off. He caught up with the girl, grabbing her wrist just temporarily to stop her and slip in front of her vision.

"You could have told me," he added, quiet and gentle, and Jieun's anger seemed to fade. She always seemed to soften just a bit when it came to him. Maybe that was also a reason why he fell for her. Because she made him feel special.

"You were struggling already because of your mom on top of what happened with Yonghee," she reasoned and Seunghun wished that she would have been more selfish than that. How could she have thought that her struggles would have been too much on top of everything as if she mattered less to him?

The boy sighed, shaking his head.

"That's not the only reason," he argued because he knew her and she respected him enough not to deny.

"That's not the only reason," she agreed, keeping eye contact. Brave, brave Jieun, why was she so afraid of showing vulnerability as if it was a weakness? Didn't she know that he wouldn't have thought less of her because of something like that?

"Can you tell me now? What happened? I would have never thought that you…" Seunghun wasn’t sure how to finish the sentence and it was probably the worst timing and not the best location either. But at least the streets were vacant and they were the only people under this alcove. The stars would keep their secrets. 

"I wanted to know how Yonghee felt," Jieun shrugged, trying to play it off but Seunghun saw the nervousness in her movements, the way she put her weight from one leg to the other. “Was he scared? Was it fast? Did it hurt? Maybe if it was fast and painless, it would be easier to accept it.”

Seunghun imagined her walking over the bridge, watching the river rush by underneath her and thinking of Yonghee. Of the boy with the gentlest soul and all those bruises on his fair skin. He imagined her screaming and reckless, finding comfort in the dark and the waves. The impact of her jump held magnitudes. It could never be fast and painless, not for those who loved them.

“Do you know what was the last thing I told him?” Jieun asked but Seunghun didn’t answer.

How could he have known when she had never told him? What he knew was that she had gotten into an argument with Yonghee not much before he had left them. But that was nothing new, Jieun had got into her fair share of arguments with all of them, especially Byounggon, because she was like an ember, fierce and restless. Yonghee had known this, he had known that her words were sometimes harsher than she intended.

“I called him a coward. I told him he was weak. That if he wasn’t going to stand up for himself, it’s like he’s letting them kill him,” Jieun’s lips trembled and she looked away, her voice getting breathy. “We were his safe space and I made him feel like he was a disappointment. I…”

A sob escaped her. It was so sudden that Seunghun didn’t see it coming. He had never seen Jieun cry. Not at Yonghee’s funeral, not when she had broken her arm trying a skateboarding trick in their freshman year. Yet, it was like an instinct: winding his arms around her, pulling her into his embrace. He half-expected her to push him away, to build up the walls once again just to prove that she was strong and independent. But maybe, finally she knew that from time to time it was okay to be vulnerable, with the right people it wasn’t a bad thing.

“I… What if that was the last straw? What if it was like I pushed him over the edge?” She sobbed into his shirt and he held her tighter as if he could keep her together as she was spiralling down. He had no idea she held so much guilt and grief inside.

“It wasn’t your fault,” he whispered into her hair and murmured other reassuring words while storing her back. Yes, they were all bystanders and maybe they could have offered help, could have pushed more but Yonghee had loved them and he insisted that he was okay. There was no way they could have known what had been going on behind his smiles.

Jieun cried for a long time. Years worth of tears dried up on Seunghun’s white tee as she pulled back and wiped away the rest from her cheeks.

“Shit. I shouldn’t have dumped all that on you,” she sighed, her voice raspy from all that crying and the boy practically saw her build up her walls level by level as she composed her facial expressions and wiped away her smudged makeup. She was mentally running away, so the boy told her the only words he thought that could stop her.

"Jieun... you are the strongest person I know."

The girl blinked at him in disbelief, his reflection clear in her shiny eyes.

"Do you really still think that?" She asked ironically with the certainty of someone ragged and patched up, scars from her fall still fading into her pale skin. But to him, she had never been broken.

"Yeah, I really do," Seunghun nodded, convinced and genuine.

She had never looked stronger.

Seunghun was hovering over his textbooks in the pleasant warmth the coffee shop where Jinyoung worked provided when somebody stopped by his table. His first thought was the barista boy but the mellow female voice that greeted him proved him wrong. Even after months of knowing Jinah, sometimes the striking similarity of the twins still surprised him. Most likely because he had spent years without knowing about the other girl's existence. But now that he knew and the girl stopped pretending to be Jieun, it was also painfully obvious in just how many subtle ways they were different. It wasn't just about the lack of eyeliner – which Byounggon had noticed since day one –, but the way they styled their hair, the way they dressed or the way they talked. There was that warm smile on Jinah's face too that Jieun so rarely showed. Looking back it was impossible to not tell them apart.

"Hi, how's studying?" She asked, sounding sincerely curious as her fingers intertwined over her iced frappé.

"As okay as it can get,"  the boy shrugged, straightening his back, using her presence as an excuse to focus on something else other than the material. "And what are you doing here?"

"Just getting coffee while I wait for Gon to finish his shift," she explained and glanced at her watch, checking the time, before pointing at the chair across from Seunghun. "Can I join you until then?"

"Sure," the boy nodded, trying not to show any lingering awkwardness that remained from the time when she had been pretending to be Jieun. He wasn't angry at her anymore, he understood her reason no matter how wild it was but he still couldn't forget the confusion he had felt when he had thought he had been starting to lose Jieun to Byounggon only to realize that it hadn’t been her to begin with.

Small talk with Jinah wasn't as awkward as he thought though. He asked her about how she was holding up in the Korean summer weather and told her about his upcoming civil servant exam. Only when they seemed to run out of easy topics like that did she bring up her sister.

"Did Jieun tell you anything about Gon and me?" She asked, fidgeting with her napkin.

Seunghun furrowed his eyebrows. Why would they have talked about them? Was something up? Should he have known something? He thought things were going well.

"Uhm, no. Why?"

Jinah seemed a bit uncertain at the outright question. She was probably embarrassed to bring it up herself.

"She doesn't really like him, huh?" She whispered, tapping her nails against the glass. "And it's not like I need her approval but... she's still my sister, you know."

Well, Seunghun didn't know. He didn't have any siblings and up until last year he had no idea Jieun had. But after getting to know Jinah and their close bond with her twin despite being separated for years, he thought he understood why she felt that way.

"Jieun doesn't hate Byounggon or anything like that. They are just too similar in a way," he told her eventually, thinking of how vocal they both could be about their opinions, how fierce they could fight for their loved ones or how reckless they could be if they thought it was the right thing to do. They had similar enough personalities to clash because neither of them liked to be proven wrong... or seen vulnerable. They were the lone wolves that could lead packs. "Maybe the same reason why she doesn't think she is fit for happiness is why she would prefer if you stayed away from him."

Jieun was good at holding grudges but the one she forgave the hardest was herself. As if she didn't deserve it just because she made some honest-to-god mistakes.

"The same way she stays away from you?" Jinah asked and Seunghun's eyes widened, his ears on fire.

"Did she–"

"She didn't need to say anything, but I can tell that she is guarded whenever it's about you. She cares about you, a lot, but she doesn't want others to know," Jinah interrupted him before he could have asked and yeah, that sounded very much like Jieun. "While I was pretending to be her, I heard girls whispering that she didn't deserve you. That's also probably why she had 'bitch' written over her locker and who knows what else happened to her that made her think it would be a bad idea to… let you closer, I guess."

Seunghun hummed, more to himself than to her, his hands in fists, knuckles white in his lap. Was he a bad friend for not knowing about it? For thinking that something so petty couldn't get to Jieun?

He wasn't sure he had the right to ask more even if Jinah knew more, so he stayed silent and then watched Jinah's face brighten and following her gaze, he saw Byounggon by the door, with the same, small but happy smile on his face. They were so obviously in love that it made Seunghun wonder when it had stopped hurting for them.

Seunghun made a plan. It wasn’t a very thorough or foolproof plan but summer was ending and he really should have stopped being a coward. Life was short and he didn’t want to live with regrets.

He asked Jieun to meet at the playground in the park where they often hang out. This late it was empty and Seunghun was sitting on one of the two metal swings, enjoying the last of the summer breeze in his face. Jieun arrived with soft steps and a not so soft push on his swing. Her laughter that followed his yelp was a chime of bells in the night.

"So what's the occasion?" She asked, straight to the point, taking a seat next to him, not yet sensing his nervousness, so the boy decided it was better to just tip off the bandage.

"I thought we could get away from the city before you go back to school," he said once he was sitting up straight again. He reached into his backpack and handed her a return train ticket to Gangneung, her favorite beach town. She took it with a frown, her surprise morphing into something akin to embarrassment mixed with frustration. Not a good sign but the boy tried not to lose hope as he waited patiently for her to say something.

"You don't have to do this. You don't have to, I don’t know, trying to convince me that life is beautiful or whatever," Jieun scoffed but her fingers grazed across the paper ticket in her hands like it was something precious. Her addition almost sounded like resignation. "I don't want to die."

The not anymore echoed somewhere between them.

"I know. But I want to do these things with you," Seunghun insisted because it wasn't just about that. What happened to her made him realize that life was fragile and fleeting, he didn't have all the time in the world to wait around for a chance with her. He didn't want to procrastinate these plans anymore.

But it wasn't enough for Jieun, it never was. She liked logic and reasons and the truth.

"Why?" She asked firmly and Seunghun felt like he was held at gunpoint.

Because we are best friends sounded like a lie.

"I want to be the one you do these things with," he admitted and it sounded like a confession. He didn't plan it but his voice softened as he looked at her, his eyes were probably full of the longing he tried to hide so hard all these years because he knew she would reject him for a better or worse reason.

"Seunghun…" Jieun sighed and he thought this was it, she knew and she would reject him. Of course, she knew. He wasn't exactly subtle, even Jinah knew and she knew him for the least amount of time. Jieun looked at him and the boy held his breath, waiting for the blow. The invisible gun, aimed at his heart, fired. "You deserve better. I'm such a mess and a bad influence. You deserve a pretty girl who is kind and patient."

It didn't hurt as much as he expected. Jieun said nothing about her feelings or that his were ridiculous or one-sided. She just said what she thought was true because she had no idea how he saw her, how much he could thank her. She might not have been the conventional idea of pretty but to him, she was the prettiest. And bad influence? When it was her who pushed him to believe in himself and keep trying because he could do anything?

"I don't want anybody else," he said because he knew he couldn't have convinced her of anything else. “I like you.”

Jieun abruptly stood up from her swing and leaned over him, grabbing the metal chains to support herself just above his hands, her hair falling around them like a silk curtain and her warm breath fanning over his skin. Seunghun felt heat rush to his cheeks as he kept eye contact and warmth spread through his whole body from the point where her pinky brushed against his fingers.

"Why me?" Jieun asked and it was the most ridiculous question because the boy couldn't have said why it could not have been her.

The girl who had taken the blame when they had gotten caught being late from school because there had been a long queue for the waffle they had bought before classes. The one who had been there for more of his dance recitals than his own parents. The only one who had told him he could do it even when he hadn’t believed it. His safe place. His first love.

"It could never be anybody else," he whispered. He didn't mean it literally and she knew it. There were girls who had approached him before both in class and at the dance academy but he didn't care. To him, there was only Jieun.

"Idiot," she murmured but there was no edge to her words, only fondness. She sat back down on the swing next to him, feet kicking sand.

Seunghun turned to her, watching her expressions closely before he reached for her hand. First, he just tentatively held it, half-expecting Jieun to pull away, like she always did but when she didn't, he intertwined their fingers. They were both holding on.

What was love if not this? Feeling content just by sharing a space, this kind of closeness between two people? Knowing that by being vulnerable with them, they could hurt you and yet you willingly give them the power because you hope they wouldn't? Why? Because they love you too.

[boysplanetrecaps]

Build Up Ep 1, Part 1

Hello and welcome to my latest project -- recapping Build Up: Vocal Boy Survival from MNET. The show features some familiar faves from Boys Planet -- Jay, Wumuti, and Hwanhee -- as well as members of CIX, Just B, Up10tion, KNK, Newkidd, Ab6ix, Vanner, A.C.E. Fave1, BDC, IMFACT, M.O.N.T., WEi, and Pentagon. Don’t worry, it’s not Hui this time! I already wrote some posts in which I introduce you to the 40 participating contestants, divided up by their chosen category: Allround, Soul, Power, and Unique. Now, I’ll start actually recapping Episode One. Come join me, won’t you?  

It's tough to find a video link for the full show, and the one that seems most stable doesn't have English subtitles, so I'm going to try my best to write the recaps in such a way that even if you can't see the show yourself, or if the feed you have doesn't have subtitles, you'll be able to understand what's going on.

We begin with a woman playing with little glowing metal bricks. You know, as you do.

Also, those ombre nails kind of slap. 

The woman is our MC, Lee Dahee, who you might recognize (or might not) as one of the hosts of Road to Kingdom. I know her because she played the female second lead in one of my top five K-dramas of all time, I Can Hear Your Voice. (It’s not about singing -- it’s a courtroom drama/noona romance about telepathy and revenge. You guys, if you need a kdrama to watch, just watch this one, ok? Ok thanks.) She’s stunningly beautiful in that show. 

She looks… different now, I guess I’ll say. 

I wish that there wasn’t so much plastic surgery pushed in this business, because I genuinely wouldn’t recognize her, and I’ve watched that drama all the way through at least three times. Anyway. 

She begins to speak, and we hear snippets of various singers as she does. The snippets that we’re hearing are the 40 brief performances that were uploaded to Youtube to tease the show. 

She says, “There are various voices in this world.  Unique voice: A voice that is a genre itself. Soul voice: Voice that moves people with its unique sentiment. Power voice: A voice that solidifies its presence.  All ‘round voice: A voice that can harmonize with anything. When they come together and gain chemistry, a new harmony is created.”

I can’t help but think of Exo. Baekyhun has a unique voice; D.O. has a soulful voice; Chen has a powerful voice, and Suho has a sweet all ‘round voice. Hey, what do you know - the lady is right! It does create a new harmony! 

She explains that they’ve gathered together 40 vocalists for this show, looking for the best combination. It’s a bit of a Queendom Puzzle vibe, but vocal based. And out of the 40, we’ll be picking four. 

We hear from some of these 40 vocalists, speaking over each other, their faces hidden in shadow. We’re going to have to go with these MNET subtitles, that say things like “Catharsis is created when voices are stacked, especially when there are four.” I think it is supposed to mean, “A four part harmony can really bring out the emotions of a song.” 

It’s an MNET show, so it begins with some of the contestants walking in and commenting on how big and cool the set is. They think it looks like the Colosseum, which, meh, not so much but I mean, ok. 

We can’t know who they are yet. It’s dark in the studio and they can’t even see each other. They still bow and greet each other politely, chatting about how nervous and excited they are as they take their spots on their… I don’t know, transporter pads. Beam them up, Dahee!

They’re walking in in small groups, made up of members of the same “category”, and their name tags are color coded to their category: unique is green, soul is blue, power is purple, and allround is orange.

Left to right: Bain, Jay, Jung Soomin 

I love this Korean thing of just shouting at each other, “You’re good looking!” Even in the dark. 

Eagle eyed (and owl-eared) Boys Planet fans probably recognize this guy:

It’s Jay Chang, from Boys Planet! As I said in my other recaps, I love Jay's vocal color, which is clean and lovely, and though I think he could work on his technique, he's definitely a great singer. He also seems like basically a nice guy, though he gives off slight fuckboi vibes to me. Is it just me?

Hong Seongjun (former BDC), in the white jacket that makes him look like a waiter, recognizes his neighbor in the brown jacket as Seunghun from CIX. Hong Seongjun says, “excuse me… aren’t you from CIX?” Seunghun bows to acknowledge it, and Hong Seongjun says, “But you’re way too famous,” ie, to be on this show, and Seunghun says, “no, I’m not, I’m really not.” 

Another group enters, led by a mop of light colored hair that I think belongs to Geonu, also known as Lee Geonwoo from JustB, who you may have seen on I-land. 

Some more people come in, and one of the trainees -- this red haired fellow, my darling Bain -- says “oh my God! Sunbaenim!”

That hangul there says “oh my God” phonetically. 

My darling Bain, also member of Just B , has recognized Jeon Woong from Ab6ix. I don't have any data on where they would have met, but they probably have a lot of friends in common at the very least. I think a lot of idols know a lot of other idols since they all train together at different agencies and go on these reality shows together all the time.

People are surprised that Woong and Seunghun are on the show, but not as surprised as they are to see Yeo One from Pentagon, who enters to the strains of Pentagon’s biggest hit, Shine. One of the other guys says, “It was so dark, but he was so handsome that I could see his silhouette.” I think the translation is a little wonky here, but I love the idea that if someone is really handsome, you can see them better in the dark.

My darling Bain says to Jay, “I’m shocked to see such big players.” Jay replies, in English, “Big time players make big time plays,” and do you see what I mean about the fuckboi-ness? Even if you like him, you have to admit that’s a bit cringey. Sigh. Jay, honey, why'ya gotta say things like that?

Jung Soomin replies, in English, “I’m a small time player. I just started!” Soomin is American, specifically from Chicago, and I guess his head was cold that day. 

They’re all present now, each one standing on his own transporter pod bay. Oh, MNET. 

They all applaud in excitement for the beginning of the show, and my darling Bain interviews, “Welcome to Survival!”

The lights come up in the studio and now the boys can see each other. So now it’s time for them to react to how handsome and famous they all are.

Yoon Inhwan in his gray suit interviews, “When I looked around, I thought I was in trouble. Everyone was too handsome.” Look at all the handsome fellas, including Kim Minseo, in blue, and a bunch of idols, including Seokhwa from WEi, and two members of Just B: my red-haired darling Bain, and pink-mop-headed Geonu.

Just FYI: I’m going to keep calling Bain my darling, because I listened to his stunning cover of Driver’s License by Olivia Rodrigo and now you know I still love him, baby. I talk more about it in my episode zero recap.

Hilariously, our old friend Lee Hwanhee (from Boys Planet) says he’s intimidated by the other guys. Hwanhee is always a little insecure, isn’t he? I think he’s had a lot of setbacks as an idol, and it’s wearing on him. 

Neon, in green, tells his neighbor Hong Sungwon in the half gray, half white sweater that he feels defeated in terms of looks. Aww, you’re fine, Neon! I think you have a cute smile. 

Seokhwa from WEi voice-overs that he’ll dominate with music, not looks, and this fellow on the left…

… says, “this is about voices, right?” He is Park Jeup, from IMFACT, who is also a solo artist. I just have to say, omg, his bow. That is a full on pussy bow, you guys. That square, lantern jaw juxtaposed against that bow is a sight to see and I am here for it. (The guy on the right, wearing the red suit, is Hyukjin, from a nugu group called Fave1.)

Everyone’s excited to hear each other’s voices. 

Sunyoul (in the pink sweater) from Up10tion, same group as Hwanhee, is looking around the room and sizing up the other people, wondering if he can tell who is or isn’t a good singer based on their looks.

Then there’s a bit where a few people notice Jay. Kim Minseo, in blue, who sang Rolling in the Deep, kicks things off. He interviews that he was wondering if Jay would be there. Guess he watched Boys Planet too! Or Under 19, perhaps.

There’s this cute moment, where Hwanhee points Jay out to his neighbor, Seunghun from CIX. 

Hwanhee is like, “That guy over there with his hands in his pockets? He’s really good.” I bet that Hwanhee and Seunghun have met before, since they both have been in the game for several years.  Hwanhee is a year older than Seunghun and debuted around four years before him, so he's both hyung and sunbae to his nervous neighbor.

Then there’s a mini montage of them all recognizing each other -- Hyukjin noticing Jay, Hwanhee noticing Hyukjin, Bain noticing Hyukjin and pussy-bow Park Jeup. Hwanhee says that they’re “vocal monsters.” Hey, man, so are you! Where is your confidence, my friend?

But a lot of the contestants are intimidated by each other. 

Suddenly…the lights go down again! And to make it even scarier, the subtitles punk out for a few minutes! This happens at about 6 minutes into the episode. So, let me give my google translate a real workout until the subtitles come back. Here we go. 

A fanfare of glittering light heralds the entrance of MC Lee Dahee. The boys freak out. On screen, it says, “IS THIS TRUE?” as the trainees all stare open mouthed.

The camera does a full pan up her legs to her body, and on the Bilibili site -- now sadly denied to us all -- something in Chinese scrolls across the top, which my phone translated as “The English subtitle is so tiring.” I know that’s not quite what it meant, but I love it.

As Wumuti stares, open mouthed, it says “LIke a goddess!” 

Someone says, “Is this true? Isn’t this AI?”

“She’s a celebrity!" “Wow, she’s so pretty.”

As Hyukjin -- wearing that red leather suit jacket -- looks on, it says “Angel’s Descent.”

Hwang Inhyuk in his ombre pink sweater says “It’s a good thing you came out.”

Dahwee says, “Hello!” and they all say hello back. “I will go on this journey with all of you. I am the MC, Lee Dahwee.”  

On screen, as they all frantically bow, it says “Thank you very much <3 “

As our old friend Hwanhee gives the thumbs up, it says “Best MC-nim.”

I’ll give a sort of interpretation of the on-screen words’ translation since they don’t make a ton of sense. Basically, she’s telling them what’s going to happen next. There’s 40 of them and, through various musical missions, they’ll build a 4-member team. At the end, only one team will be selected to debut. This group will be an opportunity for the whole world to enjoy a kpop group with proven vocals.

Choi Suhwan in the black jacket over a white shirt and with parted bangs, says, “Ah… only 4…” 

This is Bitseon (from M.O.N.T.), on the left, and Taehwan (from Vanner) on the right. One of them is voice-overing, “I’m sure there will be a big fight over the song.” 

Lim Junhyeok, wearing a white hoodie that I guess he picked off the top of his laundry pile, voice overs, “there are many people who are good at singing.” Junhyeok was kicked out of Day6 after only being in it for six months -- I talk about it in my episode zero recap.

Donghun from A.C.E. is wondering what songs they’ll sing, I think. As I was writing these recaps, it was always so funny to me that Donghun is from ACE, because based on the way he’s dressed and his demeanor, he looks like he’s a detective in a noir movie who just got off shift and is about to order a whiskey at the bar. I hope you don't mind if I call him Detective Donghun in honor of that.

Dahee goes on that there are 40 participants, who chose what voice color represents them. 

And right around here the subtitles come back, bless ‘em!

Yoonseo in the red and black leather jacket says, “Allround voices go well with many genres,” and we see a few of the various Allrounders.

Next, we take a look at the Soul singers:

Then the Power singers:

And finally, Unique.

The weird LED stage they're standing on turns into a pie chart showing the breakdown of the categories, and that is delightful.

Then, Dahee announces that they’re going to dive into their first major mission: Voice Check. “You’ll listen to voice files,” Dahee says, referring to the teaser songs we already heard. “If you want to build up with that voice, press the button.” 

So this is a bit like the beginning of Queendom Puzzle, when the girls each performed for the others one at a time, and they all voted on whether each girl was good or not, essentially. Here, though, the boys are deciding who they want to work with in their teams of four. They’re choosing solely by the voice -- no looks, no sympathy.  

It’s worth noting that them wanting to work with someone isn’t necessarily equivalent to thinking someone is good singer. They’ll be looking for people who they think their voices would harmonize well with. Regardless, Dahee explains that “the outcome of the evaluation will impact your first mission greatly, so make careful choices.”

The boys are nervous -- what if someone gets zero votes?!? 

We see some staff members scurrying around giving them all some really uncomfortable looking plastic stools to perch on.

And as they’re settling in, Lim Junhyeok (former Day6) turns to his neighbor, Woong (AB6IX), and says, “Your name is Woong, right?” 

“That’s right,” says Woong.

“I knew you when you were at JYP,” Junhyeok says, putting his hand on Woong’s shoulder. 

Woong immediately gets really excited, jumping out of his chair. “Wait, you were at JYP?! When were you a trainee?” 

“Day6,” Junhyeok says, simply. 

“HYUNG!!!” Woong says, recognizing his old friend and giving him a hug. 

Filmed on MNET's very finest Idaho russet.

Aww! This is exactly the stuff I watch shows like this for. FRIENDSHIP IS THE BEST SHIP, you guys. 

They’re all asking each other what songs they sang, and from what we see, no one is telling anyone. Soomin, our friend from Chicago, asks Jay “Whad’ja’sing, whad’ja’sing?” They’ve got that English speaking connection. Jay, who is definitely feeling his oats, says “It’s part of the surprise.” 

Meanwhile, Hwanhee cannot take his eyes off the MC, Dahee. He’s like, this show is scary and I never do well on the 8 million survival shows I keep forcing myself to go on, but this gorgeous emcee is making it all worth it. I am going to use this as an opportunity to stare at her as much as possible before an actual bodyguard appears to drag me away. She’s 38 to his 25, but I believe in the power of love, don’t you?

They’re all nervous, especially CIX's Seunghun, who busies himself staring at the floor. Yeo One voiceovers, “How many of these people will like me just from hearing my voice?” Aww. As we'll see, that is Yeo One's major storyline -- he is used to being a good looking backup dancer in Pentagon, and wants people to actually like his singing voice.

Ma Jaekyung, in his too-big-for-him gray blazer, asks KNK's Inseong if he’s nervous. CIX’s Seunghun says his heart is beating like crazy. Taewoo wonders who the first one up will be.

The first song that plays -- at least, the first song we hear play -- is V02. Jaekyung and Inseong both recognize the song immediately and look at each other and say “Baby Baby!” in unison, almost like it was an improv exercise. 

Everyone recognizes the song -- we even see Dahee mouthing along -- and those of us who watched Boys Planet probably recognize the voice: Jay. 

The editors do this cute thing where they superimpose the image on the floor, but I really don’t think it was shown live.

I have to wonder if Wumuti at least recognized the voice? This is his third reality show in a row with Jay! But all we see is him saying, “well done.” 

Everyone seems to really like the performance. It is really good, naturally, though it wasn't completely perfect. (See my episode zero recaps for more info on what I thought of each performance. And please don’t get mad at me!) A lot of people are pressing the button to indicate that they’d like to perform with Jay. Can't blame them at all.

Hong Seongjun from BDC interviews, “He has a trendy singing style. He’d make up for what I lack.”

Everyone wants to know who the voice belongs to, but first, they’re going to reveal the votes, reveal the votes, reveal the votes, reveal the votes! The guys immediately realize that this will be their fate -- to have their vote talley revealed in front of everyone! Someone says, “oh no, this is like a public execution.”

The vote is revealed: 23 people voted that they’d like to work with V02 (Jay). Those who voted for him are surprised that only 23 voted for him out of 39, when to them, the voice seemed so good. Are people just way too strict? No. 

Kang Hayoon explains that he thought about voting for the voice, because it was amazing, but he didn’t think that it would harmonize with his. (Spoiler alert: I think he's right.) I think a few others had a similar thought. I’m pretty sure if the vote was “did you like this?” everyone would get 39 out of 39. Well... most people.

Of course, this voting criteria is a bit of a problem, because the show is using this voting system as a way to rank the contestants by quality, and yet the metric they're using isn't necessarily identical to the issue of quality. I guess it's better than voting whether the person is "better" or "worse" than you, like the girls had to do on Queendom Puzzle.

Dahee reveals that the voice belonged to Jay , and Hwanhee’s neighbor, Seunghun  from CIX, gestures as if to say, yep, you got that. Looks like Hwanhee at least recognized Jay’s voice!

Jay voiceovers that he was on an idol survival show (we see clips from Boys Planet) but didn’t get many chances to show his vocal skills. I mean, he did, but people just hated him for being foreign, mainly. Or for whatever random reason, IDK. Here at least people appreciate him -- his neighbors tell him he did a great job. 

Next up: V16, End of the Sea by Choi Baekho, as performed by musical actor Kim Seongjeong, the one in the tan jacket and striped tie. It’s a lovely performance, if not exactly to my personal taste, and everyone immediately reacts to his deep, rich tone. It’s a “real voice” that “fills the studio.” 

Seongjeong gets 25 votes, again, not an indictment one way or another on his quality. 

After that deep voice and sentimental performance, everyone is really surprised when he gets up and says he’s going to dance. He dances a bit while people clap, then unexpectedly just launches himself into the air with an amazing spinning leap. 

When he's done, he bows and says: “Dance, physique, and song. I’m the new actor, Kim Seongjeong.”

Dahee asks him if anyone has ever told him that he looks like well known actor Kim Woobin, and I guess I kind of see it. Seongjeong interviews, “Where do I look like him, exactly? What part of my face? My eyes? Is it because I look like a dinosaur?” and he offers us a huge grin that completely transforms his face. Aww!

What a cutey. 

Ok, in honor of his jump spin, and the fact that he said he looks like a dinosaur, I’m going to call him the “leaping lizard.” But I don’t mean that in a mean way. Like I said, I think he’s got a great smile! I like him. 😀 This is just to remember who I’m talking about. Cool? Cool.

Alright, I've used up my allotment of 30 pictures, so it's time to wrap up this segment of the recap.

And just as a note, the first 30-45 minutes of one of these shows are always really, really slow going for me as I get to know who is who. I have to do research, read Korean name tags, etc, etc, and it takes forever. I'm not going to promise to catch up to the show, but I hope to at least gain on it a little.

Thanks for following me on this ride! I'll see you in the next one!

[imoosgnaj]

❤﹕𖦹﹒Soomi's Playlist ﹒

Bridges-ALIKA

'Now I see myself Building up a world of bridges'

2. Lemon-Kenshi Yonezu

'今でもあなたはわたしの光 暗闇であなたの背をなぞった'

3. Giant-Yuqi

'I'll rise up like a giant Hold my head a little higher'

4. Phobia-Stray Kids

'I'm stuck with a phobia eh 난 너와 계속 함께하고 싶은데'

5. Dream Tip-H1-KEY

'달빛을 따라 떠나보는 거야 Dreaming or reality? 어디든지 데려가'

6. Juliet-AleXa

'And you say you needed me But you lied You're the one laughin' while I bleed'

7. Novel-Stray Kids

'そう僕は 小説の恋のよう 君へと旅立って 小説の主人公のよう 彷徨って'

8. Save me, Kill me-CIX

'널 위해 뛰는 심장을 다 조각 내 주길 넌 나의 curse 빛나는 덫 이 고통은 고통만이 아물게 할 수 있잖아'

9. Limbo-Lee Know

'다 잊지 못해 바라는 순간 예전처럼 돌아가게 될까'

10. New Dance-XG

'We just wanna dance all night This beat has got me feelin' alright'

11. Broken Melodies-NCT DREAM

'Lonely harmonies, broken melodies Love-drunk energy, I'm in ocean deep'

12. Perfect Blues-Hannah Bahng

'Pulling out thoughts from an empty cry Steel heart passion with no fine tie'

13. Stereotype-STAYC

'색안경을 끼고 보지 마요 난 좀 다른 여자인데 겉은 화려해도 아직 두려운 걸 You should know'

14. Lost Me-Stray Kids

'全ての愛に埋���れたいよ 孤独には感じたくないんだよ ありのまま愛してくれる人が見当たらない もう世界で一人だけじゃないと信じて'

15. 7HEAVEN-Purple Kiss

'저 은빛 모래 위 떠다닌 달빛에 비친 세상 속에 깊이 빠져들고 싶어져 날아오를 듯한 기분 더 더 더 쏟아지는 별빛에 우린 dancing'

16. Celebrate-Twice

'こんな世界でも 私たちは変わらないわ 積もる memory どうか忘れないように そう気づけばいつしか like a family 誰より支え合う存在に'

17. Darl+ling-Seventeen

'You know, without you, I'm so lonely If you won't be here, 911 calling Falling to you, I'm always diving'

18. Under The Skin-&TEAM

'重なるたび getting so faster 共鳴し合って証明したい'

19. Cruel Summer-Taylor Swift

'And I screamed for whatever it's worth "I love you, " ain't that the worst thing you ever heard?'

20. Steal The Show-Lauv

'Didn't know until I saw your face I was missin' out on every moment'

For the full playlist click here

Stray Kids' precious maknae Soomi's playlist

[serimvity]

— The Café Playlist ⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊

the songs that we usually play at the café on repeat!

updated occasionally so be sure to come back!

Total Songs: 104

any new song to the playlist will have [NEW] next to the artists name! (these are removed after a week)

spotify playlist:

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Blue Hour - TXT

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Wishlist - TXT

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Crown - TXT

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Ghosting - TXT [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Candy Sugar Pop - ASTRO

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Baby - ASTRO

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Crazy Sexy Cool - ASTRO

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ In Bloom - ZEROBASEONE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Utopia - ATEEZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Stay - ATEEZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Dancing Like Butterfly Wings - ATEEZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Wave - ATEEZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Eternal Sunshine - ATEEZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Pretty U - SEVENTEEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Adore U - SEVENTEEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Healing - SEVENTEEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Energetic - WANNA ONE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Shine A Light - JO1

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Venus - JO1 [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Radiovision - JO1 [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Rocketeer - INI [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Astronaut - STRAY KIDS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Ring Ring Ring - VERIVERY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Changer - A.C.E

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Cheer Up - TWICE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ TT - TWICE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ HELLO - TREASURE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ GOING CRAZY - TREASURE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Taste The Feeling - TEMPEST

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Bad News - TEMPEST

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Bad At Love - TEMPEST

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Loving Number - TEMPEST

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Just A Little Bit - TEMPEST

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Can’t Stop Shining - TEMPEST

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Shout Out - ENHYPEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ TFW (That Feeling When) - ENHYPEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ 10 Months - ENHYPEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Not For Sale - ENHYPEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Polaroid Love - ENHYPEN

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Bloom Bloom - THE BOYZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Keeper - THE BOYZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ D.D.D - THE BOYZ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Euphoria - BTS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Anpanman - BTS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Go Go - BTS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Cinema - CIX

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Breathe - AB6IX

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ I Like You - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ How R U Today - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Lovefool - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Anyway - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Fall With You - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Good Bam - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Up All Night - N.FLYING

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Up All Night - GHOST9

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Life is Beautiful - ONEUS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Skydivin - ONEUS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Baila Conmigo - ONEUS [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ End of Spring - ONEWE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Beautiful Feeling - DAY6

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Dance Dance - DAY6

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Red - THE ROSE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ California - THE ROSE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Let Me - GOLDEN CHILD

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ DamDaDi - GOLDEN CHILD

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Love Scenario - IKON

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Rubber Band - IKON

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ My Flower - JBJ

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Hola Hola - KARD

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Model Buses - Lovejoy

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Play - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Flowering - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Jogging - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Rolling Rolling - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Haze - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ I Got U - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Wonder - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Unbelievable - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Flare - LUCY

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Super Shy - NEWJEANS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ ETA - NEWJEANS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Attention - NEWJEANS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ New Jeans - NEWJEANS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ OMG - NEWJEANS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ DITTO - NEWJEANS

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Get A Guitar - RIIZE

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ ON/OFF - ONF

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Popping - ONF

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Beautiful Beautiful - ONF

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Shine - PENTAGON

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ DO or NOT - PENTAGON

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Red Flavor - RED VELVET

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Power Up - RED VELVET

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Ice Cream Cake - RED VELVET

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Russian Roulette - RED VELVET

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Magic Hour - TOZ [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ BYOB (bring your own best friend) - BILLLIE [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ RING X RING - BILLLIE [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ GingaMingaYo (The Strange World) - BILLLIE [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ GingaMingaYo (The Strange World) - Japanese Version - BILLLIE [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Love In Space - CHERRY BULLET [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Love So Sweet - CHERRY BULLET [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Q&A - CHERRY BULLET [NEW]

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ Sixteen - Kim Samuel

⁺˚⋆｡°✩₊ What Are You Up To - Kang Daniel

[maninthemiroh]

INTRO

Hi, I'm Kittithorn! I go by he/they/it pronouns and I'm a kemetic, asexual, homoflexible, and afab Thai-American boy of color (about everything but white; my ancestors weren't fucking with Europeans). Anyway, I'm a shifter, K-Pop stan, anime fan, and V-Kei enjoyer.

Before you follow: I have autism as well as DID, OCD, and Tourettes. Additionally, I might curse quite a bit and vent post, maybe. Please, soft-block me to unfollow, inform me if I make you uncomfortable, and tell me if you need trigger/spoiler warnings for anything.

Don't interact if: You fit the dfi basis, are NCT ot21 or less (I don't support Taeil, but I do support LuSungTaro), anti reality shifting, Seunghan, eaJ, my artists or J-Rock/K-Pop/etc. as a whole, pro-Isreal, an akgae/regular solo stan/sasaeng, RCTA, InSomnia, a proshipper, support the Dream SMP, Nicki Minaj, Doja Cat, Hyuna, or go by an ethnic name that you don't biologically identify with.

More specifics below the cut :]

DR masterlist

My ult stan list: Block B, Cravity, E'Last, Exo, JustB, NCT, P1Harmony, Seventeen, SHINee, StayC, SuperM, and The Boyz.

My regular stan list: ATBO, Bae173, BoyNextDoor, BLITZERS, BtoB, BTS, DKB, DKZ, eaJ, Enhypen, Epex, Everglow, (G)I-dle, Kard, Kingdom, Luminous, Monsta X, nine.i, OneUs, OnlyOneOf, Omega X, RIIZE, SB19, SF9, Stray Kids, Tempest, The Rose, TRENDZ, XIKERS, TxT, TVXQ, WEi, and ZeroBaseOne.

Groups I'm learning about: &TEAM, CIX, BOY STORY, Kep1er, NTX, ONE PACT, ONF, TNX, XODIAC, Vanner, VeriVery, and YOUNITE.

Disbanded groups that I still support: 1Team, Cherry Bullet, CLC, D1ce, D-Crunch, GFRIEND, IZ*ONE, Mirae, miss A, NU'EST, TFN, and TO1

Bands I listen to: Ashmaze., Beyond, Black Panther, Bomb at Track, BUCK-TICK, Daylotus, DazzlingBad, Deadmans Espirit, DEVILOOF, DEXCORE, DEZERT, Dir En Grey, 魚條, Flesh Juicer, Galaxy Express, Guckkasten, gulu gulu, 刺猬Hedgehog, Jiluka, kluaythai, L'Arc-en-Ciel, Lucy, Madmans Espirit, Malice Mizer, Miserable Faith, Moi dix Mois, New Pants, Ninth in Pluto, No Party For Cao Dong, OneWe, Plastic Tree, Retrospect, Royz, Sorry Youth, Sweet Mullet, 董事長樂團, The Darkest Romance, the GazettE, VAMPS, Versailles, XAAXAA, XANVALA, Xdinary Heroes, etc.

Other media I like: Alice in Borderland, Avatar: The Last Airbender, Boku No Hero Academia, Black Clover, DC in general, Brooklyn 99, Carmen Sandiego, Cookie Run, Criminal Minds, Danganronpa, Dead by Daylight, Death Note, Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no Yaiba, Descendants, Dungeons & Dragons, Elementary, Ever After High, Fantastic Beasts & Where to Find Them (fuck JKR, tho), Genshin Impact, Girl from Nowhere, Gravity Falls, Haikyū!!, Harry Potter (see previous parenthesis), iZombie, Jujutsu Kaisen, Little Nightmares, Maze Runner, Miraculous: Tales of Ladybug & Cat Noir, Monster High, My Little Pony, NCIS, Peanuts, Pokémon, Resident Evil, Riverdale, Saiki K, Scooby-Doo in general, Scream, Soul Eater, Spiderverse, Tales of Arcadia, The Amazing World of Gumball, The Dark Pictures Anthology, The Umbrella Academy, The Quarry, Total Drama, Until Dawn, and Vox Machina, etc.

[lgcmanager]

NOTORIETY TIERS 012

SCHEDULE TYPE: N/A RESTRICTIONS: only open to anyone who has 200 NOTORIETY and is an IDOL ( who debuted in a permanent group ), ACTOR, or MODEL.

as a reward for people’s dedication and hard work towards the rp, we have opened this for anyone who has met specific requirements. this new concept also allows for our members to plan their muses’ career outside of roleplay-sponsored events. more details about the notoriety tier can be located in THIS GUIDE created by ADMIN *! since this is a new concept for all of us, if you do have any questions pertaining to the guide, feel free to message the main!

for SEPTEMBER, we listed the muses that are eligible for this opportunity and the tier they belong in:

AHN JAEHWA ( @lgcjaehwa ): tier 7

AHN JAESUN ( @lgcjaesun ): tier 8

AHN YEIN ( @lgcyein ): tier 2

GONG HYEJOO ( @lgchyejoo ): tier 3

HAN JISOO ( @lgcjisoo ): tier 3

HAN KEEHO ( @lgckeeho ): tier 2

JEON HARU ( @lgcharu ): tier 7

KIM ALEX ( @lgcalex ): tier 4

KIM JINSEO ( @lgcjinseo ): tier 7

KIM JINYOUNG ( @lgcjinyoung ): tier 3

LEE HANBYUL ( @lgchanbyul ): tier 5

LEE JIHO ( @lgcjiho ): tier 7

LEE MINJI ( @lgcxminji ): tier 3

LEE YEJIN ( @lgcyejin ): tier 2

LEE YUSHIN ( @lgcyushin ): tier 5

LIM SANGHYUN ( @lgcsanghyun ): tier 6

MIN SOYOUN ( @lgcsoyoun ): tier 7

MOON HAYOUNG ( @lgchayoung ): tier 4

MOON SOMIN ( @lgcsomin ): tier 3

OH EUNHYE ( @lgceunhye ): tier 6

PONGSAK TEE ( @lgctee ): tier 3

SEO YURA ( @lgcyura ): tier 5

SHIN JIEUN ( @lgcjieun ): tier 3

SON EUNHO ( @eunholgc ): tier 2

SON NABI ( @lgcnabi ): tier 3

SU PARKER ( @lgcparker ): tier 2

WON YEONWOO ( @lgcyeonwoo ): tier 4

YAMASHITA ICHIKA ( @lgcichika ): tier 5

YANG AERI ( @lgcaeri ): tier 5

YOO DAEHO ( @lgcdaeho ): tier 3

for this cycle, most of the gigs will be scheduled for NOVEMBER-MARCH depending on the claims submitted. please keep this in mind with the details mentioned below AND when deciding on the gigs ( if you want to do one that is time-sensitive ).

GIG RESTRICTIONS

for FABULA and CRYSTALLIS, all of the members CANNOT redeem a commercial gig ( international or domestic ) due to Q4 plans.

for DRAMAS, we will only be allowing FOUR new dramas because these dramas will last until the end of 2023 and early 2024 ! 

as for SONGWRITING/MUSICAL ARRANGEMENT claims, here are a list of songs that are claimable:

458 - cix ( b-side/versus )

all the way here - ikon ( b-side/type zero )

collision - stray kids ( b-side/type zero )

draw (my time) - ichillin’ ( title track/nova )

generations - triple s ( title track/nova )

heroine - ive ( b-side/crystallis )

higher ground - wei ( b-side/type zero )

like a movie - ikon ( b-side/type zero )

my secret playlist - odd eye circle ( b-side/nova )

new world - ateez ( b-side/type zero )

sos - nct dream ( b-side/type zero )

welcome to my world - aespa ( b-side/crystallis )

wormhole: new track - n.ssign ( b-side/type zero )

in regards to the ARTICLES for the songwriting/producing claims, all of the details regarding when the songs will be released will be announced at the start of Q4 2023. we recommend that you wait until OCTOBER to submit the articles so that you have all of the necessary details. because of this too, we’ll be giving all of the songwriting/producing articles until OCTOBER 28, 2023 11:59PM EDT ( instead of the date mentioned below ) to be submitted.

as for the HOSTING gigs, here are the list of year end award shows that they can be a part of:

golden disc awards

KBS gayo daechukje

MAMA awards

MBC drama awards

MBC gayo daejejeon

melon music awards

SBS gayo daejeon

since it is early for the irl awards shows to announce dates for some of these events, if you plan on claiming any of them, it is advisable to write the article without a date attached to it and we’ll add it on our end when it’s announced.

for ALL gigs that are holidays/year end related ( eg. christmas covers ), you may claim them but please make a note in the form that it’s for that so we can schedule the gig accordingly.

NOTORIETY TIERS FORMS

please be sure to read THIS POST for more information on what activities you can claim and how to format your forms before you submit them to the lgcpoints blog by SEPTEMBER 9, 2023, 11:59PM EDT:

MUSE NAME · SEPTEMBER NOTORIETY TIERS NOTORIETY TIER: ( the muse’s notoriety tier ) CLAIM(S): ( number(s) + level(s) of each claim ) - ACTIVITY ##: ( list the level and gig ), +# ( skill points distribution ), +# notoriety - ACTIVITY ##: ( list the level and gig ), +# ( skill points distribution ), +# notoriety - ACTIVITY ##: ( list the level and gig ), +# ( skill points distribution ), +# notoriety

in addition to that, after your form has been accepted, you will have to do the second component, which is to write the article for each of the gigs. for this cycle, everyone has to submit their articles by OCTOBER 21, 2023, 11:59PM EDT ( unless this is for a songwriting/producing claim article, which will be due on OCTOBER 28, 2023 11:59PM EDT ). if you want ideas as to how the articles are typically written, you can refer OVER HERE. to make it easier for us, fill out the form below and submit it to the lgcmedia blog so that we can review and process it ( we also have the right to make any necessary changes to the articles to reflect whatever schedules the muse may have during that time ):

MUSE NAME · NOTORIETY TIERS - NOTORIETY TIER: ( the muse’s notoriety tier ) - ACTIVITY ##: ( list the level and gig ) - TITLES: ( for the graphic, there are two titles so provide the title which will be used in the graphic and then a heading for the post ) - BLURB: ( 100+ words minimum ) - IMAGE: ( image you prefer to use for the article, optional ) * ## denotes the number of the activity ( so activity 1, activity 2, etc. ).

while this is optional, if you wish to include the comments for each of the articles ( one positive and one negative/neutral ) you are free to do so ( and it does save us a bit of work ). if your muse is taking multiple activities, then copy and paste the form above again. please submit all of them one time ( exceptions are the songwriting/producing articles ) so that we can process it easily!

[lookgoodandtasty]

. ݁₊ ⊹ 뺏긴 𝒎𝒚 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕, 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍'𝒔 𝒂 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒆𝒓 ⊹ ₊ ݁.

ult/stan group biases

group key: ults ✧ other stans

member key: ᡣ𐭩 bias ⁀➴ wrecker explicitly have a unique maladaptive daydream about this member and therefore am most likely to write about them

౨ৎ fave album/song

skz

ᡣ𐭩 bang chan

⁀➴ han, literally all of them (lix)

౨ৎ album: case 143; song: any, cover me, leave, taste, 3racha, can't stop, the view, up all night, lonely st., topline)

bts

ᡣ𐭩 jungkook

⁀➴ rm, suga

౨ৎ album: love yourself: answer; song: danger, i need you, dimple, epiphany, anpanman, intro: persona, dionysus, war of hormone (sorry), just one day, attack on bangtan, boy in luv

zb1

ᡣ𐭩 gunwook, matthew

⁀➴ hanbin, gyuvin... taerae... hao... jiwoong... fine, ricky can stay too

౨ৎ song: our season, back to zerobase, good night

nct 127

ᡣ𐭩 johnny

⁀➴ mark, doyoung

౨ৎ album: 2 baddies (fight me); song: 1, 2, 7 (time stops), baby don't like it, designer, time lapse, highway to heaven, ay-yo, limitless

ateez

ᡣ𐭩 yeosang

⁀➴ jongho, san, wooyoung

౨ৎ album: the world ep. 1; song: answer, halazia, turbulence, geurilla, cyberpunk, the ring, limitless, django

riize

ᡣ𐭩 sohee

⁀➴ shotaro, eunseok

౨ৎ song: love 119 (i love all of their songs, they literally get better and better with each one)

m.o.n.t

ᡣ𐭩 roda

⁀➴ bitsaeon

౨ৎ song: anxious, shadow, 대한민국만세, will you be my girlfriend?, rock paper scissors, bomm bang

boynextdoor

ᡣ𐭩 i don't have one, i'm just OBSESSED with their music so they belong here!!

౨ৎ song: serenade, but i like you, one and only (just all of why, it's the best mini album of 2023 i said what i said)

~

other random biases

key: musically stan ✧ enjoy a little more casually

bias key: explicitly have a unique maladaptive daydream about this member and therefore am most likely to write about them

sevenus - ᡣ𐭩 heejae ⁀➴ ireah

ghost9 - ᡣ𐭩 junhyung

nct dream - ᡣ𐭩 jisung, mark

ampers&one - ᡣ𐭩 kamden

one pact - ᡣ𐭩 jay

victon - ᡣ𐭩 seungwoo

exo - ᡣ𐭩 kai

superm - ᡣ𐭩 mark, kai, lucas (?)

pentagon - ᡣ𐭩 hui

mcnd - ᡣ𐭩 castle j

sf9 - ᡣ𐭩 dawon

got7 - ᡣ𐭩 jackson, mark, bam

txt - ᡣ𐭩 kai, soobin

enhypen - ᡣ𐭩 jake

2pm - ᡣ𐭩 chansung, junho

b.i.g/team 24:00 - ᡣ𐭩 heedo

bae173 - ᡣ𐭩 hangyul ⁀➴ j-min

dkb - ᡣ𐭩 e-chan, harry, d1

tiot - ᡣ𐭩 junhyeon, minseoung

vanner - ᡣ𐭩 hyesung

evnne - ᡣ𐭩 hanbin, seungeon

ntx - ᡣ𐭩 yunhyeok ⁀➴ rawhyun

82major - ᡣ𐭩 yechan ⁀➴ seongbin

24k+ - ᡣ𐭩 xiwoo ⁀➴ yuma

asc2nt/dgna - ᡣ𐭩 karam ⁀➴ jay, injun

~

other groups whose music i love but don't have a bias for yet

key: musically stan ✧ enjoy a little more casually

wayv, cix, the boyz, monsta x, shinee, ab6ix, golden child, p1harmony, oneus, knk, younite, the new six, xdinary heroes

[dstrachan]

'VIEWS FROM THE EDGE' - w/c 4th September 2023

Frank Wilson ‘Do I Love You (Indeed I Do)’

The Spellbinders ‘Help Me (Get Myself Together Again)’

Paul Robeson & Lawrence Brown ‘Joe Hill’

Lachlan Anderson ‘Greenham Common’

Armando Gomez ‘Blackfriars’

Absolomb ‘Markov’

David Gray ‘Sail Away’

Archie Shepp ‘Attica Blues’

Marc Roberts ‘Speedway’

Jason Weaver & Rowan Atkinson & Laura Williams ’I Just Can’t Wait To Be King‘

Biome, DCult ‘Inner Peace’

The Drifters ‘You Got To Pay Your Dues’

Tony Clarke ‘Landslide’

Sandi Sheldon ‘You’re Gonna Make Me Love You’

Syl Johnson ‘One Way Ticket To Nowhere’

Out Of Sights ‘Tears Don’t Care’

Billy Butler ‘Right Track’

Reperata & the Delrons ‘Panic’

Dean Parrish ‘I’m On My Way’

Triple S ‘Girls’ Capitalism’

CIX ‘Save Me, Kill Me’

Jung Kook & BTS feat. FIFA Sound ‘Dreamers [Music from the FIFA World Cup Qatar 2022 Official Soundtrack]’

Shakira feat. Freshlyground ‘Waka Waka (This Time for Africa) [The Official 2010 FIFA World Cup Song]’

New Order ‘World In Motion’

Jessie Ware feat. Róisín Murphy ‘Freak Me Now (Horse Meat Disco Remix) [feat. Róisín Murphy]’

Roisin McCarney ‘Villain’

Sinéad Tait ‘The Villain’

Black Sabbath ‘Snowblind’

Wings ‘Let Me Roll It’

Unison ‘Rollin’

[robin-obsessed]

….. 🏐

you got delivery

there are certain people who make the world a better place just by being in it. you are one of them

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM2XUgHBM/

you guessed it, i am new anon! do you have any nicknames for me? let us enjoy the ride and let us see if you can figure out who i am!

i am curious on which group you stan or may i say your ultimate?

-📸

that is very true!! thank your for your sweet messages :(

i’ve seen cammie and flash… but i think i’m a fan of cam 🤔 flash is a close second though ~

my ult is TXT! but some groups i stan include ATEEZ, Kep1er, ZEROBASEONE and CIX! i would put ONEUS, P1Harmony, New Jeans, LE SSERAFIM and BTS as more causal groups ~

what about you? ^^

[soobberries]

also babes I’m tryna get into cix, any songs you would recommend?

Hell yeah!

Alright a small disclaimer though: In my experience, all of Cix's songs are growers. If you aren't feeling it initially, you will totally vibe after the next few listens.

Also, some of their songs are very heavy in the sense that the content can be rough, and perhaps a little angsty but I mean... Their meanings are pretty solid at least.

Let me start with their title tracks since, most of those are bangers ngl.

These aren't recommendations per se but I'll give you a sloppy description and you can probably gauge what might be worth listening to.

[the red and blue ones are the main ones that I'm technically recommending or they're my faves.]

I hope this helps? lmao-

Movie Star - It's sultry and kinda groovy; reminds me of lucid dream by aespa and some of vixx/sf9 songs. (one of my favorites for sure).

Jungle - straight banger, pretty moody though, somewhat slow bpm and is 100% a grower. the more I listened, the more things I noticed within the song that just accentuates the overall song.

Numb - the break at the chorus is pretty solid, not my first recommendation but can definitely be enjoyable if you like a mix of noisy sounds and what I'd describe as 'sleek' sounds lol.

My New World - This is their Japanese release and ... I'm starting to realize their overall sound tends to be smooth and steady... powerful sounds that make you feel like a main character that's trying to overcome some great evil. So that's the main essence of this song lmao.

Wave - pretty feel good, relaxed. Reminds me of the view by stray kids.

Off my mind - has as rich rythmic instrumental, pretty sultry/groovy sound. Nothing stand out but a solid song. The chorus has an engaging beginning.

Pinky Swear - Another Japanese release that is very wholesome and just feels like someone is telling you things will be alright.

Save me, Kill me - It makes me oddly nostalgic. It has this bittersweet sound to it. It's basically a tragic song but you can do a dramatic contemporary dance to it that would slay-

Bad Dream - I really like this one so much but again, it has that main character fighting their inner demons or something. It has the coolest break though. It's so like, 2010's club sound in a good way.

458 - banger, pretty moody as well, but gosh the chorus just GOES HARD ngl.

Tesseract - The ultimate movie song lmao. Picture someone walking in this vast desert-like terrain with a sword in hand, and then they plunge it into the ground causing shockwaves into the ground, absolutely annihilating the enemy in style. That's all I'll say.

Cinema - I really was underwhelmed with this initially but then I found myself humming the chorus. It has a light feeling to it. A simple song you can play in the background and it makes your chest less tight.

Okay, I think those are the title tracks.

Overall I'd recommend their album "'OK' Prologue : Be OK" just because it's a pretty solid glimpse into their discography OR their EP "HELLO Chapter 1: Hello, Stranger" jeez their names....

Then there are some that I find myself liking:

What you wanted - has some cool melodies. again, has a mix of sleek and noisy sounds. The chorus is sleek and the verses are what's noisy. Reminds me of Exo.

Like It That Way - Those chilled tropical vibes that were really popular a while back.

Move My Body - IT BANGS IDK WHAT ELSE TO PUT. It's the type of song that feels like a guilty pleasure. Like you play it at 3am and dance in your room but you won't outright play it for just anyone.

Black Out - Solid noisy goodness (It gives NCT 127 vibes)

Round 2 - It reminds me of Dean's music. Idk if it classifies as rnb but definitely has that laid-back vibe.

[oasisblavk]

daily dose of happiness

[kdyism]

pov: you are easily impressed ✴ cinema, cix

cixrevival week one, how you became a FIX

[dearhaos]

for the ask game plz tell us 🎤 for my belovededs ab6ix aannnnd cix ! 💓

ERIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII i lov u

ab6ix

order: donghyun ?=>?? daehwi > woojin = woong fav song: take a guess. surreal, heaven and blind for love (and hollywood beloved) are close . but like . also like all the side tracks on vivid also because . god

cix

order: seunghun > yonghee => baejin > byounggon > hyunsuk fav song: rebel & switch it up & revival..............and cinema i almost forgot about cinema im sorry beloved

[seungkwan-s]

i stan cix so hard

[cixlog]

cix title tracks are movies...