#cisgender!Sam

[jojotier]

didnt wanna put this in the prev tags of the last posts but like. the whole egg subconscious desire to transition getting translated into fiction is sooooo funny. when i did homestuck rp at age 15 i was obsessed with this dystopian au based off i think some music video where society kept the gender roles of the 1950s and to rebel our characters would like sneak make up into the boys' dormitory or teaching girls how to box in underground rings even with the pearls still around their necks and the entire time i was like aha imagine having to live in a world where you're trapped by the gender roles you were born into! thank god I don't live like that <- about to learn some things about himself in 2-3 years

[forever-amy-blush]

As a 'special treat' for all his hard work Sam’s mother, Ms Smith, had driven her to an appointment with an Endocrinologist specializing in transitioning boys to girls.

"Thank you so much for meeting with us Doctor."

"Ever since Sam here turned 14 years old all he can talk about is how much he likes boys and how much he wishes he were a girl" Ms Smith explained.

Sam, shocked and appalled, tried to speak up

"I never said any of that!"

"Honey!" his mother chided him. "Not now! Adults are talking.

“Sorry doctor, I think that's his toxic masculine energy I keep hearing about from everyone”.

"It's okay Sam, there's nothing to be ashamed about. The good news is that today can be a very special day for you. With a combination of estrogen and testosterone blockers we can make sure any of those male concepts of things like pride or ego are quickly erased." The doctor said.

The Doctor leaned in close and whispered "It will also make sure you don't need to wear padded bras anymore, you'll have the real thing." She then gave Sam a quick wink.

"It all sounds very exciting Doctor!" Ms Smith exclaimed. "I've also heard castration can be an effective way to stop the natural testosterone production, is that true?" Ms Smith inquired.

Sam was mortified. This trip wasn't a special treat at all!!

"You're correct Ms Smith. Of course it's a very permanent procedure, so one has to consider that."

"Hmm well I guess we'll table that for now. But if he acts out again after these testosterone blockers I think we'll have to pull the trigger on making those balls a memory of the past. Now, what's the highest dose of estrogen she can start taking today?"

Sam and his mother went and filled the hormone prescriptions at the pharmacy. Sam still had brief moments of clarity where he remembered his past cisgender male self, but with each day of hormone treatment those moments were fewer and further apart.

Finally, enough time passed for people to forget about Sam. It was time for her to return to school as Samantha.

[aliusfrater]

i've said it before and i'll say it again: personally i don't think sam is '''womancoded''' specifically but i do think that based on supernatural's genre and it's tropes, sam's character is set within the archetype of the narrative's nucleus Other in both the most 2005 and gothic horror/supernatural resurgence/metahorror way possible and as the show's allegorical patriarchal structure shifted and developed, the non-role that he eventually and, more often than not, falls into when it comes to episodic tropes are ones that can be seen as normatively feminine—damsel in distress, prudishness, beta bitch (to dean in context), bratty-ness (2.15), hysterical, and he becomes jack's Mother in terms of the roles he and dean eventually occupy when it comes to considering jack as their son.

and while it is valid and true to think that this idea—in regards to any kind of gender-related concept in regards to a canonically cisgender male character in supernatural—exists because of the existing misogynist tendencies within both fandom and the way the show itself handles its female characters, and that by thinking about a male character in this way, it's an excuse for not caring about these female characters but sam is also explicitly and purposefully written this way, both in terms of his original character archetypes and certain tropes that he's written into (singer has discussed sam's role as jack's mother); both ideas can and do exist.

anyway the point is that supernatural is just so heteronormative that it could not create a space outside of an idea of the show's own standard of masculinity within which sam could reside. and even then the Othering and liminality of sam's character, which originally exist in reference to his monstrosity, both set the foundation for and perpetuate this aspect of his patriarchal position. and honestly, he isn't the only character that this is explored in; a lot of cis-male demons are portrayed as being queer or doing emasculating things because of their monstrosity. sam's Othering can exist as an allegory for a lot of things—queerness, immigration, neurodivergency, etc.—but based on just how evident masculinity is in supernatural, feminine gender explorations are low-hanging fruit.

[tmasc-confessions]

I am really broken up about Sam Nordquist’s murder tbh. He was lured in by someone who claimed to love and affirm him and then horrifically tortured and murdered by OTHER QUEER PEOPLE. And the fact that they were also LGB (though not T) and lured him in with kind affirming words is being used to justify not pressing hate crime charges.

Four white cisgender people torture and murder a black trans man but they were kinda nice about it at first so it's not considered a hate crime... it blows my mind. I'm broken up about it, too.

[eclipsedcrystalstar]

Now with more options than the trans poll because I was going off the top of my head

[dcdreamblog]

Do you have a favorite encounter with a hero? Is there one that you’d love to meet, living or not?

I've found that, with my current profession the idea of "heroic encounters" has taken on a new meaning. Since I actually have a professional "in" to their world even if only a small one. I now have semi regular conversations with the original Red Tornado. I WORK with a retired member of the Rocket Red Brigade. It's taken a lot of the nerves and mystique out of meeting them where it might once have been. Though if I had to name the best encounter, that's obvious. I mean I got to spend my lunch breaks for the better part of a week interviewing Uncle Sam himself for this very blog! (It's under #usqna if you haven't seen it) and he still hangs around the museum every so often meaning I'm starting to develop a casually personable relationship with a man I've admired my entire life. I don't know if I'm ever going to directly get caught up in a superhero battle again in my life. I hope not, I've already been in two which is two more than anyone ever should but from where I am now that's not at all the kind of 'encounters' I think about anymore. As for who I would love to meet, that one took some thinking.

(Green Lantern's official JSA portrait) In the study of the heroic Golden Age there is NO ONE who looms as large or who holds the same kind of personal gravity as Alan Scott, the original Green Lantern. While other heroes were active in Gotham during the Golden Age none of them held even near his acclaim. The easiest comparison to make is that the Green Lantern was then what Superman is now. An overpowering, bright and unmistakable inspiration to every hero he stood beside or who was inspired after him.

Many of his contemporaries in records from the time don't even feel the need to call him by name. Many other heroes simply called him "The Big Guy" because that's the way they thought about him. When Green Lantern joined the fray it meant the fight was about to get wrapped up and the bad guy was gonna end up in a crater for the attempt. He was the broad shoulders that entire heroic assault relied upon, the skeleton that every other hero could count on holding them up so they could do what they do.

People talk about the Batman weaponizing fear in Gotham now but that's barely comparable to the grip that Green Lantern held over Gotham back in the day. Criminals shrunk back from the streets, Nazi agents and sabotage steered clear of one of the countries biggest business and industrial hubs just because he was there. No Nazi agent, superhuman or not dared think they could take him in a straight fight because every man who tried got slammed over the horizon like a home run ball.

After the war he stepped back from the limelight with the rest of his comrades but even in the modern day I find him endlessly fascinating and inspiring. A father of two children who have become proud bearers of his standard, mentor to an entire lineage of modern heroes who carry his name, inspiration to who knows how many more and STILL and active heroic presence in the upper echelon of the power scale who can just as easily turn giant robots to scrap as he could 80 years ago.

A man who wasn't able to discover and admit his own sexuality and identity until he was near enough a century old and yet is still married to the same woman he's been married to for nearly 30 years which only opens up the kind of questions that I would feel too deeply shy to ever ask but I think would really revolutionize the way people think about sexuality both in men of his generation and also the innumerable way that that sort of thing can manifest. A man who publically announced his homosexuality after a 70 year superhero career despite having two biological children and being happily married to a cisgendered woman, it'd make some people's heads spin! At least now I have a cop out, if I ever do meet him. YOU GUYS can come up with the questions so I don't end up stammering at my shoes.

[irlpowderfromarcane]

sexuality/gender headcanons for the SDV characters!💕

Abigail: pansexual aromatic, demigirl

Alex: gay, cisgender

Elliott: gay, trans masc

Emily: pansexual polyamorous, nonbinary

Haley: lesbian, cisgender

Harvey: bisexual, cisgender

Leah: lesbian, trans fem

Maru: asexual biromantic, agender

Penny: demisexual heteroromantic, cisgender

Sam: pansexual, trans masc

Sebastian: bisexual demiromantic, trans masc

Shane: gay, cisgender

[solitary-bones]

in honor of pride month: some queer head canons for septimus heap characters!!

Septimus (first of course): aroace king! he is so the type to just have a bestie moment with jenna and beetle and just hang around them all the time but never need something for himself. He just reallyyyyyy likes learning about magyk and going on adventures with his friends!! (also the apprentice and extraordinary wizard colors are green and purple so like..)

Jenna: huuuuuuge bi energy (shout out to that scene from darke 👀). she just gives huge idgaf energy.

Beetle: with a name like this he is not cisgender. bro has the most he/they energy. Both my brother and I lovee this lil guy.

there's nothing heterosexual or cisgender about this image. Also he gives huge bi energy. I think he's in a qpr with septimus while having his bi4bi with Jenna.

Marcia: the lesbian parental figure to ever. I don't have thoughts besides that this woman is not straight in any way.

Milo: polyamorous and asexual. This guy probably loves a lot of his higher ups in his crew. Why else would he be so chill being at sea all the time?

Lucy: demisexual & demiromantic (doesn't really know her attraction past that because she's only ever been into Simon). big she/they energy

Alice Nettles: any pronouns nonbinary and pan

Alther: just queer, bro does not like labels

Zelda: aromantic and lesbian. She'd probably drop something to septimus or wolf boy being like yeah when I was younger I was very popular with the ladies at the port. and they'd just be like :0

Marcellus: bro is so homosexual. The gay man to ever. good for him honestly. But he is such a hermit and introvert he really doesn't make many connections or have any meaningful relationships ://

Merrin: totally trans fem. she is so uncomfortable and emo about having to present as a guy and have a name she doesn't like that she gets into darke stuff to cope. credit to @septimus-heap for this post and pointing this out to me, you make a good point.

Wolf Boy: very aroace furry energy. also I feel nonbinary with some neopronouns to do with being raised by wolves and feeling like one of them. I also feel like being keeper of keeper cottage kinda requires a person to be aromantic because you're literally not allowed to get married so it's way better this way. Also probably in a qpr with septimus but yk it's pretty long distance so doesn't always work. but when they do get together bro is it lit.

Sam Heap: Ace and gay. Bro was sooooo confused about why the other forest heaps were so enamored with the wendron witches. He just really likes fishing.

and to finish it off strong

Jim Knee: canonically nonbinary gender fluid. Also the most gender nonconforming and outwardly queer person represented honestly. He's very flamboyant in his current appearance and iteration which is iconic. And I think it's really funny he just decided to be a guy because Merrin called him Jim Knee so he just went with it.

[aliusfrater]

i actually value headcanoning cishet sam as existing within queer spaces. like having mostly queer friends at stanford or connecting more intimately with canonically queer characters. just as much as i do actual queer sam hcs because the way i interpret queer allegories in relation to sam is how his masculinity doesn't fit perfectly into the ideal idea of masculinity or the performance of it within both the patriarchy that supernatural is written under and how i interpret a patriarch structure allegory of supernatural (as well as how supernatural very closely relates masculinity to hunting). along with the metaphorical liminality of his character & his monstrosity. like his masculinity and humanity (as well as how he diverges from both) exists but is nuanced enough to push him between roles. and while that itself is pretty queer, i think acknowledging his cisgendered-ness and heterosexuality as existing, but being constantly questioned enough for him to fit better into queer society as a cishet guy is genuinely a really fun concept to me. plus it breaks down existing ideas of cishet-ness

kind of like how i don't really hc dean as anything but bone straight because the performance of masculinity in the way he does it is moreso a cishet issue than a queer one

[rose-of-oz]

🌾 + Esme Gomez?

Thanks so much for this!! Also gonna tag @luucypevensie, @ginger-grimm, @manyfandomocs, @aceyanaheim, and @ginevrastilinski-ocs!! <3 <3

If they were given the chance to change their first name, what they would change it to: I don’t think Esme would want to change her name, but if she did, it would be to something like Morticia, after the amazing mom from The Addams Family, or Emily, after the character from The Corpse Bride.

Their favourite scent in shampoo or body wash: She really loves floral scents, as well as cocoa and shea butter scents in her body wash.

How they like their coffee/tea, if they drink either: Esme doesn’t really like tea, unless she’s taking one of those sleepy time teas to help her rest, but she loves her coffee iced an with a shot or two of caramel.

What nonsensical profession (wizard, unicorn, etc.) they wanted to have as a kid: She wanted to be a witch, and also, briefly, a ragdoll like Sally from The Nightmare Before Christmas.

Their biggest insecurity: Although she does know that she’s talented, Esme can never help being worried that any success in the theatre world that she gets will only be because of her last name and her mother’s reputation.

The most common way they get injured: Esme has a bad habit of biting her lip constantly, and often the skin on her lip will break and bleed a bit.

Does their personality change when they’re alone versus when they’re with people? How so?: It doesn’t, really; Esme is pretty dedicated to being wholly herself as much as possible, whether she’s around others or not.

Their romantic orientation, sexual orientation, and gender identity: Panromantic, pansexual, polyamorous, and a cisgender female who uses she/her pronouns.

Are they naturally more obedient or defiant towards authority?: She’s sort of neutral; she’ll be respectful towards people with authority, but it’s only on the condition that they don’t abuse their power, and if they do then she will not hold back on letting them know what she thinks of them.

Their most painful memory: When, in the middle of her struggling with her feelings for both Sam and Artie, she stumbled upon the two boys kissing. She thought, in that moment, that she’d lost both of the boys she loved, and the thought of it was enough to make her run away and curl up crying in the corner of an empty classroom.

send me 🌾 + an oc!!

[practically-an-x-man]

Souriya "Spider" Prakash-Cooper

(picrew is @potato-lord-but-not's Persona Creator, moodboard by @negative-speedforce, faceclaim is Mamoudou Athie (not pictured))

Full Name: Souriya Prakash-Cooper Pronouns: he/him (cisgender omnisexual man)

Nicknames: Spider (usual nickname), bandar (from his mom, slang term meaning "monkey" or a mischievous child) Pet Names: ??? (how do you have pet names when nobody's allowed to speak?)

Relevant Tags: #oc spider, #souriya prakash-cooper

Birthday: June 20th, 1994 Age in Chapter One: 25 (about to be 26)

Universe/Fandom: A Quiet Place, specifically Day One

Physical Traits: 6'1", with the build of a speed climber (athletic, wiry but with muscle in his shoulders, quads, and especially forearms). He has particularly large hands and a long wingspan, traits that aided his success in climbing. Of Lao, Indian, and Black American descent, he has an oval-shaped face with heavily-lidded black eyes, a wide flat nose, thick but expressive eyebrows, and a crooked smile with moderately full lips. His hair is naturally a very dark brown and between a 3B and 3C hair type, though he frequently dyes it a bright cardinal-red. It is styled as an undercut, with the top reaching down to his shoulders, though he ties it into a bun or a tight braid when he climbs. He has earlobe piercings in both ears, along with an industrial in his right ear and a septum ring in his nose.

Character Traits: Highly observant and detail-oriented, good at pattern recognition, but also a confident social butterfly who thrives around others. He's charismatic and funny, if a little eccentric, and has no problem making himself look the fool for the sake of a laugh (or for his job). He's a problem-solver by nature and good at thinking outside-the-box, though tends to struggle when said problems fall outside his skill set.

Relationships: - Family: Adhira Nanette Prakash (mother), Darius Cooper (father), Devi and Manichan "Minnie" Prakash-Cooper (sisters) - Friends: A thriving network of friends within the film business pre-apocalypse, roommates Newt and Ginger, climbing buddies "Ghost" (Jaxon), "Dart" (Sophie), and "Sparky" (DJ); post-apocalypse finds allies in Sam, Eric, Marcus (OC), and Amina (OC) - Romantic Partner: Unsure (probably Eric but I haven't sorted out the details yet-)

Additional Information: - Was born in Seattle, but moved to Los Angeles as an adult to pursue a career in foley effects - At the time of AQP:DO, he was in New York for a television project - Also was a semiprofessional speed climber, and very briefly held a world record for a 15-meter prepared climb - Regularly carries around a handheld tape recorder, and uses it to record any interesting sounds he comes across - He also tries not to tape over sounds he's already recorded (unless he absolutely has to), and has whole crates of tapes collected and labelled in his home - He understands sound extremely well and is capable of moving near-silently when he tries - a combination of his impressive body control from climbing and his innate knowledge of sound from his foley career - Has recorded the sound of the Death Angels' echolocation-clicks and uses the sound to temporarily distract them when he needs a quick escape - ^ as a whole, he chooses to imitate the creatures' noises and movements rather than attempting to remain completely silent, which is a terrifying but often effective strategy - He is a sensation-seeker and often tries to experience as many different events as he can (demolition derbies, skydiving, rage rooms, live sports and concerts, etc.) - both to collect interesting sounds and simply to enjoy the experience - His nickname, Spider, was originally given to him at his climbing gym (for his long limbs and fast, eclectic climbing style), but he later began using it in his personal life as well - ^ However, he always had himself professionally credited by his full, given name, as a credit to his parents and a refusal to Anglicanize himself for film credits - First gained his interest in foley from Bollywood films and sci-fi/horror movies, since the sound design was intriguing to him

[eatmeeraw]

INTRODUCTION POST.

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the. sea speaks more honestly to those willing to drown.

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i’m circe, i’m a writer and an aspiring actress. she/they ; 18 ; cisgender(?) ; lesbian. hyperfixation on scream, especially jill roberts. i cannot say i’m talented, my writing isn’t necessarily good, but i enjoy venting my thoughts and ideas via such act, and that’s the motive i created this account. english isn’t my first language, please have patience with me and try to understand my position.

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WHAT DO I WRITE? WITH WHAT CHARACTERS?

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angst, fluff, comedy, and smut. i will add a warning everytime one of my written creations will include suggestive context, or straight up detailed sex scenes. probably will write only character x fem!reader, having a preference for wlw stories. will try to write something about the men i will write down with the rest of the characters now. REQS ARE OPEN.

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Fandoms

— Scream ( 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6. )

Characters i write for:

Scream 1: Billy Loomis, Stu Macher, Tatum Riley, Sidney Prescott, Gale Weathers;

Scream 2: Sidney Prescott, Gale Weathers, Dewey Riley (maybe);

Scream 3: Sidney Prescott, Gale Weathers, Dewey Riley (maybe);

Scream 4: Jill Roberts ( <3!! ), Sidney Prescott, Gale Weathers, Dewey Riley (maybe), Charlie Walker, Kirby Reed;

Scream 5: Tara Carpenter, Sam Carpenter, Amber Freeman, Mindy Meeks-Martin, Chad Meeks-Martin.

Scream 6: Quinn Bailey/Kirsch, Tara Carpenter, Sam Carpenter, Ethan Landry/Kirsch.

p.s.: can do cross-overs between movies.

— The Substance

Characters i write for:

Sue, Elisabeth Sparkle.

— Miller’s Girl

Characters i write for:

Cairo Sweet, Winnie Black.

— American Horror Story

Will be added soon.

— Stranger Things

Characters i write for:

Nancy Wheeler, Robin Buckley, Eddie Munson, Steve Harrington.

— Hades

Characters i write for:

Aphrodite, Nyx, Thanatos.

— Wednesday

Will be added soon.

— Marvel

Characters i write for:

Felicia Hardy, ATSV characters (Hobie, Miguel, etc.), Peter Parker.

— You

Characters i write for:

Love Quinn, Guinevere Beck, Joe Goldberg ( maybe ).

— Jennifer’s Body

Characters i write for:

Jennifer Check.

This is not all, i will probably upload as i get into more fandoms and study more characters.

— AHS (American Horror Story)

S1, S3 , S8 and S9 for now

Characters i write for:

Violet Harmon, Tate Langdon, Cordelia Goode, Madison Montgomery, Zoe Benson, Kyle Spencer, Misty Day, maybe Marie Laveau, maybe Fiona Goode, Michael Langdon, Xavier Plympton, Brooke Thompson, Montana Duke.

— Mean Girls

Characters i write for:

The plastics.

MY BOTS

(reqs are open)

DNI

minors shall not interact with the stories i say are strictly 18+. basic dni criteria. if you don’t like women, LEAVE. if you don’t support palestine, LEAVE. if you are a radical feminist, LEAVE. if you’re sensitive to blood, swearing, violence, and similar things. leave for your own safety, they will be the main themes on my account, unfortunately.

your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.

[ginger-grimm]

🌾 + Flip, my favourite acrobat? <3

Thank you so much @rose-of-oz! Also going to tag @dancingsunflowers-ocs!

If they were given the chance to change their first name, what they would change it to: I believe Flip actually liked the name Fiona enough that she wouldn't have changed, and she goes by Flip anyway, so I think she would keep it the same.

Their favourite scent in shampoo or body wash: There was a raspberry and hibiscus shampoo she always liked to use and she tended to gravitate towards cocoa body wash.

How they like their coffee/tea, if they drink either: Flip likes her coffee with a bit of creamer as well as cinammon in it. She's generally a propietor of sweeter beverages.

What nonsensical profession (wizard, unicorn, etc.) they wanted to have as a kid: She wanted to be a dancing fairy as a child.

Their biggest insecurity: Being too standoffish with people and pushing them away, therefore ending up alone.

The most common way they get injured: Most of the time it would be during the job. Twisted ankles, crunched toes, cuts and bruises from routines, et.

Does their personality change when they’re alone versus when they’re with people? How so?: She could be very roughhousing with friends and colleagues and just be a lot more chill on her own time. I think part of herself always thought she needed to prove herself to people.

Their romantic orientation, sexual orientation, and gender identity: Demiromantic, pansexual, cisgender woman.

Are they naturally more obedient or compliant towards authority?: Definitely more rebellious. Rebellion is all she's really ever known when she was alive. And even in death she can be very oppositional with Sam - although this approach only works until Sam denies her the TV and then she caves.

Their most painful memory: When her parents kicked her out and she realized she would never have an intact family again. It makes her cry several times even during her successful times. She just wanted to be wanted by others.

[quietwingsinthesky]

queerness on supernatural is a gag or it’s a threat or sometimes, if you’re really lucky, it’s both. we can imply that sam was assaulted by the devil, cause the devil’s shaped like a man and that makes it scary, but also a little funny, right? crowley is about the queerest character to exist on the show, but he can only kiss men while doing demon deals and we’ll only ever show him having relationships with women.

‘but charlie, what about charlie’ yeah? what about charlie. charlie who is never allowed to have a long-term relationship with another woman? charlie whose queerness is specifically designed to be nonthreatening to both sam and dean (and through them, the, and i really hate to be the one to break this to you if you don’t know it already, largely heterosexual cisgender audience?) charlie who is more like the idea of a nerdy girl the writers fantasize about than a real character, who is allowed to kiss other girls because hey, that’s kind of hot, right? like, god knows i love charlie. she’s only allowed to exist because nothing about her is challenging beyond the most basic fact that she likes women. and even that has to be downplayed until she fucking dies.

that’s the kind of show supernatural is. it never pretended to be anything else.

[grape-jucie-dog]

Hey, I like you! -tells you about all of my personal Melissa headcanons-

I love Melissa with all my heart, she's my favorite background character ever. However (to me personally, don't come at me with the black dagger), I don't count "Hey Melissa!" canon in my personal universe. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for a murderous woman with a blazer, but I don't like the idea of Melissa being a murderer in EVERY universe 😭 breaks my heart. SO. HERE ARE ALL OF MY MELISSA HEADCANONS!

Name: Melissa Riley-Faith

Pronouns: She/Her

Gender: Cisgender female

Sexuality: Unlabeled

Mental illness: Depression

Family: Shitty mom she doesn't talk to named Alison, and her cat Cassie

Height: 5'6

Age: 31

- Melissa loves doing photography, mostly of nature

- She's been best friends with Charlotte for 15 long years, because I refuse to think they aren't close friends

- She has a lot of candles. I can just see it-

- Melissa doesn't drive, so she walks to work with Charlotte. Even when she's not going to work, she mostly walks everywhere. She loves going for walks

- Passive Aggressive Mel my beloved

- As a little nod to "Hey Melissa!", She makes a lot of dark jokes, just has a dark sense of humor

- She isn't exactly a light weight, but don't give her too much to drink either unless you wanna deal with either a very emotional Melissa or a very energetic Melissa

- She has two different colored eyes, mostly because when I first saw her I couldn't tell if her eyes were green or brown. SO SHE HAS BOTH (you can see it in my artwork actually)

- 100% listens to Lady Gaga, prove me wrong I dare you

(TW for the next few HCs, talking about depression, abuse, and self harm)

- Melissa has self harm scars from her past, and she isn't afraid to show them off

- Her father died when she was 14, and because of this she was mentally abused by her mother. She moved out when she was almost 20 years old, and hasn't really spoken with her mom since

- Melissa tends to go through depressive episodes, having times where she can't even get out of bed. Charlotte has known about this for a long time, and is always looking out for her

- She used to be friends with Sam, but after seeing how he treats Charlotte, she despises him

- Call me crazy for this, but I can see her and Mr. Davidson having a father daughter relationship. It's the same with Bill and Mel, but it's more commonly seen with Mr. Davidson

- She used to have a crush on Paul (much like in canon), but when she learned that he loved Emma, she eventually lost feelings, and now they're all friends

- Melissa, Emma, Charlotte, Piper (OC), Alexa (OC),Harper (OC), and Sawyer (OC) are all a girl group because it's funny to me and my bestie

- She doesn't have a strong opinion on coffee, but she normally has a lot of milk in it

- While she isn't BIG on musicals, one of her favorites is RENT

- Melissa is pretty expressive, like if you tell her the most out of pocket shit you can tell she's shocked

- She loves talking to her cat, Cassie, as if she were an actual person. She does this with all of Charlotte's cats too (Charlotte has cats. If you disagree, fight me [I'm kidding please don't.])

- She has a lot of videos saved on her phone, and most of them is just chaos happening around the office

- While we don't see her on screen long enough to see how she got infected in TGWDLM, I do have an idea: She was originally going to escape with Charlotte, Bill, and Ted, but she was found by Mr. Davidson before she could get away

- Shocked I haven't mentioned this one, but she has an upsidedown heart shaped birthmark on her thigh

- Melissa is 100% ambidextrous, and I refuse to think otherwise

[kazumiwrites-fanfiction]

Surprises, Surprises

SUMMARY: Azul is full of surprises, and you are too. WORD COUNT: 2.1k (wow)

WARNINGS: Trans male reader (he/him pronouns), canon divergent (it branches off after the prologue), Azul being Azul, insecurities (mostly Azul), mentions of dysphoria, mentions of transphobia, mentions of periods & period products

A/N: Give me more trans & male readers because games like this are never given enough of that- (especially in otome-like games) I apologize if this became really OOC but I uh. I tried. I haven't written for months- (this whole thing reads like a crack fic to me even though I was 100% serious while writing) Uh anyways so maybe this won’t be relatable for most but this is how I view my non-cisness. If this gives anyone dysphoria I’m sorry because I genuinely haven’t written for non-gender-neutral readers in a while (and I always used to write only fem readers) so uh. This is basically a self-indulgence fic because Azul is one of my favs. I love the three Octavinelle boys- My summary-making skills are dying guys

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You never expected to land in a school for… boys. Obviously, since you were magicked away by some external force, it would seem odd that the magic that had isekai’d you would automatically put you in a school with hordes of cisgender men. I mean, technically the magic should categorize you as female, right? Not that you were complaining, of course, it just didn’t make much sense to your head. Hey, at least the Dark Mirror is supportive…?

Truthfully though, you were glad. And you quickly fitted into your weird life with stranger and stranger people. They never suspected that you were anything other than a cis male. How could they when you never said anything, and you were more confident by the minute? Sure, sometimes it felt like there was something off about you… But they always tried to rationalize it.

It helped that Ace, Deuce, and Grim, the three who were always with you, didn’t seem to be very bright. Of course you loved them, but they definitely needed to study more on their tests and exams. You had had enough with the scoldings from all of the teachers, especially with Grim. Of course, since you were technically half of a student, you had to get scolded alongside the little furball.

Classes that didn’t involve the use of magic went fairly well for you. Especially since Grim didn’t get the chance to mess things up (at least, not often).

Even though you didn't have magic, you could at least try to stop Grim from doing the obviously wrong thing during class (such as dozing off, pouring the wrong thing into a mixture, etc).

The one thing you were glad about in this whole mess of things was Sam. He helped you get period products (for a reduced price as he knows you're going to be coming often anyways). Anytime someone asked about it, you always brushed it off as nothing. Obviously you weren't going to tell them and get a fallout from that. Sam was basically the only person who had known that you were biologically a girl, out of necessity. At least he understood and was supportive.

As you blearily walked through the halls of Night Raven College, you sighed softly. You could never get used to the throngs of people in the many hallways that led to class. It was definitely one of the biggest schools that you had attended. And the fact that you always had to get woken up by Grim yelling at you… It sucked.

In your half-asleep state, you didn't notice a boy with a slightly eccentric gray jacket striding toward you. Not surprisingly, you bumped into him and lost your balance. You mumbled a small apology as you caught yourself, eyes flickering up to meet his gaze.

You froze slightly. This must be the infamous Azul Ashengrotto. You had heard about him from rumors, how he created contracts that came with a price. You had learned enough about Night Raven College to know that you should probably stay away.

Seems like you were a moment too late, however, as you felt a hand on your shoulder. You jumped in surprise before the boy that was behind you came to stand in front of you.

"Boo," he said with a soft giggle. His hair was teal, and he had a sharp grin on his face… Must be one of the Leech twins.

You blinked slightly, unimpressed. "Sorry, I kind of have to go…" You gestured slightly, cursing Grim mentally for just leaving you behind. Obviously the most caring creature you've ever met.

The teal-haired male frowned ever so slightly. "Koebi-chan, you aren't going to stay? C'mon, come play with us." He looked plaintive, almost like a kicked puppy.

Ebi? Oh, shrimp. Why was he calling you shrimp… That wasn't the point, you really did need to go.

"Come, Floyd, we can't stop kantokusei-san from going to class. Let him be a good student." Another tall, teal-haired boy popped up. Must be the other twin. It surprised you that he would have known your name - but you shouldn't have been. You were close to being famous yourself in this school, after all.

"Yes, Floyd, let us leave him alone." Azul spoke up, and his voice was very smooth - too smooth. One of a liar, perhaps.

You nodded slightly with a small, tight smile as Floyd let you go, quickly making your way to class. You let out a soft sigh of relief as you saw Grim's familiar face, him talking about how you were such a 'useless kobun' and how you should be 'grateful that the Great Grim is still with you even though you're so useless'. You weren't listening to it at all, just grateful that you had escaped the three Octavinelle boys (which Grim got mad at later).

You wished Lunch came sooner. You were always starving - maybe it had to do with the subjects that you didn't know anything about that you were being forced to learn. And to remember, as Grim wasn't one to remember anything. You sighed softly, gripping Grim by the scruff of his neck as you carried your tray (which had his food as well) to the table where you usually sat. At least Grim hadn't done anything too bad, like stealing. But still, he came really close, and you really didn't want to take any chances. Soon, Ace and Deuce joined you, bickering lightheartedly, and you all started talking and enjoying your lunch together.

Just when you thought you could relax, a familiar voice scared you with a 'boo' and then a laugh. You inadvertently let out a yelp, making the voice that you knew was Floyd's laugh again. "Koebi-chan, you're so funny, you're gonna make me want to scare you more!"

You turned to glare at him, but before you could speak, Ace grabbed your arm. "You know the Leech twins?"

"Yes, and I don't want to talk about it." You sighed, shaking your head. Before you could say anything else, a figure walked closer to you, and you sighed. Please, don't let him sit with us…

But it seems that whoever you were pleading/praying to didn't listen, as Azul Ashengrotto just sat down beside you. He was very obviously acting like he didn't care what was going on, but he was poised, waiting for you to talk. Definitely a smooth businessman, then.

You stared at Ace's and Deuce's gaping faces, feeling slightly amused for a moment before quickly turning back to the matters at hand (Grim didn't notice, he was too engrossed in his lunch (and would take yours too, if you weren't careful)). Even as Floyd was whining and Jade (who popped out of nowhere) was dragging him away, you still watched Azul. "So… Are you going to talk about why you aren't sitting with your friends?"

"I just wanted to get to know you, since you're a new student and all." He turned wide eyes on you, and you almost let down your guard. Almost.

"Nice try. You're just trying to get the better of me, aren't you. Let down my guard so you can create a contract with me?" You raised a brow as you watched him.

"Oh I would never. The mere thought that you would think this wounds me." What a drama queen. "I just wanted to get to know you, as one student to another."

Yeah, and you really wanted to punch him in the face. You knew you couldn't do that - it was against the rules. Still, it was particularly hard when you were pretty sure he was saying blatant lies. But you knew you had to play nice.

You put on a big, charming smile, one that felt like it could make you sick with how sweet it was. "Well, sure, I'd love to take you up on that offer. If you really don't want to hurt me?"

"Of course I wouldn't hurt you, who do you think I am?" He shrugged slightly, looking slightly disappointed in you. "I only want to help people."

Yup, definitely all an act. "All right. What do you want to know?"

As your conversation went on, you felt your guard gradually fall. He seemed to be very nice, and whatever you told yourself, it didn't seem like he was a bad person. You almost liked him. All too soon, the bell rung and lunch was over. You bowed your head to him slightly in thanks with a small smile, genuine this time, before turning to meet the two Heartslabyul boys' gaze, as well as that of your little gremlin. "What?"

"…Nothing," Deuce said before Grim started assaulting you with loads of questions, such as where did you know the guy, he looks really smart, do you think he could help us study, etc. You just shook your head, telling him that he should study on his own and that you were help enough.

Still, Azul seemed to be popping up quite frequently, which was always odd. Sometimes the twins were with him, sometimes they weren't. Although you were initially confused by who was who, you gradually started to remember their faces and voices enough to tell them apart. Although they seemed scary, they really weren't (although they did have their times… Especially Jade. You wouldn't put it past him to be a killer in disguise).

Azul just seemed to get odder and odder to you. You knew he was probably using you, but why would he keep on interacting with you? There was no way that he liked you or anything, after all.

Still, you found yourself gradually liking the time you spent together. Even Grim was commenting on how he was losing his kobun.

He did have his times of depression and withdrawal, but as he got closer to you, he gradually started to confide in you. About his worries about his appearance, about his feelings that he was powerless. That he needed more power, that he needed to shed his past.

And some part of that made you pause because it reminded you of yourself.

How you always tried to fit the mold, how you never felt right in your own body.

How you didn't know what to do when you think two completely different things about yourself.

You didn't tell him that you were trans though. Not yet. You couldn't destroy this little moment of peace in your lives.

It was selfish, you knew it was, but you couldn't help it. You were used to rejection from the people you cared about, even from other people who were around you, who didn't know you. So you continued to wear a delicate mask, hiding your true struggles.

Still, it got to a point where it was too much. You couldn't keep it from him anymore. You had to face your fears, even if it got you hurt.

So, taking a deep breath, you knocked on the door to the VIP Room. It was open most of the time (to you, anyway), but you always had to check. You were terrified of coming in while Azul was making a deal - who knows what kind of scoldings (or worse) you could get.

After hearing the words 'come in,' you walked in hesitantly. Azul had been shuffling some papers around before he looked up, seeing you. A small, genuine smile was on his lips. "Hello, to what do I owe the pleasure?"

Almost immediately after he finished speaking, you blurted out, "I'm trans," and, in a big rush, you quickly ran away.

Azul for his part was confused and a little concerned. Had he heard you right? Trans? That was where a person's gender identity was different… Hmm. So did that mean you were a girl? Or a boy? He wasn't sure.

You, on the other hand, did not know the confusion you were putting the housewarden of Octavinelle through, just sitting inside Mostro Lounge. You knew you could've run farther if you wanted to… But too late for that thought, as Jade had found you.

Without a word, he took you back into the VIP Room (without much protest from you), where you had to meet Azul's gaze.

"…So. What pronouns do you use?"

You blinked. That was… Unexpected. "Uh, he/him," you got out. "I'm a boy. Was born as a girl, but I don't like to talk about that." You shrugged slightly.

Azul looked startled for a moment before he caught himself, and he seemed to be unsure on what to do.

"Uh… I'm still the same old me, you know."

"Yes, of course. I was just… Thinking about the similarities that we must have had in childhood. Especially the not liking appearances part."

Oh, absolutely. "Yeah… Yeah, there is that." There was a strange comfort that came in knowing that he also had felt similar (if not the same) things as you had. That he wouldn't judge you.

"Oh, and uh, by the way, I like you," you said after a moment. "Since I'm done keeping secrets."

You were definitely not prepared for the explosion of flusteredness that ensued from the octo-mer in front of you.

A/N: Yeah might do a part 2 if I get enough requests (and I don't get burnt out - I shouldn't be writing, I need to be doing summer homework-)