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I LOVE CRAFT
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#not my art#art exhibition#청주 현대미술관#cheongju#I have more photos but I'm gonna make you curious 4ever#I seldom visit here and it always gives me new experiences
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November 19, 2022 Singapore Tour
with Local Bands
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Spirits
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To Decay(Debut Show!)
Special Guest DJ @sir.edy69
#southkorea#한국#cheongju#청주#localpride#punkhardcore#hardcoreband#sinktorise#싱크투라이즈#singapore#싱가포르#tour#singaporetour#november19#thanksall#seeya
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Moonbin biography: 13 things about singer born in Cheongju, South Korea
Moon Bin (문빈) was a South Korean singer, actor, dancer and model professionally known as Moonbin. Here are 13 more things about him:
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2006 Cheongju Curling Iron Case - Real Story Behind "The Glory"
#youtube#Rotten Mango#podcast#2006 Cheongju Curling Iron Case#The Glory#2006 Cheongju Curling Iron Case - Real Story Behind The Glory#bullying
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Cheongju Born Hotel Welcome to Cheongju Born Hotel, a 2.5-star establishment located in the vibrant city of Cheongju-si, South Korea. With its prime location and excellent amenities, this hotel offers a comfortable and convenient stay for both business and leisure travelers. At Cheongju Born Hotel, you can expect a hassle-free check-in and check-out experience. Check-in time starts from 08:00 PM, allowing you to settle in and unwind after a long day of travel or exploration. The friendly and professional staff will ensure a smooth process, making you feel right at home. When it's time to bid farewell, you have until 01:00 PM to check out, giving you ample time to pack up and prepare for your onward journey. With a total of 45 well-appointed rooms, Cheongju Born Hotel offers a cozy and relaxing atmosphere for its guests. Each room is thoughtfully designed with modern furnishings and amenities to provide you with a comfortable and enjoyable stay. Whether you're traveling alone, with...
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The Essence Of Photographing B&W Film
One of the primary benefits of black and white film is the way it captures tonality. Without the distraction of colour, the focus shifts to light, shadow, and texture, creating a moody and emotive quality that’s hard to replicate with colour images. Black and white film can also capture details in highlights and shadows that might be lost in colour photography, resulting in more subtle and nuanced images.
Adam Insights Shooting Black and White film vs Colour and Desaturating the Scan or Print
#Adam Insights#Film#Black and White#Film Photography#35 mm#Kentmere Pan 400#Ilford#Yashica#Yashica Electro 35 GS#People#Water#K water#River#Geum River#Cheongju City#South Korea
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finger trapped (ripped to its seams) ➵ myung jaehyun
myung jaehyun x reader
with an unexpected reunion, you and jaehyun relive the memories of cheongju—and confront what could’ve been between you two.
general genre/warnings ➵ friends to almost lovers, angst, fluff, gender neutral reader, some depressive and insecure thoughts, hurt/comfort, the last five years story-telling method (aka present will be told going backwards while past will be told moving forward… i hope that makes sense), brief mention of blood from picking on your skin, tiger parents so… parental issues, both of you come from cheongju for the sake of the story, unexpected reunion, keeping secrets & lying, jealousy remains but love triumphs, journalist reader (u kno i had to do it), reader is a nerd and jaehyun is a student-athlete, kms jokes from jongseob (all /lh), finger traps aren’t efficient after all
word count ➵ 15.7k words
playlist ➵ end of beginning by djo // high school in jakarta by niki // i know it won’t work by gracie abrams // no big deal (i love you) by dodie // keeping tabs by niki // no one knows by stephen sanchez & laufey // so what now by reneé rapp // i wish i hated you by ariana grande // the 1 by taylor swift // seasons by wave to earth
a/n ➵ it's finally out! this work is so so personal to me on so many levels so i hope you all love and treat this fic with care :')) for the bitches who struggle with parents and dreams.... this one's for you (i am in the same boat) i appreciate everyone who's been so patient and looking forward to this fic's release. you can access the changmin & hanbin vers as well! please do reblog and leave feedback!!
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present -> three weeks after the interview, 2024
the newsroom never sleeps. the rings of landlines and clacks of keyboards bounce off the four walls. through light bulbs or sunshine, light continues to remain. and at every corner, a journalist stands—ready to enter the depths of slumber but remain on their toes as they await for an update on their unraveling story.
but the newsroom is rarely busy unless there’s a major nationwide event, election season or the super bowl to name a few, for most journalists are out to discover what the world has to offer.
knowledge doesn’t only come from the chitchat of your coworkers. it’s only on the field that you’ll hear of hearsay and testimonies. after all, the choice to probe rests on your shoulders.
“there’s a typo over there.”
“huh? where?”
“over here,” you mumble as your finger darts to point at a section on the screen. “it’s supposed to say “with their climactic performance,” not climatic.”
“ah, i see it now. sorry about that,” lee jihoon of digital development says as he corrects the error. his hair is disheveled from the hood that once perched on his head during the night he spent in the newsroom. you would’ve scolded the guy—go home and take a shower before you stink up the place—but you are no better, grouped with the other journalists who stayed up in the office.
“there we go. should be all good. now, are you ready to go through the profiles?”
an exhausted chuckle departs from your lips. “yeah, let’s go—”
“what’s the update?” life and arts editor kim namjoon—your editor—comes to you with a smile.
the grey hoodie he wears paired with comfortable jeans shows that he’s a little relaxed. for once, you don’t see him on his phone, battling the deadlines or getting pitched stories by the other editors. it’s a nice sight but one that won’t last for long.
“we just finished going through the article about the group, so we still have yet to go through the profiles.” jihoon then looks at you. “i can’t believe you basically wrote seven articles. like, six profiles and one main article is a lot. you didn’t want to work on it with anyone else?”
once namjoon stands beside you, you bump your shoulder against his figure. “i didn’t have a choice, did i?” it’s a rhetorical question but one your editor still chooses to answer.
“unfortunately, we’re understaffed, but it seemed like you got the hang of it. i wouldn’t have trusted anyone else to do it.” namjoon shoots you a smile before redirecting his attention back to jihoon. “and as much as i’d love to tell y/n more, we have to pick up the pace.” without any further questions, the three of you resume with work.
there’s no time to waste in the journalism industry. still, his praise doesn’t go unnoticed.
one article turned into eight done in a matter of 30 minutes, all with the help of three pairs of eyes to go through them. (namjoon seemed to carry the heavy lifting. after all, the guy was trained to be quick in reading and spotting errors.)
it should’ve been easy to keep up with your editor for all the other articles; you know each profile like the back of your hand.
then, the face of a boy who you once knew sits on the screen.
his gaze seems to pierce through your soul, almost in the same way you last talked to him. the loose ends of composure slip through your fingers; your breath’s stuck in your throat as the hammering of your heart fills your ears. yet, he stands still on the monitor.
as your eyes drift through the passages you’ve written, every sound is drowned out. the voice of your editor fades like the everchanging seasons and the clicks of the keyboard resemble the sobs you let out in the comfort of your childhood room.
and suddenly, the hands of the clock have turned all the way back to 2019. the cubicles transformed into aisles of chips and instant ramen, and you hear mr. kim’s voice in the distance—i have some hotteok! fresh from the pan! but amidst it all, you hear the giggles of the boy, your best friend, as he rushes towards you—i’ll go audition and make you proud. as your arm is wrapped with the heat of his fingers, you almost believe that your life as a journalist is nothing but a dream—
“i knew him.” the illusion disappears within a blink of an eye. namjoon’s eyes snap towards you and jihoon stops scrolling through the website. “we went to the same high school.”
you aren’t sure why you revealed that to your coworkers, let alone your boss. it’s an old memory—your weight to carry. before you can apologize for disrupting their work, namjoon’s hand rests on your shoulder, his thumb drawing shapes into it. when you look over at him, you’re greeted by his smile. it resembles your bed after a long day of work or a slow day at the newsroom.
but it never lives up to him, whose giggles resemble nature’s symphonies. the two shots of espresso you need at the start of the day once came in the form of his warm embrace. most of all, his smile is enough to illuminate the world even through the strongest storms and times when power went out.
for the remaining articles, not a single word leaves you. before you know it, all seven articles were ready to go up on the web.
“that’s all of it. should i still schedule them to go up around 12 p.m.?” jihoon notes as he saves the drafts.
“yeah, 12 p.m. still sounds good. thanks a lot.” namjoon nudges his shoulder before looking over to you. “let’s talk in my office.”
you don’t question his orders. once namjoon takes off, you follow him all the way to his office. as he swings the door open, you are met with the familiar sight of his workspace. hues of green and brown mix, where nature and art meet within the space of corporate.
once namjoon takes a seat on his chair, you find your spot across from him. his eyes stare off to the window. for a moment, you’re not sure what to expect from this impromptu meeting.
seconds pass and not a single word has been said—
“this place’s always alive,” your editor breaks the silence. “don’t you think so?”
you follow his line of sight. busy seoul never changes; the skyscrapers pollute the sky and the people never sleep, off to work or off to party.
“where’d you grow up again?”
you look back at namjoon whose eyes still remain locked on the city. “cheongju.”
he hums. “i haven’t been there. nice place?”
“yeah, but i haven’t gone back in a while.”
“when was the last time?” his eyes finally meet yours.
your teeth grasp the inside of your cheek. “2019, since i first left,” you admit.
“do you miss it?”
you’re not sure how to answer. the pavements you’ve scraped your knees against and the walls your laughs bounced off of—do you miss them all? or is the reason behind your laughter and scabs the one you long for?
“is that why you were hesitant about interviewing them?” namjoon’s thumbs fiddle with each other. “because of your history with him?”
now, you stare at your linked hands. maybe the silence from you is enough to answer his question but you know namjoon would never settle for a soundless answer.
“i—i’m not a good person. and even if i didn’t make the choice to leave, i—” you hold yourself back. your fingers start to pick on the skin around your thumbs, peeling it so blood can spill.
“it’s okay, i understand. you don’t have to share it with me.” your eyes drift back to namjoon, spotting a small smile that rests on his face. “it must’ve been hard to relive it all.”
the bond you have with namjoon is one that you hold close to your heart. through his mentorship, you got to learn about what it means to be a writer. the fears of being a journalist would loom over you, where questions of salary and demanding work hours would occupy your mind, but namjoon became someone who would absolve them all. he became a pillar in your life, one that provides you hope and comfort within the industry.
“so, don’t feel pressured to talk about it. but if you ever want to open up about it, then i’ll be here.”
namjoon’s giving you an exit. are you willing to take it?
you cross your arms as you lean back into the chair. “you know how i was a science major then?”
“yeah, i remember looking over your resume. and then i saw that you were part of your university’s publication.”
your tongue pushes against the inside of your cheek. “i would’ve gotten some job in that field, like, i had it lined up for me.”
“really? like lab coat and all?”
as namjoon attempts to hold back his laugh over the image, you chuckle along. “yeah, lab coat and all! it’s crazy how my life was all set for that field, but i’m here now.” you look down at your arms. “i think just facing him in a completely different field that i once used to imagine with him was just strange. but i think hearing his answers really did it for me.”
namjoon nods at your words. “care to have lunch with me?” your eyes snap back to your editor. “i’m guessing you want to talk about it, after all.”
all you do is smile before getting off your seat.
spring of 2019
the season of spring has graced cheongju; the sun gleams in the expanse of blue and birds perched on tree branches sing their songs. it’s the perfect season to embrace the wonders of the town.
while it would be a delight to bask under the returning warmth, you’re stuck within the walls of the classroom, head resting on crossed arms.
still, the lilacs have yet to bloom.
“y/n.” you quickly sit up before your eyes settle on your adviser, ms. jeon, who stands in front of the classroom. “let’s take attendance.”
with that, you’re beside her as you call out each name on the class list. it’s a quick process of saying your classmates��� names for them to respond in variations of “present,” until you reach the section of last names that start with an ‘m’.
“myung jaehyun.” no response.
you rip your eyes off the piece of paper, only met with your classmates who either look at each other in confusion or spaced out in their own worlds.
“myung jaehyun?” when you’re met with the same reaction, you’re ready to mark the student absent—
“sorry!” the doors slam open. a boy clad in a white polo and jogging pants is panting by the entrance, covered in sweat as he rests on the edge of it. “sorry, i’m late.”
“oh, it’s okay! you arrived just in time.” ms. jeon smiles at the tardy student. as you watch him take a seat, his eyes lock with yours, but your adviser nudges you before saying, “y/n, proceed.”
myung jaehyun made his name a few years back at a competition. the applause and roars from the crowd marked his spot in the school. others describe his movement as of cranes, standing in the middle of a pond as they do their best to minimize forming any ripples, or of elephants, swaying their trunks with control like no other.
but he’s a versatile dancer; nothing can truly capture him.
once you’ve finished marking the attendance, you go back to your seat. you’re ready to start the day with no bother but you can’t shake the feeling of being watched.
“now, you can see in these,” your art teacher, ms. park, points to the screen showcasing works from her favorite contemporary artists like kwon yongju and félix gonzález-torres, “that there are no borders to what constitutes art. and that’s not wrong because we have to recognize that art comes in different forms as we progress, from traditional painting and sculptures to digital ones.”
this field isn't your strong suit. with a greater understanding of the sciences, you struggle to create anything that could be on par with the works of any artist. yet, you enjoyed learning about every piece that your teacher shared, like unfolding and admiring something you know you can never replicate or create. still, the universe decides that they have other plans for you.
“as i mentioned before, i’ll be giving you time to work on your final assessment, which is to create an artwork for the class exhibit. for this deliverable, i’m asking that your work will be a collaborative one, meaning you aren’t working alone.” in a sea of chatter, some groans exit your classmates. “remember, inspiration doesn’t come from your own bubble! take this as your opportunity to create something that you’ve never imagined.”
within a split second, students are off their seats as they attempt to find a partner to work with. you, however, were struggling to think of who you could team up with. admittedly, you have a very different work style compared to others—even baek jiheon, aspiring valedictorian, didn’t enjoy working with you. she turned every activity into a competition against you. (you didn’t enjoy her, either.) while you’re considering shamefully going up to your classmates like a stray dog looking for anyone willing to care for them—
“hi!” in front of you stands the tardy student of today, all smiles as his hands find comfort in the pockets of his jogging pants. “do you have a partner already?”
with furrowed eyebrows, you can’t help but look him up and down. “no, why?”
“well,” jaehyun looks around the classroom, “everyone seems to have paired up except for us.” as his eyes drift back to you, he flashes you a smile, one that shows the dips engraved into his cheeks. “which leaves me to ask if you would like to work with me for this.”
you don’t have a choice. ms. park would never bend the rules for you. if anything, she would find a way to pair you with another student who would dread the idea of working with you. (“i’m sure they won’t mind being partners with you, right?” is what she would ask the poor student, only to be met with their retreat.)
“unless we accept a failing mark, which i’m sure we both don’t want.” it’s not like jaehyun had a choice as well.
“okay.” with one word, light fills his eyes, enough to resemble the starlight that grazes your skin every night. “we can meet and discuss our schedules, especially because i’ve got ap stat, and you have, uhm,” a cough leaves you, “training, i’m assuming, or rehearsals. i don’t really know what you call them.”
his eyebrows shoot up as his mouth parts open. “o—oh, yeah. i usually have training after class until 8 p.m. on tuesdays, thursdays, and saturdays.”
“same. my classes are until 7 p.m. on tuesdays and thursdays, so maybe we can use the other days to work together?”
with one nod from him, his dimples reappear. “great! i’ll see you tomorrow.”
before you know it, everyone finds their way back to their seats for ms. park’s final reminders. you do your best to pay attention to every announcement, jotting down every word on your planner and planning out your agenda for the upcoming weeks. yet, your eyes seem to have a mind of their own as they drift back to the boy who discreetly passes notes to hwang intak, another dancer on the team, all while listening to the teacher.
you don’t notice how long you spend staring at jaehyun until he turns to meet your gaze. in that split second, you look at each other—then, embarrassment washes over you. you shift your attention back to ms. park. as you drum your fingers against the desk, mentally kicking yourself over the interaction, you still can’t shake the feeling of being watched.
you look back at jaehyun; he’s still looking at you.
his dimples make their reappearance before he looks back at ms. park. you do the same as you attempt to listen to her ramble about banksy’s works.
(you’re still thinking about the dips in his cheeks.)
the first time you get to meet with jaehyun for the project happens the following week. you two had different commitments to attend to, whether it be other projects or training. and while you would usually settle to meet in the school library or a cafe nearby, you find yourself inside the empty gymnasium, sitting on bleachers while your partner stands in front of mirrors.
“don’t you think it would be nice to combine our hobbies together?”
your pencil taps against the notebook. “like, your dancing? with what?”
“whatever you like to do!” once he makes his way to you, he leans on the row in front of you with crossed arms. “i mean, do you have anything you like to do during your free time?”
a scoff leaves you. “funny of you to assume that i have free time.”
“what’s your schedule like?”
“well, i have our classes and ap ones, then kumon at night.”
jaehyun reels at the thought of your schedule. “that’s brutal. the last time i had kumon was back in grade 4.”
“yeah, but i’m sure yours is busy as well. the amount of time that you put into training is…” his eyes are wide, hanging on your words. it’s the hope they hold that has you say, “admirable.”
a shy smile takes over his features. “yeah, but it’s only because my family is supportive of what i do.”
then, limbs whose color resembles the void slither their way to your heart, wrapping around it while the organ struggles to beat; it’s a slow process but an unending hole that will birth from it. yet, you do your best to fight off these limbs, unraveling them one by one in hopes it will give up—until you settle for shaking them off.
you only muster out a hum.
“do you have anything you like to do during those short breaks?”
your lips trill. “i don’t know. watch something on youtube?”
his cheeks puff up, stuck in his thoughts as he tries to navigate this project—and you—until his eyes glint. “what do you do when you want to vent?”
“you sure have a lot of questions,” you comment, trying to hold back a chuckle at his curiosity. “i can just adjust to you. maybe attempt to draw, picture, or even film you.”
his eyebrows furrow. “but that wouldn’t make it collaborative. i want us to work on something that aligns with what we do.”
a beat passes.
he holds your gaze. “i want us to create something that shows us.”
inside you, a gong is struck; its sound reverberates throughout your body, from the crown of your forehead to the tips of your toes. then, silence seeps in—a moment only for you and him.
“i, uh, write,” you whisper as your eyes shift to the notebook resting on your lap.
“really? like, stories and poetry?”
you nod. “i like writing people’s stories more, but i do like making ones.” when you look back at jaehyun, his eyes are still filled with curiosity. “i would, like, find interviews online and try to make my own, sort of, uhm—god this is embarrassing. forget about it.”
“huh? no, it isn’t!” he attempts to reassure your shrunken figure. “i mean, you don’t have to share more if you really don’t want to, but i’d like to hear more about it.” and when his dimples appear, you almost can’t help but feel your face warm up.
“i’d make articles, i guess?” he nods along with your words. “i don’t know, it’s just interesting to hear about people’s lives and kind of create something out of it, and i like thinking about all the possibilities of who would love to hear them. like, don’t you think that some of the stories that we read hold fragments of someone?”
“that’s an interesting way to look at it.”
as you doodle on your notebook, you say, “yeah, it’s just fun to hear these stories and maybe create something out of it. or even think of stories that i could never live out, you know?” you expect yourself to be met with the bored face of jaehyun but his eyes remain on you.
“what if you interview me?”
your eyebrows shoot up. “you?”
“yeah,” he stands up before walking up to your row, finding a spot beside you. “think of me as your first interviewee if you want.”
the sudden suggestion has you stumbling over your words. “huh? b—but, i don’t have questions prepared. and how does this help our project?”
when his arms brush against yours, you start to become aware of the distance between your shoulders—and his face from yours. warmth spreads throughout your body, almost like you’re about to have a fever. once his open hand rests near yours, you don’t know what he’s asking.
“let me draw it out for you.” you hand him your pencil and notebook, allowing him to see your doodles. (you don’t miss his grin.) “you know, with that article you make, we can cut it up and create something out of it.” a roughly drawn sketch of a boy posed in the middle of a dance move now rests on the page. “i don’t know if a collage would be okay.”
as you think about what can be done, you perch your chin on your palm. “we can do papercut art? basically, it’s cutting up the article in a way to form an image.”
“oh, that sounds cool!”
“yeah, but the only challenge is that we can only use one piece of paper.” a sigh leaves you. “it would be impossible for me to even do that.”
“that’s why you have me.” his small smile causes wind chimes to ring. (you’re positive you heard them, even if there were no such things in the gymnasium.)
he continues to sketch out the layout of your joint artwork. “how do we feel about this?” on the paper, there are two boxes beside the figure, where one is labeled as “photo of me” while the other is labeled “an article by y/n.” your head tilts. “it’ll be a three-set piece. so, it’ll be a photo of me and your article, and in between is the papercut art that we’ll make.”
you hum. “you know, you’re very creative.” you look at him only to see that he’s been staring at you. “like, you’re inclined to the arts. i wouldn’t have been able to think of something like this.”
“you’re just as creative,” he argues back as he writes down something.
you shake your head before retorting, “jaehyun, you’re very talented. i’ve seen the way you dance,” his movements halt, “and you’re like no other dancer i’ve seen. if you ever try out to be an idol, i’m sure you’d do great, maybe end up on the list of the best dancers in the industry.”
but he shakes his head, going back to writing on your notebook and shutting down your compliments. you decide to not push.
“i can get the photo sometime during my training,” he says as he hands you your notebook.
“then i can have the questions sometime this week. for the article, i can have it done maybe four days after the interview. how does wednesday, after school, sound for the interview?”
he shoots you a smile before standing up from his seat. “that’s perfect! i’m looking forward to meeting journalist y/n.” you can’t help but scoff at what he calls you. “what’s wrong?”
“nothing,” you shake your head. “it’s just a silly name.” because the reality is that you had your future planned out—and it definitely didn’t involve that field.
he shrugs. “i don’t know, i think it would fit you.”
“but you haven’t read any of my works.”
“but i want to root for you in the same way you do for me. i don’t want you to feel ashamed of your works.” a fire ignites in your heart; it’s a fireplace.
you’re baffled that jaehyun, out of all people, now holds your secret, but you’re even astounded over the idea of him supporting you. you almost can’t remember the last time you heard such words of support. is it genuine or nothing but a facade?
“anyway, i’ve got to go. i need to catch up on some homework.” while you shoot him a nod, his dimples make their appearance once more. “i’ll see you tomorrow!” as he takes off, you’re left in the gymnasium with your opened notebook and unlocked heart. you look back down at his sketch surrounded by your doodles, but you don’t miss his little note—cute doodles btw <3
the season of spring has unfolded in cheongju; a single lilac has bloomed.
present -> a day before the interview, 2024
it’s a late night on a tuesday, about to be a midnight wednesday, and you’re in a convenience store as you scout for your dinner. all hauled up in the newsroom, the idea of ordering food during a time where restaurants would still be open slipped your mind. now, you’re left to scan through the same options you’ve eaten for the past years since you started living in seoul.
the convenience clerks are familiar with you, both kim jongseob and kim jiwoo. with your constant late-night meals at the store, you’d talk to whichever one had a shift. jongseob is saving up to upgrade his setup at home to record more music. with all the stories he shares about his time in underground rap battles along with the short verses he’s performed for you, you’re positive that he’ll get signed to a label soon. as for jiwoo, this is one of the many jobs she has in order to save enough money for fashion school. you’ve seen her sketches and outfits she’s put together and you’re hoping that she’ll get accepted.
a sigh leaves you. you didn’t have a problem with eating the food here but you were craving for something new in your life in seoul. the perpetual cycle of eating takeout food and unconsciously skipping meals for work needed to be disrupted just for a moment. but you weren’t seeking michelin-star food—all you wanted was something home cooked. something from home.
the spice of tteokbokki, the burn of freshly fried hotteok, and the sweetness of homemade peach iced tea—mr. kim’s convenience store had it all.
your tastebuds long for cheongju.
“planning to beat your record of spending 23 minutes on deciding what to get?”
you roll your eyes before looking to your right, seeing jongseob stock up the drinks in the fridge. “i hate you.”
“what? i’m just saying, you’re taking a lot longer to decide today.” he chuckles before placing the last bottle of sweetened probiotic milk in the fridge. “none of the options look good to you?”
“sort of,” you hum before you scan through the aisle of packaged meals. “i think i’m craving for something different.”
“i get it. the food here can get boring, which is why i’m planning to order pizza if you want to split the costs.”
your eyebrows shoot up at jongseob’s suggestion. “really? you’d share pizza with me?”
“yeah, as long as you pay for your share.” he shoots you a smile before grabbing on a trolley carrying empty boxes. “unless… you want to pay for the whole thing.”
you bite back a smile as you shake your head. you should’ve known the guy would ask you to buy him food, but you knew that he needed the money and you at least had a stable income to keep you comfortable. “fine,” jongseob’s smile grows as you fish out your wallet from your pocket and pull out a couple of bills. “just order enough for us two.”
“of course,” he says as soon as you hand him some money. “i’ll make sure to order the most expensive thing on the menu.”
you scoff at his joke. “just make sure to treat me to something.”
the bell by the door chimes. “sorry, can’t hear you over that! need to attend to a customer!” jongseob dashes away from you while dragging the trolley. that little shit just knew how to press your buttons, but you love the kid, anyway.
still, you stand in the middle of the mart and your heart longs for home.
then, you shut your eyes, and you’re transported back in front of the familiar aisle filled with bags of potato chips and sweet corn. the noisy fan along with the soft sounds of mr. kim’s korean drama fills your ears. a mix of yellow and orange hues paint every corner of the mart, including you—and you’re not alone.
your best friend stands on your right, wearing the unbuttoned school uniform polo over a tank top along with jogging pants. he’s lost in thought as he scans through the options of snacks you two can have for today’s afternoon. he starts to giggle to himself, probably from a silly thought he’ll share with you in the next second or a memory involving you, and the dips in his cheeks appear—your heart thumps in your ears.
and just like how quickly you were transported back to cheongju, your surroundings transformed into the cool-lit convenience store found in seoul. all you have left is the image of him bathed in the sunlight.
but he fades away like the ink on old receipts, never gone, because the glowing image of him warps into a different version who stands next to you in the cold mart. he’s grown a few inches taller and his hair doesn’t get in the way of his line of sight. while he wears a green sweater, you notice that he’s gained some muscles. his eyes scan through the aisle behind you filled with different brands of instant ramen.
but he bites the inside of his cheek and his dimples appear.
it’s a tornado that brews within you, enough to uproot trees and displace buildings, all because of an unexpected reunion with jaehyun. why did the universe decide to bring two ex-best friends on a random tuesday night? what brings him to the convenience store at the same time you’re there? and why did it have to happen a day before the interview?
you weren’t going to commit the same mistake; keep your eyes off of him and make your way out of the store. it didn’t matter if you had an empty, growling stomach, or gave free money to jongseob. you need to leave without the distant, familiar face noticing.
your feet act fast, and you're almost certain that might’ve caught his attention, but it didn’t matter as you see jongseob standing behind the cashier with his phone out. “i just ordered the pizza. it should arrive in about… 20 to 30 minutes.”
“yeah, about that…”
“don’t tell me you’re taking your money back.”
at the sight of jongseob’s pout, you roll your eyes. “no, keep it. i just—i need to go.”
“what? why?”
you peek behind you. it seems like he didn’t recognize you, after all. “i’ve got… work!”
“but don’t you only have your interview with boynext—”
“hey!” your fingers snap at him. “you cannot—i mean, you just… just take the goddamn money.”
“but we’re supposed to share the pizza. you haven’t eaten.”
an exasperated sigh leaves you. “jongseob, just treat me next time. i can eat at home.”
and you’re ready to leave the convenience store, bid farewell to jongseob and a delicious pizza made for two, and never greet or say goodbye to the living fragment of what you last know of cheongju—
“y/n?”
and the plan failed.
when you meet his gaze, you’re able to take in the different version of him. he’s grown so much—it’s such a pain that you weren’t there to witness it. his eyes are a pool of emotions; you can’t identify them.
all it takes is one breath from you. “jaehyun.”
a beat passes.
“i’m just gonna… go through the storage,” jongseob points his thumb at the back of the mart, “and maybe kill myself afterwards. i don’t know.” before you can protest, he’s already gone. (and he still has your money. that fucker.)
you and jaehyun were once painted with the hues of the sun. this reunion is tainted with blue.
jaehyun’s fingers tense up, almost as if he was hesitating—debating—on how to approach you. his body would waver, but he never took a step towards you. “i… i wasn’t expecting to meet you here.”
“same here.” you lean your back against the checkout counter. “d—do you stay around this part of the city?”
he shakes his head. “i live around 15, maybe 20, minutes away from here. i’m only here because…” your breath gets caught in your throat. “i don’t know.”
fate. that’s what brought us here.
“do you live here?”
you nod. “yeah, ever since—” the sentence never gets completed; you and him already know.
for a moment, sorrow flashes in his eyes, but a smile shows up. the dimples don’t appear. “i, uh, i was going to get something from here but it seems like your friend is busy.”
“sorry about jongseob.” you whip out your phone and scold him through text. “he should be with us in a bit.”
jaehyun hums before walking to the freezer filled with different ice cream. as he looks through the selection, he asks, “do you still like twin bar?”
“y—yeah.”
“still the grape flavor?” you don’t know what to say, but when his gaze meets yours, you settle for a nod. with your favorite ice cream in one hand and a sandwich in the other, he finally walks towards you. you don’t miss the slight stagger in his steps.
jaehyun finds his spot beside you. there’s still distance between you two—two tiles worth, enough space for one person—but it’s enough for your muscles to freeze. thankfully, jongseob comes just in time to manage the cashier (with an awkward smile plastered on).
he scans jaehyun’s item first before grabbing onto your ice cream.
“oh, i’m paying—”
“no, let me,” jaehyun insists. “you can always treat me another time.”
you bite the inside of your cheek, thinking over the second half of his sentence. jongseob holds back from scanning the item, until you shoot him a nod. jaehyun pays for the food before jongseob hands them to you.
“i’ll just let you know when the pizza gets here.” his small smile is enough for your shoulders to ease and a quiet exhale to leave. a small nod is all you give him.
you follow jaehyun outside to the tables in front of the mart. once he’s settled on a spot, you sit across from him. he tears away the plastic wrapping of his food while you play with the ends of yours.
while he swallows what you assume to be his dinner of the day, you’re left to swallow your own pride.
“i’ve seen your performances.” his chews halt. “you’re—” captivating. “you’ve improved a lot.”
with one gulp, a shy smile takes over his face. “i still have a long way to go.”
“you always say that, even back then.” a half bitten sandwich now rests on the wrapper. “but i admire your drive.” always have.
while a different version of jaehyun sits across you, the one you knew back in cheongju still lives. in the busy, unfamiliar expanse of seoul, meeting five years later, he’ll never be stranger. you could never treat him as such, even if you wanted to.
“there’s always room for improvement,” he says.
you hum along with his sentiment. “did you stick with early childhood education?” you’re met with his orbs that hold a thousand of emotions, some you can name as shock, confusion. a question hangs in the air—what did you deserve to know?
“sorry, i’m assuming you still went to college, which is totally fine if you did or didn’t, by the way. and it’s also okay if you didn’t stick to your major. i mean, you always talked about pursuing a performing arts degree before—”
“y/n,” he giggles, “you’re okay. i still went to college but i took media & communication.” your eyebrows shoot up at the revelation. “i thought it made sense to study something related to what i do, just the more technical and theoretical side of it, i guess. and the online classes were easy to squeeze into my schedule.” he lifts up the sandwich. “what about you?”
“uh, i ended up in the same course as well.” a hum of shock leaves jaehyun. “yeah,” you chuckle, “i managed to shift courses.”
“that’s amazing! i’m happy for you.”
you smile at him. “thanks. now, i’m just—” you should tell him what you do. what would be a better time to reveal that you ended up in the path he dreamed for you to be than now? “—figuring things out.”
with your vagueness, jaehyun only nods before munching away. if there’s anything about you that still remains, it’s that you shouldn’t be pushed to share something you didn’t want to talk about. he still knew that.
as he finishes his sandwich, you tear off the plastic wrapping of your ice cream. with the twin bar in your hands, you snap it into two before you hand him a piece. confusion paints his features, wide eyes glossing over the popsicle in your hand, but he takes it before you can say anything.
“thanks.”
you shake your head. “don’t even worry about it. it’s only tradition.”
silence settles between you two. as you eat away on your share of the twin bar, you look up to the sky. from where you sit, you can’t see a single star; the lights of seoul seemed to outshine them. and during those moments, you almost can’t help but miss the view of the starry night from your childhood room.
you glance at jaehyun who looks up to the sky as well. yet, one hand remains in his pocket, almost as if he’s fiddling with something.
as if he feels your eyes on him, he asks, “did you ever think about coming back?”
you halt your movements. if there’s one thing you were expecting your old friend to ask, it would be related to your sudden departure. but you’re hit with an entirely different question, one you didn’t get to rehearse the answer to in case you ever cross paths with him.
because after all this talk about your yearning for cheongju, why didn’t you choose to visit? despite how much you long for mr. kim’s home cooked meals, skies filled with stars, or the presence of your best friend, why didn’t you ever come back?
if you miss home, why is your first instinct to run away from it?
and the reality is that you do think about it all the time. since you left cheongju, you drafted out how many plans to go back. you were homesick, missing the familiar landscape you spent your entire childhood growing up in. but most of all, you missed jaehyun. as long as you had him, you would survive anywhere, whether in seoul or cheongju.
despite how much you yearned for him during your years away, you learned that your relationship wasn’t always filled with the warmth that would grace you two every afternoon. for so long, you’ve sat with jealousy. while his family was his pillar of strength, you were met with a home that offered nothing but criticism.
the black limbs slowly ate away at your heart; the void was born.
it became easier to remain resentful. with the distance, you weren’t faced with jaehyun’s genuineness. yet, with time, you discovered that you still cared for him—regardless of your jealousy—because you still wanted more for him than you did for yourself.
for a long time, you resented. now, it’s only guilt that held you back from going back to him.
so when you remain silent, jaehyun takes it as your answer.
and for the first time, the distance feels greater since you first left cheongju.
summer of 2019
it’s the peak of summer. amidst the expanse of verdant fields, bees seek solace in the fully-bloomed sunflowers and kaleidoscope wings illuminate as they soar.
but summer is where mouths go dry and clothes cling to skin. as days blend with each other, the comfort of your bed is all you have until the season passes.
the fan rumbles against the wooden floor, doing its best to cool you, but the heat prickles against the back of your neck. the wind has turned into nothing but hot waves. with your elbows perched on the desk, a sigh leaves you as you attempt to make sense of the worksheet filled with math equations.
your room is your favorite place in cheongju. within these four walls are scattered fragments of you, from your favorite books and mangas that rest on the bookshelf to the stuffed toys that rest on your bed. book tabs stick out of your workbooks lined up on your desk and your cork board is filled with crossed out to-do lists.
and every once in a while, you would look out through your window, admiring the neighboring houses and all their greenery. as people walk on pavements, you cannot help but think about where they’re off to—are they on their way to work? did they leave an important document back home? or are they coming back to a meal and home filled with warmth?
despite the halo soundtrack filling your ears, the cogs in your brain seem to drown them out. the numbers on your paper have jumbled up. it should’ve been easy. after all, you’ve become friends with the letters who’ve squeezed their way into math. once you’ve wrapped up on this assignment, you know you’ll wake up to another set of work to do. it didn’t help that you’re stuck watching kids your age enjoy their break.
with a tired mind, you consider making yourself another cup of iced coffee. maybe another dose of caffeine will make sense of the numbers—
your phone buzzes against your table. as your eyes rip from the unfinished worksheet, you spot the familiar name flashing on the screen. with one glance at your door, you bring your headphones to rest around your neck. it takes three rings for you to answer.
“what do you want?”
“the fuck? what’s wrong with you?”
you roll your eyes as you fiddle with your pen. “i’m studying, you fucker.”
“on a sunday?” jaehyun’s question has you only groan. “what happened to resting?”
“i wish,” you murmur as you scratch the back of your head. “i’ve been stuck on this stupid worksheet for the past hours. it’s annoying too. i mean, i already know this topic, so i don’t know why it’s so hard.”
“awe, is my best friend suffering over kumon?”
your forehead rests on crossed arms. “yes. i think i’m going to die.”
“okay, then. i’ll take that as my sign.”
“sign to what?”
he chuckles as if it were obvious. “to save you! let’s go to mr. kim’s.”
a groan leaves you as your back meets the chair. “no, i can’t. do you know what would happen if i don’t finish my kumon?”
“uh… no?”
“me, neither. i’m not taking my chances.”
“but, you’re not even doing anything!” jaehyun pointing out the obvious has you rolling your eyes. “wouldn’t it be better to take a break with your best friend? i can even help out.”
as you bite the inside of your cheek, you glance once more at your closed door. you weigh it out; would you rather take a break with your best friend or would you save yourself from the consequences brought by home?
but the answer was already clear. “give me 10 minutes.”
jaehyun laughs before you drop the call.
it’s the smell of fresh hotteok that greets you. the quiet buzzing of the fan accompanied by mr. kim’s favorite trot music fills your ears. while the owner seems to be away from the cashier, a white, stray cat takes over, body flopped on the counter as it snores away the heat. as the sun pours through windows, coating every corner of the mart with a glow of fireflies, you know this will be a place of its own.
“y/n, over here!” a familiar voice calls out. as you whip your head to the source, you see your best friend by the chest freezer, eyes crinkled and all dimples.
now, you’re certain that nothing could ever replicate this.
you walk towards jaehyun, finding your spot beside him as you two look through the collection of frozen treats. “so, what do you want from here?” you ask.
“uh… i’ll be honest, i just realized i’m short on money.”
you glance through the price tags, only for a groan to leave you. “i’m short too. when did mr. kim raise the prices?”
“no clue. i thought i’d have enough to get a summer crush,” jaehyun complains as his eyes are glued to the coffee sorbet. “i hate inflation.”
“come on.” you fish out for the coins in your pocket. “let’s see how much we have together.” jaehyun does the same. with palms out, you two count through your shared funds.
“we can get a summer crush!”
“you can get one. i’ll be left with barely anything.” you look through the selection once more. “man, i really want samanco. the red bean sounds so good right now.”
defeat casts over jaehyun’s features. for a moment, you almost consider giving up on having a frozen treat and settling for a glass bottle of orange soda, until you spot a familiar popsicle brand.
“holy shit, it’s right there.”
“what?”
“there!” your finger points at the stack of twin bars. “we can probably get that and split it.”
jaehyun’s expression morphs into realization. “okay, let’s get—”
“dibs on grape.”
“dibs?” he furrows his eyebrows at you. “you can’t just call dibs. you’re doing it wrong. clearly, we should discuss—”
“nope,” you retort. a chuckle laced with disbelief leaves your best friend. to him, it seemed like you were joking around. “i made the suggestion and contributed a lot more to our shared funds.”
“okay, but—”
“don’t tell me you want the peach flavor more than the grape.” as you continue to shut him down, he knows there’s no way around you.
(plus, he wasn’t a fan of peach-flavored things, anyway. how unfortunate that mr. kim only has those two flavors right now.)
“next time, we’re choosing a flavor that i want,” he gives in. you let out a cheer before grabbing the frozen treat.
you two make your way back to the cashier and spot mr. kim slouched in front of the television, hand stroking the sleepy feline. he’s still wearing an old, red plaid apron on top of a pair of basketball shorts and a loose graphic tee which had the name of a band you’re unfamiliar with. with how he sits, you’re afraid that his back problems will get even worse. (still, you don’t say anything. he’ll only play it off and say he’s still one of the “youngins”... whatever that means.)
once his eyes land on you two, a grin takes over. “ah, my favorite kids! it’s nice to see you both.”
“yeah, it’s been a while,” jaehyun starts off. “y/n’s always busy with kumon.”
you narrow your eyes at the boy. “hey! you’re busy, too! you’ve been practicing at the studio almost every day!” the wrapped popsicle now rests on the counter. “every time i’m free, you’re not.”
“hey! whenever you’re free, i’m tired from training!”
“okay, let’s settle down,” mr. kim breaks up the banter. he then takes note of the ice cream on the cashier, the price showing up on the cashier. “isn’t the heat hard enough for you two to be studying or practicing?”
“yes, very much.” you count the coins once more before dropping the exact amount on the counter. “but,” you glance at jaehyun and his disheartened expression is enough for mountains to move, “i don’t think we have a choice.”
in reality, these were the circumstances you two had to work and live with. during the days jaehyun ended practice early, you were drowning in summer school assessments. whenever you managed to finish your homework, it would be during the hours your best friend was off at the studio or passed out at home from exhaustion.
“choice, no choice, people always say that.” mr. kim counts your payment before putting it into the cashier. as he takes note of what you’ve bought, he says, “everyone has a choice. i’m sure you two can figure it out.”
the only difference is that one chose this path; the other had to suffer from the decision forced onto them.
“don’t worry, mr. kim,” jaehyun nudges your shoulder. “i’m sure we’ll figure it out.” and when the dips in his cheeks appear, you find yourself smiling back.
maybe you were okay with the life you had to live, just maybe.
“anyway, we’ll go ahead,” jaehyun bids farewell to mr. kim.
you giggle. “he means we’re just going to eat our ice cream at the front.”
as you two slowly make your way out of the mart, mr. kim shakes his head. “you lovebirds go ahead. i’ll see you next time!”
“mr. kim!” you and jaehyun shout in unison before glancing at each other.
“what?!”
your best friend groans. “you know we aren’t together.”
“yeah! like, i can’t imagine it,” you join in.
still, the owner laughs at your reactions. “you two are so funny. just go and enjoy your ice cream.”
you roll your eyes at his words. “bye, mr. kim!”
with that, you and jaehyun were out of the mart and took a seat on the benches. you hand your best friend the wrapped frozen treat before letting out a sigh. “i still can’t believe this is one of the few times we got to meet up during the break.”
“i know.” he tears the plastic wrapping off. “you would think that summer break would mean we get to hang out nonstop, but i’m starting to think we saw each other more whenever we had school.”
you hum. “i know. and i had ap stat while you had training.” your eyes dart at jaehyun who grips onto the popsicle sticks, struggling to split it into two. “oh my god, don’t tell me you can’t split it.”
“hey! it’s hard.”
as you giggle, you reach your hand out. “let me do it.” once jaehyun hands you the twin bar, you attempt to split the two. for a moment, you almost think about agreeing with him. yet, the frozen treat splits into two perfectly, and a satisfied smile rests on your lips.
you hand him one popsicle, only to be met with his glare. “i know, i’m just better.”
“just shut up.” to that, another laugh leaves you.
under the sun, you enjoy the coolness of the twin bar. while you would’ve stared off to nowhere, you and jaehyun were here at the right time to catch civilians bustling away. some were on dates, where one would go on about their interest while the other would smile at their rambling. there were kids whose chatter could be heard all the way from the end of the block, and blue-collar men who were off to enjoy their break.
you can’t help but imagine what people saw—thought—of you and jaehyun. did they think of you as unexpected friends? has it ever crossed their minds that you two were only classmates who seemed to always be paired together? or did they ever think the same as mr. kim?
“you know,” jaehyun starts off, causing you to look at him, “i was going through college courses the other day.”
your eyebrows shoot up. “oh?”
with your reaction, jaehyun giggles. “i was just curious, you know? not that i’m giving up on dance or anything, but,” he licks the popsicle, “early childhood education sounds cool.”
you hum. “i wasn’t expecting that.”
“what’s that supposed to mean?”
“no, it’s not a bad thing!” you reassure the boy. “it’s just,” you rip your gaze off of jaehyun and look at the playground, “i always thought of you as a dancer, you know? kind of like you were meant for the stage.” the laughter of the kids who passed by you two bounces all over the block and you can’t help but smile. “but i don’t doubt it.”
the breeze graces your sweat-covered skin. “what about you?” you look back at him. “would you ever consider journalism? maybe communication as your major?”
you’re quick to laugh at his suggestion, but when confusion paints his features, you realize it’s a serious question from him.
“no.” it’s a straightforward answer from you, but jaehyun could never settle with that
“why not?”
a sigh leaves you. “i just don’t consider it. i mean, i think about it,” all the time, “but not enough to consider it. plus, astrophysics is cool.”
“but is it your dream?”
jaehyun’s question is an easy one to answer—not at all. you’ve had enough learning about theories and making sense of the numbers. if your future is going to only complicate that further, then maybe astrophysics isn’t made for you.
but who’s to say that you’ll even enjoy journalism?
“we’ll see.” you leave it at that and jaehyun didn’t push for more.
because the reality is that if you ever did consider it, transform those dreams into action plans, you were terrified to be met with your parents’ disappointment—it wouldn’t only be from your lousy desires but from jaehyun’s role in your life.
the first time you mentioned jaehyun to your parents happened over dinner, letting them know you would be staying later at school to work on the final project for art class with him. they didn’t bat an eye at his name as they continued to talk about what happened during work and pester you about your progress in other classes. (art class didn’t matter to them, only the sciences and math were ones they seemed to track. still, they would criticize you if you didn’t place first honors.)
with your parents’ oversight, something blossomed between you and jaehyun. from there, there were more days you would get home later than usual. while you were still on top of your work, they took your late arrivals as a form of negligence.
all it took was one night for them to demand an explanation. the reappearance of him in the conversation had only caused them to reprimand you—jaehyun’s not like you. he’ll only hold you back.
from that day on, you’ve learned to keep his name out of conversations. you’ll enjoy what you have with jaehyun, even if it has to be kept under the wraps.
“how’s training?” you change the subject, trying to keep the attention off of your failed dreams to jaehyun’s flourishing ones.
“well, it’s a lot,” he chuckles as he munches a piece. “you already know that it takes how many hours to get to the company, and the hours i spend in the practice room are unlike the trainings i have at school.”
as his eyes meet yours, you only shoot him an apologetic smile. it was never going to be easy; you two knew that before jaehyun entered the doors of the company. yet, he still held on.
“you know, i never considered it before, but i like where i’m going,” he admits. “even if i’ve always had dreams to pursue dance, i want to make my family proud if i ever get to debut.”
jaehyun knows how to persevere. regardless of all the bruises he gets from performing complex dance routines or the hours of sleep he longs for, he knows how to hold on. you wish you could say the same for yourself.
“and you will,” you reassure the boy, wrapping your arm around his shoulders. “who wouldn’t be proud of you?”
he holds your stare and your smile falters. for a moment, you don’t know if you touched on a sensitive topic. would he shrug your arm off? do you think he’ll shut you off, maybe cut your time together short? will jaehyun get mad at you for something you didn’t know was wrong? would he be just like them?
“i want to make you proud.”
that’s enough to answer it all.
you shake your head. “don’t even doubt that for a second.” your arm finds it spot back to your side, and jaehyun’s loops his with yours.
although he knows how to persevere, he never knows when to shut his ears from the shadows.
“i am proud of you,” you tell him. “always have, always will.” he can’t help but smile. all you can hope is that he’ll listen closely to your voice.
“i almost forgot,” he says out of nowhere.
“forgot what?”
as he tugs his arm away, his hand fishes for something in his pocket. “close your eyes.” you furrow your eyebrows. “just do it!” you follow his orders. “and keep them closed, okay?” you let out a hum.
before you know it, something wraps around your index finger. you would’ve opened your eyes, confused over the foreign yet familiar material, but they remain shut.
“okay, open.”
your gaze rests on your finger wrapped in yellow and blue. it’s a finger trap—and the other end is connected to jaehyun. despite your tug, it still holds you two together.
it’s the warmth that fills your cheeks, the heartbeat in your ears, and your starstruck eyes that has him smile. “no matter what happens, we’ll stick together, okay? regardless of what paths we end up pursuing. all that matters is that we have each other.”
he’s filled with hope. hope for his dreams. hope for your relationship. hope for what the future holds for you two. you can’t help but hope as well.
all it takes is a nod from you to solidify the promise to the universe.
you two sit in silence, finishing up the popsicles as people continue to pass by. at one point, you heard mr. kim let out a curse over the drama he’s watching. the sun is about to set, wrapping you two in a golden blanket, and all that matters is the finger trap.
present -> two weeks before the interview, 2024
it’s no surprise to you that the newsroom is quiet. while your peers are off to gather more information, you’re with lee chaeyeon of news as she tries to meet the deadline for her article’s first close.
“do you think dokyeom will be late?” you ask as you watch her rephrase sentences.
she laughs. “when is he never? minho’s always assigning him coverages.”
“that’s true.” your eyes drift to the hallway. “i’m just hungry. he still owes me food, you know?”
“over another bet? or you saving his ass?”
“over helping him with an article,” you reveal, earning a shocked look from her. “for some odd reason, he needed another writer to help out with a live coverage, and all the sports writers and sports editor were busy handling the other events.”
“holy shit.” chaeyeon continues with her work. “i didn’t expect you to work on anything sports-related.”
“yeah, but it helped that it was a dance competition. at least i know something about dance.” you only know who to thank. “i’m going to make sure i get compensated for that. i’m planning to raise it to minho and namjoon, anyway. that’s if dokyeom would fucking come and help in explaining the situation.”
with the mention of the tardy writer’s name, he’s scrambling through the halls with his backpack in one hand and a paper bag in the other. the moment he sees you, he shoots you an apologetic smile.
“speak of the devil,” you say as you stand up straight. “why do you always show up late? i helped you with the article.”
dokyeom finds his spot beside you as he sets down the bag on your desk. “i’ll have you know that wasn’t the only article i had yesterday. i was catching up on other ones that minho assigned me.” before he can plop down on his seat, he spots chaeyeon working. “damn, tough life at news.”
“no need to point out the obvious, doofus.”
“wow, harsh,” he replies to her insult. “just so you know, i bought food for us.”
“thank god,” you exclaim as you open the paper bag filled with takeout containers and sealed cups. as you pull them out one by one, you spot your usual order from the vietnamese restaurant around the corner. “oh my god, thank you for getting me this.” you take a seat before you pass dokyeom his food and utensils.
“yeah, i know. i’m just the best.” his shower of compliments for himself only has you rolling your eyes. “but thank you, by the way, for helping me out with the article. i needed an extra pair of hands and my own editor couldn’t stand in to help out.”
“it’s fine. just make sure you help me get compensated for that article,” you say before you open the container. as the smell of bun bo nam bo fills your nose, you can’t help but let out a quiet moan. “holy fuck, i’ve been craving this.”
“i made sure to get you some vietnamese coffee also.”
“yeah, i saw. thank you.” you split the chopsticks with one hand. you’re about to mix the bowl of your favorite food—
“is y/n here?” your editor calls out, causing you to let out a sigh before you stand up from your seat.
“yes?”
namjoon’s gaze lands on you. “can i talk to you for a bit?”
despite your grumbling stomach, you give him a nod and set your food down. as he retreats to his office, you glare at dokyeom who munches away on goi cuon. “i hate you.”
“hey, what did i do?!” you ignore his attempts to defend himself as you make your way to your editor’s office.
once you swing the door open, you spot namjoon whose eyes are stuck to the screen. “you can take a seat,” he says with no attempt to look at you. you sit across from him, hands folded on your lap, while he types away on his keyboard.
the moment he hits the ‘enter’ key is when he finally looks at you. “sorry about that. i was just replying to minho regarding your compensation for the article you worked with dokyeom. we both appreciate what you did. next time though, make sure to loop in minho or me before you two start working on beats not within your staffs.”
“sorry about that,” you start off. “dokyeom only asked for my help and i thought it would be fine since i’m familiar with dance, anyway.”
namjoon shakes his head with a small smile plastered on his face. “it is fine, just make sure to inform us.” you only nod.
“anyway, i’m sorry to have this meeting with you right now but i have to leave work early today, and i thought that you’d appreciate that i tell this to you now instead of tomorrow,” he says. you hum, curious about what he has to say. “i have a coverage for you, a very, very, long one.”
over the sight of your wide eyes, he can’t help but chuckle. “it’s seven articles,” he says and your mouth gapes over the number. “well, one main article and six profiles with very brief introductory paragraphs.” his attempt to ease your shocked state does nothing.
“namjoon, that’s… a lot.”
“yes, i know. i would love to split the workload but everyone else is handling other articles, and i trust you. i know i’m asking for a lot but i’ll make sure to help you out with them. it’s just that we’re working on a time crunch and i don’t know anyone else i can ask but you.”
the faith that your editor seems to have in you is like no other.
“profiles, like, those q&a transcripts?” you ask.
he nods before saying, “yes, and just a brief introductory paragraph for each profile. i’m just expecting you to put more work into the article about the group. i’ll make sure to help out with the profiles.”
namjoon’s trust should be anxiety inducing, enough to send you complaining, but you find yourself relieved. your mentor became your second-in-command; the mountain of workload transformed into a hill.
“okay.”
a relaxed smile appears on his face at your acceptance. “thank god! i was going to stress about this the whole day if you refused. i’ll make sure to send you the details about this once i’m done with my appointments, and then we can see how we’ll divide the work later on.” he types something. “we’re covering a k-pop group which is why there’s one main article about the whole group and then six profiles.”
“yeah, i figured that out.” this isn’t anything out of your usual articles. “can i ask who we’re interviewing? maybe i can do some research on them while you attend your meetings.” you pull out your phone, ready to search up whoever your editor says.
“don’t know if you’re familiar with them but they’re called boynextdoor?” you still in your seat. “wait, let me check. yes, that’s their name.”
“boynextdoor?”
namjoon looks at you, now met with your features that have transformed from wide eyes to scrunched eyebrows. “yeah. do you know them?”
you shake your head without a second thought. “no, i don’t think i do,” you whisper the last sentence to yourself. his narrow eyes look over you, almost dissecting you.
the walls surrounding you are painted in solid colors of pearl, almost untouched. yet, under the paint are cracks that spread like cobwebs. every burst is a testament to the earthquakes they’ve faced; no one should be able to see a single line of black amid the white sea. now, they’re filled with paste, and it should be enough to cover them all.
but for the first time, the paint has chipped and the paste has deteriorated; the different colors of cheongju seep through the cracks.
you clear your throat as you straighten your back. “i’ll be sure to research them.” you wave your phone at him, hoping to divert his attention, but his gaze remains on you.
a sigh leaves him. “okay. expect to receive the documents later in the afternoon.”
he doesn’t push any further. for now, the walls remain intact. (or appear as so.)
it was never going to be easy.
“honestly, i gave up expecting to win as we practiced,” the youngest says through tears. as they huddle, they let out silent wishes for the upcoming years. before they blow the candle, they don’t forget to express their gratitude to the fandom who stuck with them through thick and thin.
a time of celebration turned into a moment to remember their struggles. these were pockets of their time that marked their spot in history.
“oh, everyone behind us is crying!” another member points out as the camera captures the team’s bittersweet cries.
and when you catch sight of the brunette who hides his tears behind his friend, the ache in your chest starts to spread through your veins. the video cuts to his low-hanging head as his members comfort him. they knew all of his hardships—you only know a fraction.
such a tender moment happened a year ago; it’s shorter than the amount of time between this achievement and your departure. within those years, what did jaehyun undergo? did his trainings waver his passion or did the fire burn just as bright as it did since he first auditioned? was he confident in his skills or was he still critical about every performance he had?
but most of all, what did he face? what did he learn? to hate? to love?
what did he go through without you?
you don’t forget to take note of their first win on your document filled with bullet points of information. while you were going to continue watching, a recommended video caught your attention. it’s a jaehyun focus. you don’t hesitate to click it.
the video starts off with him checking up on the fans before the performance starts. as he mimes out eating, they answer his question with reassurance.
and there they come—his dimples appear.
it transitions to their group in their opening formation. as they await for the song to play out, jaehyun’s familiar smile shifts into a dominant gaze.
in the same way the first notes draw people to listen, your eyes never leave the boy. his movements are fluid, like water droplets sliding off leaves. he commands the stage regardless of where he’s positioned.
jaehyun is meant to be on the stage—no, every stage is made for him. every crowd is meant to cheer his name and remain captive to his talents, and every spotlight is meant to shine on him.
you rest your chin on crossed arms. long gone was the bowl cut and loose school uniform. he’s grown. matured, even. yet, the moments where his smile appears makes you realize one thing: the 16-year-old boy you knew still lives within him.
as their performance comes to an end, you don’t bother to move your cursor, letting the next recommended video play. and when his vlog plays out, you realize that a fragment of his identity is a whole of what you know.
what an honor it is to have known him for even a fraction of your lifetime.
his voice is a lullaby, the same one you used to fall asleep to, so you allow yourself to close your eyes. you let go of the responsibilities for just this moment, and allow yourself to be transported back into the warmth of his arms.
fall of 2019
out of all the seasons, autumn took its spot in being your favorite. clusters of green slowly morph into shades of oranges and browns. it’s a symphony of chirps that fills the silence. while the breeze brings you comfort after the heat of summer, it also reminds you of the looming winter.
it’s a shame that autumn does live up to its other name: a season of fall.
“you’re always like this,” your mother comments. you stand in front of your parents, slumped shoulders and downcast eyes, as they hold a sheet of paper they believe dictates your future. “always so sensitive. we’re just asking you what went different. why did your grades drop?” to them, a shift from a to b+ is a threat to your future.
while your feet stand on wooden floors, a flood starts to form. murky waves crash against your legs, but you do your best to keep your balance.
“answer us when you’re being talked to.” your father snaps you out of your thoughts. “what have you been doing for your grades to drop?” you want to answer but a single sound that leaves you may only lead to blubbers that your parents will scold you for.
with your silence, your mother sneers. “i knew we shouldn’t have let you do your own things. i told you so.” she shifts her gaze to him. “what did i tell you about y/n? you know they’ll only slack off!”
“i thought we could trust them. clearly, i was wrong.” your father’s glare raises the water levels, reaching your chest. you don’t know how to swim in the foggy ocean.
“i know why.” she crosses her arms. “it’s because of that jaehyun boy, isn’t it?” she says his name laced with disgust.
you don’t think twice to defend him. “no, it isn’t!”
“don’t you dare talk back at me!”
“but i’m not! he’s done nothing.”
your father begins to raise his voice. “and that’s what’s wrong! that lazy boy does nothing for his studies. he clearly doesn’t care about his future.”
you always knew it would be a losing battle, but you’ll put up the fight to protect your best friend’s name. “that’s not true! he does care. he’s planning to do early childhood education for college, maybe become a teacher.”
“that job has no money. see, i can already see that you’re being influenced by him,” he argues back.
and as the murky waters rise, filling your lungs, your first instinct is to close your eyes and scream. “stop saying that about him!”
a beat passes.
“i don’t want you hanging out with him.”
“but—”
“shut up.” your mother’s words cause you to look up, meeting your parents’ faces filled with anger. “go to your room. now.” you’re nothing but a puppet for them.
was it even a battle if you always knew you were going to lose?
despite the safety of your room, you don’t let the tears flow down. you do anything to distract yourself; maybe a book will convince you that your life is only a figment of your imagination.
waves continue to crash against your body. if you let them take your body, would they send you far away from cheongju? from your parents? from the weight you were entrusted to carry since birth?
but would you allow the waves to send you away from jaehyun?
your phone buzzes against the mattress. with tear-filled eyes, you see your best friend trying to reach you. you don’t think twice about declining his call and shutting off your phone.
as you curl in your bed, you hope the sea will swallow you whole—the slow, burning pain that comes with drowning won’t compare to the burns that haven’t healed. but you know that the blame rests on your shoulders. if only you had studied harder, cut off hours of rest for your work, then maybe you would be the perfect child your parents wanted.
were you wrong for allowing yourself to enjoy the small breaks between classes? was the time spent in the mart supposed to be for schoolwork? should you have found yourself a tutor? were you in the wrong for not working yourself to the bone? did you not work enough?
are you not enough?
then, a knock. your eyes snap open. like a stroke of light in the middle of the dark, jaehyun is by your window.
you get off your bed to open the window. as the glass barrier disappears, he enters your room. “are you okay?” he spots your glassy eyes and his hands find their spot on your shoulders. “what happened?”
you break eye contact. “what do you want, jaehyun?”
“you didn’t pick up your phone. and when i tried calling again, i couldn’t reach you,” he starts to explain.
you shrug off his grip on you before you take a seat on your bed. “i’m fine. my phone died.” as you feel the spot beside you dip, you look at your best friend. at the sight of his furrowed eyebrows, you know he doesn’t believe you. “i said i’m fine.”
“i didn’t say anything.” for you are an open book to him.
he opens his arms towards you—it’s your move to make. then, a tight-lipped smile shows on his face, his dimples appear, and you allow yourself to fall. with his arms wrapped around you, you shut your eyes as you nestle your face into his neck.
breathe in. breathe out.
his hand finds its spot on your back, rubbing it in circles.
breathe in. breathe out.
“it’s okay, i’m here,” he says, and you allow yourself to crumble in front of him for the first time.
the tears hit jaehyun’s neck like a light drizzle. your wails bring earthquakes into his world.
yet, his warmth is enough to dry up droplets, and his embrace protects you as you fall into the cracks of the earth and into the depths of the world. the flood starts to subside.
in your time knowing jaehyun, how much did he know about you after all? had he always known of your strained relationship with your parents? did he hear about it from others or was he able to connect the dots?
because you didn’t know yourself outside of your parents anymore. did you like science because of your kumon classes? was your interest in writing birthed from a desire for validation from your parents?
are you nothing but an array of achievements and failures?
but your parents will never be satisfied; a standard too high is practically nonexistent.
jaehyun moves so that you two can lie down. his arms remain wrapped around you as you hide in his neck. “i’m sorry if i wasn’t there for you when you needed it then.” his whispered apology causes you to shake your head.
“you didn’t do anything wrong,” you blubber out to his neck.
“and you didn’t, as well.” his hand finds its spot behind your head. with every stroke, a tear streams down. “and i want you to know that i’ll be here for you.”
in your house, your room was the only space you called home. solace built by you.
now, your home is jaehyun.
present -> two weeks before the interview, 2024
something about the newsroom feels odd to you. there’s nothing out of the ordinary aside from it bustling with journalists. the familiar sounds of printers and chatter from your workmates fill your ears. it’s a typical occurrence for your peers to meet their deadlines on the day itself. the tug in your gut doesn’t resemble ones formed out of your anxiety. why does it feel like one of destiny?
“where is dokyeom? i swear, this guy never shows up to the office.”
you snap out of your thoughts, looking over at chaeyeon who browses through her phone. as you shove a bill into the vending machine, a chuckle leaves you. “when is he never?”
“maybe if he finishes his coverages on time then he’d be getting enough sleep. then, he won’t be late.”
you side-eye your friend before you click on a button. “you know that’s not true.”
she sighs at the same time your bottle of iced tea drops. “yeah. apparently, if you have free time, you’re not a good journalist or some shit which i find stupid.” you grab your drink before facing her. “am i not allowed to do something else that’s not related to my job? i swear, this is why i’m single.”
“then date another journalist.” your joke earns a scowl from her.
“i’m never dating anyone in my field. a journalist dating another journalist is like,” she looks up to the ceiling as she thinks, “a long distance relationship with how much they’ll never see or have time for each other.”
a laugh erupts from you, one that may be too loud for your liking. “true.”
as you walk out of the breakroom with chaeyeon, you notice something in the corner of your eye: a brunette by the restroom. while you can’t see his face, you spot what’s in his hand and you halt in your tracks—a finger trap.
“hey, is there someone there?” your eyes snap back to your friend who looks at you in confusion. when your eyes drift back to where the brunette once was, he’s already gone. you shake your head before walking back to your desk.
the same gut feeling lingers. with a frown, you open up your article only to be met with a few comments that namjoon left last night. maybe your gut knew that you weren’t done with your work. thankfully, it’s nothing too major, and you can have them done within the next few minutes.
“there you are!” chaeyeon exclaims, causing you to look up from your screen to a panting dokyeom. “were you working on your articles again?”
“actually, i went out last night.” while you shake your head at dokyeom’s reveal, chaeyeon gasps. “yeah, i did! i actually had fun for once!”
as he nods proudly at last night’s events, she complains, “are you serious?! how come you have time to go out? i was just talking to y/n that we never have time to ourselves.”
“i’m in sports,” he points out as he shrugs his shoulders. “you’re in news.” at this point, you’re expecting the two to spiral into an argument, so you redirect your focus back to your article.
“hey, did you hear though? there’s a k-pop group in the building.” you glance at chaeyeon.
your other friend leans on the cubicle. “really? who?”
“no clue.”
dokyeom lets out a groan. “what type of journalist are you if you can’t find out?”
“yah!” chaeyeon smacks his arm, causing him to wince in pain. “says you who can never submit on time.”
“hey, i’ll have you know that minho has been understanding!”
“whatever.” she rolls her eyes before looking at you. “that means you’ll probably be handling them. i hope they’re cute so that you can finally have something going on with your life outside of work.”
a chuckle leaves you as you get back to work. “i’m never dating an idol. i’d get hunted down by their fans.”
“yeah, but can’t you dream a little? do you ever imagine what it would be like?”
the past plays in your mind. after school performances and interviews. broken-up popsicles. finger traps. a life you shared with jaehyun then—one you still cling onto.
yet, you shake your head as you edit your article. “not even.”
it’s a life you’ll keep to yourself.
“what’s the update?”
the three of you look away from each other, spotting namjoon who comes to you with a smile. long gone were the sweaters that failed to drown out his figure and the boxy glasses that would rest on the bridge of his nose. now, he wears a dress shirt and trousers with hair slicked to the side. there were no frames for him to hide behind.
“ah, namjoon! you’re dressed so nice today.”
with dokyeom’s compliment, he can’t hold back on his smile. “thank you. are you guys done with your articles?”
as your friends nod, you add the finishing touches to the document. “and done! i just finished addressing your comments.”
“great. thanks, y/n.”
“do you have something?” chaeyeon asks your editor, causing you to roll your eyes. one thing about journalists is that they love to know everything.
namjoon nods before saying, “i just had a meeting with some possible interviewees.”
“is this the one with the k-pop group?” as dokyeom asks the question, you can’t help but laugh as chaeyeon looks at him in disbelief for spilling confidential information.
your editor chuckles. “yes.”
“can we know—”
“no, you can’t know.”
chaeyeon pouts at namjoon. “not even a hint?”
namjoon ignores her question and begins to walk off. “good work, y/n!” he calls out before leaving you three alone.
“man, namjoon never tells us shit,” chaeyeon complains as she leans on the table.
“to you guys, at least,” you argue with a small shrug.
still, the gut feeling remains.
something about the newsroom feels odd to jaehyun. while he’s had his fair share of paranormal experiences, his gut tells him that there’s something in the office. yet, the tug isn’t one that speaks of danger. why does it feel like one of destiny?
“should we have a short break before we discuss the schedules for the photoshoots and interviews?” jaehyun is snapped out of his thoughts by namjoon’s suggestion.
his manager looks at the group. “do you guys need a break?”
“should we have a short break before we discuss the schedules for the photoshoots and interviews?” jaehyun is snapped out of his thoughts by namjoon’s suggestion.
his manager looks at the group. “do you guys need a break?”
although everyone seemed fine with proceeding, he couldn’t shake off the feeling. maybe the leftover curry he had this morning went bad. “i’ll go,” he says as he gets off his seat.
namjoon slowly stands up. “okay, i can bring you there—”
“it’s okay! i saw the washroom on the way here,” jaehyun says before walking to the door. “you can discuss the details without me first.”
with his manager’s nods, namjoon settles back into his seat. “okay then, here are some of the dates i have in mind...”
jaehyun exits the room. he bites on the inside of the cheek as he thinks of what his gut could be telling him. is it the nerves for the upcoming tour? is he worried about the next comeback they’ve been preparing? or is he scared about what the future has in store for his group?
with his mind on these questions, he doesn’t realize that he arrives in front of the bathroom door. a sigh of frustration leaves him. the worst thing about gut feelings is never knowing what they’re trying to say.
he grips the handle, ready to swing the door open, until a familiar laugh hits his ears. one of the past. one he hasn’t heard in years. his muscles freeze.
when was the last time he heard that chortle? when was the last time he became the cause of it?
his eyes dart around the area for the source but no one else is here. he can’t help but shake his head in disbelief.
it should be stupid for him to think you two would ever reunite. in what world would you be in the same place as he is? it’s been five years. you could be anywhere around the world. yet, he fishes for something out of his pocket; the same finger trap he linked you to him rests on the palm of his hand.
he sighs before entering the washroom and shoving it back into his pocket.
maybe he’ll hold out a little longer.
winter of 2019
out of all the seasons, jaehyun’s favorite is winter. snowflakes fall, filling the sky with stars that people can touch, and snow piles on sidewalks, letting him throw snowballs at his friends. despite the freezing temperatures, jaehyun prefers this over nearly-boiling ones.
he can’t wait to share this season with you.
yet, the familiar, chilly breeze of the season transforms into whispers, and word gets around like thrown snowballs.
“is y/n really not going to school anymore?” jaehyun looks up from his desk to see jiheon standing in front of him. he tilts his head in confusion, causing her to roll her eyes. “are they not going here anymore?”
he frowns. “huh? what kind of rumor is that?”
“i don’t know. it’s what people have been saying,” she says as she crosses her arms. “i asked because i wanted to know if my competition’s gone, you know? and you’re the only one here who has an idea about their whereabouts.”
jaehyun laughs in disbelief. “no, i was with them last week.”
when jaehyun last saw you, you asked for space. with what’s been happening with your family, you needed time to process and cope with your issues, and he respected that. after all, he only knew a fraction of your relationship with your parents, and he didn’t want to intrude in anything you didn’t want him to be a part of. still, jaehyun reminded you that he’ll be there if you need him.
“damn, that sucks,” jiheon groans as her shoulders slump. “these stupid rumors.” as soon as she leaves jaehyun alone, he shakes his head.
the bell rings. students start rushing into classrooms and teachers scold those who aren’t on their seats. ms. jeon enters the room, walking to the desk in front and setting her things down. “baek jiheon, you’ll be in charge of attendance today.”
as jaehyun’s classmate gets off her seat, he can’t help but look at your desk that still remains empty.
“you have to message us when you land,” your mother says as she fixes the collar of your coat. despite your nod, she clicks her tongue. “answer me properly.”
“yes, i will.”
once your father finishes placing the last luggage in the trunk of the taxi, he stands beside your mother. “don’t forget why we’re sending you there. we expect you to do better with no distractions.”
your phone buzzes in your hand. as you look down, you see a message from jaehyun. as he asks about your whereabouts, the weight gets heavier—will you stand or crumble under it?
“who’s that?”
you stash your phone away as you look back at your parents. “nothing. it’s just an email from the school. they sent over the date for the orientation.” at the sight of their satisfied smile, you let out a small sigh of relief.
“well, go on.” your nod at your mother before getting in the car. with the windows still down, she adds, “don’t forget to get endorsement letters from the professors i sent over to you or else you won’t get to study abroad like we planned.” her choice of pronouns is funny; a plan that they crafted which never considered your input.
“okay.”
as your father commands the driver to go, your gaze remains on the two. it should be okay with you to leave cheongju; you’d be far away from your parents and experience an entirely different landscape to explore. it’s time you break away from the chains of this town. learn a life outside of what your parents forced you into.
yet, as the car takes its leave, the figure of your parents slowly shrinks. the distance from them should’ve given you the space to breathe, a relief you’ve longed for, but it only reminds you of your strained relationship. to them, it would be better that you’re out of their sight—and with your farewell, you never heard the three-word phrase.
the window rolls up. you try to hold back the tears, but the scenery of cheongju that you pass by births a storm within you. you didn’t want to say goodbye to home, regardless of how much you say you didn’t have a home in this town. every corner holds a piece of you in the same way you hold a piece of them.
the car approaches a safe haven you share. despite the snow that piles at the front, mr. kim’s convenience store is still open. you’ll never get to have his hotteok again or hear his favorite dramas play in the background. worst of all, you never got to say goodbye.
then, the familiar figure of your best friend exits the mart, and the storm transforms into a typhoon. the plastic bag he holds is filled with your favorite snacks, from the grape-flavored twin bar to a bottle of mr. kim’s homemade peach iced tea.
and in that moment that your car passes him, he pulls out his phone from his pocket, and you spot the familiar trap wrapped around his finger—the other end holds no one.
as quickly as you came into jaehyun’s life, he disappears from your view.
finger traps were fascinating. if you tug hard, the contraption won’t let your fingers go. yet, if you allow the two fingers to meet, allowing the toy to loosen, it’ll let you go with no harm.
but your finger trap with jaehyun was different. maybe it was already ripped to its seams.
interview
q: what made you decide on becoming an idol?
a: i’ve always loved dancing. growing up in cheongju, i always made time [for dance] whether it be [for] school competitions, talent shows, or even [choreographies] i wanted to try out. but i never considered becoming [an idol] until high school. a lot of my friends and family thought i was capable, and i’m glad they trusted me. it feels good to give back to them with every performance.
q: compared to your other members, you’ve spent a lot of years dancing and training to become an idol. what kept you going throughout your years of training?
a: my family’s support was one big thing that helped me [during my training.] every trip from my house to the company would last hours, and it drained me physically. so as the years went by, i started to question if all the time, money, [and] effort i was putting into an unpromised debut would be worth it, but my parents and brother were always there to support and [take] care of me. but i’d also like to think my best friend was a major support in training years. i think they were the first one to [tell me that they saw me as an idol,] and at the time i brushed off the idea. but, look where i am now? so i think i owe a lot to them.
q: is there anything you’d like to say to those who’ve supported you as boynextdoors’s myung jaehyun? a: mom and dad, thank you for believing in me. i know it wasn’t easy to wait until midnight for me to come home or take care of me whenever i got sick from training. thank you for always supporting me in every performance. to my brother, thank you for helping mom and dad out at home. every day, i remind myself that you gave up so much just so i can pursue my dreams, and i want you know that i’m forever grateful for your sacrifices. to the rest of [boynextdoor], thank you for always allowing me to rely on you. i’m glad i can say i have brothers who i get to achieve my dreams with. onedoor, thank you for your love and support over the years. i wouldn’t be boynextdoor’s leader or myung jaehyun if it weren’t for you. and lastly, thank you to my best friend. i hope you’ll always be proud of me the same way i’ll forever be proud of you.
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"Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall." — Proverbs, 16:18.
In which Haksu goes on a date. FEATURING: Kang Haksu, Yi Eunha / Eunmyeong, Lee Taein WORD COUNT: 5.2k WARNINGS / NOTES: Blackmail. Discussions of stalking and other sasaeng behavior. The usual duad when it comes to Haksu.
FEBRUARY 2024
Haksu is a very good son by all measures except one: he’s almost twenty-seven years old and he has no children. This fact is exacerbated every time he returns home for Seollal. He excels at everything else. He helps Mother with her errands—buying groceries, spending time with Oehalmeoni and Oeharabeoji, politely fielding questions from her church friends who coo over him like he's their son as well. On the morning of Seollal, he performs the charye perfectly—following Father's footsteps in circling a shot glass of cheongju three times over a lit stick of incense and placing it on the dining room table in front of a portrait of Father's father, before stepping back and leading his family in two formal bows. The ceremony concludes without a hitch, the same actions repeated twice more for Father's father’s father and Father's father’s father’s father. It's been one of Haksu's responsibilities since he was a teenager. He could do it in his sleep.
It's only later, when they start to eat, that his shortcoming becomes obvious.
“You’re almost thirty. When your father was your age, we had already been married for five years,” Mother begins. “Have you met any girls recently?”
“No,” Haksu mumbles. He doesn’t know why she’d expect anything else. He doesn’t have a normal job and he isn’t in school anymore and besides, he’s an idol. He tries to eat his tteokguk faster and nearly chokes. Mother doesn't seem to notice.
“I met a nice young woman at the service the other day,” she says. She’s said something similar to this for a few weeks now, over the phone every weekend when he calls. Haksu thinks she’s talking about the same person. There can’t be too many different young women joining their church. “She’s around your age, and she doesn’t have a boyfriend.”
Father looks meaningfully at him. “This is an opportunity for you, Haksu. You can’t let it pass you by.”
Haksu has every intention of doing just that. He’s not ready for this. He knows his parents want to be grandparents and he knows he’s their only chance. The thought of fatherhood is far from his current considerations. He has his career to think about first. He can’t get married.
“I know,” he says.
“I spoke to a matchmaker,” Mother adds.
Haksu looks up in alarm, almost snapping his wooden chopsticks in half. No one else at the table seems to be worried. Oeharabeoji is pouring himself his fourth or maybe fifth shot of cheongju. He lost count some time ago.
“He said it’s an auspicious match,” Mother continues. “I’ll give you her phone number. It would be nice for you to meet before you leave again.”
This is all more than he expected. Mother speaks like she’s already made up her mind. He wouldn’t be surprised if they had already planned a wedding date and picked out baby names and started decorating a nursery.
“What do you know about her?” Haksu asks, resigned to his fate. He doesn't have to date her and he doesn't have to marry her and he doesn't have to have kids with her. The least he can do is talk to her.
Father and Mother both brighten almost instantaneously. Haksu knows it's because he's never demonstrated an interest in girls around them before. He couldn't date in high school, because he was in high school. Going out with girls after church services might count as dates, but certainly not as relationships. Then he went to university in Seoul, outside of their jurisdiction. He suspects they're relieved he isn’t gay. He’d feel the same way.
Father goes first. “Her name is Eunha of the Deoksu Yi clan. She's twenty-three.”
Mother interjects. She's barely touched her food. “And she still has no boyfriend or husband. What is she waiting for?”
No one answers her question. Haksu sits in silence and lets his parents talk.
“She moved from Seoul to take care of her grandmother.” Father.
“She was born in the Year of the Snake and she's blood type O.” Mother.
“She knows you’re an idol.” Mother again.
Haksu finally interrupts. “She knows about Fable?”
“I told her,” Mother says, lips pursed. “Your career is unconventional. I wanted to warn her.”
He knows his parents aren’t the most supportive. They tolerate his decisions: they attended his debut showcase and own all of Fable’s albums, but they would have preferred for him to finish university and work a normal job and start a family.
“Luckily, she doesn’t care,” Father says.
“Low standards,” Mother mutters.
Haksu doesn’t get it. Why should he date her, if she has low standards? Does Mother think his standards are too high? Is he the low standard, because he’s twenty-six and single? Should he be settling for someone like her?
He doesn’t think he’s ready to be settling for anyone. He takes another mechanical bite of tteokguk—rapidly cooling off and not nearly as good as it was a few minutes ago—and wonders why no one else is eating.
Mother stands up. “I’ll get her number. You should wish her a happy Seollal.”
Haksu follows, bracing one hand on the back of her chair, silently encouraging her to sit back down again. “Is it in your phone? You can text it to me after breakfast.”
She sits back down, and he breathes out a small sigh of relief.
Then he spends the rest of the meal fervently praying for her to forget all about it. He watches, surreptitiously, from the living room as Mother and Oehalmoni clear the table and wash the dishes. He’s about to slink off back into his bedroom when Mother calls from the kitchen, “Hak-ah! Can you bring me my phone?”
It’s the end for him. He already knows. She’s going to ask him to send Eunha’s number to himself. He tries to think about what it’d be like to have a serious girlfriend—nothing like the faux, nearly parent-supervised relationships he’s had with other girls from his church when he was in high school. But Eunha knows Mother, so maybe it won’t be too different after all. He can’t tell if he likes that or not.
Her phone is lying on the low coffee table in the living room. Ever obedient, Haksu picks it up and brings it into the kitchen, where Mother is still elbow-deep in soapy water.
“I forgot to let Youngmi-ssi know I’m bringing refreshments to choir practice tomorrow night,” Mother says. “Can you let her know in the group chat? It should be one of the most recent messages. You should consider coming too.”
Immensely relieved, Haksu tilts the phone screen toward her face so that it unlocks. He navigates towards her text messages, and types almost verbatim what she said. He can count on one hand the number of choir practices he’s attended since he debuted. It might be good for him to go. As long as Eunha isn’t there, he thinks. He doesn’t bring that part up. “I’ll go,” he says, and Mother smiles at him.
Two more days pass uneventfully without a single mention of Eunha. Haksu thinks he wouldn’t mind if the rest of his life was like that. Or at least the rest of his Seollal vacation. She doesn’t attend choir practice, a fact he’s only too delighted to learn. Mother has yet to give him her phone number, and Haksu certainly isn’t going to remind her.
It’s not until the morning of the day he’s set to leave that Mother brings her up again. His bus back to Seoul leaves in a few hours, and he’s up early to pack. Mother, of course, is awake as well, so she can make sure to send him off with enough food to feed Fable for a week. He doesn’t have much to pack. He spends the time sitting on his bedroom floor, only half-awake, searching the news for his name. His phone vibrates with a text, and to his dismay, he sees that it’s a shared contact from Mother.
Seconds later, she pushes open his bedroom door without knocking or asking. “I didn’t give you Eunha-ssi’s number,” she says, interrupting Haksu’s morning routine. “You should have reminded me.”
He shrugs, not quite cognitive enough to come up with a good excuse. “It slipped my mind too.”
“Be sure to text her before you leave,” she says, a hint of a warning in her voice. Haksu doesn’t know what she’s going to do if he’s in Seoul and he hasn’t texted her.
“I will,” he says.
He doesn’t text her.
JUNE 2024
On the morning of his first seon date, Haksu stares into his closet and puts together a first date outfit: plain white t-shirt under an open jeogori that mimics a jacket, black chinos, Nike Air Force 1s. He didn’t start talking to Eunha until a few weeks ago, after an hour long phone call with Mother where she chewed him out for not texting her so loudly that Byeonghwi overheard every bit of it. Their conversations have been livelier and more engaging than he expected. She knows of Fable, which felt a bit strange to Haksu. She assured him she wanted to know him as a person and not an idol. He thinks he's honest on camera, and the line between Haksu the person and Haksu the idol is so thin it's almost invisible.
He knows he isn't going to marry her, which goes against the purpose of a seon date. It could not be a seon date, but he doesn't know what else to call this almost blind date set up between his mother and her grandmother and a third-party matchmaker. Seon dates are for people who are desperate to find a partner. They're for people who have exhausted all other avenues. They aren't for people whose jobs revolve around being desirable. Haksu is confident he could find a date and then a girlfriend and then a wife if he chose to do so. He's single through a conscious choice.
The only part of the date that he had any input on was the location. In a last-ditch effort to preserve his public image, he insisted on a restaurant with a private room. He isn't dumb—he knows what might happen to Fable if he's caught on a date. Haksu makes it into a familial outing instead. Mother says he worries too much. He pretends he doesn't hear her.
He ensures he's a few minutes late. He sits down with Mother and Oeharabeoji and Oehalmoni in their private room for a few minutes and studies the menu. Then he excuses himself and heads off to his date.
He isn't nervous. They'll chat a bit, then they'll share a meal, and then they'll part ways. Haksu considers himself an expert at letting people down nicely. He doesn't know what she looks like—Eunha had expressed multiple times that she wasn't confident in her appearance, and he didn't push her. He doesn't blame her, because he's her date.
Haksu brazenly pushes the door open, lost in his thoughts about pairing the perfect appetizer, entree, and dessert. He pauses at the sight of a young woman already sitting at the table, buried in her menu. Then she looks up, breaking into what can only be described as the type of smile found in the stalker romance anime series Intak watches from time to time.
He freezes completely, because he knows her. This isn't the lively, quick-witted, enthusiastic Yi Eunha he spoke to over text. Nor is this the polite, reserved, deeply devout young woman Mother met at church. This is someone completely different. This is Eunmyeong, a constant presence at every official and unofficial Fable schedule, the Zenith Entertainment building, their apartment building, and now Haksu’s hometown. He’s written her messages over and over again in their albums, spoken kindly and then much less kindly to her at his schedules, and in moments of morbid curiosity, scrolled through her Twitter, reading tweet after tweet about how much she likes him while studying the pictures of his photocards in front of the back entrance to Fable’s apartment building.
“Haksu-oppa!” she trills. “I'm so happy to see you.”
The door slams shut behind him, trapping the two of them together. Haksu fumbles for the handle behind his back. He doesn’t want to take his eyes off her, like she’s a predator waiting for the moment he looks away or shows weakness to attack. She’s pretty. Almost disarmongly so, the type of beauty that must make people do double takes on the street. It’s only when he looks closer that he sees something off in her large brown eyes and her flawless skin and her too-perfect nose.
“Oppa, you can’t leave. We have to have our date,” Eunmyeong—he doesn’t want to call her Eunha, though he belatedly realizes that it must be her real name—says.
As if in a trance, Haksu finds himself relinquishing the cold metal of the door handle. He takes three mechanical steps across the room and settles into the empty seat. He’s a performer, preparing for the performance of his lifetime.
He smiles thinly. “You surprised me. I didn’t think I’d meet you here.”
Throughout all of their tour, he never saw her a single time: not on any of the flights, not in the front row of the concerts, not in the halls of their hotels, not in a single one of the VIP meet and greets. He was optimistic then, thinking she might have moved on to being a fan of another group, another idol. It would have been a weight off his shoulders, the crowd of delusional young women obsessed with him one person smaller.
Eunmyeong leans forward, placing her elbows on the table and resting her chin on her palms, a twisted reenactment of the flower cup pose. “I missed you so much. All those other bitches saw you on tour. I waited here for you. I would have waited forever.”
The words coming out of her mouth are jarring with her appearance. The planning she did terrifies him. She knows where he lives and who his parents are and where he goes to church. Haksu would have rather had her follow him around the world like everyone else.
“You’ve very dedicated,” he says. He opens his menu so he can look at something other than her, even though he already knows what the restaurant serves. The thought of eating anything makes him want to vomit. He can’t go through with this. “What would you like to eat?”
“Mul naengmyeon. It’s your favorite food.”
It is not his favorite food, but he might have said that at some point in the past five and a half years. He can’t remember.
“Oppa, it feels like you don’t like me very much,” Eunmyeong says, sticking her bottom lip out in a pout.
He backtracks, bending over backwards to please her. “That’s not true.” He swallows his revulsion. “I like you very much.”
She toys with the chopsticks on the table in front of her, manicured pink nails clicking against the white porcelain. “I love you, and I want you to love me.”
“You know everything about me, but I don’t know anything about you,” Haksu says diplomatically. He races through his possible escape routes in his head. Maybe he can communicate it to the waiter somehow. A note, or showing him something on his phone? Or easiest of them all—he can get out of here himself.
“I need to use the bathroom,” he says, the barest hint of an apology in his voice. He's standing and heading for the door before he finishes his sentence.
“Don't go.” Eunmyeong stands almost as quickly as he did, gripping his wrist tightly. Her nails are terrifyingly sharp, so he stops.
“I'm not going anywhere,” he says, wondering if she can feel his heart racing. “I'll be right back. I promise.”
He doesn't know why he's making promises, especially ones he has no intention of keeping.
Eunmyeong refuses to release her grip on his wrist. It's as if she doesn't trust him. “We’ve known each other since you debuted. Don’t pretend you know nothing.”
The only reason why she isn’t one more face in the crowd is because she does things like this. Presumes importance, like she’s someone Haksu should know. Spends her time near Fable’s apartment building. Goes as far as to travel to his hometown. The nausea rises in the back of his throat again, and he has to force himself to swallow it back down.
“I don’t pretend,” he says, aiming for calm and cool and confident. His words are hollow and strained to his own ears.
Eunmyeong finally releases his wrist. “You bite the inside of your lip when you lie. Right here.” She reaches up to brush her fingers against the left side of his bottom lip.
Haksu flinches.
She drops her arm back down to her side and stares at the ground. “Are you afraid of me? It wasn’t supposed to be like this.”
He tries to shove down every chivalrous instinct to comfort her, and then every piece of idol decorum drilled into him that tells him he shouldn’t distress a fan. He can’t lie to her, not now, when she knows his tell—she’s right, he realizes, tonguing the divot in the left side of his bottom lip where his canine slots in perfectly without breaking the skin.
He loses. “You’re right,” he says, and he means it, because it wasn’t supposed to be like this. She was supposed to be a stranger, not one of his stalkers. She was supposed to be the new girl at church, pious and feminine and not completely obsessed with an idol.
“I’ll be your girlfriend,” she says through her crocodile tears, “and you won’t have to be afraid of me anymore.”
“We can’t,” Haksu says, though he doesn’t know why he says “we.”
“Is it because you’re an idol? You should make an exception for me. It’s what your mom wants.”
It is what Mother wants, but Mother doesn’t know who she is. She doesn’t know the hardships and stress he suffered at Eunmyeong’s hands. Mother wants him to get married and have children, but not with a sasaeng, surely. Not at the cost of the health and happiness of her only son.
“It doesn’t matter what she wants,” he says. “I can make my own choices.”
Eunmyeong tilts her head, looking up at him. “You already did. Remember how much we texted?”
He nods, guarded. Every sentence out of her mouth is planned, barbed with saccharine poison. He’s afraid of what she’s going to say next.
“If you don’t agree to date me, I’ll post our texts and say we were already a couple. We started dating a little after your debut. I was the fan, and you were the idol, but you noticed me anyway.”
Lightheaded, Haksu barely recognizes the words he’s saying. “Then why don’t you do it already? Say we’re dating and turn all my fans against me and end my career. Who else would still like me except you?”
“I like that you’re an idol.” She reaches her arms up like she wants to hug him, and he takes another step back. They’re at a restaurant. Where’s any of the waitstaff? “Why would I like you if you were no one?”
“Crazy fucking bitch.” He spits the words at her, and the hurt that flashes through her eyes is gratifying only for a moment before the gravity of his situation returns. Past that, his words don’t seem to faze her.
“I’m looking forward to seeing you in Seoul again,” Eunmyeong says, speaking as if Haksu didn’t say anything. “I have so many ideas for our dates. Oppa, you’ll tell me all your schedules right?”
Haksu composes himself. He probably shouldn’t have called her a bitch, even if she is one. He makes a conscious effort to not bite his lip, and then says, “Of course.” He doesn’t know why she wants him to do that. She’s already known all of them through whatever methods she has.
That seems to satisfy her. She beams, radiant and terrifying all at once. “I’m so happy you agree. I love you so much, Oppa. Call me when you go back to Seoul.”
Then she leaves the room, bouncing past him with a skip in her step, hand lingering on his shoulder for a few seconds too long. Haksu stands frozen, the touch of her fingertips burning through the thin layers of his shirt and jeogori. He can’t understand what she wants from him. He takes a seat again on wobbling legs, staring at the casual disarray of their menus and utensils. What happened to lunch?
He checks his phone, ignoring all the messages from Mother asking about his date. What is he supposed to say to her? This is the worst date he’s ever been on by far, and now he’ll have to go through it over and over again, until she gets bored of him or he reaches the point where blackmail and the threat of a dating scandal mean nothing to him.
He gives Eunmyeong ten minutes to leave. With his stomach twisting in knots, he abandons the private dining room and checks to make sure the door to his family’s room is still closed. Eunmyeong is nowhere in sight, but Haksu feels only slightly relieved.
He takes the bus home alone, texting Daewoong that he needs a ride back to Seoul now, and then a meeting with Taein five minutes ago.
As soon as he arrives in Seoul, Haksu goes to see Taein. All the text messages explaining his situation that he sent during his ride remain unanswered, though Taein read every single one of them. Daewoong was almost sympathetic, but Haksu suspects having to suddenly drive for a six hour round trip offset any goodwill he might have. Haksu doesn’t bother to stop by the dorms first, dragging his suitcase over the uneven sidewalk in front of the Zenith Entertainment building. He opens his phone’s front camera on the ride up the elevator and fixes his hair.
He knocks on the door of Taein’s office and pushes it open without waiting for a response. “What about a restraining order?” he asks, seconds before realizing Taein isn’t the only person in the room. There’s another man there, probably around the same age as Taein, dressed in shade upon shade and layer upon layer of brown. Dark brown shoes, tan pants, green-brown shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows. He flicks an old-fasioned lighter open and closed, dangerously close to Taein’s shelves of papers. He looks familiar, but Haksu isn’t quite sure where he’s seen him before.
“Later, Haksu,” Taein says. He spares only a cursory glance in Haksu’s direction. For once, he seems more tired than anything else.
"Excuse me," Haksu says, shutting the door again.
He drags his suitcase down the stairs to Fable's practice room, though he really should drop it off at the dorms.
Mingeun is the only one there, lying prone on the floor, staring at his phone. He looks up at Haksu and asks, "Wanna go to Japan?"
Then he seems to realize who he's talking to and says, "Never mind. Not you."
"Why not?" Haksu asks, sitting next to Mingeun. He doesn't want to go to Japan, but he still wants to be invited.
"I don't think you wanna go," Mingeun says. He knows Haksu too well. He does another double take. A triple take? “Why are you here? I thought you weren’t coming back yet.”
Haksu ignores him. “Why do you want to go Japan?”
Mingeun sits up and shrugs. “I’m only thinking about it.”
“Intak-hyung would love to go.”
“He would.”
They fall silent. Haksu wonders how much longer Taein will be occupied for. He’s antsy. He has to do something, not just sit here and talk to Mingeun.
Mother texts him with the latest updates on Father’s hospitalization—no changes, still weak since his fall down a flight of stairs three weeks ago—and a question—does he know of anyone who could possibly have a reason to purposely hurt him? Haksu can’t think of anyone at the moment. He can’t think about anyone in any capacity except Eunmyeong. He swipes the notification away. He’ll respond later, after he talks to Taein. He still hasn’t told her about his date, just that he had to go back to Seoul.
When the waiting and the silence becomes unbearable, he stands again. “Can you take my stuff back to the dorm? I have to talk to Taein-nim. It might take a long time.”
Mingeun stares at him curiously and nods. Haksu can practically hear the questions: what happened? Why do you have to talk to Taein? What are you talking about? He doesn’t ask any of them, and for that, Haksu is thankful.
He spends only a few minutes loitering outside of Taein’s office before the mysterious man leaves. He seems to take no notice of Haksu, currently pretending to be one with the wall.
Once Taein’s visitor disappears into the elevator, Haksu barges into his office with a new question. “Who was that?”
Taein looks up from his desk and quickly closes the folder of papers he was looking at. “Someone that doesn’t matter to you. You’ll probably never see him again.”
That, of course, only piques Haksu’s interests. A business partner, maybe. Or a friend? A lover? He dismisses the last thought. Taein had a wife. Multiple wives, in fact. And thinking of him having friends is strange. Of course Taein has to have friends. Haksu can’t see him as anything other than his too-serious CEO. He has a hard time picturing him outside of this office, and he’s seen him outside of this office.
Haksu makes himself comfortable in the cheap plastic chair in front of Taein’s desk. He thinks they make enough money for a new chair. It doesn’t seem to be a priority. “What do you think about a restraining order?” he asks.
“You don’t need a restraining order for a fan,” Taein replies. “That’s ridiculous.”
“She isn’t just a fan,” Haksu complains. “I went on a date with her. She knows where I live. She knows who my parents are. She threatened to end my career if I don’t keep up a relationship with her.” He can’t keep the mounting panic out of his voice.
“That sounds familiar,” Taein says drily. “Why did you agree to the first date?”
“I don’t want to date her. I didn’t know who she was. She’s friends with my mother now.” Each sentence is another terrible fact of his situation, the bars of the cage he’s trapped in. His chest is tight, heart hammering furiously. Distantly, he realizes that it hurts to breathe.
Taein finally seems to take notice. “Calm down, Haksu. Breathe.”
An undeterminable amount of time passes before Haksu starts to feel like himself again.
"I'm sorry," he says, though it doesn't sound quite like him. He rarely apologizes for anything.
"It's an occupational hazard," Taein says, sounding a little more sympathetic.
"No one else has this problem," Haksu says sullenly.
"No one else is the sole center and the face of the group who he insisted he hold that position for years," Taein says, less gentle now. His watch face reflects the spinning colors of the screensaver on his computer.
Haksu picks up on what Taein is insinuating. It isn't his fault. It can't be. There are so many other idols, many of whom are more famous than he is, to his chagrin. He hasn't heard of any of them with sasaengs who befriend their parents to get close to them. He thought that was some sort of unspoken boundary. It was alright to invade the privacy of the idol, the celebrity, the one who recognized the privileges and pitfalls of his position, but not the people closest to him.
"Do you have any underground gang connections?" he asks, still feeling not quite lucid. "Can you get rid of her?"
Taein almost smiles at that. "Who do you think I am?"
Haksu shrugs, slumping down into his seat. This isn't helping. "Then what else can I do?"
"Not much."
He wants to curl up into a ball and go back in time and prevent his past self from ever talking to her. He grasps at straws and presses Taein harder. “You’re certain I can’t get a restraining order? What about laws? Can we prosecute her? Sue her?”
Taein gets a far-off look in his eyes. “You’ve survived this long. She’ll move on soon.”
“She befriended my mother!”
“Unfortunate.”
“She won’t move on,” Haksu says with certainty. He can’t explain how he knows—he just does. “She’s been obsessed with me since I debuted.”
Taein waves a hand through the air, like he can get rid of her in the same way he’d get rid of an annoying fly. “You could always let her try.”
“Try?” Haksu repeats, baffled.
“The same way you did to me. Let her try to ruin your career.”
“It didn’t work with you.” His answer comes out miserably.
Taein lifts his chin. “So what makes you think it would work when she does it?”
Haksu picks at the peeling plastic of his seat. “She said she’d say she’s my girlfriend. She has all the text messages to prove it.” He glares at Taein. “And what would you do? Sit back and ask Andrew-hyung to write another album that everyone except me would promote? Treat me the way you treated Mingeun?”
“Mingeun was a different case. There was nothing I could do to stop the truth from being revealed.”
Haksu knows different. For one, he’s much more popular than Mingeun was when his scandal happened. And another: Mingeun was never the face of Fable. It was always Haksu. He can’t sacrifice the careers of the rest of the group for his individual problem.
He shakes his head. “No. Not that. Something else.”
“I don’t have anything else,” Taein says wearily. “I’m sorry, Haksu.”
Haksu hates how he believes so easily, because it really does seem like Taein has nothing else to offer and it really does seem like he’s sorry. And he has nothing else to ask. He’s always prided himself on his resilience and his determination. Sitting here in Taein’s office, with the prospect of another tense and horrifying date with Eunmyeong on the horizon, he can’t see any way out of it other than through.
He picks up the pieces of himself, putting on the same composed appearance he almost always has in public and resigning himself to his fate. “I’ll be on my way. I didn’t mean to take up so much of your time.” From what he can see in the cracks of Taein’s blinds, the sun is beginning to set. He’s been wound up all day, and the constant tension is beginning to make him feel like he just spent three hours pre-recording for Music Bank.
Taein nods his approval. “I’m sure you’ll get through this, like you’ve survived everything else.”
Though he doesn’t say it out loud, that’s exactly what Haksu is afraid of.
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Yuri (유리) is a member of the co-ed group ENHYPEN who debuted on November 30th, 2020.
Stage Name: Yuri (유리)
Birth Name: Kim Yuri
Birthday: January 1st, 2003
Nationality: Korean
Height: 175 cm (5'9″)
Weight: 44kg
Blood Type: O
MBTI: INFP (ENFP previously)
Zodiac: Sagittarius
Position: unspecified
Representative Emoji: 🐰 (bunny)
YURI FACTS
She is from Cheongju, South Korea
She is the oldest among 2, with a younger brother (Kim Jiyoo 2006)
She made her debut to the entertainment industry in 2006
Her training period is unspecified but is rumored to have been over 5 years
She was the youngest member of former group AMI and placed 4th in survival show I AM with 821, 789 votes.
She speaks 4 languages (Korean, Japanese, English, and Chinese) she says her younger brother was fascinated in languages so she learned with him.
The proudest thing she’s done is raise her brother (WeVerse 12.1.21)
She always wanted a bunny but was never able to get one
Her favorite color is red
Her favorite food is teriyaki chicken
Specialty: dance and vocal
Hobbies: sleeping, cooking, tiktok
Charming Point: Her nose, eyes, and lips
Her Title/Niknames(s) are ‘Korea's Angel’, Dancing Angel, bunny, ‘Nation's Visual’, ‘Enhypens Star’
Likes: Sunoo, Jungwon, cheering for Jiyoo, sleeping (WeVerse. 3.25.22)
Dislikes: Waking up, corn, Niki’s spaghetti (WeVerse 3.25.22)
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Mowon Hotel Cheongju Situated in Cheongju-si city center, For lazy days and nights, in-room conveniences like 24-hour room service, room service and daily housekeeping let you make the most of your room. Little things you forgot to pack aren't a big problem! Just stop by the convenience stores to get what you need. Smoking is limited to designated areas only, for the health and well-being of all guests and staff. Equipped with handy amenities, guestrooms at Knowing that bathroom amenities play an important role in increasing guests' satisfaction, the motel provides a hair dryer, toiletries, bathrobes and towels in some select rooms. If you don't feel like going out to eat, you can always opt for the delicious dining options at the motel. A night in at the motel's nightclub can be as fun as a night out with your travel companions. Recreational facilities at Take advantage of the opportunity to explore Cheongju-si while in the city. Grab some food before venturing out in Cheongju-si...
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K water IWRM Capacity-building for PH Water Sector 2024
I was initially listed for K water Academy’s eighteen-day Integrated Water Resources Management (IWRM) Working-level Training Course, but my boss decided that I join K water Academy’s seven-day IWRM High-level Training for Decision Makers/ Managers…
To be honest, I was a bit disappointed that I’ll be in [South] Korea for only seven (7) days, instead of eighteen (18) days. I also felt I was going to be OP (out-of-place) because people who attended this course are managers or directors who are much older than...And this it turned out that I was the only one who is younger than forty (40) years old in this training batch!
But my initial assumption was wrong. This was great learning experience for me! Not only did I learn a lot from the Koreans, but I also learned a lot from my fellow delegates who most have been working in the government before I was even born… And surprisingly they’re all super fun to be with. I genuinely enjoyed their company.
I’m so thank full to God for this experience.
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