#chat am i doomed?

[jen-with-a-pen]

hmmm yeah give me another enhanced fictional man who's older than me and has the most tortured and horrible backstory but is also a self-sacrificing asshole who doesn't take shit but also the biggest fucking teddy bear imaginable. make him suffer and fuckable with some sort of metal appendage(s) for a weapon and insane healing factor. to go. extra fries. send post.

[scaredforboomboom]

joost klein the type of mfer that will absolutely steal your man at the club holy shit ✨✨✨✨✨

[xxplastic-cubexx]

wait you’re telling me that you’re that one minedai artist?!?!?! you rlly liked ur doomed yaoi huh………..

the paths are finally converging its like a fucked up version of subspace emissary in my inbox

[professional-d]

A scolding.

[bread-wizards]

Me with Imodna

[wrecklesspp]

Hay gays mb for the absolute 0 posts in the span of a little days, its ok tho im hoping during summer ill relapse my addiction to pw and ill get back soon to drawing 😀

[annoyingcat413]

I got a friend who took an interest in me and I became interested in her after she talked to me, she’s shorter than me, writes things really beautifully, is more social than me

Me: omg this is so johnlock coded

[mohntilyet]

born for a unsaid slowburn romance forced to pick heart options to make the game code flag it

[sinister-sunray]

fandom should be More insane about daisira and smokey eyes. I am just saying

[aaauwiaiauuakaa]

Fk romantic attraction ,, ever loved zome1 zm you literally feel zmth in ur chezt/wtv everytime u talk/chat with them in a non-romantic way . . :3

[drinsomnbot]

SUGGESTIVE WARNING FOR ONE DRAWING ONLY??

chat, i don't have TTCC content but, i do have this!! which i think i was planning to post to my Twitter but forgot to

[wtchgrrl]

the mental/emotional whiplash of learning that certain things that happened in my childhood weren’t actually normal is insane.

like. oh, you’re not supposed to grow boobs at eight years old? people usually don’t get their first stretch marks during kindergarten? having so much thick body hair (not just on the legs) at like ten years old that it distracts you during class isn’t just the average latina experience?

like. chat am i abnormal

[opt1mistic]

i have a 10k word essay due tomorrow morning and i don’t even have half of it done… :(

[bombuni]

this is gonna sound psychotic but that endearing soft feeling u get from hearing kittens or puppies breaths is the same feeling i get when i hear jongho laughing

[exposed-circuits]

TW: vent, talk of sexual encounters, mentions of dissociation, vaguely explicit (?), uhhh idk what else????

the hoes dont fw my inability to say no to sexual encounters :P

they ask and insist its fine if we don’t do anything but there’s that unspoken feeling that they’ll be disappointed or annoyed if we don’t. or they don’t ask and assume i’ll tell them to stop if they do something uncomfortable (hello hand on my chest. what are you doing here). but i won’t because i don’t have a sense of my body or emotions until much later (hellooo dissociation) whoopsieeee 😋😋😋

there’s a weird phenomenon i assume has to do with my asexuality/low sex drive where i go into sexual encounters assuming i won’t necessarily be up in arms going “yippeeee! yahooo! huzzah!” because my brain is Built Different so i will dismiss feelings of apprehension or lack of enjoyment as “oh thats just what sex is like for a freak like me so i gotta cope for the other person cause im already here so might as well!” which usually ends in me vaguely dissociated (ruh roh) but can you blame a hoe? im committing to the bit of promiscuity here.

anyways what makes this high key asinine is the fact that it is 100% my fault when i walk away from a sexual encounter feeling disgusting and shitty because THEY didn’t do anything wrong (i even was like “hey. wanna grind up on my thigh so we can get this over with.” how do you not fw the activity you chose dumbass 🙄🙄🙄). it’s not their fault i am too much of a creep, weirdo, what the hell am i doing here etc. to properly voice myself.

nonetheless i WILL feel disgusted with the other person because they are a freak and a weirdo for even wanting sex and if they were simply Built Different like i am, none of this would have happened. but i believe this is (and let me check my dictionary here) coping with failure! and having to hug her after that whole ordeal was shall i say vomit inducing 🤭

but again. not her fault. i consented. i have consented in everything i can remember. granted sometimes its right after they say they’re suicidal so wtf am i supposed to do not let them spoon me? i was their gay awakening i made this mf suicidal (whoopsieeee)! and then this other time that person constantly had me wondering if they were going to commit suicide (why is there a streak here what the scallop? where’s the low empathy when you need it tf). but every other time has been normal (btw m&m if ur reading this dont worry u never wigged me out cause i felt in control of any and all situations with u. u too antlers the handjob was simply so casual i locked in.) so there really should be no reason for me to be wigged out this much but alas.

also fuck these fake ass catholics who don’t perform a stress induced communion due to insatiable catholic guilt after experiencing a vaguely sexual encounter. yall fakers you cant just love jesus and love sex- what are you protestant?

[cookiesandbiscuits]

Today is the day... That the long test for our subject Civil Engineering Orientation will commence.

Good luck to me, I guess...