#character study? lowkey

[turtletoria]

i wanted to try drawing older Mabel and Dipper !

[scribblenator]

got your heart in a psyche-lock

[darby-rowe]

18+ | nsfw | mdni

cw self hatred while masturbating, post-nut clarity’s a bitch, descriptions of female genitalia

thinking about horny, hormonal, desperate academy!coryo who humps his hard cock into his bed every night because he physically can’t sleep without getting his dirty thoughts out of his head.

having to cover his mouth to repress his groans and whimpers as to not wake his dear cousin and grandmother. there are some nights where it feels too good not to moan, and so he shoves his face into his pillow to audibly release his frustrations.

he tells himself that he’s not interested in the capitol girls. that they don’t ever cross his mind. but his stupid teenage boy brain can’t help itself from wondering what’s beneath their uniforms. his mind can’t seem to forget the smell of their shampoo and perfume. they cloud his nightly thoughts as he ruts against his bedsheets. thinking of how sweet their pussies must taste on his tongue, or how tight they would fit around his hard, throbbing cock.

but he hated himself for wasting his energy on thinking such lewd thoughts. he could be focusing his mental capacity on more useful fantasies, like his plan for after graduating the academy. his career path. but no. here he was, humping and fisting his cock to thoughts of pretty girls. his classmates, even professor click showed up in his mind. and how she was just so, so nice to him.

and when he came, he came with a pathetic whine muffled by his pillow, his cock spurting his thick, sticky load along with his naughty, filthy thoughts.

and when he looked down at the mess he made, he felt disgusted. guilty. and even selfish for indulging in the sin of lust. tears softly fell from his baby blue eyes as he cleaned up his filth and got ready for bed.

stupid boy. stupid, pathetic boy.

[kevindavidday]

i love that neil considers jean as part of the family he wants to protect. i will elaborate this time because

if you think about it, neil spent book 1 trying his best not to build a connection, book 2 trying to break down the walls ending with confirming from nicky if they were friends, and every second after that deliberately doing whatever was in his goddamn power to keep these people safe and happy. going to edens for andrew, keeping the truth from them, getting the letter back for kevin, reminding kevin that he owes jean a conversation after all that's happened, fixing the twins' relationship, spending time with them even though he knew he would leave. in his mind, what he was doing was selfish because he was going to die soon and they didn't even know it.

he doesn't die, though and he comes back with even MORE fight in him than before. he meets his uncle once and although his mother hadn't wanted him to be involved in one gang after another, he doesn't give a single flying fuck. the hatford's existence is just another resource for him, a way to hurt those who have hurt his family. stuart already killed his father, so what's it matter if there's a few more - protecting him means protecting his family. if the fbi had any clue about the power neil actually holds over the hatford's they would all willingly eat their hats tbh.

so the first thing he does when he sees his uncle again? despite knowing that ichirou is close-by? he tells him to kill proust.

hell, even the moriyama's are nothing to this man if i'm being honest. he isn't afraid of them, he knew the rarity of ichirou's visits which made him wary when he got into the car to talk about bargaining their lives and i truly do believe ichirou moriyama was fucking relieved neil didn't ask for more than that. there is that strange, dead look in his eyes that he's inherited from his father which unnerves the fuck out of everyone who doesn't know him. and when he bargained for his life and kevin's, he remembered jean too.

which is fucking insane. he spent only winter break with jean moreau, ONLY. i know there's extra days at the nest, but i'd kill to know what happened between jean and neil during that time for neil to have such unflinching loyalty towards his 'forever partner'. i want to know their conversations, i want to know what they suffered through together.

and the casual way in which jean dropped the news about grayson to neil, after hiding it away from everyone for so long. he admitted the truth to neil straight up, like of course neil should know, it's neil. jean's mind is still haywired to remember him too even though they were only together for a few weeks!!!

what is it about them?

and then the entire time otw to the diner, neil's plotting again. he's scheming. he's thinking. and he knows what to do. and its asking for local work because fuck anyone who has ever hurt his family. he literally only ever needs a fucking name, bro. 'my first memories are of people dying.' i think we can tell...

wymack saw that leadership potential and made him vice captain. god bless neil only cares about playing exy because if he had even a second more interest in crime he would've floored everyone. i can see it so clearly.

anyway, hope he takes a hit out on tetsuji moriyama next 🙏

[thelilylav]

Dizzie definitely had someone on their side in the animation department cause I did not think I’d find scenes of these two outside their webisode😭

[namelessprayers]

mel medarda is flesh and blood born of the sun, light melded into the intricate fabric of her being like both a magnet and repellent to all of existence; but mel medarda, the glow of progress instilled in her every breathe, sits upon a throne of bones and ashes amongst a council of fools. so she is contradictory, both perfection and flaw, and viktor would gladly pick her brain in the name of progress if she wasn't half the marketing of their city in its glorious evolution.

there is a secret in her artful words. there is a message in her quiet empathy and unshakeable distrust. although it is true that the world is full of sensitive and isolated people, all broken by the thousands, viktor would never guess that such kindred pieces of pain would be found in an individual so elevated beyond himself. he thinks that perfection must escape this universe and the next; for if mel medarda cannot find what she is searching for in a world that seems to bend and kneel at her coy decrees, then what can viktor possible hope to achieve as a dead man walking?

======

foxes and wolves, those aligned and those opposed, good until proven bad and bad until proven good.

viktor, nameless and unacknowledged.

he strays in the shadows, and mel always wonders if he knows how it feels to be touched by the light, if he even knows that he is allowed to walk into it willingly. she does not pity him because he does not pity her. they are not pitiful creatures, and sometimes, it is strange that they are able to recognize even that much in each other.

then the medarda visits unwelcome, the one mel heeds as mother in the way only a lonely daughter could. viktor has been dying from the start, and mel feels some part of jayce die too (and somewhere within she is being strung along in that silent shroud of death).

it is always cold in beds with restless sleepers. it is always cold wherever mel goes, and she wonders if viktor is cold now that he is on the brink of dying. it is a contrived, pointless thought.

she is still cold when the roses take her, black and shriveled and sporting thorns that feel like ice injected straight through her blood.

elora must be cold now. this kino, not her brother, is cold to touch. mel medarda briefly hopes that it will be warm when she returns, but piltover runs cold in both the people and the land.

she knows this because caitlyn kiramman ran cold. she knows this because her mother touched the city and stole its softest light. she knows this because jayce talis ran warm, but he was also tainted by the allure of progress and the man who mel now understands to have always been cold even while alive.

mel stops hoping for warmth and stops asking if it is cold even in the darkest places where the light isn't a blinding force of destruction.

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to understand is separate from feeling. viktor understands the cold, but he no longer feels it. viktor understands jayce talis, but he no longer knows the feeling that sits between them. viktor understands the arcane, but he cannot feel it the way that mel medarda does in every fiber of her being. these are the last of the unprecedented revelations he has before everything in his comprehension unravels by the light of his glorious hubris.

perfection does not exist. mel medarda was always proof of that, and viktor thinks he ignored the sign in light of his own imperfect feeling. he could not burn to death before the sun because he was already burning from the start, like a star, trudging through its eternal cycle of death and rebirth. it must be another error of the universe that two people with so much in common were linked by a fragile strand of one man and a contradictory means of dreaming; progress, pursuit, and the ruins of a city that aimed to grasp it.

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the ocean is cold. the ship is cold. it does not matter where, it is cold.

mel medarda imagines the city left behind is still cold, and she imagines that where she is going will be cold.

yet, her hands are warm and her eyes burn without tears. the imprint of magic, the swell of the arcane, is true light. she thinks of jayce talis, gone like the stars that die, but will inevitably come back. she knows that after all, viktor was a light of his own, perished like the moon.

neither stars nor moon ever care for the sun. they'll leave, abandon the universe, and mel will remain because otherwise it will all burn with her.

mel's mother always wanted too much, and now, mel is everything; fox, wolf, aligned and opposing, both good and bad until otherwise.

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a blanket more light than warmth. a journey more ends than beginning. a golden tattoo more protection than aesthetic. the scientist, the martyr; the victor, the loser; the lady, the same. viktor has failed to do good. there is nothing more to be retrieved, no greatness to be salvaged in the wake of his failure. they all take the same road, drifting away from the wreck, across the expanse of the cosmos or to the shores of another cold nation. but he knows that he has lost without exception. viktor has no ability to lose again, and for that, he apologizes for the first and last time to mel medarda.

[booplesnotts-art]

Recent Avalon doodles

(Because she’s all I’ve been thinking about lately)

Mya character stuff- here’s my mean French woman because I don’t post oc stuff here very often and she’s my favourite oc atm

(Ft. Connie)

[astrumnoceur]

I think horikoshi has absolutely zero knowledge about how abuse works. or frankly human psychology in general. maybe don’t use child abuse as your flimsy plot device for drama if you literally don’t understand it bro

[aaxzlyte]

i'm not sure i'll ever finish the wip i have where Near has a white cat named Jetfire

[starrysharks]

In one post you mention that you needed to make designs for wrath and gluttony (if I read it correctly I think they’re supposed to be parts of the assassins) and I was wondering who are the other deadly sins? (If the answer doesn’t contain spoilers that is, if it does then ig I’ll ask who’s your favorite assassin to draw so this ask isn’t mostly useless)

so there are 7 deadly sins in total, all ranked from least to most formidable/powerful/prolific/etc -

7. vivica de la crux aka envy

6. needles of the church (+ pins) aka sloth

5. dice demonné aka greed

4. lunette strikewhite aka pride

3. V.A. angel aka lust

2. gluttony

1. wrath

you'll notice that dice demonné hasn't been mentioned yet until this point! he's not a spoiler unlike the last two assassins (who are between designs, i've even been considering rebooting their concepts entirely or swapping around their ranking). he's one of the more lighthearted assassins so his sin is expressed pretty literally through a casino, where he's the high roller who makes and wins crazy bets and puts people into bankruptcy!

but, by day, he acts as a priest for the church, who has the same people he cheated the night before come to him confessing their sins and asking for forgiveness. he basically says "pay a tithe and god will forgive you" - when they can't pay any longer, he has them killed. usually it's enemies of the organisation who get put in this trap. (or sometimes in the middle of a game, he'll get pissed and have people killed regardless. witnesses are just given hush money.)

he has a cane to defend himself, but doesn't really fight on his own - he has his two sidekicks to fight for him, just like how needles has pins. (ignore how i forgot to draw kimberly's gun.....) they're nuns by day and casino girls at night!

(and my fav assassin to draw is probably vivica, though i have fun with all of them equally!)

[cak31scake]

Barbie movie fanart dump 4/4(END)- Misc

[unwritten--writer]

I feel like we need to talk about 12x23 because it is stuck in my head and it ✨️hurts✨️

"I'd love to chat with you, but uh-- why waste my time, right? It's not like you matter. I don't need to put on the old Sam suit anymore, do I?"

LOOK AT HIS FACE WHEN LUCIFER SAYS THIS~~

Because since first freeing Lucifer, the devil has needed him-- wanted him. As a vessel, as a companion in the cage, as a means to an end. Sam was needed by the devil one way or another, and after his trauma in the cage, it was the only constant.

And then... Lucifer doesn't need him anymore. He has a son on the way; he has a vessel that can hold him; he has no use for Sam-- and whether Sam can admit it or not, it hurts.

He's unneeded, unwanted, and Sam hates how much those simple words get to him because he shouldn't care, he shouldn't want Lucifers attention.

But he spent a lifetime alone with Lucifer, being the devil's sole focus, and he can't just ignore that like Lucifer can.

[the-hot-zone]

the imagery and audio of the opening scene of s1e1 of arcane is just insanely well done for the set-up of the show’s themes and central conflicts. this is just a quick analysis (that spiraled) of what i notice as i’m re-watching, but—

a) the POV of “jinx” with the scribbles overlaying the aftermath of destruction and devastation lay the groundwork for not only what represents her POV to us, the audience, but also to where it originates. this is one of the first things we see in e1: the scribbled faces appear on the enforcers and on the dead bodies even as powder herself has her eyes covered. the echoes of violence reach her even as she tries not to look. retrospectively, we are meant to notice how "jinx" was already forming years before she started “jinxing” jobs with vi and the gang—the violence of her circumstances and the impact they have on her as a child played a key role in what the show calls her "instability," in what we understand as her development. her scribbled vision is first associated with violence done to her and those around her before it is associated with her later choices, which arguably can be rooted in her circumstances (more on this later). this is central to what arcane as a show wants to establish wrt their commentary on violence as a cycle and consequences that cannot be undone regardless of one's actions.

b) the most striking imagery to me: blood running down the faces of the statues on the bridge between piltover and the undercity, being made to look as though they are crying. the bridge is a key piece of imagery introduced in this opening sequence that arcane returns to throughout later eps. the expression of these statues is still, solemn, and silent. they are guardians of the bridge between piltover and the rest of the city. the tears of blood, however, have moved the unmovable. this can be interpreted in a couple ways, but here's mine. the blood as tears represents the ongoing mourning for those lost to violence. vander's resistance failed in multiple ways in that it did not end piltover's rule over the undercity, nor did it save those who fought in the resistance. moreover, this bridge is revisited in e2, and we see the bloodstains never left. they cannot be washed away; the memorial to those who were lost—vi’s parents—remain, and we see vander ask vi if she’s willing to lose powder to a war, just like she lost her parents. later on in the ep when vi approaches deckard, a drop of blood runs down her face like a tear. she, too, steps into the role (or tries to), as a stone-faced guardian, but violence moves her. particularly, it moves her out of powder's life, contributing to jinx's development.

c) when vi is about to cry, it looks like she’s holding herself back before she breaks down, and only then does powder also cry. there are a couple subtle moments throughout this first scene that express the extent to which powder revolves around vi, and this is one of them. powder takes her cues from vi: just minutes ago in the scene, powder only looks at the bodies because vi stopped. so we have this interpersonal level of reliance between these two, but the show doesn't want us to forget where the cues for vi come from. powder looked because vi stopped. vi stopped because the devastation around her made her stop.

d) throughout this scene, music is the dominant auditory experience. however, there is one sound that breaks through the music: the weight of vander’s gauntlets dropping to the ground. the break in the music is meant to express the weight of this decision. it's the only sound of an action that reaches the viewer as he throws the gauntlets down in favor of picking up the responsibility of vi and powder. with this action, he attempts to abandon his cause in hopes to protect vi and powder,

e) but vi looks back. we see her glare back across the bridge towards piltover, her eyes narrowed, and we understand that a key part of her character will be resistance. and to cross that bridge, she must put on vander’s gauntlets. we see her try to embrace this legacy throughout the first ep and beyond—“this is the exact job vander would’ve pulled when he was our age” is what vi says to her friends when on that first job to steal from jayce's workshop. and throughout the first few eps we see vander’s legacy called into question, with a focus on his legacy of resistance against piltover. that's the legacy those around him prefer, including vi herself. but it’s also a legacy he’s rejected in favor of another: his work to protect the lanes through non-violent means. silco’s later criticism of “you’re willing to die for a cause but not fight for it” towards vander perfectly encapsulates vander’s decision to put the gauntlets down, and why he still fails to prevent violence, particularly against vi and powder.

overall: the opening sequence is vital for establishing the link between vi's and powder's relationship and the violence enacted against the underground by piltover. the show's theme expresses that the former would not exist without the latter. the tragedy of jinx isn't just an interpersonal tragedy. it's a circumstantial one. it's an environmental one. it's a societal one. remember: mylo first drops the name jinx when he says powder jinxes every job. but there wouldn’t be any jobs to do--the coins coming into the lanes wouldn't be "only from crime"--without the violence piltover has enacted against the undercity.

there’s a lot of pain in asking ourselves the “if only’s” of these first few episodes. but if the alternative for powder killing claggor and mylo was for her to come on the mission to save vander anyways, to fight anyways, then there was never a choice. when powder says, “I’m not a fighter,” and vi responds, “you don’t have to be,” vi fails to understand the consequences violence has already had on her sister. in powder's mind, you don't have to fight translates as you don't belong here. the only way powder knows how to help is to fight--it's what vi (and everyone around her) taught her, even inadvertently. the show tells us that there was never a real choice in any part of this sequence. the real legacy was the violence topside enacted and continues to enact against the underground. what prevents vi from coming back to powder is ultimately marcus, regardless of his motivations.

what the opening sequence, and those first three eps, tell us about the show’s defining conflict is this. in a system built on inequity, its defining characteristic will always be violence, and whether those subjected to that violence try to fight it, live within it, or take advantage of it, the consequences cannot be undone. there is no going back.

[astralvampz]

he's my fav

[digimon--kaiser]

People (me) don't want P5T they want

They want

Does this. Make any sense. Does it describe what i want

[eightspringdays]

lmao someone said that dan da dan doesn't have enough material for bl ships because yujinobu tatsu actually knows how to write female characters since he was told to read a lot of shoujo to understand how to do it. and that ohba should follow the same example instead of inserting incel messages in his mangas because he got upset people shipped his male characters together

and honestly? yeah. also i think the editor helps A LOT, since ddd's editor is the same editor of fujimoto's chainsaw man and tatsuda's spyxfamily.

despite what men with zero comprehensive skills say, I do believe fujimoto's female characters are well written and key parts of the plot considering more than half of the cast in csm is female and the most powerful characters too. ohba could NEVER write an Asa Mitaka. NEVER. She's the embodiment of a female teenager who's very implied to be neurodivergent. Asa Mitaka is by far one of the best female characters written by a man in shounen. If Denji is relatable for men, Asa is for women. And I don't fucking understand how fujimoto DID THAT. he understands women more than I do.

I think the case of Fujimoto's female characters and his incredible understanding of girlhood is because he consumes a lot of media with different portrays of women. Fujimoto's great love for movies may be the thing that helps him a lot. Also the fact that ROLEPLAYING AS HIS NONEXISTENT LIL SISTER IN TWITTER may help too. and that he wants women to step on him. I will never stop talking about Fujimoto because part of me HATES him and part of me deeply admires him. I just want to open his brain and see how it works because I want mine to be like that tOo

Also. God I fucking hate ohba. Hope his pillow is always warm and his coffee always tastes like burnt playdough