#ccckk

[hekatekun]

ccckk ch5. excerpt below:

It's as if the magic was never there in the first place. Did you mess up? Where? How? Why? Are you gonna get another chance? When's that gonna happen? Does Totoko-chan not like you? “Hold your face up. I'm almost done.” She starts applying pressure to your lips, humming some half-remembered nursery rhyme. Well, if she didn't like you at least a little bit, you two wouldn't be sitting here like this, right? Yeah, right? Right? At the thought, your face goes supernova beneath layers of pore-clogging gunk. If it was just this forever, and you got to stick your dick in it, that might be the closest to heaven on earth.

[moeatsushi]

[johannesviii]

Anachrophobia

Some highlights of the last EDA I’ve read (Anachrophobia).

I took these screens while reading, along with my reactions. As usual, this is full of spoilers. And screaming.

I’m glad this book is over.

Some of you might already know that if you want to really f█cking scare me, you have to go as abstract as possible. This is why I’m such a big fan of Cube, and even Cube², its terrible sequel with terrible, terrible CGI, which gets even more abstract and surreal than the first one. What happened? How did the characters end up there? How does it work? Are they even on Earth? We don’t really know. We do know, however, that if they don’t get out of the Cube as soon as possible, they’re all going to die.

Similarly: what really happened in Anachrophobia? Were Eight, Fitz and Anji really on another planet? Was it even real? Who are the clock people possessing everyone? We don’t really know. I do know, however, that at some point, I was so scared to read the last 50 pages of this thing that it took me two weeks to pick it up again.

Does it really deserve such a high note? I don’t know. I might come back later and change it. I’m not sure. I’m too busy being scared shitless. 9,5/10

WE’RE OFF TO A GOOD START, I SEE.

Well, this is an EDA, dude.

Oh, they are fighting a literal “Time War”! This has potential.

This shouldn’t be so cool.

Meanwhile, poor Fitz isn’t very good at playing chess and I’m laughing.

Excuse me I love that room

That’s the weirdest time travel explanation I’ve ever seen and there’s quite a lot of them in this series.

Try to keep up, Anji.

Hoping it's better than a certain other Narnia-like episode seriously am I the only one who hates The Doctor, the Widow and the Wardrobe

Try to keep up too, Fitz.

Eight no

That kind of reminds me of Longest Day.

Eight oh my god

OKAY WHAT’S GOING ON IN THIS F█CKING WORLD

DOCTOR THIS IS A BAD IDEA

EVERY TIME YOU TRIED TO PRETEND YOU WERE AN EXPERT SOMEONE WAS WAITING FOR, IT ENDED BADLY. ESPECIALLY IN DARK PROGENY.

“And the man yelping in pain is Fitz”

Holy shit

This is an excellent idea!

Okay so this world is, like, capitalism on steroids

IT’S BEEN GOING ON FOR 400 YEARS EXCUSE ME

ANJI SDSDFGHJKIH YOU COULD HAVE WARNED HIM

Well at least Anji is keeping up

How much do you wanna bet that the opposite side is doing the same shit?

Okay now I’m starting to panic too

This is peak Eight right there

SAVE THEM

Why is this so f█cking stressful

THIS IS SCARY, STOP

Roll credits!

So Anachrophobia isn’t a phobia per se, more like a neurological trauma?

MhhhhhMMMMMMH NOPE

“I have some rather unsettling ideas”

You mean more unsettling than what is currently happening?

WHO. AM. IIIIIIIIIIIIII

Okay this is even worse

Eight please try to focus

Why is this book so scary

BAD IDEA

None of this is okay and this book needs to stop, which really concerns me because there’s more than 170 pages left.

Are.... are you hoping to spy on him too

So even after losing a heart, he doesn't need to sleep more. Interesting.

Holy f█cking shit

On the other hand, this is cute.

Ok ok honestly, fuck abstract horror, give me some gory bullshit over this any day, I’m going to have nightmares about this, I swear.

Also friendly reminder that this world is terrifying.

“Or out” oh no

Bad idea Doctor

BAD IDEA FITZ

Oh wow, that happened way sooner than I expected.

Fitz being an anxious little shit as usual, but really, who can blame him in that situation?

THIS IS ONLY PAGE 77, HOW CAN IT GET ANY WORSE

FFFffffffFFFFffFffffFFfF

GET THEM OUT OF HERE

Go Anji!

Can't they breathe for two seconds

Hey, some typical Eight echolalia, it’s been a while!

You idiots I love you

Hello Mr Mistletoe. You have a very silly name.

sdfghgfdsdfghj Eight no

The only weird thing about him so far is his name.

Oh no, what a pity, uh?

This is getting rather complicated.

NOPE nope no nu-uh no

N O P E

More echolalia!

I laughed

I’m so sorry for Anji though

ALL ABOARD THE NOPE TRAIN TO NOPEVILLE

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOPE

Eight speaks fluent sarcasm but can't recognise it when other people use it and that’s extremely relatable

“Clocky” asdfgfdsdfg

Okay

Can I breathe now

Apparently not

Please don’t come any closer to that thing, this is very bad for my nerves

Okay.... now this is weird.

GOOD

Well this is abstractly horrible, thank you very much for that.

Poor Fitz isn’t going to get a nice rest in this adventure either

Well, you gotta stay positive, right.

Also you gotta learn to enjoy the small victories, right.

“I’ve been wrong before”

You don’t say

WELL, YOU SPOKE TOO SOON

Nice.

This is also nice.

On the other hand, this sounds extremely ominous. Is the war not really a war, but something else entirely?

Is... is it because that’s good for business?

That’s it, isn’t it?

How... how do you beat something that can rewind time? I’m sure there’s a way, but at the moment I’m too busy being scared to think of any clever solution.

I... I need a pause.

Usually, “base under siege” stories do nothing for me, but that one has a terrifying abstract menace, and that changes everything.

I’m back from my pause!

And we’re straight back into the scary!

I swear, this liveblog’s notes are 60% “nope” and I’m struggling to find new ways to express how hard I’m nope-ing

What ARE those things?

More importantly: do I even want to know?

Too soon.

Okay, now this is interesting. Because Fitz’s most traumatizing “life milestone” happened to the original Fitz, not our current Fitz. Would he be able to change the events from Interference? I’m not sure.

If he couldn’t change them or anything that happened before the “birth” of his current self, what else would he change? I’m curious.

I F█CKING KNEW IT. THEY MAKE THE WAR LAST FOREVER FOR PROFIT.

Have I mentioned recently that I love Anji

Because I love Anji

Also excuse me but why and how is Mistletoe still alive?

Why are you coughing?

Is it the heart loss? Is it something new? Am I being paranoid?

Awwww

Oh my god so that’s what he would change.

I have no words.

That is an interesting possibility, honestly.

How... how desesperate must Eight be if he’s seriously starting to consider gasing the whole station?

Ooooooh. Okay. That’s how you get rid of something that rewinds time!

This is very clever!

This is also horrible!

Thanks!

“Can I just shoot him now?” “No.”

Wait.

WAIT.

WAIT WAIT WAIT.

ARE YOU SABBATH

THAT WOULD MAKE SO MUCH SENSE

At this point I’m so scared I kinda want to cry

This book is like a collection of all the scariest things possible for me

I’d say “I can’t wait for this character to die” but if he’s Sabbath that’s gonna be a bit more difficult.

“I think things are going to get nasty”

IMPLYING THEY AREN'T ALREADY?

He’s way too happy about this very disturbing situation.

F█CcCkK

Please make it stop

Okay!

All right! Okay! Good!

But there’s 60 pages left!

That’s somehow more terrifying than everything so far!

I’m fine, I’m fine I’m fine

Have I ever told you that I really like the “Hurt & Comfort” trope

You cute idiots.

FffFffygtfghgfcyuCk

I need a break from this book.

Two entire weeks later, I’m picking this book up again.

And a weird roadtrip has started. And this is pretty funny.

No, we’re not. Ask again in three hours, Fitz.

Oh. I was way off.

As if they didn't have enough problems already.

In case you’re wondering, yes, I’m screening all the scenes where Eight goes into echolalia mode because it’s relatable.

This NOPE juice is delicious.

Poor guy, though.

No they’re not, are they?

Make it stop, I kinda feel sick

“More than anything, she wanted not to feel terrified”

F█CKIN’ SAME

They... they’re all already clock people, right?

I’m scared and I’m crying a little bit

I didn’t think the author would go that far

Clearly I was wrong

THAT’S

THAT’S AN EXTREMELY SPECIFIC FEATURE OF A LOT OF MY NIGHTMARES

A PLACE WHICH LOOKS LIKE IT SHOULD BE OUTSIDE, BUT WHICH IS ENTIRELY INDOORS BECAUSE IT’S IN A GIGANTIC CHAMBER OF SORTS

THIS IS EXTREMELY SPECIFIC

WHO ARE YOU AND WHO GAVE YOU FREE ACCESS TO ROUGHLY 17 YEARS OF MY PERSONAL NIGHTMARES

Ah, yes, great, please add more nightmares to the nightmares

That was predictable, actually.

This is Time Works all over again.

Please tell me the plutocratic empire doesn't even exist anymore.

I knew it.

Also that basically makes these things Capitalismisators 2000.

Oh. So they just wanted to get clear instructions.

AHSDFGHJKJHGFDERTYUHGB

Okay. Okay. He can control it. Good.

This book really needs to stop giving me fresh ideas for nightmares.

He won’t change anything anyway.

Wait. Will he?

Good.

Honestly, I'm pretty sure he'd unmake the entire Earth arc if he could.

“He’s having some sort of nightmare”

AREN’T WE ALL

How can they solve this in 13 pages??

WAIT

WAIT I HAVE AN IDEA

WHAT IF HE UNMAKES A THING WHICH HAS NO IMPACT ON ANYTHING THAT HAPPENED SO FAR, BUT HAS AN IMPACT ON THEIR FUTURE

What............. what is he doing

HOLY SHIT WHAT THE F█CK

BUT

But that’s a paradox, surely?

It worked??

Wait, is that why he suddenly felt really ill right after the mustard gas plan succeeded? Because that’s the point where he went back to kill himself?

So it didn’t change anything, did it?

I KNEW IT. I KNEW IT.

Wait, who are his associates?

THAT'S HOW IT F█CKING ENDS

ARE YOU KIDDING ME

If you wanted me to read the next book straight away, good job, though.

[sticks9875]

You ever feel... off

Useless, empty, changed in a way that makes you question yourself in a way that.... just... makes you only want to think about what made you this way... it’s something that has happened to me, strangely enough It was while I watching some scp videos (secure, contain, Proctect, scp foundation) in particular scp-1762, here be dragons .... it just made me... think... I probably looked to deep into it and was reading up some theory’s about that scp... it... saddened but at the same time made me think, what I was doing, what I was becoming... what I will lose from age.... it still makes me think, question, wonder... but in the end I come to the sole conclusion to my questions on this .... ffff*****ccckk iiiiitttt, I want to be a kid forever (even though im old as f*ck)

[witcrafting]

They're baaaa-ccckk!! Anyone who knows me, knows I've been obsessed with dragonflies since I was a little girl- even though my grandmother used to tell me they wouldnsew your mouth closed if they heard you lie. 😂Not only are they the most vivacious hunters with unbelievably accurate precision, their prehistoric look fascinates me. These warriors are my totem animal, symbolizing adaptation, power, transformation and courage. I'm blessed my back yard gets filled with swarms of them throughout the summer. I anxiously await their hatching and it made my day to see them arriving. #dragonfly #symbolism #spiritualjourney #warrior #transformation https://www.instagram.com/p/CPWgnntrp5V/?utm_medium=tumblr

[ua-monoma]

Fuc ccckk Poor mono, not only he's thrown like a ragdoll, but Shiggy will deck him and he'll suffer and it's not fair I just,,, want him to be happy. I'm gonna fight you behind Wendy's parking lot for that, ricky... -nobu

[[ please do i BEG to be punished for my sins against monoma… ]]

[transebs]

I wah wha ccckk wah ‘distress about your birth gender is one way’ bro that is he only way??

Like if you aren’t distressed that you’re in the wrong body you kinda aren’t trans??

Sorry to break it to you??

You don’t just suddenly go ‘I’m wearing this men’s t-shirt and it feels right - IM TRANS!

Cause there is nothing to motivate you to put on that t shirt

what some people think “you don’t need dysphoria to be trans” means: anyone can choose to be trans and trans people can just choose to be cis.

what “you don’t need dysphoria to be trans” actually means: trans experiences are extremely varied and trans people define dysphoria in multiple valid ways. there are multiple valid ways to be trans other than the “true transsexual” narrative popularized by cis people. distress about your birth assigned gender or sex characteristics is one way to be trans. discovering that you suddenly feel more authentic when living as a new gender, after no discernable distress that you’d call dysphoria, is another. if your gender is different from the one you were assigned at birth, you can call yourself trans.

[hekatekun]

whatever fucking oxycodone they put me on after surgery today got me finally posting ch4. make sure to like and comment and subscribe and question and fear and avoid and submit and commit and reblog for the bit. an excerpt:

Satisfied, absolved of any responsibility, you finish setting the bait on your hook before casting it back into the pond. Karamatsu sits next to you in either actual silence or you’ve finally perfected tuning him out - you’re pretty sure it’s the former though since you’re never that lucky, not if he really wanted your attention. A familial pair of voices quickly break the tranquility in a familiar manner. Choromatsu, who raises his hand, “Choromatsu and…” Jyushimatsu, who raises his hand, “Jyushimatsu’s…” In unison, “ …delivery skit!!” “Aesop’s Fables that aren’t actually Aesop’s Fables!” Choromatsu delivers the title card.

[moeatsushi]

ccckk is a required reading in atsutodology class

[satsumascribbles]

Me: finally, I've got enough money for That Thing I've been wanting!

Favorite artist: *opens commissions*

Me: .......hE cCCkk.....

[hekatekun]

some visual gag ideas that didnt make the cut for ch4 of ccckk

[hekatekun]

sharing yet another snippet from the next chapter of astd fic in honor of todomatty being the #1 failboy<3

[hekatekun]

wip wednesday time to share ch4 intro of atsutodo fic 👍

[hekatekun]

wip wednesday

some tidbits crumbs and notes I left myself awhile back for when I'd start sincerely working on ch6 of ccckk

[hekatekun]

I'm gonna throw up

[hekatekun]

wip wednesday or as i like to call it thursday night

i was procrastinating so hard i forgot i was supposed to be procrastinating by sharing the only ch5 ccckk wips im gonna allow myself to post bc im soooooo fucking excited for this chapter you have no idea

pretty sure i shared a bit of this already forever ago but i couldnt find it so i mustve not tagged it. for context there were exactly 3 things i wrote in the first month of posting ccckk back in early 2021: the first chapter, the final scene of the final chapter, and todomatty jackoff scene. so. im very excited.