#cause my being born made her life so hard etc etc

[dipyronegirl]

thinking (and rewatching..) inside job again and i dont think rand is that bad of a father? i mean, he made a lot of mistakes and he doesn’t even feel bad ab it, even tho he traumatized reagan and a lot, but he was never absent. he acts like he cared ab reagan’s career just bc it could help his career, but that’s not true. he pushes her to be the best all the time and it’s bad, but he genuinely cares ab her so much. and the whole ‘creating crises to force her to hang out w him’ thing is fucked up, but it’s cute that he just wants to hang out w her that bad. most fathers literally don’t care enough ab their kids to do any of that. most fathers don’t even know their kids as much as he knows her. maybe my standards are just insanely low, probably, but he’s a better parent than 90% of the parents i know

[naychuchu]

Louis headcanons

a/n: when i made this this was more of a modern au version of headcanons. also i wrote this in mind with a black female reader but anyone can read. there’s like a mention of having a period and wearing makeup. also i did NOT intend to make the family life section so long, srry. not proofread, MUAH

gotta feed yall during this louis famine. it’s hard out here yall🙏🏽

family life

he’s a california girl born and raised(until he was sent to ericson ofc)

i saw this one headcanon about him being afro latino and i totally love it(and not that french shit cause french rhymes with stench👎👎)

both of his parents were born and raised in puerto rico but moved to california for college

he looks just like his father(unfortunately), freckles and everything but has his mother’s skin tone and hair texture

his mom had her own interior design company and probably had her own home lines and his dad owned some kind of business

i’m going to override my previous headcanon with him being an older brother and say that he’s the youngest but is still the only boy with three older sisters

with him being the youngest, i doubt he was really planned and that impacted the way he was treated compared to his sisters

BUT because he was the only boy i do think he got “special” treatment growing up but it wasn’t exactly good treatment

it was special in the way where he had a lot of expectations placed on him as the only boy and he was heavily monitored and controlled, especially when it came to his education and what his parents saw fit for him

they were the kind of people who only had kids not because they wanted them but because they wanted to continue their "legacy" and have mini versions of themselves

his relationship with his parents was pretty complicated. like on one hand they’d give him whatever he wanted(besides singing lessons ofc) but were still pretty hard on him with carrying the family name and whatever

this led to them spending a lot of time training him to be this perfect successor to his father’s business that he didn’t get to have much of that loving parent relationship with them

this then affected his relationship with his sisters, because in his mind he saw how his parents weren’t so pushy on them and felt like they weren’t as monitored as he was

so he kind of resented them but felt horrible about it cause he loves his sisters

however as he got older he realized his sisters were going through their own battles with their parents(controlling behavior, teaching them how to be proper “women”, etc)

his dad was definitely the more controlling one out of the two

their mother was more lenient on things but she never really stopped her husband's behavior or stood up for her children, especially louis

i feel like with him being an accident, his mom would hold some kind of contempt towards him because she believes he hindered her career and also changed the dynamic between her and his father since he blamed her for getting pregnant as if it doesn't take two to tango

he was never in the plan when it came to their "perfect family" but his father was definitely happy he was a boy because he can't pass down his company to his daughter who shows more interest and skill than his son, right?

so when his father wasn't trying to mold louis into the perfect heir for the company, he was either sent to his grandparents' house(who moved from puerto rico to california because their son wanted them to) along with his sisters or given things to keep him out of their hair

though it wasn’t all bad times, him going out with his sisters and parents were some of his fondest memories, especially when they traveled or went to see plays/ballets

the four of them considered their grandparents more as their parents than their actual ones

and unlike their son, they fully encouraged them to pursue their passions and to always put their happiness first

he has a knack for floristry because he'd spend a lot of time with his grandma in her flower garden and going with her on the weekends to sell them

but his favorite thing was to go fishing with his grandfather, especially since that's how he found geoff

one sunday they were out on the boat and louis managed to catch a pretty big fish and he wanted a picture to remember this moment and to always rub it in his grandpa's face

and for some reason he decided that his pose was going to be him holding the fish up to his mouth like he was going to kiss it

just as his grandpa was taking the picture, the fish started tripping out and somehow whacked him in the face which he totally didn't overreact to and flung himself and the fish back, off the boat into the water

he got on that boat with his dignty and pride intact, got off with soaked clothes, a very humiliating picture that ended up being framed, and a turtle that thought his big elephant ear was food

speaking of his ears, it was definitely his sisters teased him about

from calling him dumbo, saying they're like suction cups, to saying he can hear them make fun of him before they open their mouth

it was very hard for him, even came to the point where he threatened to staple his ears back

but he can't say that the teasing wasn't deserved

his sister, Salomé, who's 3 years older than him would always bring up their one sided nerf wars that he would spring upon her whenever she decided to torment(his words) him back

Now with Naomi, who is 6 years older than him, it's more of a cause and effect thing with them

when they were younger, she'd always force him to be the dog whenever they played house

this led to him acting like a dog whenever her friends came over, so she had no choice but to buy him a leash and dog bowl right? and say that he could hear the fleas crawling on his skin with his big ears?

now Anahi, she's the reason for his hate of cantaloupe

with them having a 12 year age gap, it was common for her to have boys over, which meant he had to weed out the bad ones right? or maybe he just wanted them gone but regardless, how good of a brother would he be if he didn't barge into her room to steal the attention away from her?

it only made sense for him to show off geoff and the latest tricks he taught her, plus who isn't impressed by a turtle who can jump through "flaming" hoops?

and who doesn't want to see his super cool and orginal dance moves like "moonwalking" that he claimed was stolen from him

though if he got a bad vibe from one of the boys he’d “accidentally” spill his juice on them or sneak some secret ingredients in their food

and every single thing he did would end with Anahi blending cantaloupe into a smoothie and smear it onto his face which led to a total meltdown and both of them punished

but despite all of the teasing between them, they always had each others' backs when it came to their parents

his sisters knew they had a tendancy to be harsher on him due to being the only boy and always came to his defense

even after him being the cause of their parents' divorce, they couldn't find it in themselves to be angry with him since they knew how it was for him

and once he was sent away to ericson, they all took turns taking care of geoff and put a picture of louis next to her tank so she wouldn't forget her papa

personal

his full name is Louis Felipe Narváez Canales

and he once dressed up as the yellow screwdriver from Handy Manny for halloween because of his middle name

he was born on march 17 and he flaunts it like a badge of honor but is very ashamed of the fact that he can't explain leprechauns to Aj

his favorite food are corn dogs but hates corn bread??

favorite disney movie is either hercules or princess and the frog

but if he was forced to choose, it’d be hercules because he hates neyo(he just like me frl)

wanted a sugar glider so bad that he would cry on his knees begging his parents for one

that is until he saw their skin thingies and was grossed out

not a nonchalant bone in his body, very in tune with his emotions and has no problem expressing them

get that boy properly fed and well nourished and he’d be like 6’1

i think he was a really good student but preferred to joke around instead of actually paying attention

i mean look at the traps that HE built and tell me he wouldn’t make a good engineer

exactly you can’t

but because of the joking around, he unknowingly created this persona for himself where everyone expects him to never be serious and be the fun person to hand around

he starts to feed into it too because he feels like if he doesn’t, they’ll be disappointed and forget about him

and although he really does enjoy being the funny friend, he really wishes someone would listen to and understand him beyond the attitude he displays

i think after music class, he would love english too

he definitely joins theater or the drama club like thinking about that quote he said when they came back from the train station, how could he not??

fluent in spanish but if you ask him to say something on the spot or if he tries to order food he’s like an entitled white person in mexico

his favorite color is orange but because he likes the finer things in life he says like persimmon or spanish orange(he’s just extra and wants to be different)

he hates all melons but obviously has a vendetta against cantal*upe

purposely misspells cantal*upe wrong, he can’t be associated with that demonic fruit

not really a hc but he definitely has self esteem issues

it stems from the way his parents would treat him when he didn’t reach their expectations.

like they would revoke their love from him in some kind of way or would start paying more attention to his sisters than to him

not even once has he heard them say they’re proud of him

that led him to kind of acting out in school when he was younger when he felt like the teacher wasn’t giving him enough attention

one of those people that are really good at math but pretends they aren’t and hates it

like bro is in ap calculus and has the highest grade in his class

is a lefty(i think this is actually canon??)

so that missing tooth he has, he lost it during a baseball game when the pitcher was a terrible thrower and the ball flew right into his cheek

i think his parents forced him into a lot of sports so he’s pretty athletic

he’s just naturally talented when it comes to sports

like any sport he tried, he would be perfect the first time

but he hated every sport they made him play except baseball and soccer

definitely was the kid who was shorter than most of the students but came back after summer break the size of a giant

has the turtle pillow pet

his favorite composer is claude debussy

yes because of claire de lune and also be he is(i am) childish

LOVES ballet, his favorite is A Midsummer Night's Dream with Don Quixote being the runner up(the only ones i know besides the nutcracker)

not necessarily a picky eater but he knows what he likes and doesn’t plan on putting his tastebuds through trials and tribulations

when he was younger he wanted to be a train when he grew up

he used to stand in the dark eating carrots when he was little because his sister told him it would give him xray vision

also kinda convinced himself it worked but he was just delirious and sleep deprived

totally had a magic phase and was terrible at it

when people talk about him or call him names to his face, he laughs it off but it really does hurt, especially when it comes from his friends

it makes him believe that’s truly how they see him

is terrified of disappointing people so he deliberately tries less or doesn’t try at all to lower their expectations of him to the point they don’t expect anything and he kind of enjoys it because then he gets to do what he wants without the fear of punishment

modern au

he is a lauver through and through but he isn't like those weirdo boys

the nonchalant dreadhead meme is the bane of his existence. he can’t go anywhere without the fear of being called one and being told to shake his dreads

almost got to the point he cut them off

but he definitely plays into it sometimes with marlon being the girls obsessing over him😭

thinks hawk tuah is the most annoying meme ever but also says it ironically sometimes and hates himself for it

hates diddy jokes

does the most embarrassing and cringey stuff in public on purpose and thinks it’s the funniest thing ever

violet no longer takes him to pet stores and shelters to see cats after he started barking at them

like i’ve said before, he likes to play dress to impress with his baddies

he’s somehow really skilled and always places first

like so good to the point the group is suspicious that he somehow hacked into the system and programmed it to him always winning

he forced aasim into playing it once and he became hooked and now they have a whole competition that aasim is losing horrbly

aasim is now plotting against him

definitely stole his dad's card many times so he could buy robux and then acted completely clueless much to his sister's dismay

had gotten into so many arguments with people on there to the point he has to make multiple accounts cause he kept getting banned

then forgot all the passwords so there’s just so many accounts floating about in the roblox universe completely unused

like i’ve mentioned previously, he’s played a handful of sports growing up but once he got to high school he only stuck with baseball and even earned a scholarship for it

but he doesn’t really take it seriously and just does it because he loves playing

was the kid in middle school with all the fidget spinners and would run some underground club where the members would bet their school money on who could keep theirs spinning the longest

he was in debt to so many people but it doesn't matter cause he was the ringleader and would threaten them with a lifetime ban

because of this, fidget spinners eventually were banned and he was kinda hated for a bit

something tells me he was a bit of a hypebeast when that whole ricegum and team 10 era was trending

100% the guy in your class to start saying oi oi oi baka while standing on his chair

then fall off said chair but not be embarrassed at all

literally has no shame, bro will literally come up to marlon and ask for uppies to embarrass him

is an orbit and fell into a depression when LOONA disbanded

is a jittleyang

y’all know that one tt that’s like talk valentina! ally! that’s him and violet. he’d force her to make the tiktok with him and she acts all annoyed but really loves it

is a mix of a band kid and a kid in band

has a really good sense of style(he better with all that money he has🙄)

doesn’t really stick to one aesthetic/style because he doesn’t see the point in confining yourself to one style and finds it exhausting trying to

despite popular belief, he is NOT a fan of Animal Crossing

he hates Tom Nook’s scamming ass and is traumatized from the wasps and tarantulas

so he decided that the game isn’t worth the high blood pressure and deleted it (60 dollars down the drain💔)

has gotten every single fortnite battlepass and is still trash at the game

don’t wear headphones if you’re playing with him, marlon learned that the hard way

he’d totally be popular on tiktok and youtube like this man has no haters

like at first people followed him because of his looks but eventually stayed for his personality

would totally be a popular and successful singer too, much to his parents’ dismay

would make a whole grammy award winning album dedicated to you and it would probably be his most popular one too

i think aside from classical music he likes jazz but definitely would listen to literally ANYTHING

relationship

he loves very hard, like when he first sees you he falls in love(this is most likely canon though)

he’s literally never subtle when it comes to you

he has no problem proclaiming his love for you to the whole world(the school cafeteria/hallway)

love love LOVES physical touch like any chance he gets he’s all over you

though if you don’t like that he’ll respect it

no shame when it comes to kissing you in public and will make the loudest and most obnoxious kissing noise

he doesn’t understand why he should ever feel embarrassed or ashamed to feel so passionate about someone he loves

for all my black readers or people with curly hair he will DEFINITELY be stealing your hair products even if he doesn’t really need them

will ask you to retwist his hair and will be all dramatic about it if you don’t know how

and if you do know, you’re now the only person who is allowed to do them. if you aren’t available for some reason, he will wait until you are. doesn’t care if he looks like luka sabbat

he has his license and own car but prefers to be the passenger princess so he can control the music

he really just wants to look at you the whole ride

also wants to eat your fries

whoever you hate he does too, sometimes even more than you do

like the person would just randomly catch him giving them the MEANEST stink eye ever

it physically pains him to see you upset or hurt. he’s an empath😞💔

you’re on your period and he’s cramping, butthole ones too😿

he’s teenage dirtbag coded. not like he’s an actual teenage dirtbag just more on the fact that he thinks you’re way out of his league

like WOW you know who i am and you’re actually interested in me???

he has so much rizz but is too shy to actually be serious and make the first move so you have to do it yourself

like he flirts a lot but like when it comes to actually being serious he gets scared cause he doesn’t wanna make you uncomfortable or ruin the friendship you have

you’d probably have to initiate a lot of things in the beginning of your relationship because he’s still adjusting to the fact that he’s dating YOU and doesn’t wanna mess things up

remembers and knows literally EVERYTHING about you, even stuff you don’t even know

like that little mole you have inside your nostril? he knows about it but you don’t

definitely picks up on your lingo and it becomes part of his vocabulary

when you guys do hangout or are on a date he absolutely will NOT let you pay for anything

will deadass steal your wallet for the whole time yall are together so you won’t try to

and if you have apple pay, well your phone and watch will be confiscated as well until further notice

he knows he’s good looking but he feels like that’s all he really has going for him when it comes to relationships

along with not feeling wanted by his parents, i feel like a lot of girls would try to use him because of his looks or money but when they realized that he actually wanted a serious relationship they left

he genuinely can’t see why someone would like him

so PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE hype this boy up and always make sure he feels loved

will literally come to your job whenever you’re working

he does it so much to the point all of your coworkers know him and your manager lowkey hates him because he distracts you sometimes

has been banned from your job a few times for a couple of shifts by your manager(and sometimes you)

if he gets the slightest hint that you’re upset, he’s rolling up to your house with a boombox playing some 2000s r&b song and with his car full of things you love

your makeup literally stands no chance against him. not even one size can stop him from rubbing it off while he kisses you

you’re definitely his first relationship so everything you guys do together he gets excited about

like you guys finally have contact pictures for each other, he’s planning the wedding already

in the crushing stage he would definitely listen to like 2010 love pop songs and spin around his dorm in the middle of the night despite marlon’s complaints

would literally talk marlon’s ear off about you at night

had tons of playlists for his feelings

before yall started dating he was soooo delusional about you(and maybe you were the same for him)

like you could look his way for not even a millisecond and he thinks you were staring at him

like he couldn’t go a single minute without yapping about you to marlon or violet

or anyone who would listen actually

geoff literally knows everything about you before you even meet her

writes whole songs and love letters for you before you guys confess

omg omg he’s totally the type of guy to save every single song and letter he wrote for you and give them to you the night of your wedding once you guys are alone

he’s so cutie and sweet😞😞

if you mention a certain song or artist/group you listen to he’s going through their whole discography

100% makes playlists for you

if there’s anything he learned from his dad, it’s how to be a gentleman like he treats you so well

literally buys you a necklace and purse or whatever you like when he picks you up for your first date

would lay his jacket on the smallest puddle just so your shoes won’t get wet even though you walk right around it

he’s just corny like that and he loves you so much with his entire being

would rather watch a piano burn or touch a cantal*upe than to imagine a world where he isn’t with you

istg yall better like this because this took absolutely WAY too long to finish. anyways don’t forget to like and reblog if you do like it and maybe i’ll make more. there’s definitely a drought of content for our boy so i’m tryna keep this sub fandom afloat and show my baby some love. also i’m gonna be updating my posts for him and putting them all under the lua dipa tag.

[milli-moi]

I’ve replied to comments about this multiple times now but it’s too much info to share in reply to a comment each time I see it so I thought I’d share it in full. I might have even shared some of it before but I can’t remember and tbh everyone seems to be interested now even though I’ve had these things headcanoned from when Nicky’s story was first shown.

So here, this is my version of how Nicky was made!

I have a similar take on this which I’ve had from when we first met Nicky in the show. In fact my first fanfic for this world involves it. I honestly struggle to see any other version now lol.

I think there are a few things that there is only one answer to and I’ll go through them a bit.

Point 1 - no one has told us who Agatha is running from on the day Nicky was born. Even as a reasonably young witch she was strong so if she were to be chased out by villagers or other witches etc she wouldn’t be running. She would have dealt with them in her usual style. Then it falls to Rio. But even then, I think she knows she couldn’t outrun or hide from Rio. I look at this two ways.

Either it was a case of maternal instinct, the need to at least try and protect her son making her run. (Which is far from nothing when you consider she is clearly in labour at that point and she would likely find walking at a decent pace hard let alone running). Or, she was trying to escape the scenario because she knew there might be a chance she would die instead of Nicky. She knew Rio wouldn’t let her take that chance, especially if it would make everything worse for all involved and if it wasn’t the primary outcome.

I always felt that Rio had only known he was dying maybe an hour before we see Agatha in the forest. I presume he was going to die due to the umbilical cord strangling him (most other options would have caused Agatha significant harm too and she likely would also have died) or something similar. I feel that she let Agatha go, gave her some time because Agatha has Huge issues with emotions.

Basically all this to say that I don’t think there was ever any risk to carrying the child of Death or that the children of Death would die etc. I also don’t think Rio hid it, I think it was a horrible turn of events.

Also when it comes to his eventual death age 6, I think Nicky had TB. TB can be latent meaning it’s inactive in the body for years without symptoms. It isn’t often passed from mother to child but it does happen if there is blood mixed during birth. The symptoms Nicky seems to have match with this, his deterioration over time, the cough, paleness etc and that it was very very common in the population at the time.

(Maybe it’s ultra sadistic in a way but I do kind of love the poetic irony of it actually being Agatha in a way that ended his life)

Point 2- Nicky was made ‘from scratch’ he was not made using magick. Perhaps there is a world in which Rio can alter her anatomy - (and where Agatha accepted the whole idea - she’s too gay for that in my personal headcanon! 🤣) - but I think what this meant was that he wasn’t created by a planned, deliberate spell. He was the creation of love, and of that deeper magick that Rio possesses as a cosmic entity.

I don’t imagine they planned for him to happen because they didn’t use a spell. I don’t think they imagined it was possible, and if they had through it possible they wouldn’t have waited possibly 50 or more years to have him. Even for witches I imagine being pregnant is easier in your twenties than your seventies.

I see it that Nicky should have been impossible in the same way it should have been impossible for Death to fall in love. So, I guess, the impossible and incredible love that Rio had (has) for Agatha is what made that spark happen.

Rio (in my own writing lol) realised four months after it had happened that there had been a time where during the intensity of their love making she had released some sort of cloud of magic. They had both noticed it, a brief second of green surrounding them. Agatha had turned it into a joke, bragging about her skillful hands. It was only after they had known about their child that Rio believed her magic had created the necessary components, making its own version of a sperm cell that was created directly into the position it needed to be in, that it had happened to be at the right point, during ovulation and somehow they had made Nicky.

She had never intended it fully - yes maybe it was something she wanted but not something likely - but her deeper less human side had likely been able to smell the changes, to know this was the perfect time to conceive even if she had no idea she could.

To summarise; - Nicky wasn’t planned because he wasn’t possible - not in that fashion anyway. - Rio wasn’t capable of getting Agatha pregnant in the same way she wasn’t capable of falling in love. Both were beyond the reach of normal truths. Make sense?

[xjulixred45x]

PLEASE GIVE US ALUCARD X YUI KOMORI READER IM BEGGING YOU!!!

My boy alucard deserves someone so heavenly and my girl yui deserves a good vampire lover 💗

Alright!

Alucard Tepes x Yui Komori! Reader

Genre: Headcanons

Reader: female

Warnings: typical canon violence of Castelvania, Reader has the background of Yui Komori, so this may content like abuse of power, violence, Harrasment, mistretment, etc. Alucard has His own PTSD problems. Fluff, hurt with comfort. This is set between Castlevania and Nocture.

• Living in a town in the middle of nowhere had its advantages. Like, for example, you don't usually get into the dramas of big cities, everyone is independent, and best of all, it's so remote that no one would think of attacking or robbing there.

• That was the life that reader had known most of the time, since she arrived in that village, she was able to know a lasting peace. She had been born somewhere else, but had been abandoned in a church by her parents, leaving nothing behind.

• They were hard times after all, when Valakya was being rebuilt from the ravages caused by vampires. Reader's parents probably didn't even have where or how to take care of her thanks to that, it was the best they could do for her, give her a better life.

• Despite everything, reader wanted to live life with positivity, having been raised by a loving father, she was always willing to help in the church she lived in, being recognized in the village as a young woman not only of great beauty, but of a big heart and an unwavering faith.

• Faith that would be put to the test, when one night everything changed.

• reader could remember that night, the screams in the early morning, the doors of the church breaking, a group of vampires entering, covered in blood.

• It was easy for a relatively small group of vampires to take control of a tiny village. It seemed that they intended to use the village as a kind of slaughterhouse, so that they would always have food available. Since the village didn't really have neighbors, they were stuck with these monsters.

• They always demanded a young woman as a sacrifice every month (which in the best case they never saw again, in the worst, they found their mutilated bodies days later), or else they would kill the entire family to feed themselves. They were days full of fear, anguish and despair for everyone.

• But none of that compared to when they demanded a sacrifice from the church.

• A part of the reader didn't want to have to do it, but she didn't want to imagine what would happen if any of the other girls from the church (younger, with a chance of surviving) were handed over, a difficult decision had to be made. And so it was.

• They were the worst days in the reader's life, she could hear the echo of her father's crying, telling her that he was going to save her, find a way, while she was tortured by those monsters.

• The reader could never fully understand how she held on for so long, only that one day her father had arrived with the necessary reinforcements to kill the bastards, seeing it with her own eyes, something that seemed like magic.

• She wasn't even aware of when she fainted during this time, only that when she finally woke up, it wasn't in those vampires' lair, but it definitely wasn't her house. It was much bigger, older…

• Her father was beside her bed, sleeping peacefully, reader didn't feel brave enough to wake him up until she noticed there was another person in the room.

• A man, with long blonde hair, wearing fine clothes, seemed to be cleaning something (bandages, reader noticed she had them all over her body, it seems that was the man who saved their lives).

• When reader was about to speak, the man turned around. A part of reader was alert, there was something familiar with this man, but not something familiar good.

• The man introduced himself, Alucard (That sounded familiar too), he explained why they were there. It turns out that reader was really bad from the blood loss, and he had more medical resources here, in his castle, than those in the village had, so reader's father (who was finally waking up) insisted.

• Reader almost felt embarrassed by her father's behavior. Doesn't he know how to have a little more manners? As she lightly reprimanded him, apologizing on his behalf for the inconvenience.

• Alucard, surprisingly, smiled amused at this, saying that it was okay, and that he was actually calm knowing that she was alive and well (after everything her father said about her, she seemed like someone very dear to her people).

• Reader stared at him for a few seconds, not knowing what to answer. As Alucard left, Reader realized why that man looked so familiar to her... his teeth.

• (a good portion of the morning was reduced to reader asking her father why the hell she was allying herself with a vampire after everything that happened, reader having a panic attack thinking she was going to be vampire food again, and her father trying to explain to her that TECHNICALLY Alucard was only half vampire - there was nothing to worry about! And so on)

• Alucard probably managed to hear at least a little of the fuss, and honestly can't blame reader for being cautious. I mean, after going through that hell with vampires? It makes sense (he was like that with humans for a while after all, he understands it just fine).

• The surprising thing, though, was that Alucard ended up running into reader watching him from afar, as if she was making sure he wasn't going to do anything. Although she wasn't against talking to him, asking him questions, and helping out with certain chores (not too heavy, obviously).

• But at the same time, he couldn't feel any hostility, he just watched as Reader's fawn eyes followed his actions closely and with great curiosity. It was kind of adorable, how she tried to stay away, but at the same time she was so expressive that it gave away her real intentions.

• Reader's father and her were going to stay in the castle for a few days, at least until Reader was recovered enough to leave, which didn't seem to be soon, both due to the great loss of blood and the injuries caused during her captivity.

• Fortunately, Reader was more curious about Alucard than scared at this point, so this leads to several interesting interactions.

• If we go by the relationship in general, it's quite a cute thing.

• Reader is definitely very, VERY interested in braiding Alucard's hair, I don't make the rules (IT'S SO LONG AND NICE--)

• It's no surprise to anyone, what Alucard loves most about his partner is their positive attitude, it's probably where he applies the opposite poles a bit, no matter how bad things are, reader always sees the positive side, it's something that puts him in a better mood.

• They both have PTSD from their respective traumas (it takes Alucard longer to open up about his, but it happens), and they are honestly each other's best support, precisely because they KNOW what the other is going through.

• The sleepless nights, the nightmares, the scars, are things they have in common, they have a level of understanding that no one has. United by love, united by pain.

• Angst aside, I think Alucard would be especially cuddly and clingy with such a partner, simply because he can't help but find her adorable, it's like a Cute Agression attack, he just wants to be able to hug her and squeeze her (without hurting her of course).

• Reader definitely ENJOYS the educational materials that Dracula's castle has, she always wanted to learn more than what they taught in her village, and now she can! There are times when she comes to Alucard just to dump all the information she learned that day, while Alucard just listens happily, glad that reader is enjoying the resources at her disposal

• (wait until she sees the Belmont lair, she's going to faint from excitement. Much to Alucard's fear).

• Let me tell you this, Alucard would never, ever, ever, ever try to drink reader's blood. Number one, WHY THE HELL WOULD HE DO THAT?! The literal thing that traumatized her possibly FOR LIFE—

• Even with the kind of life she leads, Alucard doesn't pressure reader to get over her phobia of vampires, he just assures her that he'll always be there to protect her from now on (and that if she wants, he can always turn her into one and even the game)

• Reader is somewhat naive, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, Alucard likes to have a different vision of the world, beyond the pain and misery he may have, but he definitely makes sure to get defensive when someone tries to take advantage of said vision.

• He knows that Reader isn't stupid, that she's a grown woman who can take care of herself well, however, it's something like an instinct that comes out on its own, he wants to take care of one of the few good people he has left. He takes protecting his partner very seriously. Don't test him.

• I like to imagine that reader probably didn't have a lot of clothes the first few months she moved into the castle, so Alucard lent her some of Lisa's dresses (or clothes of his that were big enough that reader choked on fabric. He still laughs about it to this day. No, he won't let her forget it)

• Did you see that Yui can canonically play the organ piano? Considering there used to be one in the castle, it's not surprising to think that reader probably plays when she's really overwhelmed. It's nice to have noise in the castle again.

• Of course, sometimes said noise is Reader falling off a shelf, or down the stairs, at this point Alucard developed a sixth sense for when Reader is going to have an accident and catches her before she falls (it definitely makes reader a little dizzy when he moves so fast, but she appreciates the concern)

• he is like a mother hen in that aspect, scolding (with love) Reader for not taking care of herself, for not eatinf enough iron, for the bruises that appear out of nowhere. He takes it so SERIOUSLY that is kind of funny.

• reader would be super touched to see Alucard’s childhood room, even if it’s trashed, you can hear her talking quietly about how nice it would be to use that room for her future children. But that’s a topic for the future~

• Overall, two tormented souls who found the right person to spend all Eternity with.

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[louisisalarrie]

Hey how are u? I really like your point of view so I want to ask you few things that my brain frequently think about.

I’m pretty sure that sooner or later bbg will be unmasked, so how they will handle this? They created Louis’ public image around this baby. They painted him like the perfect father who obv love a lot his child.

I think that the shitstorm where his fans will throw him in will be bigger than everything. You know what I mean his solo fans paint him like the most loyal person in the world who trust his fans a lot and would never betray them. So I’m quite sure that they will start to throw shit on him, plus they’re so obsessed over this poor baby and I see a lot of them saying that if louis is not the father they will leave him cause he is just a gross person who lies to fans.

So, how will they managed it without throw him into a very big shitstorm? Plus when it will happen definitely all will be connect to the Larry situation so: when they do it, will he do also a coming out?

I don’t see it happen without a coming out, because the speculation would be so much bigger than ever and everyone would start saying that Larries were right since the beginning and that he’s a horrible person using a child…

I don’t know I don’t see a easy happy ending :(

okie dokie anon, im gonna answer this in the best way I know how, and tag it a little differently to usual so everyone knows where to find my theories on how they’re gonna end bbg/what’s the best way to end it without ruining louis’ career. anon, welcome to the show sweetcheeks!

After the absolute shit show of a smear campaign that was pushed onto Louis in 2015, of clubbing and being a gross fuckboy taking a million girls home every night, they had to repair said image when they decided this kid was actually gonna be born (in my theory it was Belfast) because to continue on with fuckboy louis when he has a child on the way further down the pregnancy/child is born, it would’ve looked even more fucking worse for one d’s demographic and louis’ image would be irreparable. His image has always hung off family values and long term relationships too, so it’s not super crazy to think “oh, louis has had his fun and now it’s serious he’s gonna buckle down and be a great dad because of his upbringing/family values and he’s a wonderful guy” etc, ya know? Plus the vast majority of one d fans at the time were Larries, we saw through the bullshit and we saw this behaviour wasn’t louis. Mgmt were like “ok if we’re actually gonna see this through, if there’s actually gonna be a child in the picture, he’s gonna have to be a present and loving dad”. It just would’ve been too off brand for him to not be. Hell, the whole fuckboy Louis thing was off brand for him, but they started that, and then had to fucking fix it because an actual child was gonna be born into this mess.

Anyway so louis’ buzzing (looks like he’d rather set himself on fire) and we get heaps of baby content on Insta/from B and her clan etc to really bring it home that louis cares about this kid. This kid is his life and he will do everything he can to be there for it because he’s a good guy (which like… it this was real, they would’ve covered up this baby real quick and silenced the mother and that’s the biggest fucking fault they made in my opinion, shit makes no sense). So yeah, fake baby, happy dad, family values. Cool, alright let’s go.

You are very correct in saying they’ve made louis being a dad a major element in his image. He’s pretty private otherwise, but boy does he love this kid! Which if we base this on how it was meant to end in 2016 with a DNA test so he’d be out free, which didn’t happen for a few reasons, the kid is now older and a paternity test should’ve been taken far earlier and louis’ trying to figure out himself in a solo career and working hard on music and it’s all too much. Not to mention he signed his fucking rights away to SC and still had to deal with this all. But I digress. They didn’t end bbg then, and he didn’t want such a scandal to hinder the beginning of his career because that’s what he’d be known for when starting out as a solo artist. “Oh did you hear about that dude from one direction? His kid isn’t actually his! Holy shit!” would just be on repeat anywhere and everywhere and something like that doesn’t really die down that quick in the media. It just would’ve jumped him off the wrong way after dealing with the heartbreak of his mum passing etc., so things are a little chaotic for him to deal with that as well. (Then the bbg contract gets amended and SC gives him publicity with the X Factor etc, but I won’t get into the contracts side of it right now).

Cool cool cool. So. He’s gonna look like a shit dude for chucking this baby in the spotlight if he’s known for ages. Everyone’s gonna hate him for lying to them. He’s gonna lose his fans. He’s not gonna be able to promo himself for a while because he’ll be “devastated”. Now, let’s have a look at how this can end with fan and GP sympathy on his side, and how they can spin this in a good way.

Now, hear me out.

We’ve talked about a few ways, but the best way to dig him out of this shit show, is simply to go down the paternity route. It just is.

Situation 1: louis and b go to court over F. this works perfectly in his current no music or tour timeframe. It keeps him relevant in the papers while he’s off, and also gives him the excuse to grieve or whatever. This is 100% the best way to do it but it drags it out so long.

- Louis, who is now on break, wants to spend more time with his beloved son little lad, and wants to take him away from B for a while to live in the UK with him and his family for an extended holiday/spend some quality time. B is withholding his son from him and he isn’t allowed to be with him for extended periods of time because B doesn’t like his lifestyle (partying, smoking, etc.)

Or

- maybe B decides Louis’ doing really well in his career so she wants more child support money. He’s getting older, more expensive, and this was all louis’ doing. He took B home, he’s also a multi millionaire, he should be paying way more than what he is!

- maybe B gets married or a long term serious boyfriend and he wants to adopt F because louis’ lifestyle doesn’t allow him to be present as much as he wants to.

Or something else ridiculous that they go to court over. In this theory, they need to go to court 100%.

So, they’re in court over whatever, and B goes “hey well I was actually sleeping with someone else around that time too, I want a paternity test” (because she never pushed for one because she saw $$$) and louis takes one and BAM, he’s actually not F’s father. Holy shit.

So why did a multimillionaire famous boyband member in his early 20’s who was clearly loving partying not demand a paternity test early one? Well, he never bothered to ask because he trusted B. They’d actually been seeing each other for longer than initially thought (like some articles mentioned back in the day LOL) but didn’t want to introduce her to the public because he knows 1d fans would eat her alive and the whole Larry thing etc., so he trusts her. He’s also just a really good dude, sees the best in everyone, trusted her and copped it on the chin and said well yeah… im gonna help raise this dude because I’ve always wanted a son and I have big family values and I fucked up. I’m mature. I’m a good example of what women should look for in a man.

So then shit… the fans and GP find out and he cops the public sympathy and everyone feels sorry for him. This is heartbreaking, he loves that kid so much and now he’s found out he’s not really his dad. The fans are devastated, the GP goes “well it’s stupid he didn’t get one earlier on but this is still really awful for him, poor guy. He’s too nice for his own good, and he was just a kid. Maybe he didn’t think about it. He’s so brave to say this. Heart on his sleeve” etc etc like it’s really not hard to make the GP and fans feel bad for you, even tho some folks may think he was an idiot for not getting one earlier on (which like.. that’s how it was meant to end but it was extended), everyone who’s scrutinised bbg has thought the same at some point. So, anyway, you see what I mean here? This situation ends with him looking like just a silly loving trusting guy, with a big heart. Solos will eat that shit up. I promise you. Anyway, F fades into the background and we don’t see any more content of him. He just… disappears. No one’s gonna question that. F isn’t his son, and he wants to give the kid and B privacy now. A classic example of being a good guy.

So like, this situation also upholds the idea that he’s straight. He’s had sex with a woman, it’s just this kid isn’t his. Anyway, sorted, case closed and we alll eventually move on. It does drag it out but my god does it truly spin some sympathy for him. But if he wants it over and done with quick, this wouldn’t be the way.

Situation 2: louis has known for a while, but him and B are really good friends so he’s helped raise F and helped with funds because the dad left and he wanted to be there for the kid. This brings out the lying factor though, but he truly does feel like a dad!!! He knows what it’s like to not have a father figure there, he wants to give the kid a good life, he’s taken on the role of his dad and he has the money to support B and F, so why wouldn’t he? You know, he has family values. So yeah, he wasn’t lying out of hate, and F knew all along he wasn’t his real dad either, but he gave this kid a great life. Anyway, B gets married or whatever, louis goes “im still gonna be there for F but I trust this guy and he loves F and my career is taking off even further and I can’t be there for him all the time and this guy really wants to be a dad, I’ll step back”. This also works well in terms of good guy louis, and he loves F so much. Public and fan sympathy, a little anger towards the lying but truly he’s just did what he could. He helped B out and now F has a strong and fantastic father figure in his life. Sorted, done. This can be done through an Insta live or a post of him and F explaining stuff, and F fades from the picture. Still upholds the sex with women, but he did get a paternity test ages ago, he’s just a good guy. Anyway, that also works.

You also have a spin on the above situation too though, to make it easier for a coming out. Louis and B never had sex. He’s just a long term good friend of hers and took on that role. He’s always been gay/he never fucked her. Having this onto it, really leaves it a bit more open ended. This is really the only kind of solution to say “hey I’ve been with Harry this whole time and bbg wasn’t a stunt” ya know? Still believable, a bit more murky, but if done well it ends it quicker than a court case. Still looks good for him. Plus, he can say how long he was with Harry and that they wanted to keep their relationship private because they were nervous to come out and yeah. Cool. That’s also done.

The fans might be angry about that one, but it still swings it well. I don’t think they’re gonna hate him. He might lose a few but… yeah. He’s always gonna when he comes out anyway. Yeah. The above is two birds one stone.

Situation 3: it was all a stunt. they just reveal absolutely everything. That’s it.

He’ll lose the most fans by doing this, but also… he’ll gain a lot of public sympathy. Whatever way they end bbg, he will be on the side of public and fan sympathy. He’s always gonna end up with some kind of hate when coming out, but so will Harry. It just… is what it is. Harry’s process has just been a lot smoother without a kid tied to him. But with the screaming of how shit the music industry is to artists, this will call a lot of attention to it all. Might actually make a change. But again, the hardest.

Now the thing with all of the above, right, no matter which way they take it, is that bisexuality exists. Also, sexuality can be fluid, so maybe he didnt figure out he was into dudes until later on in life and him and Harry reunited and it just kind of happened. He had to navigate queerness in a space of homophobia. He felt fucking lost as hell, and Harry helped him. Also public and fan sympathy, also works. Doesn’t put them from the beginning though, like situation 2 and 3 could, but yeah. The current conversation about queerness and how things can change is important and big right now. People would understand.

Both Harry and louis (more so louis) will and should expect fan and public hatred for lying and queerness. But it’s just something they’ll have to cop. They come out, go into hiding for a bit, and then put out a statement and they’re just gonna have to expect some hate. Hell, Harry already gets hate for queerbaiting. It just always will be affected.

To your last point, about using a kid, if they unravel everything then they’ll just shove that blame on SC etc, they had no choice! For the other situations, it may be a little scrutinised but yeah. He’s either silly and too trusting in situation 1, or does see F as his kid and is proud of him in situation 2. Those situations above are how I see a smoother end to bbg. They’re kind of the only way I see it ending. So, SC/marketing gods, if you’re watching, or if this is you, consider one of the above please and let’s end it fucking now.

So there you have it. These situations might seem stupid, but he comes out of it the most unscathed (except option 3 but again, sympathy from fans and public about being controlled like puppets). And I think in all those cases a coming out will happen shortly after, they kind of go hand in hand. But also they might let it die down for a while before announcing anything, but yeah. Speculation is gonna happen. They can’t escape everything.

Any questions or if anything doesn’t make sense because I haven’t had a coffee yet, let me knowwwwwww

Thanks for coming to the show!

[misty-eyezz]

Guess I should explain this AU a bit more while I'm getting ready. For people on my X knew a bit, but people here might not know. It's supposed to contain mature themes such as drug and alcohol abuse. As well as workplace harassment, withheld wages, stealing credit, etc. Wade is the main focus of the story, unlike Ember in the original. It also takes place four to five years before the movie. For example, the movie came out in June 2023, and Wade is 26, according to the Unlikely Friends book. His unofficial birthday is February 20, so he was born on February 20, 1997. So this fanfic AU is set in 2019, when Wade is about to turn 22 on the day his band, Mainstream, has their return concert after their first world tour. The return concert is actually set to be on Wade's birthday. It's ironic because they are releasing the album inspired by him and his life, "Wade to my Heart" but his manager, Ty Phuong, scheduled it on his birthday on purpose to fuck with him.

There are four members; Creek Mill, Angel Falls, Font Sailor, and Wade Ripple.

Creek is non-binary but their manager, Ty Phuong, is an asshole and refers to Creek as male often in the story and in media so he can call the band a boy band. Creek is the shortest and a drummer, they are always put next to Angel who is self-conscious about his height.

Angel is the oldest member. He can't play any instrument at all. He worked with Mr. Phuong the longest but failed because he had no musical talent besides singing. Angel is a jerk and steals credit for the band's work.

Font is the tallest and strongest, he plays bass guitar. He played Waveball to get into university to be a music major. Talks to Wade about his dad. He met Creek there but they didn't get close until they joined the band. They started dating a little after talking about how Phuong mistreated Creek. In photos, he is never allowed to be next to Creek to hide their chemistry.

Wade is the lead guitarist and writes almost all the band's songs. He is the fans' (Streamies) least favorite member. Ty Phuong is their manager, he is an air man from Chinook. He's an asshole who purposely manipulates Wade, Creek and Font in a way where they are trapped to work with him. Creek and Font have no family to return being NB and gay as well as following music careers instead of something more 'substantial.' Lastly, Wade is purposely alienated from his parents and it only gets worse after his dad dies

Some information about their world tour is here on a shirt. They visited a different country every month, but in October they went to two different countries (more in image description) I spent a long time trying to come up with element-related puns for the places they had their concerts.

Wade has a very strenuous relationship with Angel, but the other members tend to stick to themselves. Wade admits his relationship with Angel is like a toxic co-dependency, Angel would be nothing without Wade and vice versa. Or that's what he is manipulated to believe.

Dewey in this AU doesn't die until Wade turns 18, he dies from a degenerative heart disease. His backstory is about he same, but slightly different since his health deteriorates and he is forced to quit Waveball early on. This allows for Dewey to be a much softer father than the original because he knows he's dying and unable to hide it from his kids early on unlike how it is depicted in the book where he hides it until it's too late causing him to have much harsher mood swings. All the kids work hard to fulfill their dreams before Dewey passes away, graduating school early, playing Waveball, and Wade starts in the band at age 16.

Ember is actually a huge fan of the band. She owns a limited edition chainmail band shirt from the band's tour in Fireland. However, it's a size too big since the one in her size was too much. She also made a custom chainmail hoodie that she wears only every once and awhile. These are red flags for Wade originally when they first meet, but he can't seem to pull himself away from talking to her since she doesn't recognize him as a member of the band. This is how Wade is able to talk to her freely without the fear of her judging him as others have in the past.

"It was the first genuine smile I've gotten in a long time. She saw me for who I am and not what I was, it made me want to cry. At that moment I wanted to tell her the truth, but then would her smile change?"

(not an actual quote but it's the idea I'm going for lol)

This next part you'll have to suspend your belief for, I realized based on my sibling's criticism that Ember not recognizing Wade despite being a fan of his band strange. I admit it's a little far fetched but let me have my fantasies ok ｡ﾟ･（>﹏<）･ﾟ｡

Anyway, more info on each image above in their descriptions

You probably already noticed throughout, Wade and Ember are smoking. Wade unlike the other members avoids taking narcotics, bu he ends up addicted to smoking. This is the whole reason Ember takes interest in him in the first place. She's never seen a water person smoke before. This makes her chase after him and that's how they start talking. Anyway, that's all I should say without fully spoiling the story. To be honest it's strangely my comfort story. Writing Wade's backstory and how he finds solace in talking to Ember despite manipulating the truth to avoid her knowing who he really is, is sweet to me?? I read too much manwha stories ngl lmao

[sonicjustbecause]

Shadow's past (without Black Doom) - yeah talking about the original Shadow again.

BD is an afterthough (Shadow was not supposed to be an alien) and it is what had slowly made Shadow too over the top and outlandish.

in SA2 Shadow's past (originally it was supposed to be Sonic's past too but only few things of the original idea remained there) is more pleasantly eerie. We don't really get to know who is Maria, nor her role aside being Shadow's friend and Shadow's creation is more mysterious (and way more balanced and way less convoluted)

We have little information about who Maria was - aside being brave - But it was clear by their little speech that Shadow was completely open to her, letting his thoughs run freely without reservation, completely trusting her.

Shadow was melancholic as usual, I wonder where the idea he used to be all blubby and cheerful comes from. Although OG Shadow had few cheerful moments, melancholy is one of his most prominent personality traits.

No hate on you, starfish...

It was not clear what was Shadow's purpose (Shadow himself was unsure). It was said he was created in order to discover the secret of immortality. He was also weaponized later, but he wasn't born as a weapon. And following SA2 story, it turns out clear.

Shadow weapon qualities in SA2

His mind: his best cards actually

Love this excited Shadow. So rare.

They mentioned the QI (numbers) of only three characters in Sonic: Eggman, Tails and Shadow, all gifted.

Shadow enjoyed reflecting on life when alone, and he liked to use his brain when in action. In fact, in SA2 he doesn't fail at all, his plan is so flawless, it is a complete success. It was terminated simply because it was leading to a disaster (Shadow was aware of this, he just changed his mind), but you can't deny that, unlike Eggman who does a lot of mistakes due to his ego and temper, Shadow know how to get stuffs done.

To underline his intelligence, during the game Shadow caused minimal destruction, virtually any on his own (the bomb was an Eggman idea - not surprise). In the note leading to Shadow's creation, he was supposed to be 'like a ninja' and is known ninja love to keep a low profile. So less noise, the better.

In previous topic (still in my blog) I mentioned Shadow's successfully manipulating a psychopath like Eggman (psychopaths are great manipulators if they are intelligent enough). Most notably, Shadow is not a psychopath, was not trained and is a kid.

In addition, just like Sonic always like to move around and hate to stay still, Shadow liked to keep his brain occupied in some way. Even simply studying 'Blue' (not 'Faker') and questioning him, he enjoyed that.

Hil cool-headedness is linked to his intelligence, I think.

Actually, I believe intelligence was his best quality.

Modern Shadow lacks of the brain and patience to set a perfect plan on his own before taking action. He is more a brawler and I don't perceive him to be particularly intelligent. Such little satisfaction :(

We think to wars as mayhem and bombs and rifle, bazooka, etc...

In history there have been small armies who won far bigger armies in no time, and this happened more than once. How did they do? Well, mostly with a well crafted plan and you need brain for this. Gengis Khan and the Mongolians were a good example of this.

I follow a site about knowledge on various topics and among those who write there, there are also soldiers. Sometimes they explain what war is like, and is anything like Call of Duty.

Speed

I always figured that Shadow's speed is helped by his shoes, since SA2. Shadow moves less (this also underlines his calmer personaity I think), sparing his energies, most likely because he has less energies than Sonic.

However his speed is more than enough for stealth and he was stealthy.

In a war enviroment this would be super useful, he can avoid the dangers, the bullets and would be hard to be seen and detected.

Athletic qualities

Same as Sonic. And counter balanced. Shadow might be not as fast as Sonic without his shoes, but he can swim, no problem, unlike Sonic that just sink like a rock. That would allow to go where is needed with no limits (is unfortunate games never use character swimming abilities, unless they're not Knuckles, Rouge or Tails). He is also strong.

Urge to save people, regardless (gone in recent characterizations).

Although recently it was stated he only look at the big picture (preserve the planet), Shadow originally cared for people. And from SA2 it seems that characteristic is drilled in him. Because when Rouge is in danger, he doesn't want to save her at first. But this simple choices became visibly painful for him, he struggled and quikly got to her rescue.

In Sonic Heroes he was amnesiac and saved Rouge from Omega without thinking. Rouge was a stranger to him and he rushed almost like he could not do anything different. Everytime he rush to save someone, is amost like an invisible force leads him. Possibly he acts this way because he could not save Maria. In Sonic 06 is him who attempst to assist Elise's father. Not the nice, extroverted Silver. The wary, introverted Shadow rush to cheek.

In war you should be able to save your allies when they're hurt but not dying. You can also be part of the medical staff if not a soldier.

Unique talents

Chaos Control, Chaos Spear and Chaos Blast. No need of some Sauron eyed starfish for those abilities. Chaos energy is what keeps Shadow alive and also what make him immortal (a curse for him actually).

Shadow himself stated that he can bend time and space and uses the chaos control to teleport, but he can also teleport other things instead of himself, including large objects. He can also stop time. in Sonic 06 he travels through time, but he needs help to open portals.

I remember when I played SA2 first, i found scary that somebody could throw a spear from afar or paralyze you. Eggman could not. Eggman badnicks threw falfunctioning missile. But Shadow had an immense power and was perfectly in control, and he was calmer than Sonic, not somebody who could lose his head easily.

The rings he wears symbolize his lack of freedom, they also function as restraing Shadow's real power. If he removes them he becomes powerful, virtually invincible. And things would turn very ugly.

All that is self explanatory.

Drawbacks

This art belong to the.shadamy.artisto10. Video to Crazy Greg

A good, balanced characters (who doesn't have a loomy floating starfish over his head) has strenght but also weakness. OG Shadow's weakness are as large as his strenghts.

Physically not so tough

SA2, after we saw a good display of Shadow's strenght, after he won, Amy convinced him to join the good side. Shadow defeated the biolizard without difficulty. But then he joined Sonic to defeat the Biolizard again, who fused with the ARK.

Shadow and Sonic togheter defeated the beast, but well, we all know what happened to Shadow. Because of all the music (aswell as the iconic quietness of Shadow's voice), Shadow's death was so sudden and shocking. But if you remove the music, you hear he is breathless, while Sonic is still healthy. I think is the set back of the very same power that keeps him alive. With so much chaos energy, his limiters (or inibitor rings) become useless.

Inibitor rings or limiters

Shadow's power is so dangerous for him too that he uses it so rarely and is not virtual.

While in Sonic X and in Archie comics, we see what happens if Shadow doesn't wear them, the only time in the game he removes then is Sonic 06. And after he finish, he quickly wears them again so you clearly see he needs them, desperately.

Eggman describled this power like a 'furnace', so I imagine shadow gets a really bad fever if he doesn't wear his ring, after a first explosion of power.

Recurring - emotionally vulnerable

Shadow is always considered overly confident.

That is what he shows to his foes, but his view on himself is quite harsh, even self loathing, with lots of suicidal thoughs. That's his melancholy taking place and nothing can be done against it, only hoping for better moments (Sonic 06 shows a more confident Shadow). It is shown in Sonic Battle, Archie Comics, Shadow the Hedgehog and recent materials.

While, at least in the original characterization, he wasn't nearly as grumpy as Sonic, it was easy to hurt him deeply.

Shadow shows a lot of coping mechanism at the slighlest perception of danger, his favourite is turning his back towars his peers, often slouching, trying to hide as much as he can. Avoiding eye contact is another of his favourite and the most obvious. Shutting off completely (less frequent. In Sonic Battle he goes mute for a long time, Rouge talks for him). Glaring and throwing death treats that fall flat.

Ultimately, the fact he was not born as a weapon is clear in games like Sonic Battle, where he clearly despise wars, building of weapons and so on. If he was meant to be a weapon, he should have been more reckless, joyful and would have enjoyed war or being destructive. Sort of IDW Shadow but with a perpetual grin.

All good stuffs without Black Doom!

Those are the original notes for Shadow and i think they describle the original Shadow very well. The 'Vegeta' thing appears to be more a reference than 'make him identical to Vegeta'. But is clear where his personaity comes from. I shared the French ones too. French is the closest language to Italian, the grammar rules are the same. Spanish is a cauldron of false friends and is not so familiar.

My brother said he is like Vegeta, but softer.

[sunsetschloe]

The Poppy War Series

“How could she compare the lives lost? One genocide against another—how did they balance on the scale of justice? And who was she, to imagine that she could make that comparison?” --R.F Kuang, The Poppy War

[spoiler alert]

I have so much to say about The Poppy War series. No amount of words will describe the feeling it left me when I turned the last page and broke a little inside, but I will try, because that's all I can do the lessen the heartbreak of reading this series:

Rebecca Kuang. No words will describe my adoration for her writing abilities. To be able to incorporate such beauty into such a dark tale is impossibly hard, and no words will describe my absolute respect for her. I absolutely loved her truthful portrayal of war, instead of just romanticizing cruelty, and how utterly blunt she was about the horrors that ordinary people faced during times of chaos.

Rin, Nezha, Kitay, Venka, etc etc. They were just children. That's all I can say. They were children that were no longer innocent because adults shoved swords into their hands, and told them to die for a cause. They were so fucking young when the responsibility of millions of lives was forced upon them, and no person should ever have to make a decision that had such impact, especially not some young people. I loved each and every one of them, and I also loathed the decisions they made, but at the end of the day, they were just children born into a fragile world of cruelty and darkness.

Rin

"Dying was easy. Living was so much harder--that was the most important lesson Altan had ever taught her" --R.F. Kuang, The Burning God

From her choice in choosing to pledge Lore, till the end when she took her own life, I didn't like Rin. I didn't like her decisions, and I didn't respect how she treated her friends, but I did grow so SO attached to her as a character. I hated her for leaving Nezha with a shattered nation, but I also realized how much courage it took for her to take that route. Since she was born, survival mattered the most, always, and the fact that she chose to kill herself, with the interest of her country in mind, deserves so much respect. Yes, you could argue that she realized how hard surviving was, and chose the easy way out, but she was nurtured in a way that forced her to choose survival, to choose life, even if she wasn't truly living. Along with that, she also had Kitay's life bound to hers, so I don't think she made her final decision out of selfishness, but rather a willingness to sacrifice her life so that millions more would keep their own. As long as she was alive, the Hesperians wouldn't leave them alone, so she made her final decision for her country.

Nezha

“He knew exactly what choice she'd made and what she intended. And that made everything- hating her, loving her, surviving her, so much harder.” --R.F. Kuang, The Burning God

I truly believe that Nezha only acted the way he did because he was fucking terrified of everything happening around him. Yes, he was bred for this, but nothing ever prepared him for the shit that was going to come his way. And when Rin was going to kill herself, his composed mask just faded and he revealed the fear he had in him all along. He was another victim of the fragility of society, and I truly hope that no matter what happened after the third book, he found his peace and order.

Venka

After her reappearance (iykyk), I was so terrified that she would die, or go through something just as traumatic again. AND SHE DID. I was trembling when Rin accused her of being a traitor, and the way she threw herself on top of Rin to save her just broke my heart. I refuse to believe that she sold them out and wrote the letters, because how could anyone be a traitor, and still be willing to sacrifice her life for the person accusing them of such things?? Since the truth will never be uncovered, I will live with the hope that she was innocent all along, because she's been through so much, and her legacy should live on clean and untarnished.

[glitchyko]

I’ve decided to just go wild and start showing off my ocs and stories here that I’ve had in my brain and have made art for, even if they make absolutely no sense, starting with my oc that arguably makes the least amount of sense, but I still love her despite that, Xiǎodàn

To explain what’s up with Xiǎodàn, she kind of started as a sort of silly what if thought I had that went something along the lines of, “What would happen if someone was like, born in the scroll?” I’m not sure how to explain it, but before I knew it I was just running with the idea and Xiǎodàn is the result of that-

I’m still working out some of the details of Xiǎodàns story, but I have a sort of general idea of her backstory and her family’s to an extent

So this story starts with Xiǎodàn’s mother, Xīcai, who was a celestial maiden, though she was only a servant/attendant, nothing too grand or special. But she was forced into assisting in a crime (this is one of the things I’m still thinking on) and was caught and sentenced to be imprisoned in the memory scroll, however her punishment was reduced to be only temporary since it came out that she wasn’t helping of her own free will

But when Xīcai was eventually released from said scroll, two things were different about her now, one being her divinity was taken away from her (this was part of her punishment) and she was pregnant-

To explain that Xīcǎi, falls in love with a man who is a apart of the ink scroll (he’s the memory of someone else, I don’t really know how to explain it, ink scroll stuff is hard to explain, but basically he’s not the actual guy, but a memory of him) and stuff happens from there that leads to Xīcai to be expecting when she’s freed from the scroll

So now that she’s a mortal woman, and soon to be a mother, Xīcai works her ass off building a life, getting a home and job and integrating into the mortal realm and raising her daughter, who she named Xiǎodàn, and her daughter looks and acts completely like any mortal human kid would

That changes after Xiǎodàn’s 13th birthday

One day, Xiǎodàn noticed on the very tip of her middle finger, was a small black mark, that no matter how much she scrubbed and wiped it, wouldn’t go away. And with each day that passed, that black stain quickly got bigger and bigger and more appeared as well, and within a month or two, she was basically an ink person, though unlike the ink demons shown in s4, her body has more physicality, she’s got flesh, bones, etc, and her body doesn’t stain everything it touches

So while Xīcai is trying to figure out what to do about her daughters transformation and who she can go to for help, Xiǎodàn stays home and in her room most of the time, since she can’t go outside with her current appearance, cause of this, she’s grown incredibly lonely since she can’t see or talk to her friends in person now, the only person she can talk to face to face is her mom. One day at some point she’s just curled up in her room, and she mutters how she just wants someone else to talk to, before pressing her face into her knees, unaware of drips of ink on the floor slowly coming together and forming a small puddle, until a figure starts coming out of said puddle

It turns out Xiǎodàn can summon Inky (that’s what she calls the protective curse/ink MK) and de summon him whenever she pleases-

In a way Xiǎodàn is kind of like a walking scroll, she can create/summon ink people, but she can’t imprison people in the scroll (maybe she could if she had a piece of the scroll but I’m still deciding on this)

Xiǎodàn is not super eager to trust this ink monkey person who appeared in her room, and Inky isn’t super keen on trusting her either, though they are very curious about what exactly Xiǎodàn is and what she could be capable of, since she was able to bring them out of the scroll without a having a piece of it, and Xiǎodàn summoning inky and talking to them does make her wonder what exactly can she do (inky helps spark her curiosity) but she doesn’t tell Xīcai about this because she doesn’t want her mother to worry or freak out, and Inky advised her not to. So Xiǎodàn sort has Inky as a secret friend, summoning when she just wants someone to talk to about whatever.

One day inky is summoned by Xiǎodàn, and inky notices some bags are being packed and asks what are those for, and Xiǎodàn explains that her mom says they’re going to go to a city called Megaopolis to meet someone Xīcǎi says might be able help her, and when inky asks who, Xiǎodàn says he’s called the monkie kid and Inky just quietly says with a smile, “Interesting…”

And that’s all I’m gonna share for right now, I know this oc and this story don’t really make sense when you think about it, and there’s things I still need to decide on, but I wanted to share these here cause why not

[waitforcaiti]

// CAITI LORE!!! (because I never elaborated on her character.. oops..)

Caiti Armstrong was born November 5th 1985. She was born to Paul Armstrong and Cassandra Armstrong.

Growing up, Caiti didn't make friends. She was a wallflower, and to the few friends she had, a doormat. She kept to herself and stole her father's camera to make short films and scripts in her free time.

During high school, Caiti started stealing alcohol from her parents and began smoking/drinking and starving herself. She stopped talking completely (except for the short films she would make in her spare time). She tried (and failed) to maintain her status by keeping up her grades and being as active in clubs as possible.

Some how, she managed to get into a decent film school out in Jersey, even picking up a job at a local record store. Around this time, a boy had asked her out. He was incredibly horrible for her and was very abusive both emotionally and physically. Caiti still made no effort to try and be sociable or anything other then invisible so Jigsaw sent an apprentice (Lawrence) (idk why I just have a big fat crush on him) to trap her.

Her trap takes place in-between Saw 2 and Saw 3. Her trap was a test similar to the nerve-gas house, a redo, of sorts.

She was trapped in a house with four other manic/homicidal victims who were there for their own separate reasons (DV, DUI causing three casualties, child neglect, pervert). She had a device strapped to her neck and had to keep talking because if she didn't it would close around her neck and suffocate her. There's also a good chance if she wasn't bargaining for her life she'd die. She also had a sedative poison in her veins to make it harder.

When she escaped, she had that bliss period of "oh my life is so great" (getting promoted, breaking up with her toxic ex, etc) before it all came crashing down on her. Caiti became irritable on most days, depressed and even more of a wallflower. Obviously, other days were better (she got a job in a coffee shop and participates in class) but most days are hard. She's mildly suicidal still, but on off days will attend the jigsaw survivor group. Caiti's still incredibly socially awkward as she's only been properly talking for a year give or take. She's easy to snap, yet very caring if you find the right spot.

"[I'm] really nice when you get to know [me], swear it."

Her user is a play on words, telling you to wait for her (either to catch up to normal or just in general I suppose.)

Yeah! Uh, feel free to interact because I'm literally BEGGING you I need to role-play. OCs or canon it doesn't matter to me:3!!!

[virenasalin]

OC Intro Meme

this meme is absolutely everywhere, i saw multiple open tags and that was all the excuse i needed to yap about my creature

@ anyone seeing this and wanting to do it themselves: im tagging you (yes YOU 🫵)

GENERAL

Name: Zalan Laidir

Alias(es): Rook

Gender: Binary trans man

Age: 51 (born in Matrinalis 9:01 Dragon)

Place of birth: Llomerryn, Rivain

Spoken languages: Trade, Rivaini, broken Qunlat, bits and pieces of Elven (Bellara and Davrin have been teaching him some + he made a copy of Merrill's flashcards)

Sexual orientation: Pansexual

Occupation(s):

Leader of the Veilguard

Skeleton Stepfather

Expert Navigator (sea, land, old dusty tomb, you name it)

Junior Dragon Hunter (Taash said they'll promote him when he makes it through one battle without being tossed like a ragdoll. Just one, old man.)

FAVORITE

Color: Gold, fittingly

Entertainment/Pastimes:

Card games

Causing Isabela's high blood pressure (so she said, but Zalan argued her drinking is the more likely culprit. She reminded him of the “Rivaini Noble Incident” and threatened to kick his ass from Rivain to Antiva... again.)

Smoking elfroot (He's been carrying the fate of Thedas on his back, he's got some achy joints)

Stargazing, especially when he's out on the sea

Drawing - his sketchbook is a mix of:

> Lords related things - Trap diagrams, rune decoders, rudimentary maps of buildings, dungeons, etc. with markers for security points, entrances/exits, and plenty of notes about the corresponding heists in the margins

> Bits of what he's seen on his travels - Flora and fauna, interesting statues, busy city streets

More recent pages show that he's branched out into portraits, quite a few of which are of a certain senior necromancer

Food: Oysters, banana bread, these apple pastries Lucanis made for the team once

Drink: A Rum Runner is his favorite, but he'll gravitate to any of those deceivingly tasty mixed drinks that are like 98% alcohol and a thimbleful of fruit juice

Books: He was never the biggest reader even when he was an apprentice. He's been known to kick back with a cheesy romance now and again, though

HAVE THEY

Passed university: Yes, he received a Circle education

Had sex: Yes. He found it an effective way to let off steam particularly on long expeditions, prior to working with Varric and leading the Veilguard. He and Isabela have slept together a few times over the years

Had sex in public: Semi public? He's no exhibitionist, but privacy is sometimes hard to come by (especially on a ship)

Gotten tattoos: Multiple

A frayed, broken rope around his neck to commemorate his freedom

A full sleeve on his right arm: a sword, a ship, abstract geometric shapes. He adds onto it with every successful job, and he'll likely finish the sleeve once life post-Gods settles down a bit. Maybe even start a new piece on his left arm

A diamond on his lower back that he got after getting sloshed and losing a game of Wicked Grace; he's made it more elaborate since then

Gotten piercings:

Two helix piercings in his left ear that he wears gold hoops in

Post-Veilguard he got Rook piercings in both ears as celebration. Really, how could he not? It was too perfect. He joked that it was named in honor of him (everyone groaned)

He wanted a vertical labret piercing at one time but witnessed another Lord get theirs ripped out in combat and that idea was instantly killed

A VCH piercing - a gold curved barbell with small opals set on either end

Gotten Scars: You don't exist in Thedas for as long as he has without acquiring at least a few. Magical mishaps, the years as a Tevinter galley slave, heists gone wrong, facing off against multiple Gods... They've all left their marks on his body and are a testament to the simple fact that he survived, despite everything. He's not one to boast about his scars but he's not ashamed of them either.

Had a broken heart: Yes, a few times. He's the type to fall hard and fast which hasn't worked out well for him in the past.

Outside of romance, he had a close relationship with his mother and was devastated when she was murdered. He wasn't in Rivain at the time and didn't hear about her death until months after it had happened. Losing her would’ve been painful regardless, but not being there in her last moments ate at him. It's been over a decade since then and while he's been able to work through a lot of his grief it's still a sore spot. Emmrich opening up about the deaths of his own parents gave him the push he needed to talk about his mother for the first time in years

Been in love: Goes hand in hand with previous, yes. A resounding yes now as he's devoted to Emmrich

ARE THEY

A cuddler: Absolutely. He's a tactile person in general and that's cranked up to 11 with a romantic partner

Scared easily: Not easily no, he's learned to choke down the feeling. In his line of work being jumpy or freezing up, even for a second, could cost him his life or his crewmates’

Jealous easily: When he was younger and more insecure, yes. Now not so much; he's confident in himself and his relationship

Trustworthy: For the most part? He's very reliable - which is something he prides himself on - and he'll keep your secrets, but he's not above a white lie. For the greater good, of course

He may also cheat at Wicked Grace but nobody's been able to prove it

FAMILY

Sibling(s): None that he's aware of though it's possible (and probable) that he has a half sibling somewhere

Parents: He doesn't know much about his father; he was a sailor from the Free Marches that Zalan's mother had a brief fling with

His mother was a Seer who ran a small shop in Llomerryn that sold amulets, charms, potions and the like to the many travelers who docked there. She was killed in 9:40 Dragon, when the Right of Annulment was invoked on the Dairsmuid Circle

Children: Manfred counts, yeah? Other than that... he's not completely against the idea of adopting but he has zero interest in having biological children, and he's past the point of that option anyhow

Pets: There's some cats that lounge around the Hilt that he feeds and loves on but he doesn't want a pet of his own

[bajablast666]

For the yellow emoji asks: Kelrath: 🌽 (corn) (esp for the band au?), 🌻 (sunflower), 🔑 (key) Kaethan: 🍋 (lemon) thank you 💜!!

Thank you!

🌽 (corn) - What’s the hardest job your character has worked, if they’ve had a job at all? What made it so hard and what finally made them quit?

Kelrath in Band Au never had an official "real job". He helped his mom out at the diner since he was a child (we're talking 8 or 9 probably), mostly bussing tables or helping her prep ingredients at night or before they opened. Prepping ingredients is probably how he originally learned knife skills and that was probably his favorite thing to do. He still likes the motions and muscle memory of chopping vegetables, deboning chickens etc it takes him out of his own head and it's something that he's good at. Cooking is a skill you can perfect so it's something he still enjoys as an adult when he has the opportunity to do it (which is rare) After his mother died when he was 16-17ish he joined the band Lolth and the Dread Fangs as their new bassist. He didn't mind helping out at the diner because it was things he could do without having to talk to anyone and he could do without much thought. He didn't get paid for any of it though so working with the band was the first time he'd make money that was his to spend. In canon he and his mother were servants and that was something he hated. He hated being told what to do, to be viewed as nothing, to be spoken down to or outright abused. It was a degrading time of his life and a lot of the issues he has surrounding his pride and desire for autonomy stem back to that time. After his mother was killed, he killed everyone in the household and was conscripted into the Dread Fangs which was also awful but in a different way. At least as a Dread Fang though he had some measure of autonomy and privacy and got to do what he was best at (killing)

🌻 (sunflower) - What’s something your character has grown out of? Did it happen gradually or was it a drastic change? What caused this shift?

Oh this is a tough one, hmmm. In some ways Kelrath didn't really have childhood to grow out of. I think in both universes there's a common thread of "loss of innocence" that really reaches its climax when he performs his first kill. As a child and preteen Kelrath is very inside his own head, struggling against warring influences. The influence of his mother to be resilient, to strive for something, to do good despite hardship. And the darker, more authentic influence of his actual birthright--to reject ties of emotion, to commit acts of violence, to kill. In canon especially Kelrath had very little choice in anything--he's very much pulled back and forth between many different surrounding forces. Not to mention the fact that he was born into servitude (and as a male Drow at that). In the end, the only way to wrest any semblance of autonomy back for himself was basically to give up that very autonomy to Bhaal and the urge. It's not a choice that he can go back from, and everything changed after that.

🔑 (key) - What’s something your character has never told anyone? Why have they kept it a secret? What, if anything, would make them reveal it?

I think there's a lot that Kelrath has never told anyone because Kelrath is a very private person. He doesn't share details about himself. I think there are some things in canon that he's shared with Gortash and even Kaethan, little dismissive remarks or bits of information about his life in the Underdark but never anything too revealing ie "Pretty drow boys don't last long in the Underdark, trust me" "I met him during my time as a Dread Fang" "I killed my mother so I wouldn't know" etc In band au it's less information he's offered up and more inferences Gortash has been able to draw based on the fact that they are together so often on tour and writing music together. In both universes Gortash has gotten close enough to Kelrath to also pick up on the fact that he's aro/ace but that there's more to it than just that, has picked up on the fact that the depth of his disdain and disgust is a little too aggressive and reactive to just be that, that there's probably has some trauma behind it but he doesn't bother digging further than that. And now that I mention it, that said trauma is likely the only thing he truly won't share or admit. Not to anyone else and not even to himself. Because saying it, is thinking about it, is admitting that it happened. Kelrath is never going into detail about any of the moments that he was truly helpless or at the mercy of others.

And now for Kaethan!

🍋 (lemon) - What’s something your character never got over, if anything? Why did it affect them so much and is there any chance of them ever healing from it?

I think the thing that fucks Kaethan up the most is finding out why his mother left. Growing up he assumed it was because of his father being a violent drunk, that she escaped and left and he can't blame her too much for that. Sure, he would wonder why she didn't take him with her but he was willing to forgive that. In canon he eventually finds her and when he does she reveals that she left because she couldn't stand him. Not her husband but her son. And that he's not actually her son, she lost her child in childbirth and due to her grief and terror that her husband would blame her for the child's death, the temple where she'd gone to give birth gave her an orphaned half-elf infant that had been left on their doorstep that very morning. She took that child home, claiming it to be theirs and that child was Kaethan. She reveals to Kaethan, screaming in his face, that she always hated him, that he was a disturbed boy who would bring her dead insects, who'd sew pins into the dresses of rude customers, who'd say disturbing, off-putting things to clients. That he made her life worse and she left because she hated him. Unable to deal with this reality, Kaethan kills his mother In band au it's pretty similar except he kills her when he's very young (probably 8 or 9) finding her trying to leave in the middle of the night. she's his first kill in that au and he doesn't remember it until years later because the Urge had taken over. I think what makes this event truly traumatic for Kaethan (aside from, you know, the obvious) is that he thinks it proves everything that his father said about him right. That it WAS Kaethan's fault she left, that Kaethan ruins everything, that he's bad at everything and an awful son.

[voidedsartblog]

Okay so about that one comic is koma giving Jackie a taste of her own medicine or?

My lore isn't the most comprehensive thing in the world (and i haven't rlly talked about it much publicly yet bc i been cooking...) BUT essentially KINDA?

TRIGGER WARNING FOR ALL OF THIS!!!

Specifically TW for: Mentions of Cannibalism, murder, kidnapping, etc

Ouuu lore drop time

Koma is supposed to be super super fucked up n evil right 👍 just pure badness, and Jackie is supposed to represent someone who was made into a bad person by her circumstances

(that being she was born with some genetic issues that caused her to be pretty violent, cannibalistic, and generally mentally unstable at an instinctual level)

Koma, in this point of the story, has a fucked up sort of affection for and desire to make Jackie suffer and ends up abducting her, starving her and then forcing her to eat her (Koma) because its her "only option" (Jackie had denied any previous food from Koma due to distrust, she'd rather starve than be poisoned or tricked) Koma doesn't die from this because she's essentially got infinite regen for her entire body 👍

Komas REASON for all of this is because of an incident that happened between the two of them roughly when they were both friends in kindergarten. At that point Jackie had slightly shown signs something wasn't okay, occasionally attacking wildlife like birds, lizards, and other small animals because of her unknown disposition (that being her basically having the instincts of an actual carnivorous animal 😭) These later went unchecked and eventually she'd snapped one day and attacked another person, that being Koma. Koma was left dead and quite literally ripped apart (I will save the specifics for a later date i don't feel like describing her death bro its sad)

Jackie, being too young to be held accountable legally for killing another person, and too young to even understand properly what exactly she'd done was sent off to a psyche ward of sorts, basically a place where people with similarly violent or unusual birth effects/defects were held for the publics safety 👍 (surely this place is run by morally correct upheld individuals that only want the best for the ones held there righttt)

Going back to Koma, while shes dead (or almost) and passing onto the Void, a V (a species that takes a yap in itself to explain) attatches itself to Koma and makes a deal with her, said deal was essentially "I'll fix your body and you'll get to live your life however you want, but I get to inhabit/have your body" Koma agrees and the V " Fixes her body " (they basically merge into one individual) and they both get what they "want". Koma only gains consciousness and emerges after aboutt 10 years of the V and her merging /repairing her body (she'd be 16) and then wanders around doing who knows what for another 4-5 years before going to GET Jackie

THERES ALOT MORE BUT YAPPING IS HARD!!!!

Basically Koma is getting fucked up payback because Jackie ate her when she was a child and she's also lowkey posessed by a V so that just makes everything worse 😭😭😭 she also generally FUCKS UP Jackie like x10 more so now she needs like quadruple therapy bruh 😭

Her logic is "well you sure as hell enjoyed eating me 15 yrs ago so how about I make you do it over n over since u liked it so much"

(if you have anymore questions about Flaws of Dawn and its characters, please ask in its specific Tumblr in the future!! :3)

Yap yap yap

[flowersofstarlight]

Hi @ericaportfolio

If you’re reading this, I wanted to let you know about my thoughts about Nick Nack’s past and thinking about him having PTSD. I’ve been thinking a lot about Nick’s childhood and going through trauma and abuse by his father in your AU. And it kinda got me to psychoanalyze him and theorize what he’s feeling, what he’s afraid of and that he might be going through depression after he and the Handeemen manage to escape from Francis and his mob.

I’m not a therapist or a psychiatrist or psychologist, but I have learned a little bit about how the brain works when people have experienced schizophrenia, PTSD, trauma, etc. from the videos of Therapists reacting to Arcane: League of Legends, talking about Vi’s trauma and Jinx/Powder’s PTSD and schizophrenia. Both Moxxie from Helluva Boss and Hunter from The Owl House were also abused by their parent/guaridan like Nick. It might make sense to mention them having similar situation as Nick did.

This is going to be sad what I’m about to say and long to read, but take the time you need to check it out later and if you have some free time. And let me know your thoughts about this in the comments or reblog. I am curious what you think and I think Nick needs a lot of hugs.

So, after Mortimer and the others escaped from Fracis, Nick probably would be at home blaming himself for getting the others dragged into that situation with Francis and his mob. Obviously he didn’t know that he would see his father again and didn’t know what to do. He thought he got away and never had to go back to the place he grew up in. I feel like Francis’ manipulation has pushed Nick’s sadness to guilt, making him think that it’s Nick’s fault for what happened to his mother and what was about to happen to Mortimer and the others, the way Scar did to his nephew Simba.

If Francis told him things, when he was a child and internalized those messages in his head, Nick would have a hard time challenging them as an adult. He might still carry that guilt and what Francis said to him. He probably would feel like a burden to everyone in their life. Feeling like he carried so much weight on them to stress out and felt like the one who put them in danger. He would even hate himself because he didn’t ask for anything bad to happen to the Handeemen that got dragged into that mess, he didn’t ask to be born, and never asked to be the son of the Mob Boss.

Francis’ words and manipulation would be stuck into Nick’s head, and Nick would be going through depression, fear and probably hallucinate hearing negative words around him and having nightmares and trouble falling asleep. His mother Jancis, was very kind and loving to him, like the light that guides him and there to comfort him. But since Francis took that away from him, he would felt helpless and be treated like a toy or moved around like a pawn on the chessboard.

Nick might be thinking that it’s his fault for his mother to disappear because he is her weakness. Although Jancis does love her son dearly and wanted to protect him, it isn’t true that Nick is the responsible for her disappearance because he was (I assumed when he was eight) just a kid and didn’t do anything wrong to her. It was Francis’ choices that made Jancis disappear. And that affects Nick really badly, causing him to have PTSD, and Francis hitting his own son (like an abusive father he is) makes him never forget those scars and would haunt him forever.

Of course, Nick ran away to start a new life where he can be himself and follow his dream and years later, he found others who truly cared about him and like him the way he is like Valentino, Mortimer and the others. But after meeting Francis, Nick probably felt he does not matter to anyone and is just a problem that dragged others to get hurt because of him. He is sick and tired of being the victim and wants to bury that pain or other negative emotions down in the ground forever, but it gets worse. It really doesn’t help if you keep suppressing your own emotions.

He probably would push everyone away, so that they won’t get hurt again. But he needed to realize that bad things are going to happen to everyone, including the good people. He has people who cared about him, but that scared him the most because he’s afraid that Mortimer and the others will disappear like his mother or be killed or worse and that he can’t do anything but watch it happen right in front of him, and he thinks it’ll be all his fault because he did nothing and let it happen.

Valentino may not understand what Nick is going through or what it feels like to be in his shoes, but they can sympathize that because they were mistreated by someone who treats them like they’re nothing, but a tool or pawn. Before Val opened their own boutique, they used to work with their boss who is a famous fashion designer operating in London.

Valentino was extremely happy that they got the job to work with their idol and create the dresses and suits to show their creations. But after a while working with their idol, Val told Nick that they were getting abused and under so much pressure by their boss. Valentino felt they needed to be perfect around her and keep pleasing her to do what she demanded because they are one of her best designers to create new clothes that are worth selling. She was very manipulative to them and would steal their ideas, and also insulting their appearance. And Val once said to themselves, “If I don’t complain, if I do my best, if I do every simple thing she asks of me, maybe one day she will throw me a bone. Maybe one day, I will gain her enough satisfaction that she will give me the respect and show her gratitude.” Which obviously is not good, and is unhealthy relationship to have with someone.

They worked with her for almost 3 years and it really made Val feel miserable and felt like they haven’t rested since forever. It even made them forget about their family and why they do it in the first place. However, their boss is not just awful to Valentino, she is awful to every fashion designer who works with her and would fire her least favorite designer if she didn’t like what they created.

But after Val met a friend who was very kind and gave them the wisdom they needed to hear, Val was happy that they worked up the courage to quit and say “I deserve better” and walk away from a toxic relationship. After they quit, they felt a lot happy like they haven’t been that happy for so long. Now they get to reconnect with their family and catch up for lost time, they find peace and went to therapy to talk about their emotions they felt working with their idol (well, used to be their idol). Val gives Nick advice to go to see therapy that their old friend could help.

Nick needed to realize it wasn’t his fault for putting the Handeemen in danger and his mother disappearing. He needs to see that he’s not alone and has people who are there to support and care about him. He also needed to be honest and show his vulnerability to himself and others to grow as a person. And have self-acceptance, opening up, and relinquishing his fears to build trust and honesty with others.

I think if Nick will give time to heal, he’ll finally start accepting the past and move on. And maybe he’ll be able to let go and find peace and he’ll be okay despite everything that happened.

It would be interesting to see his character development grow, seeing him standing up to his father, fighting back to protect his loved ones, seeing Riley and Nick working together to escape, and helping others to escape from Francis and his mobs. And maybe it would be cool to see Nick vs Francis if it’s possible. You know, like fight scenes. But knowing that Mortimer’s Handeemen is a kids show, I don’t think they’ll allow that. But if they do, the battles would probably be similar to Muppets as long as it is not dark, not too violent or inappropriate to watch for the kids.

Anyway, that is all I want to talk about. Again, feel free to reblog or comment what you think. And I hope you’re doing good and find it interesting what I talked about Nick having PTSD.

[fotiathymos]

here have my way too detailed promare headcannons very trans and queer and warning for not good subjects like trans phobia and self har ms

enjoy?

I have a LONG thing of galo's trans history and growing up imma write it poorly c:

I silly hc Galo's parents as Kamina and Yoko because i can why not. Two punks who got together super young, couldnt afford rings or an actual wedding. Had a couple friends witness them sign papers in a government building and then both went clubbing after to celebrate marriage.

When they decided to have kids they had a hard time. There were 2 miscarriages before Galo and Galo was born prematurely but made it with a bunch of hospital visits. The couple were then extra broke because of this. Galo's mom called him her 'little miracle'. They lived with the rest of the Gurren Lagann crew in a shitty apartment building. They raised Galo the best they could and he was a spoiled child for as much as they could and literally every adult in the building loved him. The apartment housed secret burnish and the neighborhood was considered slums and full of anarchists. Yoko and Kamina of course were okay with that title and didnt care much for how the government was treating the burnish situation.

Eventually (by the time Galo was 10) Yoko and Kamina could afford a 'proper' wedding. They rented a small venue and mostly just threw a party to exchange some cheap rings they finally got and have a good time with friends. Galo remembers it still as an adult, as he ran down the aisle with the rings instead of walked cause he got nervous. He also remembers both his parents getting absulotely drunk at the wedding and his parents lifting him up to dance on top of the bar with them.

Once Galo was put into school did he bring up his gender confusion. He, of course, was gendered female in school and had to be grouped as such. Once he expressed his concerns with his parents they were open to help him. He was put on puberty blockers as a kid. His parents were supportive even tho it was sometimes 'theyre a little confused but they got the spirit' of it.

When the fire happened, Galo lost his parents and the other 'family' that were in the apartment building. The media praised Kray and the burnish flames were left to how the apartment was housing burnish and that the neighborhood was bad. The media was wrong of course, but freeze force didnt care to look into it much. The attention was aimed at Kray being a savior.

After the incident Galo was in a church foster care and immediately off blockers and had the worst time of his life. It was a mixture of how Galo looked (dressed as a boy, undercut, etc) the neighbors and school he attended identifying Galo with he/him, (the focus was also more so on Kray not Galo) on why the media gendered Galo correctly. Kray was later informed Galo was trans and in turn, outed him to the media, but in a ploy to make Kray himself look good and 'open minded'. Galo was going through a lot so he didnt see it as a bad thing, he saw it as Kray accepting him like his parents did. Kray still simply 'couldnt help' Galo obtain blockers or late hrt. Galo was mostly left to however the foster care system provided for him which was maybe used clothes and misgendering.

Galo's preteen years was a mix of life taking attempts, full on deep isolation and obsession with studying about the Edo period to disassociate with, a couple years dressing as the most girly girl possible as bullying and harassments got too much and then also Galo's beginning of self harm via over working out. Galo's unfortunate reason to keep going most of the time was Kray's visits. When he would go see Kray work and be inspired seeing how much Kray was growing in 'helping' the city and everyone. Kray wouldn't visit often but when he did, Galo would be treated with good food, shopping sprees, fun trips to see mechs and weapons get built and Kray wouldn't ever misgender Galo in front of him.

Galo grew up very awkward and hard to interact with others but always enthusiastic about it. In order to impress Kray he wanted to make sure his own image looked good and tried his best at being picture perfect like Kray was. Galo studied hard, started working young, went stealth to pass as cis, practice his façade to make friends and started young with his bravado attitude in any spotlight he got.

When he wanted top surgery, Kray 'didnt have the funds'. Galo chalked it up to Kray can't be spending money on Galo all the time, he had better things to do and money was better spent on those in need and not Galo. Kray was investing in his large statue of himself. Galo worked to save money and after years he approached Kray with the money he saved and asked for help finding a surgeon. Kray told Galo to find one on his own since he 'wouldn't know how any of that sex change stuff works anyway'. Galo did and finally went through with it all on his own. It was in the hospital when no one visited him that some doubts about Kray started popping up.

Galo did this right as he turned 18. He was out of foster care and he had to rent an apartment for himself to live in, Kray promised to help with that but he never did. At one point Galo, a month out of surgery, couldn't afford rent since it all went to medications and the surgery (he had the tendency to get super focused on one goal that he would neglect everything else to accomplice it). He was kicked out of the apartment and ended up on Kray's doorstep. But he didnt actually have Kray's home address so it was his office building and when Kray purposely tried to ignore him and just not go into the office and Galo fell asleep in front the building for a couple night and people started talking.. suddenly Kray could afford a small apartment right next to the Burning Rescues training building.

Time skip to after the film's events.

I wrote alot and am tired now so ill write more later maybe but some quick stuff.

Galo was raised to be ashamed of being trans and having taught to keep it a thing to himself and a secret. When meeting the Mad Burnish after the events and Galo finally got to hang out with Lio, (who ended up being the first trans person he could talk about gender stuff with) did he start seeing a different side to it all. And when Galo saw how un ashamed Meis and Gueira were with presenting themselves helped have Galo also realize he could dress a lil more fun then just black tshirts and his work uniform (though he was always proud to wear his uniform out) Galo would start questioning himself again and realize he's non binary.

I focused on Galo but I will prob do the others soon. others meaning Lio Meis and Gueira all have their own journeys. and also this was somewhat focused on trans shit but i do have more not trans related hc about Galo's past.

okay okay

tldr

i talk about galo

thanks if you read all this omg ilu

[virgossims]

The Hill Family - origins

Hii,

I started this family on sims 3, and when my game stopped working and I decided to give sims 4 a chance I just missed them way too much... so I remade them!

Most of their lore is from sims 3 so please ignore the extremely different genetics etc... (I tried my best lmao)

THE LORE

GEN ONE

The founders of this family are Ashton and Noah Hill.

The two of them met in university and quickly fell in love, getting married straight out of college.

Ashton received a job offer to work at the mayor's office in Salmon Woods and they both decided to move there since Noah's work as an artist was mainly at home.

Not longer after the move, Ashton was in charge of a fundraiser for a foster care home and that's when he met a little girl called April.

April was in foster care with her twin brother, Kai, and when she met Ashton she immediately felt a connection and made it her life's goal to get adopted by him. Kai, being very protective of his sister and hating every type of authority, hated the idea and hated Ashton.

After awhile Ashton realized April's plan and even though he knew Kai didn't like him he couldn't help but consider it, because he had so much love for the twins. That's when he decided to introduce them to his husband Noah, an artist with a great sense of humour and rebel ideas. To no one's surprise, Noah and Kai got along incredibly well and it ended up being Noah assuring Ashton that despite being very young they were ready to adopt the twins.

Life after that wasn't exactly sunshine and rainbows. They had to go through a lot in order to get the adoption and through it all Kai was very much still causing trouble, especially when it came to Ashton.

When they became teens April was a straight A student gunning for law school, while Kai became more and more interested in art like his father Noah. His relationship with Ashton grew stronger and even though they fought a lot there was a lot of love there from both of them. Kai started rebelling in other ways and turned his anger to his art.

Ashton then got a job offer in Evansdale County, and the whole family moved which was hard for Kai.

By the time Ashton and Noah were in their 30s and their careers were doing great they decided it was time to adopt again.

That's when Madelyn came into the picture. A sweet and shy girl that loved sports. The entire family describes her as a ray of sunshine.

As she grew up she started doing really well and was constantly winning school sports events and made it to the national football team by the time she was a teen.

After high school April was in university studying law and Kai started to really take his art seriously, and one of his favorite places to paint and draw at was the beach.

That's when he reconnected with Rachel Meyers. A girl he met when he was younger, in foster care, and that he had lost contact with after moving to Evansdale County.

Rach had moved to Evansdale after getting emancipated and got herself a little cabin on the beach where she lived with her dog while working at a local resort.

They crossed paths at the beach and started seeing each other all the time. As a result, Rachel ended up getting pregnant at 19. Ashton and Noah then decided to invite her to stay at their house and she lived there through her pregnancy and first few years of Summer's life, their daughter.

GEN TWO

Their relationship grew stronger and eventually Kai proposed to Rachel. And they bought a little house on the beach. Rach's dream had always been to live and raise her children by the water, while owning her very own waterside hotel.

Rach then got pregnant again, with their second daughter, Aubrey, and actually got married during that time, at the beach obviously.

The Hill family stayed very close even after all the siblings moved out, but shortly after Aubrey was born Noah ended up passing away.

During all of this April started her job as a lawyer and ended up meeting a business man with whom she had 3 children. Her oldest son, Dash, Cory and the youngest Nora.

Madelyn also had a child named Eva. And became a professional athlete.

(no sims 3 pics sry)

By the time Summer was a teen and Aubrey was a child, Ashton passed away and Kai decided it was time to finally change things up and pursue their dreams, wherever that might take them. Even though it hurt them a lot to leave Kai's sisters, they all stayed in constant contact and visit each other all the time.

Kai, Rachel, Summer and Aubrey moved to an island named Sulani.

(sims 4 transition)

On their first day on the island Summer met Enzo, her next door neighbour who lived with his grandmother. Their rooms ended up having windows facing each other and the two of them developed a deep friendship.

At some point, Summer began to notice things weren't exactly going well between Enzo and his grandmother and she started inviting him over often. Rach and Kai understood and because they are no strangers to rough home situations they allowed Enzo to basically live at their house.

Enzo became an honorary member of the Hill family, going to every family event.

He is, to this day, the most important person in Summer's life and she loves him but they refuse to make anything official because they would never want to mess what they have. That said, growing up they explored their romance every now and then, which led to both of them not being able to keep partners.

Much like her mother, Summer has always loved the ocean and now, living on the island, she started getting into surfing with her parents and later on started competing.

She won several championships as a teen and ended up landing sponsors.

Aubrey though, despite growing up on the beach, isn't really a fan of water sports or sand so she dedicated her time to learning about space and videogames.

Meanwhile Kai's sisters and their family's also moved around and Madelyn is currently a pro football player in San Myshuno where April also lives with her family and works as a lawyer.

Summer and Enzo both graduated recently and both decided to pursue their passions: surf and music.

Summer stayed on the island and moved in with some friends and Enzo moved to San Myshuno alone while the rest of the family is still living at the house.

A new chapter for the Hill family is now starting...

Generation 3 coming soon.

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