#cause like. it was so easy until it wasnt & now im like. ok yeah im definitely about to go back into my stupid fucking pattern where i jusy

[muttsona]

THAT WON'T MAKE ME WANT TO DIE ANY LESS.

[fappellmoan]

so right a couple of my film friends and i met last night to do wine and glee and i left and tried to catch a bus in our gross rainy cold weather and so when it finally comes im just like zoo wee mama my glasses r fogging up and all that shit. but who of course is on the bus but my one friend the main perpetrator of acting like im some flaky cunt (rant city below)

so i guess technically this wouldnt look great on my part bc i was obviously Somewhere and had been ignoring the group chat making plans but oh my GOD whatever who careessssss who Cares. so im like fucking phenomenal ok walk back Omg hi and she moves her shit so i can sit and i get settled and am like hey. and she asks what i was up to and ofc when i say anything bc this is fucking awkward shes just got this stupid smug little smile but i was just sitting there like bitch im not gonna sit here and act embarrassed for seeing my other friends so i was just like So are u guys doing x tn and shes like mhm yep are you coming and i was like well gee i dont know. sarcastic shrug. make conversation about the timing of the place for a second kinda jokin then awk silence

and so then because im a chill normal adult and am aware that shes about to go meet the group of friends and no matter what this interaction is going to be brought up and i had been planning on composing a levelheaded text but i just said Look im sorry that i ghosted you guys (and shes again smug smiling nodding next to me. girl.) i just honestly got tired of feeling like im being singled out and judged when i cant make it to something and she literally is just like Well im sorry you feel that way just u know we do try to come up w different days etc (if u like me are bad at reading between the lines this was a non apology and defense based on uh Nothing) and i was like right well ik last semester wasnt great it's just that sometimes i feel like im being shunned in the group chats when no one answers or reacts to anything i say and the other day when you said like. yk the 'could u commit' thing that felt really sort of condescending

and shes like again well im sorry u felt that way i was just trying to find another day that u could actually make it cause i wanted us all to be there so im not really sure how that came across as condescending but um yeah. and i, jackass that i am (<3) pulled out my phone and pointed and said Well u see we didnt have actual plans and in fact no one answered when i said anything abt it and yk things come up and so for me to have sent this whole nice thing and just get 'do you think youd be able to commit' in response felt a little bit needlessly mean (and i also tried to earnestly say at some point in all this that i genuinely do love and care for them and want to see them but yk this Sucks and was just bad timing)

THEN we somehow spin into her going Well i just had no idea this was even a thing until you brought it up just now i mean i wasnt even thinking abt it ive never really thought that of you etc and so then im sitting here feeling like im being gaslit in real time not to be dramatic and i felt very much like when i was in high school and people manipulated me bc i was a very easy target (its not that real but w/e) and so im like Ok be calm but dont just like let that slide cause girl be serious (prob should have but what ever) so i was like well you know i do apologize if i just couldnt tell your intent over text, but after you guys never answered me about hanging out and then the short responses like maybe u can kind of see where i felt like you were being rude (didnt say it quite that bluntly w/e)

and she pulls out the big card. the. well i just think youre being defensive. oh years and years of being the youngest and punished for um having feelings lmfao slammed me in my chest at that moment. and i calmly said Okay cool i think youre being defensive. and i lit missed my bus stop cause this driver was swerving so then i was just like Well you guys have fun maybe ill see you tonight bye. so. really feeling awesome abt the state of that. in all reality tho it's like i hung out w some friends and then went out to the gay bar w others and danced and etc and i can only imagine how much of a Thing this was for them so. if someone could win it'd be me right

(on another note at some point during this ride sams roommate requested to follow me back <3 which i had been pretending not to think abt for the last couple hours) anyway

this has been a post let me know if im being normalish

[livingroombeat]

Living room beat progress update 12\16\23

Hi gang, are you ready for your scheduled progress update? I sure am the worlds most consistent writer. well anyway ive been doing some planning for a4 and im gonna kinda explain my current roadmap here.

-do end of a3 animation

Yeah i havent done it yet, ive just been procrastinating. Anyway though its gonna be a short one and it wont take long so this isnt like a major deal or anything.

-do a4

I have the events of a4 planned in detail already in a text file so all i have to do is write the dialogue and turn it into comics. Ive said it before and ill say it again: a3 was WAY too many comics. There were so many comics that were just a couple of words and thats just completely stupid. A3 couldve been like 100 comics but instead ended up at 300+ because i did it like an idiot. But im not gonna do that with a4, it will be pretty short in comic number but each one will have loads of dialogue. It will be super efficient.

-post

I might actually post a3 before finishing a4, but again a4 is going to be super short in page count so it probably wont take TOO long to actually make, so waiting til after its done isnt completely unreasonable.

-do new website

Blogger sucks, its a terrible platform, so im gonna make a new website and host it on github pages. It will be made so that it is super easy for me to bulk upload LOADS of new pages at once so that i wont keep putting it off like ive been doing with the rest of a3. It will be all automatic and everything so i dont have to spend multiple hours on it lol. I will also be able to do bulk changes to the page format so i dont have to go individually through each post and change it. Maybe even a back button????

-do a lot of the story

This is a super vague bullet point but i just kinda want to make my way a fair chunk through the story before doing the next point because it would be kinda annoying to just be halted after a4 for ages.

-go back and redo a0 through a3 (and maybe a4, well see how that turns out)

Ive already said it in this post but a0 through a3 kinda just suck, theres loads of changes i would make now if i made them, so i plan to go back and change them. This would also make lrb more accessible for new readers because they dont have through over 100 pages for it to get 'ok'. I also plan to have a summary page to catch people up on the story of a0 through a4 quickly so that they can get into a5 and beyond. I will probably only keep that summary page until ive finished remaking a0 through a3, but i will post it after a4 as a4 is a good break off point in the story (youll see).

-do rest of the story

This is pretty self explanatory. Theres loads of story to go.

Among all of these points is also planning a5 and beyond as what i said before isnt true. I originally wasnt going to change the actual story i had planned but i changed my mind on that, the main story is being changed quite a bit.

The thing is i noticed the problems with the structure but didnt notice the ROOT cause of those problems, the fact that the characters act as too much of a conglomerate and have literally 0 independence.

Ok what do i mean by that. Well basically all of the alternate reality versions of streve and brian, and even streve and brian themselves, could be compressed into 1 character reasoning their decisions out with themself. They have 'disagreements' but they dont have any REAL disagreements, they always come around and end up acting as a group in the end.

Now is this because im a bad writer? Probably but i can (try to) fix it in future parts of the story. So im gonna do that.

I also plan to make more social media for the comic rather than just tumblr and reddit. Like a twitter even though that site is dying.

I also also need to come up with a name to sign these posts with. All webcomic authors have some name they go by, i dont. So ill come up with one. Anyway thats all i have to say for this progress update. This one ended up being super long so hopefully that makes up for me missing so many. See you next saturday.

[caspianxth]

Hi, more thoughts, sorry<3

like yeah i agree that kaz absolutely has a heart, but i think those acts of kindness are mostly reserved for the people he loves, even if wylan is new, you can tell he's already warmed up to him, and i really dont think he'd do something kind just because for someone he feels indifferent to at best, much less someone like a king, and wait omg i just remembered he's friends with sturmhund i take it all back, he would indeed give it up for his friend. and yeah youre right about wesper it was adorable, but i dont know i needed the slow burnnnnn, but yeah given netflix penchant for with gay shit, it was necessary.

And about everything else, yeah it made sense but it was really rushed, especially in s2, and like i get that they have to make everything as fast as they can in case it gets cancelled but im sad about it, but i just really hope malina does meet in the meadow in the end, cause at this point, this show is uncharted territory and completely new and i am so excited for it, and i think that was just setting up for nikolai i bet they will make him all scary later, or at least i hope. But like MERZOST!!!!! ALINA WTF!!! i loved the shadow cut it, like alina i love that youre very powerful but pls try not to turn evil, and like shes heading exactly in the direction the darkling said she would go which is so scary and obvious in a good way i love it. And omg the darkling, like in the books its neither easy to not root for him except maybe when he dies, but here omg, you're telling me he actually felt something for alina and it was not just manipulation!!!

Also Ben Barnes makes it really hard to not be on his side, Alina is waay stronger than me, "Make me your villain", for you? anything, also very simp i loved it, so its okay they omitted a lot of his character and relationship with alina, as they basically made a new one which i like. and about the white hair thing, it was iconic!!! i needed it!! but its okay, also i think the darkling probably experienced some shit associated with his power, but probably never like that cause the only amplifier he used was his mother, and it wasnt until he used merzost he became unstoppable, and it was slowly taking its toll on him, so slowy at first that it might have even been a plot hole, cause later it starts eating him from the inside.

Anyways Ice Court Heist is coming omgomgomgomg im so excited, i cant wait to see something really serious happening with nikolai and alina, and the crows just, just, yeah. i love them. i love jesper and wylan (the characters not their relationship in this instance) so much i could die just thinking about them.

And i think that's all my thoughts until now, I apologize in advance because I WILL think about it more and I WILL bother you about it<3

sturmhond my beloved <3 best of the grishaverse men truly!! also re wesper I love them I'd die for them plus with a tv show I need smth to be happy about and kanej: glacial pace, helnik: slow burn bc of the whole hellgate sitch. like I need smth to be diggin!!! re nikolai, a nichevo'ya is not how he should look and tbh I don't like how they're doing it in the show if that's the angle they take but hopefully I'm wrong. I do think paddy gibson did kill as nikolai like when they let book nikolai pop out? slayed!!! also yeah alina like don't be doin that (merzost) baghra made u promise!! but it is a way better end than her losing all her power and I'm excited to see where they take that, I saw on twitter somewhere that leigh has lots of ideas where to take it if given more so we shall see <3 also w the darkling, like, ok so 1 he is ben barnes so that's a thing bc I've been crushing on him since prince caspian but also!! like the thing is like, he really did love her for a bit there! he had peace when she surprise kissed him!! that's the moment he went right back to in his defeat right before alina mcstabbed him (which he did deserve btw). like the heartbreaking part w darklina is they really could've had it if he'd trusted her!!! but he didn't!!! and that was his greatest weakness!!!!! I do like malina but like, for me it's nikolina >>>>>>>>>> malina sorry. book or show nikolai is just *chef's kiss*. but also re nikolai, zoyalai >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>nikolina. so like, the setup there is also *chef's kiss*.

[adramaticbeauty]

Dragons and Fireflies

Waitttt! If you havent read the previous chapters I wouldnt advise reading this. Here's the link for the rest of the chapters if you need to go back. https://my.w.tt/gYNayRx9rcb

Since the ones on my tumblr...are forever lost now😔 Anyway those who read it please enjoy!

Chapter 7: Buried Memories

"Juvia is so sorry, Anna~sama. She never thought things would turn out so...complicated."

All Anna could do was carress her temples in order to calm herself down. After all she was getting older, and she couldn't let such things stress her out anymore. Unless she wanted an early grave dug of course.

" It's quite alright Juvia. It isnt as big of a deal as it seems."

Juvia couldnt help but breathe a sigh of relief at her reassuring comment. She would never forgive herself if she ever endangered the bands success with her selfishness.

"Oh thank goodness-"

"If you clean up the mess you made."

Juvia's heart stopped as she held her breath. As she took in her words silently, a million questions popped into her head. That she was too afraid to hear the answer to. What on earth did she mean by that? And the bigger question was how could she possibly even fix this mess? Anna's eyes softened as she met Juvia's worried ones.

"We need to figure out how the public would take this whole misunderstanding first and then address the situation publicly. Thats the smartest thing to do at this moment. Until then I will discuss the predicament with the Dragonflies manager."

As Juvia listened for the click of her door, she could finally breathe a sigh of relief. She had known when she had seen the photo in the paper, things would get bad. But she never thought this bad. And now the world was convinced Gray Fullbuster from the popular band 'Dragonflies' was her secret lover.

It was even worse they were competitors, both fighting for the top spot of best band. Why did she do it? Get involved with Gray Fullbuster? Her reasons were something personal to her, close to her heart that was from the past that she so desired to forget. It wasnt his looks or anything, although she couldnt deny his attractiveness.

She knew the rumors were true, after all she had seen for her own eyes the damage he could do to a woman. And she wouldnt be one of those who was affected by his charms. She refused to. She was the one who was going to teach him how women were to be treated, and not as playthings.

She was going to do it...for her. But she messed things up because of her anger, and now look at what happened. Her head was pounding with past emotions steadily creeping back from their place pushed deep down in her heart. It made her clench her fists in irritation and helplessness. Maybe she hadnt changed from all those years ago. The nightmares also flooded back to her, making her freeze in her own body. She shook in frustration with herself.

Did she even change at all? No, she wasnt that naive girl from years ago anymore, and she would never be again. Too much had happened for that. She never thought this would go so far, and affect her friends though. Her bandmates meant the world to her, and she would never hurt them purposely. After all, they saved her from her wretched life, after she had fallen so deep into despair. Gajeel...

She felt tears well up in her eyes before she couldnt help but scowl at her emotions getting the best of her once again. She chuckled dryly. She never was one for hiding her emotions, and her faces always told the world how she felt. She despised that with her entire being.

Although with Gray, it was easy to hide them, and she doubted he cared about them anyway. Thats why he was so easy to manipulate at the time. Its not like Juvia wasnt worried about her image at all. In fact it was probably tainted just by even being seen with that womanizer.

Her image in the band was supposed to be the innocent but sexy one, and men went crazy over it. Her merchandise being the most bought out in stores. She remembered when Lucy made a fuss about it, chastising Anna of giving her the wrong image for the band

And Juvia couldn't help but muffle her laughs with her hand in the background.

Her heart warmed at the memory and it made her clutch at her heart thinking of losing that small happiness. They were just taking off and already making merchandise, because Anna was sure that they would become a success fast. Juvia couldnt help but wonder that maybe Anna had made the wrong choice letting her into Fireflies.

"Juvia? Juvia! I have been calling your name for 5 minutes now!" She jumped at the sudden noise and swung her head up. She thought she had locked the door.

"Ahh Levy-san. What do you need?" Juvia asked exasperated.

She tried to wipe her stray tears quickly, turning her face in embarrassment. She hadn't even noticed she had cried. Levy did nothing but stare at her for a minute, before walking over and plopping down on the couch right beside her.

" You know, the girls are really not upset or anything. If thats what...you're crying about?"

Juvia looked into her cocoa irises and Levy met hers. They were full of worry.

"Honestly Juvia is fine. She just...regrets causing you guys so much trouble." Juvia tried to put on a smile but it came out as an obvious grimace.

"You really didnt. After all anyone who doesnt know that females have sexual needs too, know now."

"Huh???"

"Sexual needs? I read it in a reproduction book too. Apparently women have the most urge for it during pregnancy. Wait could this be-"

"Oh nooo Levy-san, this incident has nothing to do with...that."

"Oh. So not at all? You didnt...do anything?"

"Heavens no. Im not that kind of girl." Juvia gave her a reassuring smile, while Levy wiped her brow in relief.

"Cana lost 50 bucks today." She smiled staring a little too hard at her lap.

" What do you mean Levy-san?" She was beginning to feel suspicious.

"Well umm..."

"Levy..."

" Alright, alright! The girls made a bet about if you slept with Gray or not. Of course I bet that you didnt, but Cana got into my head and made me think things...something about girls needing devouring too. So I read up on it and..."

Juvia stared in disbelief as Levy squirmed under her gaze. A giggled echoed throughout the room, making Levy jump in surprise.

" Of course she did! Cana-san is always talking about things like that."

When Levy saw the laughter wasnt of anger or irritation, she laughed along too.

" Yeah, and Lucy chastised her for even thinking of you being so careless. She said' Juvia would only do dirty things like that when she's married.' "Levy took a breath before she continued.

" And then Cana said 'Listen hunny, if you have a good sex life, all the worries go away. Thats why I have no gray hair yet and ole Lucy does.' "Levy couldnt help but chuckle at her own impersonation of Cana.

Juvia laughed at her words. She wished she would have been there to hear the rest but she had been stuck in her room, hiding for at least two days. Levy placed a small pale hand on hers.

" Dont hide from us, ok Juvia? We miss you." She then gave her a tight squeeze, wrapping her arms around Juvia's whole body.

Juvia sat there, stiff as a board but she hugged her back silently. She allowed some tears to slip down now. After all this was a special moment. She had forgotten her friends were such kind souls, and they would be accepting of just about everyone. That didnt mean Juvia could just accept herself whole-heartedly though.

She would always be dirty in her own eyes. As she waved goodbye to Levy and she heard the click of her door, she laid back and stared at the white of her ceiling. What did Anna mean 'clean up her mess'? And what would that entail?

[elvencantation]

mpub ep12 liveblog

-WAIT WHERE IS KANG BAE??

-sad they’re not showing the last scene again like they usually do. but i guess they gotta fit a lot into this last episode. imma go rewatch it again real quick then come back 😂

-alright i’m back. i rly hope this is like kang bae inside his own head while the tree fucks shit up or something. cause i rly wanna see him fuck shit up!!!

-oh no honey please don’t cry!!! i cant stand it when you cry 😭

-YES ITS INTERDIMENSIONAL DAD POV I NEED HIM TO WALK IN ON BB BOY SAVING HIS MOM

-OMG BACK TO MY BADASS BOY OMGOGMOMGOMG

-made a video of my reaction to this next bit. gonna go rewatch real quick while it posts

-SECOND TIME WEOL JU GETS TO DOTE OVER HIM AS HE’S SICK IN BED. I SHOULDNT ENJOY THIS AS MUCH AS I DO

-OMG SHES REALIZED WHO HE IS HASNT SHE AAAAAAA

-OK NOW TELL DAD ALREADY PLS

-what in the world is going on is a good question

-*flashes back to lwj not telling wwx who sizhui is until the last episode*

-homeboy not only just found out he was actually a dad, then also found out the kid that they’d both been doting on and looking after is his actual kid (tho honestly, the found family trope wouldve worked just as well here)

-FUCK ME UPPP

-NO DONT CRY INTERDIMENSIONAL DAD ITS ALMOST WORSE THAN WHEN KANG BAE CRIES

-OH SHIT HE HAVING TREE FLASHBACKS OMGOMGOMG

-OH NO THEYRE TALKING TO HIM EVEN THO HES NOT TOUCHING THEM

-GO DIE IN A HOLE DICKWAD NOBODY WANTS U AROUND. STOP LURKING IN THAT ABANDONED BUILDING

-well i guess i do feel bad for his dad a little. and settling that grudge would really tie this whole thing up in a pretty bow. i mean, obviously its not gonna be that easy

-wait is kang bae asleep or did he somehow go find the tree? or wait is the tree even there anymore im not 100% sure what happened to the physical tree after what weol ju did

-oh ok hes asleep ofc that makes more sense

-NOPE THIS CANT BE GOODBYE IT CANNOT HE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHO HE IS TO THEM OR ANYTHING HE SAID HE WANTED TO MEET HIS MOM JUST ONCE

-wait is this what his life would’ve been like if they’d been reborn and been his proper parents???

-his room is so cute

-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

-made another little video here

-FUCK!!!!!

-srsly dude ur still lurking dramatically in that abandoned warehouse?

-I KNEW AS SOON AS HE WENT FOR THE FRIDGE THAT SHE’D HAVE LEFT HIM FOOD IN THERE I CANNOT

-oooooo pretty knife!! can she stab him (non lethally) with the pretty knife please? also i know interdimensional dad is walking into a trap or whatever but i need him to be ok. esp since that trap doesnt directly involve wonhyung but only his weird minion

-he says he wants her to feel like she’s lost everything. dude what do u think happened to her in her last life? you literally ruined her whole life but i guess that wasn’t enough because u actually had to face the consequences of ur actions

-yeah yeah we knew that wasn’t actually weol ju. but then wheres the real weol ju... is yeorin gonna find her???

-get the dad to get the kid? i’m confused why didn’t he just shift into weol ju without that? or did she have to be unconscious for that? or wait he probably thought distracting dad would give him enough time eh whatever let’s watch

-TIME FOR THE BADASS GLAIVE FUCK THEM UP DAD

-video time again!

-WAIT KANG BAE WAS HAVING A PROPHETIC DREAM IN THE BEGINNING OF THE EPISODE WASNT HE

- FUCK ME UPPPPPPP

-oh my GOD I LOVE HOW YOU CAN SEE HOT AIR COMING OFF THE BLADE OF THE GLAIVE?!?!

-ahhhh the glaive looks so awesome all glowing!!!

-EVEN MORE BADASS FIGHT YES OMG

-oh we using the force now!

-HE LITERALLY GRABBED THE PIPE THAT WAS FLYING TOWARDS HIM LIKE CATCHING AN ARROW MID FLIGHT AND THREW IT BACK I CANNOT

-yeah u deserve to get stabbed idiot

-AND VIDEO TIME AGAIN BECAUSE I DONT LIKE WHERE THIS IS GOING

-WHAT ELSE DO U CALL SACRIFICING URSELF FOR SOMEONE? YOU LITERALLY PROTECTED HER FROM BEING IMPALED

-also if i was watching this at night, instead of 2pm with the sunlight streaming in through the window, i would be bawling like a baby

-WHY U JUST GOTTA KEEP MAKING MOM AND DAD CRY

-AND THEN HE DISAPPEARS LIKE BEN WHY U TRYING TO HURT ME LIKE THIS

-ok so mom is so badass with her snap of freezing time or whatever. ahhh i love it

-DONT LIKE THIS HE MOVED A FINGER!!!

-I DONT LIKE THIS WEI WUXIAN MOMENT JUST USE HIS HELP TO GET BACK UP GODDAMNIT OTHERWISE WHO WILL SETTLE THE SCORE AND HELP HIM CLOSE HIS SPIRITUAL VISION

-wait is she settling her own grudge? I DONT LIKE THIS

-AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

-i fuckIN KNEW IT I KNEW SHE WASNT GONE

-OMG SHES STILL FUCKING PEOPLE UP YES THIS IS AMAZING

-awww samsin and death talking about weol ju i cant

-OH MY GOD WHY DID THEY DO THIS TO ME AGAIN THATS MEAN TO MAKE ME THINK THAT KANG BAE STILL HAD THE SPIRITUAL VISION PROBLEM WHEN ALL HE HAD WAS SOMETHING ON HIS EYE. no srsly they already did that once with weol ju i feel like this is overdoing it

-weol ju looks horrible oh honey im sorry. well, she did just lose the love of her life and thinks she failed her son as well

-I FUCKING KNEW IT DAD IS BACK TOO WHO ELSE WOULDVE RESCUED HER FROM THE DARKNESS YET AGAIN

-thank the gods. nobody has been as cruel to me as guardian. except perhaps rogue one

-AAAAAAAAAAAA I CANT WAIT TO SEE KANG BAE’S FACE

-AAAAAAAAA?!?!?!!?!?!

[wittynameme]

shes probably already talked shit about me on twitter

(Long story so just-)

yesterday my grandmother and I were talking about my pet snails , at first she was criticizing of them but then she was looking up things to feed snails ! “wow they eat lots of things” she remarked “did you know they really like cucumber”? “yeah” i said exitedly “theres like a whole thing on youtube of snails eating cucumbers in fast forward” ! Next day i wake up late , Theres boxes of food from the food bank in the hall full of goodies , i notice pumpkin pie , theres a donut on the counter and pinwheel meat wraps in the fridge! I try to resist that donuts but fail and eat it without asking mom if its for me or one of the neighbors or herself first. I go out onto the porch and find her sitting under the picnic thing , i wave she waves back and i go back inside .

Turns out the donut was for me after all! so thats good , she sorted through the boxes to put things in bags for our neighbor , In the posses we find A WHOLE BAG OF CUCUMBERS! she states how convenient it is that we were just talking about that the other day. she gave away the pumpkin pie tho , i don’t really mind cause our neighbors are super nice and may have never even had pumpkin pie . I helped then carry the food upstairs and whent back inside for the main event.

I chop up some cucumber slices and put them on a plate “all my little snails were hiding in the bell pepper hid i made for them (they love it) so it was easy getting them all on the plate. I take the time to clean the boul I keep them in and PANIC when i fid one of the succulents i put in there covered in mold and cleaned that whole dang bowl.

I relay all this to her as we watch them crawl on the plate on the picnic table outside. She asked some questions, genuinely interested and i talked about snails for a good 7 minutes! The snails were in there little bell pepper hide hanging upside down on the roof , one crawled onto the other on accident and the other stared doing the snail flail (snails are not the brightest) I made a comment on this and she giggled and I started going back inside to get my laptop. she calles after me “wait what if your snails crawl away “!? I told her id be quick and they wont go anywhere cause their comfortable in their hides.

I come back from inside and notice my snails have unstuck themselves from each other. I made some joke about how the snail had gotten of the bucking bronco and she looks up at me for a second and her face goes dark .

“what the fuck are you talking about CHUCIN BONGOs god you say the most ridiculous things and just expect everyone around you to understand “

“bucking bronko” i said more clearly

“ I KNOW WHAT THAT ISBUT WHAT DOES THAT HAVE TO DO WITH ANYTHING ??? GOD YOU GET THESE CRAZY THINGS IN YOUR HEAD CHILD-

“the snails , they were on top of eachother and one of them was flailing arou-

“WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT “

“WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT THIS”

“DONT GAS SLIGHT ME YOU LIEING CHILD “

im almost crying

and then we argued .over a snail joke.

“IM NOT LIEING “

“YES YOU ARE” !!!!!!!

“WHEN DID YOU SAY THAT “ !!!?!

“before i whent inside “

“OOOOOH , OK “

“LET ME TELL YA SOMETHIN....WHEN YOU END A CONVERSATION ...AND LEAVE THE ROOM ...THATS IT ! I WASNT THINKING ABOUT THE SNAILS “

and she goes on and on about how im ridiculous and say ridiculous things until she eventually quiets down....over a snail joke.

it doesn't translate very well but she has this way , this tone , that righting cant convey. she doesn’t need to yell even though she did , all she has to do is use that tone and i start crying. I’m sensitive i know , and i tell myself this every time we argue , i don’t allow myself full emotion because “what if i’m just being sensitive’ and it hurts so bad. but all you need to do is call me a liar or a selfish person and im a mess, she knows this too. she uses it on me all the time, almost every time we speak

by now its been about 5 minutes on complete silence and i thought we had moved on  

then she picks back up (only now that the fights over do i think “i should have pretended i had no clue what your talking about since the conversation was over”)

god damn it

“so” she said in the snarkiest tone i have ever heard

“just so we agree...you just started a huge argument over a SNAIL”

my minds so scrambled on what happened next cause it was so fast and she was so full of shit, everything that came out of her was a logical bias and when she didnt get her way she would roll her eyes lean back in her chair with this shit eating grin and then try to change the subject , she compared me to donald trump!!! the whole time she was dripping with confidence this certainty and confidence that i was the stupidest person in the world . and thats the thing , i know shes bullshitting because she told me about this tacktic “ if you want to win an argument , it doesn't matter if your argument is the stupidest in the world as long as you make your opponent look dumb and act smart” and it works every time . EVEN IF I KNOW SHES BEING MANIPULATIVE ! im crying an stumbling and stuttering and my brain is fried , she knows this , SHE KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN . She DID IT ON purpose.

“so guessing by your response , im right”

i ran away i shust couldnt-

why do i keep forgetting to be mad at her

[nie7027]

Super5 headcanons part 3

Part 1 Part 2

{{Yeah im posting it again because very few people have seen the original post and Im a simple human that craves validation, so please if you like it reblog it. I doubt ill do it again but just in case i put a nifty tag so you can block it}}

Thank you everybody for saying such nice things of part 2 (as i said i wasnt that confident so it made me really happy to know you liked it) and sorry for taking so long but school is a bitch and almost killed my inspiration. Anyway here comes part 3

Minegishi: i just got out work. Can someone care to tell me what happened?

Hatori: uhh, yeah . sorry

Hatori: i got out of work like an hour ago and came home to find Shimazaki sleeping on MY bed

Hatori: Shibata was already at the gym and shimazaki hasnt waken up so i dont know much more??

Hatori: i dont know either what to do...

Shibata: is he still there? I told him to take my bed!

Hatori: well he clearly didnt...

Minegishi: ok but HOW did you find him exactly?

Shibata: ill tell you later guys. My next class is about to start

Shibata: And dont worry Hatori! i dont think hell wake up anytime soon.

Shibata: You should have seen him carrying the dog! It was cute <3

Shibata: in a strange way

Minegishi: dog?? WHAT DOG?

Hatori: did you just say "carrying"?

Shibata: sorry guys gtg

Hatori: shit WAIT

Hatori: where am i supposed to sleep now? I cant sleep on the couch!

Shibata: you can sleep with me

Hatori: WHAT? NO

Shibata: Do you prefer to wake him up?

Hatori: I pick the right side

Minegishi: No homo

Hatori: fUCk U

Shimazaki wakes the next morning to the sound of someone gagging to his right

"THE HELL IS THAT SMELL? WHY DO YOU STINK SO MUCH?" yells Hatori before letting out a muffled yelp when the pillow Shimazaki threw hits him square on the face

Shibata, probably alerted by Hatoris screams, comes running and asks from the doorframe "Whats going here?"

"THAT BASTARD SMELLS LIKE POOP AND NOW MY BED WILL SMELL TOO" says Hatori while pointing at the man on his bed who is just groaning clearly annoyed at being awaken

"Hmm it was probably the dog" says Shibata pensive and then looks carefully at shimazaki "You dont have more clothes dont you?"

"Holy shit! Thats true. Youve been using the same clothes since then..."

Shimazaki cant understand why it suddenly matters so much to them "No i dont. Now that that has been cleared up can i go back to sleep?"

"You have to change first. Hatoris clothes wont fit you. so take a shower while i search for something to lend you" says shibata and then turns to Hatori "you gotta go now or you are gonna be late. Dont worry todays my day off, Ill wash your bed"

"Thanks man" says Hatori and then quickly discusses something abouy dinner with shibata before leaving the apartment. Shimazaki can only stare. He just wants to sleep.

But before he can turn his back and return to sleep Shibata is already on him hurrying him to the shower.

Shimazaki doesnt like the idea of giving up his clothes to Shibata (he doesnt like letting go of his possesions because Mental eye cant find inanimate objects and he learned early on life how easy it was to lose things) but even he is starting to get nauseous at the smell of trash and he isnt in the mood to deal with it himself

Shibatas clothes fit loosely but they are comfy, besides once he gets out the shower the man has breakfast ready for him (theres still a box of his favourite cereal) and leaves him to his own devices while he does laundry.

By the end of the day Shimazaki has his own clothes back and they are softer than he remembers ("its the softener" says Shibata, "the what?" responds shimazaki)

Minegishi and Hatori arrive later with boxes of take out and they eat together in awkward silence until Minegishi casually asks with a smirk if Hatori and Shibata slept well at which shibata laughs and tells them Hatori is a blanket hogger which in turn makes Hatori complain about shibatas snores.

The childish fight continues and even though Shimazaki doesnt take part in it he listens atently

At the end he returns to minegishis apartment that night and sleeps on the couch. Neither of them uttering a word of what happened.

The next time Minegishi asks him to go grocery shopping he accepts.

This is stupid. This was a waste of his time.

Shimazaki couldnt read price tags or labels and he didnt know what he was doing here or why Minegishi had brought him

At most he could tell apart boxes from cans and the weight of things but he couldnt differentiate whether he was holding a can of tuna from a can of yakitori sauce or 1k of salt from 1k of sugar without having to ask somebody else.

It was even worse when it came to liquids if the milk/juice failure was anything to go by

After the first few failures of trying to pick stuff Minegishi had tried to teach him about couponing and discounts but then again he had to ask him the price everytime and they both soon got tired of it

All he could do was to touch and feel the fruit and vegetables trying to tell apart the riped from the rotten/damaged

Looking for any bump, hole, softness...things Minegishi taught him

It was stupid.

Minegishi could ripen/fix any plant with his powers and they both knew it

This was a waste of time.

He hated every second of this and wanted to go already but Minegishi had been hellbent on him learning at least this and left him in the fruits section to pick whatever he deemed best while he finished the shopping.

And that was what he was TRYING to do when a store clerk had the brilliant idea of addressing him

In his defense they had been almost 3 hours here and he had been done since the first. The fact he didnt even know what the hell he was holding anymore except that it was round and ripe not helping his annoyance.

He turned to tell her to fuck off. He just wanted to intimadate her. Force her to leave him alone.

He may have gone a little bit overboard.

He opened his eyes.

"Excuse me sir. Customers arent supposed to grab the tomatoes with their bare hands. The bags are-AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"

Her scream could be heard all around the store

Before he could teletransport away the tomato he was holding twisted and tangled its newly grown vines around his hand in a tight grip. (The sight of it clearly didnt help the girl's panic)

"Dont even think about it" hissed a pissed Minegishi when he passed by his side on his way towards the screaming girl.

Minegishi couldnt feel more stupid than he was feeling a the moment.

In his haste to initiate Shimazaki on the path of becoming a civil person he had somehow forgotten the man was actually blind (not his fault it was so easy to forget when you have seen him destroying entire buildings).

He had tried. He had really tried to come up with any way to fix this mess of a trip but it was getting late and they hadnt even started their actual shopping.

So at the end he gave up and left Shimazaki to the only task he thought could keep him busy and at the same time allowed minegishi to keep track of the mans position anytime while he hurriedly finished the shopping. It was a good plan. What could go wrong?

The moment he heard the scream he knew everything could and will go wrong where it concerned Shimazaki.

Thankfully he could feel he was still holding something vegetal (a tomato?) so Minegishi quickly dashed (shopping cart forgotten) to the mans position and the screaming girl.

His first instict had been to go and calm the girl even though he didnt know what had happened but when he realized people were starting to stare he quickly grabbed Shimazakis arm and dragged him the way he came.

"The fuck did you do?" Minegishi asked once they were in another aisle safe from curious stares

"I did nothing!" responded Shimazaki somewhat offended

" As if! What did you do to her? "

"I didnt do shit to her! I was just doing the fruit thing you asked me!" he raised his hand to show the tomato still holding onto it

"And? Why was she even near you?" mineshiki asked while his powers disentagled the vines and took the tomato

"ITS YOUR FAULT APPARENTLY WE ARENT SUPPOSED TO PICK THE FRUIT"

"Huh? What? I always do-THATS NOT IMPORTANT! Why was she screaming?!"

"I told her off"

"What? People dont scream like that when someone tells them off, even when you..." Shimazaki was clearly hiding something "How did you do it exactly?" minigishi asks with narrowed eyes

"....i may have opened my eyes"

"Your eyes?" minegishi stares increduously "whats that- oh" hes about to ask what was that supposed to mean when he remembers Shimazakis bottomless eyes caused by his physic powers. He may have gotten used to his hollow stare but he still remembers what he felt the first time he saw it. The girls scream finally making sense "You never open your eyes unless you want to threaten someome...did you want to threaten a simple clerk?? "

"No"

"Then?

"i just forgot!" shimazaki huffed

"You...forgot?"

"YES CAN WE GO NOW?" irritation lacing the mans tone

It was that moment that Minegishi realized this trip was taking a bigger toll on shimazaki than he (and probably even the man himself) anticipated and sighed.

"Yeah, i was almost finished anyway lets find the cart"

Shimazaki silently followed.

They finished the shopping without any further accident and while they waited in line to pay something caught minegishis eyes. It was just what he needed.

There was a row of cheap aviator glasses hanging in display.

After some considerantion he grabbed one of the pair with the mirror lens kind and handed them to a now calmer Shimazaki "Here, put this"

Shimazaki who had been following Minegishis movements asked curiously "whats this?"

"Glasses. In case you forget to keep your eyes closed again people wont be able to see your eyes. Put them on and open your eyes. i need to see if they fit and if they'll work"

He miraculously did.

The frame was thicker than it was supposed to be for these kind of glasses (a crude imitation of the stylish kind people wear in magazines) but they fitted and the mirror lens hid perfectly shimazakis glowing irises(?) (Hell never know)

"How do they feel?"

"Strange"

"You could wear them only when you are out in public. They are cheap. Ill buy them and you can do whatever you want with them"

Shimazaki took them off and when it was time to pay he handed them to minegishi

Once outside shimazaki at first refused to teletransport the bags back to the apartment but complied once Minegishi told him he would force him to help carry the bags all the way if he didnt do it AND promised to buy take out to eat.

Minegishi thought the glasses had been left forgotten in the bags but the next morning while he was getting ready to work he noticed they were laying folded on top of a sleeping shimazaki

When Hatori and Shibata inevitably asked about Shimazakis new glasses(that he now used all the time) minegishi told them about what was now deemed as the "supermarket incident"

The next times they went shopping Minegishi stayed all the time with Shimazaki and kept teaching him about vegetables and any thing that came to his mind.

Once they finished (everytime quicker than the previos) it became Shimazakis job to drop the goods at the apartment in exchange of picking what they were going to eat that day

It wasnt exactly what Minegishi had planned but it was a progress (or that was what he thought until Hatori complained about tripping on shopping bags that suddenly appeared in the middle of the hall whenever Shimazaki dropped something there)

Shibata was annoyed because even though they all agreed Shimazaki was behaving nicer the others didnt still believe him about the whole puppy ordeal

so that, coupled with the nagging feeling he had left after washing shimazakis clothes and after hearing about the market incident made him come up with a plan

"A mall trip?? What for?" hatori asked perplexed

"He has just one shirt"

"So?"

"He has been wearing it since we were together, actually i dont remember him wearing anything else ever"

"Thats his problem!"

"HIS JACKET HAS BULLET HOLES " replied shibata getting impatient with how much it was taking Hatori to understand

"He probably likes it that way??" said Hatori still not getting it

"Actually ive been thinking the same. I noticed the bullet holes too" finally came Minegishis voice from the receiver. He was was working at the moment because if they wanted to do this he had to work a double shift to free one day. "I dont think he has anything else"

"See? Minegishis with me!" exclaimed thriumohantly Shibata which only made Hatori roll his eyes

"Fine! i get it! Ive seen the bullet holes too...but i dont get why does it have to be us?"

"Because we are his friends" easily replied Shibata causing Hatori to frown at this

"Are we really? When has he done something for us?" hatoris tone suddenly turning serious "You are literally asking me to spend one of my few days off shopping clothes with MY MONEY for a guy who wanted to kill me mere months ago?"

"We dont know that" said shibata

Hatori trew him a glance that clearly was supposed to mean 'you gotta be kidding' "Look, do we even know if he likes us back?"

At this both men kept silence until shibata dared to speak "he is wearing the glasses"

"God forbid me for forgetting those damn glasses! Guys, im just saying we are already doing so much for him for nothing! why do we need to do more?"

"Because thats what good people do" came Minegishis response and shibata nodded firmly making hatori huff. He was gonna regret this.

" fine! But do we even know if hes gonna like what we buy? If hes gonna even wear it? As you said we had never seen with other clothes"

"Thats why we are gonna take him with us!" said Shibata, glad that this was finnally getting somewhere

Hatori turned to look at the phone "didnt you said you believed shopping stressed him?"

"Mmm these last times had been better" said minegishi

"What if he actually doesnt care about the clothes or-"

"He does" replied Shibata and Minegishi in unison making Hatori stare confusedly

"How do you know?"

Shibata thought back to the hesitance he noticed on shimazaki when he handed him his clothes but didnt think the man in question would like it if he went and tell this to the others and was debating this when minegishi spoke again "Ive noticed someone has been using my softener and i doubt its the plants"

Hatori frowned and then sighed

"You both have settled your minds dont you?" hatori asked and then grumbled when an unison "yes" was heard

"Do you realize we are working with a lot of 'maybes' and 'probably'?"

"Maybe" said the voice from the receiver and Hatori could swear he could hear minegishis smirk

"C'mon man! We have done worse than this" said Shibata happily clapping Hatoris back

"Ugh FINE That bastard better be grateful" grumbled Hatori

This part forced me to think of shimazakis past and now i made myself sad (this isnt the first time he wears glasses)

So the market incident and the glasses scene was stuff i thought about since i started these and was really excited to write it. I hope i did them justice .

I didnt realize how much longer part II was compared to part I so i think part III ended in a nice middle ground.

Haha i again didnt reach the scene i planned to reach(the prank) and at this pace this thing will have 6 parts. Someone save me

Anyway hope you like it and for those of you who dont know I am writing a Teru-centric fanfic about his decision to visit his parents and the aftermath and ill appreciate it if you could check it out (link here) and tell me what you think or at least share it so more people can see it because tumblr sucks and wont let me do it.

See you next time

[itstommyfuckingshelbysir]

where it all began

*part four*

you just lay in tommys arms for while.

“shit tommy im sorry i shouldnt have said anything” you jumped up awkwardly, “lets just forget about it ok its stupid” you began to walk away , tommy grabbed your arm, he just looked you in the eyes a nodded. 

Curly approached and tommy let go, “curly we will be back to check on the black mare and get that stable ready for that new one” tommy ordered. “new one, theres a new horse coming” you smiled, “if all goes well with this meeting today then yes there will be”, “tommy can i come and check the horse out sorry i shouldnt have asked” you hummed worried you had over stepped your mark, “its a business dealing ye so do as your told and only that right”. “yes sure as you wish” you smiled.

Few hours later you were sitting in tommys car waiting for tommy to round the boys up.

“ali what are you doing in tommys car” micheal looking confused, “dont look so confused my dear michael im coming with” you smiled, “with the boys to the meeting but why these meetings can be dangerous ali”, “oh relax ill be fine it will give us time to catch up” you smiled, “ali im serious” clenching his jaw , “ive no doubt you that you are” we smiled “come on” ....

.before you could finish you saw the boys heading towards the car.

“tommy why is ali coming” michael spat. “for the horse michael thats all” “for the horse sure” arthur said amused with himself, “i heard he is arranging a marriage to one of the lee boys for you” john laughed. “the big bald fella with the four kids arthur joined he as four kids so least you know he can perform” arthur spat. michael looked more worried then you did “tommy there joking right” michael laughed. no not atal its the only way i could get the horse she be well looked after michael dont be worried, tommy said serious. 

michael looking at you. “i always wanted kids you joined do love a bald man”you laughed. “its a joke michael before you have a heart attack” you laughed, “it is a joke tommy”you looked at him , “of course what kind of a man do you think i am” he hummed “you had no problem marrying me off” john smiled was only trying to get rid of you arthur laughed. 

we pulled up to a huge camp site horses and caravans were everywhere , the smell of the countryside sparked something inside you.

“theres your husband ali” john laughed pointing to a bald fat man.

oh yum you laughed.

“enough boys time for business” tommys face changed. 

“ali you stay in the car till your told otherwise ok”? you just nodded.

A small man came towards the car “ah boys” he began you couldnt hear alot you just watched there moves and made up your own story.

they spoke for what felt like forever until tommy turned towards the car a used his finger to signal you to come over.

you didnt know why but you felt nervous but you would be damned if you showed it to anyone.

you stopped beside michael and smiled at tommy.

“whats a women know about horses” the man spat at tommy, “alot more than you would think now lets get on with it” tommy spat back, a beautiful grey horse came around from behind the van, shes a beauty tommy” the man smiled. “ill decide that myself” tommy smiled, ali your up tommy hummed.

“hey girl easy” you hummed, you started at the hoofs and checked every inch of that horse from tail to mane leaving notting unseen, “she is in good condition , teeth look good” , “hoofs need some oil and new shoes there fairly old other than that notting some attention wont fix” you smiled, “michael give me a leg up you ordered “you jumped on the horse ,”easy girl “ you did what you needed, your legs hit the ground.. “nice strong horse” you hummed,”up to you” tommy you smiled , you shook the lee mans hand “its ailson robertson by the way ill be in the car boys”you winked walking away. you heard the boys smirk as you left.

you could still see the boys discussion with the lee family , you could see tommy getting angry and the boys all started to step towards the other boys right in front of you a fight broke out blood and screams came from everywhere,  shit you hid down on the back sit the boys stopped, the main lee brother and tommy came close to each other something was said and the boys came towards the car.

“what the hell was that about jesus” you spat, no one spoke at all.

after a long quiet drive home the boys walked into the shelby home.

“what the fuck happened tommy”?polly looking cross, “just a disagreement is all” “are you trying to start a fucking war tommy eh cause thats whats gonna happen if you keep doing this you know that”polly spat sit down all of you, “GIRLS”polly shouted lets get this idiots cleaned up, you ok michael you smiled , “lovely thanks” he giggled, “its gonna hurt”you said wiping his face, “ugh” he tensed, 

after everyone looked good again, 

“i have to go back to the office”, “ill come too michael ive things to finsh” you sang.

the walk to the office was just like the old days you and michael linked laughing about something that wasnt funny but to you both it was and thats what mattered.

“who knew this is where we would end up” you laughed pushing the door into the office, “hey michael did you know my best friend is a gangster now” you mocked , “the biggest and baddest “he spat back you grabbed his cheeks “ oh darling with this face it wont work your too cute “you laughed walking to your desk, “im hurt” he laughed. 

“im bored michael lets doing something tonight” you smiled sitting on his desk, “what do you have in mind ali?” “anything even just the garrson” you laughed, Just the garrsion im offended thats home he smiled, “well can we” you poked him playfully  “of course anything you want my love” he laughed he began tickling you like the too big kids you are “stop” you sang laughing so hard “stop”.. 

“do you too want piracy” tommy spat his eyes were dark walking into his office, once he closed his door you both started laughing like to bold children.

alison tommy sang out, “here we go” you smiled at michael, “yes sir “you closed the door sitting down, “this is a place of work so no more of that” he spat , “tommy we were only having a laugh ok no one was here”, “not the point” he looked angry clenching his jaw, “ok sorry ill be on my best behavior sir you spat is that all” you looked at him with attitude , “your not kids anymore alison”, “id rather be like a kid instead of a boring old man who doesnt know how to have fun now that will be all im off home ive to get ready for tonight” you spat , “tonight?” “michael and i are going out to have fun i would invite you but i guess fun not your thing” you smiled and walked away.

“hey poll” you smiled, “ill make you tea”she smiled.

“how are you finding life here ali?”, “its different from the country thats for sure but i like the feeling of family here ive never been apart of such a big home before” you smiled, “what was your family like “poll asked smiling , you hesitated “eh we had a small house with alot of stables my father trained racehorses before he found love for the drink and my mother wasnt much better” you smiled “michaels family was more my family”you said.

what was michaels family like his childhood she looked upset,

“his mother was called angie she was such a lovely person always happy , thought him everything and made him the gentleman he is and his father wasnt around much he worked but he was a quiet man when he was around”,you smiled. 

“you know he always talked about you poll we used to guess who you were you”said smiling, “for awhile there we thought you were a superhero” then there was a maid and then we guessed the teacher miss emma but your much better than we could have guessed “you smiled , a tear fell from her eye “god i missed him so much” , “your making up for it now he loves you and all the shelbys” you hugged her. “im so glad he had you ali to look after him you know that” poll said, “im the lucky one poll i wouldnt have made it here if it wasnt for him” you smiled

*the kitchen door opened*

jesus speak of the devil and he shall appear you laughed. lord what have i done michael laughed,” i was just telling storys on you that all” you giggled ,” dont believe her mother shes a liar” he hummed shut up you punching him in the arm, “where did you disappear to” michael asked, “had a agrument with tommy needed time to cool down also i need to get ready for tonight” you smiled.

“that man will never learn” poll laughed “he needs a good women like you to keep him on your feet “she said, oh lord id kill him you spat , “poll what was tommy like before the war ? “you hummed , “he was peaceful , always smilling and softer” , “he is still there just takes time to find him she smiled a good few wiskeys “she laughed” that will do the trick “she smiled. “enough taking you get ready “michael pushed you out the door “you know how long it takes you “he laughed.

*after a while you were ready* 

“ali will you come on the boys are waiting “michael shouted “im coming will yeah calm down “you spat walking down the stairs.

.you wore the most beautiful red dress which looked perfect on your pale skin and hugged you body like a glove and you blonde hair hung in long curls , the red made your bright green eyes shine. 

none of the boys spoke , you could feel tommys eyes watching your every move.

“well are we going “ you smiled, “you now were only going to the garrison right” michael mocked “shut up you never know my future man could be there tonight” you laughed” lets go”. 

you and michael walked ahead of the boys linked and laughing as always, you didnt realise that when you walked into the garrsion the whole pub went quiet,“whats everyone starring at “ you asked michael, “you” he smiled.

*after a few hours*

you, ada and polly where dancing on a table laughing about everything , more drink arthur shouted ,”thank you arthur your a dear” you kissed his cheek, you had felt tommy’s eyes following you all night , you sat down beside tommy crossing your legs so your legs would be on show, you not dance tommy you laughed not drunk enough he hummed, “you look beautiful tonight ali” he whispered in your ear the feeling off tommys breath againt your ear made you jump.

“your not bad yourself mr shelby” you giggled, “can i have this dance” a strange man asked from behind “of course mr shelby if thats ok” he smiled , tommy clenched his jaw and nodded “its up to the lady” , “well no other man will dance so why not “ you smiled,

 as the night went on the room started to spin, “i need to sit down “you moved away from the man he grabbed you arm “cant dance with me all teasing me all night and just leave it” pulled you close , “no thank you i was dancing thats all now get off me” you shoved him back and he came towards you and without thinking you punched him” i said no now fuck off “you spat , you felt arms grab your waist it was tommy “everything ok” you said looking at the man “now get out “he spat 

“you can keep the whore” the man spat back tommys jaw clenched together and you stood infront of him “tommy please just leave it dance with me” you said smiling puttng your head on his chest , 

“your not a whore ali your much more than that “he smiled “your my assistant” he laughed amused with himself did i just see Mr thomas shelby laugh its a miracle you smiled. 

the walk home was werid you linked tommy laughing with him and michael was attached to some other girl.

“goodnight michael enjoy you laughed to yourself wear protection” you shouted, “night beautiful“ he sang back, “you and michael have always been this close” tommy asked pourin himself another drink, “always and i hope we always will be i wouldnt be here without him” you smiled.

im glad you found him tommy., maybe a bit selfish because im glad i got away with him you smiled, it makes poll happy thats all ive ever wanted he smiled, i better go to bed my boss wont like me late tomorrow you laughed , me too he followed you up goodnight tommy you smiled kissing his cheek.

Took you awhile to get into your night clothes the room was spinning to much you fell over laughing and there was a knock on your door.

“come in” you said not able to get off the bed, “you ok i heard a bang” tommy smiled , “im fine just feel over room moving to fast” you laughed , here let me help you into bed he pulled you up the bed, “thank you tommy” you smiled” i dont drink often” you giggled “i see that” he smiled, 

you could see him staring at your scars just under your hips, “stop dont look at them” you covered them feeling embrassed , “how did you get them ali” he looked angry , “there from my childhood” you sang “my wonderful father and his riding whip” you looked away “anytime i would say no” you said. “fuck ali your save now noone will ever touch you again you hear now go to sleep” , he stood up placing a kiss on your forehead “goodnight beautiful” , your snores filled the room.

i love this part so much im not an actual writer but i do my best i would love feedback so please do give me some i hope you all enjoy my storys half as much as i do xx 

[deuce-duce]

"Your Effin Right Will Smith!!"

Now, I'm not sure how many of you believe in a destiny, a divine plan.... or that all of this has already been written. (Like the tail of a commet) Which could be the reason some can see into the future or claim to atleast... idk! None of us will truly know until... thee END!!

Throughout my life I have had some very magical/spiritual experiences, where I foresaw a lot of whats occurring and who it is I truly am. Now when claims to have experiences like this its easy for others and even the individual who had the experience to turn the other way and dismiss the vision as meerly happenstance or just crazy... that was what I did because it just seemed so unreal. It wasnt until My friend the Rasta Man says listen your probably not going to believe me... but I felt what you were feeling during the concert... now dont get me wrong it probably wasn't as intense but I could feel ya! I said not uh... he said yeah man!! Are you going to be ok...???? I remember being silent for a moment taking a deep breath trying to fathom everything this meant... then I let out a sigh... saying yea man ill be alright. Then it was off to Safeway for 🥭 Talenti!! 👈 more on that another time.

The woman i was with that night who I thought would have been my wife, told me it was the best experience she had ever had in her entire life!! Which makes me feel special to this day knowing that I shared a moment like that with her!❤🙏

On another occasion we drove an hour to the city for a show. This time the woman who knew exactly how to pull me up and make me smile even if I was down and out!!❤❤ not only was this also the best time she had, had in her life but she saved me from this guy because I kept trying to push my way to the stage. Haha crazy night! A lot of fun just Cray!! She told me she saw my aura that night!! I said really??? What did it look like it was really bright and It was the color...... (sorry). Beautiful soul on that young lady wish things didn't turn out the way they did... I blame myself because I freaked out when we were living together because it was when all of this started again... I didnt know anything about how it worked, why I couldn't remember and who the hell I actually was... all I knew was to kick everyone out!! She cared about me so much and I her. MISS U!!

I still think about them often and just want to say thank you!! ❤🤟

Back to present tense, well... somewhat. Im not sure how many of you know this but I have coincidentally ended up here on three different occasions...the two times prior had to of been a coincidence or... maybe... not!!

When I was running from the state I was born in because of very similar situation I find myself in now. It was February 2019 and after getting tired of driving I stopped at the park Downtown sat by the water where I met three girls after a short interaction we went our separate ways. I thought maybe I should go talk to them some more... but when I saw them again I had mistaken a restaurant as an apartment building and shyed away. Got in my car and left!!

The next time I was running again, same reason. I exited the highway at exit 4 and ended up at smoker friendly helping some kids who's tire had fallen off while they were driving... something caused the studs of the hub to be completely sheered off! I was like you guys can't fix that here... your going to need a tow. This was when their dad showed up and we came to the same conclusion... a tow was the only was to go. He tried to pay me for my time but I turned him down.

I then went for a hike/walk along the creek where I saw a sign that said the path forward is very difficult or something like that. Walked to the dog park turned around and said hi to a couple passed bys... as I passed a group of like five girls and their dog one was like you need to leave here... so I took to her warning stopped at the gas station before the highway entrance filled up and left.

So let allow me to correct myself this is actually my 4th time here... wtf this really is crazy! So I ran out of money and was stranded in a nearby state and went to the hospital they transferred me here to the emergency room I left and went back to the homeless shelter in the state I ran out of money. A couple weeks later I had an emergency room visit follow up. The doctor prescribed me a medication I thought would help. She told me if I came back here we could get to the bottom of what was going on... well... after getting 180 bucks doing finish carpentry I came to pick up my script and was planning on continuing to my original destination then I go around a bend a little too fast while it was raining slid into a curb and broke my axel... is that fate destiny a coincidence or meerly just an effed up series of events... I couldnt tell ya, all im saying is... no matter what, I continue ending up here... wtf! CRazy.......!!!!

Who am I?? Still not sure all I can tell you is I have been hated my entire life. Whether I was riding my bright yellow mongoose through the neighborhood with my walman on rapping and jammin or if I was maintaining a 3.95 for 2 years while in college. It has never mattered who I was or what I was, what I did. With all of those who hated there were so many who loved me!! Maybe silently but love all the same!! Just was never certain and have always thought it best to keep people at a distance not only for them but for me... all im saying is why hate me for just trying to be the best man I can be!?

This is the very first time that I have understood all of the working parts to the scenario we find ourselves in as I speak! What was wrong with me how it worked and how to keep myself safe. This has been the reason I have always run to escape from it but running is only an option when it alleviates the problem/problems your running from.

Fight or flight are the two primary trigger responses to traumatic events and in every situation leading up to where I am now that is the decision I have chosen to go with. Unfortunately when it doesn't matter how fast, far or suddenly you run, you only end up in another situation thats the same just different. At this point what does 1 do?? 1 can't run anymore it gets him nowhere. I just so happens this will be the time and place 1 spreads his stance sinks in his feet, puts up his dukes and prepares for a fight of Epic Proportions...

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[humans-are-seriously-weird]

The Time I Almost Decapitated Someone While Trying To Surf

Brace for a whole lot of pain and stupidity. It starts off a little slow but stick around for the AHHHHHHH As some of you may know, i am an intense klutz. As in I-Will-Trip-Over-Absolutely-Nothing-And-Probs-Knock-Over-The-Crown-Jewels kind of klutz. A Would-Trip-And-Fall-Off-A-Cliff kind of klutz I really need to drive this point home ok this is v important to this story So this is back in Peru (yes the same trip the chicken chased me off a cliff). Work is over for the day, the sun is starting to set, and all 40 of us Canadians are headed to the beach for our very first surf lessons So we show up and our instructors hurl wetsuits at us. I do mean hurl like mine wrapped around my face like a squid i nearly died before i even hit the water smh We get separated into groups of five and head off with our instructors. All the other groups had these young Peruvian guys and girls, all smiles and gentle teachers My instructor was a cranky 80 year old who never spoke and stared at us until we figured out what we were supposed to do Before we even get to go near the beach we start learning the technique on land. We lay down on these fake boards and pretend paddle and pretend stand, all in complete silence because who needs words right Im at the point of assuming our instructor doesnt speak english, which is totes cool cause we’re getting the message anyways. We’d spent three days working around the language barrier, now was no different. Moving on Our instructor finally deems us worthy of hitting the water so we all gleefully make our way to the beach. We were all sunshine and laughter, expecting the warm sand between our toes Not happening The beach is not soft like we had thought. It was rocks. Thousands of rocks and pebbles that sent us skittering as we descended the steep incline to the water First off: No one told me how freaking exhausting this crap is All those movies of people surfing like haha look at me this is so easy and majestic be one with the waves dude were straight up liars ok i was panting and heaving like a 90 year old race horse by the time i made it out far enough to catch a wave Cue twenty frustrating minutes of trying and failing to paddle fast enough to stay on a wave I thought i looked like Dash Incredible, majesticly spearing across the water from a horde of bad guys, my arms windmilling at break neck speeds Yeah no I was more of a drowning sloth if im completely honest Id make it maybe two feet by the time one wave passed and the next was already approaching Here’s where my surfing attempt took an unexpected turn Water splashed behind me and i didnt bother turning around. Probably one of my classmates heading for a better wave area “Need some help?” The voice was definitely not my classmates My instructor sat casually on his board behind me I was so shocked to hear him speak that i just nodded dumbly, not aware of what i was agreeing to. He hops off his board and bobs in the water for a second. He casually puts on hand on the back of my board like he was keeping me from floating away Behind him a wave approaches. I lay back down and get ready to paddle. I figured maybe he’ll tell me when to start paddling so i can actually catch this one but the wave is getting closer and closer and there was still no word from him.  I was long past when I started paddling before I hear this soft intake of breath and then, “BRACE!!!” I obey blindly and grip my board in terror wondering if there was a shark lurking beneath me Instead my 80 year old instructor absolutely freaking catapults me forwards i swear that man could launch Niel Armstrong into orbit single handedly NASA who??

Im rocketing along along, too stunned to move Im on a wave!! Im on a… wave????? I scramble to my feet thinking somebody better be seeing this cuz i will not be doing this again By some miracle i manage to stand ok i do not have great balance on land so sticking me on a board in the middle of the ocean was in no ones best interest So im whizzing along feeling like im flying and just generally trying not to face plant on my board or topple into the sea ok i just got up here no way i can manage it a second time Something about the water ahead of me doesnt look right The sun is glaring off the water just enough to block whatever that thing is. Im squinting, praying im not about to hit a rock It was so much worse It was a man He was casually chillin on his board, a set of headphones in his ears, looking to the world like he was asleep Im heading straight for this guy at top speed and as i get closer i realize two very important things I dont know how to stop … … Or turn I think of the wicked looking fins on the bottom of my board I remember mildly thinking this is gonna hurt before reality truly set in I very well might kill this man if i dont figure something out fast I start screaming and flailing with as much strength as i can muster “MOVE MOVE!!!! UNLESS YOU WANNA BE FILLET LIKE A FISH YOU GOT MOVE I CANT STOOOOOP” He casually lifts out one ear bud and looks at me with a barely audible “que?” “YOU GON DIE MOVE!!!!” Clearly he didn’t understand english, but flailing and screaming is pretty universal He leisurely lays back and paddles forewards, moving him ever so slightly out of the danger zone My board hits his as i pass so close i could have flicked his nose My board launches off his and by some miracle i manage to not only stay on it, but stay standing I twist and stare back at the man I definitely did not kill as he casually lays back down on his board Good. That would have been troublesome to explain to immigration officers on my way home I face the beach again and prepare to enjoy my calm landing and– I am less than five feet from shore going full speed SHIT I do what any sane person would do I jump ship

That was the biggest mistake of my life 

See just as i jumped for dear life the wave hit its crest and i landed right in the middle of it 

Suddenly i was a soggy pair of Canadian socks in the worlds worst dryer 

On a very important side note, i am attached to the board by a long thin cable that is velcroed around my ankle, meant to keep the board from drifting and keep me safe 

That cord is the bane of my existence 

In my Horror Dryer Extreme experience the cord had managed to wrap from my ankle all the way up to my thigh, digging cruelly into my skin even through the wet suit 

I slam into shore like a beached whale 

Remember kids: shore is not my friend shore is OW 

I slam into the rocks and lay there dazed for a moment, gasping for air. No way im going back out there ill just let the water wash over me im done surfing im done with the ocean 

But the ocean wasnt done with me 

Suddenly im getting dragged by the leg down the beach. I sit up, ignoring the stones slowly filling my pants. 

My board had gotten stuck in the out take and was dragging me out to sea once again 

I go through another round of Angry Dryer Mama Ocean and get slammed mercilessly back into shore, this time hitting my face so hard i split the skin above my eye. I still have a scar hidden above my eyebrow from this 

At this point i am done 

I try to stand and grab my board but the cord was still wrapped around my leg 

Our teams guide who just so happened to be a surfer comes running over to see if im ok. “hey! Get up! Another wave is coming!” 

I try to shout back “i cant, im stuck!” But that’s not what comes out of my dizzy mouth 

Instead i lift my leg in the air like a dog and scream “I cant! It’s winding!” 

My guide took this as “I cant! Im drowning!” 

He runs over looking like a stern third grade teacher “you’re fine just get up!” 

“You think im not trying??” 

Another wave slams into me from behind and im washed out and washed back in. Lil me cant catch a break 

Somewhere in the time id been brutally slammed back to shore my guide vanished. Fine then

 I quickly unwrap my leg and scramble to my feet 

Screw this, screw the board, im leaving!! 

I start sprinting for my life up the hill to safety 

SPLAT 

My leg is yanked out from beneath me and i face plant hard 

I didnt take off the velcro strap 

Washed out 

And washed back in 

I rip the velcro from my ankle the second i hit shore 

My guide appears out of nowhere and grabs my board and starts shouting at me to run 

I ask no questions as I scramble up the side 

Now, my guide, carrying two 50lbs surf boards makes it to the top of the hill just fine 

Not me 

A wave sucker punches me and drags me out again 

Washed out. Washed in. 

At this point im just accepting my fate to be forever bound by the sea im like the opposite of a selkie except the sea has my foot and i cant stay on the freaking land free me from my curse 

Eventually i make it up to the top and collapse like sweet releif i am free of this hell 

My guide sets my board down and looks at me. “Rekina. Stay here, the others are having a hard time too. Dont do anything stupid” trust me pal im going no where this is my home now tell my mother i love her 

(Honestly Never tell me not to do something stupid. It’s a sure fire way to make sure i do the absolute dumbest thing possible) 

I shoot him a weak thumbs up as he takes off down the beach, cackling at the poor idiot Canadians floundering in the surf. 

Youd think my Adventure was over 

Not a chance pal 

I sit up and notice one of my classmates in the same predicament i was in 

There wasnt even another option for my next choice 

I stagger back down the hill and help him up. I grab his board and all but shove him back up the hill and somehow we both made it up safe and sound 

Until we see our teacher not moving on the beach below us, her body getting battered and tossed around by the waves 

Our guide is nearly a kilometer away down the beach, too far for us to call for help 

I look at my classmate and he’s shaking his head like i am not going down there again are you crazy

I pop to my feet and race down the hill i am not letting my teacher die on my watch ok im not that kind of person fight me 

My classmate groans and follows behind 

I grab the teacher who was thankfully just stunned and unhurt and help her to her feet. My classmate grabs her board and they both start staggering up the incline far too slowly. I stay behind them to make sure they dont fall and hit the surf again. Happily they made it up just fine 

Not my ass 

Im slammed face first into the ground courtesy of a massive wave that just loves me too much 

The ocean gave me a friendly love tap as it dragged me down the hill and slammed me against it one more time for good measure 

I finally make it back to the top and swear to never surf again in my life (but let’s be real even near drowning cant stop me from trying again)

All in all a pretty successful first attempt

[airoasis]

What You Should Absolutely Never Order From Dairy Queen

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What You Should Absolutely Never Order From Dairy Queen

Should you find yourself headed to a Dairy Queen for a quick meal … or even a seemingly innocent ice cream cone … watch out for the following menu items, sure to displease even the least picky palate. You’d think a basic burger would be pretty hard to screw up, right? Ground beef, grill, bun, and done. Usually a safe bet off any fast food menu but not so at DQ, at least some of the time. Restaurant reviewers have remarked on their burgers’ peculiar texture, charred taste, and soggy buns, while former employees speak of burgers spending too long in the warming pan. What’s really upsetting, however, is complaints from customers claiming that their DQ burgers caused them to experience serious food poisoning symptoms. Im fine, Im good. If you start to feel sick, then Ill start to AHHHHH! One man even sued a Fort Worth Dairy Queen over a moldy burger that sent him to the ER and cost him over $20,000 in medical bills. According to Ralph Bryan’s attorney, the barber was busy at work when his wife brought him a double patty burger.He took several bites of the burger while it was still partly covered in its wrapper, but declined to finish the rest … it wasn’t until later that he saw the bun was covered in mold. When Bryan later complained to the restaurant where the burger had been ordered, the manager offered him a coupon in compensation. Instead, he chose to file a lawsuit seeking $200,000 to $1 million in damages for his pain and suffering, and perhaps to cover the likely cost of his choosing pricier restaurants for his future dining needs. Raw or undercooked chicken is one of the leading causes of foodborne illness, according to the Center for Disease Control. But for years, unhappy customers have been taking to social media to report raw or undercooked chicken strips from Dairy Queen, some of them even posting photos to prove they’re not exaggerating. One Indianapolis man took his complaints further than posting an online rant, however. I got a couple bites and I was like, this does not taste right, looked at it, ripped it out and realized it was completely raw. Zach Cruse decided to report the incident to DQ corporate, and the company didnt waste any time springing into action.An employee is now fired after serving THIS raw chicken to a customer. The local health department also launched an investigation of the restaurant’s food preparation procedures. If there’s one thing DQ is justly famed for, it’s the soft-serve ice cream they’ve been dishing up since 1940. The thing about soft-serve ice cream, however, is that what makes it so soft is the extra air that’s added into it. This is done with the aid of a pretty complicated machine which can harbor all kinds of nasty bacteria. It turns out that the machines are actually very difficult to get completely clean. The owner of a Dairy Queen in Iowa had her workers clean the soft-serve machines twice a day, and even replaced all of the hoses and fittings on one machine, and yet the machine still failed to meet state sanitation standards and was shut down by local health authorities. One worker who repairs the machines used to make soft serve ice cream commented that he would never allow his family to eat the product, due to the difficulty of disinfecting the machine sufficiently to kill off most of the bacteria.The most unsanitary part of these machines, he stated, was the nozzles, as these become clogged with foul-smelling green gunk, just what you want as the base of your ice cream cone. A food reviewer with Business Insider magazine, who has tasted some of the worst items that fast food restaurants have dished up over the years, still states that the hands-down worst thing she’s ever tried is Dairy Queen’s chili cheese dog. She was unimpressed by the meager amount of chili and the barely-melted, crusty cheese, but what really threw her was the alleged meat inside the bun. She didn’t think it tasted like a hot dog at all, even a bad one. Another taste tester described the hot dog as tasting like it was three weeks old. There’s a good chance that your hot dog won’t be exactly fresh off the grill.One former DQ employee admitted that the hot dogs were used, quote, “over, and over, and over” and even reheated to serve the next day if they weren’t all gone by closing time. Dairy Queen, like just about every other fast food chain out there, does offer a few salads on its menu for the health conscious diner … or perhaps the one who’s saving all their calories for dessert.The problem with ordering a salad at DQ, though, is that you definitely won’t get what you’re paying for. One DQ employee, commenting anonymously on Reddit, described all the ingredients as old, including the lettuce, cabbage, carrots, and, quote, even older grilled chicken,” which sounds like a way for them to get rid of a bunch of unwanted leftovers. What’s more, this same employee revealed a menu change circa 2016, a sneaky downsizing maneuver in which the salad amounts were reduced but the bowls were redesigned to hide this.Oh yeah, and their salads arent exactly healthy options, either. All of the main course salads range from 270 to 400 calories and 11 to 21 grams of fat, and that’s without any dressing. Ok, so nobody goes to Dairy Queen and orders a Blizzard thinking it’s going to be part of a nutritious, well-balanced diet. These are nothing but delicious calorie bombs and we all know it. Every once in a while, you just gotta indulge, though, right? Well, there’s indulging and then there’s just plan insanity, and at DQ there’s one menu item that totally crosses over the line: the Royal Reese Brownie Blizzard filled with peanut butter, in the large size, comes in at a whopping 1,500 calories! That’s 75 percent of the 2,000 recommended daily calories endorsed by the federal Food and Drug Administration. Of course, if you want to feast on a Blizzard from time to time but you have a little self control, you can always order this Blizzard in a mini size. At just 6 ounces, it comes in at a mere 520 calories. If moderation is not your thing, at least you can always console yourself that the large size does supply a respectable 37 grams of protein thanks to its gooey peanut butter-filled core.I thoroughly enjoy this peanut butter. In 2018, a panel of taste testers from foodie website The Takeout set out to rank 19 different Blizzards, and the one that came in dead last, scoring only 1 out of 20 possible taste points, was the infamous Banana Split Blizzard. Why? Because of its watery consistency and its sour taste from overripe bananas. The strawberry and chocolate flavorings were said to be faint, and the taste of pineapple wasnt even noticeable at all.How can one butcher a banana split so terribly? Were unsure, but the conclusion was that this particular Blizzard was pretty much one big fail. When it comes to fast food fry reviews, Dairy Queen fries are usually damned with faint praise. The Daily Hive called them just, quote, “okay,” but rated them #9 on a list of 10 Canadian chains. The LA Times ranked DQ’s fries in the middle of the pack, 7 out of 19, but remarked that, quote, “the flavor isn’t particularly noticeable” and seemingly gave the chain a bump just because Dairy Queen also serves ice cream. A blogger for Odyssey, however, pulled no punches, calling the fries soggy, lifeless, and unseasoned. These reviews, ranging from meh to bleh, are still referring to Dairy Queen fries that are prepared as they should be, and served up relatively fresh.Numerous consumer complaints, however, attest to the fact that the fries may well be cold, stale, or even gritty, and that you may receive far fewer of these than you expect. Although when it comes to DQ fries, perhaps fewer isn’t such a bad thing, after all. Business Insider has reviewed Dairy Queens fish sandwiches several times. A 2016 review called them subpar, with a weak bun, soggy lettuce, bland tartar sauce and fish that could easily be mistaken for chicken. A more recent Business Insider review of Dairy Queen’s Alaskan Pacific Cod sandwich was ambivalent as to whether it was or was not an improvement on DQ’s previous fishwiches. The oil-coated lettuce and excessive tartar sauce were judged to be even worse than before, but the fish itself had seemingly improved from unidentifiable to merely not so great. Yet another review, this one posted on Reddit, characterized the Alaskan Cod sandwich as both gross and, quote, “smushed.” The reviewer backed these claims up with some vomit-inducing photos that not only do look both gross and smushed, but do not in any way resemble the deliciousness shown in the companys advertising photo.One commenter offered the opinion that it was the Redditors fault for ordering fish from a fast food restaurant in the first place, while others remarked upon how Dairy Queen itself so often fails to fulfill expectations. You know a food trend is on its way out by the time it trickles down to fast food chains. Do you remember when, suddenly, every foodie was going gaga over artisanal this, that, and the other thing? Marketers soon found out that this buzzword was an easy way to justify jacking up the price on an item that really didn’t have to fit any specific guidelines to qualify as artisanal. With everyone else having jumped aboard the artisanal bandwagon in 2015, Dairy Queen decided it might as well roll out its own artisan sandwich line, with results that were well, predictable.Business Insider found the chicken bacon ranch sandwich to be soggy, while a Tripadvisor reviewer couldn’t decide whether the chicken mozzarella or the Philly artisan sandwich was worse, reporting them to be microwave-cooked and skimpy on fillings. At least when and if that whole food trend goes away, we won’t have to blame it on millennials. Instead, we can blame DQ and their soggy sandwiches for driving the final nail in the artisanal coffin. Breakfast, the most important meal of the day. What better way to jump start your day than with a tasty, healthy meal sure to fill you with energy or you could just clog up every single artery and scarf down half of your day’s recommended calories and fat right from the get-go. Good luck feeling energized to do anything but head straight back to bed after that. If you’re down with the latter plan, then you’ll definitely want to stop by Dairy Queen and load up on their breakfast, where their country platter fits the definition of heart attack on a plate. The country platter with sausage has been called the absolute worst breakfast item on DQ’s menu, it turns out the platter with bacon is even worse.The sausage platter has 1,060 calories and 38 grams of fat, while the bacon version comes in at 1,150 calories and 39 fat grams. Actually, when it comes to fat alone, there’s yet another contender: the ultimate hash browns platter with bacon. This dish, which could be described as a health crisis waiting to happen, has just 1,030 calories but an incredible, and possibly fatal, 43 grams of fat. So, eat at your own risk. Check out one of our newest videos right here! Plus, even more Mashed videos about your favorite stuff are coming soon. Subscribe to our YouTube channel and hit the bell so you don’t miss a single one. .

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What You Should Absolutely Never Order From Dairy Queen

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What You Should Absolutely Never Order From Dairy Queen

Should you find yourself headed to a Dairy Queen for a quick meal … or even a seemingly innocent ice cream cone … watch out for the following menu items, sure to displease even the least picky palate. You’d think a basic burger would be pretty hard to screw up, right? Ground beef, grill, bun, and done. Usually a safe bet off any fast food menu but not so at DQ, at least some of the time. Restaurant reviewers have remarked on their burgers’ peculiar texture, charred taste, and soggy buns, while former employees speak of burgers spending too long in the warming pan. What’s really upsetting, however, is complaints from customers claiming that their DQ burgers caused them to experience serious food poisoning symptoms. Im fine, Im good. If you start to feel sick, then Ill start to AHHHHH! One man even sued a Fort Worth Dairy Queen over a moldy burger that sent him to the ER and cost him over $20,000 in medical bills. According to Ralph Bryan’s attorney, the barber was busy at work when his wife brought him a double patty burger.He took several bites of the burger while it was still partly covered in its wrapper, but declined to finish the rest … it wasn’t until later that he saw the bun was covered in mold. When Bryan later complained to the restaurant where the burger had been ordered, the manager offered him a coupon in compensation. Instead, he chose to file a lawsuit seeking $200,000 to $1 million in damages for his pain and suffering, and perhaps to cover the likely cost of his choosing pricier restaurants for his future dining needs. Raw or undercooked chicken is one of the leading causes of foodborne illness, according to the Center for Disease Control. But for years, unhappy customers have been taking to social media to report raw or undercooked chicken strips from Dairy Queen, some of them even posting photos to prove they’re not exaggerating. One Indianapolis man took his complaints further than posting an online rant, however. I got a couple bites and I was like, this does not taste right, looked at it, ripped it out and realized it was completely raw. Zach Cruse decided to report the incident to DQ corporate, and the company didnt waste any time springing into action.An employee is now fired after serving THIS raw chicken to a customer. The local health department also launched an investigation of the restaurant’s food preparation procedures. If there’s one thing DQ is justly famed for, it’s the soft-serve ice cream they’ve been dishing up since 1940. The thing about soft-serve ice cream, however, is that what makes it so soft is the extra air that’s added into it. This is done with the aid of a pretty complicated machine which can harbor all kinds of nasty bacteria. It turns out that the machines are actually very difficult to get completely clean. The owner of a Dairy Queen in Iowa had her workers clean the soft-serve machines twice a day, and even replaced all of the hoses and fittings on one machine, and yet the machine still failed to meet state sanitation standards and was shut down by local health authorities. One worker who repairs the machines used to make soft serve ice cream commented that he would never allow his family to eat the product, due to the difficulty of disinfecting the machine sufficiently to kill off most of the bacteria.The most unsanitary part of these machines, he stated, was the nozzles, as these become clogged with foul-smelling green gunk, just what you want as the base of your ice cream cone. A food reviewer with Business Insider magazine, who has tasted some of the worst items that fast food restaurants have dished up over the years, still states that the hands-down worst thing she’s ever tried is Dairy Queen’s chili cheese dog. She was unimpressed by the meager amount of chili and the barely-melted, crusty cheese, but what really threw her was the alleged meat inside the bun. She didn’t think it tasted like a hot dog at all, even a bad one. Another taste tester described the hot dog as tasting like it was three weeks old. There’s a good chance that your hot dog won’t be exactly fresh off the grill.One former DQ employee admitted that the hot dogs were used, quote, “over, and over, and over” and even reheated to serve the next day if they weren’t all gone by closing time. Dairy Queen, like just about every other fast food chain out there, does offer a few salads on its menu for the health conscious diner … or perhaps the one who’s saving all their calories for dessert.The problem with ordering a salad at DQ, though, is that you definitely won’t get what you’re paying for. One DQ employee, commenting anonymously on Reddit, described all the ingredients as old, including the lettuce, cabbage, carrots, and, quote, even older grilled chicken,” which sounds like a way for them to get rid of a bunch of unwanted leftovers. What’s more, this same employee revealed a menu change circa 2016, a sneaky downsizing maneuver in which the salad amounts were reduced but the bowls were redesigned to hide this.Oh yeah, and their salads arent exactly healthy options, either. All of the main course salads range from 270 to 400 calories and 11 to 21 grams of fat, and that’s without any dressing. Ok, so nobody goes to Dairy Queen and orders a Blizzard thinking it’s going to be part of a nutritious, well-balanced diet. These are nothing but delicious calorie bombs and we all know it. Every once in a while, you just gotta indulge, though, right? Well, there’s indulging and then there’s just plan insanity, and at DQ there’s one menu item that totally crosses over the line: the Royal Reese Brownie Blizzard filled with peanut butter, in the large size, comes in at a whopping 1,500 calories! That’s 75 percent of the 2,000 recommended daily calories endorsed by the federal Food and Drug Administration. Of course, if you want to feast on a Blizzard from time to time but you have a little self control, you can always order this Blizzard in a mini size. At just 6 ounces, it comes in at a mere 520 calories. If moderation is not your thing, at least you can always console yourself that the large size does supply a respectable 37 grams of protein thanks to its gooey peanut butter-filled core.I thoroughly enjoy this peanut butter. In 2018, a panel of taste testers from foodie website The Takeout set out to rank 19 different Blizzards, and the one that came in dead last, scoring only 1 out of 20 possible taste points, was the infamous Banana Split Blizzard. Why? Because of its watery consistency and its sour taste from overripe bananas. The strawberry and chocolate flavorings were said to be faint, and the taste of pineapple wasnt even noticeable at all.How can one butcher a banana split so terribly? Were unsure, but the conclusion was that this particular Blizzard was pretty much one big fail. When it comes to fast food fry reviews, Dairy Queen fries are usually damned with faint praise. The Daily Hive called them just, quote, “okay,” but rated them #9 on a list of 10 Canadian chains. The LA Times ranked DQ’s fries in the middle of the pack, 7 out of 19, but remarked that, quote, “the flavor isn’t particularly noticeable” and seemingly gave the chain a bump just because Dairy Queen also serves ice cream. A blogger for Odyssey, however, pulled no punches, calling the fries soggy, lifeless, and unseasoned. These reviews, ranging from meh to bleh, are still referring to Dairy Queen fries that are prepared as they should be, and served up relatively fresh.Numerous consumer complaints, however, attest to the fact that the fries may well be cold, stale, or even gritty, and that you may receive far fewer of these than you expect. Although when it comes to DQ fries, perhaps fewer isn’t such a bad thing, after all. Business Insider has reviewed Dairy Queens fish sandwiches several times. A 2016 review called them subpar, with a weak bun, soggy lettuce, bland tartar sauce and fish that could easily be mistaken for chicken. A more recent Business Insider review of Dairy Queen’s Alaskan Pacific Cod sandwich was ambivalent as to whether it was or was not an improvement on DQ’s previous fishwiches. The oil-coated lettuce and excessive tartar sauce were judged to be even worse than before, but the fish itself had seemingly improved from unidentifiable to merely not so great. Yet another review, this one posted on Reddit, characterized the Alaskan Cod sandwich as both gross and, quote, “smushed.” The reviewer backed these claims up with some vomit-inducing photos that not only do look both gross and smushed, but do not in any way resemble the deliciousness shown in the companys advertising photo.One commenter offered the opinion that it was the Redditors fault for ordering fish from a fast food restaurant in the first place, while others remarked upon how Dairy Queen itself so often fails to fulfill expectations. You know a food trend is on its way out by the time it trickles down to fast food chains. Do you remember when, suddenly, every foodie was going gaga over artisanal this, that, and the other thing? Marketers soon found out that this buzzword was an easy way to justify jacking up the price on an item that really didn’t have to fit any specific guidelines to qualify as artisanal. With everyone else having jumped aboard the artisanal bandwagon in 2015, Dairy Queen decided it might as well roll out its own artisan sandwich line, with results that were well, predictable.Business Insider found the chicken bacon ranch sandwich to be soggy, while a Tripadvisor reviewer couldn’t decide whether the chicken mozzarella or the Philly artisan sandwich was worse, reporting them to be microwave-cooked and skimpy on fillings. At least when and if that whole food trend goes away, we won’t have to blame it on millennials. Instead, we can blame DQ and their soggy sandwiches for driving the final nail in the artisanal coffin. Breakfast, the most important meal of the day. What better way to jump start your day than with a tasty, healthy meal sure to fill you with energy or you could just clog up every single artery and scarf down half of your day’s recommended calories and fat right from the get-go. Good luck feeling energized to do anything but head straight back to bed after that. If you’re down with the latter plan, then you’ll definitely want to stop by Dairy Queen and load up on their breakfast, where their country platter fits the definition of heart attack on a plate. The country platter with sausage has been called the absolute worst breakfast item on DQ’s menu, it turns out the platter with bacon is even worse.The sausage platter has 1,060 calories and 38 grams of fat, while the bacon version comes in at 1,150 calories and 39 fat grams. Actually, when it comes to fat alone, there’s yet another contender: the ultimate hash browns platter with bacon. This dish, which could be described as a health crisis waiting to happen, has just 1,030 calories but an incredible, and possibly fatal, 43 grams of fat. So, eat at your own risk. Check out one of our newest videos right here! Plus, even more Mashed videos about your favorite stuff are coming soon. Subscribe to our YouTube channel and hit the bell so you don’t miss a single one. .

[perfectionistincrisis]

Day 78

Almost 8 years back, when I used to have a HUUUGEE crush on him, we didnt used to talk yet & then we did a litttle - well but like I always used to talk to myself - hold on - no, you must be thinking im crazy - no no - i used to pretend like he was in front of me and i just used to pour my heart out! It used to feel really good. And thennnnn, after we started going out, there were nuuuuumerooouuuus times i got grounded! I used to do the saaaame all those times. Just talk to myself, whatever i want to, whatever comes in my head & & dont get the wrong idea - i didnt use to speak my heart out and it didnt used to feel so good cause i was talking to “myself” BUT i used to do it because i used to imagine HIM in front of me. And yes, i would really pour my heart out to him & yes, it would really feel so good. 

Okay so why I am mentioning it today is because now i caught myself doing the same again! i talk to myself like im talking to him & he’s right here. And i just keep going on and on and on. Lol yeah yeah im a weirdo so here comes the fun and weird - or weirderrrr - part. I sometimes repeat the whole crap i just spoke out all over again. like the whole bunch of crap i just blabbered. I mean idk. Maybe partly cause ik that im just pretending like he is here but he is not, i kind of try to remember what im saying cause im not actually talking to him. and then after im done talking maybe i feel lonely and aware of the fact he is not here and then i try to feel like he is though all over again and then i try hard to remember everything i just said and say it all over again. Lol. idk maybe this is simply the definition of pure madness!

But. It means something to me. It keeps me going! 

Oh about yesterday. I missed out a tiny part of me being happy shopping! I had dad’s credit card to myself lol. So i just had to go to a shop get my stuff and go to the cashier, enter pin and beep beep dad gets a text message of the money he just spent!!!! Haha! Dad was around though, outside the shops

So last night i just couldnt sleep. like i slept an hour and then i woke up and couldnt get back to sleep until like 6am wth. FALLING asleep can be such a struggle. NOT FALLING asleep can be a truggle too which i am really aware of. but like FALLING asleep? Wth? it shouldve been a piece of cake man. LIFE Ugh! 

So i was kinda tired the whole day

I ate real food today. Most days i only live on apples and almonds and tea. Today I had a grilled fish and lettuce salad and then has a falafel sandwich. I dont feel THAT bad or bad at all i guess cause it was a healthy choice but then still, it was ‘food’ so yeah! Tomorrow i need to go back to apple & almonds. 

I think about him all the time. With time, it keeps getting harder & harder, staying away from him. Also, I just cant get myself to picture a happy face of him. Like an actual happy face, one where ik he is actually happy... And that just kills me..

I guess its not supposed to be easy duh. but like. idk what im trying to say. idk. Its just that. Ugh.. Ya Allah make this easy for both of us & please give us sabr. 

Oh i just remembered. So i dont feel like doing stuff. Idk. simple stuff. Any stuff. Like open something new i bought WHICHHH btw is really “something” to me! I mean, i mean this will pass and obviously he is not there next to me & even before he didnt used to be there but then id still idk send him a pic or idk tell him about it and idk it would just make me happy but now i just have to do something and i wont be able to share it with him and ikkkkkk inshaAllah one day He will give us the chance to have moment like that but but but. I still have this thing. Like i go like - yeah, but this ones just gna goo.. - hmph. Idk if that makes me greedy.. I guess I kinda am.. 

And yeah its not something as stupid as opening stuff or showing him stuff i bought but like each and everything in my life... hehh

I never wanted to admit it even to “MYSELF” but i died a million times the day he went to bd. I dont ‘really’ understand why. I mean, yeah kinddddaaa feeling bad is ok but i felt ‘really’ bad - that i had been lying to myself tryingt o make myself believe that it was just a coincident i felt really depressed right the day he went to bd and the next maybe >.> no but the next days one wasnt bd, it was life. but ugh im not THAT depressed now, i mean i think i suffer from depression - maybe really mild not to severe or maybe more than mild idk. But to say ive got no problem at all and im completely fine? WHO AM I KIDDING??? lmao 

The thing is - these days - are better than the really bad days. Thats all im gna say! But. Alhamdulillah <3 I really cant say I can be ungrateful any single day of my life but.. Its really not that simple.. I am grateful, I always am, Even when i am tired - so. damn. tired. - of life but - i just cant explain it! 

Ok so the thing is, yeah i felt bad when he went to bd, cause yeah it felt like he went far. and that means it still feels like before when we used to talk and id feel bad cause he went far. So i guess it doesnt matter whether we talk or not, when hes far, hes far, and i feel it.. Also today i came to know he will come back after Eid! Thats pretty long! But i really hope he enjoys inshaAllah! 

I kinda realized i write a lot about him - but tbh - thats basically me! He is a.l.w.a.y.s.s.s.s. there. And Always Will Be.. InshaAllah

And now i will work out UGH - I want to hire someone whod point a gun at me every single day to get me on the treadmill that would be REALLY HELPFUL CAUSE I JUST CANT MAKE ME! )(*&^@#$^%^&#*@(&*&^#*&^#*$()*(@))*)($*)($

Ok bye :) xox

[brownthrussy]

1-85

Wade you got me fucked up smfh jk

1.) Are looks important in a relationship?:To some extent yes, since its kinda a attention grabbed. Eventually the personality is what becomes more important.

2.) Are relationships ever worth it?:Most are, as long as they’re healthy, but some are better off ending.

3.) Are you a virgin?:I hope my mom doesn’t see, but no. If my mom ever sees this then hell yeah I am lmao.

4.) Are you in a relationship?:Surprisingly yes

5.) Are you in love?:Considering my lack of love interests and mainly unhealthy relationships surrounding me, its hard to tell for myself but I believe I am yeah

6.) Are you single this year?:Jeez I hope not lol

7.) Can you commit to one person?:Yes.8.) Describe your crush:Hmm normal lenght hair, dark eyes, average height and thicc

9.) Describe your perfect mate:Sounds similar to 8 but I guess someone I can be comfortable and relate with.

10.) Do you believe in love at first sight?:No lmao im pretty sure thats a crush.

11.) Do you ever want to get married?:It’d be nice someday so sure lol

12.) Do you forgive betrayal?:Depends on the situation and how the person thats asking for forgiveness acts. If they learned their lesson and understand what they did wrong then I could forgive possibly but if not then no.

13.) Do you get jealous easy?:No lol its cause im bad at taking hints so I cant tell when someones hitting on me or el bae

14.) Do you have a crush on anyone?: Mi novio lol

15.) Do you have any piercings?:Nope lol

16.) Do you have any tattoos?:Nah lol

17.) Do you like kissing in public?:Nah lol i dont like being the center of attention

ERROR: 18 and 19 DOESN’T FUCKING EXIST??

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20.) Do you shower everyday?:Si

21.) Do you think someone has feelings for you?: Well I hope my bf likes me lmao

22.) Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?: hmm its possible so sure lol

23.) Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?: Well i’ve been doing it so yeah lol

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24.) Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?: i don’t think so but hey who knows what future me will do lol

25.) Do you want to be in a relationship this year?: i want to keep it so yes lol

26.) Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?: Si

27.) Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?: Not that I know of lol

28.) Have you ever been cheated on?: Officially no, but I had a few suspicions from my ex so it wouldn’t surprise me

29.) Have you ever cheated on someone?: No

30.) Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?: I’m ok really lol

31.) Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?: lmfao yes sadly.

32.) Have you ever experienced unrequited love?: Yeah. With my “ex”, we weren’t officially in a relationship we were just dating.

33.) Have you ever had sex with a man?: no homo but yeah lol

34.) Have you ever had sex with a woman?: tbh i just don’t support that lifestyle… i have straight friends tho so es cool

35.) Have you ever kissed someone older than you?: si

36.) Have you ever liked one of your best friends?: Nah lol I love them in a platonic way

37.) Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? No lol

38.) Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yeah lifes pretty wild

39.) Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?: yeah lmao its terrible 0/10 would not recommend

40.) Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? No im not an artistic person

41.) Have you had sex sex so far this year? Si but im staying a virgin til marriage

42.) How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Depends on the mood I guess???

43.) How long was your longest relationship? Lmao the current one so almost a year!

44.) How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 1 lol

45.) How many people did you kiss in 2011? Lmfao 0 I was an awkward disaster back then. Now i’m slightly less but with a better fashion sense.

46.) How many times did you have sex last year? Idk I wasnt counting lol but life fucked me over alot so that counts too right?

47.) How old are you? Believe it or not, but i’m 21 lol

48.) If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Well rip my relationship then but it’d be something like “she ain’t ugly but she ain’t me”

49.) If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? Hmm I like the attentiveness and los jokes

50.) If your first true love knocked on your door with an apology and presents, would you accept? If its just forgiveness then probably yeah. Regardless im taking the presents tbh as compensation

51.) Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yes

52.) Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Nah they usually leave me first before I can say im done

53.) Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? No lol my business is my own

54.) Is there someone you will never forget? My ex and former close friends tbh

55.) Share a relationship story: well we went to olive garden cause I had never gone. So I was feeling like a rich white woman cause it looked fancy and the waited asked if he could toss the salad for us. My stupid ass thought he either meant in a sex term or literally flipping it. Guess what I mentioned out loud. So homeboy leaves and I realize I can never return here without realizing that i assumed that the waiter wanted a fucking threesome because I spend too much time looking at memes smh. Oh and he spilled drinks on the people next to us including this lady and her phone so guess who got tipped good cause id die if i were in his position smh. Moral of the story is this is why I shouldnt go out

56.) State 8 facts about your body: I have a fat stomach, yet skinny arms and legs lol, i got a birthmark by my right shoulder that looks like hawaii apparently, if one hand moves the other tends to attempt to do the same thing, i got my apendix removed, theres a scar from said surgery on it, I barely have body hair but it grows quick, i accidently stabbed myself with a led pencil. The led remains up to today

57.) Things you want to say to an ex: Someone is contradicting themselves lmao sorry for not being what you wanted but you could’ve treated me like a decent human being. But I guess im unreasonable for wanting trust and communication lol oh well

58.) What are five ways to win your heart?: food, pokemon, more video games, trying ya best and being direct with one another.

59.) What do you look like? (post a picture!): so like do i post a new selfie in a seperate post or???? Eh ill do that later

60.) What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 6-7 years 😥 lol

61.) What is the first thing you notice in someone? How they react to situations lol says alot as a first perspective

62.) What is the sexiest thing someone has done for/ to you? Bought me food 😍

63.) What is your definition of having sex? Well it involves a penis usually afjvhadaish

64.) What is your definition of cheating? Well besides doing it physically, by lying to your S/O about not seeing anyone else and talking to others with the intention of cheating

65.) What is your favorite foreplay routine? Loving jesus

66.) What is your favorite roleplay? Reading the bible together.

67.) What is your idea of the perfect date? It involves eating, going out doing anything since anything can be fun if you’re with the right person. If it gets everything that is stressful about life and makes it seem irrelevant at the moment then this is the moment

68.) What is your sexual orientation? No homo but men are ok. So un homosexual

69.) What turns you off? Well acting like a child or being rude and dismissive.

70.) What turns you on? Communication and trust can I get an amen

71.) What was your kinkiest wet dream? Ok so there I am in battle wearing regular armor but with channel boots and I destroy my enemies by walking on them since they wronged me. There’s also lesbians.

72.) What worlds do you like to hear during sex? Are you feeling it now, Mr.Krabs???

73.) What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Anything really, its mainly the thought that matters

74.) What’s the most superficial characteristic that you look for? Hmm facial features and eyes lol

75.) What’s the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for you? Gave me the pink power ranger pop lol my girl

76.) What’s the sweetest thing you have ever done for someone? I gave a rare pop as a gift for christmas. It cost $50 lmfao

77.) What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? As long as its legal and consensual then its alright

78.) What’s your dirtiest secret? Dont got any lol not any that come to mind atleast

79.) When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Idk middle school lol crush had the nerve to talk to someone that wasnt me smh. Im glad i grew up and learned

80.) When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Whenever I see my best friend and hes about to do some dumb shit

81.) Who are five people you find attractive? So is this like from tumblr or anywhere?. Hmm theres mi novio, my best friend and fuck it like 3 of my mutuals lmao i almost tagged em

82.) Who is the last person you hugged? My younger sister

83.) Who was your first kiss? An old friend lol we dont talk no more

84.) Why did your last relationship fail? I have no idea. My ex was like “i gotta be alone” then pulled the “we’re different” card. And I figured it was both until my friend showed me that he was on tinder with an updated bio and photos that he had sent to me initially. So I guess ill never know lol

85.) Would you ever date someone off of the internet? Yeah why not lol if the connection is there

[captainjellyroll]

Ok, I just read your FAQ and I was wondering a few things. Number one; you said you are gender fluid, and also identify as a boy; do your parents know? And how did you come out of the closet? 'Cause I'm a closeted trans boy, and I want to tell people to identify me as that, but I am quite hesitant and nervous. Number two; how did people react to your coming out? If you told people? I'm kinda in your position of sexuality and I know you said your blog isn't focused on this but I wanted to know.

i have a... “special” relationship with my family, and i have this fear of ruining our bond and dynamic w/ me suddenly telling them about this whole new side of me. a couple family members know, but thats it. my parents just know im gay (as far as im concerned). i dont know when or how im gonna tell them, but right now, im hesitant bc i just dont want them to see me differently. its complicated,,,,, “orz

so, i didnt come out as a different gender to them. but; i didnt come out as gay either-- they just.. kinda figured it out after i kept inviting “special” friends overnight. >//w//> ;; (also my siblings totally fuckign outed me on that part asdjfglhsf--)

my entiiiire family knew i was pretty fucking gay. so there wasnt really a... reaction. some of my older family members are gay and/or have had trans partners, so its nothing new. my family + extended family is pretty experienced in the LGBTQ+ scene.

that being said-- it seems like me coming out as a boy wouldnt be so hard. i mean-- everyone would accept me, and i know that for a fact. i know people would kill to be in my position right now, and would jump at the chance of coming out ASAP. i know my family would support and love me no matter what, and i bet they would even help my funds to transition. i am in a very appealing position. and i am fully aware of this.

but... its all just me.

im just scared to mess up my current relationship with my family. im scared to loose what ive built up all my life. im scared to change whats already pretty alright. im scared of being treated differently after all we’ve been through. im scared of the worst possible outcome. im just... scared.

thats a little insight on why i identify as genderfluid rather than full blown trans male. because im still holding on to that small string of happiness of being my immediate family’s “first daughter” and their “little princess”. its all i got going on in that relationship-- and i dont want to loose it.

ive been trying to mend things with my immediate family-- because even though our living situation had gotten sticky before i moved out, deep down i still loved them and cared for them. but i guess thats why i NEEDED to move out. so i can know what its like being on my own and what i really wanted. did i want to keep this past identity to keep my family, or chase after my desires and start all over??? its all hard and complicated, and it hurts when i think about it for too long.

but yeah. besides my family situation-- i grew up in a very progressive area in a progressive state (Bay Area, California lmao). everyone started to come out as early as middle school, and i grew up on a place where there was virtually no bullying at all. so all my friends/teachers/peers didnt care if i was gay or trans or smth else, bc it was the norm. so again-- no reaction there. just another day in the life.

i didnt know it was NOT normal until i went on the internet and heard horror stories about discrimination. so-- my life and experiences with society and the LGBTQ+ community is VERY flip-flopped compared to every other goddamn person on this fucked up planet. i lived in an ideal world.

so im sorry i couldnt help much, my situation is VERY rare (i’ve learned) and i feel terrible that my experiences didnt line up with everyone else’s. i wish this was universal-- and it absolutely tore my heart up into pieces learning what the rest of the world was like.

i hope you come out and live a comfortable life being yourself. and i hope your life is easy on you for being who you are-- and i know for a fact you’ll do great once you do decide on what to do next. the universe has its way of rewarding those who deserve good karma-- so keep ur chin up and do your best!!! i love you!!!!

(and if anything goes array- just move to California HAHA)