#cause like bish thats what youre doing lol

[pinazee]

im still stuck on ep 3 guys. Because in the beginning of the ep La’An refuses to talk about anything with M’benga and at the end shes practically begging the time lady to.

And maybe part of the reason La’An felt she could get so close to this guy was because on some level she knew he was never going to stick around. Sometimes its easier to bond with strangers because you’re not scared of losing them. But, by letting her guard down she went and got attached to a version of someone who doesn’t exist, and lost him anyways.

And of course part of it was kirk. He spends the better part of the episode enjoying his walk through history, taking in the sunset, enjoying the hot dogs, the old fashioned driving, the 2d chess. Once he decided to help save her timeline, he knew his life was over. And Kirk wanted to enjoy what time he had left, wanted to feel the excitement of a budding romance one last time, wanted to feel the best part of being human before he stopped existing. Despite his impending doom and warring reality, Kirk still has a passion for life. He knows to enjoy the little things while you can, to grasp onto any scrap of happiness and hold it tight. Something La’An has been afraid to do because she thinks it will be taken from her.

Then in lotus eaters, we hear her say something like “sometimes the pain is worth remembering” and maybe shes talking about something else (she has a whole slew of trauma) but since its coming off of ep3, maybe its because the pain of his loss was worth remembering how good it felt to let her guard down and open up to someone. She learned a new way of coping with loss, not to dwell on the pain it caused but by remembering what made it worth losing in the first place

[artyheartz]

Question .. heard that you like Epic the Musical. Have you listened to the Vengeance Saga yet, and if so, what are your thoughts on it? I'm curious .. smiles

I have listened it and even watch the stream

HOO BOY WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN?? I KNOW THE VENGENCE SAGA IS GOING TO BE MINDBLOWING AND I THOUGHT I WAS PREPARE BUT JORGE ALWAYS PROVE ME WRONG

ok spoiler free thoughts! Everyone did such an amazing job like always! Jorge really wasnt kidding when he said this saga is gonna have those video game feels to it. SPEAKING OF FEELS HE HIT IT AGAIN WITH THAT ACCURATELY. Probably not as hard as the last one but still, hit with those feels a lil. Im still a bit of mix feelings with Calypso, but I definitely feel bad. Sorry girl but he's taken. The rollercoaster of emotions I when, the callbacks and all those familiar motifs was a ride indeed. Charybdis and Dangerous is the one I was looking forward the most and Jorge did not miss. I'm so gonna listen to it on repeat

-- ok now for the spoilers --

again, WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN?? Jorge reallly went forward and beyond with his performance here, especially in six hundred strike, like godamn that screams!! six hundreds strikes for each of his six hundred men that has die. I got chills when the souls start singing "waiting" in unison like damn. literal chills omg.

I actually did not expected for the wind bag to return (not sure if that is a thing in the original odyssey story) but I'm so glad it did, get to hear the silly winions again. I can feel the dread and fear when they say he wont make him after the wind bag is open, then when back to jamming. (also the "I'm not the one who fought for you" im not ok. Athennaaaaaa 😭😭😭)

Just hermes dancing and breaking it down while Oddysues is struggling fighting monsters are such a mood. I love u hermes dont change aendkjdn

oh and that ending... bro that ending.. out of all the things I could have imagine for it went, THAT IS DEFINITELY NOT ONE OF THEM. LIKE I THOUGHT ONE OF THE GODS IS GONNA INTERFER OR HAS ANOTHER TRICK BUT NO. HE STRAIGHT UP STAB POSEIDON WITH HIS OWN TRIDENT TILL HE CALL OFF THE STORM. HE USED THE FACT POSEIDON CANT DIE TO RELEASE HIS ANGER, EACH STRIKES WITH A PAINED SCREAM OMG. Im speechless. but at the same time KARMA!!

Odysseus literally ask for forgiveness and mercy but noooooo you just have to be full of yourself. "You.. Monster!!" bish look who's talking ur the one who cause this monster

oh at the "how will you sleep at night" "next to my wife" dang thats cold. I got no words

i think that's all I wanna say abt the new saga. when I say this ask I knew Im gonna do a full on rant lol. sorry not sorry crescent but also you probably wanted this anyway wdknqwkd

[dommelody]

hey guys its been a while ^^

lately I've became addicted to playing obey me so just decided to write some of my thoughts i mean pure and innocent ones lol just for a change XD and not me totally being a beel simp :") anways enjoy this fluff and wholesome story oh last thing if i find good respond to this one ill maybe make more of those lol enjoy then ^^

☆mc's favoritism☆

♡

It's another morning in the house of lamentation you woke up from your comfy bed opened the windows for some morning air-even tho there's no sun but for some air change-u did some stretching then u wore ur outfit for working out u get it right today ur goin to workout outdoors with beelzebub after he insisted frequently and even gave u some of his cheeseburgers as an exchange for doin morning workout with him although u told him that u will start after breakfast cause no way u ll be able to handle beel's workouts with an empty stomach and he agreed with big smile u went to the dining room

lucifer : "good morning Mc judging from ur outfit i take it that ur going to workout with beel ?"

"yep im starting to notice that i m gaining weight cause of someone lately "

beel with puppy eyes : "Mc did u not like it when i bring u food ? :"("

"NO I FUCKING LOVE IT PLEASE BRING MORE FROM NOW ON"

beel with a big innocent smile : "leave it to me Mc ^_^"

lucifer :" I see ,so because u cant go on a diet due to some indoors food delivery ur only hope is to exercise to lose weight well i dont think uve gained that much weight u look as beautiful as ever*smirk*

"thanks i guess hehe"

mammon : "Hey Mc i found a good place where u can sell stuff and u can gain alot of money there lets go after breakfast "

"oh sorry mammon I'm working out with beel after this"

mammon spaced out for a sec and then blushed : "huh u w-what ?///:

"mammon u perv u got it wrong we r going to exercise outdoors *sighs* even tho u see what im wearing ur still asking ??"

satan:" don't blame him Mc blame that stupid brain of his guess its just full of money thoughts too busy to think properly "

mammon :" WHAT DID YA SAY?IM UR OLDER BROTHER YA KNOW!"

satan:" OLDER BROTHER MY ASS AFTER YOU SOLD MY FREAKING UNDERWEAR TO SOME RANDOM BITCH U CALL URSELF MY OLDER BROTHER !!!STFU STUPID MAMMON"

asmo :"did u literally just go and steal satan's unwashed green underwear mammon u perv~"

satan:" AND HOW TF DID U KNOW ITS GREEN AND UNWASHED BRO THATS GROSS!"

asmo : " iyaa~ dont blame me this time i was PURELY going to wash my underwear then i saw u going out of there then saw it "

satan :"*sighs*AND WHY THE FUCK R U WASHING UR UNDERWEAR AT 3AM,oh wait please don't answer

beel :" Mc try this cake its so delicious :) "

"Thanks beel ^^"

beel :" about our workout i modified urs a little bit because i dont think u can keep up with my pase but for the jogging u have to keep up with me at least 10 rounds around the town *munch* *munch* "

""HUH ?! 10 ROUNDS AROUND THE TOWN BEEL R U TRYING TO KILL ME ?

beel :"Huh ? but ithink its too easy, for me i do about 20 so u can do it but if u reached ur limits don't worry ill carry u home on my back hehe ^^ oh and for the exercises we're going to do all of it together im so excited *excited beel noises *

as beel was eating with eyes sparkling with excitement u couldn't ignore his outstanding appearance beel was used to workout early in the morning so he just made an exception just for u ^^ however his body was aching for some exercising so he did some rope jumping and pushups just minutes before coming to the dining room so he was sweating while wearing a short sleeve black t shirt which were tight around his big chest and muscular arms with sweat dripping from his face reaching his sexy Adam's apple then going straight between his chest just the thought of this big muscular man being excited to workout with u makes u shiver

*simping mc noises (haha caught u bish)

then u try to reach the strawberries which were in front of beel he noticed u staring at strawberries so he picked some

beel :"Mc here , I'll feed u this :)"

"oh thanks beel ^^"

as u ate the strawberries from his hand u licked ur lips and then u felt everyone 's eyes on u as soon as u where about to speak beel licked some of the strawberries close to ur mouth

everyone:" STOP RIGHT THERE !"

as beel realised what he did he turned to a blushing mess cause of his gluttony he just licked it unconsciously

beel :" im sorry Mc i didnt mean to >\\~\\<"

mc simping noises again *touching his cheek :" i dont hate it love~"

then as soon as beel saw the smirk on ur face he was blushing even harder he stood up and hugged u tightly :" lets go Mc cant wait to start our workout /// "

everyone : "AS IF ILL LET U TWO GO ALONE!"

mammom : "I SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE WORKING OUT IM GOING WITH U-"

beel :" but u never workout in the morni-"

mammon:" SHUDDUP!"

"how about going to the witch u sold satans underwear for and give it back to him that will be a good workout right?"

everyone laughed

Lucifer :"*cough* , recently i read that working out will lessen the stress and make u more productive so i think ill-"

"no luci not this time dont pretend that u didnt get a call from diavolo minutes ago to come after u finish breakfast asap"

everyone: "EVEN LUCIFER GOT REJECTED"

beel :" let's go mc :)"

" yea im coming ^^ "

everyone glaring at beel :" UNFAIR "

[typicalmidnight]

iron man 2 running commentary

okay so watching iron man 2 for the first time and i have a feeling im gonna have lots of commentary to share so it will all be under the cut! i’m gonna keep updating it as i watch!

*starts watching iron man 2 without watching iron man first cause it’s not on netflix and is only 2 minutes in but completely confused*

*questions my intelligence because i was able to understand the other marvel movies without watching other ones first*

*wonders if somehow i haven’t seen enough tony stark on tumblr to understand but i’ve somehow seen enough of other things to understand other movies*

*cue suprised and upset anon* sorry anon!!

okay anon!! help me pls! is the guy in the very beginning of iron man 2 someone from the first movie, and if he is who is he?? or is he new in this movie? edit: nevermind i looked it up

omg the first scene we see iron man is so cooool i love it!

holy sh*t he just landed on a stage omggg *freaks out so much because WOW*

im not even 7 minutes in yet but WOW IM SHOOK

i litterally just watched that first scene of tony/iron man in awe the whole time

“the possibility of world peace” BAAAAAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAAAAAA there’s a whole lot in store for the world, and i can guarantee it wont be peaceful lol

the stark expo is year long?!?!!?!!??? wow....

oooh oooh oooh that’s happy!

tony with kids awww

OMG THATS PETER PARKER RIGHT

STAN LEEEE OMG AWWWW

wait what did tony do??

AHHHHH pepper!!

does tony like pepper yet?? are they dating??

god tony. his sense of humor omg.

pepper isnt impressed lol

tony is so savage we stan a queen lol

you’re right, it isn’t canada cause we’re AWESOME and dont have ppl trying to get rid of iron man

rhodey!! i know who that is!

litterally everything tony says is amazing

oooooh whats tony up to?...

world peace? dream on tony

did he just say f**k you to tony stark? UM NO YOU DID NOT

oof the scenes with this bad dude are boring

wait i take that back HE JUST CUT A TV IN HALF!!

“wake up, daddy’s home” god i love tony

i think im getting too excited about everything lolll

tony insulting that robot arm thing gives me life

whats that thing in tony’s chest?? im guessing it has something to do with him being iron man and was part of the first movie

im confused about the relationship between pepper and tony

oooh shes ceo congrats to her!!

is this actually good tho?? the look on her face isnt great

oh okay its good she was just suprised

are those like fake documents or something?

OMG ITS NATASHA!!! AHHHHHHHH I LOVE HER SO MUCH SHE’S LIKE MY FAVE MCU WOMAN OTHER THAN MJ

i got way too excited there and hit my wrist on my wall and now it hurts

wait he doesn’t know nat yet??? HOW?!

also ummm natalie rushman?? that name kinda suits her?? ish idk

NATASHA IS A QUEEEEEEN!!!! I STANNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i also got so excited about nat that my eyes started to water

“i want one” okay tony nat could knock you out in a second and she for sure doesn’t need a man! also PEPPER!!!!!! LIKE WHAT ABOUT HER!

its the grand prix! it looks just like it does in cars 2!! lollll i was super shooketh about that when i made the connection

OMG ITS NAT AGAIN YAY!

WAIT is tony gonna drive that race car??? is he gonna race??? OMG i hope he does

also my wrist still hurts

wait pepper is suprised?? tony you didnt tell pepper? TONY YOU DIDNT TELL PEPPER??? TONY COME ONNNNNN

OMG TONY WHY PEPPER IS CONCERNED NOW

also is nat working for tony or something

oof its 12 am i should sleep i have school tmrw

haha bish that reporter lady left cause ur boring and nobody cares about you

AHHHH TONY’S GONNA RACEEEE

omg tony is racing tony is racing TONY IS RACING TONY IS RACING!!!! TONY PLS DONT DIE OR SOMETHING

hello my name is leea and i’m a huge drama queen that loves and cares so much about tony stark

OMG ITS THE VILLAIN GUY ACKKK TONY IS GONNA DIE

im still super dramatic lol

and also 100% convinced tony is gonna die even tho i know that wont happen

IM GETTING SO MUCH ANXIETY FROM JUST WATCHING THIS AHHHH

THE VILLAN GUY IS GOING SOMEWHERE ONTO THE TRACK OR SOMETHING ACKKKK

i hit my elbow and my head (not too hard dont worry) and the elbow is the same arm that i hurt my wrist so now my arm hurts from my elbow to my hand

WHAT IS THAT GUY DOING HE JUST WALKED ONTO THE RACE CAR TRACK

i litterally pressed play and then pressed pause two seconds later ooooof

peppers face omg she is shooketh lol

WTF IS HE DOING??!!!!!! also wth is he wearing on his chest?

OOOOOOOOOMG he has his slicy electricity weapon thingies TONY IS GONNA DIE AHHHH

HE JUST HIT A CAR OMG I HOPE THE PERSON IS OKAY

^big example of me being a drama queen and innocent and sweet at the same time

HAPPY HAS WHAT IM ASSUMING TO BE IRON MAN SOMETHING

TONY IS ABOUT TO DIE!!!

i paused it right before he hits the car omg the suspense!!!!!

ANXIETY LEVELS RIGHT NOW

OMG TONY NOOOOOOOO

IM BREATHING SO DEEP AND FAST RIGHT NOW IM PANICKING FOR TONY (it’s called hyperventalating. future me remembered the word lol)

dude WHYYY would you take off your helmet??!!!!

there is a dude coming to kill you and i think a helmet would help protect you idiot!!

OMG THERES A CAR COMING AT THE VILLAIN GUY

WHAT IF IT HITS HIM AND THEN HITS TONY

THEY JUST EXPLODED OMG

i just choked because i was like WHAT JUST HAPPENED

there are cars exploding behind him and this dude just doesnt care!!

why have i started saying dude?

owww my wrist hurts

typing hurts

owwww

its actually really not that bad im dramatic

is pepper gonna save tony????

does the case have the rescue armor ive read about?????

HE JUST TRIED TO KILL TONY

*facepalms* tony WHY did you just hit him on the head with whatever that was??? what did you think it would accomplish??????? this dude just sliced your car in half and tried to kill you, do you think you can take him out by hitting him on the head??? just get tf out of there!!!

OMG HES GONNA KILL TONY

i just hit my head again (not hard it fine)

OMG DID HE JUST HIT TONY

I THINK HE JUST HIT TONY

IM NOT OKAY

AND I DONT THINK HE IS EITHER

AHHHHHHHHHHH

okay i’m going to bed cause its almost 1 am and i have school. anyway, this is the 100th comment which is kinda good to leave off at! i’ll finish watching tmrw and keep posting!

okay i’m back! about to start watching the movie!

ahhhhhh poor tony!!! i’m only a few seconds in but already panicking for him!!

omg hes getting ready to kill tony!! and tony is just lying on the ground!!!

pepper and happy come save him! ! ! ! ! !!!!!!!

or nat!!!!

ahhhhhhhhh tonys gonna die!!!!!!!!!!!!!

with every second i freak out moreeeee

oh thank GOD tony moved!!!

that car just exploded omg tony almost diedddd!!!

AHHHHH TONY IS ON FIRE

how tf is he so calm!!!!????!?!?!?!?!?

i mean hes not that calm but way calmer than any normal human should be in this situation

is he just like used to people trying to kill him??

OMG thats soo saaaaaaaddddd

OKAY HERE COMES PEPPER AND HAPPY

please run over him!!!

OMG THEY ALMOST HIT TONY

but they hit the bad guy yay!!!

awww tony is bleeding!

well i mean thats kinda expected lol

oof tony is mad

OMG PEPPER IS SO PISSED

shes acting like a mom lol

OMG THE GUYS WEAPONS ARE POWERING ON

THEY’RE ALL GONNA DIE

TONY JUST GET IN THE CAR

OMG THE DOOR

TONY GET IN THE CAR AND HAPPY GET TF OUT OF THERE!!!!

tony just GET IN THE CAR

OMG THE AIR BAG

HE JUST CUT THE WINDOW

THIS SCENE IS SO INTENSE OMG

okay pepper i love you but JUST GIVE TONY THE CASE

tony your armor is taking WAY TOO LONG to get on!!!

AHHHHH LOOK AT THE ARMOR!!!!!

ITS SO OLD

like not old

but compared to his current suit

the “it’s nanotech. you like it?” one

its nothing

AHHH HE HIT TONYS ARM

AHHHH TONYS GONNA DIE

AHHHH PEPPER IS SCREAMING

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#drama queen much? #yes thats me

AHHH COME ON TONY

love how i’ve only gotten 3 more minutes into the movie and i’m already at 47 comments

OMG HE JUST WHIPPED TONY TO THE GROUND

omg poor tony!!!!

can everyone just leave my dad alone PLEASE

YAY TONY!! NOW THE BAD GUY IS ON THE GROUND!!!

oh thank god tony is okay hes not dead he won for now

eww he just spat out a bunch of blood

“you loose” how??? like what???

ooooooooooh wait no is tony gonna get in trouble.......

i forgot to say this yesterday but this whole scene with the guy on the track and stuff and the exploding cars in kinda similar to cars 2

i guess you cant have a racing scene in a movie without a car exploding tho

what is up with that guy with glasses?? like hes weird i dont trust him

why arent there subtitles translating whatever language they are speaking in (french? idk)

ya its french

ofc tony talks about the technology lol

and critcizes the bad guy’s

tony this guy tried to kill you WHY are you sitting down next to him??!!?

that guy is weird and kinda creepy

okay just f off senator dude nobody likes you, your opinion isnt valid, and i wanna punch you

“these suits exist now”????? wtf b*tch no they dont!

wait what ever happened to nat??

pepper is really responsible shes great i love her

what does that note say???

omg is that a bomb or something??!

why do guards always help prisoners escape like seriously

is that guy gonna take his place or something??

also he kinda looks like haymitch from hunger games

omg wait WTF WAS THAT

ALSO GUARD WHAT THE HELL

i was right! it was a bomb!

why did they throw him in a truck??

omg why are they in an airport?!

are they gonna help him escape??!!

why is there a table and people....

is that glasses guy sitting at the table?

i was right it is glasses guy!

i didn’t trust him from the start

why is he helping him tho...

friend? fan? what is going on?!!!???

YAYYYYY theres nat!!!

“erratic behaviour”??? what are you talking about???? he just saved himself from being killed how is that erratic?????!!

awwww poor tony

i beleive in you tony, and i love you, but no honey, you don’t know exactly what you’re doing you need help!

“software sh*t” aaaaaaaaaaahahahahhaahhaaaaa

make iron man look like an antique? ya no way is that gonna happen

is nat his assistant or something im a bit confused

aww tony is like so depressed i feel so bad for him!!

stannnnn nat

back on watch? what does that mean...

omg tony is so drunkkkkkk nooooo

ohhhhh tonyyyyy noooo come onnnn

you’re so drunk dude stopppp

god tony you’re so drunk pleaseee

wait why is rhodey fighting him anyway?

wow this is my 101 comment today and i’ve only watched 20 mins today

omggggg people are recordingggg this isn’t gonna end well

*sighs* oh god tony dont yell at them whyyyyy

omg tonys in the fire place!!!

omg that just happened. they just fired at each other.

also just saying tony, he does have what it takes to be war machine cause he continues to be...

ohhhh is tony okay??

im confused tho why did they start fighting in the first place?

okay i just looked it up, it was because he was being irresponsible and drunk, and putting people at the party in danger, and he wouldnt stop

ngl its getting kinda tiring to keep updating this but i’m gonna keep going cause i want this record for myself, and i’m not gonna quit something

ok i’m gonna continue the movie tmrw cause its prob gonna be a snow day (lol i left off at 111)

[celestadore]

okay to create a basic summary of whats going on in this new event:

During Lelouch's reign as emporer, Lelouch shut down the experiments of a scientist named William Bishe, who was doing heavy human experimentation leading to multiple reported deaths.

One of William's assistants who was helping him with the project whos name is Dr. Frankenstein (yes that isnt a joke that is his actual name), desides after Lelouch's death because of his obsessive infatuation with his role as emporer (he likes him cause he thought it was super cool and swagger of him to take over the world at 18 since he was also 18 at the time and believes Lelouch is best suited to rule the world even though hes only 18 and he kicked him out of a job lmao) to attempt to bring him back from the dead by getting his soul out of C's World and placing Lelouch's soul into a clone of himself, both to bring Lelouch from the dead and also to prove his worth as a scientist.

However, before he could figure out how to make an exact clone of Lelouch, his made several experiemental children of Lelouch using Suzaku's, Kallen's, C.C.'s, and Nunnally's DNA (trust me i hate the fact that they use Nunnally here too dont shoot the messenger if i had my way I would've taken that whole part out or make it fucking Shirley or Milly's lovekid with Lelouch or something cause even though i dont ship em cause i honestly headcanon them all as gay thats still better than using HIS OWN FUCKING SISTER making a CANONICAL INBRED BABY in this goddamn multiverse).

Because of the full on warping within C's World causing the mesh of dimensions (for those who don't play the game the whole main story is that C's world got Fucked Up[tm] and youre supposed to help this tiny man named Aru and his silly hot pink code lady who i forgot the name of to rebuild C's world cause all the dimensions just started warping together in this one void causing this whole code geass official alternate universe fanfic dumpster fire) all the children that were made in Dr. Frankenstein's lab (Elzero / L0 being the Suzalulu kids' name, Elein / L1 being the C.C. and Lelouch kid's name, Elzwei / L2 being the Kallouch kid, and Eldrei / L3 being the nightmarish Nunnally and Lelouch kid, all their numbers in their surnames coming from the German language cause good ol scientist Frankie is German if ya couldnt tell by his name lol [this is excempt to L0 tho cause null is 0 in German so they problably just made it Elzero just so they could make a funny Zero pun, which accidentally makes his name sound Spanish rather than German lmao gotta love accidental Hispanic rep] and each name was given to em to show the order that they were made in [L0 being made first and apparently was the only sucessful kid to be made with 2 Y chromosomes, #LoveWins i guess, L1 being made next, and so on]) find themselves stuck in the void created by the rifts in C's world after flying around in their nightmares they had after trying to escape from the hands of the doctor (that of which were also shoved in the trailer they posted on twitter the day the story came out in game for like a good long 30 seconds for no apparent reason lmao).

So now, all the survived children from the cursed experiments of Dr. Frankenstein after a massive knightmare battle with the children (they also got split up with at some point once they crashlanded with their knightmares, L2 ended up at the Black Knights' Headquarters, L0 ended up at Ashford first, leading to a goofy ass scene of Lelouch and the others being Violently Confused and C.C. wanting to kill Lelouch after learning of the horrid inbred baby and Milly forcing L0 into a mini cosplay party lmao) now live with all the students of Ashford Academy while Dr. Frankenstein and Karma!Suzaku along with a mysterious masked figure named Samurai 0 attempt to come up with even more ways to mess with the fabric of C's World (i guess).

(also i didnt know where to add this in but im case youre curious good old Frankie and his kids come from the year 2035 making the children around 15-17 ish when they meet Lelouch and the gang [remember time is fucked in this world because of main plotline reasons lol], making Frankie like 35 years old so Lelouch and the others in that universe theyre from would be around 35 years old)

also for those curious this is what Dr. Frankenstein looks like in game

and these are what all the love children look like (you can problably tell whos who the only main distinct they used to tell it was Lelouch's kids was the fact they all have Fucked Up middle bangs and bright ass purple eyes lmao)

what the absolute fuck is this game and how is it official jesus christ i cannot wait for the day this gets an international release so i can force my friends to get it and they can understand my pain lmao

ok what in the FUCK IS GOING ON IN THE NEW GENESIS RE;CODE CHAPTER

[jikook-love]

i think a reason ppl dont like the girls is bc its like "competition" bc ppl tend to be possessive over their favs.((theres also that whole fetishizing gays thing too but i doubt thats majority of the fandom))

yeah I get it. That you get this lingering jealously cause they are finally interacting with other females, and trust me when I know the effect BTS has on single females of my age (yeah they know who they are ;P). Nothing wrong with that, it’s a human response, especially when they’re a group of very attractive men and it’s kind of like fan nature and all. However, so far I haven’t seen much of the hate as much as I’ve seen people calling out other so far non-existent people on hating though so...we’ll see how this escalates XD

But actually, I’ve been reading all these posts and the majority of this animosity comes from the complete destruction of all the theories thus far tbh. I mean people went so hard and found connections and stuff, some even speculated that this comeback would be about homosexuality and such. So it must’ve been a real smack in the face to see this “stereotypical K-drama image” and I get it–like why are the BTS boys, who have been so original and creative with their imagery so far, suddenly picking up papers for a clumsy girl and grabbing onto their wrists and staring them down, all in one video? Ya. No matter who they are–it pretty cringe LOL. And misleading, towards a more clichéd MV plot that we’e seen time and time again. 

I’m gonna diverge a little, as I think there’s two ways it can go from here: 1) They can completely follow along with the teaser path and do what we expect them to do: “finish” the story with a romance substory for each member, and provide K-drama like scenarios. This, in turn, would be justified by Big Hit as the members “growing up”, and showing their actor-like personas and well as displaying images of men in love that they’ve never done before by fitting into a common norm.

2) They do a 180. And fuq you in da ass with the “BISH U THOUGHT” kind of thing. e.g. those girls? yeah, they’re all lesbian. and BTS is all gay. just as you thought. they’re just finding refuge in consoling each other. HAHAHAHA YOU THOUGHT THIS WAS A NORMAL ROMANTIC STORY. LOVE URSELF. GET IT. WE PRANK’D YOU ALL. Yeah, you’re right it’s unlikely, and I’ll be honest, you all know how I feel about their writers thus far anyway so I doooooubt they can come with something as impacting as that. But we’ll see. Prove me wrong.

And honestly, even though I brought it back to the gay thing let’s be realistic here–not everything has to be gay for it to be good. I know. I’m saying that of all people, but you know what. It does happen. We still have considered the possibility that the love story may actually be good, good enough to eradicate or your lingering jealousies and whatnot that were brought up in this post in the first place. What if you start shipping something new after this? It happens all the time XD

whatever happens happens. we’ll find a way to make it fun dw ^^

[toppdoggfanfics]

Sangdo as boyfriend

- sangdo is the real definition of romantic!!! - seriously, he even won the most romanticist award during toppdogg project so need i say more?? - he is also a real gentleman <33 - like he always hold the door open for you, doesn't let you walk on the side of the road and offers you his jacket when it's cold - he's such a gentleman that even ur friends find it hard not to have a crush on him - like that one time you caught your friend staring at him and you were like EXCUSE ME BISH DAS MY MAN ?? Lol kidding - an actual angel - HE IS NICE TO EVERYONE!! To his members, to kids even to stray animals and you had to drag him that one time he wanted to adopt a stray cat you saw on the road - and you were like "NO SANGDO THATS LIKE THE 35th STRAY ANIMAL U WANTED TO ADOPT" - he is a vip member of the cinema so expect movie dates all the time - and when i say all the time, that means you will have movie dates every week watching all the new releases!! - and even that employee who sells tickets at the cinemas recognize the both of you lol - he is also the sweetest boyfriend ever!!! Like forehead kisses and back hugs and holding hands <333 - BUT he is not the type of person to rush things and he wants every moment to be special so your first kiss only happened on your 1st month of dating when he took you out to a fancy restaurant to celebrate ur first month~ - sangdo also enjoys photography so expect him to always bring his camera on dates - and he would take stolen pictures of u when you're doing something and you'd be like "NO DELETE THAT I LOOK UGLY!!!!" but he refuses to do so bc "you are beautiful in any angle" asdgfhskla - and tbh his camera is just full of ur photos!!! - and deep inside your thankful bc your instagram feed actually improved bc of him LOL - ofc he let you use his camera from time to time so that you can take photos of him too - and although he's a bit shy, you take couple photos too!! Like you kissing him on the cheeks or him hugging you from the back and then he gets giddy whenever he opens his phone cause u set it as his wallpaper~ - YOU THINK HIS EARS ARE THE CUTEST THING TO EVER EXIST!! - and him wearing his rings is your fetish ok bye - because he is literally perfect, when you introduced him to your mom, your mom immediately liked him and was like "marry him" when he was out of earshot LOLOL - because tbh, he is the perfect husband material; like he is well-mannered, very kind-hearted, very respectful, dresses well and HIS VISUALS ARE NO JOKE!!!! - and have I mentioned that he has a voice of an angel???? - and he's very humble about it!!!! - like he can sing almost every song like it's his own and u were super proud of him when he got to sing those OSTs for comeback mister!!! - and you thank Yano for composing "sweetheart" for him~ - Sangdo is a big fan of Eric Bennet and it made him really happy when you told him that you downloaded his songs on your phone!! - and remember that time when Pokemon Go was released???? - and you and Sangdo were like outside for like 2848100 hours just so you can catch a pokemon - and then u saw him looking problematic so you we're worried and was like, "what's wrong??" but turns out he's contemplating wether he should book a ticket to Jeju cause there's a rare pokemon there - and you're like "NO SANGDO YOU ARE NOT GOING TO WASTE MONEY JUST BC OF A POKEMON - but he's like "BUT JAGI THAT'S A MEWTO!!!!" - and even when the pokemon go hype was over he still kept on playing it - and that one time he asked you to go for a walk at like 10pm bc he wants his pokemon egg to hatch !!!!! - Anyways, a lot of ppl mistake Sangdo as a foreigner - and sometimes you also wonder if he is (even thou u know he's not) bc sometimes he just acts like one lol - as i said earlier, Sangdo is romantic af so expect that he's the same in bed - when you first did it, he kept on asking u if you're really sure abt it cause he doesn't wanna hurt you - and you're like "for chrissake babe just put it in!!" ok im kidding u didn't say it like that - sangdo smells really good especially when he just took a bath!!!! - and you love hugging him and burying ur face to his neck and inhaling his scent - and leaving a trail of soft kisses and nibbling on skin bc the sound that he makes when ur lips touches that sensitive spot below his jaw.... ok i'll stop here - sometimes you wonder how a guy like sangdo came to like you because you're just you.. and there are a hundred girls out there that he could get easily - and he gets upset whenever u feel that way and whenever u feel insecure!! - he would look at you in the eye and hold your hand and tell u sincerely that you are the only that he wants and all those girls are nothing compared to you!!! - anyways, having sangdo in your life makes you really grateful bc he's the person you can turn to whenever your down, and just seeing his face or hearing his voice over the phone makes you instantly happy - you can tell him everything and he's going to listen to u, he's going to give you sincere advices and he's just basically always there for you - and although he looks like he always has his shit together, sometimes Sangdo also has his moments when he feels like nothing is going his way - so you do your best to make him feel better and cook for him his favorite food - to make it simple, you guys always got each other's backs and your relationship is very healthy!! - and everyone is just envious of your relationship and your friends ask you wether the rest of TD members are like him too lololol

[solasulad]

Tuesday January 15th.

Its January mother fucking 15th on a Tuesday night..

Chilling at home with no motive.

Reviewed my courses for online tryna be up to date with that bish but my brains still on vocation mode smh.

Just got a message from thy neighbour. Lol..

Over the weekend this guy told me that he felt i was going ghost on him and that he's been thinking about me crazy.. But i shut that down letting him know I'm not about the sex game and just wanna chill.

He's like thats fine but how he still tryna initiate some fucking hotel talks???  LIKE A WHO DIS MAN?

Talking about us spending the day together.. Lol okay? and what then?

Nah i felt bad for him but real shit, he's tryna play that lonely victim card on me. talking about he misses me can't stop thinking about me and shit. nah this pussy got you fucked up you don't know me buddy. Its two completely different bitches you talking too.

Now homies messaging tryna see me Thursday. IDK mane..

Im backing down with all of this cause its just too much. Im not gaining anything out of it either :/ Your dick game weak but my brains leaning on another niggah... Like how you supposed to distract me when you can't even lay it down properly my friend??

Now messaging me saying he's not tryna force sex but just wants to eat it and cuddle... So.. You wanna waste my time that is? I got shit to do thursday shit i was supposed to do today but my heads been hurting and my whole bodies been a reck from the moment i woke up.

Im lazy rn my body hurts for no fucking reason. My brains giving up on me every time i stand up. and shit my uterus.. I got off my period today?? But shit still hurts like i was pounded all last night.

So tell me..

Is sex on my mind right now?

No..

Is anything else on my mind?

No..

Should school be on my mind?

Dumb bitch yes.

[krayns]

All :p

THANKS A! okay ill skip the ones M already asked me!

1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say? 

LOLOL, well it was the GC so I would say hey bitches wus good. ACTUALLY. I’D BE LIKE YALL CAN LOOK BUT CANT TOUCH CAUSE YALL BITCHES BE GETTING THE WRONG IDEA, and told yall bout a good million times Im just not interested. Pls take a hint.

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

WELL. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, bc he was a lowlife scrub who I do not need in my life at all. Blocked & erased my history 

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care? 

UM…. yes bc I would care about my partner and would want the best for them……. so I wouldnt want them on drugs 24/7

4. Is your last name longer than six letters? 

OMG its exactly 6 letter BISH.

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober? YA GIRL WAS DRUNNNNK IN LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE 

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

OMG NO. Im never the one to mess it up SMH, im the one left to clean up the mess SMFH 

7. What does your last received text say? “Or nahhh” 

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? 

LMFAO what kind of question. YALL REALLY THINK I SIT THERE AND COUNT EVERYTIME I KISSED MY MAN LIKE LOL?????????  Lets just say I kissed him WAY too many times than he deserved. (V many times tho bc who doesn’t love a good smooch)

9. Where was your last kiss at? 

BRUH. my ex mans house OK NEXT 

10. When is the last time you saw your sister? 

well I have 2, and a few hours ago before they both went to sleep bc they youngins. 

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Ya girl likes her steaming hot cup of TEA in the morning. Gotta have my daily tea. 

12. Where did you sleep last night? 

My mans crib ;) why you care tho?

13. Do you think relationships are hard? LOL. They’re hard if you make em hard. And if you’re partner is stressin you then hell yeah. But I mean no relationship is perfect. Its all about working through those hard times and that honestly makes the relationship stronger. 

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? 

YES. I would’ve left the trash ass ugly piece of garbage that treated me like shit and used the hell out of me, before I got super attached to him and let him walk all over me. DEFS wish I could’ve left his fuck boy ass long time ago, shouldn’t have let things lasted as long as they did.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO. bruh. YOU ARE ASKING FOR A WORLD WAR 3. im crying could you imagine. OH he would be shook. That or he would have the best sex of his life lbr. 

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Sunny when I gotta go out, Rainy when I’m inside/ at night. BC YA GIRL HATES GOING OUT IN THE RAIN. Womans are not tryna look like a wet cat. 

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you? 

Actually yes quite a few, people I knew from school, also I think Selena Gomez? My middle name is kinda basic.

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

None of the above ;) 

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

PART OF ME: I REALLY HOPE SO bc ya girl a hopeless romantic 

OTHER PART OF ME: HONESTLY IDEK BC MANS ARE SO WHACK THESE DAYS, HARD TO FIND A QUALITY QT, and honestly im doing me these days like mans can wait BYE 

20. Does anyone like you?

Jesus! My boy JC. Dont know if anyone else likes me bc like I clearly can’t read minds so?

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

Besides family, no one else is ringing a bell

22. Is the last person you kissed gay? 

Nope

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

Currently: My EX, Alicia from AYTO (tv show) (snake ass bitch), 

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

Yessss many times. Like theres so many ideas I have. I would probs get one like on my side, back, lower waist, or behind my ear? Either something cute or something with meaning.

25. In the past week have you cried? 

Yes I think I had a moment the other day.

26. What breed was the last dog you saw? 

A cockerspaniel. 

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

Depends on my mood. I really like showers tho, preferably with my man 

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

Not yet ;)

29. Do you think you’re old?

Honestly sometimes I feel old asf

30. Do you like text messaging? 

TBH not really. I prefer having that face to face, talking through text is too much miscommunication. 

31. What type of day are you having? 

A swell day, kinda was in my feels earlier but ya girl got it together. 

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

YASSSS. I’ve wanted one for a while, but now I’m like do I want one that bad? It would be cute af THO

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

WARM WARM WARM. No ones tryna freeze their ass off. Ya girls an Island baby 

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

Jesus Christ. 

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

RELATIONSHIPS, FUCK FLINGS ARE JUST NOT FOR ME. I am not meant for that fling life 

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

Im quite wild tbh when you get to know me

37. What song are you listening to? 

Currently: Straight Up & Down by Bruno Mars 

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it? 

Hellllll YEAH 

39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you? 

Yes, I’d say my Moms, Ash, Rach or my sister Tia

40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

OK. WELL…………………………………… dont ask me bout this rn im confused. But I kinda also have feelings for my ex ex man who wasnt really my man but still he is literally like my ideal man and ive been seeing him a few times and im triggered UGH my first uni LOVE FML fuck he has me WEAK ASF

41. When did you last receive a text message? 

A second ago: so 1:55 AM 

42. What is wrong with you right now?

NOT A GAWD DAMN THING BISH. 

no but real talk school out here draining me. ALSO IM V CONFUSED BOUT STUFF. 

43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

YO thats my girl. RIDE OR DIE since 7th grade. I know her like the back of my hand and likewise for me. 

44. Does anyone disgust you? 

HAAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA, you already fucking know the answer. TRASH ASS EX MAN. Also fuck boys just disgust and erk my soul in general. 

45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

Depends on who’s asking 😏 but hey if I like you, you cute, nice, funny, LOYAL, determined I mean I would probs say yes. ALONG WITH MY OTHER WANTS: smells good, good style, nice hair, kind, TALLLLLL, athletic, 

But hey I mean he don’t have to fit all these categories, im just being extra here 

46. Are you in a good mood right now? 

Currently Yes :D

47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

My mom

48. What color shirt are you wearing? 

Not wearing a shirt oooooooops 😳

49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear? 

YUP. dont wanna repeat bc it was honestly the DOUCHIEST thing I’ve ever heard in my life and it makes me sick to my stomach that this literally came out of a mans PIE HOLE. i cant. 

50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

Already gave up on em. LIKE UP OUT OF MY LIFE. blocked and erased that history 

51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for? Not really my ex ex man I still kinda like. BC my ex man was not the one that a fell hardest for so nah. IF IT WAS HIM THEN I WOULD. 

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

ummmmm noooo????

53. Do you like rain? 

Only when I’m inside, or about to sleep. That Netflix and cuddles possible chill typa weather ya feel 

54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

Nope, unless the liqs turns them into a monster then yes I would care. 

55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them? 

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL😳😳😳 HONEST TO GOD IM EITHER STRAIGHT UP OR SO LOWKEY. Like im TOO GOOD AT THIS. I could be crushin so hard on someone and they would never know bc im too good at hiding it.

56. Do you like to cuddle? 

YES LOOOOOOOOOVE. your girl likes her doses of cuddles. BABS like getting cuddled too ): 

57. Are you shy? 

LOL HONEST YES. IM SO SHY AROUND CUTE BOYS OR LIKE PEOPLE I DONT KNOW. But once I get comfortable with you whoever you are im defs not. YA GIRL WILD AF

58. Do you get along with girls?YASSSSSSSS girl power bitch. LOVE MY GIRLS. Love hyping and empowering up my girls. 

59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

YEA SHE MY BAE :* 

60. What do you carry with you at all times?

STRESS. LOL jks but omg phone, lipgloss (bc you never know if you eva gonna kiss a QT), the normals 

61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

UM. NO!!!! TF! ARE YOU WHACK. NEVER WOULD YOU EVER CATCH ME IN A JUMBIE INFESTED PLACE. NAH NAH

62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

YES. OBVI. I’m that long term typa gyal ;) Im that ride or die typa girl

63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship? 

LOOOOL. Lets not think back to that time, I already ctrl alt and DELETE. BOI BYE 

64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

um YES. stop. putting. me. in. my feelS. But lets just say it wouldn’t just end with a kiss on the forehead ;) 

65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week? 

Well im cute so……….. everyday something cute happens aka ME :)

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

21, and the rest were family SO LOL 

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?   

honestly i can do my own nails, but its nice to treat your self

68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print? 

ZEBRA, your girl is a zebra print stan, my whole room is practically this print 

69. Do you have any stickers on your car? 

i dont own a car, but the car I drive has a “princess on board sticker” which is for my little sister but HEY its suitable for me too so 

70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?

Lil Wayne… not about that country/ tim buck two. But tbh I dont listen to either of em 

71. Blackberry, Anroid, or iPhone?  

IPHONE 6 GANGGGGGGGGG

72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?    

Maybe like last year? Usually get pizza pizza

73. Do you like diet soda?   

NAH, diet taste kinda weird 

74. What color are the walls in your room?    

Its like an olive green, but I want to re paint, maybe a shade of pink 

75. Are you 16 or older?    

older…. why you tryna holla?

76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?  

I did…. show got mad boring tho. 

77. Do you have a job?   

Not currently, in school tho

78. What are your initials?   

K.M.B BITCHHHHHHHEEEZ

79. Did you ever have braces? 

nope, but the dentist always ask me if i had braces and always say how nice my teeth are :D

80. Are you from the south?  

NAH NAH, IM NORTH JAX FAM

81. What does your last status on facebook say?  

um???? I think I promo’ed Ash’s travel VLOG, check that shit out tho!!!!!!!

82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed? 

CRTL.ALT.DELTE. 

NO BISH

83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad? 

I would say my dad bc I grew up with him? but i tell my mom and step mom more personal stuff/ everything so

85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters? 

I think it was suicide squad.

86. Do you smoke?    

Nah, not on those greens fam

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?  

DEPENDS. On location and look. 

88. Is your phone touch screen?    

YUP

89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly? 

Well my hair is wavy and I usually just leave it natural. I love straightening my hair but takes way too much strength and energy out of me.

90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?  LMFAO YES. TO GO TO SLEEPOVER AT ONE OF MY MANS HOUSE IM CRYING @GOD forgive me father 

91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool? 

DEFS POOL OR OCEAN LOL BOUT LAKE OR RIVER BYE 

94. Are you single or in a relationship?   

Doing me. Living life. Doing whatever the hell I want. I am happy and thats all that matters. Not letting mans bring me down, have me stressing, crying myself to sleep, or crying until i have no more tears to cry

95. What were you doing last night at midnight?  

Texting my squad in the GC, talking about waste mans 

96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?  

Fireworks in my heart: probably in the summer on my first date with trash 

97. Do you like the camera on your phone?   

YES bc I stay taking cute pics, im obsessed with taking fire pics

99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?    

NOPE. Always know my limit

100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate? Hate is a v strong word. I think if anyone I really disliked I’ve removed, I may have some fakes from like HS but thats about it.

102. Name your favorite Kesha song:   PROBABLY TICK TOK, YO MY GRADE 7 ASS WOULD WHINE UP TO THIS SONG, MAJOR TRACK 

103. Do you have any tan lines right now?  noPE, but honestly i wish I did bc I wanna go somewhere warm 

[solasulad]

Devil December 2018.

Well hello. 

How are you? 

Still doing the same things i see huh?

Guess new year never really changed me anyways.

Well.. A recap of whats been going on.. Ive been meaning to write just my nails was long as fuck and my phone still broken. :(

So.. About the cousin.. 

We been hanging out all of December. The Monday in the previous post, i texted him Tuesday and we met up around 7pm in my area. He wanted to smoke and i don't really smoke but i was like alright. He came by my area, we parked up near by and sparked the spliff. I took two pulls and called it a quit.

Before even smoking as he's rolling he was asking me about relationships. And i told him that the guys i know i don't see myself getting along with like that cause i know what i want. So then.. I asked him the same question he asked me. He then said that he's been meaning to tell me that he has a girlfriend but shes in the us. And that they kicked it off just before he came to the city so he's in a long distance relationship. I was like wow damn. If i knew i wouldn't have entertained any of that. He says its whatever and that topic just dies down. We go outside for the smoke and then as he's smoking I'm already high at this point. He tries to come in for a kiss and i back him off telling him to respect his girl. He's like you right and thats that. 

We get food and go back into the car now we both high just chilling in the cold.. 

We both in the car high as fuck and i ask him about his girl. He tells me they been together for 9 months now and that they got into a relationship before he left the states. Said they fell for each other heavy and feelings got involved, did trips together became inseparable at one point. That he tried to call a quite two times cause of the long distance but she told him to push through, she's even supposed to come to the city in jan he told me. He even told me she came to the city during the summer to come see him and that shit picked up like nothing was wrong, also that her parents are saying why you stressing over a guy not in the city to look for one local. Some shit like that. Just hurting my whole heart when he told me that. I was sad tbh. But i didn't show it. 

He plays some music and it sounded so good and different I'm relaxed just chilling in the passenger seat. I take the aux and play summer hill girls need love and start jamming to it. He laughs then i play Syd bad dream/no looking back. The whole song sounds so good to me he turns the volume up and I'm just dumb fucked at this point just the whole songs about fucking with no emotion knowing that if they fall for each other it would be over. 

So before the song can even get to the first chorus he's in my ear looking at me. Then i turn over facing him and we start making out. Whole 5 minutes of the song making out. While the backgrounds saying “We only kiss when we fucking cause we don't get to attached cause if this turns into something we know theres no looking back”

While  kissing the song changes and he stops it, we continue for a bit and then i pull back as he reaches for my pants. I say no. this isn't right, he sets back and just looks lost. So i try to contain myself and somehow we end up kissing again, i tell him that if he has a girl he should respect that and we just stop. I drive him to the station, he tells me his friends throwing a airbnb party next week friday and that i should come. I tell him i’ll see most likely not cause its just too awkward but whatever happens happens. 

I go home sad as fuck. just thinking about what happened that he has a girl friend and that I'm the side chick in his life. To make myself feel better i list all the flaws of him making him seem less than what he is. underage, not the same religion, weed head, not the same background.. ETC list went on that night.

Next morning he sends me funny memes on insta and we just end up picking the convo back. 

Second Week of December 14th. 

He messages me to come to the airbnb thing, i think i ask him about his girlfriend and he says he’ll tell me in person.. So.. thinking, there might have been something serious i end up going. We talk that whole week, like we something and actually plan to fuck.. Him having a whole mother fucking girl friend doesnt even come into picture. He sends me the address i leave work go home shower and head over. We meet for 7, i get there and we go straight at it. He comes, i come we both come as his friend comes. 

Me, him and his friend all chilling smoking outside on the balcony then i bring up his girl, he tells me that same story like he doesnt know why he's in a relationship, that she won't call him cause she pissed at him or something. And I'm just looking at him like wow okay. Trying to hold back my emotions cause that actually hurt but also trying to give advice and make him feel good.

Now i had no intention of staying the night let alone past 2am but i ended up staying till 5am.. smh...

But that whole night felt like we was a couple. We held hands, danced, smoked together, kissed everywhere and anywhere, went out the club to another see another function and got compliments left and right from random people on the streets. It felt good that night. Felt like a dream.. looking at 23 years of being alone and single to have a guy treat me like his girl felt good. to guide me in the streets and take his jacket off for me felt good. Felt like a dream...

we finish off at the club get some food from 7/11 head back to the airbnb and he's still talking about how he wants to fuck.. I tell him no your buddies here not gonna do that.. Then, as he's walking me to the elevator, we start making out. he goes for my pants once again my weak spot. finger fucks me right there in the hallway, then we take it to the stairwell, he tries to get me naked below and i stop him. I tell him no not here not like this you sicko. 

I wait for my uber downstairs with him and we just continue to make out until i call him out again for having a girl. He stops says he’ll see me soon i get in the uber and thats that. 

Monday December 17th 

We continue to text/insta message each other through the third week of December he asks what I'm doing monday night after work i say nothing and we end up going to shisha and just hanging out pretty much. I try not to kiss him and succeeded until i came home and said i should've kissed him. SMH.

we stay cool he texting and snapchating each other, i think we even started sending nudes at this point. 

Friday of that same week ^ He asks what I'm doing after work again.. I say nothing we go out to the movies this time.. We watch creed like i never seen it before but hey MICHAEL B JORDAN CAN GET IT ANYTIME BABE.

We get high before going into the theatre, we make out once again like we a couple, holding hands and shit, we went to the mall near by my area so i was kinda shook if i bumped into someone with him -_- but we watch the movie then when its time to go, i start the car we chill for a bit then make out some more getting it heated, we go to an isolated area and fuck once again.. LIKE FUCKING ANIMALS WE FUCKING ON GODT!

its now like 1am and i have a 12 hour shift in the morning, i send him off dropping him off at his place and head home for bed. 

Thursday December 27th 

I guess we spoke about hanging out Thursday night cause apparently these texts I'm reading said we met up damn..

But so from my understanding now, i told my mom i was going to buy a bag, she needed me to get her car keys and i ended up taking the keys with me and going out to see him at his area. I pull up, he has his shits rolled, he go to a park near by and he smokes, i smoke his cigg and we make out I'm all dumb cause i pressed the gas while making out making the car sound off.. We get over to his area and he's tryna do more than just hanging.. We pull up at a sketchy ass parking spot that can be seen through miles and he tries to finger fuck me.. I'm screaming cause i didn't give him head or anything, he was dumb horny, and i was so scared. I get a call from my mom like an hour later her cussing me out asking where i went talking about she needs the keys and i had to cut it quick. I told him if anything tomorrow after work he's like cool we end off again with kisses like we in a fucking relationship -_-

Friday December 28th.

We still texting/memes at this point again...

He messages me asking what I'm doing after work i say nothing so asks if i wanna chill go to the mall or something. I wasn't really tryna go cause i was tried flopped on him the day before thinking we spending to much time together.. But i already had the idea set.. He comes to my area we fuck and he goes. But this nigger likes to talk, likes to just fucking talk for days.. So. 

He comes by after work, i sneak out the house cause my moms out already, didn't want her coming home while i was gone plus she was and at me from the night before, we link up we fuck and i drop him off at the station. Bam! thats how it should be done. Sex was good not gonna lie but i was just paranoid that whole night. Cause homie wants to just chat his mouth off and I'm not tryna get in trouble with my mom for just leaving the house like that damn... son...

We get into holidays and my work places empty whole cities quite cause of the holidays besides the partying, but he invites me out for new years telling me he told abel about us and that i shouldn't worry lol NO imma worry. 

But i flop on him cause i was working new years eve and new years morning, he says its cool if he sees me new years day and I'm like yah sure.. but what we gonna do cause my pussy needs a break buddy. 

- New year same me bish.. 

Now Jan 1st 

He messages me once again, like i guess we really kicked and vibed but I'm nonchalant towards him not really tryna seem thirsty either. After all those ass snaps and twerking video i sent him i was a different person in real life. 

He asks to see me after work, I'm cool with it, told him downtown cause I'm driving and don't want to take the bus. So i park at my work place during the morning i get home get changed and go back downtown we meet at the station near by my work place and head over to the shisha spot. 

We aren't kissing each other i backed off kinda just being cool with him, didn't initiate any form of sexual expressions or acts towards him. We go to the shisha spot we chilling and just talking vibing and he's looking at me like lust in his eyes i already know that look to familiar.. I ignore it, we finish up smoking and head for the transit, i grab a candy from the counter of the spot and put it in, we walking just talking kinda holding hands cause its cold but we just chill. 

We get to the station headed to my car, and as we standing on the platform he gives me that look, i lean against the wall and we start making out. smh... We make out, he asks me what flavour my candy is asking for a taste, i drop the candy in his mouth as he sucks on it and returns it back to me. Shit was so nasty but i loved it holy. Like in that moment i didn't care he had a girlfriend, he was with me in all honesty it felt good to be held like that so i allowed it for the night. We get to my work place and we walk towards the loading dock, start the car and we make out a little before leaving. We leave, i drop him off at his place i guess cause i was feeling generous.. But we make out, before he leaves tryna start something and I'm like huh. no not now wth. So he leaves. 

Now........ That following night i get him at 10ish getting ready for bed cause i got work in the morning, i get a snap from him. Saying he wanted to say something. Im like okay? He messages back saying he didn't think i was awake but then says he wanted to talk about us? LOL HOLD UP.. When was there ever a us? 

So i message back saying okay? he's like he’ll tell me tomorrow. Im now thinking at this point like what could this lil fucker be saying? You got me horny you best believe imma ask you in the morning...

So now its Wednesday January 2nd.

I message him a good morning text - first good morning texts EVER!

he messages me back saying this “idk how to say it but I’m doin a huge mistake.. u know I’m still with my girl and idk wat to do .. and i feel like we getting too close to each other and i don’t want us to be catching feelings or anything.. cause that gonna make me feel worse. And i don't want us to stop talking either” 

i reply back along the lines like you know i got sexual attraction towards you, don't think we can be friends after.. wishing him and his girl a strong mother fucking relationship..

So the convo goes, its short says he wish i met him two years ago.. lol wha, when he was 19? gtfoh dummy. So that topic ends. Im unfazed by it kinda sad, idk i guess the idea that maybe he was unhappy with his girl friend got into my head but in reality i was just new pussy for him to realize he still loved his girl. So. thats Wednesday morning. The night it takes a whole 360 turn and gets sexual, i send him a link to a fitness studio in the city and we end up talking about my body. smh. 

The convo ends that night when it gets sexual, i ended it on my ends.. Like how you gonna say I'm a chocolate pudding when you got a whole GIRLFRIEND A G I R L F R I E N D? H u H?

Anyhow.. Next day now first Thursday into the new year. LoL. 

He MESSAGES ME! like we sending each other memes on social media then he messages me saying he wants to chill, i was like you think thats a good idea? he's like nah but fuck it. Soo.. I said i wanted to see him too, but tryna keep it professional, said we got some unfinished business too.. 

He comes by my ends round 7pm after work still wearing his duty ass uniform, i pick him up from the station, we drive over to buy some shisha flavour and head over to my sisters place, i told her he was a friend thats that she's like cool, the goes back to moms house. We chill watching tv as he's smoking and then once he finishes and i guess is high enough to barely feel anything he makes his way towards me. He starts kissing me, stripping me down and eating me out. I go down on him and we start fucking. Like actually fucking fucking to the point my back kept moving upwards from the pain. it was good but painful towards the end. He went hard on me. He tried to go for a second round like always but his dick got confused again. it was soft and hard at the same time. like just hanging there not knowing what to do... I think its cause of his guilty conscious eating him up, first nut was easy second one that never comes. no matter how hard he goes...

So we finish off sit there for a second or so i guess until he realizes what he did was bad cause its now 9ish and he says he has to go cause he got work in the morning. So anyhow i drop him off once again at the station near my place and tell him that was our last fuck. He's like “I mean nah what ever happens happens..” i said no. that was that, we kiss and i send him off. 

Now he's still in my dm’s after that keep in mind. That was Thursday night of the first week of the year. He hits me up friday night asking what I'm doing over the weekend i said nothing got little errands to do but nothing after, asks me if i wanna hang with him and abel, I'm like yah if it isn't gonna be awkward, also tried to set abel up with a girl from work but he too thirsty bruh..

So i made plans with them. Mostly josh but to see both of them. 

I invited the thot friend cause i didn't want to go alone. So she came they smoking cigs I'm smoking my mini pipe at the backyard in the cold like a dog    -_- we chilling my friend ends up leaving early cause her curfew i stay till like 1:40ish then leave after i sober up from two baby pulls of weed smh. 

Lol R. was tryna go to the club so she sent josh a whole ass video of her dancing tryna kawal him to come out like after we all got comfortable lol funny cause i told him to send a dick video but abel took the phone and he sent a dark screen i suppose. Lmao she was talking to me on the side while messaging him while i was telling him things to say to her. Basically being a little evil bitch seeing how it plays out lmao. 

But me and josh had like a little moment tho lol barely i just i brought up the video showing him me twerking then he said i needed to send it to him, i was like okay but I'm gonna need that dick video of you in the black buddy, he's like bet so I'm going thru my snap private part and showing him how dark and thick i was during the summer and he's rubbing my leg getting turned on. smh i hear able coming and he backs off we just sit there while abel says some stuff. 

i chill till like 1:40 wish sober up and give them hugs and go. I get lost on my way back home from the highway but soft. 

I get home and he messages me something on insta a video then asks me why I'm not sleeping yet. So i say send me that video he said he's gonna want one in return send him that video of me dancing in a white top and grey underwear. Tell him he better not be sitting next to abel smh. He sends me two videos lmao one of him cumming that i did not ask for and my fav black out fit video. -_-

That was saturday night going into sunday morning. lol. I send him memes he sends me some back thats that. 

Now its Monday Jan 7th 2019 back to reality. I start school today wasn't really on my phone but once i got home i started thinking about him and shit since we each others number 1 streaks besties how can i forget when i open my snap. 

I sent him a video two actually of me just with filters on snap and one he's like my curls should put respek on my name. other one he just sent me a snap back of him at work. so we haven't spoken pretty much all day. just besides that little snap chat. Im not phased by it either cause he has a girl friend and well shit its Jan she should be coming to the city too. RIGHT? like he said she was coming to see him in Jan. but its whatever my pussy still hurts from thursday night i never been fucked like that and I'm glad its just whatever cause i won't catch feelings. I think i told every bitch i know besides R. and the thot about this guy fucking me. 

I kinda wanna just keep it nonchalant tbh like i won't check for him regardless might look at my phone from time to time and be like wow. no meme today? but I'm good love. I been good. his sisters like the same fucking age as me. I'm gucci love your dick was good but I'm good.