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something that always made me sad with the untamed is in his past life when lwj tried to calm wwx down it never worked 😞 like i was watching the episode when wwx fought jzx and lwj touched his hand and told him to calm down but he only listened when yanli told him to calm down. i think that was a really brave thing for lwj to do especially since we all know he doesn’t like touching people. he was willing to touch wwx to calm him down because he cared about him! i wonder if lwj even understood what compelled him to do that.
#on the other side of the spectrum it’s kinda funny#cause it reminds me of those#this isn’t you jacob ✋🏽#memes#the y/n ones#ngl i do like that trope if it’s written well#but also here it’s just sad#like their miscommunication in wwx’s first life always kills me#a tragedy truly#wwx always thought lwj was doing it bc he doesn’t like him and wanted him to stfu#but really he just wanted to keep him safe 😞#god i could talk about them for hours#the untamed#lan wangji#wei wuxian#wangxian
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You ever just see a Mouthwashing take that makes you want to bang your head into a wall? I literally just saw someone claim Curly couldn't have been emotionally abused by Jimmy before the crash because he was in a higher position of power than Jimmy.
-Shrimp Anon
The mouthwashing fandom has shown me that people genuinely do believe that certain types of abuse are not as detrimental as other types especially when they deem those immune/resistant, ergo, believing one is objectively worse no matter how it affects the person nor the intersections of power, history and dynamics at play.
Get ready cause this is a yap session:
Cause like it's heavily implied that Curly and Jimmy's friendship was toxic and abusive, pointedly in the direction of how Jimmy uses Curly's belief/comfort in him. Curly wasn't forced to enable Jimmy but he was emotional and mentally on edge around him in almost every scene in some way. Mental and emotional abuse are not contingent on what positions you have at work. Yeah, he's Jimmy's boss but he was Jimmy's friend first and it's like getting into Psych discussion to talk about how social power tends to overshadow any perceived organizational power in the human mind. People are concerned about their jobs ofc but they tend to hang onto and put more value/investment into their personal relationships, hence why there tends to be laws and restrictions around mixing the two.
I always see the sentiments that "Curly is a grown ass man", "Curly is bigger than Jimmy", "Curly is Jimmy's boss", "He just needed a backbone" as criticisms of Curly and while I do agree that on the surface level all of these to be true and viable ways Curly could've taken more control of the situation, I often look at the parallels of Anya and Curly as victims of Jimmy pre/post crash.
The way Jimmy talks to Anya post crash is how he talked to Curly in the pre-crash segments. It's hard to pin-point mainly because we know he hates and wants nothing to do with Anya compared to his contrary but similarly handled obsessions with Curly. It's a weird sort of "honey-moon" effect of abuse Jimmy does in terms of emotional and mental victimization. He is always horrid to Anya, always talking down or questioning her abilities and thoughts in a situation, this of course includes the harassment and assault. However, he has a moment of attempted gentleness/conditioning when he question her about the mouthwash when she's contemplating drinking it at the table. The key difference is he has no personal investment in Jimmy outside wanting nothing to do with him, meaning there is no sort of romanticized version of him that he can condition her off of. He knows this, hence, why he always reverts to trying to make her to scared to oppose him.
This sort of give and take of "kindness" doesn't work on her because she knows he is just doing it to take more from her than whatever he could possibly give but it reflects even the "softer" scenes between him and Curly where he always rewords or rephrases Curly's sentiments and concerns to sound more shallow. He is feigning a deeper understanding by reworking Curly's emotions into something bad and needing to be hidden. Everything is laced with envy and resentment, an outburst just around the corner, I mean he even slams the table in the birthday party scene, a tactic in emotional manipulation to set the victim on edge and cloud their ability to respond. Even if Curly knows Jimmy won't get physical in that moment, the physical actions is intended to make him back down in the confrontation in case it does. This is something that is just not person specific. It ingrains itself into how you interact with the world and life and it shows in major and minor ways with Curly.
Post-crash, the abusive nature is more in tandem to the physical victimization Anya went through and the stripping of voice and autonomy we see take place. Like the parasite in HFIM, Jimmy speaks for Curly most of the time and puts words in his mouth, similarly to how he takes Anya's plans as his own. He very commonly, with the both of them mind you, supplements the worst aspects of himself into them; pettiness, selfishness, lack of understanding... And tries to cover himself with their best qualities; kindness, planning, initiative, etc...
These parallel are just to say that positional power has little to do with if a person can be abused and how it can even be flipped to further the abuse. There is no doubt that Curly could've picked up on Jimmy's envy of his position hence another reason he never confronted him as a Captain but as a friend as doing so would immediately put Jimmy in a space to be confrontational/combative.
I think the disdain some people have when they talk about the heavily implied if not implicitly stated emotional/mental abuse Curly experienced being Jimmy's friend is when treating it as an excuse to why he didn't do more. I can understand that completely because it is not an excuse to why he didn't do more but is a very real reason people in his position in these scenarios can experience whether in the context of a work or social environment. However, I also think the way people talk about it really does demonstrate a bigger problem when talking about abuse when somehow who is/was abused is either part of the issue or enabled it.
Harkening back to the sentiments about Curly's inaction regarding Jimmy, I think the exact phrases I used/have seen show how there is an inherent belief that it is easier to overpower the effects of emotional/mental abuse that go in tandem with the perception of Curly as someone who should be able to. There is not an age you suddenly stop being susceptible to abuse nor a set point or low where you realize how it has affected you. You don't suddenly know to stand up or put a face on to face your abuser nor admit that you inadvertently enabled them to subjugate someone else to the same treatment. Maybe it's my psych brain but their is this growing belief that direct action is somehow easy or always the best method with the game shows you instances where it is not always the case. In real life that rings true too. He should have done more, but it's not impossible to see why he struggled to find a way or didn't even if it makes us mad.
It's not easy to suddenly gain a "back-bone". You don't immediately want to resort to aggression, especially if it mirrors the type you were a victim to. You don't want to believe you allowed yourself to be treated this bad, let it get that bad or allowed something bad to happen to someone else. It is easy to be in denial, to retreat to your thoughts or make excuses to avoid the painful truth. It's frustrating but in a way we know is relatable. It why we both hate and love Curly for it. We know we'd be better, we think we'd be better, we like to think we wouldn't falter in the same ways but it's always easier to say that from the outside looking in. It's easy to see what he was doing wrong because we are seeing it, not him, but the game really does make you picture what you would do if this was your raw reality and it's why this debate about Curly seems so never ending/contradictory. We can all say what we'd do but bottom line is that's much different when you're in the moment with all the emotions and human feelings attached.
I personally think Mouthwashing tackles the themes of rape culture, enabling, toxic masculinity, types of abuse and patriarchy in ways that are meant to deconstruct the typical straightforward views we mostly have of these concepts and how little subtilities of them are just as, if not more, detrimental than the overt/obvious parts. The game deals with the idea of little details and bigger picture in a way to show that sometimes the bigger picture is not the issue but the little details that make it up. It's why I have a personal dislike of depictions of Jimmy as the typical horrible person who would of course do something like this because the game is about noticing the little warning signs, the foreshadowing and foresight.
It's why I dislike the typical discussion of "bro code" and "boys will be boys" for the game because the game makes a point to avoid the standard depictions of such. It is about the type of men who still enable despite not condoning, agreeing or even perpetuating harmful beliefs because they can't see the little details or the ways it seeps into their everyday. The severity is not obvious to them as it was not obvious to Curly, Swansea or even Daisuke the way it was to a woman like Anya. There are little details about Jimmy that should ring alarms but if you are too naive like Daisuke, too distant like Swansea or too conditioned like Curly, they are just off markers.
There is 100% more constructive/concise ways to say "Curly was a victim of Jimmy's abuse on an emotional and mental aspect that clouded his judgements and perceptions in the scenario" while also critiquing on the side of "Curly still had a responsibility to protect Anya as a crew mate and Captain that he failed to do due to biases and stigma's he failed to surpass" without the weird condemnation people give him about should've knowing better than to let himself be manipulated by a person he considered a close, if not family/best-friend and had his own reasons to trust initially. Also stop being weird about victims of abuse in general with this fandom, like sorry not everyone has a like social epiphany the moment someone's nasty to them. People are treating it like you immediately know when you are in a toxic relationship immediately or comprehend when a person is actively dangerous and either it's your fault for not knowing how to leave/cut them off or you deserve it. Like the hypocrisy of people believing how certain fans treat the story reflect their irl views but not their own is crazy.
End statement is: I honestly don't even know man, I've been writing this too long and just like no man on that ship was perfect or really helped Anya when it mattered and I feel like pitting them against each other in discussion on who did the least or most or how it was justified sucks cause in the end Anya always did the most and best thing for herself.
#i also think it is because mouthwashing is first and foremost a game about rape culture and the patriarchy especially in work spaces#regarding women and centering conversation around Curly a man rubs people wrong because it does overshadow that commentary#but it still mixes other topics into its initial theming and message on how abuse conditions you to accept certain things that are harmful#and how getting used to a culture/enviornment does not mean you are happy healthy or most importantly safe in it. I personally like to#explore those aspects where it mixes all the themes so we can discuss the ways you have to watch out for things because there is a differen#in the idea Curly enabled Jimmy just because they were bros and because he was an example of another man afraid to step out from what#is a still oppressive system that does try to punish those who act against it even if they fall in the category of those who would benefit#from it as Jimmy and PE 100% represent that sort of misogynistic system where men that would be “good” are altered until they follow line#in a way both on the personal and professional level as PE is the corporate lock out and Jimmy represents the social and its just the issue#that the discussion of it sounds like “in defense of men” when I am more so trying to discuss how it is much deeper than men being scared t#upset other men but complacency is rewarded by not becoming another person subjugated hence as all the moments Curly does try to do#something we can tie it back to how Jimmy reacts and a possible penality from PE where we now need to address the ways to combat those#two concepts so we dont get cases like Curly or Daisuke or Swansea where male avoidance of the issue is considered neutral or even good.#i think most of this boils down the perfect victim mentality to where if someone who underwent or is being abused is not a perfect example#or accpetible type than their abuse can not be considered a valid or substantial reason for effects on their behavior compounded with the#fact that Anya's abuse at the hands of Jimmy is a systematic issue that Curly is a part of even if unwillingly and was more physically#violating and topical cause sometimes i have to remind myself that all media is still critiqued through the lens of the culture it came out#in cause i do think about what if this game came out inlike 2014 like the conversations would be sooooooo different could you imagine it?#but back the before statement Curly isn't perfect but I feel like boiling it down if hes a good person or man is not the point of the game#but more so good people can still be part of the problem and the idea of condemning a person for one act creates a false sense of#rightouesness and justice that does not aid the victim and in fact aids the abusers in escaping blame for their mulitple behaviors as we se#how the men on the ship tend to blame Jimmy for just one act against them including himself while there is a plethora of things Anya is#concerned about with Jimmy#and its not that Curly just made one mistake with Jimmy but more so we consider his actions more damning because he didn't stop Jimmy#instead of focusing on the fact Jimmy did what he did regardless of Curly and the consequence because we already know he's bad n maladjuste#which is problem in the conversation where the individuals are blamed but the system and perputrator are overlooked in a sense of acceptiab#complacency as we know how they are and the lack of tangibility to personally affect them on a larger scale like I should just make a post#on like cutting out the face when it comes it confronting systems of oppression rather than tag talking but just ask me to clarify if#you want that like im jus trying to say we avoid talking about Jimmy and PE so much cause it is obvious what they do wrong that we make#the initial and inherent problem out to be one aspect someone in this case Curly does and the the constraints they use to force actions
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little red riding hood and the boy who cried wolf
#was thinking about those old rpgmaker horror games with like fairytale theming#legit started thinking about maki as red riding hood#partially cause of the red hood from her lab#but also the theme of danger lurking in a place you're supposed to be safe in#wearing the face of someone who's supposed to care for and protect you#reminded me of makis orphanage being a front for an assassin-training cult#oumas the boy who cried wolf caus ehe lies a lot ^_^#also both stories have wolves etc etc#art tag#maki harukawa#kokichi ouma#drv3#danganronpa
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Do you guys think that Sonic has scars?
Not like Tails’, definitely not like those. Tails’ scars are from ripping fur, burning flesh, badly healed broken bones, deep cuts, and stuff he doesn’t even remember, from before he even met Sonic and started fighting Eggman. So many scars. He’s covered in them, his fur hides them, so he’s lucky that his tails are the fluffiest part of him, that’s where he has the most scars, hes not exactly ashamed of his scars, they show what he’s survived, they show that he came through all that. But still, most of them are a painful reminder that he had to survive, not live, survive.
Now Sonic… Sonic has very few scars, almost none of them from fights or Eggman encounters, his dumb bots couldn’t ever dream of hurting him, he was way too fast for that, way too strong. So they’re not from those fights, no, they’re from something completely different.
All the baby fox fangs marks in his hands, all the deep scratches from tiny little claws in his chest and the back of his arms, all the little cuts close to his face, all of them.
Sonic is proud of those scars.
He’s proud of those scars, because each and every of those scars are a reminder that he baby fox that caused them survived, because every time Sonic bled because of that kid, it was worth it.
Because he tried to bathe him when he was more blood and mud than fur. Because he forced him to take medicine when he was sick. Because he hugged him every time he had a nightmare and wouldn’t wake up even if it meant he would instinctively try to hurt him in the process. Because he held him and didn’t let go even when he felt tiny claws digging and ripping in his skin.
Those scars meant his little brother still wanted to survive. Those scars meant Sonic did everything to make sure he would live.
He’s proud of those scars.
#sonic the hedgehog#miles tails prower#sonic and tails#unbreakable bond#they are cosmic truth#they’re brothers your honor#those aren’t war scars those are honor scars#Sonic showing off the tiny claw marks with the same pride as if it was a huge beast what cause them#maybe even more#Tails does feel bad because they are a reminder that he hurt Sonic even if he wasn’t doing it on purpose#but Sonic doesn’t mind and even shows them of because they’re a reminder of how much he loves him#kinda mushy but it’s the true#wholesome sonic and tails wednesday#please tell me this counts as wholesome I’m the angst trenches and I can’t get out
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There's a user going around currently reblogging/commenting on antiLO content with the intent of "digging up dirt" on people who simply read and enjoy the comic. Basically demanding the OP's of such posts to inform them of any 'stans' so they can add them to a 'list' that they absolutely do not have any good intentions to do with, along with making some very unsavory and completely unwarranted comments about the fans in general (and I don't mean the usual "lmao LO fans are weird/dumb/etc." stuff, I mean genuinely cruel wishes to have the fans of the comic doxxed/harmed/etc.) I have blocked this user for obvious reasons, and if you get a similar reblog or DM like I did from this person, I hope you'll do the same.
Please do not play into this. As much as I and many others talk shit about this dumpster fire of a comic and its questionable if not outright controversial writing and messaging, none of us have any right to go after any of the fans or stans directly. At best that would just be proving to the fans who already hate this part of the fandom that we're boogeymen out to get people, at worst it would be a betrayal to our own integrity as human beings who should be capable of discussing media without turning it into a harassment campaign. Making shitposts about the media and the fandom is fine, discussing the media itself and the creator who made it within our own little spaces of the Internet is ultimately harmless so long as it's managed within reason, but deliberately going out of your way to dig up personal information on innocent people within the fandom for the purpose of ruining their life is not okay and if you ever get to that point where you're trying to rationalize going after people directly, you need to log off.
#and yes this is a reminder to myself and those who enjoy my content as well#i know i'm REAL GOOD at talking shit#but i don't do what i do here with the intent of starting a mob#i'm here sharing my thoughts on media that i both like and dislike#that is not permission to go on your own justice crusade using what i do here as rationalization for your actions#i have and will continue to block anyone who comes at me with these kinds of requests to name drop people#i've done my part in the past to help protect this community from bad faith fans with bones to pick#but we have to remember to protect the community from ourselves too#idc how much you look up to me or my work here#i will absolutely not be made into some martyr for a cause i don't believe in and do not condone.#leave people alone.#lore olympus critical#anti lore olympus#lo critical
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The Terror S1 Ep. 9 // Yellowjackets S2 Ep. 8 // "Famous Last Words (An Ode to Eaters)" by 1017 ALYX 9SM & Ethel Cain // "Strangers" by Ethel Cain
#when i saw that scene with james it reminded me immediately of lottie here :c#my two pookies always thinking of the good of their group before themselves ugh i'm gonna be sick actually#cannibalism as a motif#cannibalism as a metaphor for love#in this case i'd say is cannibalism as a way to surrender your own self for the well being of those you love#the fact both gave consent for this but their loved ones (be it crozier for james or the yellowjackets for lottie) decided against it#even if it consuming them could increase their chances of survival by a lot cause they just couldn't do that to james/lottie :c#anyways gonna go cry my heart out in a corner now my emotions are too raw still#ethel cain#famous last words (an ode to eaters)#strangers#james fitzjames#lottie matthews#the terror#yellowjackets#the terror amc#web weaving#edited cause i didn't like how the spotify lyrics looked still not sure if i like this one better but oh well#fave#my post ♡#parallels
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im in the mood to make a bunch of random aus that i wont do anything with except make designs for here is this vanny and william au where william is basically like glitchtrap but human looking, except he’ll glitch and distort sometimes and turn into glitchtrap because his body is struggling to keep his human form together maybe he even turns into his past versions too? basically he’s not supposed to be human and his true form keeps trying to get out
#also hey a vanny design!!!#ill keep making excuses to draw sprite william#he reminds me of a salesman#also gave him those retro colors#cause he's from the past#vanny doesn't know what she got herself into#william afton#vanny fnaf#fnaf au
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drawing my personal scc designs from two(?) years ago,, Oh do I still love them
(do NOT tag as siblings THANKS)
#I care less if tagged as poly cause I still like that hc even if they're just friends to me#<- just setting a reminder to those who are new to my scc art#deltarune#sweet cap'n cakes#art
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Hey uh I’d think we’re generally all on the same page here cause Dan and Phil raised well over $100k for Palestinian children but but just so we’re clear the Israeli government is committing genocide, Zionism is a form of colonialism, and also Free Palestine
So uh yeah that’s all ! Luv yall <3
#feel free to block me if you disagree#or like let me know so we can either discuss or I can block ya#this is essentially me fine-tuning my feed I guess lol#sorry but I just don’t find killing what is probably well over 50k people#many of whom are children#justifiable in any form#and for those who say that hamas is using civilians as human shields I’d Ike to remind you that Israel still makes the decision#to send bombs KNOWING they are killing innocents#cause like if a bank robber is taking hostages in a bank and shooting at the police#can I tell you what the police would NOT be allowed to do?#bomb the entire bank#and to be clear I love my Jewish friends I support my Jewish friends Jewish ppl are more than welcome here!! ❤️#just not zionists#dan and phil#dnp#phan#free Palestine#phandom
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(DC Comics February 1995, issue 68)
#spones#'unique bond' lol#spock's like doctor stonn asked me if i ever got over t'pring#mccoy: idk if i'm more surprised that he asked you or that you're telling me#spock: we have a unique bond doctor (who else would i talk about this with?)#and i'm troubled because i've never tried to quantify those feelings#mccoy: well a few years ago you'd never say a word. this is an improvement#spock: what caused this improvement?#mccoy: you said we shared consciousness#spock: you said don't remind me lol#tos nonsense#always love to see people acknowledging a unique bond between spock and mccoy <3#i'm gonna miss these 1990s comics. i'm slowly running out :(#since i also only read one author and skip the rest since i don't trust them
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I’m sorry but the bakudeku in this season truly is bananas. like why did they write this. ‘bakugo katsuki. if there’s just one thing I’m interested in about you, it’s that you’re the person closest to midoriya izuku right now. in that case, he’ll definitely come back here.’ ‘I have to win…right, izuku?’ ‘my whole body hurts. fighting while in pain, trying to spot the enemy’s tells…you already went through all this, didn’t you? hey, izuku…can I still catch up to you?’ bakugou having deku flashbacks MID-BATTLE. the all might card. deku looking like THIS when bakugou was injured:
and getting so angry that his eyes started GLOWING and mirio had to calm him down like ‘HE’S GETTING MEDICAL ATTENTION PLEASE STOP SHAKING THE EARTH WITH YOUR RAGE.’ and I’m not even finished the season yet what is going on!!!!
IM AWAREEEEEEE
#tals made me read this crazy ass timeloop fic which I also sent to hella but she refused to read it cause it's angsty#but I should send it to you#anyway. craziest development of getting back into mha was the grip those two got on me cause back in 2021 I was hardcore krbk#I wasn't even against bkdk for “toxic reasons” like every other loser was at the time I just literally couldn't ship them#I couldn't see them romantically. now im kicking fucking rocks like OKAY. OKAY THEY DO HAVE SOMETHING INSANE.#still love krbk though. I miss them bring them back idc if the manga is over do it anyway#OH THAT REMINDS ME. aiaia guess what apparently when the final manga volume releases in december#there's gonna be like 60 extra pages of content. I'm terrified#ask#witch-of-aiaia#hi aiaia!
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It wasn't a chocolate coin...
this comic was inspired by this official art by NTT Solmare!! except I couldn't be bothered to draw the actual outfit LMAOOOO
#obey me#obey me nightbringer#obey me mammon#obey me oc#obey me mc#obey me piper#oc x canon#mammon x mc#mammon x oc#mammon x piper#shes so dense LMAOO#i do tend to like dense characters cause honestly SAME#anyways slight mammon redesign fun!!#i like fanart where they have pointed ears and then I thought it'd be fun to add their signature color as a gradient to their hair!!#their being all of the demon brothers cause I think im gonna do that when i draw em#i like the stupid ass cringe effects they remind me of old anime that i def cringe watching again but its SO fun genuinely#like hmmm how cringe could i make this?? Embrace the cringe!!#i wish i had a chocolate coin i loved those SO much when i was younger
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Mouthwashing Spoilers
TW: Addiction and Self Harm
I wanna go on about Swansea's final monologue but it's hard to put into words, but I'm gonna try anyways cause it's a short, but strong story about autonomy again. This post ended up significantly longer than I wanted though
It's the autonomy to choose the "less healthy" option because it's appealing to you. It's the moral assignment to normality and stability. An alcoholic is an alcoholic by choice, technically, but do they owe us otherwise? Is it morally reprehensible to enjoy taking LSD at a party? Should we see someone as less than because they relax with a xanax instead of a hot shower? It's not healthy. We know that. We've seen anti-drug ad after ad after ad. But is that the part that's morally wrong, in and of itself? Does enjoying the drugs and chaos make Swansea a worse person?
Like him talking about his entire life and ending it by saying between the "stable" "normal" life and him waking up every morning with a new hangover, he preferred the latter. People always talk about getting clean and fixing their lives and Swansea did it! He did the thing "good men" do! A wife and kids and a trade job and sobriety! He was doing it! He was finally "worth" something!
And he hated it! I mean I don't know if he actually hated/despised it, but he misses his previous life. He misses drugs and partying and living like you might not wake up the next day. He said the thing that changed him was seeing himself dead in a ditch under the bright beam of a streetlight. Now he's looking down the barrel of a gun. And as he looks down it, he looks back. That was his preference. It felt good to be like that. And he wouldn't be here if he stayed there
We always have a narrative about drugs or gambling or sleeping around where a person suddenly realizes that they aren't "doing anything" with their life and becomes stable and it's always played like addiction is a false pleasure. Swansea got to the stability people said would be the real pleasure of life and that just wasn't true for him. One bad paycheck could've been the difference between his stable life and falling apart anyways. His lifestyle was going to kill him someday apparently, yet he's staring down the barrel of a gun at his steady trade job to feed his wife and kids.
I don't know quite how to word it but Swansea is the poster child for rehabilitation. There's this weight to him saying his alcoholic period was the best time of his life. Like it just hits at that pang that makes people wear DARE shirts while smoking weed and post those videos of smoking 100 cigarettes at once. Anti-vaping ads tell you about the damage they do to your body but everyone knows that already. Everyone knows "this is what your brain looks like on drugs." I smoke medical marijuana and it isn't good for my lungs but it's good for my pain. Doing drugs isn't good for me and I know that and that's sorta the point sometimes.
I don't know it's just this weird pang where I know what Swansea means, just not to nearly the same extent. I don't have an addiction so I don't think I could fully understand it. Maybe a better thing I could relate it to for myself is self harm. It's not healthy sure, but who do I owe health? Myself? Other people? And what is healthy? Is it feeling better now? Is it resisting now and feeling worse for it until it stops? What if the coping skills I learn make it worse? What if they make it better? Do I want it to get better? Does Swansea want to get better? What would better feel like to either of us?
Who knows until you try. Swansea got a collared shirt, a mortgage, and a credit card. He got a job and a wife and kids. He got sober. He got healthier, depending on your definition.
But did he feel better? He's looking down a barrel of a gun and he has to decide if he feels better. It doesn't seem like he regrets his new life. He says he wants his kids to be better than him. He wants good things to happen for them. He saw himself as one bad slip away from falling again. I don't think he felt better though. I think he got healthier. He likely would've ended up in the ditch he dreamt about, but we don't know that. We also don't know if that's what he'd prefer. But, we do know he got healthier, depending on your definition.
#mouthwashing#tw addiction#tw self harm#It got a little personal in the end but I keep watching that scene cause it reminds me of a convo with my therapist#It's been a lil under a year since I last self harmed#but he told me that things like addictions and self harm are tools#they're neutral actions that either make you feel better or worse#and that's usually up to the circumstances around the action rather than the act itself#Taking narcotics might fill you with shame or make you feel giddy. Maybe even both#Self harm can make you feel embarrassed but cathartic#That's unhealthy#now what?#There needs to be something to replace that feeling or you'll just crave it until you can't stand the feeling anymore#And sure you can talk about will and self control but why? Who are they doing this for? Themselves? Friends? Family?#Cause there's so many factors that can make that difference and sometimes the answer is 'No one'#So you crave and is that healthier? I'm not saying to self harm again or break your sobriety#But there's gotta be something to replace it. AA and NA use a higher power and ppl use nicotine gum for smoking#Essentially what I'm saying is that it's not the end of the world to enjoy your addiction#Is it unhealthy? Absolutely. Wounds can get infected and drugs can be laced or you can OD#But is it morally wrong for Swansea to say those were the best days of his life?#Is it wrong for him to live the sober life and decide he preferred his alcoholism?#My therapist doesn't want me to harm myself. He'd prefer for me to learn new coping skills to replace it. And I did#The urges still come up for me sometimes. He says they come up for him too. Less so. But they do#He says a relapse could happen. What's wrong with that? You just start over with a new goal and a new skill. And if that skill is worse?#Well that original tool is there until you get a new one. It's not great but it feels better than a new bad tool#And maybe it's okay to fiddle with that old tool if you don't wanna bother with a new one again
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there was a post about erik carrying charles so i wanted to tell you all if you don't know in one of krakoa are comics erik was flying charles in a metal globe or smth... i mean erik was flying and carrying charles around because charles can't fly..... it's important.....
I DO KNOW THAT BIT if we're talking about the same thing it's from Inferno #3 !!!!!
#snap chats#canonical passenger princess you love to see it#kinda crying cause it reminds me of saiyan pods from db. also those weird tentacle pods from evolution's The Cauldron episodes#my man and his steel balls idk what to tell you
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#lego monkie kid#lego monkie kid fanart#monkie kid#monkie kid fanart#lmk#lmk fanart#lmk mayor#monkie kid mayor#lmk macaque#monkie kid macaque#blue and violet#I just wanna say that this was hilarious to draw guys#these two are such dumbasses#they do not like each other and yet they contradict themselves so much#Mayor does not like Macaque because of his traitorous past but they really do still he leaning against this monkey like a pillow#why? he is warm#that is their only excuse#and Macaque is like “lmao imagine being with this guy- could not be me”#and at the same time he LITERALLY has his tail around the Mayor#look at these two#leaning against each other- ITS GOING TO GO TO A POINT WHERE THESE TWO FAKE BEING A COUPLE FOR THOSE COUPLE DISCOUNTS ON VALENTINES#that would be Macaque's idea of course because he loves a good discount but he is lonely as fuck#and Mayor is just there for the ride because why not#these two would cause drama at IKEA on purpose#and do all of these other domestic romantic couple things and chalk it up to 'average homie behaviour'#this is actually just reminding me of casino cups devildice at this point if any of you understand this reference-
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If you like dungeon meshi I highly recommend the webtoon Mage & Demon Queen. It's similar to Dungeon Meshi in terms of world building but the story focuses on a mage who wants to bone the demon queen of the dungeon. I read it a few years ago so my memory of it isn't super in-depth but it was a really compelling story and had very great chemistry between characters and really good writing of LGBTQ characters
#the mage & the demon queen#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#farcille#marcille donato#falin touden#tagging those two cause they remind me of the main characters from the webtoon
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