#cause I can be self conscious

[roseytoesy]

Yessssss Rose, go for it!!! Write all the self-indulgent mermay stuff you want!!!

I SHALL THANK YOU FRIEND! also I was stupid and forgot this was my own post and wrote in the tags cause that’s what I’m used to doing.

anyway! I shall write a thing or two at some point for a prompt or two. honestly with how sporadic my energy and inspiration will likely be, I’ll just read through the list on a good energy day, write for that prompt/draw for it. And I’ll share what I’ve compiled during the weekend

[dennisboobs]

7x10 // How Mac Got Fat

↳ Charlie & Dennis + getting high together

[mirensiart]

Really admire people who can freely sketch or color in public, I'm so self conscious whenever I do it I honestly can't relax or concentrate 🫠

[seagull-scribbles]

I want you to tell ‘em that you love the way that they don’t stick out like sore middle fingers

[Continuation of this]

[nudibutch]

i was finally able to have the house to myself for a bit today... brought all my dirty dishes out of my room and was able to tidy up a little bit without feeling weird

[smilingberryy]

Fake anime screenshot/storyboard frame for a moment in 'The Calamitous Heart' that I'm really excited to get to cause I know it will make me cry :3

Started as a general expression test for Lizi then the idea came out of nowhere and decided to add my boy Rainbow after 3 years of having not drawn him, they're both about to murder someone :D bonus points for whoever can guess who's speaking by the colors alone.

[moe-broey]

And since I'm like, not entirely satisfied w her design, I have. Some scraps I made after

I highkey wish I stuck to my main vision, that's been with me since day one. Which is, the layered ribbons. In the main piece, I tried reducing them so you can see more bones and some more Hel-like "armor" underneath (though it's generous to call it that lmfao). It was an impulse decision, and like... idk, you kinda miss the point without it.

Point being, there's like... A Lot, going on here.

> The white dress? Completely imagined. I could have fucking SWORN she was wearing a white dress in the Book 3 key art. But one thing about me is I'm a sucker for the symbolism, behind the white dress. So it's a staple of her design, still. Not to mention, something that was always a strong vision was being able to see through the dress, somewhat (ghostly glowy effect)

> The Biggest Thing though. Again, I regret changing last minute LMFAO. Is that front piece. Like an open wound, as if she was slashed and split down the middle. Messy layered ribbons, in pink and flesh tones, to mimic "guts" (ESP strong in her damaged art, where the ribbons would "spill out"/come undone). The ribbons also are keeping the dress tied together -- as if it were mended. Then, there's the frills! The torn fabric! I'm always iffy about How heavily I want to lean into it, but in the back of my mind. It has a vaguely yonic shape. But Mostly, it's meant to also just look torn open LMFAO (and then decorated 🥰)

Everything else is just vague and experimental. Like nods to a variety of chara's designs (the shorts/thigh highs lifted from her base art, the shape of her dress/the tattered ends lifted from Lif, the sleeves kinda lifted from Henriette, and also the hairstyle VERY much lifted from Henriette -- with just the tiiiiiniest hint of Alfonse in there, with a long strand of bangs to the side, opposite of his). Also experimenting with sharp teeth like accents on her outfit... (hard to notice here, but. Thinking about it)

Another sketch I did afterward, again. Just. Fucking around/finding out. Though I do like the shapes here, more.... and it does have a closer resemblance to Henriette, actually (in dress shape). Not sure where that collar connects to, though LMFAO

In the final piece you don't even see much of the armor I designed anyway... some parts I just ended up omitting regardless, due to the complexity/business. There was a concept for it to be like. Winding around her body. But like. Her design is already so complicated. It really wasn't worth it to fuck it up more 😔💔 (and yet......... that's what I did................. I should have just stuck to my guns.............)

@sharenaweek

[ray-elgatodormido]

Got into this weird conversation with my siblings at dinner. They were talking about this new Tik Tok thing out of nowhere and when I asked wtf they were on about they told me “don’t you know what is happening in the world around you?”

So Um fellas. Is it chronically online to *checks notes* engage in fandom culture in chill corners with friendly folks? Cause apparently it is now. According to my older sister who has a habit of claiming to know me better than I know myself.

Apparently I have “Nerd brainrot” because I really like things. I’m pretty sure my brain isn’t completely fried sis. Not yet anyway.

Maybe it’s time for a little purge on my Instagram.

[blazingblorbos]

oh god. oh god. oh.. oh gosh. I didn't expect this so soon. I didn't expect this today, I've been busy with life related things so the HYV calendar is really unbeknownst to me, is this update really next week already?? where can I rant about this- whERe can I rant about this-

oh. I made a blog for that exact purpose ! OKAY—!

fuck. fuck me, dude holy-

FUCK.

the slightly worried look on Arle's face as Snezhevna is reaching out her hand, only for her face to seemingly revert back to cold and neutral once the camera actually focuses in on her. Her tone is cold but her words are reassuring,,,,,,,,

ALSO GOD FUCKING DAMN IT. HOW GENTLY SHE HOLDS HER HAND.

the d o o r. the DOOR. THE FUCKING DOOR, CHAT. the slow opening at first, and once you can make out that it's certainly Arle's silhouette she shoves it fully open - both doors, both hands. incredibly attractive—. the FEAR in that man's eyes.

The crossed hands. We can't see her face but you know what expression she's making (it's not really an expression. it's neutral but you can feel it). THE FUCKING F E A R ON THAT MAN'S FACE.

Oh- she literally just grabbed him by the throat. Just like that- ! There's the expression. Oh, you feel it, alright. If you go frame by frame, you'll notice her eyes narrow in the slightest right before ->

POV: you're getting chocked out by Arlecchino, and that's actually the least of your worries. (my god she is beautiful).

I did not expect him to simply be thrown down to the ground and I ... d i d not expect her to step on his FACE. [insert gay masochistic joke here. you know the one]. Did not expect her to smile (this is the ONLY scene wherein we see her smile even slightly... huh...) *And the reason I say "I did not expect her to smile", is because with the momentum we were getting I thought she was straight up going to crush his throat, or stab him (hand, weapon or otherwise). It looked like she was digging the forefoot of her shoe into the guys head and not the... .. y'know deadly fucking heel, so that.. confused me. (and the sound when she supposedly stomped his head in did NOT sound all that impactful) but ANYWAYS I digress-

I'm of course assuming more happened after the cut to black because . madam where did you get that bloodstain on you—

BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE!?!?!? (more on this in a second)

Freminet??? Freminet feature ! (not Lyney or Lynette.. interesting). :(((( the poor boy sounds so,, desensitized. His father

holy shit quick intermission. After the mental chronological fuckfest that was "The Song Burning in the Embers" I don't think I can look at Arle and the HotH the same anymore because she's.. she's like not even 10 years older than them (?) it's insane this doesn't make any sense- ANYWAYS.

HIS FATHER comes back with what we later see to be real blood on her face. Tells him "I've acquired new funds". We know what that means... HE knows what that means!!, and the way WE - THE AUDIENCE - know that Freminet knows what it means is because the boy replies "Oh.. Okay.."

LIKE-! chat omg this is truly just routine for them,,,, Like out of the 3 siblings, Freminet always gave off the biggest child assassin vibe, but wow. To see that routine and desensitized nature of the HotH's line of work just,, splayed out in a Character Trailer is . wow. and the look in his eyes as he says it is- wow.

YEAH UHH BLOODSTAIN ON HER FACE??/ The lighting in this scene now is evidently less saturated. And it's just- oh my FUCKING GOD it does so many things:

the blood on Arle's face looks... dry. it doesn't look as fresh as you may expect which could mean many things. It could mean she spent,,, hella long in there with that guy doing what needed to be done. It could mean she took care of something else immediately after dealing with that guy (perhaps smth related to the children Snezhevna wanted to save). But regardless, it means she didn't put in the effort to clean her face and hide what happened. OBVIOUSLY !!! that is so . obviously her style but to S E E IT IN MY GENSHIN IMPACT CHARACTER TRAILER it's- oh my god

it serves to highlight the really, truly, bleak nature of the scene now that we know plain and simple Arlecchino just killed a man. There's no subtext, there's no reading between the lines. The only thing that didn't happen is that we didn't see contact nor see a body. But, no sugarcoating, Arlecchino killed a man. No one is hiding it. You are not surprised. No one should be but damn.

and ofc it acts as a representation of Snezhevna dying...

because it seems like the saturation is back once the camera switches to looking at Snezhevna laying in bed.

And is it me, or does it look like Arle's allowing herself to actually display a tinge of worry in her expression this time? And also, EVER so slightly in her tone as well. You can feel it, it's gentler.

"Once I'm better I'll start my next mission.."

THIS. THIS!! IN SO MANY WAYS THIS!

OKAY. so bear with me. I haven't actually read any of the sibling's character stories yet, so there could be a LOT of info I'm missing but:

There's still a pretty thought-provoking conversation going on (in MY mind, at least) about just how intensely these children are being trained to be soldiers for the Fatui. They're obviously in an environment that indoctrinates them into being soldiers of SOME kind, but I still don't know what kind of soldier that's supposed to be. Are they all ALWAYS extensions of the Fatui? Or are they more-so extensions of Arlecchino specifically..? Snezhevna was obviously trying to help those children she came across, and I'm assuming that happened on her latest mission, so was the mission for a charitable cause?? What was her next mission supposed to be?? Same line of work? Saving people? Or would it switch up and was she going to be sent to "take care of" (kill .) someone???

So I don't know whether to interpret that line as a hint of them being overworked and 1) feeling like they need to continue their work out of pure fear that they'll be deemed ineffective and useless... or 2) feeling like they need to continue their work out of a sense of loyalty and duty to the place that took them in and raised them. Or both..

and ofc the funeral scene. I can't say much more than what's already shown right on the screen.

and am I bugging? Or is the location of the grave....

[theswedishpajas]

I don’t do this usually but I feel like I’ve been super quiet lately and I REALLY liked the nails I did this week so I’m gonna showcase them!!

This week’s inspired mostly by my Dark Urge playthrough, just in very general strokes though- the star nails obviously symbolizing Astarion 🍷🦇✨✨✨

The black crackle is part about it bring the DARK urge and also just a hint towards hell in some way (lava, tiefling, all that) but also a favorite of mine in general because it matches with my skin condition ✨✨✨

Four of them, all but the ones with the gold star, glow pink in the dark (and under blacklight as well)

I think they’re about 6-7 layers of polish, counting the base coat?

I repaint them once every other week on the day after my bath, and dedicate most of the day to them as to not accidentally ruin them before they’re fully dried/cured (I don’t use gel polish)

The day after my bath isn’t really open for much with me either way as I’m still soaking in my lotion throughout the day and thus can’t really get dressed to go outside etc.

[secret-plantcest-sideblog]

Anyway I feel like it kinda gets glossed over that Knives was a child when he caused the big fall and idk I think that's kind of important because he's lived with that for over 100 years and just like Vash has lived with knowing the people he loves and fights for don't see him or his kind as anything more than a tool at best or a monster at worst, Knives has most definitely lived with knowing he's the leading reason why this system has remained in place

[acourtofquestions]

Dont be angry, Finnula said. Be smart.

[textualviolence]

okokokok you know what. the lesbian label fits me best specifically because i hate romance & falling in love i think all that shit's stupid. The only thing thats worth it in life is having a tension filled two-little-girls-on-the-playground-pretending-to-be-horses level intensity friendship where basically no words or outside concepts exist beside the deep fascination and kinship you have with another human being & its a friendship to the outside world but on the inside its an unspeakable understanding of self & other with no limits or boundaries as to the aspects that are concealed and revealed and the kind of intimacy that is possible & the only rule is having fun and keeping up the synchronicity thats vibrating between your two spirits. Sorry if that makes me sound like a cringe hippe but genuinely people who are like i wanna fall in looooove im like your desires are lame & small and i pity you. Romance-love is inferior to playground bff friendship-love in every way but we live in a society that does everything to hide this fact from people....why.....

[skeletalheartattack]

love the way u interact w ur mutuals in the tags it's very sweet!!

what can i say :)!! love-a the mutuals!!

this is me with my mutuals okay? they're all so witty and smart and funny and cool. wow!

[literallyneurodivergentandaminor]

urge to make the most self indulgent au i have ever made which would almost border on wattpat level of self insert aus and it would be of my fav vocaloids. and also me. because i can. i need to actually write soem kinda fanfic about this cause the idea is already in my head and i did some silly doodles but i must do it proper. if we going in cringe territorry might as well do it RIGHT yknow? anyway who in this with me?

[kavehater]

I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness