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[anextraordinarymuse]

Philinda prompt for how proud they are of the kids??

Gonna combine these two. 

Also - I’M SORRY, I DON’T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED IT JUST RAN AWAY WITH ME. ANGST AHOY … with a happy ending.

                      Inside of My Heart There’s a Space (Now You’re Home)

When Jemma proposes her idea to go undercover in Hydra Phil resists. There are too many variables, too many things that could go wrong before they’d even know that there was a problem. He’d hate the idea no matter who proposed it, but he hates it more because it comes from Jemma. Sweet, gentle Jemma. 

“She can’t lie,” May points out. 

“Or fight,” Phil agrees. “We’d be throwing her to the wolves in a meat suit.”

Melinda furrows her brow at his turn of phrase. He shakes his head and waves his hand in a wordless version of “forget about it”. 

“I can teach her.”

Phil turns on his heel to stare at his partner. “To fight?”

“And lie,” May answers. Then, she amends, “or at least to tell half truths.”

“May - you can’t be serious.”

“Why not? Jemma is.”

“You know why she’s doing this.”

Of course Melinda knows. She knows how it pains Jemma to see what Fitz had done to himself to save her; she knows the guilt that wears at the young woman’s heart. Melinda also knows what it’s like to think the only good thing you can do now is remove yourself from the equation. 

May doesn’t say anything. 

They debate it for the rest of the day, until Phil is forced to admit that Jemma would be in a unique position to gather intel. His stipulation is that she’ll have back up in there. They have another agent he knows of undercover in the organization; Phil will get a message to her about Jemma. 

He hates the plan, but Jemma doesn’t waver. She’s almost relieved when Phil tells her that she’s going in. She nods gratefully at May when Phil informs her that she’ll be learning basic combat and subterfuge skills before she goes. 

“Jemma,” Phil says when the practical matters have been taken care of. “Have you told Fitz?”

The young woman grimaces and looks at her feet. May will have to work with her on that. The sorrow on her face when she looks up again is raw. 

“No, sir.” She doesn’t say that she intends to, either, which Phil doesn’t miss. 

“Maybe you should.”

Jemma only responds with, “will that be all, sir?”

He nods. “That’s all.” When she has a hand on the door handle, though, he finds himself compelled to say, “Jemma? Don’t give up. I know it seems impossible, but you guys will pull through this.”

“I’m not sure that’s true.” She’s so different from the Jemma Simmons that first stepped foot on the bus - sadder, and more worldly. 

Phil watches her form retreat down the hall until she’s out of sight. “Everyone deals with trauma in their own way,” he says to no one in particular. 

“Do you think Fitz will forgive her?” May asks quietly. 

Phil fixes his gaze on his partner. “I know he will.”

But they have a long road ahead of them.

Daisy is laid low by the sudden discovery and loss of her parents. She handles it well, but no one who knows her could look at her and believe her unchanged. 

Her father had driven himself insane in an effort to be what her mother wanted, and to atone for the sin of failing his family; her mother had tried to kill her. 

Daisy’s afraid the real damage is unseen. She’d turned on May: the woman who had trained her, mentored her … who had been more of a mother than Jiaying had. 

Daisy seeks May out days after it’s all over. The older woman spends so much time behind closed doors with Coulson that it’s hard to get to her, so Daisy does the only thing she can think of: she ambushes her in the only place she knows May will be.

Coulson isn’t in his office, thankfully, because Daisy’s not sure how he’d feel about the way she just waltzes in and pins May with words. 

“I made a mistake,” Daisy announces.

Melinda glances up from her spot near Coulson’s desk, and her face is the same calm mask that Daisy has come to know so well. May isn’t surprised or upset to see her. She simply puts down the file in her hands and stares at her. 

“I was wrong to attack you. I shouldn’t have taken sides - I should have tried to find a better way. I’m sorry, May.”

Daisy fidgets with her hands. She’s at a loss to say anything else because she doesn’t think she can adequately express just how deeply sorry she is. 

May steps around the desk and approaches with the same calm expression. She’s so unflappable and steady, and Daisy admires that about her. 

“I know,” May tells her.

“You do?” 

“She was your mother, Daisy. You’d finally found your family. I don’t blame you for wanting to protect them.”

Daisy snorts and glances away in something close to shame. “Yeah, well, look how that turned out. My own mother tried to kill me. So much for all that blood is thicker than water crap.”

Unexpectedly, May smiles at that. “People always get that one wrong.”

“What?”

“It’s ‘the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb’.”

“What … what does that mean?”

Daisy is surprised yet again when May puts a hand on her bicep. The touch is short lived, but Daisy can count the number of times that Melinda May has physically tried to reassure her on one hand and doesn’t dismiss the gesture.

“It means that sometimes family is something you choose, and not something you’re born into.”

Daisy hugs her then. May hesitates for a breath and then hugs her back. 

“Thank you,” Daisy whispers. 

When Daisy has made her exit, May says, “you weren’t searching for a file at all, were you?”

When she turns it’s to see Phil leaning against the door frame of the small records room that’s attached to his office. The way he’s looking at her makes her heart do uncomfortable things. 

“She needed that,” is his only answer.

“How did you know she’d show up?”

“Call it a hunch.”

Phil studies her a moment longer. May thinks she knows what it is she sees in his eyes: it reads like home, like safety and loyalty and acceptance. It reads like family.

And love. 

Death comes for Phil Coulson again on a Thursday. 

By some divine provenance he knows the end has come, and manages to send them all away with some convincing words and promises that he’ll be here when they get back.

Only Melinda isn’t fooled. She waits for the room to empty and then grabs one of his hands in her own and cradles it against her chest. She cries unashamedly. 

“Help them to forgive me,” Phil says.

Melinda nods. Her heart beats against his hand as though it’s strong enough to sustain them both. 

“Don’t retreat, okay?” When May doesn’t respond he continues. “Promise me, Melinda. You need each other. Promise me you’ll take care of them. That you’ll let them take care of you.”

“I promise,” Melinda whispers, and all the while wonders if her heart will stop beating the moment his does. 

His second death is nothing like his first: he goes quietly with the woman he loves by his side. 

Melinda’s heart keeps beating, but only because she’d promised him it would.

He’s been gone for a month when Melinda finds the video file on his computer. “Watch together” is all it says, and May curses at him but - as always - does as he asks. 

May, Daisy, Jemma, and Fitz are crammed together on the couch, and Mack and Elena are standing just behind it. Fitz plugs the HDMI cable into the laptop and projects the video onto the seventy-five inch television screen. 

Phil’s face appears. He’s smiling that knowing smile of his, and for a moment it’s like he’s not gone at all. 

“Before you get mad,” Phil says on the video, “I’m sorry.”

“I don’t care,” Daisy says heatedly.

“I know you’ll say you don’t care, Daisy. It’s okay. I know you do - you all do. And you have to know that I care, too. I care about all of you, and that’s why I couldn’t let you stay. There was never going to be a right way, or a good way. There never is when the people you love leave you.

“I’m sorry I’m not there,” he continues. “The only thing that makes this bearable is knowing that you guys have each other. Hold onto that. Nothing is more important than family. 

“Fitz, Simmons - you’ve both come so far. I hope you know that I never could have done it without you guys. You never cease to amaze me with your intelligence and heart. Protect each other, okay? No matter what happens, don’t give up on each other. It’s all worth it, even the hard parts.”

Fitz puts his arm around Jemma’s shoulders and she turns her face into his neck and cries. 

Melinda is crying, but she won’t look away for anything. 

“Mack, for the last time, would you stop trying to quit?”

A chorus of tearful, broken chuckles punctuates the momentary silence.

“We know you don’t mean it, and we wouldn’t let you go even if you did. Thank you for your loyalty and friendship. Keep being a voice of reason, okay? Our friendship meant a lot to me.  

“Elena, I’d tell you to keep him honest but I know you will. Be a light for them. Make them laugh even when they don’t want to; especially when they don’t want to. It was an honor.

“Daisy …” On screen, Phil stops and glances down for a long moment. When he lifts his gaze again there are tears in his eyes that he doesn’t bother trying to hide. “The best thing about family is that you can never have enough. I should have told you that you’ve always been a daughter to me. You have so much heart, and so much try. Don’t ever lose that. Keep going - it might feel like you can’t, but you can. I promise. And listen to your mother.” He grins at them.

Daisy tips to the side and collides with May, then drops her head onto the other woman’s shoulder. May lays her cheek against the crown of Daisy’s head, and they stay that way. 

“I love you. All of you. I know I didn’t say it, but I hope I showed it. Our team - our family - gave my life meaning. I’m so proud of each and every one of you. Fight the good fight - be the shield. 

“Know that I’m with you, always.”

Phil reaches forward and his arm is visible at the edge of the camera, and then the screen goes black. No one speaks; the only sounds are subdued crying. 

Melinda doesn’t take her eyes off the screen. Daisy stirs next to her and lays a tentative hand on her forearm. 

“But …” Fitz starts, and Jemma quickly shushes him. 

The screen flickers back to life. Phil is in a different outfit - he doesn’t look bad, but the poison had clearly been taking its toll on him when he’d filmed this. 

“If the rest of you are still there, this is your one warning: if you thought I was mushy before, you might want to leave.” A pause; Phil sighs and rubs a hand over his face. “I know you’re angry, Melinda. At me, at the situation, at everything. It’s okay. Be mad - and then move on. Please, for me.

“I must have started this a hundred times now. There’s so much I want to say - so much I should have told you when I had the chance - and so little time left.” He sighs again and stares into the camera as intensely as if he knows that May is staring back. “I …” a tear slides down his cheek; on the couch, Melinda is crying in earnest. “I love you, Melinda. You know it - you’ve always known it, because you know me better than anyone else - but I should have told you. I should’ve said it. I should find you right now and tell you before this is all that’s left, but I can’t. I know it’s not fair for me to tell you now, when that door can never be more closed to us than it is now, but … damn.”

He wipes away his tears and his frustration is evident. He paces for a minute, at odds with himself, and it’s the first real sign of how angry this situation must have made him, too. 

“This will never be enough, but it’s all we have left. I’ll just say this: you mean everything to me, Melinda. There’s a will in my desk drawer - you know how old fashioned I am. Everything I have is yours.”

“Damn it, Phil,” Melinda whispers. 

“Take care of our family. You’re better at it than you know. I’ll be waiting for you on the other side - take your time, okay? You can whoop my ass later.”

There’s a moment where it looks like he wants to say more, but he thinks better of it and just shuts off the camera. 

Phil has managed to bring them together again, to encourage and sustain them as he always has - had. They’re bruised and aching, but for the first time since Phil’s death Melinda knows they’ll be okay. 

She’ll make sure of it.

It’s absolutely impossible for him to be standing in front of her, but he is. 

She’s hallucinating. She has to be.

“Did you miss me?”

She isn’t.

“You son of a bitch.” 

She runs right at him and knows even before he opens his arms that he’ll catch her. She kisses him, hard.

“Is that a no?”

[antoine-triplett]

Can I pretty please request a background for Tumblr of Philinda kissing from 5x21?? Maybe even a moving one?

Heck yes you can! It was such a brilliant moment! I can’t make a gif of it since I don’t have a downloaded version of the episode to use (I PAY MONEY TO BE ABLE TO WATCH AGENTS OF SHIELD JUST IN CASE ABC WANTS TO KNOW AND USE THAT INFO AS A REASON TO RENEW THE SHOW HINT HINT NUDGE NUDGE), but I will do a cute animation of some kind.

[suallenparker]

4, 7, 9, 11, 25 for the get to know your author ask :)

4) favorite character you’ve written

Though Question! I love so many and they all bring fun to the table! I love writing Daisy because she can be so snarky (loved, loved LOVED writing her in You’ve got Mail) and I adore both Victoria Hand and Maria Hill (writing their friendship to Melinda in He’s All that was great fun, which is why we’ll definitely see more of that in Suitable for A Queen). Melinda and Phil are my fav characters in general so I definitely LOVE writing them!

7) when asked, are you embarrassed or enthusiastic to tell people that you write?

Usually people don’t ask. But if they do, I usually feel neutral about it. It’s a ting I do … If someone from *my crowd* asks about fic and I know they’re as enthusiastic as I am, then that’s another game! :D

9) what, if anything, do you do for inspiration?

I don’t do anything special to activily get inspiration, but I do read lots of books and watch tv shows. Most fruitful for me to find inspiration are showers and walks, though. :D

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

My English. DEFINITELY my English. Everything was phrased in a very German way when I started writing in english. I feel it’s better now and less awkward.

25) copy/paste a few sentences or a short paragraph that you’re particularly proud of

Ok, SPOILER! This is from Suitable for a Queen, chapter 2, where Melinda talks to her mother:

“Whatdo I need help with?” Melinda asked. She already knew the answer. Hehad told her, hadn't he? He was here to find love for a veryimportant client. For a princess. For her.

“Younever needed help with anything.”

Becauseshe was too stubborn. Not accepting help was a sign of a weak leader.She bit the inside of her cheek.

I’m proud of Lian’s sentence here because it’s so loaded. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK!

[ussjellyfish]

1, 3, 4, 11, and 14 for Hold to the now, the here :)

thanks lovely! So many questions!! Very exciting. 

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way?

I’ve written one other May gets pregnant fic, and I really love that one, but it’s more sciencey (I tried really hard but failed) and the relationships are so different because it’s season 2, not season 5. That one isn’t as emotionally intimate as this one, so that’s what I was going for. They’re so jelled as family now, the whole crew, that it’s much more interesting to write them as they are now, because they deal with it together. So that’s what I wanted, they get a break, and they get to be together and May gets to have the baby she wanted before Bahrain. It’s totally handwavy, and I’m having a great time. 

Much of this is about confronting demons. Phil has lost all his family, so keeping them close, making something that’s important to him. He just keeps adopting kids, so having a baby would mean a lot to him too May gave up on having her own family, because she thought she was too terrible after Bahrain, so having a child lets her work through that. Daisy gets a family, an awesome one where shes loved and protected and she protects them back, so that’s fabulous. 

3: What’s your favorite line of narration?

Phil can be optimistic. He can hope. She can only endure until her heart catches up.

I cheat, that’s three, but it’s awesome. It’s how they fit together. Phil’s more idealistic, sometimes she just leans into his optimism because that’s what she needs.

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

"Because I really got it from your breasts, which are marvellous usually but they're so...in this dress and I'm just so happy for you, for Coulson, I mean--"

So uh...I have a thing for May’s breasts, which are great, so this scene with her and Jemma made me really happy, because Jemma is adorable. She’s observant, she loves medicine and biology, and I love her talking to May. 

11: What do you like best about this fic?

It’s so soft. I felt kind of self-indulgent writing it without a real plot, just talking and cuddling and emotions, but there’s so much to draw on, so much they haven’t said to each other that it works. People enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy writing it. It’s a brilliant experiment in softness and emotion. 

14: Is there anything you wanted readers to learn from reading this fic?

Hmmmm..Family comes together from all places. They’re who you chose. Found family is one of the best emotional parts of SHIELD so I love that. Emotional security, people being able to say what they fear and be absolutely loved. I think that’s the take home. Everyone is loved and deserves to be loved. 

[kienova66]

Favorite field trip memory if any? If not, a favorite memory from any trip :)

I *loved* the trip we took to Medieval Times in Toronto when I was in grade 8 (oh my GOD that was so long ago now...). They had this quest-type thing that you could do that was both physical and mental challenges. You had to put the correct weight of things on a balance beam to open a door based on clues; had to drag yourself across some water on a raft using just a rope, etc. It was so damn fun. When I went back years later (read during a grade 12 field trip) they didn’t have the quest anymore and I was so upset. I would literally pay to do it again if it existed.

Thanks for asking

[theclaravoyant]

i can't wait to read your FitzDaisy comfort bc we are all still reeling from this past ep and need it so badly

Thanks very much! Also, thanks for your comment on AO3, I’m glad I could bring you some comfort in these trying times.

For those who are interested in a Fitz & Daisy 5x12 coda, the tumblr post for it (with a link to AO3) is here. Enjoy!

[fitzsimmonsaf]

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sending you good vibes & the strength to get through those assignments!! you got this ✨💞

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good luck!! you got it! 💛

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That sounds intense! Good luck!!!

Thanks for the support yall, i am 2/3 of the way done with my short story anthology project, just have the 2k word essay left for that, but i will still have to write my shakespeare mini essays by saturday morning too so i think i’m going to go ahead and delete my tumblr app from my phone and bookmark from my laptop so i’m not tempted to procrastinate on here until i am finished.

[florchis]

Didn't think I'd be into FitzSkye/FitzDaisy but then I read your fics and I am here for it! Thank you for writing 💖

This is how I will take over the world: converting one fan at a time. In all seriousness, I never thought I’ll enjoy writing about them as much either, and yet here I am. Good to share this love with so many wonderful people  💖

[ezrisdax-archive]

29 philinda pretty please

sorry, that’s not a ship I write for!

[agl03]

If this season ends with Phil and Melinda retired on a beach (based on Robin's drawing and the wrap party) I'm here for it. Also, what do you think of Elizabeth's new haircut (besides that it looks completely adorable)?

Hi @casualsketchpaintingfan

It would be really nice if they ended up on the beach but I”m still leaning those drawings have something to do with the loop/stopping the world from ending.  Or are a reference to Tahiti.  

#itsallconnected

I love Lil’s new haircut! 

[antoine-triplett]

I love the spring Daisy and May icons, they are so gorgeous!! You are so talented 💕

Thank you! I’m so glad you like them. :) 

[suallenparker]

2, 3, 4, 13 for In Control :)

2. What scene did you first put down?

I don’t remember. I jumped around A LOT in this story before I actually started writing, i think. Usually I plan everything out and then write chapter after chapter, but with this one, dialogue started happening ALL OVER THE PLACE. Still might be that I figured out the first scene at first but … *shrugs* I don’t know.

3. What's your favorite line of narration?

Oh, that’s tough. I like how you can set pace and rythm in narration. I forget a lot of the details of the things I wrote because the next new chapter pulls my focus, but I remember grinning at this:

So was it a bit ridiculous to tryand look as good as possible?

No!

It was not.

It was fine.

Because Melinda arguing with herself is always fun and her definite No! Just makes me grin.

4. What's your favorite line of dialogue?

I can’t put it here because, well, smut. But Melinda’s line about Phil being turned on by a pun when other … things are on display. :)

13. What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn't listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading?    

I love listening to Sia’s TV is my parent concert, or to Mumford and Sons. Somehow they’re good writing music for me. I also watch lots of TV when I write. i watched a LOT of The Bachelor while writing Behind The Scenes. Currently I’m rewatching CSI and Grey’s anatomy. (also, please imagine Phil watching CSI because either he would LOVE it or HATE it because of all. the. terrible bad puns in that show.)

THANK YOU FOR THESE QUESTIONS! :D          

[ussjellyfish]

7, 9, 11 for the WIP ask

7: What are you most proud of?

This is hard, this shouldn’t be hard. 

I’ve been alternating point of view characters in a sequence (Daisy, Melinda, Phil) so I get around to each one at different times and they all have unique voices. It’s been interesting to plot out what happens in each chapter based on who I want the readers to experience it with. That’s a pacing challenge, and I like how it’s worked out, what moments we see with which person and how it’s worked as a story. I’m really pleased with it even though I don’t think it’s something people notice much. 

9: How would you describe your writing style?

A lazy slow moving sea creature, not in a hurry to go anywhere, usually soft and squishy, occasionally stinging, but usually that can be avoided. (I love you, @redandpointy)

11: Which character do you have the most in common with?

Ummmmm, in the emotional battle to control myself and then pull back from some level of control that was too much, Melinda May. I would love to be as wonderful as her, but...emotionally, I think I have the most in common with her in this story. 

[koolio19]

10 Favorite Women from 10 Different Fandoms

Tagged by @cjs-deppendent , Thanks!

1.  Melinda May - Agents of SHIELD

2. Catherine Willows - CSI

3. Kathryn Janeway - Star Trek Voyager

4. Abby Griffin - The 100

5. Minerva McGonagall - Harry Potter

6. Kira Nerys - Star Trek Deep Space Nine

7. Diana Prince - Wonder Woman/ Justice Leauge

8. Padme Amidala - Star Wars

9. Eleanor Shellstrop - The Good Place 

10. Lin Beifong - Legend of Korra

I tag @casualsketchpaintingfan @yes-everhopeful @maos2013 @philinda @inwaitforsomethingbetter and anyone else who would like to do it! 

[welovedaisyjohnson]

5+1 QuakeRider Alphabetical Prompts

by casualsketchpaintingfan

All of the QuakeRider prompts and short drabbles you could think of.

Words: 2457, Chapters: 1/?, Language: English

Series: Part 1 of 5+1 QuakeRider Prompts

Fandoms: Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV)

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: F/M

Characters: Skye | Daisy Johnson, Robbie Reyes, Phil Coulson, Melinda May

Relationships: Robbie Reyes/Skye | Daisy Johnson, Phil Coulson/Melinda May, Robbie Reyes & Skye | Daisy Johnson

Additional Tags: alphabetical prompts, all taken from tumblr, I have no regrets, happy birthday firerysky

Ao3 works tagged 'Daisy x Robbie Reyes' https://ift.tt/2pAEDsO

[thatbottleofhaig]

Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better.

Tagged by @kelleee , thank you :)

A - Age: 26

B - Birthplace: Philippines

C - Current time: 6:50PM (PDT) 

D - Drink you last had: I’m drinking the last bit of my coffee right this moment. By the time I finish this questionaire, the answer to this would be water.

E - Easiest person to talk to: My grandma.

F - Favorite song: It changes a lot. Current favorite is “Nobody Can Save Me�� by Linkin Park.

G - Grossest memory: Accidentally swallowed my own vomit. It wasn’t much, but still. *gag*

H - Horror yes or horror no: ish? I like reading horror. But watching it? Nooo.

I - In love?: Yes. With food, nature, and fictional characters.

J - Jealous of people?: I hate to admit it, but YES.

L - Love at first sight or should i walk by again?: walk by again. and again. and again... and many more times.

M - Middle name: Alfonso (I’m a filipino, and we have this naming system where we get our mother’s maiden surname as our middle name.) 

N - Number of siblings: Four. 2 sisters and 2 brothers.

O - One wish: World peace. There’s too much evil in the world and it breaks my heart.

P - Person you called last: My aunt.

Q - Question you are always asked: “Are you ok?”, “Have you eaten?”

R - Reason to smile: PHILINDAAAA

S - Song you sang last: Not Today by Twenty One Pilots

T - Time you woke up: 8:00 AM. (Thanks, phone alarm!)

U - Underwear colour: White with blue prints.

V - Vacation destination: Back when I still live in the Philippines, I loved going to different beach destinations within the country for vacation. Now that I’m in the US, I want to explore its different states and their landmarks.

W - Worst habit: Procrastination.  I'm the worst when it comes to putting things off.

X - X-rays: Chest, dental/ortho.

Y - Your favorite food: Shrimp, bacon, fried rice, and mooore.

Z - Zodiac sign: Pisces.

@casualsketchpaintingfan  @skylandmountain1013

(Tagging just the 2, the other 8 I want to tag has already been tagged. :))