#carries the sterotypical mean girl so like-

[darkbluekies]

The origin of the ocs

Silas Achilleos:

I have always loved to write and read mafia fics. I wrote them before I wrote fanfiction, during fanfiction and now. When I created this account, I wanted a mafia man who's main characteristic was that he was kinky. I didn't like the ones I had read about that bent their partner over their lap for every little thing and that their entire relationship was built on sex. I wanted someone that felt human. So i made him in November 2022.

Silas name comes from a store I used to walk by all the time. I have no recollection of knowing about the name before I saw that store, so unconsiously the name must have come from there. I liked it because it was a name I hadn't been familiar with and I could "mold" the name to whatever I wanted, i had no connection to a certain person. I could make my own. His surname, Achilleos, was chosen because it reminded me of the character "achilles" and how he was untouchable besides one part of his body. Like this, i wanted darling to be Silas "achilles heel".

Silas personality comes from my want of something different. I wanted some humor, some drama, some weak spot. I made him childish, hypocritical, emotional. I didn't want him to be 2d.

Dr Karl Kry:

I have always loved the atmosphere of hospitals. I don't know why. They almost give me "backroom" vibes. I thought that it could be interesting to try to write about a doctor even though I have no medical knowledge. I have always loved to write characters that are weak and dependent on someone, which would work perfectly if I created a doctor. I created him in December 2022.

Dr Karl Kry's name comes from swedish. "Karl" means "man" and "Kry" means the opposite of being sick (not sure if english has the exact word). I thought that it could be fun if a doctor had that surname because only swedes/nordics would be able to get that little joke.

His personality is a bit of a mixture between the sterotypical swede and an opposite to what you think a doctor should be like. He's cold, quiet, doesn't like touch and is very modest while still being very professional and "sweet". He is quite old fashioned and carries traits that were normal then.

King Edmund of Vesanus

He wasn't supposed to be a character. I had gotten inspired to write the "Masquarade massacre/dance with death" oneshot because of a music video i used to watch when i was a kid (Eric Saade: Masquarade) and i wrote the oneshot in January 2023. It quickly became my most liked story so I decided to add him to the characters.

Edmund's name was originally Edward, but I have a character in one of my private novels with the same name and I thought that it would be weird for me if I named them the same thing. I decided to use a similar name and I decided upon Edmund. It sounded like it could belong to a royal. His kingdom "Vesanus" is in latin and means "mad/insane/frenzied" and I thoght that fit him extremely well.

His personality comes from the stereotypical spoiled king imagine, but I also wanted to make him ... human? He is a teenage boy who doesn't know who he is and only knows that he is the crown. He is lost and I think that shows. Edmund is ignorant, spoiled, rude and yet teasing, humorous, childish and caring.

Jerry (Yubin) Kim:

My first girl. She was created as a side character in a kpop mafia fanfiction i wrote back in 2020 and then reaccured in another kpop mafia fanfiction i wrote in 2021, although she was not a yandere back then. I loved her character and knew that I had to add her here.

Her name is special, to me. I don't remember why I named her Jerry, all I know is that I wanted a male name for a girl, and Jerry is a boy name that also feel like a girls name. That is the name she goes by, but her birth name is Yubin, although she doesn't go by that anymore. Her surname is a popular surname in korean, so that doesn't have much behind it.

Her personality is a rollercoaster. When I created her back in 2020, she was a bit different to what she is now. She was much happier, joked a lot, didn't have much darkness in her. She was pretty flat. Now that she's here, she has evolved into a much more human like character, much more rounded. She is a pretender. She feels one thing but pretends to feel different. All her joking persona isn't all real, she is pretty emotional. Jerry has many layers and many emotions she can't understand, she feels a lot of guilt, fear, love and hate, but presents a careless, joking girl to everyone else.

Hedwig Carter:

Hedwig is a character that was evolved from another character I was writing. In the beginning of this account, i tried out different kinds of characters to find the ones I wanted. I was writing a "quiet kid" yandere oneshot because I wanted this typical yandere setting, aka being in school. But I didn't like the character, I already had men (kry and silas) and I wanted it to feel like yandere simulator, so I scrapped that oneshot and created a girl. She wasn't supposed to be rich, but I decided to add it to have more to work with. I created her out on an evening walk in January 2023.

I don't like when characters who are supposed to be "normal" have "non-normal" names. I cannot imagine a girl who goes to school like everyone else having a name like "elowen", "amethyst" etc. i want the name to fit the situation and feel natural. Hedwig is one of those names. It feels wealthy, yet natural. It is distinctive, yet normal. The name Carter came to me when playing the game "titanic adventure out of time" when you have to go down to the cargo and the steward are like "YOURE A CARTER!!!" because the Carters owned the car that was on board the ship and a car in 1912 was expensive and etc. The name just stuck with me and felt like old money wealth, which she is.

Hedwig's personality is meant to be the opposite to Jerry, but they are quite alike too. Hedwig is sweet, innocent and loving. She doesn't like being mean. I wanted a rich popular girl that wasn't rude, entitled or a mean girl. Hedwig has a hard time controlling her emotions and can easily become "hysteric". I wanted an opposite to what's usually done - the rich popular girl is the one obsessed with someone instead of the other way around.

[1waveshortofashipwreck]

the ship thing looks like a lot of fun! lets do it!

so my name's blu, and i use "she/her" pronouns! i have dark blue hair and brown eyes, am 5'8", and wear way too many oversized hoodies and sweaters haha i'm your sterotypical enfj- the kind of mom friend who will very forcefully remind you to do some selfcare! i do love to talk about the things i'm into, and aren't afraid to stand up for what i believe in. for hobbies, writing is my first love, but i also love taking long walks and exploring nature or even just the world outside my window! i'm also a big music enjoyer! i'm a part of two bands- one where i play guitar and the other where i do bass! i love singing, too, and get incredibly into all my karaoke performances 😂 i'm not really sure what i go looking for in a partner, but i tend to gravitate towards shyer guys and relationships where i'll end up doing most of the talking as well as people who aren't afraid to talk about the deep things in life.

thanks emily!! can't wait to see what you come up with 😁

Thank you so much for the request Blu!! (also i have blue hair rn too!! ���💖)

I ship you with…

(Speirs Voice) Darrell C. POWWWEEERRRRSSSS

A song from my liked songs that reminds me of y’all - Sugar, Sugar by the Archies

How you met

Mkay SO

Your band came to Europe to play for the soldiers because morale boost

So Easy Company is sitting listening to your band and everyone is vibing and having a Lovely Time ™

Shifty looks up at the stage and sees you with your guitar and

He’s sitting with Talbert and Smokey and they see how he’s just staring and start teasing him a bit

Sweet baby laughs but starts blushing when Tab and Smokes talk about meeting her after the show

Like WHAT?? INTERACTING WITH THE MOST GORGEOUS GIRL EVER???

Before they know it though y’all are packing up your gear and it’s Now or Never

So Tab and Smokey being Tab and Smokey they each Grab an Arm and before the three know it they’re next to the stage

You’re still on stage just putting your guitar away when Smokey just goes “YOU DID GREAT TONIGHT!!”

But when you turn around all you see is Shifty all alone and frantically looking beside him

But honestly he's so stinkin cute how could you not go over and talk to him

Sweet baby just blushes bright red and stutters out

“H-how do you do ma’am, my name’s shift- I mean Darrell b-but everyone calls me Shifty,” he just looks down and sticks his hand out

You just laugh softly and shake his hand (asdf there was so definitely a spark but neither of you admit it)

“It’s very nice to meet you Shifty,” you get an idea when you look back at the stage

“Would you mind helping me carry my stuff back to the van?” 🥺👉🏻👈🏻

Shifty’s eyes brighten up and he’s like an eager golden retriever following you up onto the stage to get your things

Shifty’s able to relax a little bit thanks to you being so sweet and lovely and y’all have just the most wonderful conversation

Before you leave he definitely asks you to dinner and of course how could you say no

How he knew he loves you

I picture it happening when y’all are on a hike

You got to the top of the mountain and there’s a beautiful view, absolutely perfect for your picnic!

So y’all are having a lovely picnic just talking about everything under the sun

However you look over and notice that Shifty’s water bottle is almost full

Like siR YOU’RE ON A HIKE YOU NEED TO HYDRATE

“Shifty, you need to drink some water babe,” you say gently, holding out the water bottle to him

When he looks at you… the gentle but concerned look in your eyes, strands of your hair framing your face, the way the sun is shining on you, everything is just perfect

He leans forward and gently kisses you, placing a hand on your cheek

He slowly pulls away and just quietly says, “I’m in love with you…”

The genuine love and tenderness of the moment almost makes you want to cry so of course you say it back

Y’all go on that hiking trail every year now

A conflict that arose and how y’all resolve it

Ok so y’all are out at a bar maybe with friends after the war

Shifty offers to get the next round of drinks, so he kisses you on the cheek before going up to the bar and ordering

You glance over to the bar after a little bit and see Shifty talking to a girl??

It’s clear she’s trying to put the moves on him, the giggling, the Touching His Arm In That One Way

And Shifty just… lets her?

He’s even laughing along with her jokes (which you can hear and they ain’t great)

You could NEVER picture Shifty doing something like this, but you have no other explanation for what your eyes are seeing

The conflicting feelings start to feel overwhelming so you tell your friends that you’re going to the bathroom before walking as quickly as you can toward the restrooms

Shifty notices your brisk pace and gets concerned cuz you look really upset?? What happened while he was gone??

He follows you to the hallway with the bathrooms and gently takes your hand

“Is everything alright love??” he says so gently but also so worried

You debate telling him what you saw

Like on the one hand he’s never given any indication he’s like that

But on the other he was CLEARLY flirting back???

He sees the anxiety in your eyes and his concern just Doubles

“Sweetheart what’s wrong??” he gently places his hands on your arms while he waits to hear your response, praying he can fix whatever it is

“...why were you flirting with that girl?” you asked in a barely audible voice, tears welling up in your eyes

Suddenly Shifty’s facial muscles scrunch up

“Flirting? You mean with that girl at the bar?”

He laughs a little and shakes his head

“I was trying everything I could to get away from her, but I was waiting on the drinks and I didn’t want to be mean…”

You just breathe a sigh of relief and shake your head, relief washing over you

You both start laughing quietly before you plant a kiss on his lips

“I love you Darrell C Powers”

“Why do you always use my full name?” (it’s not because I always hear it in Speirs’ voice idk what you’re talking about)

Your Happily Ever After

Every morning he wakes you up with a kiss on your nose

If that doesn’t work he goes for your lips next

Sweet baby boy just does everything in his POWEEERRRSS Power to make you smile every day

It’s so lovely too because you're his Emotional Support Extrovert

You do all the talking when y’all need to do adult things like buy a car or do tax thingies

Y’all just balance each other perfectly and I would joke about it being gross but tbh it’s just goals

A silly headcanon about your relationship

So Shifty wanted to do something super extra special for your birthday one year

So he found this super cool and delicious recipe for your favorite flavor of cake

One catch - your boy has never cooked a thing a day in his life

So the night before your birthday (sweet boy wanted to surprise you) you come home and there’s smoke everywhere and you can tell it’s coming from the kitchen

Of course you race in and the first thing you see is Shifty standing on the counter fanning the fire alarm with an off-white apron

Which is weird because your apron is blue??

Yeah the kitchen was an absolute war zone

Cake batter everywhere, egg shells on the floor, flour sticking on every surface

Shifty sees you and quickly hops off the counter to hug you before he remembers the discombobulated state he is in

He just sheepishly smiles at you and says, “happy birthday??”

It was the most fun you’ve ever had cleaning up the kitchen

Thank you again for the ask Blu!!! 💙💙💙💙 (I'm sorry if i made too many jokes about how Speirs says his name it just lives in my head rent-free 🤣😅)

[destinyc1020]

Im not gonna argue with anyone about kaia's acting b/c it isnt the best mostly b/c she comes across as lifeless and unnatural. She def benefits from the fact shes a nepo baby and white. However I will defend her in bottoms, b/c its sometimes more about casting then it is acting. Kaias character is supposed to come across as one dimensional, a sterotypical popular high school girl who everyone aspires to be with she doesnt have any substance outside of her looks which is juxtaposed with this idea that a girl like her wouldnt be interested in somethink like bare knuckle fighting. Her role doesnt require dynamic acting and I would argue someone like zendaya wouldnt work b/c shes to dynamic and would go against the one dimensionality of how character was written. Certainly could this role have gonna to a black woman like laura harrier ( who also cant act) yeah totally but I think kaia works as that character, that doesnt mean shes a great actor . She still struggles with basic things such the inability to convey emotion.

Also austin, I like austin hes very dynamic but Im also not 100 convinced. Hes a great character actor evidenced by dune part 2. He was great in elvis fantastic even. He clearly puts the work in and willing to work on his craft. But after watching bike riders early this year and two episodes masters of air, he was very underwhelming dont know if he has the longevity as a lead ( hopefully he changes my mind b/c he seems like a cool dude and I want him to succeed). Hes struggling mightily with accents and in bikeriders he was overshadowed by jodie comer and tom hardy also even mike faist (for his very small role in bikeriders but hes extremely sensitivity and empathetic in portrayal as an interviewer). His latest stuff he comes across as one note and places too much emphasis on a huskier/smoky voice that at times sound more distracting and hinders the character.

(Though for MOTA im still in wait and see mode cause I havent seen the entire series yet)

Re: Kaia...

Sooo... basically, what you're saying is that they gave her a character role that she basically already embodies (dull, lifeless, etc) because that's how her acting already is in real life? Am I understanding this correctly lol? 😅

That's fine if you liked her in the "Bottoms" movie (we all have different tastes). I didn't even see the movie (it just didn't look funny at all to me 👀), but I saw enough clips lol 😅

Re: Austin....

Interesting take on Austin. 🤔 I haven't seen him in Dune Part 2 or The Bikeriders yet, so I can't really speak to those films... yet. 🤷🏾‍♀️

But I thought he did great in Elvis. 👍🏾

Maybe he IS a character actor? Nothing wrong with that. There are PLENTY of great character actors in Hollywood, and that's where they thrive. ☺️

I honestly haven't seen much of his work post-Elvis to really judge. 🤷🏾‍♀️ I'm excited to see more of his work in this phase of his career. I've only seen clips of him in OUATIH and I thought he was great in that. He's really good at disappearing in roles, which I like. So far, his characters have been diversely DIFFERENT ever since the play he did with Denzel Washington, and I love that. Sometimes, it's hard to imagine I'm watching the same actor lol 😆 😂

Maybe you're so used to seeing Austin in character roles that when he plays someone quieter and less "out there" you are bored lol 😆

Like I said, I haven't seen him in "The Bikeriders" yet, but it's hard to imagine anyone outshining Tom Hardy, coz Tom is just.... 👌🏾

Prior to "Elvis", I'd only seen Austin in fluff TV shows like "The Carrie Diaries" or "Switched at Birth", etc. So I've seen him in various different roles PRE-Elvis.

So far, I'm enjoying MOTA, and I'm interested in seeing where his career takes him in this era. I'm just glad he's getting to do more of the type of work that he wants to do now in his career. 😊

Re: His voice....

Austin's voice has ALWAYS been deep imo. 🤷🏾‍♀️ Deep and slightly raspy.

Here are some old clips....

I think when he got older, it just got a bit huskier.

I really don't think he's putting anything on. Don't pelt me with tomatoes but I actually sort of suspect (I only said SUSPECT) that he kinda ruined his voice a little when singing for Elvis all those years. I'm a singer as well, and it can definitely happen. I had vocal nodules that changed my voice (I could barely speak at one point). I had to go through vocal therapy for many months in fact for it.

My voice is fine now, thankfully lol 😆, but if you've developed vocal nodules, they can for sure change the quality of your voice. So, he might just have vocal nodules. I don't suggest getting them surgically removed if anyone has them, but vocal rest, along with changing ways in which you vocalize can help diminish them.

[shit-my-asexual-friend-says]

I sent this to Burgers on anon like a coward and now I'm not sure why because I should be saying it out loud on my own blog:

Stereotypes come from non community members judging a community based on limited, curated examples.

A community member self-representing cannot be a stereotype because:

They are not an outsider

They are speaking as an individual, not for a community.

If an outsider who is curating community experiences so as to sanitize them happens to choose you as an example, that is tokenization and it is an abuse. It is not your fault. Even if you consent to it in some way - like, if a film studio offers you a movie deal and you KNOW that it's just because you're a good model queer - it still isn't your fault that the people with power and resources are denying them to your community but offering them to you. Just like in a toxic family, becoming the 'golden child' is still abuse.

When you accuse community members of "living a stereotype," you are telling them that the people who abused them by sanitizing their experience and stripping it down are right. This has happened to me as a woman when I've been accused of being a stereotypical "girlie girl" who's just feeding girl stereotypes. It is something I'm always aware of as a bisexual in a het relationship: pop media uses bisexuals for token representation and then sticks them in het relationships to be more palatable, and because of this, people will act like REAL WORLD bisexuals "don't count."

Asexuals ARE infantalized in media constantly, and there aren't many of them in media to begin with. That manifestly isn't the ace community's fault. When you tell an ace person to change their self-representation to better combat stereotypes, you're saying that the tokenization isn't the problem, the curating of rep into a few examples isn't the problem, the overwhelming silence of a community that lacks the resources to speak out isn't the problem…

No, the exact sterotype is the problem, and we need to replace it with a new one you like more.

ps (I'm obviously reading way more into the original ask than was meant. It was rude and bad, but probably well meaning, and the asker was probably also carrying plenty of tokenization baggage.)

pps (This is neither here nor there, but being a bisexual cis woman makes me a great target for TERF rhetoric. Fortunately I'm aware that they're doing the exact same fucking tokenization as every other abusive social force. More on that upon request.)

This is a free space for you to go off, because yeah those people saying you're infantalising yourself really do sound like aphobes. There are plenty of ace and allo adults out there who don't like sex or kissing with tongues, who are also short and cute, it doesn't make any of them children. Speaking about our experiences as adult aces doesn't make us children. Anyone who thinks so needs to sit down, shut up and grow up. You deserve to draw yourself the way you want, always. <3

(OK I'm replying to this super late, but to give context to everyone, this was in reaction to this and the posts of support from other people that followed it ghfuidjgldfks)

But yeah, thank you so much for this. I'm so sorry I'm replying to this so late but ye for real tbh, I don't see anything to add. No notes. Couldn't have said it better myself and I sincerely appreciate the validation.

[ky-loves-jatp]

How I think the JATP characters would react in a fight/someone trying to fight them

Blank version under the cut

[winterrose527]

The Favor, Part 2: Rome, Italy

(Part 1 can be found here)

Rome, Italy

“I totally could’ve been a gladiator,” Theon determined as they left the Colosseum.

Jon nodded, “I can see it.”

Robb turned to look at him, “You can?”

“Oh yeah,” Jon agreed, readily, “I often have daydreams of Theon being eaten by lions.”

Robb chuckled as Theon and Jon circled one another.

He had no idea how either of them had this much energy. They’d taken well advantage of the Roman nightlife last night, and hadn’t gotten in until the sun was rising. And what a sun it was. It had to be over a hundred degrees out here, sucking all of the energy right out of him. That mixed with tourists.

The fact that he was one didn’t temper his disdain for them.

He didn’t like to complain, but he couldn’t wait to get to the seaside. They had a train to Naples the next day, and from there they’d go to the Amalfi Coast. They’d stay there for a few days, before flying to Ibiza to meet up with some friends. He was then heading to London to start his new job, and the boys were flying home.

This trip was a bit of a farewell tour to their youth. Or, that’s how he felt now but he always got a little dramatic when he was hungover.

They’d graduated in the spring and thanks to all having their next steps lined up for the fall, had one last carefree summer. Theon was heading to law school, Jon to work for Mormont, who he’d been interning with since his freshman year, and Robb was off to London to put his degree in international business to good use.

When he’d made his decision to take the offer, Theon had suggested a bit of a Eurotrip to send him off and Jon had readily agreed. Since he’d only ever been to France, on a trip with his entire family when he was seventeen, he had jumped at the opportunity for a proper send off.

They’d been making the most of their travels, Theon falling in love with a different girl every night, he and Jon certainly having their heads turned from the sights as gorgeous European girls walked by them arm in arm.

“I need to take a piss,” Theon informed them.

“Me too,” Jon said and then clapped Theon in the chest, “Let’s go to that café, I need another espresso or I’m gonna die.” He looked at him, “You want anything?”

Robb rubbed his temples, “Just a water – flat. FLAT FLAT FLAT.”

Italy’s obsession with sparkling water was the only thing he didn’t like about it.

“I believe you mean agua naturaaaale,” Theon informed him.

“Dude, stop trying to speak Italian,” Jon sighed, “You get laughed at every time.”

“Pardon me for trying to break the Ugly American stereotype,” Theon argued.

“You literally are wearing American Flag shorts as we speak,” Robb pointed out.

“You come for my Chubbies you make me question our entire friendship,” Theon all but shouted at him.

Jon held him back and then pushed him across the street, the two of them nearly getting hit by half a dozen cars on their way over. People were honking, tourists were pointing.

So much for overcoming the Ugly American sterotype.

He looked up at the Colosseum. It had been one of the places he was most excited to see, though he knew that was pretty cliché of him. He couldn’t help it, though. He’d always been fascinated by the bloodier bits of history, and sure, yes, maybe seeing Gladiator had been a defining moment in his youth.

It was unbelievably impressive, structurally, obviously, but as he had walked through it he hadn’t been thinking about that. He hadn’t even been thinking about how gruesome it was.

He’d honestly been thinking of how he would have performed.

Most likely he would have gotten eaten by lions as well as Theon but maybe –

“Excuse me?” an American voice interrupted his thoughts.

“The entrance is over there,” he pointed.

“Yeah the um, line of people sort of tipped me off,” she joked and he turned to her.

Her voice was familiar, but that was only a passing thought when he took her in. She was the prettiest girl he’d ever seen.

A bonafide All-American beauty.

She looked familiar, too. Is she a model? He wondered if he’d seen her in a commercial or in one of Sansa’s magazines. She had the face for it, though admittedly she was a bit short. She hardly even came up to his shoulder.

“Do I know you?” he asked.

She shook her head, “I don’t think so but listen okay so this is going to sound crazy – I actually can’t believe she talked me into it again, but um… can you just – um… please don’t… I can’t even ask…shit.”

He was sort of overcome watching the cutest panic attack he’d ever seen, when all of a sudden she was kissing him.

Oh.

He knew her. Of course he knew her. She had dominated his thoughts for the entire summer in between his junior and senior years of high school. In fact, when he’d shown up for his freshman year of college, he’d have been lying if he hadn’t looked around, hoping to see her at orientation. Though it had been years since he’d thought of her apart from a passing memory.

While he was sorting all of this out, she was kissing him and his arms had wrapped around her without thinking about it.

“Thanks,” she smiled as she pulled away.

“Got it!” a voice said off to the right, “Come on Ella, we’ve got to go!”

“Ella,” he smiled, drinking her in.

“That’s me! Anyway, thanks for your help,” she said, and started to walk away, “You’re a really good kisser. So um, well done.”

He laughed, watching her walk away. A brunette girl going and linking her arm through hers, the pair walking away from the main line of people to a shorter one.

“Wait!” he called, realizing that this was happening again.

He’d made a mistake letting his Mom pull him away last time. He should have gotten her number. Her full name. Her agreement to be his forever.

“Ella-,” he called, but she’d disappeared in the throngs of tourists.

Damn this hangover.

He started moving through them, determined to catch sight of her. She wasn’t in line, but then he heard a laugh that had to be her and he looked through to see her walking into the Colosseum with a smaller group.

There was a guard posted at the entrance she must have gone through.

“Uhh… ciao um… yo necessito, fuck no that’s Spanish,” he sighed, the guard looking at him, “Look I need to get in there really quickly.”

“Private tour,” he shook his head.

“I know, I know I’ve already been in I don’t care about the Colosseum -,” the guard looked at him like he’d just insulted his mother and he shook his head, “No I do it’s great but there… did you see the beautiful girl that walked through here? Blonde? About this high? She is… very very bella,” at this point he was wondering if his butchering of the Italian language could be considered a hate crime but she was now nowhere in sight, “Please can I just go in for one minute.”

“No,” the guard said in a bored tone.

“Look,” he sighed, “Do you believe in love at first sight?”

“Fuck off, man!” the guard shouted at him.

“Alright, alright!” he backed up.

He went around the large line of people and found Theon and Jon looking around for him.

“Where the fuck did you go?” Theon asked as Jon handed him a bottle of water.

“We need to get you guys out of the sun,” Jon said, “It makes me uncomfortable when I’m the one in the best mood.”

“Shut up for a second,” Robb told them, looking around for more exits, “Look, she’s here.”

“Who is?” Theon asked, “That crazy girl from Prague?”

“No! No, her. The girl who kissed me in Paris, do you reme-,” he started.

He was cut off by the groan heard around the world.

Theon shook his head, “I’m not going through this with you again, man.”

Jon was rubbing his temples, his eyes wide but on the ground, “I really thought we were past this.”

“No, shut up, listen to me, she is here. It just happened again,” he told them. “I was just standing here and she came up to me and she’s even hotter than she was then and she just kissed me.”

“Did she know it was you?” Theon asked.

“Um I don’t think so,” Robb answered.

“And where is she now?” Jon asked.

“In there,” Robb pointed to the Colosseum.

“Okay, so let’s review,” Theon said, “This girl has twice now come up to you - a total fucking stranger and asked you to kiss her. Neither time has she in any way tried to prolong your acquaintance. How do you know she isn’t doing this to a different guy in every city she goes to?”

“Don’t talk about her like that,” Robb warned.

“Don’t do this,” Jon shook his head, “I am not listening to you moon over her for the rest of this trip. I will chuck you over the cliffs of Ravello.”

“So help me find her,” Robb pleaded. And then without warning shouted, “ELLA!”

“Dude!” Theon warned.

“Seriously security is eyeing us,” Jon noted, looking around.

“Guys - ow stop pulling me!” he ordered as both Jon and Theon had grabbed an arm and were currently dragging him away.

“Wouldn’tve lasted a day in their man,” Theon shook his head.

He looked back, as though she might be peering at him through the ruins even now.

*

The next day as they were on the train to Naples, his heart stopped every time he saw a blonde walking by.

“You’re torturing yourself,” Jon told him.

“I should have waited,” he shook his head.

Jon and Theon shared a look, which to his eyes looked a bit guilty – which they should since they all but carried him away from her – and leaned forward.

“Look, if she’s the one, you’ll see her again,” Jon promised.

“And in the meantime, you’ll meet a good English bird and forget all about her,” Theon suggested.

Robb scoffed.

As though any girl in the entire city of London could hold a candle to Ella.

[captaindodson]

Being High-School Sweethearts with Officer Slater would include...

A/N: I’ve been on a Bill Hader deep dive and I have fallen for our guy Officer Slater from Superbad. I will credit @fangirl-imagines​​ with most of the inspiration for this and future works involving our favourite officer. I got a bit carried away with this one so I hope you enjoy!

Paring: Officer Slater x F! Reader

Warnings: Fluffy and a bit of angst

Being High-School Sweet Hearts with Officer Slater would include...

- Now this is a little bit different then what you might think so just hold onto your hats.

- I feel you you guys would have met in your senior year through a group project in second period history. Your class wasn’t always so well behaved so your teacher ended up splitting everyone up into groups.

- You and Slater never directly interacted before but you have mutuals friends between each other. So when the teacher told everyone to stand up and meet in their groups it was still a bit awkward. You shuffled across the classroom to your partners who decided to sit in the back corner of the class sitting in silence while the rest of the class got organized.

-  The teacher comes around to hand out the instructions for the assignment, sliding a double sided piece of paper onto the desks in front of everyone. You, of course wanting to elevate the awkwardness goes ahead and introduces yourself to everyone and starts reading out the instructions on the paper. 

- While you read aloud Slater was sneaking glances at you out of the corner of his eye. What you do not realize is that Slater has been meaning to make any sort of move since he saw you in freshman year. 

- On the first day of school you were wearing beautiful baby blue jeans, a white, slight worn out MTV t-shirt, some tennis shoes, and maroon bag, and Slater thought he had seen heaven as he watched you get off the bus and towards the high school. He proceeded to see you everywhere in school (not that he would complain) whether it be in the library, school cafeteria, sitting on the bleachers as he walked by with his friends. Everyday for three years he would always look for you, even just for a second because it brightened his day. 

- He never approached you because he felt that you were out of his league. You were in the popular crowd but, you didn’t partake in sports or cheerleading or anything sterotypical popular kids would do. You were a floater,  a confident, kind, (did I say beautiful yet) floater that everyone wanted to be around. You had friends in just about every cliche there could be except his. 

- His friends always gave him shit (but also support) and tried to embarrass Slater in front of you knowing of his major crush. One time, during a school football game his friends spotted some empty seats on the far end of the bleachers but, also noticed you sitting in-between their walk to their seats. So, when they squeezed past you they jabbed Slater’s side to make him squirm to drop some of his popcorn on your lap. 

- His face became red with embarrassment but you just laugh lightly and say thank you for the snack. Slater just smiles nervously and pushes his friends to hurry up as they laughed loudly. 

- Or another time during the year when the schools drama club was doing their last performance before heading out of state for NYC for a competition, and Slater and his friends were going to go to shit on the drama kids. When they got to the theatre, you were siting by yourself next to the only empty seat, so they came up with a new plan. They told Slater to go find them some seats and when he spotted the only empty seat next to you and he panicked. He turned around to confront his friends but they all left smiling and laughing silently.

- He pondered whether he should leave or stay until he thought this was going to be the opportunity to finally introduce himself to you and have you fall in love with him. Except, as he walked closer, his throat starting closing up and he felt at a loss of words. So when he had to squeeze past you he squeaked out a quick, “excuse me” and sat down. The lights of the theatre dimmed and he proceeded to sit through 90 minutes of Hamlet and didn’t say a word to you. He basked in the scent of your perfume as the play continued on and after the final bows you left unaware of Slater next to you. 

- So after reading the assignment aloud the bell rings almost instantly causing everyone to collect their things and rush out the door. Slater watched you collect your bag and wave goodbye to the group to head off to your next class. Slater sat there for a minute deciding what to do, make his move or continue to admire you painfully from afar until you disappear from his life forever?

- He sighed in defeat and was willing to live in this hell for the rest of the school year. He sluggishly gets up, head hung in defeat, and heads out the door. What he didn’t expect was you leaning on some lockers outside the door and greeting him with with a shy smile before asking him if he wanted to eat lunch with you later to go over the assignment. (at first he didn’t say yes due to shyness, but then quickly changed his answer because he would have been kicking himself if he didn't). 

- You had noticed him staring, and to be quite frankly you’ve been watching him too. You had seen him in the library reading comic books in the farthest row, pushing up his glasses when he read, looking out the window in French class and seeing him and his friends messing around on the football field during free period. For a guy that most girls that you knew considered him scrawny and ‘unattractive’ you could not disagree any faster. You loved his floppy, shaggy hair, his blue eyes, his dimples, and most importantly his laugh. You saw how he was with his friends and you just wanted him to look at you. 

- So after that moment you two started spending more and more time together. You would stop hanging out with most of your friends to eat lunch with Slater in a stairwell or out of the bleachers. You two would read StarWars comic’s in the library while trying to prank his friends, you also had dates at the local theatre, and you were Slater’s first kiss. You both couldn’t be happier. Everything so pure, so innocent about young love, nothing could take that away. Except one thing, insecurity. 

- As graduation came closer Slater suddenly became more distant and cold. You tried to ask why but he just shut down and then out of the blue he broke up with you. You cried for days, wondering what you could’ve done different, what you did wrong,  but you were never given an answer. You left LA shortly after for NYC and Slater had to sit with his choice but eventually got over it.  

- It isn’t until 2007 rolls around when your back in LA working as a waitress in a bar called Baileys which so happens one night to have a special visitor. 

- When Slater was sitting at the bar where he met his ex-wife with Micheal’s and McLovin, having fun watching the security tape from earlier, a woman comes up next to him and leans up against the bar. 

- A much older women whose beauty from high school has not wavered is asking the bartender for the time and if it is okay for you to clock out of your shift and go home for the night. 

- Slater stares, almost frozen in time and watches your lips move in slow motion. Just like when he was staring at you all those years ago in that history class, the love he felt for you makes his heart beat a little bit faster and cheeks become a little bit warmer.

- You don’t even notice the staring as you’ve grown to ignore the stares of guys. You smile at your boss when he tells you can leave. You rip off your small apron and run around the bar into the backroom to get your stuff. When you leave the backroom with a thin coat over your shoulders and your purse in hand, out of the corner of your eye you catch a glimpse of a familiar pair of ocean eyes hidden behind sliver glasses and a police uniform.

- Your breath hitches for a moment but you keep walking. You walk through the messy kitchen to leave out the back door which leads to the street where your car is parked. 

- Slater just stares at the kitchen door blankly, watching as his heart continued to beat faster as the memories of being told how he grabbed your heart and ran it over with his shitty car resurface. He knows he doesn’t deserve a second chance, but he can’t live knowing that you don’t know he’s sorry, so he dashes after you to the surprise of Micheal’s and Mclovin.  

- You just make it to the drivers side of your car when you hear a stern, “wait”. You pause and think for a minute. You haven’t done anything wrong so it is not like he can force you to stay here. You stab your key into your car door and just as your ready to turn it and open up your door this voice lets out a more masculine “hold it right there”.

- You halt your movements and slowly turn around the face the man you haven't seen since he broke your heart. Under the streetlight he is much taller than he was all those years ago and his boyish charms still haven't wavered even though he attempts to make himself look taller and more ‘manly’. 

- You speak before he can open his mouth to say anything else, ‘I don't know who you are, but can you please leave me alone.”

- Slater cringes slightly at your tone. He lets his body rest in a more comfortable posture and he puts his hands up in a defensive pose. 

- “ Okay, I deserve that. But before you leave let me say this, I left you because I got scared and I’m sorry. I thought you’d be better off without some loser attached to your arm when there are a millions of guys much better looking and more manly”. Your eyes soften at his claim as you approach him slowly and his arms drop to his side. 

- “Slater, You were the best thing in that shitty high school. I only left because I could not live in a place where you existed because I would be reminded of the pain of you not being in my life. I loved you ever since I met you, and I never stopped. Why didn’t you talk to me Slater?” You say with pleading eyes. 

“I didn't know how to. Ever since my first wife turned out to be a whore I realized that I could never love anyone again because I didn’t deserve to be loved. When I spotted you inside, it felt like my heart was about the burst. When you left for NYC I thought I got over you, but I never did”. 

- Slater’s breath slows as you get closer, he can start to feel the heat radiating off your body. He looks at you with the same awe, admiration, and love he did all those years ago. Blue eyes twinkling under the shine of the streetlight through his sliver glasses. 

- Slater breaks the silence with, “You can hate me for the rest of your life, just know that I’m sorry-”.

- But before Slater can get your name through his lips you lean up without warning to plant a soft kiss on his which he gladly returns.

- “Take notes Mclovin, Slater is showing you how to kiss a lady.” you both break apart and see Micheal’s, smirk on his face and Mclovin standing along side him looking confused. 

- Slater straightens up with his shoulders with a deep cough trying to appear composed, but the pink tint on his cheeks say otherwise. You ignore the new presence and you drag your hand over his uniformed shoulder to the back of his soft hair where you gentle push his head to meet your lips once more. 

[stuckasmain]

The rage Carrie 2

So  surprisingly the movie wasn’t that bad? Like god it was far from great especially compared to Carrie but it was... interesting?

Like the movie is VIOLENTLY 90s and not in a good way. The music , the editing, the clothing. Like they’d have blaring super random music during half the scenes. It also is STEROTYPES

Our main villains aren’t mean girls but the Jock™️ the raging wad of  testosterone and stupidity , the sexist to the point sleeping around becomes a fucking point systems rich but daddy is rich so I’m set even tho I’m 18 and these girls are WAY younger. kind of shit heads.

The driving point of the film is literally a suicide? Apart from the jocks there is actually some decent stuff in the movie? Her and Jesse are kinda cute even if they first bonded over her dog getting run over by a car but regardless. It also pulls some weird and deep shit about Romeo and Juliet. Which was of corse how they met- the style mimicked Carrie and Tommy.

Sue is in this movie! She’s trying to help again. She has good intentions but this time like - girl. Your pushing this kid you know has super super dangerous powers you literally took her to what remains of the old school you dumbass.

However it’s the 90s so what they do to set her off is show her the book and the fucking sex tape they secretly took? These creeps literally peaking in windows not to mention SERIOUSLY messing a girl up banging in her windows etc.

It’s got MAJOR issues but surprisingly, not horrible

Also what the actual hell was up with the rose thorn thing? I still don’t get it? However she did do GREAT Carrie ™️ eyes and the gore? Fantastic

Sis takes out a chicks eyes and a guys dick in the same go

[winxlava]

Where Fate: the Winx saga fails

As a winx fan of 14 years (in and out), this fate thing is really scandolous. I’ve seen lots of ups and downs the winx fandom. As I’ve watched all of the development that fate had, I've had some thoughts, but I’ve waited until I watched everything.

This is going to be a reaction to all 6 episodes of Fate the Winx saga. This is coming from a fan of the og show so expect lots of comparisons.

If this bothers you, please don't keep reading. A lot of this is only my opinion. If you like it and think its great, that’s good! I’m not here to ruin it.

There is a list of what I liked most near the bottom of this post. Spoilers Ahead!!

Anyway, back to the post.

What made the Winx work

Lets start with the basic idea of Winx. Bloom, a normal girl, finds out that she has magic powers and is from another dimension. Seems like a simple concept? Well, Seasons 1-3 (and 4?) expanded this idea to the max.

Likeable characters galore and lots of fun, fashion, and magic.

For a lot of us that’s what sold the show. 

So lets talk about tone and why its so important 

The idea that teenage girls were exploring a world we could never see or experience. And the darkness that came with it.

Remember when Daphne, bloom’s dead sister, clung to life to help bloom figure her life out? When bloom became evil and nearly killed all of her friends? When Flora drowned to save her sister, only to get enchantix? (Actually all of enchantix was like this). When Musa gave up seeing her dead mom to save the world? When nabu died?

The show was full of these small, intense, dark moments. That’s what made winx special. The light came with dark.

By making the show dark and “eDgy” it takes away the impact of the dark moments. I’ve been saying this since the beginning. 

Point of view and how Stella is affected 

Stella was very misunderstood in the remake and it shows. The thing is, Stella was the first entry point into the magical world in the original show. She carried Bloom and her parents to Alfea. She was the transfer point to a whole world for the audience.

Her spunk and optimism and snark made her a fan favorite, but that’s not what made her character work.

She was Bloom’s first friend, and because of the that, we saw her in a good lens. She was reckless, but a pure heart nonetheless. She was confident, cunning, and powerful. 

It was because we saw the good in her first that made us like her. She was good before she was bad in our eyes.

The remake takes all of that away. She’s just a generic mean rich girl now. To be honest, Stella is accurate, but the way she was introduced put her in a whole new light. In this version, she is annoying and trifling, seemingly taking the place of Diaspro in her liking for sky.

Also she hates her mother? Stella would never! She loved both of her parents dearly and was mad simply because she felt they never loved her as a result of their divorce; they never talked to each other and she felt split between the two of them. (See Stella’s nightmares sequence season 1 :https://youtu.be/wuvyw0OHA6A?t=129). She was lonely and her father, though he loved her, spoiled her with gifts instead of the love she desired. 

You see this side of her when Chimera comes in and tries to take her place in season 3. Her worth is tied to what she has and looks like. Her title as a princess rules her.

Not only that, Stella learns about “commoners” through her friends. She was spoiled and never saw people who couldn’t afford things; it was new and she was a bit rude about it, but can you blame her, she was always put above everything else in her home country.

https://www.youtube.com/post/UgzCfOQ696rvwa51Z_J4AaABCQ?lc=UgzCDSxfcNaP9XogBSB4AaABAg

https://www.youtube.com/post/UgzCfOQ696rvwa51Z_J4AaABCQ?lc=Ugxl_sOsUSGBXEwagxJ4AaABAg

^^ These are comments of people saying similar things.

Stella also vents to Sky a lot in the remake. She seems like she is chasing him pitifully, something og Stella would never do.

Edit: Check the “liked” section; she has been upgraded to sort of like in episodes 5 and 6.

Aisha

They did Aisha dirty as well. (Just like Bonnie from Vampire Diaries, why am I surprised?) I would write a lot here, but someone else summarized it well:

https://rainbow-whitewashing-jar.tumblr.com/post/639787632624369664/its-just-there-is-so-much-background-on-aisha.

https://www.youtube.com/post/Ugx4WL5rIPTS1suGOed4AaABCQ

Tldr: Aisha was a very lonely princess of Andros. She only had one friend growing up but then they moved away and she was lonely all over again. She copes with her princess duties by being great at sports and even beating some of the men! She stood up to her parents when they wanted her to be arranged married, until she fell in love with Nabu HERSELF. She decided her own future from that point on.

Also, her relevance to the plot has been dwindled to being Bloom's right hand man; the black best friend sterotype! What a let down for one of the PRINCESSES of the original!

She had her own goals, drive, and motivations in the original! She did things for all of her friends; she definitely wasn't only driven by one person!

And she was closer to Musa than Bloom that's for sure!

Bloom

The fact that bloom transforms before everyone else gives bad vibes, considering that one of the reasons she was insecure about magic was because everyone of her friends was better than her and could transform. Why would she feel insecure when they are all around the same level?

The theme of sisterhood

Ever notice that none of the girls had the same taste in guys?

Bloom liked goody guys like Sky and Andy. Stella liked guys who were fun and flirty like Brandon.

In fact, none of the girls ever fought over a guy, they fought over things that actually mattered like someone being rude or a mission gone wrong.

That's what made them relatable. They weren't petty about guys and they mostly respected each other's relationships.

https://www.youtube.com/post/Ugz6TEOmGRV2Cfqy12F4AaABCQ?lc=UgwhLsToVbhLDYpFphB4AaABAg

^^ Look at highlighted comment

Not only that, but the winx represented a positive sisterhood. They stood by each other and respected each other; they never let men come between them and shared their power with each other.

Only the trix, the bad sisterhood, fought over men and power. The trix were foils to the winx and what they stood for! That's what made them some of the best villains in the series!

Instead of that, we get useless relationship drama! 😒

And that brings me to...

Stella/Sky/Bloom & Riven/Dane/Terra

What was the point of Dane? I'm still asking myself that question. He doesn't really do anything except act as relationship fuel for a love triangle.

Don't get me wrong, the representation is needed. But he adds nothing to the real plot at all except that Terra thinks he likes her, and he has a crush on Riven.

In terms of the Stella and Bloom love triangle with Sky, apparently she BLINDED someone because they flirted with sky. What?!? Stella isn't that cruel at all. The show clearly flanderized her to a cruel mean girl so....

Edit: Check the “liked” section; she has been upgraded to sort of like in episodes 5 and 6.

Lets not forget about “diversity”

Male fairies did exist before Fate:

https://www.youtube.com/post/UgziTWMf44kv0fkDt8x4AaABCQ

https://www.youtube.com/post/UgxWAFZRmqt_k3iBMhZ4AaABCQ

Flora/Terra, Musa, and Whitewashing

Terra and Musa are wonderful! Their actress' do a great job; their personalities are so similar to the original (except for musa's mind abilities and Terra's talkative personality)! Whenever one of them interacts with the other main cast, you feel actual friendship chemistry between them!!

But there is an elephant in the room: the whitewashing. If these characters were the correct race, they wouldn't be in this critical review.

Terra isn't flora, but her character was clearly based on her! Also, she has a cousin named Flora, so Flora is clearly in this universe.

??

Why change her race and swap her out! The personalities are spot on, which makes it even more disheartening to know that they would rather replace two POC characters with white characters who essentially are the same people and have the same plot importance.

What a shame and low blow that is! Especially since I am a black woman myself!

Sky and Riven

Them being bros make no sense really. Before they were more like enemies who were forced to work together.

Why are they friends?? What's the backstory?

Other than that, sky is pretty spot on. He's the pretty boy with good intentions. Not interesting but not very boring either.

Riven is cringy like I feared. He was also sort of cringe in the og but because of the darker setting in the remake he just feels even more so.

Other Criticisms:

- we gets some pretty cringy dialogue (mostly from riven). Some of the clingy dialogue (not from riven) ironically could have worked in a lighter setting and become "campy".

- The fact that there are no wings for 5 whole episodes, just makes the entire thing feel like Witches or something...

- why does everyone have the dead parent trope??

- no tecna

Things I do like:

- bloom missing her parents and feeling left out

- Musa and Sam before Musa and Riven (hopefully)

- Terra in general

- Terra’s dad and brother

- Musa in general

- Stella funny quips

- the scenery is gorgeous

- Stella's clothes are so fashionable! She has great outfits!

- Sky and Bloom taking during the party and/or being friendly with each other

- the magic cgi looks good 👍

- the rooms of the girls dorms and the castle looks great on the inside

- Aisha's personality

- Farrah Dowling is good as well

- Bloom is pretty spot on

- Stella's mom's powers are awesome

- imagine the genocide plot but with the happy fun show vibe and with the trix. The trix want to get revenge on faragonda for killing their cult, who wanted to revive the ancestral witches or something💥💥💥

- Stella in episodes 5 and 6 is cool

- the inclusion of the witches of aster dell (Beatrix said she was born there = witch)

- the inclusion of musa’s mother’s death

-Her transformation was lackluster to me, but I appreciated the effort to include it.

Conclusion

The pacing was all over the place to me; it felt like some episodes lasted forever and all of them seemed to have the vague theme of : be careful who you trust.

By trying to separate the winx from the og and have them have "their own lives" (which they already had), they ruined the intriguing backstories the characters already had in the og. Some were somewhat kept, but others were kind of left in the dust *cough*Aisha*cough*.

They took away with made them special: the teamwork, love, and friendship that brought them together and made them stronger. *They try it in episodes 5 and 6, but to me it just falls sort of flat.*

That said it isn't completely bad, it's mediocre at best, but it isn't Winx and that's that.

Edit: I know that it’s not supposed to be winx per say, but it has characters from the og and even the “winx” name in the title!

Credits: WCD channel on youtube, rainbow whitewashing jar on tumblr, and Youtube videos by the official winx club youtube channel.

[higans]

𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬.

1. 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙨𝙢𝙚𝙡𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚?

chamomile, mainly. she’s not one to usually wear perfume so any scent might have is mainly from body wash and therefore pretty light and hard to detect.

2. 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚’𝙨 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙨 𝙛𝙚𝙚𝙡 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚?

much like the prevailing sterotype of a doctor’s hands. they’re rather cold but in a way that’s soothing. like a cold glass of water on a really hot summer day soothing! as with every other part of her, she takes exceptional care of her hands in order for them to maintain their softness.

3. 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙪𝙨𝙪𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙙𝙖𝙮?

whatevers easiest to cook if she has to make her own food. it’s a well known through that korin isn’t the worlds best cook (until she’s actually taught) so more often than not she has to rely on pre-made or take out food. that being said she eats pretty healthy. she mainly adheres to a pescitarian/vegatarian diet as that’s one she was raised on but will on very rare occasions eat meat.

4. 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙫𝙤𝙞𝙘𝙚?

it’s hard to tell because korin isn’t exactly one to sing and especially not around other’s. plus, her voice is exceptionally soft and it’s pretty difficult to carry a tune while all but whispering. however, i feel like if she did sing, it would be similar to this. very airy and almost more ... talk singing than anything else.

5. 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙮 𝙗𝙖𝙙 𝙝𝙖𝙗𝙞𝙩𝙨 𝙤𝙧 𝙣𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙤𝙪𝙨 𝙩𝙞𝙘𝙠𝙨?

korin, despite, or perhaps due to her ability to read people exceptionally well, is quick to judge someone upon first meeting. because of her mistreatment at the hands of her peers during her younger years it became something of a defense mechanism in order to avoid being hurt. in her mind if she can anticpate exactly how someone is and thus figure out how they may be able to hurt her, she can avoid them. it’s something she works on a lot once she hits her late teens / early twenties.

as for nervous tick ... everything she does is a nervous tick. the poor girl has anxiety KFDLGHF no but i guess a more specific one (and one that stays with her even as she gets older) is fiddling/messing with the ends of her hair in order to distract herself.

6. 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙪𝙨𝙪𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 / 𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙧?

whatever she finds cute at the time. korin has no set style and doesn’t try to adhere to one either. on any given day she can be seen wearing completely different styles. for colors though neutral tones are most common but again, she doesn’t limit herself to just one palette. 

she could, to a slight degree, be considered conservative in her fashion as she prefers to wear tops with high necks or collars as she tends to be uncomfortable showing her chest on most days. however this isn’t a hard or fast rule she sticks to by any means. it really depends on the day and how she’s feeling about her body. some are better than others. she’s more than comfortable showing off her legs though.

7. 𝙞𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙖𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙩𝙚?   𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝?   𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙨𝙤?

excessively! korin is an extremely physically affectionate person. to the point where it might be a bit ... overbearing for people that aren’t used to that or aren’t into that sort of thing. it’s just something that naturally started to manifest as a way of showing her love as she began to realize verbalizing it just wasn’t possible for her. however, she’s aware of herself enough to know where lines are drawn and when/where such things should take place. a lot of her affection comes from doing things for other people too. literally anything. all of her love is tied up in showing people that she can care for them in any capacity — just not cooking, for awhile at least.

8. 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙨𝙡𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙞𝙣?

curled up. if she doesn’t have anyone to cuddle with then god damn she’ll cuddle with herself. that’s about it.

9. 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙡𝙙 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙢?

when you spend the vast majority of your life trying to go as unnoticed as possible, you get pretty good at moving from one location to the next without being heard or seen so ... no. at this point in time she doesn’t go out of her way to be completely silent but it’s hard to break the habit. though she does find it a bit funny when she scares people from sneaking up on them on accident. but she’ll apologize quickly, too!

[insanelycooljk]

j comes out 👀

send me the title of one of my deh wips and I’ll share an excerpt/tell you a bit about it 

This was just intended to be a short one-shot that I may or may not finish, but here’s the current summary:

Jared is finally ready to come out to his parents and tell them about the boy he’s dating. He just didn’t expect coming out to be the easy part.

it’s kleinsen ofc because uhh it’s me lol

So, Jared and Evan have been dating for a few months now and Jared is just... so happy and he wants to tell people damn it! He just loves this boy so much!

Also Heidi knows that they’re dating, so it’s just been making things really awkward whenever both of their families catch up.

Evan would never pressure Jared to come out before he’s ready, but Jared kind of gets the impression that Evan is a little insecure about it? Like, he gets the impression that maybe Evan wonders if the reason Jared hasn’t told his parents that they’re dating is because he’s embarrassed of him or something

Which obviously isn’t true, but first of all: that’s anxiety babyyy!! and second of all: given years of putting up with Jared’s teasing and shitty jokes and emotional problems? Not the most unreasonable conclusion to come to.

So a part of it for Jared is about wanting to show Evan that he loves him and he wants other people to know.

Anyway, Jared’s pretty nervous about coming out. Mostly because he’s not really sure how his parents are going to take it, but also because the Kleinmans just... do not do emotions. Not necessarily in a bad way, they just don’t ever talk about feelings. (hm I wonder where Jared got it from :/)

He decides he’s going to tell his mum first. So he tells her he’s gay and it actually goes suprisingly well.

Her immediate response is just “Oh. Well, I can’t say I’m surprised.”

She says it in a teasing way and she’s smiling, but Jared is almost kind of offended?

He’s just, he’s not like “sterotypically gay” and he thought he’d done a pretty decent job of hiding it over the years. I mean sure he never expressed any interest in any girls, but he never expressed interest in any guys to his parents either?

Until his mum tells him that he announced to her that he was going to marry Luke Skywalker when he was like 7 lmao. (Sweet boy with soft blonde hair and big blue eyes? That sounds awfully familiar!)

So they have a kind of nice conversation about it. It’s a little awkward sure because like I said the Kleinmans don’t do FeelingsTM, but it’s nice and Jared feels relieved because honestly he’d been bracing himself for the worst just incase.

It’s going so well that Jared then goes “Also... I have a boyfriend.”

And now his mum actually does look surprised, which kind of hurts because surely it can’t be that unbelievable that he’s dating someone.

But she’s still really supportive, and says something along the lines of

“That’s great Jared, I’m really happy for you. If you ever want to invite him over for dinner, I’d love to meet him.”

And then is Jared all... ok so here’s the thing lmao.

“Actually, um, it’s Evan.”

And here’s where the angst part of this factors in. Because Jared’s mum just kind of... doesn’t really believe him.

She’s just like “Evan Evan?”

And Jared’s getting kind of annoyed now.  “Yes, Evan Evan.” He feels all hot and his cheeks are flushed because this is so humiliating, is it really that hard to believe that Evan would like him?

Cause here’s the thing with Jared’s parents and Evan. Growing up they’d always kind of praise him as being so polite and such a good kid, which eventually became more of a passive aggressive jab at Jared which really meant - why can’t you be more polite and well-mannered like Evan?

A lot of adults tend to baby Evan because of his anxiety and kind of assume that he can do no wrong. Like, if Jared and Evan ever did something together as kids and got in trouble, it would always be Jared’s fault. Regardless of what really happened, because the adults would just assume Jared was being a bad influence on poor, sweet Evan.

Oh boy, if Jared’s parents ever found out the truth about The Connor Project? They’d absolutely assume it was all Jared’s fault because they couldn’t possibly imagine Evan ever doing something so horrible.

ANYWAY, basically Jared’s mum thinks Evan is too good for Jared.

Which his mum actually says to him. Jared’s mum has always been blunt, but this just feels cruel. Because god if that doesn’t hit all of his biggest insecurities.

And like, He knows, Jared fucking knows that Evan’s too good for him, but hearing it from his own mother? Knowing that this seemingly universal truth is so obvious that even other people can see it? Ouch.

So yeah, the rest of that conversation doesn’t go particulary well :( If I was feeling nice I might write a second chapter of Evan comforting and reassuring Jared afterwards lol.

So tldr? Coming out goes well, but trying to convince his parents that Evan actually likes him and isn’t just dating Jared because he’s incapable of saying no? Less successful.

I’m sorry I got a little carried away with this one lmao, but now I’m thinking I might actually finish writing it so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  we will see

[dahniwitchoflight]

Candy page 9 to page 11

Oh damn, I actually got sucked into the story a bit that i forget to react at all to 9 and 10, got midway through the 11 johndave convo that i realized oh fuck right i should be writing this shit down

So, interestingly enough, the narrative seems to be implying that Jade wants to do a quadrant polyamorous thing with Karkat and Dave

the little mention of fledgling kismessitude with her and karkat and the later notes of her wanting to fuck both dave and karkat suggests that she wants Karkat in Spades and Dave in Hearts

though funnily enough she might actually want to flipflop between the both of them as well

because the little quip about her being determined to solve relationship problems like math problems and turning their hands flipwise behind her back just reminded me of Karkat’s attempt to partition Terezi between himself and Dave also potentially flipflopping the quadrants the same way

just this time it’s Jade not Terezi and it’s the girl not Karkat being the one to suggest it lol

She does also literally make a diamond with her hands and put Karkat and Dave at the centre of it, suggesting she doesn’t mind them being in a relationship together, but wants monopolyamory of the sexuality part of it

Dave and Karkat stay diamonds in her mind while both take turns being flush or pitch with her

It’s a perfectly mathematical arrangement

John’s not wrong when he says she has the social graces of an elephant lol

But it is clear that she does love them both and is just lonely

Everyone seems to be having similar love troubles

John considering between Roxy and Terezi and since his feelings don’t clearly lie in one direction it makes him feel guilty, cuz even when directly confronted with Dave’s situation he doesn’t really entertain the idea that he could do something similar at all, and feels really uncomfortable with Roxy’s and Calliope’s previous relationship, like he feels bad Roxy has to choose him over her, also not thinking about a love triangle as a solution rather than as a problem

Really laying it on thick the idea of having to choose between one thing or another thing in a black and white this or that only sort of way is a really difficult and tragic way of looking at the situation

Heck, they even talk about how coins flips don’t always mean you have two options

“DAVE: ok so every time you flip a coin youre creating an alternate timeline right”

Meat and Candy are alternate timelines created by a “seemingly” binary choice

“DAVE: one where it lands heads and one where it lands tails”

So choose, Meat, or Candy?

“DAVE: but while the coin is flipping both possibilities exist simultaneously”

A prologue for the epilogues existed, a time before John (The Reader) actually made a choice, but it could no futher until a choice was made, until the coin fell

“JOHN: but what if you knew for sure that you’d make the same decision no matter which side landed up?

DAVE: you cant

JOHN: so... it’s like the coin never lands then?

There is a “correct” decision for both of them, both of them do have an idea of which choice theyd prefer over the other, it’s not equalized to them, but they feel guilty about that

they dance around the idea of there being a third option, but don’t have the words to articulate what that means for them besides “not having the coin ever fall, keep it suspended forever and the choice never has to happen”

Because a Coin can’t land both heads up and tails up

but it can land perfectly on it’s razor edge if you’re lucky

You can actively choose another way, rather than just avoid making a choice

Though it is also unfortunately is also implying that both Dave and John would rather be making one choice over another

Dave doesn’t love Jade romantically, not really, he just feels guilty about her and her situation, Dave loves Karkat and here, the idea makes him panic

John doesn’t love Roxy romantically, not really, he just feels guilty about her and her situation, John loves Terezi, and here, the idea makes him panic

Both of them feel like they should try to love Jade/Roxy, just for reasons that don’t actually involve genuine romantic feeling

John focuses on the setting feeling sterotypically romantic, the diner, the pretty lights, the scene feeling right, looking at everything except her

and then that line about how Roxy’s eyes look like staring into the Void, Roxy being unreadable, and seeming to change between the routes, bringing up topics vaguely, like she’s fishing for an opinion of the person’s she’s talking to

Roxy is probably just a social chameleon, eyes like mirrors reflecting the person next to her

Looking into a mirror, you have to get past seeing your own face in the reflection, and somehow look behind your own head and that’s pretty hard to do in a mirror

then the boys immediately segue back into what it means to make the “right” choice, the “canon” choice

John understand in some way that its not enough to have only two choices, or the option to not choose at all

more and more the third option awakens, just what it will be remains to be seen, written in the leafy green

It’s not without intent that the number 3 is Canon:

Essential, True, and Relevant 

So far, Meat seems to carry what is “Essential” in that it technically fulfills timeloops, hits story beats and moves things along at a good pace in a proper story format, the skeleton layout, the barebones structure

But it feels Irrelevant and ingenuine to what the characters experience, so it feels unsatisfying, it doesn’t feel “right”

it doesn’t feel canon

Candy then is obviously not essential to the story at large, it’s made very clear what happens here is technically without meaning and many of the characters are inundated with that feeling of “it doesn’t matter” irrelevance

but it also is technically truth, this timeline does exist and it did happen, these are not fake events

But since it is ONLY “True”, but not essential or relevant, it feels unsatisfying, it doesn’t feel right

it doesn’t feel canon

What then are we left with? What is missing?

And there IS something missing, they make it very clear with the stuff from PesterQuest so far

You click on the last page of the Homestuck Epilogues, then you scroll down. You read it (1). Then you read it again (2). You scroll down to go to the next section (3) and find... nothing?

What kind of ending was that? Absolutely nothing got resolved!

aka, Nothing Mattered.

Nothing was actually relevant to the story we were told.

We’re missing that hidden third pillar.

John remembers those words, essential, true, relevant, but no other contextual remarks which bind them.

He lost why it matters, he’s lost the context for it entirely. 

Also, random Roxy note: “She grins up at John with shimmering, adoring eyes. They’re reflecting every star in the sky, all for him.”

Yup, she’s a social mirror, that’s why people have trouble getting a good read on her

“It makes his heart do a weird somersault. It tries to flip frontways (1), then backwards (2), and ends up landing on its face instead. (3)”

The Coin tried to flip heads, then tails, then ended up landing on it’s side

the more you look for it, the more evidence there is for that hidden third route, all of the text is cluttered with things happening in threes, first a couple of opposite situations, then a third unexpected one.

“ It itches at the back of his head, the idea that he might have just fucked up Dave’s entire life. “

Told ya, John you got main character-ism, you can’t do anything about affecting people one way or another

[bicon-crange]

ok in the spirit of halloween and me hating disney im gonna shit on the terrible mex rep that is marco diaz but because i love my followers im puttin it under a readmore BUT ALSO IM TALKIN ABOUT THIS OUTFIT HOW COULD U EXPECT ME TO NOT HATE THIS OUTFIT

ITS VERY GARBAGE and under the cut ill get into it

OKAY SO FIRST THINGS FIRST THIS DUDES WEARING A KNOCKOFF MARIACHI OUTFIT??? I assume its supposed to be yano a REAL mariachi outfit like ive seen 3000 times in my life jst by going to parties and quinces nd usually theyre more like this

AND AT FIRST GLANCE IT LOOKS SIMILAR ENOUGH!! i mean this show was made by a white lady so i dont expect accuracy. but thats not even HALF of what pisses me off about his outfit. what really gets me is THESE.

do you know what these are?? i do bc my tia has a mariachi band and let me carry one of their outfits once. and not only are those outfits HEAVY on their own but those things r fckin weights. now this is important because....

MARCO DANCES IN THIS OUTFIT.

EXPLAIN TO ME,MS.DARON WHITEY HOW THE FUCK HES DANCING IN A MARIACHI OUTFIT. ITS NOT FEASIBLE.

then again if his mariachi outfit just had a DESIGN on leg of the pants,he wouldn’t have weights.

but from what i can see he’s just wearing plain black pants because we can’t even bother to look up anything or ask any actual mexicans what this should look like for accuracys sake.

also the nachos he makes in the show are super white nd should be a lot bigger but wHATEVER WHAT DO I KNOW

ALSO MARIACHI OUTFITS DON’T HAVE TIES BUT WHATEVER I GUESS ILL CHOKE

ONTO MY SECOND POINT

the fuck is this

honestly the sterotypical mustache is just adding insult to injury so im not even gonna fckin TOUCH on that shit but the thing that fucking gets me is that they’re painfully referencing dia de los muertos with a MASK???? LIKE YOU GOT THE MOST STEROTYPICAL PART OF THE OUTFIT WRONG CMON MISS NEFCY YOURE BETTER THAN THAAAAT

anyways its usually face paint not a mask?? and everyone working on this show is a certifiable idiot when it comes to mexican culture i guess

and even still the point of it was a disguise right??? it still couldve worked as face paint and thats whats so utterly baffling to me????

like here ya go star vs. crew i did you a huge favor and whipped up something SO much better in like two seconds

IT WOULDVE EVEN WORKED IN CONTEXT OF THE STORY BECAUSE THE BLOOD MOON BALL LITERALLY TAKES PLACE IN HELL BUT WHATEVER!! literally just give him a cool proper sombrero if youre sticking with the mariachi schtick and boom!!

and before you start with the buuu-bu-bu-but thats such a complex design?? h-how on earth will poor daron and her crew remember it?? they use FLASH animation,i’m sure they can suck it up and figure it out so they dont make asses of themselves and look ignorant to an entire CULTURE of people. also the sombrero they gave marco in the show is STUPID and id pay real money to see it get changed i mean look at this crap pls

THE SWEET HOLY HELL IS THIS??

and now my final point which is Marco shouldn’t be wearing a mariachi suit at all and honestly if i could change it i’d make him wear smth actually made to dance in!! like,fr a random example.. a folklorico outfit! now for those of you who don’t know what THAT is,its that fancy wancy mexican dancing you see sometimes where the ladies wear the big dresses like this

there are a LOTTA different variations all throughout mex nd even in other countries that AREN’T mex but googles free and if you really wanted to you could look this crap up so i digress

i actually learned how to dance folklorico with my brothers a couple years ago?? so thats how i know the guy accompanying outfits are a lot less flashy than the girls and typically look like THIS

like no matter what theyre usually p basic bc theyre MADE for dancing. and also bc typically in folklorico,all the guys dance moves consist of doin a lotta stepping and not waving their arms and dresses in different ways so they usually get special shoes and not much else.so my fixed version of marcos outfit,taking folklorico into account and NOT making him dance in a mariachi outfit would be something like this

it would be much better and since its star vs with the writing level of star VS we could get a joke like this

[hanorganaas]

Crazy Ex Girlfriend is a good tv show?

Oh my god this show is fucking AMAZEBALLS. Like with the death of Carrie, I feel like Rachel Bloom and her amazing damn show gives me someone to fucking look up to. Let me tell you why you should watch it.

The Diversity. The main cast isn’t full of carbon copy white cast. They come in many shapes and sizes.

Rebecca Bunch the Lead, is played a mentally ill Jewish woman. Because Rachel Bloom is actually Mentally ill herself and Jewish [She has anxiety] there are no harmful sterotypes typically shown in Jews and Mentally Ill people.

Josh Chan is played by Flippino Actor Vincent Rodriguez. You also with his family seen glimpses of Flippino Culture. 

Valencia Perez is played by Latina Actress Gabriel Ruiz. 

Heather Davis is played by Biracial Actress Vella Lovell I am not sure her ethnicity so I apologize if I get that wrong. She is portrayed with a Black Dad and a White mother.

Paula Procter is played by a Plus Sized but absolutely stunning nevertheless Donna Lynne Champlin. She is never mocked for her weight and I have yet to see a Fat Joke which is awesome.

Daryl Whitefeather is played by a Cishetwhite Male however the character is later revealed to be Bisexual, which is elaborated in a musical number and has since become the national Anthems for Bis like me.

The Topics. Crazy Ex Girlfriend has beautifully tackled some issues innovative for TV and many shows don’t really dare to cover. Here are some of the few:

Mental Illness. Just like Carrie Fisher beautifully potrayed people with mental illness because she was mentally ill herself. Rebecca goes through panic attacks depression and isn’t portrayed as a real psychopath because of it. But it clearly shows how people can do harmful things out of anxiety [ I have done some stupid things so it’s so relatable]

Abortion. One of the side plots is that Paula Procter is looking to become a lawyer. She is left with the choice to go to Law School or have an abortion after becoming pregnant. Paula choses to have an Abortion with the support with her Husband. She isnt shamed for it at all.

Money Issues. Like most Milennials Rebecca Bunch deals with Money Issues. She keeps spending and spending untill one episode she finds herself in terrible Death and does things out of Desperation.

Coming Out. Daryl Whitefeather struggles trying to figure out his Sexuality after kissing a guy. Eventually he finds he is Bisexual, which alone which is pretty innovative cause we Bisexuals dont have much representation.

Other Great things you should know. Basically other reasons you should watch Crazy Ex Girlfriend:

Hilarious Musical Numbers. Often all the characters break out in cute songs about their lives. They can be pretty cheesy but it gives you a Glee Feels except with Adults

Beichdel Test Pass. Yes the girls talk about Josh but there are times the women particularly Paula and Rachel talk about other things like Law School, dealing with work, family issues.

Relatable moments. This show is also really about growing up. Sometimes you watch a moment and you are like holy fucking shit this is so fucking me.

Girl Power. There are lots of themes of Feminism between Rachel being a powerful Lawyer from Paula’s Choice to have an abortion. We need more shows like that.

My only Criticism….it’s pretty much fucking Het as Fuck. Like so many toxic Het Tropes, but I think the reason this is happening is Rachel parodying these toxic tropes through the show.

But if you haven’t watched this show…WATCH IT. Rachel Bloom is a fucking Genius and crafted such a beautiful show. I promise you you will not regret it! I recommend it to everyone. I mean its not Brooklyn Nine Nine Status but its still heavily underrated and innovative. 

[falcobblepots]

PSA

Calling out Gotham and Oswald for “queer coding” is not only offensive to the LGBT community, harmful for gay men with “feminine” traits, it’s also incredibly offensive to Robin, an actual gay man.

Because your call out posts about queer coding? You just talk about his hair being purple, you talk about his taste in fashion.  As if that’s some kind of indicator of someone’s sexuality.   Someone being gay just means they love and are attracted to (physically or romantically) a member of the same sex, it doesn’t mean they are walking flamboyant sterotypes that carry purses and wear makeup.

Oswald’s love for his outfit came from the fact that he was bullied when he was younger for his looks and for being an outsider, it comes from his deep need to be noticed and accepted while still maintaining something special about himself that nobody has.  If everyone mocks you for your looks, look amazing.  He had extreme self esteem issues and you can see the progress in his character, he gets more money and he does his hair different, gets his teeth fixed and whitened, he gets an outfit that makes him feel comfortable and safe, like he is immune to the comments made to him as a child.

And this goes for Edward as well, him wearing his glittery suit holds no meaning to his sexuality. Ed is an attention seeker who wants to be noticed! OF COURSE HE WOULD DRESS FLASHY. That has absolutely nothing to do with his sexuality.  And ya’ll can respond to this with “it’s just a joke” or “it’s not that deep” but it is that deep, as a member of the LGBT+ community it hurts me so deeply to see that there are people who judge others sexuality based on what they wear or how they act. 

When I was a kid I was called “dyke” constantly, made fun of for having short hair or dressing “like a boy” It was really hard for me and it makes me so angry that there are people who still do this, who still decide what makes someone gay is their fashion or haircuts, is their love for fashion or makeup or love for dressing down if they are a girl, if a man takes care of his appearances he’s automatically gay, can’t you see these stereotypes are so harmful? Or do you simply not care?  You just want to grasp at straws for your own headcanons while ignoring the words of an actual gay man when he says that Oswald is not gay, but he is queer.   Not only are you erasing his words, you are erasing the mere possibility that Oswald could be anything other than gay.  To you, there is only two sexualities.  Gay or Straight, Or in your eyes, gay or homophobic.

You pretend that every single sofwald shipper is straight so you can feel justified in calling out the homophobes.  When you’re the ones who are ignoring Robin, making him out to be a bad person for speaking out of his own experiences and the fact that you think he’s wrong for not confirming Oswald as gay.  You are the ones acting as though his outfit and hairstyle make him gay and not to mention not wanting to fuck his sister in season 2. 

Don’t pretend this is about us, because this is about you and your obsessive need for Oswald to be gay because if he isn’t gay, you don’t like him, if he isn’t gay, he becomes an icon for the writers “blatant homophobia” instead of the poster child for your headcanons

OSWALD HAD FEELINGS FOR EDWARD, This is something canon, he had feelings for Ed, he had romantic loving feelings for ED.  Him having feelings for Sofia doesn’t change the fact that he had feelings for Edward.  This ship doesn’t ruin your ship, it doesn’t take away your ability to ship them or to love them and enjoy them, but you need to stop acting like you’re writing the damn show, you aren’t, your headcanons, your fanfic.  It’s not the show, it’s not canon and you can’t get pissed off when your canon doesn’t match what’s really going on.

[samismylamecat]

26/10/17

Is

There anything I could even say that would impress that girl. I mean, the only compliments I can think of are phrases that I would never have the guts to say in person. She’s the most beuatiful creature, yet the way she carries herself would suggest she’s wounded. Sometimes I feel I’m the one who took the shot. Now, I know I should not be so harsh on myself, but it’s difficult when she occupies your mind so frequently. I tried to play it off as an infatuation; I mean seriouslly, how could it be almost two years, and I still have not gotten over it. Yeah, it’s ‘persistance’ ‘cute,’ but I just do not see it. How can oogling in adoration over an angel possibly amount to ‘loyalty.’ I’ve hardly contributed to her life, yet I manage to stick around.

Sigh, the moping aside, I have nothing to offer besides respect and nurture for this girl. My only dream is for me to change and be someone she desired as well. I wish nothing other than to be her equal, and to care for her to the best of my ability.

Sadly, I am not the most sympathetic guy, and she sees that; that is partly what makes me unnatractive to her I suppose. Maybe it’s my lack of empathy, or my cynical mindeset that is all too prevalent at school. Whatever the case may be, I went into this with for undoubtable knowledge that she did no feel the same way, and that’s okay. Despite my wants, reciprocation and gradification from her is not a need, and respecting her privacy and wants with a sacrifice in my name is something I am willing to live with if it really does bring her joy.

I talk about joy so much, well not in this little ghost of a blerb, but it is not something i strive for, or even pester about. I wish for contentedness, to be content with what we have. I say we as if her and I are actually together. Alas, we are not, nor would I feel the need to tout ‘us’ if ‘us’ existed. Junior high relationships are vile, to say the least, and, in my opinion, almost purely hormonally driven: sexual, or at least very... explicit. But, to each their own.

It’s interesting how relationships in this age bracket are viewed, and if I ever were to have one, the same sexually driven sterotype would shine its spotline on her and myself, yet that is the absolute opposite of my intentions. I must concede it is an undeniable fact of humanity that those private affairs do take place and are a staple in a healthy relationship, however, at this current time, I simply see it as a tool teenagers use to feel, mature. That idea doesn’t sit right with me.

Wow I really diverted the attention from her, which, might I add, was the initial reason for writing this. Back to it.

I question why she feels the way she does every single day. It’s no mystery that I am a curious fellow and I try quell this, but endless questions seem to slip out. I hate to be overbearing with her, but it is hard when I am so use to it. Never being told otherwise, and allowing a certain action to really cement itself, causes issues; this is no exception.

tl;dr, I really like this girl. I couldn’t say love, and that is for many reasons. But I can say, as a friend, I will always unconditionally love her to death. No matter how angry I get, I know in my heart that I will always be pulled back. I can’t help that knack in me that always wants to talk things out. It seems like that fully is not her style, and I respect her decisions if she does not wish to speak with me. But none the less, I really like her, and maybe one day, she will like me, and when that day comes, I’ll do everything in my power to kindle that spark, and hope for the best for our future. However, just a want, that

Is