#carmy finding inspiration sydney thinking on the partnership

[thoughtfulchaos773]

I'm blowing my little kisses to you baby

1x03 Brigade 3x09 Apologies

@hisgirlfridaygirl yeap- that soundtrack has our back

[ladespeinada]

having finished watching the bear in the early hours of the morning, i have some thoughts rattling around in my head that i need to jot down because they keep distracting me from work, lmao. spoilers under the cut 

→ i had fun! it was emotional! it was stressful! i was entertained and then i had to suppress the feelings of familial relatability brought up in ep. 6!  → MARCUS!!! TINA!!! NAT!!! EBRA!!! RICHIEEEEEEE!!!!! All going through their own shit, changing, emotional, relentless, scared, nervous. I especially loved Richie this season and he had a speech in ep. 1 that broke my heart ("I'm 45, I've been here a long time, you feel me? I mean, you know what the fuck you're doing, you know. You love all this shit. It's fun for you. I don't have that. I'm afraid imma wake up and you guys are all just gonna cut—just drop this ass.")

→ Sydney, light of my life. Her fierce ambition, so obvious and strong in S1, got tempered by doubt and distrust in her partner, by the gradual recognition that she is doing so much, too much, by herself. I don’t think it bodes well that the last shots we get of her, she’s ralphing after opening night service—after an intense kitchen set-up that tests her limits and shows who she can and cannot trust. (Giving Carmy in NY, throwing up before service vibes). And honestly? I wouldn't be mad if she really, really starts doubting her partnership with Carmy and just dips. 

→ Anyway, I came back to add that Sydney, despite her doubts and not-unfounded fears, is such a positive source for those around her. We saw it in S1, when she gave Marcus a confidence boost, when Tina sought her approval after initially being very hesitant about her. And that faith in others just increased in this season, and god, to be around someone like that, who lifts others up no matter what, is so rare. I love her so much. (And her carrying around that book the whole season! Just holding onto courage and confidence, letting it shape her leadership.) 

→ I'm so happy Natalie wasn’t relegated to glimpses this time around. She's present and focused and involved in dismantling her family’s trauma and history, and I love that for her. I also love her and Syd's relationship (them almost being synchronised in saying Carmy Problem) and her interactions with Fak, lmao. 

→ Tina at culinary school! Tina with reservations about her place but thriving and finding inspiration. There's a moment where some of the people in her class all go out, and they invite her, and when she meets them at the bar, they've all got a nasty judgemental face (it's def an age thing) but then she EATS THEM UP at karaoke with a beautiful song in English & Spanish, TINA TE ADORO. 

→ I immediately re-watched Marcus's episode and I want a spin-off series where he stages at different world-renowned bakeries and lives his best patissier life. 

→ That Variety piece that said Carmy was the least interesting character in this show was RIGHT ("It’s no coincidence that these weaker points tend to involve Carmy, a character perfectly rendered by White who’s still the least interesting part of his own show.") 

→ Speaking of: the romance between Carmy and Claire (which we all unfortunately saw happening after the trailer, and is fucking annoying, and yes part of it is because I love Syd & Carmy together, but also because the showrunners pledged no romance in the show which would have been fine, too) is BORING. So boring. I know Claire is going to get a lot of hate and honestly, it's barely fair because she's just not developed as a character at all. Beyond being someone Carmy knew in his past, and who is now stealing his time and energy away from the restaurant, there's not much to her. She's written with so little dimension, and exists purely to be Carmy's lil girlfriend and it's disappointing. She could have at least been fucking interesting. 

→ Carmy's so angry around the time of the opening, and he projects it onto everyone else, and it's really his own fault that he's not aware of what's happening in the restaurant.  → Okay so another thing—Sydney talks about how much she wants a Michelin star, how it’ll make The Bear a true destination spot. And rudely, Carmy goes, “you really want one of these bullshit stars?” to which Syd says yes, I really do, and this fucking dickhead tells her: “you’re gonna to have to care about everything, more than anything” AND HE STILL LET HER DOWN!!!!!!!! The more I think about it, the more upset I get. 

→ Also, Michael doesn't haunt the narrative the way he did last season—his presence is so faint. There's moments, of course, but it just feels like something is missing or off. I had expected some sort of sentiment to come to the surface towards the end of the season at least, some sense of acknowledgement that maybe he would have loved The Bear, or hated it, or something, from literally anyone—Carmy, Nat, Richie, someone—but nope, nothing besides the cannoli.

→ Episode 6, man. Episode fucking six. Natalie Berzatto, you deserve peace. 

→ Anyway, overall there’s a sort of bite missing in this season. The looming threat of Cicero has been softened a lot and yes, obviously internal workings at The Bear are the new obstacles but it doesn’t feel quite the same. Maybe it's a lack of tension, or a lack of anxiety? I don't know how else to explain it.

[thoughtfulchaos773]

Analyzing Blowing kisses

Inspired by @angel-lusions post and my earlier post.

Because analyzing the song confirms that syd carmy are endgame.

I love that the song seems to be from Carmy's perspective.

Choose to enjoy

One's time by the water

(If the song writer Jennifer Castle, was inspired by seasons 1 and 2, Carmy spends time by the water to gather his thoughts in 1x03.)

And let one's future flow

Out on and in her honor

(Carmy early on carmy is thinking of his future with syd. He wants to change the chemistry with Sydney)

( they only knew each other for 6 months and he proposes a partnership-his future flows because of Sydney)

No words to fumble with

I'm not a beggar to language any longer

It's a state of mind

Only a god could come up with

And don't get it twisted

My heart's still in it

My dedication's a star

(Even if he's distant from her mentally and emotionally the star should show how dedicated he is and how focused he is on sydney)

Finally

And it shines on our differences

And there's love in the mean time

Enough said.

My theory sorta: Jennifer Castle mentioned that everything fell into place with the song played on the show. Things fell into place because Senior and Storer often emphasized how important music is in the show. They were waiting for the perfect episode and moment to play the song.

So, they had a whole season to decide on the moment when they'll play "Blowing Kisses." And the scene chosen is a moment where Carmy is trying to find inspiration again and we look back at the times when he was inspired. He's struggling to figure out ideas. Remember, earlier in this episode, he makes a sauce inspired by her headscarf, and even his words fumble in the same episode. Because inspiration and his future flows in Sydney.

Carmy's true talent and love for cooking will shine when he stops overthinking and lets himself feel that inspiration. Because what's really fun for Carmy is when he's inspired in the inspiration on the show= joy and amusement- the answer to Carmy's contentment.

Carmy is inspired by Sydney. She is the meaning of the montage in apologies, and he just doesn't realize she's the muse when they work together. Not only is she a muse for his work, but she also inspires him outside of work.

Richie: So how do you do it?

Jessie: I think I surround myself with people better than myself.

Richie: What about when you're not at work?

Jessie: I didn't mean at work.

Jessie words connect to Carmy and his future hinges on allowing his feelings for Sydney to surface. That's why an episode titled "Tomorrow"- a episode about carmys past and future concludes with Sydney savoring the best meal she's ever had—because after Mikey, who was his reason for cooking, it's the future that Sydney holds, and she's his purpose.

Saying all of this to say that these are the moments that I think inspired Jennifer and Chris, and why I still believe that Sydcarmy are endgame, or at least it's true that they love each other.