#cant shut the fuck up itis

[progenycursed]

OHHH I LOVE PALE KING AS A CHARACTER AND I LOVE YOUR TAKE ON HIM, I AM EATING GOOD TONIGHT

If it isn't a spoiler for the comic, does he ever realise he was wrong about the vessels? And what do you think was his reasoning for escaping into the dream realm with his palace?

Thank you! I wanted a different take on his character than what I usually see. And I loved the idea of a god that doesn’t act regal because who’s going to stop him? So it’s great to hear people enjoying this hyper deep-in-denial nerd I have created. Now onto the lore dump!

I won’t say when for story reasons, but yes, he does eventually realize he was wrong about the Hollow Knight being mindless.

For the explanation for him being in the dream realm, it wouldn’t be covered in Progeny Cursed so I can let my chronic can’t-shut-the-fuck-up-itis run wild on this one.

As for why he entered his dream realm, it was his backup plan for catastrophic failure. When he realized the Hollow Knight plan wasn’t going to work, he had to come up with another way to keep his people safe. Since fully ascended higher beings can’t enter another's dream realm without them knowing and allowing it, it was his only option.

His plan was to pull all his still living citizens into his dream realm until it safe to bring them back out. But he needed to research how as he didn’t know enough about the dream realm to do such a feat. He needed time and data. His best source of information was from Unn, but even she wasn’t sure how to pull living mortals into a dream. But it was all he had to go on, so he did test after test to learn how best to do it. He learned no one who was even remotely infected could enter his dream. They had to be untouched. And he would need to pull in physical objects as well so the mortals could actually walk on something.

As the infection was getting worse, he began moving citizen to the palace. Those who had already lost their families, homes, towns were offered a safe place in the palace. Anyone willing to was allowed in as well. As being closer to him lowered the chances of them falling to the Radiance. Many in the city, especially the upper class, decided to stay in their homes.

He decided to run a larger trial on how to get people into his dream before committing to the final pull. When he ran the test, something went wrong. Instead of just the few volunteers, everyone along with the palace, was pulled in. Since it wasn’t his plan at that time to pull the entire palace in, some of it was left behind. Along with anyone or thing just outside it.

Worst of all, he pulled himself in. Without an anchor in the physical world, he couldn’t get anyone out, including himself. They were all stuck inside, and no one else could get in. Most, didn’t even know what had happened. Many thinking he had abandoned them. And all he could do was watch them all fall to Radiance from his dream realm.

But I don’t think this was his only backup plan. >:)

Has anyone ever been confused by the lore tablets in King’s Pass? When I first played the game, I thought higher beings was referring to those who had their minds given to them by the Pale Kings blessing. They became higher than animals. Then I learned that higher beings are the gods.

But then that lead to new problems. Any higher being that came from beyond the borders would know that there was a world beyond. They wouldn’t lose their mind outside of Hallownest. And the tablet about ‘only this kingdom could produce ones such as you’ would just be our right wrong. No foreign higher being would read these and believe them.

Then it clicked for me. The only group all these tablets would cover, is the vessels. They are technically higher beings so they could read these tablets. They are the only beings we have seen that can focus soul to heal. They were made within the Kingdom of Hallownest. And Ghost lost their memories beyond the borders, lost part of their mind. These tablets were made for them. And they were all trying to convince them to enter Hallownest.

Now why would the Pale King want vessels to return to Hallownest? How would he know these vessels would specifically come from the Howling Cliffs into King’s Pass? Why would he not want them to hide themselves? It’s almost like, he knew it was going to happen, and he wanted to lead them to something…

Lore Tablets referring to Higher Beings:

Higher beings these words are for you alone-

-(Kings Pass) Your strength marks you amongst us. Focus your soul and you shall achieve feats which other can only dream

->If you made it this far, you can heal by the way

-(Kings Pass) Within our lands do not hide you true form. Let all bask in you majesty, for only this kingdom could produce ones such as you

->Don’t hide your face or form. As this is the place you came from

-(Kings Pass) Beyond this point you enter that land of king and creator. Step across this threshold and obey our laws. Bear witness to the last and only civilization, the eternal Kingdom. Hallownest.

->Past here, you enter the land of the king that created you. Once you enter, obey the laws

-(Howling Cliffs) These blasted plains stretch never ending. There is no world beyond. Those foolish enough to traverse this void must pay the toll and relinquish the precious mind this kingdom grants

->There is nothing out there, to leave is to lose the mind this land gives you

-(Abyss) Our pure vessel has ascended. Beyond lies only the refuse and regret of its creation. We shall enter that place no longer

->Don’t look what’s past this door.

[nomairuins]

bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏

[whileurmine]

if not to make men so horny they sink to their knees then whats the point???

[haretic]

we were talking today about what we'll do when school starts up again and he said we probably wouldnt see eachother outside of photoshoots because hes so busy on the weekend with his other friends for. the entire fucking school year apparently. and i completely fucking shut down.i stopped talking, stopped interacting with him beyond what i needed to and he didnt even care. he didnt do a single thing to try to help me. he knew i was scared of being abandoned. i had called him crying and fell asleep on the phone with him literally that night over being scared of him leaving me and he didnt even do anything. he didnt even say goodbye to me when i left for the train. no hug or anything. he truly fucking despises me and ijustcant fucking do iti got home and i cut so much. i cant feel my arm and im sohurt and he knows i did something bad and he doesnt even care and he didnt try to text me or anything and i think he doesnt want to be around me anymore and im useless. he doesnt care about me and he doesnt want to see me anymore

[v-arbellanaris]

i have such SPECIFIC thoughts for each of the piccrews and since i have terminal cant-shut-the-fuck-up-itis i'm tempted to post each piccrew individually. but that's too many piccrews.

[f1nalboys]

currently 9 pages and 4.2k words into the second to last chapter of simple pleasures and they STILL have not fucked yet. like i have a disease called cant shut up itis ❤️

[huntershowl]

cant-shut-the-fuck-up-itis over here. my god.

[parttimepuff]

Okay that’s it. I’m casting the zone of truth and diagnosing rev with “cant-shut-the-fuck-up-itis” so this kid can finally get some answers. It’s not wearing off until it’s explained. This is painful to watch and it’s not just hurting me.

"a." Reverie squeaked, already feeling this new sort of magic taking hold. His daughter looked to him from the anon, confused. "But, you explained it all already?" Beep pointed out. "I explained most of it, but there's still more I can fill in, A." He explained, panicking about what exactly he would be made to talk about. "Uh." The Matter paused, knowing full well how worried he was. "L-like, what?" She asked.

"H. Like that Kirby was still the one who killed me, really out of mercy. If I couldn't regenerate, there would have been no way I'd have survived that." Reverie blurted out, groaning at just how bluntly it was said. Beep stared at him and he couldn't stop himself from going on. "I still think about that sometimes, the horrified look on his face. How traumatized he must be, taking a life at all of six years old, fuck." He cursed. And of course, going to meet his counterpart, he was only reminded of that all the more.

Beep started shaking again. He had said he'd met him when he was really young, but he really was just a child. Just like her... Reverie recognized how conflicted she was. "a… Is it done..? Ok…" He checked, just to be positive the magic was over, before crouching next to her. "I'm sorry… I wouldn't have just, blurted it out like that if I had any say in it." The Dream Fae apologized.

"…I’m sorry." Beep mumbled, voice small. Her father's heart ached. If only he could have, softened the blow somehow. Though, was there really any way to do that? "Sweetheart… it's not on you. It's… i-it still hurts, thinking about it. But it was, a long time ago. It's, it'll get better." Reverie tried to reassure. She kept her gaze in the ground. "It will." The Matter said. "…it will." He repeated. They said it so often these days, they just had to fully believe it sooner or later.

Gently, she grabbed one of his feathers. "…I’m sorry…" Beep apologized again. Reverie was silent, sadness still clear in his eyes. Leaning forward, he lightly bumped her forehead with his. "Thank you…" He murmured. His daughter leaned into him as a result and he wrapped his wings around her. They would need a minute.

[multifandomhoodies]

you KNOW din djarin a teeth grinding you KNOW that bitch has his jaw clenched 24/7

[ceeweej]

YOU'LL EITHER GET IT OR YOU WON'T??????????

I HAVE ADHD AND I DIDNT KNOW IT UNTIL I WAS 24. OR 25. WHICH WAS ALSO THIS PAST YEAR (?) THAT I FIGURED IT OUT (?) (AND BRO I LITERALLY CANNOT PROCESS TIME AS OF MARCH 2020. LIKE IM COOL. IM WITH IT. BUT I DONT *FEEL* IT.)

IS THE REASON I'M SO /RELATABLE/ BECAUSE I SAY "Y'KNOW" A LOT?

THAT ALMOST SOUNDS LIKE A JOKE BUT IM RLY THINKING ABOUT IT BECASUSE ADDINBG "YKNOW" AFTER YOU SAY A THING WITH A CERTAIN INFLECTION CLUES THE PERSON YOURE TALKING TO INTO THE FACT THAT YOUR TONE WAS SIGNIFICANT

BTW SPEAKING OF TONE

IM NOT ACTUALLY SHOUTING. I JUST FEEL THE NEED TO TYPE IN CAPS RN. I THINK IT..... HELPS ME....? HOLY SHIT. I'VE NEVER MADE THAT CONNECTION BEFORE. IT TOOK ME LIKE. OK ITS PROBABLY BEEN 6 MONTHS OF KNOWING FOR SURE ABOUT ADHD (BUT STILL NOT *FOR SURE* FOR SURE BC LIKE I DIDNT GET A SPECIALIST EVALUATION BUT LIKE........... WE KNOW)

wERE ALL tjer FUICKING HOMESTUCK TROLLS SUPPOSED TO BE

NEURODIVERGENT. scratch that straight up every homestuck character is literally neurodivergent i will not be accepting any feedback or criticism on this point

god ansd like. listen this

im just. okay listen ig i;m not Masking my typing, let's sat. if i just keep all the tpypoos in my tpyiong there because thats hiw it ha[pens. Okay. Now I am gong Slow. I'm Wow. actually. going slow and typing right i can't. Think the same. Ialso instinctively backspace to fix typos more when going slow. ooooh..... wait. broi literlally. forgot that TYPING IS A SKILL!!!! just like! any other thing I do with my body! I was a little fucke dup internet gremlin as a child becAUSE!@! NECAUSE!!!!! I WAS BULLIED FOR BEING NEURODIVERGENT COUGH COIYGH AHEM COUGH ADSFDSHJNDFBC HFJGFKUYTLASF

omg dude like honestly thinkijg of posting this and someone reading it is acruallt so funny., is this art?> do you know what i am saying? I am not dont thing. ??????? hello? I am not doing this intentionally. I havent been able to shut my bra i n o f fffff let me go back to doing Research on..... ohhh hmy god. i mean this is how people DO IT. THIS IS WHY TUMBLR IS THE ONLY VALID PLATFORM. THE SHIT IS READABLWE!!! I CAN READ ALL OF WHAT IM TYPING AS I GO AND I CAN STREAM OF CONCHOIIUS. CONCHES. like the shell. its a pun. self conches. idk, thats what my brain says whenever i think Self Conscious. I think it's because I always mix up Conscious and Conscience. Do? Do you? YOU? I am genuinely asking like it;s gonna sound like maybe I am being weird internet Funny man. But listen, if you are reading this please tell me. I havent asked the question yet, here it is: Do you think about words in this way???? Am I literally insane! Like I make sense to em (me). Like I have to self edit every thing that comes out of my entire being. But god, doesn't everyone? Is the issue that I do it or that i'm aware of it? I'm questioning myself. i find myswlf! ASKING@!! WHYN CANT YOY JUST! DO IT! JUST DO IT FO ITY DO IT DO IT DOTI DTFHGFH

but i

i dont think i can?

and like

im...... like im fine with that. in fact i tjink it's cool and sexy of me to see things differently. i didnt say this at the start of this but i find it actuallly--

[ UJHHHHHH INSANE NOW THAST YA MENTION IT THAT I COULD WRITE AS MUCH AS I WANT ON A TUMBLR POST AND IOT JUST EXISTS LIKLE THAT. LIKE. IM SURE INSTAGRAM CAPRTIONS HAVE A CHARACTER LIMIT *EVENTUALLY?*** RI]

-- like something else i realized is. I dont think I haaaaave disassociative identity disorder. And i am fully aware that I could be overpathologizing. at present i have had *pretty severe* insomnia

i dont think much has changed ok yeah i really dont. know. im like "no, i've always felt this way. i'm normal. <3" whats disassociative identitity disorder?

i feel like it could be true that i have an Identity Disorder. i have had issues with mySelf and how i View myself and how other Perceive me and what others Think of me and. phewwww yknow???

one thing! too!

what IS mania???

that wasnt it that was something else

I DONT FEEL BAD I JUST FEEL DIFFERENT

---- ok so like this section right here is gonna be another homestuck thing:? --

god shut tf up

like it's meaning less i know it's nonsense. it's compulsive? Whatever its how im coping bc i cant fucking sleep and i hate not being able to fucking SLEEP BINGO THATS IT THERE IT IS I HAVE T R A U M A ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO SFALL THE FUCK ASLEEP

and UHHHH trauma thats mildly related to homestuck but in a way thats entirely shitty people who werent like a part of homestuck ""fandom"" per se treated me at the time i was Reading it and nothing to do with the actual comic itsef which is just forever Tainted. i had a big brain thought about epil. epidemic memory. im feeling scared? now bc i realize my mom does this exact same thing. i didn't use to. why scared? i Smoke Oui'd now and hmmmmmmHMMMM my mom made me scared of drugs. oh my god. my mom literally lied to me and i could tell but i came to the wrong conclusion? or. no i couldnt tell she was lyi

i COULD tell. I could tell that my mom, when she said that she expeimented with drugs to "see what they were like" like, she literally phrased it something like , "" i REMEMBER That. i (signaling me to me) REMEMBER (sticks out that what i (subject) (me) is doing is REMEMBERING something (use memory part of brain) (ok) (types note to myself to.... RUN THE PROCESS? BEFORE THE PROCESS STARTS? BC WOAAAHHHH BRAIN WORK. IS THAT. WHAT DOES IT SAY THAT I AM AWARE OF THAT? AM I MAKING ANY SENSE AT ALL?

this is so chaotic it's so funny to me. esp the more i focus and normally i would........ look away or dissOCIATE??? TO KEEP ZONING OUT???? AAAUUHGHHH AAAAAHHH PSYCHIC DAMAGE UNTO ME OOHHHH AAUOOWWIIEEE

but NOW im trying to be mindful and Expressive of literally how i feal with every goddamn keystroke that i have the ability to control. if u dont get it jsut move on babt there's a lot to it. mayb e iu'll reference something later that will make it make sense that's thje BEAUTY OF IT stay WITH ME on the JOURNEY i would chastise myself for Explaining it to you but god all i wamnt and strive for is to be Understood. and my system MAKES SENSE! If you let it make sense! See through the Etrrors. somer of them are because my hands are Really hurting and burning ooo aaaa but imtriyng to be mindful of it, becausde again, somrtimes i do this anyway and i just Dissociate and

wow. shit. ok. that was Hurting me. i took a break and did some stretches. could do more. should look into getting a good dication machine but. if i cant Type it i cant get my Meaning Across the same. yknow when john green margo? margot? fuck ow from uhhh

ok whatever not important i guess cabt be FUN with CARPAL TUNNEL

i have so many more thoughts but theyll have to Wait

goodnight

- its 6am!

[inlustris-sys]

Avengers but they're quotes of me

Peter P: can you deny the wah?

Tony @ steve: from an old man to a slightly better old man

Bucky: shove a gun up my ass and call me american

Bucky: shoot me up like one of your schools daddy

Wanda: you know what, JARVIS is sexy

Natasha: *russian accent* we dont like baby, we munch

Clint: and now to kill him

Bucky @ steve: he can have asthma attacks on my dick

Gamora: take a deep breath. And die

Shuri: anti-vaxx me mother

Peter Q: imagine a leg that cant walk on its own so it has two little-er legs to help it

Clint: I'll snort that pancake

Tony: it's not pre-marital sex if you don't get married

Scott: I snort tic-tacs

Steve: I'm sitting there with a little dick in my hand and I start to nibble

Sam: I'm eating the gay ;)

Thanos: I have a blackcurrant dick

Thor: I'd fuck jesus

MJ: coconut sperm. It's not called cocoNUT for nothing

Bucky: snap my neck and call me a giraffe

Tony: I'd fuck the AI but I think Wanda has stolen him from me

Bucky: i wanna choke on something like shove a knife down my throat and I'll choke on the blade. I wanna nut when i die

Hela: menopause lads

Loki: knock me out in an allyway

Bruce @ thor: I'm shoving my thumb up his ass

Pepper: don't forget to pull out

Loki: I should sew my mouth shut but that would mean i cant suck dick

Bucky @ Sam: he can shove his wings up my ass

Nebula: I'll fuck your kneecaps

Vision @ Scott: it feels like I've been fucked in the ear hole

Bucky @ steve: he has so many balls inside of him because he is gay

Thor: spread your legs for jesus

Clint: that's my sexual fantasy; have a frog in my vagina

Steve: get your polio kids

Rhodey: if I snort a tree...

Bucky: I'm out of breath before I'm even on my knees... that's unusual

Peter P: my shoelaces are undone, im a failure

Scott: food-thirsty

Grandmaster: give me water and I'll orgasm

Loki: panic-gasm

Bucky @ preserum steve: I haven't eaten wheat today, we're good to go

Bucky @ Howard: he died of man-whore-itis

Natasha: men are stupid

Preserum Steve: my growth was stunted because I took too long to get out my dads dick

Tony: fuck me with a post-it note

T'Challa: don't eat my bum, it tastes aweful

Scott: that's my fantasy, mr maker shoving his pipe cleaners up my bum hole.

Loki: no, I'm gay, shut up

Bruce: I'm an irregular polygon

Stephen Strange: I wouldn't fight a straight person because they're mentally disabled

Pepper @ Peter P: hand over that white stuff young man

Bucky: I'm gonna choke myself with a bible

[progenycursed]

After some thinking and going over my notes for the comic, I am going to neither confirm or deny either theory. Between extra content coming out and what is going to be covered in upcoming chapters, there will be plenty more content that will help reveal more of 009s ultimate fate.

*real footage of my desire for artistic mystery and my chronic cant-shut-the-fuck-up-itis.*

Progeny Cursed 17

Spell training has begun for the Pure Vessel. Proud of themselves, they decided it’s time for a reward. Off to visit their siblings.

*tried*grumpy* Why woken before wake time? And not woken at wake time? Why ordered to arena? *sarcastic* yippie Why note wait until wake up time? Ah. That why. (He) excited.

*tried*grumpy* (he) really excited *tried* soul attacks? Soul defense? Could be fun to do *tired*curious* *awe*

*confused* what do wrong?

*curious* *startled* *embarrassed* yes! *awe pride* *happy proud*

[threat] dodge 2 dagger!

happy* (he) proud of (me) But soul reserves only enough for 3 daggers Will have to show (him)

*curious* *nervous* *excited* happy* can cast many spells

*excited* will cast all spells <excited>*excited* Order (me) to cast spell <laughing>*playfully*

*excited awe* {how focus feel} Focus. no. Not focus ~holding~ teleport. Teleport. Teleport ~exhale~ what? *curious* what that? No think. Teleport

<weak> what? <weak dizzy>*confused* *happy excited*

Do not think can teleport again *serious* pull. ~holding~ teleport ~release~ can not teleport *curious* other vessel? When that? (He) will explain? *disappointed irritated* (he) no explain Ask (009) later

*shock scared* shit! *excited* controlled teleport!!

*happy proud* (I) did great being pure Maybe can go to (siblings) *mischievous* and (009) can not stop (me) Idea

Teleport *laughing mischief* going to see (siblings) *happy excited* [hello] Learned dagger sell and void teleport. Did great being pure. Going to see (siblings)

No

But did great being pure

Just cause that, does not mean (I) can let you leave room

Okay

(You) must stay in room

*calm* Okay. Talk tomorrow.

*distrust*

*calm* *mischief laughing*

*awe pride* [joy] going to see (siblings) and (009) will never know *really excited happy* [joy]

[call/response] (siblings)!

ᵈᵒᵒʳ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ᵒᵖᵉⁿ. ⁽ˢⁱᵇˡⁱⁿᵍˢ⁾ ᵍᵒⁿᵉ. ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ᵇᵉ ʷⁱᵗʰ ⁽ˢⁱᵇˡⁱⁿᵍˢ⁾ ᵃᵍᵃⁱⁿ. ᵃˡᵒⁿᵉ ᶠᵒʳᵉᵛᵉʳ

ᵇᵘᵗ… ᵇᵘᵗ…

*serious irritated* (you). (You) seriously think (I) not notice you gone. (I) take (you) back to room and (you) will not say thing about it *mad serious* (you) listening? this making (them) sad. (Bug) tell other to feel better, makes them feel better. How (I) comfort (them)? Door closed not new. Closed all time

ᵃˡᵒⁿᵉ ᶠᵒʳᵉᵛᵉʳ

Alone not that bad

﹡ʳᵉᵍʳᵉᵗ﹡ ⁽ⁱ⁾ ᵏⁱˡˡᵉᵈ ⁽ˢⁱᵇˡⁱⁿᵍˢ⁾

No. Abyss killed (siblings). (You) did nothing. *proud* (I) did good comforting (them) No more leave room

*inconsolable*

*confused* (they) still sad. Do (I) comfort (them)? {memories of other vessels fates} (I) didn’t help (them). Why help this (one)? *confused* dread* but if don’t help then non zero chance of (him) killing (them)

Don’t want to see (another) die. (I) will try help (them). Words comfort not help. Will try other thing.

*ᵐⁱˢᵉʳᵃᵇˡᵉ﹡ ʷʰʸ ᵇᵉ ᵖᵘʳᵉ ⁱᶠ ᶜᵃⁿ’ᵗ ᵇᵉ ʷⁱᵗʰ ⁽ˢⁱᵇˡⁱⁿᵍˢ⁾﹖ *ᵈᵉˢᵖᵒⁿᵈᵉⁿᵗ﹡ ᶜᵃⁿᵗ ᵇᵉ ᵃˡᵒⁿᵉ. ᶜᵃⁿᵗ ᵇᵉ ᵖᵘʳᵉ. *ᵇʳᵒᵏᵉⁿ﹡ ᵐᵘˢᵗ ᵇᵉ ʷᵃʸ ᵒᵘᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵇᵉⁱⁿᵍ ᵖᵘʳᵉ. ⁱᶠ ᵃˡˡ ˢⁱᵇˡⁱⁿᵍˢ ᵈᵉᵃᵈ, ᵗʰᵉⁿ ᵐᵃʸᵇᵉ ⁱ⁻

*uncomfortable*

*ᵐⁱˢᵉʳᵃᵇˡᵉ﹡ ʷʰᵃᵗ⁻ ʷʰᵃᵗ ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ᵈᵒⁱⁿᵍ﹖

uncomfortable* helping. (I) think. *ᵐᵉˡᵃⁿᶜ��ᵒˡʸ﹡ ʷʰʸ﹖ ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ʰᵃᵗᵉ ⁽ᵐᵉ⁾

confused irritated* (I) don’t hate (you)

*ʲᵒʸˡᵉˢˢ﹡ ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ʰᵃᵗᵉ ᵗᵃˡᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ⁽ᵐᵉ⁾. ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ᵖᵃʸ ʷⁱᵗʰ ⁽ᵐᵉ⁾. ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ʷᵉʳᵉ ᵍᵒⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ʰⁱᵈᵉ ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ᶜᵒᵘˡᵈ ˢᵖᵉᵃᵏ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ⁽ᵐᵉ⁾ ᶠᵒʳᵉᵛᵉʳ. ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ⁽ᵐᵉ⁾ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ᵃˡᵒⁿᵉ ᶠᵒʳᵉᵛᵉʳ. ʰᵒʷ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁿᵒᵗ ʰᵃᵗᵉ﹖

*uncomfortable* (I) not a vessel. (I) am a machine. A tool. Never had family, comfort, happiness. With other (0 line), didn’t talk, didn’t cuddle, didn’t seek comfort. Didn’t have wants, needs, or feelings. Didn't understand emotions. (We) had to learn by ourselves. Didn’t know why (we) were being killed, dissected, disconnected. (We) survived. (I) survived.

*uncomfortable* (I) don’t hate (you). (I) don't understand (you). (I) didn’t talk with (you) cause (I) never talk. Don’t play with (you), (I) never played. Been alone so long, it stopped hurting

*ᵍˡᵒᵒᵐʸ﹡ ᵇᵘᵗ ᵒᵗʰᵉʳ ᵏⁱⁿᵍˢᵐᵒˡᵈ ᵃⁿᵈ ʷⁱⁿᵍᵐᵒˡᵈ﹖

*bitter laugh* (they) are not intelligent. No other intelligent one since line 2. And (they) were dumper than (me). far dumber than (me). Wingsmold never smart

*ᶠᵒʳˡᵒʳⁿ﹡ ᶜᵃⁿ’ᵗ ˢʰᵒʷ ⁽ʸᵒᵘ⁾ ʰᵒʷ ᵗᵒ ᵖˡᵃʸ. ᵖᵘʳᵉ ᵛᵉˢˢᵉˡ ⁿᵒᵗ ᶠᵉᵉˡ. ᵖᵘʳᵉ ᵛᵉˢˢᵉˡ ᵐᵘˢᵗ ᵇᵉ ᵃˡᵒⁿᵉ ᶠᵒʳᵉᵛᵉʳ.

*mad nervous thinking* Must make (then) feel better. How make (them) feel better?

*ˢᵃᵈ﹡ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ᵖᵘʳᵉ ᵒᶠ⁻

*idea pride* Only during day.

*ᶜᵒⁿᶠᵘˢᵉᵈ ᵍˡᵘᵐ﹡ ʷʰᵃᵗ﹖

*confident* Warriors only warriors at day but relax at night. (They) show emotions. Show feelings.

*ʷᵒᵉᶠᵘˡ﹡ ᵗʳᵘᵗʰᶠᵘˡˡʸ﹖

*confident* See the (5 knights) out of their armor relaxing. (Warriors) must relax at night or will self destruct

*ᵈᵉᵖʳᵉˢˢᵉᵈ﹡ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵐᵉᵃⁿ﹖

*confident* Need to relax to be pure or (you) will break

*ᵐⁱˢᵉʳᵃᵇˡᵉ﹡ ʰᵒʷ ᵇᵉ ʰᵃᵖᵖʸ﹖ ᶜᵃⁿ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢᵉᵉ ⁽ˢⁱᵇˡⁱⁿᵍˢ⁾﹖

(We) don’t know that. (He) changes mind al the time.

*melancholy hope* Can (you) be sibling until (I) can go to (siblings)?

*Uncomfortable* can try to change me to (sibling). (You) will have to teach (me).

*sad* calming* lesson 1. Cuddling. Cuddle to feel happy, calm, and sleep

*serious* (I) don’t sleep.

*sad* calm* then be talking pillow.

Talk about what?

*sad calm* … What (normal bugs) do?

*calm* talk, eat, dance, sleep, gossip…

*serious* Have to protect them from (his) plan. Have to protect (them). Somehow.

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Quick guide: () a person [] a void callout {} memories ** emotions <> physical reaction ~breath~

Dam this was a big one! All the void speak! Turns out Tumblr has a 30 image limit per post. So I had to combine some of the images. Hopefully they turn out okay cause I do not want to separate this chapter. Also tried to use fun text. Let's hope it takes.

[cwombw]

isn’t life great?

below cut.

void-Yesterday at 11:25 PM

wtf do you even have to say to me

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:26 PM

I just, if youre this upset with riley for doing then we need to talk about this so you understand

void-Yesterday at 11:27 PM

im ALLOWED to be hurt that he thinks i can NEVER be trusted AGAIN for no apparent reasonif you cant recognize that then WOW

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:27 PM

He doesn't think thatHe blocked people he's know for years

void-Yesterday at 11:27 PM

then WHY the MCFUCK did he block me and why are you saying i should just shut up about it and get over iti cared about him damnit i say him as my own fucking childyoure not who i thought you were lmfao

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:28 PM

He's just really scared right now, youre allowed to be upset but try to underastand

void-Yesterday at 11:28 PM

im done tbh?i blocked him back.its what he wants anyway

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:29 PM

if you feel that's what you want. he's just scared and hiding from everything

void-Yesterday at 11:29 PM

and yet hes still in dandys friendchat.

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:30 PM

He left active chats right off the bat and then got scred people would hate him and stoped

void-Yesterday at 11:30 PM

whatever then.too bad star came home im this close to self harmingim  going to talk to her and hope shecan calm me down from a meltdown

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:31 PM

I just, he's literally dying rn, please try to understandAnd please stay safe

void-Yesterday at 11:31 PM

you also need to understand that others are having similar reactions due to his actions just now

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:33 PM

youre having a heart problem? you were so upset you had a heart attack last night? I'm sorry but I dont think this is comperable

void-Yesterday at 11:33 PM

i meant the goddamn breakdown thing

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:34 PM

I'm sorry i misunderstoodHe jsut doesnt want anyone to see him die

void-Yesterday at 11:39 PM

i f he wants to push everybody away and ruin every good friendship he had and also ruin the dnd kin thing, fine. im not going to open my arms to him anymore.i dont hate him.but the wanting nothing to do eith each other thing is mutual now.

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:40 PM

i hope you understand that i stand with him on this. he just doesnt want to hurt people if he actually dies

void-Yesterday at 11:41 PM

if he actually diesso if he doesnt, what. hes gonna be like "heyyy.. fingerguns sorry that i ruined all my friendships, amde people hate me, and made people panic" i dont play ehadgames like that and i refuse to do that with him.plus, idk. iunno. maybe it should be our choice if we want to stick with him even if hes on his death bed?by doing this its hurting more than watching hiom die

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:43 PM

He's in the hospital and they said things arent looking good. he's terrifiyed and I think you should remember hes only 16. he's just scared as any dying kid would be

void-Yesterday at 11:44 PM

.. so wait. let me get this straight . he decided to. block. every single one of his online friends, out of fear of hurting them. but he didnt try to distance himself from his irl ones, even though it should be thje same fear that drove him to block everybody online in the first place.iwhatnothis boils down to paranoia and distrustwhy exactly, does he  let his irl friends care for him but wont let his online ones do the same

ArchaicArcade-Yesterday at 11:45 PM

It;s easier to block people you don't know in personI just, I cant do this. hes a scared kin and that's all there is to it

void-Yesterday at 11:46 PM

okim dropping itfeel free to block mefigure you want nothing to do with me anymore eitherJune 8, 2018

ArchaicArcade-Today at 12:01 AM

no it's just I need a bit

ArchaicArcade-Today at 8:34 AM

I'm sorry to say this but I've know Riley way longer and well, I choose him over you. I feel terrible but I need to side with my best friend here

void-Today at 11:56 AM

there shouldnt even be a side but okay. i had a feeling y'all weren't telling the truth. because i forgot last night but now i remember that he certainly did not block everybody he was friends with online and the chat in gov kin is evident as such, since people there could still message him.

you all have fun lying now. but i want you both to remember that i would have gone above and beyond for the both of you because i trusted you, cared about you, and loved you.thanks for ripping away a part of my life.

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s/o-Today at 7:48 AM

Fuck meRiley is the rat talking to lou

s/o-Today at 11:01 AM

Let me know if you are okay.

void-Today at 11:59 AM

.....wow.

s/o-Today at 11:59 AM

He shared our entire dm

s/o-Today at 12:00 PM

God me too

void-Today at 12:01 PM

you know i have a feeling all their friends were in on it and he didnt even have a heart attack last night

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s/o- you know I never had a grudge against you, and I wasn't in a good place either when you were in my life. please leave me out of your mouth and i'll continue leaving you out of mine. Don't dis GAK either, it's a quiet kin family. -Lex's "live in" partner.

s/o- also I'm carful about the ages of the people I talk too, and that "flirting with a minor thing" not sure who that was at all? I'm sure it had something to do with the nonsense in KK. Anyway last message I will send unless you choose to respond. Yesterday at 4:53 AM

agenderdad420/mysterypeaches the minor was jeremie diioscuri and the offending behavior was via discord in a mutuals server that he had created Yesterday at 2:26 PM s/o- Now i know what you are talking about. I was mislead about his age. But I also never flirted with him. I sent him an NSFW meme once and his little friends started making wild accusations of me. And I do feel bad for offending him, but I didn't know he was a minor.

s/o- That is also how I personally got kicked from KK. I kicked Alex from KK the previous night because it was behaving destructively Today at 7:44 AM

agenderdad420/mysterypeaches thats not an accusation thats straight up telling the truth

s/o- Talking about trans stuff? I was literally complaing about tucking. I also really feel stabbed in the back right now. You think you know someone

agenderdad420/mysterypeaches you... knew who? look idk what you deem appropriate to talk to minors about but maybe it differs for us

s/o- i don't think a trans vent between two trans people is inappropriate if he was squicked by that he could've told me lol. not go sharing a private convo with you. (and i'm not blaming you for that)

agenderdad420/mystery peaches i will say that there is often an inherent power dynamic between older and younger members that maybe made him more uncomfortable

s/o- you know i can take the blame if I fucked up. I hope you know that I've changed a ton since KK. and since I your drama with Lex started. All I want is to be a good person and contribute something to my fellow kinnies.\

agenderdad420/mysterypeaches honestly i havent really kept up w either you or alex since that point, but i dont doubt you can take accountability for your actions.

agenderdad420/mysterypeaches i just hope that there is change that goes along w acknowledgement and perhaps there has been

s/o- I don't speak for lex. But i just want peace Today at 9:21 AM

agenderdad420 fair

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s/o - Today at 7:49 AM Apparently riley is the one talking to the person who made my callout Do you have a problem with me arcade? 

ArchaicArcade - Today at 8:07 AM no 

s/o - Today at 8:16 AM I guess i squicked him with something i said 

ArchaicArcade - Today at 8:17 AM i guess 

s/o - Today at 8:19 AM My brain: hes sick because of you 

s/o - Today at 12:02 PM I know you have your reasons  for what you guys are doing. But I hope Riley knows how deep he cut me. I would've given you both the moon.

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not only have these people caused me to have a severe anxiety attack, they caused my partner the same, as well as many others who weren’t even a part of this.

they have caused me to feel suicidal and paranoid, to want to self harm

as for agenderdad420/mysterypeaches, they have sent me anon hate before, accused me of being racist for my neopronouns (all while saying they’re not against neopronouns, lol), and blew up at me for dropping them after they told me they didn’t like that i was trying to set boundaries for my borderline behaviors with them, and that i was confiding in them everything that was going on with me at the time (which was heavily toxic and depressing towards me) they have used language against me that is ableist and abuse apologetic in nature and their claims otherwise are blatant lies.

i had previously published the majority of the anon hate before deleting it from my blog after a while due to discomfort of having drama on my blog.

they have taken to stalking me to find out more past drama about me, as well as taking false anecdotes from others who claim my s/o has been inappropriate with minors to the point of grooming them, which is 1000000000000000% untrue and taken greatly out of context and skewed into something that never happened.

talking about trans issues isn’t grooming, sending a nsfw meme to a person who my s/o believed to be an adult isn’t grooming.

these people are pure evil and have been planning this for a long time from what i’ve gathered.

they are dangerous and unpleasant and will apparently stop at nothing to obtain their goal, whatever it actually is. as evident as one of them faked a heart attack and may have faked an entire condition.

update 7/17/2018

after speaking to rileys sister who he abused for a good part of their life, as well as ruined it and made their mom send them to live with their aunt, i’ve since learned that this is serial abusive behavior and he has also physically beat his younger siblings, is a pathological liar, and everything i’ve thus learned about him 100% fits his m/o.

he can try all he wants to pretend that he got better and has improved but all i see if that he got better methods.

faking a heart attack in order to call my gf a pedophile for talking about trans issues is fucking despicable.

another thing i’ve discovered is that he did in fact assault the person who he says assaulted him 

and the fact he freaked out over a poorly written callout like that, no offense to the victim is kinda funny and really telling. if he was innocent then why bother mentioning anything? i dont think that many people saw it.

i’ve also learned that archaicarcade, aka julien/julian (and plenty of other past names) also has a past of fucking people over very quickly into friendships and relationships and changing their name and other information in order to hide their past.

in fact.. riley hangs out with a lot of weird people, including somebody who was brainwashed by their older brother to be transphobic, and julien, whos relationship with the minors he surrounds himself with is suspect at best.

he also keeps company with a jehovah’s witness, which i shouldn’t have to explain how problematic that is.

my current thoughts about this is that riley while not innocent at all may be being groomed by julien is who also grooming others with help from his other adult buddies they all hang with. i have no sympathy for riley though after what occurred, whatsoever.

just 10-20 minutes ago somebody on a sockpuppet from wilson, north carolina sent me hate after checking out this callout post for riley, this is the screenshot i took

i’ve since blocked and reported the sockpuppet, even if this doesnt belong to riley, its clearly from one of his brainwashed supporters. amazing that a month later they still want to start shit. but this? this is pathetic.

look riley and co. i, my gf, my bf, my other bf, and all my friends know the truth. you’re fucking liars and fakes and abusive and groom people. do the universe a favor and go to long term therapy or maybe just never go online ever again with any device, anytime, anywhere, ever. and in fact hole yoruself up in your homes and never speak to anybody ever again because you clearly can’t help yourselves from finding new targets to fuck with.

emotional terrorism at its finest.

[the-firebird69]

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[multifandomhoodies]

last month i got an idea for a scene at work and had to pull my cart over and write it down before i lost it and now im actually writing it into the story and im so excited

[the-firebird69]

and bja raises his hand again. fight himad his they are at us all day all night ad we say shut up f off cork...fu ingrate shit you traitor to yur own and humanity. your garbage...losers... ad you blab ot your own.  seems you cant see who is there at Greyskull or why it is so hot.we konw why it is steam no...no. it is a facility.  ad we are gone jen said ittoyou yo faggot...she said itis a factory of some kind and you are here blowing bubbles ad talking smakc to theinventor as instructednot to do and hit you until you died put youon display as you neededit..and you died a lot fully rotted....nd he toldmeto ad your at it again like amornicasshole wh needs to go you faggot..you have notchanged you cling on do fd up thigs f things up a hienous idiot. out now moron.they make blasters he said as said. take from your poor shits alloverwho tookfrommacs and the Blaah use it and are mutated by them there ad nearby..your a fag cork came at me as your aloser...fucking faggot...nah. itis on tape i submmitted it to mine notyou. you dienow cork isend th alert andwarning and instructions ashe says  jen

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